Paper Seventh International Congress of Qualitative Inquiry May 18-21, 2011, Illinois, US. Line Lerche Mørck, llm@dpu.dk. From an ethically stuckplace to revolutionary victory - Collective memory work with mothers of diagnosed children Line Lerche Mørck (together with Heidi Birk Carlsen, Connie Cramer Jensen, Anja Grøndahl & Irene Nørgaard) The paper discusses methodological and ethical challenges connected with collective memory work on memories from one’s own family. Research into children categorised with autism, ADHD or learning disabilities often focuses on diagnostics, including how to deal with kids in school and at home. These ‘diagnostic problems’ are described in a terminology of ‘problems’ or ‘lack of abilities’, which may stigmatise and reproduce the marginal positions of the diagnosed children and their mothers. Sensitive or personal research topics like those dealt with in the present study often lead to anxiety about being stigmatized. Like other collective memory work (Farrar 2007) our research must deal with ethical dilemmas of being too painful or too sensitive to publish. In more general terms, this paper is about an ethically stuck place, in which researchers need to find a way beyond that builds on ethical considerations and actions that we consider relevant for further research into people in marginal positions. The original draft of this paper was discussed and rewritten together with the group of five researchers/mothers. As a collective memory work group we experienced that the ethical discussions about sensitivity, confidentiality and anonymity changed into discussions of how to make revolutions, and how we as mothers wished to share the research results and spread ideas of how to act expansively, e.g. by using the results at schools. But how did this change come about? The paper introduces the methodology of collective memory work with mothers and ethical ways to deal with these dilemmas of sensitivity. It objectifies steps beyond the fear and shows how to 1 Paper Seventh International Congress of Qualitative Inquiry May 18-21, 2011, Illinois, US. Line Lerche Mørck, llm@dpu.dk. deal with anxiety related to marginal, sensitive feelings of stigmatisation, both as part of the research process and as content of memories. The paper explores this road to the experience of a “revolutionary victory”. The paper builds on a methodological memory work case, presenting the processes of ethical reflection as well as deconstruction and reconstruction that we experienced as a meaningful and a revolutionary way beyond stigmatisation. The research discussed in this paper has one main focus: “What do diagnoses do to us?” The “us” includes the mothers, the fathers, the children, the rest of the families and the professionals who collaborate to support the development of the children “acquisitioned”1 by a behaviour-based diagnosis. The empirical material used in the research project currently comprises transcribed reflections of four meetings and analyses of five collective biographies. These include analyses of normativities (first and third person discussions of rights and wrongs) that played a role in the stories/biographies and were generalised as rationalities at play as well as analyses of the changes in historical and cultural contexts in which diagnostic thinking about ADHD, autism, gifted children, and behavioural and learning disorders are constructed and acted on. We (the five mothers) who are involved in the project as researchers all have academic qualifications as researchers and/or (educational) psychologists; three are students of educational psychology. We all have a history of challenging the practice of professionals. Below we discuss ethical aspects, including reasons drawn from the methodology of collective memory work for writing about the mothers and their stories in the third person, for example: “the mother” in contrast to “I”, “we” and “us”. The use of the term “acquisitioned” here is inspired by the article “Acquisition of a child by a learning disability” (McDermott, 1993). 1 2 Paper Seventh International Congress of Qualitative Inquiry May 18-21, 2011, Illinois, US. Line Lerche Mørck, llm@dpu.dk. Research methodology This paper contributes to a critical, collective and practice research methodology to explore both problems and possibilities, including ways to partly transcend marginalisation (Kristensen & Mørck, 2011, in press; Mørck, 2010; Mørck, 2011). The existing critical and practice-oriented studies tend to focus on the school or on institutional practice with diagnosed children. These studies typically represent the perspectives of professionals and occasionally the perspectives of the children; only rarely are the perspectives of parents included. But there are exceptions to these tendencies; although Fleer & Hedegaard (2010), Dreier (2008) do not go into the diagnostic discussions, they do analyse parents’ and children’s different positions and their standpoints on problems in their everyday lives across contexts. The collective memory work methodology (Haug 1987, 1997), also called collective biography (Davies & Gannon 2006), is based on the memories of the research participants, who are also the researchers. Collective memory work represents an attempt to identify the common threads, i.e. the different viewpoints and rationalities that have shaped the collective memories. The aim of such an exercise is to move from the mothers’ own private embodied knowledge to a set of more collective and theoretically reflected insights into the dimensions of dilemmas, problems and possibilities the mothers are collectively facing. Nothing has yet been published on collective memory work conducted by the parents of diagnosed children. Reasons for the lack of research on this particular area might be that many researchers and parents hesitate to engage in collaborative research that involves shared memories about one’s own family and that some researchers may shy away from the methodological challenges and the difficult ethical dilemmas. 