INTELLECTUAL .............................................................................................................................................. 3
SIMPLICITY.................................................................................................................................................... 4
ONE MORE TIME .......................................................................................................................................... 5
CONTACT ...................................................................................................................................................... 6
DOG COULD BEAR ........................................................................................................................................ 7
FOOD OF PARADISE ...................................................................................................................................... 8
WHEN WATERS WERE CHANGED ............................................................................................................... 10
THE THREE TRUTHS .................................................................................................................................... 11
MAULANA BAHAUDIN NAQSHBAND .......................................................................................................... 12
LIMITATION IMPOSED BY DOGMA ............................................................................................................. 13
THE MAN WHOSE TIME WAS WRONG ....................................................................................................... 14
MARUF ....................................................................................................................................................... 16
WISDOM FOR SALE..................................................................................................................................... 19
SURE TO MAKE YOU SMILE ........................................................................................................................ 22
MULLA’S BEADS.......................................................................................................................................... 23
KALIM AZIZ ................................................................................................................................................. 24
WHO SAID THEM ........................................................................................................................................ 26
VIVEKANANDA............................................................................................................................................ 27
AWARD ....................................................................................................................................................... 28
DREAM MERCHANT.................................................................................................................................... 29
LORENZ CURVE ........................................................................................................................................... 32
LET ME HAVE THE PLEASURE ..................................................................................................................... 34
NEW WORLD .............................................................................................................................................. 35
ANTI-AMERICAN ......................................................................................................................................... 37
AN AMERICAN BOOK.................................................................................................................................. 41
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ........................................................................................................................................ 42
I ONLY ASK IDIOTIC QUESTIONS ................................................................................................................. 43
REPRESENTATION OF HINDU IN SENATE.................................................................................................... 44
TRUTHS....................................................................................................................................................... 46
WHAT IS MULLA NASSIRUDDIN.................................................................................................................. 47
SMART FIRST GRADER ................................................................................................................................ 48
MULLAH...................................................................................................................................................... 51
NARIMAN’S SPEECH ................................................................................................................................... 52
BAQI BILLAH OF DELHI................................................................................................................................ 58
WHEN A MAN MEETS HIMSELF .................................................................................................................. 59
AHANGAR ................................................................................................................................................... 60
INFECTION .................................................................................................................................................. 63
ECONOMIST................................................................................................................................................ 64
Cancer’s a Funny Thing............................................................................................................................... 65
All is Self the supreme bliss ........................................................................................................................ 67
Chapter Minneapolis .................................................................................................................................. 68
Is mother earth an Idiot ............................................................................................................................. 71
All is me ...................................................................................................................................................... 73
With high Hopes ......................................................................................................................................... 74
I am not on sell ........................................................................................................................................... 76
Orphan by Hafiz.......................................................................................................................................... 80
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It took a while............................................................................................................................................. 81
I love every bit of this world ....................................................................................................................... 82
Joy Unlimited.............................................................................................................................................. 83
I love and enjoy all as is .............................................................................................................................. 86
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INTELLECTUAL
A man spent many years trying to puzzle out meanings, went to see a Sufi and told him about his
(re)search.
The Sufi said: 'Go away and ponder this - IHMN.'
The man went away. When he came back, the Sufi is dead. 'Now I shall never know the Truth', moaned
the puzzler!
At that moment Sufi's chief disciple appeared.
'If you are worrying about secret meaning of IHMN, I will tell you. It is initials of Persian Phrase "In huruf
maani nadarand" - "these letters have no meaning."'
'But why should I be given such a task?' cried the puzzling man.
'Because, when a donkey comes to you, you give him cabbages. That is his nutrition, no matter what
Donkey calls it. Donkeys probably think that they are doing something far more significant than eating
cabbages.'
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SIMPLICITY
A scholar said to ...:
"You often say that our logical questions are incomprehensible to you.
Can you give an example of what they seem like to you?"
"Here is an example. I was once travelling by train and we went
through seven tunnels. Opposite me was sitting a peasant who obviously
never been in a train before. After seventh tunnel the peasant tapped
me on the knee and said:
'This Train is complicated. On my donkey I can get to my village in
only one day. But by train, which seem to be travelling faster than a
donkey, we have not yet arrived at home, though the sun has risen and
set seven whole times.'"
...
I like this too - it can so easily be expressed in English but no
great men of letters have written them.
...
A certain Bektashi dervish was respected for his piety and appearance
of virtue. Whenever anyone asks him how he had become so holy, he
always answered: "I know what is in Koran."
One day when he just given this reply to an enquirer in a coffee
house, when an imbecile asked: "Well, what is in the Koran?"
"In the Koran," said Bektashi, "There are two pressed flowers and a
letter from my friend Abdullah."
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ONE MORE TIME
Hafiz is not Hafiz if love can't cross the barrier of Pacific or Indian ocean and reach the shores of English,
America, Canada, Arabia, Africa, ... , India, Language, or Time:
THESE BEAUTIFUL LOVE GAMES
Young lovers wisely say:
"Let's try from this angle, May be something marvelous would happen,
May be three suns and two moons will roll out,
From some unknown place in the body,
Our passion yet to detonate."
Old lovers say:
"We may do it one more time,
How about vertical or upside down - Swinging on a rope from ceiling,
May be a part of God is Still hiding in a corner of our heart,
Our devotion yet to reveal."
Bottom Line:
Please do not stop playing this Game of love.
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CONTACT
I had just kissed the black stone
When some women came hurrying.
They had come to perform the ritual rounds,
Covering their faces with veil.
They uncovered themselves,
They are like rays of Sun coming out of clouds,
"Restrain yourself!" they seem to say,
Since souls can be lost in eye contacts.....
~ Ibn Arabi
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DOG COULD BEAR
A guard hit a dog with a stick.
It howled as it suffered.
'Why has he struck you?'
'He could not bear to see one better.'
....Shibli
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FOOD OF PARADISE
Yunus, son of Adam thought, in various channels that the food, he consumes for his sustenance, reaches
him truly divined by Almighty and no other. In case he throws himself in the hands of Allah, any
how Almighty shall conceive a way to supply the food to reach him. Perhaps thus he might be able to
reach Almighty himself tracking the route of food supply.
Thinking thus he left his abode and placed himself directly at the hands of Allah in a place on the bank of
Tigris River. He did not wish to beg since he wished to discover the path of food reaching him
straight from Almighty the creator. While birds and beasts around him were happy receiving their
desires fulfilled in their domain created by Almighty, Yunus received nothing. He spent watching the
river waves and fishes and listening to sounds from people busy on their route to home or business. He
did not lose hope.
Yunus watched the river and kept his prayer schedule - once decision is taken he is determined to see
the end. Two days passed, before his mid-noon prayer he saw a packet was floating in the river coming
downstream. He went in the water and fetched the packet - it was wrapped in leaves and tied with palm
fiber. Packet contained 3/4th pound of Fragrant Halwa from Baghdad - delicious from the very look of it
with appetizing smell, and plenty of nourishment. Belief thus confirmed and in possession of Halwa from
Paradise, Yunus thought, if this be repeated every day then surely he would be able to reach the source
- The Almighty. He waited for the Halwa from Paradise to come on next day and found the same floating
down the river Tigris.
Yunus set out to find out the source upstream of the Halwa. It took many days to reach a place where
the river is broad and there is an island, wherein was a palace. From distance he also noticed one
beautiful girl came out of palace balcony for a moment and threw his food packet into the river. Yunus
now knew the giver however did not know the Truth. He could not contain his curiosity to know the
truth behind the packet.
He met a dervish in the river bank who was about to leave. Dervish told him that the beautiful in the
palace is a princess but a prisoner of an evil just now. The Evil has barred everyone to approach that
palace with a spell since she declined to marry him. She is served by many maids in the place but all
approaches and exits to palace is barred however. Dervish taught Yunus many words, many sounds,
many actions, many symbols, and many prayers; invoking them Yunus could possibly call upon Jinns and
with their help bring down the defense.
Yunus was curious to know the truth of origin of Halwa. He did respectfully whatever needed to be done
to bring down the defense. A bridge rose from the river bed and he could enter the palace and give
freedom to all the prisoners including Princess. Princess approached Yunus and asked Yunus, how could
he be rewarded for the great deeds he has done to free her island palace.
Yunus only wished to know the truth about the packet she threw everyday in the river Tigris. she said
that she is obligated to tell the truth to him though private - it is her remnant of daily toilet that she uses
for her body from some paste and asses milk. After bath she makes a packet and throws it away.
Yunus realized truth as per individuals understanding - what is remnant of toilet paste for Princess is
Food of Paradise for him.
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Those who wish to know further, according to Halqavi, the author, this story can be read by any one any
time and does not need special conditioning.
Yunus, son of Adam, was Syrian, died in 1670. He had remarkable healing power and was an inventor.
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WHEN WATERS WERE CHANGED
Khidr the Teacher of Moses called upon Mankind and announce on such
and such date all waters would be changed all over the world. Unless
hoarded all waters shall disappear. It would be later replaced with
new kind. Drinking of new water would make one insane.
Only one man listened to it and he collected some water in jars and
kept it hidden.
On that certain day, all water supply from streams river wells .. Went dry. This man of course did not
have any concern since he had his
water supply while none had. When new water came through streams,
rivers and wells, all drank the same. This man observed them from distance
and found they indeed gone crazy - behaving, doing, and talking
unbecoming of themselves. For some days he remained aloof and drank
from his own water supply till he realized that it is not much fun
being sane alone. He then abandoned his water supply and drank the new water
and became one of the insane.
Others thought for no reason this man acted real crazy but now he is one
of them, miraculously he is cured of his craziness. They thought no
more about this.
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THE THREE TRUTHS
The ... are known as Seekers of Truth - the knowledge of Reality.
Rudarigh, a great lord of Murcia Spain, decided to possess this Truth. He sought out Omar el-Alawi of
Tarragona and brought him to his court and said, "I order you to tell the truths which you know and
must be told in manner I understand, otherwise your life is forfeit."
Omar asked, "Do you observe in your court when an arrested person tells truth in answer to a question
that the truth does not incriminate him, and he is released to freedom?"
"That is so", the lord said.
"I call upon everyone to witness this by the honor of our lord, and I will tell three truths and not one",
said Omar.
"We must also be satisfied and proof must accompany the telling, that you claim Truths are indeed so",
said Rudarigh.
"For such a lord as you are, we can give truths not one but three and they are all self evident", said
Omar.
'The first Truth - I am he who is called Omar the Sufi of Tarragona.
"The second Truth is that you have agreed to release me if I tell the truth."
"The third is that you wish to know the truth as you understand it".
Such was the impression on tyrant that he could not deny freedom to Omar.
Those who want to know more, this is an oral account by el-Mutanabbi and he ordained that this
episode must not be written down for 1000 years; he has died 1000 years ago. Being it an Oral account,
it has undergone continuous change in accordance with changes of time and place.
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MAULANA BAHAUDIN NAQSHBAND
Was asked 'How is it that ignoble men or infants, as in so many stories, can be spiritualized by a glance
or touch, or coming in contact with a great teacher?'
This was his reply:
....
The great emperor of Byzantium had a dreadful disease. All attempts to cure the same was futile - no
doctor could cure! As a last resort in order to save the life of emperor messengers were sent to every
part of the world and to all known great masters with a full list of symptoms of the dreadful disease with
the hope of possible cure for the same. One such messenger arrived at the school of El-Ghazali the great
sage of the east. El-Ghazli asked one of his disciples, El-Arif, to make the journey to Constantinople. At
the court of Emperor El-Arif was to affect a cure. He asked what all remedies has been tried, what
further cures were being contemplated, and then he made full examination of the patient. Then he
asked for full court to be convened next day, where he was to make a declaration how to affect a cure.
When all the nobles were gathered, Sheikh El-Arif said, 'It is better His Majesty better uses faith.'
One cleric answered that it was not true that Emperor did not have faith but unfortunately it no longer
had therapeutic effect.
"In that case I am afraid to say that there is only one procedure for cure but it is so dreadful that I can't
even mention the same".
All noble men in the court prevailed on Sufi to at least let that be known for the sake of the health of
Emperor.
"The Emperor needed to be bathed in blood of several hundred children of age less then age of seven."
The Sufi said.
The entire court was stunned. It took quite a while for everyone to contemplate, if this cure is indeed
worth a try. Several hundred innocent children may be slaughtered without any result. So many
prospective future to be destroyed for the cure of the Emperor's disease. How to really effect taking
away innocent lives of children from their mothers! After long debate it was however decided
that The Emperors life is more important than several hundred children of age less than seven. The
death of Emperor may result in destruction of kingdom itself from unknown enemies who can destroy
many millions and effect slavery for thousand years to its people. All the mothers were ordered to send
their children in a calendar month to come for the cure of Emperor's disease.
This was most tormenting time for everyone and it needed great mental preparation. As the time ticked
away and the great preparation was going on for collecting of children of right age, the emperor himself
was very confused. The mothers of children all willed a cure for Emperor's malady before the day of
blood bath. Slowly it dawned to emperor that his life is not really more important to cause death of
several hundred children of age less than seven - he did not mind dying and did not need a cure!
The Emperor soon recovered and was cured of his disease!
El-Asafi explained, 'As he had no faith, emperor needed something equivalent to it, this is his single
mindedness coupled with constructive desires of several hundred children's mothers for
Emperors remission before the dreadful day - made the decision for emperor to effect the alternative
that he can do without a cure. '
When this was conveyed to El-Ghazali, he said: 'An effect could be devised to operate within the TIME
allotted to its attainment.'
....
'A Sufi knows how to administer the science of truth not only to his disciple but to ignoble men or
infants knowing their inner condition after proper examination' - explained Khawja (the Head of)
Maulana (Our Master) Bahaudin (Designer School).
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LIMITATION IMPOSED BY DOGMA
The great Sultan Mahmud was in the streets of Ghazna, his capital.
he saw a poor porter struggling under the weight of a heavy stone which he was carrying on his back.
Moved with sympathy, Muhmud called out to him, in royal command:
"Drop that stone, porter."
Immediately he was obeyed. The stone lay there on the middle of road for years to come creating
obstacle to all passersby. Number of citizen interceded with the king to give a command for the stone to
be taken away.
Mahmud thought and replied:
"That which has been done by command cannot be rescinded by an equal command, lest the people
think imperial orders are motivated by whims. Let the stones remain there."
The stone remained there for rest of Mahmud's life. Even when he is dead, from respect of royal
commands, the stones were never removed.
....
Mahmud was telling those who could understand to obey temporal authority, but to realize that those
who rule by inflexible dogma can't be of complete use to humankind.
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THE MAN WHOSE TIME WAS WRONG
Abdul Qadir died in 1166. His shrine is in Bagdad. His descent is from Hassan the grandson of
Mohammed. He is known as Sayedna, 'our prince'. When he lay in death bed a mysterious Arab
delivered a letter – ‘Every man or animal has to taste death. From Lover to Beloved.’ There are many
books written about him, Hiyat-i-Hazrat is one such. It began like this …..
‘His appearance was formidable. One day only one disciple dared to ask him a question: “Can you not
give us power to improve earth and the lot of the people on earth?” His face darkened and he replied: “I
will do better, I shall give this power to future descendant of you, since at present there is no device
exist to bring about such improvement in large scale. You shall be rewarded and your descendants shall
be rewarded for your aspiration.”
Following story is from Abdul Qadir: The man Whose Time Was Wrong.
.............
Once upon a time, there was a rich merchant, who lived in Baghdad. He had a large house, many dhows,
many properties, a large business network that extended as far as Indies. He gained this through own
work, inheritance, being at the right time and at right place, and advice from Sultan of Cordoba – king of
West.
Something went wrong. A tyrant seized his land and property. His fleet to Indies met with typhoons.
Disasters struck his family. Even his close friends lost the power to be in harmony with him, though both
intended to have social relationship. He decided to journey to west and to meet his patron King of Spain
– the Sultan.
On his way, he was looted and captured by bandit and sold as slave. He escaped from slavery but
without food and water and most miserable life only from a morsel of food given by dervishes. He
looked miserable with sun burnt leather like body – villagers drove him away. Hardly could he have a
gulp of fresh water.
At last he reached the gate of Palace of Sultan. Even here he was treated horribly – he was pushed away
by soldiers, chamberlains refused to talk with him. Anyhow he managed a minor job at King’s court. It
took him three years to earn enough to buy a dress befitting to applying to Master of Ceremonies for
admission to the royal presence. By now his behavior and manner was so bad that the Master put him
on course and training to make worthy of present at court. All these he endured, and long last after
three years he could enter King’s audience hall.
