Akilah Akins Artist Incomplete February 20, 2008 Artist incomplete The end of James Joyce’s novel, A Portrait of an Artist as a Young Man, leaves us with one major question: Will Stephen follow through with his aspirations of becoming an actual artist? Considering Stephen’s record when it comes to becoming enthralled with something, and then soon losing interest in it as he has already done with the Church, it is safe to say that this idea of becoming an artist is just that: an idea that Stephen will never follow through on. By the end of the novel, Stephen has only written two poems that he has no intentions of publishing or sharing with anybody, and has recently started keeping a journal. He often changes his plans in life based on his pride to accommodate for things that he think will win him the approval and admiration of his peers. His friends and family are not taking him too seriously. Although, art could be the changing force he needs gain their confidence he will have to share his art, which he seems unwilling to do. Stephen by the end of the novel has not become an artist and will reject that idea just as adamantly as he did with the Church. The passion with which Stephen has decided to become an artist is the same fervor as it was when de dedicates his life to the Catholic Church. Considering that he changes his mind so dramatically and in completely opposite directions he cannot possibly be serious about becoming an artist. In the following passage Stephen has a revelation that turning his life over to God is the life he has been looking for. Blinded by his tears and by the light of God’s mercifulness he bent his head and heard the grave words of absolution spoken and saw the priest’s hand raised above him in token of forgiveness….It was beautiful to live in grace a life of peace and virtue and forbearance with others…Till that moment he had not known how beautiful and peaceful life could be….Another life! A life of grace and virtue and happiness! It was true. It was not a dream from which he would wake. The past was past. (Joyce 126-127) In the passage Stephen is deeply moved by the spirit of religion and has decided he has a new life with the church. A life of ‘virtue’ ‘another life’ that would be peaceful. He is convinced that the church is the way to live his life. Stephen mentions ‘forbearance’, alluding to patience and moderation. Something he later shows little understanding of by hastily deciding to become an artist. Stephens’s vanity, as well as his love of admiration and praise, often guided his aspirations through life. While attending school at Belvedere College around the age of sixteen a priest had a talk with Stephen about the possibility of joining the priesthood. Stephen’s internal response at the thought of this opportunity of acquiring a position of power and admiration flattered and moved him. Stephen gleamed to himself as he thought: A flame began to flutter again on Stephen’s cheek as he heard in this proud address an echo of his own proud musings. How often he had seen himself as a priest wielding calmly and humbly the awful power of which angels and saints stood in reverence! (Joyce 137-138) Stephen insinuates that angels and saints will admire him for his work as a priest, which stands in stark contrast with the previous line of ‘calmly and humbly’. Humility has nothing to do with power and reverence. To be humble means not to be concerned with stature and ‘reverence’. Stephen has no idea what he really wants, nor does he know what it truly means to be a priest. The contradictory explanation of what a priest is according to Stephen lets us know how confused he is. This ambition and energy he exerts here is mimicked in his later decision to become an artist. As Stephen stumbles upon the idea of becoming an artist he has a moment of insight that was very similar in diction and dedication to the one he had when he decided to turn his life over to God. The thoughts and ambitions he has in this passage match those aforementioned about the priesthood. He would create proudly out of the freedom and power of his soul, as the great artificer whose name he bore, a living thing, new and soaring and beautiful, impalpablable, imperishable…His soul was swooning into some new world, fantastic, dim, uncertain as under sea, traversed by cloudy shapes and beings. A world, a glimmer, or a flower? (Joyce 149, 151) There are stark similarities between this passage and the one where Stephen has decided to start his life anew with the Church. The flowery language, the passion, and the depth at which he is committed to each situation confuse the subject matter that Stephen is really dedicated to. In the passage about becoming an artist he declares he will become a great inventor. In the passage about becoming a priest he talks of his life beginning anew, peaceful, and happy. In the artist passage he has a rebirth of his soul “swooning into some new world”. In this new world he abandons his pervious commitments to the Church. His dramatic shifts in life and the fervor with which he pursues them made me