Diandra Schonyers Health Behavior Part Two: Self-Assessment Dr. Spencer For the behavior change project I have chosen to make a change in my stress mastery skills. Deciding on an area to focus on for my behavior change project was not very difficult. I chose this area because I want to be confident in my ability to handle emotionally charged and stressful situations, as well as overwhelming emotions. The behaviors that I specifically focused on were dealing with stressful situations as they arise by making a conscious effort not to suppress or ignore my emotions and, in the long run, improve my relationship with my sister, Kayla. The decision to make this behavior change stemmed from a depressive state that I experienced last year. In April of 2009, my freshman year at the university, I was raped by a person that I was very close to at the time. I knew this person before I came to Rowan; he was one of my close friends, somewhat like an older brother. I believed that I could trust him and put myself in a vulnerable position and he took advantage of me. Following this situation I became very socially withdrawn and suppressed my feelings surrounding the assault. From April 2009 until the summer of 2011 I did not inform anyone about the incident. I disclosed this information to my mother following falling into a depressive state for many months prior. At that point, my mother realized that there was not much that she could do to help me come out of this depression. Therefore, she looked into and found a therapist and, with my permission, set an appointment. I consented to the appointment because I realized that in order to address and cope with the feelings stemming from this assault I had to get help from someone. I then sought professional help and have been seeing the therapist since then. My therapist has helped me conquer my feelings of guilt and shame and, after overcoming those feelings, I have been able to address every day issues, flawed relationships and stressful situations. To assess my stage of change during the beginning of this project I took two assessments. The two assessments were the long URICA assessment and the short assessment in the book, Changing for Good (CFG). On the long URICA assessment I scored received a score of 33, this score places me in the contemplation stage. While the short assessment from the book, Changing for Good, placed me in the preparation stage. Although the URICA assessment was more thorough and detailed, I agree more with the short assessment. The score I received on the long URICA assessment placed me in the Contemplation stage, however; I do not agree with this result. I believe that have taken significant steps to prepare myself for my behavior change. My overall goals are to be confident in my ability to handle stress and emotionally charged situations as they arise. In November of 2010 I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder and depression due to a sexual assault that occurred on campus. Since this diagnosis, I have taken steps to prepare myself control my anxiety. This preparation and work has allowed me to deal with any suppressed emotions stemming from the sexual assault. Addressing these feelings has made handling daily situations much easier than past years. The short assessment in the CFG book placed me in the Preparation stage. As stated before, I agree the most with this assessment. I believe dealing with the suppressed emotions that derive from the assault is a significant step in preparing myself for a behavior change. Sorting out these emotions was extremely important because I realized that the depression that was plaguing me was not going to subside until I took some sort of action. Restructuring and managing these feeling was vitally important because if I had continued to wallow in the depression I would have sunk deeper into the depression and I would not be in the position that I am in today. Following handling those feelings, I have been better able to control my emotions and reactions during various emotionally charged situations. I believe these two assessments placed me in different stages of change because I have taken steps to deal with one issue that contributed to my depression. However, I had not yet taken action to bring myself completely out of the depression. As mentioned before, the URICA assessment asked several questions about each stage of change and had a more in depth measure of each stage. Although it was not very thorough, I believe the results from the short assessment were the most accurate. I have prepared myself for this behavior change by attending weekly appointments with my therapist. I have been able to apply the tools discussed in our conversations to each many stressful situations and have seen some success. The Changing for Good assessment also placed me in the preparation stage because I have taken measures toward progressing in my behavior change in the last six months. There are a number of processes of change that are recommended for my stage of change. These processes are emotional arousal, self re-evaluation, and helping relationships. The processes of change that stood out the most were commitment and helping relationships. Commitment is recommended because in order to make and maintain a positive change in handling stressful circumstances, I will have to be dedicated to improving my mental health and I must attempt to change my current way of thinking. This commitment is very important in maintaining the behavior change because if I am not dedicated to this process, I will not see lasting results. Committing to this change will lead to a number of positive outcomes. A few of these positive outcomes are prevention of relapse into a depressive state or isolation, a complete behavior change and continuing to carefully address each situation, one issue at a time. Helping relationships is also another influential process of change. This process is important because it is imperative for me to have a strong support system. Without a little motivation and someone to talk to I would fall back into isolating and suppressing my problems. Throughout childhood and my teenage years, I found it difficult to communicate my problems and suppressing them was much easier. This suppression led to a build-up of emotions and in my life I have had two mental break downs. From these breakdowns and the depressive state I experienced a year ago, I learned that expressing my emotions is the healthiest thing for me to do. In order to express these emotions and maintain my mental stability I must create a support system of people that I trust and love. I will depend on these people and the skills I am learning during my therapy sessions to maintain a positive mood and outlook on life. In the beginning of the project I planned to track my progress by assessing my mood at