The King instantly recognized him, called him and bade him sit in a place of honor beside him.
“Your majesty, I suffered most terribly these past years. My lands were usurped, my ships lost along
with my capital, for three years I battled against hunger, bandit, desert, people, language – I am here
now and put myself in your mercy.”
King turned to Chamberlin, “Give him hundred sheep.”
King’s generosity was substantially less than what he hoped for. Anyway he withdrew after customary
salutation. But no sooner he reached the scanty pasture with his 100 sheep, a plague struck and he lost
all his sheep. He returned to court.
King asked: ”How are sheep?”
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“They died as soon as I got them to pasture.”
King made a sign, and directed, “Give him 50 sheep.”
Feeling ashamed, the shepherd now took the sheep to mountainside. But soon attacked by wild dogs
appeared and chased them away over the mountain edge and all were killed.
The merchant returned to King and told his story. This time, he was given 25 sheep.
Without any more hope, the shepherd left for pasture with 25 sheep. As soon as he reached, each of his
ewes gave birth to twins. Then again twins were born. These new twins were fat and well fleeced and
made excellent eating. He now bought more sheep, they too initially skimpy grew strong and healthy;
resembled the amazing new breed that he was rearing. After three years he returned to King’s court
splendidly attired with report of the sheep prospered in his stewardship.
“Are you now successful shepherd?” the monarch asked.
“Yes indeed.”
“Very well, yonder is the kingdom of Seville whose throne is my gift, go and let it be known that I make
you king of Seville.” King touched him on shoulder with ceremonial axe.
“Why didn’t you make me king when I first came to you?” the merchant burst out.
King said: “On that day you took the sheep up the mountain and lost them, had you taken control of
kingdom of Seville, there would not have been one stone on top another today.”
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MARUF
This Dervish tale that has appeared in Arabian Nights stories:
Maruf lived in Cairo with his wife Fatima. This hag treated him so badly, repaying every good action of
his with a very bad one plus loads of abuse. Maruf looked upon her as an example of inexplicable
contrariness of the world.
Bowed down with sense of real injustice, driven to extremity of despair, he fled to ruined monastery
near the city where he plunged himself to prayer and supplication, calling out incessantly: ”Lord, I beg
thee for a means of release, send me at immense distance so that I can find release and hope.”
He continued to plead for several hours when an apparition came through the wall – it has huge height
and strange appearance. This is Abdaal – human beings who have attained power inconceivable for
ordinary human beings.
“I am Abdel-Makan, servant of this place, what do you ask of me?”
Maruf told him his problems. Abdel took him in his back instantly flew to a far city on the borders of
China, a rich and beautiful place.
At the sudden of Maruf in the market place dressed strangely, people gathered around Maruf asking
him question. They started jeering and throwing sticks and stone at him. When he was still hackled, a
merchant rode by and dispersed the crowed saying: “Have shame! A stranger is guest, bound to us by
sacred bonds of hospitality and worthy of protection.” He is Ali.
He explained to Maruf, how he has progressed from rags to riches in this strange city of Ikhtiyar where
merchants tend believe and not skeptic, if you tell them story of riches they would believe you and lend
you more, but if you tell them you are poor you would not receive any alms. So he told them stories of
his wealth on its way and borrowed money, judiciously investing that he made more money and
returned the borrowed money – and that is how he became successful.
Ali took Maruf to number of wealthy merchants who bought Maruf story of caravan with priceless riches
on their way and favored Maruf with substantial loans. Maruf however unlike Ali was not business
minded and gifted away to poor and needy. Months passed but no caravan of Maruf arrived, all
merchants worried complained to King about Maruf.
King called Maruf and decided to find out the truth. He set a trap, he placed a priceless jewel in the
hands of Marut and asked him to take it if that be worthy of him. Maruf returned the jewel saying his
caravan loads far worthier and valuable wealth he does not need this. King got much moved with greed.
He decided to marry his only daughter to Maruf and asked the merchants to hold the peace still Maruf’s
caravan arrives. However his Wazir advised king that Maruf is bluffer. King ignored this since he knew
Wazir wanted to marry his daughter.
Maruf when told about this he told Wazir to tell king that until his caravan arrives he can’t provide for
his princess-wife marriage must be postponed. Hearing this King opened his treasury to Maruf asking
him to take away whatever need to make worthy of him of a suitable way of life consonant of a royalson-in-law.
Never any one had witnessed such an extravagant marriage. Riches doled out to any even who just
heard about this wedding. At the wedding night Maruf was troubled, ‘I am troubled that I have to
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account for this to your father, I have taken so much from him’, he said to princess. Princess replied,
“Think nothing of it, when your caravan arrives all shall be well.’
Wazir renewed again his agitation asked king to find out about mystery of caravan through the princess
at an opportune moment. When they lay in one another’s arm, princess asked Maruf about missing
caravan. Maruf decided to speak the truth: “Wazir is right but his words due to his greed. Your father
too gave way yourself to me out of greed. But why did you consent to marry me?”
Princess said: “you are my wedded husband and I shall not disgrace you. Take this 50000 gold pieces and
flee this country, when settled you send message for me and I shall join you wherever you are.”
Maruf fled the country dressed as slave at dead of night. Princess Dunia was called by king and Wazir for
her report. She said:
“When I was about to ask Maruf, a strange thing happened, Ten Mamelukes, dressed most
magnificently, arrived beneath the palace window carrying a letter from chief of Maruf’s caravan. The
letter said that they have been delayed by numerous attacks by beduines, fifty of guards of 500 have
been killed, and a quantity of merchandise – two hundred camel loads have been carried off.”
“What did Maruf say?” king and Wazir asked.
“He said very little this loss is nothing however he at once rode off to meet the caravan and bring it back
to us.” Thus she bought time.
Maruf did not know where he was going, he arrived in a place where a peasant was ploughing, he sais
“Be my guest King’s slave” and he left for home to fetch some food for Maruf.
Maruf touched by his kindness thought of helping the peasant with bit of ploughing. He had not done
many furrows when his plough hit a stone. He pulled it away and saw a flight of stairs that lead to a
chamber filled with treasures.
Maruf discovered a crystal box with a ring, he rubbed the ring and strange apparition appeared, “I am
Father of happiness and what can I do for you?”
Maruf the cobbler ordered the treasure to be brought above the ground and loaded into a huge
caravan. Peasant presently returned with barley and pulse. Maruf ate some and gave him gold and
claim a greater reward later. Maruf sent messenger to city of his father-in-law to announce his arrival in
advance.
The princess did not know what truth is. She suspected Maruf lied to her. King attacked the Wazir for
ever suggesting Maruf is pauper. Ali thought caravan is the work of princess in order to save Maruf. All
the merchants were happy, so is all poor and needy getting so much gifts from Maruf. Wazir did not
believe all this since never any rich ever gives away the manner Maruf is giving away. He caught Maruf in
the garden plied him with music and wine, got the secret of magic ring from him, rubbed and got jinn to
transfer Maruf to desert, and presented himself to king and overthrew him, and even tried to seduce
the princess.
The princess however, when Wazir came to her, got the ring from his finger and got the Father of
happiness and deposed him to dungeon, and fetched back Maruf. She freed King, and Maruf became
the Wazir. They lived happy thereafter. The king died; Maruf succeeded him. He had a son. But Princess
became sick, she left both ring and child to Maruf to take care of them and died.
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One night Maruf woke up with a start and found Fatima his first wife is lying beside him. She told her
after Maruf left her she got reduced to begging and unending grief. One day she was crying out loud
when a jinn appeared and told her the adventures of Maruf. She asked him to take her to Ikhtiyar and
she brought there in speed of light.
Maruf explained his position but warned her to behalf herself to be a queen. She did likewise but hated
the little prince. One day when Maruf went to sleep she took the magical ring, but little prince saw that
and he threw his tiny sword and killed her.
Maruf sent for peasant who was responsible for Father of Happiness Jinn. Maruf made him Wazir and
married his daughter. There after they all lived happily and success.
…..
If you have been following and reading this story to the end, and then you would observe that this story
unlike any story from west has no Moral. This only depicts series of cause and effect relationship and
that is feature of some Sufi literature. This is markedly different kind of teaching Sufi masters wish the
listener or reader to have – there is no lesson to learn from life.
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WISDOM FOR SALE
A man named Saifulmuluk spent half his life in seeking truth. He read all books on ancient wisdom, he
traveled to every known or unknown countries hear what every spiritual leader had to say. He spent
days in working and nights in contemplation of great mysteries.
One day he heard of great poet Ansari. He packed his bag and headed for Heart. At the door he found it
is written, ‘Knowledge is sold here’. This must be a mistake or to dissuade idle curiosity seeker, thinking
thus he stepped in. Inside Ansari is bent over in age was writing poem.
‘Have you come to buy knowledge?’ Ansari asked. Saiful nodded. ‘Give me all the money you have.’
Saiful produced 100 silver coins.
‘With only this much, you can have only three pieces of knowledge!’
‘Do you really mean that, I thought you are humble dedicated man?’
‘We live in the world surrounded by its material facts,’ said the sage, ‘because I know certain things that
others do not know, I have to spend money, among other things, to be of service where a kind word or
‘baraka’ is not valued’.
He took the silver, ‘Listen well. First one is: A small cloud signals danger.’
‘But is this knowledge? It does not tell me nature of man, or ultimate truth or for that matter, place of
human beings in the world’, asked Saifulmuluk.
‘If you are going to decide what I might tell you, you may better take your money and go away. What is
the big use of knowledge about a man’s place in the world, if the man is dead?’
Saifulmuluk was silenced.
“Second one is: if you find a bird, a cat, and a dog in one place, get hold of them and look them after, till
the end.”
“This may have deep metaphysical meaning,” Saiful thought, “it may get clear if I think upon it long
enough.”
“The last: when you have experienced certain things which seem irrelevant, keeping your faith in the
earlier advices, then and only then, a door will open for you, ‘Enter that door’”.
Saifulmuluk wanted to stay little longer with this baffling sage, but he was pushed out of the door rather
roughly by Ansari.
Saiful kept wandering and went to Kashmir to study under another teacher. When he was travelling
through central Asia again, in Bokhara in a market place, he saw a man leading away a bird a cat and a
dog where an auction was taking place. Saiful thought, ’had I not spent so much time in Kashmir then I
would have been able to buy these animals, it appears that they are part of my destiny. But then he
thought, he is yet to notice ‘Any Small Cloud.’ But succession order need not be Time ordered! Anyway
he looked for the man who bought the animals, and if the animals are still in one place. This man’s name
was Ashikikhuda. He only bought the animals out of sympathy that they were cooped up in the
auctioneer’s room for several weeks waiting for a buyer. He really had no use for them and was very
happy selling them to Saifulmuluk.
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Saiful settled in Bokhara since it was no more practical travel with animals. He became a wool spinner in
a factory. Three years passed. He became master spinner and became respectable member of the
community along with animals. One day he walked out skirt of the town he saw a strange looking tiny
cloud hovering over the horizon, his memory was jogged, the first piece of advice of Ansari came into his
mind –“A small cloud signals danger!”
Saiful returned immediately to his house collected his animal and fled to arrive at Isfahan almost
penniless. Some days later he heard Bokhara was invaded by an army and all were slaughtered dead.
And the words of Ansari came to his mind, ‘what is the use of knowledge for a man if he is dead?’
The people of Isfahan were not enamored by wool spinner or his animals – Saiful lived in extreme
poverty. He could take no more. Out of hunger, out of desperation, he started crying, ‘You who have
been changed, O holy ones, please come to my aid, I am reduced to a state that through my efforts I
can’t live any longer, or provide for my animals.’
He lay there between sleeping and awakening, and had a dream as if it was true. He saw a stream and a
tree, and a crevice into which a ring rolled into emitting many colored intermittent lights. In the morning
he was sane enough to look for the stream and the tree. He found one similar to his vision, and there
was a hole near the tree, putting a stick inside the hole he could get hold of the ring. Washing and
polishing it, he realized its magical power. He made a small hut and started living with his pet and many
wild animals. He became old and were known as Saif Baba. Many people passed by and tried to teach
him many things but he waited for the end as predicted by Ansari his master. Staying with the animals
he learnt there language too. One day he heard the sparrow telling him, ‘You are so closed that that no
one can open your door. So many people have tried in the past but failed.’ Saif Baba was surprised that
a sparrow talking to him. He asked ‘how do you know? My master told me to wait till the end. And I do
not see any door opening either.’
The bird said, ‘you are wrong, all these travelers were sent by the same source Khoja Ansari himself –
your source of knowledge, to see if you have acquired enough insight to follow them.’
‘This I don’t believe, if that be so can you tell me, even with advantage I have over animals, how come I
do not see what you see?’ Saif Baba asked.
“That is simple, the animals said, you are so accustomed to seeing in one and only one particular way
with your success of finding two truths delivered by your master Ansari, that you do not see any other
way; your blindness while it is visible to us all the time, is invisible to you!’
‘So I could have found the Door of the third piece of Advice long ago, if I were properly attuned to it?’
“Yes,” said the dog joining the discussion, in fact the door has opened at least a dozen times in the past,
but you did not see, and we did. But because we are animal we could not tell you.”
“Then how could you tell me now?”
“Because lately, you have become more human, and now you have only one chance, since you are
already very old.”
Saif Baba thought, “They have no right to say this to me, I only provide for them. But if they are wrong
does not matter, however if they are right I can hardly take any chance because of my overcoming age.”
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He then enquired with good spirit that can be called by the great ring of Solomon that he found in the
hole below the tree. The Spirit however answered that he is forbidden to tell any remedy for his
blindness but Saif Baba’s disease has a name called “Permanent hidden prejudice” that rules Saif Baba’s
thoughts and makes it difficult for him to progress in The Way.
One day a dervish pitched a tent on Saif Baba’s door step. Saif Baba approached him. Dervish said, “I am
not interested in hearing your story of Master Ansari, cloud, animals, and even your magic ring. Go away
I have no time for them and your useless talks”.
“What can I do, I feel responsible for animals, and confusion about myself, and there is no more
guidance in my three pieces of Advice.” Saif Baba said.
“You have talked sincerely, hand over the animals to me, you have made a beginning, and I shall tell you
the answer.”
“You ask too much, I do not know you’ how can I trust you?’ Saif Baba asked.
“You have revealed your concern, your proprietorship of your animal, and doubt about me. If you judge
me with emotion or logic, you can’t benefit from me. Go away; verily my name is ‘Darwaja’”.
Now Darwaja means door, Saif Baba thought – ‘could he be the Door Master Ansari talked about!’
“Could You be the Door I am seeking, I am not sure?”
“Go away; I am not interested in your speculation. Don’t you see that first two advices were for your
mind, and third piece can only be understood, only when you perceive that they were meant for your
MIND!”
After two more years of confusion and anxiety, Saif Baba suddenly realized the truth. He called his
animals and let them go, “you are on your own now. This is the END.” A door opened in the tree beside
the stream, he walked over threshold, and he saw answers are written about life and death, about
mortality and humanity, about knowledge and ignorance; they have plagued him all his life.
‘Attachment to externals’, said voice within the cavern, ‘ has held you back all these years, take here
only part of the wisdom still open to you.’
…………………………..
This is favorite Sufi theme – ‘Truth is trying to manifest itself’ again and again to humanity. It appears to
each human in many guises again and again, they are difficult to penetrate, and at first sight may have
no connection with each other. Only development of ‘special perception’ enables a man to be aware of
this unseen process.
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SURE TO MAKE YOU SMILE
Mulla every one knows came from country where fruit is a fruit, meat is meat, and curry is never eaten.
Having newly descended from Kafiristan, Mullah was plodding the dusty Indian road. soon thirst took
over, "I must find somewhere that good fruit to be had". No sooner the words formed in his head he
saw a benevolent looking man under the shade of a tree with a basket in front of him piled high with
juicy red fruits. Taking two tiny copper coins from the end of his turban Mulla handed them over to the
man.
Without a word the man gave the whole basket to Mullah, for this must be a cheap king of fruit.
Nasiruddin sat down in the place vacated by the man and started eating the fruits. Within a few seconds
his mouth started burning, tears streamed through his cheeks, fires were on his throat. Mullah went on
eating.
An hour or two passed when an Afghan hill man came by, Mulla hailed him, "Brother this infidel fruits
must have originated in the very mouth of Sheitan!"