3 Paper Seventh International Congress of Qualitative Inquiry May 18-21, 2011, Illinois, US. Line Lerche Mørck, llm@dpu.dk. Research from subject standpoints, discussing collective biographies in the third person Our research project is grounded in a Danish-German critical psychology tradition (see Mørck & Huniche 2006). This particular tradition of critical psychology (also called the Berliner School) builds a conceptualisation of “psychology from the standpoint of the subject” (Holzkamp 1983) formulated as a critical alternative to mainstream psychological theorising. The core of Holzkamp’s critical stance is the argument that mainstream psychology serves the interests of capitalist/bourgeois society by individualising problems and instigating personal work on the self as a solution to psychological problems. Mainstream psychology is thus criticised for resulting in personal compliance rather than in active engagement with changing repressive societal conditions. The Danish-German critical psychology is conceived as an alternative methodological and analytical strategy that builds on the study of first person perspectives (rather than “expert” third person perspectives) with the aim of enabling personal and collective emancipatory practices through practice research. Researching from a subject standpoint and discussing collective biographies in the third person (Haug 1987: 45) could seem like a methodological contradiction – with ethical dimensions. But as shown below the group did not experience it as a contradiction in practice as we discussed collective reflections at meetings that could very easily be combined with sharing first person standpoints. Nissen (in press) also argue that a subject standpoint is never a clear-cut singularly first person standpoint; it will always be a result of an intersubjective process. Furthermore, the subject standpoint is constructed collectively in the joint ventures between the researcher and the involved subjects, who are ideally involved as “co-researchers”. The collective biographies are written in the third person. According to Haug (1997) using the third person can help participants explain themselves not as self-evident but as unknown persons. It opens up to a description in detail. In writing in the first person, a great deal is taken for 4 Paper Seventh International Congress of Qualitative Inquiry May 18-21, 2011, Illinois, US. Line Lerche Mørck, llm@dpu.dk. granted, omitted or considered unimportant or embarrassing. Writing in the third person distances the writer from the memory (Haug 1997: p. 3-4), which is ethically helpful in dealing with very personal and/or sensitive memories. The strategy of using the third person emphasises that it is not the one who is writing the memory that is the subject of investigation, but the text itself. The mothers collectively discussed what it meant for the analytical process and the discussions to write and present biographies in the third person. Sometimes we slipped into talking about “I” or “you”, when we, according to the memory work method, should have said “her”. But we agreed that we preferred to start by producing a kind of reflective distance to the stories; discussing the biographies in the third person (in line with Haug and Davies) and afterwards, in another round, we presented our first person perspectives on what actually happened, contextualising the stories, as well as using a first person “I” when discussing similarities and differences between the memory and our life experiences. According to ideals within memory work methodology as well as critical psychology, all the “others”, including the professionals (outside the family), should be constructed in such a way that we could try to see things from their standpoint and get closer to their first person perspective; in other words, we should try to understand their reasons to act (Dreier, 2008). But sometimes we could not get very close to the first person perspectives because we lacked knowledge. We discussed ethical dilemmas and procedures for (not) involving partners and children in the project of producing collective memories. Some mothers chose to share their written memory and publications (this paper) with their husbands to make it a more collective family project that also included both parents to some degree. For example, one father read a memory in the first version and pointed out that he could not remember some of the described perspectives (e.g. the referring teacher’s perspective). The mother said that these perspectives were actually taken from the diary notes she had written because it was such a difficult time. The husband also commented on one particular place where his perspective varied a great deal 5 Paper Seventh International Congress of Qualitative Inquiry May 18-21, 2011, Illinois, US. Line Lerche Mørck, llm@dpu.dk. from the mother’s and included his written perspective in a footnote. The mother shared these reflections at the meeting with the other mothers, and used them, together with the comments of the mother group, to re-write her memory. Emancipatory research - movements beyond stigmatisation Following Holzkamp (1983) subjects are characterised by living in societal structures with conditions that create possibilities and constraints in their lives. Critical psychology as well as collective memory work is a theoretical as well as an emancipatory and political project (Mørck & Huniche 2006: 3, Haug 1987: 35). In our research one ethical issue was what to call the mothers and their children. For example, one of the mothers hesitated to join the group to begin with because she was afraid of being categorised as “a mother of an ADHD child”. She had struggled hard to get out of that box and her son did not have the diagnosis anymore; they had succeeded in moving beyond it. We began and ended each meeting with an ethical round and ethical collective reflections. In the round at the first meeting the mother described her worries about joining the group: “What does this do to me? The anxiety of getting put in a box – not by you, but more culturally” (M1. p.20). She referred to an experience of being put in a box earlier in her life: “I felt totally locked up in this box: “mother of a child acquisitioned2 by ADHD”. I could not breathe. I just had to get out of that box, and I felt that really physically – I had to get out of it – it was almost claustrophobic. And it is that fear I have now: Ohoh, now I am going to end up there again”. (..) “Then you are suddenly the mother of a child with ADHD even though the child no longer thinks of himself as that and you do not think him like that”(M1, p. 20). She continues: She uses the Danish terms ”ramt af ADHD”, which also could be translated: ”hit by ADHD” meaning that it is something that suddently hits you (in contrast to something ”you are”, or something within you). 