Running head: FROM TREADING WATER From Treading Water to Swimming in the Deep End: The Journey and Experiences of Becoming a Qualitative Researcher Harley Walden Research Paper submitted for EDF 625 Qualitative Research in Education at Marshall University in partial fulfillment for the requirements for the degree of Doctor of Education in Curriculum and Instruction Linda Spatig, Ed. D., Instructor Graduate School of Education and Professional Development South Charleston, West Virginia 2014 1 FROM TREADING WATER 2 From Treading Water to Swimming in the Deep End: The Journey and Experiences of Becoming a Qualitative Researcher I must say that I am very embarrassed to admit that I am twenty-nine years old and I cannot swim! This is a ridiculous fact that I plan to remedy by signing up for swimming lessons at the end of this semester. I can trace this irrational fear back to my childhood when my family was on vacation visiting some cousins at Myrtle Beach, South Carolina. I was probably nine years old at the hotel’s pool on a very hot summer’s day. I had my back to my aunt while I was putting on a pair of water wings or floaties, as they are commonly known, when I heard her say, “you’re gonna sink or swim.” Well, I did not swim, as I sank to the bottom of the deep end, which was twelve-foot deep. This was the beginning of my twenty-plus years’ worth of panic when it came to deep water. Although much less traumatic, this is a similar experience when I began doing qualitative research. I had very limited experience with qualitative and ethnographic research when this class began, but there comes a time when you have to face your fears and engage with the process that might frighten or unsettle you the most. Deciding What to Study/Research Questions (Facing Your Fears) Just like the decision to sign up for swimming classes was a difficult, yet vital step on the path to overcoming and facing my fears, so too was the decision when I made up my mind about what I would study for this qualitative research class. I consulted Bogdan and Biklen’s (2007) advice about choosing a research topic and one of the major issues that I needed to keep in mind was that “without a touch of passion, you may not have enough to sustain the effort to follow the work through to the end or to go beyond the ordinary” (p. 56). So, I wanted to make sure that for my first qualitative research FROM TREADING WATER 3 project that I chose a topic that I was interested in and had a foundational point of reference. I was first stuck on what general area my research topic would arise, but was interested in researching tutoring in some way. This sage advice guided me in the right direction, as I had to take into consideration the size and scope for my possible research topic in the next step. When considering what topic I would choose for my qualitative research project, I knew that there would have to be some parameters regarding the size and scope of my topic for this project. Bogdan and Biklen (2007) describe these parameters in terms of “picking a study that seems reasonable in size and complexity so that it can be completed with the time and resources available “ and to “also take into account your own skill, which, at this time is likely to be untested and underdeveloped” (p. 56). When I began this class I had no idea how to conduct a qualitative ethnographic project, so to say I was a novice would be an overstatement. I had very few research skills already developed before the start of this class, as I had previously only done historical research with documents. The length of this class and due dates for assignments also placed limitations on my selection of a research topic that influenced the size and scope for this qualitative project. It was at this point when I began to think about what aspect of tutoring I could explore within the timeframe that was available and also within the logistic realm of possibility, as the next guideline suggested by Bogdan and Biklen (2007) would also play an important role in selecting a topic and research questions. After taking into consideration the size and scope of my research topic, I also needed to be aware of my own biases and proximity to “tutoring” as a field of study and occupation, as I both a graduate assistant ant tutor at the Buck Harless Student-Athlete FROM TREADING WATER 4 Program. As discussed by Bogdan and Biklen (2007), “people who are intimately involved in a setting find it difficult to distance themselves both from personal concerns and from their commonsense understandings of what is going on” (p. 57). I knew that I wanted to explore a topic related to tutoring and after contacting my class’ instructors, I came up with the idea of taking a look at the other main tutoring facility on campus that provides services to the general student body, not just a specific clientele like at the tutoring facility where I work that only provides help to student-athletes. I wanted to avoid a topic that was too close to my own area of expertise, so the tutoring facility at the university that provides help for the entire student body became the focus for the next step of refining my research topic and developing a central research question to coincide with my topic. Once I had chosen an area of interest for my qualitative research project, I needed to refine and parse my large, general topic down into a smaller, more manageable topic that would easily support a quality research question. Bogdan and Biklen (2007) suggest being prepared