Curiosity and Anger
I see myself as both wounded and healing. My trauma history has caused me to avoid
anger because it scared me and it wasn’t safe to go there. Through my work this semester and in
my own work in therapy I’ve opened myself back up and am slowly allowing myself to feel into
this emotion staying curious to moments where it comes up allowing myself to sense it. It is a
slow process that I’m allowing to unfold in small portions. I also see that in my work with
practice partners is the avoidance I have towards that anger and the avoidance I have towards
allowing all parts of me to be in the experience, so I am trying to just stay curious for myself
with my own internal landscape allowing what wants to emerge to emerge and working to not
ignore that. This translates into the way I hope to work and have tried to work with practice
partners is just being with this curiosity for myself and for my clients, and really letting whatever
emerge to emerge and seeing the beauty in that, the connection and transformation that can occur
when you kind of when you allow that organicity to happen. I am trusting that and allowing the
anger to be there in healthy ways is one of the biggest things that I'm going to be continually
working on now. Rage and anger are areas for learning that I hope to have future resources to
explore in my own journey and in future work to support others in their healing particularly with
trauma, changing body forms, health issues, and disabilities.
Curiosity and Oscillation
Our ability as humans and healers to really intentionally build a conscious relationship to
our body's oscillations is so critical and also so easily missed for someone like myself who is
neurodivergent and has an inner critic that worries that I am always missing some piece of
information. However, sitting with this idea over the past semester has created space for me to
lean into my own process and allow myself to be where I am right now and to work on allowing