1|Page I write entirely to find out what I'm thinking, what I'm looking at, what I see and what it means. What I want and what I fear.” --Joan Didion 2|Page Contents Gen. McChrystal's Credibility Problem 3 An Excerpt: Where Men Win Glory 9 Rethinking the American Dream 15 A Primitivist Primer 28 Reborn Again 35 Excerpts From A Walk In The Woods 56 The Anosognosic’s Dilemma 64 Gender Issues in the Afghanistan Diaspora: Nadia's Story 72 Tourism, Globalisation and Sustainable Development 91 The Enchiridion 100 Paragraphs on Conceptual Art 113 Excerpt: A Separate Reality 119 Sources 120 3|Page Some of you probably know Krakauer from Into Thin Air, Under the Banner of Heaven, and Where Men Win Glory. I’ve included an excerpt from the latter book to accompany this recent article about the circumstances surrounding the death of Pat Tillman. Gen. McChrystal's Credibility Problem by Jon Krakauer, 2009 Shortly after President Obama nominated Gen. Stanley A. McChrystal to command U.S. and NATO forces in Afghanistan, the general was summoned to the U.S. Senate to be grilled by the Armed Services Committee. Although McChrystal had enthusiastic admirers on both sides of the congressional aisle and was regarded as an innovative, uncommonly effective leader, he was expected to face difficult questions about two incidents that occurred during his tenure as leader of the Joint Special Operations Command (or JSOC): the torture of detainees in 2003 at the secret facility in Iraq known as Camp Nama, and his role in the coverup of Pat Tillman’s fratricide in Afghanistan in 2004. During the committee hearing, though, none of McChrystal’s inquisitors probed deeply into either of these issues, and on June 10 the Senate unanimously confirmed his nomination. McChrystal has lately been the subject of numerous media profiles, most of them adulatory. Dexter Filkins has a long story in the upcoming New York Times Magazine. In an October 5 Newsweek article, Evan Thomas referred to the general as a “Zen warrior… with a disarming, low-key style, free of the bombast and sense of entitlement that can come with four stars…. He has great political skills; he couldn’t have risen to his current position without them. But he definitely does not see himself as the sort of military man who would compromise his principles to do the politically convenient thing.” In the week after Tillman was killed, however, this is precisely what McChrystal appears to have done when he administered a fraudulent medal recommendation and submitted it to secretary of the Army, thereby concealing the cause of Tillman’s death. *** Tillman was accidentally gunned down by members of his Ranger platoon on the evening of April 22, 2004. Lt. Col. Jeffrey Bailey, commander of the 2nd Ranger Battalion, visited the site of the calamity the following morning. A few hours later, he called his boss, Col. James Nixon, commander of the 75th Ranger Regiment, and said (according to Bailey’s sworn testimony), “My gut feeling was that Tillman had been killed by friendly fire…. There was no doubt about it. It was a case where there were six or seven Rangers that saw the vehicle shooting at them.” Before the day was out, Nixon notified three of his superiors, including McChrystal, that Tillman’s death was a fratricide. According to Army regulations, this information should have been immediately shared with the 4|Page Tillman family, even if friendly fire was only a possibility. Instead, Army officers embarked on an elaborate campaign to suppress the truth and persuade both the family and the public that Tillman was killed by enemy fire. Soldiers were ordered to lie. Tillman’s notebook, uniform, ammo vest, and body armor were burned, in clear violation of other important protocols. At the time of Tillman’s fratricide, McChrystal was only a one-star general, but as commander of JSOC he ran the most covert branch of the U.S. armed forces. Shrewd, driven, and willing to bend rules to get results, 13 months earlier he’d commanded the Navy SEALs, Delta Force operators, and Army Rangers who’d rescued Jessica Lynch from her captors in Iraq. Vice President Dick Cheney and Secretary of Defense Donald Rumsfeld held McChrystal in the highest esteem, and regularly bypassed the chain of command to communicate with him directly. He was trustworthy. He worked under the radar and got stuff done. He didn’t suffer from “the slows,” as Rumsfeld characterized the risk-averse nature of some of McChrystal’s superiors. Within two days of Tillman’s death, officers in the 2nd Ranger Battalion initiated paperwork to give Tillman the Silver Star, the military’s third highest decoration for valor. McChrystal was put in charge of writing and expediting the medal recommendation so that the award could be announced in advance of a nationally televised memorial service scheduled for May 3. According to McChrystal’s Senate testimony, he “sat down with the people who recommended [the Silver Star]… and we went over a whiteboard, and we looked at the geometry of the battlefield, and I queried the people to satisfy myself that, in fact, that his actions warranted [the Silver Star], even though there was a potential that the actual circumstances of death had been friendly fire.” The latter clause is a lawyerly flourish on McChrystal’s part, intended to suggest that there was still doubt about the cause of death, when in fact he knew with near-absolute certainty that Tillman was the victim of fratricide. During the medal-recommendation process, McChrystal was shown the preliminary findings of a so-called Article 15-6 investigation that had been launched the day after Tillman died, which included detailed eyewitness testimony from more than a dozen soldiers in his platoon. Transcripts of these interviews described how Tillman, in order to protect a young private under his command, had exposed himself to a ferocious squall of bullets—hundreds of rounds from three machine guns shooting at him from close range. McChrystal ascertained, correctly, that the extraordinary valor of Tillman’s act was in no way diminished by the incontrovertible fact that the lethal fusillade had come from his American comrades. “So,” McChrystal testified, “I was comfortable recommending, once I believed that the people in the fight were convinced it warranted a Silver Star.” On April 28, 2004, six days after Tillman’s death, McChrystal reviewed a final draft of the medal recommendation, signed his name to it, and emailed it to the acting secretary of the Army, R.L. Brownlee. 5|Page The recommendation package received by Brownlee consisted of four documents: a oneparagraph “award citation” that summarized Tillman’s courageous deed; a five-paragraph “award narrative” that offered a more nuanced account of his actions; and two brief statements from soldiers who witnessed those actions. Astoundingly, none of these documents mentioned, or even hinted, that Tillman was killed by friendly fire. The award citation alleged, “Corporal Tillman put himself in the line of devastating enemy fire,” even though there was never any enemy fire directed at Tillman’s position during the incident. The witness statements (which also suggested he was killed by the enemy) were not signed, and the two soldiers whose names were attached to them later testified that both statements had been fabricated, apparently by one or more members of the Silver Star recommendation team. In June of this year, during McChrystal’s confirmation hearing, Sen. John McCain asked the general to explain why, five years earlier, he had submitted the perjured Silver Star recommendation “in the form that it was in.” McChrystal replied, “We sent a Silver Star that was not well written—and, although I went through the process, I will tell you now that I didn’t review the citation well enough to capture—or, I didn’t catch that, if you read it, you can imply that it was not friendly fire.” McChrystal insisted that the package of four short documents bearing his signature wasn’t meant to deceive. Although he closely supervised the drafting of these documents, he simply failed to notice that all of them had been painstakingly written to omit any reference to friendly fire. During a presentation on October 3 of this year in Mesa, Arizona, to promote Where Men Win Glory, my book about Tillman, I described the testimony cited above and expressed skepticism about McChrystal’s honesty. Afterward, while I was signing books, an Army veteran approached me and said that he had served under McChrystal, admired him immensely, and took issue with my accusation that his former commander had dissembled to the Senate, or knowingly participated in any sort of coverup. He said that in his experience McChrystal was a man of unimpeachable integrity. I countered that McChrystal’s words were taken verbatim from a transcript of the Senate hearing, and then added, “Gen. McChrystal is known to be meticulous, a perfectionist. He doesn’t tolerate sloppiness or excuses. Do you really believe that he would sign his name to such an important, high-profile document without first reading it carefully enough to realize it was bogus?” The ex-soldier frowned thoughtfully before answering. “No,” he admitted. “For him to do something like that, he’d have to be under incredible pressure.” *** On April 28, 2004, the same day McChrystal sent the Silver Star recommendation to the secretary of the Army, he received word from Rumsfeld’s office that the White House was working on a speech in which President Bush would eulogize Tillman at the annual White House Correspondents’ Association dinner. Because the true cause of Tillman’s 6|Page death had been restricted to a tight cadre that did not include the president’s speechwriters, McChrystal fretted they might inadvertently script something that would make the president look like a liar should the truth about Tillman eventually be leaked. To forestall such a gaffe, one day after submitting the falsified medal recommendation, McChrystal emailed a high-priority personal memo (known as a “Personal For” memo, or simply a “P4”) to Gen. John Abizaid, the commander of all troops in Iraq and Afghanistan, and two other general officers. “Sir, in the aftermath of Corporal Patrick Tillman’s untimely yet heroic death in Afghanistan on 22 April 04,” McChrystal wrote, “it is anticipated that a 15-6 investigation nearing completion will find that it is highly possible that Corporal Tillman was killed by friendly fire. This potential finding is exacerbated by the unconfirmed but suspected reports that [the president of the United States] and the secretary of the Army might include comments about Corporal Tillman’s heroism and his approved Silver Star medal in speeches currently being prepared…. I felt that it was essential that you received this information as soon as we detected it in order to preclude any unknowing statements by our country’s leaders which might cause public embarrassment if the circumstances of Corporal Tillman’s death become public.” Many months later, after the coverup unraveled and the Tillman family demanded the Army reveal who was responsible for the many lies they’d been told, McChrystal would spin the P4 memo as proof that he never meant to conceal the fratricide. But McChrystal took no action to halt the coverup and divulge the truth; his memo merely sounded the alarm that someone needed to warn speechwriters to be ambiguous about the cause of death when crafting statements about Tillman, in order to provide President Bush with deniability. (In the speech Bush gave at the correspondents’ dinner two days after the P4 was sent, the president praised Tillman for his courage and sacrifice, but pointedly made no mention of how he died.) If McChrystal had a change of heart after submitting the falsified medal recommendation and wanted the truth to be revealed, all he needed to do was pick up the phone, inform the secretary of the Army that Tillman was killed by friendly fire, and ask him to put the Silver Star on hold until the paperwork could be corrected. That didn’t happen. Instead, Secretary Brownlee approved the medal based on the spurious documents submitted by McChrystal, and on April 30 the Army issued a press release announcing that Tillman had been posthumously awarded the Silver Star. Because it made no mention of friendly fire, none of the hundreds of news stories based on the press release reported anything about friendly fire, and the nation was kept in the dark about the fratricide. As Brigadier General Howard Yellen later testified, “For the civilian on the street, the interpretation would be that he was killed by enemy fire.” *** McChrystal, who was promoted from Brigadier General to Major General nine days after Tillman’s death, was, and remains, intensely ambitious. Were he to be held accountable for the fraudulent Silver Star recommendation, his Army career would likely end in disgrace. Why, then, did he take such a risk? Last June, near the conclusion of 7|Page McChrystal’s Senate confirmation hearing, it seemed as though an answer to this question might be at hand when Sen. Jim Webb told the general, “You have not, to my knowledge, been on record in terms of how you personally feel about this incident, and I would like to give you the opportunity to do that.” Appearing genuinely contrite, McChrystal confessed, “We failed the family. And I was a part of that, and I apologize for it.” But then the tenor of his remarks abruptly shifted and he reiterated the same disingenuous claims made by virtually every officer who participated in the subterfuge: “It was not intentional…. I didn’t see any activities by anyone to deceive.” A moment later, nevertheless, McChrystal may have inadvertently revealed what motivated the entire coverup. “To provide context,” he explained to Webb, “we were still in combat when we were doing all of that…. We were in the first battle of Fallujah in Iraq at the same time, so we were making mistakes.” Three weeks before Tillman was killed, horrific violence engulfed Fallujah. The bloodshed commenced when Iraqi insurgents killed four American contractors working for Blackwater USA, burned their bodies, dragged them through the streets, and then hung their charred remains from a bridge over the Euphrates River. In response, 2,000 U.S. Marines launched an assault on the city, initiating furious urban combat that continued until the Marines were pulled out of Fallujah on May 1, 2004, by which time 27 American troops were dead, and more than 90 had been wounded. One week before Tillman’s death, compounding the bleak news coming out of Fallujah, CBS News notified Rumsfeld and Gen. Richard Myers, the chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff, that 60 Minutes II was about to broadcast a story about the torture and abuse of Iraqi captives by U.S. soldiers at a prison called Abu Ghraib. On April 28, the program aired, followed two days later by even more disturbing revelations about Abu Ghraib by Seymour Hersh in The New Yorker. Public support for both the Bush administration and the war in Iraq was plummeting. The president was engaged in a bare-knuckled campaign to win a second term. The election was barely six months away. When Tillman was killed, White House perception managers saw an opportunity to divert the nation’s attention from the glut of bad news. The administration had tried to make Tillman an inspirational emblem for the Global War on Terror when he was alive, but he had rebuffed these efforts by refusing to do any media interviews. On April 23, the day after Tillman perished, approximately 200 emails about Tillman were transmitted or received by White House officials, including staffers from Bush’s reelection campaign, who suggested to the president that it would be advantageous for him to respond to Tillman’s death as quickly as possible. A press release about Tillman’s patriotic sacrifice was hastily written and disseminated to the media before noon that same day. Communications Director Dan Bartlett later explained that he rushed out the statement in order to accommodate overwhelming interest in Tillman from the media, noting that the story “made the American people feel good about our country… and our military.” 8|Page When he walked away from a $3.6 million National Football League contract to enlist in the Army with his brother Kevin in 2002, Pat Tillman became the object of tremendous public fascination, and White House officials calculated that celebrating him as a fallen hero would send the media into an orgy of reverential coverage. They were not disappointed. Thousands of tributes to Tillman appeared in all manner of media over the weeks that followed. On April 25, 2004, just two days after the initial White House press release, a “Weekend Media Assessment” compiled by the Army chief of staff’s Office of Public Affairs reported that stories about Tillman had generated the greatest interest in the Army since the president’s “Mission Accomplished” speech the previous May, adding that the Tillman stories “had been extremely positive in all media.” The Army’s announcement on April 30 that Tillman had been awarded the Silver Star prompted another torrent of favorable press. Had it been disclosed at the outset that Pat Tillman was killed by friendly fire, the press coverage would have been no less voluminous, but its effect on the nation’s mood would have been very different. This is the context in which the Tillman coverup, and Gen. McChrystal’s central role in the deception, must be considered. As Kevin Tillman testified, “Revealing that Pat’s death was fratricide would have been yet another political disaster during a month already swollen with political disasters…. So the facts needed to be suppressed. An alternative narrative needed to be constructed.” McChrystal’s chicanery, Kevin explained, was “an insult to the Tillman family, but more importantly, its primary purpose was to deceive a nation…. We have been used as props in a publicrelations exercise.” Given the overwhelming challenges the United States faces in Afghanistan, and President Obama’s determination that Gen. McChrystal is the most qualified person to command our military campaign there, some may wonder why his dishonesty about Tillman should matter. It matters because deceit by a military officer of McChrystal’s rank is a poisonous betrayal of trust that shouldn’t be countenanced. The possibility that his subterfuge was intended to mislead the public during the run-up to a presidential election is especially troubling. “What we have here is a very clear, deliberate abuse intentionally done,” lamented Rep. Henry Waxman at the conclusion of a 2007 hearing into the Tillman coverup by the House Committee on Oversight and Government Reform. “Why is it so hard to find out who did it?” 9|Page An Excerpt from Where Men Win Glory by Jon Krakauer CHAPTER ONE During Pat Tillman's stint in the Army he intermittently kept a diary. In an entry dated July 28, 2002--three weeks after he arrived at boot camp--he wrote, "It is amazing the turns one's life can take. Major events or decisions that completely change a life. In my life there have been a number." He then cataloged several. Foremost on his mind at the time, predictably, was his decision to join the military. But the incident he put at the top of the list, which occurred when he was eleven years old, comes as a surprise. "As odd as this sounds," the journal revealed, "a diving catch I made in the 11-12 all-stars was a take-off point. I excelled the rest of the tournament and gained incredible confidence. It sounds tacky but it was big." As a child growing up in Almaden, California (an upscale suburb of San Jose), Pat had started playing baseball at the age of seven. It quickly became apparent to the adults who watched him throw a ball and swing a bat that he possessed extraordinary talent, but Pat seems not to have been particularly cognizant of his own athletic gifts until he was selected for the aforementioned all-star team in the summer of 1988. As the tournament against teams of other standout middle-school athletes got under way, he mostly sat on the bench. When the coach eventually put Pat into a game, however, he clobbered a home run and made a spectacular catch of a long fly ball hit into the outfield. Fourteen years later, as he contemplated life from the perspective of an Army barracks, he regarded that catch as a pivotal moment--a confidence booster that contributed significantly to one of his defining traits: unwavering self-assurance. In 1990, Pat matriculated at Almaden's Leland High School, one of the top public schools in the San Francisco Bay Area, both academically and athletically. Before entering Leland he had resolved to become the catcher on the varsity baseball team, but the head coach, Paul Ugenti, informed Pat that he wasn't ready to play varsity baseball and would have to settle for a position on the freshman-sophomore team. Irked and perhaps insulted by Ugenti's failure to recognize his potential, Pat resolved to quit baseball and focus on football instead, even though he'd taken up the latter sport barely a year earlier and had badly fractured his right tibia in his initial season when a much larger teammate fell on his leg during practice. With a November birthday, Pat was among the youngest kids in Leland's freshman class, and when he started high school, he was only thirteen years old. He also happened to be small for his age, standing five feet five inches tall and weighing just 120 pounds. When he let it be known that he was going to abandon baseball for football, an assistant coach 10 | P a g e named Terry Hardtke explained to Pat that he wasn't "built like a football player" and strongly urged him to stick with baseball. Once Tillman set his sights on a goal, however, he wasn't easily diverted. He told the coach he intended to start lifting weights to build up his muscles. Then he assured Hardtke that not only would he make the Leland football team but he intended to play college football after graduating from high school. Hardtke replied that Pat was making a huge mistake--that his size would make it difficult for him ever to win a starting position on the Leland team, and that he stood virtually no chance of ever playing college ball. Pat, however, trusted his own sense of his abilities over the coach's bleak predictions, and tried out for the Leland football team regardless. Six years later he would be a star linebacker playing in the Rose Bowl for a national collegiate championship. Twenty months after that he began a distinguished career in the National Football League. Midway between San Jose and Oakland, the municipality of Fremont rises above the eastern shore of San Francisco Bay, a city of 240,000 that's always existed in the shadow of its flashier neighbors. This is where Patrick Daniel Tillman was born on November 6, 1976. Not far from the hospital where Pat entered the world is a commercial district of pharmacies, chiropractic clinics, and fast-food restaurants bisected by a four-lane thoroughfare. Along three or four blocks of this otherwise unremarkable stretch of Fremont Boulevard, one finds a concentration of incongruously exotic establishments: the Salang Pass Restaurant, an Afghan carpet store, a South Asian cinema, a shop selling Afghan clothing, the De Afghanan Kabob House, the Maiwand Market. Inside the latter, the shelves are stocked with hummus, olives, pomegranate seeds, turmeric, bags of rice, and tins of grapeseed oil. A striking woman wearing a head scarf and an elaborately embroidered vest inlaid with dozens of tiny mirrors stands at a counter near the back of the store, waiting to buy slabs of freshly baked naan. Little Kabul, as this neighborhood is known, happens to be the nexus of what is purportedly the highest concentration of Afghans in the United States, a community made famous by the best-selling novel The Kite Runner. By loose estimate, some ten thousand Afghans reside in Fremont proper, with another fifty thousand scattered across the rest of the Bay Area. They started showing up in 1978, when their homeland erupted into violence that has yet to abate three decades later. The chaos was sparked by accelerating friction between political groups within Afghanistan, but fuel for the conflagration was supplied in abundance and with great enthusiasm by the governments of the United States and the Soviet Union as each maneuvered to gain advantage in the Cold War. The Soviets had been lavishing billions of rubles in military and economic aid on Afghanistan since the 1950s, and had cultivated close ties with the nation's leaders. Despite this injection of outside capital, by the 1970s Afghanistan remained a tribal society, essentially medieval in character. Ninety percent of its seventeen million residents were illiterate. Eighty-five percent of the population lived in the mountainous, largely roadless countryside, subsisting as farmers, herders, or nomadic traders. The 11 | P a g e overwhelming majority of these impoverished, uneducated country dwellers answered not to the central government in Kabul, with which they had little contact and from which they received almost no tangible assistance, but rather to local mullahs and tribal elders. Thanks to Moscow's creeping influence, however, a distinctly Marxist brand of modernization had begun to establish a toehold in a few of the nation's largest cities. Afghanistan's cozy relationship with the Soviets originated under the leadership of Prime Minister Mohammed Daoud Khan, a Pashtun with fleshy jowls and a shaved head who was appointed in 1953 by his cousin and brother-in-law, King Mohammed Zahir Shah. Ten years later Daoud was forced to resign from the government after launching a brief but disastrous war against Pakistan. But in 1973 he reclaimed power by means of a nonviolent coup d'etat, deposing King Zahir and declaring himself the first president of the Republic of Afghanistan. A fervent subculture of Marxist intellectuals, professionals, and students had by this time taken root in Kabul, intent on bringing their country into the twentieth century, kicking and screaming if need be, and President Daoud--who dressed in hand-tailored Italian suits--supported this shift toward secular modernity as long as it didn't threaten his hold on power. Under Daoud, females were given opportunities to be educated and join the professional workforce. In cities, women started appearing in public without burqas or even head scarves. Many urban men exchanged their traditional shalwar kameezes for Western business attire. These secular city dwellers swelled the ranks of a Marxist political organization known as the People's Democratic Party of Afghanistan, or PDPA. The Soviets were Daoud's allies in the push to modernize Afghanistan, at least initially. Aid from Moscow continued to prop up the economy and the military, and under an agreement signed by Daoud, every officer in the Afghan Army went to the Soviet Union to receive military training. But he was walking a perilous political tight rope. While welcoming Soviet rubles, Daoud was an impassioned Afghan nationalist who had no desire to become a puppet of the Soviet president, Leonid Brezhnev. And although Daoud was committed to modernizing his nation, he wanted to move at a pace slow enough to avoid provoking the Islamist mullahs who controlled the hinterlands. In the end, alas, his policies placated few and managed to antagonize almost everyone else-most significantly the Soviets, the urban leftists, and the bearded fundamentalists in the countryside. At the beginning of his presidency, Daoud had pledged to reform the government and promote civil liberties. Very soon after taking office, however, he started cracking down hard on anyone who resisted his edicts. Hundreds of rivals from all sides of the political divide were arrested and executed, ranging from antimodernist tribal elders in far-flung provinces to urban communists in the PDPA who had originally supported Daoud's rise to power. For millennia in Afghanistan, political expression has all too often been synonymous with mayhem. On April 19, 1978, a funeral for a popular communist leader who was thought to have been murdered on Daoud's orders turned into a seething protest march. 12 | P a g e Organized by the PDPA, as many as thirty thousand Afghans took to the streets of Kabul to show their contempt for President Daoud. In typical fashion, Daoud reacted to the demonstration with excessive force, which only further incited the protesters. Sensing a momentous shift in the political tide, most units in the Afghan Army broke with Daoud and allied themselves with the PDPA. On April 27, 1978, MiG-21 jets from the Afghan Air Force strafed the Presidential Palace, where Daoud was ensconced with eighteen hundred members of his personal guard. That night, opposition forces overran the palace amid a rain of bullets. When the sun came up and the gunfire petered out, Daoud and his entire family were dead, and the surrounding streets were strewn with the bodies of two thousand Afghans. The communist PDPA immediately assumed power and renamed the nation the Democratic Republic of Afghanistan. Backed by the Soviet Union, the new government moved ruthlessly to establish control across the country. During the PDPA's first twenty months at the helm, twenty-seven thousand political dissidents were rounded up, transported to the infamous Pul-e-Charkhi prison on the outskirts of Kabul, and summarily executed. By this point the violence had instigated a wholesale exodus of Afghans to foreign lands. Because those targeted for elimination by the PDPA tended to be influential mullahs or members of the intellectual and professional classes, many of the refugees who sought sanctuary came from the elite ranks of Afghan society. Two years after Pat Tillman's birth in Fremont, California, Afghans began flocking to the city where he was delivered. Back in Afghanistan, the brutality of the PDPA inspired a grassroots insurrection that rapidly escalated into full-blown civil war. At the forefront of the rebellion were Muslim holy warriors, the Afghan mujahideen, who fought the communist infidels with such ferocious intensity that in December 1979 the Soviets dispatched 100,000 troops to Afghanistan to quell the rebellion, prop up the PDPA, and protect their Cold War interests in the region. Nations throughout the world sternly criticized the Soviets for the incursion. The strongest rebuke came from the United States. Expressing shock and outrage over the invasion, President Jimmy Carter called it "the most serious threat to peace since the Second World War," and initiated first a trade embargo and then a boycott of the 1980 Moscow Olympics. But Carter's righteous indignation was more than slightly disingenuous. Although the U.S. government claimed otherwise in official statements, the CIA had begun purchasing weapons for the mujahideen at least six months before the Soviet invasion, and this clandestine support was intended not to deter Moscow but to provoke it. According to Carter's national security adviser, Zbigniew Brzezinski, the purpose of arming the Afghans was to stimulate enough turmoil in Afghanistan "to induce a Soviet military 13 | P a g e intervention." Brzezinski, the most fervent cold warrior in the Carter administration, boasted in a 1998 interview that the intent of providing arms to the mujahideen was specifically to draw "the Soviets into the Afghan trap" and ensnare them in a debilitating Vietnam-like debacle. If that was the plan, it worked. Almost immediately upon occupying the country, the legendary Soviet Fortieth Army found itself neck deep in an unexpectedly vicious guerrilla war that would keep its forces entangled in Afghanistan for the next nine years. Before the Soviet invasion, Afghanistan was riven by so many intransigent political and tribal factions that the nation had been for all intents and purposes ungovernable. In reflexive opposition to the Soviet occupation, virtually the entire country spontaneously united--a degree of cohesion no modern Afghan leader had ever come close to achieving. This newly unified opposition was characterized by extraordinary violence. The mujahideen seldom took prisoners in their skirmishes with the invaders. They made a habit of mutilating the bodies of the Soviets they killed in creatively gruesome ways in order to instill terror in those sent to recover the bodies. When the mujahideen did take prisoners, according to Soviet survivors, the infidel soldiers were often gang-raped and tortured. The Afghans quickly figured out that fighting the Soviets by conventional means was a recipe for certain defeat. Instead of confronting Soviet forces directly with large numbers of fighters, the mujahideen adopted the classic stratagems of insurgent warfare, employing small bands of ten or fifteen men to ambush the enemy and then vanish back into the landscape before the Soviets could launch counterattacks. Soviet soldiers began to refer to the mujahideen as dukhi, Russian for "ghosts." The Afghans took brilliant advantage of the mountainous terrain to stage devastating ambushes from the high ground as Soviet convoys moved through the confines of the valley bottoms. The Soviet cause wasn't helped by a policy designated as "Limited Contingent": Moscow decided to cap the number of Fortieth Army troops in Afghanistan at 115,000, despite the fact that before the invasion Soviet generals had warned that as many as 650,000 soldiers would be needed to secure the country.* The pitiless style of guerrilla combat waged by the Afghans had an unnerving effect on the Soviets sent to fight them. Morale plummeted, especially as the conflict dragged on year after year. Because opium and hashish were readily available everywhere, drug addiction among the Soviet conscripts was rife. Their numbers were further ravaged by malaria, dysentery, hepatitis, tetanus, and meningitis. Although there were never more than 120,000 Soviet troops in Afghanistan at any given time, a total of 642,000 soldiers served there throughout the course of the war--470,000 of whom were debilitated by disease, addicted to heroin, wounded in battle, or killed. The tenacity and brutality of the mujahideen prompted the Soviets to adopt ruthless tactics of their own. As they came to realize that it was much easier to kill unarmed civilians than to hunt down the fearsome and elusive mujahideen, the Soviets 14 | P a g e increasingly focused their attacks on the rural tribespeople who sometimes harbored combatants but didn't shoot back, rather than assaulting the mujahideen directly. Jet aircraft bombed whole valleys with napalm, laying waste to farmland, orchards, and settlements. Helicopter gunships not only targeted villagers but massacred their herds of livestock as well. These calculated acts of genocide went virtually unnoticed outside of Afghanistan. 15 | P a g e From Vanity Fair: Along with millions of jobs and 401(k)s, the concept of a shared national ideal is said to be dying. But is the American Dream really endangered, or has it simply been misplaced? Exploring the way our aspirations have changed—the rugged individualism of the Wild West, the social compact of F.D.R., the sitcom fantasy of 50s suburbia—the author shows how the American Dream came to mean fame and fortune, instead of the promise that shaped a nation. Rethinking the American Dream by David Kamp The year was 1930, a down one like this one. But for Moss Hart, it was the time for his particularly American moment of triumph. He had grown up poor in the outer boroughs of New York City—“the grim smell of actual want always at the end of my nose,” he said—and he’d vowed that if he ever made it big he would never again ride the rattling trains of the city’s dingy subway system. Now he was 25, and his first play, Once in a Lifetime, had just opened to raves on Broadway. And so, with three newspapers under his arm and a wee-hours celebration of a successful opening night behind him, he hailed a cab and took a long, leisurely sunrise ride back to the apartment in Brooklyn where he still lived with his parents and brother. Crossing the Brooklyn Bridge into one of the several drab tenement neighborhoods that preceded his own, Hart later recalled, “I stared through the taxi window at a pinch-faced 10-year-old hurrying down the steps on some morning errand before school, and I thought of myself hurrying down the street on so many gray mornings out of a doorway and a house much the same as this one.