1 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Acknowledgements I’d like to thank my family and friends for their love, support, and kindness. Even though they don’t always understand me—very few of you ‘get me,’ but you’ve been there when I needed you and I can’t thank you enough. I’d also like to thank one of my writing professors, Miss Cassandra Wynn. She always said that my writing had a voice and because of that, I kept pushing until that voice was heard. Thank you for seeing my ability and my potential and reminding me of all the great things I could do with my writing. I’d also like to thank everyone who has ever read anything that I’ve ever written and has said, ‘I cannot wait to read your book someday.’ Words cannot express the gratitude that I have for seeing in me and my writing what I may not have been able to see. Thank you for supporting me and being loyal and patient. I truly appreciate it. To Candice Risper and Nicole Clark, y’all have been the cheering section for my writing for years and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for every comment, critique, criticism, and word of endearment. People like you help me see the good in the world and again, I cannot thank you enough! This is for y’all! 1 2 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Dedication This book is dedicated to my mama, Mrs. Ethel L. Grant. Her love and nagging and belief that I could do anything I ever wanted as long as I tried have been overwhelming! I thank her for pushing so hard to make sure that I had every opportunity that she could afford. I just thank her for loving me and doing the best she could. I am the person that I am because of her and there is no word in any language that can describe just how much I love my mama! 2 3 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ “Vivien-Leigh Lattimore! Woman, we are going to be late! Get your face on and grab those stilts you call shoes so we can get the hell outta here!” “I am coming, Frank! Calm down!” “I declare; you ladies love to take your sweet time for everything! You’re going to make me late and you know how damn important this thing is.” “Honey, I need ten more minutes! Can I have that or are we going to waste it arguing? I know this is important to you and I want to look my best.” “Fine.” I’m sorry. That’s my husband, Franklin, and he’s just a little stressed out. He’s actually an absolute gentleman, I swear. I spent an extra ten minutes in the bathroom and that’s what’s slowing me down—I couldn’t help it. Alright, my face is done, my lashes are good… just a little gloss on top of the lipstick and I’m ready to go. “MMMMOOOOMMMYYY!” My son, Christopher, is in tears. He’s bursting into my dressing room and coming straight for my lap. My babies keep me pretty busy and they’re usually the reason why I’m always pressed for time. 3 4 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “What’s the matter, Chris? Huh? Why’s Mama’s big boy so sad?” “It hurt, Mommy! Jordie pushed me! See?” He’s pointing at his knees and giving me the most pained look he can muster. “Oh, he did, did he? I’m gonna get that Jordie. I told you boys ‘no pushing.’ You want Mommy to kiss your boo-boo?” Christopher’s nodding his curly little head and mustering a smile. I love to see those smiles in admittance that mama makes it all better. I’m pulling him up on my lap, pulling up his pant leg, and gently kissing his knee. “Is that better, Christopher Charles-Franklin Lattimore?” “Yes, Mommy.” “How did I know that would do the trick? Alright, Big Boy, let’s get out of here before Daddy comes in here and carries us both out.” I’m closing up my makeup bag and slipping it into my Michael Kors clutch. My son’s sliding off my lap and reaching for my hand; I’m letting him take it and letting him lead me out of the dressing room. His father is insistent that his boys learn the traditional roles of men early—this child is two. Chris and I are finally exiting the bedroom and making our way to the stairs. He’s tall 4 5 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ for his age, so sometimes it’s amazing to watch him walk down the stairs with such ease; though, he does brace himself with one hand on the wall as he does it. “FINALLY! Damn, Bay, you sure lookin’ good!” Frank’s leaning in to kiss me on the lips and even though I just glossed them, I’ll let him. I can’t help but be suckered in by those dimples and those big brown eyes. It also doesn’t hurt that he has this irresistible southern accent. “Now, would you have been able to confidently say that had you kept rushing me like a madman?” “I would indeed be able to say that, but that’s because I don’t care whether you’re wearing makeup or not. My woman is gorgeous.” “Thank you, Honey. Look, I know it doesn’t bother you that I gain a few inches over you when I wear heels, but are you sure that you want me to wear the five inch ones on your big day?” “Damn right I do! I like my Glamazon to stand out! I’ve got a super model type on my arm; what man wouldn’t want that? You wearin’ the last pair I bought you? The spiked red bottomed ones?” “Yes I am, Honey. Thank you for appreciating my height. You know what I’d appreciate?” “What’s that, Darlin’?” 5 6 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ I lift Chris and sit him in a chair next to his guilty twin brother. These bookends of mine love to get into all kinds of mischief. “If you would have another talk with your twin boys about rough-housing with each other. Chris came to me in tears about how Jordan pushed him down and he hurt his knee.” Frank was stern with the children—especially with the boys. He’s very southern and believes boys should be rough and stoic, while girls should be pampered and comfortable little princesses. I tend to agree with the pampered princess business, but I think he’s too hard on the boys. Without a doubt, I’m the good cop and he’s the bad cop. “Christopher, how many times have I told you to take things like a man? If your brother pushes you down, you get up, brush yourself off, and push him back. You don’t go crying over it.” “Frankie, he’s two years old. It’s fine if he cries.” “VL, you told me to handle this—“ “Fine.” I throw my hands up and walk over to the center island of the kitchen where our other children are sitting quietly. “Mommy, look! I wrote my name—Claire Vivienne Lattimore!” 6 7 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I wrote my name, too, Mommy! Ruby AnnaMaria Lattimore!” “I see that, Angels! Very good job!” Claire and Ruby are four-year-old twins and are their daddy’s pride and joy! Not just them, but their beautiful older sister Renada as well. My husband loves all of his children, but he just loves to spoil and pamper his princesses. Frank is the father of seven—two from his first marriage, one from a failed relationship, and our four—and he’s the most amazing father you’d ever meet. He may be stern, but our children love him more than words can describe. “Alright, Bay, I talked to ‘em; now we gotta go! C’mon y’all, Daddy can’t be late today!” “Let’s go get in the car, Babies, it’s a very important day for Daddy!” I’m rallying the kids out to the car and Frank’s behind me, making sure nothing is left behind. I know I’ve spoken to you about my children and my husband, but I have yet to introduce you to us. I think we’ll be a lot easier to understand us when I tell you how we met. # It was a wonderfully easy Sunday afternoon in Beverly Hills. I was just on my way out of my favorite local restaurant after having brunch with my sister, Veronique, when we ran into this terribly handsome 7 8 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ older man. He was about six feet tall with dimples, wavy salt and pepper hair, and gold toned glasses—which perfectly complimented his beautifully sun kissed complexion. He was on his way in, but he stopped and held the door for us like an absolute gentleman. “Don’t worry about it, Ladies, I’ve got the door.” Casual eye contact turned into nearly intense gazing as I found myself being charmed by his gorgeous facial features and his sexy southern accent. “Thank you, so much.” I felt drawn to him, but I immediately pulled myself together when I noticed him trying to casually give me the once over. “Why, it’s no problem at all…it’s definitely my pleasure.” I caught up to my sister and we continued on our trek to her car. We were only a few feet away from the restaurant, but something compelled me to look back. He was still standing there, holding the door, and wearing a very impressed smile on his face. I smiled back and tried to ignore the thoughts milling around in my head. “Someone seems interested.” Ronnie has always been terribly sarcastic, but her sarcasm in this instance was a premonition. “What?” 8 9 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “That man back there with the accent—I think you like him and I know he’s impressed by you.” “Why would you say that?” I tried to play coy, but he had definitely piqued my interest. “You haven’t realized this, Little Sister, but you haven’t stopped smiling since we’ve passed him. Also, he let out a little impressed whistle when you came out of that restaurant, breasts first. I know we’re an impressive pair, being Amazons and all, but you’ve got an impressive pair up top and you know he noticed.” “Shut up, Ronnie! Really?” “You flaunt those breasts and those legs and I know he was watching those, too. You’ve got to stop with that insecure act just because you’re tall. You’re beautiful and it’s about time that you let the past go and start dating again.” “You’re right, but he didn’t ask me.” “Then go ask him!” “I can’t do that! A lady should not have to pursue a man.” “Well, Miss Upper East Side, Manhattan Socialite, you could be missing out on the man of your dreams. You would look good together and I bet you’d make gorgeous babies.” 9 10 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “He’s missing out on the woman of his dreams. If he wants to meet me, he needs to chase me.” Ronnie rolled her eyes as she unlocked the doors to her BMW. We were en route to The Grove to complete our Sunday ritual of brunch and power shopping; we hadn’t been in the car a good five minutes before my cell phone began to ring. The number seemed familiar, but foreign all at the same time. “Hello?” “Yes, Ms. Valentine?” “This is she.” “This is Carrie from The Waterford, you just left here.” “Yes, did I leave something behind?” “Uh, no. We normally don’t do this, but we have a patron here who is adamant in meeting you and is wondering if you’d mind coming back?” “Hold on a second.” I took the phone away from my ear and placed my hand over the speaker. This had never happened to me before and I had no idea what to do. “Ronnie, somebody wants to meet me back at The Waterford.” 10 11 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Well, well, well. I do believe that the chase is on. That man wants to meet you!” “You think so?” “With the way he was staring you down, I guarantee you it’s him.” “Do you think I should go back?” “What kind of question is that? What did I say to you before we got in this car? You wanted him to chase you and you’ve got your wish.” I picked the phone up again and decided to give in. “I’ll be there in a few.” “Thank you. I’m positive that you will not be disappointed.” I closed up the phone and put it back in my purse. A man had certainly never approached me in this manner. Ever…and I became anxious. Not nervous, anxious. I don’t do nervous. “Ronnie, can you drop me here, please?” “You’re making a good decision, Little Sister. I’ve got a good feeling about this one.” She leaned over and kissed me on the cheek in her protective big sister fashion. 11 12 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I hope you’re right.” “I am! I bet you’re going to make such pretty babies together. You know you’re not getting any younger!” “Thanks a lot.” It was comforting to hear her say that she had a good feeling about this man. She stopped the car in front of the restaurant and I started to open the door, but the mystery man was there, opening it for me. He gave me his hand and seemed to be in awe as my long, bronzed legs made their way out of the BMW. He closed the door behind me and held my hand in his; he made direct eye contact and I felt myself being drawn in again. Everything about him just seemed so gentle and sweet. “How are you today, Ma’am?” “I’m well, thank you.” “Yes…my name is Charles Franklin Lattimore—my friends all call me Frank—and I’d love for you to become one of my friends.” “You want me to be your friend?” “I’d love to start out that way, yes. Now, I know you’ve already had brunch, but I am absolutely famished. I would just appreciate your company as I ate. You can order dessert or whatever you’d like, but I just can’t let this day go by without being in your presence. 12 13 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Would you mind blessing me with your beauty for awhile?” I was stunned. No man had ever been that gentlemanly to me before. His strong southern accent seemed to mesmerize me, and he was so eloquent and confident in his speech, and that alone was extremely sexy. I was wearing stilettos that day, and stood about five inches over him. He didn’t seem to be at all threatened by my height. I knew that if I were to take my shoes off, I’d be eye-to-eye with him and most men didn’t like that, but he seemed different. Frank just stood strong on his position. I had already taken the chance on being there, so I decided to go all the way. “I think I have no reason to disappoint a new friend after you’ve made such an eloquent request.” “Thank you, my dear.” Franklin escorted me into the restaurant and was nothing less than a complete gentleman. He held doors and pulled out chairs; he was already a pleasure to be around. “You know, Darlin,’ I have yet to be honored with knowing your name.” “I’m sorry. My name is Vivien-Leigh Valentine.” “Vivien Leigh Valentine—what a beautiful name for such a beautiful creature.” 13 14 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Thank you, but it’s actually Vivien-Leigh. It’s my first and middle names, but my mother hyphenated it to read as just my first.” “Well, it’s beautiful nonetheless. Your mother’s a Vivien Leigh fan, I take it. A lover of Gone With the Wind”? “Very much so; it’s her favorite book and her favorite film. I don’t want to be too frank, but why aren’t you taken?” It was just unfathomable to me that someone like him was single. “That’s not too frank at all. I’m twice divorced, actually. My first wife has some personal mental health issues that neither she nor I could deal with; and my second wife and I just couldn’t make it work. She felt that I was ‘too controlling,’ but I don’t think it’s controlling when a man’s just doing all the good old fashioned things he’s supposed to do for a woman.” “Oh. That’s too bad. You know what’s so crazy? I feel like I’ve seen you before. It’s like I know you from somewhere.” Frank chuckled to himself and looked up at me. I swear at that moment in time, looking into his eyes, I could see my future. My husband was sitting right in front of me and I couldn’t let him get away. “I have my own television show. Judge Lattimore.” 14 15 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Oh my God, that’s where I know you from! Okay, I feel a little silly now.” “Oh stop it, Miss Vivien-Leigh. You should never feel that way when you’re with me.” “It’s just that I watch your show when I have the chance to and for some reason I just couldn’t put together the face and the accent. I almost mistook you for that other judge. What’s his name?” “I believe you’re referring to the good Judge Joe Brown.” “That’s him! I guess it’s because I’ve never seen you without the robe.” “The judge and I get confused quite often, but it’s okay. We’re old friends. We go way back. You know, I don’t wear that robe everywhere; I like to leave it at work. I think I clean up pretty nice on my own, though. What do you think?” “You sure do…my word, did I just say that out loud?” I started to blush and quickly put my head in my hands. I’m never nervous, but he definitely had me on edge. He gave me this strange feeling in my stomach, an unexplainable feeling. Ronnie told me that she felt the exact same way when she met her husband, Armand. She said it was love, but I just couldn’t believe it at the time. I barely knew the man! I never believed in love at first sight, that is, until I met Frank. He took my hands 15 16 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ and removed them from my head and with one finger; he lifted my chin and looked deeply into my eyes. “Don’t do that, Darlin.’ It’s alright.” Why was he so damn smooth? “You know what? Sitting here with you has surely been a most humbling experience, Miss VivienLeigh. Your beauty and honesty are just like a breath of fresh air. Would you mind taking a little walk with me? I feel a little bad for ruining your afternoon with your girlfriend.” “It’s perfectly fine; my sister didn’t mind at all. I’d really enjoy a nice walk with you.” We left the restaurant and walked around the nearby blocks of Beverly Hills for a little while before stopping to sit and talk at a local park. “Frank, although I could’ve bought them myself, I have to thank you for the Manolo Blahniks. You know you didn’t have to buy me anything, right?” “I felt like it was the least I could do for tearing you away from spending time with your sister. I know how important time with your siblings can be; besides, I knew I had to buy them for you when I saw how divine your legs looked when you tried them on. I think they’ll make good dancing shoes.” 16 17 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Thank you, Frank. Thank you for everything today.” “You don’t have to keep thanking me, Miss Vivien-Leigh.” He gently patted my knee with his giant hands. I felt so at ease with him; the feeling was uncanny. “But, speaking of those never-ending legs, I do have a question for you—actually, I just need a confirmation on something.” “Ok, what do you need to have confirmed?” “You’re about what? 6’0” maybe 6’1”?” “I’m 6’0”, but in these heels, about 6’4”. Is there something wrong with that?” “Oh, no, Ma’am! I don’t want to embarrass you, but I just think that it’s sexy. It’s sexy that you’re so confidently tall and still wear those sky-high heels. I just enjoy the curves of a woman’s calf muscles—not muscular, but firm and the perfect curve. It’s a thing of pure beauty.” Everything from his mouth was just right, and at the right time. I couldn’t help but blush at his confession. “That’s a relief to hear. It’s just that some men don’t like dating a woman as tall as I am. I’ve dated a lot of men who’ve always felt the need to overcompensate their masculinity for what they lacked in height. I 17 18 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ usually don’t like dating shorter men…I get so tired of dealing with the ‘Napoleon Complex.’ It drives me crazy.” “We’re the same height and I can assure you, I have no qualms. It’ll be different dating a woman who’s right up there with me, but I’m up for it—well, that is, if you’d be interested in dating me.” “I would be very interested in dating you, Frank.” “Good. I just want you to know that a real man never feels the need to compete with his woman. A real man is confident in himself and never represses his woman or makes her feel any less than her worth. If he does that mess, then he’s not a real man.” “Wow. I’ve honestly never heard any of these things before. You’re letting me in on all the things I wish I would’ve known so many years ago. If I’d known back then all the things that you’re telling me now—“ “Then you wouldn’t be here with me and we wouldn’t be having this opportunity. I wouldn’t trade this moment or this day for anything in the world.” “I just mean, no man has ever appreciated me for all that I am. I’ve either been wanted for the fulfillment of some weird fetish or because I was pretty and tall, but more so for being pretty and not really for being tall.” 18 19 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I just don’t understand what kind of man would exploit you in such a way. It disgusts me just thinking about it.” “Typically, it’s the kind of men who get a kick out of being wrapped up in a pair of long legs or who enjoy having their heads scissor locked between my firm thighs. They have tried so hard to convince me that it’s for the betterment of our relationship, but it was just to play out their freaky fantasies.” I will admit that I was definitely trying to reel him in. “Darlin,’ I could see how any man would want to have his head locked between those pretty brown thighs, but to use you is just low down. As a man, I apologize for those ignorant members of my sex.” I had to have that man. I knew he was running an old school game on me, but I didn’t care. He was just so smooth! He held my right hand in his left and placed his right hand on my knee. The only thoughts in my head at that time were to just wrap my legs around him. He would feel so good between my long limbs and I would never let him go. “Thank you.” Those words flowed from my voluptuous lips in a whisper. He knew just what to say to make me feel at ease. Frank made me feel like an absolute princess. Tears started to roll down my cheeks and he quickly did what he could to make me feel better. 19 20 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Don’t do that. Don’t cry, Miss Vivien-Leigh. You’re much too pretty.” Frank gently wiped away my tears and I placed my hand over his as he did it. There was a brief silence between us and all I knew was that I wanted to see this man again…and every day for the rest of my life. “You know what I would love, Miss VivienLeigh?” “The opportunity to have me wrap my legs around you and make you feel warm and wanted?” This time, Frank was the one blushing. I knew it was terribly forward of me, but it just felt like the right thing to say. I did feel a bit embarrassed after I’d realized what I put on the table. “No—“ “That was too forward, wasn’t it?” “Oh, no Ma’am, it was alright; however, I was going to ask you if I could see you in those new dancing shoes I bought you this Saturday night.” “Oh. Well, that sounds fine, too.” “But, I would love to try your idea out, as well.” We shared a laugh and stared into each other’s eyes for a little while more. I never wanted to leave that man’s side. 20 21 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Frank, you make me feel so comfortable—so at ease. I’m actually very pleased with myself for spending this day with you.” “Thank you. It feels so great to hear that. Miss Vivien-Leigh, will you do me a favor?” “What’s that, Frank?” “Dance with me. Let’s put those retired Broadway dancing legs to good use.” “Do you want me to take my heels off?” “What for? I’ve got no problem with your height, but if you don’t mind me being up close and personal with your girls, there…” He gestured at my breasts and smiled coyly. I wanted to hold his head against my breasts so badly, but I had to restrain myself from moving too fast. “Actually, my feet hurt. I wasn’t going to say anything in an attempt to seem like this ultra-chic woman who doesn’t mind flouncing around in four-inch heels all day. “ “I’m sorry to hear that. How about I rub your feet for awhile and then you owe me a dance when the next song plays?” “I think that will work.” Frank took my leg and ran his hands down my calf to my foot. He took off my shoe and rubbed my foot 21 22 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ so firmly and so gently at the same time. His touch was heavenly. I was so taken by him and it almost frightened me how quickly it happened. We sat on a bench that faced a stage holding a full orchestra and vocalist that sang and played into the night as we talked even more. I asked Frank a few questions that my father armed me with to gage the intentions of a possible suitor. I’m pretty sure there’s a radio DJ who tried to give women the same advice, but it’s all common sense. I asked Frank what his short-term goals were. He said he’d already achieved most of the goals he’d set for himself when he was younger, but at this time he was very interested in changing lives in Los Angeles. He loved working on his television show, but that wouldn’t last forever. Frank said that he had been really playing with the idea of running for mayor of LA because he loved being in public office. Then I asked him about his long terms goals. Frank said that he wanted to make sure that his sons were able to carry on what he started. He made sure that they were able to be college educated and would support their career ventures when they were ready. He also said that he was working on building a mentoring program for boys that would turn them into real men. It would include a center for them to meet afterschool and would offer different programs that would prepare them for college and the workforce. I asked him about his family—the women in his life, his children, if he had any spiritual beliefs. He said 22 23 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ he lost his mother nearly three years prior and it still bothered him to his soul. He’d done all he could to show his parents that they did a great job with him and to make them proud. Frank was named for his father, Charles Franklin Lattimore, who was a brick mason. His mother, Anna Maria, was a schoolteacher in the Memphis, Tennessee public school system for nearly forty years. Charles Sr. and Anna Maria had plans for their three children—Chauncey Sterling, Charles Jr., and Charlene Elise—to become doctors, lawyers, and teachers. Chauncey, or Sterling, as he’s commonly referred to as, became the best neurologist in Tennessee; of course, Frank became a lawyer-turned-judge, but Charlene was considered the disappointment. She had a very promising career as a teacher, but she fell in love with the wrong man and spiraled down a wicked slope of alcohol and drugs. Frank and his brother tried many times to get her back on track, but she didn’t want the help. Eventually, they disowned her. He said that they’d be interested in having a relationship with her again if she could pull herself together and stay straight, but as it stood, he and Sterling did not have a sister. Frank remains in constant contact with his first wife, Sylvia, because she is the mother of his two sons. He tries to help her on her road to leading a functional life, despite being bipolar and having severe depression. He still loves her, but they could no longer be together; she lost the ability to realize that she was pushing him 23 24 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ away. He was still on fairly good terms with his last wife, Angela, whom he described as one of “today’s modern women” who always fought him on the roles they should play. She worked in retail and had her sights set on the corporate side of it when they got together, and she always held a bit of resentment towards him for not wanting her to work. She also got caught up listening to her single friends saying that he was too controlling. They eventually divorced after four years of dating and only one year of marriage. His sons are most important to him; he felt that he was building the perfect foundation for them. His goal with his boys is to make sure they have access to education and financial stability, but he took pride in grooming them to be real men. Frank and Sylvia had an agreement that when the boys were to begin high school, they would move to LA so that he could give them the proper training. He spared no expense to go home to Memphis to visit his children, but he was looking forward to the day he would have them on a full-time basis. His oldest boy, Charles III—or Tres—had turned recently turned fourteen and would be moving to LA to be with his father later that year. His younger boy, Julian, was nine and already had hopes of being a surgeon. Frank loved his sons—he beamed with pride whenever he spoke of them, but he always pondered on having more kids. He thought it would be nice to have a daughter, to love, protect, and spoil. As much as he 24 25 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ loved being a parent, he’d gotten to a point in his life where he’d acquired many hobbies, like horseback riding, yachting, fishing, and hunting. He knew he’d have to cut back on them when he got his boys on a fulltime basis, but for the present time, he just wanted to have fun. Most importantly, his relationship with God was one that was intact. He loves God, but he is a man of logical thinking—he can separate God from the things that people claim that are of God. Even still, he is a man with faults; we are all sinners and he's no exception. I asked him what he thought of me. He said that he thought that I was beautiful and that I seemed to be very interesting, intelligent, and graceful. He thought that I’d be a wonderful person to get to know more about and spend his time with. He added that he didn’t think he’d be disappointed once he got to know more about me. I almost asked him what he felt about me, but I decided to wait until we got to know each other better. (When I finally did, it warmed my heart to hear that he thought I was perfect for him and he wouldn’t dare do anything to ruin what we had. He went on to say that going a certain period of time without being around me or speaking to me made him feel lost. I filled a void in his life, and he’d never do anything to lose me.) “I think it's about time for that dance you promised me.” 25 26 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Frank put my feet on the ground and stood up as he held his hand out for mine. He took me in his arms and held me close. He felt so good against my chest. It was the first time that I stood eye-to-eye with a man and it just felt like I’d met my match. I put my cheek close to his and softly brushed it against his stubble. It felt so good—and he smelled like heaven. My mind began to recount all the things I wanted to do to him, and I tensed up at the thought of having him between my thighs. I clenched them together for a few seconds and he, feeling the tension, immediately began to rub my back. I knew I was in love with him. “You know something, Franklin?” “What’s that, Miss Vivien-Leigh?” “We're dancing to Etta James' ‘Sunday Kind of Love,' and I think that's exactly what we may have.” “Well, Darlin,’ I think you just might be right about that. A Sunday kind of love…I like the sound of that.” We danced into the night before going our separate ways. He wanted to take me home with him, but I wanted to leave some kind of mystery between us. I wanted the old fashioned courting; I didn't want him to know where I lived at the time, and I didn't want to kiss him so quickly. I made him wait a whole two weeks before I would actually kiss him and when it happened, it was well worth the wait. My father consistently says 26 27 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ that you should wait three months before being intimate; benefits on a job don't kick in until after that ninety-day probationary period, so why should you give away your benefits so quickly? Now, when we finally did become intimate…well, it was another one of those things that was well worth the wait. 27 28 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ Frankie and I have been together ever since. It took a little while for him to deal with the fact that there was a twenty-two year age gap between us, but we went through the 'cradle robbing' talk and came to the conclusion that as long as we loved each other and, they simply wouldn’t matter. I had my experiences and he had his; we stated our intentions up front and remained honest with each other. He knew every detail of every relationship I’d been in while in New York and in California, and I knew everything he'd been through in Memphis and in California. We knew that we would have to adjust to the needs of one another from a different generation, but our common interests and our desire for each other held us together. “Bay, do me a favor.” “What’s that, Honey?” “Call those kids and make sure they’re on their way to the event site.” “I’ll do that. I really wish Tres, Julez, and Nadi had stayed at the house with us, that way we could arrive as a family.” “You know Tres is just enjoying that bachelor’s pad and wouldn’t give it up to stay with his parents and his busy body baby siblings for anything in the world. Julian likes to go over there as often as he can and with Nadi in town; I know they just wanted to show their 28 29 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Southern beauty queen of a sister off. That’s why Tres had that party last night.” “Well, I know that they’re as overprotective as you are of her, so their little friends probably didn’t even have the chance to shake Miss America’s hand.” “Damn right. They know better than to let their little sister go unguarded. I sure hope Tres was smart enough to make sure there was no alcohol with his teenage siblings present. If my minor children had been drinking, I’ll kill ‘em.” “Oh, Frank, please.” “Vivie, I’ve got this. My teenagers are coming home tonight and that’s for damn sure.” He’s absolutely the most overprotective father I know! It’s usually just of Nadi and the little ones, because he knows he brought the older boys up right. They know how to handle and protect themselves, but Daddy is always picking apart their course of action for everything. It’s stressful to think about, so I know it’s stressful to deal with. But because they’re his boys, they generally seem to handle it with ease. “Honey, I’m sure Big Brother Tres didn’t let them get into anything if they did have alcohol. I know Julez is almost eighteen and he’ll be going off to college soon, but there are times when I can’t help but worry about him.” 29 30 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “He’s almost a full grown man, Vivie; you gotta let him fly on his own. I know you’ve had a hand in raising him for five years on a daily basis, but you’ve gotta let go of those reigns. Let him keep proving to us that we did a good job getting him ready for adulthood.” “You’re so proud of them.” “Yes, the hell, I am!” Frankie’s beaming with pride because he loves his kids so much. Tres and Julez are so smart, strong, and responsible that it’s just amazing to be a part of their lives—and Nadi? She is an incredible young woman! She’s extremely intelligent, poised, proper, well spoken, and drop dead gorgeous. Ever since Frank found out that she was his daughter, you’d never seen a man swell with such love and pride. I’ll never forget that morning… It was one of his days off from his show and he’d already dropped Tres off at school, so we were excited to spend the majority of the day together, completely uninterrupted. We didn’t spend nights together during the school weeks, although occasionally, we would have the very late night/early morning rendezvous. “You know how much I love having you for breakfast, Bay? Your –“ 30 31 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Are you about to use a vulgar word right now, Franklin?” “Stuff is the breakfast of champions. When are you gonna start letting me use some of the words I want to use around here?” “Well, that depends on what those words are.” “I’m a grown ass man and I’m lettin’ little ol’ you stop me from saying ‘pussy.’” “Frankie! I hate that word!” “That’s what it is! Pussy! Pussy! Pussy! Pussy and titties, and that big thing you rode on fifteen minutes ago is my dick!” “Ugh, Honey. Please stop.” “Bay, in proper company I know the right words to use if I have to use them at all; but in private company—with the woman I love—I reserve the right to be my damn self.” “And who, pray tell, is your ‘damn self?’” “A fifty-year-old man from the great state of Tennessee, who loves himself some soul food, a good beer, some down home blues, and the feeling of being between his woman’s thighs with his dick deep in her pussy while watching her titties bounce up and down as he hears her scream his name like he invented the 31 32 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ pleasure she was receiving. That’s who my damn self is.” A slight smile formed on his lips as he watched me begin to lust for him. I mean, if you’d heard it the way I heard it, I’m sure you’re about as turned on as I was! I slid closer to him and began to intertwine our legs while I kissed his neck and rub his bare chest. I needed him to take me again. Frank tried to act cool about my less than subtle invitation into my pleasure zone. He sat there, picking at the horribly made breakfast I prepared for him. My heart seemed to pound out of my chest and I knew he could feel it against his arm. My throbbing became nearly unbearable. “Honey?” “Yes, Darlin?”” “I think I’m going to have to burn some more French toast for you.” “And why is that?” Frank had taken his free hand and ran his fingers through my wild curly hair before holding my face and planting small kisses. “Because you’re going to need it after your penis enters my vagina and—” “What? What’s that, Baby? I don’t think I understand what you’re saying?” His early sarcasm never failed to heighten my discomfort. 32 33 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I’m going to lie back and spread my legs; in less than one second, I’m going to feel that painfully familiar, yet pleasurable thrust of your dick inside my pussy. I’m going to bear your weight on top of me and I’m going to scream your name until my body quakes underneath you and you collapse from satisfaction and pride on top of me.” “…ah hell, Woman, I like the way you say that shit.” Frank kissed me hard on the lips before putting the lap tray over on the chaise lounge at the foot of the bed. I untied my robe and lay back on my bed, I spread my legs and waited to feel his girth squeeze its way into me. I felt his hands slide up my thighs to my hips and watched him position himself on top of me. The tip of him made contact with me, and right before he could make full entry, his phone began to ring. “Daddy, don’t answer that. Please?” “VL, when you say it like that, you make me not want to.” “Well, don’t. It’s our time to be together and I need you.” I pulled him down on top of me and held him tight. I kissed his face as I reached down and tried to push him inside of me. “Darlin,’ you know I want to, but I gotta get that phone. You know my situation and that could be an emergency with my boys. Now, I’ll let you have the dick again, just as soon as I handle this.” 33 34 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I want you to handle me.” “I always do, Bay.” He pulled out and rolled over to his side of the bed to answer his phone. I lay there, holding my knees together, and hoping it would be a quick call. “Hey, Bubba.” It was his brother, Sterling. “Hey, Chill; did I wake you?” “Hell no, I’m always up at this time; you know that. You’re only ahead by an hour.” “Yeah. You busy, bruh?” “Not anymore.” “I’m sorry, I didn’t know you were doing something. I didn’t mean to interrupt—“ “I was just about to do Vivien-Leigh again, but we could stand the break. What’s up?” “Uh huh, well, I gotta tell you this before she wears your face for the rest of the day. I don’t know if you want her around for this.” “I assure you, she’s gonna take a ride on this tongue either way it goes. Go on and tell me.” Frank gently took me by the arm and pulled me over to him and allowed me to get on top. I lay against his chest and kissed his neck as he rubbed on my backside. 34 35 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Well, you know, Kandy went over and checked up on the house for you yesterday and you got some mail. Damn sure I wish I had seen this yesterday.” “What is it? It should’ve been forwarded in the first damn place—especially if it’s something important.” “You remember a girl you used to mess with? Lisa Hendrix?” “Hendrix? I don’t know if I remember a Hendrix.” “You used to have sex with her after you divorced Syl. The one you didn’t have to say but two words to before she would give up the pussy. She used to stay around the corner from Mama’s house—right over there off Morrison.” “Oh yeah, I remember her now. The Creole girl with all that sandy brown hair! What about her?” “She hit you with a paternity suit, Chill.” “What?” Frank sat up beneath me and patted my butt firmly, signaling me to get off of him. I gave him room to get up and sit on the edge of the bed, and although I had no idea what was making him upset, I just wanted to comfort him. I crawled up behind him and put my arms around his neck. He kissed my hands and patted them—signaling once again, to give him space. I 35 36 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ backed away and crawled under the covers, hoping he would find a way to let me know what was going on. “She filed a case in family court, naming you the father of her six year old daughter. It demands you take a paternity test and she’s seeking support.” “Shit…what’s her name?” “Renada Chanel Lattimore.” “Stop fucking with me, Bubba.” “I wish I was. I seriously wish that I was just fuckin’ around with you. I know how you are about your kids—I’m the same way. This shit’s got me mad, so I know you ain’t fairin’ much better. What you wanna do about this?” “Fax all that shit they sent you over here to VL’s place. You still got her fax number?” “I got it. I’m gon’ try and have this to you in a few minutes before I go into surgery. I sure as hell don’t want them nosy ass nurses doin’ it.” “Thanks, Bubba.” “I got you. You okay?” “I don’t know how I feel right now, to be honest.” 36 37 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Look, bruh, you got this. I know you do. You know the law inside and out, so you just keep cool and do your legal thing. We don’t call you ‘Chill’ for nothing.” “I know, Man.” “Good. You keep your head up, you hear me? I love you, Chill.” “I love you, too, Bubba.” He hung up his phone and never lifted his head. His body language just screamed that he was hurting and I could only give him the space that he wanted. “…Frankie?” He held his hand up to stop me before motioning for me to come over to him. I crawled across my bed and put my arms around his neck and got good and tight against him. I kissed his face a few times. “What’s the matter, Daddy?” “I’m a little ashamed to tell you this.” “You don’t have to be. I love you and I’ll support you, no matter what it is.” “Baby, you just don’t know how much I needed to hear that. See, this is one of those things that you may not be ready to deal with.” 37 38 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Honey, you keep saying that, but I can handle it. I can handle anything.” “I know you can, Darlin,’ but this…this is some shit that just came up out the blue. I never in a million years would’ve thought this would happen to me.” “Well, what is it?” “Vivien-Leigh, there is a possibility that I could have another child.” I relaxed against him and tried to wrap my mind around the idea of another child. Frank’s the type of man who took pride in protecting himself sexually when not in a committed relationship. He believes in babies being born only in wedlock and it had to be doing something to him to know that he had an “outside baby.” That’s what they call it in Memphis. I had no qualms with babies being born outside of marriage, though I’d prefer to be committed first, but he was adamant that the next child he had—if he had any at all—would only be with his wife. “Is that gonna be a problem for you?” “No, Frankie! Of course not! You had no idea that you could possibly have another child and I know that if you knew, you’d be taking care of him or her.” “I don’t even remember being with that woman long enough, but it only takes one damn time. I know I used a rubber! If Mama and Daddy told us anything— 38 39 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ even if it was vain as shit—it was to use a rubber cause we had good genes and little girls in Memphis don’t want shit else but to have a baby by a man with good genes. The only times I’ve not wrapped it up was with Syl and Angie. Shit!” He put his head in his hands and I just hugged him tighter. His disappointment in himself had made me extremely emotional. My tears slowly rolled down my face to his neck. “Oh, now, hold on. What are you crying for?” “Because you’re so angry with yourself! I don’t like seeing you upset!” “Baby, we’re gonna deal with this. I know you’re going to stay in my corner and I need that right now. Now, what I don’t need is you getting overly emotional. I don’t like when you’re upset either, so what I’m gonna do is start working this thing out right damn now. I’m gonna check the fax machine and start calling these numbers, so I want you to get under these covers and be comfortable.” “I think you should be the one lying down. You have a lot going on, Honey. Let me cater to you.” “My Darlin,’ you’ve done enough for me. You loving me, having my back, and even making me that god-awful breakfast is more than enough for me. I just want you to lie here and get yourself together and I’ll go make you a decent breakfast.” 39 40 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You didn’t like my cooking?” “I wish I could answer that with a straight face. I love you, Woman, that’s for damn sure, but you can’t cook to save your own life. One of these days, I’m gonna teach you how to prepare an edible meal.” “I’d like that. I also appreciate you eating it, even though it’s burnt and terrible.” “If that doesn’t prove how much I love you, I don’t know what the hell will.” Frank kissed my hand and patted it. He was trying to get himself into a good mood so he could deal with his legal woes. I kissed his neck and hugged him tightly again before scooting back and getting under the covers. I sat there and watched him put on his underwear, get his paper work, and diligently call each number he received. He paced around the room and tried to remain calm and stern as he spoke. His body told another story—he was angry and frustrated and even hurt. Frank always thought he could hide his feelings from me, but in this instance, he was doing a terrible job. “Bay?” “Is everything okay, Frankie?” “I’m gonna have to fly out to Memphis tomorrow, so I need a favor from you.” “Anything, Honey.” 40 41 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Can you get Tres up for school? Get him breakfast, pick him up after football practice, and give him dinner? I’ll try to be home before he goes to bed.” “Of course, I will, Honey. Whatever you need.” “Vivian-Leigh, you are a damn fine woman and I love the hell out of you.” “Oh, I love you too, Daddy.” As Frank lay across my bed, gently stroking my face and gazing deeply into my eyes, he found a little more security in me. He knew that I would support him, no matter what the situation. He could trust in me. “I’m going to take a paternity test tomorrow, VL.” “Are you hoping he or she is yours?” “She—and I don’t know. If she is, I’ll be embarrassed that I’ve got this outside baby that I haven’t taken care of, and if she isn’t, I’ll feel terrible that there’s another child in the world without a father.” “You are so empathetic. I just want you to know that if she is your daughter, I will do all I can to make her feel special with us. I know we aren’t married yet and it’s not something we’re discussing right now, but if you choose to let me meet her I’ll do my very best to treat her just like I do Tres and Julez—when you have him.” 41 42 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I know you will, Baby. Not many women would want to be caught up in a situation like this and I thank you for stickin’ by me.” “Well, Honey, I assure you, I’m not like most women.” “That’s for damn sure.” Frankie took my hand and kissed it before stroking it with his thumb. He needed to be taken care of and asking for it wasn’t his way. “Honey, come on under the covers and lay between my legs and let Mama take care of you.” He laughed to himself, but he needed it and he knew it. “My mama passed away three years ago and I don’t need another one to take care of me.” “I know you had a mama, just like I have a daddy and don’t need another one—but I let you have your fun. Now, come on and lay between Mama’s legs and let me take care of you. I’ll let you in my warm spot.” I gave him a sexy glare and he raised his eyebrow at me, intrigued by my offer. He immediately took off his boxers and slid under the covers, on top of me, and between my legs. I held him in my arms and against my chest and did my best to make him feel comforted. 42 43 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ That paternity test proved that Frank was Renada’s father after all. He’s done everything in his power to be the best father to her; when he got the positive results, he immediately wanted to meet her. He’d already told Tres and Julez that they could possibly have a baby sister and explained that he’d never cheated on their mother—Renada was completely unexpected. Tres thought nothing of it, but Julez was a little upset. At only nine years old, he was used to being his father’s main priority, and to have to share that with a new sibling—a sibling three years his junior—was disheartening. Frank got Lisa’s phone number and discussed how Renada—or Nadi, as they began to call her— came to be and why she never told him. Lisa explained that she didn’t realize she was pregnant until she reached her second trimester, long after she and Frank stopped talking. He had moved on with Angela, so she never quite knew how to break the news without making him feel trapped. She was fine raising Renada on her own until she had an unemployment set back and could no longer afford Nadi’s private school tuition. Frank took offense to the fact that she thought he wouldn’t want to know his baby. What bothered him even more was that she gave Nadi his last name without even bothering to let him know she existed. He would’ve wanted nothing more than to be present to witness her firsts—her first day on this earth, her first steps, first words, and her first day of school. 43 44 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Lisa took those things away from him. He wasn’t interested in holding grudges, but he was hurt and wanted her to know. Fortunately, they arranged a time for Frank to meet Renada. It was my first trip to Memphis and Frank was both nervous and excited to have me meet “his people” -–including his daughter. # “Are you sure you want me here, Frankie?” “Of course I do. You’re a part of my package and I want her to know that she’ll be in good hands when she’s with me.” He was nervous. He fixed his tie a million times and kept messing with his hair—running his fingers through it, combing it back. I tried to help ease some of his tension by fixing his tie one last time and straightening his hair. “You look handsome.” “Thank you. Bay, what if she doesn’t want to see me? What if she hates me?” “Honey, I think it’ll be a situation that you both will have to get used to, but I doubt she’ll hate you. She’s only six! Just calm down, Honey; you’ll have me there with you. I’ll hold your hand.” Frank leaned in and kissed me softly on the lips. He didn’t want to break our kiss because he knew that he 44 45 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ was only minutes away from meeting his daughter for the first time. I slipped away from him and wiped the lipstick from his lips. I held his cheek in my hand and caressed it. “I support you, Franklin, and I love you. Besides, nobody can make my man sweat.” “That’s for damn sure. Let’s go meet my baby girl.” He got out of the car, grabbed his jacket, and slipped it on before opening the door for me and helping me out of the car. We held hands as we walked up the stairs to the quaint townhouse and rung the bell. “Frank?” “Lisa?” Lisa was a woman of average height, fair complexion, and sandy brown hair pulled back into a ponytail. She was a nice looking woman who seemed to fit into Frank’s type—at one point in time. “Frank, it’s been so long. How are you?” “My dear, I’m doin just fine. Lisa, this is my significant other, Miss Vivien-Leigh Valentine. VivienLeigh, this is Lisa Hendrix.” We shook hands as she let us into her home. “It is very nice to meet you, Lisa.” “Same here, Vivien-Leigh.” She was astonished and intimidated by my height, which certainly stroked 45 46 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ my ego. It was obvious she was slightly disappointed by my presence; she probably thought they had a shot of getting together. “Well, I guess I should call Nadi down. You can have a seat in the living room if you’d like.” “Thank you.” She showed us to the living room and Frank and I had a seat on the sofa. I gave him a quick peck on the cheek and rubbed his arm. He rested his hand on my knee and squeezed it gently. We looked around at the family pictures that adorned the walls. Baby pictures, professional pictures—it really hurt his heart to have not been with her for six years. “Oh, Honey, she is absolutely beautiful.” “Yes she is. I’m just upset I missed all these moments.” “I know you are, Honey, but you’ll be able to make new ones now. She looks just like you.” “She does…and that hurts even more.” Frank and I stopped when we heard footsteps approaching the room. Lisa held Renada by the shoulders and Frank’s heart began to race. Before him stood the most gorgeous little image of himself and he was at a loss for words. Lisa walked Renada into the living room and stopped her a few feet in front of Frankie. She was brown skinned with the most ridiculous head full of curls and the prettiest blue eyes I’d ever seen in my life! And freckles! She had all her mother’s recessive traits on all 46 47 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ of Frank’s features. We stood up to greet her and it was rather ironic how they conveyed the same body language. “Renada Chanel, this is your father, Charles Lattimore.” “Hi.” “Hi, Sweetheart.” God, they were both so anxious it was heartbreaking. “Nadi, don’t you wanna give your daddy a hug?” Lisa nudged Nadi forward and I gave Frankie a little push until they finally met in the middle. He gave her a tight squeeze. Tears welled in his eyes, but his pride wouldn’t let them fall; it’s just not his style. He held her for what seemed like an eternity before letting her go, and then took her face in his hands and held it as he looked deep into her eyes. “Where’d a pretty little girl like you get those big blue eyes and all those cute freckles?” “I don’t know.” “She got them from my grandmother, but she got everything else from you—if you hadn’t noticed.” “Oh, I did. Renada, this is my significant other, Miss Vivien-Leigh.” That poor pretty little girl looked at me in awe as she stretched her neck to look up at me. 47 48 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You’re tall.” “Yes she is. VL, she’s got hair just like yours.” “Yes she does! Well, mine aren’t perfect ringlets, but I just adore curls on little girls! Renada, you are absolutely gorgeous.” “Thank you.” “Let’s have a seat—Nadi, don’t you want to show your daddy all your pictures and your awards? She’s so smart, Frank. I think that’s something else she gets from you.” “Well, I wouldn’t be surprised at all.” He took Renada’s hand and sat her next to him on the sofa. She sat between him and Lisa and I sat on the outside next to him. He rested one hand on my knee and used his other hand to run his fingers through his daughter’s hair. She showed him albums full of baby pictures and ribbons and awards that she’d gotten from kindergarten, pageants, and modeling. I caught him sneaking glances of her as Lisa explained what she had received the awards for. “Frank, we put together one of these albums to take back to California with you. Nadi, give your daddy the album we made.” Nadi handed him the photo album; if he wasn’t moved by the gesture, I sure was. I dabbed at my eyes and tried not to make a scene. I loved that they were already in the beginning stages of building a real daddydaughter relationship. 