Smiles with tears behind them are the most strongest
things ik.Having to afford that smile despite what you
are going through.affording a smile yet you are
breaking in the inside.
Having to smile to the world coz they wont understand
quarter of what you are going through if you choose to
tell them.
The art of smile when you are breaking.
Fighting like a lion in the outside yet you died long
time ago in the inside.
Unable to fight with yourself is the worst. Its like
loosing your mind in a world of roses.. Theres beauty in
the outside but death in the darkness.
Friday 28/01/2022 the day that I drained my system all
the water it had for itself wish it was because of pee or
exercise. It was tears hahah.
Started in the morning.. cried walking to work, in the
car, going back home cried the most I guess I have
cried in this life..
It hurts to know you cant open up coz you’ve mastered
the art of smiling in fron of pple.
Knowing that you’ve got a shield covering you that you
cant open up coz you cant fight you first so they cant
help coz you cant fight you first plus they cant
understand you..They never do coz they think you are a
super hero..
I wish just one person could just read between the smile
and read the sadness and tears waiting to bepoured
between the laughs and smile.
Atleast Wesley tries to read in between my words and
feel the sadness but hes like me we overlook things or
keep quiet yet we know too well that’s theres a problem
with someone or sth but coz we cant help we
ignore.Keep quiet and diie inside and promise to help
yet you still going through hell in the inside..
It hurts shosh….can you see me crying from up there ?
What do you think?
Do I deserve this or is life just unfair to me that I have
to be strong for everyone else but not myself.
Am trying shsosh you know .
Ik you can see that.
I am .
But anytime I try opening up.
Its either they diont listen coz they are shocked or they
over look and think that I will carry it…
Hahaha its life lakini..
Lemme sleep now.
My eyes hurt .
Ive cried enough for today.
I will be okay I always do.