… It was possible in this wonderful city for that nameless little boy—for any of its millions—to have a decent chance to scale the walls and achieve what they wished. Wealth, rank, or an imposing name counted for nothing. The only credential the city asked was the boldness to dream.” As the boy ducked into a tailor shop, Hart recognized that this narrative was not exclusive to his “wonderful city”—it was one that could happen anywhere in, and only in, America. “A surge of shamefaced patriotism overwhelmed me,” Hart wrote in his memoir, Act One. “I might have been watching a victory parade on a flag-draped Fifth Avenue instead of the mean streets of a city slum. A feeling of patriotism, however, is not always limited to the feverish emotions called forth by war. It can sometimes be felt as profoundly and perhaps more truly at a moment such as this.” Hart, like so many before and after him, was overcome by the power of the American Dream. As a people, we Americans are unique in having such a thing, a more or less Official National Dream. (There is no correspondingly stirring Canadian Dream or Slovakian Dream.) It is part of our charter—as articulated in the second sentence of the 16 | P a g e Declaration of Independence, in the famous bit about “certain unalienable Rights” that include “Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness”—and it is what makes our country and our way of life attractive and magnetic to people in other lands. But now fast-forward to the year 2009, the final Friday of January. The new president is surveying the dire economy he has been charged with righting—600,000 jobs lost in January alone, a gross domestic product that shrank 3.8 percent in the final quarter of 2008, the worst contraction in almost 30 years. Assessing these numbers, Barack Obama, a man who normally exudes hopefulness for a living, pronounces them a “continuing disaster for America’s working families,” a disaster that amounts to no less, he says, than “the American Dream in reverse.” In reverse. Imagine this in terms of Hart’s life: out of the taxicab, back on the subway, back to the tenements, back to cramped cohabitation with Mom and Dad, back to gray mornings and the grim smell of actual want. You probably don’t even have to imagine, for chances are that of late you have experienced some degree of reversal yourself, or at the very least have had friends or loved ones get laid off, lose their homes, or just find themselves forced to give up certain perks and amenities (restaurant meals, cable TV, salon haircuts) that were taken for granted as recently as a year ago. These are tough times for the American Dream. As the safe routines of our lives have come undone, so has our characteristic optimism—not only our belief that the future is full of limitless possibility, but our faith that things will eventually return to normal, whatever “normal” was before the recession hit. There is even worry that the dream may be over—that we currently living Americans are the unfortunate ones who shall bear witness to that deflating moment in history when the promise of this country began to wither. This is the “sapping of confidence” that President Obama alluded to in his inaugural address, the “nagging fear that America’s decline is inevitable, and that the next generation must lower its sights.” But let’s face it: If Moss Hart, like so many others, was able to rally from the depths of the Great Depression, then surely the viability of the American Dream isn’t in question. What needs to change is our expectation of what the dream promises—and our understanding of what that vague and promiscuously used term, “the American Dream,” is really supposed to mean. In recent years, the term has often been interpreted to mean “making it big” or “striking it rich.” (As the cult of Brian De Palma’s Scarface has grown, so, disturbingly, has the number of people with a literal, celebratory read on its tagline: “He loved the American Dream. With a vengeance.”) Even when the phrase isn’t being used to describe the accumulation of great wealth, it’s frequently deployed to denote extreme success of some kind or other. Last year, I heard commentators say that Barack Obama achieved the American Dream by getting elected president, and that Philadelphia Phillies manager 17 | P a g e Charlie Manuel achieved the American Dream by leading his team to its first World Series title since 1980. Yet there was never any promise or intimation of extreme success in the book that popularized the term, The Epic of America, by James Truslow Adams, published by Little, Brown and Company in 1931. (Yes, “the American Dream” is a surprisingly recent coinage; you’d think that these words would appear in the writings of Thomas Jefferson or Benjamin Franklin, but they don’t.) For a book that has made such a lasting contribution to our vocabulary, The Epic of America is an offbeat piece of work—a sweeping, essayistic, highly subjective survey of this country’s development from Columbus’s landfall onward, written by a respected but solemn historian whose prim prose style was mocked as “spinach” by the waggish theater critic Alexander Woollcott. But it’s a smart, thoughtful treatise. Adams’s goal wasn’t so much to put together a proper history of the U.S. as to determine, by tracing his country’s path to prominence, what makes this land so unlike other nations, so uniquely American. (That he undertook such an enterprise when he did, in the same grim climate in which Hart wrote Once in a Lifetime, reinforces how indomitably strong Americans’ faith in their country remained during the Depression.) What Adams came up with was a construct he called “that American dream of a better, richer, and happier life for all our citizens of every rank.” From the get-go, Adams emphasized the egalitarian nature of this dream. It started to take shape, he said, with the Puritans who fled religious persecution in England and settled New England in the 17th century. “[Their] migration was not like so many earlier ones in history, led by warrior lords with followers dependent on them,” he wrote, “but was one in which the common man as well as the leader was hoping for greater freedom and happiness for himself and his children.” The Declaration of Independence took this concept even further, for it compelled the well-to-do upper classes to put the common man on an equal footing with them where human rights and self-governance were concerned—a nose-holding concession that Adams captured with exquisite comic passiveness in the sentence, “It had been found necessary to base the [Declaration’s] argument at last squarely on the rights of man.” Whereas the colonist upper classes were asserting their independence from the British Empire, “the lower classes were thinking not only of that,” Adams wrote, “but of their relations to their colonial legislatures and governing class.” America was truly a new world, a place where one could live one’s life and pursue one’s goals unburdened by older societies’ prescribed ideas of class, caste, and social hierarchy. Adams was unreserved in his wonderment over this fact. Breaking from his formal tone, he shifted into first-person mode in The Epic of America’s epilogue, noting a French guest’s remark that his most striking impression of the United States was “the way that everyone of every sort looks you right in the eye, without a thought of inequality.” Adams also told a story of “a foreigner” he used to employ as an assistant, and how he and this foreigner fell into a habit of chitchatting for a bit after their day’s work was done. “Such a relationship was the great difference between America and his homeland,” 18 | P a g e Adams wrote. “There, he said, ‘I would do my work and might get a pleasant word, but I could never sit and talk like this. There is a difference there between social grades which cannot be got over. I would not talk to you there as man to man, but as my employer.’” Anecdotal as these examples are, they get to the crux of the American Dream as Adams saw it: that life in the United States offered personal liberties and opportunities to a degree unmatched by any other country in history—a circumstance that remains true today, some ill-considered clampdowns in the name of Homeland Security notwithstanding. This invigorating sense of possibility, though it is too often taken for granted, is the great gift of Americanness. Even Adams underestimated it. Not above the prejudices of his time, he certainly never saw Barack Obama’s presidency coming. While he correctly anticipated the eventual assimilation of the millions of Eastern and Southern European immigrants who arrived in the early 20th century to work in America’s factories, mines, and sweatshops, he entertained no such hopes for black people. Or, as he rather injudiciously put it, “After a generation or two, [the white-ethnic laborers] can be absorbed, whereas the negro cannot.” It’s also worth noting that Adams did not deny that there is a material component to the American Dream. The Epic of America offers several variations on Adams’s definition of the dream (e.g., “the American dream that life should be made richer and fuller for everyone and opportunity remain open to all”), but the word “richer” appears in all of them, and he wasn’t just talking about richness of experience. Yet Adams was careful not to overstate what the dream promises. In one of his final iterations of the “American Dream” trope, he described it as “that dream of a land in which life should be better and richer and fuller for every man, with opportunity for each according to his ability or achievement.” That last part—“according to his ability or achievement”—is the tempering phrase, a shrewd bit of expectations management. A “better and richer life” is promised, but for most people this won’t be a rich person’s life. “Opportunity for each” is promised, but within the bounds of each person’s ability; the reality is, some people will realize the American Dream more stupendously and significantly than others. (For example, while President Obama is correct in saying, “Only in America is my story possible,” this does not make it true that anyone in America can be the next Obama.) Nevertheless, the American Dream is within reach for all those who aspire to it and are willing to put in the hours; Adams was articulating it as an attainable outcome, not as a pipe dream. As the phrase “the American Dream” insinuated its way into the lexicon, its meaning continuously morphed and shifted, reflecting the hopes and wants of the day. Adams, in The Epic of America, noted that one such major shift had already occurred in the republic’s history, before he’d given the dream its name. In 1890, the U.S. Census Bureau declared that there was no longer such a thing as the American frontier. This was not an official pronouncement but an observation in the bureau’s report that “the unsettled area has been so broken into by isolated bodies of settlement that there can hardly be said to be a frontier line.” 19 | P a g e The tapering off of the frontier era put an end to the immature, individualistic, Wild West version of the American Dream, the one that had animated homesteaders, prospectors, wildcatters, and railroad men. “For a century and more,” Adams wrote, “our successive ‘Wests’ had dominated the thoughts of the poor, the restless, the discontented, the ambitious, as they had those of business expansionists and statesmen.” But by the time Woodrow Wilson became president, in 1913—after the first national election in which every voter in the continental U.S. cast his ballot as a citizen of an established state—that vision had become passé. In fact, to hear the new president speak, the frontiersman’s version of the American Dream was borderline malevolent. Speaking in his inaugural address as if he had just attended a screening of There Will Be Blood, Wilson declared, “We have squandered a great part of what we might have used, and have not stopped to conserve the exceeding bounty of nature, without which our genius for enterprise would have been worthless and impotent.” Referencing both the end of the frontier and the rapid industrialization that arose in its aftermath, Wilson said, “There has been something crude and heartless and unfeeling in our haste to succeed and be great.… We have come now to the sober second thought. The scales of heedlessness have fallen from our eyes. We have made up our minds to square every process of our national life again with the standards we so proudly set up at the beginning.” The American Dream was maturing into a shared dream, a societal compact that reached its apotheosis when Franklin Delano Roosevelt was sworn into office in 1933 and began implementing the New Deal. A “better and richer and fuller” life was no longer just what America promised its hardworking citizens individually; it was an ideal toward which these citizens were duty-bound to strive together. The Social Security Act of 1935 put this theory into practice. It mandated that workers and their employers contribute, via payroll taxes, to federally administered trust funds that paid out benefits to retirees— thereby introducing the idea of a “safe old age” with built-in protection from penury. This was, arguably, the first time that a specific material component was ascribed to the American Dream, in the form of a guarantee that you could retire at the age of 65 and rest assured that your fellow citizens had your back. On January 31, 1940, a hardy Vermonter named Ida May Fuller, a former legal secretary, became the very first retiree to receive a monthly Social Security benefit check, which totaled $22.54. As if to prove both the best hopes of Social Security’s proponents and the worst fears of its detractors, Fuller enjoyed a long retirement, collecting benefits all the way to her death in 1975, when she was 100 years old. Still, the American Dream, in F.D.R.’s day, remained largely a set of deeply held ideals rather than a checklist of goals or entitlements. When Henry Luce published his famous essay “The American Century” in Life magazine in February 1941, he urged that the U.S. should no longer remain on the sidelines of World War II but use its might to promote this country’s “love of freedom, a feeling for the equality of opportunity, a tradition of self-reliance and independence, and also of cooperation.” Luce was essentially proposing that the American Dream—more or less as Adams had articulated it—serve as a global 20 | P a g e advertisement for our way of life, one to which non-democracies should be converted, whether by force or gentle coercion. (He was a missionary’s son.) More soberly and less bombastically, Roosevelt, in his 1941 State of the Union address, prepared America for war by articulating the “four essential human freedoms” that the U.S. would be fighting for: “freedom of speech and expression”; “freedom of every person to worship God in his own way”; “freedom from want”; and “freedom from fear.” Like Luce, Roosevelt was upholding the American way as a model for other nations to follow—he suffixed each of these freedoms with the phrase “everywhere in the world”— but he presented the four freedoms not as the lofty principles of a benevolent super race but as the homespun, bedrock values of a good, hardworking, unextravagant people. No one grasped this better than Norman Rockwell, who, stirred to action by Roosevelt’s speech, set to work on his famous “Four Freedoms” paintings: the one with the roughhewn workman speaking his piece at a town meeting (Freedom of Speech); the one with the old lady praying in the pew (Freedom of Worship); the one with the Thanksgiving dinner (Freedom from Want); and the one with the young parents looking in on their sleeping children (Freedom from Fear). These paintings, first reproduced in The Saturday Evening Post in 1943, proved enormously popular, so much so that the original works were commandeered for a national tour that raised $133 million in U.S. war bonds, while the Office of War Information printed up four million poster copies for distribution. Whatever your opinion of Rockwell (and I’m a fan), the resonance of the “Four Freedoms” paintings with wartime Americans offers tremendous insight into how U.S. citizens viewed their idealized selves. Freedom from Want, the most popular of all, is especially telling, for the scene it depicts is joyous but defiantly unostentatious. There is a happily gathered family, there are plain white curtains, there is a large turkey, there are some celery stalks in a dish, and there is a bowl of fruit, but there is not a hint of overabundance, overindulgence, elaborate table settings, ambitious seasonal centerpieces, or any other conventions of modern-day shelter-mag porn. It was freedom from want, not freedom to want—a world away from the idea that the patriotic thing to do in tough times is go shopping. Though the germ of that idea would form shortly, not long after the war ended. William J. Levitt was a Seabee in the Pacific theater during the war, a member of one of the Construction Battalions (CBs) of the U.S. Navy. One of his jobs was to build airfields at as fast a clip as possible, on the cheap. Levitt had already worked in his father’s construction business back home, and he held an option on a thousand acres of potato fields in Hempstead, New York, out on Long Island. Coming back from the war with newly acquired speed-building skills and a vision of all those returning G.I.’s needing homes, he set to work on turning those potato fields into the first Levittown. Levitt had the forces of history and demographics on his side. The G.I. Bill, enacted in 1944, at the tail end of the New Deal, offered returning veterans low-interest loans with 21 | P a g e no money down to purchase a house—an ideal scenario, coupled with a severe housing shortage and a boom in young families, for the rapid-fire development of suburbia. The first Levitt houses, built in 1947, had two bedrooms, one bathroom, a living room, a kitchen, and an unfinished loft attic that could theoretically be converted into another bedroom. The houses had no basements or garages, but they sat on lots of 60 by 100 feet, and—McMansionistas, take note—took up only 12 percent of their lot’s footprint. They cost about $8,000. “Levittown” is today a byword for creepy suburban conformity, but Bill Levitt, with his Henry Ford–like acumen for mass production, played a crucial role in making home ownership a new tenet of the American Dream, especially as he expanded his operations to other states and inspired imitators. From 1900 to 1940, the percentage of families who lived in homes that they themselves owned held steady at around 45 percent. But by 1950 this figure had shot up to 55 percent, and by 1960 it was at 62 percent. Likewise, the homebuilding business, severely depressed during the war, revived abruptly at war’s end, going from 114,000 new single-family houses started in 1944 to 937,000 in 1946—and to 1.7 million in 1950. Levitt initially sold his houses only to vets, but this policy didn’t hold for long; demand for a new home of one’s own wasn’t remotely limited to ex-G.I.’s, as the Hollywood filmmaker Frank Capra was astute enough to note in It’s a Wonderful Life. In 1946, a full year before the first Levittown was populated, Capra’s creation George Bailey (played by Jimmy Stewart) cut the ribbon on his own eponymous suburban-tract development, Bailey Park, and his first customer wasn’t a war veteran but a hardworking Italian immigrant, the tremulously grateful saloonkeeper Mr. Martini. (An overachiever, Capra was both a war veteran and a hardworking Italian immigrant.) Buttressed by postwar optimism and prosperity, the American Dream was undergoing another recalibration. Now it really did translate into specific goals rather than Adams’s more broadly defined aspirations. Home ownership was the fundamental goal, but, depending on who was doing the dreaming, the package might also include car ownership, television ownership (which multiplied from 6 million to 60 million sets in the U.S. between 1950 and 1960), and the intent to send one’s kids to college. The G.I. Bill was as crucial on that last count as it was to the housing boom. In providing tuition money for returning vets, it not only stocked the universities with new students—in 1947, roughly half of the nation’s college enrollees were ex-G.I.’s—but put the very idea of college within reach of a generation that had previously considered higher education the exclusive province of the rich and the extraordinarily gifted. Between 1940 and 1965, the number of U.S. adults who had completed at least four years of college more than doubled. Nothing reinforced the seductive pull of the new, suburbanized American Dream more than the burgeoning medium of television, especially as its production nexus shifted from New York, where the grubby, schlubby shows The Honeymooners and The Phil Silvers Show were shot, to Southern California, where the sprightly, twinkly shows The 22 | P a g e Adventures of Ozzie and Harriet, Father Knows Best, and Leave It to Beaver were made. While the former shows are actually more enduringly watchable and funny, the latter were the foremost “family” sitcoms of the 1950s—and, as such, the aspirational touchstones of real American families. The Nelsons (Ozzie and Harriet), the Andersons (Father Knows Best), and the Cleavers (Leave It to Beaver) lived in airy houses even nicer than those that Bill Levitt built. In fact, the Nelson home in Ozzie and Harriet was a faithful replica of the two-story Colonial in Hollywood where Ozzie, Harriet, David, and Ricky Nelson really lived when they weren’t filming their show. The Nelsons also offered, in David and especially the swoonsome, guitar-strumming Ricky, two attractive exemplars of that newly ascendant and clout-wielding American demographic, the teenager. “The postwar spread of American values would be spearheaded by the idea of the teenager,” writes Jon Savage somewhat ominously in Teenage, his history of youth culture. “This new type was pleasure-seeking, product-hungry, embodying the new global society where social inclusion was to be granted through purchasing power.” Still, the American Dream was far from degenerating into the consumerist nightmare it would later become (or, more precisely, become mistaken for). What’s striking about the Ozzie and Harriet–style 50s dream is its relative modesty of scale. Yes, the TV and advertising portrayals of family life were antiseptic and too-too-perfect, but the dream homes, real and fictional, seem downright dowdy to modern eyes, with none of the “great room” pretensions and tricked-out kitchen islands that were to come. Nevertheless, some social critics, such as the economist John Kenneth Galbraith, were already fretful. In his 1958 book The Affluent Society, a best-seller, Galbraith posited that America had reached an almost unsurpassable and unsustainable degree of mass affluence because the average family owned a home, one car, and one TV. In pursuing these goals, Galbraith said, Americans had lost a sense of their priorities, focusing on consumerism at the expense of public-sector needs like parks, schools, and infrastructure maintenance. At the same time, they had lost their parents’ Depression-era sense of thrift, blithely taking out personal loans or enrolling in installment plans to buy their cars and refrigerators. While these concerns would prove prescient, Galbraith severely underestimated the potential for average U.S. household income and spending power to grow further. The very same year that The Affluent Society came out, Bank of America introduced the BankAmericard, the forerunner to Visa, today the most widely used credit card in the world. What unfolded over the next generation was the greatest standard-of-living upgrade that this country had ever experienced: an economic sea change powered by the middle class’s newly sophisticated engagement in personal finance via credit cards, mutual funds, and discount brokerage houses—and its willingness to take on debt. 23 | P a g e Consumer credit, which had already rocketed upward from $2.6 billion to $45 billion in the postwar period (1945 to 1960), shot up to $105 billion by 1970. “It was as if the entire middle class was betting that tomorrow would be better than today,” as the financial writer Joe Nocera put it in his 1994 book, A Piece of the Action: How the Middle Class Joined the Money Class. “Thus did Americans begin to spend money they didn’t yet have; thus did the unaffordable become affordable. And thus, it must be said, did the economy grow.” Before it spiraled out of control, the “money revolution,” to use Nocera’s term for this great middle-class financial engagement, really did serve the American Dream. It helped make life “better and richer and fuller” for a broad swath of the populace in ways that our Depression-era forebears could only have imagined. To be glib about it, the Brady family’s way of life was even sweeter than the Nelson family’s. The Brady Bunch, which debuted in 1969, in The Adventures of Ozzie and Harriet’s old Friday-night-at-eight slot on ABC, occupied the same space in the American psyche of the 70s as Ozzie and Harriet had in the 50s: as the middle class’s American Dream wish-fulfillment fantasy, again in a generically idyllic Southern California setting. But now there were two cars in the driveway. Now there were annual vacations at the Grand Canyon and an improbably caper-filled trip to Hawaii. (The average number of airplane trips per American household, less than one per year in 1954, was almost three per year in 1970.) And the house itself was snazzier—that open-plan living area just inside the Brady home’s entryway, with the “floating” staircase leading up to the bedrooms, was a major step forward in fake-nuclear-family living. By 1970, for the first time, more than half of all U.S. families held at least one credit card. But usage was still relatively conservative: only 22 percent of cardholders carried a balance from one month’s bill to the next. Even in the so-called go-go 80s, this figure hovered in the 30s, compared to 56 percent today. But it was in the 80s that the American Dream began to take on hyperbolic connotations, to be conflated with extreme success: wealth, basically. The representative TV families, whether benignly genteel (the Huxtables on The Cosby Show) or soap-opera bonkers (the Carringtons on Dynasty), were undeniably rich. “Who says you can’t have it all?” went the jingle in a ubiquitous beer commercial from the era, which only got more alarming as it went on to ask, “Who says you can’t have the world without losing your soul?” The deregulatory atmosphere of the Reagan years—the loosening of strictures on banks and energy companies, the reining in of the Justice Department’s antitrust division, the removal of vast tracts of land from the Department of the Interior’s protected list—was, in a sense, a calculated regression to the immature, individualistic American Dream of yore; not for nothing did Ronald Reagan (and, later, far less effectively, George W. Bush) go out of his way to cultivate a frontiersman’s image, riding horses, chopping wood, and reveling in the act of clearing brush. To some degree, this outlook succeeded in rallying middle-class Americans to seize control of their individual fates as never before—to “Go for it!,” as people in yellow ties 24 | P a g e and red braces were fond of saying at the time. In one of Garry Trudeau’s finest moments from the 80s, a Doonesbury character was shown watching a political campaign ad in which a woman concluded her pro-Reagan testimonial with the tagline “Ronald Reagan … because I’m worth it.” But this latest recalibration saw the American Dream get decoupled from any concept of the common good (the movement to privatize Social Security began to take on momentum) and, more portentously, from the concepts of working hard and managing one’s expectations. You only had to walk as far as your mailbox to discover that you’d been “pre-approved” for six new credit cards, and that the credit limits on your existing cards had been raised without your even asking. Never before had money been freer, which is to say, never before had taking on debt become so guiltless and seemingly consequence-free—at both the personal and institutional levels. President Reagan added $1 trillion to the national debt, and in 1986, the United States, formerly the world’s biggest creditor nation, became the world’s biggest debtor nation. Perhaps debt was the new frontier. A curious phenomenon took hold in the 1990s and 2000s. Even as the easy credit continued, and even as a sustained bull market cheered investors and papered over the coming mortgage and credit crises that we now face, Americans were losing faith in the American Dream—or whatever it was they believed the American Dream to be. A CNN poll taken in 2006 found that more than half of those surveyed, 54 percent, considered the American Dream unachievable—and CNN noted that the numbers were nearly the same in a 2003 poll it had conducted. Before that, in 1995, a Business Week/Harris poll found that two-thirds of those surveyed believed the American Dream had become harder to achieve in the past 10 years, and three-fourths believed that achieving the dream would be harder still in the upcoming 10 years. To the writer Gregg Easterbrook, who at the beginning of this decade was a visiting fellow in economics at the Brookings Institution, this was all rather puzzling, because, by the definition of any prior American generation, the American Dream had been more fully realized by more people than ever before. While acknowledging that an obscene amount of America’s wealth was concentrated in the hands of a small group of ultra-rich, Easterbrook noted that “the bulk of the gains in living standards—the gains that really matter—have occurred below the plateau of wealth.” By nearly every measurable indicator, Easterbrook pointed out in 2003, life for the average American had gotten better than it used to be. Per capita income, adjusted for inflation, had more than doubled since 1960. Almost 70 percent of Americans owned the places they lived in, versus under 20 percent a century earlier. Furthermore, U.S. citizens averaged 12.3 years of education, tops in the world and a length of time in school once reserved solely for the upper class. Yet when Easterbrook published these figures in a book, the book was called The Progress Paradox: How Life Gets Better While People Feel Worse. He was paying attention not only to the polls in which people complained that the American Dream was 25 | P a g e out of reach, but to academic studies by political scientists and mental-health experts that detected a marked uptick since the midcentury in the number of Americans who considered themselves unhappy. The American Dream was now almost by definition unattainable, a moving target that eluded people’s grasp; nothing was ever enough. It compelled Americans to set unmeetable goals for themselves and then consider themselves failures when these goals, inevitably, went unmet. In examining why people were thinking this way, Easterbrook raised an important point. “For at least a century,” he wrote, “Western life has been dominated by a revolution of rising expectations: Each generation expected more than its antecedent. Now most Americans and Europeans already have what they need, in addition to considerable piles of stuff they don’t need.” This might explain the existential ennui of the well-off, attractive, solipsistic kids on Laguna Beach (2004–6) and The Hills (2006–9), the MTV reality soaps that represent the curdling of the whole Southern California wish-fulfillment genre on television. Here were affluent beach-community teens enriching themselves further not even by acting or working in any real sense, but by allowing themselves to be filmed as they sat by campfires maundering on about, like, how much their lives suck. In the same locale that begat these programs, Orange County, there emerged a Bill Levitt of McMansions, an Iranian-born entrepreneur named Hadi Makarechian whose company, Capital Pacific Holdings, specializes in building tract-housing developments for multimillionaires, places with names like Saratoga Cove and Ritz Pointe. In a 2001 profile of Makarechian in The New Yorker, David Brooks mentioned that the builder had run into zoning restrictions on his latest development, called Oceanfront, that prevented the “entry statement”—the walls that mark the entrance to the development—from being any higher than four feet. Noted Brooks drolly, “The people who are buying homes in Oceanfront are miffed about the small entry statement.” Nothing was ever enough. An extreme example, perhaps, but not misrepresentative of the national mind-set. It says a lot about our buying habits and constant need for new, better stuff that Congress and the Federal Communications Commission were utterly comfortable with setting a hard 2009 date for the switchover from analog to digital television broadcasting—pretty much assuming that every American household owns or will soon own a flat-panel digital TV—even though such TVs have been widely available for only five years. (As recently as January 2006, just 20 percent of U.S. households owned a digital television, and the average price point for such a television was still above a thousand dollars.) In hewing to the misbegotten notion that our standard of living must trend inexorably upward, we entered in the late 90s and early 00s into what might be called the Juiceball Era of the American Dream—a time of steroidally outsize purchasing and artificially inflated numbers. As Easterbrook saw it, it was no longer enough for people to keep up with the Joneses; no, now they had to “call and raise the Joneses.” 26 | P a g e “Bloated houses,” he wrote, “arise from a desire to call-and-raise-the-Joneses—surely not from a belief that a seven-thousand-square-foot house that comes right up against the property setback line would be an ideal place in which to dwell.” More ominously and to the point: “To call-and-raise-the-Joneses, Americans increasingly take on debt.” This personal debt, coupled with mounting institutional debt, is what has got us in the hole we’re in now. While it remains a laudable proposition for a young couple to secure a low-interest loan for the purchase of their first home, the more recent practice of running up huge credit-card bills to pay for, well, whatever, has come back to haunt us. The amount of outstanding consumer debt in the U.S. has gone up every year since 1958, and up an astonishing 22 percent since 2000 alone. The financial historian and V.F. contributor Niall Ferguson reckons that the over-leveraging of America has become especially acute in the last 10 years, with the U.S.’s debt burden, as a proportion of the gross domestic product, “in the region of 355 percent,” he says. “So, debt is three and a half times the output of the economy. That’s some kind of historic maximum.” James Truslow Adams’s words remind us that we’re still fortunate to live in a country that offers us such latitude in choosing how we go about our lives and work—even in this crapola economy. Still, we need to challenge some of the middle-class orthodoxies that have brought us to this point—not least the notion, widely promulgated throughout popular culture, that the middle class itself is a soul-suffocating dead end. The middle class is a good place to be, and, optimally, where most Americans will spend their lives if they work hard and don’t over-extend themselves financially. On American Idol, Simon Cowell has done a great many youngsters a great service by telling them that they’re not going to Hollywood and that they should find some other line of work. The American Dream is not fundamentally about stardom or extreme success; in recalibrating our expectations of it, we need to appreciate that it is not an all-or-nothing deal—that it is not, as in hip-hop narratives and in Donald Trump’s brain, a stark choice between the penthouse and the streets. And what about the outmoded proposition that each successive generation in the United States must live better than the one that preceded it? While this idea is still crucial to families struggling in poverty and to immigrants who’ve arrived here in search of a better life than that they left behind, it’s no longer applicable to an American middle class that lives more comfortably than any version that came before it. (Was this not one of the cautionary messages of the most thoughtful movie of 2008, WALL-E?) I’m no champion of downward mobility, but the time has come to consider the idea of simple continuity: the perpetuation of a contented, sustainable middle-class way of life, where the standard of living remains happily constant from one generation to the next. This is not a matter of any generation’s having to “lower its sights,” to use President Obama’s words, nor is it a denial that some children of lower- and middle-class parents will, through talent and/or good fortune, strike it rich and bound precipitously into the upper class. Nor is it a moony, nostalgic wish for a return to the scrappy 30s or the suburban 50s, because any sentient person recognizes that there’s plenty about the good 27 | P a g e old days that wasn’t so good: the original Social Security program pointedly excluded farmworkers and domestics (i.e., poor rural laborers and minority women), and the original Levittown didn’t allow black people in. But those eras do offer lessons in scale and self-control. The American Dream should require hard work, but it should not require 80-hour workweeks and parents who never see their kids from across the dinner table. The American Dream should entail a first-rate education for every child, but not an education that leaves no extra time for the actual enjoyment of childhood. The American Dream should accommodate the goal of home ownership, but without imposing a lifelong burden of unmeetable debt. Above all, the American Dream should be embraced as the unique sense of possibility that this country gives its citizens—the decent chance, as Moss Hart would say, to scale the walls and achieve what you wish. 28 | P a g e John Moore was British writer and teacher who spent much of his professional life researching social change. The following is his most well-know work, and provides a solid introduction to “anarcho-primitivism.” Moore died in 2002, and these ideas have evolved since amid fairly fierce debate, which gives us here in English 101 some good directions for complication, extension, and critique. A Primitivist Primer By John Moore AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is not a definitive statement, merely a personal account, and seeks in general terms to explain what is meant by anarcho-primitivism. It does not wish to limit or exclude, but provide a general introduction to the topic. Apologies for inaccuracies, misinterpretations, or (inevitable) overgeneralizations. What is anarcho-primitivism? Anarcho-primitivism (a.k.a. radical primitivism, anti-authoritarian primitivism, the anticivilization movement, or just, primitivism) is a shorthand term for a radical current that critiques the totality of civilization from an anarchist perspective, and seeks to initiate a comprehensive transformation of human life. Strictly speaking, there is no such thing as anarcho-primitivism or anarcho-primitivists. Fredy Perlman, a major voice in this current, once said, "The only -ist name I respond to is "cellist".' Individuals associated with this current do not wish to be adherents of an ideology, merely people who seek to become free individuals in free communities in harmony with one another and with the biosphere, and may therefore refuse to be limited by the term 'anarcho-primitivist' or any other ideological tagging. At best, then, anarcho-primitivism is a convenient label used to characterise diverse individuals with a common project: the abolition of all power relations - e.g., structures of control, coercion, domination, and exploitation - and the creation of a form of community that excludes all such relations. So why is the term anarcho - primitivist used to characterise this current? In 1986, the circle around the Detroit paper Fifth Estate indicated that they were engaged in developing a 'critical analysis of the technological structure of western civilization[,] combined with a reappraisal of the indigenous world and the character of primitive and original communities. In this sense we are primitivists ...' The Fifth Estate group sought to complement a critique of civilization as a project of control with a reappraisal of the primitive, which they regarded as a source of renewal and anti-authoritarian inspiration. This reappraisal of the primitive takes place from an anarchist perspective, a perspective concerned with eliminating power relations. Pointing to 'an emerging synthesis of post29 | P a g e modern anarchy and the primitive (in the sense of original), Earth-based ecstatic vision,' the Fifth Estate circle indicated: We are not anarchists per se, but pro-anarchy, which is for us a living, integral experience, incommensurate with Power and refusing all ideology ... Our work on the FE as a project explores possibilities for our own participation in this movement, but also works to rediscover the primitive roots of anarchy as well as to document its present expression. Simultaneously, we examine the evolution of Power in our midst in order to suggest new terrains for contestations and critique in order to undermine the present tyranny of the modern totalitarian discourse - that hyper-reality that destroys human meaning, and hence solidarity, by simulating it with technology. Underlying all struggles for freedom is this central necessity: to regain a truly human discourse grounded in autonomous, intersubjective mutuality and closely associated with the natural world. The aim is to develop a synthesis of primal and contemporary anarchy, a synthesis of the ecologically-focussed, non-statist, anti-authoritarian aspects of primitive lifeways with the most advanced forms of anarchist analysis of power relations. The aim is not to replicate or return to the primitive, merely to see the primitive as a source of inspiration, as exemplifying forms of anarchy. For anarcho-primitivists, civilization is the overarching context within which the multiplicity of power relations develop. Some basic power relations are present in primitive societies - and this is one reason why anarcho-primitivists do not seek to replicate these societies - but it is in civilization that power relations become pervasive and entrenched in practically all aspects of human life and human relations with the biosphere. Civilization - also referred to as the megamachine or Leviathan - becomes a huge machine which gains its own momentum and becomes beyond the control of even its supposed rulers. Powered by the routines of daily life which are defined and managed by internalized patterns of obedience, people become slaves to the machine, the system of civilization itself. Only widespread refusal of this system and its various forms of control, revolt against power itself, can abolish civilization, and pose a radical alternative. Ideologies such as Marxism, classical anarchism and feminism oppose aspects of civilization; only anarcho-primitivism