This is Mousa Kabellan, fifteen years old, a
Jewish boy who converted his religion and
embraced the Islam
.
No one from his best friends or even his
relatives knows that Mousa becomes a Muslim,
except us who are reading his note book that
he published on the world wide web, retelling
his feelings when he welcome his first
Ramadan in his whole life, after depriving away
.the Jewish and embraced Islam
He said “I have a mix of feeling between
enthusiastic and frightening; the problem is not on
fasting Ramadan itself, but on how to hide this from
my family and friends; I didn’t tell my parents yet
about embracing Islam. Although I am whole
heartedly want to tell them in addition to my
happiness and pride of being a Muslim, it seems
impossible to proclaim about my hidden treasure.
After several time from seeking my way to tell them,
I found it hard as a cat gets my tongue. I am still
going to a Jewish school so that Ramadan will never
be an easy mission, because there are many Jewish
anniversaries which require eating before the sunset
I decide to make a plan; I will pretend the disease
through Jewish anniversaries, I have to wake up
before the dawn (al-fajr), eat my morning meal
(al-sohour) and pray the dawn prayer (al-fajr) daily.
Then I will convince my family that I will eat later by
the well of Allah”.
It is a big problem that not too many people could
feel it. Many people believe that “the concealment
era of Islam was disappeared by persuading them
selves that “concealment era” was back in days
through Quraish unbelievers. On the other hand
Mousa’s prayers prove the opposite
“Ooh Allah I need your help in every time of
my life, ooh Allah mercy me if I forced to
pause my fasting in Ramadan, ooh Allah
you are the only one who knows my
intention and my compulsory, ooh Allah the
almighty I ask you to strengthening my
faith and the whole Muslims, Amen.
Obstacles & solutions….
The first Ramadan for Mousa was full of obstacles,
despite all of these circumstances, nothing deprive him
from being the inspiration soul & fulfilling his faith.
Mousa said “Before I embracing Islam when I was hearing
about Muslims who fasting Ramadan for thirty days with
non-stop, doing five prayers in each night & day at least, I
thought it was an unbelievable thing which no mind can
accept it; with my whole respect for their personal
opinion. That was without any imaginative picture that I
will someday pray for Allah as well as they did. The only
thing I was doing is saying my prayers before I go to the
bed & also going to the Jewish school. But when I know
that the Holy Quran is our Allah’s speech & Mohammad
peace be upon him is our prophet, I believe that I have to
do these two strange things; do prayers & fasting
Ramadan.
Today is the first day of Ramadan, I wake up before
the dawn time (al-fajr) of few minutes; I don’t know if
that time is enough to have my morning meal (alsohour) & do the dawn prayer (al-fajr); I was not sure
from my ability to accomplish the first fasting day;
therefore, I ate a piece of an apple & I have a strong
feeling about it because I ate it after the call to
prayer of dawn (al-fajr). So I asked Allah to mercy
me & give me the strength to fast & I think that I will
do this day over after Ramadan.
That was my first obstacle in my way of fasting, but
it wasn’t the last.
I can’t tolerate my friend’s questions every single
day or even every single minute: “when will you
eat? Why didn’t you drink ’til now?
The first obstacle becomes many obstacles when
the Jewish anniversary came which we fast in from
the sunset ’til the next day sunset, so that I
compelled to eat with them.
With no feel I talked about Ramadan; by a false of
course; when my grand father respond: “I can’t
tolerate to hear any news about Ramadan or
Mohammad”, I answered: “It is good to know more
about the fact of Islam & Muslims instead of things
which the announcements used to tell about them”,
but my grand father; as elderly used to do; respond
my speech with an unbelievable words on Islam,
which make my anger increased frequently therefore
I left them and went to my room.
Mousa still conceal his faith in Ramadan and
complete his story facing new troubles every day, he
said “I do my best to tell them that I am a human
being who entitled to have his own independent way
of thinking, I told them that I decided not to fast in
the next Jewish anniversary, my mum replied “Won’t
you ask god to mercy your bad-mannered and
falsehood?” I said “I can do this at any time during
the year, why it is specific in that day only?” We
continued arguing for five minutes ’til I went
desperately lonely back to my room for a while, with
an extremely bitterly pessimistic upon telling my
parents that I have converted to Islam.
The feeling of such deeply religious started spreading
more in the very deepest point of his heart as the time
as he said “it is an outstanding issue when you
completely acquiesce by 100% for your creator, then I
prayed Allah to give my Islam’s brothers & sisters a
great month, ooh Allah lead the unbelievers to the
truth. Amen”
he modernization of Mousa’s era didn’t deprive him
from delivering each series from his Ramadan
memories in such fascinating quotations not too many
people could say from those who born and bring up
with Muslim parents. It is highly unusual to see this
very small guy who closes to this religion communicate
with us as Muslims in this way of spiritual way of
thinking, he said “peace be upon you & Allah’s mercy, I
ask Allah to give you the mercy that you, & everybody
needs in this holy month, & I also Ask Allah; the
greatest Allah; to lead unbelievers to the truthful way
which is Islam; Amen.”
