Dialogue: 0,0:00:01.76,0:00:06.24,::::What the hell is a parlor trick?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:06.40,0:00:08.28,::::(therapist speaking)Look it up on google...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:08.36,0:00:10.88,::::(therapist speaking)let me tell you what it is...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:10.88,0:00:13.28,::::(therapist speaking)You want a specific definition?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:14.00,0:00:16.32,::::(therapist speaking)Let me give you an specific
definition...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:16.44,0:00:19.28,::::You're making me feel like(next line)really bad right
now...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:19.36,0:00:22.00,::::you know why?(next line)You make it sound like duh
like...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.00,0:00:22.04,::::you know why?(next line)You make it sound like duh
like...(next line)don't you know?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:22.04,0:00:23.12,::::don't you know?
Dialogue: 0,0:00:23.32,0:00:26.76,::::This is just an every day run of the mill(next line)parlor
trick.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:26.76,0:00:29.36,::::(therapist speaking)It is an everyday run of the mill
parlor trick (next line)(therapist speaking)for most people.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:31.48,0:00:34.32,::::you know I'm am not...(next line)that type of girl like...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:34.40,0:00:36.16,::::I know that all the players...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:36.32,0:00:38.08,::::I was an athlete too you know, so...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:38.16,0:00:43.00,::::all the players like they never messed(next line)with me
because I was a cool girl.
Dialogue: 0,0:00:43.00,0:00:47.08,::::I wouldn't date them anyway so I never had(next line)to
deal with this from the nerd boys...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:48.68,0:00:51.88,::::So, I never...(next line)this is totally new to me...
Dialogue: 0,0:00:57.48,0:01:02.96,::::Do you... What do you guys get together(next line)and
take a class on this?
Dialogue: 0,0:01:03.16,0:01:05.76,::::(therapist speaking)It's not us guys
Dialogue: 0,0:01:07.68,0:01:11.48,::::I mean I never heard anything(next line)about it in my
life.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:14.60,0:01:20.40,::::(therapist speaking)It's like ahhh...it's for.... (next
line)(therapist speaking)it's close up magic.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:20.40,0:01:20.52,::::It's like ahhh...it's for....(next line)it's close up
magic.(next line)you have to know that,(next line)like I can't move on in my life
Dialogue: 0,0:01:20.52,0:01:23.00,::::You have to know that,(next line)like I can't move on in
my life
Dialogue: 0,0:01:23.08,0:01:25.04,::::until I get through this...(next line)okay... and I need
you.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:26.76,0:01:31.04,::::(therapist speaking)The.... you don't need me Tiffany,
(next line)(therapist speaking)you just need...
Dialogue: 0,0:01:31.24,0:01:34.68,::::No I need... I wouldn't have been able(next line)to
know even what that was.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:34.88,0:01:37.16,::::I just need to work through this stuff...
Dialogue: 0,0:01:37.36,0:01:39.28,::::If go to a regular...
Dialogue: 0,0:01:39.28,0:01:40.80,::::(therapist speaking)It's not a technical term...
Dialogue: 0,0:01:41.00,0:01:43.64,::::(therapist speaking)It's just... it's just an explanatory
term.
Dialogue: 0,0:01:43.64,0:01:47.20,::::(therapist speaking)Of what it is.. (next line)(therapist
speaking)If I moved something with my mind...
Dialogue: 0,0:01:47.20,0:01:52.32,::::(therapist speaking)that's a parlor trick. (next
line)(therapist speaking)If I do telekinesis or empathy
Dialogue: 0,0:01:52.44,0:01:57.16,::::(therapist speaking)or like hear your thoughts across
the room (next line)(therapist speaking)I am pretty intuitive too...
Dialogue: 0,0:01:57.28,0:02:03.40,::::(therapist speaking)then that's a parlor trick... it's just
(next line)(therapist speaking)something that you can do if you've...
Dialogue: 0,0:02:03.72,0:02:07.68,::::I can see and draw(next line)the dots in the future too,
really well.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:07.80,0:02:09.72,::::(therapist speaking)So like... you know,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:09.72,0:02:11.52,::::(therapist speaking)the thing is...is...
Dialogue: 0,0:02:11.52,0:02:16.48,::::(therapist speaking)if you do self cultivation you can do
(next line)(therapist speaking)all sorts of interesting things...
Dialogue: 0,0:02:16.56,0:02:20.76,::::(therapist speaking)but they... they... (next
line)(therapist speaking)don't mean that you're enlightened...
Dialogue: 0,0:02:20.76,0:02:24.20,::::(therapist speaking)It just means your some human
(next line)(therapist speaking)that knows how to do some things.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:24.56,0:02:26.56,::::(therapist speaking)So it's a parlor trick.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:27.08,0:02:29.88,::::How much you cost for 2 hrs.?(next line)Tomorrow?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:30.08,0:02:32.80,::::Or do you have any...(next line)are you available at all.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:32.80,0:02:36.44,::::(therapist speaking)I don't know if I'm available
tomorrow... (next line)(therapist speaking)when are you leaving out of town?
Dialogue: 0,0:02:37.60,0:02:42.32,::::Uhm, well I have to check out at three.(next line)So, if
you're available from 3 to 5,
Dialogue: 0,0:02:42.44,0:02:44.48,::::I can pay whatever you want.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:45.76,0:02:51.44,::::Cause like... I like... It's like, it's really like(next
line)something I need to work through...
Dialogue: 0,0:02:51.88,0:02:53.92,::::And uhm...(next line)I haven't been able to move on.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:53.92,0:02:56.92,::::(therapist speaking)Ok, I see you from 3 to 5.
Dialogue: 0,0:02:57.24,0:03:00.72,::::Thank you.(next line)How much are you?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:00.84,0:03:02.12,::::(therapist speaking)say $200.00
Dialogue: 0,0:03:02.24,0:03:02.88,::::Ok.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:03.36,0:03:04.52,::::(therapist speaking)You got it.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:06.76,0:03:07.56,::::(therapist speaking)But...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:08.52,0:03:10.60,::::(therapist speaking)I'm not promising you...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:11.20,0:03:12.20,::::(therapist speaking)you don't have to...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:12.20,0:03:15.00,::::(therapist speaking)that you're gonna like leave... (next
line)(therapist speaking)I cannot...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:17.84,0:03:22.12,::::(therapist speaking)My simple answer for you is (next
line)(therapist speaking)the seven things I gave you to do.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:23.40,0:03:24.60,::::(therapist speaking)What are those seven things?
Dialogue: 0,0:03:24.88,0:03:26.24,::::(therapist speaking)Are you recording? (next
line)(therapist speaking)Yeah.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:27.36,0:03:28.36,::::(therapist speaking)Meditate,
Dialogue: 0,0:03:30.60,0:03:31.60,::::(therapist speaking)everyday...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:32.60,0:03:34.12,::::(therapist speaking)or twice a day...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:34.76,0:03:37.12,::::(therapist speaking)for at least 20 minutes or longer...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:38.12,0:03:41.00,::::(therapist speaking)usually at 5 a.m.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:42.08,0:03:43.52,::::(therapist speaking)and 6pm...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:44.24,0:03:45.24,::::(therapist speaking)but...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:45.48,0:03:49.48,::::(therapist speaking)you know you can alternate that
(next line)(therapist speaking)some people like to do midnight...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:50.40,0:03:51.76,::::(therapist speaking)Don't swear.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:52.12,0:03:53.12,::::I'm so mad.
Dialogue: 0,0:03:53.40,0:03:55.04,::::(therapist speaking)Don't date people...
Dialogue: 0,0:03:56.12,0:03:58.36,::::(therapist speaking)Don't use any substances...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:01.72,0:04:03.32,::::(therapist speaking)Eat a healthy diet...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:05.52,0:04:07.00,::::(therapist speaking)You got it...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:07.24,0:04:09.28,::::(therapist speaking)Find a place to live that is stable...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:09.68,0:04:11.32,::::(therapist speaking)get the job that's stable.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:11.84,0:04:13.36,::::I don't want to do that
Dialogue: 0,0:04:13.52,0:04:15.36,::::(therapist speaking)Don't talk behind people's back.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:15.36,0:04:16.56,::::I don't do that ever, ever...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:19.00,0:04:20.68,::::(therapist speaking)cultivate virtue...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:24.12,0:04:25.12,::::(therapist speaking)period.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:25.92,0:04:28.24,::::(therapist speaking)Do it for a year you'll be much
better.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:28.24,0:04:29.44,::::Tell me more about this place.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:30.40,0:04:31.88,::::(therapist speaking)They gonna kick us out.
Dialogue: 0,0:04:32.52,0:04:37.60,::::You have to tell me more,(next line)well you got me for
tomorrow... sorry
Dialogue: 0,0:04:37.76,0:04:40.16,::::(therapist speaking)If I tell you all today
Dialogue: 0,0:04:40.52,0:04:42.80,::::(therapist speaking)you won't learn anything
tomorrow... (next line)(therapist speaking)right?
Dialogue: 0,0:04:44.00,0:04:44.72,::::Hey...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:45.20,0:04:47.16,::::maybe we could just play chess tomorrow
Dialogue: 0,0:04:48.24,0:04:50.40,::::that will be my one hour of meditation...
Dialogue: 0,0:04:55.84,0:04:56.96,::::Thanks guys...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:08.68,0:05:11.32,::::(therapist speaking)My girlfriend would have a sh...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:11.44,0:05:15.28,::::Oh no no no, I do it to my brothers too...(next line)I'm
sorry...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:16.96,0:05:21.44,::::(therapist speaking)normally I would be ok with it...
(next line)(therapist speaking)but when I'm dating somebody I can't...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:21.60,0:05:23.52,::::Okay, okay...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:23.52,0:05:28.00,::::Like I wasn't hitting on you, like
Dialogue: 0,0:05:28.32,0:05:30.48,::::I do the same thing to Brandon
Dialogue: 0,0:05:32.76,0:05:34.92,::::(therapist speaking)My girlfriend wouldn't understand
that...
Dialogue: 0,0:05:35.32,0:05:36.32,::::this guy I dated?
Dialogue: 0,0:05:40.52,0:05:49.80,::::yeah???(inaudible) my dad
Dialogue: 0,0:06:24.76,0:06:29.76,::::(therapist speaking)So, I'll give you a little tip (next
line)(therapist speaking)if you want me to respect you more...
Dialogue: 0,0:06:30.60,0:06:34.28,::::(therapist speaking)When I show up (next
line)(therapist speaking)you'll be there promptly...
Dialogue: 0,0:06:34.28,0:06:35.28,::::(therapist speaking)Don't make me wait
Dialogue: 0,0:06:35.84,0:06:38.16,::::(therapist speaking)like... (next line)(therapist
speaking)you made me wait a half an hour...
Dialogue: 0,0:06:39.00,0:06:40.00,::::(therapist speaking)Time is money
Dialogue: 0,0:06:41.32,0:06:43.36,::::Yeah,(next line)I'm so sorry that I took that long
Dialogue: 0,0:06:47.96,0:06:49.28,::::(therapist speaking)I'm just saying...
Dialogue: 0,0:06:49.28,0:06:51.44,::::Yeah, I had a situation and(next line)was trying to you
know...
Dialogue: 0,0:06:58.08,0:07:00.16,::::I'm okay,(next line)I mean...
Dialogue: 0,0:07:00.28,0:07:02.88,::::The thing is...