opposes civilization, the context within which the various forms of oppression proliferate and become pervasive - and, indeed, possible. Anarcho-primitivism incorporates elements from various oppositional currents ecological consciousness, anarchist anti-authoritarianism, feminist critiques, Situationist ideas, zero-work theories, technological criticism - but goes beyond opposition to single forms of power to refuse them all and pose a radical alternative. How does anarcho-primitivism differ from anarchism, or other radical ideologies? From the perspective of anarcho-primitivism, all other forms of radicalism appear as reformist, whether or not they regard themselves as revolutionary. Marxism and classical anarchism, for example, want to take over civilization, rework its structures to some degree, and remove its worst abuses and oppressions. However, 99% of life in 30 | P a g e civilization remains unchanged in their future scenarios, precisely because the aspects of civilization they question are minimal. Although both want to abolish capitalism, and classical anarchism would abolish the State too, overall life patterns wouldn't change too much. Although there might be some changes in socioeconomic relations, such as worker control of industry and neighbourhood councils in place of the State, and even an ecological focus, basic patterns would remain unchanged. The Western model of progress would merely be amended and would still act as an ideal. Mass society would essentially continue, with most people working, living in artificial, technologised environments, and subject to forms of coercion and control. Radical ideologies on the Left seek to capture power, not abolish it. Hence, they develop various kinds of exclusive groups - cadres, political parties, consciousness-raising groups - in order to win converts and plan strategies for gaining control. Organizations, for anarcho-primitivists, are just rackets, gangs for putting a particular ideology in power. Politics, 'the art and science of government,' is not part of the primitivist project; only a politics of desire, pleasure, mutuality and radical freedom. Where, according to anarcho-primitivism, does power originate? Again, a source of some debate among anarcho-primitivists. Perlman sees the creation of impersonal institutions or abstract power relations as the defining moment at which primitive anarchy begins to be dismantled by civilized social relations. In contrast, John Zerzan locates the development of symbolic mediation - in its various forms of number, language, time, art and later, agriculture - as the means of transition from human freedom to a state of domestication. The focus on origin is important in anarcho-primitivism because primitivism seeks, in exponential fashion, to expose, challenge and abolish all the multiple forms of power that structure the individual, social relations, and interrelations with the natural world. Locating origins is a way of identifying what can be safely salvaged from the wreck of civilization, and what it is essential to eradicate if power relations are not to recommence after civilization's collapse. What kind of future is envisaged by anarcho primitivists? Anarcho-primitivist journal "Anarchy; A Journal of Desire Armed" envisions a future that is 'radically cooperative and communitarian, ecological and feminist, spontaneous and wild,' and this might be the closest you'll get to a description! There's no blueprint, no proscriptive pattern, although it's important to stress that the envisioned future is not 'primitive' in any stereotypical sense. As the Fifth Estate said in 1979: 'Let us anticipate the critics who would accuse us of wanting to go "back to the caves" or of mere posturing on our part - i.e., enjoying the comforts of civilization all the while being its hardiest critics. We are not posing the Stone Age as a model for our Utopia[,] nor are we suggesting a return to gathering and hunting as a means for our livelihood.' As a 31 | P a g e corrective to this common misconception, it's important to stress that that the future envisioned by anarcho-primitivism is sui generis - it is without precedent. Although primitive cultures provide intimations of the future, and that future may well incorporate elements derived from those cultures, an anarcho-primitivist world would likely be quite different from previous forms of anarchy. How does anarcho-primitivism view technology? John Zerzan defines technology as 'the ensemble of division of labor/production/industrialism and its impact on us and on nature. Technology is the sum of mediations between us and the natural world and the sum of those separations mediating us from each other. It is all the drudgery and toxicity required to produce and reproduce the stage of hyper-alienation we languish in. It is the texture and the form of domination at any given stage of hierarchy and domination.' Opposition to technology thus plays an important role in anarcho-primitivist practice. However, Fredy Perlman says that 'technology is nothing but the Leviathan's armory,' its 'claws and fangs.' Anarcho-primitivists are thus opposed to technology, but there is some debate over how central technology is to domination in civilization. A distinction should be drawn between tools (or implements) and technology. Perlman shows that primitive peoples develop all kinds of tools and implements, but not technologies: 'The material objects, the canes and canoes, the digging sticks and walls, were things a single individual could make, or they were things, like a wall, that required the cooperation of many on a single occasion .... Most of the implements are ancient, and the [material] surpluses [these implements supposedly made possible] have been ripe since the first dawn, but they did not give rise to impersonal institutions. People, living beings, give rise to both.' Tools are creations on a localised, small-scale, the products of either individuals or small groups on specific occasions. As such, they do not give rise to systems of control and coercion. Technology, on the other hand, is the product of large-scale interlocking systems of extraction, production, distribution and consumption, and such systems gain their own momentum and dynamic. As such, they demand structures of control and obedience on a mass scale - what Perlman calls impersonal institutions. As the Fifth Estate pointed out in 1981: 'Technology is not a simple tool which can be used in any way we like. It is a form of social organization, a set of social relations. It has its own laws. If we are to engage in its use, we must accept its authority. The enormous size, complex interconnections and stratification of tasks which make up modern technological systems make authoritarian command necessary and independent, individual decision-making impossible.' Anarcho-primitivism is an anti-systemic current: it opposes all systems, institutions, abstractions, the artificial, the synthetic, and the machine, because they embody power relations. Anarcho-primitivists thus oppose technology or the technological system, but not the use of tools and implements in the senses indicated here. As to whether any technological forms will be appropriate in an anarcho-primitivist world, there is debate over this issue. The Fifth Estate remarked in 1979 that: 'Reduced to its most basic 32 | P a g e elements, discussions about the future sensibly should be predicated on what we desire socially and from that determine what technology is possible. All of us desire central heating, flush toilets, and electric lighting, but not at the expense of our humanity. Maybe they are all possible together, but maybe not.' What about medicine? Ultimately, anarcho-primitivism is all about healing - healing the rifts that have opened up within individuals, between people, and between people and nature, the rifts that have opened up through civilization, through power, including the State, Capital, and technology. The German philosopher Nietzsche said that pain, and the way it is dealt with, should be at the heart of any free society, and in this respect, he is right. Individuals, communities and the Earth itself have been maimed to one degree or another by the power relations characteristic of civilization. People have been psychologically maimed but also physically assaulted by illness and disease. This isn't to suggest that anarchoprimitivism can abolish pain, illness and disease! However, research has revealed that many diseases are the results of civilized living conditions, and if these conditions were abolished, then certain types of pain, illness and disease could disappear. As for the remainder, a world which places pain at its centre would be vigorous in its pursuit of assuaging it by finding ways of curing illness and disease. In this sense, anarcho-primitivism is very concerned with medicine. However, the alienating high-tech, pharmaceutical-centred form of medicine practised in the West is not the only form of medicine possible. The question of what medicine might consist of in an anarchoprimitivist future depends, as in the Fifth Estate comment on technology above, on what is possible and what people desire, without compromising the lifeways of free individuals in ecologically-centred free communities. As on all other questions, there is no dogmatic answer to this issue. What about population? A controversial issue, largely because there isn't a consensus among anarcho-primitivists on this topic. Some people argue that population reduction wouldn't be necessary; others argue that it would on ecological grounds and/or to sustain the kind of lifeways envisaged by anarcho-primitivists. George Bradford, in How Deep is Deep Ecology?, argues that women's control over reproduction would lead to a fall in population rate. The personal view of the present writer is that population would need to be reduced, but this would occur through natural wastage - i.e., when people died, not all of them would be replaced, and thus the overall population rate would fall and eventually stabilise. Anarchists have long argued that in a free world, social, economic and psychological pressures toward excessive reproduction would be removed. There would just be too many other interesting things going on to engage people's time! Feminists have argued that women, freed of gender constraints and the family structure, would not be defined by their reproductive capacities as in patriarchal societies, and this would result in lower population levels too. So population would be likely to fall, willy-nilly. After all, as 33 | P a g e Perlman makes plain, population growth is purely a product of civilization: 'a steady increase in human numbers [is] as persistent as the Leviathan itself. This phenomenon seems to exist only among Leviathanized human beings. Animals as well as human communities in the state of nature do not proliferate their own kind to the point of pushing all others off the field.' So there's really no reason to suppose that human population shouldn't stabilise once Leviathanic social relations are abolished and communitarian harmony is restored. Ignore the weird fantasies spread by some commentators hostile to anarcho-primitivism who suggest that the population levels envisaged by anarcho-primitivists would have to be achieved by mass die-offs or nazi-style death camps. These are just smear tactics. The commitment of anarcho-primitivists to the abolition of all power relations, including the State with all its administrative and military apparatus, and any kind of party or organization, means that such orchestrated slaughter remains an impossibility as well as just plain horrendous. How might an anarcho - primitivist future be brought about? The sixty-four thousand dollar question! (to use a thoroughly suspect metaphor!) There are no hard-and-fast rules here, no blueprint. The glib answer - seen by some as a cop-out - is that forms of struggle emerge in the course of insurgency. This is true, but not necessarily very helpful! The fact is that anarcho-primitivism is not a power-seeking ideology. It doesn't seek to capture the State, take over factories, win converts, create political organizations, or order people about. Instead, it wants people to become free individuals living in free communities which are interdependent with one another and with the biosphere they inhabit. It wants, then, a total transformation, a transformation of identity, ways of life, ways of being, and ways of communicating. This means that the tried and tested means of power-seeking ideologies just aren't relevant to the anarchoprimitivist project, which seeks to abolish all forms of power. So new forms of action and being, forms appropriate to and commensurate with the anarcho-primitivist project, need to be developed. This is an ongoing process and so there's no easy answer to the question: What is to be done? At present, many agree that communities of resistance are an important element in the anarcho-primitivist project. The word 'community' is bandied about these days in all kinds of absurd ways (e.g., the business community), precisely because most genuine communities have been destroyed by Capital and the State. Some think that if traditional communities, frequently sources of resistance to power, have been destroyed, then the creation of communities of resistance - communities formed by individuals with resistance as their common focus - are a way to recreate bases for action. An old anarchist idea is that the new world must be created within the shell of the old. This means that when civilization collapses - through its own volition, through our efforts, or a combination of the two - there will be an alternative waiting to take its place. This is really necessary as, in the absence of positive alternatives, the social disruption caused by 34 | P a g e collapse could easily create the psychological insecurity and social vacuum in which fascism and other totalitarian dictatorships could flourish. For the present writer, this means that anarcho-primitivists need to develop communities of resistance - microcosms (as much as they can be) of the future to come - both in cities and outside. These need to act as bases for action (particularly direct action), but also as sites for the creation of new ways of thinking, behaving, communicating, being, and so on, as well as new sets of ethics - in short, a whole new liberatory culture. They need to become places where people can discover their true desires and pleasures, and through the good old anarchist idea of the exemplary deed, show others by example that alternative ways of life are possible. However, there are many other possibilities that need exploring. The kind of world envisaged by anarcho-primitivism is one unprecedented in human experience in terms of the degree and types of freedom anticipated ... so there can't be any limits on the forms of resistance and insurgency that might develop. The kind of vast transformations envisaged will need all kinds of innovative thought and activity. 35 | P a g e From The Infinite Matrix: Robert Sheckley, one of the funniest and most influential satirists in science fiction, is the author of dozens of novels and hundreds of short stories. His collections, which include “Untouched by Human Hands” and “Can You Feel Anything When I Do This?”, contain some of the most relentlessly hilarious stories in the genre. Sheckley died on December 9, 2005, at the age of 77, nearly a year after this story was published; he was widely loved, and it's quite accurate to say that he was mourned all over the world. Reborn Again by Robert Sheckley "Damn," a voice said. "I'm still alive." "Who is that?" Ritchie Castleman asked. "It's me, Moses Grelich," a voice inside him said. Grelich? Ritchie had heard that name somewhere before. Then he remembered. Grelich was the body he had bought to live his new life in. Grelich said, "I was supposed to be dead. They promised me I'd be dead." "That's right," Ritchie said. "I remember now. You sold your body to me. And I was supposed to have bare-bones possession of it." "But I am still in it. It's still my body." "I don't think so," Ritchie said. "Even if you are still in it, you sold it to me. It's my body now." "So OK, it's your body. Consider me your guide." "I don't want a guide," Ritchie said. "I bought a body, and I want to be alone in it." "Who could blame you?" Grelich said. "Some schlemiel in the lab must have muffed it. I'm still here." "Get out!" "Calm yourself, boychick. I got no place to go." 36 | P a g e "Can't you just... stand outside?" "Like a ghost? Sorry, Herbie, I don't know how to do that." "My name is Ritchie." "I know, but you're more of a Herbie type." Ritchie let that one go. He muttered, "I need to get this mess straightened out. There's got to be someone in charge around here." "I doubt it," Grelich said. "This looks like a rich man's apartment to me." "Where? I can't see a thing. My God, I'm in darkness!" "Don't get so excited. I seem to still be in charge of the sensory apparatus. Go ahead, take a look. I turn the vision over to you." The scene suddenly opened up to Ritchie's senses. He was lying in bed, in his bright, high-rise apartment on Central Park West. It was daylight. Sunlight was pouring in the window. Across the room he could see his mechanical exercise horse. The Chagall print still dominated one wall. "It's my apartment," Ritchie said. "I guess they put me back here after the operation. Shouldn't there be a nurse?" "A nurse! The boychick wants a nurse!" "It's just that I've been through a considerable operation." "And I haven't?" "It's not the same thing. You're supposed to be dead. You don't need a nurse. Just a disposal service." "That's a hell of a thing to say." Ritchie was a little ashamed of what he had just said. But this was a new situation for him. Just yesterday he had opted for the newly developed choice of putting his mind into a new body. This had become necessary when his congenital heart defect suddenly started acting up. There had been no time to lose. He had gone to Mind Movers Technology Company, and found that they had one body he could take over immediately. Moses Grelich had decided to opt for self-obliteration, to sell his body, and to leave his money to Israel. Yesterday the operation had taken place. 37 | P a g e The doorbell rang. Ritchie slipped on a bathrobe and slippers and went to answer it, thinking maybe it was the nurse the Company should have sent in the first place. He opened the door. Standing there was a tall, skinny old lady, her dark hair pulled back and tied in a messy bun. She was wearing a plain cloth coat. She carried her purse in one hand, a white paper bag in the other. There was something about her... Ritchie thought she must once have been a beauty "Is Moses here?" she asked timidly. "They gave me this address for him at Mind Movers." Ritchie felt like one of those guys in a fable. Since Grelich had taken over the body, Ritchie could see and hear, and sometimes even speak, but he had no control over anything else. And no body sensations. When the body walked, Ritchie had the sensation that he was floating about six feet above the ground. "I'm here!" Grelitch said out of Ritchie's mouth. "Moise!" she cried. "Esther? Is that really you?" "So who else should it be?" "Come in, come in," Moses said. Esther carefully wiped her feet on the mat and entered the apartment. Moses led her into the living room. He was already familiar with Ritchie's apartment. He waved her to a chair. "Nu, don't you have a kitchen?" Esther asked. "I'll feel more comfortable in the kitchen." Ritchie could hear Esther and Moses talking. Something about how Moses' old friends at the East Broadway cafeteria were worried about him. One of them had read an item in The New York Post about how Moses Grelich was about to undergo a whole-body transplant operation. It seemed that Moses had agreed to sell his body to someone. Moses was quoted as saying that since God had failed, Communism had failed, and now Capitalism had failed, he saw no sense in going on. He planned to be the first man in history to prove the old saying, "If the poor could die for the rich, what a good living they would make!" "So how come you're still alive?" Esther asked. 38 | P a g e Ritchie summoned up all his energy and said, "He shouldn't be!" "Beg pardon, what did you say?" Esther said. "The operation was not a success," Ritchie said." They had the transplant, but they didn't get rid of Moses. This is supposed to be my body now. But he's still here, damnit!" Esther's eyes grew wide. Taking a deep breath, and letting out half of it, she said. "Pleased to meet you, Mister—" "Castleman, Ritchie Castleman. And you are?" "Mrs. Kazorney, Esther Kazorney." She frowned, as if to say, "I can't believe what's happening." Then, timidly, she said, "Moise, are you really still there somewhere?" "Of course I'm still here. Where else would I be?" Ritchie noticed that Grelich's voice was more robust then his own. Grelich spoke emphatically and somewhat dramatically. His sentences were filled with highs and lows, and he made full use of diminuendo and crescendo. "Yes, Esther," Grelich went on, "By the grace of the times we live in I am still here. These klutzes couldn't even kill an unhappy Jew, even though Hitler showed them how some years ago. Esther, we are living now in an age of the goyishe apotheosis. The peasantry is now at the controls, and they are showing us what it really means to screw up, you should excuse the language." Esther made a small dismissing gesture. She studied Moses' face and said, in a low voice, "Moise?" "I'm still here," Moses said." Where else would I be?" "This fellow who lives inside you—is he a landsman?" "Atheist!" Ritchie said. "Purebred atheist." "You see?" Moses said. "Atheism is the first step toward Judaism." "Not bloody likely," Ritchie said. "What type of atheist are you, anyhow?" Grelitch asked. "How many types are there?" "At least two. Intellectual and instinctive." 39 | P a g e "I guess I'm the intellectual type." "Aha!" Grelitch said. "What, aha?" "Out of your own mouth you have proven a thesis which I have long held. Jews are not instinctive atheists. Jews, even the dumbest among us, are born arguers, which is to say, intellectuals. No Jew comes to suicide without a long, reasoned argument in his mind, an argument that takes into account the question of God's view on suicide." The doorbell rang again. Grelich opened the door. "Solomon!" he cried, seeing the tall black man on the other side. "Solomon Grundy, the Ethiopian Jew," he explained to Ritchie. "Can you hear me, Moise?" Solomon said. "Esther gave me this address." "Yes, yes I can hear you, Solomon. You have come to the apartment of therman who owns my body. Unfortunately, I'm still in it." "How can that be?" "It'll be sorted out presently. Meanwhile, what do you have to tell me? Some more of your mystic African Hasidic pseudo-scientific nonsense?" "I simply come as a friend," Solomon said. "That's very nice," Grelich said. "The murderer returns to weep over the corpse he has made." "I don't quite understand your point," Solomon said. "The point is, where were you when I needed a friend? Where were you before I killed myself?" "Killed yourself? You don't sound very dead to me." "I tried. It's an accident that I'm alive." "So might we all say. But something that is tantamount to an accident can be said never to have happened." "Sophistry," Grelich shouted. 40 | P a g e Solomon sat silent for a long moment, and then nodded his head. "I'll accept that. The fact is, I was not a very good friend. Or rather, I was not a good enough friend at the time you needed one." "Well, I don't know about that," said Grelich, momentarily uncertain of the line Solomon was taking. "We are both responsible for what happened," Solomon said. "You elected yourself a victim, I perforce became a killer. Together we obliterated a life. But we reckoned without God." "How do you figure?" Grelich asked. "We thought we could produce the nothingness of death. But God said, "That's not how it's going to be." And he left us both alive and able to suffer the consequences of the deed we attempted, but didn't quite bring off." "God wouldn't do that," Grelich said. "That is, if He existed." "He does." "What kind of a principle could He make of that?" "He doesn't have to make a principle out of it. He is not restricted to His own precedent. He can do what he wants fresh every time. This time it's for you to suffer, and you deserve it, since God never told you it was all right to suicide." Ritchie loved listening to what was going on. He qvelled (a word he would soon learn) to hear the aggressive, intellectual Grelich getting it in the neck from a guy like Solomon, who came on like a religious rapper and really knew how to dish it out. But it occurred to Ritchie that all the talk was on Grelich, and none of it was on him. "Hey, fellows," he said, "it looks like this talk could go on for a while, and I haven't even been introduced." Grelich sullenly made the introductions. "Why don't we get a bite to eat?" Ritchie said, now that he found himself able to speak. "I could use something, myself." "Is there a vegetarian restaurant around here?" Grelich asked. "Christ, I don't know," Ritchie said. "There's a pretty good Cuban café just a couple blocks from here." 41 | P a g e "I wouldn't eat that treif junk," Grelich said. "Not even if I weren't a vegetarian." "So recommend your own place, big mouth," said Ritchie. "Gentlemen," said Solomon, "we will take a taxi, which I will pay for, and we will go to Ratstein's on the Lower East Side." The taxi dropped them on the corner of 2nd Avenue and Fourth Street. A corner place, Ratstein's was open. Inside it was big—it must have had over a hundred tables, all empty except for two men at a front table, arguing over coffee and blintzes. "We'll sit in the back, at the Philosopher's Table," Solomon said, and led them to an oval table with chairs for eight. "Schlepstein from NYU often shows up here," Solomon said. "And sometimes Hans Werthke from Columbia." Ritchie had never heard of these men. And he didn't much like vegetarian food. He settled for a plate of egg cookies and a celery tonic. Grelich ordered strawberry blintzes, Esther took rice pudding, and Solomon ordered the rice and vegetables dish. Their waiter was a short, plump, middle-aged man with a fringe of pale thinning hair and a vaguely European look. He moved slowly on what appeared to be painful feet. "I'll need this table by 7 pm," he said. "It's reserved." It's only 3 o'clock now," Grelich said. " God forbid that your famous philosophers should have to sit anywhere else. We'll be out of here long before they start their discussions." "Our customers are used to seeing them here," the waiter said. "I am Jakob Leiber and I am here to serve you." The talk was general for a while, with one after another relating incidents of their day. From their conversation, Ritchie got an impression of an older New York, filled with old law tenements, push carts, micvahs, and study rooms for young scholars. He wondered if they weren't talking about a New York of a hundred years ago, not today. In the taxi down Second Avenue he had noticed the Hispanic food stores, perfumeries, lunch counters and laundries. What once might have been a Jewish neighborhood had become a Hispanic barrio or whatever they called their slum neighborhoods. 42 | P a g e He commented on this to Esther. She told him, "Everything's changed. I've heard Ratstein's only stays open because of the support of some wealthy Jewish mafia types who live in New Jersey and need a place for lunch on their trips into the city." "That reminds me of this movie I saw," Ritchie said. "There was this Jewish mobster and his daughter, and this other mobster, a young guy, falls in love with the first mobster's daughter and goes back in time to kill the man who became her husband but didn't treat her right. I forgot how they got the time machine, but it seemed pretty logical at the time." "Did he get the girl?" Esther asked. "Sort of. But there was a complication." "T here's always a complication in invented stories," Grelich said. "But life isn't like that. Life is terribly simple." "I don't agree," Ritchie said, recognizing Grelich's propensity for climbing out on an unstable premise and inviting someone to knock him off. "I was writing a story about a similar situation—it's an old theme, you know—and all I found were complications. Christ, even my complications had complications." That got a mild laugh from Esther, and a chuckle from Solomon. Even Grelich gave a sour grunt of approval. "Boychick," said Grelich, "I didn't know you were a writer." "Well, scarcely a writer," Ritchie said. "But I have published a few things in a magazine. An online magazine, no pay, but they get some good names." "You're a writer?" Jakob the waiter asked. He had been listening to the conversation while serving the dishes. "Well, I do write," Ritchie said. His recent experiences with real professional writers, who posted messages and comments on his Message Board from time to time, had convinced him that his best policy was to make no public claims for himself, at least not until he had a few professional sales. "A writer," Jakob mused, drying his hands on his apron. "I'm in the publishing business myself." "You're a publisher?" Grelich asked. "No, I'm a translator. From the Rumanian. I have a Rumanian science-fiction writer I translate for." 43 | P a g e "You translate into English?" Grelich asked "Of course, English, what else? Urdu?" Ritchie said, "What is this writer's name?" He couldn't make it out even after several repetitions, so he decided to learn it later, and write it down, see if the name turned out to be of any importance. "Has he published?" Ritchie asked. "In English, no. In Rumanian, plenty. It 's only a matter of time before I sell him here." "You're his agent, too?" Ritchie asked. "I have that honor." Ritchie wanted to ask Leiber how good his agent contacts were, and whether he was taking on any new clients. But he couldn't find a way of slipping it into the conversation. He decided he'd come back to Ratstein's on his own some other time, go into the matter again, without Solomon and Esther, and, with a little luck, without Grelich. For a beginning writer it was always worthwhile checking out an agent, no matter what else he did. "Anyhow," Grelich said, "we're here to discuss this situation I've got, with this goy lodged in my head." No one had any ideas about it. They considered Ritchie's suggestion that they all return to his apartment. But Solomon was tired and had an appointment in the early evening; Grelich had had enough argument for the day, and Esther was looking forward to her late afternoon television. They all agreed to meet tomorrow evening, first at the East Broadway cafeteria, then, after Ritchie said he'd pick up the tab, at Ratstein's. Exhaustion ended the night for both Ritchie and Grelich. Ritchie had a long, dreamless sleep in his own bed. In the morning, after Ritchie made coffee, they agreed that it was time to go downtown to the MMT sales office and find out what had gone wrong. 44 | P a g e Grelich was feeling a little funny about this. His desire to kill himself had abated remarkably. In fact, his suicidal urge had vanished. Replacing it was an unexpected zest for life, the strongest he had ever known. It was difficult to account for this. Maybe the medical procedure, even though it had not killed him, had driven philosophical despair out of his head. These problems, which had recently driven him to suicide, seemed academic to him now, even puerile. Why kill yourself because you can't decide whether God exists or not? Ritchie for his part wanted to own his own headspace uncluttered with Grelich. But he liked Grelich's friends. Esther looked like she had been a classy lady. Solomon was interesting. Ritchie hadn't known there were any black Jews. He wanted to find out how this had come about. And there was Leiber, a possible agent contact. Of course, Leiber was not a friend of Grelich's, but Ritchie owed the meeting to his association—or amalgamation? —with Grelich. Ritchie also had a well-developed sense of fairness. It didn't seem right for him to bring about the death of the man whose presence had helped him meet Leiber, a man who, if he was a real agent, could change his life. Despite that, he hated the idea of Grelich being in his head with him. Was he maybe even snooping on Ritchie's memories? Grelich was acting correctly, however. He didn't stop them from going to the MMT office to find out about his aborted death, even though with his superior control of the body—after all, he was the original occupant—he could have prevented the move, could have made them both stay in the apartment all day, or walk in the park, or see a movie. Instead, they taxied down to 23rd Street. Grelich, with Ritchie aboard, entered the offices of MMT and told the receptionist that he wanted to see Sven Mayer, the president. They waited while the receptionist whispered into the phone. Ritchie was expecting they'd be told Mayer wasn't in, they would have to talk with some flunky who would tell them he knew nothing about this but would get back to him "as soon as possible." But no such thing happened. The receptionist told them that Mr. Mayer was in his office, expecting them—last on the left at the end of the corridor. 45 | P a g e Mayer was a short, stocky white-haired man. "Come in," he called when they knocked at the door. "Mr. Grelich! And Mr. Castleman is in there with you?" "I am," Ritchie said. "And I demand an explanation." "Of course you do," Mayer said. "Come in, have a seat. Coffee? Something stronger?" "Coffee, black, no cream," Grelich said. Mayer said a few words into the phone. "It's on its way. Gentlemen, I am so sorry... " "You didn't return our calls," Ritchie said. "I apologize. Miss Christiansen, our regular receptionist, left early when Nathan didn't show up at the lab. She didn't come in today. The one outside is a temp. When I reached Miss Christiansen today by phone, she claimed she didn't know anything about the situation." "Hah!" said Grelich. Mayer went on, "So far I have been unable to locate Nathan, the lab tech, the one who actually did your operation. Or botched it, I should say." "Nathan," Grelich said darkly. "He is the one we will have to talk to, the only one likely to have an explanation for how this sorry situation came to pass." "But where is this Nathan?" Ritchie asked. Mayer shrugged. "I phoned his boarding house, he wasn't there. I talked with his rabbi, whom he gave as his main reference when he applied for this job. His Rabbi, Zvi Cohen, said he hadn't spoken with Nathan in over a week. I went myself to the handball courts at 92nd and Riverside, at the rabbi's suggestion. None of the players had seen Nathan in several days." "Have you notified the police yet?" "I shall have to, if he doesn't show up very soon. I have no other way to trace him." Ritchie asked, "What about my own body? The Castleman body?" "I'm afraid it didn't survive the transfer," Mayer said. "As we expected. It has been disposed of according to your instructions." 46 | P a g e Hearing that his body was irrevocably gone gave Ritchie a pang of regret. It hadn't been a particularly nice body, but it had been his for a long time. And now he had no physical body. Except for Grelich's body, and Grelich didn't seem so keen on giving it up any longer. Back at his apartment, Ritchie decided it was time to find Nathan Cohen, the missing tech who was probably responsible for the whole megillah, a word that Grelich supplied him with. But before he could get started with that, he got a telephone call, which Grelich didn't prevent him from answering. "Ritchie Castleman here," he said. Mr. Castleman? I am Edward Simonson. Mr. Mayer has recently hired me to run the lab. I am a graduate of CCNY, fully accredited and certified. I worked for two years at the Zeitgeist Institute in Zurich. If you want—" Grelich said, "What is this?" "This is Mr. Grelich speaking now?" "Yes, it is. What do you want?" "I am authorized by Mr. Mayer to tell you that if you wish to return to the lab, we assure you that the operation and removal will be properly conducted at this time, and at no cost to you." "You'll make sure I die this time?" Grelich said. "Well... Yes, that was your original intention in coming to MMT, was it not?" "That was then and now is now." "Does that mean you've changed your mind?" "I'm thinking it through again," Grelich said. "Look, we're not interested right now. We have a few matters to sort out first. We'll get back to you." Grelich hung up. Ritchie was glad Grelich hadn't immediately accepted this offer to correct his bungled suicide. He didn't want to see Grelich die. But he wasn't too happy that he was going to have to continue sharing a body with a near stranger. Grelich said to Ritchie, "We need to find out what went wrong." 47 | P a g e "Of course," Ritchie said. The telephone rang again. This time Grelich picked it up. Mr. Castleman?" a female voice asked. "This is Grelich." "Mr. Grelich, this is Rachel Christiansen. I'm the regular receptionist at the MMT Company. I wanted to call and apologize for what I have done to you—not on purpose, I assure you—I never imagined—" "What did happen?" Ritchie broke in. "It's such a complicated story I really think we should meet—that is, if you have the time... " "I got the time!" Ritchie said. "Where? When?" "There's a sort of coffee shop near where I live. That's in The Bronx, or maybe it's upper Manhattan—I'm new in the city and I only know how to get to work and back." "What's the place called?" "The Brown something or other. Cow? Sheep? I'm not sure. I never go in there. It looks—shady." "Address?" "Let me see, I get on the subway at 167th Street and Jerome Avenue, and the Brown whatever it is is two blocks downtown from the entrance, that would be at 165th Street, on the east side of Jerome Avenue. Unless it's two blocks uptown—forgive me, I'm usually much more together than this—but recent events—" "I know," Ritchie said. "I understand. Look, we'll get a cab. Probably take half an hour to get to you in the Bronx. Is that OK?" "Certainly, Mr. Castleman. It's the least I owe you. Though I'm not sure the place is entirely savory—" "How bad can a coffee shop be?" Grelich broke in. "We'll be there." Grelich hung up the phone. "I was going to ask for her home address and telephone number," Ritchie said. 48 | P a g e "Don't complicate matters, she'll be there." The taxi ride was a trip in itself, and not without its own share of humor and pathos. But it doesn't bear on our story, so we skip it, mentioning only that they found the Brune Vache on 166th Street and Jerome Avenue, and left a Cuban taxi driver wondering why a well-dressed guy like Ritchie was going to a place that was known to serve the worst coffee in the five boroughs. Must be Mafia-related, the d river decided. Rachel Christiansen was inside, at a table near the door, a cup of tea in front of her. The place was dark, and nearly empty. Rachel was an over-weight, sweet-faced woman in her late twenties. Her face was framed in fluffy light brown hair. She stood up when Castleman walked in. "Mr. Castleman? I am Rachel Christiansen. I am so sorry for what happened. Believe me, I had no idea... " "What happened?" Ritchie asked. "Well, I can only guess. It might be something else entirely." "Just tell me what you think." "Well, as I said, I really don't know. But Nathan was very conflicted about the work he had been hired to do. Or would be doing. You were his first subject. But the very idea of taking a human life—even with the consent of the owner of that life—seemed to him sacrilegious." "So what was he doing in the job?" Ritchie asked. "Well, at the start he didn't really know it would involve taking a human life. I mean, he knew but I guess he blocked that part out. He needed the job so. He had just arrived here from San Antonio, Texas, to attend Rabbi Tomasi's Torah studies class. Rabbi Tomasi also came from San Antonio. I believe he knows Nathan's parents." "Was Nathan studying for the rabbinate?" Grelich asked. "I beg your pardon?" "Did he want to become a rabbi?" "I would prefer he answer that himself," Rachel said. "It is a little personal. And anyhow, I don't really know. I think he had been planning to, but was having second thoughts. He came to one of our meetings, you know, and asked our pastor some questions." 