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A ‘B’ is Pretty Good
by J. Thomas Son
I was six years old and in my very first year of school. The first grade, with Mrs. Branson, at
Grapevine Elementary School in Madisonville, Kentucky. In that part of the world, at that time,
Kindergarten was an elective. My parents had elected to keep me out of it, so First Grade was
indeed the first grade.
It was all new to me. From endless hours of play in my own back yard and the simple rules of
come when you’re called, clean your plate, and be nice to your sisters and brothers, I found
myself in the closed classroom of paper and paste and fat pencils and Dick and Jane and Spot,
and new rules and measures of my worth. My only advantage in this new world of teachers and
time-outs (read stand with your nose in the corner), and grades marked by letters I was only just
learning was that I had an older sister and brother who had gone before and who seemed no
worse for the experience. I could be hopeful that the same would be true for me. And as the first
few weeks went by, my hope seemed to be justified. This was easier than I’d thought it would
be, and it had its rewards.
When I received my first report card, I experienced for the first time the focused, attentive
praise of my parents. When you’re the third in line (out of what would be eight), you tend to be a
bit lost in the shuffle, expected to follow the example of your older siblings with less need for
parental correction and praise as motivation. Consequently, the praise for my straight-As on my
very first report card made an impression on me. It felt good to know that I had pleased my
parents, and it felt good to have them tell me so. With growing confidence I returned to school
for more reading and writing and ’rithmatic. And when the time came for the second report card,
my six-year-old heart was full with the expectation of my parents’ pride-filled approval. That is,
until I opened the report card. (EXPOSITION)
There were Bs on it. (NARRATIVE HOOK)
In the first few months of first grade I don’t know that I understood the levels of quality
associated with particular letter grades. I only knew that “A” was good, “A” was praise-worthy,
“A” would make my parents proud of me. I could only assume that “not-A” was “not good”.
And this worried me. I didn’t want to disappoint my parents. I didn’t want them to be upset. So, I
decided to fix it. With all the concentrated ineptitude of a six-year-old boy afraid of being in
trouble, I took a pencil eraser to the inked-in grades (they were hand-written by the teacher back
then), and rubbed and rubbed until I wore the paper away and the worrisome Bs disappeared.
Then I flipped the pencil, put point to worn report-card paper, and in the neatest first-grade
penmanship I could manage I replaced the little Bs with little As. With trembling hands and my
anxiety building, I slid the report card back into its official manila envelope covering and
awaited the moment of … well, you know. (RISING ACTION)
It didn’t work, of course. Later that evening, when my father got home, I came when called
and gathered in the living room with my sister and brother for an audience with my expectant
parents. My older sister went first. All As. (She always made all As.) Well done my good and
faithful servant. My older brother was next. All As. (But his days were numbered). My parents
rewarded him too with the praise I coveted. Then it was my turn, and with my heart pounding in
my chest, and wearing the most convincing smile I could conjure, I handed over the treacherous
document, hoping. (CLIMAX)
My pitiful handiwork was evident immediately, but remarkably, my parents didn’t really
scold me for what I’d done. I heard words about honesty and words about trust and words about
doing my best, but most of all I heard words of reassurance. They seemed to understand, and
they wanted me to understand that a “B” was not so bad. A “B” was pretty good, in fact.
So, a “B” is pretty good. (RESOLUTION)
A ‘B’ is Pretty Good
by J. Thomas Son
The words were comforting despite my embarrassment. But I sometimes wonder now if I
might have learned the lesson too well. That first straight-As report card of my first grade year
would be the last straight-As report card I would make until my sophomore year in college.
“Doing my best,” it seemed, never delivered the best that I could do, but it became the phrase to
appease my parents, whether they were saying it or I was saying it. I was a “B” student, or
worse, on all the report cards that came thereafter. But I always knew there was something better
in me.
Don’t get me wrong. I still appreciate the sensitivity my parents showed that day. But as much
as I needed their reassurance, I might have needed their confidence in me even more. Eventually
I would change my grades again, but I would do so through a determination to learn what I could
really do as a student. And then, nothing less would do.
I’ll admit, in later years I may have become a little obsessed about the grades. Looking back,
however, I think I’d take the obsession over the settling.
A “B” is pretty good, in fact. But I’d still rather have the A. (Reflection/Looking Back)
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