Dialogue: 0,0:07:03.12,0:07:05.20,::::Typically I would never do that.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:06.36,0:07:10.00,::::you know I would have been down there(next line)and I
would never do that and you're right
Dialogue: 0,0:07:10.00,0:07:14.76,::::you don't just say that... and I really(next line)and
sincerely apologize...
Dialogue: 0,0:07:14.76,0:07:18.08,::::and I understand it's not like...(next line)you know...
Dialogue: 0,0:07:18.08,0:07:21.12,::::it would be appropriate for to you(next line)to come up
to my room or whatever.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:25.72,0:07:27.52,::::I want you to know(next line)from the bottom of my
heart.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:27.68,0:07:29.32,::::(therapist speaking)You're not my friend,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:29.32,0:07:30.48,::::(therapist speaking)you're my patient.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:31.20,0:07:32.56,::::(therapist speaking)Do you understand the difference?
Dialogue: 0,0:07:32.56,0:07:34.00,::::(therapist speaking)Yeah everything I have.
Dialogue: 0,0:07:34.44,0:07:34.96,::::(therapist speaking)Like,
Dialogue: 0,0:07:35.16,0:07:37.00,::::(therapist speaking)you're an old patient
Dialogue: 0,0:07:37.36,0:07:40.80,::::(therapist speaking)that had a lot of problems and
choosing (next line)(therapist speaking)not to come to see me
Dialogue: 0,0:07:41.08,0:07:42.44,::::(therapist speaking)but I have
Dialogue: 0,0:07:44.76,0:07:45.76,::::(therapist speaking)professional courtesy
Dialogue: 0,0:07:47.40,0:07:48.40,::::(therapist speaking)and I was curious
Dialogue: 0,0:07:49.08,0:07:51.16,::::(therapist speaking)why are you traveling the world
again?
Dialogue: 0,0:07:54.12,0:07:54.64,::::Yeah...
Dialogue: 0,0:07:55.48,0:07:59.44,::::and I think that after (INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:08:04.84,0:08:10.04,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:08:10.32,0:08:11.32,::::I'm not fucked up...
Dialogue: 0,0:08:11.32,0:08:13.00,::::the thing is... here's where I'm.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:13.44,0:08:14.24,::::here’s where I'm at in life
Dialogue: 0,0:08:14.84,0:08:18.08,::::as far as... fiscally
Dialogue: 0,0:08:18.28,0:08:19.28,::::I'm fine
Dialogue: 0,0:08:19.80,0:08:22.20,::::If I want to stay at the benson for a month
Dialogue: 0,0:08:22.20,0:08:24.76,::::that would be ridiculous
Dialogue: 0,0:08:24.76,0:08:26.96,::::but that's fine but like,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:27.44,0:08:32.40,::::if I want to go travel the world that's fine(next line)too
except for like
Dialogue: 0,0:08:33.64,0:08:34.24,::::but...
Dialogue: 0,0:08:34.80,0:08:36.16,::::I am drawn
Dialogue: 0,0:08:36.48,0:08:38.80,::::to an idea that's something(next line)has happened to
me
Dialogue: 0,0:08:39.56,0:08:41.68,::::It not like I was raped or whatever
Dialogue: 0,0:08:41.96,0:08:42.40,::::But,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:43.04,0:08:45.04,::::like something's happened to me(next line)I really can't
Dialogue: 0,0:08:45.04,0:08:46.72,::::I haven't been able to move on.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:47.84,0:08:48.56,::::and I...
Dialogue: 0,0:08:49.32,0:08:49.92,::::(therapist speaking)That's right,
Dialogue: 0,0:08:50.44,0:08:51.96,::::(therapist speaking)you're all screwed up spiritually
Dialogue: 0,0:08:53.00,0:08:54.12,::::and I want to get through it.
Dialogue: 0,0:08:54.76,0:08:57.80,::::(therapist speaking)This is why you can't let see
Dialogue: 0,0:08:58.00,0:09:01.56,::::(therapist speaking)your opinion is... (next
line)(therapist speaking)I can can let all this stuff in.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:01.56,0:09:01.92,::::You're right
Dialogue: 0,0:09:02.08,0:09:03.08,::::(therapist speaking)And I'm telling you
Dialogue: 0,0:09:03.28,0:09:04.88,::::(therapist speaking)you can't let the shit in
Dialogue: 0,0:09:05.52,0:09:07.92,::::(therapist speaking)You can't be like (next
line)(therapist speaking)I am all open for everything
Dialogue: 0,0:09:07.92,0:09:08.72,::::(therapist speaking)Because you know what?
Dialogue: 0,0:09:08.80,0:09:11.04,::::I mean, I know it's wrong(next line)(therapist
speaking)Everything will come and take you
Dialogue: 0,0:09:11.16,0:09:11.76,::::I know it's wrong
Dialogue: 0,0:09:11.76,0:09:14.52,::::right and wrong...(next line)I've always know that it's
wrong.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:14.80,0:09:18.48,::::(therapist speaking)yeah, but remember what we said
(next line)(therapist speaking)once when you were getting treated
Dialogue: 0,0:09:18.80,0:09:20.80,::::(therapist speaking)you have weak
Dialogue: 0,0:09:21.16,0:09:22.16,::::(therapist speaking)pera character.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:22.64,0:09:23.36,::::(therapist speaking)meaning...
Dialogue: 0,0:09:23.60,0:09:25.60,::::(therapist speaking)you have strong triple burner
Dialogue: 0,0:09:25.76,0:09:27.60,::::(therapist speaking)or at least at one point you did
Dialogue: 0,0:09:27.60,0:09:29.92,::::{\c&H000000&}or at least at one point you did (next
line){\c&H000000&}meaning your outside walls are pretty good,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:29.92,0:09:30.12,::::or at least at one point you did
Dialogue: 0,0:09:30.12,0:09:31.80,::::or at least at one point you did(next line)but once you
let somebody in
Dialogue: 0,0:09:31.80,0:09:33.28,::::or at least at one point you did(next line)you're all
screwed up.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:33.28,0:09:33.44,::::or at least at one point you did
Dialogue: 0,0:09:33.44,0:09:34.44,::::or at least at one point you did(next line)because they
will just...
Dialogue: 0,0:09:34.44,0:09:35.12,::::or at least at one point you did
Dialogue: 0,0:09:35.12,0:09:36.12,::::or at least at one point you did(next line)ride, ride, ride.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:36.12,0:09:38.32,::::or at least at one point you did(next line)No... I never let
anybody in.(next line)Alright.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:38.32,0:09:38.56,::::or at least at one point you did
Dialogue: 0,0:09:38.56,0:09:39.40,::::or at least at one point you did(next line)He got in.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:39.40,0:09:41.52,::::or at least at one point you did
Dialogue: 0,0:09:43.48,0:09:44.48,::::But I mean,
Dialogue: 0,0:09:45.04,0:09:46.04,::::You know
Dialogue: 0,0:09:46.36,0:09:51.60,::::he was talking to me like he was there(next line)talking
through my dad, he was there....
Dialogue: 0,0:09:52.68,0:09:54.04,::::My dad had some(next line)unfinished business you
know.
Dialogue: 0,0:09:54.04,0:09:54.08,::::My dad had some(next line)unfinished business you
know.(next line)I mean I am over that...(next line)nobody gets over that
Dialogue: 0,0:09:54.08,0:09:57.12,::::I mean I am over that...(next line)nobody gets over that
Dialogue: 0,0:09:58.12,0:09:59.36,::::tap tap tap
Dialogue: 0,0:09:59.76,0:10:02.40,::::(UNCLEAR AUDIO)
Dialogue: 0,0:10:02.48,0:10:04.32,::::My dad had some(next line)unfinished business and
shit,
Dialogue: 0,0:10:05.20,0:10:07.16,::::and I actually believe it...
Dialogue: 0,0:10:07.40,0:10:09.20,::::(therapist speaking)So, you know what I tell (next
line)(therapist speaking)Chinese medicine
Dialogue: 0,0:10:09.20,0:10:10.04,::::But I want too
Dialogue: 0,0:10:10.04,0:10:12.28,::::(therapist speaking)Do you know what I tell (next
line)(therapist speaking)Chinese medicine practitioners?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:12.28,0:10:13.92,::::(therapist speaking)people that do what I do
Dialogue: 0,0:10:15.00,0:10:17.24,::::(therapist speaking)don't get involved with witchcraft
Dialogue: 0,0:10:18.96,0:10:19.96,::::(therapist speaking)Cause you know what?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:20.32,0:10:22.28,::::(therapist speaking)The majority of people
Dialogue: 0,0:10:22.60,0:10:24.72,::::(therapist speaking)are never going to have the training
Dialogue: 0,0:10:25.12,0:10:27.92,::::(therapist speaking)and understanding (next
line)(therapist speaking)in order to deal with this stuff
Dialogue: 0,0:10:28.16,0:10:31.84,::::(therapist speaking)The energetic the spiritual stuff
(next line)(therapist speaking)on uhm... on a... in a true level.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:31.96,0:10:33.16,::::what's up with this his guy?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:33.36,0:10:34.12,::::(therapist speaking)What guy?
Dialogue: 0,0:10:34.44,0:10:36.88,::::The guy you told me (INAUDIBLE)...
Dialogue: 0,0:10:38.48,0:10:40.56,::::(therapist speaking)Poor choices upon your part.
Dialogue: 0,0:10:42.32,0:10:43.64,::::My daddy was (INAUDIBLE)...
Dialogue: 0,0:10:44.64,0:10:45.64,::::...
Dialogue: 0,0:10:46.68,0:10:50.64,::::What I find in...(next line)He made me feel like he
was...
Dialogue: 0,0:10:50.84,0:10:52.68,::::I made him feel like a kid
Dialogue: 0,0:10:53.32,0:10:54.60,::::(therapist speaking)In a lot of people...
Dialogue: 0,0:10:55.08,0:10:56.08,::::(therapist speaking)what I...
Dialogue: 0,0:10:56.08,0:11:01.32,::::(therapist speaking)what I see is people are hungry of
power (next line)(therapist speaking)that they don't understand or...
Dialogue: 0,0:11:01.56,0:11:02.92,::::(therapist speaking)or get to experience
Dialogue: 0,0:11:02.92,0:11:07.24,::::(therapist speaking)and they hope to experience it
through (next line)(therapist speaking)somebody else, like let that shit go
Dialogue: 0,0:11:07.68,0:11:10.60,::::He treated me made me feel like(next line)I was the
prom queen in school and...
Dialogue: 0,0:11:10.60,0:11:13.88,::::and when we were kids, you know?(next line)and he
was the loser
Dialogue: 0,0:11:13.88,0:11:16.20,::::and that he was,(next line)he made me feel like this
Dialogue: 0,0:11:16.36,0:11:18.36,::::that he was, just...(next line)had waited his whole life...
Dialogue: 0,0:11:18.36,0:11:20.48,::::he was forty five...(next line)he waited his whole life
Dialogue: 0,0:11:20.84,0:11:21.84,::::date me
Dialogue: 0,0:11:22.00,0:11:23.80,::::and then make me feel like shit
Dialogue: 0,0:11:24.12,0:11:26.56,::::Like 'cause like(next line)he didn't get to date me in
high school.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:26.56,0:11:27.56,::::Like theoretically.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:27.84,0:11:29.68,::::(therapist speaking)Ok... move on
Dialogue: 0,0:11:30.00,0:11:31.00,::::I mean...
Dialogue: 0,0:11:31.00,0:11:33.28,::::that's like how it made me feel.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:33.28,0:11:34.68,::::Like I really felt like it
Dialogue: 0,0:11:35.08,0:11:38.00,::::I was like wait a minute, I liked you because(next line)I
thought you were a genius.