48 49 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Thank you, Baby.” “You’re welcome.” “Miss Renada, Miss Vivien-Leigh and I brought something for you, too. VL, Baby, you got that thing?” “I sure do.” I pulled the Tiffany box from my purse and handed it to him. “Go on and open that, Baby.” “Tiffany? What is that?” Frank turned his head quickly to look at me and I started to laugh. “Am I wrong?” “Of course not, Sweetheart, I just thought Miss Vivien-Leigh would die of shock if she’d ever heard those words. Tiffany is a very nice jewelry store.” “Oh, a very, very nice jewelry store. Miss Renada, your daddy and I picked that out especially for you.” “It’s a necklace.” “Actually, Baby Girl, it’s a locket. Open it up.” Frank helped her open it and inside sat a picture of him and two empty slots. “See, there’s already a picture of your daddy inside. The two empty spaces are for pictures of you and your mama.” 49 50 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “And I put something special on the back for you, Baby.” Frank was so eager to show her all his gift had to offer. She turned the necklace over and he read the inscription to her—‘Renada, I love you so much. Daddy’ “Isn’t that nice, Nadi? Tell your daddy and his friend, ‘Thank you.’” “Thank you, Daddy.” “Miss Renada, you just don’t know how good it makes me feel to hear you call me that.” “You are my daddy, right?” “Of course I am. I just didn’t know if you’d want to call me that.” Frank kissed her on the head while I really tried my best to keep it together. I knew if I didn’t, he’d tell me to step outside until I regrouped. “You wanna wear it now?” “Yes, Sir.” “I like the sound of that! You want Daddy to help you put it on?” She nodded at Frank and he took so much pride in helping her with the locket. I think the pride came mostly from her readily wanting to wear such a symbol of his love. “Thank you.” 50 51 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You are certainly welcome, Baby.” He kissed her head again as she played around with her new necklace. “Oh, Frankie, Honey, don’t forget about the reservations.” “That’s right. Is it about that time, VL?” “Thirty minutes ‘til.” “Are you leaving already?” It was obvious Lisa didn’t want this precious moment to end, with good reason. “Well, Lisa, I made dinner reservations for the four of us tonight—that is, if you want to come. I wanted to take Miss Renada out and wasn’t sure if you wanted to join us.” “Nadi Doll, you want Mommy to come with you and your daddy?” “Mommy has to come.” Renada clung to Lisa’s side. “That’s just fine. If you ladies want to freshen up before we leave, that’s fine, too. VL, do you need to use the restroom?” “No, Honey, I’m fine.” 51 52 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Nadi and I need to go prepare ourselves, so excuse us.” Frank stood as they left the room and by this time, he’d started to ease into the situation. “Frankie, she’s amazing.” “I know. Did you hear when she called me ‘daddy?’ VL, it touched me…” “I know it did, Honey.” “And did you hear how well she read? She’s six years old! That remarkably gorgeous little girl—the one with all the honors in kindergarten and with the modeling trophies and pageant sashes, crowns, and trophies—is my baby girl!” “Surreal, isn’t it?” “Six years she’s been without me…shit.” I rubbed his back as he worked on keeping his emotions in check. My man is a man who loves his babies. I placed my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek, comforting him as best as I could. “You’re a good daddy and she’ll see that soon enough. I know she will.” “God, I hope so. VL, you know when we get home I’m gonna need to release this tension.” “I already knew it. And you know I’m ready, willing, and able to do whatever it is you want me to do. 52 53 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Mama’s prepared to do all she can to make her baby feel good.” Frank chuckled to himself as he kissed my hands. That night was one of the most magical nights that we’d ever spent together. I got to watch my man and his daughter build their relationship from the ground up. At the restaurant, they started to let down barriers and we all realized that they share the same ‘motor mouth’ gene. Frankie and Nadi talked and talked and talked from the time we reached the restaurant until the time that we brought her and Lisa home. We even stayed so Frank could help tuck her in and kiss her goodnight. We told her about our life in California and about her brothers and how she and her doggie sister shared the same middle name. In turn she divulged about her love of puzzles, computer games, and books and how she’d just started reading ‘big kid’ books. She’d already made the honors list at her Christian school, and was only a month into the first grade. Her father’s daughter, she was. The one thing that wasn’t Frank, though, was her ambition—at just six years old—to be Miss America one day. Frank wasn’t too into looks, but he knew he looked good and always dressed well. And the man made pretty babies, that was for sure; his little girl was a total knockout. Miss America material, for sure. We’ve been calling her that ever since. 53 54 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ “Besides, if Tres’ anything like his father, he’s having a ball with all the women coming in and out of that place.” “Like his father, huh?” “In his father’s day—you know, I was a player.” “You were a player, you say?” “That’s right. They learned from the best.” “That's what you taught them, huh?” “And I taught them well, too. Blue had better know that he ain’t movin’ in with his brother ‘til at least his second year of college. First year, he keeps his butt on campus and we’ll see how well he handles those college-level classes. If he wants to be a plastic surgeon, he’d better think about that.” Frankie's got one hand on my thigh, rubbing it gently, as he drives. I'm dialing Julian's number and waiting on him to answer. “Hey Viv.” “Hello, Sweetheart; Daddy wants to know if you, Tres, and Nadi are on your way down.” “We just got here. We're waiting for y'all. Are you close? Yo, what are the kids doing in there?” 54 55 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “They're about to make your daddy yell, I know that much. Hold on—” I'm turning around in my seat and popping Christopher and Jordan's legs. “Stop kicking at these seats and each other! I don't want to have to make Daddy spank you. Cookie and Bebe, stop with all that noise!” I'm turning back around and the tension in Frankie's shoulders just went away. He doesn't like having to yell at them, but believe me—he will spank and yell. I'm the Good Cop. “Okay, Julez, we're almost there. We'll see you kids in a few.” “Alright, Viv.” “What did he say, Bunny?” “They're already there and they're waiting on us.” “I figured as much. You know I'm gonna spank somebody’s behind the minute I put this car in park, right?” “I know it, Honey. I tried to stop them.” See, he's the disciplinarian and I'm the mediator. Uh oh, here goes Claire, trying to make her daddy forget about handing out punishment. “Daddy, how come Etienne could not come with us?” 55 56 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Cookie, we couldn't bring the dog. Mama and I have enough problems trying to keep up with the four of you.” “But Mommy could have put her in her bag like always.” “Cookie, we couldn't bring the dog, okay? Ettie had to stay home for a little while; she will be there when we get back. You know your sister doesn’t like being around the dog so much anymore.” Etienne's our second dog. She’s an adorable Yorkshire Terrier and probably one of my favorite gifts from Frank. I've actually had her longer than we've had the kids. Our first baby was a toy poodle named was Coco Chanel Lattimore; I loved that little angel to death. I remember when Frank gave her to me. It was the end of Frankie's ninety-day probationary boyfriend period. He'd been the best thing to come into my life since I ended that La Jolla Playhouse run of Duke Ellington's “Sophisticated Ladies” where I took on Phyllis Hyman's role. That night would be the night he would officially make me his woman, and I patiently waited on his arrival. I didn't know if he realized it, but after dinner, he wouldn’t be going home. I ordered in dinner and had the red wine breathing. The first dinner that we had at my place, I was determined to make the best of it. I planned to feed him 56 57 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ steak and slowly get him out of his clothes. My heart raced when I heard the knock at my door, but disappointment and confusion set in when I looked around and saw no one. Suddenly, I glanced down and saw the chocolate brown puppy with pink bows in her hair and a note attached to her collar. “Ooh, hello there, Sweetheart. Who are you?” I closed the door after picking up that precious little puppy, and removed the note. I can’t find my daddy and I don't have a mommy. Will you help me? “Awe, Angel, I'll help you find your daddy. I can’t believe someone would leave you all alone—a precious little baby like you. Let's go down to the doorman and see if he knows where your daddy is.” I took the puppy and opened my front door. Frank was standing there, looking breathtaking and smelling even better. “You found him.” “Frankie—you?” “Happy three month anniversary, Baby.” “This puppy is for me?” I squealed. “Of course she is. I think she will make good practice for us. Now, she already has a daddy; all she 57 58 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ needs is a mommy. Will you be her mommy, Miss Vivien-Leigh Valentine?” “I sure will! I’ve always wanted a little puppy! Does she have a name?” “She's waiting on you to give her a name, Mama.” “Well, Sweetheart, I think I'll name you Coco: Coco Chanel Lattimore. You like that, Honey?” “I just think it’s beautiful, Darlin’.’ I also took the liberty of having these papers drawn up for the welfare of Miss Coco Chanel Lattimore.” Frank pulled papers from his pocket and walked me over to the sofa before he placed them on the coffee table. “Go on and look those over.” “We, Vivien-Leigh Valentine and C. Franklin Lattimore, Jr. hereby do solemnly swear to do what is best and right by—I have to write her name in—Coco Chanel Lattimore. We will feed her, clothe her, take her for walks, and make sure she is very well taken care of in any and all circumstances. If by any chance, Mommy and Daddy should part, Mommy will retain custody of Coco Chanel, allowing Daddy visitation or every other weekend custody if she sees fit, and Daddy will pay Mommy doggy support to make sure Coco Chanel 58 59 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ maintains all proper care and the lifestyle she has become accustomed to.” I looked at Frank with beaming eyes. Only he could think of something like that—something so sweet and sincere and romantic. “So, you gonna sign it or what?” “Of course I will.” I penned my name as quickly as possible before kissing Frank as Coco wiggled her way in between us, licking our chins. “Frankie, why did you really buy me this puppy?” “I told you, I wanted to do something special for our three month anniversary.” “Come on, now...” “Well, I know that you're at that age where your biological clock is ticking and you're gonna want babies. Honestly, I'm not at that point anymore. I figure this little one will hold you over for awhile and give me some time to process all that baby stuff again— especially since we haven't had any baby making practice going on over here.” “Well I think you'll be rather content when we do, so you just keep being the good boyfriend that you are and good things will happen. Maybe even sooner than you think.” 59 60 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Is that so?” Wide-eyed and smiling ear-to-ear, he pulled me closer to him, slid his hands down to my butt, and pressed his lips in random spots on my face. I was a sucker for his cute little kisses. “So, you know if you start this three month anniversary business, you're gonna have to top it every three months, right?” “I think I can manage that. What's for dinner?” “Steak—just the way you like it—jambalaya, those little red potatoes, and a nice bottle of red wine.” “I love you, Viv.” “What?” “I said I love you, Vivien-Leigh.” “I love you, too, Franklin. It just sounded so nice I had to hear it again.” I kissed him one last time and I got up from the couch to prepare dinner. At that moment, my entire approach to our relationship changed. I decided to give him my all, to bring my A game and give myself completely. He deserved a woman who would appreciate all that he was and all that he had to offer. I was that woman, and I was going to stick by him until the end. “Come on, Baby; let's go put Daddy's food on the table! Come on...come with Mama.” Coco and I went and put dinner out and the rest of the night, Frank 60 61 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ and I sat and drank and kissed like teenagers. It was so nice spending this kind of time with him. It was always a once or twice a week kind of thing because he was always so busy, but he always made time for me, each and every day, in some way or another. His emails and handwritten letters were my favorites, along with his witty voicemails. What a magical first three months it was, even despite the fact that we weren't doing anything. Of course we kissed, and he always got the urge explore. I let him kiss my face, my lips, my neck, my chest, and my cleavage, and each time he’d try to go a lot further. Frank has always been fresh, and even after just a few months together, he'd feel me up and try to stick his hands up my skirt or down my shirt, but that's about it. He did it playfully, but overall, he has always been respectful. It was time to finally treat my man. Frank let me give him a pedicure; he thought it was kind of girly, but I pushed it, so he finally let me. He knew I had qualms about my bed and my furniture: no one was allowed to eat on it, put their shoes on it, and if you were sleeping in it, you could only wear lace, silk, satin, pure cotton, or nothing at all. And most importantly, your feet had to be manageable. “What are you doing to me? Are you trying to get me drunk?” “No, we're just loosening up, Baby.” 61 62 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I let you touch my feet and you've been all over me, so now I feel like you're trying to get me out of my clothes.” “Is that a bad thing?” “No, not if you'd let me in on the things that you've got going on.” “It's our three month anniversary right?” “Right.” “You bought me a puppy, right?” “Right.” “Well, you got me a gift and I have to give you one in return. The probationary period is over and it's time for your benefits to kick in, Judge.” “Oooohhhhh.” “Remember my bed rules, Judge Lattimore?” “Silk, lace, satin, pure cotton, or nothing at all.” “Nothing at all...” His eyebrows rose as he sat his wine glass down. I slid off his lap and put Coco on the floor to give him some room to do what he was about to do. Frank grabbed me, pulled me close, put me on my back, and 62 63 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ crawled on top of me. We kissed as we stripped each other. “This is why you touched my feet?” “Unkempt feet keep you out of Vivien-Leigh's bed. Would you want that?” “No ma'am.” “I didn’t think so! Go get your clothes off and I'll meet you in bed in fifteen minutes. I have something for you.” “Something for me?” “Yes. Something for my man.” “That's what I like to hear. Go do your lady thing and I'll see you in a few.” “Alright.” I got up and went to my bedroom as Coco trailed behind me. After such a short time together, she had already attached herself tightly to us. “Coco, come on back here with Daddy. We need to give Mama a few minutes to get her thing together.” Coco scampered back to her daddy and I was amazed at how even our new puppy responded to his command. While Frank waited, I turned my bedroom into a romantic oasis. I lit candles, put down rose petals, and played Gladys Knight & the Pips' version of “The Makings of You.” I slipped on my black lace La Perla lingerie and pulled back my beautiful imported white 63 64 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ cashmere duvet. Perfectly positioned on the bed, I called out to my man. “Frankie,” “You ready, Baby?” “I need you!” “And I’m damn sure in need of you.” He came into my room in his underwear with the widest grin plastered across his face. I admired his toned caramel body as he made his way over to me. Frank definitely kept himself in shape; his muscle tone was amazing. He was just the way I liked my men—big and thick—not just below the waist, either. I knelt on the bed with my arms outstretched for him to wrap himself up in. “You like it?” “I love it, Viv. You are drop dead gorgeous, Darlin’.” “Thank you. Where's the baby?” “Out in the hall; she doesn't need to be in here for this.” “She’s going to cry out there all alone.” “She'll be alright, Viv.” “Go crack the door, Honey.” 64 65 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Call me 'Daddy,' Baby.” I looked into his eyes and he dared me to defy him. I broke out into a smile and he slowly softened. “Go crack the door, Daddy.” He kissed me hard on the lips before getting up to crack the door. When he returned, he pulled me off the bed and held me in his arms. He turned me around and wrapped his arms around my waist as he planted kisses on my neck and back. “Now, I’ve seen it covered up like this many a time, but I’m ready to see it unveiled. May I do the honors?” “Of course you may.” Franklin continued to kiss my back as he gently ran his fingertips up my torso. His touch made me tingle and I fought hard to remain cool and calm, not revealing that my knees were buckling underneath me. He slowly unhooked my bra and tossed it aside before holding my breasts in his giant hands. They fit perfectly. “…Frankie…” “Get used to calling my name, Baby, ‘cause it’s gonna be the only thing you’ll remember for the next couple of hours.” He tantalized my nipples between his fingers before wrapping an arm across my breasts and sliding his other down my stomach and inside of my panties. As he eased his fingers in and out of me, hitting 65 66 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ my sensitive spot, I lost my composure and my knees grew weaker. “It’s alright, Baby; Daddy’s got you. You remember the first time I did this to you? Butter.” He pulled his hand from my panties and put his fingers in his mouth. “You melt like butter, but you taste like brown sugar—I love it.” We kissed passionately as he slowly slid my panties off. Frank picked me up, and my legs wrapped around him like second nature. Before I knew it, we were on my bed and between my sheets. He fit my body like a glove. I’d let him lay on top of me before, but never like this. There we were, him on top, kissing whatever exposed flesh he could, and teasing me as I tried to disrobe him from the waist down. Frank decided to continue his tease-fest and go further down my body and stopping under the covers. “Daddy, the baby's whimpering! She wants to get on the bed.” “No.” He didn’t break his concentration at all. “But she's crying!” “You want that baby with paws and fur on this bed that you have a million and one rules about?” “Sorry, Angel, Mommy has to break you in on the rules first. Daddy and Mommy will be done soon.” 66 67 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “No we won’t, either. I can go all night.” At that moment, his actions took over my body and I had—like a horrible mother—forgotten all about my whimpering baby down on the floor. My body began to writhe in ecstasy as he continued to pleasure me in a manner that I'm too much of a lady to go into detail about. He could sense my body's reactions and before having a major climax, he came back up from under the covers, continuing to kiss my body. “That felt so good, Frankie.” “I could tell. I had to hold you down; you just kept bucking out of my grasp.” “I couldn't help it...I've never had it that good before.” “Really? Well, Daddy wants to know if you give as good as you get.” “You want me to go down on you?” “Seems only fair, but if you don't want to, I'll understand. You're not ready to go as far with me as I am with you. It's okay.” “Honey, don't put that guilt trip on me. You know I love you and I want to please you.” “I'm not putting any guilt trips on you. I just know that I want to go that extra mile with you and you're not ready. You don't realize that you won’t get 67 68 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ what I just gave you from those younger men. They’re too immature. I've been there and done that and I do what keeps you satisfied.” “Don't start that. You're ruining the mood up in here. Now look; I want you and I need what you've got in my life. Don't get me to the point where I'm so in need of it that I start tackling you down. I've done it before and I'm not ashamed to do it again. So just come on over here to the edge of this bed and let me pleasure my man.” I slid down on the floor and he positioned himself directly in front of me. I took him in my hands, and as soon as I started to fulfill his wishes, Coco came from under the bed and crawled up on my lap. I moved her and proceeded to give Frank what he wanted, but she just wouldn't stop crawling on me. “Honey, I cannot do this.” “Yes you can, Darlin’; you’re doin’ alright!” “Coco keeps looking at me!” “She will be fine. You just focus back on what you’re doing over here with me.” “I can’t. I know she’s looking at me and thinking ‘my mommy’s a slut.’” “Giving your man a little oral gratification does not make you a slut, Viv.” 68 69 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I know that and you know that, but she doesn’t. I can see the disappointment in her eyes.” “Do you want me to put her in the bathroom?” “No. I know she’ll cry in there.” “You can’t have your cake and eat it too, Viv. She's either gonna watch you down there on your knees and think ill, or she's gonna watch you up here on your back and think ill. So do you want to get our bodies stuck together and have a little fun, or do you want to sit here and watch the damn dog?” “Frankie…” “No, Viv; make a damn decision.” “Can I do this for you tomorrow? You know, after you get home from a hard day of work? I swear, I’ll make it more than worth your while.” “Whatever, Vivien-Leigh.” I knew he was angry the minute he spoke my whole name. I didn’t want the evening to go any further south than it had already started. I had to win him back over. “Franklin Lattimore, when Vivien-Leigh Valentine gets on her knees to please you orally, I assure you, it’s a religious experience. I’m talking stomping, shouting, tears, euphoria, light headedness, and a whole lot of praising.” He tried to appear indifferent to my words, but he couldn’t contain the smirk that crept 69 70 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ across his face. I just knew he felt like he was dating a little girl, and that’s the exact opposite of how I wanted him to feel. I knew I needed to make it up to him, so I shot up off the floor and tackled him. I gave myself to him and he took all of me. Frank got me between the covers and taught me how to make love to him the way he liked it. Everything that I'd done previously had become a thing of the past, and I let him take complete control. I think that in those hours that passed, I actually became a bona fide woman and it was simply because a bona fide man put in serious work on my ass. I know it's not ladylike to use such language, but that's the only way I could describe it. As we made love into the early hours of the morning, Coco whimpered so much that she put herself to sleep. I felt bad for ignoring her, but her daddy took my mind to a completely different level of consciousness. After hours of passion, he held me in his arms and reveled in his work. “Daddy?” “Yes, Ma’am?” “I love you.” “I love you, too.” “Honey, what are you thinking about right now?” 70 71 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I’m thinking about how I put it on you pretty damn good, so now I deserve a good night’s rest where I can snore as loudly as I want. Damn; I have to get up in a few hours to take my ass to work.” “Oh, you put something on me tonight, alright. After we’ve shared each other for the very first time, don’t you want to share how you feel? I mean, there are so many feelings racing through me right now—I just feel like a brand new person.” “Daddy’s got you sprung, huh? Whipped it on you right!” “Maybe…” Frank laughed to himself as he raised his arm to shade his eyes from the newly risen sun. “I know I do. Look, Baby Girl, I’ve got cases and I have to shoot promos today. I need to get some rest so I can deal with all that. Trust me; we will have plenty of time to share all of our flowery ass feelings later.” “Well, Frank, I don’t want to talk anymore,” I slid on top of him and he held me by the waist until I was in my proper position. His hands moved over to my backside. “I want to take this ride all over again.” “Little Lady, you can have me as many times and you can take me tonight—when I get home from work. Right now, I really need to go to sleep and I need you in my arms with those big breasts pressed up against me. Come lie down here, Viv.” 71 72 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Frank rubbed my butt before running his gigantic hands up my back and helped me position myself on top of him. He wrapped his arms around my back good and tight before kissing me on the cheek. “You feel so good in my arms, Viv.” “I like the way you hold me. I feel so protected.” “That’s what a man’s supposed to do. He’s supposed to protect and provide for his woman. If I ever stop holding you like this, it means I don’t care and I can’t foresee a day that I’ll stop doing that.” “I most certainly like hearing you talk like that. Honey, where’s Coco?” “Down on the floor. Viv, I really wanna get some shut eye now.” “I know, but I want to hold her.” “Vivien-Leigh, you can hold her all day tomorrow. I’m tired, so I’m going to sleep. I’m not letting you go, and we’re not moving from this spot. Good night, Darlin’.” “Good night, Honey. I love you.” “Mmmhmm.” Frank closed his eyes and I gently rubbed my face against the slight stubble of his cheek. I listened to the sound of the dog snoring gently from the floor before Frank’s gentle breathing turned into hardcore lumber sawing. It didn’t bother me one bit; I 72 73 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ enjoyed the sound of a man relaxing after working so very hard. When we began our lives with Coco, she was just there to keep me from asking Frank for babies every time I got the itch. She actually taught us a lot about ourselves and helped us realize how well we worked as a cohesive parental unit. Coco would whine for little things, I would give in, and Frank would fuss. We’d bicker, but Daddy always let Mommy win. As the months went by, we learned how to work together to give her what she needed and not everything that she wanted. We got better at being her parents, which, in hindsight, helped prepare us for becoming parents to our real babies in the future. Coco Chanel was my life. She was my pride and joy and I treated that baby like a queen, so anyone can imagine my dismay to learn that my baby was not a well puppy. She was born with a health defect that caused constant kidney failure and an immune system unable to fight off the constant illnesses that plagued her. She got to a point where she constantly threw up and lost control of her bowels. The first time she did it, I got so scared that I called Frank and just bawled. He came over and cleaned her up before taking her to the vet. There really was 73 74 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ nothing more we could do, other than give her prescription pills. I just couldn’t put her to sleep at that time; I truly thought she could live with the pain. It was selfish of me and I beat myself up every day that I let her suffer. Every time her body went through this change, I would just cry as I struggled to comfort her. We were told that it was just a matter of time before we lost her, and were given the ultimatum of putting her to sleep or letting her die in pain. As often as I tried to process this information, I just couldn't force it. I had to stop letting her live in such chronic pain. We decided to put her to sleep so she wouldn’t have to endure any more suffering. After she’d been euthanized, I held her in my arms and cried uncontrollably. Frank had to pry her away from me, and I was inconsolable for days afterwards. We gave her a beautiful funeral and buried her in a pet cemetery. Her headstone read: “Coco Chanel Lattimore. There are no words to express just how much Mommy and Daddy loved you, but it's best that you went home with God, who loved you most of all.” After that heart-breaking ordeal, I couldn’t lay my eyes on a puppy without bursting into tears. It took me a year and a half to get over Coco, but Frank had been completely supportive during that time. We took things a little slower when it came to the baby talk, but we'd gotten to a point where we knew that we were done looking for life partners. We were in a hardcore monogamous relationship. 74 75 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ Frank had a key to my apartment, closet space, a drawer, and a permanent toothbrush in my bathroom. His voice appeared on my answering machine, and he owned the left side of my bed. And the best part of this whole set up was that it was mutual. We had become one hundred percent exclusive. He’d met my family and I’d met his. We were at a point where his kids understood that we were in a very loving and committed relationship and knew that we were as good as married—or as close to married as we would be for a while. They understood that Daddy and I slept in the same bed—sometimes at his house in California, but all the time in Memphis and on vacations—and one day we would be married and I would be their step-mom. I could never replace their mothers, but I would be step-mom and love them like my own. One morning, Frank woke up around 5 a.m. to get in a workout before work, so I decided to get up, make his breakfast, and iron his clothes. “Baby Girl, you don’t have to get up. Just get on back to sleep, I’ll be alright.” “I want to make you breakfast, Honey.” “You mean, you want to burn me some breakfast? No thank you, Darlin’. I just want you to stay right here.” 75 76 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Are you sure? I need to get Tres up and running, too.” “It’s alright, Bunny; you just stay here and recharge your battery. He can manage getting himself up for school—he’s sixteen, let him fix his own damn cereal. Besides, I am in love with the image of all six feet of you, lying naked in my bed. You wear those sheets, well.” “You are so good to me, Frank.” “I’m supposed to be.” Frank kissed me on the forehead and slipped from underneath me to go to the bathroom. I got comfortable under the covers again and finally drifted back to sleep before I felt somebody licking my face and chest. “Daddy, stop.” The licking continued and I giggled while trying to move my face away from the action. “Stop it! You're gonna be late for work.” I opened my eyes, only to find an adorable brown and white Yorkshire Terrier sitting on my chest. She wore a ruby red collar and red bow in her hair. “Frankie!” I looked down and found him crouched next to my side of the bed with a mischievous grin plastered on his face. “Another puppy?” I shouted. 76 77 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Yeah, Daddy bought you another puppy. Go ahead and check her out.” “Can I name her?” “Of course you can. She's yours.” “I think I’ll name her...Etienne. Ooh! Etienne Aigner Lattimore! You like that?” “I love that. I think she has something special for you on her collar.” I tried to hold my rambunctious new puppy still as I examined her collar. She wouldn't keep still! Frank held her as I felt around her neck for his surprise. “Is her collar the surprise?” “No, Baby, keep looking.” I felt around her neck again before I stopped at something questionable. I unhooked the collar, slid the object off, and to my surprise, there lay a breathtaking diamond ring. The stunned expression didn’t leave my face. Frank moved the puppy and put her on his lap as he sat on the bed and gazed at me. He took my hand in his. “Frankie—” “Shhh. Baby, listen to me, please. Miss VivienLeigh, we've spent quite a bit of time together, and I can honestly say that I’ve enjoyed every moment with you. You were twenty-eight when we first started dating, and now you’re thirty-one—time has really flown. We’ve 77 78 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ been together for three of the most wonderful years, and although we’ve had our share of ups and downs, you’ve stuck by me through them all. “Vivien-Leigh, I can’t even remember the last time I felt this way about someone. Honest to God, I never believed in love at first sight ‘til I laid my eyes on all six feet of you. I usually like to take things pretty slow when it comes to relationships and going to that next level, but with you, everything just felt right.” Frank smoothly slipped from the bed down to the floor next to me where he positioned himself on one knee. He continued to hold my hand and the ring as I tried not to hyperventilate. “Going into year number four, Bunny, I want to be more than your ‘significant other.’ I want to be the man you call your husband. I want to make babies with you. I want to be the man you go to bed with at night and the man you wake up to every morning. I just…I just love you something terrible, woman, and I can’t imagine not having you as my companion and my best friend for the rest of my life. So, Miss Vivien-Leigh Valentine, will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?” I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I wanted to speak, but I couldn't find the words. I wanted to scream “YES!” at the top of my lungs, but I just couldn’t. He continued to kneel next to me and put on a 78 79 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ tough façade, but I know that deep inside, part of him feared that I’d say no. “Charles Franklin Lattimore, Jr., I would love to spend my life with you. There's nothing I want more than to become your wife. Yes, Honey Bunny; of course I’ll marry you!” “I love you, Vivie.” “And I love you, Frankie.” I reveled in the fact that I was finally going to be a bride. I'd been a bridesmaid for so long, but it was finally my turn! “Vivie, give me fifteen minutes before I go to work.” “Honey, for this ring, I'll give you twenty.” I saw Frank in a different light after his proposal. There’s such a difference in the “this is my man and we’re comfortable with the way things are” and “this is my man, my husband-to-be, and we’re going to spend the rest of our lives together.” We'd talked about the possibility of marriage and starting a family, and he said he didn't like to move fast when it came to that. He'd dated his last wife for almost four years before proposing to her, a waited another year before marrying her, and they were divorced nearly a year after that. He was taking a chance with me. He put himself right out there and he really wanted to start his life over, with me. My love for him, at that moment, was just indescribable. 79 80 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ “Frankie, you ever think about all the things that we’ve been through just to get to where we are now? Remember when we told the kids we were getting married? Julez did not like that idea—and Tres? He had every thought in the world about me that night. They did not want us to get married. They were so adamant about that.” “They could’ve been as adamant as they wanted, but they couldn’t stop me from putting that rock on your finger. And they damn sure weren’t supplying me with what you were.” “That’s very nice, Honey—right in front of the babies. Thank you for that.” “I’m just saying, you know, first time I got some—case closed. You were my wife then and there.” “And that’s exactly why Tres didn’t want us getting married.” “Baby, my sons are logical thinking men, but they know how to accept and understand the things that I do. I love you, and they understand that and they love you, too. They know that Daddy's gonna do this thing with his woman. They got over it—hell, Nadi was excited about it.” “I’m glad she was, but that's not the point.” 80 81 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Then what is? Are you really trying to get something started up in here before my thing happens today? That's really all I need right now on top of the screaming kids behind me and the two kicking my seat and each other. Boys, I said stop! Leave Daddy alone and leave each other alone. Everybody, just be quiet!” The kids are calming down and the only sound in the car at this moment is the radio. I know Frank thinks I'm crazy for harping on about the boys not wanting us to get married, but they weren't too taken with the idea. I basically helped raise Tres and Julian, so it hurt when they protested. It hurt Frankie more, though. He was so excited about our engagement that he told everyone. I remember hearing him on the phone with one of his friends from Memphis saying, “Yeah, I went ahead and put a ring on that finger. Getting married again, that's right. You've never seen my lady; she’s beautiful. Trust me, she’s a tree that's well worth the climb every night. I call her my Glamazon...” Frank had decided that we should celebrate our engagement over dinner with Tres that night, and he called Nadi and Julez to have them on speaker as he broke the news. I’d gone shopping nearly all day for a new dress to wear; Frank just thought the occasion was a tremendous one and I needed to look the part. He demanded that I take pictures of dresses and send them to him at work so he could make the final decision. Of course he picked the shortest, most form fitting dress I 81 82 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ sent him! That night, he beamed as he held me on his arm. Such a southern old man, he is. “There’s my boy!” Tres met us at the restaurant after football practice and I was growing more and more nervous about how he would react. He and his brother were so used to their dad being single that this type of change this could cause another upset. Tres didn’t get upset over finding out that he had a little sister, but instead, he welcomed her and became as overprotective of her as their father was. Julez had a fit and didn’t understand how Nadi came to be. If there was going to be any resistance to this engagement, it would come from Julez. “Tres.” “Hey Daddy.” They hugged and did their cute little signature hand shake. I sat smiling, struggling to contain my anxiety. “How was practice today, Son?” “Tough. I got piled on and tackled from behind—I feel like I got hit by a bus.” “You still feelin’ it? What hurts?” “A little, but the team doctor said to ice my shoulder down.” “You want some ice now? I don’t want that to swell up on you.” 82 83 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I’m gonna milk it with the girls at school tomorrow. I wanna strap, like, a whole bag of ice to my shoulder and act like it’s nothing.” The things that man and his son could come up with! It only made me wonder what underhanded things he’d done to get me hooked. “Son, you better not be studying those young ladies too hard. Books come first, girls come later…except in the bedroom—” “Ahem.” Frank and Tres shared a laugh, and although I knew it was their normal father-son banter, I felt terribly awkward and left out. “But not for you—you shouldn’t be having sex at all! I’m sorry, Baby. Tres, speak to Miss VivienLeigh.” “Hey Miss Vivien-Leigh.” “Hello, Tres.” I hugged him as Frank stood next to me with his hand on my lower back, gently caressing me and slowly letting his hand creep down to my backside. “Doesn't Vivie look gorgeous?” “Yeah, you look really nice, Miss Viv.” “Thank you, Tres,” I smiled shyly. “It's pretty short, though.” 83 84 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “There’s nothing wrong with that!” I couldn’t help but laugh at his flirty comment. “But you know your father, Tres, he likes things the way he likes them. I wanted to get something a little less showy, but he said he already had in mind what he wanted. Ten stores later, this is what he told me to buy.” “Those legs are the Eighth Wonder of the world. It's a damn crime to keep them covered. Come on, Baby, sit down right here.” He pulled out my chair and pushed it in as I sat down. He took his seat next to mine and rested his arm around me. I think that was the happiest I’d ever seen him. He ordered a bottle of Merlot for us and kept Tres on edge about the whole evening. “What did you call me here for, Daddy?” “Wait, let me get your sister and brother on the phone.” Frankie pulled out his phone and called Nadi and Julez as we all sat in a bit of silence. He continued to rub my back as he waited. “Hey Daddy!” “Hey Baby Girl! How you doin’, Princess?” “I’m fine, Daddy. Guess what?” “What’s that, Baby?” “I passed my math test!” 84 85 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “That’s great! I’m proud of you, Princess! I told you that studying would pay off!” “Thank you for making me smart, Daddy.” “Baby Girl, Daddy’s just glad that you got more than good looks from him. Listen, I’m here with your brother and Miss Vivien-Leigh and I’m gonna have to put you on speaker for a bit, okay?” “Okay.” “There we go. Everybody, say hey to Nadi.” “Hey Nadi,” we spoke in unison. “Hold on, Nadi. I’m gonna find a way to get Blue on the phone so he can hear this, too. Tres, get your brother on the phone.” “Daddy, all you have to do is put Nadi on hold, call Mama and get Blue, then hit conference.” “Here, you do it for me. That’s what I’ve got you for.” “Hey Nadi, hold on, okay? I’m gonna get Blue, so don’t hang up.” “Okay, Tres.” Frank kissed and rubbed my hand as we waited on Tres to do work his technological powers and get his brother on the phone. 85 86 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “And what do you want?” “Mama?” “Oh, hey, Tres; I thought you were that old stubborn daddy of yours. Everything okay?” “Everything’s fine. Are you okay?” “I’m doing fine; I told you not to worry about me.” “I can’t help it. You’re my mama and you’re so far away.” “I know, but I’m doing fine. Your brother and the whole family helps me out. I’m fine. How’s your father?” “He’s good.” “What about that Vivien-Leigh? She put on any more weight?” “Mama—” “I know you don’t like me talkin’ about her, but it is what it is. That girl got fat. I just knew she had the fat gene in her! All the crap your father gave me about staying in shape and he hooked up with a fatty. Just thought she was so fine—a ballet dancer—well I could see why she ain’t dancing no more. I guess he must love her to stay with her after she blew up—” 86 87 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Mama, seriously—” Talk about your hurt feelings! I knew I’d put on weight, but she just cut right through to my heart. I’d been working on my weight—Frank and I both had—but Sylvia just tore me apart. Frank and I really put on weight in that second year, and when I say we packed on the pounds, I’m not exaggerating. “But your Daddy put on some weight too—they got fat together. Guess they must’ve gotten to that comfortable stage. Although, your father could carry weight and still look fine, but that woman of his…Honey, she needs to push away from the table.” Frank took notice of the hurt in my eyes and that I was nearly on the verge of tears. It wasn’t like I hadn’t been working on losing weight! I would’ve loved to be in a single digit dress size again. Frank decided to end his ex-wife’s verbal onslaught. “Thank you for the advice, Sylvia, but I think Miss Vivien-Leigh and I can worry about our own issues.” “Frank? Dammit, Tres; am I on speaker?” “I tried to tell you, Mama!” “Since you talked about her so badly when you thought she wasn’t listening, you have anything else to say while she’s right here?” 87 88 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Hello, Vivien-Leigh.” “Hello, Sylvia.” “Vivie, you got anything you wanna say to Syl?” “No thank you, I respectfully decline.” “Sylvia, can you please put my son on the phone?” “Fine. Blue! Your daddy wants to talk to you!” I tried to gather my emotions again as we waited for him to come to the phone. I’d already decided that I would have nothing more than a salad for dinner that night, but Frank talked me into a steak and we shared a dessert. “Hey Daddy!” “Hey Son! How are you?” “Good. Football is good, too.” “I’m glad to hear that! I didn’t think you’d like it very much.” “I mean, at first I didn’t, but I do now.” “Hey Blue.” “Hey Tres—you have football practice today too?” 88 89 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Yeah and I hurt my shoulder, too, but it’ll be okay.” “Hello, Julian.” “Hi, Miss Vivien-Leigh.” “Are you doing okay? How’s school?” “It’s okay.” “That’s good.” He was still warming up to me; for some reason he wasn’t happy with my dating his father. “Blue, hold on, Son. Your sister’s on hold and we gotta get her on the line. Tres, do that conference thing.” Tres brought his sister on the line and it was time to get back to the matter at hand. “Alright. Baby Girl, Tres, Blue, as you know, Miss Vivien-Leigh and I have been dating for three years now and we've gotten to a point in our relationship that I didn't think we'd get to in this amount of time. Tres, Blue, you know that Angela and I dated for four years before getting to the point where I decided to settle down with her.” “Oh boy...” “'Oh boy,' what, Tres?” “Nothing, go ahead.” He shot a stern look to his son before deciding to continue with his announcement. 89 90 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ It was the first he’d wore anything but a smile on his face that day. He never thought his kids would object. “Anyway, this morning, I asked for Miss Vivien-Leigh's hand in marriage and she wholeheartedly accepted my offer. Vivien-Leigh is going to be my wife. Go ahead and show off your ring, Baby.” “You’re going to marry Miss Vivie, Daddy?” Nadi asked. “I sure am, Princess. Miss Viv’s gonna be your step-mama. How do you like that?” “I like it a lot! I love Miss Vivie!” “I most certainly love you, Sweetness!” I was all smiles. “Can I be in the wedding?” “Of course you can, Baby Girl.” “Wait ‘til I tell my mama!” Frank and I quickly met eyes, imagining the problems Lisa would find with that. “Ok, Princess Nadi, but when you do tell her just make sure she knows that I’ll call her later so she doesn’t have to bother you with a bunch of questions. Okay, Baby? You, too, Blue.” “Okay Daddy.” 90 91 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Alright, Little Lady, we’re gonna have to go now. Daddy loves you.” “I love my daddy.” “That’s my girl. I’m gonna let your brothers and Miss Viv bid you a good night.” “Bye Nadi. Love you, Princess.” “Love you too, Tres.” “Bye Nadi.” “Bye Julez.” “Blue, don’t you wanna tell your baby sister that you love her?” “I love you, Nadi.” I tell you, that kid was a hard nut to crack! His father was so determined to have his children grow up with each other and Julian was determined to do otherwise. Frank had to push him into everything when it came to Nadi. “I love you too, Julez.” “Good bye, Princess Nadi. I love you so very much. You be a good girl, okay?” “Okay, Miss Vivie. I love you too.” As soon as Nadi cleared the line the drama started to unfold. 91 92 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “How you boys feel about that?” Frank asked. Tres shrugged his shoulders and then began Julez’s discontent. “Julian, Sweetheart, is everything okay?” “You aren’t my mama! You can’t replace my mama!” “I’m sorry, Sweetie. I didn’t mean—” “Don’t call me that! You’ll never be my mama!” “Blue, Son, just calm down a minute here. Vivie didn’t mean any harm. You need to remember that a man’s not supposed to act like this. You’re supposed to be what?” He hesitated before mumbling what his father had always instilled in him. “Cool, calm, collected, and under self-control.” “Exactly. Now, you need to articulate yourself in the manner in which you were taught. Calm down and talk. First, you apologize to Miss Viv for yelling at her.” “I’m sorry, Miss Viv.” “It’s okay, Julian.” “Good. Now, Son, what’s the matter?” 92 93 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You just want to replace my mama and it’s not fair. Mama’s crazy because you keep trying to replace her.” “Blue, Mama’s not crazy!” “Yes she is! She has to take all these pills and she’s always sad and mad because Daddy doesn’t want her. He keeps taking things away from her.” “Okay, Blue.” Blue is Julez’s nickname. Frankie told me that when Julian was a baby he would cry uncontrollably and the only thing that would calm him down would be anything blue. Frank would have to put on a blue shirt to rock him and quiet him down. They had to buy him blue teddy bears and blankets to help him go to sleep without crying, and nearly every article of clothing he wore for eight years was blue. ‘Til this day, it’s still Julian’s favorite color. Perhaps we all should’ve worn blue for this occasion. “I have nothing to do with your mother being bipolar. I didn’t take anything away from Sylvia— especially not you or your brother. Your mother and I agreed that when you boys were to start high school, you would live with me because she can’t teach you how to be a man. That’s my job. When she found out she was bipolar and when it started getting the best of her, she didn’t want you to feel that it was your obligation to take care of her when her attitude started changing. I’ve done 93 94 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ nothing but try to help your mama through this lifealtering situation. I love Sylvia in a way that I could never love another person. She brought the two of you into this world and I will always love her for that. We’ve had good times and bad times, but at the end of the day, I still love her.” “Then why do you have to keep getting married?” “My life has to go on! I’ve found a woman that I love and I never want to be without. I’m not marrying Vivien-Leigh because I want her to replace your mama; I’m marrying her because I want her to be a member of our family. She can’t replace your mama, but she can help you and your brother with things that your mama may not be able to. You know she’s done nothing but love you.” I figured it was time for me to stick up for myself. “Julez, I know I can’t replace your mama and I’m not trying to, but I love your daddy and I love you guys. I would never try to get between you and your mother.” “You okay with that, Blue?” Frank was beaming with pride at my willingness to address Juelz directly. “I guess.” “Tres?” He shrugged his shoulders and it was obvious that their talks would continue on later. I felt that Tres was too old to feel the way he felt—he was 94 95 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ sixteen years old. I knew Frankie cared about his children, but a sixteen-year-old man should have other things to worry about other than his father’s intimate life. I have always tried to respect the feelings of those boys, but I couldn’t live my life around the fact that they didn’t want their father to move on. “Alright, now, Blue, I want you to know that I love you.” “I love you too, Daddy.” “Good. Nothing will ever change that—I’d never let anything change that. Remember to tell your mama that I’ll call her later to talk about this.” “Okay.” “I love you, Blue.” “I love you, Tres.” “Julez, I know you don’t believe me, but I really do love you.” “I guess.” “Blue!” “…I love you, too, Miss Viv.” “Good, Son, now have a good night. I’ll talk to you later.” 95 96 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Okay.” Frank hung up his phone and placed it back in the holster. He stopped for a moment and we all sat in an uncomfortable silence. “Tres, you sure you okay?” “Yes, Sir.” “Alright.” There was an odd vibe at the table and I knew something was going to give pretty soon. “Hey, Baby? I'm gonna make a quick run to the facilities. I will be right back at your side in a few minutes. Is that alright, Mrs. Lattimore?” “Of course it is. Hurry back, Honey.” Frank and I kissed and when he left that table; the gauntlet was thrown down and I had soon entered into a barrage of questions. “Vivien-Leigh, what are your intentions with my father?” “Excuse me?” “What are your intentions with my father, Vivien-Leigh?” “Well, I intend to marry your father and love him for the rest of my life.” “Like Daddy said—it took him four years to completely love and feel comfortable with Angie before 96 97 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ he married her. He even took months off from her to date someone else. I know you are both grown, but I maintain a high interest in my parents’ lives. I don't want to see my father hurt, so if this is just the result of some bedroom whip appeal, I think it shouldn't go any further than that.” “Not that it's any of your business, Tres, but if you're inquiring as to whether or not your father and I have sex, the answer is no. Your father and I make love and he makes it quite well. If you're thinking that this engagement is a result of your father being wrapped between my legs and immersed deeply in the magic of my vagina, I ask you to think a little more highly of the both of us. Thank you.” Yes, he was sixteen, but after I’d done my best to be a mother figure to him for two years, him using the tone of a man had to be reciprocated. “Okay, so Daddy's not whipped. He loves you; do you love him just as much in return?” “Of course I do, Tres.” “Do you love him because he's a good man or because he's a good man who buys you designer dresses?” “I really cannot believe you’re sitting here insulting me like this.” 97 98 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “It's nothing personal; I’m just looking out for my father. I do the same for my mother.” “Let's get real. I understand that you love your father and want the best of everything for him. He wants the same in return for you. He brags about you consistently and he loves you dearly. I believe that he wants nothing more than for you to be happy for us—for him—and I don't think that could be possible when you place these accusations at my front door. And I can buy my own designer everything, thank you.” “I’m just looking out for my daddy.” “I understand that. You said that I shouldn't take it personally, but I find that rather outlandish. I think what's really bothering you is the fact that there's about twenty-two years lying between your father and me. You didn't think so much of the smaller age gap between your father and his ex because he gave you four years to get used to it.” “I’m a bit appalled by this my damn self.” Frank crept up on us, and by the tone of his voice, he’d heard enough. “Daddy, I just want what’s best for you, that’s all. I don’t think rushing into marriage is good for you right now.” “Last time I checked, Charles Franklin Lattimore, III, I was your father. I know what’s best for you and me. I don’t remember raising you to be rude to 98 99 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ adults and I damn sure don’t remember ever telling you that you can talk to my fiancée like she’s your equal—“ “She might as well be—“ “Look-a-here, boy. I didn’t ask you for your blessing in the matter. I wanted to share this monumental part of my life with you—now if you object, that’s your business. Ain’t nothing you can say that’s gonna change what’s gonna happen between Miss Vivien-Leigh and myself. You’ve got some damn nerve talking to me—of all people—like you are. An ass whoopin’ could soon come your way—I don’t care how big you are.” “Hey, come on, Frankie. Tres don’t argue. Let’s just finish dinner and this debate at home. Please, just stop this.” “Vivie, baby, lets us work this out.” Frankie and Tres got into a small argument and I sat there, feeling extremely awkward and left out. They talked about how Daddy can’t live alone; he needs someone to spend his time with. He says he loves his kids, but it’s not the same. Tres asserted his gold digger ideas and Frank stopped him dead in his tracks. “Vivien-Leigh don’t need me to take care of her; she can take care of herself. She don’t need me to spend a dime, but I want to and she lets me. That’s why I love her. She lets me take the lead when necessary and she doesn’t complain. She supports me and I support her and there is nothing she wouldn’t do for you or your brother 99 100 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ and sister. That’s the most important thing. She loves my kids unconditionally—even when you’re rude to her. Even when your brother is rude to her—she still loves you all. When I raise hell about the way you act towards her, she calms me down and asks me to take it easy on you. Whose car do you think you’ve been driving around in lately?” “Miss Viv’s.” “You’re driving her sole means of transportation while she’s paying for a car service and bumming rides. Yet, you’re being obnoxious and completely disrespectful to the woman I love. How do you think that makes me feel? How do you think that makes me look?” “Like you didn’t teach me good manners.” “Exactly! I know I taught you better, so why can’t you act better?” “I’m sorry, Miss Viv.” “It’s okay, Tres.” “No it’s not. I’m not being fair to you and I’m sorry. You do a lot for me and I’ve never thanked you for that. I appreciate you and I do love you.” “What about you, Vivie?” Frankie put his hand on my knee and rubbed my thigh gently. 