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ARTS 1 Final Paper - A Journal

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Monica Chu
Ms. Judith Camille Rosette
ARTS 1 WFU-1
4 Jan 2023
A Journal: A Window to the Soul
Most people keep a journal. Many use a journal as a tool of catharsis to let out their daily
frustrations, or really, anything that lingers on their minds. However, many things or situations
are used as tools for catharsis. Despite all the collective grief and pain present today, things like
venting to someone close to you privately airing out disheartened sentiments, and unsaid words,
or simply documenting your days and immortalizing them on paper keep us human. Since the
beginning of time, humans have had the urge to immortalize themselves, one way or another, to
let the world know that they have been there. To some extent, this is true for wanting to capture a
moment in our lives, mostly privately in a journal, and physically keep that moment suspended
in time.
Despite how there are other existing active experiences of creation, including filming
videos or taking photographs, writing is a unique experience separate from making a film or
taking a photograph. Writing is very much focused on the internal, while the latter, i.e. taking a
photograph, is much more focused on the external. The experience of writing is like no other.
Finding a blank page of paper to write on, possibly briefly stumbling onto past journal entries in
the process, recalling your thoughts, trying to grasp onto the ideas and memories that are going
through your mind space, writing these thoughts down, and possibly hesitating on what wording
to use to properly articulate what you mean versus how it comes off—this is all part of the
writing process, especially journaling. There is a reason why humans invented journals and
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notebooks. This is because we are naturally drawn to the idea of collecting our ideas and
observations of any given day, experience, or event and putting these happenings into writing.
We navigate this world with certain misunderstandings and frustrations, and journaling is one of
many ways that help us better understand ourselves, our morals, and our past experiences, both
triumphs and losses, amongst other things. For myself, a journal can temporarily disconnect me
from the outside world and look within. There is a certain sensation that is irreproducible when
you are in a moment where you feel like you are on the verge of shouting, crying, laughing, or
losing control that you have to let it out onto a page. The way someone’s style of writing can
perfectly capture what they are feeling at that exact moment is something to marvel at.
Someone’s life seen through their journal entries can be wildly different from how you may
know that person when they are in a work environment or even a casual environment. A journal
holds a person’s most private, intimate, and vulnerable version of themselves. It holds a version
of a person where it is truly and wholly them, rather than the person that they present to the
world, or perform as, including their fears, secrets, thoughts, and much more.
However, a question that may come to mind is, how is journaling in a physical journal
different from a digital journal, for instance, on some form of a notes/journaling application
available on mobile devices and laptops? For one, the physical experience of grabbing a pen and
writing is gone. Typing using a keyboard, whether on a phone or a laptop, is different from
writing. Physically writing something down takes much more time. This may allow more time to
reflect on one’s thoughts and what one intends to write. It is also much easier to get rid of errors
in a digital journal. People are much more susceptible to making mistakes while physically
writing. With that, a journal may come with erasures, crossed-out passages, or pages fully
scribbled out or ripped out, leaving a physical representation of what was written but then taken
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aback by the writer. Leaving little, usually spontaneous notes on a physical journal is quite
common. Things like including statements between sentences if the writer forgot to write them at
the moment or made a lapse in judgment, or adding notes on the sides of past journal entries to
reflect on a certain time of your life that may have been full of love and joy or despair and
loneliness. However, we are not always the most reliable narrators of our lives. There are journal
entries that can capture certain moments where you let sentimentality and personal feelings wash
over rationality and the reality of the situation.
Historically, journals have always been a common tool and object used in day-to-day life.
The first personal journal entries that were consistently introspective date back to the 10th
century, specifically diaries written by the ladies of the royal Japanese court. Cited from the
article, Diary Writing Turns a New Leaf, documents an excerpt from the century-old diary, “I
wish I could be more adaptable and live more gaily in the present world - had I, not an
extraordinary sorrow - but whenever I hear delightful or interesting things, my yearning for a
religious life grows stronger. I become melancholy and lament. I try to forget, for sorrow is vain.
Am I too sinful? So I was musing one morning when I saw waterfowl playing heedlessly in the
pond.” This journal entry is more than a thousand years old, billions of people have lived their
lives since then. Yet, as I read this journal entry, I thought about how I also experienced a
yearning for a more beautiful life, experiencing melancholy, and regretting that negativity as it
may waste my time or come off as vain. I think back to this diary entry written by a Japanese
lady from a completely different time and empathize with her or even relate to her. The way that
humans tend to pour their hearts out when writing is something that will forever stand the test of
time, whether you are referring to a Japanese lady from the 10th century or a person living in
2023. This excerpt stunned me as I tend to forget that, no matter what point of history you are in,
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humans have always been humans and it will remain that way until humanity ceases to exist.
Journal entries humanize us, other people, and historical figures that we have no connection to in
any way whatsoever.
The pandemic brought many new things, feelings, and events and disrupted many things
in our lives that used to be routine. Based on my observations, I believe journaling has become
more common to practice during and after the pandemic, or, at least the worst of the pandemic.
2020 was an unprecedented time in history when the track of our lives shifted. Many people
were forced to stay inside, leaving them alone with nothing but their thoughts. For many, coping
with this new lifestyle was isolating and created difficulties in coping, motivation, inspiration,
maintaining relationships, and many other things. There are very few moments where humanity
is completely united on one thing, and miraculously, 2020 and the pandemic somehow connected
every single one of us. Many of us carry stories, memories, and moments from historical events
like the pandemic, and are immortalized on paper. These pieces of paper in a journal will carry
that moment as if the moment and page merge into one. To peel back the layers of your skin to
reveal your heart and put that onto paper is an experience one has had at least once in their life.
Whether it is going through a global pandemic, a friendship of yours experiencing a rough patch,
or coming back from a beautiful date, these journals allow those moments to stay frozen in time.
It is peculiar how we perceive memory and nostalgia as well as journaling. I would say
that nostalgia is dangerously powerful. This bittersweet feeling can paint reality in much brighter
and lovelier hues while reality might be pale compared to what we remember something as.
Moments are fleeting, we actively pass in time and create memories constantly. However, to
document those moments in a journal allows us to reflect and possibly reminisce. I look back on
my journal entries and laugh when I see my past self so irrevocably sucked into a certain feeling.
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To include an outside perspective in this essay, I asked a close friend of mine what journaling
means to them. To quote, “Journaling for me is it feels like a playing field for my thoughts. I can
write about what I think, but also the things I want to happen. Writing and journaling are a mix
of different things. It feels so freeing. I always feel at ease after. Being able to account for what I
feel and what bothers me is easier to decipher when I have to try to figure out what I need to fix
or think about more by myself.”
It is interesting to see what journaling can mean to different people and how it can hold a
different perspective when it comes to every person. For one person, a journal could mundanely
be a way to remember things, i.e. if a given day was good or not. For another person, a journal
could be a place where, like I mentioned previously, is a platform where they can let their soul
speak. One thing is for sure and that is, no matter what a journal could mean to someone, each
journal is unique to the owner, and our experiences, though maybe common and mundane, will
never belong to anybody else nor be forgotten, so cherish the moment… and possibly write it
down.
Word count: 1608
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Works Cited
“DIARY WRITING TURNS A NEW LEAF (Published 1981).” The New York Times, 2023,
www.nytimes.com/1981/11/08/magazine/diary-writing-turns-a-new-leaf.html.
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