"Fool, stop eating those, never heard of chillis of Hindustan? Death will surely claim a victim before sun
is down!"
"I can't move from here", gasped Nasiruddin, "until I have finished the whole basketful".
"Madman those fruit belong to curry! Throw them away at once".
"I am not eating fruit any more", Mullah croaked, "I am eating my money."
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MULLA’S BEADS
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Mullah entered teashop and declaimed: 'The moon is more useful than the Sun.' Why Mullah?
'We need light more during night than during the day.'
Feeling thirsty Mullah entered the café for a drink. They decided to share a glass of milk. Friend
asked Mullah to drink his share first, "I have just a little sugar enough for half a glass." "Add it
now, I only drink my half", Mullah said. "Certainly not there only enough sugar to sweeten half a
glass." Mullah went to the owner of the café, came back with a large packet of salt. "Problem
solved, I like my Milk with salt, I shall drink my half with salt first".
Mullah sent a child to fetch water from the well. "Make sure you do not break the pot," and
Mullah gave the child a clout. "Why did you hit a child who did nothing?" a bystander asked.
"Because you fool, it would be too late to punish the child after he broke the pot, wouldn't it.
"Congratulate me! I am a Father", Nassiruddin shouted to a neighbor, "Congratulations! Boy or
Girl?" "Yes, but how do you know?"
"All should share equally in whatever is available," a philosopher was telling a group at
teahouse. "I am not sure that would work," said a doubter. "But have you given it a chance?"
demanded the idealist. "I have", shouted Nasirudin. "I give my wife and donkey exactly the same
treatment. They get exactly what they want." "Excellent now tell everybody what exactly is the
result, Mulla." "The result is good donkey, and a bad wife."
"You may have lost your donkey, Mulla, but you don't have to grieve over it more than you did
about the loss of your first wife." "Ah, but remember, when I lost my wife, all of you said: 'we
will find you someone else.' but so far, no body offered to replace my donkey."
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KALIM AZIZ
MERA GHAME ZAATI HAI AURON KA KITAABI HAI
Mine is physical labor, theirs - all intellectual.
DAAMAN PE KOI CHHEENT NA KHANJAR PE KOI DAAGH
TUM QATL KARO HO KI KARAAMAT KARO HO
Your murder is miracle –
No stain in cloth none in dagger!
WOHI QATIL BHI HAI, MUKHBIR BHI HAI, MUNSIF BHI WOHI
AQRABA MERE KAREN KHOON KA DAAWA KIS PAR
HE is all in one – murderer, informer, and judge!
To whom would my family appeal?
IDHAR AAO TUMAHAARI ZULF HUM AARASTA KARDEN
JO GESOO HUM SANWARENGE KABHI BARHAM NAHI HONGE
Let me straighten your hair,
They shall never bother you again.
DEKHIYE MERI GHAZAL MEN KABHI SOORAT APNI
YEH WO AAEENA HAI JO AAPNE KAM DEKHA HAI
Please read my poems.
They reflect my deeds, and so shall yours.
ITRAA RAHE HO AAJ PEHAN KAR NAI QIBA
DAAMAN THA TAAR TAAR ABHI KAL KI BAT HAI
Can your naked past be
Hidden under your civil attire?
ZAMAANA. LAAKH OOSE TADPAYGA RULAYEGA
WO MARSIYA NA KAHEGA GHAZAL HI GAAYEGA
Pain or Sorrow do not make them cry or weep,
Them always become song or poem ...
PUKAAROON HOON LEKIN NA BAAZ AAYE HAI
YEH DUNIYA KAHAAN DOOBNE JAAYE HAI
World do not heed my words Why is it determined to commit suicide?
APNA TO KAAM HAI KI JALATE CHALO CHIRAAGH
RASTE MEN KHWAH DOST KE DUSHMAN KA GHAR MILE
To bring light to dark homes on my path – is my job
To whom they belong – foe or friend, I do not care.
I am not sure though of the translation of this:
Yeh pukar saare chaman mein thi, woh sehar hui woh sehar hui
Mere aashiyyan se dhooan utha, to mujhe bhi iski khabar hui
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Garden was alive with cry, "Sun has risen, Sun has risen!"
I got the news late, when I saw the smoke atop my Gazebo!
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A poem is no poem unless one can't translate the same
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WHO SAID THEM
Faithful are mirrors one to another.
Trust in God but tie your camel first.
Women are twin halves of men.
Do you love your creator? Love your fellow creatures first.
Die before your death.
The best of Princes is one who visits wise. The worst of scholars is one visit princes.
Anyone reviling a brother for a sin will not himself die before committing it.
Nobody has eaten a better food than that won by his own labor.
Old women will not enter Paradise; they will be made young and beautiful first.
Who are learned? Those who put into practice what they know.
Holy warrior is he who struggles with himself.
A man appointed to be a judge has been killed without a knife.
Speak to everyone in accordance with his understanding.
Who said them?
Medhoam
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VIVEKANANDA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vuU20dnVbkg&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVRsoPnouOk&NR=1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BEGFzldsrxY&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ShrD0zjPGrs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mk4lLYvDsCY&feature=fvw
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AWARD
I do not know how and what shaped the thinking of any place. I can't generalize but there is all kinds of
human relationships and activities - parents children siblings marital sexual neighbors friends class
mates colleagues community cousins clubs etc. Some thoughts have not seen any public expressions nor
written in books but that do not mean they were not practiced. Some by chance gets discovered after
many years and we show our expressions of disgusts. I can't change any place in the world nor their
thinking.
A Russian mathematician Perelman who has refused $1 million award - in fact he has done this (refusing
awards) many times before. He it seems proved any shape without a hole can be shaped into a sphere.
For me I am thinking that I could have used this money had I been given. He has his reasons and I have
mine.
However I have to change my thinking thoroughly, I have to remain an entity without holes and not
harbor worms in it. I can't hold any thought or act or words in this world as unholy or not noble ugly evil
or bad and at the same time no act no word no doing and no thought has any superiority over another
or divine. This I have proved beyond any doubt without getting recognition many years back. I also
proved there is no hole in this world. There are no two points without any connectivity. I have also
proved a stronger theorem - no one can simply imagine anything that does not exist - no one is that
original. I too am opposed to any any body to dictate terms and imposing its rule on another - what
need be done ...or teach anybody any lesson - in school college university or fight or war...
The reason for Perelman's rejection however is that he is opposed to organized mathematics and
institutions to act as decision maker of what is good or bad work and he did not wish to be a figure head
by accepting an award that he is opposed to. I understand his sentiment and what he is talking about.
Our President though undeserving to get Nobel prize went there to collect the prize prepared with a
speech - his noble act of peace justifying war that All American media appreciated profusely.
Topologically I am equivalent to a pipe and reversible too - guts in and guts out .
http://www.google.com/hostednews/afp/article/ALeqM5h4jy9V80wtL6w5l0wqaBlg8obQKA
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/gallery/2010/07/02/GA2010070205539.html
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DREAM MERCHANT
DRINK WATER ON EMPTY STOMACH
As is established in Ayurveda and also popular in Japan today to drink water immediately after waking
up every morning.
Furthermore, scientific tests have proven a its value. We publish below a description of use of water for
our readers. For old and serious diseases as well as modern illnesses the water treatment had been
found successful by a Japanese medical society as a 100% cure for the following diseases:
Headache, body ache, heart system, arthritis, fast heart beat, epilepsy, excess fatness, bronchitis
asthma, TB, meningitis, kidney and urine diseases, vomiting, gastritis, diarrhea, piles, diabetes,
constipation, all eye diseases, womb, cancer and menstrual disorders, ear nose and throat diseases.
METHOD OF TREATMENT
1.. As you wake up in the morning before brushing teeth, drink 4 x 160ml glasses of water .....interesting
2. Only after that Brush and clean the mouth but do not eat or drink anything for 45 minutes
3. After 45 minutes you may eat and drink as normal.
4. After 15 minutes of breakfast, lunch and dinner do not eat or drink anything for 2 hours
5. Those who are old or sick and are unable to drink 4 glasses of water at the beginning may commence
by taking little water and gradually increase it to 4 glasses per day.
6. The above method of treatment will cure diseases of the sick and others can enjoy a healthy life.
The following list gives the number of days of treatment required to cure/control/reduce main diseases
(for certain individuals and chronicity of problem may require more no. of days):
1. High Blood Pressure - 30 days
2. Gastric - 10 days
3. Diabetes - 30 days
4. Constipation - 10 days
5. Cancer - 180 days
6. TB - 90 days
7. Arthritis patients should follow the above treatment only for 3 days in the 1st week, and from 2nd
week onwards - daily.
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This treatment method has no side effects, however at the commencement of treatment you may have
to urinate a few times.
It is better if we continue this and make this procedure as a routine work in our life.
Drink Water and Stay healthy and Active...
This makes sense .. The Chinese and Japanese drink hot tea with their meals ...not cold water. Maybe it
is time we adopt their drinking habit while eating!!! Nothing to lose, everything to gain...
For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you.
The cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed.
It will slow down the digestion.
Once this 'sludge' reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than
the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer.. It is best
to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal.
A serious note about heart attacks: Women should know that not every heart attack symptom is going
to be the left arm hurting.
Be aware of intense pain in the jaw line.
You may never have the first chest pain during the course of a heart attack..
Nausea and intense sweating are also common symptoms.
60% of people who have a heart attack while they are asleep do not wake up.
Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let's be careful and be aware. The more we know, the
better chance we could survive...
A cardiologist says if everyone who gets this mail sends it to everyone they know, you can save a
person's life!!
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AFTER WORDS:
Last night I went to bed with my inability to face 'my death' and 'impending insolvency'. I shall not be
able to provide adequate resources for survival [of my dependents].
I am convinced of their (my death or my insolvency) certainty. One can come earlier than the other
(insolvency before death). That is, my few years before death can be very very painful. No place to stay,
no money to provide my dependents that includes me., nothing to expect, and a beggars life to lead.
[My determination not to become Buddha anyhow. ]
All these possible futures are very real. Plus the desirability not to go mad thinking about this is truly a
BURDEN.
It is very serious matter for me and I have devoted many years of my life on this problem alone.
I know that my death is the solution to all the problems of the world - more so because I am the cause of
it, This is the only reason my identity must remain unknown to any one.
Any one knows of me, shall finish me off definitely to solve his or her problem. Of course it shall solve
my problem too. But I am searching
for some other solution than this obvious one at this moment. I am looking if there exist another
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solution without me dying. In other words - I am not willing to give up my fun of living even though
it is unbearable burden of thoughts).
Is there any escape route for me? [Remember Dadhichis bones were required to create the weapon that
could destroy the devil (the embodiment of wrong). What is special of Dadhichi? Apparently he
was synonymous to truth not having done any fraud ever in his life - but he too willingly gave up his
bones - 'TRUTH must prevail'. ]
Times have changed, I happen to be the devil incarnation threatening world peace and existence (having
done no honest act so far). My elimination is necessity but then I am not going to give up my life
so easily. I wish to survive the death of this world and I do not mind the burden of thoughts that is
greater than that of Atlas! There is no way that I am the devil can be eliminated since there is no
Dadhich anymore. All messiahs wielding fingers and words fixing all problems - healthcare, bank,
insurance, lobbying, livelihood, war, economy - pushed our solvency over the edge long before our
physical death. Sound of Words no longer has the ability to stop avalanche of destruction caused the
silent unseen harvest of poisonous fruits of our deeds. Nature too is not very obliging - it is gorging so
much of fossil oil to our shores that no amount of barges would stop it destroying more livelihood than
ever.
The monster created by us is our own deeds - our WORDS - we have made mountains out of moles and
moles out of mountains! Befittingly we have our leaders who are words and words too - with slights
of their tongues - they generate wealth, bring down inflation, create livelihood, cure illness, and bring
world peace! SUCCESSFUL FRAUDS. In this atmosphere of words only FRAUDS alone succeed.
Waking up the day you are TRULY happy - you shall know that I (the devil) am no more and you don't
need to send WORDS OF HOPE no more.
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LORENZ CURVE
Couple of years back I found out that some of our esteemed University Professors of Economics do not
understand what Lorenz curve is, what possible shapes it can have, and its relationship with income
distribution or wealth distribution and its significance in relation to Politics, Governance, Banks, Money
printing, or Bail out.
[I do not invite any debate or counter points - I care less if you read my writings or not. This is strictly
one way communication]
Lorenz curves whether income or wealth shows distribution of the same over a nation. The curve has to
lie strictly below the hypotenuse of the right angle triangle with unit base and unit height. The area
between the hypotenuse and the curve is the measure of income distribution. it can be zero minimum,
maximum being half (area of the triangle, when one individual own everything, or has all income). 'Zero'
is healthy, 'Half' is unhealthy. In US it is nearly 'Half' in fact it has crossed theoretical limit long ago!!!!
How could this happen for a democracy is unbelievable. Does it mean that out of 100 person, only one
person works and earn while 99 persons are being just lazy and do not work. No this has been achieved
systematically, by the system we have developed by legislation year after year. When Government
decides to print money and give it Bank - it gives loan. Banks are supposed return back this loan.
However they don't. The money leaves the Bank and accumulates in individuals possessions who run
this outfits. However they protected by legislation, and further protected by Government who writes off
this Loan and their inability. They are further given loans to recover their loss. No money that goes out
of Bank really gets to borrower - borrower only gets some short time material possession - like a place
stay - a car to roam around. They simply do not belong to them but mortgaged to bank. While this be so
when Banks are bailed out, or loaned money from Government - it is the people of the country is giving
equal share to the Bank not out of choice but by virtue of elected officials. When Bank's are bailed out,
the entire nation goes negative and owes the loan instead of Banks.
Lorenz curve drops below X-axis in the negative Y-axis for most of 0 to 1 of x-axis till it shoots up to 1.
Thus income distribution of USA has crossed the theoretical limit of 1/2 for quite some time now. As far
As Income distribution goes.
What about wealth distribution?
Wealth is dynamic changes over time - it is land mass, production, value addition, depreciation - but for
Lorenz curve it is again One (1). How this wealth is distributed over the entire population? Here again
curve should remain between 0 and 1/2. 0 is desirable for social health, 1/2 is worst case. For USA, it is
1/2. How could it happen in so short a time when average American working hard and producing owns
nothing but Debt? It can no longer be a surprise.
Here are two links to if one is inclined to know more.
http://www.lcurve.org/
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Quoting from a recently-published book by political philosopher David Schweickart,
If we divided the income of the US into thirds, we find that the top ten percent of
the population gets a third, the next thirty percent gets another third, and the
bottom sixty percent get the last third. If we divide the wealth of the US into thirds,
we find that the top one percent own a third, the next nine percent own another
third, and the bottom ninety percent claim the rest. (Actually, these percentages,
true a decade ago, are now out of date. The top one percent are now estimated to
own between forty and fifty percent of the nation's wealth, more than the
combined wealth of the bottom 95%.)
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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lorenz_curve
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LET ME HAVE THE PLEASURE
http://www.thehindu.com/news/international/article520782.ece
[It was a winter late hours in 1985 I had my extreme happy moments with this person in TV - I did not
know him then and where he is or what he is - I was taken out of bed to listen and see him in person in a
Black and White TV. I was living alone, TV was off. I distinctly remember it was celebration and the music
all around - I never heard that music again.
That was my first and last.]
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NEW WORLD
Unlike many I am not good at anything. I am being advised how to be successful. I know now it is an
impossibility and I do not mind being unsuccessful. To be frank I am bit worried if I by chance become
successful. It must be tremendous burden. Our finger wielding, sonorous speech maker chin up looking
at the sky well dressed President of ours is realizing already his burden of lies. How come he has become
so irrelevant to Americans?
There is a saying oft repeated in India - it is Hindu or Buddhist saying - Karma. No one can escape the
fruit of his/her Karma - he/she has to eat that without leaving out even a morsel. Of course many book
of religion have a simpler route to escape Karma - prophet himself shall come to take you to heaven
after your death. In other words you are free to do anything and escape the Fruit of your Karma that is
prohibited for Hindus.
I am an ignorant and I do not know which is true and what truth is.
However I have these bits of knowledge not adapted from any book or saying or university but proved
myself and I have seen as eye witness. (Further I can see that any moment I chose to re-verify.
There are no two points in this universe that is disconnected.
There is no black or white hole in this universe - further all pair of points in the universe are equidistant.
