Black Women as Qualitative Researchers: Performing Acts of Understanding and Survival An Introduction Rhonda Baynes Jeffries University of South Carolina Gretchen Givens Generett George Mason University I have come to understand that my African-ness does not diminish my Americanness and vice versa. My identity is not an either/or proposition. Rather, it is both/and. In the same way my scholarship and my personal/cultural life are not either/or propositions. I do scholarly work that both challenges and enhances my personal/cultural life. I live a personal/cultural life that challenges and enhances my scholarly work. I am a "colored girl" who has attempted to make life in the academy satisfying and meaningful "enuf." —Ladson-Billings (1997) As members of marginalized groups assume more privileged positions in the educational socioeconomic structures a/hierarchy, people who were once merely the exotic objects of inquiry are now the inquirers—the ones formulating and asking questions. As some enter the ranks of teachers, administrators, and scholars, we are becoming the enforcers and legitimators as well as the creators of official knowledge. Hence, as qualitative 2 Jeffries & Generett researchers in the field of education, we need to explore and understand the dilemmas created for Chicanas/os, African Americans, Native Americans, and scholars from other disenfranchised groups vis-a-vis the majority culture. We scholars/activists of color need to understand the •ways in which we manipulate our multiple, fluid, clashing, and colonized identities and how our identities are manipulated and marginalized in the midst of oppressive discourses. —Villenas (1996) Ladson-Billings (1997) and Villenas (1996) described the experiences they have encountered as women of color within the academy. In these essays they eloquently describe how they negotiate their multiple identities as women of color, scholars, researchers, and community members. Similarly, James and Farmer (1993) constructed texts describing the experiences of African-American women struggling to understand their roles and identities in White academe. Granger (1993) reviewed the work of African-American women in higher education since the 1980s. Her research cited hostile work environments, adverse policies affecting rank and salary, and underrepresentation among the many factors that inhibit full participation and satisfaction for women of color in the academy. Despite the negative and unreceptive responses women of color have received in institutions of higher learning, a large range of activities exists in which Black women in America have participated and excelled for centuries. Black women's efforts to deliver education include establishing schools, often within their own homes, developing curricula, organizing literacy campaigns, advancing the Lyceum movement, promoting exemplary child care, and establishing and encouraging graduate education programs (Gyant, 1996). Black Women in the Field: Experiencing Ourselves and Others Through Qualitative Research returns our attention to the knowledge base created by women of color and bolsters the dimensions of Black women educators' efforts. Furthermore, this text expands that knowledge base through written experiences that look closely at the work of the included researchers and considers how our identities impact our professional lives and the lives of those with whom we conduct qualitative research. Researchers' multiple identities impacts their scholarship and this research was conducted with, among, and in spite of others. Research is not an objective endeavor, void of the interrelationships formed and maintained by the researcher and participants. This text, in the vein of qualitative research, urges plurality of perceptions to heighten the level of understanding among researchers and participants. The plurality of experiences represented in this text negates what Mahajan (1992) called unmitigated relativism. He described unmitigated relativism as a disregard for truth and judgments of right and wrong. Although we do not posit in this work judgments of right or wrong, we do acknowledge the multitude of various judgments made by the researchers Black Women as Qualitative Researchers 3 and the researched and the contradictions inherent within those judgment calls. Others within the academy may not agree with the perceptions held by the researchers included in this text. Nevertheless, they are the lived experiences of the researchers and those with whom they have interacted. This volume highlights eight Black women's experiences and encounters as qualitative researchers working to understand and improve Black communities and society in general while surviving in White institutions of higher education. It is divided into two conceptual categories: experiences understanding the other and experiences understanding the self. We hope this examination of the contradictions experienced by Black women academics will vividly illustrate the plurality of perceptions and the range of experiences we bring to our various disciplines within the academy. Furthermore, we hope this text enables those outside the realm of "Black female academic" to understand and embrace "the other" as we struggle to understand and embrace ourselves. EXPERIENCES UNDERSTANDING THE OTHER How does one understand the "other" when she is the "other" and few have been able to articulate a definition of "other" that is acceptable to her and from which she can begin the understanding process? The negation of our humanity is reflected in the positioning of African American women as Other, in relationship to white males and females, and often