Holden’s Scrapbook! My madman adventure to becoming a man Red Hunting Hat My red hunting hat, or as I like to call it my people watching hat. I look damn good in it! I bought it in a sports store the morning of the fencing meet. It was really quite a bargain, only cost me a buck! I like to wear it backwards with the peak in the back; I don't care that people look at me weird, I like to wear it that way. When I’m watching someone though, I turn the peak to the front, gives me sort of a disguise. 17-52 Allie’s Baseball Mitt Allie was a nice kid, he really was. God, do I miss him. I really took it hard when he passed away, so I kept something to remember him by, his baseball mitt. But you see this wasn’t just any ol’ baseball mitt, his was special. Allie’s was a left handed mitt with poems written in green ink all over it. He wrote them so he had something to to read when no one was up to bat so he didn’t get bored. Quite brilliant if you ask me. Anyway, it’s quite special to me because it’s the only part of him I have left. He was the only one besides lil’ phoebe that I felt close to and now he’s gone, I feel like I have no one. It’s our only connection. 3841 Pencey Prep Man did I hate this place! It was full of phonies! It was the last school that I had gotten kicked out of. The only class I didn’t fail was English, and that’s cause I actually like to write compositions although I’m quite illiterate. Besides, I read all the novels at Whooton so I didn’t have to do much work. I’m not goin’ to lie though, although I am a good liar, I really do miss Ackley, good ol’ Ackley kid. Stradlater too! I mean god that guy could really get to you after awhile but damn did I miss him. 2-58 ; 182-185 Jane Jane is the prettiest girl I know. I really like her, maybe even like-like her. Therefore, I felt the need to protect her from stradlater because he would hurt her. She still has that innocence and I have to protect that. Maybe it was jealousy. Maybe I acted in a fatherly way because I didn’t want to see a girl that is almost like my sister be taken advantage of. I’m not really sure, to be honest. I miss playing checkers with her, and watching her dance around, she really is quite a beautiful dancer. 30-44 ;63, 76-80, 150 Ducks in Central Park I used to wonder where the ducks went during the winter when the lagoon froze over. Did someone care for them? Or did they fly away and care for themselves? I often wondered how it would be an adult. Would there be a difference? I never really got an answer; everyone left me to face adulthood alone. 60; 81-83 Natural Museum of History I love this place! It’s the best. Nothing ever changes, no matter how many times you go there and how much time has passed. I don’t like change much in case you haven’t noticed. When I was younger I went here almost every Saturday with my class. I loved the mummies, I still do. I often go back and reminisce. 118-122; 202-204 Nightclubs Well what else was a lonely guy like me supposed to do? I was so lonesome it wasn’t even funny. I thought going out to a club and maybe finding a nice girl to neck around with would ease my mind of all my troubles. Problem was I was more lonesome in the clubs than being alone in my hotel room. In the first club, the girls were too into trying to catch a glimpse of a celebrity, besides they weren’t all that cute and a bit too old. The company was okay though. Ernie’s was too crowded and then I ran into D.B’s ex, so I left. The last place, I was finally able to get a drink and I met up with Carl Luce. He was the best company I had at all of the nightclubs, I even begged him to stay awhile longer. 69-153 Movies/Shows God, do I hate the movies more than anything in the world! They are full of phonies. I mean who wants to watch a show with a perfect actor who knows they are good, then they become full of themselves and try too hard. Then it’s no fun to watch anymore. The actors try scenes like yelling over each other to create an argument but to be honest it’s crummy and sounds horrible, nothing like argument. 125-126; 137 The nuns The best company I had besides Phoebe on my whole journey. They didn’t judge me or anything. They were very polite and made the conversation about me, in fact, they were very interested in my story. It made me feel sort of special, like someone really did care about me. I don’t get much attention from my parents, so the attention and focus on me was nice. We talked about books I read in school and where I went to school. I was too afraid to tell them I had been kicked out of school. They were really interested on my views of Romeo & Juliet. I was really nervous they were goin’ to ask if I was Catholic. People are usually so nosey when it comes to finding that out, but they didn’t even ask or seem to care. I donated ten dollars to them as well, it was the least I could do. 109-113 Little Shirley Beans Record I bought this record for Phoebe. I thought she would really like it and it reminded me of her innocence that I longed to still have. It would be nice to be like Shirley Beans and stay a child all the time because she is frozen in time. I really wanted to give it to phoebe and I had searched the city for the rare record. It even cost me five bucks! But then, I was walking in Central Park and I dropped it on the ground and it shattered in a million pieces. Maybe that represented that you have to let go of childhood at some point, break out of it and be an adult. I don’t know, all I know is I was mad! I ended up picking up the pieces and giving the to lil’ phoebe still though. 114-116; 154 Carousel Phoebe loved the carousel, always did. When she thought she was too old to go on it anymore, I told her no she wasn’t and made her go. She loved it sill. I wanted her to go on it and cherish her childhood, her innocence. I don’t want her to grow up too fast. That’s what I love about the carousel, it represents childhood and the continuation of it, the song they play is the innocence. And no matter how much you want to tell them to be careful when they reach for the golden ring and giggle you can’t because that is bad if you say anything, they have to learn to get back up after they fall. 210-213 Psychoanalyst / Mental Hospital After my long journey, this is where I ended up. I don’t really know why I’m in here. My parents sent me to the hospital near D.B in California. I mean as usual they pushed me further away when I needed them most. They always do, I don’t know why I even try anymore. They never want to deal with my problems. I was really glad D.B came to see me though. Once I get out of here I will return to school in September. My psychoanalyst keeps asking if I’m going to apply myself when I return to school; my answer is I don’t know, I think I will, but how do you know until you actually do it. 213-214