100 101 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Thank you, Tres. I love you, too. I love you and your brother and sister and I’m just glad that you’ve finally come to see that.” “Now, that’s what I want to hear. Is everyone okay?” Tres nodded his head as things finally started to sink in for him. “Everything’s just fine, Daddy.” “So, I see you're bringing that out in public?” He flashed this giant smile at me that forced me to reciprocate. “I just felt it was appropriate seeing as how we have something else to discuss with your son.” “Like what, Daddy?” “Well, Vivie and I have decided that we're going to work on getting pregnant on our wedding night. We’re telling you first because you’re the oldest and you’d probably take it with the least amount of drama. I already know Blue’s gonna have a fit—like he did when he found out about Nadi—and Nadi’s just getting used to being my baby, so I have no idea how she’ll handle it. I just figured that you’d be the most mature about the situation.” “You’re having more kids? At your age?” Tres was slowly beginning to bother me with his pettiness and immaturity. He knew that we loved him and nothing would change that. Having babies of our own would not 101 102 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ have any impact on how he would be loved, treated, or cared for. I guess I was expecting too much from a sixteen year old. “As long as she wants them and I can crank them out for her to carry, yes. At my age—which there is nothing wrong with, might I add—I want more kids with my soon-to-be wife.” “And I want them with you, Honey. You're a good daddy. We've been practicing our parenting on the dog.” “We've been pretty good at it, too. We only lost one, but that wasn't our fault, so I think we're okay.” “I think it's crazy that a man your age would still want to have kids.” “I'm almost fifty-three and it ain't that old.” “It's too old to still be making babies.” “As long as I'm not dead, I can do two things: look at women and make babies. Neither one of those should concern you.” “The former concerns me. Why do you have to look at other women?” “I don't have to, but I can’t help it if one turns my head. Baby, my eyes can be on anybody, but my heart and my mind are always on you. They may turn my head, but only you can turn me on.” Frank put his 102 103 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ hand on my thigh and slowly slid it up my dress and between my legs, causing me to jump in my seat. He flashed that big smile of his at me and I melted inside. I could never stay angry with him. “So, that’s the way it is, Judge Lattimore?” “Oh, that’s exactly the way it is, Ms. Valentine. You know what, Tres? You sit there and think about all of that. I want to take my Glamazon for a spin on the dance floor. Come on, Baby.” Frank and I got up to dance, leaving his son to figure out his position with the changes that were soon to occur in all of our lives. We spent the rest of that night talking things out. We heard his perspective, and he heard ours. We came to our conclusions: his father and I were getting married, and there wasn't anything he could do about it. He’d have to get used to the fact that I was not going anywhere. Frank broke the news to Julez and Nadi, and as we thought, Julez had a fit. He just could not understand why his father wanted to have more kids and edge him out. Frank had to fly to Memphis to take him out and explain the situation to him and again to his sister—who was beside herself with joy at the thought of having a new brother or sister. Julez eventually got used to the idea. It took some time, but he got used to it. 103 104 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ Before Frank and I even seriously discussed having children and a life together, we needed to have an in depth discussion about my previous relationship. We always talked about his two failed marriages and his relationship with Nadi’s mother because they were always a very present part of our relationship, but we rarely discussed mine. That was, until a very tall reminder of it found himself in my living room one day. “Well, I never thought I’d be sitting here again.” “Neither did I. How are you, Ricky?” “I’m good…not as good as you look, though. You look happy.” “Thank you. I am happy. My man makes sure I keep this smile on my face.” “I’m glad someone’s taking better care of you than I did.” “So am I. What can I help you with? Frankie will be here soon and I need to unwind with him.” My ex-fiancé and I sat on my couch, and an awkward silence filled the room. I never thought I’d ever see him again. I didn’t hate him, but as badly as things ended with us, you’d be surprised that I even bothered to open the door for him. The year before I met Frank, I was pregnant and engaged to an LA Laker. We were in a 104 105 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ relationship of convenience for two years: the first year we were in disgusting lust with each other, and by the start of the second year, we were bored to death with each other. We were starting to drift apart, but I didn’t want to admit it. I wanted to stick with it and make it work and he really wasn’t interested. My mother convinced me to get pregnant to make him stay, because in her mind, the baby would keep the money coming and she’d get a grandchild with the perfect genes. Needless to say, I stopped taking my birth control without his knowledge and became pregnant shortly after. He decided to propose, even though he knew he had been trapped. I was still in my first trimester when my dad decided to visit and check up on us. We brought him to a game with us and on the way out, through the back of the Staples Center, I tripped and fell down a flight of stairs. On top of spraining my foot, ankle, and wrist, I lost my baby. It was gone long before Daddy and I got to the hospital, but by the time Ricky got there, I knew the relationship died right along with our unborn child. I never even spoke to him. He came into my room, and my dad took him aside and told him what happened. Ricky stroked my hand and planted his lips on my forehead as tears streamed down my face. He turned and walked away, and that was the last I’d see of him. To him, my tears were mourning for the loss of our unborn child, but in actuality, they were tears of joy. I was completely done with him. There laid no more ties binding us and I was free, no longer having to turn a 105 106 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ blind eye to his infidelity. I was overjoyed, but could never tell my father that. He took me home to recuperate, but the moment he left me alone, I hobbled out of bed, grabbed my finest, most expensive bottle of wine, my Waterford wine glass, and a Montecristo New York Connoisseur Edition cigar. I played Angela Bofill’s I Try over and over all night and into the morning as I sat out on my balcony, crying, smoking, and drinking to my freedom. “Do you remember that house we bought out in Marina del Rey?” He continued. “I was thinking we should sell it. I don’t need it and I didn’t know if you did—“ “Bay? Daddy’s home!” “Hi, Daddy!” The largest smile formed on my face at the sound of my man’s voice. Ricky and I turned and watched as he set his briefcase in the foyer before removing his key from the door. I got up and trotted over to him, wrapping my arms around his neck. He reciprocated by wrapping his arms around my waist and lifting me up gently. We greeted each other with a passionate kiss before he set me down on my feet. “How are you, Darlin?” “Very well, thank you. How are you?” “Just fine. I didn’t know we had company.” 106 107 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Ricky stood and came around the couch to meet Frank and shake his hand. My ex may stand at 6’7”, but he had nothing on Frank. “Nice to meet you. I’m Rick—” “No need, I know who you are.” Frank shook his hand and sized him up. He knew me better than to assume that something dishonest was happening between the two of us, but we had a routine that was being disrupted. Frank moved his hand down to my backside and stroked it firmly; I was tempted to end Ricky’s visit as quickly as possible. “Miss Vivian-Leigh, you’re still dressed. You just getting in?” “I am— I was with Veronique all day. You know she’s redecorating and she drug me from store to store with her crazy ideas. I kept telling her that I had to get home to cook for my man.” “Cook? You mean, pull what Mia made from the oven and plate it like you made it?” “That’s exactly what I meant.” We all shared a laugh; it was a known fact that I wasn’t much of a cook at that time. My housekeeper not only cleaned, but she also cooked amazingly. “You’ve still got Mia? Does she still make those amazing carne asada burritos?” Ricky asked. 107 108 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “She certainly does. Uh, Ricky, can we get back to business? Frankie and I have to dress down and get ready for dinner.” “Right, I’m sorry—” “Don’t be! Hey, man, go on and have a seat. I definitely need to have a seat, myself, baby; I’m tired.” Frank escorted us back over to the couch and I let him sit between Ricky and myself. I cuddled up to my man and got comfortable under his arm. “I was just reminding V that we had a house out in Marina del Rey that we could stand to get rid of. I don’t need it and I wasn’t sure if she wanted to take it. I spoke with a real estate agent today and she thinks if we put the house on the market soon, we shouldn’t have a problem moving it.” “Ah, waterfront property! This is a nice little investment here.” Frank took the paperwork and pictures that Ricky handed him and thumbed through them. I didn’t want that house. Frank and I didn’t need any reminders of Ricky in our lives. “Yeah, it was what we needed at one point. Did you guys wanna take it and maybe buy me out?” “Vivie?” I sat up from underneath Frank’s arm and glanced at the pictures. It was a beautiful house, but I didn’t want anything to do with it. 108 109 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I’m not interested in keeping it. I’m really okay with selling it.” “Let me ask y’all something. How much did you pay for this place? And was it fifty-fifty?” “Uh, about twenty-five million. I think I paid about seventy percent and V put in thirty percent.” “That sounds about right,” I agreed. “And how much of a percentage of this sale does the real estate agent want?” “She’s asking for forty percent” “What? There’s no way in the world I’d give her no more than twenty-five percent and that’s being polite. Vivie, you wanna sell this place with Rick or do you wanna sell it to him?” You’d think after a full day of adjudicating other people’s contractual matters, he would want to come home and think of everything but work, but that’s not how Frank is. He saw a chance to protect his woman’s financial interest and dove in headfirst. I was glad he did because I’d stopped paying attention to everything Ricky had to say. I concentrated on undressing my man, and by this time, I’d already taken off his tie and unscrewed his cufflinks. “I don’t know, Frankie. You just do what’s best. I’m gonna go get changed.” I got up and left them alone. I 109 110 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ could care less about that house; I just wanted to spend time with my man. As I closed my bedroom doors, I could still hear my ex and my current debate the fate of something I considered a distant memory. “What you want to do is, you want to find a good real estate agent who’s going to work hard for this sale because they know that no matter what their percentage is, they’ll still be able to have a successful pay day and boast that they made this sale for you. Look, I’m gonna write up some terms to protect both interests in this matter. I’ll send it over to you tomorrow and you can take it with you when you check out real estate agents. If they can’t agree to these terms, you keep looking for one who will. That sound good?” “That definitely sounds good. Thanks, Frank.” I walked in on them shaking hands and actually making polite small talk. “What did we decide on, honey?” I went into the kitchen to check the oven for dinner. Frank came towards me as I pulled the pan from the oven and sat it on the stove. He put his arms around my waist and kissed my face softly. “You’re going to sell the property together and split the purchase price the same way you split the cost. I’m gonna write up some terms for Rick to take when he checks out a few more agents tomorrow.” “Is that right?” 110 111 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “It’s damn right. God, that smells good. Rick, I think you maybe in luck. Looks like Mia made her famous burritos.” “Did she? Man, Mia should write a cookbook. There’s nothing she can’t make!” “Baby, go on and fix Rick a plate. I’m gonna get changed, alright?” “Alright, honey; don’t take too long.” “With the way your ass is looking in those tights, I’m not gonna be away from you for long.” “Just my butt today? You did realize that I’ve forgone the harness for the rest of the night, haven’t you?” Frank slid his hands up my shirt and squeezed my bare breasts as he kissed my neck. Ricky had to go! “Damn, baby, I’ll be right back…get rid of the company, will you please?” “Most certainly.” Frank slapped me on the backside before he left for the bedroom. I grabbed a roll of aluminum foil and began to pack Ricky’s burrito to go. “I didn’t mean to disturb your evening with your man.” “That’s okay.” I handed him the burrito and patted him on the shoulder, nonchalantly leading him to the door. “He’s a good man…for someone in his sixties.” 111 112 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You’re funny. He’s in his fifties and he’s an amazing man. I love him.” “I can tell that you do. You can’t wait to get me out of here, can you?” “Pardon my French, Dear, but I damn sure can’t. You have to go. I have to feed Big Daddy and then Big Daddy has to lay pipe. We’ll speak again tomorrow. Goodnight.” “Goodnight, V.” I finally got Ricky out of the house and rushed to make Frank’s plate and find a wine he liked. “He’s gone?” Frank emerged from the bedroom wearing sweats and a t-shirt and as much as we enjoyed the sight of each other all dressed up and ready for a night on the town, nothing was sexier than being relaxed and comfortable with each other. “Yes, honey, he’s gone.” “Thank God. Where’d he come from?” “I saw him in the lobby when I came in. I’m glad he’s gone, though. I’m ready to spend the night with Big Daddy.” “Big Daddy’s damn sure ready for you.” We kissed hard on the lips as we stood outside of my bedroom doors. I could not care less whether or not we shared a single 112 113 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ word that evening, just being with him was more than enough. “Tell me something, VL. You’re not thinkin’ about him, are you?” He put an arm around me and tilted my chin upward so he could look into my eyes. “Of course not, Frank. I hadn’t thought of him since the day he walked out of that hospital.” “I just wanted to make sure that he was a very distant memory for you because I take what you and I have very seriously.” “As do I, Honey Bunny. There is nothing in my mind or my heart that wants or needs for anyone but you.” “You know I’m not a jealous man, nor am I insecure, but you’re a young and fine thing and I’m serious about you. I’ve got my kids serious about you, too. I can handle you hurting me, but I know they can’t.” “I don’t plan on hurting you or them and I promise you that every desire that I’ve had to explore opportunities with other men left me the moment that I looked into your eyes and saw my entire future with you. My fire burns for one man. So how was your day, Honey?” “It was just fine. You know what I did all day, Darlin’?” “What’s that?” “I could not stop thinking about you; about being with you uninterruptedly for a whole weekend. 113 114 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Thank God my nephews have Tres over at their place! This is the last weekend where it’ll be just you and me. You know we gotta take the boy back to Memphis for summer break and then there’s two weeks with the three of them.” “Daddy loves his babies. We get two weeks with all three kids, one month with Julez and Nadi, and Nadi for the rest of the summer. I can’t wait!” “You know my girl loves you something awful, don’t you? She asked me if I loved her Mama and I told her that I did, but I don’t love her the same way that I love you.” “Aww!” “And then she asked when we were going to get married. I damn near choked.” I put down my fork and rested my chin on a gently made fist. Frank put down his glass of wine and cracked a smile. Any talk of marriage always put him on edge. “Why are you giving me that look?” “Well? What did you tell her?” “I told her what I tell you: when it’s right, it will happen.” “This isn’t right?” 114 115 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “This is amazing, but you’re not gonna pressure me. I know what I want to do and I am reassured that you definitely want this, too. You just have to wait and see what happens.” “I see. I’m guessing you’d like to change the subject now.” “I damn sure would.” “Okay, why can’t we work on having our own baby right now?” “Dammit, Vivie!” I just liked to push his buttons. I knew his stance on babies at that point in our relationship: If we aren’t married, we’re not making any babies. Funny how we had had that conversation a thousand times, but we actually had a miscarriage shortly before this episode. Birth control isn’t 100% effective, and the chances are even slimmer when you’re a woman of a certain height and weight. I used to switch up my pills every six months—for three months I’d be on the pill and we’d make love without a condom; for the next three months, I’d be off the pill and we’d use a condom or a diaphragm, so on and so forth. There were times when Frank would get comfortable and not use a condom on our “off the pill” months because nothing seemed to happen. That caught up to him one day. He and I were at 115 116 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ my condo, lying on the couch and watching a movie when I slowly escaped his grasp and began to sit up. “You alright, Darlin’?” Bewildered, I looked back at him. “I think I’m late.” “For what?” He began to look as bewildered as I did. “I don’t think I’ve had my cycle this month.” “Aw, hell. Baby, I need you to be sure about this. You’re absolutely positive that your monthly friend didn’t stop in?” “Honey, the month’s almost over and I don’t remember having it.” “You think you’re pregnant?” Frank began to run his hand through his hair, as he did whenever he felt stressed out. He sat back and held his head. I didn’t know what to think; I knew he didn’t want a baby and as much as I bugged him about having one of our own. I didn’t even know if I wanted one at that time, either. “I don’t know…it could be stress. It’s happened before. I’m doing a lot of dancing right now. It might just be stress. I…I don’t know.” “God, I hope it is just stress. God, please let it be stress.” I nestled against him and he held me protectively 116 117 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ in his arms. He kissed me on the forehead before moving one hand down to my backside to pat it. “Everything’ll be alright, Vivie. We’ll get you to the doctor to get this all figured out.” Days later, while Frank was at work, my sister accompanied me to the doctor. I left with results that I didn’t know how to break to him. I had no clue what to say or how he would react. I made Veronique stay with me until he came over because if I didn’t know how to say it, I knew she would. She and her husband had been trying for years to have a baby and had been quite unsuccessful. I felt a little bad for involving her when I was carrying a baby that I wasn’t sure I wanted when she wanted one so badly. “Ronnie, do you hate me?” “I could never hate you, V. I’m a little envious, though.” “You know you’re the auntie/godmother, right?” “I know. Are you ready for this?” “I don’t know. I don’t know about any of this. Frank’s not going to be happy. I know he won’t.” “Well, then he shouldn’t have done what he did to get you pregnant. Stop worrying yourself. Relax.” “I can’t; he’s going to be here any minute, Ronnie. I don’t know what to say!” 117 118 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Stop worrying! If you don’t stop, you’re gonna hurt that baby. Trust me; calm down, because I’ll be here with you.” The moment Frank came home, I became a deer in headlights. All words escaped me and I just wanted to cry. “Good evening, ladies.” “Hi Frank,” Ronnie gave a smile and waved at him before politely accepting his kiss on the cheek. He sat down next to me, putting his arm around me and kissing me on the cheek, too. “Hey, Mama.” Ronnie gave a snide chuckle and I shot her the meanest look I could put together. “Hi, Honey.” “How are you?” “I’m doing well, thank you.” I lied. I was a bundle of nerves and stomach cramps. “You go to the doctor today?” “Yes, I went.” “And?” 118 119 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Well, Honey, I have some news.” “Alright, what? It was stress, right?” I held my stomach and rubbed it gently; I began to feel a dull cramp on my right side. “My stomach hurts.” “Still, V? You need to lie down.” “You went to the doctor and now you’ve got stomach cramps—what the hell is wrong with you, woman?” “If you’re not going to say it, I will,” Ronnie blurted out. “It’s time to welcome baby Lattimore number four. She’s pregnant, Frank; look at her!” Ronnie began to pull me up from the couch and Frank finally started to notice my burgeoning baby bump. I wasn’t stick thin with amazing abs, but he could see that my slightly fluffy midsection was becoming housing for another human being. I was more than a month late; I was nearly ten weeks into my pregnancy. “Shit! This cannot be happening—” “What do you mean? Frank, we’re pregnant. Our baby is nearly ten weeks along and we heard a heartbeat today. This is real!” “Vivie, you know we agreed that we wouldn’t have a baby until we were settled down and married.” 119 120 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “And you keep dragging that out! When, Frank? When are we going to settle down? You keep stringing me along! I want to be with you forever, can’t you see that?” “Oh, I can see it alright. You want to be with me forever, so you turn up pregnant after I’ve expressed to you over and over again that I don’t want any more babies being born out of wedlock. You’re rushing me and I’m starting to feel like you’re doing me like you did your last one.” “Frank, don’t be a jackass. V would never do that! That’s not the kind of woman she is.” “No, Ronnie, I can handle this,” I interrupted. “You think I’m trapping you? Why would I do that? I’m honest with you and I’m not the child I was when I was with Ricky. I find it a little insulting that you think I’d try to trap you, when you’re the one who insists on not wearing a condom.” Things had gotten messy and I knew it was only going to get worse. He didn’t like us arguing or airing out our dirty laundry in front of company. Frank was pissed, for lack of better words. He’d gotten up off the couch and we found ourselves in a three-person standoff. “Vivian-Leigh, we need to take this to the bedroom.” “What for? What you did in there is what you’re out here arguing about.” 120 121 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “We need to go to the bedroom before I say something to your sister that hurts her feelings.” Frank took me by the arm and escorted me into the bedroom. He closed the door behind him and closed the curtains. I rubbed my stomach and just stood before him, struggling to keep it together. Even though I’d witnessed first hand his devotion to his children and knew he’d never turn his back on his children, I felt like that was going to be the last time I’d see him. “Look, I know I don’t always wear a rubber when I say I am, so I’m sure you think I’m an asshole for even bringing the other thing up. I like making love to you, I like the feeling of not wearing a rubber, but you need to keep yourself protected.” “I need to keep myself protected? What are you supposed to do? Just hump me and use me as a human Kleenex to dispose of your sperm after you’ve pleasured yourself? I’m not a trash receptacle, Frank; I’m a woman. I thought I was the woman you loved.” “I do love you!” “That’s not how it feels right now. I feel like you don’t even respect me. You don’t want a baby? Fine. But you helped put this baby here. It’s too late to change your mind.” “How the hell can you say that I don’t respect you? Can’t you see how well I take care of you—even though you don’t need me to? I love you and want to be 121 122 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ with you for as long as I’m allowed to remain on this earth, but I just want to enjoy you. I want to enjoy being with you—without kids. I already have three, one of which I didn’t know existed until not long ago. It would be amazing to spend uninterrupted time with you. There’s always something happening with my kids. I love them, but dammit, I wish they were grown. We can’t go anywhere without one of them! Don’t you think it’d be nice to spend an evening alone?” “We spend lots of evenings alone; that’s part of how we got in this mess. I love your kids. I think you’re a great father. I don’t mind that they need things or need your attention. That’s what kids need. I like being with you and I like seeing how quickly you respond when they need you. It’s lovely to be alone—I enjoy that time; it’s been a major change being with someone who has children and I think I’ve handled it very well. I’ve never met a man with whom I’ve wanted to have kids with until I met you. Doesn’t that mean anything to you?” “It does mean something to me and I would love to make you a mother, but I’d rather you be my wife first. I don’t want any more ‘baby mamas;’ I don’t even like that I have one.” “So when are you going to make me your wife?” Tears streamed down my cheek as I ignored the cramping and worried about our future. I didn’t want him to feel sorry for me. I didn’t want a shotgun wedding. I wanted him to marry me because he wanted to. I wanted him to want our baby. 122 123 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Dammit, Woman! I had plans for us and now it’s all shot to hell. This is all going the wrong way!” I took his hand and put it on my stomach. I made him rub my bump—our bump, hoping he would feel something. I hoped it would help him change his mind. Tears continued to coat my face and I could see that he couldn’t even stand to look at me. “Frank?” “…Is it too late to get rid of this?” “What?” I pushed his hand away and stepped back. I searched for the right words, but nothing could convey how disappointed I was in his insensitivity to our situation. “We don’t have this worked out. Vivie, you know I’m right and you know you want me to take control of this. Nobody has to know. We can go down to a clinic and make this go away.” “Get out.” I sat on the edge of my bed, holding my stomach and crying hysterically. I just couldn’t believe Frank—my Frank, the man I love—responded this way to the woman he loved carrying his child. “What?” “You heard me, Frank. Leave my house.” “You don’t mean that, Baby.” 123 124 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Like hell I don’t. Your child and I don’t need you. Leave.” “Listen, Vivie, just—” “Get out!” I curled up in a ball while a puddle of tears soaked my bedspread. In the corner of my eye, I saw Frank standing there, trying to decide if this was worth the fight. It wasn’t. I heard the front door slam and that was the end of it. I cried myself sick that night, Veronique stayed to take care of me. She held me in her arms until I fell asleep. I woke up around midnight, when the cramps had gotten stronger. I managed to slip out of Ronnie’s grasp and hobble to the bathroom. I don’t think I’d ever screamed so much in my life. I screamed until I’d become hoarse. Ronnie called the paramedics and by the time I’d gotten to the hospital, I was distraught to hear that the stress of this pregnancy actually caused me to miscarry our baby. I didn’t care to say much of anything to anybody after that. Ronnie’s husband, Armand, took us to an all night pharmacy to get the medication the doctor on call prescribed to remove anything that hadn’t been expelled with the miscarriage. After that, they took me home. Ronnie stayed with me. She held my hand the entire time, never leaving my side. She took care of me and made sure I was okay, filling shoes I’d always imagined be Frank’s. 124 125 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Alright, Big Girl, we’re home. Can you make it to bed on your own? I’m gonna make you some tea.” I nodded at her as she helped me down the few stairs that led into the living space. She watched me shuffle off to my room. I didn’t bother to ask her about Frank, although I knew she called him more than a dozen times with no response. When I entered my room, I was shocked to find him sitting on the edge of the bed, holding a teddy bear. I tried my hardest to keep my composure. “I’m sorry I didn’t answer. I needed to think.” I wouldn’t speak to him. I took off my sweater and gently stepped out of my shoes in preparation to get in bed and spend the next few days in mourning. Frank gently took my hand and I snatched it away. He started to fidget around with the teddy bear. “I got this for our baby.” He handed me the bear and I began to cry uncontrollably before flinging it across the room. I crawled into bed and pulled the covers up around me. I didn’t want any reminders of the child I’d briefly loved and lost. “Dammit, Vivie! I’m sorry, okay?” “Frank, what the hell are you doing here?” Ronnie came into the bedroom, concerned after hearing him raise his voice. “I came to talk to my woman,” he answered. 125 126 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Come here!” She grabbed him by the arm and pulled him over to a corner. She broke the news of the miscarriage and I heard the hurt in his voice. She opened the bathroom door and showed him the trail of blood; I heard his heart break. I thought he would be happy, but the bond that we have let me know that he was hurting, too. I felt his weight on the bed as he crawled over to me. “Oh my God, Baby Bunny; I’m so sorry. I’m sorry you had to endure that. I’m sorry you had to endure that without me. I’m sorry, Baby. I’m sorry.” Frank put his arms around me and kissed me on the cheek repetitively. I knew he was sincere. He held me protectively and I felt safe in his arms again. I just wanted to lie there with him and mourn the loss of our baby. “Baby Girl, that tea’s almost ready, okay? Frank, you want some tea?” I felt him nod against me as he buried his face in my hair. I was so thankful that I didn’t have to deal with the loss alone. My sister and my love were there with me, and for that, I was grateful. “Okay, I’ll have that tea out soon. Then, I’m gonna scrub the bathroom. You two should just rest.” Ronnie kissed me on the forehead and stroked my hair before patting Frank on the hand. “I’m sorry, Little One. Daddy let you down.” Frank kissed the back of my hand before resting his hand on my stomach. 126 127 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ A week passed before I could really open up to Frank about everything I felt. He couldn’t stop apologizing for all the stress he’d caused me and for allowing me to stress myself out over how he would react. He felt awful about suggesting that we abort our child, and finding out that I’d miscarried made him feel even worse. One day, I walked into my bathroom and noticed a spot of blood on the floor near the toilet. It was such a tiny spec, but it felt like a large blemish. I sat on the floor and scrubbed, but the harder I scrubbed, the larger it seemed, and the harder I cried. Frank pulled me out of the bathroom and out to the balcony for air. He brought out a bottle of wine and did his best to make me feel better. We decided that we had to let the miscarriage go; we were both mourning the baby’s loss and were incapable of hiding it. Frank and I sat on the balcony and wrote down everything that was bothering us. The next day, we bought three-dozen balloons, crammed them into Frank’s car, went down to the beach, and let them go. We tied our problems to the balloons and just watched them float away. The hardest ones to let go were Riley Erin Lattimore—what I would’ve named our little girl, and Andrew Michael Lattimore—what he would’ve named our little boy. It was a hard thing to deal with, but we managed to survive it and come out even stronger in the end. Frank and I were still haunted by the miscarriage. As badly as we wanted Grace and Ruby, when we found out we were pregnant with them, we 127 128 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ started to think the worse. After my doctor confirmed the pregnancy, she confined me to bed for three months. I spent three torturous months of lying on my back, urinating into a bedpan, and praying to God that our baby wouldn’t leave us. Thank God they survived the first trimester and we had a relatively easy pregnancy; we couldn’t help but feel the fear again when I spent the first three months of carrying Jordan and Christopher, vomiting violently. That was one of the hardest ordeals I’ve had to endure, but holding them in my arms after an unexpected C-Section made it all worth it. I knew in the back of my mind that I was pregnant, but I didn't want to jinx our efforts. The man had been going nonstop on top of me every chance he could get and I didn't want to disappoint him and be wrong. I had, however, been getting these random bouts of queasiness that would keep me glued to the toilet for hours. One morning, during one of my vomiting fits, Frank was holding my hair back and wiping my face. “You know this has been going on for almost two weeks now.” “I know.” 128 129 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I figured that after week one, you'd make a doctor's appointment and get to the root of this thing, but I guess I have to step in and get that done for you.” “No, Honey Bunny, I'm fine.” “No you are not. Vivie, you've been running in here and throwing up almost every morning for two weeks. This is why we had to cut our honeymoon short. I was having a good time out in Italy.” He cleaned me up and put the lid down on the toilet seat before sitting on it. I crawled over between his legs and put my head down on his thigh. “I know you were and I'm sorry.” “You think you're pregnant?” “I don't know...possibly.” Frank ran his fingers through my hair and let out a big sigh. “Baby, look…I don't have to be back at work until tomorrow, so I'll try and get you a doctor's appointment soon. I'll go with you, but in the meantime, let's go down to the drug store and get you one of those pee-on-the-stick tests.” “Frankie, I don't feel like going out for anything...can’t we just wait until I can get a doctor's appointment?” “Vivie, I'd feel a lot better about leaving you home alone if I knew what was going on with you now. 129 130 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ I'm gonna put on some clothes and go get you an early detection test and some other things for your stomach. I'll put you back to bed and we'll spend the rest of the day together uninterrupted.” “I'm not going to argue with you, Honey.” We came up positive on the home test and the test given by the doctor. Frank was so proud; I can’t even explain it. Tres and Julez took it rather well—a lot better than they took the news of our engagement. I guess that was because they were prepared beforehand of the possibility of having a new brother or sister. Nadi was just overjoyed to be a big sister! She hoped for a little sister to dress up and adore. Twelve weeks into my pregnancy, we had to go to Memphis for Thanksgiving. Frankie wanted to spend our first holiday together as husband and wife with his family because he hadn’t been home in months. Since we’d gotten married and found out about the baby, Tres had been dying to come home and be with his mama. He was still becoming adjusted to the new family situation and it wasn’t my place to force anything on him. I just let his father take care of things and if he needed or asked for my assistance, then I stepped up and stepped in. I always enjoyed our visits to Memphis because Frankie had such a close knit and casual family; they were polar opposites of my family in New York. Frankie’s older brother Sterling is a cardiologist who was on his second 130 131 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ marriage and his eighth child. He and his first wife Marian had been together since they were fifteen, got married at eighteen, and divorced at thirty-eight. They had six children together—four boys and two girls. He met his second wife, Kandis, on a ski trip in Aspen. He was forty-one and she was twenty-seven. “I hope we catch my brother at home. He said he’s got the day off and he doesn’t get many of those. Knowing him, he’s gonna make a beeline for the golf course. You nervous?” “A little.” “Don’t be, Viv. Damn, this is just like last night when we met Nadi, isn’t it?” “In a way, yes it is. Honey, I hope your brother likes me. I know how much his opinion means to you.” “His opinion means a lot, yes, but I’m a grown man and I make all my own decisions whether Big Brother Sterling agrees with them or not. Baby, Sterling’s a lot like me; everything will be okay. He’s got a wife a few years older than you and a precious little girl running around that house.” “This is his second wife, right?” “Second wife, seventh baby. You’ll be okay. You want a good luck kiss?” 131 132 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Of course I do.” Frank parked the car in his brother’s driveway and leaned over to kiss me. “Hey! Y’all could’ve stayed home and did all that!” Sterling’s knock on the window interrupted our kiss. Frank smiled from ear to ear when he saw his brother—I’d never in my life witnessed a brotherly bond as tight as the Lattimore Brothers’ bond. It’s a thing that spans generations. Frank could hardly contain himself as he got out of the car to hug him. “Hey, Bubba!” Sterling is Bubba. Apparently in the South, brothers were referred to as “bubba.” That was one southern tradition that we left in Memphis. My sons are brothers and not “bubbas.” “Damn, Chill, look at you! You look good, man.” “Well, you know, I got this pretty young thing keeping me right.” “I can see that. You gon help your lady out the car or what?” “She’s a little nervous, so you take it easy on her.” He came around, opened my door, and helped me from the car. “Baby, this is my big brother, Dr. Chauncey Sterling Lattimore—you just call him Sterling. Bubba, this is my glamazon, Miss Vivien-Leigh.” 132 133 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Well, Miss Vivien-Leigh, it sure is a pleasure to finally meet you. Definitely six feet of fine.” Sterling was just as charming as his brother, and had the same affinity for velour jogging suits and Michael Jordan apparel. “Isn’t that what I told you?” “Thank you. It’s a pleasure to meet you as well, Sterling. Frank just speaks so highly of you.” “Baby, don’t you make his head any bigger than it already is, now.” “Don’t you mind him at all, Miss Vivien-Leigh. How about we go on inside and I introduce you to my wife and my wiry little girl?” “I would appreciate that. Thank you, Sterling.” “It’s my pleasure.” Sterling offered his arm and escorted me inside as Frankie trailed behind, muttering under his breath. “Did this negro just walk away with my woman? Ain’t that bout a bitch?” “Chill, there’s a lady present!” “I know it! My lady!” “Miss Vivien-Leigh, you just have to excuse my little brother. He’s not living up to his nickname right now. You do know why we call him ‘Chill,’ don’t you?” 133 134 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Actually, no. I didn’t even know anyone called him that.” “Oh, well, you see, my little brother was always the coolest dude you’d ever meet. Nobody ever saw him sweat despite the fact that he never walked away from a challenge. You couldn’t break him…you just couldn’t. Even up on that bench he could quote the Constitution and every law in the state if challenged and did it with a smile and nary a bead of sweat. The man was always cool.” “Still am.” We were standing in the foyer of the house as Sterling and Frankie playfully bantered with each other. “Well, Sterling, I’d like to go on record as saying that I’ve seen your brother sweat. Many a time, actually.” “Is that so?” Sterling raised his eyebrows and Frank smiled mischievously. “That’s right. Every night for about an hour to an hour and a half, he sweats all over me.” The men enjoyed a laugh and I stood firm, wearing a smirk on my face. “Hell, you see all this? Turn around, Baby.” Frank spun me around in an effort to show off my positive and always enticing attributes. “That’s a toned and tight twenty-eight-year-old body; I’ve gotta work hard to keep all this satisfied.” 134 135 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You don’t have to work hard, Honey, but I like the fact that you do.” “That’s my baby.” “Frankie! It’s so good to see you!” Kandis made her way towards us. “Hey, Kandy! How are you?” “I’m great. Are you staying for dinner?” “Well that depends on what you’re making.” “Collards and fried chicken was your favorite, but I bet LA changed you.” “It’s still my favorite, but the lady here is allergic to poultry, so I couldn’t tell you the last time I had some good old down home fried chicken! Oh, Vivien-Leigh, this is Kandy. Kandy, this is Vivien-Leigh.” “It is very nice to meet you.” “Nice to meet you, too. Frankie talks about you a lot.” We shook hands and I could feel it in her handshake that she was sizing me up. I grew increasingly nervous, and nervous is something that I don’t do well. “Uncle Chill!” “Hey, Baby! VL, this is Maya.” As he reached down to pick up Maya, I kept forcing my smile and hiding my 135 136 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ nervousness. I waved at the baby and thought of an excuse to get outside. “Baby, I need to step outside and make a call.” “Who you callin’?” I cut my eyes at him and he backed off immediately. “I mean, are you okay?” “I’m fine, Honey. I just need to make a call.” “Ok, then.” I gave him a quick peck on the lips and exited the house as Sterling held the door for me. A weight fell from my shoulders when I got out into the fresh air alone. I opened the car door and set my purse in the passenger’s seat as I searched for my cigarette case. I smoked for five years when I did ballet. It kept me partially sane and kept me at a good performance weight. It wasn’t until I quit smoking the darn things that I got up to a healthy weight for a six-foot tall woman. I only kept cigarettes on me to remind me how filthy of a habit it was. They were little nicotine filled coffin nails, but at that time I really needed one to calm my nerves. I found my silver monogrammed case and the matching lighter and in no time I was sparked up and dragging away. I think I was nervous around his friends and family because they didn’t care about breeding and social standing and anything else that was normally important where I came from. They were all down to earth people 136 137 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ who were all very protective of themselves and those they loved. I love Frankie, but I just felt like they were looking for more from me. Maybe they were trying to figure out why we were together—what he saw in me. I took another drag and exhaled out into space. I didn’t need any more stress. “Now how did I figure this was what you were out here doing?” Frankie snuck up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. “Sorry, Honey. I know I’m not supposed to be smoking anymore, but I needed this one.” “Uh huh. Pass that back this way.” I held up the cigarette and he took a long drag before taking it from my fingers. He used to be a smoker nearly 20 years ago. He has moments, like I do, where you just need one. “So what’s got you out here?” “Nerves. I just feel like none of your friends or family feel like I’m good enough for you—except Sterling. I know we share a vast age difference, but we’re right for each other. They don’t see that.” I took the cigarette back and took another drag, this time releasing the smoke through my nose. I scratched my head and thought on it some more. “Now, tell me something. Who’s in this relationship?” “We are.” 137 138 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “The two people out here who aren’t supposed to be smoking and nobody else. What we’ve got going on is between us and it doesn’t make one lick of difference who disagrees with what we’ve got. Jean just got on you yesterday cause you got what she could never have.” His friend Jean verbally attacked everything she could about me because she was jealous that he said that with me, he was happy and didn’t feel the need to look anymore. She revealed that she felt he needed to be with her—a woman with experience and his own age. Frankie politely declined and she snapped on me, causing his reflexes of protecting me to kick in. They are no longer friends. “I know…” “You worried about getting between me and my people?” “Something like that.” He took another drag and handed the cigarette back to me. Frankie stood in front of me and put both hands on my hips, holding me still. I took a few drags without bothering to look up at him. “How about tonight instead of eating dinner with Bubba and Kandy, I take you someplace special?” “That would be nice.” I put one arm around his neck and held the cigarette between my fingers as I dragged on. “Look-a-here; you ain’t never gotta worry about ruining anything I got happening. I chose you and I love you and 138 139 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ that’s all that matters. They care about me, but I care about you. They’ve just gotta get used to caring about you, too. I know you’re a good woman and that’s all that matters.” “That’s about the most country thing I’ve ever heard you say. Being home does something to you, doesn’t it?” Frankie and I shared a laugh before he took another turn on the cigarette. “Sure does.” “Baby, make that your last drag, please. You’re far too fine to be smoking.” “I was about to tell you the same thing, VL.” He passed it back and I took the absolute last drag before flicking the cigarette across the driveway. “Baby, you know you’re my lucky charm, right?” “That’s what you say.” “You know your man doesn’t lie. I’m about to go on and get in this golf game with my brother and the boys and I need you to lay a little of that voodoo on me before I go.” “You’re leaving me?” “It’s only for a little while, you know I gotta figure out something to do with my daughter—you wanna come?” 139 140 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “No. No, go on and spend time with your brother. I know this doesn’t happen often and he hardly gets any free time. Go ahead and go.” “You sure?” “Yes, Honey, I’m sure.” “So you gon come home and help me get changed or you wanna stay here with Kandy? I’d like for her to get to know you, but then again, I need you and all that luck.” “How do I make you lucky?” At this point he’d moved his hands down to my backside and had begun rubbing in his firm and gentle manner. “You know, I get you up there on top of me, hips start working, hands become intertwined and pinned to the mattress, and those pretty round brown titties start bouncing and I go into a trance. You work some kind of magic on me and by the time we’re done, the rest of my day is just perfect. Nothing ever goes wrong after my baby lays that voodoo on me.” “Ooh, I love a man who knows how to paint a picture with words. You just make it sound so erotically poetic and I love when you do that. You can talk me into and out of anything.” “Your man was a damn fine attorney; I could talk a jury into anything.” 140 141 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I bet you could.” “So, you gonna come on home with me and get me changed?” “You know I am.” “You teeing off with me today, Chill, or what?” Sterling stopped us before our lips could meet. He was holding Maya on his hip as he packed his clubs into the back of his Mercedes. “Tee time is in two hours and you know I like to get there at least a half hour early.” “Bubba, we’re in a gated community—the club is on the other side of this commune. We got plenty of time.” “Yeah, well I’m on surgeon time—not judge time—so get it moving!” “Surgeon time and judge time is the same—we set times we don’t always meet and the fate of the client is in our hands.” “Whatever. You teeing off or what?” “Yeah, we’re gonna go get changed right now.” Frankie patted by backside firmly and gave me a quick peck on the lips. “Uh huh. You live two blocks over, don’t let it take you two hours to get two blocks and dressed.” 141 142 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Don’t worry about that. Come on, Baby.” “I’m going to have so much fun getting you out of that tie and these suspenders.” “And I’m gon’ let you have all that fun all over that new mattress I just got, too.” We rushed over to the car and before Frank could get the door closed behind me, Sterling and Maya had distracted him with their pointing and whispering. “What you two over there gossiping about?” “Pooh said Miss Vivien-Leigh was pretty and I told her she was right and that the pretty lady with Uncle Chill is gonna be her auntie pretty soon.” “You gotta give Uncle Chill some time on that one, Pooh. But, uh, who knows? You just might be right…some years from now.” Frankie got in the car and as soon as he got the car in the correct gears, he put his hand up my skirt. When we got those two blocks over to his house, we began our casual, lust filled routine. We kissed hard and passionately in the foyer before he smiled to himself and stared down in my cleavage for a few minutes. “Baby, how bout you go on up and get my clothes out for this afternoon?” “Okay, Honey.” 142 143 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I’m gonna get something to drink. You want something?” “A glass of wine would be nice.” “Damn sure would. Red or white?” “White. I just got my teeth cleaned.” “Yes. Well, I’ll be up behind you in a minute.” “You must mean upstairs because you’re already up, Honey.” I rested my hand on his erection and he smiled even harder. He enjoyed my forwardness. “Fresh, aren’t we?” “Just a little.” “I see. Well, you know I’m up, but how ‘bout you give me a little more motivation?” “And how can I go about doing that?” Frank gently pulled on a few of my curls before letting his index finger trace my jaw line, down my neck, and over my cleavage before tapping the tip of his finger against my breast. “Let me watch you sashay up those stairs. I want to see those hips swinging from left to right. Can you do that for me, Sweetness?” He placed soft kisses along my jaw and tantalized me with his warm breath against my skin as he exhaled ever so slightly after each kiss. I nodded robotically before barely whispering my answer. 143 144 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I…I can do that.” “Thank you.” Frank lifted me straight up, spun me around, and set me back down on my feet. “Didn’t think your man could still do that, did you?” “You can do whatever you want, Daddy.” “You’d better damn well know it, too.” We kissed again before he smacked my butt and sent me on my way upstairs. As I sauntered away, per his request, he stood back and enjoyed the view. I glanced back at him before I reached the top and he was still standing there, biting his bottom lip. “I’m gon’ be right up with that drink, VL.” “I’ll be waiting, Honey.” Waiting for Frankie to join me upstairs, I went through his closet looking for something to dress him in. My man is a sharp dresser—color coordination and little details are important to him. His suspenders are mostly solid colored, but on the occasions that he wears printed ones, they have to match his tie and his pocket square. His shirtsleeves don’t button, he still believes in the art of cufflinks and having his initials monogrammed right near the edge of his sleeves. He doesn’t mind color in his shirts, but he stays in a range of soft blues, lavenders, yellows, and pale greens—pinks are not allowed. Pinks are okay in ties, pocket squares, and suspenders, but not for his shirts. 144 145 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You doin alright in here? Here you go.” He kissed me gently on the neck before handing me a glass of wine. “Of course I am. Thank you. You know that I’m right at home in a closet full of clothes.” “Yes, I know. What have you found?” “I just put together a pair of your khakis and a pink Polo golf shirt—” “A pink what? You must be color blind, Baby, cause ain’t not a pink shirt in here.” “I know, Honey, I was just pushing your buttons. White Polo golf shirt, tan and white golf shoes, this white straw hat and I pulled out some fresh underclothes for you right here.” “You know how to do your man justice. What about a belt?” “Brown leather belt with the gold buckle and even your argyle socks.” “Good girl. You keep your bases covered—you tryna get me to put a ring on you?” “It’s a nice thought, isn’t it?” “Key word there: thought. Come on now, help me get undressed.” 145 146 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Okay…okay. I know you’ve got some business you need to take care of, I’ll hurry.” I gently brushed up against his crotch to see if his erection was still there. It didn’t take long for him to catch on to my ploy. “Oh, it’s still there just waiting on you. You get these clothes off and you can get it any way you want it.” “Is that so?” He stood strong in front of me, raising an eyebrow slightly. We always play on our obvious sexual tension—something that’s been apparent since the first time we met. The way we tend to gaze at each other like we’re seconds away from tearing each other’s clothes off...it leads to the most amazing love making sessions that two people could ever have. I was trying to build one of those moments. I slipped his suspenders from his shoulders and unbuckled his belt. I lingered around the button and zipper on his pants, running my finger along both, slightly stroking his erect penis, before going up to his tie and untying his thick Windsor knot. “You think you’re pretty slick, don’t you?” “I have my moments.” I put his tie around my neck before unbuttoning his shirt and rubbing his chest over his crewneck undershirt. We maintained eye contact as I continued to undress him—unscrewing his cufflinks and placing them on a watch tray on a shelf. I pulled off his shirt and tossed it on a lounging chair before going back to pull his undershirt from his pants and slide it up his muscular torso and tossing it next to his shirt. Frankie and I stood eye to eye, gazing at each other as I let my 146 147 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ fingers walk up his chest and across his shoulders. I took a lap around him, still walking my fingers across his shoulders, deciding what article of clothing to remove next. When we met eye to eye again, I quickly turned around and bent over in front of him; brushing my backside against his penis. He slightly jumped back in shock at what had just occurred. We’d been together for seven months and I was still finding ways to surprise him. “Honey, I can’t untie your shoes from all the way over there. Come back.” From between my legs I could see him holding his penis and slowly walking up to me. He grabbed me by the hips and pulled me back against his crotch and held me there. My first instinct after he’d showed me so much force was to grind against him seductively, but I refrained from doing the obvious. You have to keep a man guessing. I untied one shoe, and before I could get to the other, Frankie smacked me hard on the butt. It was his way of hurrying me along, but he knew that a smack like that would usually cause me to…well, become prime for penetration. “You can step out of your shoes now.” Between my legs, I watched him step out of his shoes and felt him grip my hips even tighter. He let me pull off his socks and as I tried to become vertical again, Frank held me down in his favorite sexual position. “Frankie!” 