to “brainstorm possibilities and then to eliminate some on practical or other grounds” because “doing this often helps you become clearer about your interests and thus narrow the options” (p. 58). I sent an email to my instructors in order to narrow my research topic and develop a research question to go along with it. I informed them that I wanted to potentially look at the differences and similarities, if any, between the tutoring facility aimed at helping student-athletes and the tutoring facility that provides help for the entire student body. One of my instructors replied that “it might also be interesting as well to explore why student-athletes have separate tutoring services to begin with and if they are equivalent” (B. Seyedmonir, personal communication, FROM TREADING WATER 5 September, 2, 2014). This really got me thinking about the differences in the quality of services at both of the tutoring facilities. So, my research topic became the tutoring services provided at the facility for the entire student body and the research question became “What are the tutors’ and tutees’ perceptions and experiences associated with the quality of services that are provided at the tutoring facility?” Now with a research topic and question in mind, I was ready to get my toes wet and gain access to my research site. Gaining Access (Getting Your Toes Wet) Gaining access to my research site was very much like dipping my toes into a pool for the first time. It is one of the beginning steps you take before you venture out further into the pool of qualitative research, uncertain of both its depths and whether you can swim to the deep end and successfully accomplish this task. Before I initiated the process of gaining access, I was divided between two different research sites. The first site was where I worked at the tutoring facility that provides help to student-athletes and the second site was the tutoring facility that provided services to the entire student body at the university. After receiving feedback from Dr. Spatig and Bobbie regarding these two different alternatives, I chose the tutoring facility that provided services for the entire student body in order to avoid any conflicts of interest and avoid any research data that might influenced by my connections to the student-athlete tutoring facility. So, after choosing a research site, I began the gaining access portion of this project. The first step in gaining access to a research site is finding out the hierarchy and rules they have in place. So, I looked up the tutoring facility’s website and found out the name and contact information for the program’s director. Bogdan and Biklen (2007) suggest approaching the gaining access stage of qualitative research from an open and FROM TREADING WATER 6 honest overt perspective, as you should “make your interests known and seek the cooperation of those you will study” (p. 84). This was my approach when I contacted the tutoring facility’s director via a phone call. I was up front about who I was and what my intentions were in relation to this qualitative research project. This is also part of the process that Bogdan and Biklen (2007) advocate, as they state, “it is a good idea to emphasize that you are a student and seek their sympathetic cooperation” (p. 86). I approached the phone call with the program’s director, as a formal inquiry where I laid out the research project and reassured her about my intentions. I explained that I would be doing two observations and two interviews that would be unobtrusive in nature. Another key element of the gaining access process is telling the gatekeeper “that you do not plan to use anyone’s name and that you will disguise the location” (Bogdan & Biklen, 2007, p. 87). I specifically told the program’s director that the names and opinions of anyone I interviewed and observed would remain confidential and that none of this research was going beyond the parameters of my qualitative research class. I also indicated that I would not produce any new data regarding specific statistics from my research and that they would not be receiving anything research-wise at the conclusion of my data analysis (Bogdan & Biklen, 2007). This makes it clear that this is not a quid pro quo dynamic and that at any time, if she decided, my involvement with the facility would be terminated. I was able to establish a rapport with the gatekeeper and director of the tutoring facility, and scheduled a meeting for my first participant observation. I followed Bogdan and Biklen’s (2007) three-step process for gaining access to my research site in terms of being “persistent, flexible, and creative” (p. 89). These steps summarize the kind of FROM TREADING WATER 7 attitude toward qualitative research that is required in order to successfully gain access to a site. So after successfully gaining access to my research site, it was time to start researching the existing body of knowledge associated with the quality of tutoring services provided to student-athletes and non-athlete students. Literature Searching (Better Grab Some Floaties) After getting my toes wet and getting a feel for the qualitative research process, it was time to wade deeper into the pool with the help of some floaties, as I explored the existing body of knowledge about my research topic. I conducted my initial search for the existing body of literature related to my research topic after I completed my first participant observation. By taking this approach, I followed Bogdan and Biklen’s (2007) advice that qualitative researchers should “begin exploring the literature while you are in the field” (p. 169). This was new approach to research for me, as I usually performed a search for literature before I entered the field in order to better familiarize myself with my research topic and the specific terminology associated with similar studies. However, Bogdan and Biklen’s (2007) guidelines for conducting a search for literature offers a unique framework for novice researchers because they suggest that “after you have been in the field for a while, going through the substantive literature in the area you are studying will enhance analysis” (p. 169). After I conducted my first participant observation, I developed a few initial inquiries, in terms of the terminology and issues related to my research topic. For instance, I began my search for literature with terms, such as “student-athletes,” “tutors,” and “tutoring services.” The results came back with only one article that discussed student-athletes tutoring at-risk children, which was not relevant to my research topic. Next, I used the terms “student-athletes” in conjunction FROM TREADING WATER 8 with the phrase “academic support programs.” This search received four results that were of varying relevance to my research topic, which was more substantial than my first inquiry with the database. The search for literature process was trial and error to some degree, as I was able to eventually accumulate enough literature about my topic to go with the data that I collected, and was representative of my larger struggles with becoming a qualitative researcher. Another important guideline that I tried to keep in mind with my literature search was that I needed to “try to avoid jamming my data into preformed conceptual schemes” (Bogdan & Biklen, 2007, p. 169). I wanted to become more knowledgeable about my topic, but at the same time I did not want the articles to direct my data collection into previously charted terrain. I read these data-based articles and eventually narrowed them down to four, in order to keep the parameters of my research project intact. With these four articles, I found that there were two main fields of study relating to tutoring at the post-secondary level: studies that dealt with the quality of the tutoring services available to college students and studies that involved the structure or organization of the tutoring services available for college students. One article that discusses the importance of the quality for a tutoring program is Arco-Tirado, Fernandez-Martin, and Fernandez-Balboa’s (2011). Their article, The Impact of a Peer-Tutoring Program on Quality Standards in Higher Education (2011), explored the connection between freshman dropout rates and academic failure and the influence that a peer-tutoring program at the University of Granada had on those rates of failure of dropout. The forty-one students were divided into either an experimental or control group. Some of them were then paired with peers that tutored them ten times FROM TREADING WATER 9 during ninety appointments throughout the course of a semester (Arco-Tirado, Fernandez-Martin, & Fernandez-Balboa, 2011). These tutors received four three-hour certification training sessions relating to issues, such as “planning and time management, cognitive and metacognitive learning strategies, motivational strategies, and the use of materials designed ad hoc for this program” (Arco-Tirado, Fernandez-Martin, & Fernandez-Balboa, 2011, p. 773). Arco-Tirado, Fernandez-Martin, & Fernandez-Balboa (2011) found that the freshman students, who received the peer tutoring services, experienced: higher grade point averages, an increase in learning strategy comprehension, and higher rates of academic success than the freshman who did not receive the peertutoring services. So the important aspect of this study dealing with the quality of the peer-tutoring program was the fact that the tutors were well trained and certified, which translated to marked improvements in their tutees’ academic progress. Another article that dealt with the quality of tutoring services available to college students, conducted by Dioso-Henson (2012), examined the difference between the academic improvement for students enrolled in a college Physics class using Reciprocal Peer Tutoring (RPT) and students who are not using the RPT tutoring services. Students were grouped into pairs and provided with online mentoring services as well. Before each RPT tutoring appointment occurred, each student completed multiple choice assessments that had the answers provided through the use of study guides via the online website (Dioso-Henson, 2012). In the RPT groups, each student would take and administer the assessment to their partner in a reciprocal manner before each class. In the traditional non-RPT tutoring groups, one student would always administer the assessment and the other would always take the test, thus keeping the roles of tutor and tutee solidified FROM TREADING WATER 10 throughout the process. Each tutoring group also had a class monitor and peer mentor to offer feedback regarding the students’ academic performance and their attitudes toward the tutoring appointments. Interestingly, Dioso-Henson (2012) found that both types of tutoring services improved students’ grades in their Physics class, with the RPT appointments resulting in only marginally higher scores than the non-RPT tutoring appointments. This study shows that as long as a