Dialogue: 0,0:11:38.28,0:11:40.00,::::I liked our conversations
Dialogue: 0,0:11:40.04,0:11:41.80,::::{\c&H000000&}You like smart people, (next
line){\c&H000000&}I already know
Dialogue: 0,0:11:43.56,0:11:45.08,::::No I like different thoughts
Dialogue: 0,0:11:45.08,0:11:46.92,::::like... if you that smart
Dialogue: 0,0:11:48.52,0:11:50.20,::::all the math was wrong
Dialogue: 0,0:11:55.56,0:11:57.40,::::I thought it was right,
Dialogue: 0,0:11:59.40,0:12:02.00,::::I didn't relize there's a different(next line)grade of
people
Dialogue: 0,0:12:02.16,0:12:03.96,::::that have there own brand of math
Dialogue: 0,0:12:04.56,0:12:07.08,::::They go off that way...?
Dialogue: 0,0:12:12.36,0:12:16.28,::::(therapist speaking)So, scientists can do certain things,
(next line)(therapist speaking)right?
Dialogue: 0,0:12:16.44,0:12:18.44,::::(therapist speaking)Because they are smart in one way
Dialogue: 0,0:12:18.68,0:12:20.96,::::(therapist speaking)and they can pick things apart
(next line)(therapist speaking)and figure out things
Dialogue: 0,0:12:21.72,0:12:24.84,::::(therapist speaking)distance from earth to the sun
(next line)(therapist speaking)or what have you
Dialogue: 0,0:12:25.72,0:12:27.64,::::we all label each other
Dialogue: 0,0:12:28.56,0:12:31.84,::::(therapist speaking)So, to... are people that (next
line)(therapist speaking)don't use math
Dialogue: 0,0:12:32.28,0:12:35.00,::::(therapist speaking)or science... (next line)they just
don't have a label for it
Dialogue: 0,0:12:35.40,0:12:37.40,::::(therapist speaking)they are intuitive (next
line)(therapist speaking)or what have you
Dialogue: 0,0:12:37.92,0:12:39.12,::::(therapist speaking)They go out
Dialogue: 0,0:12:39.64,0:12:41.56,::::(therapist speaking)and can do these other things,
right?
Dialogue: 0,0:12:42.84,0:12:43.84,::::(therapist speaking)So...
Dialogue: 0,0:12:49.04,0:12:52.96,::::(therapist speaking)you need to... (next line)(therapist
speaking)if you want to understand you need to
Dialogue: 0,0:12:52.96,0:12:56.84,::::(therapist speaking)not... (next line)(therapist
speaking)no master is gonna enlighten you
Dialogue: 0,0:12:57.04,0:12:58.96,::::(therapist speaking)no master is going to like
Dialogue: 0,0:13:00.00,0:13:04.44,::::(therapist speaking)you can't find somebody in a far
country (next line)(therapist speaking)that's going to like fix you
Dialogue: 0,0:13:05.12,0:13:06.84,::::(therapist speaking)you got to fix yourself
Dialogue: 0,0:13:06.84,0:13:09.56,::::(therapist speaking)no practitioner (next line)(therapist
speaking)is gonna be able to fix you
Dialogue: 0,0:13:09.76,0:13:11.04,::::I'm not looking?
Dialogue: 0,0:13:12.28,0:13:14.52,::::(therapist speaking)But your looking for something
Dialogue: 0,0:13:15.36,0:13:17.72,::::(therapist speaking)That.... (next line)(therapist
speaking)what you're looking for
Dialogue: 0,0:13:18.12,0:13:22.84,::::I don't want to hear this(next line)Jesus walking on
water?
Dialogue: 0,0:13:23.24,0:13:28.08,::::(therapist speaking)you can't find it outside of yourself
(next line)(therapist speaking)it's inside yourself
Dialogue: 0,0:13:28.36,0:13:30.84,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:13:33.60,0:13:38.24,::::(therapist speaking)God put you on earth for a reason
(next line)(therapist speaking)whatever that reason is only you know
Dialogue: 0,0:13:43.56,0:13:45.84,::::(therapist speaking)you gotta suck it up and be that
Dialogue: 0,0:13:46.28,0:13:48.20,::::(therapist speaking)that´s basically all it is.
Dialogue: 0,0:13:49.72,0:13:52.84,::::(therapist speaking)Quit screwing around and acting
like (next line)(therapist speaking)it's somewhere else
Dialogue: 0,0:13:57.12,0:14:02.92,::::(INAUDIBLE)(next line)it not a compliment but it's like
Dialogue: 0,0:14:04.12,0:14:08.68,::::(therapist speaking)It's the truth (next line)(therapist
speaking)right?
Dialogue: 0,0:14:20.08,0:14:22.08,::::Yeah...
Dialogue: 0,0:14:37.36,0:14:42.04,::::(therapist speaking)if your life is about like helping
(next line)(therapist speaking)a little old woman across the street
Dialogue: 0,0:14:43.84,0:14:47.32,::::(therapist speaking)then great, you know (next
line)(therapist speaking)then you've done your life's work
Dialogue: 0,0:14:47.44,0:14:50.84,::::(therapist speaking)If your life is about solving world
hunger (next line)(therapist speaking)then great!
Dialogue: 0,0:14:50.84,0:14:52.48,::::(therapist speaking)You have done your life's work
Dialogue: 0,0:14:54.16,0:14:56.44,::::Where do I start?
Dialogue: 0,0:14:57.28,0:14:59.68,::::No but....(next line)like where do I start?
Dialogue: 0,0:14:59.88,0:15:01.48,::::(therapist speaking)On your phone.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:10.40,0:15:12.68,::::(therapist speaking)Lose any friends that you have
Dialogue: 0,0:15:14.68,0:15:16.28,::::(therapist speaking)No temptations
Dialogue: 0,0:15:16.56,0:15:18.64,::::I need to like....(next line)follow the path
Dialogue: 0,0:15:19.12,0:15:21.04,::::I need to follow like the yellow brick road
Dialogue: 0,0:15:21.04,0:15:24.72,::::There's like...
Dialogue: 0,0:15:27.96,0:15:29.48,::::Thank you!!
Dialogue: 0,0:15:29.80,0:15:31.48,::::(therapist speaking)You do need to follow (next
line)(therapist speaking)the yellow brick road
Dialogue: 0,0:15:31.92,0:15:33.64,::::(therapist speaking)If you think your time is short
Dialogue: 0,0:15:34.12,0:15:35.44,::::(therapist speaking)as you said,
Dialogue: 0,0:15:36.12,0:15:37.84,::::(therapist speaking)three or four times
Dialogue: 0,0:15:38.28,0:15:40.28,::::(therapist speaking)you ain't got much time
Dialogue: 0,0:15:40.28,0:15:41.80,::::(therapist speaking)if your already thinking your time is
short
Dialogue: 0,0:15:41.88,0:15:44.92,::::(therapist speaking)You need clean up your shit (next
line)(therapist speaking)and get it going
Dialogue: 0,0:15:45.20,0:15:47.76,::::(therapist speaking)and do whatever you need to do,
(next line)(therapist speaking)you know.
Dialogue: 0,0:15:47.76,0:15:50.44,::::(therapist speaking)The only way that... (next
line)(therapist speaking)that God can help you
Dialogue: 0,0:15:50.44,0:15:52.32,::::(therapist speaking)God or spirit or whatever
Dialogue: 0,0:15:52.32,0:15:55.48,::::(therapist speaking)can help you do that (next
line)(therapist speaking)is if your empty
Dialogue: 0,0:15:57.72,0:15:59.92,::::(therapist speaking)And the only way that you can be
empty
Dialogue: 0,0:16:00.96,0:16:03.72,::::(therapist speaking)is... you need to ditch all this stuff.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:03.72,0:16:06.24,::::(therapist speaking)and match meditations and all
these things (next line)(therapist speaking)that I have given you
Dialogue: 0,0:16:07.88,0:16:12.24,::::(therapist speaking)if you, if you keep mucking around
(next line)(therapist speaking)with like, negative people...
Dialogue: 0,0:16:12.32,0:16:13.80,::::(therapist speaking)and vampires
Dialogue: 0,0:16:14.16,0:16:16.20,::::(therapist speaking)and people that will embodied
demons
Dialogue: 0,0:16:16.40,0:16:17.40,::::(therapist speaking)and all this shit
Dialogue: 0,0:16:17.40,0:16:18.40,::::And zombies...
Dialogue: 0,0:16:18.56,0:16:20.16,::::(therapist speaking)You're not gonna go anywhere
Dialogue: 0,0:16:21.08,0:16:23.88,::::(therapist speaking)because their whole purpose
(next line)(therapist speaking)is to keep you down
Dialogue: 0,0:16:26.12,0:16:28.84,::::And I am supposed to do something(next line)and its
not like I can blame this people
Dialogue: 0,0:16:28.84,0:16:31.08,::::I see something there I know(next line)where I can
make a difference
Dialogue: 0,0:16:31.08,0:16:32.60,::::(therapist speaking)let me explain it to you in a different
way
Dialogue: 0,0:16:34.12,0:16:35.96,::::(therapist speaking)there is a war going on
Dialogue: 0,0:16:37.04,0:16:38.04,::::(therapist speaking)between the light and the dark
Dialogue: 0,0:16:38.56,0:16:39.20,::::I know
Dialogue: 0,0:16:39.76,0:16:42.80,::::(therapist speaking)And people that are of the light
Dialogue: 0,0:16:43.12,0:16:45.64,::::(therapist speaking)are being attacked by people of the
dark
Dialogue: 0,0:16:45.88,0:16:49.20,::::(therapist speaking)and I will tell you (next
line)(therapist speaking)that's going to get a lot worse.
Dialogue: 0,0:16:49.32,0:16:51.20,::::{\c&HFEFFFF&}They know who I am (next
line)(therapist speaking)They don't know who you are
Dialogue: 0,0:16:51.44,0:16:53.32,::::(therapist speaking)and you should never tell anybody
(next line)(therapist speaking)who you are
Dialogue: 0,0:16:55.96,0:16:56.96,::::(therapist speaking)alright?
Dialogue: 0,0:16:58.48,0:17:00.12,::::(therapist speaking)Nobody that doesn't know
Dialogue: 0,0:17:00.60,0:17:02.44,::::(therapist speaking)doesn't need to know. (next
line)(therapist speaking)You know why?
Dialogue: 0,0:17:03.12,0:17:05.48,::::(therapist speaking)Because it will make you (next
line)(therapist speaking)a target
Dialogue: 0,0:17:07.76,0:17:11.84,::::(therapist speaking)And... uh... (next line)(therapist
speaking)targets get shot at first!
Dialogue: 0,0:17:13.80,0:17:14.60,::::(therapist speaking)So...
Dialogue: 0,0:17:14.68,0:17:16.08,::::I didn't think(next line)there was anybody else out there
Dialogue: 0,0:17:16.52,0:17:19.28,::::(therapist speaking)You need to learn, too.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:19.36,0:17:20.88,::::I didn't think there was anyone else out there..
Dialogue: 0,0:17:20.88,0:17:22.76,::::(therapist speaking)There is a lot of people out there
Dialogue: 0,0:17:23.16,0:17:25.76,::::(therapist speaking)there is a lot of people (next
line)(therapist speaking)bigger than you out there
Dialogue: 0,0:17:26.40,0:17:28.68,::::(therapist speaking)but they know to keep their shit
quiet.