147 148 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Baby, you’re prime and I’m damn ready to go! You know this is the way I like to get you.” “Yes, Honey, but I’m still dressed and you’re not covered.” “Ain’t no thing for me to go get a condom real quick. Come on, Baby, just like this.” “No! You chose to wait until we got you undressed properly, so you have to wait. Now, let me up.” He slowly let me back up, wrapping his arm around my waist and holding me close. He kissed me hard on the cheek and I reveled in his love. “You know I could handle you just like this, don’t you?” “All too well, Frankie.” “Good. Now, hurry up. I’m about to bust and I still need to get those clothes off you.” He smacked me on the butt again before letting me loose. I turned around and grabbed the front of his pants, pulling him in to me close and tight. We gazed into each other’s eyes as I unbuttoned and unzipped his pants. I ran my hands over his erection before sliding both hands inside his boxers and pulling them down along with his pants. I crouched in front of him, helping him out of his pants and underwear; I came face to face with his beautiful erection. It took everything I had to not do the one useful thing my mother taught me—how to please a man orally. Details on that matter are far too uncomfortable to go into. Let’s just say that the skill I learned from Susan St. 148 149 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Croix-Valentine made me the first woman in history to make Charles Franklin Lattimore, Jr. go from sexy and seductive baritone to full-fledged falsetto. “What you gon do down there?” “Come back up and meet you here.” I stood up and casually tossed his pants and boxers over to the sitting chair. Again, we stared deep into each other’s eyes and stood nose to nose and lips inches apart—teasing the other with the promise of a passionate kiss. “Now what, Charles?” “Put this up for me. You know I don’t like being called that.” He handed me his watch and pinky rings and I put it on the watch tray with the others next to his cufflinks on a shelf. I loved to pluck at his strings in an effort to heighten the passion between us. “Yes, and so what? It is your legal name, is it not?” “It is.” “And is it or is it not the name that I will someday carry?” “I plead the fifth.” “I see.” “It’s not that I can’t see a future with you, but I just like to take these things slow. It’s only been seven months, 149 150 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ VL. I love you, but we need to see how long this can sustain.” “So, you don’t think you’ll be in love with me a year from now?” “I don’t know. I do know that I love you now and I want to be in love with you forever. A year from now I want to be in love with you and over being in lust with you. Right now, we’ve got a good thing going and I do love you and I also love the feeling of being inside you as often as you’ll let me. I’ve got Tres around all the time and now I’ve got a daughter that I’m just finding out about and you’re only twenty-eight. Do you want to be with an old twice-married man with kids? One in high school and two in elementary school, a teenage boy and an adolescent boy and girl—VL, that’s a lot to deal with. I’m gonna be back and forth between LA and Memphis for my babies all the time. You don’t have any kids and I don’t want you taking on the burden of being with me and dealing with mine when you don’t have to. I want you there, in my family, and able to deal with all the shit that may come with it. I need to know that I’ll be able to count on you and depend on you in a year from now. That’s why I need to take things slow with this relationship.” “Frankie, a year before I met you I was engaged and pregnant. I was preparing myself to be then, what you want me to be now. I will admit that at the time, I was immature and unprepared for what was going to be thrown my way, but I’m a different person now. A 150 151 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ tumble down the stairs and a miscarriage can put a lot of things in perspective for someone.” “It sure can. What were you doing wearing five inch heels to a basketball game, anyway?” I put my finger over his lips to hush him as I continued with my feelings. “Frank, Honey, back then I was only pregnant for the promise of marriage and I’m not in that mindset anymore. I want to be in a relationship with someone I love and love being with. I believe I have that with you. Since we’ve been together, I’ve not wanted to be with anyone else.” “I’ve not wanted anyone else, either.” “So, that’s why three months ago, you were still going out with other women? Making dates and taking calls at my condo?” “I stopped doing that, VL! I stopped. I don’t want that anymore. I like what we have going. I love you. And just so you know, I wasn’t making dates per se; I was arranging meetings to tell them that I wasn’t going to be available anymore because I’d found the woman I loved.” “I love you too and I want to be with you and I see us together ten, twenty, even thirty years from now. You don’t see the same.” 151 152 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I want to see the same, but I just haven’t been sure you do! I’m settled in my life. I don’t have to rip and run anymore! I want one special woman and I really think that woman is you, but you’re twenty-eight years old and I’m fifty. I want so badly to be with you but I’m a little worried about having my heart broken.” I was stunned. He gently patted my butt as I tried to gather my words. “I said it; are you happy?” “Why would I be happy? You think that I could hurt you and I can’t do that.” “Vivien-Leigh, you’re an intelligent woman and you got a body that just won’t quit. You’re sophisticated and refined and worldly and such a damn lady—and you’re only twenty-eight. What if someone younger comes along and that’s what you want? What if you decide that you don’t want this hard old man anymore?” “When did you start referring to yourself as old? You’re only fifty and you have the bearings and strength of a man half your age. I don’t know what you think I could possibly want with someone younger. Someone younger couldn’t do the things that you do to make me happy. Honey, I appreciate the little things—the classic things—that you do with me and for me.” “You mean that?” 152 153 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Of course I do, Frankie. You bring me fresh flowers every week because you think a woman’s house should have a fresh centerpiece somewhere. You still write love notes and I even like that you leave them on my face in the mornings before you leave for work. You stand when I enter a room. You never let me lift a finger when we go out and you aren’t afraid of public displays of affection. You hold my hand and kiss my shoulder and rub my knee and you kiss me passionately. I love the way you kiss me.” “I don’t mind doing those things with you and for you because I really do love you, Baby. And my daddy taught me to be a gentleman, so I wouldn’t be worth a damn if I didn’t do them.” “And I love the gentleman that Charles and Anna Maria raised. Honey, why can’t you look beyond our age difference? I really want this to work.” “I want it to work too, Baby. You’re at a stage in life where you can do so much and I don’t want you to look at me ten years from now and think that I held you back because I’m already settled in my life.” “Frankie, I am still learning and growing, but I want to learn and grow with you. I want you to be there when I do find or figure out what to do with all my free time. I guess you forgot we had that in common.” “You’re retired, and I’m still working. I may not be sitting on a bench, but I’m still working my ass off.” 153 154 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Three days a week.” “Still workin’ hard to keep you happy.” “You’re working hard to keep me happy?” “Damn right. I wouldn’t have been doin my job if I gave you less. Look here, I’m finna go with Bubba down to the club to play golf, so when you get up I want you to get washed up for our outing tonight. Okay?” “Okay, Honey.” “Good. Oh and when I mean get dressed, I don’t mean get all decked out. I love when you do that, but not for this place. No heels, no fur… nothing nice.” “What kind of place is this? If I can’t wear heels or anything nice—not even a fur—I don’t know if I want to go!” “Calm down, it’s just a down home place. Don’t put on a skirt or a dress and put on flats, but not sandals—we may have to run at some point in time.” “You’re scaring me.” “Don’t be scared. I put a little something together for you, and I know you won’t like it, but just keep that in mind. I don’t know if Kandy’ll call you and ask you to go somewhere with her, but I left you some money down on the table next to the keys by the front door. I’ll call you soon.” 154 155 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I love you.” “I love you, too. Now get back to sleep.” Frank kissed me on the forehead and left. I slept a bit more before getting up, showering, washing my hair, and debating on what to wear. He’d picked out my backup flight wear—a full on cat suit—but I thought about what he’d described to me earlier and I didn’t want to go to this terrible place and deal with the struggle of wearing a one-piece in a tiny bathroom. I picked a simple tank, leggings, cardigan, and ballet flats. I wanted to dress it up with jewelry, but again, with his description, I opted against it. My first day home alone in Memphis was an extremely colorful one. Frank’s alcoholic sister showed up and stole the money he’d left for me. He called me about three hours after he’d left to tell me that Lisa needed to go to work and thought it’d be a great idea to drop Nadi off with him and since he wasn’t home, that meant she had to stay with me. I got robbed and had to entertain a six year old all in the same day. Very interesting time. “Hello, Lisa. Hello, Miss Renada.” “Hello, Vivien-Leigh. Thank you for watching Nadi.” “It’s no problem at all.” I let them inside and watched as Lisa took off Renada’s coat, hat, and backpack. “Okay, Nadi Doll, I want you to be on your best behavior for your daddy’s friend, alright?” 155 156 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Okay, Mommy.” “Good girl. I love you.” “I love you, too.” They kissed and hugged and Lisa and I said our goodbyes before I was left alone with a small child. I had no idea what to do and neither did she. “Well, Miss Renada, is there anything that you would like? Are you hungry? I’m not a very good cook, but I can make you something.” “Um, can I have a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, please?” “Of course you can, Sugar. Let’s go see what your daddy’s got in the fridge.” I took her hand and led her to the kitchen where we looked in the fridge and found peach jam but no grape jelly. I picked her up and sat her on the counter and it just tore me up inside to see her sad little face. “Daddy has no jelly.” “No, but he has this jam; would you like that?” “I can’t eat that, Miss Vivie. Peaches make me itchy and puffy and I don’t know what jam is. I just like jelly.” “I will call your Aunt Kandy—she lives two blocks away—and ask if she has any jelly. She has a little girl, maybe she’ll have some.” I found Sterling’s house number on the fridge and called over to Kandy. She came right over with the jelly. I picked Nadi up from the 156 157 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ counter and carried her over to the door—I just didn’t like seeing her so sad. “Miss Renada, this is your Aunt Kandy.” “Are you my daddy’s sister?” “Oh, no, Baby, your daddy’s sister is…something else. I’m your Uncle Bubba’s wife and this is your little cousin, Maya.” “Wasn’t it awfully nice of Aunt Kandy to bring the jelly for your sandwich?” “Yes. Thank you.” “Oh, you’re perfectly welcome. Gosh, you look JUST like your daddy! Where did you get such pretty blue eyes? Your daddy doesn’t have blue eyes or freckles! Does your mommy have them?” “No, Ma’am. Mommy’s eyes are brown, but she has freckles. She says her grandma had blue eyes just like mine.” “They’re just so pretty.” “Thank you.” “Aww, and you’re missing your two front teeth! Look at that—Honey, do you know what color your hair is?” “My mommy says it’s red and brown.” 157 158 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “My goodness, you couldn’t be any more adorable!” “Thank you.” “Miss Nadi, I have to talk to Aunt Kandy about something. Can you make your sandwich all by yourself?” “I can do it.” “Okay, well, I’m going to take you back to the kitchen and put out everything you’ll need.” I carried her back to the kitchen and sat her on the counter before pulling down the bread and peanut butter and a butter knife. I slipped back out into the foyer to talk to Kandy. “Has security brought your money back yet?” “No, I’m still waiting on them.” “I’m sorry Charlie stole from you—that woman just refuses to get it together. We normally deny her entry when the guards at the gate call and let us know she’s there, but I had some clothes and things to give her. I had no idea she’d stop over here. I don’t even know how she knew Chill was in town.” “Well, I didn’t know that she wasn’t allowed in the community. I just happened to answer the door and she said she was his sister. I know that they aren’t necessarily on good terms and now I see why.” “So what did she do? Just snatch the money and run?” 158 159 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “It was on the table right there by the door and I was going to put it away, but I got distracted when she rang the bell. She talked herself into a frenzy and I was trying to calm her down. She asked for a glass of water and by the time I came back from the kitchen with the glass, she was gone. The front door was wide open. I remembered about the money at that moment and it was gone, too.” “How much was it?” “Knowing Frank, it had to be six or seven hundred. I called the guards at the gate and she was pulling up right as I’d called them. They said they’d bring the money back as soon as possible. It’s been nearly forty-five minutes.” “She must be putting up a big fight, but they’ll get it to you. This community has the best security in all of Memphis. You usually have to be on an entrance list to even visit the residents here.” “If she needed the money all she had to do was ask—” “Don’t tell her that; she’ll try to suck you dry. She takes that money and funds her habit of whatever she’s on that day. You’ve got to say no to her and mean it.” Kandy and I finished our talk and the security guards finally returned my money. Charlene did put up quite a fuss about it, but she’d just given them the money and they let her leave. Renada and I spent our time watching cartoons, coloring, and reading books. Frank called every hour on the hour to check on us—I told him about 159 160 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ his sister and he was furious. He said he’d deal with it and not to worry—she’d never bother me again. By the time Frank had gotten home from golfing, Renada and I were passed out on the couch. “Hello, Darlin.’” “Hey, Honey, how was golf?” “I had a good time, even though my brother cheats. How was my little angel? She wasn’t too much trouble was she?” Frank stroked her face gently as she slept on top of me. “No, she was perfect. She made peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, but we had to call Kandy for jelly.” “There’s jelly in the fridge.” “That’s peach jam and she says peaches make her itchy and puffy and she doesn’t know what jam is. She just likes jelly.” He chuckled to himself after realizing how picky his little girl was. “…That’s right. Lisa told me that she’s allergic to peaches. I meant to tell you.” “She made us sandwiches, we watched cartoons, colored, and the last thing I remember is her crawling on top of me and wanting to read me a few stories.” “I can see that—looks like y’all went through a whole stack of ‘em.” 160 161 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Yep!” “Well, I’m gonna take my little girl and put her in our bed—did you change the sheets?” “I did. I’ve never been alone with a small child before…it’s a lot of work.” “Don’t I know it, but I think you did a good job.” “Frank kissed me on the lips as he lifted his angelic little girl from my chest. She slept so peacefully, and as I watched, I began to want a little girl of my own. “Frank, Honey, you should’ve seen her eating those sandwiches without her two front teeth. Ugh, just adorable!” “She’s my baby, everything she does is adorable. VL, I’m gon lay down and take a nap. You wanna lay down or what?” “I’m going to finish my nap and appreciate the space to move around in.” “You sleep like a small child—just all over the bed, legs and arms and hair everywhere. I guess I’ll keep my baby on my chest so you don’t roll over on her.” “I’m not that bad!” I smacked him on the arm before grabbing a blanket to cover us all with. “And you snore, VL.” 161 162 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You snore, too!” “I’m a man!” “Well, I guess that’s why we fit together so well—we snore together.” “That’s not the only way we fit well together, either. You know what? Don’t think I forgot, but when we get in tonight from where we’re going, I’m gonna…” He flickered his tongue at me, to assure me that he’d give me the oral satisfaction that I loved and he loved giving. We crawled into bed and got comfortable. “And I can’t wait.” “I’m gon do you good, too.” “You always do.” “Damn right.” We kissed on the lips and instead of letting me sleep freely, he pulled me up close to him and held me tight with his arm. I do sleep terribly and I don’t blame him for holding me still night after night. When he doesn’t hold me still, I’m literally everywhere—I’ve found myself being awaken by him picking me up from the floor a few times. “Daddy? Daaaaadddddyyyyy…” “Huh? What? What’s the matter?” “Hi.” 162 163 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Hi, Baby. You okay?” “Yes, Sir.” She laid on top of him, running her fingers across his face. I swear, it was the cutest thing. He stroked her back with one hand and tried to move her hair away from his face. “Daddy, do I have a room at your house?” “Of course you do. You have a room here and a room at my house in California and you can fix it up any way you want it. Big brother Tres has a room, older brother Blue has a room, and baby girl Nadi has a room.” “And Daddy has a room!” “That’s right.” “Does Miss Vivie have a room, Daddy?” “Well, this is Miss Vivie’s room.” “But this is your room, Daddy.” “Yes it is, but I share it with Miss Vivie.” “Where does she sleep?” “Right where she’s sleep now.” He pulled his arm from underneath me and smacked my butt hard. I elbowed him in his side and rolled over to watch their interaction more closely. “You have to share a bed with Miss Vivie?” 163 164 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I like sharing a bed with Miss Vivie. Daddy doesn’t like sleeping alone very much, Baby.” “I can sleep with you if you are scared, Daddy.” “Thank you, Baby Girl, but you can’t make a habit of sleeping with Daddy. Sometimes if you want to sleep between me and Miss Vivie, that’s okay, but you can’t sleep with Daddy all the time.” “Why not?” “Because you’re a little girl and Daddy’s a man and it’s not always right.” “Why?” “You don’t know what makes you different from little boys?” Frank was stunned as she shook her head. “Hair?” “Sometimes girls and boys have different hair, but that’s not all.” “Frank, she’s just a little girl.” “I know she is, but she won’t be forever and I don’t want her to end up with one of these inside of her, talkin about she didn’t know any better cause he just wanted her to see what it looked like.” “What does what looks like?” 164 165 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Baby Girl, I think your daddy will have to explain that to you when you get a little bit older.” “Older like when, Miss Vivie?” I sat up and took her little face in my hands and pressed my forehead against hers. “Older like when you get your two front teeth back!” I kissed her on the nose and she giggled uncontrollably. “Honey, I’m gonna get freshened up.” “Alright, Baby.” I leaned in to kiss him on the lips and Renada lay on his chest, smiling her toothless smile. I ventured to the bathroom, but I made sure to sneak peeks and listen in on their conversation. You could see how much my man loved his baby. She lay on his chest, pulling at her curls as he rubbed her back and clung to her every word. “Daddy, who is that lady?” “This lady?” Frank reached over to grab the picture from his nightstand. He held it for a moment, staring at it longingly, before turning it around for her to see. “This is my mama. This is your grandmamma, Anna Maria Lattimore.” “I know her.” “You know her?” I continued to brush my teeth, but leaned back to actually see this interaction. 165 166 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Yes Sir. Mommy used to take me to her house. She was nice to me. I don’t know where she is now.” Frank looked over at me and I stared at him. We were both in shock. His mother passed away three years before. She wouldn’t have been old enough to remember her and if she had actually met his mother, why didn’t his mother tell him that he had a daughter? “Baby Girl, my mama passed away when you were about three…how could you remember her?” “I remember her here.” She patted her chest, right over her heart. It nearly tore Frank apart. He pulled Nadi further up on his chest and held her tightly. He kissed her on the head before putting his arm over his eyes to shield his pain. I quickly rinsed and ran out to get in bed and cuddle with him. I kissed his face and he slowly let me in. His eyes were red. “She told me that I was pretty and that she loved me always, no matter what. Last time I saw her, she was sleep in a box in this big room with lots of people. I asked Mommy why and she said it was because she was going to a special place that was better and far away where she would be happy again. Is that true, Daddy? Is that where she went?” “Yeah, Baby Girl, that’s where she went.” “Oh.” This little girl was loved and accepted by his mother and was even in his presence, but was held from him for so 166 167 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ many years. He was torn up inside all over again. Maybe Anna Maria didn’t tell him in order to protect him. To protect his heart, his family situation, and his career— there were so many questions that could be asked, but we’d never get an answer as to why. With him feeling the way he did, I knew he’d be drinking that night to ease his pain and wanting to forget it all with an orgasm. I was ready to help him feel better any way I could. That night, we took Nadi home, went to an oldfashioned hole in the wall where I broke some sort of catfish and white bread eating record. We drank, we danced to the blues, and enjoyed ourselves. Frank and I danced as close to and as hard as we could against each other. After we left that frighteningly dirty, yet delightfully fun place, we stopped for more beer, picked Renada up, and went home. We put her back to bed, went to the bedroom and got intimate. Frank drank some more and unloaded on me. He talked about his mother and how he was angry, but she had to have done it because she loved him and wanted to protect him. He drank some more before pulling me onto his face and giving me much appreciated oral gratification. We ended the night with hard and well-deserved orgasms. It was heartbreaking to have to watch him torture himself with his thoughts, but I knew he needed to get that all out of his system. My first trip to Memphis was indeed a memorable one, but for the first few years we were together, I always had it in the back of my mind that this whole city probably 167 168 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ knew he had this child and never bothered to tell him. It was like he was being mocked and ridiculed behind his back and it made me angry. I grew to love spending time in Memphis, but it was hard to get the bitter taste of disdain for catty southern gossipers out of my mouth. 168 169 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ For this particular trip, Frank and I drove all the way from Los Angeles to Memphis—it was not a fun ride. I was abnormally big for twelve weeks of pregnancy and grew crankier as the days passed. I tried to sleep for most of the ride, but I was highly restless. Before going to dinner, we stopped and picked up Nadi so she could enjoy a holiday with her brothers. We arrived at Sylvia's house an hour before her proposed dinner time and I felt really odd about it because she didn't want me to bring anything and I hate to come empty handed. I had Frank get her a bottle of wine. Even if I wasn't able to drink it, it was a nice gesture. “Happy Thanksgiving!” “Well, if it isn’t my ex-husband, his third wife, and his outside baby.” Frank pulled Nadi close to him and held her tight. I knew she was hurt by Sylvia’s bluntness, so I just ran my fingers through her curls and kissed her head as her daddy held her. I took her hand and held it tight. Sylvia got on my nerves, too. “Sylvia, you can say anything in the world you want about me, but you’d better watch what you say to my wife and my daughter.” “Uh huh. Wait, I don't want that dog in here.” “Ettie's just a baby, she's fine.” 169 170 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Maybe you should put a diaper on that baby because there will be no dog mess in my house.” “Sylvia, I just walked the baby when we stopped in Arkansas. She won’t have to go again until after dinner some time.” “Fine. I just don't understand how some people can baby a dog so much. I sure hope you know you ain't having puppies...unless Franklin's gone back to his old dog ways.” “Syl, please. We just got here from a long ride over the past few days and my wife is pregnant and tired; can we have one peaceful holiday? Damn.” “It's okay, Frankie. Sylvia, I'll make sure she's good. If Etienne does anything, I'll clean it up. I'm her mama; I'm responsible for what she does, alright?” “Fine then.” “Syl, Vivie's got it; you can lose the attitude.” “Don't tell me what I can and cannot do in my own home.” “Hey...guys, it's alright, let's drop it. Sylvia, is there anything I can do to help?” “Stay out of my kitchen. Dinner will be done in an hour.” 170 171 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Frank, Nadi, and I walked into the den and I continued to hope that things would go a lot smoother than they'd gotten off to. The boys were in the den with other relatives watching a football game, and all I could do from that point was think about sleep. They introduced Nadi and me to the rest of their family as Frank helped me sit down on the couch. “Frankie, Honey, I'm tired and my back hurts.” “You wanna go in a room and lie down?” “No, Daddy. I wanna stay here with you.” “Vivie, the game's on, Baby.” “I know and I don't want to take you away from your game, Honey. I just want to lay on you and take a nap.” “Alright, Baby, go on and get yourself comfortable and Princess Nadi and I will keep an eye on Miss Ettie, here. Right, Baby Girl?” “Right, Daddy.” “Thank you, Frankie. Nadi, Baby Girl, you are amazing.” As I napped, I dreamed about my baby. I dreamed that I was holding two babies—both carbon copies of each other. Although the babies looked just alike, one was red and the other was pink and they screamed in my arms. I tried to comfort them as much as possible, and before I knew it, they looked like little 171 172 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ combinations of Frank and me. Their crying morphed into them screaming, “Mama!” over and over, and I called them by their names as I comforted them. The red baby was Ruby and the pink baby was Claire, and I started to understand why I was as big as I was so early on even though the ultrasounds only showed one baby. “Hey, Baby...it's time for dinner. Wake up, Darlin.’” “Frankie?” “I'm right here, Baby.” “Where's Nadi and Ettie?” “Nadi’s with her brothers and Ettie slept right on your lap while you napped. I just put her down on the floor. You okay? You kept tossing in your sleep.” “Frankie, I had a dream about the baby.” “You did? Was it good or bad?” Frank helped me up off the couch and slowly escorted me to the dining room. “I dreamed that there are two babies in here and they're both girls.” “Twins? Really? We only see one baby every time we go to the doctor, Vivie. Do you really believe you’re having twins?” 172 173 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Baby, I know we only see one baby, but I know we’re having twins; the pink one's Claire and the red one's Ruby.” “Vivien-Leigh Lattimore, what did you eat on the way over here?” “I know you think that I'm crazy, but I'm telling you, we're having twins. I bet you didn’t know that twins run in my family.” “No, I didn’t know that. Vivie, you picked a fine time to drop that bomb on me.” “Are you upset with me?” “Of course not, Darlin,’ I just would’ve liked to know the odds of what I put in there beforehand. I banked on a return of one when I made that deposit. I never thought my return would be doubled.” “Oh, Honey, how classy. My mother was a twin and most of her siblings are twins. It skips a generation. I never thought I’d have twins, but then again, I never thought I’d ever have a successful pregnancy. After Clark’s kids were all born as singles, I just started to get this feeling. It’s twins, Frankie.” “Uh, huh. I still say that whatever junk you ate on that long ride here has you thinkin’ like this.” We walked into the dining room where everyone was already seated and ready to eat. 173 174 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “It's about time.” Even Sylvia’s terrible attitude couldn’t shake the good mood I was in at that time. “I just woke Bunny up from her nap.” “Wife number three...the one that just had to be better than the first two. Guess you felt the need to upgrade, huh, Frank?” “Syl, did you take your meds today? Don’t start this.” “That's not for you to worry about. Look at her, just had to outdo the first two. I had more in the back than the second one and the second one had more up top than I did, but he finds a way to get a third one that's got both areas covered.” “Mama, don't do this...can’t we just eat in peace?” Julez practically begged his mother to stop, but typical Sylvia never knew when to stop. I tried never to let it get to me because of her illness, but she could get pretty nasty. “So I guess you gotta upgrade on heights, too, huh? Three inches on each woman—I'm 5'6'', the second one was 5'9'', and that one's 6'0”. You always did have a thing for Amazons, didn't you?” “Come on, Mama, stop. Blue's upset and Viv didn't do anything.” “Mama, please!” 174 175 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Syl, our boys are asking you to stop!” “Our boys, and yet, you find a way to outdo that as well. I give you two boys, like you want, and up pops this little girl—” “I’m not going to tell you again; don’t you say a thing about my daughter. I understand you’ve got a lot to deal with, but don’t you dare take that out on my daughter who has absolutely nothing to do with you.” I stood behind Nadi’s chair with my hands on her shoulders, kissing her head, and telling her not to let Sylvia bother her. “And then the third wife finds a way to give you twin girls.” “Oh, you just heard her say that in the hallway.” “I didn't have to hear her say anything! I knew I was having boys from the minute I started to show. You can just look at her and tell—ain't nobody that pregnant in the first few weeks and she's carrying all her weight up top. Those are girls and you're in for something serious, having kids at your age.” “I only came here because Julez and Tres wanted to spend Thanksgiving with their entire family. As much as it's killing you to know, Sylvia, Renada and I are now a part of their family. If you don't want us here, that’s fine. I have no problem with leaving. Frankie, give me the keys; I'll take Nadi and Ettie and 175 176 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ we will find our way home. We shouldn’t have to deal with this.” “Bunny, I'm not letting you or Nadi go anywhere. Especially, not in a city you’re still learning the ropes about and pregnant with my child.” “No, Frankie, I don't want to be in the midst of any family drama. I can’t take it—I'm sorry, Julez and Tres. Boys, I'm so sorry about this whole situation. I know you just wanted to have a big family meal and we're ruining it.” “It's okay, Viv. I just want this to be done so we can just eat like a real family.” Tres tried to comfort his visibly upset brother and I was just ashamed of myself for reacting the way that I did. I try to conduct myself with the class and grace that I was raised with, but Sylvia had a way of bringing out my undesirable side. “No, Sweetheart, it's not OK. I just feel so bad about this entire thing.” My hormones were crazy, and all I could do was stand there and cry. Frank tried his best to comfort me and calm me down, but his efforts were to no avail. “Dammit, Syl, why do you do this? You did this with Angela and now you're just picking on Vivie because you feel some sort of entitlement.” “Look, boys, Mama's sorry. You know that this time of the year is a little difficult for me. There is a part of me that can’t necessarily get over your father. Even 176 177 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ the medication can’t ease that pain of having been with someone so long and having lost them.” “Syl, we tried, but we grew apart. I don't want to fight with you, baby, I want to help you as much as possible. You just have to understand that I have moved on and I'm happy. I want the same for you.” “I know and I'm sorry. Viv, I'm sorry. Little girl—” “Syl, my daughter’s name is Renada.” “Renada, I’m sorry.” Renada remained silent. “It's alright, Sylvia.” I kissed Nadi again and Frank rubbed my back in an effort to alleviate some of the newly formed tension. “No, Vivien-Leigh, I mean it. I don't have anything against you; I just have to deal with things going on with myself.” “I understand.” I quickly changed the subject. “So, you really think I'm having twins? I just had this dream...” Dinner went as well as expected for a newly combined family. It was just a little cementing to me when Sylvia confirmed her thoughts about my having twin girls. She said it was an old Southern thing; women could just tell by looking at a pregnant woman and 177 178 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ determine the sex of her baby and even if the egg had split. Sylvia had even warmed up to Etienne, but she couldn't understand how a person could treat a dog so much like a child. She let me feed Ettie, but just not from the table. She hadn't warmed up that much. “FRANK! FFFRRRAAANNNKKKIIIEEEE!” I was a bit disappointed when Tres came responding to my call. I wanted his daddy and I had this boy come sprinting in the room like somebody died. “What's up, Viv?” “Oh, Baby, I was calling your daddy. I wanted him to help me change my shoes so I can take Ettie for her walk.” “I can help you.” “Are you sure? I just wanted him because he knocked me up, the least he can do is change my shoes.” “It's cool, I'll do it.” “Thank you, Sweetheart.” “Give me your feet.” Tres took a seat down on the floor in front of me and helped me change from my trusty pumps and into the stylish new tennis shoes Frank bought me. As he tied my shoes, I couldn’t help but admire how much he reminded me of his father. “You are a godsend. You know, you're so much like your father? Tres, you're an excellent young man 178 179 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ and I know you're going to be a good big brother to my girls.” “Thank you. You already know what you're having?” “It's just a feeling that I have, Honey. I had a dream about it, and your mama said she could see it...” “Okay, so you know my mama's not all there, right? Don't get me wrong, I love her more than anything and I won’t let nobody say nothing bad about her, but she's got some serious issues and you can’t always take everything she says seriously.” “I know, but I know she's right. Honey, even if your mama may have mental issues, she's still a woman and a mother and she has the type of insight that no man can deny or necessarily understand. She's right about this.” Tres finished tying my sneakers and put my feet down. He looked at my belly for a while before rubbing it. “Twin sisters, huh?” “Uh huh. Keep rubbing, Sweetie, I want them to know that you're their big brother and you're gonna protect them when their daddy can’t.” “That's right, I'm your big brother Tres and I’m gonna be whopping some major butt when you need me to. My baby sisters will be well taken care of, believe me.” 179 180 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “What's going on in here?” Frank and Nadi came in and saw Tres and I having a very intimate moment. We've always been very cordial towards each other—especially after dinner at the Ivy—but this was clear progress being shown. “Viv needed some help, so I came in and helped her.” “I've been calling you to come help me change my shoes and you never showed up.” “I'm sorry, Baby, I was a little wrapped up in the game.” “You ignore your wife for a game? I know you heard me.” “I wasn't ignoring you, Bunny.” “But you didn't show up when I needed you.” “I'm sorry. I was coming.” “Sure you were. Ettie, Baby, come to Mama. Come on, Baby. You see how your daddy is, Nadi? Daddy's over there showing off, acting like he can’t come and help Mama change her shoes so she can take the baby for a walk.” Etienne hopped up on my lap and put her front paws up on my belly...almost like she was digging her little claws into my skin on purpose. I think everybody in the room sensed Ettie's jealously. 180 181 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Ow! Frankie, get her off! Frankie!” Frank grabbed Ettie and popped her on both her paws and her little backside. She let out a whimper. “Etienne Aigner Lattimore, you don't do that to Mama. That's bad. Bad girl!” “Frank, she's jealous.” “I see that, Darlin.’” “What are we gonna do?” “I don't know, Baby. We spoiled her like this.” “I know...I just never thought she'd get jealous. Maybe she'll lighten up when the babies come.” “You still on that whole twins thing?” “I am having twins! Even Tres knows it.” “Son, you fell into that nonsense, too?” “Viv says she knows...I can’t doubt her, Daddy.” “I see. What about you, Nadi? You think Vivie’s gonna have twin girls too?” “I don’t know, but she is really big, though.” “But you’d want twin sisters, wouldn’t you, Nadi? I think you’d be an excellent big sister to these girls.” 181 182 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Vivie, don’t you bribe my child!” “I don’t have to bribe her! She wants little sisters—she’s said it a million times. You want sisters, don’t you, Nadi? “I do! I want to dress them up and do their hair!” “Oh Lord. Vivien-Leigh, let's go take this brat for a walk and we can discuss this twins thing. Where's her leash?” “Here.” “Thanks, Son. Alright, big girl, let's go. Baby Girl, you coming, too?” “Yes. Daddy, if you and Vivie have girls does that mean you’ll stop calling me ‘baby girl?’” “Well, Princess, you technically won’t be the baby girl anymore, but you’ll always be my Baby Girl.” Frank helped me up on my feet and we took Ettie out for her walk. We held hands and paced the neighborhood with our overly spoiled puppy poking her nose in everything she could find as Nadi held her leash. “I'm surprised she's even walking. Dog's so spoiled, she's afraid to use the bathroom on anything other than the Arts & Entertainment section of the New York Times— and we live in Los Angeles.” “Don't act like you didn't contribute to it. I know you're going to spoil the girls when they come.” 182 183 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Bunny, I don't know if it's good for you to be saying that you're having twins when you don't really know. I don't want you to get your hopes up about this and then become disappointed in the end.” “I can’t be disappointed about it. As long as I'm having your baby and she's healthy and strong, that's all that I really care about.” “You’re still saying it's a girl...” “It's my maternal instinct, Frankie. I know I'm having girls. Twin girls. They are going to change our lives for the better, Honey.” “Maternal instinct, huh? Well, I'm on record as putting out some strong manly genes. I got two big boys back there; so, what if what you're carrying around happens to be Baby Boy Lattimore number three?” “Hey! What about me, Daddy?!” “I’m sorry, Nadi, but you were a long shot. You’re the best long shot Daddy ever took, but I think we gon’ be bringin’ another boy into this family.” “If we have a boy, then, I will be proud of my son and I will love him with everything I have, but I'll keep working you for a girl until I get one. You're lucky that I won’t have to do that because we're having twin girls.” “Persistent, we are.” 183 184 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Indeed we are, Judge.” “Look, Darlin’, I'm not saying that I don't want the baby to be a girl or even twins. I'm going to love our child despite its sex; however, these things can’t always be determined. We just need to be content with the fact that we're having a baby and it’s going to change our lives drastically.” “I know and it's what I've always wanted. I take good care of your babies when they were in our care— right, Nadi?” “I’m still alive.” “See! You see how I treat the dog, so imagine how good I'm going to be to our kids.” “I know, Bunny.” Frank pulled me into him and kissed me on the forehead. He was so patient and so good with me that it was almost unbelievable that a man could be so far left and right at the same time. He's three steps away from chauvinist, but at the same time, he'll sit me down and bring me tea and rub my feet and watch me while I sleep. “I can’t wait to get home so I can take a shower.” “Let's make that a shower for two. I'll rub cocoa butter on your belly afterwards.” 184 185 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “On my belly, my butt, and my thighs. I'm stretching out ten ways from Sunday.” “I like that little extra weight on you, Baby. It looks good.” “Ew!” Nadi covered her ears with her hands and let out a few sounds of disgust. “Renada Chanel Lattimore, you just keep walkin’ that dog and Vivie and I will try to keep you outta our personals.” “Go on and walk Ettie, Nadi. Daddy and I will catch up to you.” “Kay.” Frank smacked her on the butt before she ran a few feet ahead with Etienne. “Frankie, before we got married, we lost weight together. We had put on all that weight and I was tipping scales at 220 before I got down to 170. I seem to be putting it back on.” “But I liked that 220— you wore it well all in your chest and your behind. I damn sure love to watch it come at me and walk away.” “I'm being serious, Honey; we got you down from 275 to 215 and you seem to be putting it right back on along with me. Will you promise me that after the babies are born we're going to lose it all again together?” “Whatever you say, Dear.” 185 186 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Yeah...I know. Honey! You haven't held me close and kissed me like you usually do at all today! I'm starting to feel like Daddy doesn't love Baby Bunny anymore!” “Baby, I've been driving all day and the times that we have gotten out of the car, you didn't want to be bothered or touched. Daddy's been giving you your space, but here, here's what you've been missing.” Frank pulled my hands away from my hips and pulled me in close to him. He put his arms around me and moved them down to my butt. He kissed me on the forehead and on the nose. Frank lingered awhile, looking into my eyes before moving in to kiss me hard and passionately. Ooh, Honey, let me tell you that when my husband kisses me, my knees get weak and I never want it to end. “I got you, Bunny...regain your strength.” “I think you should regain your strength because when we get home, I want you to lay down the law in the bed.” “Oh yes Ma'am, I can do that for you. After sleeping in those hotels between here and LA and not being able to touch you the way I want to, I'm ready to give it all to you.” “Frankie, I'm ready to go home and get to bed now.” I gave him a coy look and he grew red in the face. He knew what I wanted and he was ready to fulfill my 186 187 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ needs. We’d caught up to Nadi and Ettie and it was rather apparent that we needed to get home. Quickly. “Miss Etienne, are you done yet? We gotta go on back and get Mama's things so we can get her home to bed. Daddy has some work to put in on Mama; we're gonna see about possibly making your twin sisters a trio.” “You are just so fresh, Frankie.” “You damn right I am.” “I don’t think I should be hearing this! I’m only nine and a half!” “We’re sorry, Sweetie. Sometimes Daddy and I get a little carried away. It’s only because we really love each other.” “You know that, don’t you, Baby Girl?” “I know…but it’s nasty!” Renada turned up her face in disgust and I couldn’t help but chuckle. She would get so bothered at any reference of her father and I doing anything other than hugging and kissing. “And why is that?” “Because you’re old!” “I am not old! Nadi, I’m thirty-one—but Daddy? Daddy’s old.” 187 188 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Now wait a minute! Daddy’s not old, Daddy’s distinguished. You ladies had better remember that. Ain’t nothing old about me.” His phone started to ring and I tussled with him for a little while before reaching into his pocket. “I got it, Honey.” “That's not it...” “I assure you, Honey, I know what I've got my hand on. Hello, my husband's pants...” Frank kissed my head and stroked my hair as I handed his phone over. I took Nadi’s hand and swung it as Ettie tried to pull ahead on her leash. Frank’s call was from one of his old friends and it was a rare occasion that he'd actually have his phone on. He hates cell phones and he rarely keeps his on or on his person. “Hey there, Robert. No, we're not doing anything like that. I had to take the ladies and the puppy out for a walk around the block so the wife could stretch her legs, Miss America could run around, and the puppy could relieve herself. We're still at Syl's house, about to go home for the night. Uh...I don't know, VL's been real tired with this pregnancy and she likes me to go to bed with her to keep her comfortable...” Every time we came to Memphis, someone wanted to come over for something. It was like he was no longer my husband— he was everybody's husband. Everybody wanted a piece of Judge Lattimore and 188 189 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ wanted to leave nothing for me. Sylvia and I had actually had a pretty decent conversation once and she told me that when he was a sitting judge, they had no real private life. Officers would come to the house in the middle of the night and ask for his signature on emergency warrants and all kinds of things. I understand that being a sitting judge is a full time job—even when your day is over—but I would have to be fully prepared to make sacrifices like that. You just think that you’re married to a man with a nice private career and it turns into a public spectacle. It's just hard to adjust to the fact that you no longer have a private life. That everywhere you went, someone would want you for something. It's like that even though he's no longer a sitting judge. Just by him being on television, everywhere we go, we're the center of some kind of attention. “Alright, but I can only help you look over that for a little while tonight. I'll see you at the house in about twenty minutes.” Frank put his phone back in his pocket and I just held his hand tighter as we watched Nadi pull back on Ettie's leash while we walked back around the block to Sylvia's house. “Company, I see.” “Only for a little while, Baby. When you're ready for bed, I'll be up.” 189 190 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I'm just worried about you. People want so much of you and you just give it all and leave little for yourself or me sometimes.” “Is that how you feel?” “Sometimes. I know you're a very important man and I respect that and I admire that and I'm tremendously glad that you're mine, but you put so many people ahead of us and it worries me. It worries me that the kids and I might not have time with you.” “You know what? Starting right now, I'm gonna give you more of myself. Damn, Vivie, I already told Robert to meet me at the house. He's divorcing his wife and he wants me to help him with the papers.” “Does he not have a lawyer?” “Of course, but you know, we're old friends.” “That's fine, Honey. Spend time with your friend.” “I'm sorry.” “Honey, please. I just want you to stop spreading yourself so thin.” “This is the last time, I promise. As a matter of fact, for Christmas, how about we go to the condo in Aspen? Just me and you, enjoying ourselves out in the snow. Lock ourselves in for a few days and get real cozy?” 190 191 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I like the sound of that.” “I knew you would.” “But Daddy is expecting to see us for Christmas in New York and what about Nadi? It’s her birthday!” “Darlin,’ we can see your daddy for New Years and Nadi can come with us. It’ll be her first time in Aspen! I wanted Tres and Julian with us, but their mama wants them this holiday. Since it’s just the three of us, we could lock in and have a cozy intimate thing. I'm making efforts here, Big Girl.” “I know and I appreciate it, but I haven't seen my daddy and my brother and my nieces and nephew in awhile. They're important to me, too. You know your best friend Dexter needs to see you.” “You know I value my friendship with your daddy, but we need some time for ourselves. Besides, I don't feel like dealing with your damn brother.” “Clark is a good person—” “He's a bum. Clark Gable Valentine is a poor excuse for a man—I know he's your brother and you love him, but as a man, he's one of the worst. I just don't understand how a man his age has gotten by in life by doing nothing.” “My brother is an artist. It takes time to sell paintings.” 191 192 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Well it seems like we're the only ones buying his artwork. In his downtime, he needs to get a job and stop asking us and your mama to pay his way. How are his kids supposed to say with a straight face that their thirty-something year old father has to ask Auntie V and Uncle Chill and Grandma for his rent and grocery money? Your father is a hell of a man and I’ll never understand how your brother got to be so damn trifling.” “When Daddy and Mama divorced, Clark became bitter. You know Daddy tried to make him into a good man.” “I know your brother and father are estranged, but with all that aside, he was the man of the house with you and your mother and he let you down in terms of handling his man business and taking care of you. You and your mama enable it by giving in every time he asks for something. He's supposed to be giving to you, not the other way around.” “Hold on there, Buddy. I don't know how you're standing here talking this stuff about my family and you expect me to go home and open the cookie jar for you.” “Because you love me and it's good to you.” “Right now, I don't know how I feel about you.” He grabbed me by the waist and pulled me close to him and held me tight. I tried to get out of his grasp, but he refused to let me go. We struggled against each other for a while before the tussling began to slow down. 192 193 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Watch the bump.” “That's mine, I put that there.” “I remember the encounter fondly.” I looked up into his eyes but our intimate moment was over almost as quickly as it started. “Daddy? Vivie? Ettie’s losing her mind!” Nadi pulled back on Ettie's chain and tried to calm her down. She kept pulling and being rambunctious and I definitely knew that it was time to get her home so her daddy could get down to business. “Nadi, Baby, she’s getting sleepy. Go ahead and pick her up.” “So, Christmas in New York City and New Year's in Aspen, Vivie?” “Sounds good, Frankie. Nadi can spend some time with my family.” “You know what else sounds good? Me and you at home in bed, wrinkling the sheets and working up a sweat.” “That's a plan because we need to work off this meal.” Frank kissed me hard and we hurried back to Sylvia's house to get our things together and go to the house. As soon as we got there, his friend called him and said he was on his way in. Frank apologized and I let it go and went on with getting ready for bed alone. He's 193 194 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ such a caring and helpful man that it starts to wear thin. I love that side of him, but I just wish it would be more for me and selfishly, a little less for others. I went on to take my shower and cocoa butter myself up for bed. I put on a new chemise from Victoria's Secret and waited for almost another hour for him to finish and come up to bed. I tried to keep myself occupied, but it failed to work. After getting Nadi situated, tucking her in, and kissing her goodnight, I was ready for my man to come on to bed. “Knock, knock. I'm not interrupting, am I?” I stood in the doorway to his office and when his eyes met mine, his demeanor began to change. The effect that we have on each other is just unexplainable. We light up when we see each other. “Not at all, come on in here, Baby. Robert, you remember my glamazon of a wife, Vivien-Leigh?” “Of course I do. Definitely six feet of fine.” “And she's all mine. Don't be hitting on my woman, Rob.” “I got enough women to deal with in my life, I couldn't take on another one.” I went to shake his hand and he pulled me in for a hug. It wasn't anything fresh at all, but it was almost a little too close for comfort. “Okay, now, watch the baby bump.” 194 195 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I'm sorry. Well, when did this happen?” “Some twelve and a half weeks ago and I must have done a damn fine job cause she thinks she's having twins.” “Twins? You must have put the ‘ooh wee’ on her!” “Oh, you damn right I did! Hell, I almost had to top that and put that Memphis Mojo on her.” They laughed and went through some kind of manly sexual bragging routine right in front of me. I had to cut that nonsense short. “Hey! I'm standing right here.” ` “Well, you, who's standing right there, come here.” He pointed to his lap and I went over to him, put my knee down on his chair, and leaned all my weight on it. “When did you get this?” “I got it before we left California. You like it? It's from Victoria's Secret.” “Yes ma'am, but it would look a lot nicer on the floor next to the bed. What kind of material is that?” Frank felt the hemline of my chemise and worked his hands up under it to places it ought not be in the presence of company. 195 196 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “It's chenille, nasty.” I smacked his hands down and he rubbed them before holding me by the hips in front of him. I tried my hardest to be the civil and understanding wife in front of his friend, but I couldn't hold up the charade. “Baby, you didn't help me shower and moisturize for bed or anything.” “I'm sorry, Bunny, I didn't forget, I just thought you'd want to do that much later.” He pulled me in closer to him and kissed my baby bump. I ran my fingers through his wavy hair and started to think of a way to get him upstairs with me. “I had to do it all by myself when you said that you would help me, Frankie. Even Nadi got tired of waiting for you and I had to tuck her in. Now I'm sleepy and I can’t sleep without you. Will you come to bed with me? Now?” I straddled him in the chair and put my arms around his neck and held him tight. I was prepared to cry if he didn't get up and tell his friend to go home. “Please, Frankie?” “Hey Rob...” “You don't even have to tell me, Frank. I'll see you tomorrow.” Frank got up with me attached to him and walked his friend to the door. He shifted me in his arms and hoisted me up on his hip with his hand right under my butt; my belly was right up against that 196 197 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ stomach of his. He didn’t have a gut, but he did love his beer. “Goodnight, Rob.” “Alright, Frank. Miss Vivien-Leigh.” “Goodnight.” I know he wanted to shake my hand, but I refused to let my husband go. I know it was rude, but I had to claim what was mine. He'd already taken away enough of his time and I was going to spend what was left alone with Frank. Before we went to bed that night, we discussed going out to Oak Court Mall the next day to kick off the first official shopping day for the holiday season. I told him that I wanted to take him and the boys to Neiman Marcus to get them some nice new oxfords and to get Nadi some dresses and he put up a fight. Apparently, his ex-wife moved back to Memphis and was rehired as the store manager. He didn't want us to meet and have me deal with Angela's mess. We decided that I was a strong enough woman to not care what his ex had to say—he was my man and if she didn't like it, well that’s just too bad. After we had our squabble about where I could and could not shop, he made love to me. We went through many different positions before ending up in our most comfortable one. Our sleep position was one that was aptly coined; it was the one that after he'd handled his business with me, I'd end up asleep on top of him. 197 198 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ By the time we would both climax, we'd be too tired to do anything other than sleep. I'd always be the first one to pass out and Frank would have to clean up what he could and pull the covers up around us. Whenever I couldn't sleep or we'd make love and couldn't get into a comfortable position, we'd always end up in the sleep position and the next morning, we'd be rejuvenated and on cloud nine. But even the sleep position couldn't work its magic when we went shopping and ran into Angela at Neiman Marcus. Neiman Marcus was the first place we went when we got to Oak Court because the boys wanted to go their own way. I was on a mission, and just wanted to have them try on what I wanted to buy them so they could go and be mall rats without their parents hanging around. “Is this going to take long?” “Boy, I'm buying you clothes; you could at least be patient.” “Viv, we're appreciative, but, it's not that cool to be with your parents in the mall.” “Son, I don't want to try it on either, but I'm not complaining, so shut up.” “You guys are the worst. A woman likes a nicely dressed man. Tres, you should know that as a high school man and you should be teaching your brother. 