tutoring program is well resourced, it does not particularly matter if the program adopts a RPT or traditional approach to tutoring; the issue that really matters is the high quality of the services at the tutoring facility. In addition to the studies dealing with the quality of the tutoring services that were provided to college students, there were also many studies dealing with the structure and organization of the tutoring programs. Schleyer, Langdon, and James’ (2005) article, examined the structure of a peer-tutoring program at the Department of Engineering at the University of Liverpool. Their peer-tutoring program was designed for undergraduate Engineering students taking Conceptual Design classes. These classes were taught primarily through lecture and instructor critique sessions. The faculty designed the tutoring program as a way “to facilitate student learning by making the group work for itself, without providing supplementary teaching or textbook solutions to set problems” (Schleyer, Langdon, and James, 2005, p. 245). The researchers found that the students who received the peer tutoring services increased their ability to solve problems, became more confident in their academic abilities, and viewed the tutoring appointments as a non-threatening way to practice conceptual design skills with understanding peers and not professors who might judge them based on their academic deficiencies (Schleyer, FROM TREADING WATER 11 Langdon, and James, 2005). So, the structure of a tutoring program is important for its ultimate success. If structured properly, tutoring programs allow students the opportunity to make mistakes, without feeling judged, and learn from their own miscalculation. Burns, Jasinski, Dunn, and Fletcher’s (2013) article also explored the connection between the structure of a tutoring program and its impact on a student population. In this case, the self-efficacy of student-athletes’ decision-making skills was analyzed in relation to the structure of a tutoring program that provided them with academic support. The study involved 158 student-athletes from eleven different NCAA Division 1 schools and measured their levels of satisfaction with the organization of the tutoring services that they were provided, their self-efficacy regarding their decision-making skills, and their individual level of self-control (Burns, Jasinski, Dunn, & Fletcher, 2013). The researchers found that the student-athletes’ opinions of the tutoring program’s organizations were positively related to their individual self-efficacy regarding their decision-making skills. In addition to these results, the authors stated that “students who were more satisfied with their school’s academic support services typically had higher levels of career decisionmaking self-efficacy (CSDE)” (Burns, Jasinski, Dunn, & Fletcher, 2013, p. 165). So if student-athletes are satisfied with the structure of their tutoring services, then they are also more likely to be more confident in their abilities to make career decisions. The structure of the tutoring programs in the study included academic advisors, career counselors, and athletic staff who all worked in unison to ensure the student-athletes’ academic success. FROM TREADING WATER 12 After analyzing the existing body of literature regarding my topic, my research should be viewed as a combination of both existing trends. My research looked at the ways that tutors and tutees viewed the quality of the services that were provided and also their perceptions of the tutoring facility’s structure. These different perceptions were collected from my observations and interview transcripts. After concluding my search for literature, it was time to collect data in the field and either sink or swim. Fieldwork/Collecting Data (Sink or Swim) Once I had accumulated enough articles relating to my research topic, I needed to collect more data in the field and engage with the qualitative research process or sink in a failing effort. Patton (2002) provides a useful framework for qualitative research that allowed me to better understand my role as an ethnographic researcher. He offers three basic categories containing 12 different principles, which can be used to construct a good qualitative study. Within each of these three domains, there are twelve principles that shape and influence the nature of a qualitative study. The design of the study is supposed to be flexible in terms of emerging understandings and observations and use purposeful sampling among its participants in order to “gain insight about the phenomenon” (Patton, 2002, p. 40). The researcher seeks qualitative data with thick, full descriptions and engages the observation participants in a close way without judging them in order to remain neutral, while still being mindful of the changing dynamics of the observed participants. In relation to the design of my study, I had to be flexible in order to address unanticipated factors that changed the focus of my qualitative research. The emergent FROM TREADING WATER 13 nature of my research design was reflected when I altered the focus of my research from exploring the differences between two different tutoring facilities to looking at the different perceptions of tutors and tutees’ regarding the quality of services that are provided at the tutoring facility. These details began to manifest in my fieldwork, especially in terms of conducting observations. During my first observation at the tutoring facility, I began to notice small, yet