Most import findings of me is that - at the center of universe an alien entity lives that is not part of
universe and that was before universe. Nothing escapes this entity - it knows me knows you and knows
all. When I wake up in the morning it reconstructs me and the world so that I can keep doing whatever I
wish to do in the same old world.
THIS I DO NOT LIKE AT ALL!!!
Waking up, I do whatever I wish to do - I do wrong - I justify my doing saying many things - struggle for
survival - patriotism - American dream - XXXism ....
I am an idiot and I do not understand the theory of Karma - I do not have brain enough to rely on
prophet to come in person to take me to the other world - free transport and free luxurious pleasant
living for all time to come (in case there is time).
As an idiot I can't answer a question that has been peeping in my mind all the time.
Why the world has to be reconstructed exactly same as I left it when I was tired of it and went to sleep.
Why can't it be different - why all selfish can't forget their selfishness and starts sharing -why war can't
stop - why our president no longer is commander in chief but has the strength of mind to stop the war negotiate a peace treaty - creates an army of peace keepers where 50% is only men and rest is women
and all are equally armed and equipped. Why can't I wake into a world where resources are shared
where there is no superiority?
I do not find the merit of the same lousy world is being reconstructed by that entity - know all- so that I
keep hating my all the wakeful moments - when I wake up.
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Why that entity at the center of universe is not an idiot same as me - DOES NOT KNOW - all blundering and
I wake up into a truly new world that I DO NOT KNOW.
I do not understand Karma nor do I understand why I need wait for my death to be taken to better living
- why that can't happen to me tomorrow morning when I wake up.
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ANTI-AMERICAN
American words are no longer English.
Free Market is never to mean Free Market.
In America alone, a supreme court Judge need never have experience of being a Judge. A President need
never have any experience in Governance to head a Government.
In America alone a million innocent children are fighting wars every day for many decades for those who
make money from Americanism.
In America alone, every new born baby is welcomed with $125000 debt by legislation in order to
give money to Banks to enable them survive!
In America alone, Americanism is sponsored to destroy The Strength of America - Health Wealth
Development Education Self-Sufficiency Tolerance and Environment.
Democracy died here many a century ago with sponsorship and funding election. Now corporations are
sponsoring Democracy elsewhere since economy has no sign of life.
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Truth has disappeared.
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ANTI-AMERICAN is the only American free spirit left and that too shall disappear by perhaps
the beginning of next month with sponsored political process.
http://www.reuters.com/article/idUSTRE67R1KP20100828
The free market is anti-American
by Mark Sumner
Sun Aug 15, 2010 at 06:00:02 AM PDT
The pair of words at the top of the conservative-dictionary these days has to be those Bobbsey Twins of
political attack: anti-American and un-American. Michelle Bachman has called on the press to
investigate "anti-American" members of Congress. Rand Paul called the president "un-American" for
trying to hold BP accountable for the damage to the Gulf region. Oliver North says that President Obama
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has a "core-philosophy of being anti-American." The appropriately named Dick Morris says that Obama
is the "first anti-American president."
This isn't exactly a new coinage. The un and anti have been pulled out many times to fling against those
who have in the past protested some aspect of national policy, especially those who've failed to cheer
loudly enough for war. But these days it's not so much generic hippy punching that brings out the twins.
Instead they're generally fired over the bow of anyone the right sees as deviating from the one true path
-- that of the unrestrained free market. President Obama is a frequent target because of his many real
and imagined slights against the market. After all, while the current president didn't start the bank
bailout (even if many Americans think he did), he did support at least mild regulation of Wall Street run
wild, and he spent all that money on "shovel ready" infrastructure products even though it meant
running up the debt, he did invest in the failing auto industry, and he... um, well, he's done lots of other
socialist things too. They're sure of it. Barack Obama has even promoted the kind of America where
children give away lemonade (really, that's what's wrong with America -- too much free lemonade).
Conservatives pull out the "anti-American" tag in going after every intrusion of the government into the
economy. They leave little doubt that America and the "free market" are synonymous. But here't here's
the thing: there is an American eonomic system, and while defining what it is takes a little time, defining
what it's not is simple. It's not the free market.
The American economic system -- the system defined by George Washington and Alexander Hamilton -came directly out of the challenges faced by our nation. America, as a new country, was at a huge
disadvantage to Europe when it came to the ability to produce manufactured goods. American-made
goods at the time were often lesser quality, more expensive, or both when compared to products
coming from European factories. Both men were well aware of free market principles (On the Wealth of
Nations was published in 1776) and there were those among the founders that pushed Washington to
run the country along a purely market-driven philosophy. An unregulated free market backed up by the
gold standard was the basis of the "English System," and the British had enjoyed more than a little
success.
Washington and Hamilton might have emulated the nation they had just defeated on the battlefield, but
that wasn't the path they chose. Instead, steep tariffs were imposed on imported goods. These inflated
the price of products from European factories and allowed American makers to both capture more of
the market and turn a higher profit. With that money, American factories were enlarged and became
more numerous.
There was another problem at the time -- states were nearly bankrupt. The cost of financing the War of
Independence had emptied the coffers, and many states were having trouble paying off their loans. At
the same time, hundreds of state and local banks were operating under different rules, different rates,
even different currencies. The country was awash in speculators taking advantage of differences in
exchange rates and shipping costs to rack up fortunes while farmers and craftsmen suffered. Think Wall
Street was crazy in 2007? Imagine a country with dozens of different currencies and no one regulating
the exchange rates. Now imagine how many people learned to game the system.
To address this, Hamilton proposed that the federal government bail-out the states and regulate the
financial markets. There was only one problem with this idea -- the federal government was also in debt,
and banks were unlikely to loan them money that would be used to regulate those same institutions.
Hamilton had an answer for that. He proposed that the US government become the largest stockholder
in a bank. Not an existing bank, a new bank. The government would create this bank as a private
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company, but the government would own the majority of stock. The government would also lay down
the rules for the bank, including limits on who could buy stock and what type of investments the bank
could make. From this new bank, the government would borrow the money to pay off the states and
address federal needs.
The first and largest federal need? The $2 million it would take to buy stock in the new bank. The
solution? The new bank loaned it to us. Got that? We made the bank, the bank then loaned us the
money to buy the bank. Even paying back the loan was more than we could afford, so Hamilton made a
proposal popular with politicians in any age, a "sin tax." In this case, it was a tax on imported and
domestic spirits (to see how well that went, just look up the Whiskey Rebellion).
With the money from the new government-owned bank, the US could take care of its own debts and
those of the states. The government could regulate currency and set rules on trading. It also started in
on a series of large infrastructure projects -- roads, canals, and public buildings.
That, brothers and sisters, was the American economic system. Those who worry that we've wandered
too far from the vision of the founding fathers might want to remember that in George Washington's
first term, the government was involved in:
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selectively restricting imports
bailing out debts of states
being the majority owner of a private company
clamping down on fiscal speculation
executing a "stimulus plan" of infrastructure projects
And all of this goodness was paid for by new taxes.
The American school of economics was founded on these ideas: selective tariffs, government regulation
of banks, and strong investment in infrastructure. Under later presidents a fourth plank was added to
this platform -- investment in public education.
Within a space of decades, the American school of economics gave us... America. America the economic
power that matched, then surpassed any of its European rivals. The success of American economics was
so clear that Lincoln's economic advisor, could write these words...
Two systems are before the world;... One looks to increasing the necessity of commerce; the other to
increasing the power to maintain it. One looks to underworking the Hindoo, and sinking the rest of the
world to his level; the other to raising the standard of man throughout the world to our level. One looks
to pauperism, ignorance, depopulation, and barbarism; the other to increasing wealth, comfort,
intelligence, combination of action, and civilization. One looks towards universal war; the other towards
universal peace.
That other system, the sinking, pauper-ignorance-war making system? That was the English System, the
system we now call "the free market."
Of course, the American school of economics was never followed by 100% of Americans. It's fortunes
waxed and waned, taking huge hits at the start of the 20th century -- particularly under Woodrow
Wilson. These days, we're taught to believe that protectionism was one of the causes of the 1929 stock
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market crash, but the truth is it was leaving the old system that caused a unsupportable increase in
stock prices. Reduction of tariffs, easing of regulation, and the end of the National Bank system moved
money away from internal investments and toward international trade and speculation. The SmootHawley Tariff Act was signed into being after the crash in an attempt to restore some fragment of the
old system. It's not clear what, if any, effect these tariffs had, but under the New Deal funds were
diverted from speculation back to infrastructure -- pulling America up from the depression.
These days we're also fed the idea that in this "flat" world, any attempt to return to the American
system would be disastrous. We couldn't possibly impose tariffs as post-war Japan did until it was
operating at a trade surplus. We couldn't possibly deal that way with our "partners" such as China -where American automobiles face steep tariffs so steep that their products are uncompetitive unless
they partner with Chinese-owned companies. The evidence of the last century is that nations practicing
a "free trade" system, always export jobs to countries practicing the American system. But hey, America
can't possibly use the American system. It would be... un-American.
The free market system was not the original economic system of America. It wasn't the system that
brought us to international power, not the system that carried us through World War II, not written into
our Constitution in any way. In fact, one of the primary powers granted federal authority is the
regulation of the economy. It was clearly understood that economic anarchy was incompatible with
democracy.
In saying that any move against an absolute free market is un-American, conservatives are declaring that
Washington was un-American, Hamilton was un-American, Lincoln was un-American.
The truth is that the free market is opposed to the American economic system, but America the country
has no predefined economic system. It's not hard-coded that we follow the American system, the free
market system, or any other system. One of the goals of the constitution was to give us the flexibility to
adapt economic policy to the times. Pretending that we must remain wedded to one system no matter
what (even when that system has as long a record of failure as the so-called free market) -- that's really
anti-American.
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AN AMERICAN BOOK
In my cruise through American Literature I read voraciously whatever I came across or suggested. I am
not claiming wisdom but I got acquainted with what I thoughts – AMERICAN.
Decades later I came to read American literature again along with my children in their schools and
college curriculum and I sadly realized what I thought American Literature – is not American in America.
Repeatedly any number of times one is taught Anne’s Diary (70 plus years old written by a child) or
American Constitution (rewritten every day by many many adults).
Once upon a time I used to spend lot of time in book stores – now even when I am waiting for many
hours in a Airport I do not by mistake get into a book stores. I no longer like to read anything American
or American Dream Autobiography or rag to billionaire success story.
The kind of education America provides for its citizen shall not enable them to write any literature of
importance any more.
Once upon a time I used to work in Germany. I used sit near a window on 6th floor restaurant alone and
watch out to distant Alps while taking my lunch. I was curious to find out more of Germany how it is
reconstructing itself is there really great thinkers or writers - the land of ...I did not know Germany but I
used to be very pleased to visit bookstores where many hundreds are just sitting on footsteps and
reading some book or other and it is normal. There is hardly any space. One person started coming a
sitting with me in my lonely lunch - he could speak English to my surprise. I used to discuss thinkers and
writers of new Germany - how they are reconstructing the one's great nation. On my last day he shared
his visiting card and saw me off to my room. From the card I knew he was the head ..
I did not of course take up this writing today in order to criticize American writers but to praise one
writer who every American born must read in order to be able to create new America – He is not
Salinger Fitzgerald Heller Vonnegut Asimov Miller Whitman Blake or Thoreau – he is Ray Bradbury!
I am again not going to talk about his nightmarish prediction of America’s education system – that has
come true even in his life time – Fahrenheit 451
http://www.raybradbury.com/books/fahrenheit451.html
Instead I am going to write about another book that all American’s must read. Why I would not explain.
The name of the book is The Illustrated Man http://www.raybradbury.com/books/illustratedmanhc.html
A man without his conscious choice is born illustrated. Whenever he falls asleep his tattooed body
comes alive with animated shows of incidence from past future or present – real and not imaginary. He
hides from society since he shall otherwise be killed – no one wants to see reality or know all is
connected in this world that too in one single body - self.
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~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Words often mean something that does not exist in the realms of words. Often words are abstraction.
If one such word is not god!
what that means is not in the realm of words - it means nothing but some thing little more than nothing.
I am totally surrounded by reality - I could do nothing about - if I wish give it a name 'God' - it is
necessary and sufficient. I may swing my arms wildly or shout or jump - if I am capable of I may burst an
atom bomb - reality does not change - it still engulfs me entirely.
Is there a superior to this (reality envelop over reality) - if there is one I would not ever know.
Having said this if I write or pen a single dot or word and try to explain or even simply think as I am doing
now - I am dirtying the atmosphere or polluting the same - they simply clouds my vision and senses and
creates a little hell or confusion for me - my clarity is lost.
I am not only required to do nothing but I must not do anything unless I love to make me miserable for a
while.
If only I stop a moment to see the reality for myself What I see is not words.
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I ONLY ASK IDIOTIC QUESTIONS
What religion has to do with being President of USA?
In fact that ought to be very last thing, unless one wishes to politicize Religion itself. Right now US
politics is in a mess with so many religious views - Semitic, Christian, Mohammedan etc etc. We have
already got into a mess with Iraq because Jesus talked to Bush for going into war (according to Bush).
Now I hear he talked to Obama to bail out Banks Insurance hedge funds or Wall Street. It is high time
one focuses on competence of a person not their personal God who always forgive them of all their sins
bluffs or beliefs.
We have a Government that is derailed due to religious beliefs for quite some time now. Presidents
must believe in America and American people and not 10 banks or corporations or his advisors who are
their selections.
Today the problem facing is no Governance but manipulations (even on selection of Judges). There is
absolutely no place to go for Justice, unless one likes to face the drama of voting on guilty not guilty!
Perhaps God is the only trust worthy choice but then which one - yours .... theirs ...mine
Now if I decide on one then do I put it on display with a turban or beard or shaved head or locket or
gown or prayer so that all know - including gods in question?
Does any god make one tolerant?
If so why one has to go after another person for his/her choice of God?
Does one (judge) always have to be biased and that too for one's entire life time and without choice?
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REPRESENTATION OF HINDU IN SENATE
http://www.pbs.org/rootsinthesand/dalip.pdf
I enjoyed reading this article on Dalip.
Last Saturday I was invited to see a film rajneeti. I have had my brush with politics and dalits. could
recognize jagjiban ram or perhaps dhirendra brhmachari etc there are so many similarities with
characters if no mahabharata - violence is so much part and parcel to having access to money property
and muscles - police administration sena law ...
I live in a world I am confused and can't extricate myself from the inseparable connectivity any - I can't
be some of it - nor can I side with any
I am very confused and I know it - I do not find reason for violence nor for non-violence - nor do I know
why all these - except as a personal quest to extricate myself, and be nothing or no one - in other words
absent.
I am absent in India for 10 years - I am absent in isikolkata for two years
someone who paid for Rajneeti invited me to his house. I usually go whenever I called to his place - I
usually talk extempore about my version of this world and my inability to participate in it - political
technology social whatever - I can't see any more reason except that I know there is no two points in
this universe disconnected - they are in fact of identical composition - exactly same.
That morning I received an email link from Sayed Akhtar where he was so critical about a nation ...I had
nothing to say ... I really do not know reason why two countries to be thought different when they are
exactly same. I was talking about accelerators in living things. Accelerators not only present in animals
but present in plants too. A kind of enzyme sprinkled on heart taken out of a frog say would make it
contract and expand. These accelerators working on my cells on my fingers making me write whatever
non-sense I am writing. These accelerators make fire fly to to glow and wasp to fly. This make a python
to catch its prey and swallow. I do not really know the reason or purpose of all the activities I see. It was
not very long back Indians were not permitted to go to Israel. I remember my brother was supposed to
play Bermuda bowl in Israel but did not get necessary permission from external ministry. I was telling
why entire middle-east can’t put up a blockade, but I really say nothing - I AM CONFUSED - My reasons
have left me.
Grandson of Mohamed Sufi king of Iraq was asked once by one of his student - why is it not possible to
spread wisdom to all so that all the strife in this world can be ended. Adil became silent - after a long
time he said the tools to spread truth is not yet in place - technology is enough to transmit quickly even
to handful to dispel prejudice hypothesis and learning - however since he has asked this question surely one of his descendant in time shall be rewarded to invent that technology!