as the Other of Others in relationship to African American males. . . . Creating ourselves in our own image is a difficult task in a world which renders us both invisible and on display. It requires a re-learning. (James & Farmer, 1993, p. 219) Black women as researchers in pursuit of knowledge about other people are often, more so than any other researchers, learning and experiencing for the first time how to view the world from the center. Attempting to understand the communities in which we work. Black women researchers must consider the places we were reared, our gender, race, class, and ability, along with other interrelated factors that play a crucial role in developing and shaping our experiences and the experiences of our participants. For women of color, as Villenas (1996) wrote, we are both colonized and colonizer, marginalized by the academy yet using the resources and tools of the academy to write about our own communities and, even more intimately, our own lived experiences. The research projects within this volume explore the multiple dimensions and complexities of life for the authors as qualitative researchers contemplating who is the "other." Historically, Black women, as well as many other academics, have utilized positivist methodological approaches that distance us 4 Jeffries & Generett from our communities and the academy. Collins (1995) identified four methodical approaches that exacerbate this isolation: First, research methods require a distancing of the researcher from her/his "object" of study by defining the researcher as a "subject" with full human subjectivity and objectifying the "object" of study. A second requirement is the absence of emotions from the research process. Third, ethics and values are deemed inappropriate in the research process, either as the reason for scientific inquiry or as part of the research itself. Finally, adversarial debates, whether written or oral, become preferred method of ascertaining truth arguments that can withstand the greatest assault and survive intact become the strongest truths, (p. 343) Such framing forces Black women to "objectify themselves, devalue their emotional life, displace their motivations for furthering knowledge about Black women, and confront in an adversarial relationship, those who have more social, economic, and professional power than they" (Collins, 1995, p. 343). Efforts not to reinscribe the ideals and thoughts perpetuated by positivist methodical approaches lead Black women to choose alternative epistemiologies to describe knowledge and experience. Qualitative research, unlike more positivist methodologies provides a means for researchers to critique and improve this process. Lincoln (1990) noted that: Qualitative research is increasingly seen not simply as a set of findings that reflect non-numerical quantitative data but, rather, as a set of social processes characterized by fragile and temporary bonds between persons who are attempting to share their lives and create from that sharing a larger and wider understanding of the world, (p. 287) Collins (1991) furthered this stance by outlining four dimensions of an Afrocentric feminist epistemology; a theory she created to help bridge the gap between the personal and professional lives of Black women and enable their increased understanding of their participants. These dimensions help deconstruct the complex intersections of race, class, gender, and other cultural subtleties by rejecting the generalized belief that Black women are more oppressed than other people and therefore, possess an appropriate vantage point from which an understanding of oppression may occur. Furthermore, an Afrocentric feminist epistemology validates the experience, dialogical knowledge, caring, and accountability that may exist within a Black female academic philosophy. The experience dimension acknowledges concrete, lived experience as a marker of knowledge and wisdom as a result of concrete, lived experience. "Knowledge without wisdom is adequate for the powerful, but wisdom is essential to the survival of the subordinate" (Collins, 1991, p. 208). Knowledge developed through the use of dialogue between agents rather than from subject to object is the sec Black Women as Qualitative Researchers 5 ond dimension of an Afrocentric feminist epistemology. Additionally, this knowledge must be presented, developed, and shared using an ethic of care, the third dimension, which employs personal expressiveness, emotions, and empathy. Central to the knowledge validation process is the final dimension of accountability. In an Afrocentric feminist epistemology, accountability rests on the notion that "all views expressed and actions taken are thought to derive from a central set of core beliefs that cannot be other than personal" (Collins, 1991, p. 218). These dimensions concretely support the work undertaken in this volume, and the contributors to this text function and write from within this Afrocentric feminist framework as we attempt to better understand our world. For many Black women, this larger and wider understanding of the world includes maintaining a connection and sense of participation in one's community (hooks, 1991). In his discussion on dilemmas experienced by Black intellectuals, West (1991) noted, "The choice of becoming a black intellectual is an act of self marginality; it assures a peripheral status in and to the black community" (p. 132). Attempts to remain connected to community, while simultaneously working within academia, have created barriers and challenges for many Black women. Nonetheless, although qualitative research is a methodology where Black women do not have