important details regarding the facility’s resources: O.C.: The old wooden desk that they were using resembled a child’s crib with panels on both sides and a bar going across the top. Although somewhat messy, the graduate assistants had a method to their madness and seemingly knew where everything was located and could grab something when needed. (fieldnotes, 9/19/14) This particular observer comment provided the thick, full descriptions that I was looking for, such as the “old wooden desk” that looked like a child’s crib. I was not expecting to encounter such detail, but this shows the emergent nature of qualitative research. In fact, I encountered similar details during my second observation when I noted that “I thought about the main tutoring lounge’s pastel colored walls and the clearly dated carpeting and the lack of resources that are made available to the facility by the university” (fieldnotes, 10/10/14). These details allowed me to make changes to the design of my research, based on unanticipated details from my observations that addressed the perceived lack of resources at the tutoring facility. FROM TREADING WATER 14 Bogdan and Biklen’s (2007) guidelines for conducting observations were especially helpful for me, as I struggled to find the focus for my research design in a strange new environment. As advised by my class instructor, we were to conduct one observation without writing down any notes and then on the second one we were supposed to jot down a few quick thoughts or reflections during our time at the research site. Bogdan and Biklen’s (2007) discussion regarding the awkward feeling of being a “researcher” really resonated with me, as I did not think that I was a formal ethnographer or qualitative researcher, but just a student doing homework. This is what played in the back of my mind during my first observation. However, before I knew it I started to feel more confident in my abilities and began “to establish rapport, and ‘learned the ropes,’ as I became comfortable and worked at making the subjects feel comfortable with me” (p. 90). On the second observation, I learned from my mistakes about sitting in a loud environment and asked to move so I could hear the tutoring sessions going on. As I was initially uncomfortable in my role as a qualitative researcher, I sat through less than perfect conditions and performed my first observation at the tutoring facility. There were many distractions, yet I still did not move or ask if I could change seats with one of the G.A.s because of my own lack of confidence. This unease is visible during my first observation: I sat in the last of the four chairs across from his desk by the large, buzzing soda machine. The room was very large and stifling hot, as the temperature outside was very humid at the time of my visit. I chose to glance through one of the tutoring tip pamphlets that I received from the smaller tutoring lounge in order to remain FROM TREADING WATER 15 unobtrusive and fairly inconspicuous to the other tutors and tutees who came and went while I was there. (fieldnotes, 9/19/14) It is obvious to me now that I should have moved in order to get a better vantage point to observe the tutoring appointments, but my own discomfort with the role of “researcher” prevented me from making a change and taking action. Fortunately during my second observation, I felt more comfortable with myself and asked the G.A., A.J., to move when I heard the buzzing air conditioner again. This change in confidence can be seen when I noted: “A he [A.J.] walked past me, I stood up and said, “Do you mind if I switch chairs and sit at one of the empty spots at your tutoring station? I can’t hear anything with the hum of the air conditioner.” He said, “Sure thing.” (fieldnotes, 10/10/14). Although this may seem trivial, it signaled a major change for me as a qualitative researcher. After completing my first participant observation, I had to conduct two ethnographic interviews in order to progress along my way of becoming a qualitative researcher. Spradley’s (1979) guidelines for conducting an ethnographic interview helped me organize and plan for my first interview associated with this research topic. The guidelines state that you begin with the idea that an interview is a major speech event, similar in some respects to a friendly conversation that you might have with an acquaintance. Spradley (1979) then discusses the elements of an ethnographic interview. These elements include: stating your explicit purpose, ethnographic explanations, project explanations, recording explanations, native language explanations, interview explanations, question explanations, and ethnographic questions. Of most interest to me FROM TREADING WATER 16 was Spradley’s (1979) use of ethnographic questions that provide description, structure, and contrast to the interview. I struggled with asking structural questions that “enable the ethnographer to discover information about domains, the basic units in an informant’s cultural knowledge” (Spradley, 1979, p. 60). For instance during my first interview with A.J., I asked a structural question about his dual roles as a tutor and as a G.A., but I never followed up with a good qualifying question about what these roles mean to him. This can be seen in the excerpt below: I: Since you have been here, what’s it like to be both a G.A. and a tutor? R: Well, I am currently only a G.A. I was a tutor at the beginning of 2012, but now my work involves the organizing and scheduling of tutoring