49 | P a g e "Meetings?" Grelich asked. "At the International Circle of Christian Friendship of Fort Wayne, Indiana, which has a branch here on 173rd Street." "What sort of questions did he ask?" Ritchie asked. "They had to do with the proper relations between God and man in our secular age. Obviously, our pastor didn't approve of murder." "Suicide is not exactly murder," Grelich said. "Murder of the self is still murder," Rachel said. "And it's still a sin, even if Mr. Nietzsche did approve of it." "How did Nietzsche get into this?" Grelich asked. "Nathan was always quoting him. And Camus." "Aha!" Grelich said. "He must have been quoting the Camus who says that whether or not to suicide is the only real question." "That must have been the one," Rachel said. "And he talked about an old Greek. Sissy-something?" "Sisyphus?" Grelich guessed. "This Nathan sounds like a man after my own heart," Grelich said. "Do you really think so, Mr. Castleman?" Rachel asked, her disapproving attitude evident. "This is Grelich speaking," Grelich said. "I'm here, too, due to your boyfriends' change of heart or failure of nerve or whatever it was." "This is so bewildering," Rachel said. "You're the one with the deeper voice?" "Yes, and the imaginary payes. Never mind. What else did Nathan talk about?" "I scarcely know... One time he talked about the moneychangers in the temple. I think he was referring to Mr. Mayer. Anyhow, he didn't approve." "Money changers have to earn a living, too," Grelich said. 50 | P a g e "Let's not get off the subject," Ritchie said. "Rachel, why do you think you're responsible?" "I encouraged Nathan to follow his conscience. I told him that was the truest voice of God within him. I think I had some influence over him. But believe me, I never dreamed he would take matters into his own hands—if that's what he did." "Do you know where we can find Nathan Cohen?" Ritchie asked. Rachel opened her purse and took out a slip of paper. "Here is his address, and his rabbi's address. That's all I know, all I can do for you. Oh, one thing more. Nathan is very fond of chess. He took me to a chess club once. I don't remember where it was. Midtown? Downtown? It was very nice." Nathan wasn't at the Marshall, but they found him at the Manhattan Chess Club on West 9th Street in Greenwich Village. The director pointed him out—he was the tall, skinny, pale, dark-haired young man hunched behind a Nimzoindian defense on board 1. The Hungarian grandmaster, Emil Bobul, was playing white. Bobul had dropped in for a casual game, but it had become a hard-fought contest. Nathan was bent over the board, one hand propping his jaw, the other hand touching the chess clock. After a while Nathan looked up, recognized Grelich, thought for a minute, pursed his lips, shook his head and leaned over and whispered something to Bobul. Bobul shook his head. Nathan murmured something else. Bobul shrugged. Nathan turned down his king, got up, and walked over to Grelich. "Mr. Grelich," he said, "I believe I owe you an explanation." "If you would be so kind," Grelich said. Over coffee in a nearby coffee shop, Nathan tried to explain why he had aborted the operation. "I knew I shouldn't do anything to screw this up," Nathan said, referring to the transfer operation. "Suicide and body-transfer are legal, you don't fool around with governmentsanctioned procedures. I transferred Mr. Castleman without moral difficulty. If Grelich wanted to share his body with Castleman, it was no skin off my nose. But when it came time to turn Grelich off—to shatter his electro-chemical connections—assign him to death—well, I hesitated. My hesitation turned into a long delay. And finally I just walked out of there. I reminded myself that I took this job to turn the dials and press the buttons. But now it was getting too personal. They want me to play executioner. Consciously, that is. That was too much. I got out of there." 51 | P a g e It was after eleven at night when Grelich and Ritchie got back to Ritchie's apartment. They stopped for dinner first at an Irish bar nearby. Despite Grelich's vegetarianism, he made no objection when Ritchie ordered a corned beef sandwich, home fries, a small green salad, and a pint of Killian's Red. "I hope you don't object to this," Ritchie said, gesturing with his sandwich. "Why should I object? I sold you my body. If you want to fill it with treif junk food, that's your business." "Another beer?" "Suit yourself." Ritchie didn't order another. He was afraid he'd be going to the bathroom all right. He had been wondering about how the night would go. Last night had been easy, he'd been exhausted. But tonight? It was like the first time. He felt uncomfortable, having to sleep with Grelich, even though there was just one body involved. Would he be able to sleep at all? Last night he had been exhausted and in shock. But tonight? He hoped the body would sleep when it was ready. But whose body was it? Did this body even know which mind it belonged to? Had the body itself—neither Castleman nor Grelich, but a representative of the body only—had this body witnessed the change of title? At the apartment, Grelich took a shower, then found a set of Ritchie's pajamas, and undressed and put them on. Without discussing it with Ritchie, he lay down on the bed, turned off the bedside lamp, tucked his arm under the pillow, and fell asleep. Ritchie lay there, uncomfortable, wide-awake, watching lights and shadows cross the ceiling from cars in the street far below. He tried to resign himself to a sleepless night. He watched the play of light and shadow across the ceiling—a weaving, hypnotic pattern. He felt miserable that he didn't have a body of his own, so that he could get up, fix himself a sandwich, watch some television, or play a game on his computer. Instead, with Grelich in control of the body, he had to lie here maybe all night watching the lights on the ceiling. He couldn't even get up and fix himself a drink. He'd have to talk to Grelich about that, if this situation went on much longer. Which he fervently hoped it would not... How could he sleep in an unfamiliar body, sharing his headspace with a man he scarcely knew? Given the circumstances, anyone would have insomnia. So thinking, he fell asleep. He began to dream. In his dream he was walking down a long dark corridor toward a closed door with light coming from under it. 52 | P a g e The door swung open. Ritchie walked in. He was in a small, dark room. The ceiling slanted down. It seemed to be an attic room. In front of him was a plain wooden table. On it was a lighted candle in a pewter holder. Behind the table, at the end of the room, he could see a tall window. It had no shade or curtain, and through the glass Ritchie could see the darkness of a city night, a darker shade than the darkness in the room. Now he made out the middle distance. There were two men seated behind the table facing him. The one to his right, near the end of the table, wore dark, shapeless clothes, and had a yarmulke on his head. He was old, with a skinny, stubbly face. He had wire spectacles pushed up on his forehead. There was a parchment on the table in front of him, and he had a steel-nibbed pen in his right hand. The other man was also old, but he was large and hearty looking. He wore dark clothes, a black beaver hat, and black horn-rimmed glasses. He had a sort of shawl thrown over his shoulders. He had a white beard that came down to his mid-chest. He looked up when Ritchie entered the room. "So come in. It's time, already. Did you bring the katubah?" The skinny man said, "I have it, rabbi." Turning to Ritchie, he said, "I am the scribe. It's customary for the plaintiff to bring his own writing instruments and parchment. But in this modern age of ours, who's got? So I make you a gift of my pen and parchment. Maybe you'll be good enough to loan them to me so I can make out the document?" "Yeah, sure, OK," Ritchie said, not sure what was going on. The rabbi said, "You're not Jewish yourself, are you, Mr. Castleman?" "No, I'm not," Ritchie said. The rabbi didn't give him any particular look, but Ritchie felt it was somehow not OK for him not to be Jewish. He restrained himself from apologizing. "Let's get on with the ceremony," the rabbi said. He coughed and cleared his throat. "It has been brought to my attention that you wish to be separated from Moses Grelich, your mind mate. If this is so, please state it." "You got it," Ritchie said. "I wish to be separated from Moses Grelich." The rabbi picked up a little memorandum pad, opened it and indicated that Ritchie should repeat after him. "Moses Grelich sold me his body, to be my exclusive possession. A medical ceremony was made, but I didn't get the unencumbered body. When I got in, Grelich was still there. Despite this breach in the arrangement, I let him reside in the body with me while he made other arrangements. It is now time for him to vacate." 53 | P a g e After Ritchie had finished saying the words, he could hear the dry scratching of the scribe's pen on the parchment. "Therefore," the rabbi said, "I, Rabbi Schmuel Shakovsky, empowered by the civil law of this state and by my congregation, do demand that you, Moses Grelich, tell us you are here." "I'm here, rabbi," Grelich said. "But you know I've never been a believer. I don't even believe in God." "You are not bound by God. You are bound by tradition." "I accept that, rabbi. I'm here, aren't I?" "On my command you will vacate your body, which, by your own assertion and willful act, is no longer yours." "I was in a weird mood when I made the agreement," Grelich said. "Life had been a disappointment. But this half-life isn't exactly paradise, either." Rabbi Shakovsky said, "I will now sign my name to this document. When the last stroke of my name has been written, you will vanish, Moses Grelich, and go wherever you are to go to next." The scribe handed the rabbi the pen and pushed the parchment toward him. The rabbi began, very slowly, to sign his name. And Ritchie began to think. He was remembering that he hadn't had a chance yet to question Grelich about Nietzsche or Camus. They both sounded important. There was Jakob, the waiter-translator-agent. Ritchie knew that on his own, without Grelich he'd never go back to Ratstein's. He'd convince himself that the agent thing was nonsense, how could a broken-down old Rumanian waiter in a Jewish restaurant do anything for him in the American market? And he'd probably never see Solomon again. Or if he did, what could he say to him? He wanted to ask Solomon about his life, but Solomon wasn't likely to talk about the good old days back in Addis Ababa and how black people became Jews when he knew Ritchie was responsible for his friend Grelich's death. Grelich, of course, had no one to blame but himself. He had set himself on the path of death all by himself. But was it the act of a friend to go along with it and help him out when the suicide didn't go right in the first place? Was it even the act of a compassionate stranger to help Grelich complete what he had begun, probably not in his right mind? Ritchie thought about his own small and non-interacting family. His mother was dead. His father had passed away a few years ago in an expensive rest home in Arizona. His younger sister was studying Library Sciences at Vassar. He never saw her, they didn't correspond. 54 | P a g e This new family, which had sprung up around Grelich and included him, was a strange and exciting experience. He'd have to give up all that once he got rid of Grelich. It was suddenly in Ritchie's mind to call off this ceremony, cancel the execution. There was enough room in his head for Grelich and himself! The rabbi finished his signature and looked at him with his eyebrows raised. "Nu?" the rabbi said. The rabbi made a gesture. The flame of the candle flared, and died out. Ritchie sat up in bed. Wow, what a dream. He looked around. He touched his face—the new familiar face of Moise Grelich. Ritchie said, "Grelich, are you there?" No answer. "Grelich! Come out! Don't sulk. Let's talk." Still nothing from Grelich. "Oh, Grelich," Ritchie said, his heart breaking, "where are you? Tell me you're still here!" "So nu, where else would I be?" Grelich's familiar voice said in his head. "Christ, you had me scared. I had this dream. I dreamed a rabbi was divorcing us." "Are we husband and wife that a rabbi should divorce us?" "No, but we're pretty close. Roommates. Mindmates. In some ways, closer than husband and wife." "What a line of gab you've got." "It's not gab! I want you here. I want you to call Solomon and Esther and have them meet us at Ratstein's this evening." "Consider it done. You want to talk to that Rumanian agent again? Ritchie have you no common sense?" "If I think he's too much of a shyster," Ritchie said, "I won't ask him to represent me. But maybe he's an honest schlemiel. We'll see." 55 | P a g e "I got some stories you could write," Grelich said. "I'll be pleased to hear them." "That's for tomorrow," Grelich said. "For tonight, what do you say we get some more sleep?" Ritchie grunted his assent. Again, Grelich fell asleep almost at once. Ritchie lay on the bed and watched the lights and shadows on the ceiling. At last he fell into a slumber. His last thought was, more than likely there would be a tomorrow for him as well as for Grelich. 56 | P a g e Excerpts from A Walk In The Woods: Rediscovering America on the Appalachian Trail by Bill Bryson 1. Distance changes utterly when you take the world on foot. A mile becomes a long way, two miles literally considerable, ten miles whopping, fifty miles at the very limits of conception. The world, you realize, is enormous in a way that only you and a small community of fellow hikers know. Planetary scale is your little secret. Life takes on a neat simplicity, too. Time ceases to have any meaning. When it is dark, you go to bed, and when it is light again you get up, and everything in between is just in between. It's quite wonderful, really. You have no engagements, commitments, obligations, or duties; no special ambitions and only the smallest, least complicated of wants; you exist in a tranquil tedium, serenely beyond the reach of exasperation, "far removed from the seats of strike," as the early explorer and botanist William Bartram put it. All that is required of you is a willingness to trudge. There is no point in hurrying because you are not actually going anywhere. However far or long you plod, you are always in the same place: in the woods. It's where you were yesterday, where you will be tomorrow. The woods is one boundless singularity. Every bend in the path presents a prospect indistinguishable from every other, every glimpse into the trees the same tangled mass. For all you know, your route could describe a very large, pointless circle. In a way, it would hardly matter. At times, you become almost certain that you slabbed this hillside three days ago, crossed this stream yesterday, clambered over this fallen tree at least twice today already. But most of the time you don't think. No point. Instead, you exist in a kind of mobile Zen mode, your brain like a balloon tethered to a string, accompanying but not actually part of the body below. Walking for hours and miles becomes as automatic, as unremarkable, as breathing. At the end of the day you don't think, "Hey, I did sixteen miles today," any more than you think, "Hey, I took eight-thousand breaths today." It's just what you do. 57 | P a g e 2. As this excerpt begins, Bryson and his intrepid hiking companion, Katz, are just returning to the trail from a brief foray to the Virginia town of Waynesboro (where Katz has managed to proposition a local woman and enrage her husband. ------------------------------------ The cab dropped us at Rockfish Gap, southern gateway to Shenandoah National Park, our last long stretch of hiking before we ended part one of our big adventure. We had allotted six and a half weeks for this initial foray and now it was nearly over. I was ready for a vacation -- we both were, goodness knows -- and I longed to see my family, beyond my power to convey. Even so, I was looking forward to what I hoped would be a climactic amble. Shenandoah National Park -- 101 miles from top to bottom -- is famously beautiful, and I was eager to see it at last. We had, after all, walked a long way to get here. At Rockfish Gap there is a tollbooth manned by rangers where motorists have to pay an entrance fee and thru-hikers have to acquire a backcountry hiking permit. The permit doesn't cost anything (one of the noblest traditions of the Appalachian Trail is that every inch of it is free) but you have to complete a lengthy form giving your personal details, your itinerary through the park, and where you plan to camp each night, which is a little ridiculous because you haven't seen the terrain and don't know what kind of mileage you might achieve. Appended to the form were the usual copious regulations and warnings of severe fines and immediate banishment for doing, well, pretty much anything. I filled out the form the best I could and handed it in at the window to a lady ranger. "So you're hiking the trail?" she said brightly, if not terribly astutely, accepted the form without looking at it, banged it severely with rubber stamps, and tore off the part that would serve as our license to walk on land that, in theory, we owned anyway. "Well, we're trying," I said. "I must get up there myself one of these days. I hear it's real nice." This took me aback. "You've never been on the trail?" But you're a ranger, I wanted to say. "No, afraid not," she answered wistfully. "Lived here all my life, but haven't got to it yet. One day I will." Katz, mindful of Beulah's husband, was practically dragging me towards the safety of the woods, but I was curious. "How long have you been a ranger?" I called back. "Twelve years in August," she said proudly. 58 | P a g e "You ought to give it a try sometime. It's real nice." "Might get some of that flab off your butt," Katz muttered privately, and stepped into the woods. I looked at him with interest and surprise -- it wasn't like Katz to be so uncharitable -- and put it down to lack of sleep, profound sexual frustration, and a surfeit of Hardees sausage biscuits. Shenandoah National Park is a park with problems. More even than the Smokies, it suffers from a chronic shortage (though a cynic might say a chronic misapplication) of funds. Several miles of side trails have been closed, and others are deteriorating. If it weren't that volunteers from the Potomac Appalachian Trail Club maintain 80 percent of the park's trails, including the whole of the AT through the park, the situation would be much worse. Mathews Arm Campground, one of the park's main recreational areas, was closed for lack of funds in 1993 and hasn't been open since. Several other recreation areas are closed for most of the year. For a time in the 1980s, even the trail shelters (or huts, as they are known here) were shut. I don't know how they did it -- I mean to say, how exactly do you close a wooden structure with a fifteen-foot-wide opening at the front? -and still less why, since forbidding hikers from resting for a few hours on a wooden sleeping platform is hardly going to transform the park's finances. But then making things difficult for hikers is something of a tradition in the eastern parks. A couple of months earlier, all the national parks, along with all other nonessential government departments, had been closed for a couple of weeks during a budget impasse between President Clinton and Congress. Yet Shenandoah, despite its perennial want of money, found the funds to post a warden at each AT access point to turn back all thru-hikers. In consequence, a couple of dozen harmless people had to make lengthy, pointless detours by road before they could resume their long hike. This vigilance couldn't have cost the Park Service less than $20,000, or the better part of $1,000 for each dangerous thru-hiker deflected. On top of its self-generated shortcomings, Shenandoah has a lot of problems arising from factors largely beyond its control. Overcrowding is one. Although the park is over a hundred miles long, it is almost nowhere more than a mile or two wide, so all its two million annual visitors are crowded into a singularly narrow corridor along the ridgeline. Campgrounds, visitor centers, parking lots, picnic sites, the AT and Skyline Drive (the scenic road that runs down the spine of the park) all exist cheek by jowl. One of the most popular (non-AT) hiking routes in the park, up Old Rag Mountain, has become so much in demand that on summer weekends people sometimes have to queue to get on it. Then there is the vexed matter of pollution. Thirty years ago it was still possible on especially clear days to see the Washington Monument, seventy-five miles away. Now, on hot, smoggy summer days, visibility can be as little as two miles and never more than thirty. Acid rain in the streams has nearly wiped out the park's trout. Gypsy moths arrived in 1983 and have since ravaged considerable acreages of oaks and hickories. The Southern pine beetle has done similar work on conifers, and the locust leaf miner has inflicted disfiguring (but mercifully usually nonfatal) damage on thousands of locust trees. In just seven years, the woolly adelgid has fatally damaged more than 90 percent of 59 | P a g e the park's hemlocks. Nearly all the rest will be dying by the time you read this. An untreatable fungal disease called anthracnose is wiping out the lovely dogwoods not just here but everywhere in America. Before long, the dogwood, like the American chestnut and American elm, will effectively cease to exist. It would be hard, in short, to conceive a more stressed environment. And yet here's the thing. Shenandoah National Park is lovely. It is possibly the most wonderful national park I have ever been in, and, considering the impossible and conflicting demands put on it, it is extremely well run. Almost at once it became my favorite part of the Appalachian Trail. We hiked through deep-seeming woods, along gloriously untaxing terrain, climbing a gentle 500 feet in four miles. In the Smokies, you can climb 500 feet in, well, about 500 feet. This was more like it. The weather was kindly, and there was a real sense of spring being on the turn. And there was life everywhere -- zumming insects, squirrels scampering along boughs, birds twittering and hopping about, spider webs gleaming silver in the sun. Twice I flushed grouse, always a terrifying experience: an instantaneous explosion from the undergrowth at your feet, like balled socks fired from a gun, followed by drifting feathers and a lingering residue of fussy, bitching noise. I saw an owl, which watched me imperturbably from a nearby stout limb, and loads of deer, which raised their heads to stare but otherwise seemed fearless and casually returned to their browsing when I had passed. Sixty years ago, there were no deer in this neck of the Blue Ridge Mountains. They had been hunted out of existence. Then, after the park was created in 1936, thirteen white-tailed deer were introduced, and, with no one to hunt them and few predators, they thrived. Today there are 5,000 deer in the park, all descended from those original thirteen or others that migrated from nearby. Surprisingly, considering its modest dimensions and how little room there is for real backcountry, the park is remarkably rich in wildlife. Bobcats, bears, red and gray foxes, beaver, skunks, raccoons, flying squirrels, and our friends the salamanders exist in admirable numbers, though you don't often see them, as most are nocturnal or wary of people. Shenandoah is said to have the highest density of black bears anywhere in the world -- slightly over one per square mile. There have even been reported sightings (including by park rangers, who perhaps ought to know better) of mountain lions, even though mountain lions haven't been confirmed in the eastern woods for almost seventy years. There is the tiniest chance that they may exist in pockets in the northern woods (we shall get to that in due course, and I think you'll be glad you waited) but not in an area as small and hemmed in as Shenandoah National Park. We didn't see anything terribly exotic, or even remotely exotic, but it was nice just to see squirrels and deer, to feel that the forest was lived in. Late in the afternoon, I rounded a bend to find a wild turkey and her chicks crossing the trail ahead of me. The mother was regal and unflappable; her chicks were much too busy falling over and getting up again even to notice me. This was the way the woods were supposed to be. I couldn't have been more delighted. 60 | P a g e We hiked till five and camped beside a tranquil spring in a small, grassy clearing in the trees just off the trail. Because it was our first day back on the trail, we were flush for food, including perishables like cheese and bread that had to be eaten before they went off or were shaken to bits in our packs, so we rather gorged ourselves, then sat around smoking and chatting idly until persistent and numerous midgelike creatures (no-seeums, as they are universally known along the trail) drove us into our tents. It was perfect sleeping weather, cool enough to need a bag but warm enough that you could sleep in your underwear, and I was looking forward to a long night's snooze -- indeed was enjoying a long night's snooze -- when, at some indeterminate dark hour, there was a sound nearby that made my eyes fly open. Normally, I slept through everything -through thunderstorms, through Katz's snoring and noisy midnight pees -- so something big enough or distinctive enough to wake me was unusual. There was a sound of undergrowth being disturbed -- a click of breaking branches, a weighty pushing through low foliage -- and then a kind of large, vaguely irritable snuffling noise. Bear! I sat bolt upright. Instantly every neuron in my brain was awake and dashing around frantically, like ants when you disturb their nest. I reached instinctively for my knife, then realized I had left it in my pack, just outside the tent. Nocturnal defense had ceased to be a concern after many successive nights of tranquil woodland repose. There was another noise, quite near. "Stephen, you awake?" I whispered. "Yup," he replied in a weary but normal voice. "What was that?" "How the hell should I know." "It sounded big." "Everything sounds big in the woods." This was true. Once a skunk had come plodding through our camp and it had sounded like a stegosaurus. There was another heavy rustle and then the sound of lapping at the spring. It was having a drink, whatever it was. I shuffled on my knees to the foot of the tent, cautiously unzipped the mesh and peered out, but it was pitch black. As quietly as I could, I brought in my backpack and with the light of a small flashlight searched through it for my knife. When I found it and opened the blade I was appalled at how wimpy it looked. It was a perfectly respectable appliance for, say, buttering pancakes, but patently inadequate for defending oneself against 400 pounds of ravenous fur. 61 | P a g e Carefully, very carefully, I climbed from the tent and put on the flashlight, which cast a distressingly feeble beam. Something about fifteen or twenty feet away looked up at me. I couldn't see anything at all of its shape or size -- only two shining eyes. It went silent, whatever it was, and stared back at me. "Stephen," I whispered at his tent, "did you pack a knife?" "No." "Have you got anything sharp at all?" He thought for a moment. "Nail clippers." I made a despairing face. "Anything a little more vicious than that? Because, you see, there is definitely something out here." "It's probably just a skunk." "Then it's one big skunk. Its eyes are three feet off the ground." "A deer then." I nervously threw a stick at the animal, and it didn't move, whatever it was. A deer would have bolted. This thing just blinked once and kept staring. I reported this to Katz. "Probably a buck. They're not so timid. Try shouting at it." I cautiously shouted at it: "Hey! You there! Scat!" The creature blinked again, singularly unmoved. "You shout," I said. "Oh, you brute, go away, do!" Katz shouted in merciless imitation. "Please withdraw at once, you horrid creature." "Fuck you," I said and lugged my tent right over to his. I didn't know what this would achieve exactly, but it brought me a tiny measure of comfort to be nearer to him. "What are you doing?" "I'm moving my tent." "Oh, good plan. That'll really confuse it." I peered and peered, but I couldn't see anything but those two wide-set eyes staring from the near distance like eyes in a cartoon. I couldn't decide whether I wanted to be outside 62 | P a g e and dead or inside and waiting to be dead. I was barefoot and in my underwear and shivering. What I really wanted -- really, really wanted -- was for the animal to withdraw. I picked up a small stone and tossed it at it. I think it may have hit it because the animal made a sudden noisy start (which scared the bejesus out of me and brought a whimper to my lips) and then emitted a noise -- not quite a growl, but near enough. It occurred to me that perhaps I oughtn't provoke it. "What are you doing, Bryson? Just leave it alone and it will go away." "How can you be so calm?" "What do you want me to do? You're hysterical enough for both of us." "I think I have a right to be a trifle alarmed, pardon me. I'm in the woods, in the middle of nowhere, in the dark, staring at a bear, with a guy who has nothing to defend himself with but a pair of nail clippers. Let me ask you this. If it is a bear and it comes for you, what are you going to do -- give it a pedicure?" "I'll cross that bridge when I come to it," Katz said implacably. "What do you mean you'll cross that bridge? We're on the bridge, you moron. There's a bear out here, for Christ sake. He's looking at us. He smells noodles and Snickers and -oh, shit." "What?" "Oh. Shit." "What? " "There's two of them. I can see another pair of eyes." Just then, the flashlight battery started to go. The light flickered and then vanished. I scampered into my tent, stabbing myself lightly but hysterically in the thigh as I went, and began a quietly frantic search for spare batteries. If I were a bear, this would be the moment I would choose to lunge. "Well, I'm going to sleep," Katz announced. "What are you talking about? You can't go to sleep." "Sure I can. I've done it lots of times." There was the sound of him rolling over and a series of snuffling noises, not unlike those of the creature outside. "Stephen, you can't go to sleep," I ordered. But he could and he did, with amazing rapidity. 63 | P a g e The creature -- creatures, now -- resumed drinking, with heavy lapping noises. I couldn't find any replacement batteries, so I flung the flashlight aside and put my miner's lamp on my head, made sure it worked, then switched it off to conserve the batteries. Then I sat for ages on my knees, facing the front of the tent, listening keenly, gripping my walking stick like a club, ready to beat back an attack, with my knife open and at hand as a last line of defense. The bears -- animals, whatever they were -- drank for perhaps twenty minutes more, then quietly departed the way they had come. It was a joyous moment, but I knew from my reading that they would be likely to return. I listened and listened, but the forest returned to silence and stayed there. Eventually I loosened my grip on the walking stick and put on a sweater -- pausing twice to examine the tiniest noises, dreading the sound of a revisit -- and after a very long time got back into my sleeping bag for warmth. I lay there for a long time staring at total blackness and knew that never again would I sleep in the woods with a light heart. And then, irresistibly and by degrees, I fell asleep. 64 | P a g e Errol Morris is a documentary film-maker and writer whose films include The Thin Blue Line, The Fog of War and Fast, Cheap, and Out of Control. His work is remarkable for its commitment to illuminating the truth of his subjects’ experience without the heavy-handed interposition typical of many documentarians. The Anosognosic’s Dilemma: Something’s Wrong but You’ll Never Know What It Is By Errol Morris Existence is elsewhere. — André Breton, “The Surrealist Manifesto” 1. The Juice David Dunning, a Cornell professor of social psychology, was perusing the 1996 World Almanac. In a section called Offbeat News Stories he found a tantalizingly brief account of a series of bank robberies committed in Pittsburgh the previous year. From there, it was an easy matter to track the case to the Pittsburgh Post-Gazette, specifically to an article by Michael A. Fuoco: ARREST IN BANK ROBBERY, SUSPECT’S TV PICTURE SPURS TIPS At 5 feet 6 inches and about 270 pounds, bank robbery suspect McArthur Wheeler isn’t the type of person who fades into the woodwork. So it was no surprise that he was recognized by informants, who tipped detectives to his whereabouts after his picture was telecast Wednesday night during the Pittsburgh Crime Stoppers Inc. segment of the 11 o’clock news. At 12:10 a.m. yesterday, less than an hour after the broadcast, he was arrested at 202 S. Fairmont St., Lincoln-Lemington. Wheeler, 45, of Versailles Street, McKeesport, was wanted in [connection with] bank robberies on Jan. 6 at the Fidelity Savings Bank in Brighton Heights and at the Mellon Bank in Swissvale. In both robberies, police said, Wheeler was accompanied by Clifton Earl Johnson, 43, who was arrested Jan. 12.[1] Wheeler had walked into two Pittsburgh banks and attempted to rob them in broad daylight. What made the case peculiar is that he made no visible attempt at disguise. The surveillance tapes were key to his arrest. There he is with a gun, standing in front of a teller demanding money. Yet, when arrested, Wheeler was completely disbelieving. 65 | P a g e “But I wore the juice,” he said. Apparently, he was under the deeply misguided impression that rubbing one’s face with lemon juice rendered it invisible to video cameras. In a follow-up article, Fuoco spoke to several Pittsburgh police detectives who had been involved in Wheeler’s arrest. Commander Ronald Freeman assured Fuoco that Wheeler had not gone into “this thing” blindly but had performed a variety of tests prior to the robbery. Sergeant Wally Long provided additional details — “although Wheeler reported the lemon juice was burning his face and his eyes, and he was having trouble (seeing) and had to squint, he had tested the theory, and it seemed to work.” He had snapped a Polaroid picture of himself and wasn’t anywhere to be found in the image. It was like a version of Where’s Waldo with no Waldo. Long tried to come up with an explanation of why there was no image on the Polaroid. He came up with three possibilities: (a) the film was bad; (b) Wheeler hadn’t adjusted the camera correctly; or (c) Wheeler had pointed the camera away from his face at the critical moment when he snapped the photo.[2] As Dunning read through the article, a thought washed over him, an epiphany. If Wheeler was too stupid to be a bank robber, perhaps he was also too stupid to know that he was too stupid to be a bank robber — that is, his stupidity protected him from an awareness of his own stupidity. Dunning wondered whether it was possible to measure one’s self-assessed level of competence against something a little more objective — say, actual competence. Within weeks, he and his graduate student, Justin Kruger, had organized a program of research. Their paper, “Unskilled and Unaware of It: How Difficulties of Recognizing One’s Own Incompetence Lead to Inflated Self-assessments,” was published in 1999.[3] Dunning and Kruger argued in their paper, “When people are incompetent in the strategies they adopt to achieve success and satisfaction, they suffer a dual burden: Not only do they reach erroneous conclusions and make unfortunate choices, but their incompetence robs them of the ability to realize it. Instead, like Mr. Wheeler, they are left with the erroneous impression they are doing just fine.” It became known as the Dunning-Kruger Effect — our incompetence masks our ability to recognize our incompetence. But just how prevalent is this effect? In search of more details, I called David Dunning at his offices at Cornell: DAVID DUNNING: Well, my specialty is decision-making. How well do people make the decisions they have to make in life? And I became very interested in judgments about the self, simply because, well, people tend to say things, whether it be in everyday life or in the lab, that just couldn’t possibly be true. And I became fascinated with that. Not just 66 | P a g e that people said these positive things about themselves, but they really, really believed them. Which led to my observation: if you’re incompetent, you can’t know you’re incompetent. ERROL MORRIS: Why not? DAVID DUNNING: If you knew it, you’d say, “Wait a minute. The decision I just made does not make much sense. I had better go and get some independent advice.” But when you’re incompetent, the skills you need to produce a right answer are exactly the skills you need to recognize what a right answer is. In logical reasoning, in parenting, in management, problem solving, the skills you use to produce the right answer are exactly the same skills you use to evaluate the answer. And so we went on to see if this could possibly be true in many other areas. And to our astonishment, it was very, very true. ERROL MORRIS: Many other areas? DAVID DUNNING: If you look at our 1999 article, we measured skills where we had the right answers. Grammar, logic. And our test-subjects were all college students doing college student-type things. Presumably, they also should know whether or not they’re getting the right answers. And yet, we had these students who were doing badly in grammar, who didn’t know they were doing badly in grammar. We believed that they should know they were doing badly, and when they didn’t, that really surprised us. ERROL MORRIS: The students that were unaware they were doing badly — in what sense? Were they truly oblivious? Were they self-deceived? Were they in denial? How would you describe it? DAVID DUNNING: There have been many psychological studies that tell us what we see and what we hear is shaped by our preferences, our wishes, our fears, our desires and so forth. We literally see the world the way we want to see it. But the Dunning-Kruger effect suggests that there is a problem beyond that. Even if you are just the most honest, impartial person that you could be, you would still have a problem — namely, when your knowledge or expertise is imperfect, you really don’t know it. Left to your own devices, you just don’t know it. We’re not very good at knowing what we don’t know. ERROL MORRIS: Knowing what you don’t know? Is this supposedly the hallmark of an intelligent person? DAVID DUNNING: That’s absolutely right. It’s knowing that there are things you don’t know that you don’t know. [4] Donald Rumsfeld gave this speech about “unknown unknowns.” It goes something like this: “There are things we know we know about terrorism. There are things we know we don’t know. And there are things that are unknown unknowns. We don’t know that we don’t know.” He got a lot of grief for that. And I thought, “That’s the smartest and most modest thing I’ve heard in a year.” 67 | P a g e Rumsfeld’s famous “unknown unknowns” quote occurred in a Q&A session at the end of a NATO press conference.