Recently, I became part of a community that I never knew I would. I was always shy and
anxious meeting new people, never tried to showcase myself to the whole school, and
had a very low self-esteem. But one single conference required for the GPPW subject
had a huge impact on me. I needed high marks for my school subject so I prepared for
the MUN conference thoroughly, but there was one thing that I did not consider. There
were delegates that came from another city, specifically NIS Uralsk.
Dozens of unfamiliar people in a dim and cold auditory, awkward circumstance made
me uneasy. I was a delegate of South Africa, hence, the last one to give the opening
speech. I worked on making my opening speech as impactful as possible and when I
gave it I felt like my voice was too loud but it was not trembling, my hands were not
shaking and looking at the faces of others I understood that I got their attention. My
anxiety soothed almost immediately and I gained the confidence I never knew I had.
In the moderated caucus I suggested the topic of unemployment that was relevant to all
countries present and it was accepted. However, I did not expect to give my speech first
so I quickly gathered my thoughts and unexpectedly for myself was able to fit all the
ideas to 1 minute. Because it was the first MUN conference for every delegate, some
were struggling to fit their ideas so I helped them by asking questions about the point
when they were stopped. By doing that, the tension in the auditory was soothed. In the
unmoderated caucus I teamed up with the delegates of African countries and clarified
our main focus when writing a resolution.
I can say that this 5 hours long regional conference helped me to discover my interest in
fighting diplomatically over fiscal policy, learn that we sometimes have to get out of our comfort
zone to get better at something and to brainstorm ideas and solutions in a short amount of time.