appointments. I can tell you that there are a lot of responsibilities at the desk with an equal amount of personal responsibility with helping a single student or a small group of students at one time. It can be very difficult to manage all of these different tasks and responsibilities at the same time, while still having your own homework. I have always been a desk G.A. (A.J., personal communication, October, 31, 2014) I did not capitalize on a potentially intriguing follow-up opportunity that could have explored what these dual roles mean to him as an employee of the tutoring facility. I switched topics rather abruptly and the chance was lost. However, during my second interview with a student who had received tutoring services there, I asked another structural question and then issued a good follow-up so that I could explore her understanding behind the purpose of tutoring as a service to students. This is demonstrated when I asked: FROM TREADING WATER 17 I: If you don’t mind, let’s backtrack a little bit and discuss your academic experience here at the university. R: I’m actually a Freshman and I came in with college credits so I just kind of got thrown into Organic and I was really worried, but after a while it wasn’t as bad as I thought. I still wanted to like make sure that I was doing all right and doing all of the right things. So that’s why I wanted to find a tutor for it, but I wasn’t necessarily doing bad in the class. I just wanted to be a little more confident. I: I’m sure that was a nice feeling in that class. Speaking of the new surroundings, how would you describe the tutoring facilities for the first time, including the building, the staff, and the program? (Carin, personal communication, November, 14, 2014) Conducting an ethnographic interview was a new and daunting task for me, but I feel like I was able to improve under the combined tutelage of Dr. Spatig and Bobbie. Just like everything else in life, practice makes perfect or at least you will improve throughout the process. So, after conducting some fieldwork and collecting some data, it was time to code and analyze my findings in an attempt to tread water and keep afloat. Coding and Analysis/Findings (Treading Water) Now that I had indeed started to swim and ventured out deeper into the swimming pool of qualitative research, I realized that I was treading water and staying afloat by being able to reflect back on the processes and methodologies that had got me to this point. I found meaning in my collected data through the process of coding. Data analysis FROM TREADING WATER 18 or “the process of systematically searching and arranging the interview transcripts, fieldnotes, and other materials that you accumulate” (Bogdan & Biklen, 2007, p. 159) is an extremely important and challenging task for a novice qualitative researcher. Another important component of this process is data interpretation, which involves the qualitative researcher “developing ideas about your findings and relating them to the literature and to broader concerns and concepts” (Bogdan & Biklen, 2007, p. 159). One way that qualitative researchers make meaning out of their collected data is to develop a coding system to organize and sort pages’ worth of interview transcripts, fieldnotes, and observer comments. Coding systems allow you to “search through your data for regularities and patterns as well as for topics your data cover, and then write down words and phrases to represent these topics and patterns” (Bogdan & Biklen, 2007, p. 173). The generation of different coding categories can also be a challenging aspect of the coding process, as they can come from using the native language observed or heard in an interview or could come from your research question. I had a difficult time with creating coded groups the first time I analyzed all of my data up to that point, which included two participant observations and one interview transcript. I ended up having 116 different coding groups with eleven different families to organize them by. For instance, I could have combined groups like “messy desk,” “old desk,” and “1980s carpeting” into one group name “resources,” which would describe the tutoring facility’s lack of resources. I think that I used too many coding groups the first time, but was able to parse that large, bloated amount of coded groups into a more manageable level of analysis with two large coded families that utilized native language to describe the data on my second attempt. FROM TREADING WATER 19 These two coded families were labeled,“ Is this a tutoring center?” and “What I thought it was gonna be like.” I then combined a great deal of the older, clunky coded groups into more meaningful categories, such as “It’s part of the job,” which describes the tutoring responsibilities for the facility’s employees. However, I soon realized that the names of these two coding groups were misleading and did not accurately represent the meaning I was trying to convey with the data. Two more suitable names for these groups might be, “this is how it works here” and “how tutoring is viewed.” The first group refers to the resources, rules, and protocol at the tutoring facility and the second group refers to peoples’ perceptions of the tutoring facility. It was important to convey the thick, rich detail from my data and show that my data “analysis was shaped both by the researcher’s perspectives and theoretical positions and by the dialogue about the subject that one cannot help but enter” (Bogdan & Biklen, 