to distance themselves from their research or lived experiences, there is an underlying fear that our work will not be taken seriously, hooks (1991), in Black Women Intellectuals, acknowledges such emotions. She states, "Writing essays that include confessional reflections, I initially felt uncertain about whether they would speak to an audience beyond myself and my friends" (p. 157). The fear of isolation from community and the academy force many Black female researchers to question where and how our work fits within our respective discourses. Williams (1991) described these feelings of isolation as unresolved wounds ensured to plague Black women because of their existence as raced, gendered, and often economically deprived people. A common theme in the chapters of this volume is the necessity for reflecting on one's multiple identities and positionalities. As we have stated, it is our multiple identities that create the unique positions from which we attempt to understand the other. Harry (1996) wrote that the locations from which researchers conduct their work is important and valuable within research. She argued: The concern with subjectivity as a potential source of bias is at the center of established formulations of threats to validity. In qualitative research, however, an informed subjectivity has long been seen as a source of increased validity in research ... the personas we develop are influenced by the macroculture, the microcultures with which we identify, and by personal experiences that transcend group membership. The combination of these mutually interactive aspects of one's identity contribute to the individual's adoption of particular roles in particular settings, (p. 295) The interactive aspects of identity make Black women vulnerable within the academy. This collection is the first to illustrate how Black women acade- 6 Jeffries & Generett mics, although vulnerable in our relations to the academy, use the interactive aspects of our identities to make sense of our existence within the institution. We teach myriad courses to increase understanding for and among the other from this position of vulnerability. We move into known and unknown circles collecting and analyzing data to increase understanding for and among the other from this position of vulnerability. We interpret and inscribe our research to increase understanding for and among the other from this position of vulnerability. We struggle to have our inscriptions published to increase understanding for and among the other, as well as to preserve our jobs, from this position of vulnerability. We fight to negotiate student admissions, faculty appointments, curriculum reform, budget constraints, as well as tenure and promotion, to increase understanding for and among the other from this position of vulnerability. In part, this volume rests on the question: How do we survive within the academy and remain true to that which we identify? How do we increase understanding for and among the other when we have yet to fully do that for ourselves? Conducting qualitative research dictates that Black females in the academy will serve a number of competing, conflicting and contrary masters, forcing us to constantly consider who we are in order to better understand the world around us. EXPERIENCES UNDERSTANDING THE SELF Neumann and Peterson (1997) asserted that research is a "personal endeavor— experiences within and expressions of a researcher's life" (p. 1). The contributors in this volume suggest that examining that which is relevant and personal is a step toward resolving the wounds inflicted by the structures and traditions of the academy. It is a way of making life in the academy a meaningful experience (Ladson-Billings, 1997). Foss and Foss (1994) suggested using personal experience as research data and as a mechanism by which a heightened level of consciousness is created through a researcher's personal experience in the event. They wrote: The data of personal experience in feminist scholarship usually assume the form of women's personal narratives about the events of their lives, their feelings about those events, and their interpretations of them. They reveal insights into the impact of constructions of gender on women's lives, their experiences of oppression and of coping with and resisting that oppression, and their perspectives on what is meaningful in their lives, (p. 39) This struggle is blatant and recurring for Black female scholars. We struggle to develop our identities with regard to the influence of racism, family bonds, community expectations, and career demands (Pollard, 1997). We strug- Black Women as Qualitative Researchers 7 gle to integrate our use of spirituality in a space that equates emotion and spirit with inferiority and weakness (Smith, Foreword, this volume; Southern, 1996). We struggle to find our ability to use the range of our voices to express the totality of our selves (Collins, 1991). Much of Black feminist thinking reflects an effort to find a self-defined voice that expresses a fully articulated Black female viewpoint. The treatment of Black women in general renders the group invisible as full human agents, however, as academics, this position gives Black women a unique stance as outsider within that can bring with it tremendous power (Collins, 1991). It can also create tremendous strain. Constantly negotiating with oneself which performance is required at any given time in order to remain invisible is a necessary evil because invisibility is the essence of power for Black female academics. Concurrently, Black female scholars function in a world of contradictions that often discombobulate our