[5] A reporter asked him, “Regarding terrorism and weapons of mass destruction, you said something to the effect that the real situation is worse than the facts show…” Rumsfeld replied, “Sure. All of us in this business read intelligence information. And we read it daily and we think about it, and it becomes in our minds essentially what exists. And that’s wrong. It is not what exists.” But what is Rumsfeld saying here? That he can be wrong? That “intelligence information” is not complete? That it has to be viewed critically? Who would argue? Rumsfeld’s “known unknowns” and “unknown unknowns” seem even less auspicious. Of course, there are known unknowns. I don’t know the melting point of beryllium. And I know that I don’t know it. There are a zillion things I don’t know. And I know that I don’t know them. But what about the unknown unknowns? Are they like a scotoma, a blind spot in our field of vision that we are unaware of? I kept wondering if Rumsfeld’s real problem was with the unknown unknowns; or was it instead some variant of self-deception, thinking that you know something that you don’t know. A problem of hubris, not epistemology. [6] And yet there was something in Rumsfeld’s unknown unknowns that had captured Dunning’s imagination. I wanted to know more, and so I e-mailed him: why are you so obsessed with Rumsfeld’s “unknown unknowns?” Here is his answer: The notion of unknown unknowns really does resonate with me, and perhaps the idea would resonate with other people if they knew that it originally came from the world of design and engineering rather than Rumsfeld. If I were given carte blanche to write about any topic I could, it would be about how much our ignorance, in general, shapes our lives in ways we do not know about. Put simply, people tend to do what they know and fail to do that which they have no conception of. In that way, ignorance profoundly channels the course we take in life. And unknown unknowns constitute a grand swath of everybody’s field of ignorance. To me, unknown unknowns enter at two different levels. The first is at the level of risk and problem. Many tasks in life contain uncertainties that are known — socalled “known unknowns.” These are potential problems for any venture, but they at least are problems that people can be vigilant about, prepare for, take insurance on, and often head off at the pass. Unknown unknown risks, on the other hand, are problems that people do not know they are vulnerable to. Unknown unknowns also exist at the level of solutions. People often come up with answers to problems that are o.k., but are not the best solutions. The reason they don’t come up with those solutions is that they are simply not aware of them. Stefan Fatsis, in his book “Word Freak,” talks about this when comparing everyday Scrabble players to professional ones. As he says: “In a way, the livingroom player is lucky . . . He has no idea how miserably he fails with almost every 68 | P a g e turn, how many possible words or optimal plays slip by unnoticed. The idea of Scrabble greatness doesn’t exist for him.” (p. 128) Unknown unknown solutions haunt the mediocre without their knowledge. The average detective does not realize the clues he or she neglects. The mediocre doctor is not aware of the diagnostic possibilities or treatments never considered. The run-of-the-mill lawyer fails to recognize the winning legal argument that is out there. People fail to reach their potential as professionals, lovers, parents and people simply because they are not aware of the possible. This is one of the reasons I often urge my student advisees to find out who the smart professors are, and to get themselves in front of those professors so they can see what smart looks like. So, yes, the idea resonates. I would write more, and there’s probably a lot more to write about, but I haven’t a clue what that all is. I can readily admit that the “everyday Scrabble player” has no idea how incompetent he is, but I don’t think that Scrabble provides an example of the unknown unknowns. An unknown unknown is not something like the word “ctenoid,” a difficult word by most accounts, or any other obscure, difficult word.[7] [8] Surely, the everyday Scrabble player knows that there are words he doesn’t know. Rumsfeld could have known about the gaps in his intelligence information. How are his unknown unknowns different from plain-old-vanilla unknowns? The fact that we don’t know something, or don’t bother to ask questions in an attempt to understand things better, does that constitute anything more than laziness on our part? A symptom of an underlying complacency rather than a confrontation with an unfathomable mystery? I found myself still puzzled by the unknown unknowns. Finally, I came up with an explanation. Using the expressions “known unknowns” and “unknown unknowns” is just a fancy — even pretentious — way of talking about questions and answers. A “known unknown” is a known question with an unknown answer. I can ask the question: what is the melting point of beryllium? I may not know the answer, but I can look it up. I can do some research. It may even be a question which no one knows the answer to. With an “unknown unknown,” I don’t even know what questions to ask, let alone how to answer those questions. But there is the deeper question. And I believe that Dunning and Kruger’s work speaks to this. Is an “unknown unknown” beyond anything I can imagine? Or am I confusing the “unknown unknowns” with the “unknowable unknowns?” Are we constituted in such a way that there are things we cannot know? Perhaps because we cannot even frame the questions we need to ask? DAVID DUNNING: People will often make the case, “We can’t be that stupid, or we would have been evolutionarily wiped out as a species a long time ago.” I don’t agree. I find myself saying, “Well, no. Gee, all you need to do is be far enough along to be able 69 | P a g e to get three square meals or to solve the calorie problem long enough so that you can reproduce. And then, that’s it. You don’t need a lot of smarts. You don’t have to do tensor calculus. You don’t have to do quantum physics to be able to survive to the point where you can reproduce.” One could argue that evolution suggests we’re not idiots, but I would say, “Well, no. Evolution just makes sure we’re not blithering idiots. But, we could be idiots in a lot of different ways and still make it through the day.” ERROL MORRIS: Years ago, I made a short film (“I Dismember Mama”) about cryonics, the freezing of people for future resuscitation. [9] DAVID DUNNING: Oh, wow. ERROL MORRIS: And I have an interview with the president of the Alcor Life Extension Foundation, a cryonics organization, on the 6 o’clock news in Riverside, California. One of the executives of the company had frozen his mother’s head for future resuscitation. (It’s called a “neuro,” as opposed to a “full-body” freezing.) The prosecutor claimed that they may not have waited for her to die. In answer to a reporter’s question, the president of the Alcor Life Extension Foundation said, “You know, we’re not stupid . . . ” And then corrected himself almost immediately, “We’re not that stupid that we would do something like that.” DAVID DUNNING: That’s pretty good. ERROL MORRIS: “Yes. We’re stupid, but we’re not that stupid.” DAVID DUNNING: And in some sense we apply that to the human race. There’s some comfort in that. We may be stupid, but we’re not that stupid. ERROL MORRIS: Something I have wondered about: Is there a socio-biological account of what forces in evolution selected for stupidity and why? DAVID DUNNING: Well, there’s no way we could be evolutionarily prepared for doing physics and doing our taxes at the end of the year. These are rather new in our evolutionary history. But solving social problems, getting along with other people, is something intrinsic to our survival as a species. You’d think we would know where our inabilities lie. But if we believe our data, we’re not necessarily very good at knowing what we’re lousy at with other people. ERROL MORRIS: Yes. Maybe it’s an effective strategy for dealing with life. Not dealing with it. David Dunning, in his book “Self-Insight,” calls the Dunning-Kruger Effect “the anosognosia of everyday life.”[10] When I first heard the word “anosognosia,” I had to look it up. Here’s one definition: 70 | P a g e Anosognosia is a condition in which a person who suffers from a disability seems unaware of or denies the existence of his or her disability. [11] Dunning‘s juxtaposition of anosognosia with everyday life is a surprising and suggestive turn of phrase. After all, anosognosia comes originally from the world of neurology and is the name of a specific neurological disorder. DAVID DUNNING: An anosognosic patient who is paralyzed simply does not know that he is paralyzed. If you put a pencil in front of them and ask them to pick up the pencil in front of their left hand they won’t do it. And you ask them why, and they’ll say, “Well, I’m tired,” or “I don’t need a pencil.” They literally aren’t alerted to their own paralysis. There is some monitoring system on the right side of the brain that has been damaged, as well as the damage that’s related to the paralysis on the left side. There is also something similar called “hemispatial neglect.” It has to do with a kind of brain damage where people literally cannot see or they can’t pay attention to one side of their environment. If they’re men, they literally only shave one half of their face. And they’re not aware about the other half. If you put food in front of them, they’ll eat half of what’s on the plate and then complain that there’s too little food. You could think of the Dunning-Kruger Effect as a psychological version of this physiological problem. If you have, for lack of a better term, damage to your expertise or imperfection in your knowledge or skill, you’re left literally not knowing that you have that damage. It was an analogy for us.[12] (This is the first of a five-part series. You can read more at http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/06/20/the-anosognosics-dilemma-1/) NOTES: 1. Michael A. Fuoco, “Arrest in Bank Robbery, Suspect’s Picture Spurs Tips,” Pittsburgh Post-Gazette, April 21, 1995. 2. Michael A. Fuoco, “Trial and Error: They had Larceny in their Hearts, but little in their Heads,” Pittsburgh Post-Gazette, March 21, 1996. The article also includes several other impossibly stupid crimes, e.g., the criminal-to-be who filled out an employment application at a fast-food restaurant providing his correct name, address and social security number. A couple of minutes later he decided to rob the place. 3. Justin Kruger and David Dunning, “Unskilled and Unaware of It: How Difficulties of Recognizing One’s Own Incompetence Lead to Inflated Self-assessments,” Journal of Personality and Social Psychology, 1999, vol. 77, no. 6, pp. 1121-1134. 4. David Dunning may be channeling Socrates. “The only true wisdom is to know that you know nothing.” That’s too bad; Socrates gives me a headache. 71 | P a g e 5. NATO HQ, Brussels, Press Conference by U.S. Secretary of Defense Donald Rumsfeld, June 6, 2002. The exact quote: “There are known unknowns. That is to say, there are things we now know we don’t know. But there are also unknown unknowns. These are the things we do not know we don’t know.” 6. O.K. I looked it up on Wikipedia. The melting point of beryllium, the fourth element, is 1278 °C. 7. “Ctenoid” comes from one of my favorite books, “Jarrold’s Dictionary of Difficult Words.” I challenged a member of the Mega Society [a society whose members have ultra-high I.Q.s], who claimed he could spell anything, to spell “ctenoid.” He failed. It’s that silent “c” that gets them every time. “Ctenoid” means “having an edge with projections like the teeth of a comb.” It could refer to rooster combs or the scales of certain fish. 8. For the inner logoleptic in all of us, allow me to recommend the Web site: http://www.kokogiak.com/logolepsy/ One of the site’s recommended words is “epicaricacy.” I read somewhere that the German word “schadenfreude” has no equivalent in English. I am now greatly relieved. 9. Errol Morris, “First Person: I Dismember Mama.” 10. Dunning, David, “Self-Insight: Roadblocks and Detours on the Path to Knowing Thyself (Essays in Social Psychology),” Psychology Press: 2005, p. 14-15. 11. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anosognosia. 12. A purist would no doubt complain that anosognosia has been taken out of context, that it has been removed from the world of neurology and placed in an inappropriate and anachronistic social science setting. But something does remain in translation, the idea of an invisible deficit, the infirmity that cannot be known nor perceived. I can even imagine a cognitive and psychological version of anosodiaphoria. The idea of an infirmity that people neglect, that they do not pay any attention to. 72 | P a g e Although I couldn’t find an appropriate article specific to Tajik experience, I did find this anthropological essay that combines several of the interests of the class. I personally find ethnography fascinating as it often provides great opportunity to reflect on the implicit subjectivity of the writer. Gender Issues in the Afghanistan Diaspora: Nadia's Story Audrey C Shalinsky – 1996 Rather than restricting themselves to the study of isolated tribes and peasant villages, anthropologists have begun to study peoples who are "culturally displaced," refugees, diasporic groups, people without territorial homelands, and immigrants. Such groups are increasingly prominent today in the aftermath of local wars, interethnic conflict, and economic globalization.1 In the context of the Soviet invasion of Afghanistan and the subsequent Afghan Civil War, many from that country have left for other parts of the world, including neighboring Pakistan, other Muslim countries such as Saudi Arabia and Turkey, and the United States. When I began conducting ethnographic research in Afghanistan in I976, I did not realize what political, social, and economic upheavals were in store for the ethnic community I studied. Like other Afghans, community members became refugees and later immigrants to other countries; in many cases, however, they maintained kinship, social, religious, and economic ties to relatives in various parts of the world, forming a transnational community in which people, money, commodities, and information circulate. Discussions of transnationalism frequently begin with the cultural dynamics of deterritorialization, which is viewed as a kind of postmodern decentering and as such is elevated by many critical theorists. Writing from a feminist perspective, Kamala Visweswaran suggests that this view of deterritorialization ignores both the oppressive political forces that may have unleashed deterritorialization and the personal pain of those who lack a sense of belonging anywhere, in essence, who lack a home.' Visweswaran's insight certainly holds true for the Afghans I have known. They live a complex existence that forces them to confront, draw upon, and rework different identity constructs-national, ethnic, racial, class, and religious.2 Identity rearticulation may be particularly difficult for 1 Kamala Visweswaran, Fictions of Feminist Ethnography (Minneapolis: University of Minnesota Press, I994), I09--13, is extremely critical of those like Arjun Appadurai who valorize "placelessness" and concludes with the rhetorical question, "Is it coincidence, then, that while many feminist theorists identify home as the site of theory, male critics write to eradicate it?" (III). 2 One of the best theoretical accounts of transnationalism is Nina Glick Schiller, Linda Basch, and Cristina Blanc-Szanton, Towards a Transnational Perspective on Migration: Race, Class, Ethnicity and Nationalism Reconsidered (New York: New York Academy of Science, I992). Despite their inclusion of various case 73 | P a g e those who come to the United States from traditional Muslim backgrounds and may focus on gender issues, particularly in relation to marriage and the family, two intertwining aspects of the traditional home. Moving from a household where a young woman is surrounded by other women, mother-in-law, sister-in-law, and family in the neighborhood to one in which she is alone for most of the day may foster a sense of profound ambivalence. A woman gains autonomy but loses the emotional support of others. One juxtaposition of seemingly contradictory identities, for example, is women's veiling behavior: in the United States many women never veil outside the home when going to work or visiting friends, but they continue to wear the long scarf at the five prayer times each day in the home, the very place where they used to be the least restricted. In these examples, the home becomes a locus for the deepest conflicted values: personal agency and resistance versus accommodation to previously relevant norms, even the observance of Islam versus its loss. Gender ideologies involving modest dress, veiling, and the positioning of women inside the home versus outside at work each become newly contested in recreated and reenergized ways. Cultural studies scholar James Clifford writes, "Do diaspora experiences reinforce or loosen gender subordination? On the one hand, maintaining connections with homelands, with kinship networks, and with religious and cultural traditions may renew patriarchal structures. On the other, new roles and demands, new political spaces, are opened by diaspora interactions."3 With concern about the possibilities of gender renegotiation in diaspora in mind, this essay examines the life of one young Afghan woman. Nadia lived the first fifteen years of her life in a town in Afghanistan fairly near the Soviet border where she witnessed the invasion of her country by the Soviet Union, the country from which her grandparents had fled fifty years previously. She escaped with part of her family to Pakistan, where in her mother's absence, she became the chief caretaker, cook, and domestic for a large group. Since then, she has lived in Wyoming and Washington, D.C., has learned to drive in rush hour like a native East Coast resident, and has been the first of her family to become a U.S. citizen. She has earned a high school degree, attended community college, and contemplated such different careers as travel agency work, banking, computer programming, and picture framing. In May I995, at the age of twentysix, an age at which her parents and other relatives had quite despaired and given up all hope of a match, she was married in a Virginia suburb of Washington, D.C., an event that culminated a year of special parties and celebrations. When I asked her how her life differed from her mother's, she mentioned three things: that she has worked outside the home since she was a teenager, that she does not have to live with her husband's family, and that she has made a lot of decisions about her own life. Not being a social scientist, she would not speak of the problematized nature of the home, the renegotiation of gender relationships, or the possibility of strengthened personal agency in diaspora, but these are part of what her life teaches us. In this essay, I present some of the events of her life from the time when I first knew her in Afghanistan studies that include women's experiences, they ignore gender as a crucial intervening variable within their conceptual framework. 3 See James Clifford, "Diasporas," Cultural Anthropology 9 (I994): 3I3-I4. 74 | P a g e to the present. She has obviously changed and so have her circumstances. She is a person of great strength, and I find her life fascinating. This is a necessarily incomplete story of a young woman, a refugee and an immigrant, a bicultural and transnational person who has succeeded in dealing with a complex and contradictory set of dreams, desires, and expectations. This essay seeks to convey some of the complexity of her life, but I will only be able to do this through my eyes, and I have also changed since my original fieldwork.4 Unlike most ethnographers, I find that my "field" area was radically transformed by prolonged conflict soon after my research was over. In addition, I did not "leave" everyone behind in the field, since within a few years some had come to live in the United States. The arrival of Nadia and her family in the United States altered my relationship both to my work and to them. I had many more opportunities to check what I wrote, once to the extent that I read a complete book manuscript aloud to Nadia's father. Although I consider it both ethically responsible and methodologically desirable to share works in progress with those intimately involved in them, the line between "research" and personal relationships is obviously blurred in this process. Furthermore, the division between "fieldwork" and "homework" became less distinct as different pieces of myself that had been fostered in different places and with different experiences began to interpenetrate, a rather discordant process, but one that may foster a "decolonized" ethnography. 5 Nadia's family took me in as a stranger and as an anthropologist in Afghanistan. When that time and place disappeared, I became an odd representation of it. I have been part of the family then as a kind of ironic nostalgia that reminds them of past and present simultaneously; my note taking becomes familiar and expected not just as routine but as validation of that past and of the strange events that have constructed our shared present. Nadia's family and she herself expected that I be part of her wedding. That I chose to write about her became for her almost a symbol of her adulthood since I had previously only written using her parents as additional voices to my own. I have in this essay a more thorough written account of some parts of her past than she remembers. We validate each other's memories and confessions. She is a daughter, sister, and friend.6 4 For an excellent example of an anthropologist/ethnographer reflecting back on her old fieldnotes and how she herself has changed, see Margery Wolf, A Thrice-Told Tale: Feminism, Postmodernism, and Ethnographic Responsibility (Palo Alto: Stanford University Press, I992). I concur with Wolf, who notes that she is still more interested in the Chinese villagers than in writing about herself (I). This is Nadia's story and not mine. 5 Compare the different forms of transnational experience that are possible. My Afghan friends find their homeland destroyed and themselves literally and figuratively "displaced." I seek out "displacement" as part of the ethnographic enterprise but am then ambivalent upon finding the field intersecting home. For an interesting addition, see Visweswaran, who argues that she, born in the United States of Indian descent and thus "displaced," through traveling to India for anthropological fieldwork was returning home (Fictions, 109). 6 On the significance of writing individual's stories, my perspective is similar to Lila Abu-Lughod, Writing Women's Worlds: Bedouin Stories (Berkeley: University of Calif ifornia Press, I993), I3-I5, I8-zz. Abu- 75 | P a g e My goals in this essay then are multistranded. I provide longitudinal information about an individual's gendered and particularized experiences. I do this to provide a rich descriptive account of a woman's experiences in diaspora and to indicate both how gender is grounded in the daily life, activities, and social relationships of the individual and how transnational processes transform gender relations and gender ideology. Furthermore, by writing about an individual in this way, I avoid certain problematic conceptualizations of culture, namely that it is timeless, coherent, and homogeneous. Individuals like Nadia make decisions, struggle with others, change their minds and desires, and confront new pressures. Through the particularities of her story, one can "read" the larger forces that at least partially moved her life in certain directions. Afghanistan I must have first met her in the late summer of 1976 when she was nine years old. Her father had escorted me from Kabul, the capital of Afghanistan, to Kunduz, a northern provincial capital where they lived, so that his household could meet me and decide whether they would like to have an American anthropologist living with them. I don't remember her at the initial meeting, and there are no descriptions of her in my notes from that time because I was too focused on such issues as being polite and adjusting to the lack of bathrooms. But still I must have met her because, back in Kabul waiting for the governmental permissions to come, I set off to buy presents-one for each of the four children.7 For Mahbuba, as she was called then, I bought a box of colored marking pens in an array of colors. Among the early entries that fall after I began living with her family are little tiny marks in all of the different colors as well as the Persian and Uzbek terms she gave me.8 At age nine, she was a solemn, slight, but not frail child with dark brown eyes and brown hair that had something of a reddish tinge to it. I remember her as listening wideeyed to grown-up talk rather than speaking herself.9 Lughod writes about how arranged marriage, for example, conjures up all sorts of images of oppression, the control of women's sexuality and lives, in the minds of western readers and yet the practice as it is realized in the lives of individuals does not foreclose opportunity for choice or struggles to influence or oppose. 7 Eventually two more children were born into this family, the youngest in 1981. 8 The ethnic group under study originated in Uzbekistan. The people were bilingual in Persian, an IndoEuropean language, and Uzbek, a language related to Turkish. For general information about the group, see Audrey Shalinsky, Long Years of Exile, (Lanham, Maryland: University Press of America, I993). 9 When I discussed writing this essay with her, she agreed because she thought I should change the focus of my research to her generation rather than her parents'. However, she did not think there was anything special about her life or words. Obviously, this essay would not exist without the cooperation of Nadia and her family, although I am solely responsible for its contents. 76 | P a g e I observed Mahbuba's life in Afghanistan but never wrote extensively about her, although I did note the following in an early article: Mahbuba and her friends had two games that seem to involve role modeling. In one, they would plan a party or tuy. They went so far as to prepare pilau, a rice dish, for refreshments. They would also practice dancing and beating the daira, a tambourine-like drum. Girls are called upon to dance at women's celebrations. In the other game, they would say that they were playing wedding. Interestingly, the role of bride was not desirable. Usually, a little brother or sister was pressed into playing the bride. The child would be dressed up in veil and makeup, and the fun for the others was in singing the wedding songs, beating the drum, dancing, admonishing the "bride" concerning proper behavior, escorting the bride to her chair, and so on. In other words, Mahbuba and her friends imitated the roles of their mothers and community elders, not the bride.10 The traditional bride in Afghanistan was supposed to be passive and modest. She was controlled by her mother-in-law and the other elders of the women's community. The little girls' games show Mahbuba's preparation for marriage and for life in a community that no longer exists. Mahbuba laughed when I read this to her, adding that they also had tea parties for their dolls. First, they had to make the dolls, after which each little girl would bring some food, and they would have a social gathering together that paralleled social occasions among the women's community.11 Women in the ethnic community were never isolated but were always surrounded by women kin in the household and neighborhood who were also friends. Children learned this when they accompanied their mothers to women's special celebrations. According to Mahbuba's mother, who had married her husband when he was nineteen and she sixteen, she had her period only once before becoming pregnant with her oldest child. The pregnancy and labor were difficult, the latter lasting about twelve hours from dinner to the following morning. While the mother was attended by her mother-in-law and a midwife for this first birth, her subsequent children were born with the aid of a nurse-practitioner who could offer pain shots. In Afghanistan, Mahbuba's parents lived with her father's parents; three brothers, one of whom married shortly before I arrived; and two sisters, one of whom had married and was living with her husband and his family in the same neighborhood. Often after a baby's birth, several relatives suggest names with one eventually sticking. Mahbuba's name was chosen by her father's brother, who, when she was born, said that if his suggestion was not given, he would never pick her up. Known to have something of a temper, he then went outside and sat as if in a huff. Mahbuba's grandmother (father's mother) then took the baby to him, and his name remained. 10 See Audrey Shalinsky, "Learning Sexual Identity: Parents and Children in Northern Afghanistan," Anthropology and Education Quarterly II (I980): 258. 11 For the most complete account of the women's community, see Audrey Shalinsky "Women's Relationships in Traditional Northern Afghanistan," Central Asian Survey 8 (I989): II7-29. 77 | P a g e I did not record much about Mahbuba's early years, but my notes indicate she was known for eating dirt at about age three, which would have been at the time her brother Fazl was born. Her childhood revolved around her position in the family as the oldest female child with five younger ones to care for. My slides frequently show her carrying around the newest baby balanced on one hip, and in one she is even playing a game similar to hopscotch with the baby on one side. By I976, when I first arrived, she was partially bilingual in Afghan Persian (Dari), one of the official languages of Afghanistan, and Uzbek, the minority language related to Turkish that is spoken by the majority of the people of her ethnic group as their household language. My notes also record her attempts to count in both languages, to name animal terms, and to show she already could use the appropriate kin terms, a necessity in the extended family household and ethnic neighborhood. Islam was another important part of her life even at that young age. Among the religious practices I noted was Mahbuba and her brother practicing the creed with their mother, "There is no god but God, and Muhammad is the messenger of God." Every Thursday the two children attended Qur'an school with a learned woman referred to as a "bibi mullah," to whom they gave five afghanis, about twelve cents, each time. When she reached a certain stage in her lessons, she was given a new dress and other little girls came for a party. She also attended public school; this was at the time that the first girls in her ethnic community were graduating from the local high school. High school graduation would complete their formal education because girls were not allowed to attend the university in Kabul. Mahbuba, who did many chores around the house, was not a particularly favored or indulged child. For example, one day we all went to her grandmother's (mother's mother) for a visit, and she was not allowed to go. She cried, but when that did no good, she took up her recently learned knitting. Actually, one aspect of the culture with which I had trouble was that people would openly ask each other and me which of the four children was the favorite. At this time, the younger son, Mujib, was singled out to be favored and indulged. He was petted and made much over even when the other children were present, but today Mahbuba does not really remember this, and I think it upset me more than it did her even then. She was already starting to grow up at the age of nine. A December I entry in my fieldnotes states, "Children are sometimes given a few afs to keep and buy toys at the bazaar. Fazl bought bread at the bazaar which everyone thought was very funny-as if we didn't have enough bread at home. Mahbuba bought some Pakistani nail polish and lipstick for five afs." This interest in grown-up things was accepted, although girls were really not permitted to wear makeup until their wedding celebrations, at which point they were bedecked for the first time as part of the rituals. Today makeup is worn at parties by women and girls of this ethnic group in the United States, but Mahbuba still had to wait to pluck her eyebrows for the first time until the occasion of her engagement. Sexual relationships and their consequences were areas not well understood by Mahbuba at age nine. She once told me that animals give birth anally and women through the 78 | P a g e navel. Once late at night when her father was away, her mother showed me some contraceptives obtained in Kabul. Mahbuba kept waking up, looking, and asking what everything was for, but her mother just laughed and told her to sleep. Another time, her mother and I were discussing menstruation, and again Mahbuba asked what we were speaking about, upon which her mother commented, "She does not understand, and girls are not told anything by anyone." However, this was changing, as other little girls of the same age and slightly older were more knowledgeable. For those living in the United States, this is not an issue for they are inundated with sexual information at school and in the media. After I returned to the United States in I977, I prepared two large boxes of gifts for everyone in the neighborhood: photos, a camera, clothes, catalogs (which they used for sewing ideas), billfolds, and nylon stockings. I had forgotten what I sent Mahbuba until she reminded me of it many years later. It was a watch with a red leather strap. I had worn one similar to it that she had always admired, so I sent one designed for a child. She told me how she had loved it. Mahbuba grew up surrounded by family, friends, and fellow ethnics. Though her life did not recapitulate her mother's in all respects-she attended public school, for example, and her mother had not-her life was the same in crucial ways. Home, the women's community, and Islam surrounded her and were so a part of the daily routine that they were completely taken for granted. In I983 at the age of fifteen, Mahbuba, her father, and her three oldest siblings escaped the Afghanistan Civil War and went to Pakistan. Her mother and the two youngest children went to Saudi Arabia on a pilgrimage passport and then rejoined the family in Pakistan months later. As was commonly the case for this ethnic group, they moved on to Karachi, a place where they could receive money from relatives already settled elsewhere rather than registering and living as refugees in one of the camps. This period was very difficult because they were unaccustomed to Karachi's heat and insects. Mahbuba had to take on the household role of an adult woman. Her father decided to emigrate to the United States as a political refugee, primarily because he felt his children would have greater educational opportunities here.12 Mahbuba remembers her father indicating that life would be very different in the United States. He went out and bought her two pairs of slacks, one of denim, to wear rather than their traditional clothes, shocking a neighbor woman. By the time her mother and the two youngest children joined them, they had bought a television set, from which they were gaining a knowledge of the United States from shows like Trapper John, MD. that were shown on Pakistani television. 12 I explain the context of their emigration to the United States in Audrey Shalinsky, "The Aftermath of Fieldwork in Afghanistan: Personal Politics," Anthropology and Humanism Quarterly I6 (I99I): 2-9. In that essay, Nadia's father discusses his reasons for applying to come to the United States rather than move to Saudi Arabia as his mother desired. The ethnic group has a long standing emigre community in Saudi Arabia. 79 | P a g e The United States The trip to the United States, their first airplane ride, was exciting; there were hotels that seemed luxurious and large television sets that they would stay up all night watching. They especially loved cartoons. And so they came to Laramie, Wyoming, sponsored by the local Episcopal Church. Since they were coming to a small university community in a rural state, I thought their transition into this culture would be eased.13 Mahbuba and her three oldest siblings were attending the university preparatory school within three weeks of their arrival. Most of her memories of Laramie focus on the school, her teachers, and the young people she met. She had no knowledge of English and all the classes were in English. Mahbuba sat and tried to catch on. She remembers thinking one of the teachers had said that the next day they would have a party so she brought popcorn and some of the Hindi popular music that the Afghans like. Although her teacher let her have her party, she laughs at herself now that she naively thought her music would be popular. I remember her crying because her parents would not permit her to go on overnights like school camping trips, but it was time to start thinking about honor, family reputation, and potential marriage partners. Other families were already asking about matches, and, at age sixteen, she could undertake the household responsibilities of an adult woman as she had shown in Pakistan during her mother's absence. I think the worst experience she had at school came about because of her name and the insensitivity of three teenage girls. The girls kept making fun of her name, emphasizing the second syllable and giggling. She could not understand their reasons-obviously American slang for breast was unknown to her-and she puzzled and cried about this for awhile. Eventually, when the school administration became aware of the situation, the girls were told to stop their behavior. Still out of this time and from her pain, a new name, Nadia, emerged, representing for the first time her own decision and a changed view of herself. The name was not so much used in Laramie as it was after the move to the Washington, D.C., area for a new start, and it is the one on the American citizenship papers. Now, only her family calls her Mahbuba. Moving to the northern Virginia suburbs so that her father could take a government job offered new opportunities for Nadia. She finished high school, and I attended the graduation ceremony. She also completed another rite of American adolescent passage: driving and car ownership. She explored several careers, finally owning and managing an art gallery and framing store, and she was in no hurry to marry, even though she frequently spoke to me about the many offers of arrangements that were suggested by kin and other Afghan friends. First her reason was "How can I marry someone I don't know?" Gradually, it became "How can I marry someone I don't love?" Still Nadia never dated even though she had plenty of opportunities to do so given her extensive work experience outside her home. She never considered dating non-Muslims and would never have 13 Shalinsky, "Aftermath," 6. 