Treacherous Memories: The Elusive Meaning of Exile Salim Tamari Abstract This paper will address the transformation of the relationship between Palestinians in Exile to the land of Palestine the changing concept of Return. It focusses on the content of events commemorating fifty years of the Nakbeh and the war of 1948 which took place in Palestine spring of 1998. It also analyses the materials which were communicated to the City of Jaffa Web site- administered by the author, which contains the profile of the city During the era of the first exile (1948-1967) the notion of return to Palestine was crystallized an absolute concept linked to an abstract vision of territorial liberation. This perspective was exemplified in the idyllic portraits of Tamam and Ismail Shammut which painted a romantic construction of the Lost Paradise-one that froze the inner dynamic of Palestinian society in a pastoral vision which galvanized the collective memories of exile throughout the Arab World and beyond. This relationship asserted a tortured bond between a dispersed community yearning to capture its lost homeland. Those who remained on the land were magically expunged from their collective memory-as if their steadfastness was an accident that could not, or was not allowed to be imagined. During the second epoch of occupation (1967-1993) the relationship as recast in a manner which rendered the Palestinians of the 'inside' (West Bank and Gaza) and the 'inside of inside' (48) into abstract figures of resistance, who are more victims than actors. A process which was gradually transformed by the events of Land Day (1976) and the insurrection/intifada of 1987, into an equal partner with the 'heroes of return'-the external forces of resistance. The bond was again recast after the emergence of Palestinian National Authority and the Interim Agreement between Israel and the PLO, creating a new synthesis which shifted the focus of Palestinian identity from a externalizing experience to one that is internal to the land, a process which began to marginalize the experience of exile after decades of being marginalized by it. This demographic/political transformation shattered the concept of Return to Palestine from a liberationist-amorphous vision embedded in the various radical streaks of the PLO into a 'realistic' perspective limited by the contingencies of Palestinian power relationship with the Israelis. At the heart of this tension lies the possibilities of INDIVIDUAL return to Palestine, the impossibility of collective return to the homeland. What mediated this hesitant closure of exile to Palestine are two striking phenomena: The first, is the 'discovery' of the actual presence of Palestinians who actually remained steadfast on their land. A whole community which refused to disappear, and succeeded to forge a new existence for itself that is creative and defiant. This presence regained a problematic affinity with the communities of exile which began to recognize its existence, but barely. Second, is the phenomenon of a process of sojourning return on the part of the third generation of exile. A generation that lived the Nakbah (catastrophe) in the imagination of its ancestors without actually experiencing the lived dimensions of Palestine as an indigenous social formation-except as a colonial experience (the West Bank and Gaza), or as a military occupation (Lebanon), or as an absence of normality (the refuge of a hostile Arab world). The best expression of this (re)discovery lies in the work of the poet Mureed al-Barghouti in his ironic articulation of the alienating new return to Palestine ('Testimony of return to the village of Deir Ghassaneh'-alKarmil), and the consuming guilt towards those who remained in Palestine ('Ra'aytu Ramallah-Cairo, 1997). An electronic Jaffa Forum, created in 1995, gathered a number of unique testimonies by Palestinian intellectuals expressing their various reactions to the idea of returning to Jaffa, and attempting to interpret what happened in 1948 to this dismembered city. These testimonies, enhanced by the technologies possibilities of bringing Palestinians together from four continents, and 22 countries, contain contrasting, overlapping, and conflicting visions of the Palestinian experience, centered the meaning of exile, and return. They express variously: ***the internal alienation of Palestinians who remained in Jaffa ***the experience of return to Jaffa, by those exiles who refuse to acknowledge what happened to the city ***the attempt by exiled intellectuals (mentally and physically) to reconstruct what happened to them and to the city These overlapping visions include the difficult process of recognizing the Other and coming to term with his/her experience; it includes: ---grievances by current residents of Jaffa against their exiled compatriots who 'abandoned' the city, neglected its present predicament, while immortalizing its past. ---attempts by refugees from Jaffa to recapture their past and to link it with the existing city ---attempts by Jaffites to visualize the Israeli Jew and to construct a new relationship with him; one that vacillates between conception of occupier/usurper and a neighbour with whom there are possibilities of dialogue and coexistence What dominates in this debate /vision is a strong sense of LOCALISM by Palestinians who have been consumed by their universal condition. A universalism that reduced all Palestinian exile to a collective fate, in which the particular narratives were lost. Jaffa reappears in these polemics as a unique Mediterranean Arab city: established by Abu Nabbut in the era of the postNapoleonic modernity, and revived as a late Ottoman city made up of a core that attracted waves of merchants, farmer, artisans, and workers from the various regions of Palestine, and the Syrian and Egyptian ports. A city that emerged as a dynamic, creative and combative centre of urban Palestine, only to be conquered, and dispersed by war. Its total demise was halted by a residue of its remaining population who succeeded in their steadfastness to bring about its current revival as an arena of encounter between exiled memories and segmented presence.