198 199 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Now, Honey, I like this red shirt for you. What do you think about that?” “It's wonderful, Dear.” “Nadi, don’t you think Daddy looks nice in red?” “It’s the same color his face turns when he gets really mad!” She and her brothers began to giggle and Frank just rolled his eyes and tried not to crack a smile. Well, she was right. “Do we really have to try it on?” “Blue, I’ve told you a million times that patience is a great virtue and you’d better start exercising it.” “You know what? You guys won’t cooperate, so we'll do it my way. Here, the three of you need to try on these red shirts; it's a good color for your complexions. Uh...I like this French blue for you, Honey...and this royal blue, too. Princess Nadi, will you help me pull some nice colors for your daddy and brothers?” “Okay, Vivie. Ooh, I like this pink one for Daddy.” “Oh, no.” “Sweetness, Daddy doesn’t wear pink shirts. Look for some lavenders.” Nadi and I started pulling out the shirts I wanted for them and they just stood there holding them all. We moved on to the pants and started 199 200 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ finding sizes, and we'd pulled so much that I had three sales people running back and forth for sizes and starting dressing rooms. Nadi and I sat outside the dressing rooms, waiting on someone to show us an outfit or two. “I wish there was another chair to sit in.” “It’s okay, Vivie, you sit in it. I can sit on the floor.” “No, Baby, it’s not fair and I don’t want you sitting on the floor.” “You have babies in your tummy, Vivie! Sit down.” She was nine years old, mind you. “Fine, we’ll do it like this.” I sat in the chair and pulled her over on my lap. She laid back against my chest and I put my arms around her, holding her tight. “There.” “Vivie, can I get some makeup stuff for my pageant?” “Of course you can, Princess Nadi. That reminds me, we have to put in the order for your dress and outfits.” “Thank you.” “It’s my pleasure, Baby Girl. I have to get with your mommy to see what she has in mind. I’ll put in the order, and of course Daddy will pay. I wish someone 200 201 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ would show us something soon!” Nadi patted my stomach firmly as we waited on one of the boys to finally emerge. “Vivie, can I call you ‘mama?’” “Of course you can, but do you want to discuss that with your real mama or Daddy first? You don’t have to call me that, you know. Vivie is just fine.” “I know, but you’re like my mama. You take care of me and love me. I love you.” “Sweetheart, I just love you so much. You are my baby—no matter what anyone says. You can call me whatever you want.” “I’m going to call you my mama.” I kissed her face and held her as close to me as I possibly could. I rocked her in my arms as we waited on our men. Frank was the first to peek out of his dressing room. “You don't look too happy about this one.” “I just don't know about this...this isn't exactly my style.” “You look good, Daddy.” “You think so?” “Uh huh.” 201 202 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Your style? Frankie, your style is looking good and if I know how to do anything, it's how to keep a man looking good. You know what I'd like with that? I like the red shirt and the black pin striped pant, but I'd like a thin black sweater over that and a tie would be great. I'm gonna go look. Come on, Nadi.” Nadi and I stopped over at the boys' rooms and had them come out and show us what they looked like. I'd picked out really great things for them and they actually liked the way that I'd put them together. Before Nadi and I could go look for some things for Frank, a sales associate came over to us to see how we were doing. To my surprise, the manager with her was Angela. “So, how is everything going over here? Tres? Julez?” She looked shocked and stunned to see them and I felt neither when I saw her. I held Nadi’s hand and rubbed my belly gently. “Hey, Miss Angie.” “What are you guys doing here? I haven't seen you in forever.” “Uh...we're shopping with Daddy and Viv...” I put a big smile on my face and turned around to face her. I was wearing heels and so was she, but I still had height advantage. 202 203 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Vivien-Leigh Lattimore. It's nice to meet you.” I reached out to shake her hand and she sheepishly reciprocated. “Angela Dennis, the former Mrs. Lattimore. Oh, I see you're with child.” “Yes. Actually, we’re having twins.” I rubbed my belly and the boys stood there completely lost. “Well, congratulations.” “Thank you. Oh, this is Renada, Frank’s daughter. Nadi, Baby Girl, this is your father’s last wife.” “You must be the child I’ve heard so many rumors about before I married your father. Speaking of Frank, Julez, where is your father?” Just as she said that, Frank came poking his head out of the fitting room, but wasn't able to see Angela because the boys were blocking her. “Baby, did you find that stuff yet?” “No, I haven’t. Actually, Honey, I found something else.” “What's going on out here?” The boys went back to their fitting rooms and he came face to face with his ex-wife for the first time in quite a while. “Oh boy...” 203 204 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Frank, it's nice to see you again. I just met your new wife, found out that you’re having twins, and met the child you were rumored to have before we got married. Congratulations.” “Thank you, Angie.” “I'm guessing she's complacent with sitting at home and being your secretary.” “Excuse me, Dear, I’m complacent with staying at home and taking care of my husband because it’s what a good wife does and a good husband deserves.” I smiled at her and held my ground. I didn’t like her talking to my husband like that, nor did I appreciate her taking pot shots at me. “Whoa, hold on, Bunny, calm down. Be cool and calm for my babies. Look Angie, this is not the time or the place for this. Can we please conduct ourselves like adults? Damn.” “You know, it's just nice to know that you can so easily go off and get remarried and plant babies in some Amazonian heifer.” “I think it’s rather obvious that he enjoys being in the company of a beautiful Amazon as opposed to such a ‘Plain Jane.’ Or maybe he chose to be with and reproduce with the Amazonian heifer because the Plain Jane wouldn’t have time to take care of her plain offspring…maybe Plain Jane would have her girlfriends dictate when and how Plain Jane should conceive the 204 205 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ offspring.” It was on. I never dropped a smile or eye contact and she knew that she could never gain the upper hand. “Vivie, Baby, I don't want you making things worse. Look, Angie, we don't need this nonsense. Let us shop and if there's something that you want to talk about and work out later, we can do that. We just need to let this go and move on. And you should know a lot better than anyone, that you don’t insult my kids. The next time you have anything to say about Nadi or my twin girls, you say it to me.” Frank was angry…with me. He put his arm around my waist—or what was left of it—and ushered me away from a dumbfounded Angela Dennis. “Blue, Tres, you stay with your sister. I need to talk to your step-mama for a minute.” We went inside his dressing room and he sat me down on the bench full of clothes. I was prepared for the lecture, I just wasn’t in the mood. “Honey, I am not a child.” “I know you're not, but this was the exact reason I did not want to come here today.” “Frank, you know that I’m far too much of a lady to get into it the way she wanted to. I think it went rather well.” 205 206 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Well? You think that went rather well? Look, I know you’re such a damn lady and you weren’t ‘bout to start cussin’ and neck rollin,’ but I did not want that to happen and I don't want it to happen again. Let's just buy this stuff and get out of here. I'm not in the mood for this drama. Ignore her. You got me?” “Yes.” “Yes what?” “Yes, Daddy. Honey, she said that you were rumored to have had Nadi when you were married to her. How didn’t you know?” “Vivie, I don’t deal with gossip. I don’t know! Shit, for all I know, it was beauty salon gossip. You know how you women get to talkin’ in the beauty salon. It makes sense now. She would say little stupid things about how I probably had outside kids, but she would only say that when she was mad at me. I always believed that I was protecting myself when I was out dating, so I could never believe I had another kid. Vivie, you know I’d never lie to you.” “I know you wouldn’t, Honey. I just think it was silly of her to not tell you if she knew. That girl could’ve had her father so much earlier.” “She was probably doing what she does best, worrying about herself. Look, I’m sick of talkin about her. Hell, I’m sick of thinking about her. I have a good 206 207 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ woman now and we’re getting ready to birth us some babies and that’s all that matters.” “Birth us some babies?” “That’s right, I’m gon’ get my woman home and keep her barefoot in the kitchen and the bedroom ‘til it’s time to birth these here babies.” He rubbed my stomach and tried not to laugh at the look of death I gave him for speaking to me in such a manner. God knows, I love that southern man of mine. “Right…Honey, don’t pass any of that off to the babies.” We talked a lot more—more so, him talking and me just agreeing to get him to stop talking. He told me that he actually kind of liked seeing me stepping up and getting in front of him and his kids the way I did. It apparently made him catch some feelings that he wanted to unleash upon me when we got home. I watched him undress and caught some feelings of my own. One of us got to relieve some built up tension in that dressing room and one of us was just happy to please her husband. I let Nadi and the boys pick what they wanted and I pulled together Frank's things to pay for them. I had no problems with the store manager from there on out. My stepsons went their way and my husband, daughter, and I walked the mall and continued to shop. We had to talk out the issues that seemed to keep arising with his ex-wives and his daughter’s mother. They 207 208 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ weren't going to necessarily be beside themselves to see him happy and moved on with another woman or having Nadi in his life and there was no way we could make them be. We just had to realize that at the end of the day, we were what mattered and our relationship had to come first. He wanted me to be the bigger woman and let their words roll off my back and let him handle Sylvia, Lisa, and Angela. I was pretty proud when we were able to leave Memphis without any more interruption from either of his ex-wives. We didn't see Angela again after the mall fiasco and Sylvia actually gave us a pretty nice send off. Frank and I went on with the rest of our holiday plans and spent Christmas with Nadi, my daddy, and family in New York and we rung in the new year in Aspen all alone and cozy in our condo. He handled me and my ever-changing moods and hormones for my first five months of pregnancy and made me feel like the queen that he'd always promised to treat me as. 208 209 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ The novelty of pregnancy started to wear off towards the end of my second trimester. I had to follow him everywhere he went because I could not be left home alone. We'd had the sex of the baby determined, and to Frank's surprise, I was right. We were having twin girls and he said that since my dream had been right up to that point, we'd might as well name them Claire and Ruby. He didn't show it at first, but he was so excited to be having twins. The night after we'd found out about the twins, I had to look around the house for him because he didn't come up to bed when he said he would. I found him in his study with a bottle of Wild Turkey and listening to James Brown's “A Man's World” extremely loud. “So this is where you're hiding out?” “I'm not hiding.” “Then whatcha doing?” “Thinking.” “With a bottle of bourbon and James Brown as loud as the boys blast the Notorious B.I.G.?” He clicked off the stereo and finished his drink before setting the glass down hard on the table. He sat up in his recliner and stared off in a distance as he spoke to me. 209 210 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Come here.” I walked over to him and he pulled me down on his lap and put his arms around me. He smelled like he'd been drinking and I hate that. “You just haven't been the same since we left the obstetrician today, Honey. What's wrong?” “Baby, I just didn't think that this was as real as you were making it.” He rubbed my belly and rocked me as I felt his face and ran my fingers over his beautiful cheekbones. “What? The babies? What did you think this was? Gas?” “No, Bunny; I know you had this thing in your head about twins and you were so serious about it, but I didn't really pay it no mind because I just thought you were a little crazy like all women are. But now it's confirmed and instead of the one daughter, I'm getting two. I didn't feel old when I thought we'd be dealing with the midnight crying of one baby, but now there are two.” “So all of this is because you're feeling old? Well you're not. You're almost fifty-four and you should feel really good about yourself right about now. You've got a gorgeous young wife, you're successful, and you've got twins on the way. I don't understand how that could make you feel old.” “I'm just concerned that I won’t be around for my kids when they need me.” 210 211 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Daddy, I thought we discussed this quite some time ago?” “What's that supposed to mean? We're talking about it now.” “Frankie, I don't want you to be upset about anything. Honey, you've been drinking and you're out of your normal mind frame and I just want us to kiss and make up and go sleep on it.” “The alcohol has nothing to do with it. The point of the matter is that I'm feeling that this is all wrong now.” “Wrong? What's wrong? Our marriage? Our babies? What?!” “I'm thinking that having two babies at one time in this point in my life is a little wrong. You wanted babies and I gave them to you and now I'm realizing that I'm giving up a hell of a lot of my leisure time to be a parent to infants and I'm gonna have to raise kids all over again. Tres just turned eighteen last month and he’ll be out of here and in college in August, but Blue’ll be movin’ right in here behind him to start high school. Nadi just turned ten—I’m dealing with the ones I’ve already busted hard nuts for, potty trained, and taught right from wrong. This “from scratch” thing just isn’t sitting well with me right now.” I quickly broke away from him. He got up and it struck the both of us: we were getting into a knockdown, 211 212 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ drag out argument and someone was going to be extremely hurt by the end of this thing. “So I held you by the penis and pumped the semen out of you and inseminated my damn self, huh? I made you get me pregnant and I made you marry me, right? Frankie, you're really full of something right about now.” “What? Full of shit? Go on and say it! What I am full of right about now, is you. I'm getting tired of dealing with this and catering to you all the time. Hell, sometimes, I feel like I'm not even running my own damn house! You get to feeling like you're the boss when I’m the one taking care of all the business up and through here.” “I take care of this house and I take care of you, but I see that means nothing to you. I've given up a lot to be with you and you think that having me means that I do nothing but cook and clean and answer your phones and secure your appearances and book your flights and organize your awards. And now that we're having babies—something that's going to take me away from catering to your every need—you start with this midlife crisis nonsense.” “Oh please. And don’t act like your cooking’s so damn good, either. If it wasn’t for the sex being so damn amazing—” 212 213 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ I slapped him. He was being just rude. We stood there in silence for a while—him rubbing his jaw and me on the verge of tears. Eventually, I started to cry—not just because I was big and emotional, but because I felt that his inebriation was bringing forth some major truths. I wiped my eyes and turned my back to him, completely breaking down. “Don't start all that damn crying; I'm getting pretty tired of hearing it cause that's all you seem to do these days.” “How can you be so insensitive?!” “That's all you ladies complain about. I give you the world and then some and all you can say is that I'm too insensitive and I don't listen and I don't care and I talk too much.” “How can you stand there and tell me when I'm twenty-four weeks pregnant with your kids that you feel they're a mistake? You don't want them and you don't want me—my God, what do you want? Why are you doing this to us?” “I don't have to listen to this. You go on to bed; I'm getting out of here for a while.” He didn't even try to comfort me. I heard his keys jingling and I couldn't let him leave the house in his frame of mind. He was drunk. “No! Frankie, you can’t leave now!” 213 214 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Woman, have you lost your damn mind?” We tussled over his keys for a few minutes before he overpowered me and snatched them away. I lost my balance and came down hard on my left side. I tried to protect my stomach as much as possible on the way down. I could see him stop and show a little concern, but he continued on out the door. I laid on the floor and cried. It's all I could do, given everything that had transpired. Aside from the emotional pain I was experiencing, the only thing that bothered me after the fall was my wrist. I stayed on the floor for all of fifteen minutes, screaming and crying my heart out. The only thing I could think of at that time was what I normally do when we have arguments. When I'm wrong, I agree to sing Anita Baker's “I Apologize,” and when he's wrong, he has to do everything I do as a homemaker and top it off with something pretty. I was so confused and wrapped up in so many emotions that I didn't care who was wrong; I just laid there and sang. My man ran off under the influence and he could possibly kill himself or some innocent person, leaving me a widow and our kids fatherless. I'd never loved any man other than my father and brother, and the only other man that I did love was regretting being in love with me. I had no idea how to deal with that. I just sang. “Hey, Bunny...Bunny, it's me. It's Daddy. I'm right here.” Franklin tried to touch me and I stopped singing and slid away from him. I had no idea what he 214 215 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ had in mind, but if it were anything like what he’d said before he left, he could just save it. “Don't touch me!” “Listen, I know you're upset, and I'm sorry. I didn't go anywhere. I sat outside and just thought about everything. I didn't go anywhere, Baby. I didn't leave and put myself or anyone else in danger.” I let him get down next to me and he pulled me close to him and put his arms around me. “You left me here, Baby. You screamed at me and said you didn't want me and the babies.” “Vivie, first, let me say that I drank tonight in a way that’s not like me. I don’t regret marrying you; you've become the best thing that I've ever done since having my babies. I feel like finding all of those hobbies of mine were just a way to get me to ignore this possible midlife crisis that I'm kind of going through.” “Why don't you tell me these things, Honey? We could talk through them and find a way to deal with them instead of ending up like this.” “Because men don't 'talk it out.' We either deal with it or we don't. It's just a little complicated.” “I know, but Honey, I'm your confidant and your helpmate and that's what I'm here for. I'm more than just dinner making, cleaning, organizing, and being available for you to roll over in the middle of the night. I'm here to 215 216 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ listen to your problems and help solve them. Just like you do with me, Daddy.” “Vivien-Leigh, God couldn't have blessed me with a better wife and mother for my children.” Frank kissed me on the forehead and on the lips. He rubbed my belly and kissed it before putting his ear to it and listening to the serene silence of our sleeping babies. “They're asleep, Frankie. They fell asleep when I started singing.” “You can tell?” “Yeah, I know when they wake up and when they're playing and when they're sleeping. Claire and Ruby have started kicking a whole lot more, too.” “Claire and Ruby Lattimore. I like those names. I want one of them to have the middle name “Vivien,” and the other to have the middle name “Anna Maria.” ” “After your mama? Honey, that’s so sweet. But why Vivien?” “Because I want my girls named after two of the most amazing women I know—my mama and my wife.” “You want to name one after me?” “Of course I do. You don’t want to?” “No…but, how do you feel about Vivienne?” 216 217 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I like that, too. You know, it would've been great to name one of them Memphis.” “Maybe the second time around, Frankie; I got a feeling this won’t be the last pregnancy for us.” He smiled at me before kissing my belly one last time. I was glad that we were fixing these newly formed holes in our relationship before they got bigger. We were going to work on communicating a lot more for our sake and for the sake of our babies. “Baby Bunny, what happened to your wrist?” “I hurt it when I fell down.” “I'm so sorry about that, Baby. Let me see it.” He took my wrist and gently kissed it before resting it on top of my belly. I enjoyed the times that we spent together like this and wanted it to be a permanent fixture in our marriage, but that was hoping for too much. “I'll wrap that up when we get upstairs. I'm gonna make this up to you, Bunny. We'll spend the entire day together. You know how I have to do the Waymon Hill Morning Show tomorrow, right?” “Of course I do. I confirmed it, Frankie.” “I want you there with me. We can get up early, have some breakfast, go over to the studio, and then we can take the rest of the day from there. Would you like that?” 217 218 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Of course I would.” “Great. Now, Miss Vivien-Leigh, may I take you to bed?” “Is this taking me to bed business anything like when you asked to bed me on our wedding night and I ended up pregnant?” “No Ma'am, I just want to take my wife up those stairs, wrap up her wrist, and lay next to her and comfort her.” “Then that would be just fine. Besides, if we were intimate and Tres came home, he’d have a fit.” “That boy just needs to deal with the fact that his daddy likes to get it on with his step-mama as often as possible and ain’t a damn thing he can do about it.” We kissed and spent a few moments holding each other. “I’m sorry about insulting your cooking, Bunny. You’ve gotten a lot better over the years.” “Well, I try, Honey. I’ve really been trying.” “Bunny, it is part of how you pay your way around here. I’m not complaining about it. You’re good at what you do, that’s for damn sure. And the sex—” “Frank!” “I’m just saying! You keep a skip in your man’s step. Now, let’s go on upstairs and get some of that 218 219 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ bedroom magic working.” Frank picked me up off the floor and carried me upstairs, and just as he’d promised, he wrapped up my wrist and we went to bed. We talked a lot more and he promised to never do what he did again. He said that instead of keeping to himself and trying to seem like he has everything together in front of me, he'd start talking to me again. He wanted to let me in more and we could handle things together and not just seem like he has his own problems and we have mine. We went to sleep that night feeling a lot more confident in our relationship. It was a little rocky and we knew it wouldn't be the last time we hit a bump in the road, but at least we found a way to deal with it for the future. The next morning, we got up and he made breakfast for us, saw Tres off to school, and we got to the radio station at 8 AM. I was a little nervous, but it ended up being an experience that I would never forget. “Hey, Judge.” “Good morning, Waymon. How are you?” “I'm just fine.” “I want you to meet my wife. Vivien-Leigh, this is my friend Waymon Hill. Waymon, my wife, Mrs. Vivien-Leigh Lattimore.” “How are you, Sweetheart?” “I'm fabulous, Sugar, and how are you?” 219 220 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Oh, I’m good! I see you are gonna be, uh, expanding the family soon.” “That's right, we're having twins.” Waymon and Frank started going through that man thing—what exactly is that about, anyway? Bragging rights? Whatever. “Judge, I see you went ahead and knocked that one right on out the park!” “I think I did a pretty good number on her. We’re gonna have these girls and then see about putting some more in the oven.” “Franklin, let’s finish baking the two we’ve got in here before we start preparing any others, okay?” He and I kissed briefly on the lips before he started to rub my belly to feel his little angels kick. “Twin girls? Damn Judge, I’mma say a few prayers for you on that one. I got one girl and I keep a shotgun under the bed.” “I think I'll be able to manage, Way. I got one girl already and I keep a pistol on my person and couple more in the closet, and I got two big boys—my girls don’t have to worry about protection. Hell, the wife usually keeps a little pink and pearl pistol strapped to her thigh.” “…to her thigh? Oh, I’m scared of you!” 220 221 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Don’t be! I can’t carry like that anymore, anyway—I can’t see my thighs and they’re probably too big for the holster now.” “Now, Baby, you know I love those thighs. That’s why I like to keep you barefoot and in that kitchen in these tiny little dresses. You know, Way, that’s exactly how I like my women—barefoot, half dressed, pregnant, and in the kitchen.” “I hear that!” I smacked Frank in the arm and they shared another laugh. They continued to talk and Waymon introduced us to his co-hosts, Carrie Lane and Bobby Richards. They were coming back from a commercial break and putting together a microphone and an extra set of headphones for Frank. He sat me down in a chair across the table from them where he could keep an eye on me. “Alright, Judge, what we we’re gonna do is have you give some legal advice, but since the segment we had after you fell apart, we’re just gonna change it up. You mind us just giving the two hours to you and your wife? Talk, take questions, all that shit?” “That sounds good. What's the matter, Bunny? Why you lookin’ so sad?” “Cause Ettie and I wanna be near you, Honey.” “Come on over here, I got a good seat for you and the baby right on my lap until they can get things arranged for you.” Frank slapped his thighs and I got up 221 222 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ and waddled over to him. He sat me down on his lap, kissed my neck, and tried to hold on to me. “If y’all just give us a few more minutes, we’re gonna finish having everything set up. Play on, Playa.” Waymon tossed Frank a smile and I knew they were doing that male bragging thing again, but I didn’t let it bother me. Nothing seems to bother me when I’m in my husband’s arms. A chair was finally brought over for me and Frank helped Ettie and me get comfortable again next to him. He helped me with the headphones and pulled my chair close to his and rested his arm around my shoulders. “Alright, we're back from commercial. Hey, LA, welcome back! Y’all, we got a treat in place this morning! In the studio today we’ve got my friend, Judge C. Franklin Lattimore and his gorgeous and very pregnant wife, Mrs. Vivien-Leigh Lattimore and we…well, we just gon kick it cause we ain’t got nothing else planned. What’s up, Judge?” “Ain’t nothing, Way. Good morning, LA.” “How you doin’, Miss Vivien-Leigh?” “I’m doing very well, thank you.” “Damn, y’all hear that? That’s class. And that’s kinda sexy, too. No disrespect, Judge, cause you my partner and all, but your woman is fine.” 222 223 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Thank you. That's six feet of fine and she's all mine and God broke the mold after this here design.” “Alright, Judge, I hear that! Wait...damn, six feet? You’re six feet tall?” “Six feet even and 6’4” in heels, but I'm wearing flats today. I'm too big to wear those four inchers; they think I'll lose my balance and hurt myself.” “Baby, you know wearing heels like that messes with your back and if you lost your balance, I wouldn’t want you to hurt yourself or the babies. Normally, I love to keep her in those heels, though. My wife has the most gorgeous legs ever known to man. Those legs are the eighth wonders of the world, Way.” “I bet they are. So, Miss Vivien-Leigh, this is my first time meeting you and I've known the judge for quite awhile. What did you do before you met your husband?” “Before I met Frankie, I lived in New York and I was a ballet dancer, modeled, did makeup, and even danced on Broadway. I moved to California and did some off Broadway shows, some movies, and a little bit of modeling. I still do makeup. Right now, I'm his office manager. I run the house and am getting it prepared for our little newcomers.” “For those of you that didn't know, the judge and his wife are expecting their first and second child. They're having twins.” 223 224 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Twin girls—two more princesses to add to the kingdom. ” “You gon’ be in for it, man. One girl is hard enough, but two? I don’t even wanna imagine that.” “Well, I already have two boys—Charles Franklin III, who’s eighteen, and Julian, who’s thirteen—and I have a little princess, Miss Renada, who’s ten. That’s my Nadi Doll, Daddy’s Christmas baby. But, listen, when I tell you that this woman of mine has done a phenomenal job stepping in and stepping up to taking care of three kids that aren’t hers. She does a damn fine job being step-mama, and I knew she’d have no problems with a few of her own.” “Thank you, Honey, but they’re mine whether I gave birth to them or not. I love those kids so much and there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do for them. I know people will wonder why, if I feel so strongly about your babies that I need to have some of my own, but it’s because I’ve always wanted babies of my own. I just felt that with the man I love, I would give him children and we would be able to see little pieces of ourselves in the world.” “That’s my baby—I love you, Vivie.” “I love you, Frankie.” He and I kissed and everyone in the studio awed unison. “L.A.—y’all need to sit and study the judge! So, how pregnant are you, Miss Vivien-Leigh?” 224 225 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Six months and a day. I’m almost at the end of my second trimester.” Waymon and Frank kept talking about the babies and comparing fatherhood stories before talking about Frank's show and going into the questions from callers. “We got Sandra on the line, y’all. Sandra, you got a question for Judge and Mrs. Lattimore?” “Yes. Good morning, Judge Lattimore.” “Well, good morning, Sandra.” I let that roll off my back. It’s his normal flirty tone and I don’t mind it. Women always flirt with him and he’s allowed to flirt back—to a degree. It goes both ways; I am just as guilty as he is. “Judge Lattimore, I just wanted to let you know that I love your show and I watch every day. You’re the sexiest judge on TV.” “Thank you, Sweetheart.” Waymon was in shock at the banter that had occurred. I just sat there and adjusted my breasts in my top to keep them from spilling over. “Stop playin’ with those big things, Mama, you gon break my concentration, now.” I gave Frank a sideglance before finally adjusting my cleavage. 225 226 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Hold up—how you gon call here and flirt with the man and his wife is sitting right next to him?! Some women have no boundaries! Miss Vivien-Leigh, you okay with that?” “Waymon, Sweetheart, disrespectful women approach him every day in the same way—whether I’m standing there or not. Women have interrupted our meals, tried to cut in as we dance, over at the doctor’s office, shopping with the kids, and even at school functions for our kids. Do I mind? Not really. I know the man I married and I know his profession. He keeps up appearances and he’s charming and intelligent and all that and women are drawn to him. Frank can’t help that, but he always puts them in their place and it goes no further than that. I’m not jealous and I’m not worried.” “Now, Way, don’t think I just disrespect my wife. I do the polite and charming thing for the female fans, but they always know that right next to me is my Baby Bunny and she’s where my heart and soul is. I do have to let them know that I appreciate the love for my show and what I’m trying to do, but at dinner with my woman or with my kids, “give me fifty feet,” as my oldest one says.” “Alright, Judge, I hear that!” “And don’t think that I’m the only flirt, ‘cause the little woman here can lay it on thick—even have a room full of men under her spell.” 226 227 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I can definitely see that…” Waymon’s co-host piped in, but was quickly shut down. “Bobby, now, you gon’ mess around and say something wrong. I know you. You bet not get outta line with the Judge’s wife. He may be a judge, but he could kick your ass, too. I’ve seen him.” “Hell, Way, you’d better let them know! Don’t let that black robe fool you! I’m from Memphis, Tennessee—I know how to handle mine. Now, since we’ve been here she’s subtly flirted with every man she’s come in contact with. She’s batted those big false lashes and flirted up a storm. Does that bother me? Nope. I only get upset when a so-called man mistakes harmless flirting and oversteps his bounds by putting my woman in an uncomfortable situation.” “Frankie, don’t be upset about that. Not every man in a robe is as honorable as you are.” “Y’all, our next caller wanted to ask about that very thing. We got John from Malibu on line one. What’s up, John?” “Hey, Way. Good morning, Judge and Mrs. Lattimore.” “Morning, John.” “Good morning, John!” “See that inflection in her voice? Flirting.” 227 228 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Frankie, hush. Go ahead, John.” “I just wanted to know if any of the other TV judges were as cool as you were.” “Hell no.” “Well damn, Judge! Who got on your bad side?” “I’m not callin’ no names.” “Frank had been officially rubbed the wrong way by another man in a robe at a sort of ‘meet and greet of TV judges.’ Well, of the three black male judges on television…let’s just say that Frank and one of the other two don’t quite see eye to eye.” Larry King Live had a show about the fascination of televised arbitration and the hosts. Since the shows are taped all over the country, a few were remote and the rest were in the studio—the three black male judges were in studio. “Oh…well, let’s do it like this. Of the three black male judges on TV—two are from the south and one is from the north. Now, we know Judge Lattimore is one of the two from the south, so of the two left which one is the judge having problems with?” “I’ll tell you it for damn sure ain’t the one from the south. I’ve known that man for nearly thirty years and we’ve gone head to head and have been side by 228 229 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ side—he’s like a brother to me. I don’t even like to make mention of the other one.” “Oooohhhhhh…” The crew was just interested in hearing the drama and I didn’t mind dishing. My husband’s a good man and I like to out those who are less than reputable. Anyway, to sum it all up, the judges and their companions were all waiting in the green room for the show to start. I stepped out to use the facilities and was greeted with an unwarranted advance by the judge from the north. He actually came in the bathroom, cornered me, and propositioned me for sex. I begged him to leave me alone and he wouldn’t. I had to knee him in the groin, just to get out of the bathroom. I couldn’t stand being in his presence any longer. I found my way back to the green room and tried to collect myself along the way. I didn’t want to appear angry or upset because I didn’t want Frank to react the way that I knew he would. I did a horrible job of hiding my feelings. I told Frank everything and he immediately wanted to do harm to the other judge. His best friend and I had to calm him down and he did his best to control himself during the show, but as soon as it was over, he quickly took the other judge aside and promised to do far more harm to him than I’d done if he ever even looked at me with lust in his eyes. I think Frank put the fear of God in him stronger than any other fear he’d faced during his days on the streets before becoming a judge. 229 230 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “We got another call—y’all, Karen from South Central’s on line four. What’s up Karen?” “Good morning, Waymon. Good morning, Judge and Mrs. Lattimore.” “How you doin, Karen?” “Good morning, Karen. What’s your question?” “I just wanted to know what y’all thought the secret to a good relationship or a happy marriage is.” “Frankie, you wanna go first?” “Yeah, Bunny, I’ll take this. Karen, I think the most important thing is trust—if you’ve got somebody you can’t trust, you’re just wasting your time. I’m gon’ tell you that right out. If you can’t trust your woman or your man to go out and act right and come home every night and be faithful, cut your losses right now. You know what else? You’ve gotta listen. Shut your mouth and open your ears—even if your significant other has nothing worth listening to, hell, especially if they’ve got nothing worth listening to. Just take some time to listen. You’ve gotta communicate, too. Men, we have a problem with that. We like to keep our problems to ourselves because we’re supposed to be strong, but if you can’t tell your woman what’s wrong, you gon’ end up in a world of hurt.” “We just had a little blow out over the communication thing. He’s so used to hearing my 230 231 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ problems and making sure that I’m okay that he just lets his issues fester until he explodes. You know what’s important that you missed, Daddy?” “What’s that, Darlin’?” “Love. If you don’t love the person you’re with, why are you together? Sometimes you choose to be with a person to avoid being lonely, but in the long run, someone’s going to get hurt. You may not love the person, but they may end up in love with you. It’s so selfish and sad. Make sure you love your partner, please. That’s truly important.” “That’s right. I know I love my Baby Bunny.” “And only God could understand how much I love you.” We kissed again quickly before Frank pulled away like he’d forgotten something. “Oh, you know what else is important? Men, you gotta take care of business. Take care of your house, your business, your family, and most importantly, your woman. Do all you can to make your woman happy. Older men may understand this more than the young ones, but you gotta…uh, you gotta eat the cookie.” “What you say about that cookie, Judge?!” “Way, you gotta take your woman, open the cookie jar, and eat the cookie. Now, she may put up a fuss, but you hold that jar open and eat that cookie ‘til she quiets down. You gotta eat every bit of it; pick up 231 232 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ every crumb until she’s just speechless. You do that— and you do that right—you ain’t gotta worry about your woman goin’ anywhere else. She’s gon’ have every meal on that table, she’s gon’ meet you at the door with your slippers and a cold beer when you get in from work— hell, she’ll even take your shoes off and rub your feet. She’s gon’ start beggin’ Daddy to come to bed early.” “L.A., I hope y’all are takin notes! The judge is on fire right now! If you don’t know nothing ‘bout eatin’ that cookie, you just got schooled!” “Wait a minute—I don’t ever recall a time where Daddy was begged to come to bed early.” “Oh, really? Well, what about that time when…” Frank leaned in and whispered in my ear, reminding me of a time when he loved me so good the night before that the following night when he’d gotten home from work and I begged him to skip dinner and come upstairs with me. When he protested against my advances, I dropped to my knees and devoured his penis right there in our foyer. He skipped dinner that night. “Ok…I do recall that instance.” “You hear that, Way? You eat that cookie and she’ll be good to you.” “I need y’all to know that Judge Lattimore is the man right now! Hey y’all, we’re gonna hit a commercial break. We’ll still be with the judge and his Mrs. after the break.” When the commercial breaks came in Waymon 232 233 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ had his chef bring me in breakfast. The thing that I loved best about it was being with my husband. My hand on his thigh or him taking my feet in his lap and rubbing them made me feel a lot better about being a big pregnant tag-along. “We're back from commercial break, y'all, and let me tell you something, Miss Vivien-Leigh is up in here throwing down. We're still kicking it with Judge C. Franklin Lattimore and his wife, Miss Vivien-Leigh.” “I can’t help it, Waymon; my children and I are hungry.” “Daddy likes to keep those babies of his fed.” Frank rubbed my belly. “She put a hurting on her steak and eggs the minute the plate hit the table in front of her.” “I told you I was hungry! I'm allowed to be a little gluttonous; I'm swollen with life.” “In case y'all missed the introductions earlier, Miss Vivien-Leigh and the judge are expecting twins this year.” “Waymon, Viv or VL is fine.” “Alright, Viv; you used to be a model, right?” “That's right, I started as an Ebony Fashion Fair model, just like Diahann Carroll.” 233 234 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “And you used to do Broadway?” “Yep! I did reprises of 'Hallelujah, Baby,' 'Jelly's Last Jam,' 'Cats,' 'Chicago,' and the most special to me was the reprise of 'No Strings'—which originally starred Diahann Carroll and was written especially for her—and a whole lot more.” “So you’re just one of those cultured types, huh?” “Those are your words—not mine. It's just that I love the art form and it's a beautiful thing to be a part of. I'm especially proud of doing 'No Strings' because I'm a great admirer of Diahann Carroll. Off Broadway, I got to do 'Sophisticated Ladies' where I took on Phyllis Hyman's role and I heard that there's going to be a reprise of 'Blues in the Night' and I would love to play Freda Payne's part—The Woman. I loved that show. I'm dying to wrap my vocals around the brassy tune, 'Rough and Ready Man'...just like I like to wrap my legs around my husband.” Everyone in the booth started cat calling and I put my left leg up as far as I could before placing it over Frank's and intertwining them. Frank whispered to me that I'd better slow down before I started something I wasn't ready for. “So, you're a pretty good singer, huh?” “I'd like to think so.” 234 235 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Way, she's got a voice that makes you stop everything and give her your undivided attention. I think the best thing you'd ever sang, Baby, was my name.” “That's my favorite thing to sing, Honey.” “Judge, you killing me over here, man! I'd really like to thank y'all for spending this time with us and I'm gonna give the listeners a chance to call in and ask y'all some more questions, but Viv, would you mind singing something for us? Just a snippet.” “When Frankie and I get into arguments, we have this thing—when I'm wrong, I have to sing Anita Baker's 'I Apologize,' so I'm gonna do a little bit of that.” The look on Waymon's face read anticipation as he told me that this was one of his favorites. The pressure was on to do Anita Baker justice. Frank told him that he'd start arguments with me just so I could sing. He gave me a good luck kiss before I started and held my hand. I'm by no means shy about belting out a tune, but having him support me like that was really great. I closed my eyes and started to sing. Being bred in a performance arts high school and being on Broadway, you have to sing loudly. As I sang, I could hear Waymon and his crew complimenting me and pushing me to take it further. I sang that song to the point where tears fell from my face. I'd let go of Frank's hand, pulled off my false eyelashes, and had to push the microphone back to belt out the perfect tune. 235 236 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ They started hooping and hollering in the booth like they were having church. I did what came naturally— I just sang. I guess all of the emotions from last night had forced themselves out when I sang because it was the best rendition I'd ever done. I went on to sing two more songs before they had opened up the phone lines for the listeners to call and ask more questions about Frank and me. I sang Vesta Williams' “Congratulations,” and the last song I sang was Angela Winbush's “Smile.” I felt so good about all the praise I'd received and started to get thoughts of going back to work. “If y'all could just be in this studio to witness this woman sing—I swear, it'd bring tears to your eyes. Judge, when she pulled off the eyelashes, I was gone! And Viv pushed the microphone back and walked across the room and sang the hell out of that damn song like she was sitting right in front of it.” “Thank you.” “Bunny, I've heard you sing a million and one times, but I've never seen what you've done here this morning.” “Yes you have, remember? I did that play at the Stella Adler Theatre that Andre wrote about the old blues singer still trying to hold on to those last bits of fame. He had me rolling on the floor and straddling the microphone stand and giving you lap dances in the middle of the show.” 236 237 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Trust me, Darlin,’ I can’t forget that show, but you just topped that here today. I'm proud of you, Vivie, and I don't know if I say that enough.” He kissed me on the forehead and ran his fingers through my hair. We got closer to each other and Ettie crawled over to her daddy's lap and curled up as he stroked her gently. He was really trying to make up with me for the day before and it was indeed working. “L.A., if only y'all could be up in here to check out the judge's mack!” “Way, I don't have to mack; you know as well as I do—the best game is no game at all.” “I hear that. OK, we have a call on line 5. Jackie, you got something to ask Mr. & Mrs. Judge Frank Lattimore?” “Good morning, Judge Lattimore.” “Good morning, Jackie.” I smacked Frank in the chest faster than he finished greeting that caller. I wasn't jealous, but his voice was just too sexy for the morning. I’d had a hormone flip—that’s my story and I’m sticking to it. “Damn, the wife’s reflexes kicked in! Before he even finished saying her name, the wife's hand went up and she got him dead in the chest.” 237 238 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You're just being a little too sexy so early in the morning, Frankie.” “I'm being polite.” She went on to ask him something or another and it didn't really matter to me. “Alright, on line one we have Bobby from Long Beach. You got a question for the judge and his wife?” “Good morning, Mrs. Lattimore. I'm sorry; I couldn't remember your name.” “That's alright, Honey, I'll take that over 'that Amazonian heifer who stole my man' any day. What's your question, Baby?” “Is the judge anything at home like he is on TV? Does he do anything that really gets on your nerves?” “What you see on TV from my husband is what you get. He is a very straightforward and no-nonsense kind of man and he handles his business in all aspects. I love him dearly, but he is the same. You know what I can’t stand that he does? It makes me angry when he does nothing.” “I don't ever do just nothing, Vivie.” “Honey, I say this a million times—just because you go to work and sit and listen to folks talk and talk all day doesn't mean you have to do the same thing at home! I run the house and he just sits around on his butt talking; when I clean the house and I get to the room he's 238 239 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ in and he's in there reading a book or reading the paper. He doesn't lift a finger to help.” “That's not an everyday thing, Bunny.” “Yes it is and it drives me crazy! I can’t stand it! You can do a lot of things that I can get past—you can take your clothes off and throw them on the floor and I don't mind...except for now because I'm too big to bend over and pick them up; you can even leave the toilet seat up and I can get past that, but not helping me clean when you're at home doing nothing really takes the cake.” “That's your interpretation of it; I do a lot around the house. I clean up behind the baby.” “That's only because I can’t bend down.” “Sometimes I make breakfast and dinner—” “Honey, I just want you to pick up your feet and straighten up behind yourself when I'm cleaning a room you happen to be in. Don't make any more messes for me to clean; just helping would be great.” “Well, Judge, here's your chance to say what bothers you about Viv.” “First of all, let me say that I don’t make my pregnant wife clean the whole house—let’s cut that right now. Vivie may straighten up, but the housekeeper does all the major work. Hell, she had a housekeeper when she lived alone. Now, with that said, Vivien-Leigh has 239 240 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ the worst sense of direction ever. She gets lost coming from everywhere and she calls me every time just to ask how to get back home or back to point A. I have to drop her off at the hair salon just so I don't have to hear her on the phone going 'Frankie, do I take a left at Vine? Honey, is it on Avalon? How do I get back from this?'” “I do not have a bad sense of direction! I just like to make you feel needed.” “Yeah, and that's exactly why you slept the majority of the way to Memphis? Because you were just so in tune with the map.” “You know how to get there; you didn't need me side seat driving.” “That's another thing. For someone who always gets lost, why are you always shouting out directions?” “I try to help, Frankie.” “That's not helpful, that's why I ask you to be quiet.” “Okay, hold up before this all gets out of hand and the judge ends up sleeping on the couch.” “Not in my house—” “Look, what is it that you love about each other?” 240 241 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I love his honesty. Some people may think that the things he just said were offensive to me, but they weren't. He tells me what most people won’t and I love that. He never lies to me and he treats me like a queen. He is all that I want and all that I need in a man.” “That's one of the most important things that we have—that trust thing. She's not afraid to say what she feels, but she has tact and does it in a very ladylike manner. My wife's a lady and that's rare in women these days. She takes care of me and she doesn't complain and she gives me that extra boost of confidence that a man needs every now and again.” Frank and I kissed like we do at home and didn't care who watched. Every time I hear him express his love for me, it's always something new and touching. The rest of the time that we spent in the studio was filled with answering questions about Claire and Ruby and how we make time for each other and few other couple-related questions. Waymon brought up the fact that I was a dancer and he thought I was too refined to be a stepper. Little did he know! He got some Chicago stepping music going and he stepped with me and I showed him up, despite being a gigantic pregnant lady. Frankie cut in and we showed them how we do things when we dance. He asked the engineer to play “Try Me” by James Brown and we did our signature step from our 241 242 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ wedding, but we had to alter it because I was so big. We couldn’t do the full speed spins, but Frank did his best to hold me as close as he could. Our little routine was caught on video and afterwards we took pictures with the morning show crew before parting ways. We left the studio and went to the parking garage and Frank propped himself up against the trunk of my Cadillac as I set Etienne's pet carrier down on it. The parking garage was full of people coming and going in and out of the studio, but he paused to have an intimate moment with me. I rubbed his stomach and he started to laugh to himself. “So, uh...when are you gonna have this baby, Daddy? When are you gonna drop this load?” “As soon as you drop yours; I'm gonna start getting it back together so I can help take care of my wife and my newborns.” “Aww, just for us, Honey?” “Just for you, Bunny.” “That's good, ‘cause it seemed like the minute I started putting it on, you started putting it on, too. I know a lot of men go through sympathy pregnancies with their wives, but you're taking it to the extreme.” “Pound for pound, I'm right there with you, Vivie.” 242 243 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Don't do that, Frankie. ‘Cause we can’t both be too big to mount when the mood hits. Sex is going to be very important in the process of inducing labor and if we're both too big to do it, it's going to be a long and miserable road to delivery.” “Hell, that's all you had to say, Baby. I'll be in the gym tomorrow.” “Good, because I'm gonna need you to stay in shape to keep tossing me around the way you do. Carrying me from room to room, scooping me up, and having your way with me.” “I'm always gonna be able to do that, Baby.” “I know, ’cause you're my big strong man.” Frank pulled me into his arms and held me close as we kissed. We broke our kiss session and he helped me into the car so we could prepare to leave. “Daddy, before we go see that matinee, can we stop for a Fatburger?” “Fatburger? What happened to my prim and proper Manhattan socialite? Bunny, don't you want to have a nice sit down lunch?” “Of course I do, but your babies and I are hungry now. You introduced me and my babies to Fatburger and we are craving one with lots of pickles.” 