Running head: The Growth of David’s Self-Realization Naked: The Growth of David’s Self-Realization Via Learning Experiences Charles Joseph Arroyo-de las Peñas University of California, Merced David Sedaris’ Naked is a memoir, portraying David as a character constantly unable to gain acceptance through various situations and environments. However, he progressively steps forward onto the path of self-realization until he finally arrives at full circle from where he is at the beginning of the book. David starts out as a little boy fantasizing about how all other people look up to him and his family as wealthy and far superior to them. As the book moves on however, reality slams down, showing David to be a young boy with OCD, unable to blend in with the other kids due to his many odd yet mandatory behaviors that set him apart. While at first he tries (and fails) to blend in with others, David slowly but surely is able to understand and accept himself, leading to self-realization and ultimately back to the start of the memoir. These events, which first brought him down, are what inevitably contribute to David’s gain of selfworth and pride. Chapters two, sixteen and seventeen strongly exhibit the growth experienced by David. Naked begins with David creating a large scene in his head picturing himself as a Jesuslike saint, both stunningly attractive as well as charitable. However, reality swiftly crashes upon him with his mother yelling at him. Leading into chapter two, A Plague of Tics, it quickly becomes obvious that the fairytale that David had been dreaming up in chapter one was a method 1 Running head: The Growth of David’s Self-Realization of escape for him. Constantly dissatisfied with the life he and his family lead, David also fantasizes about his “real” parents coming to pick him and save him. In short, he cannot accept his family’s social status – in addition to the fact that his mother keeps giving him new sisters – and he craves for an escape route. Perhaps it is for this reason that the tics that develop in chapter two arise. The tics, which include: touching, licking, poking, and rearranging, all demand an enormous chunk of concentration from David, which provides an escape route from having to think about the lack of “family” in his family. OCD can be manifested is small children around the age of seven due to stressful family relationships (I Heyman, D Mataix-Cols and N A Fineberg, 2006). Progressing through the book and into chapter sixteen, Ashes, David slowly begins to understand more about himself, his family, and the wealth that he has one previously desired for. He sees his mother –clearly dying of cancer – refusing to change her ways of smoking and drinking. In some ways, this inspires him to be more firm about his own beliefs. He acknowledged that he would be homosexual for the rest of his life, and came to terms with his mother’s inevitable death. The emotional effect on David was not realized until later. The relationship between them was aloof at best, with little reciprocation of love or care. At one point, when David told his mother that he loved her, his mother responded saying she’d pretend she hadn’t heard that (Sedaris, 1997), which clearly indicated little affection within the family. This undoubtly contributed to the slow development David’s final test came in the form of a nudist colony. His former thoughts and assumptions were questioned and tested, and he came back to the “real world” a changed man. In fact, David himself says that “It was as if I’d received the true version of the X-ray specs I’d 2 Running head: The Growth of David’s Self-Realization ordered as a kid” (Sedaris, 1997). During his time isolated with nudists, David noticed that the clothes that people wore did not necessarily contribute to their personality. He also came to terms with himself, and accepted it – something he’d been unable to do for the entire course of the book. Finally, we come full circle to the first chapter, where David felt rather superior to others. This time, however, it was not a fantasy constructed within the confines of his brain, but rather a genuine feeling exhibited through his expression of being and demeanor. Throughout the book, David exhibited behavior the indicated insecurity and failure to understand or accept himself. However, through life-altering events such as the death of his mother and his choice of joining a nudist colony, he was finally able to see himself for who he was, and accept it. 3 Running head: The Growth of David’s Self-Realization References 1. Obsessive-compulsive disorder I Heyman, D Mataix-Cols and N A Fineberg BMJ: British Medical Journal , Vol. 333, No. 7565 (26 August 2006), pp. 424-429 Published by: BMJ Publishing Group Article Stable URL: http://www.jstor.org/stable/40700053 2. Naked Sedaris, David 4