JOURNEYS BATCH #3
13. Art thou?
Sitting at an isolated island by myself
no one is still here
everyone is gone
I am sitting by myself
myself has even left
left me by myself
I am not here
I am not there
Nor anywhere, anyhow
I am notI wish I was not…
but I am.
In this moment by myself
time is rushing still
running past me and myself
myself is past me
and I am left
left behind
behind the right…
14. Unrequited Love:
Unexplainable sobs which I could not fathom
Came from the deep recess
Of the dark chambers of my heart.
I could not breathe, my lungs were constricting.
Like iron, I could not break apart from
the grip of my stumbling mind.
If I could have seen your face
Then maybe I could have seen the absolute unlikeliness
Of my desperate affection.
For you, I love
For me, you detest:
How have I fallen so far?
But stopping is not in question.
A shift in heart, a shift in reaction
Challenges my absolute mean
I cannot stop my unconscious yearning
To hear your perfect voice.
That is my interpretation
of an unquestionably inconclusive, and overall hopeless, love.
15. True Love
crushed with the pain
hurt with the lie
you did it to keep me burning alive
suffocating by the smoke
buried by the ashes
entangled in the flames
fire in our souls
hate in our hearts
pain in our eyes
engulfed by the lies
this love burns the brightest
but leaves the deepest scars
16. The Bug Inside
Like a constant pest you never leave me alone,
Always in my head to ruin the day
From my moody looks to the wicked tones,
I can confidently put you at blame
I am lucky enough to differentiate
Thoughts that belong to you apart from mine
Yours are filled with so much negativity and hate
Whereas mine just wish for a beautiful life
As much as I try to pry you out of my mind
Away from my body, away from my heart
Somehow you stick so strongly to the inside
Turning my sweet, loving blood to something sour and tart
When I will win this battle, I do not really know
The only thing I can surely say, is that you must leave me alone
As I walk on with my life, I would wish for you not to be here
All would be so pure and good, life would be so dear
17. Pain?
what is pain?
by definition it tells us
but experiencing it
thats how you know
from losing love
to being stabbed in the back by a friend
having relationships end
and lives being lost
pain is something we get use to
but never understand
no matter how horrible the suffering
our lives continue on
with the old and new
with less and more
but the question will always remain
what is pain?
18. The Sky
Sometimes when I’m tired and it’s late at night
I stare out my window at a most amazing sight
The sky looks back at me with its eerie feel
Painted blue, red, green, and purple, I wonder if it’s truly real
So big, so gargantuan, the vast ceiling of life lays
Just thinking about all of its wonders leaves me in a daze
That enormous space holds the very secrets of life
From the very bright beginning, to the dark end of time
I don’t want to be mistaken, for I am awed by its beauty
But something about the sky sends shivers right through me
Staring into it brings great fear into my restless mind
It’s as if I begin to fear, I begin to question life
That sky! That sky! What a horrid, monstrous sky!
It haunts me and taunts me with its nonexistent yet obvious eyes
Suddenly, I realize why I fear it so, that dark mystery of a place
Because it holds all the thoughts and ideas in my mind,
it holds all of the challenges I don’t want to face
19. Tears in the Rain
walking in the rain
no one can see your pain
tears streaming down your face
drops falling on your cheeks
storm clouds in the sky
it wasn’t supposed to be goodbye
lightning strikes and thunder shall call
but nothing matters at all
no one understands your pain
no one can tell from tears to rain
20. The Mighty Sight
They all fell I'll in the face of the light
They couldn't help to stare, for it was oh so bright
It shined the last beam of hope before the final night
And humanity fell without the slightest fight
21. Nightmare or Dream
dreams start out so sweet
for if true love shall meet
star crossed love
designed from hell or above
if being found means just being lost
is this the price or perhaps the cost
with a lovely golden heart
now the breaking to start
does love always turn to hate
is this every ones doomed fate
this life is such a scare
for all my dreams are just a nightmare
22. I Don’t Know
How could I write words of beauty
When the poison flows through my veins?
Why should I reach out to others
As I'm struggling to keep myself sane?
Refusing to let myself go
Because I'm too scared to let myself be
Where everything went, I do not know
But I do know that I'm trapped deep inside of me
I built the strongest iron bars
To cage in all I had in me
Even if I were to call upon the stars
They wouldn't be bright enough to save me
I dug my deep trench all by my little self
And I know that I will come out eventually
But for now, it's cozy and quite warm inside
I like it here, just me and myself for company
23. Horribly Perfect
all alone on this winding trail
all thoughts concealed behind a vail
nothing is out of place
not a hair in her face
a smile stretched out wide
and eyes with much to hide
different thoughts we dare not hear
demons in her heart she must fear
secrets compressed deep inside
she desires the need to hide
now with covered tears
not wanting to face her fears
as fragile as glass
and the scars of her past
she stands and goes
so no one knows
there is nothing to suspect
this girl is horribly perfect
24. No Regrets
People make mistakes all throughout their lives
They cheat, lie, and steal, they stab their loved ones with the sharpest of knives
Small mistakes, big mistakes, they are all the same
But there is one mistake that you truly are to blame
You should never regret a mistake you have made
Never wish to relive a certain time, a certain day
Live your life with no regrets, no regrets at all
Then you will most definitely be the wisest of them all
For what you did then, and how you said that
Has all narrowed down to form a very special path
You are you because of all those mistakes that you have made
And if you didn't mess up, you wouldn't be standing here today
You are so unique in every single way
Regretting you're past, however, throws it all away
So turn around and realize that there is no past or future
There is only the present, so you can end your self-loathing torture
Look straight ahead, beyond the road and the wall
And live your life, no regrets at all