invisible power. Farmer (1993) articulated this confusion for Black female faculty: We simultaneously have power, and lack it, in paradoxical relationships in which power is sexualized and racialized. Our intellectual abilities are questioned. We are made into fetishes. While shut out of decisions and policymaking processes, we are held responsible for outcomes, (p. 219) Instances in the lives of Black female academics, where we are relegated to the status of the other by our colleagues, constantly erode our sense of self and our ability to trust and exercise the invisible power we have. When our research on Black people is dismissed as irrelevant to the knowledge base, we lose our trust in ourselves. When our research and teaching methodologies are seen as lacking in rigor and not generalizable, we lose trust in ourselves. When our writing is deemed unacceptable, despite our prior admission to the rights and privileges granted other doctors of philosophy, we lose trust in ourselves. Fortunately, alternative epistemiologies provide validation for the way we work and relief from the fear and reality of rejection. McKay (1989) acknowledged community identity as an essential aspect of understanding Black self-identity. Community identity provides Black people a space for rejecting negative self-images created and imposed by mainstream culture and also allows Black people space to construct positive and powerful identities. Each of the authors in this volume discusses how alternative ways of knowing and expressing and how the process of conducting qualitative research has provided space for contesting and creating her concept of self. Conducting qualitative inquiry shapes who she is and, in turn, the research endeavor transforms her personal and professional life and her ability to be a force in those complementary and conflicting areas. Qualitative inquiry is an appropriate outlet for understanding a self that is characterized by the fierce intersection of race, class and gender, whereas oral narrative is ideally suited to reveal the multilayered texture of the lives of Black 8 Jeffries & Generett female academics (Etter-Lewis, 1991). As Black female scholars, we are often the most stabilizing forces within our communities, whereas at the same time serving as agents of social change. And although we strive to meet the community's belief in our ability to create change, we encounter antithetical resistance from the same institutions that trained us to investigate, examine, analyze, and reform. Still, within this appropriate outlet of qualitative research exists limitations. Grumet (1991) suggested these limitations prohibit women academics from developing into whole beings, hiding their feelings and their personal observations in a diary, while publishing only the "scholarly accounts" of their work (p. 111). Traditional structures that narrowly define the ways in which research is conducted, reported, and interpreted leave little space for the Afrocentric feminist narratives presented in this text. The essential nature of qualitative, narrative research is constantly under attack because the methodology attempts to validate individual, often marginalized voices in an academic world that expects measurable outcomes and generalizable interpretations. Elbaz-Luwisch (1997) speaks to the contradictory nature of narrative research that often uses small samples and does not claim to produce generalization or immediate applicability. This methodology does, however: make strong claims for the authenticity and power of narrative research. [Narrative researchers] aspire to true collaboration and to the giving of voice to participants, yet still work from within traditional academic structures which value individuality, originality and ownership of intellectual products. These paradoxical circumstances give rise to confrontation within traditional modes of research, (p. 76) Creating qualitative collaborations is an alternative way of gathering and processing information, as well as an alternative way of understanding human interactions. Investigating cultural phenomena require human interactions that are "more dynamic and open than many theories allow" and force the acknowledgment that "academics don't know more than ordinary people do about their own stories" (ElbazLuwisch, 1997, p. 78). Most academics are uncomfortable with this notion, and even as Elbaz-Luwisch critiqued the academy's elitism toward the acquisition and creation of knowledge, the critique suggests that academics are not ordinary people and reveals the identity struggle that all academics and researchers endure. As Black women qualitative researchers struggling with our identities, we ask ourselves many questions between the lines of this text. How do we get out of ourselves in order to see into them? And once we get out, how do we go back? This volume is a glimpse of eight Black female academics attempting to mediate the back and forth—acknowledging the impossibility of understanding the other without understanding the self. We ask ourselves if our intentions in these chapters will transcend the language we have used to express our ideas about other people. We ponder our ability to speak on the Black experience, as Black Women as Qualitative Researchers 9 well as the Black female academic experience, without generalizing and stereotyping it. We crave for that experience to be heard and embraced by our participants and our colleagues. We are riding a high fence that has yet to be destroyed by prior institutionalized mechanisms, and our work seeks to chip away at that barrier; not to increase it. 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