Lived experiences of (sports) people with asthma: “Conformers, Contesters, Creators” Owton, H. University of Exeter INTRODUCTION The majority of the research surrounding asthma has been quantitative and laboratoryexperimental, which has given precedence to the way the body is examined as an object (Gregersen, 2003). Childhood populations have often been the focus, and sporting adult populations have been largely overlooked despite the strong relationship between asthma and sport and increasing rates of ‘late onset asthma’. Therefore the purpose of this research was to explore the lived experiences of adults who played or who had played sport. It provides insight into sporting females’ and males’ embodied experiences of asthma through an investigation of their topical life histories. Exploring these people’s perceptions, lived experiences, attitudes, beliefs, and preferences could help inform health practitioners and sporting professionals about the implications for sport participation and treatment programmes in their sporting lives. METHOD In-depth interviews were the primary techniques employed, and through narrative (thematic) analysis, the stories of 14 participants (8 females & 6 males; aged 22 - 87 years) helped to inductively identify the following typology focused upon 3 ‘ideal types’. This typology, it should be emphasized, is being used for heuristic purposes given the uncertain and illusive nature of asthma, and the research fully acknowledges the mutability and flux of identities/subjectivities (Richardson, 1990). DISCUSSION OF TYPOLOGY CONFORMERS Are those who tend to view their body as a machine which they can ‘fix’ during an asthma attack by using an inhaler. As Ellie states: “I’m slowly coming to realise that the only way I’m gonna fix the situation is to take my medication”. Therefore, compliancy with their medication means that they “don’t suffer with it… because I take my inhaler” (Brian). People have faith and trust in ‘medicine’. Their daily lives are more constricting because they take steps to avoid triggers so that they are in more control of their body and corporeal reactions are more predictable; “generally speaking it has no effect at all. i.e. it’s under control isn’t it” Despite this control they seem to be disassociated with their bodies, as Peter explains, “I’ll get a heavy cold on my chest and then I have to go to the doctor’s and have it cleared”. Conformers were not inclined to listen to their bodies: “No, I never listened to it before and I don’t really listen to it now… I’m in control… mind over matter” (Brian). CONTESTERS Appear to be experiencing disruption. Some who developed asthma at 8-11yrs were told they “would grow out of it and never did” (Mike). Matt said that if anything, “He was growing right into asthma”. Contesters distrust ‘medicine’ and doctors, “I don’t really believe... that anybody can help me so.. I’ve developed an idea that they’re [doctors] incompetent, [laughs] unable to do anything” and are generally CREATORS Creators view their body as changeable, a project which they accept. They hold a degree of scepticism about ‘medicine’ and avoid medication dependency. They are experimental and seek alternative therapies (e.g. yoga), strategies (such as self-talk, imagery) and medicines (e.g. herbal remedies) to suit their selves. For example, Lisa describes how she uses self-talk and imagery: Imagine myself breathing freely. Yeah, so I say to myself, you'll be fine. if you just ‘non-compliant’ with their medication. Mike relax. yeah, just talking to myself.... about says that he is “quite bad at managing it how, it's more like, after the initial sort really, cos I don’t take my inhalers very of, like, you need to calm down. and then I much even when I need it [laughs]”. He sort of imagine myself, sort of, as I am, in seems to think that “There’s no real my head, um but like from an external point reason [laughs] and I’m quite stupid I of view. Like, taking in a deep breath and suppose [laughs] but that’s the way it is [laughs].... I won’t go and ask for help at slowing releasing it, um and that sort of all”. They view their bodies as ‘threatening’ helps me get back into the normal pattern of breathing. (Leder, 1990) and often struggle and fight through their asthma attacks. This lack of ‘control’ often means their sporting participation is irregular. Akin to Frank’s (1995) chaos narrative they live in a ‘disordered sense of time’ and do not have a heightened awareness of their world. Therefore, space constriction is perceived as low because they often do not know what triggers their asthma. Instead, they “try and mask it” and pretend that “I’m not struggling or [sigh] er... I don’t know, I try and control my breathing. Try and... well try and resist it basically” (Matt). Because of this experimentation, and the ways in which they are reforming their bodies, they listen to their bodies as a source of valuable information and so are highly associated with their bodies. They regularly participate in sport or have adjusted to different forms of exercise; because of these skills they feel more in control and less anxious about their asthma: “I know I can use these sort of skills. I don’t worry about carrying it [inhaler] around” (Lotty). Furthermore, for some, this newly ‘tuned-in’ way of being was “transformational for me” (Peter). ‘Ideal types’ The “Ideal Type” never seeks to claim its validity in terms of a reproduction of or a correspondence with social reality (Calhoun & Gergeis, 2007). Similarly to Frank (1995), it is important to stress the fluidity and context-dependency of the types; people do not always fit neatly in the typology and may be a mixture depending on the circumstances. Furthermore, they may cross the categories depending upon time/context. At certain times, people may change from one dominant aspect to another, for example, during the period of winter or summer which might ‘flare up’ their asthma. Concluding thoughts... An ‘asthma identity’ as investigated by Adams et al. (1997) seems to be a more interactive (with other identities) and complex process than simply accepting or denying. The typology describes how people contest, conform or create their sense of self and identity in relation to asthma, sport, occupation, and gender through a dis/association from/with their bodies. Conformers are those who tend to comply with medication and feel in control of their asthma because of their inhaler. However, even if people are ‘non-compliant’ with their medication, it does not necessarily mean that they are not ‘in control’ of their asthma. A heightened association with mind and body, suggests that creators are people who are more in control of their asthma and highlights the importance of mind-body association which was somewhat overlooked in Adams et al.’s (1997) study. In printed by addition, there is a need to acknowledge the importance of ‘power-balance’ and trust within the doctor-patient relationship. www.postersession.com