Dialogue: 0,0:17:29.72,0:17:30.72,::::No, I don't talk about it
Dialogue: 0,0:17:34.20,0:17:35.04,::::I just...
Dialogue: 0,0:17:36.04,0:17:38.08,::::I didn't know who I was...
Dialogue: 0,0:17:38.56,0:17:42.24,::::and I'm telling you...(next line)that he knows who I
am...
Dialogue: 0,0:17:42.44,0:17:44.92,::::Well...(next line)anything this fellow told you
Dialogue: 0,0:17:45.48,0:17:46.48,::::(therapist speaking)No he has no idea about this
Dialogue: 0,0:17:46.48,0:17:50.12,::::(therapist speaking)I would discount, okay? (next
line)(therapist speaking)No, he doesn't know about this
Dialogue: 0,0:17:50.48,0:17:55.84,::::(therapist speaking)Then you just like be (next
line)(therapist speaking)with that internal power
Dialogue: 0,0:17:55.84,0:17:58.84,::::(therapist speaking)don't feel lost... (next
line)(therapist speaking)because there is a lot of people
Dialogue: 0,0:17:59.20,0:17:59.88,::::(therapist speaking)that are...
Dialogue: 0,0:18:02.12,0:18:04.64,::::(therapist speaking)you don't strike me as anything
(next line)(therapist speaking)but human
Dialogue: 0,0:18:08.08,0:18:10.88,::::(therapist speaking)and weather you are, or not...
Dialogue: 0,0:18:13.52,0:18:22.48,::::It's not like I'm going to differentiate myself(next
line)from the crow... (INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:18:22.76,0:18:24.12,::::(therapist speaking)but things that are not human
Dialogue: 0,0:18:24.28,0:18:28.00,::::(therapist speaking)that are walking amongst us (next
line)(therapist speaking)are different
Dialogue: 0,0:18:28.56,0:18:29.56,::::(therapist speaking)But...
Dialogue: 0,0:18:31.76,0:18:34.72,::::(therapist speaking)do not play like a human
Dialogue: 0,0:18:37.64,0:18:42.32,::::(therapist speaking)there is forgiveness like being
human.
Dialogue: 0,0:18:44.68,0:18:53.68,::::...it doesn’t matter(next line)the thing is uhm...
Dialogue: 0,0:18:54.68,0:18:55.72,::::You know I had...
Dialogue: 0,0:19:00.36,0:19:02.48,::::I don't know if you’ve met me...
Dialogue: 0,0:19:15.32,0:19:18.12,::::and I don't think I’ve met you before
Dialogue: 0,0:19:18.92,0:19:20.24,::::dude really...
Dialogue: 0,0:19:20.68,0:19:21.72,::::(therapist speaking)I am who I am.
Dialogue: 0,0:19:22.64,0:19:25.00,::::and I know...(next line)that sounds really crazy huh..
Dialogue: 0,0:19:25.76,0:19:34.64,::::How do you think it feels to know(next line)know your
life is a scam...
Dialogue: 0,0:19:36.68,0:19:37.68,::::(therapist speaking)Tiffany
Dialogue: 0,0:19:40.08,0:19:42.28,::::TAP, TAP, TAP
Dialogue: 0,0:19:42.96,0:19:46.08,::::(therapist speaking)If you knew who you were (next
line)(therapist speaking)from you were young
Dialogue: 0,0:19:46.08,0:19:48.48,::::it would not....(next line)it would not be a good thing
Dialogue: 0,0:19:48.48,0:19:49.76,::::I do...? I was...?
Dialogue: 0,0:19:50.72,0:19:53.36,::::And I got a long story
Dialogue: 0,0:19:54.08,0:19:55.08,::::(therapist speaking)Yes I'm sure you do
Dialogue: 0,0:19:55.08,0:19:57.60,::::I am not alone(next line)like a loner everybody likes me
Dialogue: 0,0:19:58.00,0:20:01.36,::::or whatever...(next line)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:20:01.84,0:20:05.96,::::the thing is(next line)there is only few of us
Dialogue: 0,0:20:06.16,0:20:07.96,::::and we don't have a lot of time
Dialogue: 0,0:20:08.48,0:20:10.40,::::and a lot people going to die
Dialogue: 0,0:20:10.88,0:20:12.40,::::and it's ok if they do
Dialogue: 0,0:20:13.40,0:20:15.32,::::and I dont know what we are here for
Dialogue: 0,0:20:21.56,0:20:26.88,::::And I am supposed to leave?(next line)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:20:27.32,0:20:31.84,::::I don't know who you are...(next line)and you think
you're a dark angel?
Dialogue: 0,0:20:31.84,0:20:33.64,::::(therapist speaking)I don't think I am a dark angel
Dialogue: 0,0:20:34.84,0:20:37.56,::::I don't think I am a dark angel, too
Dialogue: 0,0:20:37.56,0:20:38.96,::::(therapist speaking)I don't know who you are
Dialogue: 0,0:20:39.80,0:20:43.00,::::(therapist speaking)so, like the thing... (next line)But I
want you to know
Dialogue: 0,0:20:43.00,0:20:44.40,::::I'm not like your other patients
Dialogue: 0,0:20:45.32,0:20:46.84,::::and I'm not mentally insane
Dialogue: 0,0:20:46.92,0:20:49.92,::::(therapist speaking)No I don’t think you’re mentally
insane (next line)(therapist speaking)you're like a lot of my other patients
Dialogue: 0,0:20:50.36,0:20:52.96,::::(therapist speaking)Why do you think people come
(next line)(therapist speaking)like you come to see me?
Dialogue: 0,0:21:01.28,0:21:01.96,::::(therapist speaking)But...
Dialogue: 0,0:21:03.72,0:21:05.00,::::(therapist speaking)We will just say it like this
Dialogue: 0,0:21:05.20,0:21:06.48,::::(therapist speaking)you need to get your shit together
Dialogue: 0,0:21:07.60,0:21:10.08,::::I know that part
Dialogue: 0,0:21:12.96,0:21:13.96,::::(therapist speaking)Well act like it
Dialogue: 0,0:21:17.48,0:21:21.76,::::This guy I dated(next line)said I love you. I said act like
it
Dialogue: 0,0:21:22.24,0:21:23.84,::::Act like it...
Dialogue: 0,0:21:25.40,0:21:26.40,::::yeah
Dialogue: 0,0:21:27.24,0:21:28.32,::::(therapist speaking)Act like it then.
Dialogue: 0,0:21:30.44,0:21:32.60,::::What are we going to do tomorrow(next line)when we
meet
Dialogue: 0,0:21:33.00,0:21:34.00,::::I don't know
Dialogue: 0,0:21:34.28,0:21:35.60,::::You gonna going to help me(next line)figure out my
life?
Dialogue: 0,0:21:35.76,0:21:39.68,::::(therapist speaking)No, I am probably going to see you
(next line)(therapist speaking)for an hour then kick you out
Dialogue: 0,0:21:40.28,0:21:42.72,::::No, no, no....(next line)(therapist speaking)The thing is
Dialogue: 0,0:21:42.72,0:21:46.16,::::I need your help... this is my...(next line)this is my
request (INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:21:46.16,0:21:49.52,::::There's only so much...(next line)like... (INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:21:49.80,0:21:55.56,::::(therapist speaking)There is only so much fog (next
line)(therapist speaking)I can clear for you... you...
Dialogue: 0,0:21:55.76,0:21:57.60,::::I just want to explain to you what happen
Dialogue: 0,0:21:57.60,0:21:58.60,::::(therapist speaking)Your mind...
Dialogue: 0,0:21:58.80,0:22:00.60,::::I just want to explain what happened
Dialogue: 0,0:22:00.60,0:22:04.00,::::(therapist speaking)Okay your just going to explain
(next line)(therapist speaking)what happened but you have to be sober
Dialogue: 0,0:22:04.64,0:22:05.28,::::I will...
Dialogue: 0,0:22:06.32,0:22:08.84,::::So you can map it...(next line)then you can like...
Dialogue: 0,0:22:08.84,0:22:14.04,::::the thing is I know my wrong and everything(next
line)it's not about who is right and who is wrong
Dialogue: 0,0:22:14.36,0:22:17.88,::::But like, I can't, for some reason(next line)I can't let go
of it
Dialogue: 0,0:22:19.32,0:22:20.64,::::I want to know
Dialogue: 0,0:22:20.64,0:22:23.04,::::how to...(next line)and you know like
Dialogue: 0,0:22:23.48,0:22:25.88,::::and how to...(next line)and I've got no problem with
Jesus
Dialogue: 0,0:22:25.88,0:22:29.32,::::or like whatever... I want to see(next line)Jesus walk on
water.... whatever
Dialogue: 0,0:22:29.60,0:22:34.36,::::that bullshit... the thing is...(next line)I want to believe in
that shit... but, like...
Dialogue: 0,0:22:34.88,0:22:37.72,::::For some reason I can't let go of the situation(next
line)and it is actually killing me
Dialogue: 0,0:22:39.16,0:22:43.16,::::like its killing me...(next line)and I don't know how...?
Dialogue: 0,0:22:43.88,0:22:44.88,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:22:47.16,0:22:50.60,::::{\c&HF7FBFB&}I don't... (next line)(therapist
speaking)I will tell you a couple of things....
Dialogue: 0,0:22:51.12,0:22:52.40,::::I can't stop writing about him
Dialogue: 0,0:22:52.56,0:22:53.92,::::(therapist speaking)I don't do dispossession
Dialogue: 0,0:22:55.08,0:23:00.60,::::(therapist speaking)I don't do... I don't fight black
magic. (next line)He is not able to do that
Dialogue: 0,0:23:01.72,0:23:03.44,::::he’s not able to do that to me
Dialogue: 0,0:23:05.12,0:23:06.12,::::(therapist speaking)But he has...
Dialogue: 0,0:23:07.80,0:23:08.80,::::(therapist speaking)but he has...
Dialogue: 0,0:23:08.80,0:23:09.80,::::Has? Has?
Dialogue: 0,0:23:11.24,0:23:13.80,::::(therapist speaking)'Cause you are screwed up about
him still, (next line)(therapist speaking)right?
Dialogue: 0,0:23:14.84,0:23:15.96,::::I wanna believe that was true love...
Dialogue: 0,0:23:18.76,0:23:19.88,::::(therapist speaking)Like I said,
Dialogue: 0,0:23:20.20,0:23:22.76,::::(therapist speaking)do not use anything
Dialogue: 0,0:23:22.76,0:23:26.40,::::(therapist speaking)because your weak and vulnerable
(next line)(therapist speaking)and when you...
Dialogue: 0,0:23:26.92,0:23:30.04,::::It doesn’t matter(next line)He made me believe... in
true love
Dialogue: 0,0:23:30.84,0:23:32.16,::::(therapist speaking)You keep saying that...
Dialogue: 0,0:23:34.20,0:23:36.84,::::It's not about him....(next line)so much as it is...
Dialogue: 0,0:23:36.84,0:23:40.08,::::I don't care about letting him go...(next line)he's gone...
If I see him like...
Dialogue: 0,0:23:40.08,0:23:41.40,::::(therapist speaking)You know it's a vampire is?