80 | P a g e married someone unacceptable to her family.14 She said, "Because there are few possibilities to know people, arranged meetings are best." Her life at school and work did affect her expectations about a future husband. Nadia wanted someone acceptable to her family, but also someone who shared her own vision of life in the United States. Nadia had known a sort of love once, although many might say it was more of a romantic crush. Back in Afghanistan, she and a boy had actually promised to marry each other, and for some years, I believe, she hoped that there might be a way for them to be together. But he was still in Afghanistan, which made for many difficulties, and eventually a match was arranged for him in Saudi Arabia. Nadia still did not agree to any suggestions about possible matches. She knew what she wanted, and, with less control from extended family relatives who were far away, she could not be persuaded. Some suitors she refused to meet, while others she met with in the company of her parents were then refused her consent. The amount of pressure on her was great, and her father, who looked for religious observance and an honorable family background as indispensable for the match, once called me to say in frustration that a very good young man had approached the family. When Nadia refused the young man, all her relatives tried to convince her; everyone agrees that she cried for three days. Her father thought that her refusal, about which she was firm, was based on modesty and that she really did not know her own mind. He told her to say a special prayer and the next morning to say the first thing that her heart responded about the proposal. She told me that she already knew how it would come out, but she did as her father wished and, of course, then refused in the morning. I have always been amazed at the amount of courage that she showed in rejecting the matches that were proposed for so many years as she became older and older and more ineligible in many eyes. These are notable examples of resistance although she never rejected the idea that her parents' approval would be necessary for a match nor did she act in ways that were completely outside acceptable gender roles, that is, she did not leave her parents' home. She was stubborn, but she expressed it within available discourses, her right of consent, a woman's modesty, the traditional importance placed on marriage by the family, a young person's emotions.15 It is also significant that though she wanted to visit relatives, including her grandmother, in Saudi Arabia for many years, somehow she never quite managed to go. Pressure from her grandmother about marriage was very great and perhaps would have been impossible to withstand had she actually been living in her household in Saudi Arabia. At different times she has told me what she wanted in a husband. Her requirements included that "the man should be older than the woman." All the proposed men who were the same age or younger were automatically rejected. The man she accepted is four years 14 Marriage to non-Muslims even by women is now increasing, and living together without marriage now also exists. However, most people in the community feel that such behavior reflects on the family and brings them dishonor; it is considered a major tragedy. 15 For a comparative example in which women strategically lay claim to certain control over their situation using a gendered discourse, indicating both the structural limitations of this deployment and the possibility of fulfillment and strength, see Dorinne K. Kondo, Crafting Selves: Power Gender and Discourses of Identity in a Japanese Workplace (Chicago: University of Chicago Press, I990), z59. 81 | P a g e older than she. She did not want a man who was completely under the control of his parents, and she told me of one such man with whom she met to discuss the possibility of marriage: "He told me how his father planned his work and had said certain things about his future. That was nice, very respectful, but didn't he have any ideas and wishes himself?" She wanted to feel something after meeting the man, an attraction or what I told her would be called "chemistry." This is the one area that her parents understood least; they had never even met before their marriage. One of the first things she ever said to me about her fiance was, "When we met, something clicked in my heart." That was it. When we spoke again by phone about a month before the final marriage celebrations, she said, "I still feel it." Nadia's struggle to find an acceptable husband, who would meet her needs but fit into her family situation, indicates a significant change from women's traditional situation in Afghanistan. While women in her ethnic group were given the right of consent, withstanding the opinions of family, community elders, kin, and the ethnic neighborhood was not something that young women were able to do very frequently. Refusing several suitors was enough to cause scandal and ruin a woman's chances in the I970s. The diaspora situation gave Nadia an opportunity to pay more attention to her own feelings. Nadia's husband, Errol, is from Turkey, not Afghanistan. However, this is not as great a difference as one might think. Both are Sunni Muslims of the Hanafi rite. Also, Uzbeks like Nadia's family, whether in Uzbekistan or northern Afghanistan, are Turks, that is, their language and origin is Turkic just like the people of Turkey. Nadia can understand Turkish and will probably learn to speak it. Her father, for example, with more experience in speaking to Turkomans in Afghanistan, whose language is closer to Turkish than is Uzbek, could already speak to Errol without using English. According to Nadia, there were very few Uzbek men of the appropriate age who were left as potential spouses. There were some Afghans or Pashtuns but these are not viewed as favorably Although from Istanbul originally, Errol has been living in the United States for five years. His real name is Hizr, the Arabic for Elijah, an Islamic prophet, but he had some difficulty with the name Hizr in the United States. People's lack of familiarity with the name led him to use another common Turkish name, Errol, and to introduce himself that way. Sometimes he even uses the name John just to make his business transactions go more easily. Errol and Nadia thus share the immigration experience in the United States. Both have had to accommodate to their new culture to the point of changing their names. The new names, however, do not only indicate loss; they show positive creativity and a presentation of a new independent self not so clearly linked to an Islamic and alien past. The extended family was consulted about the match, and, according to Nadia, she spoke to one uncle in Saudi Arabia to ask for his permission, which he readily gave with the comment that the most important thing was that she asked. He also said that "Turks are like us," that is, similar to Uzbeks and certainly better than Afghans or Pashtuns, the dominant ethnic group of Afghanistan. While Nadia did not talk to her grandmother in Saudi Arabia directly she also apparently favored the match, perhaps because she is in 82 | P a g e hopes that marriage with someone from Turkey will lead the entire family from living in the United States, which she has always opposed, to Turkey, which is closer to Saudi Arabia. However, Errol likes the United States and does not have any intention of leaving in the immediate future. Originally, Nadia had persuaded Errol to move his business from New Jersey to the Washington, D.C., area so that she could remain close to her family, but then Nadia agreed to move to New Jersey to be with him. These changes in the ideas about place of residence are a simultaneous reassertion of the convention shared by both Nadia and Errol that the woman moves to the man's household and an indication of Nadia's new independence from her natal family. Significantly, after less than six months in New Jersey, Errol and Nadia moved back to Washington, D.C., initially residing with her family before they found their own apartment. Nadia and Errol renegotiated their living arrangements, and Nadia again asserted her wish to be near her own family. Despite the norm that the husband's business should dictate family location, Errol acquiesced to Nadia, another sign of Nadia's ability to assert herself and of their adaptation to the United States. No members of Errol's family reside in the United States except for a brother. There are several important considerations mentioned in the preceding section that recommended this match in Nadia's eyes. First, I believe she prefers the life she has in the United States to one in Saudi Arabia or anywhere else for that matter. Many times she referred to the freedom she has. She said, "The life is good there [in Saudi Arabia, that is, materially prosperous,] but there is no freedom." One lives by asking permission of senior relatives about how, when, and where one may go. Second, Nadia does not have to live under the authority of a mother-in-law as she would if they resided in Turkey or if Errol had senior relatives living here. While she is accustomed to living under her parents authority, a mother-in-law traditionally imposes authority in areas such as the performance of household tasks. There would also probably be strong pressure to become pregnant quickly, and Nadia wants to "wait at least a year" and have "three or four children at the most." Errol's business is the creation of custom-designed lamps, sculptures, mirrors, and other home decor items. He sells them wholesale to stores and occasionally on a retail basis. When he first came to the United States, he worked in a gas station in order to save money. Having resided in New York, California, and New Jersey, he apparently doesn't care about the location of his business and generally is willing to accommodate her. In fact, some of Errol's pieces could easily have been sold from her art gallery, another important element of compatibility As I recorded them in my notes, Nadia described the events that led up to her marriage: At first his parents, who are in their 6os, were not enthusiastic. They thought he was marrying an "American." They wanted him to get married in Turkey but he likes the freedom of the United States. This guy Hakimi [a member of their ethnic group] knew this guy [Errol] for four or five years. Hakimi is a little older. He called me about it 83 | P a g e himself He had gone to his mother and she had talked to my mother. She [her mother] was bugging me about it. I asked Hakimi what he was like and he said, "He is beautiful inside and out." So I agreed to meet him but with no promises. When they first met, the young man came to her family. He sat by her father and did not say much while Nadia mainly stayed in the kitchen. Her father thought, "here's another rejection," because he did not think the young man sophisticated, which he thought was what Nadia was looking for and why she had turned down so many. They really did not speak together except to say hello. On the next day after this initial meeting with the family, Errol and Nadia were allowed to go to a restaurant and talk to each other. They shared many perspectives and had many common interests. She consented. Nadia's father then investigated the man and his family background before agreeing to the arrangement by having a friend in Turkey go talk to the parents. It was late April when the engagement was announced amidst a large social gathering where Nadia's family fed over two hundred people in their house. The engagement is the occasion on which presents are given to the groom by the bride's family and to the bride by the groom's family. Nadia and Errol exchanged gold rings. She picked out a diamond ring for herself as the engagement ring, because having the kind of jewelry she wanted was important to her. At the engagement, there were no other significant gifts of gold, traditional components of Afghan bride-gifts. Nadia does not favor elaborate gold jewelry, although Errol has promised to get a few pieces from Turkey so that the honor and traditional value of a woman, measured in her own gold, can be maintained. Nadia and Errol do not wish to subject themselves to surreptitious gossip by the ethnic community, but they also do what they choose even about such traditional gifts as gold jewelry. Engagements have taken on many customs once saved for the wedding celebrations themselves. For example, the bride and groom dress formally and are escorted into the crowd while a Qur'an is held over the bride's head. This used to be part of the third day of the wedding celebration in Afghanistan rather than part of the engagement celebrations, from which the bride herself was often absent to show herself modest. Gifts were presented to her by a woman related to the groom who displayed them to those present. Engagements and weddings were celebrated separately by men and women in Afghanistan, while in the United States men and women are present at the same celebration. Nadia's father did not want to have separate engagement, contract, and marriage celebrations but rather to have the contract or nikah finalized at the engagement celebrations. All that is needed for the contract, the Islamic part of a marriage arrangement, is for witnesses to be present, for the bride and groom to consent, and for a payment, mahr, to be specified in a written document. The couple is then married according to Islam. However, Nadia and Errol's engagement was held during the period between the end of Ramadan and the end of the festival that commemorates Abraham's sacrifice, Id-i Qurban, a time when it is not customary for marriages to take place. Nadia's father said that this customary prohibition is not Islamic law and wanted to go 84 | P a g e ahead; he wanted his daughter and future son-in-law married as soon as possible so that there would be no illicit sexual temptation when the two were alone together. Both Nadia's mother and Errol's mother objected, however, so the engagement and contract could not be combined. In July, after the second festival, Nadia's father arranged for the contract. There was no large party-only five witnesses. Errol was the one surprised at the contract because he apparently did not know about mahr. When this sum was to be specified, Nadia's father said $1000 at which point, according to Nadia's account, her mother rolled her eyes and said $5000. This was the amount written with the understanding that $1500 would be paid soon and $3500 eventually. Errol did not know what any of this was about and thought the practice was out of the Dark Ages, perhaps, I thought, because mahr was made illegal in Turkey in the I920s. However, Nadia's father's explanation was that Errol had not been at home for some years before his emigration to the United States and was ignorant of the core practices of Islam still done by many Turks. The mahr is used to set up the couple's household and is not a source of financial gain for Nadia's family. For the contract, the family sent no notifications or invitations, and Nadia as well as her parents heard plenty of criticism from people who were not asked to be there, but she shrugged it off. She spoke of her relief that the pressure was over. She again mentioned the sense of freedom she felt that no longer did she have to ask her parents' permission when she went out at night. However, this "freedom" was more ambiguous than it seemed. When Nadia wanted to drive up alone to see Errol in New Jersey, she still asked for permission, but her father now would not answer. He told me that he did not care what they did, stating, "They are married." This meant that they could be alone together as much as they wanted, but Nadia did not want to consummate the marriage until after formal wedding celebrations were held in the spring. This desire to wait seemed not to be the fear of a sexual relationship but the wish to do things properly in the right time in the right way. In a way, they dated after marriage to get to know each other. The Wedding Celebration Until the spring final wedding celebration, Nadia continued working and living at her parents'. She and Errol did the marriage license and blood tests at the time of the contract and so could then complete the other paperwork-Nadia changing her name on official documents, and so on. They spent months saving money and planning for the wedding celebration. Nadia consulted the wedding planner magazines that show all the bridal dresses. Her problem in buying the dress was that most were too low cut; again she attempted to reconcile her Islamic-based values with her desire to be fashionable in the American way. Nadia and Errol (and mostly Errol) were paying for the final wedding celebration. Nadia chose the Holiday Inn in northern Virginia for the occasion because the manager is an Afghan and because they allow outside catering, which meant that Afghan food could be 85 | P a g e brought in. She and Errol also stayed there for their wedding night. The food, the hotel, and other expenses cost them over $10,000, and because Errol is paying these bills, they decided that he is not to pay the mahr previously agreed on. Nadia would have flower girls precede her but no bridesmaids because her sisters did not want to participate in that way. Perhaps they still felt some sense of not wanting to be the center of attention since traditionally it was not considered appropriate for unmarried girls to push themselves forward. Though she had dreamed of Hawaii for the honeymoon trip, Errol suggested Florida, and though they originally planned to honeymoon two days after the celebration, their disagreement about the destination as well as financial considerations delayed the trip. They returned to New Jersey two days after the wedding. Nadia visited Errol quite often in the period between the contract and the final celebration. Occasionally, accompanied by one of her sisters, she stayed at her father's cousin's house in Brooklyn. She spent some time looking at apartments and finally found one. When Errol came down to visit her, even the day before the wedding, he stayed with one of her relatives in a different house. I don't know how much time they ever had to be alone. Nadia herself basically arranged the wedding celebration, a tuy, with Errol's help. She did not ask her parents for anything, and when her father offered at the very end, there was some tension between them. She had enough invitations printed for 350 guests because her mother had said, "If you invite everyone, no one can be offended." The invitations had gold printing on the inside of the white cards. She hired the services of a still photographer and a video cameraman.16 She found a caterer for the Afghan food-four kinds of rice pilafs, and several kinds of meat and chicken kebabs, salad, spinach, cornstarch pudding, and baklava for dessert, enough for 350 big eaters. Only Sprite and Coke were served as the drinks because Nadia is, in fact, a strict Muslim. She realized that some of the more assimilated guests would take advantage of the hotel bars, but she deprecated that fact. The cake, purchased and set up by its creators, was to be five tiers with whipped cream flowers on the outside and a light sponge cake inside with small pieces of fruit in between some of the layers. She hired one band to play Afghan music and another, who were friends of Errol's brother, to play Turkish music. To go with her white dress with train and faux pearl bodice, she made both her own veil with three tiers of net down to the floor attached to a headband of faux pearls and rhinestones and her bouquet of white silk flowers. She and Errol made thirty-five centerpieces for the tables, which were silk flowers in pots color coordinated to go with the hotel reception room's green and maroon decor. Nadia made the ring bearer's pillow and four flower basketseach decorated white with white silk flowers, white satin bows, and pearls-as well as the decorated cover in 16 Wedding videos are important for many Afghan ethnic groups. David Edwards in "Afghanistan, Ethnography, and the New World Order," Cultural Anthropology 9 (I994): 354, reports on one that he viewed with some Pashtun men in Washington, D.C., that included only the men's celebration in Peshawar, Pakistan. As Margaret Mills, "Response to David B. Edward's Afghanistan, Ethnography, and the New World Order,"' Cultural Anthropology 9 (1994): 363, points out in commenting on Edwards, some ethnic communities do allow mixed sex viewing. She notes that the diversity of the interpretations of these electronic texts provides perpetually emergent retextualizations. 86 | P a g e which was wrapped a copy of the Qur'an. She also purchased a decanter, two elegant goblets, and an ornate cake knife and server, all of which she decorated with small white silk flowers. The striking aspect of Nadia's concern with all these details is that she saw the wedding as her concern and under her control. Brides in Afghanistan were never this powerful. Mothers and mothers-in-law with the help of their female kin made all these decisions about food, clothing, and decoration. The bride essentially did nothing except agree, wait to be taken to the groom's parents' house, and appear obedient, even if she were really exuberant and excited. The pace accelerated around three weeks before the tuy, at which point the bridal showers were scheduled. These each fulfilled a different purpose and indicate the ease with which Nadia and her friends and family move between different cultural traditions. Her mother sponsored one party, which was actually a version of the henna party, usually held in Afghanistan the night before the contract. About eighty senior women attended the party and brought gifts. Everyone's hands were decorated with henna, a celebratory activity considered to make hands beautiful and to bring good fortune. Then her mother's brother's wife sponsored a party, similar to a typical bridal shower, for unmarried girls, who also brought gifts. Finally, about fifteen of Nadia's closest friends surprised her with a party in a restaurant, where she received more gifts. The weekend before the final celebration, Nadia's parents took all the household goods that they were giving the couple and the assorted wedding gifts to the newly rented onebedroom New Jersey apartment and moved her in. Some family and friends helped. This move essentially paralleled the move to the groom's parents' household that would take place immediately after the contract in the traditional marriage celebrations. It was at this time that one of the most significant parts of traditional Uzbek marriage rituals took place, the singing of "Yar Yar," the lovers' song. In Kunduz, "Yar Yar" was sung whenever the bride was escorted outside of her mother's house during traditional marriage rituals. It highlights the sadness of the family that must lose a daughter. For example, some verses say: Don't throw the stone in the river because it will not return Don't give your daughter far away, he will take her and go The one who gives her daughter far away has a pale face Tears from her eyes flow like a stream. The move away was thus marked with "Yar Yar," but the wedding celebration itself would lack this element. The wedding as Nadia envisioned it would not be sad; it would be that fairyland dream that one sees in American bridal magazines with some elements from wedding celebrations as they were done in Kabul by the more sophisticated members of their group.17 17 There are also events in these wedding celebrations similar to marriage rituals in Uzbekistan. An example is the singing of the wedding song, "Yar Yar." Visitors from Uzbekistan occasionally are invited to attend weddings of the community in the United States. Likewise, wedding celebrations among the community members who live in Saudi Arabia also have similar practices. A discussion of all the variants of wedding customs in their different locations is beyond the scope of this essay. 87 | P a g e When I arrived at her parents' house two days before the wedding celebration, Nadia's first remark to me was that she felt sick. She said her stomach felt funny and she was not eating. She had classic symptoms of prewedding jitters complete with butterflies and weight loss. She was also frantically trying to complete everything at the last minute, fixing parts of the four flower girls dresses and her sisters' clothes. At parties like this, women dress in evening wear: long dresses, sequins, and bugle beads. It is not easy to find dresses that are fancy enough and yet sufficiently covered, and two of her sisters' dresses had to have black mesh demi-blouses sewn into the tops. On the day before the wedding, a couple of women came over to help prepare a special food, malida, which is set on the wedding table directly in front of the bride and groom and may be eaten sprinkled on cake or as a pinch of sweetness. It is a fragrant powder made of pulverized bread crumbs, sugar, oil, and cardamom that is customarily served at fancy weddings in Kabul. It took the women about five hours to make two platters full. Her mother also fixed seven large plastic bags filled with meat to give away. These represent zakat, alms, one of the five duties of Islam. On joyous occasions such as weddings, their custom in Afghanistan was to give specially prepared food to the poor. The wedding day was not without complications and problems. Nadia had arranged to have her sisters' hair as well as her own fixed at a local salon. However, all except one did not like the results, so they went home and rewashed their hair. Nadia redid her hair herself, burning herself with the curling iron in the process; the resulting burn mark caused considerable teasing throughout the evening about her "hickey." Her sister, a new driver, drove her with her wedding gown and most of the other important people and objects of the wedding in their family van to the hotel. At a major intersection on the highway, they ran out of gas, arriving at the hotel about three hours after Nadia had originally planned. They immediately went up to one of the two rooms they had reserved so that she could put on her makeup and dress with the assistance of two friends. Finally all the last minute activities were completed. Errol was given his boutonniere, and the petals were pulled off bundles of fresh flowers for the flower girls' baskets. The wedding party went to the hotel lobby to get their pictures taken sometime around 8:00 P.M., after the time guests had been asked to come according to the invitation. Fortunately, the party was to last until 2:00 A.M., and guests knew they should come late. The appearance of the guests shows the diversity of Muslim practice among this group in the United States. Some married women, the strictest, are just as elegantly and sophisticatedly dressed as the others, but their clothes cover them from wrists to ankles, and they wear scarves over their hair. Other women leave out the scarves. Others dress as if Islamic norms of modesty no longer apply and look as if they are about to go to a nightclub, barely covered in sequined dresses and wearing shoes with three- or four-inch heels. The men wear suits and ties. The most important event of the evening's celebration occurred at 10:00 P.M. when the grand procession of the bride and group entered the party. One band's emcee announced each person as they entered the room and headed toward the far end of the dance floor. First the flower girls and ring bearer walked in. The bride's younger sister followed carrying the decanter and goblets. Then the bride and groom came in together, followed 88 | P a g e by the bride's younger brother who held the Qur'an over the bride's head. They walked into the room across the dance floor and lined up there for more photos. At this time, the bride and groom exchanged gold wedding rings. Since they were already married, there was really no other ritual except for this final social acknowledgement of their married status.18 Nadia and Errol began the dancing as a couple. Dancing continued for about forty-five minutes before dinner was served; usually husband and wives danced together by facing each other but without touching. Women also danced facing each other as partners or in groups. The strictest Muslims, the women who dress most conservatively and men who are leaders of the Islamic community, did not dance because dancing is considered to have the potential of promoting lascivious and disruptive behavior.19 Though the steps are traditional Uzbek dance, this is not the way dancing proceeded at parties in Kunduz; there women danced individually as entertainment for the bride and groom or as display before the rest of the women. The mixed dancing at weddings, with its connotation of the open display of women's sexuality, is a significant symbol of the Americanization of these marriage rituals. First, husbands and wives are tied together as couples whereas in Afghanistan men and women as gender groups celebrate by themselves. Second, the women are not afraid to express themselves in front of men in this way. In Afghanistan, women acting in this way would be considered to have essentially prostituted themselves, and their menfolk would be dishonored. In the United States, however, where sexuality is so blatantly displayed in the media, this fairly moderate exhibition becomes less objectionable. After dinner was served, dancing continued for the rest of the evening. Dancing is significant for it means rejoicing at the happiness of the bride and groom. The bride's brother commented to me that though he is twenty years old and has been to many weddings, this is only the second time that he ever danced: "It's a lot different when it's your sister than when you're just visiting." The only other activity was the bride and groom drinking a goblet of fruit juice from the decanter, an act reminiscent of the bride and groom's champagne toast at American weddings. At two in the morning when the guests had to leave, many said good-bye to Nadia and Errol at the reception room’s entry door. Nadia was occasionally tearful at her farewells. She and Errol then retired to one of their two reserved rooms. Nadia's sisters went to sleep in the other hotel room as a treat. 18 For an analysis of the traditional marriage rituals in a rites of passage framework, see Shalinsky, "Battle for the Bride," 1-13. 19 As indicated, dance and music are a part of the traditional wedding celebration. However, indulgence in such activities was considered to promote sexual immorality. See Shalinsky, Long Years of-Exile, 91, for a specific example. The general ideology is that the arousing of passion and selfishness leads to the lack of community responsibility, especially for women who then tempt men away from their duties also. The most complete analysis of this is provided in Audrey Shalinsky, "Reason, Desire and Sexuality: The Meaning of Gender in Northern Afghanistan," Ethos 14 (I986): 223-43. 89 | P a g e The next day Nadia's mother and a few others prepared a special brunch for the newlyweds before they returned to New Jersey. Nadia, always thoughtful, had brought bouquets of flowers for all the women because it was the day before Mother's Day. I remember how she looked, model slim, her face heartshaped with high cheekbones, and her hair in waves several inches past her shoulders. Her traveling brideclothes were a beautifully cut beige jacket with a chiffon skirt, pretty enough for a less formal wedding. One of the women said, "She glows like a bride," and so she did. Concluding Remarks Since lives are always unfinished stories, I am left with many questions. Where will Nadia work? How soon will she have children? Will they go to live in Turkey? Will they ever have a honeymoon? How will she and Errol negotiate their marital decisions? How much of a force will Islam remain in their lives? Nadia's story appears to be a more positive story than those that are described for many women refugees. She clearly had a great deal of control over whom she married and how the celebrations took place. Yet she remains a devout Muslim, probably more so than her husband. She did not become estranged from her family and ethnic network, which was intricately involved in introducing her to Errol. There seems to be a complicated interweaving of disparate elements of identity: the Uzbek and Afghan identity giving way to the Muslim identity, the middleclass identity carried over from Afghanistan gaining new expression with United States consumerism. There may indeed be an important renegotiation of gender relations and ideology in the immigrant context since Nadia never presented herself, nor was she constrained to display herself, as the downcast and forlorn bride who is reluctant to leave home, the major symbol of the modest obedient daughter-in-law.20 Nadia waited until she found whom she wanted to marry and basically organized a series of celebrations that integrated a few traditional cultural elements (food and songs) and some Muslim elements (a contract) with many American-style components (dress and decorations). Nadia and her husband are obviously still negotiating about career and location as do many young married couples in the United States. In my field diary, I commented about how sad I felt that so many customs were lost or were so transformed in their current contexts that they seem to mean something rather different than they did before.21 How much of that nostalgia was a product of my own ethnographic creation? After all, even in the 1970s, the people of this community, who were of middle-class mercantile background, moved back and forth between Kunduz and Kabul and attended celebrations in both places. Wedding celebrations were perhaps even in the 1970s a powerful indicator of contextual and situational readjustment. The society was not isolated or static, as political events demonstrated. As transnational migrants 20 Clifford called attention to gender renegotiation in immigration situations in his essay, "Diasporas," 3I4. 21 As for many communities of exile, there is some nostalgia as a mode of discourse and representation. However, this is not as institutionalized as for Iranians in the United States. See Hamid Naficy, "The Poetics and Practice of Iranian Nostalgia in Exile," Diaspora i (I99I): 285-30I, for the Iranian case. 90 | P a g e today, people from this community attend weddings in Uzbekistan, Pakistan, Saudi Arabia, and the United States, adjusting to the differences easily enough. How odd that I, the ethnographer, recognize and can articulate more examples of the ways their cultural practices have adjusted and feel more nostalgia than they about some aspects of their changed culture, and yet my work and sometimes even my presence evoke in them the very nostalgia that I have mentioned. Nor does the community seem as necessarily linked to territory as it once did in my ethnographic constructions. Rather notions of territory, homeland, and nationality seem to be constructed positionings of persons as they reconceive multiple layers of identity in new situations such as diaspora. Even the home itself has a transformed meaning in the new context. Gender, class, and Islam likewise interact, and their intersection is part of the process of the rearticulation of identity. Nadia's story has been one of creativity and of a complex pattern of resistance and accommodation to social and political forces in disparate and even contradictory situations. For the present, she and her husband work together in their store in the Washington, D.C., suburbs. Living near her family but not enmeshed in it, they create their own new home and practice Islam as part of the American Muslim community struggling to be middle class. Their individual experiences with transnational forces have enabled them to gain strength and perseverance that should serve them well. 91 | P a g e From Media/Culture: Anita Pleumarom coordinates the Bangkok-based Tourism Investigation & Monitoring Team and is the editor of New Frontiers, a bi-monthly news bulletin focussing on tourism, development and environment issues in the Southeast Asian Mekongsub-region. Tourism, Globalisation, and Sustainable Development Anita Pleumarom BEFORE getting into the cold facts of global economics, let me begin with another story to warm up. I was perplexed when I recently read in the newspaper that Thailand's forestry chief had said: 'Humans can't live in the forest because human beings aren't animals. Unlike us, animals can adapt themselves to the wild or any environment naturally.' This was to legitimatise the government's plan to remove hundreds of thousands of rural and hill tribe people from protected areas. This man, who is in charge of conserving the forests, is at the same time very strongly pushing to open up the country's 81 national parks to outside investors and visitors in the name of 'eco-tourism'. Can we conclude, then, that the forestry chief considers developers and tourists as animals that know how to adapt to the forest and behave in the wild naturally? While authorities want to stop the access to forest lands and natural resources of village people, another group of people - namely tourism developers and tourists with lots of money to spend - are set to gain access to the area. While authorities believe that local people, who have often lived in the area for generations, are not capable of managing and conserving their land and natural resources - under a community forestry scheme for example - they believe they themselves in cooperation with the tourist industry can properly manage and conserve 'nature' under a national eco-tourism plan. Taking the above quote seriously, cynics may be tempted to say there is obviously a gap between 'human rights' and 'animal rights'. How is this story linked to globalisation? First of all, that humans cannot live in the forest is - of course - not a Thai concept. It is a notion of Western conservation ideology - an outcome of the globalisation of ideas and perceptions. Likewise, that eco-tourism under a 'good management' system is beneficial to local people and nature is also a Western concept that is being globalised. In fact, Thailand's forestry chief thinks globally and acts locally. A lesson that can be learned from this is that the slogan 'Think Globally, Act Locally' that the environmental movements have promoted all the years, has not necessarily served to preserve the environment and safeguard local communities' rights, but has been co-opted and distorted by official agencies and private industries for profitmaking purposes. The tourism industry is demonstrating this all too well. 92 | P a g e Many developing countries, facing debt burdens and worsening trade terms, have turned to tourism promotion in the hope that it brings foreign exchange and investment. Simultaneously, leading international agencies such as the World Bank, United Nations agencies and business organisations like the World Travel & Tourism Council (WTTC) have been substantially involved to make tourism a truly global industry. However, tourism in developing countries is often viewed by critics as an extension of former colonial conditions because from the very beginning, it has benefited from international economic relationships that structurally favour the advanced capitalist countries in the North. Unequal trading relationships, dependence on foreign interests, and the division of labour have relegated poor countries in the South to becoming tourism recipients and affluent countries in the North to the position of tourism generators, with the latter enjoying the freedom from having to pay the price for the meanwhile wellknown negative impacts in destinations. Transnational corporations Travel and tourism has emerged as one of the world's most centralised and competitive industries, and hardly any other economic sector illustrates so clearly the global reach of transnational corporations (TNCs). Over recent years, the industry has increasingly pressured governments around the world to liberalise trade and investment in services and is likely to benefit tremendously from the General Agreement on Trade in Services a multilateral agreement under the World Trade Organisation (WTO). GATS aims to