My host who is finance director for many billion dollar university started telling a lecture he just seen of
Mohammed Yunus in NYC where he has opened 3 banks. He started telling while he was business school
in Calcutta - one of his teacher in every class used to write one sentence in the blackboard and repeat it
before he started teaching. He no longer remembers what he taught but that sentence is written in his
mind - since they all as student used say in chorus as soon as he used to enter the class - "Profit is not
the only motive in Business". Of course - this teacher never got offended but used to reciprocate "Someday you shall understand this." Mohammed Yunus in NYC in CNN reminded of this. He has
started his micro financing having got 3 large spaces in NYC Manhattan district from NY Mayor - each
worth several million dollar for free. He was lecturing many thousands students from business school
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about his Bank. He is giving interest free loan to Black economically deprived people of NYC without
interest without security. He was deeply asked questions from all these business school graduates
students - how this is feasible - how he can run the expense and where he can get money to distribute.
Yunus told them - kindly shut off your all learning and lessons of the business school. I am not here to
discuss your knowledge nor what you are taught. My Bank serves those who have nothing and to
acquire the ability to achieve economic survival of their selves. Profit is not the motive for my Banks. The
money that I have, it has come from those people who has benefited from my banks and they are
investing. The place I have for my Banks is donation. I am talking to you – I expect whenever you have
free time – you shall provide free service to my bank for the people who can't get any loan to start any
remunerative business from nowhere else.
Yunus is successful - he did not lack free unpaid workers for his three banks in NYC - they lined up to
provide free service to his Bank.
Kartik's daughter spent 3 months in Bangladesh with Yunus after her masters at
LSE. http://aner1kind.xanga.com/
I am busy inventing tools for communication!
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TRUTHS
The core of the universe is not multi-dimensional cube with each axis being is ordered numbers without
any first as physicist tell you, neither it is a periodic table, or axiomatic as Mathematicians or
philosopher would like you to believe, since I alone speak truth and whatever I speak is truth. After I am
silenced - there shall not be no more truth except my words. Since my words are truth they can't die and
all have to do is speak them in whatever manner they wish to speak truth.
It is true since these are my original words - the core of universe is sex. This sex neither numbers
ordered enumerable or recognizable at the surface of universe where we live. These sexes has caused
the birth of universe - involved in all the changes that you see in the universe all the time. These sexes
would also cause the death of universe overt sexual indulgence. As soon as Sexes die that is become
asexual - universe shall be no more.
You may ask the question where from Sexes came. Answer to the same is 'Core universe Sex and logic or
time order or chronology or ordering of any kind - before or after. Many scientists called economists
have already discovered that time is not ordered at all to them history repeats. Some great truth
speaker in pornography books already discovered Time Quake and recorded great many instances of
same - where in they appeared unpredictably in past or future with glitches in other dimensional coordinate too.
Some brilliant cartographer known to be discoverer of America who was supposed to land in India
instead landed somewhere else due Time and other Dimensional Quake. Frankly there is no quake of
any kind - our dimensional basis and the assumptions about Dimension all imaginary and not possible in
universe given the composition and origin of universe.
Time has no relationship with order or what mathematicians make you believe as Real Numbers. There
is no real numbers yet to be born out of Sexual intersections of Sexes at the core of universe and they
do not know yet how to create Real Numbers. Sexes produced all kinds of people creatures - some are
normal delivery some are abnormal and become normal by virtue of numbers.
Questions regarding number of sexes too is irrelevant - sexes have nothing to do with numbers nor they
have anything to do with dna rna amino acid genome or protein or c h o n - sexes have nothing do with
them - all these stories are creation of some peculiar abnormal creatures called Micro-Biologist they
look normal like most human beings and are by products of sexual intercourses.
I can't predict Time Quake - so there may not be any more truths...
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WHAT IS MULLA NASSIRUDDIN
Nowhere in the world there is any doubt about Mulla Nassiruddin that he is different. How did he really
manage to survive in all condition for so long by itself makes him unique reality! One young man
decided to shadow him and find out.
He traced Mulla to a river bank and presently saw him sitting down. Mullah made a swipe of hand and
delicious fragrant Halwa in a saucer appeared in Mullah's hand. Mullah ate the same. Mullah made
another swipe with other hand - a delightful Sherbet in frosty glass appeared and Mullah drank the
same. With gesture of hands the saucer and glass both vanished.
The young man could contain no more and decided to become Mullah's disciple.
" I shall accept you as my disciple, young man, if only you are able to answer a question of mine. I shall
however give you a choice - What do you prefer a hard one or an easy one?" Mulla asked.
The young man wished to impress Mulla and asked for the hard question.
"You already made a wrong choice, young man, you should have asked for easy one."
The young man readily agreed to try an easy question from Mullah.
"How do you construct a fence around your house, so that your chicken go and eat in your neighbor’s
garden while your neighbors chicken can't cross over to your garden?" Mullah asked.
The young man could not answer.
"I appreciate your desire to learn from me - someday you shall meet with a master who would accept
you as his student".
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SMART FIRST GRADER
A beautiful Madam was having trouble with one of her students in 1st Grade class. Madam
asked, What is your problem?'
Boy answered, 'I'm too smart for the first-grade. My sister is in the third-grade and I'm smarter
than she is! I think I should be in the 4th Grade!'
Madam had enough. She took the Boy to the principal's office. While the Boy waited in the
outer office, madam explained to the principal what the situation was. The principal told
Madam he would give the boy a test and if he failed to answer any of his
questions he was to go back to the first-grade and behave.She agreed.
The Boy was brought in and the conditions were explained to him and he agreed to take the
test.
Principal: 'What is 3 x 3?'
Boy.: '9'.
Principal: 'What is 6 x 6?'
Boy.: '36'.
And so it went with every question the principal thought a 4th grade should know. The principal
looks at Madam and tells her, 'I think Boy can go to the 4th grade.'
Madam says to the principal, 'I have some of my own questions.
Can I ask him?' The principal and Boy both agreed.
Madam asks, 'what does a cow have four of that I have only two of'?
Boy, after a moment 'Legs.'
Madam: 'What is in your pants that you have but I do not have?'
Boy. Pockets.
Madam: What starts with a C and ends with a T, is hairy, oval, and delicious and contains thin
whitish liquid?
Boy. Coconut
Madam: What goes in hard and pink then comes out soft and sticky?
The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer, Boy was taking
charge.
Boy..: Bubblegum
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Madam: What does a man do standing up, a woman does sitting down and a dog does on three
legs?
The principal's eyes open really wide and before he could stop the answer...
Boy. Shake hands
Madam: You stick your poles inside me. You tie me down to get me up. I get wet before you do.
Boy. Tent
Madam: A finger goes in me. You fiddle with me when you're bored. The best man always has
me first.
The Principal was looking restless, a bit tense and took one large Patiala Vodka peg.
Boy. Wedding Ring
Madam: I come in many sizes. When I'm not well, I drip. When you blow me, you feel good.
Boy. Nose
Madam: I have a stiff shaft. My tip penetrates. I come with a quiver.
Boy. Arrow
Madam: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' that means lot of heat and excitement?
Boy. Fire truck
Madam: What word starts with a 'F' and ends in 'K' & if u don't get it, u have to use ur hand.
Boy.: Fork
Madam: What is it that all men have one of its longer on some men than on others, the pope
doesn't use his and a man gives it to his wife after they're married?
Boy. SURNAME.
Madam: What part of the man has no bone but has muscles, has lots of veins, like pumping, &
is responsible for making love?
Boy. HEART.
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The principal breathed a sigh of relief and said to the teacher,
'Make this boy the PRINCIPAL, I got the last ten questions wrong myself!'.
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MULLAH
A famous Fakir was claiming he could teach an illiterate person to read by a lightening technique.
Nassirudin stepped out, "very well teach me now". Fakir touched Mullah's forehead and said "Go home
immediately and read a book."
Half an hour later Mullah is back in the market place looking for the Fakir, but he has gone on his way.
"Can you read now?" Someone asked.
"Yes I can read - but that is not the point. Where is that charlatan?"
"How can he be charlatan, when he caused you to read without learning?"
"Because this book, which is authoritative, says: 'All Fakirs are frauds'."
......
Nassiruddin belonged to a club called 'The Assembly of those not afraid of their wives.'
One day chairman, in his customary manner called out "O all of you not afraid of your wives - be
seated."
All took their seat except the Mullah.
"What is the matter Nassirudin, are you afraid your wife?"
"I am not afraid of her but I can't seat down. She beat me so hard last night that I am black and blue."
......
One day Mullah was carrying a plate of food. A joker tripped him up, Mullah was very angry.
"For that", he roared, "Something terrible is going to happen to you!"
This startled the joker, who tripped over a stone and twisted his ankle. Feeling sorry for himself and
repentant too, at such punishment, he called out: "I am sorry Nassirudin; but you see I have had my
dessert."
"Not at all," replied Mullah, "that must be requital for lesser misdeeds. When my curse hits you, you will
be in no position to apologize."
......
'Reasonable people see the things in the same way,' said the khan of Samarkand to Nassirudin one day.
"That is the trouble of 'reasonable' people," said Mullah, "they always see only one thing out of two
possibilities."
Khan called the divines and philosophers to explain, they all thought Nassirudin is talking non-sense.
Next day Nassirudin rode through the town seating on his donkey facing its tail, arrived at Khan's palace
where he was sitting among the nobles. Nassiruddin said:
"Would your highness ask these people what they have just seen?"
When asked, they all said 'a man riding back-to-front on a donkey'.
"That is exactly my point," said Mullah. "The trouble with them all is that they did not notice that it is me
who was right and the donkey the wrong way around."
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NARIMAN’S SPEECH
Transcript of Keynote Address delivered
by Mr.F.S.Nariman
at the Inaugural of Post Graduate Diploma in “Judging & Court Management”
on 16th November, 2009 at 5.30 p.m.
at the National Law University, New Delhi
Sector – 14, Dwarka, New Delhi
Thank you for inviting me to deliver the Key note Address at this Inaugural function.
The profession of law is said to be a noble one, and old dodderers like me have been brought up on this
fable. Yes – it is only a fable.
Because after being 59 years in active practice. I am convinced that there are far too many dents in the
practising lawyer’s self-styled image of nobility.
The American lawyer Marc Galanter when he was last in India a month ago told us about the prevalent
joke in the US: about lawyers. The joke is in the form of a question – answer.
The question is:
“What do you say to 50000 lawyers dropped to the bottom of the deepest ocean?
And the answer is: “Well, that’s good beginning”.
That is what most people think about practising lawyers in India and in America.
I do honestly believe that the activity of judging cases is far nobler. This is why I was delighted when the
Chief Justice of Delhi told me at a dinner that we both attended sometime ago that a course was being
introduced in the Delhi National Law School University for a Post-graduate Diploma in “Judging and
Court Management” – I am quite excited because it is a novel idea. I believe it opens a niche or entry to
enthusiastic and scholarly young men and women of the law straight from the law colleges to the Bench.
I have known for many years the Chief Justice of Delhi and your Vice-Chancellor Dr. Ranbir Singh.
Excellence has been their motto.
In fact Ajit Shah I have known ever since he was a practising lawyer in Bombay and for the many long
years that he was sitting as a Judge of the Bombay High Court.
I have always been of the firm opinion that he is a role-model for all Judges and I say this in the presence
of the Chief Justice of India, because I know he does not disagree with this assessment. The fact that
Justice A.P. Shah is not yet in the Supreme Court is a God-send to the Judges and lawyers of the Delhi
High Court but it is a matter of disappointment for the rest of us who have known him personally and
this is only because of the vagaries of our present system of judicial appointments.
The primacy for recommending appointments is no longer with the Chief Justice –
You must all know that the present system of appointment has a hoary past because many Chief Justices
ago, the Government of the time whose party commanded more than a two-thirds majority in
Parliament had said that Judges had to reflect the philosophy of the Government in power and only
“forward looking” Judges would henceforth be appointed to the High Judicial Offices of State.
Human nature being what it is, some Judges stepped out of line and offered their services saying that
they were highly forward looking - and it was to reverse this trend of jumping-on-the-bandwagon that
was responsible for the somewhat strained and difficult-to-explain interpretation of Article 124 in what
has come to be known as the Second Judges Case: The decision said that Judges had to be
recommended not by the CJI but by a triumvirate consisting of the CJI and two senior most Judges, and
any such recommendation that was not accepted by the Government was to be treated as being vitiated
by mala fides.
This is how it all began: and it was only because, again many CJI’s ago, that when one of them who shall
be nameless asserted primacy and wanted a particular nominee appointed which neither his colleagues
in the collegium nor Government wanted – that a Presidential Reference to the Supreme Court was
conceived to gain time – ostensibly to interpret the ruling in the Second Judges case – But the ruling was
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not disturbed except that the collegium of three only became (in the third Judges case) a collegium of
five. But experience has shown (and you will pardon me Chief Justice for saying so) that collegiums
whether of 3 or 5 have not worked.
A most glaring instance has been that of the Chief Justice of a High Court, the Chief Justice of Madhya
Pradesh who was in line for appointment many vacancies ago - at least two years ago - but could not or
would not be recommended only because (and this is so well known as to be almost indisputable) – only
because one member of the colleguim steadfastly refused to accept him for appointment as Judge of
the Supreme Court. So he was over-looked – not once not twice but three times.
The moment that member of the collegium retired at age 65, the newly constituted collegium
immediately recommended the Chief Justice of M.P. and he has been rightly appointed by the President
as a Judge of the Supreme Court and is to be sworn in tomorrow morning. This instance speaks
volumes for the current judicial appointment procedure – making more comment superfluous.
Since Government and the Judges will not have an Independent Commission for appointment of Judges,
I would rather have the old position restored than the uncertain present one: viz. better that the
Primacy of the Chief Justice of India be restored when Judges were appointed by the Government of the
Day in consultation with the CJI: When he was not mandated to only consult with the senior-most but
could ask anyone of his colleagues.
The reason why I got this choleric thought off my chest is because I hate to speak behind anyone’s back.
Hence I thought it best to proclaim what I and many members of the Bar think – here in the presence of
the CJI, and not in his absence.
Ultimately you Post-Graduates Diploma seekers are going to be Judges and you must know what is the
current situation and current thinking. This is why I have let off a little steam right at the beginning.
Now the great question - can you be a good Judge if you haven’t practised the law?
Well Chief Justice Venkatachaliah thought – not - and he was a great Chief Justice –
When I mentioned to him the name of a very eminent academician Prof. Madhava Menon for a seat on
the highest Court – our Constitution itself provides that an eminent jurist may be so appointed who is
not necessarily a practising lawyer - Chief Justice Venkatachaliah demurred and said that without
practice at the Bar it is just not possible to have a good Judge.
That was many years ago. Today – I am not so sure. This experiment which the University has now
embarked on – is in my opinion is a good experiment-almost as good if not a better than putting 50000
lawyers at the bottom of the deepest ocean. But, as the saying goes, the goodness of the pudding is in
the eating, and four or five years of intense tuition will give us the ultimate verdict - whether we can
produce good Judges from intelligent law-students who have not practised the law. Your training
programme would have to be intense and sustained and you must work hard. Spend one hour a day in
the Delhi High Court and one hour on Mondays and Fridays in the Supreme Court and you will witness
the enormous work-load.
Abroad in civil law countries they have career judges (as they are called) and the system has worked well
in European countries. I don’t see why we in India cannot succeed.
I must complement the University on the subjects that have been chosen for this course. They are well
thought out and I particularly like the course set out in paper 1.2 and 1.3 – intensive functional study of
civil procedure, evidence and rules of Court and the study of Criminal procedure, evidence and rules of
Court. The three great Codes of our legal system are the CPC the Cr.PC and the law of evidence: and no
one can say he knows that law unless he or she has mastered these foundational under pinnings of our
legal system.
Everything else – including constitutional law you can pick up if you are studious, but CPC and Cr.PC and
Evidence you must know – yes, all its provisions you must know at instant recall: this is why District
Judges who come to the High Court, and then some of them are brought to the Supreme Court, are
highly regarded for their grounding in the three Great Codes.
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Believe me, generally speaking practising lawyers who become judges are not that familiar with the
three Great Codes – because many lawyers during the past 25 years have hardly conducted a trial civil or
criminal: and it is in trials that a practising lawyer can show his true mettle. The judge who sits in such
trials has to be more proficient: than the lawyer appearing before him.
There is a book recently published in America called “Life without Lawyers” with a sub-title: “Liberating
Americans from too much Law.”
American Society is becoming excessively legalised, and I believe Indian Society and the Indian Courts in
pay too little attention in their decision making to directive principles of State policy which is at the
heart of our Constitution.
Too much – far too much – has been spoken and written about:
Easy Accessibility of Justice for the Poor.
But far too little has been done to ensure it.
Does the fault lies with the law or with those who operate it?
The Answer is a bit of both.