skeptical of his commitment to anything. Both claim great things and present a Stephen who is sincere and zealous . Now that Stephen has made this climactic decision to become an artist, comes the subject on what he has created. However, he finds himself at somewhat of a roadblock, with an inability to trust his work and share it with others. By this point in the novel Stephen is sixteen or seventeen years old. He has only produced two small works, both coming from the same inspiration, Emma, and neither being shared with anybody. Later, at the university, Stephen has a conversation with the Dean where he questions Stephen’s commitment to the arts and Stephen does not produce a valid defense for himself. This further proves that he is not ready to take on the task of becoming an artist. You are an artist, are you not, Mr. Dedalus?....When may we expect to have something from you on the esthetic question? he asked. From me! said Stephen in astonishment. I stumble on an idea once a fortnight if I am lucky….For my purpose I can work on at present by the light of one or two ideas of Aristotle and Aquinas….I need them only for my own use and guidance until I have done something for myself by their light. If the lamp smokes or smells I shall try to trim it. If it does not give light enough I shall sell it and buy another. (Joyce 164-165). Here Stephen is admitting he is having difficulty producing any sort of art. In his spare time he is borrowing ideas from the great minds of Aristotle and Aquinas. The most dangerous line in the passage is the last, where Stephen admits that if this does not work out for him that he will simple “sell it and buy another”. This suggests that he can simply change his mind or direction in life at his whim. Nothing is serious and stable for him, and if he fails as an artist or his desires change, as they did with the Church, that he will simple find a new calling. Those who know Stephen, both family and acquaintances, are not completely convinced that he will follow through with his determination to become an artist. After a conversation he has with his mother, Stephen recalls that his mother said: “Then she said I would come back to faith because I had a restless mind” (Joyce 221). His own mother is keenly aware of the fact the he changes his mind often and has difficulty with sticking to one subject for long periods of time. In another brief conversation he has with his old love interest, Emma, he shares with her his desire to become an artist. When they part ways, instead of assuring Stephen that he will become a great artist and giving him her full support and confidence, she instead simply says: “she hoped I would do what I said” (Joyce 225). She is not confident that he will follow through with his plans. Emma never specifically acknowledges Stephens desires to become an artist. Instead her words of encouragement are lacking luster as if he has made many great plans before and did not follow through on them. Her faith in him accomplishing anything he says is lost. Finally, in the very last lines of the novel, Stephen himself acknowledges his own shortcomings in life when it comes to being consistent. Stephen states: “I go to encounter for the millionth time the reality of experience and to forge in the smithy of my soul the uncreated conscience of my race. 27 April. Old father, old artificer, stand me now and ever in good stead” (Joyce 225). Stephen realizes that he has made many changes and commitments before in life, to himself, his family, and he has not always come through on his end. It’s ironic that he ask ‘his father’ Gad to stand by no matter what “now and ever in good stead”, suggesting that he may again in the future decide to come back to him. Also suggests that he can never fully escape the church it’s to ingrained in his spirit. Stephen is stepping forward “to encounter for the millionth time the reality of experience”. This makes me wonder if there is something maybe he life out of the story from another occasion where he thought something would be a good idea and then discarded it as well. The experience he is speaking of can only be one of knowing he can change his mind whenever and however he pleases. He feels no commitment to anything other than himself. Stephen is still young and learning about himself and about life. He has come a long way and has learned numerous things. Starting with his boyhood, continuing to his family and their politics, his fervor for the church, and his passion of the arts. However, Stephen has never fully matured on any of these ideas. He takes each new step in life with the same amount of dedication and excitement as he did the last. This makes it difficult to differentiate when he is serious about something, and when something is just a fad in his life. Stephen is still growing and maturing, and he may not find himself a permanent place in life for a while. Being an artist is certainly not going to be his last stop. Joyce, James. A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man and Dubliners. Barnes and Noble Classic. New York, NY. 2004