Dialogue: 0,0:23:45.20,0:23:48.28,::::Well I mean...(next line)yeah... like... not really
Dialogue: 0,0:23:49.08,0:23:50.20,::::(therapist speaking)I want you to go
Dialogue: 0,0:23:50.48,0:23:51.80,::::(therapist speaking)this is your homework
Dialogue: 0,0:23:52.56,0:23:53.72,::::(therapist speaking)go back to your room
Dialogue: 0,0:23:54.60,0:24:00.96,::::Don't talk to me like... (INAUDIBLE)(next line)I call
them zombies
Dialogue: 0,0:24:01.04,0:24:02.48,::::(therapist speaking)But I want you to know the
difference
Dialogue: 0,0:24:03.72,0:24:06.32,::::(therapist speaking)I want you to do some reading on
vampires
Dialogue: 0,0:24:07.56,0:24:11.56,::::(therapist speaking)on google or what have you (next
line)(therapist speaking)just read nick
Dialogue: 0,0:24:11.80,0:24:13.84,::::I didn't believe there was evil people(next line)out there
Dialogue: 0,0:24:13.84,0:24:15.40,::::and this is how(next line)you might now who I am
Dialogue: 0,0:24:16.36,0:24:18.20,::::(therapist speaking)You don't believe that (next
line)(therapist speaking)there is evil people out there?
Dialogue: 0,0:24:18.20,0:24:18.92,::::I didn't
Dialogue: 0,0:24:19.08,0:24:20.08,::::before I met him
Dialogue: 0,0:24:21.00,0:24:22.72,::::he told me that...(next line)he hated somebody
Dialogue: 0,0:24:22.72,0:24:25.32,::::I said well hate is an awful strong word
Dialogue: 0,0:24:25.52,0:24:28.00,::::I never said(next line)I hated somebody in my entire life
Dialogue: 0,0:24:28.00,0:24:29.00,::::I was so protected...
Dialogue: 0,0:24:30.60,0:24:32.40,::::he didn't know who my dad was yet
Dialogue: 0,0:24:32.40,0:24:33.84,::::but like ...
Dialogue: 0,0:24:34.56,0:24:37.32,::::like I'm one of the last protected people(next line)that
are out there
Dialogue: 0,0:24:37.32,0:24:38.32,::::that are out there
Dialogue: 0,0:24:38.92,0:24:43.00,::::I haven't seen violence... really...(next line)it's not like I
haven't seen violence.
Dialogue: 0,0:24:43.56,0:24:47.88,::::By brothers and I fought...(next line)but not all of us are
like that
Dialogue: 0,0:24:48.72,0:24:53.68,::::nobody in my family is like me either,(next line)but I
mean he's good
Dialogue: 0,0:24:53.92,0:24:55.88,::::whatever's happen is a really good
Dialogue: 0,0:24:57.44,0:25:00.20,::::I got a lot of good, this is a good problem
Dialogue: 0,0:25:00.56,0:25:03.40,::::I have a lot of fucking good to do(next line)in this world
Dialogue: 0,0:25:03.40,0:25:04.56,::::(therapist speaking)That's great ok...
Dialogue: 0,0:25:04.80,0:25:07.92,::::(therapist speaking)I'll see you tomorrow (next
line)(therapist speaking)I got to pee, so...
Dialogue: 0,0:25:08.20,0:25:11.80,::::So there is a men's bathroom in here...(next line)It's a
very nice one
Dialogue: 0,0:25:12.28,0:25:19.00,::::I am going to say goodbye to you in here...(next
line)But like the thing is...
Dialogue: 0,0:25:20.60,0:25:23.52,::::(therapist speaking)Do not touch me... (next
line)(therapist speaking)unfortunately...
Dialogue: 0,0:25:30.48,0:25:33.68,::::(therapist speaking)I left my girlfriend sick to come
meet you
Dialogue: 0,0:25:34.00,0:25:37.52,::::(therapist speaking)So, you not touching me is at least
(next line)(therapist speaking)some sort of boundary.
Dialogue: 0,0:25:43.08,0:25:51.88,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:25:52.68,0:26:04.68,::::...he did a really good thing for his mom(next
line)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:26:05.24,0:26:07.32,::::(therapist speaking)I hope so...
Dialogue: 0,0:26:07.84,0:26:10.16,::::I'll see you tomorrow
Dialogue: 0,0:27:18.76,0:27:23.44,::::(therapist speaking)I'll always believe.... Tiffany (next
line)(therapist speaking)that you could just get your stuff together
Dialogue: 0,0:27:23.44,0:27:24.80,::::(therapist speaking)you can do great things (next
line){\c&H08E6FA&\c}
Dialogue: 0,0:27:26.32,0:27:29.32,::::(therapist speaking)but you gotta get... (next line)I'm
tired of people not
Dialogue: 0,0:27:29.60,0:27:31.28,::::I don't care what people believe in
Dialogue: 0,0:27:31.76,0:27:34.12,::::I just haven't found and trust me(next line)I am good at
the math
Dialogue: 0,0:27:34.56,0:27:36.08,::::I just haven't found the right place(next line)to apply it...
Dialogue: 0,0:27:36.36,0:27:38.64,::::(therapist speaking)let me go... (next line)(therapist
speaking)just walk me to my car
Dialogue: 0,0:27:40.40,0:27:41.32,::::Would you like one?
Dialogue: 0,0:27:41.32,0:27:42.32,::::(therapist speaking)I don't smoke
Dialogue: 0,0:27:42.88,0:27:55.36,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:27:56.44,0:27:59.64,::::I mean like him... everything I have(next line)fucking
touched turn to gold
Dialogue: 0,0:28:00.36,0:28:03.56,::::but it doesn't really mean(next line)anything in the end
Dialogue: 0,0:28:03.76,0:28:07.08,::::(therapist speaking)That's a parlor trick, too. (next
line)I don't know what a parlor trick is
Dialogue: 0,0:28:09.56,0:28:12.16,::::(therapist speaking)I am putting it into your own terms
Dialogue: 0,0:28:12.44,0:28:15.28,::::(therapist speaking)everything you touch turns to gold
Dialogue: 0,0:28:15.44,0:28:18.72,::::(therapist speaking)because you took your energy into
it (next line)(therapist speaking)or what have you,
Dialogue: 0,0:28:19.00,0:28:23.04,::::(therapist speaking)that's a parlor trick (next
line)(therapist speaking)it doesn't mean anything on a grand scale
Dialogue: 0,0:28:23.04,0:28:26.20,::::(therapist speaking)it's something you do at the
moment.
Dialogue: 0,0:28:27.12,0:28:29.32,::::how did you tell me that somebody's knows(next
line)that I'm thinking
Dialogue: 0,0:28:29.32,0:28:31.44,::::when your outside the room for 3 hrs(next line)And
then I come back in
Dialogue: 0,0:28:32.04,0:28:36.12,::::(therapist speaking)I can't think about this woman in
Australia (next line)(therapist speaking)she's a friend of mine
Dialogue: 0,0:28:36.40,0:28:42.48,::::(therapist speaking)within 20 minutes can give you an
answer (next line)(therapist speaking)how do you explain that?
Dialogue: 0,0:28:42.48,0:28:43.84,::::how so you refine it?
Dialogue: 0,0:28:44.04,0:28:48.52,::::how do you do it to the... just when(next line)I try to
think something to my brain
Dialogue: 0,0:28:48.52,0:28:52.76,::::he finishes my sentences(next line)he finishes my
sentences...
Dialogue: 0,0:28:53.20,0:28:56.92,::::(therapist speaking)if it was any?... (next line)(therapist
speaking)you wouldn't want to be a part of it
Dialogue: 0,0:28:57.40,0:29:00.56,::::No he's way smart(next line)how do people refine that
Dialogue: 0,0:29:00.84,0:29:01.84,::::(therapist speaking)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:29:02.20,0:29:04.32,::::No he doesn’t meditate he’s got ADD
Dialogue: 0,0:29:04.64,0:29:08.64,::::(therapist speaking)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:29:14.40,0:29:16.56,::::He…(next line)you know when i first met him…
Dialogue: 0,0:29:19.64,0:29:25.68,::::He had 4 conversations going on in one(next
line)sentence and they all piled back to the end
Dialogue: 0,0:29:25.68,0:29:28.88,::::and hit an exclamation point or a period
Dialogue: 0,0:29:29.12,0:29:31.44,::::and then he made them(next line)all draw back to one
Dialogue: 0,0:29:31.84,0:29:34.72,::::and I was like what in the *fuck just(next line)happened
was my own mathmasis
Dialogue: 0,0:29:34.72,0:29:37.96,::::talking to me… like…(next line)but I understand him…
Dialogue: 0,0:29:37.96,0:29:40.96,::::but I sat there with my mouth like...
Dialogue: 0,0:29:40.96,0:29:46.32,::::how does somebody like just talk about(next line)4
different like very intelligent things
Dialogue: 0,0:29:46.96,0:29:50.12,::::and draw them all and I’m not saying once.
Dialogue: 0,0:29:52.16,0:29:53.72,::::I care!(next line)(therapist speaking)Why?
Dialogue: 0,0:29:55.44,0:29:57.44,::::Trust me!(next line)(therapist speaking)Why?
Dialogue: 0,0:29:59.20,0:30:00.80,::::Because he can help people…
Dialogue: 0,0:30:02.84,0:30:06.20,::::because he can do so many things(next line)at time
these people
Dialogue: 0,0:30:08.20,0:30:11.00,::::(therapist speaking)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:30:11.28,0:30:12.28,::::That's funny?
Dialogue: 0,0:30:12.28,0:30:22.20,::::(therapist speaking)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:30:22.20,0:30:25.60,::::(therapist speaking)Like as in something sweet
Dialogue: 0,0:30:27.64,0:30:28.64,::::Yea
Dialogue: 0,0:30:29.20,0:30:32.40,::::(therapist speaking)You want to draw a baby him
candy, right?
Dialogue: 0,0:30:33.12,0:30:36.64,::::Then I remember after I got to know him(next line)a
little bit like I... like I felt like
Dialogue: 0,0:30:36.76,0:30:38.64,::::I thought that it was because
Dialogue: 0,0:30:39.60,0:30:42.84,::::I got used to it…(next line)that he didn’t talk so fast
anymore
Dialogue: 0,0:30:47.20,0:30:51.44,::::then he was a real then I started…(next line)then I
found holes
Dialogue: 0,0:30:51.60,0:30:53.92,::::like he did everything right! Like he…
Dialogue: 0,0:30:54.96,0:30:56.44,::::he is fascinating to watch…
Dialogue: 0,0:30:57.64,0:30:59.64,::::uhm but then I realized like
Dialogue: 0,0:31:00.72,0:31:04.80,::::if your this good at stuff and your 45 as whatever then
why aren’t you wha...
Dialogue: 0,0:31:05.68,0:31:10.04,::::why do you still work for yourself or why?
Dialogue: 0,0:31:10.04,0:31:14.00,::::why you still doing this because I am 35
Dialogue: 0,0:31:14.00,0:31:15.96,::::and I don’t have to work a day(next line)for the rest of
my life
Dialogue: 0,0:31:17.64,0:31:20.20,::::I figured it all out and I invested well
Dialogue: 0,0:31:21.76,0:31:25.28,::::so it didn’t make sense to me because…
Dialogue: 0,0:31:27.12,0:31:32.12,::::and then I started seeing holes and(next line)I’m not
living with my daddy believe me
Dialogue: 0,0:31:32.92,0:31:38.00,::::I got in a fight about the inheritance(next line)and all
that B.S anf I told them...
Dialogue: 0,0:31:39.12,0:31:41.16,::::they can have it…(next line)and so like uhm.
Dialogue: 0,0:31:41.16,0:31:43.84,::::But if your that smart you know
Dialogue: 0,0:31:45.36,0:31:49.32,::::you should have figured it out by now(next line)so it’s
hard for me to believe?
