1 Indian Horse Novel: The Importance of Indigenous Culture Indian Horse, written by Richard Wagamese, takes place in the early 1960s and focuses on the life of a boy name Saul Indian Horse, a victim of the tragedy of the Canadian Indigenous Residential Schools. Throughout the novel, the reader is exposed to the suffering and trauma imposed on innocent children at these institutions. As we follow Saul’s journey, the author uncovers the supernatural and spiritual reality of Indigenous culture, and how the culture relies on its past and present bodies for direction. In this essay, I will explore the importance of Ojibway culture, First Nation families, and ancestral lands in Saul’s life, and how these embodiments of his culture help guide him through the hardships of his life. In the beginning of the novel, Saul endures the catastrophe that is St. Jerome’s Residential School, where he witnesses the heinous crimes and tragedy of torture, torment, and suicide, “I read once that there are holes in the universe that swallow all light, all bodies, St. Jerome’s took all the light from the world,” (Wagamese, 2012, p. 43). On many occasions during his time at school, Saul looks for comfort amongst his peers, as the culture around him brings him back to the peaceful days of living in his Ojibway tribe. Although the Residential School system was hell-like, and many kids could be hostile to others, Saul was able to find a sense of tranquility in his peers, as his fellow classmates found strength within each other. The kids kept their heritage alive in the school in any way possible, speaking their language when nobody was around and sneaking off when they could to fish in the river or prey in the barns. They realized they are all cut from the same piece of cloth, and they were all there because they all shared the same beliefs. As Saul grew older at St. Jerome’s, he found his calling in the game of hockey. Father Gaston Leboutilier was a young priest who possessed a sense of humour and kindness unlike 2 most other teachers at the school. Leboutilier introduced Saul to the game of hockey and became his mentor and number-one fan. Eventually, as Saul’s natural talent was discovered, he was given the opportunity to leave St. Jerome’s and play on a real team consisting solely of Indigenous boys. Fred Kelly led the team called Moose, and Saul was brought into their familiar, First Nation household. Saul felt at home there, with his sibling’s past on, parents abandoned and grandparents living in spirit, he felt like he had new community, a new tribe. After showing his raw talent for the game of hockey and leading the team to countless victories, Saul felt accepted into the group, “When I sat down under the bench and sat up to peel my jersey off, they raised their own bottles to me and silently drank…I was a Moose,” (Wagamese, 2012, p. 107). Saul’s journey from here was mostly downhill. As Saul led the Moose to success, the fame and recognition was not healthy for an Indigenous team playing a supposed ‘white-man’s sport’. Every game was filled with fans cursing their names and poking fun at Saul specifically. It becomes nearly impossible to ignore these remarks at such a high volume. “I started to see a line in every arena we played in. It showed itself a stretch of empty seats that separated the Indian fans from the white ones,” (Wagamese, 2012, p. 137). Eventually, Saul’s talent was appreciated enough to where he made it to the big leagues, a farm team for the Toronto Maple Leafs. However, Saul’s passion for the game was outweighed by the pressure to retaliate on the racism he endured every game. He couldn’t tolerate the hatred he received for having brown skin, even though he was clearly the best on the ice. Quickly, Saul realized he had no place in the high-rank leagues, riddled with racist English Canadians who couldn’t stand an Indian being better at their game, so he returned back to the comfort of his people in Manitouwadge, where he felt at home. 3 The reader learns near the end of the novel that Saul did not solely play hockey because of his passion or the game, but rather used it as a method of escape. Saul’s old mentor Leboutilier was not a saint after all, as he was responsible for the majority of Saul’s psychological trauma later in his life. Leboutilier would consistently abuse Saul both sexually and mentally, he bought Saul’s silence with allowing him to play hockey with the other boys, Saul was hypnotized, “I used the game to shelter me from the truth, from having to face it every day…the game kept me from remembering,” (Wagamese, 2012, p. 199). Dealing with this magnitude of trauma, Saul reached the lowest point in his life, and at times, near death, but what ultimately kept him grounded in the one thing he believed in, the one thing he knew wouldn’t change, and that’s his heritage, his last name, who and what he came from. After coming to the realization of his troubles, Saul returned to where he felt safest, and closest to his family – God’s Lake, “ When I stepped out onto the western edge of the lake and looked across it, it was as though I had never left,” Saul says, “...every step closer to our old family campsite transported me further back…my thoughts cleared. I walked in peace…” (Wagamese, 2012, p. 204). This ancestral land held critical significance in Saul’s life, it is where his last memories of his family were, and that meant the most to him. Saul describes here when he closes his eyes, he is able to see his whole family, in the canoes they once used to travel here before, “My people” he describes them. Saul sees the original leader of his tribe, his grandfather, Shabogeesick, who tells him to “carry this place within you. This place of beginning and endings,” (Wagamese, 2012, p. 205). This is a powerful quote to the reader, as it exemplifies the literal beginning of Saul’s life, but more importantly, the psychological ending of his suffering. This is where he is meant to let go of his sorrows and anger, the grudges he holds against St. Jerome’s, this is his new beginning. 4 Saul later returns to the New Dawn Centre, where he once seeks refuge away from his troubles with alcohol, “The only thing that I had known for certain was that I had to backtrack to revisit vital places from my early life, if I was ever going to understand how to live in the present,” (Wagamese, 2012, p. 207). Saul learns to understand the importance of living in the moment, and not relying on the past. Arguably, the most important stop he must make is back to the Kelly’s home, where he feels most secure. As he returns, he opens up to his former family, about the troubles of St. Jerome’s and the abuse he endured. This is where Saul learns that he is not alone in his suffering, but rather a victim amongst many. Fred and Martha explain they are also victims of similar abuse, and they resonate with his hurt and agony, but more importantly, they tell him the trusted his healing process, that they didn’t interfere with journey because they knew ultimately, he would end up back where he belonged, right in Manitouwadge. Saul had a hard life, he was beaten, broken, abused and all at such a young age. For some, that is an everlasting trauma, but Saul placed large significance in his heritage and his people, and his spiritual connection to his past Ojibway tribe. His natural connection to the Kelly family helped him overcome his troubles, forming a new path for his future, and helping him cope with the trials and tribulations he faced. In conclusion, Ojibway culture, ancestral lands, and First Nation families and communities played a monuments role in Saul’s life, healing a once broken man and molding him into someone forgiving, insightful and ambitious for his future. 5 6