Personal Journal GOAL: To write everyday for 28 days. Opening Day: Motivational Quote: Knowing your power is what creates humility. Not knowing your power is what creates insecurity. *************************************************************************************************** The fear of not being enough, and the fear of being ‘too much’. Are exactly the same fear. The fear of being you. Day 1 I November 13, 2017 am grateful for…….. 1) 2) 3) I am grateful for this beautiful, sunny and brisk weather. I am grateful that my grandmother (nanny) is cleaning the house and after myself. I am grateful that I woke up naturally from a good sleep, without anxiety. Today I read: Book Page #ended New Word CBC Radio Style Guide 25 Dogmatic, coinages, pejorative Thoughts about what I have read………. While reading the CBC Radio Style Guide I had two thoughts. The first, was why there is such offense when language is used ‘incorrectly’. The second, is why my education severely lacked comprehensive language and grammar teaching. The guide dedicates two pages to hammering home how offended people are when language is used incorrectly. It is spoken as if the vast majority of Canada fits into that mold. I do not understand this, my experience is that people find it annoying or funny, but they are not offended. I believe that the author has strong and frankly pretentious feelings about language being used “incorrectly” In addition to that observation, reading the twenty-five pages had me thinking about how the education system really let me down. I was not a student that teachers paid attention to, positively or negatively. And I believe when you are a student who does not fit in either of those paradigms you are lost in the chaos. Now that language and grammar are both very integral in my life goals, I feel ill equipped, behind, not good enough, and ultimately at a huge disadvantage. This is something I must now at the age of 26, try and mitigate. I enjoyed learning about writing in simple language and about jargon. But, I felt like i could see and old white man with all the privilege and self admiration that comes with it speaking at me while reading. Ugh CBC how you are the scold of my being lol. Day 2 November 14, 2017 Can people change? I believe this question is not asking if people can change, but it is asking if people can change how you want them to. This is an age old question, and the debate has been running in circles with no end in sight. For me, of course people can change. In fact, I believe people change so frequently and effortlessly that we don't even recognize it as change unless it somehow suits our individualistic needs. As humans our nature is to change; now whether or not that change is seen by others, that is irrelevant. I am not the same person as I was yesterday, this afternoon, nor one hour ago.That will still be true if it is recognized or not. Even if I for some unknown reason wanted to remain the same person, I do not believe that is in my power to decide. I am a human, and as such it is in my innate nature to evolve. As I mentioned, this argument changes vastly if the question changes to: can people change into who I want them to be? For this, I believe the answer is no. We do not and should not have the power to change another person based on our will. Does this mean that people are not influenced by one another? Not at all. It means that people have self-determination, in that they decide what influences they take on. This is something that is unconscious and based on free will. Even if we recognize that another person has influenced our change, it was not that without that person you would not have seen that change. The human ego activates when it comes into contact with an influencer. The ego can either accept that influenced change as its golden saviour, or cast it away and take full ownership. This is the egos way. As a conscious human we must see influencers as a ripple in the tide. One ripple does not change the course of a tide, but many ripples can. Influencers are not without causation, but their presence is simply a link in a long chain. I would encourage people to be both a ripple and a tide as well. But remember, your ripple can never change the path the tide goes, that will always be the choice of the all encompassing ocean. Day 3 I November 15, 2017 am grateful for…….. 4) I am grateful for sisterhood, that granted me the opportunity to work at Metro News. 5) I am grateful for a healthy, happy and growing nephew. 6) I am grateful for a loving partner, even if he is across an ocean. Today I read: Book Page # where I ended Telling True Stories 10 Thoughts about what I have read………. Day 4 November __, 2017 Today was tough because ________. Day 5 November __, 2017 I am grateful for…….. 7) . 8) . 9) . Today I read: Book Page # where I ended Thoughts: Thoughts about what I have read………. Day 6 November __, 2017 What is your greatest power? Day 7 November __, 2017 I am grateful for…….. 10) . 11) . 12) . Today I read: Book Page # where I ended Thoughts about what I have read………. Thoughts: WEEK 2 Wow you made it! I knew you could do it Jayde. Reflect on all you have written this past week and most importantly how it made you feel. I know you have a lot of pressure on you this week to meet multiple deadlines, but this is not another deadline this is SELFCARE. It is important that you take care of yourself so you can be a full and balanced women moving forward with your crazy and exciting life gurl! You are already the women you have always wanted to be; just make sure you do the work to keep that woman sustainable. I love you, you are my rock and my motivation.! Motivational Quote: Knowing your power is what creates humility. Not knowing your power is what creates insecurity. *************************************************************************************************** The fear of not being enough, and the fear of being ‘too much’. Are exactly the same fear. The fear of being you Day 1 I November __, 2017 am grateful for…….. 13) . 14) . 15) . Today I read: Book Page # where I ended Thoughts about what I have read………. Thoughts: Day 2 November __, 2017 Write down something that inspired you today? Day 3 I November __, 2017 am grateful for…….. 16) . 17). 18) . Today I read: Book Page # where I ended Thoughts about what I have read………. Thoughts: Day 4 November __, 2017 What is the oldest thing you are wearing today? Tell me how you got it. Day 5 I November __, 2017 am grateful for…….. 19) . 20) . 21) . Today I read: Book Page # where I ended Thoughts about what I have read………. Thoughts: Day 6 Describe your most memorable dream. November __, 2017 Day 7 I November __, 2017 am grateful for…….. 22) . 23) . 24) . Today I read: Book Page # where I ended Thoughts about what I have read………. Thoughts: WEEK 3 GURLLL you are still doing it! I knew you would push through Jayde. #GETIT Reflect on all you have written this past week and most importantly how it made you feel. I know you have a lot of pressure on you this week to meet multiple deadlines, but this is not another deadline this is SELFCARE. It is important that you take care of yourself so you can be a full and balanced women moving forward with your crazy and exciting life gurl! You are already the women you have always wanted to be; just make sure you do the work to keep that woman sustainable. I love you, you are my rock and my motivation.! Motivational Quote: Knowing your power is what creates humility. Not knowing your power is what creates insecurity. *************************************************************************************************** The fear of not being enough, and the fear of being ‘too much’. Are exactly the same fear. The fear of being you Day 1 I December __, 2017 am grateful for…….. 25) . 26) . 27) . Today I read: Book Page # where I ended Thoughts about what I have read………. Thoughts: Day 2 What type of mom do you want to be? December __, 2017