Dialogue: 0,0:31:49.52,0:31:51.80,::::I’m Looking for somebody(next line)who has a better
idea in life
Dialogue: 0,0:31:52.52,0:31:54.08,::::but you shouldn’t hurt people(next line)with your idea…
Dialogue: 0,0:32:00.56,0:32:08.84,::::(therapist speaking)Not all people that are smart in
other ways (next line)(therapist speaking)are smart in all ways does that make sense.
Dialogue: 0,0:32:09.28,0:32:16.32,::::Yes, yes, yes, it does in a lot of ways(next line)yes that
was a good answer so
Dialogue: 0,0:32:16.68,0:32:17.76,::::(therapist speaking)So...
Dialogue: 0,0:32:18.44,0:32:22.28,::::I get you...(next line)(therapist speaking)You have
certain gifts right
Dialogue: 0,0:32:23.28,0:32:26.36,::::(therapist speaking)true love is about somebody (next
line)(therapist speaking)that has other gifts
Dialogue: 0,0:32:27.16,0:32:28.68,::::(therapist speaking)that’s not going to hurt you
Dialogue: 0,0:32:29.68,0:32:32.88,::::(therapist speaking)not going to destroy you and not
try…
Dialogue: 0,0:32:32.88,0:32:33.88,::::I’m not in search of it...
Dialogue: 0,0:32:33.88,0:32:35.40,::::(therapist speaking)Well whatever... (next line)I believe
in it
Dialogue: 0,0:32:35.72,0:32:40.80,::::(therapist speaking)all I'm just saying is true love (next
line)(therapist speaking)I'm just defining it
Dialogue: 0,0:32:41.48,0:32:44.56,::::I can’t...(next line)(therapist speaking)Yeah sure you
can for you
Dialogue: 0,0:32:44.56,0:32:48.20,::::(therapist speaking)true love is somebody that’s (next
line)(therapist speaking)going to balance you out
Dialogue: 0,0:32:49.08,0:32:50.08,::::Yea
Dialogue: 0,0:32:51.68,0:32:53.24,::::He made me believe in true love…
Dialogue: 0,0:32:54.08,0:33:01.00,::::I wish I had your email address(next line)I wrote this
paragraph it’s important.
Dialogue: 0,0:33:01.84,0:33:04.32,::::It’s somebody that made me feel(next line)for a minute
that...
Dialogue: 0,0:33:05.16,0:33:08.64,::::(INAUDIBLE(next line)...but my dad
Dialogue: 0,0:33:09.48,0:33:10.80,::::he didn’t do everything for me
Dialogue: 0,0:33:12.08,0:33:16.24,::::but whatever I’ve been able to do(next line)everything
for my entire ...
Dialogue: 0,0:33:21.16,0:33:25.28,::::So it’s really hard for me to find a guy(next line)that’s a
peer
Dialogue: 0,0:33:27.32,0:33:31.40,::::and so like this guy, you know(next line)a lot of guys
these peers or whatever
Dialogue: 0,0:33:32.20,0:33:33.76,::::but there is something you know it’s not
Dialogue: 0,0:33:34.12,0:33:39.04,::::but this guy like he had no holes in his story(next
line)and then I started seeing holes
Dialogue: 0,0:33:40.16,0:33:42.20,::::(therapist speaking)Everybody has holes you have
holes
Dialogue: 0,0:33:42.76,0:33:47.56,::::No I don’t …(next line)My story is true… I tell the truth
Dialogue: 0,0:33:48.36,0:33:49.36,::::(therapist speaking)Your story might be true
Dialogue: 0,0:33:49.96,0:33:50.96,::::(therapist speaking)but you have holes
Dialogue: 0,0:33:51.24,0:33:52.76,::::I don’t like to say like to say story
Dialogue: 0,0:33:53.76,0:33:54.76,::::I don’t have holes…
Dialogue: 0,0:33:55.20,0:33:56.92,::::I have holes in the sense…
Dialogue: 0,0:33:57.24,0:34:02.88,::::but like, there are 2 types(next line)there’s a hole on
coming in & coming out
Dialogue: 0,0:34:03.56,0:34:05.64,::::the inflow and the outflow
Dialogue: 0,0:34:06.52,0:34:09.44,::::and were all subject to the brainwash,(next line)right…
Dialogue: 0,0:34:09.44,0:34:10.84,::::the flow of information?
Dialogue: 0,0:34:11.56,0:34:24.56,::::(therapist speaking)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:34:25.76,0:34:30.44,::::Man there’s not enough of us…(next line)and I don’t
want more of us…
Dialogue: 0,0:34:30.44,0:34:33.92,::::I can’t take it… & I don’t go around(next line)saying that
information everywhere.
Dialogue: 0,0:34:36.60,0:34:38.56,::::I don’t talk to a lot of people anymore
Dialogue: 0,0:34:39.56,0:34:43.36,::::That’s why I’d rather that’s probably(next line)why a lot
of us kill ourselves
Dialogue: 0,0:34:43.36,0:34:45.92,::::I’m not going to kill myself I’m not suicidal.
Dialogue: 0,0:34:47.88,0:34:48.92,::::And I’m not lost
Dialogue: 0,0:34:50.24,0:34:51.24,::::I’m stuck
Dialogue: 0,0:34:55.76,0:34:56.76,::::you know…
Dialogue: 0,0:35:00.60,0:35:01.96,::::but the holes
Dialogue: 0,0:35:02.68,0:35:06.56,::::the holes are only missing Information(next line)that
want. If you find them
Dialogue: 0,0:35:06.56,0:35:07.36,::::if you see one…
Dialogue: 0,0:35:08.24,0:35:15.44,::::That’s why I like you because I have known(next
line)you know, off and on, over the years.
Dialogue: 0,0:35:15.84,0:35:19.68,::::But I’ve never met anyone, so,(next line)other than this
guy, you would die…
Dialogue: 0,0:35:19.76,0:35:20.96,::::I want him to meet you… but uhm
Dialogue: 0,0:35:21.52,0:35:23.68,::::(therapist speaking)I don’t want to meet him. (next
line)I won’t let you.
Dialogue: 0,0:35:25.12,0:35:28.08,::::I remember when he was talking(next line)on the
Phone to you and he was like
Dialogue: 0,0:35:28.08,0:35:32.20,::::well here’s my idea and “it’s right”(next line)and he I
just let him go Ahead and talk
Dialogue: 0,0:35:36.60,0:35:38.52,::::'cause it didn’t matter at that point.
Dialogue: 0,0:35:40.48,0:35:45.28,::::He was out for the wrong idea… he didn't(next line)get
my idea… my idea is for the good
Dialogue: 0,0:35:46.56,0:35:51.96,::::is for the better of all people not… or me…(next line)or
not for me I don’t care about me.
Dialogue: 0,0:35:51.96,0:35:56.28,::::I challenge you to come without wearing(next
line)makeup tomorrow, ok?
Dialogue: 0,0:35:59.20,0:36:01.16,::::But the uhm...
Dialogue: 0,0:36:05.56,0:36:07.16,::::No hiding...
Dialogue: 0,0:36:09.44,0:36:11.28,::::No I mean I’m not...?
Dialogue: 0,0:36:15.68,0:36:24.40,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:36:25.08,0:36:33.36,::::No I mean I don’t lie that’s one thing, the only(next
line)thing we have as humans is our word
Dialogue: 0,0:36:34.48,0:36:36.04,::::(therapist speaking)No we have a lot more
Dialogue: 0,0:36:37.20,0:36:38.20,::::our word...
Dialogue: 0,0:36:39.04,0:36:41.48,::::your word is everything when I speak
Dialogue: 0,0:36:41.48,0:36:47.04,::::I mean, I can play the viola… but you still(next
line)won’t understand what I’m trying to say
Dialogue: 0,0:36:48.24,0:36:51.08,::::you might feel it...(next line)But like...
Dialogue: 0,0:36:52.16,0:36:53.96,::::my word… and what I say to you
Dialogue: 0,0:36:55.16,0:37:02.04,::::and when I’m trying to figure things out…(next line)just
trust me because
Dialogue: 0,0:37:02.92,0:37:08.40,::::I’m really trying to get this math straight(next line)I’ve
got I’m really good at math
Dialogue: 0,0:37:09.80,0:37:12.84,::::I apply it directly to the social system
Dialogue: 0,0:37:13.24,0:37:15.60,::::to my social... like, situation
Dialogue: 0,0:37:15.84,0:37:22.92,::::here’s a direct correlation there… and(next
line)because I’m good at that I’m not good at?
Dialogue: 0,0:37:22.92,0:37:27.80,::::But I use to have… I had my dad(next line)get a desk
for me, when I was a kid
Dialogue: 0,0:37:28.04,0:37:33.24,::::I would do math all summer, math problems(next
line)and the reason why I like it because
Dialogue: 0,0:37:36.04,0:37:40.60,::::I like that there’s an answer(next line)and theirs?
Dialogue: 0,0:37:40.96,0:37:42.40,::::(therapist speaking)There’s not always an answer
Dialogue: 0,0:37:42.64,0:37:49.24,::::I wanna believe that theirs and that(next line)statement
in of itself is fucked.
Dialogue: 0,0:37:49.56,0:37:51.56,::::You will get the answer when you die
Dialogue: 0,0:37:51.84,0:37:58.00,::::When you want to believe(next line)that there’s an
answer
Dialogue: 0,0:37:58.28,0:38:00.08,::::belief is a mechanism in your head
Dialogue: 0,0:38:01.40,0:38:02.84,::::that ruins math
Dialogue: 0,0:38:03.48,0:38:06.84,::::if you want to believe that(next line)there's a true finite
answer
Dialogue: 0,0:38:07.16,0:38:13.20,::::like I went to rehab back in the day(next line)and I told
this lady
Dialogue: 0,0:38:13.20,0:38:16.16,::::she is like you know you think to much(next line)and
yada yada yada and I stopped thinking
Dialogue: 0,0:38:16.16,0:38:19.20,::::for a while and all I did was meditate(next line)and it
was great it’s the best thing
Dialogue: 0,0:38:19.20,0:38:20.80,::::I ever been allowed to do
Dialogue: 0,0:38:21.52,0:38:30.56,::::And uhm I made fun of it later(next line)what a
luxurious problem that I had
Dialogue: 0,0:38:31.04,0:38:38.80,::::really the only thing...(next line)Is focused on action…
Dialogue: 0,0:38:40.28,0:38:45.00,::::But if you figure it all out(next line)then there’s no
purpose?
Dialogue: 0,0:38:45.72,0:38:48.60,::::But it’s not about that like I’m not
Dialogue: 0,0:38:49.44,0:38:55.32,::::I knew from when I was a kid,(next line)I don’t want to
sound like a arrogant person
Dialogue: 0,0:38:55.32,0:38:57.16,::::or like whatever but(next line)I knew since I was a
child.
Dialogue: 0,0:38:57.16,0:38:58.64,::::I already told you about that let it go...
Dialogue: 0,0:38:59.80,0:39:01.28,::::I knew that I...
Dialogue: 0,0:39:05.76,0:39:09.04,::::(therapist speaking)You don’t want to sound (next
line)(therapist speaking)like an arrogant person? Let it go!
