VACATE By Cliff Whitehouse Some kind of Indians used to live here, right? Who wouldn't? Beach, thoughtless horizons, birdsong, dog-like cats, seaweed, breeze, memories. Feels like Sumbawa, Indonesia here: a sandy trail cut through the growth, insect orchestras and midday inertia, a storm 200 miles into the future. This rented house, four stories high, was built around the shaft of an elevator, not terribly tropical, though. Here, it is the Atlantic behind me, sometimes tempting, sometimes bluster and malice; clouds build over the sound, mayonnaise not mustard on the water-flat breast of the continent. So much technology in this escape—planes, cars, computers, games, refrigeration, phones--comforts at what should be the end of a world. At least French is being spoken, "Merci, Marianne." Dreams come from books, from squaques, from muscle pulls, from unknown doubtdevils, from lovely babysitters during Shakespeare, from nostalgesia, from musical snot and sublimity, a solar carrot, from junkie-hot tempers and tornado leftovers. Hattaras, you've changed. Gone, the royally hot sun. Here, in the dawndark, uncooked rain runs before hard rain, dances back behind it. My legs are tight from yesterday's softsand sound walk where we found a murder weapon. Isn't anything a murder weapon? From words to nuclear waste. And who, of the thousands that come to these four-story vacation homes, with six bedrooms and seven baths, pool, pool table, hot tub, who, of the thousands that build them and keep them pink and green and weeded, felt sufficiently pissed off to keep someone else from breathing in the heavy sea air? The pale blue garlic clove of water might know. The calm of the physical place is constantly superseded by what we have brought with us: anger, conflict, work, machines, games, expectations. This ain't southern CA with its hard T & A, this is families, forgotten bodies, stubborn beer-bellied fishermen standing with surf rods to spite the sun, nuclear wasted families tilt-soaking into the sand on webbed aluminum chairs with best-sellers cracked in half. And all it takes to regain the sauvage is a six-minute walk to the beach. There, the waves made in China break like cheap plastic toys on the sandfly beach, the merciless riptide moves the swimmer away from his sandy shoes. Manta ray leaps from the water, white-bellied, gunmetal blue back airborne for fun? For food? Sandpipers run with the foam up and back, paranoia on sticks. Some waves crack with Stygian malice, others masseuse-gentle on the wind-muscled sand. Little mantas get spat to the sky but fall back. Easy three colors of sand, sea and sky dividing into browns, beiges, light toast, shell-tainted horseradish, sun-scorched grays, dirty turquoise, jade green and heavy blue, the curved white of distance folding into that blue of dead horses' hooves. Kites of childish optimism rise into the wind.