2 6 Paper Seventh International Congress of Qualitative Inquiry May 18-21, 2011, Illinois, US. Line Lerche Mørck, llm@dpu.dk. “I would like to make a revolution in relation to getting out of this, so it does not do things – so that we change or shift the norms a little in relation to what is right and what is wrong” (M1, p. 21) This was a difficult ethical dilemma because it was very hard to avoid the diagnostic categorisation in the project, as the (sub)title of this paper reflects. How should we collectively and ethically deal with her anxiety? How can we produce revolutionary research of relevance for families who are or have been “acquisitioned” by behaviour-based diagnoses without putting (yet again) mothers and their children into boxes? Ethical actions and steps beyond stigmatisation At the first meeting this mother shared an anxiety of stigmatisation, but through our discussions at the first and second meetings we moved beyond this fear. The mother mentioned at the first meeting that it was very important to her to verbalise this issue, which she did as part of our ethical round at the end of the meeting. Another condition that helped us deal with this ethical dilemma was that all mothers agreed on wanting to shift the norms related to right and wrong. The mother’s addressing of the issue at the first meeting led to a collective discussion of the repertoires that rule the ADHD field. We discussed how a mother of a diagnosed child can easily feel different or “in the wrong” within this field. We reflected on how this particular group was composed of mothers who had all changed over time and who had experienced very different standpoints and positions during their lifetime: From having a critical “I don’t like diagnoses” attitude to thinking “We need to use the diagnosis to open up new action possibilities”, acknowledging that a diagnosis in some ‘stuck places’ “may be a help” and/or “a relief” and may often bring about some change, and that test results as part of the diagnosis processes may also “bring hope”. With regard to standpoints about medication the group members also had very 7 Paper Seventh International Congress of Qualitative Inquiry May 18-21, 2011, Illinois, US. Line Lerche Mørck, llm@dpu.dk. different positions, from “appreciation of the medication” over “considering the possibility” to “very critical” or “against medication” and finally, “been there, done that” and having “moved beyond medication”. Verbalising all these very different experiences and positions was a way to deconstruct and soften the tendencies of certain rights and wrongs within the broad field of behaviour based diagnosis and also within this local practice community of mothers. Another important step beyond the dilemma was the mothers’ choice of biography. The mother who feared being put in a box did not write a memory of her son; he was only a minor character. Instead she wrote a memory that dealt with the dilemma of stigmatisation and the struggle to move beyond. The memory was an interesting alternative because it involved walking the margins (Khawaja & Mørck, 2009) and expanding them. This particular memory could point to alternative routes instead of mainly reproducing the “putting into boxes”. She called the biography: “The memory of when the diagnosis did something to her”. At the second and third meetings the mothers did collective deconstructions of the written memories, following the memory work schemata (Haug, 1997). But the mothers also expanded the memory work methodology with a collective round of reflections inspired by critical psychology. We took a round, asking about plots and places that were difficult to understand in each memory. And we asked the authors of the memories to tell more about the contexts of the biography, including the present states and life situations of the mothers, the children and the rest of the families. The transcribed reflections thus also included the mothers’ first person perspectives of the specific contexts, positions and standpoints (Dreier 2008) from which the mothers talked and wrote. The mothers also stated how each particular memory had parallels to experiences in their own present life situations and life histories and discussed how they differed from the personal experiences in the group. At the end of the round each mother related each memory and the collective discussions to different theories, 8 Paper Seventh International Congress of Qualitative Inquiry May 18-21, 2011, Illinois, US. Line Lerche Mørck, llm@dpu.dk. especially applying critical psychology and social practice theories in preliminary analyses of each collective memory. The memory of the mother was analysed and deconstructed at the third meeting. In the deconstruction the “initial thesis” was articulated as: The limitations of diagnosis. How diagnoses are powerful objectifications3 (Nissen in press: 106); which especially drew attention to the negative objectifications related to experiences of violation4 and stigmatisation of the child and the family. The collective deconstruction reflected contradictions and processes of distancing through irony: As a course leader who coached parents “it was smart to be the mother of a child acquisitioned by ADHD”. It brought about the “you/we-know-what-it-all-is-aboutatmosphere in the room” (M3: 1-2). But the distancing irony of the memory also indicated that it was too smart and that the mother had to get out of this “mother of a child with ADHD” box. The mothers subsequently analysed the self-constructions and actions of the various characters in the memory and they noted that especially the mother was very active and reflective: “A mother of action potency5” (M3: pp. 14-15). This was a good example of realisation of the goal of the mother collective: to use research “to make a revolution”. The biography was deconstructed from “limitations of diagnosis” to a “counter-narrative6”, an “empowerment narrative”. (M3, p. 14). The reconstruction process changed the initial thesis statement of authors’ meaning of limitations in diagnosis to a narrative of how to actually break with the powerful stigmatisations of diagnosis through active action, reflection, and expansive learning ”This moment of estrangement in objectification may lead to not only alienation [German: Entfremdung], but also the exotization [German: Verfremdung – cf. Brecht, (1982)] that facilitates creativity and reflexivity. 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