Dialogue: 0,0:39:09.88,0:39:11.92,::::(therapist speaking)Remove from when you were a
child
Dialogue: 0,0:39:17.40,0:39:30.24,::::(therapist speaking)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:39:41.12,0:39:47.08,::::When I go to London I stay with a guy(next line)who he
discovered (INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:39:48.04,0:40:09.08,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:40:16.08,0:40:23.88,::::I want you to know who he is a dear friend(next line)of
mine and um usually when I go over there
Dialogue: 0,0:40:24.32,0:40:32.40,::::I stay with him and his wife,(next line)she is from
Portland but I don’t know
Dialogue: 0,0:40:32.76,0:40:37.32,::::when I saw that it made me think of that(next line)and
it’s not like it could help
Dialogue: 0,0:40:37.56,0:40:40.32,::::but uhm it’s just interesting...
Dialogue: 0,0:40:49.44,0:40:53.44,::::He is quite amazing right before(next line)my dad died
he tried to tell me that
Dialogue: 0,0:40:53.44,0:40:56.52,::::he had a cure for cancer as he had brain(next
line)tumor my dad was fascinated by him too
Dialogue: 0,0:41:08.52,0:41:13.00,::::I’m ok with dying(next line)(therapist
speaking)Everybody gets sick everybody dies
Dialogue: 0,0:41:13.52,0:41:17.96,::::(therapist speaking)Yeah and I’m ok with that I mean I
can’t (next line)(therapist speaking)believe that I just said that, I’m not ok with it
Dialogue: 0,0:41:18.32,0:41:24.00,::::it’s hard… but I mean I except it! I mean(next line)I
have held people as they died several times
Dialogue: 0,0:41:26.44,0:41:28.40,::::I’m not ok with it
Dialogue: 0,0:41:28.88,0:41:30.72,::::(therapist speaking)He became very spiritual
Dialogue: 0,0:41:51.32,0:42:22.32,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:42:23.04,0:42:28.76,::::in order to interpret what he was saying(next line)he
became totally spiritual
Dialogue: 0,0:42:29.28,0:42:32.20,::::started seeing little habits running around is(next
line)what he said and stuff
Dialogue: 0,0:42:32.20,0:42:36.60,::::but when we had a routine where he(next
line)...(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:42:41.24,0:42:45.04,::::But he was good he lived a really good life…
Dialogue: 0,0:42:45.24,0:42:49.04,::::like when my 6th grade teacher came(next line)and
saw him in the hospital he said
Dialogue: 0,0:42:49.24,0:42:51.04,::::You’re the richest man I know,(next line)you know…
Dialogue: 0,0:42:51.04,0:42:55.60,::::because you have like 6 kids and(next line)they are
amazing. We have a family that…
Dialogue: 0,0:42:57.36,0:42:58.60,::::None of them are like me but
Dialogue: 0,0:42:58.60,0:43:01.20,::::they are all like wondering there’s(next line)something
blank there
Dialogue: 0,0:43:01.36,0:43:02.80,::::They don’t have it and I have it
Dialogue: 0,0:43:03.20,0:43:07.28,::::and I don’t know(next line)where to direct it. So here I
am like
Dialogue: 0,0:43:11.08,0:43:13.68,::::I’m supposed to do something great
Dialogue: 0,0:43:15.48,0:43:17.48,::::(therapist speaking)Don’t use it as a curse
Dialogue: 0,0:43:21.08,0:43:24.16,::::And people are like well slow down(next line)and live
the simple life
Dialogue: 0,0:43:24.84,0:43:27.56,::::well I’m not in fast face either
Dialogue: 0,0:43:28.32,0:43:30.76,::::It takes me like 10 hours to get ready(next line)in the
morning
Dialogue: 0,0:43:31.32,0:43:36.24,::::if I wanted to take advantage of society(next line)or
whatever
Dialogue: 0,0:43:37.24,0:43:40.24,::::dud quite frankly I don’t even try
Dialogue: 0,0:43:40.24,0:43:44.56,::::I went to a like a this billionaire’s(next line)like party the
other day
Dialogue: 0,0:43:44.56,0:43:45.92,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:43:45.92,0:43:47.52,::::Like, I don't care!
Dialogue: 0,0:43:48.04,0:43:49.84,::::I hate that shit
Dialogue: 0,0:43:51.24,0:43:55.80,::::I almost feel bad about it but I’m not on(next line)the
other side like I’m like
Dialogue: 0,0:43:55.80,0:43:58.20,::::well there people too and it’s you know
Dialogue: 0,0:43:58.80,0:44:01.24,::::it’s all fucked(next line)everything’s fucked and the
whole
Dialogue: 0,0:44:01.24,0:44:05.64,::::I’m wasting my time with people(next line)and me really
(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:44:12.04,0:44:14.72,::::Figuring shit out there is something wrong.
Dialogue: 0,0:44:14.72,0:44:17.40,::::I know...(next line)I know what it is.
Dialogue: 0,0:44:20.24,0:44:22.04,::::I want to show you this video
Dialogue: 0,0:44:23.12,0:44:28.72,::::it’s in the manila slums and these kids,
Dialogue: 0,0:44:30.00,0:44:31.60,::::in their eyes
Dialogue: 0,0:44:32.40,0:44:35.72,::::granted they are brown...(next line)but they are dark
Dialogue: 0,0:44:42.20,0:44:45.12,::::It’s just straight survival they don’t(next line)even know
there’s no care nobody cares
Dialogue: 0,0:44:45.12,0:44:49.80,::::anymore, not even the kid they(next line)don’t even
care for their dad or their mom
Dialogue: 0,0:44:49.80,0:44:56.08,::::and I’m talking like 18 months just(next line)straight out
trying to survive
Dialogue: 0,0:44:56.68,0:45:00.48,::::and uhm, and that’s ok because(next line)the world will
take care of itself
Dialogue: 0,0:45:00.48,0:45:05.52,::::the universe abides like I understand that(next line)but
it hurts
Dialogue: 0,0:45:06.60,0:45:12.08,::::to see it happening and I can apply that(next line)to
bike our economic system
Dialogue: 0,0:45:13.00,0:45:18.36,::::because we have an(next line)economy that built to fail
Dialogue: 0,0:45:18.88,0:45:26.52,::::and it like all this were so distracted like(next line)what
distraction do you want to talk about
Dialogue: 0,0:45:27.64,0:45:31.36,::::and I’m not depressed by it like and(next line)I’m not
amused by it anymore
Dialogue: 0,0:45:31.36,0:45:34.48,::::I don’t want to take advantage of it…(next line)anymore
I have a few times
Dialogue: 0,0:45:35.88,0:45:41.36,::::but like I’m not even bored with it anymore(next line)I
was bored with it for a while
Dialogue: 0,0:45:42.96,0:45:49.24,::::I… you know what I have to do(next line)something
about it…
Dialogue: 0,0:45:51.84,0:45:53.96,::::and I’m not a stupid activist
Dialogue: 0,0:45:54.04,0:45:56.96,::::That don’t know what the fuck they are(next line)doing
jumping on the fucking a train
Dialogue: 0,0:45:56.96,0:46:02.84,::::Say I want to believe in this(next line)it’s a big deal like
I need to re adjust
Dialogue: 0,0:46:02.84,0:46:05.12,::::I can do a lot of great things
Dialogue: 0,0:46:06.44,0:46:09.84,::::and it’s not like go to get a job(next line)or go get a
hobby go collect
Dialogue: 0,0:46:09.84,0:46:12.56,::::I heard this the other day my mom(next line)“why don’t
you get a get hobby”
Dialogue: 0,0:46:12.56,0:46:19.92,::::should I go have a fucking stamp collection(next line)no
I won’t do anything
Dialogue: 0,0:46:20.16,0:46:23.76,::::I’m not going to do anything unless(next line)it’s worth
my time
Dialogue: 0,0:46:25.04,0:46:30.64,::::and that means a lot like(next line)but here I am killing
myself
Dialogue: 0,0:46:30.64,0:46:33.12,::::cause I’m just like
Dialogue: 0,0:46:38.40,0:46:40.12,::::something...
Dialogue: 0,0:46:43.84,0:46:46.84,::::(therapist speaking)You know the saying shit as get off
the pot
Dialogue: 0,0:46:53.44,0:46:55.52,::::I just don’t know where to start
Dialogue: 0,0:46:57.20,0:47:01.20,::::So I started writing I’ve written a lot of(next line)really
good stuff
Dialogue: 0,0:47:02.52,0:47:05.28,::::Did you ever read the book “Infinite Jest”
Dialogue: 0,0:47:05.92,0:47:19.52,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:47:20.32,0:47:23.16,::::But he ended up killing himself too(next line)he came to
that point and
Dialogue: 0,0:47:23.16,0:47:25.04,::::I’m almost that exact point
Dialogue: 0,0:47:27.84,0:47:31.64,::::It’s not that I don’t have the courage(next line)to kill
myself cause quite frankly like…
Dialogue: 0,0:47:33.20,0:47:34.72,::::(therapist speaking)It's not courage?
Dialogue: 0,0:47:38.80,0:47:45.08,::::I know there is a greatness it’s not(next line)about
me… it’s not about what I can do
Dialogue: 0,0:47:45.08,0:47:52.16,::::It’s about the way that I can put things(next
line)together like I uhm
Dialogue: 0,0:47:53.16,0:47:55.56,::::quit frankly I’m (INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:47:56.84,0:48:02.60,::::And I’m sorry like I hate saying this(next line)about
myself cause I don’t like to talk
Dialogue: 0,0:48:03.40,0:48:08.12,::::(therapist speaking)I’m only going to correct you once
more (next line)(therapist speaking)let that ego shit go
Dialogue: 0,0:48:08.12,0:48:12.92,::::It’s not my ego your right?(next line)I can, do amazing
things
Dialogue: 0,0:48:12.92,0:48:15.80,::::(therapist speaking)You can do amazing things (next
line)(therapist speaking)great do it
Dialogue: 0,0:48:18.08,0:48:19.12,::::Thank you
Dialogue: 0,0:48:19.48,0:48:23.04,::::(therapist speaking)Don’t like waste your life
Dialogue: 0,0:48:23.56,0:48:27.80,::::Maybe your right it might be my ego(next line)and my
ego is that saying like
Dialogue: 0,0:48:27.80,0:48:30.84,::::You know don’t my ego might be like?
Dialogue: 0,0:48:30.84,0:48:35.72,::::Everyone else’s go(next line)But the truth is that I can
Dialogue: 0,0:48:35.88,0:48:40.04,::::I have done, everything(next line)That I tried to do i did
well
Dialogue: 0,0:48:40.04,0:48:45.56,::::but the thing is I know there’s something(next line)to be
done… and I know how to do it
Dialogue: 0,0:48:45.56,0:48:49.80,::::And I know what the problem is…(next line)and I’m not
doing anything about it!
Dialogue: 0,0:48:49.80,0:48:55.48,::::Because I don’t know anybody else like(next line)I don’t
know the avenue to get there
Dialogue: 0,0:48:56.08,0:49:00.76,::::But I definitely know that I’m capable(next line)of
helping in a grand way
Dialogue: 0,0:49:01.52,0:49:02.88,::::(therapist speaking)Then do it
Dialogue: 0,0:49:07.24,0:49:11.04,::::Ok…(next line)and that’s no fucking ego shit that’s real
Dialogue: 0,0:49:11.72,0:49:15.12,::::(therapist speaking)Everybody has great things to do…
(next line)(therapist speaking)Do it!