243 244 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Alright, we'll get you a burger and a shake before the movie.” “You know we haven't gotten much of anything set up for the babies yet. We haven't decided on cribs, what color we want the walls, or how we want things set up. The only things we have are that great big changing table and the rocking chair and some undershirts.” “How ‘bout this, Baby—we get a nursery decorator in there and let them do all the work? The last thing I want is to have you stressed out over decorating the nursery.” “But I want to help with making sure my babies have a warm and welcoming environment.” “I know you do and I think it's fine for you to help, but let someone else do the stressing. They can show you what they have and you make the final decisions. You can help put it all together if you want.” “We can help put it together.” “Right.” “Daddy, you know what we need? We have to get this teddy bear that records the sounds in my tummy so we can put it next to them when they sleep so they can be lulled by the sounds of their familiar place.” “How does that work?” 244 245 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “We just sit it on my belly and let it record for however long it takes. We have to get two.” “Alright. If you want it, we'll get it.” “We have to get a monitor and I need a breast pump. Dr. Reese said that if I want to breastfeed, I have to keep my milk up, so I need a pump and to work with it for a little while each day. Hopefully, if I do that, my milk will drop after they're born and they can work on latching on and not be disappointed when nothing comes out.” “Miss Vivien-Leigh, we'll get those for you today. How about you start with the breast pump tomorrow and tonight, and you let me fill in for the babies?” “You want to suck at my breasts, Frankie? You want Mama to feed you?” “Oh most certainly. It's one of the things I love most about foreplay. I get to lie on top of you and get my mouth nice and tight around those nipples and then I play with them when they're hard. I could do that all night.” “You're so flattering. How about you do that all night tonight? I know this is probably gonna be the last time my breasts sit up all high and perky. They're already starting to head south.” 245 246 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Bunny, you are going to be beautiful whether you have sagging breasts or not. You are my wife and even though I've had a couple before you, none of them can compare to you or your beauty. Most importantly, you’re gonna look damn good naked either way.” “Even with the stretch marks?” “Especially with the stretch marks.” “Ooh, they're kicking again! Feel, Frankie.” I let him feel his children kicking around in my belly and if only you could have seen the way his face lit up. Frank was the proudest father in the world. He already had two big, smart, and handsome boys and a gorgeous and insanely smart daughter, and soon, he was going to have two more beautiful and intelligent little girls. My nesting instincts were in full effect after that day. I spent a lot of time getting things ready for the babies. We had hired a person for the nursery décor and I'd been shopping for clothes and bottles and everything else my angels would need. I knew that I would have a baby shower, but I had this undying need to make sure my girls would be heavily influenced by my sense of style. 246 247 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ At the end of my thirty-third week of pregnancy, my friend Jay and my sister Veronique threw me a baby shower. Veronique isn’t my biological sister, but when I made the move to Broadway, she was the first person I met. She took me under her wing and we’ve been like peas in a pod ever since. They rented out this ballroom and it was completely pink! There were millions of pink balloons and banners welcoming Princesses Grace and Ruby into our lives; there were several tables of hors d'oeuvres, a chocolate fountain, and the prettiest 7-layer cake I'd ever seen. The gift table was overflowing and I was so overwhelmed with the fact that people were doing this all for us. I wore a pretty new strapless pink dress with a gold bow and gold stilettos that caused me to cling to Frank every time I had to stand or walk—I was so afraid of falling over. I had my hair pressed out and my makeup done by another professional makeup artist because I was fat and my arms were not in the mood to reach for anything other than food. Frank wore a suit and the kids dressed up in the things I'd gotten them for Christmas. Ronnie and Jay had gone out of their way to make us feel like royalty. Frank beamed the entire time we were there; his arms stayed wrapped around my belly and me. He had his hand on it every chance he could get. “You having a good time, Princess Nadi?” “Uh huh.” 247 248 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You sure? I don’t want you to feel left out. You know that Daddy and I will continue to love you and make a fuss over you after the babies are born. Nothing will change.” “I know, Mama.” “That’s my big girl! You want Auntie Ronnie or Miss Jay to get you anything else? You want some more fruit from the chocolate fountain?” “Maybe.” I kissed her head and ran my fingers through her straight hair. It’s weird when she has her hair straight—she doesn’t look like our baby. We only let her do it because I had my hair straightened. I love her with her pretty natural curls. “Mama, which baby is this?” She rubbed the right side of my belly, trying to get around her father’s giant hand—which covered the entire middle. “I think right is Ruby and left is Claire. I’m starting to get them mixed up, myself.” “Hi, Baby Sister. I hope you and your twin are being good for Mama in there. You can’t make her hurt anymore, okay?” “Aww, Angel Face, you keep talking some sense into your baby sisters! You girls hear that? Big Sister Nadi is giving you a good lesson. Frank, move your hand and let Nadi bond with her sisters.” 248 249 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I’m sorry, Darlin’. Princess, help me rub Mama’s belly.” That entire day was an emotional one for me, but having my husband and my daughter rub my belly and bond with those babies was almost overwhelming. I was glad when Jay came over to distract me from my emotions for a few seconds. “How you doin’, Big Girl?” “You see all this love I’m getting from my babies? How do you think I’m feeling?” “Like the luckiest woman alive.” “I am! Oh, Jay, could you get Miss America some more fruit from the chocolate fountain?” “Sure thing, Honey.” “Oh, and no peaches. She’s allergic.” “I will do that, but first—here, Viv, open this one.” “Thank you, Jay. Who's this from? Oh, it's from your production crew, Daddy.” “Really? Go ahead and open that up, I need to see this.” I opened the box and pulled out a big black tshirt that had his logo print on the front that said ‘Judge Lattimore Laid Down The Law.' We all had a good laugh and Frank was adamant about letting everyone know how it went down. 249 250 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Damn right! I laid it down good, too! Didn’t I, Baby?” “It was a memorable time, Honey.” I tried to humor him. “From what I hear, it was only five minutes worth of remembering.” Ronnie chimed in and everyone started to laugh. Frank was in a rather festive mood, so he didn’t even feel the need to feed into their typical playful banter. “It might have been only five minutes, but I assure you, I did some damage in those five minutes! I knocked her smooth out, too.” “Frankie, don't downplay your abilities like that. I say it was eight and a half minutes and to be fair, I was half asleep anyway. Okay, next gift.” “You have to open this one; it's from me.” “Aww, Jay; you threw me this party! You didn't have to get me anything.” “Of course I do. You're my best friend—my sister—and you're having my nieces! Auntie Jay is going to make sure they have the best.” I opened Jay's gift and pulled out the cutest velour baby bag ever! “A Juicy Couture baby bag! Thank you, Jay!” “You're welcome! It’s fresh from the new baby accessory line and look what it's got in it—a changing pad, a burping pad, and a matching bib. I had to get 250 251 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ another one because I don't want one to feel left out. I got them a lot of cute baby Dior shirts and undershirts, skirts, and socks. Those little princesses are going to be in style!” “These are just what I wanted. Thank you so much, Sweetheart.” “No problem.” “Look what you're going to have to carry around when you're with the kids, Honey.” “I'm not carrying around a red terry cloth bag that has some logo blasted on the front. Especially not one that says 'Juicy' on it.” “Well, it's velour and this is their official bag, so get used to it. You’ll be spending alone time with your girls and this goes where they go. You'll learn to love it.” “Yeah, whatever.” “I know.” “Viv, come take a short walk with me over to this table and tell me how much you love these centerpieces.” “Alright, but I'm gonna have to hold on to you, Jay.” “Bunny, you need me to walk you over there?” 251 252 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “No, Frankie, it's alright. I need to try and make it without you for a little while. You can help me up, though.” He got up and pulled me out of my chair and helped me down from the platform where we sat, over to Jay at the bottom. I know she was pulling me aside so she and Ronnie could tell me what Frank had gotten me as a shower gift. He was keeping it a secret and they were my spies, seeing as how she managed my favorite boutique and knew just about all the insiders at the other major retail establishments. I took Jay by the arm and held her tight as she walked me far enough away from Frank's earshot. Ronnie met us over near one of the gift tables. “Alright Jay, what did he get me?” “See, that's what I was going to tell you. I don't know.” “What do you mean, you don't know?” “I don't! I knew he came in the shop, but I was in the back. I told the girls that if they saw him to stick to him and make sure to show him all the good things. The one girl that helped him when he came in said that all he said was that he was 'just looking for something for the wife' and left shortly after.” “Darn! What about all the other shops in Beverly Hills? He didn't get anything from anyone around there?” 252 253 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I talked to all of my insiders and they said that they saw him looking, but he didn't get anything.” “What do you know, Ronnie?” “Your guess is as good as mine. I offered to go to the Beverly Center with him, just to see what he had in mind. We went to one store and left. Just left! Who does that? Did you know your husband was such a terrible shopper?” “Yes, I did. He’s an old man and he doesn’t like to be bothered with shopping unless it’s for himself and he knows exactly what he wants. Frank only shops with me because it keeps me happy. I must admit—he is a crafty one, that Judge Lattimore.” “That's your man.” “I know, Ronnie, and I think that for once, he's outsmarted me.” “As much as it kills me to say it, I think you're right about that.” I could not believe that he had finally been able to buy something for me in this city and successfully hide it from me. I was starting to get antsy about the entire situation because if he'd gone out of his way to keep it this much of a secret, then it had to be big and good. “Hey Bunny, you’ve been on your feet long enough. Don't you wanna come on back and sit down?” Jay, Ronnie, and I turned around and he was shouting at 253 254 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ me from across the room. I knew he wanted to give me his present and I was ready to receive it. “Let’s get you back to your crazy man before he comes down here picking you up and lugging you back up to that throne he's got you on.” “That sounds really good ‘cause these shoes are a killer.” “But you look cute, though, with your big old pregnant self. You so damn pregnant, you're country pregnant. You look like you should be barefoot and waddling around in the kitchen.” “What do you think I've been doing since I got pregnant, Jay? Ask Ronnie—my husband just loves the sight of me barefoot and big in his bed and in his kitchen.” “Oh yeah, he goes into overdrive when he comes home and she’s in the kitchen burning dinner. He starts rubbing up on her and against her and then he ends up talking her right out of her shoes and over on his lap.” “You're serious?” “Yes! I bet you—as a matter of fact, how much money do you have on you right now?” “I got a $50 in my pocket, why?” 254 255 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I bet you that $50 that the minute I get back up there, he's gonna ask me if I want my shoes off and take them off anyway.” “You're on. Ronnie, you in?” “No thank you. I already know how this is going to play out.” Jay and Ronnie helped me waddle back over to the platform set up and they pushed me up as Frank got up and pulled me to the top. He sat me down and kissed me as he rubbed my belly. “Everything alright?” “Uh huh, everything is fine. I think I want to take all the centerpieces home.” “Well, that's just fine. You want me to take your shoes off, Bunny? Let your feet breathe for a little bit?” Frank went and took my leg in his hands; he rubbed it and slid my shoe off. Jay reached in her pocket and handed me the $50 that we we'd agreed upon. “Dammit!” Ronnie and I laughed as I held the bill in my fingers, thinking of where to put it. “Put that in your pocket for me, Daddy.” “What's that about?” “Nothing important—just a little bet we had going on. Never mind, I'm just gonna put it in my bra and hope it doesn't get lost in there.” 255 256 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You know without doubt, hesitation, or question, I’ll fish it out for you, Baby.” “I know you will.” “Alright, a couple more gifts and then we can get down to eating and you guys can cut the cake.” “Daddy's got something for you, Big Girl.” “Frank, I’m not in the mood right now, okay? I’d have to take my shoes off and I’m way too big for you to hold up right now. I’m also not interested in having my back pressed up against anything.” “No, woman. I got you a gift.” “I’m sorry, Honey! What is it?” “...Wait, homegirl's got something else for you to open first.” “I don't care about that! What did you get me?” “Just wait and see, Baby. Be patient and open this one first.” I snatched my leg out of his grasp and he laughed to himself as I straightened up in my seat and let Jay sit the box on my lap. I ripped off the paper and pulled out a shirt…more pregnancy shirts. I really wondered if a lot of people didn't realize that in a few weeks, I'd no longer be pregnant. 256 257 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Isn't that cute? 'Judge Lattimore’s Babies’ Mama'! There's one for you, too, Daddy. 'Vivien-Leigh's Babies Daddy.'” “That's real nice, Baby. Look, I got something for you.” “Yay! What did Daddy get me? Feel that—the babies are excited, too.” “I can see your hand moving from where they're kicking. You're giving me some strong legged little girls and if they're anything like you, they're gonna be eight feet tall. They'd better be athletes, too; it’ll save us a little college money.” “Frankie, stop it. They'll decide what they do; all we have to do is unfold the world and show them the options that they have. Now, where's my present?” “Alright, Big Girl. Buying gifts for you is usually really hard because you've got your spies there to find out what I'm getting and report it back to you. I'm proud to say that this is one that neither one of them could crack the case on.” Tres and Julez came out with a large box and I started to get nervous. They set the gift in front of me, but angled it so all the guests could see. Frank and Nadi pulled me up from my seat and he put an arm around me as I held Nadi’s hand and marveled at the gift. I was so anxious to see it! 257 258 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Well, they’re my best friends; they have to make sure I'm taken care of.” “That's my job, too, Bunny. I got you something that I know you'd love and never think about in a million years. Go ahead and open it.” I ripped the paper off and it was a giant portrait of us from a few months ago. We were sitting up in bed—him against the headboard in his pajamas, me between his legs in a lilac colored short silk nightie. He was reading to the babies and me, so he was wearing his glasses, looking distinguished and fine as ever. He had the book in one hand and was holding his other hand on my belly. We had taken a kiss break when Tres came in and took that picture. It completely picked up on the intimacy of the moment and the shine from the diamonds on my ears, neck, and ring were magnified in the blow up that sat in front of me. “Frankie, Honey, this is beautiful.” “I just knew you'd like it. I had it blown up and framed and I was thinking we could put it in the girls' room. There they can be reminded of when Mommy carried them and one of Daddy's many attempts to educate them pre-birth.” “That's a wonderful place to put this. I can’t believe you did this! I love it and I love you—I can’t wait to carry more babies for you.” “I hope you remember this after labor.” I kissed him and he took over me, taking control of it and my 258 259 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ body. He rubbed my back and made me weak in the knees. “I love you.” “I love you, and thank you for bearing my babies. You're a strong woman to be putting up with me and carrying twins for me.” “I'm strong and patient. Thank you for giving me the babies to carry. It's always been my dream to be a mother, but I had to wait for the right person to come around and make me one. I couldn't have been sent a better man than you.” “I know that's right. Alright, my Glamazon, let's get back to this party. I think we've spent enough time all huddled together up here.” He separated us and held my hand as he and Nadi helped me back over to my seat. Frank kissed me once again as he sat next to me and beamed like the proud papa that he was soon to be again. I took pictures with my guys and my precious Nadi Doll; there were so many that ranged between them all putting their hands on my belly or them all kissing my fat face. I was happy to have Nadi with us for the baby shower, despite her mother’s attempts to try and keep her away from us even though Frank and I had joint custody. Lisa and I really weren’t on the best of terms, but I always tried to put my best foot forward with her and be friendly—for Nadi. 259 260 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Lisa didn’t care for the fact that Frank and I were going to be together and there was no possible way for her to be with him like they were when Nadi was conceived. She noticed that the feelings that he had for me were nothing like the feelings that he had when he was with her. Frank told me that he only spent time with Lisa when he wasn’t in the mood to eat alone and needed sexual release. She wasn’t extremely interesting and her bland outlook on life left very little else to be desired. He also said that she wasn’t very good in bed, but when he really needed to have some he didn’t have to do much to get it from her. Lisa had no idea he felt that way about her, so she thought she’d have no problems slipping back into a relationship—until she met all six feet of me. I was always nice to her, but we began having issues when Frank would call to speak with Nadi and she would get on the phone and try to sweet talk him. She’d even try to send messages through Nadi. Her story of only contacting him just to get help with Nadi was a lie and a half. Once, Frank told me that she’d told him about all the sexually explicit things she would do for him if he’d come home to Memphis to be with her and make a real family for Nadi. She’d made the mistake of calling him again when he’d left me in charge of his cell phone as we waited in line for movie tickets. I told her that he and I were both flattered by her proposition, but we were in a very solid relationship and she needed to respect that and 260 261 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ adhere to those boundaries, ultimately showing respect for herself and Nadi, if not for me. I passed the phone to Frank after speaking with her and by then, a war had been started. She loved to threaten Frankie about keeping Nadi away since he’d missed six and a half years. I believe the world knows how much my man loves and cares about his babies. If you really want to piss him off, you mess with his babies. He had to tell her that he’d already filed for joint custody of his daughter and he would’ve loved to see her test him and his standing with the law. On one of our summer vacations to Memphis, our first week there she started dropping nuclear bombs. Frank and I had been out visiting most of the day because Nadi was still in school, but he had made specific plans to spend time with her in the evening. He’d planned to go over, help with homework, make it a movie night, tuck her into bed, and stay with her until she fell asleep. Lisa loved that idea because it allowed her to spend time with him and put her plan in motion. Frank came home to me that night, upset, confused, and out of his normal frame of mind. “Baby…Baby; I need to talk to you. Baby, please.” “Huh? What’s the matter, Honey? Is Nadi okay?” Frank was crouched down on the floor next to me; he was visibly flustered and upset. 261 262 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Nadi’s fine, VL. VL, Baby, you not gon’ like what I’m about to tell you.” “What’s wrong, Frank?” I sat up in our bed as he tried holding my hand to brace me for something serious. “VL, Baby, I cheated on you.” “…You what?” The tears welled up in my eyes, but I couldn’t let them flow. My heart pounded in my chest and he could see it. He could see the hurt in my body, but I could also see the hurt in his eyes. I could see that he wasn’t all there. I pulled my hand away from him and refused to let him touch me, despite his attempts to take my hand or rest his hand on my thigh. “I cheated on you, Vivien-Leigh, but I swear to God I don’t know how it happened.” “What do you mean you don’t know how it happened? Frank, how could you do this to us? I love you so much and this is what you do? Was it with Lisa?” “Yes, it was, and I’m so sorry, Baby. I know you love me and I love you, too, VL. Baby, I don’t know how it happened. I swear—” “What did you do with her?” “You wanna know?” “If I’m going to leave you, I want to know the full extent of what you did. You promised to always be 262 263 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ completely honest with me and I think I deserve that much right now.” “…You wanna leave me? Baby, why? I’m sorry—I don’t even know how it happened! VL, think about this.” “I need to know what you did before I choose to leave you. You promised to be honest, did you not?” “I did.” “Start now.” He searched his brain and I could tell it was hard for him. My first instinct was to think that he’d been drinking, but even with alcohol in his system he was never that confused. “You want to know what I remember or what happened?” “I want to know everything.” I sat up and stared into his semi vacant eyes. My heart continued to pound in my chest as I waited to hear about his infidelity. “Well, when I got there I remember helping Nadi with her homework. We did math and science and I read a chapter from her English assignment with her. When we finished homework, she wanted to watch a movie so we popped some popcorn and settled on the couch with Lisa to watch the Wizard of Oz. After the movie, Nadi went to get washed up for bed and I sat downstairs with Lisa. We sat, made small talk, and watched television. Nadi came downstairs to get me so I 263 264 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ could tuck her in. I got her in bed, held her in my arms, told her how much I loved her and would always be around for her. I held her like that until she fell asleep.” How could he remember all of this, but not his indiscretion? I held my tongue and tried to hear him out before making any decisions. His eyes were telling me something, but I just couldn’t figure it out. “When she was out cold, I slipped from under her and kissed her one last time. I headed down the stairs and there was Lisa. She had a drink in her hand and was telling me how she knew she talked a lot of shit but she’s glad that I had joint custody and how she loved watching me with Nadi…how Nadi loved having her daddy around and how good that made her feel. She asked me if I wanted a drink and I remember telling her that I needed to leave and she asked if I was leaving to get back to my Amazon. I told her that I was. She said that I could have one little drink with her; it’s the least I could do since she’d been in labor with my baby for thirteen hours. I gave in.” He didn’t know what to do with his hands. Normally, his hands helped him tell his story, but at this moment he had no idea what to do with them. I’d never seen him that distraught before, but I held on to my emotions. “She insisted I have a seat in the living room while she made it for me. When she finally brought it out, I couldn’t recognize the taste. It was vodka but I 264 265 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ couldn’t tell what it was mixed with. She said it was ginger ale and Sprite, but I only took a few sips. It’s hazy from there, VL. Baby, I just remember feeling out of it and maybe falling asleep. I opened my eyes and caught her with her mouth on my dick. I tried to move my arms to push her away, but they just felt so heavy. I tried moving my body, but I just couldn’t. She gave me head ‘til I came and by then, I could lift my arms and move my body. I shoved her away, got myself together, and left. I don’t even know how I got home. I just got in the car and then I was home.” “Did you enjoy it? I hope you did. I hope it was worth breaking my heart over.” A few tears fell from his eyes as a river flowed from mine. “I remember you being concerned about me being the heart breaker, but I guess the shoe’s on the other foot now.” “Baby, I never wanted to hurt you. I promised you that I wouldn’t and I’m sorry for breaking that promise. To think that I could break your heart—it breaks mine. VL, I don’t know what else to say or to do. I would never hurt you on purpose; I love you so damn much. I just don’t know how this happened. I swear to God, Baby, I don’t know.” “I don’t know what to say to you…I don’t know what to think of you right now, Franklin. I just—I don’t know.” I broke down into hysterics and he tried to put his arms around me, but I fought him. Frank finally got his arms around me and held me. He got up on the bed and tried to comfort me and a part of me let him. His 265 266 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ eyes began to corroborate his story towards the end and it’s a visual I couldn’t get out of my head. “I’m sorry, VL. I’m so sorry. Baby, don’t leave me. I know I did a bad thing; I admit that and I apologize. I mean it. I really want to make this up to you. I want you to forgive me so we can work things out and get on with our thing. I’m sorry.” Frank consoled me and repeated himself over and over until I fell asleep. Or, at least until he thought I’d fallen asleep. When he thought I was asleep, he gently laid me down and slipped off to the shower to get washed up for bed. I got up and got dressed. He’d told me a whole story that only got hazy after he’d sat down to have a drink with that scheming woman. I was going to find out what happened to my man. I got in the car and called the On-Star representative to get directions to the last place Frank had been. They led me straight to Lisa. I went up to her door and rang the bell; I’m sure she thought I was Frankie and didn’t even bother to inquire as to who was at her door that time of morning. “I had a feeling you’d be back—” “Oh you did, did you?” Before she could lock her screen door, I’d pulled it open. She quickly began backing away because she knew that I wasn’t there to be cordial. “Get away from me before I call the police!” “What did you do to Franklin?” 266 267 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I gave him a reason to come back home to Memphis and be with his baby—where he needs to be. Not with some six foot Amazonian child.” “I don’t know what you think you did, but let me clarify for you. What you did do was make this Amazon very, very angry. Now, when this Amazon gets angry, usually Frank steps in. But since this concerns Frank, the Amazon is more than ready to handle this pesky old problem. You keep throwing yourself at my man and he and I have told you many times that it’s unappreciated. He came home to me, upset and bewildered tonight, telling me that he cheated on me. I’d normally leave a man where he stood for infidelity, but I will not let you have the satisfaction.” “So he told you that we had sex?” “No, he told me that you gave him oral gratification against his will. I know Franklin and I know his levels of endurance and I know that with me, sex lasts for quite some time. I doubt that he could even give you a few minutes—his stamina doesn’t allow that. He could go on for hours. You say he had sex with you because you think it’ll anger me. It angers me that you’re a dirty liar who drugged my man and performed oral sex on him. It angers me that you use his baby as a pawn in your nasty little scheme. What you’re going to do is show me what you used on him so I can get it out of his system and make sure it doesn’t harm him.” 267 268 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I don’t have to do anything.” I began walking toward her and she quickly began walking away. She and I both knew she was afraid of me and that’s the way I liked to keep things. “You don’t?” I grabbed her by the hair and nearly had her on her knees cowering in front of me in fear of her life. “Lisa, you don’t know me. I may be very refined and polite and proper, but you’d better know that I am a New Yorker. Don’t let my Manhattan upbringing fool you. I will fuck you up if I have to. Don’t make me prove that. What you’re going to do is get me the drug you used on Franklin. Understand me?” She nodded at me as she made her way to her feet. We began walking towards the kitchen, but were interrupted along the way. “Miss Vivie?” “Hello, Sweetheart! How are you?” I let go of Lisa’s hair and shoved her towards the kitchen. Lisa knew I wasn’t playing games, and with Nadi awake, she needed to get me what I wanted and out of her house without another scene. “I’m fine.” “Well, come here and give me a big hug! I haven’t seen you all day, Miss America. You get more gorgeous each time I see you.” 268 269 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Thank you.” I hugged Nadi and gave Lisa a hard glare at the same time. She was quickly putting together the things she used. “Is my daddy okay?” “Oh, Honey, Daddy’s just fine. He’s feeling a little funny, but he’ll be okay in the morning. I hope you’re ready to spend the rest of the summer with us. We’re going to have a good time!” “I am! Daddy said he would teach me to ride his horse!” “I know, and I know you’ll enjoy it.” “Miss Vivie, will I be rude if I ask why you’re here?” “Not at all, Sweetness. I just stopped by to see if your mommy knew what was making Daddy’s head feel a little dizzy.” “Daddy was not feeling bad when he was with me.” “I know he wasn’t, Darling, and that’s because your daddy just loves you and loves being with you. You make Daddy feel so good, but he stayed to talk with your mommy for a little while when you were asleep and that’s when he started feeling a little bad.” “Mommy did you make Daddy sick?” 269 270 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “No, Nadi Doll. It must’ve been something Daddy drank. Here you go, Viv. I hope that helps you.” “It actually saves you. Thank you, Lisa. Well, Miss Nadi, I must get back to Daddy. I want you to get right back to sleep, okay?” “Okay.” “Good girl. I love you, Angel Face.” “I love you too, Miss Vivie.” “Alright, good night.” I took the bag from Lisa before hugging Nadi tightly one last time. “Lisa, would you mind walking me to the front door please?” “Of course, Viv.” As she walked me to the door, Nadi continued to stand in the hall and watch us. I grabbed Lisa quickly and pulled her close to me and hugged her. “I hope you enjoyed the taste of my vagina when you gave Frank oral. We made love right before he came over this evening and he loves to revel in the feeling and to reminisce about the encounter—especially when he brings his Glamazon to full orgasm three times all over him. Now, I know how I taste, but I was just wondering how you enjoyed it? Frank says I taste like brown sugar. What do you think? Maybe you two should compare notes one day.” 270 271 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ I let her go and put on another big smile for Nadi. “Good night, Lisa. Sleep tight, Pretty Girl.” I blew Nadi a kiss before giving Lisa another glare. The look on her face said everything I needed it to say and a whole lot more. I knew that Lisa would find a way to fight back, I just didn’t know when. I’m usually not good with directions, but I managed to remember the right route home and on the way there, I found three missed calls from Frank. When we get into a serious fight, he usually calls twice and then shuts his phone off and leaves it up to me to contact him. When things escalate into something terrible, he calls three times and on the third call, he leaves a message saying it would be the last time he bothered so if I wanted to deal with things, I would have to find him. If it’s a one sided argument and he thinks I’m making too much of things, he’ll call me every day until I give in and talk to him. This was an extremely serious situation we were in—he didn’t even bother to leave any messages and I didn’t return his calls. I got back to the house to find him sitting on the couch, in the dark with a drink in hand. “I wasn’t expecting to see you again tonight.” “Normally, you wouldn’t.” “I got a call from Lisa about you kicking in her door and attacking her.” 271 272 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “That’s what she told you?” “That’s what she said, but I didn’t believe her. I know you pretty well and I’m going to believe that the most you could’ve done was get in her face and make a threat or two.” “That’s an interesting assumption.” He put his glass down and I put down the bag I’d received from Lisa. “Frank, I wish you wouldn’t drink right now.” “Considering the night I’ve had, I think I’m owed one. But this is water, though. I take your presence here tonight as a sign that you’ve reconsidered your proposition to sever ties.” “Charles Franklin Lattimore, Jr., I care about you in a way that I’ve never cared about any man. I’ve been cheated on before and it has always been my policy to sever ties and move on with my life. I’ve learned the hard way that cheaters don’t stop at one incident; the first time just makes it easier for all the encounters to follow. One thing that I’ve gotten from you that I’ve never gotten from any of the others is the truth. You told me everything that I wanted to know and you were as hurt—if not more—than I was.” Frank stood as I spoke and slowly made his way to me. He stood in front of me, but several feet away to give me space. He reached for my hand and I slowly let him have it. 272 273 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You told me the truth and I saw your hurt and felt your pain. I wondered to myself how he could remember so well the events that led to his indiscretion but not the actual act itself. Then, I saw it in your eyes. You were disoriented—your body was doing one thing, but your mind was somewhere else. I went to Lisa to find out what she had done to my baby.” “Your baby?” “Mama’s baby. I did get in her face, I did threaten her, and this may surprise you, but I even grabbed a handful of her hair and brought her to her knees just to get answers about what she had done to you.” Frank looked impressed and shocked all at the same time. I’d given him my other hand and he’d taken a few steps closer to me. “And what did you find out?” “That she drugged you. Nadi came downstairs and saved her mother from any physical harm. She made use of her distraction and rounded up the contents of your drink and gave them to me before I could do anything else to her.” He held me in his arms and we stood nose to nose in the living room, slowly putting our relationship back together. “You did all of that for me?” “It was done for our relationship. She’s not going to break us apart, no matter how hard she tries. God put us together for a reason and she can’t ruin that.” 273 274 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I’m sorry I broke your heart, Vivien-Leigh.” “I know you’ll do everything you can to mend it.” “You’re damn right I will. You still love me, Baby?” He had a look of anticipation in his eyes that just tugged on my heartstrings. God only knows how much I love that man of mine. “Of course I do, Franklin. I love you so much.” “I love you more than anything, VL.” We kissed and held each other. “And Lisa thinks you taste like brown sugar, too. Stale brown sugar, but I told her that she should’ve caught me when you were fresh off my dick.” He and I shared a laugh before I broke away to do some research on the drug that witch used on Frankie. It turned out to be a stronger mix of a date rape drug, Viagra, and muscle relaxers. It was an illegal street drug and the only way to fully remove it from his system was to keep him hydrated with water and have him urinate it out— depending on the amount he was given. I wanted Frank to press charges against her, but he refused. He explained that he wasn’t going to do it because he was just getting to know Nadi and he couldn’t take her mother away from her. He didn’t want his baby to hate him, so he was going to put her on notice and try to not be alone with her. I may not have 274 275 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ liked his decision, but I certainly understood it. I was placed in a similar situation weeks later. 275 276 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ Frank and I decided to have a barbeque for the family and some friends and since Nadi was with us, she wanted her mama to come. Well, we couldn’t object to the baby’s request. Lisa was a part of the family—until Nadi turns eighteen, anyway. At the time, I wasn’t very good in the cooking department, so everyone was asked to bring a dish and I ordered in a few things from a local restaurant. Frank and Sterling did all of the grilling, cooking everything from handmade sausage links to beef and pork ribs to rib eye steaks. I felt a badly about there not being any chicken, but I’m allergic to nearly everything related to poultry and couldn’t afford to take any risks. While Frank and his brother did the grilling outside, his sister-in-law and I stayed inside, preparing the table and keeping the guests happy. “Thank you so much for helping me, Kandy.” “It’s nothing, Viv. I know you just want everything to be nice.” “I also want to thank you for cooking most of this food. I feel bad for adding more things to your already hectic schedule.” “Viv, it’s okay. I had to cook dinner anyway! So, Syl isn’t coming is she?” “No, she told Frank that she had better things to do than to spend time with us.” 276 277 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Well, damn!” “That’s just fine by me. I’ve got enough to worry about with Lisa en route.” “I forgot about her! It would be an absolute mess if she and Syl were here—thank God for small blessings. Viv, you’re doing a wonderful job with the boys, and especially Nadi.” “Why, thank you. I try my hardest to do the best by them.” “I can tell. Not many women would willingly embrace a man with a teenager, a young kid, ex-wives, and a baby he didn’t even know he had. Frank did a good job picking you.” “He did, didn’t he?” Kandy and I shared a quick laugh as Nadi made her way into the kitchen with us. “Miss Vivie, Aunt Kandy?” “Yes, Sweetness?” “Daddy and Uncle Bubba ask that you bring some more beers, please.” “Oh, I will get right on that, Sweetie. Thank you.” I immediately went into the fridge and grabbed a couple bottles of beer and removed the tops. “Wow, Viv.” 277 278 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “What’s wrong?” “…Nothing…you just dropped everything and went for their drinks? I’m impressed…cause I damn sure don’t do that.” “Well, they asked.” “I guess. Miss Renada, you are just so pretty!” “Thank you, Aunt Kandy.” “I didn’t notice that you and Viv are dressed alike! How cute!” “Thank you! Frank got these for us a few days ago and Miss Nadi insisted that we wear them today. Nadi, let’s model our outfits for Aunt Kandy.” Nadi and I posed and twirled in our matching pink jumpsuits. “You really like our outfits, Aunt Kandy?” “Of course I do! You’re both so cute.” “Nadi’s the cute one! You are absolutely beautiful, Baby.” I held her cheek in one hand and planted a kiss on her forehead. “Thank you. I can’t wait for my mommy to see us!” “Well, Honey, I’m sure she’ll love it.” Kandy and I quickly exchanged hard glances. I already knew that upon Lisa’s arrival, she’d find a million faults. 278 279 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Hey, Miss Nadi? Aunt Kandy needs you to do her a really big favor. I know you’re a big girl and Maya’s just a baby, so would you mind going upstairs and checking on her for me?” “Okay, Aunt Kandy.” “Thank you, Ma’am.” “Miss Nadi, I’m gonna take these out to Daddy so if you need me, I’ll be right outside.” “Okay!” Nadi ran off to the stairs. I was so proud to be an influence in her life, and enjoying being around her. “Viv, you’re going to be a great mama.” “You think so?” “I can tell—you beam when that girl’s around you.” “Well you can you do me a favor and tell Frank? I’m not getting any younger and neither is he.” I left the kitchen and went out to the yard where all the men were. I slapped on a smile and prepared myself to deal with Frank and my hormones. Seeing him all manly over a grill made me want to tackle him to the ground and have my way with him. “I’ve got a couple of ice cold beers, per your request.” 279 280 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Thank you, Miss Vivien-Leigh.” “You’re absolutely welcome, Sterling.” “Thank you, Baby.” “You’re welcome, Daddy.” He and I kissed briefly on the lips. He put his arm around my waist, pulled me up close to him, and rested his hand on my backside. “Hold that bottle for me, Bunny.” “Ok. There’s beer out here already, Honey. Why’d you ask Nadi for more?” “I didn’t buy that beer for us, I bought it for them. Bubba and I got a brand we like and they didn’t put in on it.” “I see. Are you making sure Tres doesn’t drink?” “Baby, he knows what he’s supposed to do; he’s with family. I wouldn’t blame ‘em for sipping.’” “That’s how Chill and I started—we got passed a bottle or two at family cookouts. No harm in that.” “If you think it’s okay, it’s okay, I guess!” “Long as I don’t see it he’s fine. And speakin’ of fine, look at my baby! Go on and turn around so I can see all that fineness!” Frank twirled me around slowly 280 281 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ and let out a whistle of approval. He pulled me in close again and rested his hand on my backside as he turned the meat on the grill. “You see that, Bubba? Six feet of fine.” “Yes indeed. Now am I mistaken or is Nadi wearing the same thing?” “You’re not mistaken. Miss Nadi and I are wearing mother-daughter ensembles; God only knows what Lisa will say when she sees us.” “The hell with Lisa. I’m not in the mood for her shit today. I’m trying to enjoy my family and time with my fine ass lady.” He rubbed my backside firmly before gripping and holding it. “When you two gonna go ahead and get married already? Hell, you might as well be.” Frank nearly choked on his beer when he heard his brother say that. I patted his back and tried to calm him down. Sterling was only saying the same thing that I’d been saying for months. “You okay, Daddy?” “I’m fine, Vivie.” He tossed Sterling a quick look, as if to tell him not to give me any more ideas. His brother knew that we needed to go ahead and make it legal. We weren’t going to leave each other any time soon. Sterling and I high fived when Frank turned his attention back to the grill. 281 282 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Don’t think I didn’t see that.” “Ooh, wait, you got little beer right there.” I licked the beer that ran down his face back up to his lips and he leaned in for a kiss. He kissed me so passionately that he slipped his forearm underneath my butt and lifted me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and held on tightly. While we carried on like horny teenagers, Lisa made her grand entrance to our home. “There goes the bell! I wonder who that could be, Nadi?” “It’s my mommy, Aunt Kandy!” “I see that. Let’s go let her in.” Kandy let Lisa in and they automatically exchanged hard glances. “Mommy!” “Hi Nadi Doll!” “Hey Lisa.” “Kandy...” “Well, come in.” Nadi didn’t realize at the time that her mother was at war with her father’s family. She would come to Sterling and Kandy’s house to try and unload her displeasure with Frank and myself on them. She thought she could get Sterling on her side because she knew that Frank and Sterling had an extremely tight bond. She 282 283 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ thought complaining and carrying on with him would garner some kind of sympathy that would make Sterling talk to Frank about leaving me. Lisa knew she couldn’t go public with her petty problems because Frank is an excellent father. Frank tried to keep Lisa happy so she would be quiet, but he wasn’t going to separate from me to please her. “Mommy, do you like my outfit?” “I think it’s cute, Nadi Doll. Who bought you that?” “Daddy bought it.” “Oh, well, you look very pretty. I like the little straps.” “But Miss Vivie picked it out.” “She did, did she?” “Uh huh and she has one, too!” “Well, you’re showing absolutely too much skin for someone so young. Who leaves your hair out like that?” “Miss Vivie. Mommy, she does this thing with this creamy stuff and some kind of oil and it comes out all pretty! She pulls it up at night and she bought me this special pillow to sleep on so when I wake up my hair isn’t flat and it’s all soft.” 283 284 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I see. Nadi, go put on a sweater and get a hair bow. I don’t like your hair out like that. You’re not old enough to look like this.” “…Okay, Mommy.” Nadi sulked away and Kandy just shook her head in dismay. “How old do you think that girl is?” “Excuse me?” “You treat her like she’s a baby. She’s seven years old now and she finally looks like a seven year old. What is wrong with you?” “I choose to raise my child with good Christian values and self respect. If you want that baby of yours to look and dress like a hoochie mama, then that’s your business.” “My baby won’t have all the issues yours has, that’s for sure. Just because you hate Viv doesn’t mean that she has to. She loves Vivien-Leigh and she’s been a better mother to your baby than you’ve been. Get over yourself, Lisa.” “Go to hell, Kandy.” “That’s not good Christian woman speak! Lisa, you’re pathetic. Frank and Viv are in the backyard. I’m already tired of you.” She left Lisa in the living room and went back to the kitchen as Nadi made her way back downstairs. 284 285 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Here, Mommy.” “Thank you, Nadi for doing what I asked. Alright, let’s go see your daddy.” Nadi held her mother’s hand and led her out to the backyard where Frank was still showing off his strength and holding me up in his arms. “Darlin,’ you’re not wearing a bra, are you?” “Per your request, I’ve forgone the harness for the day.” “Good, ‘cause I need the motivation for when this thing is over. I’m gonna take you upstairs, lay you down, and be all over ‘em.” “You mean after this get together is over and we make that little stop over at Tiffany?” I gently pressed my nose against his and looked into his pretty brown eyes. “After we stop at Tiffany. I promised to get you something nice, but only if you’re pleasant with Lisa.” “And I will be very pleasant.” Frank and I kissed before I pulled away and rested my forehead against his. “Well, I guess the party’s over.” “What you talkin’ about, Bubba?” “Baby mama at ten o’clock.” 285 286 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Honey, you can put me down now.” “Says who?” “Says me. You know how she’s going to act. Put me down.” “Tell me you love me.” His grip got tighter underneath my butt and I knew that he wouldn’t stop until he got what he wanted. I also know that he was gunning for pissing Lisa off. “Fine. I love you, Frankie.” He kissed me between words and gave me a hard and long kiss at the end. Frank carried me over to Lisa and Nadi despite my protests. “Hello, Frank. Viv.” “Hello, Lisa.” “Hey, Lisa. Hey, Baby Girl! Nadi, why you wearin’ that sweater? It’s too hot out here for that. What happened to your hair? Baby Girl, take that sweater off and show off that outfit I just bought you.” “But Mommy told me to put it on.” “It’s too much skin for a child her age to be showing.” “Nadi, you’re in Daddy’s care, so you can take off the sweater and put your hair back down. I know 286 287 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ your mama did that too.” I tried to diffuse the situation before things got too out of hand. “Frank, Honey, put me down, please. Lisa, it was nice of you to bring a dish. What is that?” “It’s macaroni and tuna salad.” “Well, it just looks delicious.” “It is.” “Frank, please put me down! I want to take Lisa’s dish to the kitchen.” “I don’t want to put you down. Princess, you wanna see how strong your daddy is? Come here.” Nadi handed her sweater to her mother and allowed her daddy to pick her up and hold her on his other hip. “Nadi, isn’t Daddy big and strong?” I didn’t intend to further irritate Lisa, but my man displaying his strength just does something to me. “My daddy is strong! Daddy, aren’t we heavy?” “My girls will never be too heavy. You hear me? You will never be too heavy for your daddy.” Frank kissed her on the forehead before deciding to let us down. “Alright, now; go on and visit with your cousins until the food’s all ready.” 287 288 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Ok, Daddy.” “Well, that was just awkward for everyone.” Lisa’s biting sarcasm was indicator that the day would get even worse from that moment on. Frank put his arms around my waist and pulled me close to him, occasionally kissing on my neck. She continued to look uncomfortable and disgusted. “Maybe for you it was, but my princess sees two people who love each other interacting every day that she’s with us.” “She sees two people living in sin every day.” “But I bet you’d be okay with two people living in sin every day if I was with you, huh?” “Okay, now it’s awkward for everybody. Lisa, I’ll take your dish to the kitchen. Frankie, is the meat done yet?” “Soon as Bubba gets through with the steaks— damn, I forgot to tell him to have two medium-well steaks for you.” “Can you please hurry and do that, Honey? I don’t like them any other way.” “Daddy knows you don’t, Vivie. I’ll take care of it.” 288 289 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Thank you. Lisa, you’re welcomed to have a seat at the table as we put everything out. You don’t have to stay out here if you don’t want to.” “That is very nice of you, Vivien-Leigh; thank you.” I tried to give her a friendly smile as Frank’s arm migrated from my waist to my shoulders. He continued with his blatant displays of affection, just to annoy Lisa. I pulled away from him just as he managed to get in one last kiss and butt smack. “You know I just love to touch it.” “Yes, I know. Please start bringing the meat in.” “I’m on it.” “Thank you. Lisa, the dining room is right through here. Make yourself comfortable.” “I will do just that, thank you. Did anyone make fried chicken? Barbeque chicken?” “No. I know lots of people would have loved to have some, but with my allergies I can’t take any chances.” “Oh, that’s right; you’re allergic to poultry.” “Very allergic. Even if it comes in contact with my skin, I have an episode. The smell even makes me sick.” “That’s terrible. What happens if you eat it?” 289 290 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I break out into terrible hives all over, my throat will swell, and I won’t be able to breathe—that’s the least of it, anyway.” “How unfortunate! I guess it’s a good thing that you protect yourself.” “Yeah. I’m going to get Kandy and we’re going to start bringing the food out, so you just get comfortable.” “Oh, I will.” I went to the kitchen where Kandy was putting the peas and rice into a serving bowl. “What is that, Viv?” “This is Lisa’s macaroni and tuna salad.” I placed the casserole dish on the counter and Kandy quickly pulled off the top to examine it. “What’s that for, Kandy?” “I just wanna see what it looks like up close. Are you sure this is tuna? It doesn’t smell like tuna.” “You’re right, it doesn’t. She says its tuna.” Kandy shrugged. “It’s up to you to serve it, Viv. It’s your gettogether and your house.” “Not my house yet, but I’m working on him.” 290 291 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I saw the two of you out there. Frank just loves to show off for you. Anna and Maria were just in here saying how they’ve never seen Uncle Chill so happy.” “Really? Sterling asked Frank when he was going to make us legal and my man nearly choked on his beer. I don’t want to rush him into anything, but I know he’s the only man for me. I love just being with him, but I don’t want to be forty and still his ‘significant other.’” “Frank ain’t gonna keep you around that long and not give you a raise and a new title. I know he likes to work his way into his relationships, but he’s not gonna shack up with you. Besides, I heard him talk to Sterling about wanting to meet your daddy and something else about making an honest woman out of you. Don’t tell him I told you that.” I placed a serving spoon in Lisa’s dish and went into deep thought about being Mrs. Charles Franklin Lattimore, Jr. Kandy just gave me more pieces to that puzzle and I couldn’t stop smiling. “See, that’s the kind of smile that tells Frank that Kandy opened her big mouth and told information she’d heard second hand.” She grabbed a couple bowls and I grabbed Lisa’s dish and the paper plates. We continued our conversation as we walked to the dining room. “I’m sorry, but I can’t help it. I will tone it down.” 291 292 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You’d better because I will deny everything if interrogated.” We placed the bowls and plates on the table and tried to change the conversation around Lisa. “Lisa, Viv said you made macaroni and tuna salad.” “I did.” “How do you make it? You can’t even smell the tuna.” “I like to mince the tuna finely and I use lemon juice to cut the scent.” “I think it smells really good. I can’t wait to try it. I think I should call everyone in so we can eat. I’m starving.” “I just can’t wait for you to taste it, Viv.” I called the family all in and we sat around the table and enjoyed a wonderful meal. We had everything from collard greens to gumbo to potato salad—I mean, just the absolute works. Frank sat at the head of table and Nadi and I sat on the sides of him. Lisa sat next to Nadi and I didn’t think much of it at the time, but she kept taking sly glances at me. I also didn’t think much of how after one bite of her salad, the back of my hand began to itch. I stopped to rub it, but Frank stopped me and kissed it. We continued to eat and the more I ate, the more I continued 292 293 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ to itch. My throat became scratchy and it wasn’t long before we all knew what was really in that salad. “Who made this macaroni salad?” “Lisa made that salad, Bubba. How is it?” “It’s pretty good, but what else is in it?” “Tuna…its macaroni and tuna.” “You sure? ‘Cause it doesn’t taste like tuna.” “It’s tuna.” “Miss Viv, what’s wrong with your skin?” Tres nearly jumped out of his seat and by that time, all eyes were on me. My throat was starting to swell and tears started to roll from my hive covered eyes. “Mommy, this isn’t tuna!” “Aw, shit! Vivie! Baby, it’s okay, I’m right here.” Frank tried not to panic, but he struggled to think of what to do without causing a scene. His eyes were cutting holes through Lisa. He took my fork and took a few bites of the salad. “Lisa, this is chicken salad.” He was pissed off, but he tried not to raise his voice and show out in front of Nadi. “Oh…Nadi Doll, you’re right. It’s not tuna! It’s chicken. Sorry.” I was covered in hives and choking. 