ANGELA CRUZ BSA-1A UNDERSTANDING THE SELF Pop Up Question: • When you look back at yourself, what do you see? Looking back, I see both dark and bright moments in my existence. A harsh reality where life at some point is never on my side but being with people I love; I survived and continue to fight which make things easier and happier. I see myself as a sick child, innocent person, and a newbie to everything, I may have my wisdom, but I know I lack knowledge about certain things. This has an impact on my way of thinking and actions. There’s always been a doubt in everything I do because when I was young, I was dependent on the decision of my parents’ which things is good for me or not. Growing up I am afraid to commit mistakes, but I learned that it is part of a process for you to attain self growth, and that it's okay to commit mistakes while growing simply because you’re just a human being. • When you look inside, what do you find? Curiosity has always been with me, curious and conscious of how other people perceive my personality or if I do right perceive their personality as well. Those experiences I look back in the past, I come up with my own realizations, beliefs, and opinion about specific things I already encountered so I can prevent the same mistakes happening. I experienced being treated poorly and as outcast, whether in school or in family gatherings, it felt horrible that’s why I want everyone and me to have fair treatment. But life doesn’t always go in our ways, the world tends to challenge us. Pride comes in, sometimes we tend to become hypocrites because our actions contradict on what we said, but it doesn’t define who we are because we always have a choice and decision to change and improve ourselves by looking inside. • When you try to change yourself in some way, what is it that you are trying to change? Change is easier said than done. In life there’s always uncertainties, we encounter. We unconsciously and consciously adopt unnecessary behavior brought by trauma from intense happenings and influence of other people. This has an impact on how we perceive what life is. We all do have bad behaviors which I wanted to get rid of, to have self improvements and to avoid hurting people around me. Proving myself that I’m not as bad as others perceive me by looking the inside of me what’s wrong instead of focusing on fitting in other peoples’ standards. I want to change my mindset that it's okay to not be liked by other people while doing the right thing than to fit in and be wrong and lose yourself. Change the bad behavior and continue improving self growth. • Who do I want my future self to be? I want to be the bigger person, a good one in any circumstances. I want to be kind because a lot of people can be right than be kind. Understanding any living things will never lessen our personality because we never know how any living things put themselves together to keep going in life. To become a Professional who doesn’t belittle people based on what I see and to be a good daughter who makes my family proud. We all have different life class; some are privileged, and some are not. Practically speaking life is unfair, but we have a choice to risk and make it fair. Opportunities, growth, and lessons are what we should thank for because we cannot improve without this. I want my future self to be grateful of the things I had and will have soon.