several points during the day. I planned to document my emotions at three different times during the day, the morning, the middle of the day around 3pm and finally at the time I go to sleep. During this tracking system I assigned myself 3 specific questions to answer during each mood assessment: How am I feeling, why am I feeling this way, and what will I do about my mood. After progressing through the behavior change I realized that this tracking process was not realistic. Attempting to document my mood three times each day was time consuming and, because of my schedule, was unrealistic. After talking to my group members in one of our coaching sessions I decided to scale back a bit and document my mood just once per day. This tracking system was much more effective and I was better able to monitor my progress. As I planned to, I used a calendar to record my feelings. Each day I wrote a sentence or two describing my mood and a little about the reasons or issues that led to the emotions. By writing these sentences, especially the positive statements, I was able to encourage myself to continue making the behavior change. This motivation carried me through the more emotionally charged and difficult days. Because I documented this progress I was more successful in preventing any relapse into a depressive state. In the book, Changing for Good, there are various assessments for each stage of change. The precontemplation stage contains the consciousness raising self assessment. After completing this assessment I received a score of 10, which places me in the contemplation stage. I do not agree with this assessment because, as stated previously, I have taken significant steps in preparing for this behavior change, including beginning and continuing weekly appointments with my therapist. Also in the precontemplation stage is the helping relationships assessment. On this assessment I received a score of 19. According to Prochaska, this score means that I am ready to progress from the precontemplation stage into contemplation. Another assessment in the precontemplation stage of change is the self liberation assessment. On this assessment I received a score of 9. Prochaska states that this score is also an indication that I am ready to move into the contemplation stage. The contemplation stage of change also contains a number of assessments. The first assessment in this stage was the emotional arousal assessment. On this assessment I received a score of 7. According to Prochaska this score means that I should increase my efforts in emotional arousal. I believe I am emotionally charged to make a change for very private reasons, related to relatives, friend and personal experiences. The self-reevaluation assessment is also in the contemplation stage. I received a score of 13 on this assessment. I believe this indicates that I have made good use of self-reevaluation; but, it would not hurt to do some reassessment in this area. The commitment assessment is in the preparation stage of change. I received a score of 14 on this assessment which, according to Prochaska, means that I am ready to move into the action stage. The decisional balance evaluation is also in this stage of change. On this assessment I received a score of 21 for both the pros and cons of changing. I believe this means that I need to think more about the cons of changing and determine which cons will be the most challenging. The action stage of change contains the countering assessment. On this assessment I received a score of 14, this score means that I have done a good job at countering my problem behavior; however I can make more of an effort and do a little better. This stage also contains the environmental control assessment. On this evaluation I received a score of 14, which means that I am ready to move on to the maintenance stage. The final assessment is the reward assessment. The score I received on this evaluation was 15. This score also means that I am ready to move onto the maintenance stage of change. I believe all of these assessments apply to different aspects of my behavior change. After assessing my overall level of success in the beginning of the project, I realized that I had to put much more effort into handling stressful situations in a more appropriate manner. Now that I have reached the end of the project, I am moderately satisfied with the progress that I have made. I have made significant changes in the manner that I handle arguments and stress. However, I still have a great deal of work to do with the way I handle, talk to and my sister. At this point I have come to realize that a relationship with my sister will not be possible until she works handles her issues and is in a position to talk to and treat me much better. At this point I have lost a great deal of hope regarding improvement of this relationship and my sister and I barely acknowledge each other currently. However, no matter how emotionally charged or hostile we both have become, I am still optimistic about the future and am hopeful that one day we will be able to not only coexist, but possibly be friendly towards each other. During this behavior change project I used both of the processes of change that I discussed earlier and the wellness coaching group to communicate with. I was very satisfied with these strategies. I committed to making a change and I have noticed significant changes in my thinking and mood. The strategy that I found most useful was helping relationships. There were many instances during this semester that I decided to talk to someone and calm myself down instead of doing something irrational. In addition to using the helping relationships that I established with my support group, I also had the help of my group members in my wellness coaching group. I found the coaching sessions very beneficial. My group members helped me identify specific goals for the project and changing my tracking method many other things. I do not believe I would have stayed as focused making this change if I did not have my coaching group. When assessing my stage of change I believe that progressed into the next stage of change, action. I believe that I am in the stage because I have and continue to take measures to improve my mental health and handle my problems as they arise. I have seen a great deal of success and I have noticed my relationships with my friends and family are changing as a result of the actions I have taken to better myself. If I had to do this project over I would put more effort into developing a relationship with my sister and involving her in my life. However, I do not know how successful I would be because I am aware that I cannot force her to have a relationship with me. I can only hope that time will ease the amount of hostility that she holds toward me and that our relationship will flourish in its own time.