293 294 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Frank had discretely found a way to dispose of the food that I had in my mouth and thought that holding my jaws open would help me get air. An argument commenced between Lisa and Frank’s nieces and in the midst of it all, I could only think of two things—my life and Nadi’s sad face. I wished that things had turned out differently. “Tres, run upstairs and get Vivie’s purse— quick! Blue, take your sister upstairs. I don’t want her seeing this.” Tres flew up the stairs as fast as lightening and Julez took Nadi by the hand to take her to her room. I was in absolute pain, gasping for air and dealing with the mass of hives that covered my body. They were everywhere at that point and were starting to appear on top of each other. Lisa continued to sit smugly. I swear, if I were in a better condition, I would’ve kicked her Creole ass. “Lisa, what the hell is your problem? You gon’ come up in my house and try to kill my woman? I had Nadi leave the room because I didn’t want her to see all this bullshit you caused! Lisa, get your ass outta my house before my nieces fuck you up or I do something even worse. Y’all get her outta here now!” Lisa was roughly escorted out as I continued to gasp for air. Tres came flying back down the stairs and handed my purse to his daddy. Frank quickly found my Epipen, stood me up, and injected my thigh with its contents. My hives itched and stung simultaneously. Torture was only a polite way of describing the pain I felt. 294 295 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “How’s that, Baby? You okay now? That make it better?” I couldn’t speak because my throat, mouth, and tongue were filled with itching and stinging hives. I could only shake my head, which was also very painful to do. “No? Can you breathe now, Vivie?” I nodded at him and he tried his hardest to take care of me. “Open your mouth, Baby; let Daddy see.” Frank gently opened my mouth and tried not to react to what he saw. “Oh, good Lord, Baby Bunny, you got ‘em all on your lips, in your mouth, and on your tongue. I’m so sorry, Vivie.” I appreciated him for doing his best to comfort me and console me, but his touch made the stinging sensation feel even worse. I couldn’t get out a scream, but in my head I was screaming bloody murder. “Chill, you gotta get her to the emergency room to have that dealt with. We can get her to Baptist in five minutes.” “You’re right. Bubba, go get the car. Kandy—” “Don’t worry about it, Frank; I’ll clean up and keep an eye on the kids.” “Thank you. Come on, Bunny.” Frank tried to hold me gently in his arms and I’d like to think that my 295 296 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ eyes did a great job of describing my pain. Frank got me to the car and held me in the backseat and Sterling drove us to the emergency room of Baptist Hospital. I felt a little bad that I could be seen before everyone in the ER because of Sterling’s position there, but my pain was just unbearable. A very young doctor prescribed a type of cortisone cream to be rubbed on my hives for as long as they remained on my body. Frank was in awe of this doctor’s age and even more in awe of the young male nurse who was sent in to rub down my naked body. Frank didn’t let that happen. He stopped the male nurse and told him that he was not allowed to go between the legs, near the breasts, or the backside. Frank did those areas and the male nurse did arms, legs, and the like. When we got home from the hospital a few hours later, I felt like I was placed in an awkward situation. God knows that I loved Frank, but I couldn’t do that scene again. His scorned ex-lover tried to kill me—all the love in the world couldn’t overcome attempted murder. I was getting sick of the drama. I just wanted to give up and let Lisa win. I couldn’t do that again. I kept silent as Frank carried me up the stairs and to our bedroom. He laid me on the bed and started pulling off my clothes. “You okay, Vivie?” I looked at him for a brief second before turning my head to stare off at the wall. I didn’t even know where to begin with my feelings. 296 297 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Frank, I—” “Can I come in?” Nadi always managed to save her parents from an uncomfortable situation. “Vivie?” “Come on in, Sweetness.” She walked slowly to the bed and began to climb on. “Slowly, Baby.” “Be careful, Baby Girl, Miss Vivie still hurts.” “Miss Vivie, are you okay?” “I’ll be fine, Baby. Everything’s still sore, though. Thank you for asking.” “You’re welcome. I’m sorry my mommy did that.” “Nadi, it’s not your fault. I don’t want you to feel that it is. This is an issue between your mother, father, and myself. You’ve done nothing wrong, okay?” “Okay. You won’t send me home, will you?” “Baby Girl, why would you think that? You’re my baby and anytime I can have you with me, I will. Nobody’s sending you anywhere.” “Baby, you belong right here with us. You’re not going anywhere.” 297 298 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Good. Can I lay here with you and watch TV, Miss Vivie?” “Of course you can, Sweetness.” By then, Frank had slipped his pajama top on me and had me under the covers. Nadi got in bed and snuggled as close as she could without actually lying on me. By the time Frank got in bed, I’d already put my thoughts together for the conversation I wanted to have with him after Nadi went to sleep. “Well, Baby Girl is asleep in her own bed and I can only hope that she doesn’t have another night fit.” “That’s good.” “Now, to get next to my baby.” “Frank, we need to talk.” “Three words no man likes to hear. What’s wrong?” “Frank, I can’t keep doing this.” “Doing what?” “This fighting with Lisa. I can’t keep doing this. She tried to kill me today. I don’t want to go through that again.” 298 299 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Darling, I know what she did was extreme, but I don’t like where I think you’re about to go with this.” “I think we need to spend some time apart.” “That’s exactly where the hell I thought this was going. Baby, I will handle Lisa, okay? Shit, why is it that every time something with Lisa goes down you wanna break this up?” “I got over the first time, but my life is something I will not lose for a jealous woman. If we stay together all she’ll do is continue to find ways to get between us. I just think that before one of us actually becomes a victim of one of her successful attempts on our lives, we should just end it here. I love you, Franklin. You just don’t know how much this hurts me.” “How much this hurts you? Woman, you think I don’t love you, too? I don’t wanna be with anybody else and I’d do anything and everything for you—to be with you, to have you. I don’t accept this.” “What do you mean you don’t accept this?” “I don’t accept this. You can’t quit me.” “Oh, you’re being immature.” “I’m not letting this relationship end over some crazy woman that I never wanted to be with in the first damn place. What do you want me to do? What? You wanna press charges on her? Nadi’ll be upset for a while, 299 300 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ and we’d have her on a more full time basis, but I’ll do it. What?” “Frank, I want you to accept the fact that as long as we are together, she’s going to find a way to get between us. Now, we can keep up appearances until I’m over these hives and then we can tell people that we split amicably. We can tell Nadi that I just had to go home to take care of some personal business and later we can tell her the truth.” He got in bed and got under the covers, but sat up against the headboard before turning off his lamp. “This ain’t over, Vivien-Leigh.” “Yes it is. Honey, please turn down the TV if you’re going to stay up. Goodnight.” “I love you, Woman.” “I love you too, but we can’t be together anymore. Goodnight.” I thought I’d made myself crystal clear, but I’d forgotten that when Franklin wants something, he gets it. While I was asleep, he slipped out of bed and went over to Lisa’s to talk to her about where they stood. When he said that he wouldn’t let her get between us, he meant every single word of it. 300 301 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I guess you’re here about the Amazon. I won’t waste time inviting you in; I know you’d break it down if you had to.” Frank entered her home and she slowly began an attempt to make herself sexually appealing. “My Glamazon is just fine. You can put your hair back up and close your robe; ain’t no way in hell I’d ever touch you again.” “You don’t have to touch me. I’m fine with doing all the touching.” She put her hands on his chest and he quickly grabbed her by the wrists and backed her against a wall forcefully. “Lisa, my patience with you is very limited. I’ve been fighting the urge to wrap my hands around your neck and squeeze the life out of you for the absolute longest.” “I don’t mind using a little force, Frank. You know I’d do anything you wanted to do whenever you wanted to do it.” “Ok. That’s it. I’ve been trying to not hurt your feelings since you’ve started this shit with my woman and me, but you refuse to take the hint. Lisa, I do not love you. I’ve never loved you. I’ve never wanted you. When I divorced Sylvia and ran into you, I just wanted some pussy. I had to be a gentleman about it—wine you and dine you and make you feel good before I got what I wanted. I only spent time with you when I didn’t feel like hearing silence and it was too late to call anybody 301 302 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ else. Hell, you weren’t any damn good in bed and you just slobbered all over my dick every chance you got. I’ll be honest; you’re pretty, but just not enough.” “Shut up, Frank.” Lisa was on the verge of tears and Frank just wanted to make sure she knew exactly how he felt. He held her wrists tighter. “See, the difference between you and Vivie is simple. Vivie’s a lady. My lady. My Glamazon. When I’m with her, I feel complete. You roll your eyes when I hold her hand, but did you ever recall a time when I held your hand? I never held your hand. I never loved you. I love Vivie. See, Vivie may be a lady and she may be very diplomatic and poised, but she has an opinion. She doesn’t let me run all over her. She respects me as a man and lets me take the lead, but she has a say. You never opened your mouth to say one damn thing. I could’ve told you I got off by taking a giant shit on you and you’d just let me.” “Shut up, Frank! Shut up!” “You wanna know something else about Vivie? She satisfies me in ways that you can never imagine. In the mental, intellectual, cultural, and spiritual sense, she completes me. In the physical way, she’s on a level that you can’t even begin to conceive. She can do things that you could never fathom and when she cums—usually three or four times—she makes me feel like I climbed Mt. Everest and moved that motherfucker ten feet with each step. Vivie does to me what no woman—especially 302 303 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ not you—could ever do. So, you need to get it through your head that I don’t want you and if you ever harm her again in any way, I will kill you.” Lisa sobbed uncontrollably in his grasp. It wasn’t his way to be so forceful with a woman, but she needed to know that he was serious. You don’t mess with Charles Franklin Lattimore, Jr.’s family. “This ain’t even what I wanted to do. You can’t listen for shit, Lisa! This could’ve been simple. I wanted to come here and talk to you. I wanted to tell you in the most plain and precise way that I could that I am in love with Vivien-Leigh Valentine. I’m gonna marry that woman some day. You can’t get between us or destroy what we have. You try too damn hard. I wanted to tell you that you had a special place in my heart because you gave me the most beautiful little girl on the face of this planet—that much I do mean. I may not love you like you want me to love you and I damn sure don’t want to be with you, but you gave me my baby girl and for that much, I thank you.” Frank had begun to let her out of his grasp and she started to pull herself together. “You’re welcome.” “She may not have been planned, but she’s the only good thing you and I ever did.” “I wanted you to know about her and to know her a lot earlier…but you moved on to that last wife.” 303 304 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “It doesn’t matter if I moved on; you knew you were carrying my baby, so you should’ve said something. You told my mama! You took her around her grandmother and nobody told me!” “I know and I’m sorry. I just thought, when I found out I was pregnant, that we would be together. I guess that wouldn’t have happened anyway. I had to tell Miss Anna Maria. I had to. I couldn’t hide it from her. The first time she saw Nadi, she knew she was yours. I wanted to tell you, I really did. Miss Anna Maria said she didn’t want this situation to ruin your family or your career. She said she would figure out a way to tell you. When she died and I still hadn’t heard from you, I just put it out of my mind.” “You know what? My mama had her reasons and we can’t question her about it. I…I didn’t even wanna go there tonight. That whole thing with us—I’m sure you thought that we’d be an item and it’s partly my fault for leading you on. Look, I’m sorry for roughing you up—you know that’s not my style. You pushed me. You harmed the woman I love and you know I have to protect her.” “I know. Tell the Amazon I’m sorry. She is okay, isn’t she?” “She’s getting better. You know that as long as she’s in my life, she’s gonna be in our daughter’s life.” “…I guess.” 304 305 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “No, you know. So, you have to back off. Let me raise my daughter. I wouldn’t have a woman who wasn’t a woman—who I was ashamed of and didn’t think highly of—around my babies.” “You can do your part in raising our daughter, but I have the right to raise her with strong Christian morals.” “Yes, you do, but you’ve gotta give a little and let her grow. Besides, if she’s gonna be Miss America, I’ve got the right influence around her now.” “Don’t tell me the Amazon was a beauty queen.” “No, but she damn sure carries herself like one. Look, we ain’t gon’ steer her wrong. We gotta find a way to function as a family. It’s gonna take some give and take, here, Lisa.” “I know. It’s just hard to see you after all this time and not want to be with you. You know, you’re the only man I’ve ever loved. How delusional was I?” “We were just on different pages, but we gotta get on the same one now. Look, I gotta get back home.” “Back to the Amazon.” “My Glamazon, yes. Goodnight, Lisa.” “Goodnight, Frank. Kiss my baby for me.” “I will.” 305 306 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ That night, Frank settled most of the divide between us. When I woke up the next morning, I had a written letter of reconciliation from Charles Franklin Lattimore, Jr. Again, he refused to believe that we were going to part ways, but in order to improve our situation and keep things together he said he’d gotten things straight with Lisa and would never let an ex hurt me or get between us. He had listed several options of how he planned to do this; all I had to do was choose the method I agreed with. The man was brilliant. By the way, I opted for the choice of him just letting me loose to “kick ass and take names.” It all just boiled down to him handling those crazy women he once procreated with and trusting that he would make things alright. My husband has always managed to make things right for us and with us. God, I love the man I made a small army of babies with. Oh. I still got the “something pretty” he promised me from Tiffany’s the very next day. 306 307 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ 307 308 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ As much fun as I had the day of my shower, I was thankful that it was all over. Frank and I gave our remarks and thanked everyone for coming out and giving us all of the wonderful gifts we'd received. We appreciated all the love and support that we were being shown and acknowledged the fact that there will be lots of caring people in our daughters' lives. Jay loaded up her car and ours so that we could quickly make our exits. “I'm glad that's all over, Frankie. I'm too tired.” “Too tired, huh? I hope that's not the case when we get home ‘cause I’ve got something there for you that I know you'll want to keep me up all night over.” “Whatever you say, Honey. I think I'm gonna go straight upstairs and lie down, so I'm gonna need you to push me up the stairs. Jay is coming over to bring the rest of the gifts and the food. I swear, Frankie; we need a bigger car for these kids. You've got your Lexus and I've got the Cadillac, but they're not big enough for twin infants and all their stuff.” “I know. I'm working on getting you that minivan.” “Minivan? Honey, I think not. I am not the minivan type of mama. I hate those things; they're so 308 309 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ugly! Kids, you wouldn't want to cart your sisters around in one of those things, would you?” “Uh...no. My baby sisters should not take their first trip home in a minivan.” “See, Frankie, Julez doesn't like it either.” “Blue's not paying for it, either. I'm thinking one of those minivans with the doors that slide open on both sides— “Frankie, noooooo!” “It's either that or a station wagon.” “A station wagon? Ew! Frankie, please don't do that to me.” “Bunny, we need to think about what's best for the kids and ourselves. Those SUVs are unsafe and I don't need to be worried about you every time you go out with the kids.” “There are safe ones, Daddy! Please?” “Yeah, Daddy, please?” The kids pleaded with me and Frank sat there enjoying the sight of us groveling. He frustrated me and made me even more cranky and irritable. “They're unsafe and I don't want anything happening to you.” 309 310 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “The girls and I don't like you right now. Don't touch me!” He tried to put his hand on my belly, but I slapped it away and tried to turn away from him. I started to cry and the boys started to sigh in the backseat. “Now look what you did, Daddy! You made her cry! Do you know how long it's been since she hasn't cried? It's been five hours and it was counting, but now look what you did!” “Daddy, make her stop! Why couldn't you just get her a truck so we could avoid all this?” “Great, Daddy, now Nadi’s crying!” Tres and Julez simultaneously scolded their daddy as their sister and I wailed in unison. “Vivien-Leigh, Baby, come on, now. You got the princess in tears and Daddy doesn’t like it when his girls cry! Hey...Bunny, look what Daddy's got for you right in the armrest. Daddy's got an oatmeal pie right here for his Baby Bunny. Here, Baby, don't you want it?” I snatched it away from him and I continued to cry as I ate it. He continued to laugh and I saw nothing hilarious about the matter. “Bunny, come on...I told you I had something for you at the house that's gonna cheer you up.” “You want me to drive my babies around in a minivan!” “What's wrong with that?” 310 311 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “They're ugly! You think I'm ugly!” “No I don't, Baby! Look, look—we're almost home. Go ahead and look out the window at the house. What's that in the driveway?” “What's what?” I stopped mid-cry and looked out of the window, up at the house. A white truck sat in the driveway next to my Cadillac, Tres’ BMW, and my sadness quickly switched to excitement. “What is that?” “I don't know—you tell me.” As we got closer to the house, the truck started to become clearer. A white Range Rover with a big red bow on it! I wrapped my arms around Frank's neck and kissed him repeatedly. “Calm down, Bunny; I'm still driving.” “Is that mine?” “Maybe.” I turned into a completely different woman when he made the turn into the driveway behind the truck. I yanked off my seatbelt and waited for him to open my door. He took his precious time making his way over to my side of the car, so I started getting antsy and yelling for him to open the door for me. When he let me out, I went straight for the SUV. “This is beautiful!” “I didn't say it was yours, Bunny.” 311 312 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “What do you mean it's not mine? I worked hard for this car!” “You worked hard for this car? With that attitude, you don't deserve anything.” We stared each other down for a while before I broke out in tears all over again. The kids tried to comfort me, so they scolded their daddy again for making me cry. “Again? Daddy, why would you make her cry again? She gets started and then Nadi starts! Why do you do this?” “I don't like her attitude right now!” Nadi put her arms around my belly and held me tight. “Why do you do this to me? I'm a good wife! I do what you ask! I'm having your babies and you're always being mean to me!” “Julian, Franklin, go on and take your sister inside and leave me and your step-mama alone for a minute.” “She'd better not be crying when she gets in the house, or you're in big trouble, Mister.” “Boy, you'd better—” The boys took Nadi and went inside and I continued to wail like the newborns I’d be having soon. “Vivie, come here.” 312 313 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “No.” “Vivien-Leigh, I said come here.” “No!” “Vivien-Leigh Lattimore, I said come here and I mean it. Don't make me cause a scene out here.” His stern tone was a little frightening. He didn't normally use it at me, but this time I knew he meant business. I sucked up my crying and waddled over to him. Frank put his arms around me and held me, but not before he gave me his infamous glare. “Have I ever done wrong by you?” “No.” “Then you need to lose the attitude.” “I don't have an attitude; you can’t tell me to not be emotional when I'm this pregnant.” “Don't you think I know that? I'm half pregnant with you, but you don't act like you realize that.” “You're ¼ pregnant with me—I'm doing most of the work.” “Baby, half of that you're carrying around is me. I love you, and although it's a struggle at times, I worship the ground you walk on. I knew we needed more space for the babies and you'd been dropping hints about an SUV for the longest. I did my research and got 313 314 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ the best one for the family. Not just for you, but for the family. You can’t let me surprise you for nothing, woman.” “I'm sorry.” “Who am I?” “You're Frankie.” “Who am I, Vivien-Leigh?” “My husband.” “And that makes me what?” “My man.” “Exactly, and you need to realize that I am not only your man, but the man of this house and this relationship. You need to let me get you things and surprise you with things and stop acting like you had to strategically get me to get them for you.” “I'm spoiled, huh?” “Too damn spoiled, ‘cause you throw these tantrums and show out and you know how it bothers me to see you upset. Then you get my baby girl all caught up in it.” “I do, and I'm sorry for acting like a brat.” 314 315 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Apology accepted.” Frank kissed me on the lips and quickly broke away. “Are you going to stop spoiling me, now?” “I'm thinking about it, but no.” “Well, then, I've got something for you.” “What's that?” I took him by the hand and pulled him behind me up the front stairs and into the house. I headed for the staircase and noticed the boys in the kitchen. “Hey Tres?” “What's up, Viv?” “Would you mind waiting for Jay to get here so you can put away the stuff she brings over?” “Yeah, that's cool.” “Good and then after that, you can take your brother and sister out for a long while. Your father and I are going to make love.” “Vivien-Leigh!” “Well, it's the truth.” “We didn't need to know all that, but you don't have to tell us twice.” “Thank you.” 315 316 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Oh, uh, ‘stay out for a long while?’ Your curfew is 11:30; I want you back by then.” “Daddy! Why can’t I stay out ‘til midnight?” “Because you’re eighteen, but you’re not grown yet.” “Daddy, come on! I’m eighteen! I’ll be in college this year and you don’t trust me to be responsible? Why can’t I stay out just thirty minutes later?” “Frank, Honey, is thirty minutes really gonna do any harm?” “Yes it will. I said 11:30 and I mean it.” As the boys started back towards the kitchen with disgusted looks on their faces, Nadi ran up the stairs and put her arms around her daddy. “I’m sorry Tres made you mad, Daddy.” “Don’t worry about me, Princess Nadi. I know you’re a good girl and you would never disobey Daddy.” Frank picked her up, kissed her on the face, and held her close as he rocked her back and forth. “Angel Face, I hope your baby sisters are as good and sweet as you are.” “Thank you, Mama.” 316 317 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Frank, Honey, let Tres take his brother and sister to a late movie. We need all the time alone we can get.” I took Frank’s cheek in my hand and gently stroked it. He slowly started to let Renada out of his grasp. We really did need the time alone. I leaned in and whispered gently in his ear. “Let them stay out, Honey. With them gone, you can make me scream as loud as you’d like. There’d also be lots of oral gratification in it for you since I haven’t felt nauseous all day.” I gently traced the inside of his ear with my tongue. He exhaled softly. “Here, Baby Girl, tell your brother to take you to the movies. Get the biggest box of whatever you want. Hell, tell him to take you to two movies. He can take my car. Just go.” “Love you, Daddy!” “Love you too, Baby. Now go!” He pulled the giant knot of rubber banded bills from his pocket and put it in her hands before smacking her butt and sending her downstairs. We waited until she was completely out of sight before he continued to push me up the stairs. “We’d better hurry up…you have no idea how good I’m about to dick you down. You think I put it on you when I got you pregnant? I’m about to send you into labor, Baby.” “Honey, what positions do you want to try? I bought a book about sexual positions for pregnant 317 318 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ women and I was thinking about this one where I lay on my side and I keep my legs together and you penetrate just like you would if I were on my back— “Hey! Hey! We can still hear you!” “Ain’t even gotta be fancy, Baby. You just open your legs and I’ll get the job done.” “Dude! Seriously?” Frank and I had a good time that night; we made love repeatedly. The first few times were just a 'thank you' for the new truck, but the other times were highly unexpected. The next day I thought I was going into labor, so he rushed me to the hospital where they told us that all the screwing around we did the night before had induced it a bit. It was a slow and steady process, but just like he promised, he sent me into labor. What can I say? My man gets the job done each and every time. Thanks to my husband and his magnificent lovemaking prowess, I was placed on bed rest until my due date. The day that I did in fact go into full-on labor was one of Frank's off days from the show. By then, he had become a fixture on Waymon Hill's morning show and once a week, he'd call in and give legal advice to callers. We had this routine where he'd wake up, roll over, make love to me, then slip out of bed to go downstairs and call into the radio show. This particular morning, his routine gave him something more than he had bargained for. 318 319 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Frank had left the radio on for me to listen to the show while I lay in bed, but a little while into his segment, I started to feel like I'd urinated on myself. Cramps soon followed, but they weren't like menstrual cramps; they were ten times worse! The girls were on their way and I had to get to the hospital fast. Frank and I had agreed on trying the natural birthing process where we'd give birth in a pool and he'd be an active part of the entire ordeal. I started to get nervous and tense up in between crying through the horrible contractions. I'd gotten my cashmere wrap on and had finally made it downstairs, much to Frank's surprise. He asked me if I was okay and I shook my head slowly. His face went completely blank and he almost lost the cool and collected attitude that he was always encouraging others to maintain. I could hear the radio from upstairs— Waymon was calling him and he wasn't answering. I'd made it over to Frank and took the phone from his hands. “Hello, Waymon?” “Hey! Y'all, it's the judge's wife, Vivien-Leigh. How you doin’, Girl?” “Oh, I’m just fabulous, despite the fact that I've just gone into labor. So, Frankie's gonna have to go now. He has to drive me to the hospital.” A contraction hit me as Waymon tried to deliver a few kind words, but I'd quit listening. I couldn't take it. I started screaming at Frank, who had been running around the house getting his 319 320 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ clothes on and pulling my packed bag from the closet near the door. “FRANKLIN! GET YOUR DAMN PANTS ON AND TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL!” I hung up his phone and put it in my purse and waddled over to the door. He'd already loaded up my stuff in the truck and was about to leave for the hospital without me! “Oh my goodness...Frankie! Honey, you forgot me!” Frank got out of the car and came back to help me out of the house and into the car. “I'm sorry, Baby! I'm so sorry.” I couldn't blame him for being all over the place—he hadn't had babies in a long time and he was nervous. I was nervous, too. These were my first babies and I had no real idea of what I was in store for. We'd taken Lamaze classes and watched the birthing video and it gave me an idea, but I figured my level of pain would differ significantly from the woman we watched; I somehow thought it wouldn’t hurt that much. While Frank drove, he rubbed my belly and helped to keep me calm by breathing with me through my contractions. He was very good about making sure he kept it together so that I could do the same, and it worked until we got to the hospital. He walked me in, sat me down, and tried to check me in and get the insurance paper work, but I started to flip out. I started screaming and crying and he had to run back over to me to calm me down all over again. 320 321 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Oh God...Frankie, I'm scared! Honey, I'm so scared.” “Look, Baby, we took all the classes and you have nothing to fear. I'm here with you. I'm here for you and I'm going to be there with you every step of the way. Everything will be alright.” “Daddy, we left Etienne home! I'm already a horrible mother!” “I'll have your sister go get her, alright? She'll be fine; just relax.” “Did you bring my bag?” “It's in the car; I'll bring it in later.” “Baby, we need it for when they're born. I have receiving blankets and little knit caps that my grandmother made so we can tell them apart. The pink one's for Claire and the red one's for Ruby.” “I know and I'll get it, Baby, just as soon as we're in a room and the doctor comes to check you.” “You called her, right?” “Of course I did. She was already here when I talked to her.” Another contraction hit me and I squeezed his hand and tried my hardest not to scream so loudly, but I couldn't help it. A nurse came over with a wheelchair 321 322 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ and told us that my room was ready and that Dr. Reese would be with me shortly. The room that I'd had reserved had two parts: one part contained the birthing pool and the other had the recovery bed—big enough for me and Frankie—and adjacent bassinets for the babies. My girls were going to stay with me no matter what. I'd read and seen too many stories about hospitals mixing up babies or babies being abducted and I couldn’t let that happen to my children. “Big Girl, I'm gonna go get your bag from the car. I'll be right back. You think you can manage without me for a few minutes?” “No! No, Baby, don't leave me alone. I need you!” “Just a few minutes, Vivie. Baby, I might not be with you physically for a few minutes, I'm always there with you. Just keep breathing and I'll be right back.” “I need you to hold my hand! Frankie!” “You trust me, don't you?” “Of course I do, Honey.” “I know you do. I just want to get you comfortable so we can go ahead and bring these children of ours into the world. Give me a few minutes and I'll be right back. OK?” 322 323 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ After he left the room, I tried to remain calm. The nurses came in and tried to hook me up to something that monitored the length of my contractions, but I wouldn't let them do it until my husband came back. I wouldn't even let the doctor explain anything to me until Frank got back and I was adamantly stubborn about it. They all thanked him when he returned because I was being so mean to everyone. He got me changed and as comfortable as possible and Dr. Reese had checked my contractions and my cervix, informing us that I wasn't ready for labor. The water bag broke partially and I was progressing slowly. I'd have to wait it out until I dilated enough to push. It was torture. Frank took me for walks up and down the halls of the hospital and every time someone came close to coming up to him and asking him for his autograph, I shot an evil glare and screamed. It was a bit much, but that just wasn't the time to be approaching us. When a contraction would hit, I'd stop and he'd hold me and I'd cry and scream through it. Frank would kiss me and clean up my face and we'd start our walk all over again. It wasn't until that night that I went into active labor. We moved into the birthing pool and I had never done anything that hard before in my life! I had no medication or anything, just Frank and me in that pool, pushing and screaming and sweating and crying. I had become so exhausted from trying to push that I was 323 324 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ completely ready to give up. He was the best coach I could’ve asked for. “I can’t do this anymore...I want to stop.” “Vivien-Leigh, you can’t stop now, you're doing fine.” “I'm tired. I'm too tired. I can’t do this!” “Bunny, you're doing a wonderful job. I know you're tired; you've been uncomfortable all day and it's taking a toll on you, but you have to keep pushing. I know in a few more pushes, you can get Claire up outta there.” “No! I can’t! I'm tired!” “I know you are, but you came a whole fortyfour weeks and it's a little too late to turn back now.” “Leave me alone! It's your fault I have to go through this! You're never touching me again! We will never have sex again!” “Bunny, I know you're just saying things because you're in a lot of pain. It's ok, get all that frustration and pain out.” Ronnie brought some more things from the house for us. Her job was to keep all family members updated with the progress of our princesses’ arrival. She spent the majority of the birth on the phone with Nadi, white washing my pain and making the birth seem as 324 325 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ pretty as a picture. She also brought Ettie and when she heard her mama screaming and hollering, she spent most of the time in her carrier. The boys showed up after school and although they didn’t want to watch, Tres and Julez sat in the room with us through the delivery. “I mean it! Don’t touch me! DO NOT TOUCH ME! There will be no more rolling over in the middle of the night! No more sucking on anything! Not my lips, not my chest, definitely not my breasts, and most certainly not my— “VIVIEN-LEIGH! Not in front of the kids!” “Hey Viv, you can do this, okay? Tres and I know how much you wanted Claire and Ruby and we're gonna help you get them out.” “That's right, Viv. We know that you're going to be a great mother and you want nothing more than to hold those girls in your arms, so we're going to hold your hands. When you want to push, squeeze as hard as you want and we'll all push with you.” “All of you?” “Me, Blue, and Daddy—we'll all push with you.” “You boys are so sweet. You're going to be such good big brothers for my angels.” 325 326 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Alright, Vivien-Leigh, you've got Claire right there ready to come out. Keep breathing so that her oxygen levels stay up. One more big push and we can get her head out.” The boys came over to me and held my hands. Every time I had to push I squeezed on their hands and everybody pushed and screamed with me. Frank would push me forward and the boys would put a hand on my belly and help me push. On May 12th, 2002 at 11:58 PM, Claire Vivienne-Leigh Lattimore was born. On May 13th, 2002 at 12 AM, Ruby Anna-Maria Lattimore followed. “They’re here! Do you hear that? Oh, Renada, you have two of the most beautiful little sisters!” I was so overwhelmed with joy and was excited to finally meet my babies. Dr. Reese allowed Frank to pull them out and sit them on my chest. I think he started to tear up when he heard them cry. I couldn't see his face, but I knew he was extremely happy. I had the boys follow the nurses with the babies just to make sure that they had the receiving blankets, the caps, and to make sure that we got the right ones back. “Those are our daughters, Bunny.” “I know...aren't they beautiful?” “They're the most gorgeous baby girls that I've ever seen. We made those, Bunny.” “They look a lot like you, Frankie.” “It's those strong Lattimore genes, Darlin’.” 326 327 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Thank you for my babies, Honey.” “Big Girl, I thank you for doing all the work. I wouldn't have those gorgeous angels without you.” Frank leaned over and kissed me as the doctor did what was necessary to get me out of the pool and into the recovery bed in the other room where the boys sat watching the twins. “Oh, VL, they are perfect! My girls are perfect!” “Your girls? I’m sorry, Ronnie, did you just push them out after nearly seventeen hours of labor?” “Oh hush. You know I love my nieces and nephews. And I claimed them as mine from the time you told me you were pregnant.” “How’d you like to be the Godmother and Auntie?” “Frank! You want me to be the godmother?” She already knew that she would be the godmother of my kids—we’d made that pact years ago. I just liked to humor her with making Frank present the offer to her. They play around and make it seem like they have a love/hate relationship, but they really do like each other. “Your sister and I thought about it and we decided that you and Armand would be good godparents. Besides, Vy already told us no.” Vy, short for Viola, is Ronnie’s older sister. We may not be sisters 327 328 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ by blood, but our sisterly bond could never be broken. We became a massive triple-sister threat on Broadway. “Oh hush, Frank.” “Hey Mom, Daddy, look what Blue and I have for you.” They came in holding their brand new sisters; seeing them together was such an amazing sight, especially for Frank. All of his children were happily together in spite of his fears that the guys wouldn’t warm up to the new kids. “Tres, you called me mom?” “I mean, yeah. You take care of us just like we're yours.” “Sometimes, we're gonna call you mom and all you can really do is deal with it.” “I like that a lot, guys. I really do.” “Alright girls, meet your parents. Claire, this is your daddy. He's our daddy, too, but I'm sure he'll be nicer to you because you're a girl. He’s way nicer to your big sister, Renada, than he is to me and Blue.” “Son, if you don't stop. Hand my daughter here. Hey there, Princess Claire. I'm Daddy.” Frank looked so at peace holding his baby girl. She was at ease in his arms and he fawned all over her. 328 329 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Princess Ruby, this is your Mommy. She's not our mommy, but she does a good job with us and I'm sure she'll do even better with you and your sister.” “Julian, Sweetheart, please don't make me cry again.” My stepson—my bonus baby—put my daughter in my arms and I can’t even explain how I felt. Finally being able to hold her and meet her and love her face-toface was surreal. Frank slid closer to me on the bed and stroked her little face with his finger. “Hey there, Miss Ruby. You really are a jewel, aren't you? You're Daddy's jewel. Did you girls know that I helped deliver you? That's right, I pulled you on out and cut your cords—” “Daddy, they were there. It was but a few minutes ago.” “Even though you're being smart on your damn mouth right now, I love you.” “I love you, too. I said some things back there that I didn't mean to say and I'm sorry. I like having sex with you.” “I like having sex with you, too. A lot. A whole lot.” “Hey! Little ears, people! And bigger ears who also find that disgusting.” The boys frowned up their faces and tried to cover their sisters’ little ears. Frank and I laughed, but meant every word we said. We enjoy 329 330 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ making love to each other and I would go through the pains of labor every time if it was the result of giving myself physically to the man I loved. “We're sorry.” “So, Mom, Dad, how are you guys making out with your new girls?” “Wonderfully. Thank you so much for your help, Dr. Reese.” “It's my job. You wanna know what they came in at?” “Of course we do. My wife was a true Amazon—strong and fearless—giving birth to such big girls.” “Yes she was, and I think I can say that between the two of you, you're going to have two very tall little girls. Alright, Miss Claire came in weighing five pounds, eight ounces and twenty inches long, and Miss Ruby came in weighing five pounds, ten ounces and twentyone inches ling. I’m guessing that they're hungry and tired after their long journey into the world. VivienLeigh, do you think your milk has dropped yet?” “I'm not sure. Is it something I'm just supposed to feel?” “A lot of women do, but some don't. You can start trying to get them to latch on if you want. I advise 330 331 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ten minutes on each nipple and if they don't latch on, you can try again later. We can always get a lactation specialist to come in and help. I'll be back to check on you.” I tried with Ruby first and she was almost completely latched on, but her bottom lip dropped, so she couldn't suck. Frank tried to help her by sticking his finger under her bottom lip, pushing it up to my nipple, and holding it for a few minutes. When he would let go, so would she. It was frustrating for the both of us, so Frank took her from my arms, gave her the pacifier and distracted her while I attempted to feed Claire. It took Claire a few minutes before she got the hang of it and wouldn't let go. I was so emotional while I fed her that I cried the entire time. Ruby didn't get the hang of it until a few hours later. The entire time she tried, her daddy kept volunteering to show her how to do it. Frank would say, “Hey Princess, you want Daddy to show you how to do it?” I had to keep pushing him away from my breasts because he was more than fascinated with my new advancements. We stayed in the hospital for two days before being released home. Dr. Reese's only instructions were to take it easy: no housework, and six and a half weeks before sex. That meant that we really wouldn't be doing anything fun together again until his birthday in August. I was quite nervous taking them home for the first time. I just kept thinking that I wouldn't know what to do if they cried or what to do if they didn't like being 331 332 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ home with me. They were at ease with Frank, but sometimes when I would hold them, they would cry. No, they would wail unmercifully. That really made me sad, which concerned Frank because he was terribly worried about me having a bad case of Postpartum Depression. The worst thing I did was cry uncontrollably for several minutes on end, but when the girls needed me, I found a way to pull it together and take care of them. The only thing that made me comfortable was the fact that he knew what he was doing as a parent. I thought it was wonderful to see Veronique with them; she loves them so much. When I would get frustrated, she would step in and help. To see her holding and rocking and consoling them always made me just a bit sad inside because she would never know that joy for herself. Ronnie couldn’t have babies and it tore her up every day, so making her the godmother was a no-brainer. I learned how to deal with having two babies who screamed through the night. If one would cry then the other would feel left out and start hollering right along with her sister. Frank and I came up with a system where I would pump bottles at night so that we could alternate with the late night feedings. We used to have those Baby...Baby, wake up...the girls are crying. It's your turn! I just changed them debates all the time. It was mostly his job to deal with them at night while I dealt with them during the day and evening. I was grateful that he agreed to go along with that because I wasn't able to be the wife I used to be. 332 333 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ I would always make breakfast and see him off to work, have something prepared for him if he came home for lunch, and by the time he'd get home I'd have dinner done or almost done. Ettie and I would meet him at the door and I'd take off his jacket and have his slippers there waiting on him. I'd lead him into the den and give him a beer and make him comfortable, but since I was trying to heal and dealing with the girls, he didn't really expect that any more. I am completely grateful to him for taking on as much responsibility as he did with making breakfast, lunch, and dinner for himself and for me. He didn't want me in the kitchen—there is an old Southern myth that women are considered unclean after giving birth and they weren't allowed to cook or lounge around in the kitchen. It didn't bother me in the least; I was too tired to do much of anything anyway. Frank couldn't be happier for that six-week period to come because even though he was a patient man, he could only take so much. His libido is extraordinary, so he thrives on sex. He didn’t complain and pester me about it—he knew I needed that time to heal. So, as a reward for his patience and his wonderful work around the house, I told him that we could rent a hotel room and get away from the kids for a weekend. I was ready to get back to my duties around the house and I was ready to let Judge Lattimore lay down his bedroom law! 333 334 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ We got Ronnie and her husband, Armand, to watch the girls while we went out of town. We had an amazing suite with the most breath taking view of the Pacific Ocean! On our first night, we had a nice, romantic dinner, we danced, and we drowned ourselves in wine. He was a little on edge about me breastfeeding and drinking, but the doctor assured him that it was alright as long as I expressed the milk that I'd made while I'd been drinking and disposed it from my system within fortyeight hours before feeding my girls again. The first time leaving the kids alone was stressful, so Frank wasn't upset about me calling the house every hour to check up on them. I missed my babies, but I was so excited about having my man to myself for a weekend. Frank had gotten me the shortest and the tightest black dress he could find and I had my support garments right underneath it because I was not pleased with my midsection after giving birth. We were doing well together—dancing, kissing, and drinking before my breasts became engorged with milk and I had to pump. We went upstairs and he was antsy because he knew that once the breasts came out, he'd have his opportunity to pounce on me. “Frankie, Honey, I can’t find my pump.” “Where'd you have it last?” “I packed it—at least, I remembered packing it. Oh my God, Frankie, I left it on the counter!” 334 335 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Baby, I’ve told you a thousand times to check behind yourself when you pack.” “I did, but I started pumping right before the last makeup consult I did. I started to clean the parts and was getting ready to pack it after booking that wedding party, but Ruby started to cry and I ran to feed her and I must've just left it there.” “Well, what are you gonna do?” “Honey...” “What...?” “You know how there's a five year ban on sucking on my breasts?” “I'm aware of it. Why?” “I'm going to need you to break that ban. Honey, please...they hurt!” “You really had to ask me?” Frank disrobed me and laid me down before getting on top of me and relieving my breasts from their strain. You should’ve seen the awe in his eyes as a set of engorged, DDD breasts were set free right in front of him. He didn’t hesitate to latch himself on to the first nipple he saw. “Damn, Baby, your milk tastes just like red wine.” 335 336 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “That's why the doctor said to drain it from my system before feeding the girls. Honey, you don't know how good it feels to have you do this.” “Whatever pleases you, Bunny, I'll do. It's just wonderful to spend time with you without hollering infants, shit-filled diapers, and vomit everywhere. I got my wife back today...just the way I remember you—in a sexy little black dress, legs for days, and high heels.” “And you can finally lie on top of me and not have my belly in the way.” “No more awkward sex, that's for sure. Hell, I'm gonna have to put it in now, Baby. I'm starting to get tight and I don't wanna pop through my zipper.” “Go right ahead, Honey. I'm here for your pleasure this weekend. Anything you want to do is what we'll do. If you just want me to lie here, I'll do it. If you want me to do all the work, I'll do it. If you want special attention, then my head is in your lap. Even if you want me to be a little kinky and wear the shoes—I brought them.” “You brought the heels, Baby? The seven inch ones?” “The seven inch ones, Daddy.” “We can play with those later. I don't think I'll be able to hold on to what I've got for you.” I unzipped his pants and pulled them down, helped him into a 336 337 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ condom, and then helped him insert himself in me. It was a little uncomfortable at first, but my vagina conformed to him again. I slowly rocked my hips against him as he handled his business with my other engorged breast. “You don't have to drink it, Honey. We can move to the bathroom and you can spit it out. I know it's rather awkward.” “Woman, you just let me be. I've wanted to do this since these things ballooned up to a DDD cup. Breasts have always been secondary to me, but I ain't never got to play with a pair this big. I think I might start spending more time up here on these big girls, Big Girl.” When he was done with his new toys, he got to work between my thighs. Frank took my legs and put them up over his shoulders and got as far into me as he could. I let out a squeal of delight and my husband got excited. Frank got down to work with me and I followed his lead. Everything I learned about love making, I learned from him. He was and is the best teacher I could ever have and the only man to ever give me an orgasm each and every time. I never have to fake with Frank; he knows my body better than I do and no man has ever taken the time to do that. Frank and I spent the rest of our getaway weekend shopping, eating, drinking, sucking, and making love. It was bliss being with my husband and doing grownup things without having to cater to the 337 338 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ twins, but I was still a new mother, so every chance I got, I called them. Even to this day, whenever Frank and I go out without them, I still have to call. It may not exactly be every hour on the hour, now, but I call. I'm overprotective and so is my husband. 338 339 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ “It's about time you got here, Boy. I was worried about you.” “I'm sorry, Daddy, the lines for the bathrooms are long. Y'all took too long to get here.” “Blame the wife.” “I spent a little more time in the bathroom this morning than I should have. I couldn't help it. Hey, Julez.” “Hey Mom.” I'm admiring my bonus babies, my biological babies, and their father, and I swear Frank has strong genes! These kids all look just like him in some way. “Hi Julezie!” “Hi Bebe. How's my baby sister?” “Fine.” “You gonna let me hold you?” “No, I want to stay with my daddy.” Ruby's clinging to Frank's neck and he's patting her butt and kissing on her. She's the youngest girl and is determined to stay the baby. Ruby just loves being up under Frank and will have a fit if she can’t be. 339 340 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Here, Blue, you can take Cookie and I'll just hang on to Jordie.” They shifted their younger siblings and Frank beamed as he watched his kids. He's not one to be overly emotional and crying really isn't his thing, but having all of his kids together and having the honor of this day was all taking its toll on him. Ugh...I feel sick. I have to find a bathroom. “Someone take Chris; I have to go to the bathroom.” “Baby, now?” “Yes, now! Here, Tres, take your baby brother!” “No! Mommy!” Chris is putting up a fight as I try to peel him off of me and hand him to his brother. “Boy, let go of me. I'll be back. Nadi, come with me please.” “Okay, Mama.” Tres is taking his little brother and Nadi and I are on our way to the bathroom. I don't know where it is, but I’ll find it; I just have to go. “You okay, Mama?” “Not really, Nadi. Did you hear the fit my baby boy just threw back there? I can’t believe he's as clingy as he is and I know Frank hopes he grows out of it. That man is the most determined father that I've ever met.” “I know Daddy hopes he grows out of it! Chris is the baby, so I guess it’s hard for him. Everybody does 340 341 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ everything for him. I know he won’t be acting that way when he gets bigger—Daddy will not have that. He’s gonna have him trying to be the man in kindergarten.” Nadi’s laughing and that’s just how Frank is. He’ll start telling them, at five, what their manly duties are and how to do them. Not even my dad was as focused as he is to make a man out of his son—that’s probably why my brother is as disappointing as he is. Frank takes the boys everywhere he can, even if it's just changing the oil in the cars or changing the tires on the kids’ bikes; he has them with him, watching and learning. Shortly, before the girls turned two, Frank told me I was pregnant with the boys. It sounds strange, I know, but it’s true. I was rehearsing with Ronnie for her debut show at a local dinner club. We were dancing and singing background vocals and she was pushing me beyond belief. I was always tired, falling asleep, and lagging behind her. “VL, can you move your fat ass, please? You’re slipping!” “Look here, you got one more time to call me fat!” “Your husband has you sounding just as country as he is. This has to be perfect—no time for slip ups. I need this to be clean and precise. Let’s go again, from the top.” 341 342 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Are you serious? I’m tired. I need a break. I’m hungry and thirsty. You’re trying to kill me.” “No, you sitting at home with two kids and a husband is what’s killing you. You need to get back to the theater. Stop being lazy; let’s go.” “I used to like you, I really did. You’re an evil woman.” “Fine, you get ten minutes.” “Oh, wow; ten whole minutes. Gee, thanks, Warden.” I sat on the edge of the stage and lay back as I tried to catch my breath. My phone started to ring and Ronnie started running her mouth again. “Tell your husband that you’re working. You don’t bother him at work and he sure can’t bother you when you’re on my time.” “Evil wench…” “What did you call me?” “Nothing! Hey, Honey. I miss you.” “I miss you, too, Baby. The girls have been asking where Mommy was all day.” “My angels…kiss them for me.” “I will. Hey, Bunny, lemme ask you something. You had your cycle last week, right?” 342 343 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Are you really asking about my period? Are you keeping track of my reproductive system now?” “I told you he was crazy,” Ronnie chimed in. “Tell your sister to shut her mouth. Baby, I don’t keep track, I just know. Who takes care of you when you’re cramping?” “You do.” “That’s right…did you forget that I’ve inserted and removed tampons for you? A man just don’t forget shit like that.” “I know you have and I am thankful that I have a husband who doesn’t mind taking care of me and going the extra mile to make sure I feel comforted and loved.” “Good, now, did you have your cycle last week?” “I don’t remember, Honey; why?” “Vivie, you’re pregnant again.” “Frank, stop it. I can’t be pregnant.” “You’d better not be pregnant! If you ruin my show, VL, I’ll kill you!” “Can you tell your sister to shut her overly dramatic ass up? I like her better when she doesn’t do those damn shows.” 