abolish restrictions on foreign ownership and other measures which have so far protected the services sector in individual countries. For the hotel sector, for example, GATS facilitates franchising, management contracts and licensing. Moreover, foreign tourism companies will be entitled to the same benefits as local companies in addition to being allowed to move staff across borders as they wish, open branch offices in foreign countries, and make international payments without restrictive regulations. Foreign investment will also be increasingly deregulated under the GATT/WTO system. According to the Agreement on Trade-Related Investment Measures (TRIMs), foreign companies will no longer be obliged to use local input. The Multilateral Agreement on Investment (MAI) proposed by The Organisation for Economic Cooperation and Development (OECD) countries goes even further, calling for unrestricted entry and establishment of foreign firms, national treatment, repatriation of profits, technology transfer, etc. 93 | P a g e Accordingly, the WTTC has recently presented its 'Millennium Vision' on travel and tourism, including the following key areas: ï‚· ï‚· ï‚· Get governments to accept travel and tourism as a strategic economic development and employment priority; Move towards open and competitive markets by supporting the implementation of GATS, liberalise air transport and deregulate telecommunications in international markets; Eliminate barriers to tourism growth, which involves the expansion and improvement of infrastructure - e.g. the increase of airport capacity, construction and modernisation of airports, roads and tourist facilities. On a tour through South-East Asian countries in February 1998, WTTC president Geoffrey Lipman also strongly supported the privatisation of state enterprises, particularly airlines and airports. His visit in Thailand, for example, coincided with the announcement of British Airways - a prominent member of the WTTC - that it was interested in taking over 25% of Thai Airways International. And the British Airport Authority promptly followed up by proposing to buy a major equity share in the provincial airports of Chiang Mai, Phuket and Hat Yai, which are all located at popular tourist spots. However, the selling out of state companies to foreigners has been facing growing public opposition in Thailand so that privatisation is not progressing as planned. Meanwhile, even the voices of the tourism industry in Asia are urging a cautious approach towards globalisation. Imtiaz Muqbil, a renowned tourism analyst based in Bangkok, warned: 'The independence of thousands of small and medium size enterprises, including hotels and tour operators, is at risk.' This is because most local enterprises will hardly be able to compete with foreign companies. Moreover, Muqbil suggested that as an outcome of globalisation, Asian countries may face 'the prospects of huge growth in leakage of foreign exchange earnings.' In conclusion, he said, 'The radical restructuring of travel and tourism ... could strike at the heart of national economies. It is already a wellestablished fact that in some developing countries, more than two-thirds of the revenue from international tourism never reaches the local economy because of the high foreign exchange leakages. Now, as the new free trade and investment policies are being implemented, their balance sheets may even worsen because the profits and other income repatriated by foreign companies is likely to grow larger than the inflow of capital. That means, the claims that globalisation and liberalisation of tourism will bring wealth, progress, social achievements and improved environmental standards to developing countries need to be seriously questioned. A recently published document by the UN Conference on Trade and Development (UNCTAD) states that Asia-Pacific countries urgently need to bolster their bargaining positions in the field of tourism services and negotiate better terms in exchange for opening their markets. However, governments have barely had time to examine the potential impacts of globalisation, and many local tourism-related companies are already in financial trouble due to the economic crisis. So it is very unlikely that they can strengthen their negotiating power. Even major Asian airlines can hardly survive in this 94 | P a g e crisis-hit business environment; the recent temporary closure of Philippine Airlines is an illustrative example. Economic globalisation has also generated considerable criticism because it comes along with the erosion of power of governments. Opponents argue that local and national institutions will no longer be able to properly fulfil their responsibilities such as providing social services, preserving the environment, and implementing sustainable development programmes. Indeed, the multilateral agreements facilitating globalisation have shown little, if any, concern for social and ecological issues. On the environment front, the WTO has discussed proposals to introduce 'environmental standards' and 'eco-labels' developed by international setting bodies. Critics say this move is likely to be dominated by TNC interests, which attempt to appropriate the environmental agenda and push for selfregulation. Meanwhile, existing national environmental policies and laws adopted by democratically elected governments will be undermined. The WTTC, for example, vows to 'promote sustainability in travel and tourism' through its Green Globe programme, but - as its 'Millennium Vision' document states - 'strongly believes that the environmental policy agenda should focus on (the industry's) selfimprovement, incentives, and light-handed regulation as the preferred approach'. Concerns The increasing influence of private sector interests on international forums negotiating the environmental agenda has reinforced concerns that genuine efforts to set up a more stringent framework for the tourism industry may be jeopardised. In this context it is important to note that the seventh session of the UN Commission on Sustainable Development (CSD) this year will include important discussions on the issues of sustainable tourism. So far, the UN General Assembly has adopted a resolution on 'Sustainable Tourism' as part of its 'Programme for the further implementation of Agenda 21', the action programme adopted at the Rio Earth Summit. This resolution acknowledges the need to consider further the importance of tourism in the context of Agenda 21. Among other things, it states: 'For sustainable patterns of consumption and production in the tourism sector, it is essential to strengthen national policy development and enhance capacity in the areas of physical planning, impact assessment, and the use of economic and regulatory instruments, as well as in the areas of information, education and marketing.' Furthermore, the resolution calls for participation of all concerned parties in policy development and implementation of sustainable tourism programmes. What is important to keep in mind is that this UN resolution stresses the need for a democratic regulation of tourism development, which is in stark contradiction to the 95 | P a g e lobbying efforts by the agents of tourism globalisation towards deregulation and an industry-led and self-regulated scenario. This conflict featured prominently at the fourth Conference of Parties to the UN Convention on Biological Diversity (COP4) in Bratislava, Slovakia, last May, which included discussions on the integration of biodiversity into sectoral activities such as tourism. Many government delegates there resisted attempts by the German government to get approval from the Ministerial Roundtable at COP4 for a programme to develop global guidelines on biodiversity and sustainable tourism. Observers noted that the increased promotion of interests of the powerful German tourism industry at the UN level by the German government has been conspicuous over recent years. Official and NGO representatives were surprised by the insistence of the Germans to work on global guidelines and to seek endorsement for this programme from the CSD. The delegate from Samoa, for example, reiterated that sustainable tourism is a complicated issue that will be dealt with by the CSD next year and complained: 'We are not in favour of some of the top-down approaches we have seen here (at COP4).' Other delegates expressed concern over the relevance, objectives and funding of the proposed programme. Significantly, critical observers warned that an ill-advised proposal on global guidelines under the Convention could have devastating consequences for local and indigenous communities - socially, culturally and ecologically. 'The tourism industry's propensity towards unrestricted growth and its commoditisation of indigenous cultures must be recognised as clearly unsustainable,' commented an NGO representative during the Bratislava Conference. Meanwhile, there are justifiable fears that under the new economic globalisation schemes, sustainable and eco-tourism activities will even further enable TNCs to gain commercial access to ecologically sensitive areas and biological resources and accelerate the privatisation of biodiversity, all to the detriment of local communities' land and resource rights and the natural environment. As the Austrian environment minister told delegates at COP4, 'Sustainable tourism offers new market opportunities.' Vague, with buzzwords Indeed, the debate on tourism principles and guidelines is a tricky one - not only because it is heavily overshadowed by politics of global players. Another point of concern is that guidelines and programmes, as discussed and adopted by advocates of sustainable tourism at the international level, naturally remain very vague. Usually, they are also overly euphemistic, with buzzwords abounding: e.g. empowerment of local communities; local participation and control; equitable income distribution; benefits to nature conservation and biodiversity protection; etc. 96 | P a g e A tourism researcher from the University of British Columbia, Nick Kontogeorgopoulos, suggested that attempts to implement tourism projects based on such guidelines are bound to fail altogether because it is simply impossible to apply them to highly disparate and heterogeneous destinations. He says, 'While these altruistic principles are laudable in theory, the absence of place-specific context strips them of empirical evidence.' In conclusion: Not the global game, but local circumstances and conditions represent the essential determinant of success for sustainable development. In Asia, social and environmental activists argue that the inflationary tourism policies in the context of globalisation have greatly contributed to the present economic crisis. During the era of the so-called bubble economy, indiscriminate and unsustainable investments led to the rapid conversion of lands into massive tourism complexes, including luxury hotels, golf courses and casinos, and related infrastructure such as airports, highways, and dams to generate electricity. With economic liberalisation, the tourism, real estate and construction industries boomed, backed by local banks and global speculative capital. An essay written by renowned tourism critic and media activist Ing. K. reflects the anger of many Thais about the developments that have led to the country's bankruptcy. She presents the hard facts as follows: Land speculation became a national pastime, permeating every beautiful village, however remote. Land prices skyrocketed. Villagers sold agriculturally productive land to speculators. Practically overnight, fertile land became construction sites. The plague kept spreading; corruption got out of control. National parks and forest reserves were encroached upon by golf courses and resorts ... Many instant millionaires were made, but much of this new rich money was not wisely invested in productive ventures. Instead, most of it was spent on luxury "dream" products and services, in pursuit of the consumer lifestyle. Many of these people were merely imitating tourists and were influenced by the prevailing free-spending frenzy. Greed and consumerism devastated whole communities all over Thailand, raising the temperature even higher, on every level of society... In the end, we have nothing to show for it but whole graveyards of unsold highrise condominiums, shophouses, golf course and resort developments and housing estates. Now, all discussions and work programmes relating to the implementation of global and local Agendas 21 and sustainable development appear - more than ever -removed from reality in view of the unfolding Asian crisis - a human disaster with millions of unemployed and landless people falling below the poverty line. According to the latest figures from UN agencies, more than 100 million people in the region are newly impoverished. And there are growing fears that the machinations of unregulated global speculative capital now threaten to ruin not only Asian economies but the rest of the world as well. 97 | P a g e A major question that needs to be addressed in this context: Where will all the money come from for sustainable development and tourism projects? In Thailand, for example, the World Bank and the Japanese OECF have agreed to provide loans to improve and expand tourism as part of a social investment programme (SIP) aimed at tackling the problems of unemployment and loss of income arising from the economic crisis. It has been stressed that tourism development is crucial for the country's economic recovery, and 'community participation' and 'sustainability' are mentioned as major components in projects. But critics have warned that firstly, tourism is not a quick commodity that can pull the country out of its economic pains. And secondly, much of the borrowed money will be used for new developments in national parks and biodiversity-rich areas in the drive to promote 'eco-tourism'. Let me confront you with a provocative idea now. It is not the longstanding efforts by the many experts promoting and working on the implementation of global and local Agendas that bring us closer to sustainable tourism. Ironically, it is rather the current all-embracing crisis which may eventually make tourism more sustainable - at least in environmental terms. Why? First of all, a basic problem of sustainable tourism has been the rapidly expanding numbers of travellers. But as a result of the crisis, tourism growth has come to a standstill. Due to currency devaluation, increasing unemployment, declining income and deflation, Asian markets are collapsing. Even the numbers of Japanese going abroad for holidays are now declining for the first time in 18 years. European and American holidaymakers have also shunned South-East Asian countries because of 1997's smog disaster, caused by forest fires in Indonesia, and political turmoil in the region - e.g. in Burma, Cambodia and - more recently - Indonesia. As the economic contagion is spreading, the travel fever that had gripped Russia and other East European countries after the fall of the Soviet Union is also on the wane, as the Russian currency, the rouble, has plummeted dramatically and the economy slumps. Moreover, amid the decline of business activities in Asia, stockmarket slumps and fears of a global recession, nervous companies around the world are limiting corporate travel spending. The WTTC, which had earlier in 1998 forecast growth averaging 7% a year throughout 2008, now expects the global tourism market to remain flat in the next years. This may be bad in terms of economics but, unquestionably, the environment will benefit from stagnating or even decreasing tourist numbers. For instance, the air travel industry has been identified as one of the biggest environmental villains in tourism. With fewer people travelling, however, the AsiaPacific aviation industry is now flying into a deep recession. Airlines are fighting for survival by closing or cutting unprofitable routes, selling aircraft and cancelling orders for new aircraft. Governments are forced to cut budgets for airport expansion and construction. Ultimately, that means less pollution and less environmentally damaging developments. 98 | P a g e The real estate and construction industries, which are both inextricably linked to the tourism industry, were the first industries that crash-landed when the Asian bubble economy burst. As a result, many speculative and unsustainable hotel and resort development projects have been abandoned, and new construction is down to a trickle. An excellent example is golf, which became a symbol of globalised leisure and tourist lifestyle in Asian tiger societies. But as the frenzy to build luxurious golf course complexes - including hotels, housing estates and shopping centres - has almost stopped completely, and middle-class people affected by the crisis are turning away from the expensive sport of golf, environmentalists can be relieved: The malaise of rampant land grabs, national park encroachments, deforestation, etc. related to golf courses is no longer as threatening as it was a few years ago. On the other hand, while many tourism-related companies may have scrapped or postponed potentially harmful projects, one needs to acknowledge that because of the financial crunch, public and private investments in environmental protection are also being cut. Moreover, there have been warnings that the crisis has resulted in an upsurge of crime, prostitution, drug abuse and other social vices related to tourism. Failed But most importantly, Asian societies are beginning to realise that the current global economic capitalist system has utterly failed to bring achievements in all terms. Now burdened with having to pay for the activities of unscrupulous speculators and additionally suffering from free-market-oriented structural adjustment programmes imposed by the International Monetary Fund (IMF), people are losing faith in a globalised economy. Some experts even go so far as to say that free trade and investment liberalisation is 'yesterday's story'. Malaysia in particular has recently taken decisive steps to shut itself off from global markets by strictly controlling foreign capital flows. Asian governments are now likely to move towards greater self-reliance as they are pressured by people of all walks of life to look into economic strategies that are chiefly based on domestic financial resources and the domestic market. This involves the strengthening of the agricultural sector and local industries to protect people's livelihoods in the first place. Forces still seeking to further prop up economically risky service industries such as tourism are likely to be weakened. Moreover, the crisis has also created considerable public debate about the impacts of global culture and lifestyle, including the issues of consumerism and the wasteful and unproductive use of resources. In several Asian countries - such as Korea, Thailand and Malaysia - outbound tourism is now being discouraged as it is seen as conspicuous consumption that has contributed to the negative balance of payments. The issues of democracy and human rights are also gaining momentum in the region. As never before, people are making use of their civil rights and call for transparency and 99 | P a g e democratic procedures to phase out corruption and harmful government policies and development plans. The growing opposition of Thai environmentalists and villagers to the move of the government to open up protected areas for 'mass eco-tourism' is just one example. All in all, I believe, the current Asian crisis, which is likely to become a global crisis, poses a fundamental challenge - and an important opportunity - to re-evaluate the issues of globalisation, sustainable development and tourism. As Asian societies begin to acknowledge that rapid economic growth under global regimes has devastating effects on people's lives and the environment, we may find that a stringent regulation of tourism, which involves a stricter limitation of tourist numbers and a halt to the unlimited spatial expansion of tourism, is better than further promoting tourism growth and hoping that this growth can be handled with 'good management', education of tourists, etc. What the current crisis really appears to confirm is - what many tourism critics have been saying all along - the global tourism industry just cannot be propelled towards sustainability under the conventional economic and political structures. That means, efforts to implement social and environmental agendas and sustainable tourism are unlikely to progress unless profound structural changes take place in the global system. March 1999 100 | P a g e The Enchiridion By Epictetus, 135 A.C.E. Translated by Elizabeth Carter 1. Some things are in our control and others not. Things in our control are opinion, pursuit, desire, aversion, and, in a word, whatever are our own actions. Things not in our control are body, property, reputation, command, and, in one word, whatever are not our own actions. The things in our control are by nature free, unrestrained, unhindered; but those not in our control are weak, slavish, restrained, belonging to others. Remember, then, that if you suppose that things which are slavish by nature are also free, and that what belongs to others is your own, then you will be hindered. You will lament, you will be disturbed, and you will find fault both with gods and men. But if you suppose that only to be your own which is your own, and what belongs to others such as it really is, then no one will ever compel you or restrain you. Further, you will find fault with no one or accuse no one. You will do nothing against your will. No one will hurt you, you will have no enemies, and you not be harmed. Aiming therefore at such great things, remember that you must not allow yourself to be carried, even with a slight tendency, towards the attainment of lesser things. Instead, you must entirely quit some things and for the present postpone the rest. But if you would both have these great things, along with power and riches, then you will not gain even the latter, because you aim at the former too: but you will absolutely fail of the former, by which alone happiness and freedom are achieved. Work, therefore to be able to say to every harsh appearance, "You are but an appearance, and not absolutely the thing you appear to be." And then examine it by those rules which you have, and first, and chiefly, by this: whether it concerns the things which are in our own control, or those which are not; and, if it concerns anything not in our control, be prepared to say that it is nothing to you. 2. Remember that following desire promises the attainment of that of which you are desirous; and aversion promises the avoiding that to which you are averse. However, he who fails to obtain the object of his desire is disappointed, and he who incurs the object of his aversion wretched. If, then, you confine your aversion to those objects only which are contrary to the natural use of your faculties, which you have in your own control, you will never incur anything to which you are averse. But if you are averse to sickness, or death, or poverty, you will be wretched. Remove aversion, then, from all things that are not in our control, and transfer it to things contrary to the nature of what is in our control. 101 | P a g e But, for the present, totally suppress desire: for, if you desire any of the things which are not in your own control, you must necessarily be disappointed; and of those which are, and which it would be laudable to desire, nothing is yet in your possession. Use only the appropriate actions of pursuit and avoidance; and even these lightly, and with gentleness and reservation. 3. With regard to whatever objects give you delight, are useful, or are deeply loved, remember to tell yourself of what general nature they are, beginning from the most insignificant things. If, for example, you are fond of a specific ceramic cup, remind yourself that it is only ceramic cups in general of which you are fond. Then, if it breaks, you will not be disturbed. If you kiss your child, or your wife, say that you only kiss things which are human, and thus you will not be disturbed if either of them dies. 4. When you are going about any action, remind yourself what nature the action is. If you are going to bathe, picture to yourself the things which usually happen in the bath: some people splash the water, some push, some use abusive language, and others steal. Thus you will more safely go about this action if you say to yourself, "I will now go bathe, and keep my own mind in a state conformable to nature." And in the same manner with regard to every other action. For thus, if any hindrance arises in bathing, you will have it ready to say, "It was not only to bathe that I desired, but to keep my mind in a state conformable to nature; and I will not keep it if I am bothered at things that happen. 5. Men are disturbed, not by things, but by the principles and notions which they form concerning things. Death, for instance, is not terrible, else it would have appeared so to Socrates. But the terror consists in our notion of death that it is terrible. When therefore we are hindered, or disturbed, or grieved, let us never attribute it to others, but to ourselves; that is, to our own principles. An uninstructed person will lay the fault of his own bad condition upon others. Someone just starting instruction will lay the fault on himself. Some who is perfectly instructed will place blame neither on others nor on himself. 6. Don't be prideful with any excellence that is not your own. If a horse should be prideful and say, " I am handsome," it would be supportable. But when you are prideful, and say, " I have a handsome horse," know that you are proud of what is, in fact, only the good of the horse. What, then, is your own? Only your reaction to the appearances of things. Thus, when you behave conformably to nature in reaction to how things appear, you will be proud with reason; for you will take pride in some good of your own. 7. Consider when, on a voyage, your ship is anchored; if you go on shore to get water you may along the way amuse yourself with picking up a shellish, or an onion. However, your thoughts and continual attention ought to be bent towards the ship, waiting for the captain to call on board; you must then immediately leave all these things, otherwise you will be thrown into the ship, bound neck and feet like a sheep. So it is with life. If, instead of an onion or a shellfish, you are given a wife or child, that is fine. But if the captain calls, you must run to the ship, leaving them, and regarding none of them. But if you are old, never go far from the ship: lest, when you are called, you should be unable to come in time. 102 | P a g e 8. Don't demand that things happen as you wish, but wish that they happen as they do happen, and you will go on well. 9. Sickness is a hindrance to the body, but not to your ability to choose, unless that is your choice. Lameness is a hindrance to the leg, but not to your ability to choose. Say this to yourself with regard to everything that happens, then you will see such obstacles as hindrances to something else, but not to yourself. 10. With every accident, ask yourself what abilities you have for making a proper use of it. If you see an attractive person, you will find that self-restraint is the ability you have against your desire. If you are in pain, you will find fortitude. If you hear unpleasant language, you will find patience. And thus habituated, the appearances of things will not hurry you away along with them. 11. Never say of anything, "I have lost it"; but, "I have returned it." Is your child dead? It is returned. Is your wife dead? She is returned. Is your estate taken away? Well, and is not that likewise returned? "But he who took it away is a bad man." What difference is it to you who the giver assigns to take it back? While he gives it to you to possess, take care of it; but don't view it as your own, just as travelers view a hotel. 12. If you want to improve, reject such reasonings as these: "If I neglect my affairs, I'll have no income; if I don't correct my servant, he will be bad." For it is better to die with hunger, exempt from grief and fear, than to live in affluence with perturbation; and it is better your servant should be bad, than you unhappy. Begin therefore from little things. Is a little oil spilt? A little wine stolen? Say to yourself, "This is the price paid for apathy, for tranquillity, and nothing is to be had for nothing." When you call your servant, it is possible that he may not come; or, if he does, he may not do what you want. But he is by no means of such importance that it should be in his power to give you any disturbance. 13. If you want to improve, be content to be thought foolish and stupid with regard to external things. Don't wish to be thought to know anything; and even if you appear to be somebody important to others, distrust yourself. For, it is difficult to both keep your faculty of choice in a state conformable to nature, and at the same time acquire external things. But while you are careful about the one, you must of necessity neglect the other. 14. If you wish your children, and your wife, and your friends to live for ever, you are stupid; for you wish to be in control of things which you cannot, you wish for things that belong to others to be your own. So likewise, if you wish your servant to be without fault, you are a fool; for you wish vice not to be vice," but something else. But, if you wish to have your desires undisappointed, this is in your own control. Exercise, therefore, what is in your control. He is the master of every other person who is able to confer or remove whatever that person wishes either to have or to avoid. Whoever, then, would be free, let him wish nothing, let him decline nothing, which depends on others else he must necessarily be a slave. 103 | P a g e 15. Remember that you must behave in life as at a dinner party. Is anything brought around to you? Put out your hand and take your share with moderation. Does it pass by you? Don't stop it. Is it not yet come? Don't stretch your desire towards it, but wait till it reaches you. Do this with regard to children, to a wife, to public posts, to riches, and you will eventually be a worthy partner of the feasts of the gods. And if you don't even take the things which are set before you, but are able even to reject them, then you will not only be a partner at the feasts of the gods, but also of their empire. For, by doing this, Diogenes, Heraclitus and others like them, deservedly became, and were called, divine. 16. When you see anyone weeping in grief because his son has gone abroad, or is dead, or because he has suffered in his affairs, be careful that the appearance may not misdirect you. Instead, distinguish within your own mind, and be prepared to say, "It's not the accident that distresses this person., because it doesn't distress another person; it is the judgment which he makes about it." As far as words go, however, don't reduce yourself to his level, and certainly do not moan with him. Do not moan inwardly either. 17. Remember that you are an actor in a drama, of such a kind as the author pleases to make it. If short, of a short one; if long, of a long one. If it is his pleasure you should act a poor man, a cripple, a governor, or a private person, see that you act it naturally. For this is your business, to act well the character assigned you; to choose it is another's. 18. When a raven happens to croak unluckily, don't allow the appearance hurry you away with it, but immediately make the distinction to yourself, and say, "None of these things are foretold to me; but either to my paltry body, or property, or reputation, or children, or wife. But to me all omens are lucky, if I will. For whichever of these things happens, it is in my control to derive advantage from it." 19. You may be unconquerable, if you enter into no combat in which it is not in your own control to conquer. When, therefore, you see anyone eminent in honors, or power, or in high esteem on any other account, take heed not to be hurried away with the appearance, and to pronounce him happy; for, if the essence of good consists in things in our own control, there will be no room for envy or emulation. But, for your part, don't wish to be a general, or a senator, or a consul, but to be free; and the only way to this is a contempt of things not in our own control. 20. Remember, that not he who gives ill language or a blow insults, but the principle which represents these things as insulting. When, therefore, anyone provokes you, be assured that it is your own opinion which provokes you. Try, therefore, in the first place, not to be hurried away with the appearance. For if you once gain time and respite, you will more easily command yourself. 21. Let death and exile, and all other things which appear terrible be daily before your eyes, but chiefly death, and you win never entertain any abject thought, nor too eagerly covet anything. 104 | P a g e 22. If you have an earnest desire of attaining to philosophy, prepare yourself from the very first to be laughed at, to be sneered by the multitude, to hear them say,." He is returned to us a philosopher all at once," and " Whence this supercilious look?" Now, for your part, don't have a supercilious look indeed; but keep steadily to those things which appear best to you as one appointed by God to this station. For remember that, if you adhere to the same point, those very persons who at first ridiculed will afterwards admire you. But if you are conquered by them, you will incur a double ridicule. 23. If you ever happen to turn your attention to externals, so as to wish to please anyone, be assured that you have ruined your scheme of life. Be contented, then, in everything with being a philosopher; and, if you wish to be thought so likewise by anyone, appear so to yourself, and it will suffice you. 24. Don't allow such considerations as these distress you. "I will live in dishonor, and be nobody anywhere." For, if dishonor is an evil, you can no more be involved in any evil by the means of another, than be engaged in anything base. Is it any business of yours, then, to get power, or to be admitted to an entertainment? By no means. How, then, after all, is this a dishonor? And how is it true that you will be nobody anywhere, when you ought to be somebody in those things only which are in your own control, in which you may be of the greatest consequence? "But my friends will be unassisted." -- What do you mean by unassisted? They will not have money from you, nor will you make them Roman citizens. Who told you, then, that these are among the things in our own control, and not the affair of others? And who can give to another the things which he has not himself? "Well, but get them, then, that we too may have a share." If I can get them with the preservation of my own honor and fidelity and greatness of mind, show me the way and I will get them; but if you require me to lose my own proper good that you may gain what is not good, consider how inequitable and foolish you are. Besides, which would you rather have, a sum of money, or a friend of fidelity and honor? Rather assist me, then, to gain this character than require me to do those things by which I may lose it. Well, but my country, say you, as far as depends on me, will be unassisted. Here again, what assistance is this you mean? "It will not have porticoes nor baths of your providing." And what signifies that? Why, neither does a smith provide it with shoes, or a shoemaker with arms. It is enough if everyone fully performs his own proper business. And were you to supply it with another citizen of honor and fidelity, would not he be of use to it? Yes. Therefore neither are you yourself useless to it. "What place, then, say you, will I hold in the state?" Whatever you can hold with the preservation of your fidelity and honor. But if, by desiring to be useful to that, you lose these, of what use can you be to your country when you are become faithless and void of shame. 25. Is anyone preferred before you at an entertainment, or in a compliment, or in being admitted to a consultation? If these things are good, you ought to be glad that he has gotten them; and if they are evil, don't be grieved that you have not gotten them. And remember that you cannot, without using the same means [which others do] to acquire things not in our own control, expect to be thought worthy of an equal share of them. For how can he who does not frequent the door of any [great] man, does not attend him, does not praise him, have an equal share with him who does? You are unjust, then, and 105 | P a g e insatiable, if you are unwilling to pay the price for which these things are sold, and would have them for nothing. For how much is lettuce sold? Fifty cents, for instance. If another, then, paying fifty cents, takes the lettuce, and you, not paying it, go without them, don't imagine that he has gained any advantage over you. For as he has the lettuce, so you have the fifty cents which you did not give. So, in the present case, you have not been invited to such a person's entertainment, because you have not paid him the price for which a supper is sold. It is sold for praise; it is sold for attendance. Give him then the value, if it is for your advantage. But if you would, at the same time, not pay the one and yet receive the other, you are insatiable, and a blockhead. Have you nothing, then, instead of the supper? Yes, indeed, you have: the not praising him, whom you don't like to praise; the not bearing with his behavior at coming in. 26. The will of nature may be learned from those things in which we don't distinguish from each other. For example, when our neighbor's boy breaks a cup, or the like, we are presently ready to say, "These things will happen." Be assured, then, that when your own cup likewise is broken, you ought to be affected just as when another's cup was broken. Apply this in like manner to greater things. Is the child or wife of another dead? There is no one who would not say, "This is a human accident." but if anyone's own child happens to die, it is presently, "Alas I how wretched am I!" But it should be remembered how we are affected in hearing the same thing concerning others. 27. As a mark is not set up for the sake of missing the aim, so neither does the nature of evil exist in the world. 