The opening words of the Constitution – “We the People” - tell us at the start, who this Constitution is
for?
Those who read the newspapers every morning can be pardoned for exclaiming “My God - what
people”.
In a pluralistic society like ours in a vast sub-continent like this – in a land of a million mutinies – as V.S.
Naipaul describes it –
WHO (REALLY) ARE THE PEOPLE?
For me, they are all typified by that great cartoonist Laxman’s “Common Man” – whose 8-feet high
bronze statue President K.R. Narayanan unveiled in Pune some years ago – the statute has been extolled
as the “worlds’ tallest metal statue of a cartoon character”.
Laxman’s Common man typifies – as no other single manifestation does – the quizzical doubts of the
person for whom our great document of Governance is written: each generation throws up its Common
Man; a generation being defined as that body of individuals born about the same period: a generation as
you know is usually computed at 30 years.
By this computation there have been two generations since 1950 and if we are to show the present
generation (typified by the Common Man) this document of Governance or tell him about it, he is bound
to ask.
“Tell-me-what has it done for us? How are we better off?”
These are the most difficult of questions, that you – the Judges under training, the new Judges of
tomorrow, must ponder over because, only a clear answer to them will help us in our very difficult –
seemingly impossible quest – viz. accessibility of justice for the common man.
I like to I think however that we would have been able to comprehend the poor (and done something
about them) if we had followed the path laid for us by the Founding Fathers.
Every Constitution must have an ideal and purpose, and the more I get acquainted with this longest
constitution in the world the more I believe that its heart is in Part-IV.
If we look for the reason why we have floundered, over five decades why we have not been able to
successfully work the Constitution – despite the efforts of politicians, lawyers, commissions and
committees – it is only because we have not had the will to implement the directive principles of State
policy – principles declared fundamental in the governance of the country. The Constitution had
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imposed a duty on the State to apply these principles in making laws but alas they had precluded Courts
from enforcing them. (Article 37)
I like to think that if the framers of the Constitution had foreseen the pro-active judiciary that we have
today (and which we have had for some time) – a judiciary which tells the Government how to distribute
excess food, what crops to grow and what not to grow, what economic projects are good for the country
and which are not, What fuel should be used in the engines of our motor-cars and scooters! – if the
framers had in fact envisaged or contemplated this – then they would not only have been aghast and
surprised – I believe that the Constitution Framers (adaptable as they were) would have promptly made
Part-IV enforceable by Courts!
However, as the role of the judiciary was perceived in the nineteen forties and fifties these directive
principles were not conceived to be enforceable: and so they were left out in the cold by the Judiciary –
ignored by all Governments that we have had since then.
Legislative and executive wings of State – the elected representatives of the people – were expected to
provide for the welfare of the people. And they have miserably failed.
I believe they have miserably failed not because our laws (Central and State) do not take into account
Part-IV of the Constitution, but simply because making laws is not enough: applying and enforcing laws which is the primary duty of the State - requires a certain idealism which the Constitution commanded –
a certain awareness of Constitutional norms - which alas over the years we the people – or rather, them,
the people in governance - have totally lost.
It is to me a matter of great regret that our Constitution which borrowed from a host of written
documents around the world did not choose to adopt those fine evocative words in that renowned
democratic declaration of modern times – the declaration of independence adopted by the American
colonies – this is how the material part read:
“We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed
by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of
Happiness.”
Note the emphasis on the Pursuit of Happiness – that is and should be the prime aim and object of every
Government.
A start has been made on Easy Access to Justice by the establishment of the Consumer Forums – where
there are no Court fees and where lawyers are not encouraged. But the general condition of the litigant
in civil Courts and particularly in the criminal Courts is abysmal.
A book by my young friend Justice S. Murlidhar, “Law, Poverty and Legal Aid”, contains a foreword by
the great protagonist of Legal Aid, Justice V R Krishna Iyer. In it Krishna Iyer says that:
“The law is what law does and so justice is what justice does.”
It is on this not very secure foundation that the life and liberty of what he calls “the little Indian”
depends.
Unfortunately the law does little for the little Indian, and Justice does even less.
We need more civil society initiatives, such as encouraging law students who have still not lost their
idealism to represent litigants in small cases particularly in the criminal Courts. They have experimented
with this, with some success, in the Philippines. Students have the ability to critique the system and
somehow paralegals, as contrasted with the black-coated fraternity, are unspoiled by the system.
And we need judges with – compassion - not ignorant judges with compassion because that produces
palm-tree justice, but competent erudite judges with compassion: to administer justice not ad hoc
justice but justice on some principle – or as the Constitution says: justice according to law.
In Murlidhar’s book the author criticizes the system where at the end of a long criminal litigation where
the person emerges as innocent – which happens to be the case in 90 per cent of the criminal cases
which go into the criminal justice system - he is not compensated for the incarceration – not even
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awarded the costs of a long tortuous litigation. There is a very important passage in the book and it
reads:
“The mere provision of legal services may not alter the way in which the poor are treated within
the criminal justice system without fundamental changes in the behaviour of the personnel manning the
institutions that comprise the criminal justice system.”
Yes we need more and more inspired Judges to push civil and criminal cases along to a final conclusion –
and I look to you young men and women who will soon be in the driving seat of the law. Remember we
need Judges with compassion to appreciate the plight of the poor who are caught up in the tentacles of
the system: judges with humility and an ability to learn.
All of you are going to be Judges and if you want to learn how to write good judgments you can certainly
read the current judgments of the day for substance – but I would recommend that you avoid it for
style: the Judges of today tell me that they have no time to write good judgments. But that’s all wrong.
You have time to write good judgments if you find the time to write good judgments.
If instead of themselves taking up 80 or 90 matters on Mondays and Friday: there is a less number it was
only 20 or 30 when I first came to the Supreme Court in 1972. Far better that the knock on the doors the SLPs - are left to be determined by a retired coterie of Judges so that there would be time for the
permanent Judges to think better and write better judgments. But alas, the present system imposes an
enormous strain on all sitting Judges.
If you wish to write good judgments there is an article which appeared in the Bombay Law Reporter
Journal section in 1949 – yes, sixty years ago – on the art of writing to judgments by Lord McMillan, a
Privy Councillor.
Since judgments of the Supreme Court continue to be written in English and even if this changes and
you begin or you are made to write your judgments in Hindi – the national language – I would earnestly
request you all to read this article and if you cannot find it you can always ask me and I will be ready to
send it to you.
Alexander Solzhenitsyn, the great Russian critic of the Communist system of Government (when it was
unpopular and dangerous to be its critic) had once said something very significant: “A man used to
moving about the streets riding in a motor-car” (he had said) “can never understand a pedestrian – even
at a symposium or at a forum” and if I may add in a Court. People in the upper echelons of Society and
the people who administer the law, the bureaucrats and officials are simply out of touch with the
common man and the common people.
You young people coming directly from academia to the Bench must never lose your concern for the
common man. And always be enthusiastic about your work. Remember what Emerson said: nothing
great is ever achieved without enthusiasm”. And I wish you all the success in the world.
I enormously enjoyed reading this. As a common man I left India 10 years back and did not go back to
see the changes. I did not give up my citizenship, since I do not like to be any other person but common
man elsewhere. I have become a thermometer or barometer of the atmosphere I am in - I do not belch
out siren asking for help since no common man in anywhere in the world has any help. I do not enjoy
but I know I have to enjoy prevalently uncommon happenings that shall be happening that is enjoyable.
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In a way it was perhaps my mistake to leave India, thinking that I shall perhaps be better off in a country
from which we are exporting poison to destroy our many thousand years old stable system that could
not be dominated upon by invasions after invasions.
But greed is such a contagious disease it catches up with supersonic fit. While collapse of US system
shall happen when nature intervenes - since it produces food so much that state gives money not to
produce and sinks produce into sea. The system shall break down if there a change of season and a dry
or a wet spell. The only other thing America needs is injected poverty or discrimination so that they can
get adequate number of teenagers in their arm force. The sins of this country if remain in its boundary it is better for others. Some of its European friends too are realizing the same.
India can ill sustain importing this sin named 'American Dream' - literal translation of the same 'have no
consideration for anyone but gather by all means.' India may not sustain its degeneration with this
exported dream. It is on the verge of Collapse.
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BAQI BILLAH OF DELHI
It was said that a man went to the assembly of the master Baqi-Billah
of Delhi and said:
'I have been reading famous verse of Master Hafiz, "If your teacher
bids you stain your prayer-carpet with wine, obey him," but I have a
difficulty.'
Baqi-Billah said:
'Dwell apart from me for some time and I shall illustrate the matter
for you.'
After a considerable period of time, the disciple received a letter
from the sage. It said: "Take all the money you have and give it to
the gate keeper of any brothel."
The disciple was shocked, and for a time thought that the master must
be a fraud. After wrestling with days however he went to nearest house
of ill-fame and presented the man at the door with all the money he
had.
'For such a sum of money' said the doorman, 'I shall allot you the
choicest gem of our collection, an untouched woman.'
As soon as he entered the room, the woman there said:
'I have been tricked into being in this house, and am held here by
force and threats. If your sense of justice is stronger than your
reason for coming here, help me to escape.'
Then the disciple knew the meaning of the poem of Hafiz, 'If your
teacher bids you to stain your prayer carpet with wine, obey him.'
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WHEN A MAN MEETS HIMSELF
"....
You can do it, but not when you presume that you can do it without any
practice, without any training, in the midst of being quite uncertain
as to what it is you are why you like or dislike anything.
When you have found yourself you can have knowledge. Until then you
can only have opinions. Opinions are based on habit and what you
conceive to be convenient to you.
The study of the way requires self encounter along the way. You have
not met yourself yet. Only advantage of meeting others in the meantime
is that one of them may present you to yourself.
Before you do that, you will possibly imagine that you have met
yourself many times. But truth is that when you do meet yourself, you
come into a permanent endowment and bequest of knowledge that is like
no other experience on earth."
- Tariqavi
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AHANGAR
Ahangar was mighty sword smith who used to live in easter valley of
Ahghanistan. In peace time he used to make ploughs, and horse shoes.
Above all he sang.
Many used to come from distant land to hear his song - Valley of
paradise. While he sang all as long as he sang any one listened were
transfixed and heaven could be felt in the surroundings.
After the song is over when silence is broken - all would ask 'Is this
paradise real?'
The song had strange lilt and haunting quality; most of all it had a
story distantly familiar and people felt they knew this valley. Many
came from distant land beyond Hindu -Kush, from Herat and Paghman,
from Qataghan and Badakhsan, from forest of Walnut trees, from snow
capped mountains and Cetral Asia to hear this song.
'As real as real could be', Ahangar would answer.
'How do you know?' they would ask, 'have you ever been there?'
'Not in ordinary way,' Ahangar would answer.
They would ask where that paradise is.
'"It is where the azure sky originate from silhouettes of mountain'
and he would gaze at the distant boundary of Mountains.
Ahangar was in love with Aisha but she was least interested in him and
she would laugh at Ahangar. She did not believe paradise did exist.
So did Hassan a braggart and fearsome swordsman who swore to marry
Aisha.
'if you believe that valley is real as you say in those mountains of
Sangar where blue haze rises, why don't you find out? Hassan asked.
'That won't be right, I know that', Ahangar said.
'Aisha does not believe in your absurd story of paradise; you believe
what is convenient to you, while would not believe what is otherwise.
In case you marry Aisha, there shall not be trust between you and
Aisha - all manner of evil shall result from this union. You must find
your real paradise before you marry her.
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'Do you want me to go to the valley then? Will Aisha marry me if I go
and return safely?' asked Ahangar.
'Yes' Hassan and Audience said together. 'Yes' Aisha murmured.
Collecting some dried mulberries and a scrap of bread Ahanghar left
for the distant mountain.
He climbed and climbed till he reached a wall encircling the mountain.
With great difficulty he climbed the wall soon to reach another one,
then another then another - totally five of them.
Descending the last one he found himself in a valley strikingly
similar to his own!
People came out to meet him - he realized something very strange is
happening.
Months later Ahanghar the smith limped back to his native village
walking like an old man to his humble hut. Word spread throughout the
countryside - all gathered before his hut and wanted to hear his
stories adventure.
Hassan the swordsman on behalf all the people spoke and called
Ahanghar to the window, 'Did you Master Ahanghar reach the valley of
paradise?'
Every one was surprised to see how old Ahanghar has become.
'I did'.
'What was it like?'
Ahanghar fumbled for words, and looked at assembly with weariness and
hopelessness.
'I climbed and climbed. When it felt that there can be no human
habitation in such a desolate place, after many trials and
disappointments I came upon a valley. This valley was exactly like the
one in which we live. And then I saw the people - they are not only
like us people: they are the same people. For every Hassan, every
Aisha, every Ahanghar and every anybody we have here, there is
another one, exactly same in that valley.
These are likenesses and reflections to us when we such things. But it
is we who are likeness and reflections of them - we are here, we are
their twins ....'
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Every one thought Ahanghar gone mad from his privations, Aisha married
Hassan. Ahanghar grew rapidly old and died.
All the people who listened to this from the lips of Ahanghar rapidly
grew old and lost interest in life itself. They always felt something
going to happen over which they have no control from which they have
no hope.
This story is told every 1000 years and quickly forgotten as soon as
those who have heard the story is dead.
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INFECTION
It was a very dark night. Mulla was crossing a desert. He heard some
sound coming from somewhere. He followed the sound and found it is
coming from a ditch. It was dug by Darbesh who was making that sound
Mullah asked "can I be with you I am very afraid". Darbash, "You may
but do not disturb me. I have to finish quite a few things." Once in
the ditch Mullah pulled away Darbesh' rug and wrapped himself
shivering out of fear. After sometime he started making gurgling
sound. Darbesh asked, "what are you doing?"
"I can't stop chattering! More over my throat is dry, I want to
drink."
"Take this tumbler about 200 yards on the left you shall find well."
Darvesh said.
"No you go and get me water, I am afraid to go out of this Ditch".
Reluctantly Darbesh got out with tumbler and his dagger to fetch water
for Mullah Nasiruddin.
Mulla pulled Darvesh back asked for the Dagger, "If someone comes how
do I defend myself?"
Darvesh left with tumbler to fetch water for Mullah. As he approached
the ditch where Mullah is now occupying for himself, Mullah shouted,
"Don't you dare come near, you shall have this dagger in your heart!"
"But it is me Darbesh, who went to fetch water for you!" Darvesh said.
"How do I know, you may be the same unknown in the garb of Darbesh for
whose sake I got into this ditch".
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ECONOMIST
Opinionated, small-minded NL from abroad is lecturing an audience of
engineers, business men, politicians, collection of mutual back
scratching academicians, and over painted fancy dressed women
intellectuals. He is lecturing on Naya and Niti. He always talks on
subjects’ matters as if they are invented first time by him. As hours
went by Mulla saw this man's thoughts ran in pattern. He is aged 75
plus but remains a victim of vanity and pride. Mulla saw how minor
points of unrealistic intellectualism for its own sake were magnified
by him and applied in every situation. Subjects after subjects were
discussed, and the intellectual cited books and precedents,
false analogies and extraordinary presumptions without intuitive
reality. In Sonorous voice he would repeat 'Naya' 'Niti'. As if there
is so much melody in his voice even if reality is missing. At length he
produced a book - his latest that contained his life time scholarship
wisdom and earned him prize and fame. Nasirudin came forward and
requested to see the book. Holding it in front of the eyes he started
turning pages after pages for several minutes. The assembly looked on.
The NL started fidgeting and puffing. At last he could contain himself
no more. "You are holding my book upside down!" he screamed. "I know,"
said Nassirudin. "Since it is one of the archetype which seem to have
produced YOU, it seems only sensible thing to do (hold it upside
down), if one is to really learn from it."
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Cancer’s a Funny Thing
J. B. S. Haldane (1964)
I wish I had the voice of Homer
To sing of rectal carcinoma,
Which kills a lot more chaps, in fact,
Than were bumped off when Troy was sacked.
Yet, thanks to modern surgeon’s skills,
It can be killed before it kills
Upon a scientific basis
In nineteen out of twenty cases.
I noticed I was passing blood
(Only a few drops, not a flood).
So pausing on my homeward way
From Tallahassee to Bombay
I asked a doctor, now my friend,
To peer into my hinder end,
To prove or to disprove the rumour
That I had a malignant tumour.
They pumped in BaS04.
Till I could really stand no more,
And, when sufficient had been pressed in,
They photographed my large intestine,
In order to decide the issue
They next scraped out some bits of tissue.