The small supplicant for Islam…
Mousa says that Ramadan become more highlygood-situation from the first step, he fasting and
praying Allah to give him the accurate consistence in
a concealment days. Mousa started reading the Holy
Quran, he thanked Allah because there was a place
can be helpful because teachers used to teach the
Holy Quran in it; with a serious intention to join it
secretly, he added that he did a second attempt to
attract his parents, because it is not easy enough to
conceal a secret dominates my whole thinking and
feelings as well.
What I had done was an attempt to attract my father’s heart to
Islam; I let him watch a video clip for al-sheikh “Hamzah
Yusef Hansen” who considers as one of the greatest Muslims
supplicant for Islam, after conveying from the orthodox
Jewish into Islam; in America & the western world generally;
he has a great activity among there and also a huge
popularity in the USA. The result was absolutely pleased
because it was a first step of agreement; my father loves
Hamzah Hansen a lot; thanks Allah.
Mousa made an advantage of an
opportunity to help his cousin who wanted
to make a research about the prophet
Mohammad in the school, Mousa said “I
ask him to lend a hand in his search, & I
ask Allah to make my relative find the truth
in Islam by this search; he is aware enough
and open-minded; I taught him things about
Islam, ooh Allah let my family & my friend
find the truth in Islam; Amen.”
The last ten days in Ramadan…
Mousa accomplished his memos about the last ten
days in Ramadan “peace be upon you my Islam’s
brothers & sisters, this month is going on as fast as
you cannot believe, I ask Allah to accept our prayers
and fasting. We are now near too much from the
ending of Ramadan; I am waking up every day at
three o’clock before the dawn time (al-fajr) to revival
the night to pray (al-qeiam), It is a fascinating
feeling, I asked Allah today as I did yesterday to let
me make friends who are Muslims in my community
which includes a few Muslims”.
The pray was sent by Mousa in the midnight, he
didn’t wait too much ’til his pray was achieved.
Mousa said: “it was the first time I noticed in that
Allah the almighty responded my prays; this occurs
while I was in the store shop looking for books
about our prophet Mohammad peace be upon him to
buy yesterday, I saw a Muslim family, two women
and three men, I became hesitate about going and
talking to them but unfortunately my embarrassment
deprive me, I saw them leaving the book store so
that I felt of regret. For a while I saw my self want to
go again toward them before they get on their car
but I stopped because I thought it happened by the
way not because Allah accepted my prays.
Another thing happened after a few minutes
which were stranger, I got in a store while
I was praying Allah secretly “Ooh Allah sends me in
this store a Muslim who can help me in my research
about our prophet”, I saw after this a man who I
thought he was a Muslim but he wasn’t. I still had some
optimism, but it was 15 or 20 minutes later with no
advanced searching that’s why I decided to search for
my mum in the store to go back home, while I was
searching for her, I asked Allah again to lead me to any
Muslim, then I could never believe; a prodigy
happened; Allah accepted my prays, I found in front of
my eyes a beard-man wearing a uniform I have never
seen before with two girls wearing the Hijab. With a lot
of embarrassment; I went to them and say “peace be
upon you”, but when the young girl looked at me, I felt
of shyness again and another chance was lost. I asked
Allah to mercy my faults and to send me more; now
that he is the merciful Allah.
Faith test…
My first Ramadan accomplished as fast as I could
never believe, & Al-Fitter Eid came. I was looking for
a way to absent from school & go to the mosque (alMasjid) for the first time, with a high-extremeenthusiasm but I failed. I decided to tell my parent
about converting into Islam & being a Muslim as
well, so I asked them to go outside to eat our lunch, I
did take with me some words about the Islam,
because of my amazement I told them about the
prophet Mohammad & his life at all, I felt that the
time was done to tell them the truth; but again
before I told them, I was absolutely frightened, with
no ability to say even a word, I failed again and
again.
I felt that my life is an extremely big lie, none knows
the truth except the people who I confirmed their
friendship on the internet, I wanted to tell the whole
world of being a Muslim.
I have been hoping to pray the Friday prayer in the
mosque (al-Masjid), or even accepted the invitation
to any lecture about Islam in an Islamic school.
Maybe that day will come someday when I can pray
& fast on aboveboard with no concealment; I wish I
could tell my parents the truth instead of the unique
frightened I had
Fruitages among thorns…
With many obstacles & harsh circumstances,
Mousa found fruitages among thorns, a bestowal
among woes. He said “at least I acquired an experience
about what should have done in the following
Ramadan; I will fix what I corrupted during this year.
Even though Ramadan this year was accurately hard
and also an utterly difficult exam to test my faith range,
thanks for Allah, I felt that I was successfully
accomplished it.
Mousa’s last words were “I hope that you were
subsisted a Ramadan & a happy Eid too, Allah will
,afford all of us on what we had done
I beg you all to pray for me and for my family as well to
lead them to the truth way; because I have big dreams
for my family to convert into Islam in the future by the
well of Allah. Next years they will decide to fast
Ramadan too; God welling
Translated by : Hala Al-Masri.
\first year\ university of Jordan\ Applied English
Text source : Islam story web site…
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Prepared by :Translation Campaign Team
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2012