28. If a person gave your body to any stranger he met on his way, you would certainly be angry. And do you feel no shame in handing over your own mind to be confused and mystified by anyone who happens to verbally attack you? 29. In every affair consider what precedes and follows, and then undertake it. Otherwise you will begin with spirit; but not having thought of the consequences, when some of them appear you will shamefully desist. "I would conquer at the Olympic games." But consider what precedes and follows, and then, if it is for your advantage, engage in the affair. You must conform to rules, submit to a diet, refrain from dainties; exercise your body, whether you choose it or not, at a stated hour, in heat and cold; you must drink no cold water, nor sometimes even wine. In a word, you must give yourself up to your master, as to a physician. Then, in the combat, you may be thrown into a ditch, dislocate your arm, turn your ankle, swallow dust, be whipped, and, after all, lose the victory. When you have evaluated all this, if your inclination still holds, then go to war. Otherwise, take notice, you will behave like children who sometimes play like wrestlers, sometimes gladiators, sometimes blow a trumpet, and sometimes act a tragedy when they have seen and admired these shows. Thus you too will be at one time a wrestler, at another a gladiator, now a philosopher, then an orator; but with your whole soul, nothing at all. Like an ape, you mimic all you see, and one thing after another is sure to please you, but is out of favor as soon as it becomes familiar. For you have never entered upon anything considerately, nor after having viewed the whole matter on all sides, or made any scrutiny into it, but rashly, and with a cold inclination. Thus some, when they have 106 | P a g e seen a philosopher and heard a man speaking like Euphrates (though, indeed, who can speak like him?), have a mind to be philosophers too. Consider first, man, what the matter is, and what your own nature is able to bear. If you would be a wrestler, consider your shoulders, your back, your thighs; for different persons are made for different things. Do you think that you can act as you do, and be a philosopher? That you can eat and drink, and be angry and discontented as you are now? You must watch, you must labor, you must get the better of certain appetites, must quit your acquaintance, be despised by your servant, be laughed at by those you meet; come off worse than others in everything, in magistracies, in honors, in courts of judicature. When you have considered all these things round, approach, if you please; if, by parting with them, you have a mind to purchase apathy, freedom, and tranquillity. If not, don't come here; don't, like children, be one while a philosopher, then a publican, then an orator, and then one of Caesar's officers. These things are not consistent. You must be one man, either good or bad. You must cultivate either your own ruling faculty or externals, and apply yourself either to things within or without you; that is, be either a philosopher, or one of the vulgar. 30. Duties are universally measured by relations. Is anyone a father? If so, it is implied that the children should take care of him, submit to him in everything, patiently listen to his reproaches, his correction. But he is a bad father. Is you naturally entitled, then, to a good father? No, only to a father. Is a brother unjust? Well, keep your own situation towards him. Consider not what he does, but what you are to do to keep your own faculty of choice in a state conformable to nature. For another will not hurt you unless you please. You will then be hurt when you think you are hurt. In this manner, therefore, you will find, from the idea of a neighbor, a citizen, a general, the corresponding duties if you accustom yourself to contemplate the several relations. 31. Be assured that the essential property of piety towards the gods is to form right opinions concerning them, as existing "I and as governing the universe with goodness and justice. And fix yourself in this resolution, to obey them, and yield to them, and willingly follow them in all events, as produced by the most perfect understanding. For thus you will never find fault with the gods, nor accuse them as neglecting you. And it is not possible for this to be effected any other way than by withdrawing yourself from things not in our own control, and placing good or evil in those only which are. For if you suppose any of the things not in our own control to be either good or evil, when you are disappointed of what you wish, or incur what you would avoid, you must necessarily find fault with and blame the authors. For every animal is naturally formed to fly and abhor things that appear hurtful, and the causes of them; and to pursue and admire those which appear beneficial, and the causes of them. It is impractical, then, that one who supposes himself to be hurt should be happy about the person who, he thinks, hurts him, just as it is impossible to be happy about the hurt itself. Hence, also, a father is reviled by a son, when he does not impart to him the things which he takes to be good; and the supposing empire to be a good made Polynices and Eteocles mutually enemies. On this account the husbandman, the sailor, the merchant, on this account those who lose wives and children, revile the gods. For where interest is, there too is piety placed. So that, whoever is careful to regulate his desires and aversions as he ought, is, by the very same means, careful of piety likewise. But it is also incumbent on everyone to offer libations and sacrifices and 107 | P a g e first fruits, conformably to the customs of his country, with purity, and not in a slovenly manner, nor negligently, nor sparingly, nor beyond his ability. 32. When you have recourse to divination, remember that you know not what the event will be, and you come to learn it of the diviner; but of what nature it is you know before you come, at least if you are a philosopher. For if it is among the things not in our own control, it can by no means be either good or evil. Don't, therefore, bring either desire or aversion with you to the diviner (else you will approach him trembling), but first acquire a distinct knowledge that every event is indifferent and nothing to you., of whatever sort it may be, for it will be in your power to make a right use of it, and this no one can hinder; then come with confidence to the gods, as your counselors, and afterwards, when any counsel is given you, remember what counselors you have assumed, and whose advice you will neglect if you disobey. Come to divination, as Socrates prescribed, in cases of which the whole consideration relates to the event, and in which no opportunities are afforded by reason, or any other art, to discover the thing proposed to be learned. When, therefore, it is our duty to share the danger of a friend or of our country, we ought not to consult the oracle whether we will share it with them or not. For, though the diviner should forewarn you that the victims are unfavorable, this means no more than that either death or mutilation or exile is portended. But we have reason within us, and it directs, even with these hazards, to the greater diviner, the Pythian god, who cast out of the temple the person who gave no assistance to his friend while another was murdering him. 33. Immediately prescribe some character and form of conduce to yourself, which you may keep both alone and in company. Be for the most part silent, or speak merely what is necessary, and in few words. We may, however, enter, though sparingly, into discourse sometimes when occasion calls for it, but not on any of the common subjects, of gladiators, or horse races, or athletic champions, or feasts, the vulgar topics of conversation; but principally not of men, so as either to blame, or praise, or make comparisons. If you are able, then, by your own conversation bring over that of your company to proper subjects; but, if you happen to be taken among strangers, be silent. Don't allow your laughter be much, nor on many occasions, nor profuse. Avoid swearing, if possible, altogether; if not, as far as you are able. Avoid public and vulgar entertainments; but, if ever an occasion calls you to them, keep your attention upon the stretch, that you may not imperceptibly slide into vulgar manners. For be assured that if a person be ever so sound himself, yet, if his companion be infected, he who converses with him will be infected likewise. Provide things relating to the body no further than mere use; as meat, drink, clothing, house, family. But strike off and reject everything relating to show and delicacy. 108 | P a g e As far as possible, before marriage, keep yourself pure from familiarities with women, and, if you indulge them, let it be lawfully." But don't therefore be troublesome and full of reproofs to those who use these liberties, nor frequently boast that you yourself don't. If anyone tells you that such a person speaks ill of you, don't make excuses about what is said of you, but answer: " He does not know my other faults, else he would not have mentioned only these." It is not necessary for you to appear often at public spectacles; but if ever there is a proper occasion for you to be there, don't appear more solicitous for anyone than for yourself; that is, wish things to be only just as they are, and him only to conquer who is the conqueror, for thus you will meet with no hindrance. But abstain entirely from declamations and derision and violent emotions. And when you come away, don't discourse a great deal on what has passed, and what does not contribute to your own amendment. For it would appear by such discourse that you were immoderately struck with the show. Go not [of your own accord] to the rehearsals of any authors , nor appear [at them] readily. But, if you do appear, keepyour gravity and sedateness, and at the same time avoid being morose. When you are going to confer with anyone, and particularly of those in a superior station, represent to yourself how Socrates or Zeno would behave in such a case, and you will not be at a loss to make a proper use of whatever may occur. When you are going to any of the people in power, represent to yourself that you will not find him at home; that you will not be admitted; that the doors will not be opened to you; that he will take no notice of you. If, with all this, it is your duty to go, bear what happens, and never say [to yourself], " It was not worth so much." For this is vulgar, and like a man dazed by external things. In parties of conversation, avoid a frequent and excessive mention of your own actions and dangers. For, however agreeable it may be to yourself to mention the risks you have run, it is not equally agreeable to others to hear your adventures. Avoid, likewise, an endeavor to excite laughter. For this is a slippery point, which may throw you into vulgar manners, and, besides, may be apt to lessen you in the esteem of your acquaintance. Approaches to indecent discourse are likewise dangerous. Whenever, therefore, anything of this sort happens, if there be a proper opportunity, rebuke him who makes advances that way; or, at least, by silence and blushing and a forbidding look, show yourself to be displeased by such talk. 34. If you are struck by the appearance of any promised pleasure, guard yourself against being hurried away by it; but let the affair wait your leisure, and procure yourself some delay. Then bring to your mind both points of time: that in which you will enjoy the pleasure, and that in which you will repent and reproach yourself after you have enjoyed it; and set before you, in opposition to these, how you will be glad and applaud yourself if 109 | P a g e you abstain. And even though it should appear to you a seasonable gratification, take heed that its enticing, and agreeable and attractive force may not subdue you; but set in opposition to this how much better it is to be conscious of having gained so great a victory. 35. When you do anything from a clear judgment that it ought to be done, never shun the being seen to do it, even though the world should make a wrong supposition about it; for, if you don't act right, shun the action itself; but, if you do, why are you afraid of those who censure you wrongly? 36. As the proposition, "Either it is day or it is night," is extremely proper for a disjunctive argument, but quite improper in a conjunctive one, so, at a feast, to choose the largest share is very suitable to the bodily appetite, but utterly inconsistent with the social spirit of an entertainment. When you eat with another, then, remember not only the value of those things which are set before you to the body, but the value of that behavior which ought to be observed towards the person who gives the entertainment. 37. If you have assumed any character above your strength, you have both made an ill figure in that and quitted one which you might have supported. 38. When walking, you are careful not to step on a nail or turn your foot; so likewise be careful not to hurt the ruling faculty of your mind. And, if we were to guard against this in every action, we should undertake the action with the greater safety. 39. The body is to everyone the measure of the possessions proper for it, just as the foot is of the shoe. If, therefore, you stop at this, you will keep the measure; but if you move beyond it, you must necessarily be carried forward, as down a cliff; as in the case of a shoe, if you go beyond its fitness to the foot, it comes first to be gilded, then purple, and then studded with jewels. For to that which once exceeds a due measure, there is no bound. 40. Women from fourteen years old are flattered with the title of "mistresses" by the men. Therefore, perceiving that they are regarded only as qualified to give the men pleasure, they begin to adorn themselves, and in that to place ill their hopes. We should, therefore, fix our attention on making them sensible that they are valued for the appearance of decent, modest and discreet behavior. 41. It is a mark of want of genius to spend much time in things relating to the body, as to be long in our exercises, in eating and drinking, and in the discharge of other animal functions. These should be done incidentally and slightly, and our whole attention be engaged in the care of the understanding. 42. When any person harms you, or speaks badly of you, remember that he acts or speaks from a supposition of its being his duty. Now, it is not possible that he should follow what appears right to you, but what appears so to himself. Therefore, if he judges from a wrong appearance, he is the person hurt, since he too is the person deceived. For if anyone should suppose a true proposition to be false, the proposition is not hurt, but he 110 | P a g e who is deceived about it. Setting out, then, from these principles, you will meekly bear a person who reviles you, for you will say upon every occasion, "It seemed so to him." 43. Everything has two handles, the one by which it may be carried, the other by which it cannot. If your brother acts unjustly, don't lay hold on the action by the handle of his injustice, for by that it cannot be carried; but by the opposite, that he is your brother, that he was brought up with you; and thus you will lay hold on it, as it is to be carried. 44. These reasonings are unconnected: "I am richer than you, therefore I am better"; "I am more eloquent than you, therefore I am better." The connection is rather this: "I am richer than you, therefore my property is greater than yours;" "I am more eloquent than you, therefore my style is better than yours." But you, after all, are neither property nor style. 45. Does anyone bathe in a mighty little time? Don't say that he does it ill, but in a mighty little time. Does anyone drink a great quantity of wine? Don't say that he does ill, but that he drinks a great quantity. For, unless you perfectly understand the principle from which anyone acts, how should you know if he acts ill? Thus you will not run the hazard of assenting to any appearances but such as you fully comprehend. 46. Never call yourself a philosopher, nor talk a great deal among the unlearned about theorems, but act conformably to them. Thus, at an entertainment, don't talk how persons ought to eat, but eat as you ought. For remember that in this manner Socrates also universally avoided all ostentation. And when persons came to him and desired to be recommended by him to philosophers, he took and- recommended them, so well did he bear being overlooked. So that if ever any talk should happen among the unlearned concerning philosophic theorems, be you, for the most part, silent. For there is great danger in immediately throwing out what you have not digested. And, if anyone tells you that you know nothing, and you are not nettled at it, then you may be sure that you have begun your business. For sheep don't throw up the grass to show the shepherds how much they have eaten; but, inwardly digesting their food, they outwardly produce wool and milk. Thus, therefore, do you likewise not show theorems to the unlearned, but the actions produced by them after they have been digested. 47. When you have brought yourself to supply the necessities of your body at a small price, don't pique yourself upon it; nor, if you drink water, be saying upon every occasion, "I drink water." But first consider how much more sparing and patient of hardship the poor are than we. But if at any time you would inure yourself by exercise to labor, and bearing hard trials, do it for your own sake, and not for the world; don't grasp statues, but, when you are violently thirsty, take a little cold water in your mouth, and spurt it out and tell nobody. 48. The condition and characteristic of a vulgar person, is, that he never expects either benefit or hurt from himself, but from externals. The condition and characteristic of a philosopher is, that he expects all hurt and benefit from himself. The marks of a proficient are, that he censures no one, praises no one, blames no one, accuses no one, 111 | P a g e says nothing concerning himself as being anybody, or knowing anything: when he is, in any instance, hindered or restrained, he accuses himself; and, if he is praised, he secretly laughs at the person who praises him; and, if he is censured, he makes no defense. But he goes about with the caution of sick or injured people, dreading to move anything that is set right, before it is perfectly fixed. He suppresses all desire in himself; he transfers his aversion to those things only which thwart the proper use of our own faculty of choice; the exertion of his active powers towards anything is very gentle; if he appears stupid or ignorant, he does not care, and, in a word, he watches himself as an enemy, and one in ambush. 49. When anyone shows himself overly confident in ability to understand and interpret the works of Chrysippus, say to yourself, " Unless Chrysippus had written obscurely, this person would have had no subject for his vanity. But what do I desire? To understand nature and follow her. I ask, then, who interprets her, and, finding Chrysippus does, I have recourse to him. I don't understand his writings. I seek, therefore, one to interpret them." So far there is nothing to value myself upon. And when I find an interpreter, what remains is to make use of his instructions. This alone is the valuable thing. But, if I admire nothing but merely the interpretation, what do I become more than a grammarian instead of a philosopher? Except, indeed, that instead of Homer I interpret Chrysippus. When anyone, therefore, desires me to read Chrysippus to him, I rather blush when I cannot show my actions agreeable and consonant to his discourse. 50. Whatever moral rules you have deliberately proposed to yourself. abide by them as they were laws, and as if you would be guilty of impiety by violating any of them. Don't regard what anyone says of you, for this, after all, is no concern of yours. How long, then, will you put off thinking yourself worthy of the highest improvements and follow the distinctions of reason? You have received the philosophical theorems, with which you ought to be familiar, and you have been familiar with them. What other master, then, do you wait for, to throw upon that the delay of reforming yourself? You are no longer a boy, but a grown man. If, therefore, you will be negligent and slothful, and always add procrastination to procrastination, purpose to purpose, and fix day after day in which you will attend to yourself, you will insensibly continue without proficiency, and, living and dying, persevere in being one of the vulgar. This instant, then, think yourself worthy of living as a man grown up, and a proficient. Let whatever appears to be the best be to you an inviolable law. And if any instance of pain or pleasure, or glory or disgrace, is set before you, remember that now is the combat, now the Olympiad comes on, nor can it be put off. By once being defeated and giving way, proficiency is lost, or by the contrary preserved. Thus Socrates became perfect, improving himself by everything. attending to nothing but reason. And though you are not yet a Socrates, you ought, however, to live as one desirous of becoming a Socrates. 51. The first and most necessary topic in philosophy is that of the use of moral theorems, such as, "We ought not to lie;" the second is that of demonstrations, such as, "What is the origin of our obligation not to lie;" the third gives strength and articulation to the other two, such as, "What is the origin of this is a demonstration." For what is demonstration? What is consequence? What contradiction? What truth? What falsehood? The third topic, 112 | P a g e then, is necessary on the account of the second, and the second on the account of the first. But the most necessary, and that whereon we ought to rest, is the first. But we act just on the contrary. For we spend all our time on the third topic, and employ all our diligence about that, and entirely neglect the first. Therefore, at the same time that we lie, we are immediately prepared to show how it is demonstrated that lying is not right. 52. Upon all occasions we ought to have these maxims ready at hand: "Conduct me, Jove, and you, 0 Destiny, Wherever your decrees have fixed my station." Cleanthes "I follow cheerfully; and, did I not, Wicked and wretched, I must follow still Whoever yields properly to Fate, is deemed Wise among men, and knows the laws of heaven." Euripides, Frag. 965 And this third: "0 Crito, if it thus pleases the gods, thus let it be. Anytus and Melitus may kill me indeed, but hurt me they cannot." Plato's Crito and Apology THE END 113 | P a g e Paragraphs on Conceptual Art Sol Lewitt, for Artforum (June, 1967). The editor has written me that he is in favor of avoiding “the notion that the artist is a kind of ape that has to be explained by the civilized critic”. This should be good news to both artists and apes. With this assurance I hope to justify his confidence. To use a baseball metaphor (one artist wanted to hit the ball out of the park, another to stay loose at the plate and hit the ball where it was pitched), I am grateful for the opportunity to strike out for myself. I will refer to the kind of art in which I am involved as conceptual art. In conceptual art the idea or concept is the most important aspect of the work. When an artist uses a conceptual form of art, it means that all of the planning and decisions are made beforehand and the execution is a perfunctory affair. The idea becomes a machine that makes the art. This kind of art is not theoretical or illustrative of theories; it is intuitive, it is involved with all types of mental processes and it is purposeless. It is usually free from the dependence on the skill of the artist as a craftsman. It is the objective of the artist who is concerned with conceptual art to make his work mentally interesting to the spectator, and therefore usually he would want it to become emotionally dry. There is no reason to suppose, however, that the conceptual artist is out to bore the viewer. It is only the expectation of an emotional kick, to which one conditioned to expressionist art is accustomed, that would deter the viewer from perceiving this art. Conceptual art is not necessarily logical. The logic of a piece or series of pieces is a device that is used at times, only to be ruined. Logic may be used to camouflage the real intent of the artist, to lull the viewer into the belief that he understands the work, or to infer a paradoxical situation (such as logic vs. illogic). Some ideas are logical in conception and illogical perceptually. The ideas need not be complex. Most ideas that are successful are ludicrously simple. Successful ideas generally have the appearance of simplicity because they seem inevitable. In terms of ideas the artist is free even to surprise himself. Ideas are discovered by intuition. What the work of art looks like isn't too important. It has to look like something if it has physical form. No matter what form it may finally have it must begin with an idea. It is the process of conception and realization with which the artist is concerned. Once given physical reality by the artist the work is open to the perception of al, including the artist. (I use the word perception to mean the apprehension of the sense data, the objective understanding of the idea, and simultaneously a subjective interpretation of both). The work of art can be perceived only after it is completed. Art that is meant for the sensation of the eye primarily would be called perceptual rather than conceptual. This would include most optical, kinetic, light, and color art. 114 | P a g e Since the function of conception and perception are contradictory (one pre-, the other postfact) the artist would mitigate his idea by applying subjective judgment to it. If the artist wishes to explore his idea thoroughly, then arbitrary or chance decisions would be kept to a minimum, while caprice, taste and others whimsies would be eliminated from the making of the art. The work does not necessarily have to be rejected if it does not look well. Sometimes what is initially thought to be awkward will eventually be visually pleasing. To work with a plan that is preset is one way of avoiding subjectivity. It also obviates the necessity of designing each work in turn. The plan would design the work. Some plans would require millions of variations, and some a limited number, but both are finite. Other plans imply infinity. In each case, however, the artist would select the basic form and rules that would govern the solution of the problem. After that the fewer decisions made in the course of completing the work, the better. This eliminates the arbitrary, the capricious, and the subjective as much as possible. This is the reason for using this method. When an artist uses a multiple modular method he usually chooses a simple and readily available form. The form itself is of very limited importance; it becomes the grammar for the total work. In fact, it is best that the basic unit be deliberately uninteresting so that it may more easily become an intrinsic part of the entire work. Using complex basic forms only disrupts the unity of the whole. Using a simple form repeatedly narrows the field of the work and concentrates the intensity to the arrangement of the form. This arrangement becomes the end while the form becomes the means. Conceptual art doesn't really have much to do with mathematics, philosophy, or nay other mental discipline. The mathematics used by most artists is simple arithmetic or simple number systems. The philosophy of the work is implicit in the work and it is not an illustration of any system of philosophy. It doesn't really matter if the viewer understands the concepts of the artist by seeing the art. Once it is out of his hand the artist has no control over the way a viewer will perceive the work. Different people will understand the same thing in a different way. Recently there has been much written about minimal art, but I have not discovered anyone who admits to doing this kind of thing. There are other art forms around called primary structures, reductive, rejective, cool, and mini-art. No artist I know will own up to any of these either. Therefore I conclude that it is part of a secret language that art critics use when communicating with each other through the medium of art magazines. Mini-art is best because it reminds one of miniskirts and long-legged girls. It must refer to very small works of art. This is a very good idea. Perhaps “mini-art” shows could be sent around the country in matchboxes. Or maybe the mini-artist is a very small person, say under five feet tall. If so, much good work will be found in the primary schools (primary school primary structures). 115 | P a g e If the artist carries through his idea and makes it into visible form, then all the steps in the process are of importance. The idea itself, even if not made visual, is as much a work of art as any finished product. All intervening steps –scribbles, sketches, drawings, failed works, models, studies, thoughts, conversations– are of interest. Those that show the thought process of the artist are sometimes more interesting than the final product. Determining what size a piece should be is difficult. If an idea requires three dimensions then it would seem any size would do. The question would be what size is best. If the thing were made gigantic then the size alone would be impressive and the idea may be lost entirely. Again, if it is too small, it may become inconsequential. The height of the viewer may have some bearing on the work and also the size of the space into which it will be placed. The artist may wish to place objects higher than the eye level of the viewer, or lower. I think the piece must be large enough to give the viewer whatever information he needs to understand the work and placed in such a way that will facilitate this understanding. (Unless the idea is of impediment and requires difficulty of vision or access). Space can be thought of as the cubic area occupied by a three-dimensional volume. Any volume would occupy space. It is air and cannot be seen. It is the interval between things that can be measured. The intervals and measurements can be important to a work of art. If certain distances are important they will be made obvious in the piece. If space is relatively unimportant it can be regularized and made equal (things placed equal distances apart) to mitigate any interest in interval. Regular space might also become a metric time element, a kind of regular beat or pulse. When the interval is kept regular whatever is ireregular gains more importance. Architecture and three-dimensional art are of completely opposite natures. The former is concerned with making an area with a specific function. Architecture, whether it is a work of art or not, must be utilitarian or else fail completely. Art is not utilitarian. When three-dimensional art starts to take on some of the characteristics, such as forming utilitarian areas, it weakens its function as art. When the viewer is dwarfed by the larger size of a piece this domination emphasizes the physical and emotive power of the form at the expense of losing the idea of the piece. New materials are one of the great afflictions of contemporary art. Some artists confuse new materials with new ideas. There is nothing worse than seeing art that wallows in gaudy baubles. By and large most artists who are attracted to these materials are the ones who lack the stringency of mind that would enable them to use the materials well. It takes a good artist to use new materials and make them into a work of art. The danger is, I think, in making the physicality of the materials so important that it becomes the idea of the work (another kind of expressionism). Three-dimensional art of any kind is a physical fact. The physicality is its most obvious and expressive content. Conceptual art is made to engage the mind of the viewer rather than his eye or emotions. The physicality of a three-dimensional object then becomes a contradiction to its non-emotive intent. Color, surface, texture, and shape only emphasize 116 | P a g e the physical aspects of the work. Anything that calls attention to and interests the viewer in this physicality is a deterrent to our understanding of the idea and is used as an expressive device. The conceptual artist would want o ameliorate this emphasis on materiality as much as possible or to use it in a paradoxical way (to convert it into an idea). This kind of art, then, should be stated with the greatest economy of means. Any idea that is better stated in two dimensions should not be in three dimensions. Ideas may also be stated with numbers, photographs, or words or any way the artist chooses, the form being unimportant. These paragraphs are not intended as categorical imperatives, but the ideas stated are as close as possible to my thinking at this time. These ideas are the result of my work as an artist and are subject to change as my experience changes. I have tried to state them with as much clarity as possible. If the statements I make are unclear it may mean the thinking is unclear. Even while writing these ideas there seemed to be obvious inconsistencies (which I have tried to correct, but others will probably slip by). I do not advocate a conceptual form of art for all artists. I have found that it has worked well for me while other ways have not. It is one way of making art; other ways suit other artists. Nor do I think all conceptual art merits the viewer's attention. Conceptual art is good only when the idea is good. Sentences on Conceptual Art 1. Conceptual artists are mystics rather than rationalists. They leap to conclusions that logic cannot reach. 2. Rational judgements repeat rational judgements. 3. Irrational judgements lead to new experience. 4. Formal art is essentially rational. 5. Irrational thoughts should be followed absolutely and logically. 6. If the artist changes his mind midway through the execution of the piece he compromises the result and repeats past results. 7. The artist's will is secondary to the process he initiates from idea to completion. His wilfulness may only be ego. 8. When words such as painting and sculpture are used, they connote a whole tradition and imply a consequent acceptance of this tradition, thus placing limitations on the artist who would be reluctant to make art that goes beyond the limitations. 117 | P a g e 9. The concept and idea are different. The former implies a general direction while the latter is the component. Ideas implement the concept. 10. Ideas can be works of art; they are in a chain of development that may eventually find some form. All ideas need not be made physical. 11. Ideas do not necessarily proceed in logical order. They may set one off in unexpected directions, but an idea must necessarily be completed in the mind before the next one is formed. 12. For each work of art that becomes physical there are many variations that do not. 13. A work of art may be understood as a conductor from the artist's mind to the viewer's. But it may never reach the viewer, or it may never leave the artist's mind. 14. The words of one artist to another may induce an idea chain, if they share the same concept. 15. Since no form is intrinsically superior to another, the artist may use any form, from an expression of words (written or spoken) to physical reality, equally. 16. If words are used, and they proceed from ideas about art, then they are art and not literature; numbers are not mathematics. 17. All ideas are art if they are concerned with art and fall within the conventions of art. 18. One usually understands the art of the past by applying the convention of the present, thus misunderstanding the art of the past. 19. The conventions of art are altered by works of art. 20. Successful art changes our understanding of the conventions by altering our perceptions. 21. Perception of ideas leads to new ideas. 22. The artist cannot imagine his art, and cannot perceive it until it is complete. 23. The artist may misperceive (understand it differently from the artist) a work of art but still be set off in his own chain of thought by that misconstrual. 24. Perception is subjective. 25. The artist may not necessarily understand his own art. His perception is neither better nor worse than that of others. 118 | P a g e 26. An artist may perceive the art of others better than his own. 27. The concept of a work of art may involve the matter of the piece or the process in which it is made. 28. Once the idea of the piece is established in the artist's mind and the final form is decided, the process is carried out blindly. There are many side effects that the artist cannot imagine. These may be used as ideas for new works. 29. The process is mechanical and should not be tampered with. It should run its course. 30. There are many elements involved in a work of art. The most important are the most obvious. 31. If an artist uses the same form in a group of works, and changes the material, one would assume the artist's concept involved the material. 32. Banal ideas cannot be rescued by beautiful execution. 33. It is difficult to bungle a good idea. 34. When an artist learns his craft too well he makes slick art. 35. These sentences comment on art, but are not art. 119 | P a g e The following is excerpted from A Separate Reality, Carlos Castaneda’s account of his experience as a student of a Yaqui sorcerer Don Juan. The idea of “controlled folly” has been very important to me whenever I feel overwhelmed by the world. (And in putting this reader together, I’m definitely getting there.) I’m pretty sure that Don Juan wasn’t excluding women from his “knowledge.” (He did have women students.) We can all of us benefit from a little reflection on our own folly now and then… Excerpt, On “Controlled Folly”: A Separate Reality Carlos Castaneda I told you once that our lot as men is to learn, for good or bad," he said. "I have learned to see and I tell you that nothing really matters; now it is your turn; perhaps someday you will see and you will know then whether things matter or not. For me nothing matters, but perhaps for you everything will. You should know by now that a man of knowledge lives by acting, not by thinking about acting, nor by thinking about what he will think when he has finished acting. A man of knowledge chooses a path with heart and follows it; and then he looks and rejoices and laughs; and then he sees and he knows. He knows that his life will be over altogether too soon; he knows that he, as well as everybody else, is not going anywhere; he knows, because he sees, that nothing is more important than anything else. In other words, a man of knowledge has no honor, no dignity, no family, no name, no country, but only life to be lived, and under these circumstances his only tie to his fellow men is his controlled folly. Thus a man of knowledge endeavors, and sweats, and puffs, and if one looks at him he is just like any ordinary man, except that the folly of his life is under control. Nothing being more important than anything else, a man of knowledge chooses any act, and acts it out as if it matters to him. His controlled folly makes him say that what he does matters and makes him act as if it did, and yet he knows that it doesn't; so when he fulfills his acts he retreats in peace, and whether his acts were good or bad, or worked or didn't, is in no way part of his concern. A man of knowledge may choose, on the other hand, to remain totally impassive and never act, and behave as if to be impassive really matters to him; he will be rightfully true at that too, because that would also be his controlled folly. 120 | P a g e Sources I pulled all of our readings straight off the web so that you all would easily be able to see them in context if you’d like without having to log into a database. This is a new thing for me (I usually go to the academic databases), but I ended up being pretty happy with the number of primary texts I was able to get for us this way. A Primitivist Primer http://www.primitivism.com/primer.htm Reborn Again http://www.infinitematrix.net/stories/shorts/reborn.html Rethinking the American Dream http://www.vanityfair.com/culture/features/2009/04/american-dream200904 Excerpts from A Walk In The Woods: Rediscovering America on the Appalachian Trail http://www.salon.com/wlust/pass/1998/05/20pass.html The Anosognosic’s Dilemma: Something’s Wrong but You’ll Never Know What It Is http://opinionator.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/06/20/the-anosognosics-dilemma-1/ Gender Issues in the Afghanistan Diaspora: Nadia's Story http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_qa3687/is_199601/ai_n8736145/ Tourism, Globalisation and Sustainable Development http://www.untamedpath.com/Ecotourism/globalisation.html Gen. McChrystal's Credibility Problem http://www.thedailybeast.com/blogs-and-stories/2009-10-14/gen-mcchrystals-credibilityproblem/full/ The Enchiridion http://classics.mit.edu/Epictetus/epicench.html Paragraphs on Conceptual Art http://www.ddooss.org/articulos/idiomas/Sol_Lewitt.htm 121 | P a g e