(Before they did so, some good pal
Had knocked me out with pentothal,
Whose action is extremely quick,
And does not leave me feeling sick.)
The microscope returned the answer
That I had certainly got cancer,
So I was wheeled into the theatre
Where holes were made to make me better.
One set is in my perineurn
Where I can feel, but can’t yet see ‘em.
Another made me like a kipper
Or female prey of Jack the Ripper,
Through this incision, I don’t doubt,
The neoplasm was taken out,
Along with colon, and lymph nodes
Where cancer cells might find abodes.
A third much smaller hole is meant
To function as a ventral vent:
So now I am like two-faced Janus
The only* god who sees his anus.
I’ll swear, without the risk of perjury,
It was a snappy bit of surgery.
My rectum is a serious loss to me,
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But I’ve a very neat colostomy,
And hope, as soon as I am able,
To make it keep a fixed time-table.
So do not wait for aches and pains
To have a surgeon mend your drains;
If he says “cancer” you’re a dunce
Unless you have it out at once,
For if you wait it’s sure to swell,
And may have progeny as well.
My final word, before I’m done,
Is “Cancer can be rather fun”.
Thanks to the nurses and Nye Bevan
The NHS is quite like heaven
Provided one confronts the tumour
With a sufficient sense of humour.
I know that cancer often kills,
But so do cars and sleeping pills;
And it can hurt one till one sweats,
So can bad teeth and unpaid debts.
A spot of laughter, I am sure,
Often accelerates one’s cure;
So let us patients do our bit
To help the surgeons make us fit
.
*In India there are several more
With extra faces, up to four,
But both in Brahma and in Shiva
I own myself an unbeliever.
JBS recorded his obituary that was aired by BBC on the day he died.
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All is Self the supreme bliss
Does Avadoot mean Messenger?
That delivers messages from any one or every one - suppose a letter is delivered to the messenger - it
won’t be delivered - what about reply - the sender shall get a reply every moment till he is no more – A
Fresh New Moment Enveloped with ‘His Own Expectations’.
One has option but to forget the disappointment and if possible enjoy the moment. One instead keeps
the disappointment – it should not have happened!
With life’s list of disappointments one makes a trip to pilgrimage - kisses the stone and throws the long
letter written over life time, how (s)he was deceived every moments of Life, into a letter box -mumbling
'you know all' - carries water from Zam-Zam or Ganga or a flower as an acknowledgement that the letter
was delivered.
Faithful can start the life new without the collection of disappointments – afresh.
Meditation is the only way for unfaithful to throw away one’s own disappointments.
After doing away with the whole list of Life’s disappointments – there is the Silence - unfaithful lands on
the current moment – Magnetic Magic Carpet – the reality.
One can never step out.
Sometimes letters come into my mail box - urgent - reply etc - sometimes from some special unfaithful I compose a letter such as this.
The nature has no obligation to be rational logical or axiomatic or repetitive or measurable or
mathematical - a human composition of any kind - language! The nature has no obligation to anyone to
fulfill one’s expectations.
While nature is true – it has no implications – no depth – no bottom – no further truth.
One is forever saddled on magic carpet – One is forever flying from moment to moment – One can’t
ever step out of reality – one can’t get off one’s magic carpet – One must enjoy this moment without
option.
One can’t have more or less! One can’t help nor harm!! One can’t be helped or harmed!!!
None has control over one’s Self and all is Him, the supreme.
This moment is The Self. This moment is the truth.
“One can unite with this very moment and enjoy the supreme bliss; or grieve.”
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Chapter Minneapolis
This is my last week here. It is Time to look around. America is full of churches – I have not visited a
church for many years except when I used to go with my son to his Boy Scout gatherings. However
church plays very core role for most American. I am not so fond of music especially American – I have
not been part of that entertainment so far. I do not participate in amusement parks and but museums I
enjoy – all kinds. I fondly recollect a 3D 25’x15’x10’ color holography I saw that of a Mermaid – looks
real that vanishes as you go past it. I have seen a 100 years old city in down town Dallas – live and
colorful with real people houses hotels Restaurants Churches Carriages chorus group dancing in Parks – I
was taken 100 years back in time.
I like to travel in time.
I am living in a house that belongs to a middle aged woman and her dog. We do not much interact. The
dog makes its appearance when I open the garage door. But I do not react about its excitement of
seeing me. I go down stairs to be with myself.
In the past I have really enjoyed some conducted tours and I always recommend such tours. I took a tour
of Boeing – saw its gigantic infrastructure and the assembly line of Planes being made. Contrary to my
expectations they do not make engines or interior. I also saw their new 787 Dream liner molded body.
Within days it made its maiden test flight.
Yesterday I made a list of places I must visit. Often I do not make all of them. Today at my first stop entered a medical instrument museum. Very old devices used for locating acupuncture insertion points.
The name of the museum is Bakken – maker of cardiac pacemaker. This place not only holds a great
library of ancient medical books but also have garden of medicinal herbs and trees. There was a two
person game to move a ball towards or away from your opponent by relaxing. Electricity and magnetism
may play role in healing. Zero gravity, memory erasure…
It took me a while to locate the place. My GPS took me round and round. I was the last to enter – half an
hour before close. Loitering around, I entered a dark room. On an operation table under a cover lie a
body perhaps that of Frankenstein. There was a golden button – that asked me to press. The room is
where Frankenstein’s monster is born. Room went dark. It was 12 minutes show created with multimedia sound light and movement and narration at the background. By the time it ended it is past closing
hours and they have been hunting for me. http://www.thebakken.org/
Again some more rounds and circles till I came to Mall of America. I am to see now live sea animals. In
Cincinnati, near my home in Columbus - there is one large aquarium under Ohio River. I wish I had a
camera. It is so luxurious to see fishes and sharks and other sea animals floating all around you. They are
astonishingly beautiful creatures of the sea with lovely skin, texture and functional streamlined body far
more Beautiful that of human. Corals and Sea anemones have breath taking beauty. It took so much
planning and execution – nothing left to chances – creator took care to create a truly beautiful planet.
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More than life they exuded love! While I appreciate the beauties of creation I detest intellectual
explanations of them – that it took many million or billion years to evolve!
Near my home in Columbus, we have a zoo and perhaps it is the very largest in America. It takes several
days to see it in full. Here for the first time I saw Penguins, otters, gorillas and chimpanzees. While NASA
or Washington does not evoke any confidence – ordinary Americans are very extra-ordinary for their
love for living creatures – they take care to create habitats enjoyable for the captives.
I started early today. I had two destinations in my mind – Minneapolis Institute of Art and Russian Art
Museum. But first took away all my time. I would take several days to finish all that is in display. Chinese,
Indian, Roman, Greek, African, American, Modern, Arabia, Persian, Inca, Maya, American Indian ($7 for
non-members), the collection is so beautifully placed and so eye catching. It is impossible for me to
describe. I spent quite some time to buy one Buddha on stone – affordable and beautiful for my
Columbus home. However it was so heavy to carry that I had to give up the desire. There was even a
beautiful Czech car, and many manuscripts in ancient languages. Beautiful paintings, ceramic, wooden
appliances, even a kitchen from Germany. Many of them from a private collection of a Minneapolis
based business magnet. There was a breath taking statue of a veiled beauty. I have seen a full statue
once in Salderjung Museum, Hyderabad – front is a veiled beauty while back is that of a warrior.
I bought a small but beautiful ceramic teapot to enjoy my Darjeeling Tea in the morning.
When someone comes from home, Indians take them around to see Niagara, Las Vegas, Washington,
New York; but it shall far more worthwhile to spend a day in Minneapolis Institute of Art and it is free.
There was large single stone bluish luminescent Chinese Jade sculpture – magnificent mountain streams
and two poems written on the same. http://www.artsmia.org/
There were magnificent sculpture of female beauties – breath taking and eye catching.
Often I pass through Chicago but I do not remember to have seen the Dinosaur at O’Hara. It struck me
this time. I read the story of it being extinct 500 million years before. It was a huge creature. I also
remembered the skeleton at ISI Geology building. Again my skeptic mind sneered at theory of evolution.
Why one has to explain everything with a theory. It is a showmanship trying to establish oneself to be
superior. Is anyone ever superior? Does nature know order? Is not chronology or time order is creation
of mind?
If all moments are not there always, painted well within the boundary of this very Moment!
No single moment is ever repeated – there is no question an entire day is repeated over next trillion
years. That much about history being repeated and then fit a theory to explain this fiction called History.
It is better, if one is inclined to really learn, she visits all these museums like Minneapolis Institute of Art.
One thing very strange about that Czech car (designed in 1959) – I searched but could not find the inlet
for gas tank! There used to be a new Mercedes from 1930s in display at MBNA - silver in color too. It
was display of wealth for MBNA – announcing solvency till it was bought over by Bank of America. But
this car had an extraordinary beauty grace and color!
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I saw one car museum in Washington next to a very large Stalactite cave. It had also an extraordinary
collection of cars of truly beautiful design, some with very large steam engines. Next to that museum
was a garden maze! I went with Soham and spent a whole day in caves museum and the garden Maze.
The only worthwhile places I saw in Washington. Washington stinks of corruption – NASA, IRS,
Smithsonian Museum, Capitol Hill, White House, Hotels, Streets and Metros. Another place I enjoyed is a
private beach in Oceanic city with greenish water and wild horses. I learned how to slice through water
and float on waves.
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Is mother earth an Idiot
Yesterday I was watching PBS – it was very long program about Obama’s deception. It was presented
that there is not even one in the current Government that is not pre-selected by Wall Street and
Bankers. Further they claimed it had been so for last 50 years in US Government irrespective of any
party. Further they have been funding selection of foreign government - election or political process to
place people of their choice. Are they not successful in India Pakistan Bangladesh and various other
places – Australia European Union etc? It is a long program, I switched it off.
Two days back the same PBS was telling me about Pentagon Papers
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pentagon_Papers) I was not moved, I switched the channel and watched
‘Everybody Likes …’
PBS often gives me information on subjects I do not need to know – it told me about peril of US farming
for its emphasis on bio fuel. It appears there is little savings from it - at most 20% over fossil fuel while
there is irreparable damage to soil ground water, toxic-river, and Lake. It appears vast area of farm land
is no longer irrigable. I switch channel.
Couple of weeks back I was a mere guest in my own house for some people invited. One of them was a
very strong supporter of current president and now disillusioned, and another very strong supporter of
financial system of USA. Both are very religious and faithful. I try to poke their faith and fallacies. Both
are worried in their own ways about future. Retirement Investments ... Stability.
I just told them things can’t go on like this for ever. Things are going to break down irreparably – the
flood can’t be stopped. 36 months!
One can’t be so intelligent that without doing any work - one is untouchable and supreme and have
total control on entire resources of the nature. I tried to tell my guests – intellects have very limited
power and nature has no reason to abide by rules of intellect. It is not axiomatic mathematical
probabilistic or beautiful what we regard is beautiful. Being religious they would like to know more
about God truth or vision of God. I puzzle them with questions and they turn violent – they challenge
how come I know but all these greats in Harvard, Yale, MIT, Caltech, Berkley or Chicago do not know! I
do not know of any knowledge that is proprietary of some named well where you have to buy ticket to
drink and become learned.
I am not fighting superstitions!
I am told one sixth of US Economy is Insurance. I am again told Insurance companies are stuffing 80% by
outsourcing. While Insurance companies are funded 100% by USA residents, and insurance cost is rising
every 6 months – is it not criminal to out-source and for whose benefit? There is absolutely no
improvement or automation of service in last 30 years. It was all manual then and so even now! I could
not be challenged now since one of the guests belongs to IT department of an Insurance company for 30
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years!! That company is laying off in thousands and jobs being out-sourced. He wondered aloud why his
job is still there. Does flood care whose hut it is swallowing?
President is doing his best to fund Insurance Industry in the name of modernization. Presidential
priority next, after bailing out big Banks – too big to fail.
They have to reorder their beliefs and sort them out in their mind. I ask them why China is progressing
while Americans are threatened. Why American great universities while producing enumerable PhDs,
Nobel Laureates, and theories, are not contributing an ounce to national wealth. There are countries like
India Russia or Brazil too showing booming growth, while there is increasing unproductive mass
population here. Does political experiment with Muslim world have any future? Why do we see
phenomenal growth in Muslim population at the expense of faithless population among other religions?
I tell them nature earth creates resources and distributes evenly around the world – it does not know
and can’t distinguish between political boundary or intelligence or religions. It has no dear; it has no
near, nor distant. All points on its surface, in its bowel, or in the heaven are at equal-loving-distance
away. It is impossible to have more of anything than you already have – security happiness durability whatever be the key measure of your choice!
Problem of intelligence is that - intelligence does not need hard work or perseverance – one can be
intelligent too easily. Couple of years at Yale or Harvard would do that for any one from Timbactoo or
Cambodia – one learns as good as anybody how to bluff or cheat in sonorous voice with speech cut copy
pasted from archive of speeches - surpassing any home grown bright star.
It is intelligent to create your puppet president and control all the production of promissory notes and
distribute the same in all the places it is sought – stock markets in Mumbai, Hong Kong, Manila, Tokyo,
or Moscow. Sit back and relax. Money there creates new billionaires! Banks go belly up but who cares
we shall print more!
Stock market does not create a Shilling worth of wealth anywhere in world but it creates puppet
presidents!!
Time is not very far when this bogus money is used to place their choice of remote control puppets as
President and their choice of staff – all educated from Harvard or Yale!!
New found wealth from USA invested in the name of Globalization, USA universities are flooded with
foreign students and they are children of Novae Riche (politician businessmen or government officials).
The banks that fund their studies did not exist 5 years back! Estimated $15 billion is the earnings from
foreign students in USA!! They live in penthouse; drive Mercedes; developing right connections and
intellects.
Long live intelligence.
Is mother earth an idiot?
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All is me
Even though I talk often about unselfishness, I have discovered I am the most selfish – I do care very
little for anybody or anything else except what my pursuit for my gratification and I am
uncompromising.
I have withdrawn myself to the carpet under me – so much so I am design on the carpet and nothing neither more nor any less.
The only reason to be so again very selfish – I do not like to repent over past loss – nor do I like to think
what is in my store tomorrow. I simply do not like to know future. I fear knowing future may make me
worry and lessen my joy for life this moment.
My goal is thus to have a brain that of a butterfly.
No savings no investment no exercise no hard work no relationship – fly around for a while like a
butterfly and then drop dead with missing wing perhaps.
Off and on, thoughts of death disease and violent accidents cross my mind – for a while chill runs
through my mind I see the horror and horrible pain of disability – all possible future. But I do not have
precaution – all these have appeared in my vision just now – and I must not do anything. I have to cross
every moment in my life and the most important moment of all, is this current one – I must remain
silent – I can’t be any separable entity on a current moment.
In other words, I can’t simply have a separate existence at this moment other than the moment itself!
What is the most significant achievement for any one?
Receiving something that no one can snatch away and that cannot be exceeded – better than every
moments of the past – better than all imagined moments of future!
I have the real moment with total ownership of the same just now plus all the imagined moments over
and above, under my command if only I wish!!
I have written enough for all showing off my superiority to all and exposing my
ignorance and inferiority all the time. While an insect or a grass knows that all
that it notices is it – I do not know this simple fact – “All is me”
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With high Hopes
With high hopes I spent more than two hours on road and spent $30 on tickets and parking to visit two
museums in Minneapolis – Science Museum and Walker Art Museum. Nothing astonishing did I find
there to make me scientifically aligned or artistically aroused - typical American extravaganza that you
often see in large Malls with very little astonishment. At Walker, you are trapped into underground car
parking. You get into large empty rooms with nothing worthwhile to see with lot of non-sense and very
cheap stuff on display – some are audio visual and you are not permitted to photograph. Only reason
perhaps that you display it in internet and denying them admission fees. There was also two Japanese
Choreographers who are giving nude show. I did not wish to waste my time on that show either – nude
or dressed. All galleries might as well be called All American but – one was particularly called “American”
– without any artistry in it.
