1. At the very nice dinner party you gave, I reviewed with you how at the next one,
according to proper protocol, how should those same guest be seated?
The only answer is "i don't know what You said." When You were explaining it me, all i
heard was the term "seating arrangements" and then my mind was racing trying to justify
myself when i suddenly realized i sat You at the end on the table. i as not listening Sir,
and i was waiting for You to stop talking so i could explain myself.
To give an excuse, i would say that i did not give much thought to the seating
arrangements. When Marty showed up unexpectedly, i frantically set a seventh place,
trying to appear cool and unfazed. My only thought was that i would put Marty at the butt
end of the table. There were two justifications for this: one kind and one unkind. TO be
rude, that seat is the most uncomfortable, and as a slave, i would put Marty there. But
also, that position shows him off the most, and i thought it would make him the center of
attention and of use. At one side of the table i would put the rest of his family: Stephen,
Michael, and Pat in that order. i traditionally sit to the left of Marty, closest to the kitchen
so i can get up and fetch things. Next to me would be my partner Michael, unfortunately
leaving You at the end of the table.
Instead, Pegasus grabbed the head of the table. i did not set placecards, but said, "pick a
plate" and started to make my own sandwich. i was trying to get people to start dinner,
and to demonstrate how to make a panini sandwich. i should have sat everyone, then
made Your sandwich for You as an example, asking what You wanted on it. You
graciously admit that the seating arrangement worked this time, but i feel bad that i
thoughtlessly left You to the farthest chair from the conversation.
So, for the next dinner party, You would be at the head of the table You should have been
the center of the party. Two families were meeting for the first time: Your new slave (me)
and his parter (Michael), and Stephen's family. You should have been given the
opportunity to do an introduction or speech at the start of the meal. Maybe a toast. At
Your left should have Michael, as my partner and the owner of the house. You Your
right, Stephen. Next to Stephen, His boy Michael. i would imagine that Patrick would sit
at the end of the table. For fun, i would seat Marty next to my partner Michael You don't
know this, but my Michael is deaf in his right ear, and it's nice to seat a conversation
partner to his left. Meanwhile, i would take the furthest chair where i sat You.
In "Slavecraft", the slave notes that he always takes the most uncomfortable chair in the
room, walks down the side of the stairs not the center, and other tools to remind himself
of his slave status. That really impressed me.
2. How many times should I have to call out your name before you respond and in
responding, how should you react?
Only once. And i would like to respond, "Sir!" Not "Yes, Sir," because it implies that i
understood and will comply. Perhaps i did not hear something, so "Sir," lets You know
that i am attentive and present.
3. When are you not subject to BoyRules?
Great question. i don't know the answer and am just guessing. never?
4. I chastised you during the dinner party regarding the use of Slave Marty as your
servant, how did I refer to him (there are three answers here, I want all three).
"Marty". "Senior slave". "Pegasus's slave". A model to learn from.
5. When you are under BoyRules, how should you refer to Slave Marty?
Marty is the senior slave. i would address him as Marty or boy Marty.
6. How many Masters do you serve according to your contract?
Great question. i don't know the answer and am just guessing. One? (You)
The contract says, "The Master shall become the primary Master". Michael is my primary
partner.
7. What is the proper response to a Master who invites you into training with him,
other than one which I have allowed or given you permission to serve?
"i am sorry but i am currently in training with a Master and i am unable to serve You
right now."
and also
"my service is governed by the discretion of my Master and i can or will not follow and
order which is contradictory or against my Master's will or desire."
8. When presented with the opportunity of playing in the horse manure, why didn’t
you take advantage of it?
Several reasons:
i was scared, not sure what i should do or what would happen. So i did nothing.
i am disgusted by myself and my sick fetishes so i do not indulge them.
i was afraid that my behavior was not proper and would offend You or Michael.
i was waiting for orders or permission. All it would have taken was an "ok boy" or "go.
It's not fun to play that way by myself, and i felt that without engagement by you of
Michael, i was just doing things on my own.
9. What were the names of the three boys in my original household?
All three boys stuck together after You broke up the household. Michael was not the
alpha boy, just one of the boys. Another boy moved away to California. Was his name
Rick? The third i can't recall, but i believe he had more of a slave role in the family. Sam?
10. Which Master, if any, do you have my permission to serve under?
Any, as long as it is cleared first with You. Currently, that is my partner Michael and Bill
Edmunds (though Michael is not in favor of extended chastity for me, so he doesn't want
me to play that way with Bill right now). i asked about Pegasus, but You think that is not
a good idea right now and i accept that. You agreed to Ted, though my partner Michael
vetoed that, and i respect his opinion. i would like to ask about Mike's friend George, my
new friend Paksen, Steve (colowhipsmaster), and the mummification Masters Todd and
SirRubber.
11. In your own words, what is the purpose of your training as outlined by the
contract?
When i originally wrote my version of the Slave Contract, i wrote:
This slave will enter a training period in order to discover:
1. Who it is
and
2. How to provide service to others
Only by becoming a complete person, secure in its sexuality, can this slave find
happiness.
You changed this to read:
1.
The purpose of this agreement is for the mutual benefit of all parties.
2.
Specifically to allow the Pledge to explore the submissive nature of his existence
and in order to learn to what depth that nature can be expressed.
3.
Provide service to the Master (an others, as determined feasible and appropriate
by the Master for the benefit of the Pledge).
4.
The Pledge becoming a complete person, secure in his nature and the ultimate
pursuit of his happiness, honor, loyalty, pride and value (tangible or intangible) to others.
i was surprised by this change, and i am still thinking about the change in purpose.
12. While you are traveling, what are your standing orders?
Great question. i don't know the answer and am just guessing.
"(The Pledge) will still be faithful to the spirit and intention of the training and will be
expected to perform in accordance to the training."
This means i will act with Integrity and still follow all Boy Rules.
13. What are the three goals of your training?
Obedience, Repect, and Service. (i remember this by the acronym "ORS").
14. Referencing question 13, in your own words, describe how each of those goals
have been applied (or not applied) by you ?
Obedience = not very well 6 out of 10. While i have obeyed every order, i have had to be
reminded of them once or twice before i added them to my webpage. While i have done
my affirmations, i have not reviewed the Boy Rules (and/or Slave Contract) every day.
Respect = 2 out of 10. i have been petulant and rude in my journal towards You. i have
been sad and angry and took that out in childish ways.
Service = Very good, 9 out of 10. i cooked several dinners and held a party. i was present
and attentive and thoughtful, doing things like bringing drinks without being asked.
15. When does training begin and end?
Training started when You and i agreed in spirit to the contract last week. Training never
ends.
BONUS QUESTION: In 20 words or less - Why have I given you this test?
It gives You transparency. Also in the past, i have not answered correctly. Next week,
i will listen more carefully.