343 344 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Everyone likes her better when she doesn’t do the shows. You know how she is, Honey; she’s just trying to be difficult. She’s not serious.” “The hell I’m not! If you would fight him off every night, we wouldn’t be having this conversation.” “You’re not having this conversation, so hush up, Veronique! I’m sorry, Honey. I can’t be pregnant. I maybe a little late, but I can’t be pregnant.” “Maybe you are pregnant…at least that would explain why you keep dragging your big butt behind me while performing simple choreography.” “Veronique Patterson-Blanca, shut up. Shut up! Can I have this conversation with my husband, please?” “Hey, Baby Bunny? I’m sick of being in this damn three-way conversation. I called to talk to you and tell you that I’ve got a feeling you’re carrying my baby again. It’s just a feeling and I’m always right, but I want you to take a test. Hell, I’ll go get you a test. The girls and I will be there in thirty minutes.” “Alright, Honey. I’ll take the test.” “Good. I love you, Darlin’.” “I love you, too.” “He had better not come up in here monopolizing my rehearsal time!” 344 345 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Ronnie, my love, when was the last time you rode Armand’s dick hard and extremely fast and just went off to sleep? I think that would do you a whole world of good.” “Oh my God, Frank is rubbing off on you! I don’t like this new you.” Frank came down with the girls, I took the test, and he was as right as rain—pregnant. Four weeks along at that time. The hardest thing was explaining to Cookie and Bebe that they were going to have a baby brother or sister. Cookie warmed up to the idea, but not that Ruby. Ruby kicked and screamed and cried and clung to her daddy. Daddy told her that she couldn't do anything about the new baby other than deal with it because the baby wasn't going away. There was a lot more press for Frank during this pregnancy and I started to feel a little sad being left alone at home all day with the girls and the house work. When he had to be away, he would call all the time and it would turn into all day phone conversations between him, the girls, and me. In LA, he took the girls and me with him and he tried not to spoil us, but he couldn't help himself. He made sure he was home when I had my twenty fourth week check up to determine the sex of the babies. From our first ultrasound, we knew we were having twins. “Mr. and Mrs. Lattimore? Dr. Reese is ready for you now.” 345 346 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Thank you.” “Come on, Big Girl. I got you.” “Thank you, Honey. I'm glad you're here with me to hold my hand.” “I'd never miss this, Darlin’. I want to be at every doctor's appointment.” “You should be, you knocked me up.” “Damn right and I damn sure knocked you up good, too.” We walked into the exam room and Frank helped me up on the table. “Are you two still arguing?” “It's all we have between his work and twin girls.” “We manage to sneak sex in every once and a while.” “I can see. How are you today, Vivien-Leigh?” “I'm really good today. I know I’m having two more busy bodies. They rarely keep still in here!” “You should see them kicking in there, Doc— just nonstop action.” “Really? That's a good sign! Smart and alert is a good sign at this stage. Judge Lattimore, can you help 346 347 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Viv get undressed from the waist down for me? I want to do a vaginal exam to make sure things are going well. I'll be back in when you're done.” “Yes Ma'am.” “Lord, I didn't expect one of those today. It's so uncomfortable.” “Baby, you should be used to having an arm up there.” “What are you talking about?” “How do you think you got pregnant?” He raised his eyebrows and gestured slyly at his manhood and Dr. Reese started to laugh. “So, you put your semen in your hand and stuck it up there?” “...So damn smart...” Frank helped me change and get settled on the table with the sheet over me. Dr. Reese came back in and performed the examination. She made a lot of inquisitive noises, but told us nothing. She took off her glove and put my legs down from the stirrups. Dr. Reese went on and started with the ultrasound and I squeezed Frank's hand as he tried to comfort me and stay strong for the both of us. “It's just what I thought.” “What?” 347 348 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Is there something wrong with our babies?” “Look at this—there's the spinal column and it's long, so you're gonna get another tall child. Alright, legs, let's hope these kids wants to open them for us so we can see—oh, there it is! Look at that!” “Another son!” “Judge Lattimore, that's the umbilical cord, but you're right, you're having a baby boy.” “My first son!” “And to his left would be his baby brother.” “Twin boys! Told you the Lattimore genes carried boys!” “Twin boys. Frankie...you knocked me up good.” “I told you!” “I think you guys should tell Claire and Ruby that they've got to get ready for two baby brothers soon.” “Bunny, Ruby will not take this well. She's adamant about being the baby; she's not going to like this at all.” “Well, she's got you to blame for it. So you have to break this news to your baby girl.” Frank and I went 348 349 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ out to lunch and did some prep for the babies, contemplating a way to break the news to the girls. The day after the appointment, Frank had to go to work and he decided to take the girls with him. Tres was going to keep an eye on them while he went through his caseload. He wanted me to be able to have some time to myself and feel pampered while I have some free time. Frank wanted me to get myself all pretty and show up on set so we could break the news to the twins over dinner. “Daddy!” “Daddy! The girls ran out onto the set as they were wrapping up the case and Tres came out right behind them. “Hi Daddy!” “Daddy, what you doin’?” “What are you two doing out here? Where's your brother?” “I'm sorry Daddy, they got away from me. They're smart!” “That’s because they're my babies.” “I'll take them back, Daddy, I'm sorry.” “We stay wif Daddy!” 349 350 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “No! I want Daddy!” The girls fought away from Tres as Frank came down off the bench. “How are my babies? Have you been good for your big brother?” Cookie and Bebe grabbed onto his legs and began hugging them tightly. “Yes, Daddy!” “We good girls, Daddy!” “Daddy, they lying! Those little girls are bad!” “They aren't bad, they're just busy.” He sat down on the defendant's table and dragged a chair over to prop his leg up on it. “Judge Lattimore, those are your twins?” “Yeah, these are my little carbon copies; the wife and I have a problem telling them apart, so we keep a red string on Ruby's wrist and a pink one on Claire's wrist.” The girls were vying for his attention, just like they always did. To our girls, all three of them, their daddy is the moon and the stars. Frank picked them up and stood them in the chair in front of him while the crew cleaned up the set. A few of the staffers stopped to admire our beautiful angels. “How hard is it to deal with twins?” 350 351 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Oh you just wouldn't believe how hard it is. And they've hit the 'terrible twos’ so it drives me crazy. It's worse for the wife because she's six months pregnant with another baby and she's with them more than I am. Vivien-Leigh does a great job being a homemaker.” “Daddy!” began having a royal fit because she'd been trying to crawl up on Daddy and he wasn’t paying attention to her. Claire saw her sister in pain and started crying and wailing, too. “Little Girls, you cut that out this minute!” She fell straight down on her butt in the chair before she started kicking at Frank. The staffers looked on, smiling, but Frank was angry; he wasn’t going to have anyone believe he raised kids who behaved in a manner like this.. “Don't do that for her, she's just so spoiled. The last thing my brats need is an audience.” He picked her up and held her in his arms. She clung to him and he whispered in her ear, warning her about him giving her a whooping as soon as he got the chance. Claire held on to his leg and he realized he was in over his head with the both of them. “See, Daddy, I told you they were bad.” “Stop calling your sisters bad—they're busy. I've got this.” They started to quiet down and Claire went back to playing and hugging on her daddy's leg. Ruby continued to be babied. 351 352 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Miss Vivien-Leigh must be so excited to be having another baby.” “You know something I don't know? Vivie loves being a mother and she's dealing with this unexpected pregnancy. My woman is phenomenal.” “Why, Judge Lattimore, I am awfully flattered. How you do go on!” “Mommy!” I came in from the side of the set and Frank's entire face lit up; I've been told that he had the same effect on me. Tres got up and came over to help escort me over to his dad and sisters. “Hey Ma.” “Hey, Tres. How were your sisters?” “They were wonderful.” “Really? I'm surprised to hear that.” “Mommy! Hi Mommy! Mommy!” “Hey Vivie.” “Hey Honey. I missed you so much today.” I kissed him in between the words of my greeting and kissed him hard, open mouthed, and tongued right between 'much' and 'today.' “Mommy!” 352 353 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Hi Bug-a-Boo!” “Hi.” Cookie hugged my belly and held on tightly. I held her and rubbed her back as I kissed her head. She put up her arms and hopped up and down, signaling for me to pick her up and I obliged. “You sure are looking good today, Baby. I see you have on that new dress I just bought you. I thought your man didn't have great taste?” “Well, you did a good job picking this out. It's a little too low cut to wear during the day so I put this camisole on under it. If we go out for dinner tonight, I might take it off...or wear that other dress you bought me. What's wrong with Bebe?” “She had a fit cause I wouldn’t bend to her will. Here...come sit next to Daddy.” The staff started to catcall as I sat next to Frank. I leaned around him to see my youngest twin as he kissed me on the face and neck. I kissed her on the cheek and stroked her hair. “It's alright, Baby Girl.” “Mommy gotta big tummy.” “Yes, Princess Claire, we talked about Mommy’s tummy being big. Mommy has a baby in her tummy.” “Baby be good, Mommy?” 353 354 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Yes, Cookie, the baby is being very good. Just like you and Bebe try your hardest to be.” “Bebe sad, Mommy.” “I can see that. Are you sad, too?” “Uh huh.” She nodded her little head. I pulled her up on my belly and held her close, rubbing her back and comforting her. “Everyone remembers my wife, Mrs. VivienLeigh?” We all got reacquainted and as usual, but my girls couldn't help but interject. Ruby sat up in her daddy's arms and tapped me on the shoulder. “Mommy?” “Yes, Baby Girl?” Ruby pointed at my tummy before she patted it. Claire started to look up at me and I could tell from the look in their eyes that it was time to break the news to them. “Daddy, it’s time to tell your baby girls the good news.” “You know what, Angels? Daddy and Mommy have something to tell you about the new baby.” I sat Claire up on what was left of my lap so she could hear and see everything we had to say. “You girls know how you were both in Mommy’s tummy at the same time?” They nodded; things were going well… 354 355 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Well, Mommy has two boys in her tummy, just like you two were in Mommy’s tummy. They’re your baby brothers.” They looked at each other and then back up at us. That’s when it started to sink in. “Like me and Cookie?” “Just like you and Cookie, but when they get here, they’re gonna need a lot of love and attention. Mommy and I are gonna love you and take care of you, but you have to share all that love and care with your new brothers.” “Why, Daddy?” They were beginning the twin thing—simultaneous questioning. “Now, you girls are getting bigger and it's time that you both learned how to share. Share your toys and share things with not just each other, but with others. In three more months, you're going to have to share Daddy and Mommy with your new brothers. I know you have big brothers Tres and Julez and big sister Nadi, but you're going to have two new baby brothers to love and play with and share with your Mama and Daddy.” “But Daddy, I'm baby!” “Bebe, you'll still be the baby of you and Claire, but you're getting baby brothers.” “Why, Daddy?” 355 356 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Because Mama and Daddy are having more babies, that’s why.” “Why, Daddy?” “Look Ruby Anna-Maria, we are not going to love you any less or treat you differently; you're just going to have to learn how to share. That's the end of that.” They started to pout and I knew the water works were soon to follow. My girls are masters of the dramatic water works. They poke out their bottom lips, twist slowly back and forth, the eyes get big, and the tears follow shortly after. The floodgates hadn’t yet opened, but they were slowly starting to release. “Good, now that that’s out of the way, Tres, come get these girls. Go round up their stuff and get them ready to go. We'll be done out here soon.” “Yes, Sir.” Tres started to reach for them and the floodgates were open! They cried and held us tight. I can’t even begin to explain just how frustrated my husband became. “No, Daddy! Daddy, I stay wif you!” “Bebe, you can’t do that right now. Daddy will see you in a few.” “Mommy! No, Mommy! I stay wif you!” They were screaming and hollering in our ears and I knew he 356 357 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ was frustrated and going to discipline them. Claire started crying initially because Ruby did and it's a part of their twin thing—one cries, and the other cries just because. If one falls down and hurts herself, the other one starts crying and feels like she hurts herself, too. “Hand Cookie to me.” “Frank, don’t be too upset with them.” “Let me discipline my twin girls, Vivie. Hand Cookie here.” Frank excused himself and took Ruby and Grace back to his personal dressing room and he spanked them. He knows that I hate to hear them in pain, so he has to take them to another room when he spanks. I had tears in my eyes as I tried to pull myself together in front of the staffers. I failed. I didn't calm down until I saw Frank coming back out. “Frankie, was that necessary?” “Yes it was.” Frank took me in his arms and tried to comfort me as best he could. I dabbed at my eyes with tissue and tried to get my face back together. “Aww, Mrs. Vivien-Leigh, are you alright?” “Sweetheart, I'm fine. I'm just so connected to them that it hurts to hear them cry or be in pain. I know they need discipline and I'm just not the one to do that. It’s funny. My brother and I were rarely disciplined—we were spoiled rotten, but I remember my Daddy being the one wanting to spare us from my mother.” 357 358 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “That’s because your mama’s crazy. The woman made you kneel in raw rice in a corner with your hands behind your head. That’s torture. Spanking is fine—what she did was wrong.” “She didn’t make us do it all the time. Just once, when Clark threw me into the glass end table and we broke it.” “You’re bleeding and instead of her taking you to the hospital, she makes you kneel on rice. She’s crazy.” “She’s Cruzan! And a little crazy, Honey, stop it!” “Look, they’re fine. You so damn sensitive.” “They’re my children! You know I don't like hearing or seeing them in pain.” “The kids need discipline and we have to do it now before it's too late.” I didn't say anything; I just put my makeup bag away and sat there quietly because I knew he was right. He turned to me and kissed me on the cheek. “So now you're not talking to me?” “No, Honey...I just know that you're right.” Frank sat next to me on the table and put his arm around me, trying to comfort me. I slid off the table and he held on to me as I tried to get my big butt up on his lap. 358 359 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Wait a minute, Big Girl, Daddy's got you. There you go.” “Thank you.” “Awww!” The staffers all reacted to this hard old man being sensitive and intimate with his big pregnant wife. He blushed as I put my head back on his shoulder and kissed his jaw line. “Judge, your twins are precious! They look so much like you.” “Don't they, though? They have his chubby jaws, his high cheekbones, and his nose, oh my God. I just hope that one day they start to look a little like me. All they got from me is the eye shape, those big lips, and that hair is the both of us.” “You wear your hair natural, don't you, Miss Vivien-Leigh?” “I sure do. I've never had a relaxer; my mama used to press it out until I was about thirteen and then she started letting me decide what I wanted to do with it. I've been doing the wash and go ever since, and sometimes I'll go get something else done with it. I'm doing the same with them. When they're older, I'll let them decide what they want to do with their hair.” “And they have a lot of it. I tried to do something with it this morning and all they could do was cry. I tried to comb one and they both cried.” 359 360 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I told you not to comb their hair! You don't comb dry hair, Frankie, you put that Shea Butter mixture I made on it and you work it through. No wonder my poor babies were hollering so much this morning.” “You didn't tell me that.” “I tell you that all the time, but you don't listen. Well, who did their hair since it looks so decent?” “When I got here this morning, the ladies in the hair and makeup department did it cause they felt sorry for them. Came all in with their little pitiful faces and those big bottom lips hanging and had everybody wrapped around their fingers.” Everyone laughed and he tried not to chuckle about it because he knew he was wrong for hurting my babies’ heads. Frank rubbed my belly and left his hand on top of it, observing the moving patterns of his babies in progress. “Those little girls are something else, I tell you. They're in this phase where they just learned how to open doors. They never want anything in particular; they just like to know what's on the other side. They always seem to do that when I'm in the bathroom. I'm just sitting there and here comes the door opening and they're standing there giggling.” “Oh yes, my girls are quite inquisitive. They've walked in on me quite a few times as well—I'm sitting there reading the paper and then the door opens. Instead 360 361 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ of it being you, it's Frick and Frack standing there going, 'Hi Daddy! What you doing?'” “They'll ask you a few questions and then giggle and run off, leaving the door wide open. Thank God they can’t figure out how the main doors or that patio door work. I'm so afraid they'd go outside or let in Godknows-who.” “They're too smart for their own good. That damn Ruby Anna-Maria is just so spoiled and she gets to me; she makes me feel bad for spanking her.” “Daddy loves his babies and the minute they pout, you start to feel sad. Ruby loves her daddy, that's for sure. Every time you go away, she wakes up in the morning and all I hear is 'Where is my daddy?' 'When is Daddy coming home?' 'I miss my daddy.' Poor child could care less about me.” “Yeah...my baby's first word was 'Daddy' and Claire's first word was 'Mama' and their first word together was 'cookie!' I think my girls are making me soft, Baby.” “Little girls always do that to their daddies. You wanted them and now you've got them and it hurts your heart to hear them cry, but you act like it doesn't. You're a good daddy who's going to buy his babies ponies.” “Not ponies. A pony. Hell, Nadi got one, and they should, too.” 361 362 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “How lucky are your kids? You're going to buy them a pony?” “We’re thinking about it. We decided to teach the girls how to ride and it's going pretty well. They're just getting the hang of being on the horse alone.” “They love to ride with Daddy. He gets up on the horsey and I hand him the babies and they ride for hours.” “I love hearing them have so much fun up there with me. First time I put them on the horse by themselves they just screamed the entire time; however, I think they're starting to warm up to it. I'm gonna take them out this weekend and get them on a pony to see how that goes.” “Do your girls know how lucky they are? A lot more parents need to expose their kids to things like that, especially at a young age.” “Of course not, they're two, they think everybody lives like we do. I keep telling them to stop taking those toys and things for granted. For every morning I step on something, it's one more thing that I want to take away and donate to kids who'd appreciate them.” “They're babies, Honey; they don't know any better about it. That's why we have to keep teaching those little busy bees.” 362 363 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I think we’re done here, Guys. It was good talking with you again, Miss Vivien-Leigh. Judge, we’ll see you tomorrow.” “Same here. Everyone have a good night and be safe.” “Alright, y’all—bright and early, we’re back at it!” Frank and I continued to enjoy the moment alone as everyone left. We knew we would have to go back to reality with those spoiled girls of ours in a matter of minutes. We had to make the best of it. “Baby, I’ve been meaning to tell you just how angelic you are when you’re with child.” “Thank you, Honey.” “I mean it. When I got up this morning, I had to tear myself away from watching you. You were just lying there in your bra, with your belly exposed, those long limbs wrapped up in the sheets, and just snoring your heart out. You were beautiful. You are beautiful.” I took his face and pulled it down to mine and I kissed him. I kissed Frank hard and passionately, forgetting my surroundings and my manners. “You’re trying to get some of this cookie before we leave here, aren’t you?” “It would be nice if I could, but I’m serious. I don’t think I tell you enough just how much I enjoy 363 364 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ you—being with you and loving you. I’d just never felt this peace that I feel with you in my past marriages. I know we said we wouldn’t bring those up, but it’s true. God sent me an angel; I had to go through hell to get you, but it was worth it.” You know my husband had me a teary mess in his arms. I know I sound just as country as he does, but it’s true. I was a big emotional mess. “Oh, don’t start all that right now.” “I can’t help it. I love you so much and here you come complimenting me and being so sweet like you are and I get emotional. It’s nice to be loved and appreciated—especially by my chauvinist husband.” “Because you know ‘they’ can’t possibly think that I love and cherish my wife. You stay at home with the girls and all I want you to do is take care of them and have a meal or two for me when I get home. You don’t have to clean and fetch like a chauvinist would expect his wife to. You live a pampered life, ‘cause your man makes sure you have the best of everything.” “I know, Honey.” “You why I take care of you the way I do?” “Why’s that?” “Because the sex is so goddamn good. Baby, I don’t know what kinda Cruzan roots you put on me, but 364 365 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ I swear, getting up in your cookie jar makes me twitch! I feign to get between them pretty bronzed thighs. Shit.” I reached up and put my hand over his mouth. He meant well, but as he tends to do, he ran out. I couldn’t help but laugh. “Honey, don't make me laugh, the boys get going in there and I end up having to go to the bathroom.” “I'm sorry, Baby. I need to ask you now before I forget; I might need you on the show as an expert witness next week.” “For what?” “I think I got something about a makeup artist and then something again about dancers.” “The only dancers that come on your show are the kind that take their clothes off. I am not and nor have I ever been that kind of dancer.” “I know that, VL. I don't know how I put up with you.” “I guess I can do that. It's the least I can do.” “Yeah, right. You know what's the least you can do? Let me have some dessert after dinner tonight.” He whispered in my ear about wanting a little personal attention since he gives so much to me. 365 366 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “You know what, Honey? I may let you get a little bit of that dessert before dinner.” I have no qualms with adhering to his personal requests and I know he needed it seeing as how we weren't having that much sex. We went back to his dressing room and after Tres took the girls home for the evening, I gave Daddy what he wanted. We had a more altered sexual routine than we'd had when we were pregnant with the girls. We tried to be as intimate as possible when we could, but it didn’t always work out. This pregnancy kept me tired. One of the few times we were in the mood to make love, all hell broke loose. Right when we were in the midst of the act, the labor pains came. What Frank thought were screams in praise of his lovemaking prowess were actually building contractions. “Frank...Frank...Frankie...oh my God!” I let out the loudest and most intense scream I could and he kept right on behind me, humping and pumping away. “That's right, Bunny, say my name...but tone it down, we don't want to wake the girls.” “Honey, stop.” “What's the matter, Vivie? I know it's good to you.” “Frankie, please—I think I'm going into labor.” 366 367 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Oh my God.” He dismounted me and moved over to his side of the bed, trying to roll me on my side. “Damn, it seems like a baby pops up every time a lay a hand on you. Baby, I want you to just lie still and I'm going to start timing these contractions. In the mean time, I'm going to clean you up and get you dressed— hell, I gotta get the kids up and put clothes on them, too.” “Frankie, it hurts.” “I know it does, Baby.” “You don't know how bad it does.” “I can only imagine, Bunny. Just bear with me, Darlin.’ Have I ever done wrong by you?” “No.” “We've done this before, right?” “Uh huh.” “We're going to do it again and I'm going to be with you every step of the way. You trust your man, don't you, Baby?” “Of course I do, Frankie.” “Then don't worry.” He kissed me on the forehead and held my hand as I struggled through another contraction. They started getting closer and 367 368 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ closer together and by the time he had gotten all of us dressed and out to the car, the contractions were 4 ½ minutes apart. My doctor met us at the hospital and when she checked me out, she said that one of the boys had his foot wrapped up in the umbilical cord and the other had it around his neck. Oxygen wasn't getting through to them fast enough and I had to go in for an emergency CSection. This was a life or death surgery. I kept praying for my babies. Frank was strong as usual and we prayed with the kids to prepare for surgery. This time around, we let the older kids come up with the names for the new babies. The baby that was always on my right was named Jordan because Tres and Julez said that in one of the ultrasounds he had his arm up like Michael Jordan. Nadi named the baby on my left Christopher because, according to her, Christopher’s are always fine. Frank gave them middle names—Jordan Memphis and Christopher Charles Franklin. He gave Christopher his name just because he wanted at least one of our sons to have that piece of him and his father just like Tres did. My boys were born on November 14th, 2004 at 5:06 and 5:09 AM, just some three hours after I'd been rushed to the hospital. Jordan was born first and he came in weighing 8 ½ lbs. and was twenty inches, while Christopher weighed 8 lbs. 11 oz. and was also twenty inches long. 368 369 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Here's our youngest son, Bunny. Look at Christopher Charles Franklin Lattimore.” “He's beautiful, Honey. My baby...Frankie, where's Jordan? Where are they taking my baby?” “Calm down, Vivie, I'm sure there's an explanation for it.” “I need to know where my baby is going! Where are you taking my son?” “Vivien-Leigh, Frank, I have to be honest with you. Jordan suffered a lot having that umbilical cord around his neck. He came out blue and can’t breathe very well on his own, so we have to take him down to the Neonatal Unit and get him hooked up on a breathing machine so he can build up strength in his lungs again. I promise you, he will be fine.” “I need to be near my son. I don't want him down there alone. He needs to know that his mommy loves him.” “I can’t let you do that right now, Vivien-Leigh. We’ve got you stitched and bandaged up and we have to get you down to your room; I'll have Christopher meet you there and in a little while you can go down and see Jordan.” “Doc, if Vivie can’t go see him now, can I at least go down there to check on him so I can let her know he's alright?” 369 370 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “That will be fine.” Frank stroked my hair and kissed me on the forehead as I cried. I can’t even explain the feeling I had of not being able to see my new baby and hold him and let him know that I was his mommy and I loved him. It was upsetting and confusing and Frank and the boys tried calming me down. When I was finally able to see him, I sat next to him and watched him breathe along with the machine. I gently stroked the back of his hand and out of nowhere, he wrapped his little finger around mine. I cried. All the kids came down with their father to see their new brother. We held a small prayer circle for him and Frank tried to keep me calm during his stay there. He was finally able to breathe on his own after a three day stay on the breathing machine in the NNU. I was overjoyed to finally take my boys home and spoil them, despite the fact that they used me for food and peed and spit up all over me all the time. Dr. James Aubrey, the girls' pediatrician, quickly took on the boys as patients since Jordan needed immediate care for his breathing issues. Once, Frank went out of town for a speaking engagement and left me alone with all the kids. Thank God for Julian. That boy held me together as best he could when he wasn’t dealing with his extracurricular activities and his friends. There were times when I couldn't deal with the crying and the fussing between Claire and Ruby and I would just cry, causing them all to stop. The girls would get so scared that they would call 370 371 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ their daddy and he would spend twenty minutes or so just to talk me down. One night, Frank was on his way home and I was tired of the boys crying to be fed every half hour, so I brought them in the bed with me. I fell asleep off and on feeding them, so I'd just lie on my side and let them nurse. I'd fed Jordan and burped him and got him back to sleep in the middle of Frank's side of the bed. I fed Christopher and was in the process of burping him before I fell asleep again with him on my chest. I was woken up when I heard Claire and Ruby scurrying into my room. “Mommy sleeping, Cookie.” “We need Mommy, Bebe! The monster!” “Sshhh! Be quiet, your brothers are asleep.” “Mommy, we sleep wif you?” “A monster in me and Cookie's room, Mommy.” “Come on and get in. Be careful, your brothers are in here.” They started to crawl up on the bed using the footstool and once Claire got on, I started to make room for Ruby. Before I could get Jordan out of the way, Ruby had crawled on top of him. She pressed all of her weight on his chest and he started to scream this bloodcurdling cry that was masked in wheezing. 371 372 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “RUBY, GET OFF OF HIM! WHY DID YOU DO THAT?” “Sorry, Mommy. I not mean to.” She began to cry, her sister joined in, and once both boys started to scream, and I began to panic. My daughter could have killed my son, and even though it was an accident, I was just so upset with her. I started to scream at her and cry out of frustration. I had to get Jordan to the ER and it was all too much for me to deal with. “Dammit, Ruby! Look, Ruby, Claire, go to your room, get your shoes on and get your coats. I have to take your brother to the hospital.” I yanked them off the bed and put them down, pushing them to go to their rooms. We’d woken Julian, who’d stumbled blindly into my bedroom. “Hurry!” “What’s all the noise about? What’s wrong?” Julian was still in a sleepy daze. He wiped the sleep from his eyes to get an understanding of what was happening. “Julez, I have to take your brother to the hospital. Bebe crawled across his chest and he’s in a lot of pain.” “Viv, you sure you can do that? You’re shaking real hard right now. You want me to call Daddy? I mean, I could drive you if you wanted.” 372 373 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ I bundled up the boys as best I could while I held Jordan and tried to comfort him. I knew Frank was on his way home, so I didn’t really want to bother Julian, but I needed assistance getting these kids to the hospital. I was starting to crack under the weight of the pressure from being a mom. “Your father should be home soon and I didn’t want to bother you. I just need to get this boy to the hospital before anything gets worse. Julez, Baby, I need help.” “Don’t worry about it; I’ll help you. I’ll get Chris dressed. Just calm down and hold J.” I was so glad that his father had instilled him with dignity and pride and gentlemanly qualities. I needed someone strong to step in, because I was literally falling apart. Frank has a way of knowing when I need him, too. He called at the right moment. “Hey Baby, what's all that screaming about?” “Honey, where are you?” “Just got in the limo, I'm on my way home. What's the matter? Calm down, Darlin.’” “I had the babies in the bed with me and the girls came in and Ruby crawled across Jordan's chest and I know he's hurt and I have to get him to the ER now! I need you to meet me there, Honey. Please!” 373 374 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “That's fine, Vivie. Baby Girl, I need you to calm down. You're no good to getting the kids there safely if you are all worked up like that. Matter of fact, where’s my boy? Go get him up and let him take you.” I started to cry uncontrollably while Frank kept it calm and tried to ease my angst. “What’s the matter, Bunny?” “My baby is in pain!” “I know, but I want you to take three deep breaths with me. Come on Baby Bunny, breathe with Daddy.” We started to breathe together and he told me to think about what's best for Jordan and what was best was me being calm and letting Julian drive us safely to the hospital so he could be checked out. “All better?” “A little.” “I will see you at the hospital, Bunny. I love you.” “I love you, too.” Julian and I finally got the kids in the car and I got Chris to calm down, but Jordie was still upset, with good reason. We got to the hospital and Frank was there waiting on us. He took Jordie straight from my arms and held me with his free arm as he kissed and comforted us both. 374 375 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ A doctor got to see him and I told him what happened. By the grace of God, my baby was fine. His ribs were going to be soft for a little while and his wheezing would endure because he was diagnosed with asthma. They gave him infant painkillers and wrapped him up and sent him home. We went to bed that night, both Jordie and I wrapped in Frank’s arms. 375 376 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ “You back, Baby?” “Yeah, I'm back.” “You alright?” “I'm fine, Honey.” Frank's shifting Ruby in his arms and pulling me close, trying to kiss me on the lips. I'm turning my head and he's getting my cheek. I'm brushing off his shoulder and drumming my fingers on it as I think about what’s lying ahead of us. I know he's probably upset with the fact that I just did that, but I don't want to kiss him right now. “Vivie?” “Anybody have any gum? Mints? Something?” “Here Mama, I got some gum.” “Thank you, Julez.” I'm taking the gum and Frank's patting me on the butt and studying me. I know my man well; he's trying to figure out what's going on with me. I guarantee you he won’t get it. He's kissing me on the neck and resting his hand on my butt. “Baby, you gon’ tell me what's wrong?” “No, because there is nothing wrong, Frankie.” 376 377 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Judge Lattimore? We're ready for you and your family now.” “Alright, we'll be right there.” I'm turning my head and Frank landed a kiss on the lips. I'm kissing him back and straightening up Ruby in his arms. “Everybody ready?” “Yes, Daddy.” The kids and I are giving our collective response and Frank's just beaming with pride. “Mommy!” “Oh alright, Boy, come here.” I'm reaching back for Christopher and trying to straighten up his shirt. Frank's leading me next to him and we're pressing on to the stage set up. We're all taking our seats and I'm reaching over for Frank's hand. “This is it, Honey.” I'm crossing my legs and sitting Chris down on my lap and holding him back against my chest. I'm getting closer to Frank and gradually growing nervous. There's a speaker and he's going on and on about something and all I can think about is how good of a man I have. We've had our ups and downs, but in the end we've always stood by each other and supported each other. I have the type of man who is rather old fashioned: he wants his stay at home wife to take care of his babies and always have a cold beer and dinner prepared from scratch on Sundays through Thursdays. 377 378 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ On Fridays and Saturdays, he wants his woman to put on the little black dress and the four-inch heels and go out on the town with him. He has always said that I was the greatest housewife and stay at home mother that he'd ever encountered. He was adamant about me not working because he's seen his mother work and she worked hard to better her community by teaching in the public school districts of Memphis. Frank didn't want me to have to work that hard, but he didn't mind me having outside projects. If I got offered a part in a stage play or production, he encouraged me to go for it—just as long as it wasn't too far away and didn't take too much of my time away from home. The only conflict that actually arose as it pertained to my career was my wanting to focus on inhome makeup consultations. I wanted to do classes and professional work for fashion shows and weddings and other things, and Frank was not happy with that decision. We argued for months; sometimes we'd scream so loud, we'd wake up the kids. I finally got tired of arguing with him and just gave in and gave up. He said his final no and I left it at that. “Frankie, why can’t I do this? I know the amount of work that goes into it and I can balance it! I know you think it's going to keep me away from my 378 379 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ duties at home, but I can do it. Honey, just give me the chance to prove myself!” “Vivien-Leigh, I'm tired of talking about this! I said no! You don't know what goes into running a business and taking care of an entire household. I don't think this is a good idea and I'm done with it.” “Frankie, please?” “No.” “Fine, I won’t do it. Dinner will be ready in an hour and a half.” “Thank you, Ma'am.” He kissed me on the cheek and I got up from the coffee table, picked up the laundry basket and went back to my housework. I'd done all of the girls' clothes and I was on my way to wash Frank’s and mine. I couldn't take the constant arguing with him anymore. If he didn't want me to try my hand at something that I knew I could do with no problems, then I just wouldn't do it. I was tired of being unhappy because we had gotten into yet another argument and I would rather be unfulfilled with my work than unhappy with my husband. We went on with the rest of the day like nothing happened. I did the laundry, put out dinner, and took care of him and the girls. After we'd given them their baths and put them to bed, I went back downstairs to 379 380 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ finish cleaning the kitchen and their playroom. When I went upstairs to get ready for bed, I ran into my husband sneaking his way from the girls' room. “Are they alright?” “They're fine. I just wanted to get another look at my sleeping beauties. Vivie, come on in this room, I want to talk to you.” He took me by the hand as he led me into the bedroom and sat down on the leopard print chaise lounge at the foot of the bed. I stood in front of him and crossed my arms and stared at the floor while he looked at me and moved his head around, trying to get me to make eye contact. Frank put his hand on my hip and rubbed it gently. “Bunny, what's wrong?” “Nothing.” “It doesn't look like nothing, Baby Bunny. Tell Daddy what's wrong.” “I said it's nothing, Frankie.” “It's about you starting your own business, isn't it?” “You said no, so that's the end of it.” He nodded his head and I felt tears of anger well up in my eyes. “Aw, now, why are you crying?” 380 381 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Because you said no! You always say no when I want to do something outside of this house other than shopping and running errands! And don't call me 'Baby Bunny!' It only reminds me of good and intimate times together on the beach in Aruba! You don't want me to be anything other than your shadow!” “Have a sit down on Daddy's lap.” He slapped his thighs and helped me down on his lap and held me close. “You think I just want you to be my shadow? To be there ASAP when I spill my beer? Just to run behind the girls all day? I'm not a chauvinist, Vivie—this much I know you understand. I want you to live comfortably and that means not having to have a career because your man takes damn good care of you. Yet, I understand that that's not enough for the women today.” “I'm happy with you, Honey. I'm happy with our children, but every once and a while I'd like to be able to get out and do something that's just for me, something that I love and something I'm good at and if I can make some money from it, then that makes it even more fulfilling.” “I understand that. I also understand that we've been fighting about this for three months now and we haven't made love ever since. Look, Vivie, I know you want to get out of the house and do your own thing for a little while, but I just don't want you to get overwhelmed 381 382 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ by doing so many things at once. I just want you to be comfortable and happy.” “I know you do, but like I've been telling you, I can handle doing it all. I just want the chance to try. I just want the chance to just show you how tough I am.” “I'm too overprotective of you, Vivien-Leigh.” “I know you are, and it's not a bad thing. I just want to try, Frankie. Give me six months to try and work it out and if you think it's taking me away from home, I'll stop. Please, Honey? Please, Daddy? Baby Bunny just wants to try.” “Now you want to be Baby Bunny?” I wrapped my arms around his neck and pushed my cleavage up under his chin while I nibbled on his ear. “Please, Daddy?” “I’ll give you six months, Vivien-Leigh. You know what Daddy did for you?” “What?” “Daddy took the time to put together some legally binding contracts for you and this new business. I want you to read over it and we can change it if you want and tomorrow we can go down to the bank and set up an account for this new limited liability corporation of yours.” “Are you serious?” 382 383 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Yes I am. You are adamant about this and I shouldn't have ignored your pleas. I should have listened and I'm sorry. You are very good at your makeup thing and you deserve the chance to show the world.” “Thank you, Frankie. Thank you so much, Honey.” We kissed hard before breaking apart and looking deep into each other’s eyes. I got up from his lap and made my way over to the bathroom. Frank sat there with a smirk on his face while he rubbed his chin. “What?” “I mean, three months and we haven't done as much as peck on the lips. I just thought there would be some reconciliatory humping in my future.” “You let me have my business just so we would make love?” “Partly. Hell, a man has his needs.” I stood there and looked at him in absolute shock and awe as he started to roll his eyes and mentally prepare for another argument. Frank stood up and looked like he was ready to step into another war with me. I charged at him and hopped up in his arms. “You're lucky you weren't standing next to the bed. That TV saved your life.” “Why is that?” 383 384 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “Because I was ready to tackle you and you know that when I tackle you, you end up sore and wearing a neck brace to work.” “I see. You want me to put you down and take a few steps to the side of the bed? Cause you give me the type of pain that hurts so good and I don't mind wearing the brace.” “No! Baby Bunny wants to stay here.” “What does Baby Bunny want to do?” “Baby Bunny wants to ride Daddy really, really hard, then Baby Bunny wants Daddy to flip her over on her back, throw her legs over his shoulders, slide in even deeper than before and proceed to hump her into total submission as she screams his name and thanks God for the fact that he knows how to please her like no other.” “Daddy is ready to oblige and satisfy Baby Bunny and fulfill her every need and desire. Three months and I haven’t had a piece of this pussy? Woman, I’m gon’ make you see stars!” That was the night that we conceived Jordan and Christopher, and he realized that I was able to handle several projects at one time. He let me have my business—Faces of Beauty by Vivien-Leigh, LLC—and in return, I continued to run his house, his office, take care of him and his babies, and in the end give him two more little Lattimores. 384 385 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ 385 386 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ ~~~~ “Judge Lattimore, Lattimore family, would you please stand? Mrs. Lattimore, can you stand right next to your husband?” “I can certainly do that; that's where I look my absolute best.” Everyone's laughing as they try to get us arranged next to Frank. “Judge, you think you can hand the baby to your wife?” Frank's trying to hand over Ruby and I know there's no way I can hold her and Chris at the same time. She's clinging to his neck and not letting go. “Bebe, you want to go with Mama for a few?” “I want to stay with Daddy.” “I'm guessing that would be a no. You're fine, just as long as you can raise your right hand.” Frank's shuffling Ruby around in his arms and beaming with pride right now. When I tell you that my man sets his sights on a goal, he accomplishes it. Right now, he's reaping the benefits of his harvest. “Ladies and gentleman, citizens of Los Angeles, California, I give you, our 52nd mayor, Judge Charles Franklin Lattimore, Jr.!” There is a standing ovation for my husband and I am officially married to the most powerful man in Los 386 387 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ Angeles at this moment. What? You didn't know he was running for mayor? Well, remember when I told you that I asked him those five important questions that every woman should ask a man who's showing interest in her? Remember when I asked him what his long term and short-term goals were? He said that he possibly wanted to run for mayor of LA because he wanted to change lives—and that wasn't just talk. When my man says he wants to do something, he does it. “We will actually have a few words from the new first lady of Los Angeles, Mrs. Vivien-Leigh Lattimore.” “Good morning, Los Angeles. I don't think I've ever been big on titles, but I’m very sure that I'd be lying if I said being the first lady wasn’t an amazing feeling. I would just like to thank the entire city for the love and support that you all have shown our family this election year. Now, what can I say about my husband?” “What can you say, Baby?” The crowd is hooping and hollering and it feels so good to be in the midst of all of this. “What can I say about my hardworking man? I am so proud of my husband for being all that he claims to be. He entered this election as a Southern judge turned TV personality and he swept this election like it was nothing! One news anchor said the way Frankie won this election, it were as if he had run unopposed! That's 387 388 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ because people know that my man means business and when he stands, he delivers!” There's more applause and cheering and the kids are all excited and hyping up their father. I know he feels good to hear me brag about him the way that I am. He always says it makes a man feel good to hear his woman brag about how well he does his job. “Aside from thanking you, Los Angeles, I have some things to say to my husband. Frankie, Honey—I'm sorry, Mr. Mayor—could you step forward, please?” Frank's rising and coming over to the podium to stand next to me, putting his arm around my waist and holding me close. “When I met you some seven years ago, one of the things you told me was that you were thinking about running for mayor of Los Angeles. Look what you've done. You've achieved so much in your career and I am so proud to call you mine. You gave me four beautiful babies and three big handsome and gorgeous bonus babies and you've enriched my life in a way that I cannot explain. I wouldn't change any of it for the world. I love you, Honey.” “I love you, more, Bunny.” “I'm so proud of you. I know I've been saying that since you've won the election, but I mean it. I really do, Honey. I just feel like the luckiest woman alive every day that I’m with you. And to keep in line with this 388 389 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ celebration, I think it’s safe to say that you and our children need to make room for another baby Lattimore.” “Bunny, you're pregnant?” “That's right, Honey!” The crowd cheered, and my husband’s face beamed. “Thank you, Vivie, I think that's the best gift I could've gotten for this.” I hold on to my hat and lean down to kiss him. The crowd's oohs and ahhs caused Frank to become flushed. He's heated and ready to get to his mayoral duties. I kiss him one last time and step back from the podium to let him make his remarks while he’s officially introduced again. “Los Angeles, I won’t hold him back any longer. You know who he is, you voted for him. You know what this man can do, so I present to some and introduce to others, our great mayor, Judge C. Franklin Lattimore, Jr.” “Los Angeles?” The vibe here is like church! It's like a mass revival and everyone's feeling the spirit. Frank's speeches can turn into sermons, but I think this one will be a great fit for the atmosphere. “I said, Los Angeles, are you ready for a change? I know you are and I'm ready to bring it in. My wife kicked this off in one of the greatest ways possible. 389 390 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ First, I'm sworn in as mayor and now I'm having another baby—I don't think things could be any better right now. I think I knew something was up; she normally wakes me up at the crack of dawn to force a thirty minute jog with the babies down my throat every morning.” There's laughter and applause and I'm standing here with Christopher holding my leg and Ruby holding my hand. “This is a big change that I'm prepared for and I believe Los Angeles is ready for a major change as well. I think you want a man that's not going to just talk about it, but a man that's going to be about it and that's what I am.” Frank's motioning for me to come over to him and I'm sitting the kids down and fixing myself up again. “You all have met my wife, you've met me, and you see my family at the community centers working with the kids when I don't take my trip back to Memphis to spend time with my daughter and follow up on old cases. My wife and I have started an initiative to help women get back into the work force and teach them how to budget, how to dress for success, and how to look for success. I work with young men and teach them leadership qualities and how to be men. That's what we need more of in Los Angeles. We need more responsible citizens, willing to work with these young people and bring up a generation of more aware and prepared young people. 390 391 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ “I know how hard it is to raise kids; I have seven and another one or two on the way. I want my children to be able to see the progress that we're making now and want to continue making a different kind of progress in the city. We need more concerned parents in the schools, participating with the teachers and making sure that their kids are getting the best possible education. I know what the school systems are like. I lecture in these schools, I volunteer in these schools, and even though my I have one college grad, one entering college, one in high school, and my younger kids aren't in a school yet, I know what I have to look forward to with this educational system and I want to work to have it changed.” I'm applauding and I know I keep saying this, but you just can’t imagine how proud I am of my husband. I knew from the moment that I looked into his eyes that he was going to change lives. Listening to him speak gives me chills because he speaks nothing but the absolute truth and it drives me wild. “Los Angeles, I know I'm putting a lot to you right now and I can go on for hours, but I just want to make it crystal clear to you that you picked the right man for the job. I want nothing more for this city but a change for the better. My wife will tell you that when I stand, I deliver. I cannot be moved or intimidated. When I take a stand, things get done. I want to lead this city into the future and I believe the first place to start is with 391 392 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ our children. We can do it, LA, and I thank you for putting your trust in me to get it done.” “Ladies and gentleman of Los Angeles, our fifty-second mayor, Judge C. Franklin Lattimore! Did he move you or what?” The crowd is in an absolute frenzy! They're all chanting his name and going wild. I'm grabbing him by the face and kissing him passionately, just as we do at home, showing him again that I don't care who knows or who sees just how much I love him. He's done nothing other than take my already full and interesting life and turn it into a loving and lavishly imperfect fairy tale. I know it’s never perfect, but I’ve loved every twist and turn that’s come my way. I’m looking forward to the plot twists that lie ahead of us. I know some people may think that I'm just a rich and spoiled housewife with a chauvinist husband, but I don't care; my chauvinist husband is a real man and he is the real man that's going to change Los Angeles for the better. “Now, I know that we're supposed to save the music and the dancing for the reception, but I have to do this. The first time I met my wife, it was a few blocks from here at the Waterford on a Sunday afternoon just like today and we ended up in this very park where we shared our first dance to Etta James' 'Sunday Kind of Love.' Now, unbeknownst to her, I found the same band and the same vocalist and brought them here today. I want to share a moment with my first lady.” 392 393 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ He's leading me to the center of the stage and holding me; the band is playing and the vocalist is belting out our song. I'm in the mood for a little nostalgia. “You know something, Franklin?” “What’s that, Miss Vivien-Leigh?” “We're dancing to Etta James' 'A Sunday Kind of Love' and I think that's exactly what we may have.” “Well, Darlin,’ I think you just might be right about that. ‘A Sunday kind of love’…I like the way you put that.” 393 394 Grant/A Sunday Kind of Love/ About The Author Necolia Grant is a pure southern girl, born in raised in Charleston, SC. She is a graduate of Johnson C. Smith University’s class of 2005. At JCSU, Necolia majored in Liberal Arts with English and Writing concentrations and was the assistant editor of the university’s student newspaper, JCSU Student News. Writing is Necolia’s first love and true passion; she started writing at the age of 13 and always dreamed of becoming a published author. Although this is her first published work, she aspires to create many more classic novels and has hopes to adapt them for the silver screen. To learn more about this GRITS—that’s Girl Raised In The South, for you Yankees—follow her on Twitter @MissGAWorld1976. 394