There was another big empty room and I was not allowed to photograph. Center of the room a floating
aluminum sheet about one two inches on ground that had uneven surface the contour of which
changing and showing slow movement within restricted region of the center un-marked. I used to
create such animations with three dimensional objects when I was a child with foils, ball bearings,
rubber band tension and wheels out of wooden or plastic thread rollers. Obviously it is an aluminum
mat thrown over several battery operated engines with uneven spokes – they do not travel but creates
moving animated surface on the sheet – illusion of creation of Quakes Mountains and valley. This was
accompanied with some random soft murmuring sounds or noise. I would create many of them and far
more interesting perhaps. In one room there were many large semi-transparent wax pieces hanged
from ceiling of uneven heights – what art it was creating I would not be able to tell – it looked very
cheap produce of little intellect. In another very big room with a very big name there was a very big
table with heap of many thousands of jigsaw pieces all similar cut but many colors. All around the table
are chairs. Some are making words and sentences with them – being creative perhaps. Steps and stairs
in the building are too big and spacious. It is often difficult to climb up or down. Seating places are too
hard and uncomfortable. Art can make one’s life difficult and uncomfortable. Walker’s staffs were
dressed strangely behaved strangely too. The parking entry and exit give you a kind of uncertain feeling
that perhaps you are lost and can’t get out. Before getting in or leaving my car in the parking – I waited
for someone to come out or go in. I found one lady with an escort driving out. I stopped them and asked
where to pay for parking – I had a ticket when I got into underground. She pointed to a door where
there was unmanned pay booth. Before I ventured into the building I stayed put with an elderly couple
who are struggling to pay for parking. After paying you have 15 minutes to get out. My confidence rose
when I saw them succeeding in paying via credit card. While getting out it was my turn to struggle.
Finally I too succeeded with the machine designed to confuse one. But getting out another puzzle – I
followed exit sign but it took nearly 10 minutes till I saw day light out of that underground maze; it took
hardly few seconds to enter !!
Science Museum was a great effort to reach – it is in three (five officially) levels. Pre-historic Dinosaurs’
skeletons took most of the space. Someone wished to take a survey but I declined – what could I say
them when the outfit is tasteless purposeful swindling operations.
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I had similar disappointments with Smithsonian Museum in Washington with collections from NASA and
Space Travel.
I searched again the internet where should I go tomorrow …
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I am not on sell
I am supposed to leave for Columbus this morning and it is 11 am now but I have not started. I got up at
8 AM. I packed up last night partially – I was little apprehensive but did not believe the forecast but
when I looked out – it is all snow. I am praying – it must stop. I am not sure with this heavy snowing
whether I should start. I am looking at I-90 or I-94 as far as I could see with internet camera and traffic –
but not confident unless snowing stops.
I am stuck nowhere to go. I am alone in this world – no advice is enough to abandon the security of
home however temporary to be in road leaving Minneapolis forever.
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I snapped the above two in S3200 Coolpix in color but it is black white.
I am talking to myself. Writing is talking to me. Thinking is searching for a similar situation and the result
in order to make a decision. Why is decision needed? I used to watch snails when I was a child. Now
again I am thinking. Can I think for a snail?
I touch snail that is moving leaving a wet path of its movement. It stops. Its two antennas withdraw as
well as the body. It waits for a while. Again the body comes out. Antennas come out the eyeballs move
to their location watching the progress of snail. How far they see and what they see I do not know.
Decision I see taken about the movement. Movement is necessary for food and pleasure – creation of
little ones. Food is required for pleasure, growth, and multiplication. Why and how so many
automations got created? I am seeing through my life time of observations – food pleasure and creation.
I am talking to myself – babies I love but I doubt I love working hard and doing things out of fear inability
to face disability to move my muscles yet prolonging my consciousness.
Having come to this point - I am in confusion – in circles and can’t make any movement in any direction
even though I have some goal. Two days back I went to see a waterfall. I usually do not like to drive
without purpose. It took some driving till I came to a place, perhaps near to waterfall; there was a circle
– round about. Circles I can’t tackle in USA. I really do not know where to go. My GPS was advising me to
take an exit which one I do not know – I got out and again it was advising to get into the circle. At last I
called off going to falls instead came back to safety of home – where all is static till I move out again.
Madhuda is doing well and has got many houses including a palace. He also told he was grey but healthy
– has ability to scale heights up to 18000 feet in the Himalayas. I talked to Basu – he has abandoned
stability but on the move – he talked about his pilgrimages – I urged him to write. Jogu is in the back
ground doing a sales job and his wife is a school teacher – daughter shall graduate soon as an engineer
and a son in school. Massima is hard of hearing 91 years but with good memory but commanding – a
girls school teacher for life time.
I have this scrape book of characters - some living and some dead. I scan them to locate my own
character and my movement - where I am going. Definitely I detest movement and look for permanency.
The search for that point – my many life time goal – the permanent home somehow I must reach so that
I can disregard all climates – snow sun flood draught or death. Not by declaration of reaching the end;
but reaching the end of permanent home truly; that from which no bad weather, no change of fortune
shall ever evict me. What is that home?
It appears that I know that home – IT IS JUST NOW. However my hallucination does not stop!
I can’t ever cross ‘just now’! Now, I am totally surrounded by MY imagination – My hallucination …nonexisting places and time. I do not feel comfortable – I am shivering in uncontrollable fear grief and
misery!
How do I rein in my imagination and think NOTHING, just now?
I am incapable of practicing ‘doing nothing’ and thinking NOTHING – not in this life time.
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I know my goal but the method of achieving my goal is not looking at photograph or a flower till they
disappear in the background!
My body bell rings with changing background – that is Just Now. I shiver and have epileptic fit and
surrender to it. With nerves smoothened like that of a snail – I reach out with my antenna and absorb
some more of NOW that is waiting to excite me into Hallucination – death or disaster or chaos! Time
ticks away – I am going through Water Boarding treatment of NOW.
It shall go on till ‘NOW but NO SHIVER’ – with or without Hallucination. My land lady in her sophisticated
way pointed me out to a Hafiz I did not read but she read. [next]
Do I create more and more? Do I talk more and more to me (can’t even blame my creator since there is
no one in my viewing distance just now)? Do I think all the time that I am as melodious as Homer or
Vyasa and my epic story shall enlighten many generations? How can I truly stop hallucinating!!!
It is so foolish to think of one self as anyone other than yourself, when you have no EQUAL even when
you have no senses. All that you have is present surrounded by untruth or ILLUSION. Whatever I write or
do, I have no readership or viewer except myself. I have been provided with a plateful of fresh delicious
meal all real – sight smell and beauty of the same, fills the surroundings – I have no obligation to enjoy
the same – I may reject it and live in my imagination with no reality or truth in it – talking to myself as I
am doing now.
Do I congratulate me for my brightness or condemn my foolishness?
I do neither (my emerging intelligence).
NOW pokes my imagination – I imagine again with a hypothetical question to my self – even without
body this moment shall I be imagining? {I learnt this stroking recently, it captures my imperfection}
I need a MOMENT to dream or sleep or enjoy. Suppose I am all by myself do I create (can I) a moment
for self indulgence?
I am not imaginative enough to imagine that I created this moment, although I can imagine myself the
composer of this text at this moment. I foolishly ask again how many life times I had before I could
imagine with words color smell taste and touch …?
Who is that me composing me before it could finally create a moment?
Moment was created first and me next or both at the same time?
Who is that entity that created the moment that I notice NOW?
I can’t think me to be Synonymous to that Truth who created this moment. I can at best think not think
‘this moment’ to be its equal. Composing this moment out of nothing is miraculous feat impossible for
me to achieve – even when I know for sure (?) there is no one who would stumble upon this words or
understand.
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I surely existed before my ‘Moment Now’ or my composition ‘till now’ with words.
But I am the SAME AS THE DARKNESS and nothing else – I can’t imagine
No one is begging me not to have the fundamental intelligence of SNAIL that I not only possess but
execute – I must withdraw into nothing till my shivering and hallucination stops.
Who created my shivering, and the hallucination of the pleasure that I run after at this moment, trashing
all the divine real pleasure I am already surrounded with just now that belongs to me alone?
Culmination of my lust for life is the end of having. I can’t be REBOUNDED by that impossible
unconquerable impenetrable wall called just now that separates me (false) from me (truth). Me and my
world being Virtual (past), caught in the mirror of Now (present), held by Absent Real. ALL THREE – I, my
world, and Now merge into nothing (joy for lack of words)
Why I (false) have the guise - my body and my collection of snaps? I can’t ever meet truth (me) since I
can’t think truth in any guise. False can’t be Present. I am always absent!
Along the way I learnt – I can conquer nothing – not my body, not my lust, not my longings, not my
kernel pleasure, not my hallucinating compositions – I have no option but enjoy them even if they throw
me into epileptic feat or nervous breakdown – heart burns – thrombosis of heart or mind – soil my attire
– cause my public hanging or stoning to death … sending away to destination unknown in a raft alone to
meet death (of consciousness) all by myself in the wide open JUST NOW, without any more word game.
I am incapable of proving to me or any one. There is no honor in reaching me. It is end of me. I am
absent.
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Orphan by Hafiz
You have fathered a child with me.
You had your night of fun.
If you no longer want the love my
Beautiful body could yield
At least take care of that
Holy infant my heart has become.
You sired an heir with me
When You gave birth to my soul.
I thought of complaining to all the angels
Last night
About Your treatment of this
“Homeless child,”
But then I remembered they too
Have a long list of love-complaints
Because
They also know You so
Well.
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It took a while
It took a while to understand what is being said in the last poem. I gave it a name also dropped a word.
Now I understand.
In a way, my cradle is Just Now, I can’t have any more ties outside the cradle. Yes he had his fun with my
body and mind for so long; but tonight I am orphan – I neither have faith in me, my body, my mind, nor
Him.
I have no parents! Along the way I have lost all my friends my relations, my family, and now Him. I am
floated into the merciless stream of moments – this very moment is my only home – I shall know no
other stability, nor security. I have no one nothing and no heaven to look forward.
I am entirely hopeless of better life – now or after. No creator – no creation.
I am forever an orphan now without stability or ties.
I have no option but enjoy now - my instability my loneliness and my unavoidable painful inglorious
future without care.
I am the end.
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I love every bit of this world
I am Snail again but with a difference.
I did not tell you that Snails are bi-sexual (both male and female at the same time) animal and
invertebrate. When two mature Snails come near touching distance each sends a prod to fuse into the
gelatinous body of the other, and both reproduce their own little ones.
It has intelligence to disregard danger and search for love.
But I am dumb I embrace danger in order to do what I love – that includes expressing love to some that
can make my life miserable – yet I do it ignoring all future suffering.
I embrace death but I do not abstain from my love.
I can’t justify myself or characterize myself more than what I have said just now.
I embrace death – I step into the world expressing my love – I do not stop myself and I do not hide me
nor my feelings.
Along the way I am trying hard to enjoy my death in every imaginable way.
Snails do it.
Insects that jump into fire do it.
I do it instinctively like an insect.
Yes, I looked for an escape route to act instinctively and yet not engulfed by fire of suffering. I truly
wanted to conquer the death trap called world. I tried to say with my action – I think say or do what I
please – I do not volunteer but almighty world is welcome to destroy me in whatever manner it wants.
I AM AFRAID but I do not abstain.
I have done away with my entire defense but not my love
I love every bit of this world
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Joy Unlimited
I am in a meeting at every moment. Some are painful and some are pleasant. Is it not possible to turn
every moment to an experience of joy? Here is the blue print of implementation of Joy circuit.
The Goal is ‘I love and enjoy every moment of my life.’ With this goal I do not have to give up anything I
enjoy – my Joys!
Once the goal is set, moments have to get transformed into Joy slowly but automatically, since I am
inflexible on my goal and I do not abandon it even for a second. One receives Joy and Joy only. It is
impossible to receive anyone or anything else. It is my commitment to myself to stay the course through
all thick and thin, none is expected to appreciate my ways. Hence I must love and enjoy all expression of
disgust if any.
Whatever comes in contact with me has to get transformed into Joy or I vanish.
Incidentally the word for GOAL in Sanskrit is MOKSHA.
Another word very familiar with Hindus rather Vaishanv is Baikuntha – literally means “Place without
Worry”.
I have been driving for two days. I am travelling back to Columbus. Yesterday I was driving through
almost a death region – snow and rain for 8 hours, after crossing Chicago, rain stopped but it was dark
everywhere. I pulled off the road around 9 PM. I had a diner but hardly any sleep. All my nerves are
alert. I thought of getting up early morning and starting at 6 AM but when I started it was 11AM. I was
woken up several times to talk to several people over phone. All job related. I love nothing best but
working.
Theory is important for me since I can correct myself and tune my Goal leaving behind what has already
been achieved; further I can help others too in reaching their goal. However supreme goal is the same
for any one born human. There can’t be any superior goal and since this is permanent – hence it is
tagged as truth.
Simply speaking, visible epidermis of truth is This Moment. Invisible Truth is that ‘Me’ on whom I am
permanent resident. I can only reach Him when I reach this moment. Only way to do the same is to
‘Perceive all as they are’. All my imaginations are false. False is all painful – its other name is Hell. If there
is heaven – it necessarily has to be true – that is this moment. I am in Heaven if and only when I am this
moment untied from all but being all. My ties are the one and only cause of my pain suffering shame
grief or fear – they are all REAL.
There is no way out of these ties – not floating on Ganges or being lost in desert.
Only way to untie one is to lie like Gulliver in the land of Lilliput - immobile tied up with threads – this
threads are however real – they cause real hell – they are one’s many thousand muscles linked to one’s
vivid imaginations.
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However this moment is slippery clean (no scope of any object in it to be still there in the next moment;
there is no guarantee of another moment). All, that is stationed on this moment - the entire world, are
too sparkling clean – as true as the moment itself. Any other attribute is dust (accumulated belief out of
experience with the world and is false). It is impossible to keep your belief in the context of this very
moment. They disappear as soon as they are recognized.
This moment has no place for any belief or imagination or prediction or even million year’s old faith and
observed truth.
NOTHING IS TRUTH. True. I have Now, Me, and All – very new and without any precedence. They are still
sticking on to me. I can’t escape them. I have to get rid of them all but I can’t. I am stuck with them all.
I am prisoner at this moment – I love and enjoy my imprisonment as it is
I love and enjoy all the reasons [life perception feeling people health wealth
knowledge experience appearance activity bondage ability capacity honor strength
power age origin support intelligence memory inequality insignificance competence
integrity commitment honesty … or mind] for my unhappiness now. I love and
enjoy all my longings for alternative moments [e.g. an escapade to RootLoon of Astra-minor in Extreme-dome of Anti-universe where moments are custom
made to my specification with imaginations inventiveness of pleasure running wild
and in any number]. I love and enjoy [with all my senses and imagination all that
I see in] this very moment [contains all my past and future truly] . I
enjoy my absence here and now.
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love and
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I love and enjoy all as is
I love and enjoy as is absence of all thoughts or objects that I love or enjoy.
I love and enjoy as is presence of all thought or objects that I do not love or enjoy.
I love and enjoy absence of pleasure honor gain stability acceptance health and happiness.
I love and enjoy presence of pain shame sorrow instability fear rejection disease and loss.
I love and enjoy all absence as is.
I love and enjoy all my inferiority as is.
I love and enjoy all my unhappiness as is.
I love and enjoy all my fear as is.
I love and enjoy gaps between my aims and achievements as is.
I love and enjoy all my beliefs and thoughts as is
I love and enjoy all my deeds as is
I love and enjoy all my perceptions as is
I love and enjoy all my knowledge as is
I love and enjoy all that I do not know as is
I love and enjoy all my defects as is
I love and enjoy all my losses and failures as is
I love and enjoy all my expectations as is
I love and enjoy all that I do not love or enjoy as is
I love and enjoy all those who do not love or enjoy me as is
I love and enjoy all my limitations and all my inabilities as is
I love and enjoy myself, all my activities, all my feelings and perceptions as is
I love and enjoy my world as is
I love and enjoy all with all my senses leaving behind no one and nothing - here and now and as is
Both Theory and Practice end here. I have just glued all into a whole with my supreme love. I have consumed and assimilated the same with
relish. I am enjoying the supreme bliss of fulfillment and accomplishment just now. I am happiest ever – this is my happiest moment; this
minute is my happiest minute; this hour is my happiest hour; this day is my happiest day; this month is my happiest month; th is year is my
happiest year; this life is my happiest life; I am the happiest ever – I love and enjoy all as is. I can do no more!
This moment is the most joyous freshest and without precedence; I receive, love and enjoy all my perceptions (this
world plus) as is with all my senses wide open and me without cover, without filter, without knowledge, without option,
and without prejudice;
I can dependent on none nothing - concrete abstract real or imaginary time place life world for my joy happiness or pleasure.
I love and enjoy all as is - being no one - being nothing – being unknown - being absent
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