2007, p. 183). I feel like I improved a great deal from my first attempt at coding my data to my second attempt where I parsed the coding families down into smaller categories that used native language to convey their meaning. Another one of the major issues that I found interesting and relevant to my discussion on becoming a qualitative researcher is the topic of validity. Merriam (1995) discussed the importance of addressing validity in qualitative research by clarifying its meaning. Internal validity for qualitative research focuses on the dynamic between reality and the findings of the research (Merriam, 1995). In order to strengthen the internal validity of qualitative research, Merriam (1995) offered five strategies for researchers to employ: triangulation, member-checks, peer/colleague examination, statement of researcher’s experiences, and the submersion in the research activity. As part of my FROM TREADING WATER 20 qualitative research project, I issued a statement of my experience and biases up front to both the reader, as well as my interview subjects to let them know where I was coming from and that my experiences as a tutor and as a graduate assistant might influence the way I perceive things because I might have done them differently or I might not approve of the other tutoring facility’s approach to providing students academic support. Merriam (1995) advocates this process, as it “enables the reader to better understand how the data might have been interpreted in the manner in which they were” (p. 55). My own biases were made known to the interview participants, as well as in my fieldnotes, so I could admit upfront that my interpretation of the collected data might be influenced by my experiences. After coding my data and addressing internal validity, I was ready to start writing it up and swim in the deep end of qualitative research. Writing (Swimming in the Deep End) After being able to tread water for a while, the natural progression is to test your skills and confidence by swimming out deeper into the pool of qualitative research by writing up your data analyses, as well as your reflections on the process and methods that you utilized along the way. I found a great deal of inspiration when reading the Spatig and Amerikaner (2014) book, especially the discussion on their writing process and dealing with qualitative research. Although their approach to research utilized collaborative ethnography and my research project was much smaller in size and scope, Chapter 8, subtitled “There’s a (Research) Method to our Madness,” allowed me to think clearly about balancing voices and maintaining the interview subject’s original thoughts, especially in light of possible contradictory testimonials. This was evidenced when I coded the tutee’s interview transcript, my second overall, and analyzed her experiences FROM TREADING WATER 21 with the tutoring facility. They certainly conflicted with my first interview subject’s perceptions of the tutoring facility. I wanted to briefly discuss both of their experiences in this paper just to illustrate the fact that the difference in their experiences “reflects the complexity of voice decisions researchers make all of the time, but rarely acknowledge publicly” (Spatig & Amerikaner, 2014, p. 177). So although I am not writing about their experiences per se in this current narrative, I still had to negotiate and reconcile thee divergence of experiences, as expressed by both interview participants. In a more general sense, I also found Bogdan and Biklen’s (2007) discussion on the writing process to be illuminating when I started to write up the data and reflect back on my methods and practices in the field as a struggling, novice qualitative researcher. If I would classify my paper, it would mostly fall into the “topic” focus category because I am not arguing anything with my research, just exploring the experiences of tutors and tutees about the services provided at the university’s tutoring facility for the general student body. It functions as “a unit of a particular aspect of what you are studying” and “is descriptive” (Bogdan and Biklen, 2007, p. 200). Another important element that is present in this qualitative paper is my own voice and presence, which is refreshing and much easier for me to use, as opposed to a distant, quantitative piece. This allowed me to “separate myself from or reveal to others my personal bias” (Bogdan and Biklen, 2007, p. 201). Using the first-person perspective with writing my research up allowed me to maintain control of my writing and “focus on developing a clear logic that readers can follow” (Bogdan and Biklen, 2007, p. 216). I have tried to accurately chronicle my journey from an inexperienced novice at the beginning of this project to a qualitative researcher who can now swim in the deep FROM TREADING WATER 22 end of the swimming pool because of practice and experiences in the field, coding and analyzing data, and writing up my experiences in a reflective format. My journey began with developing a research topic and question that would guide my experiences in the field that would come later. My experiences in the field allowed me the opportunity to make small mistakes and improve on the second attempt without the fear of complete ridicule. After analyzing my data and coding the interview transcripts and fieldnotes, I was able to gain more insight into what it really takes to be a qualitative researcher. 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