Dialogue: 0,0:49:15.12,0:49:18.76,::::because it seems like such a big problem(next line)and
it’s so convoluted and so complex
Dialogue: 0,0:49:19.20,0:49:22.96,::::it does I really just wanna(next line)like sometimes like
Dialogue: 0,0:49:23.36,0:49:26.92,::::sometimes I just want to(next line)check out and go
Dialogue: 0,0:49:26.92,0:49:29.48,::::But I mean that’s not how…(next line)what I been
like…
Dialogue: 0,0:49:29.48,0:49:31.80,::::I’m not how I was in 2007
Dialogue: 0,0:49:35.20,0:49:41.48,::::And I also like…(next line)so I do a lot of other things to
do
Dialogue: 0,0:49:42.68,0:49:47.60,::::I got some crazy shit...(next line)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:49:51.76,0:50:02.80,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:50:22.84,0:50:28.04,::::(therapist speaking)If you’re supposed to do
something, (next line)(therapist speaking)just do it, don’t think about it!
Dialogue: 0,0:50:28.04,0:50:29.52,::::What if you don’t know?
Dialogue: 0,0:50:32.12,0:50:33.60,::::I don’t need a teacher!
Dialogue: 0,0:50:34.60,0:50:36.48,::::I know what’s right(next line)I know what’s wrong
Dialogue: 0,0:50:36.68,0:50:39.12,::::I been teaching a lot of people(next line)lately like...
like...
Dialogue: 0,0:50:40.04,0:50:41.84,::::I been putting people on the cutting block
Dialogue: 0,0:50:43.28,0:50:44.28,::::you know
Dialogue: 0,0:50:46.16,0:50:48.56,::::I’m tired of people that(next line)are doing the wrong
thing
Dialogue: 0,0:50:52.88,0:50:55.64,::::but pretty much you’re not welcome(next line)in my life
Dialogue: 0,0:50:55.64,0:50:57.56,::::you know if you cheat you steal you lie
Dialogue: 0,0:50:57.56,0:51:00.76,::::whatever there’s certain qualities(next line)you need to
have in life,
Dialogue: 0,0:51:01.28,0:51:05.20,::::and if you don’t abide by those if you don’t(next line)it
doesn’t have to be value system
Dialogue: 0,0:51:05.92,0:51:08.44,::::There’s you know I don’t have time for it
Dialogue: 0,0:51:08.80,0:51:11.80,::::I got an agenda here and(next line)I don’t know what it
is
Dialogue: 0,0:51:12.56,0:51:17.20,::::but it’s like don’t have time for that(next line)I don’t
have time for the other people
Dialogue: 0,0:51:17.20,0:51:22.80,::::shit.... (INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:51:25.76,0:51:29.00,::::Brandon’s been the best people I’ve met(next line)I’m
so glad I met him
Dialogue: 0,0:51:34.24,0:51:36.36,::::The only thing is...
Dialogue: 0,0:51:46.88,0:51:49.04,::::(therapist speaking)life ain’t easy
Dialogue: 0,0:51:50.56,0:51:54.12,::::(therapist speaking)and it ain't easy if you are different
(next line)It ain't that hard...
Dialogue: 0,0:51:54.64,0:51:55.64,::::It’s all perspectives
Dialogue: 0,0:51:58.56,0:52:01.64,::::(therapist speaking)Then do what you need to do?
Dialogue: 0,0:52:05.44,0:52:06.32,::::(therapist speaking)Start
Dialogue: 0,0:52:06.88,0:52:10.00,::::It’s not like I’m gonna go to school,(next line)not like I’m
gonna start a business
Dialogue: 0,0:52:10.00,0:52:12.88,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:52:14.76,0:52:18.76,::::I think the only way through is to write(next line)that’s
why like my
Dialogue: 0,0:52:18.76,0:52:23.24,::::that’s why I left a year ago my(next line)was to travel
and write
Dialogue: 0,0:52:24.04,0:52:27.32,::::For some reason my soul is telling me(next line)to be in
Cambodia
Dialogue: 0,0:52:29.08,0:52:30.84,::::I hate being here!
Dialogue: 0,0:52:32.96,0:52:36.72,::::But maybe it’s to get me away from(next
line)everybody and meditate
Dialogue: 0,0:52:44.76,0:52:48.80,::::(therapist speaking)What’s more inspiring a man (next
line)(therapist speaking)that goes up a woman
Dialogue: 0,0:52:48.80,0:52:52.28,::::(therapist speaking)that goes up on a mountain (next
line)(therapist speaking)to meditate in a cave
Dialogue: 0,0:52:53.00,0:52:54.84,::::(therapist speaking)where it’s all peaceful & quiet
Dialogue: 0,0:52:55.60,0:53:00.08,::::(therapist speaking)and all away from everybody (next
line)(therapist speaking)or somebody that can do it from
Dialogue: 0,0:53:01.28,0:53:02.96,::::(therapist speaking)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:53:03.24,0:53:05.68,::::That’s ego who cares
Dialogue: 0,0:53:05.68,0:53:07.60,::::(therapist speaking)That’s not an ego because
Dialogue: 0,0:53:07.60,0:53:11.36,::::Ego is like who cares(next line)you need to do it
Dialogue: 0,0:53:11.36,0:53:16.72,::::where there’s a need(next line)when you’re... told,
Dialogue: 0,0:53:17.08,0:53:19.44,::::I was never told... (INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:53:20.12,0:53:23.64,::::You just do it no matter what,(next line)it doesn’t matter
where are you
Dialogue: 0,0:53:26.08,0:53:31.04,::::(therapist speaking)Great... (next line)(therapist
speaking)so, why go to Cambodia?
Dialogue: 0,0:53:39.12,0:53:40.32,::::Yea...
Dialogue: 0,0:53:48.40,0:53:50.92,::::Jonathan when I grabbed your arm(next line)I was not
hitting on you
Dialogue: 0,0:53:50.92,0:53:51.92,::::(therapist speaking)I know it's ok
Dialogue: 0,0:53:55.68,0:54:00.36,::::You’re a dear friend of mine(next line)and an educated
person
Dialogue: 0,0:54:00.36,0:54:04.04,::::(therapist speaking)It's Ok... (next line)(therapist
speaking)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:54:04.04,0:54:17.52,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:54:20.64,0:54:23.04,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:54:23.04,0:54:27.64,::::(therapist speaking)If it things are gonna go the way
(next line)(therapist speaking)you think there gonna go
Dialogue: 0,0:54:27.64,0:54:32.96,::::(therapist speaking)some people think its gonna go
(next line)(therapist speaking)but...
Dialogue: 0,0:54:35.24,0:54:40.44,::::(therapist speaking)then you need to do whatever it is
(next line)(therapist speaking)you need to do & just do it
Dialogue: 0,0:54:40.44,0:54:49.24,::::(therapist speaking)But a lot of people think its gonna
(next line)(therapist speaking)go that way and the thing is you need to
Dialogue: 0,0:54:54.08,0:54:59.76,::::I mean I’m not depressed,(next line)it’s not like that like
I actually like…
Dialogue: 0,0:55:00.60,0:55:06.64,::::I can think more…(next line)I started doing cross
elevation
Dialogue: 0,0:55:07.12,0:55:12.68,::::Between subjects you know I take biology(next line)and
I play the viola or I write music…
Dialogue: 0,0:55:13.64,0:55:19.00,::::I was able to take math and apply it(next line)to this
and philosophy and apply it to
Dialogue: 0,0:55:19.00,0:55:23.32,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:55:23.44,0:55:27.44,::::I don’t care who can do it and who(next line)can’t but
everything is related
Dialogue: 0,0:55:27.44,0:55:30.08,::::and it’s all one big
Dialogue: 0,0:55:30.08,0:55:34.44,::::It’s not a problem…(next line)it’s all everything
Dialogue: 0,0:55:36.12,0:55:43.00,::::Language is so limited if it I talk to an(next
line)everyday like uhh
Dialogue: 0,0:55:43.00,0:55:49.04,::::Or whatever you know i know I’m just gonna(next
line)get told like what I’m supposed to do
Dialogue: 0,0:55:51.48,0:55:57.44,::::I’m not trying to bring you know(next line)my boyfriend
problem like this is a big deal
Dialogue: 0,0:55:58.04,0:56:02.64,::::I’m not going to save the world here(next line)but I
might be part of the spark
Dialogue: 0,0:56:02.64,0:56:09.04,::::that might do something different!!(next line)and I’m
telling you that it’s worth it
Dialogue: 0,0:56:14.36,0:56:17.52,::::I mean I wish I could tell you...
Dialogue: 0,0:56:17.52,0:56:27.88,::::(therapist speaking)It’s like, you’re going to achieve
something (next line)(therapist speaking)then you need to cultivate virtue
Dialogue: 0,0:56:30.56,0:56:33.92,::::How do you cultivate it? like(next line)I cultivated
myself, I don’t have to work
Dialogue: 0,0:56:33.92,0:56:39.96,::::I’ve got all the time in the world,(next line)like what do I
do…
Dialogue: 0,0:56:41.76,0:56:44.92,::::I guess I just have to keep talking(next line)to the right
people
Dialogue: 0,0:56:57.96,0:57:04.24,::::(therapist speaking)People are not going to the
average person (next line)(therapist speaking)isn't gonna be able to answer your questions
Dialogue: 0,0:57:11.24,0:57:15.44,::::(therapist speaking)Talking to the right people (next
line)(therapist speaking)is not going to help you
Dialogue: 0,0:57:27.52,0:57:30.20,::::(therapist speaking)“Buck up little camper”
Dialogue: 0,0:57:42.00,0:57:44.56,::::Yeah, and when I think of ego I?
Dialogue: 0,0:57:44.56,0:57:47.92,::::(therapist speaking)How many negative things do you
say (next line)(therapist speaking)about yourself
Dialogue: 0,0:57:47.92,0:57:55.80,::::(therapist speaking)on a daily basis I’ve heard like
(next line)(therapist speaking)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:57:57.60,0:58:03.88,::::there all ego this guy I like them(next line)it’s like are
you
Dialogue: 0,0:58:07.48,0:58:21.32,::::crazy or are you not and then I realize(next line)you’re
not getting anywhere…
Dialogue: 0,0:58:21.32,0:58:28.28,::::why are you wasting your time you know(next line)I’d
rather just sit behind a desk and do math
Dialogue: 0,0:58:28.28,0:58:29.68,::::and just figure this out
Dialogue: 0,0:58:29.68,0:58:32.64,::::(therapist speaking)Math is probably not going to
answer this if it was
Dialogue: 0,0:58:32.84,0:58:34.24,::::Why not?
Dialogue: 0,0:58:34.24,0:58:37.64,::::(therapist speaking)If it was you would have (next
line)(therapist speaking)already figured it out
Dialogue: 0,0:58:39.48,0:58:42.84,::::Important things like...
Dialogue: 0,0:58:43.80,0:58:48.72,::::I know there is something seriously(next line)going on
with our world and it’s really sad...
Dialogue: 0,0:58:48.72,0:58:52.04,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,0:58:52.36,0:58:55.96,::::There’s not a chance in hell that Russia(next line)would
ever touch our nation
Dialogue: 0,0:58:56.40,0:58:58.48,::::because china would(next line)fucken kill them
Dialogue: 0,0:59:00.24,0:59:02.28,::::And like uhm...
Dialogue: 0,0:59:02.64,0:59:04.28,::::and I hate that were just
Dialogue: 0,0:59:04.64,0:59:08.16,::::like every you know I hate that all of it(next line)is such
a distraction
Dialogue: 0,0:59:08.16,0:59:11.56,::::and we distract ourselves and then…(next line)I hate
when…
Dialogue: 0,0:59:11.68,0:59:14.00,::::The day that I found out...(next line)I wrote about this
Dialogue: 0,0:59:14.64,0:59:19.00,::::The day that I found out I was a robot(next line)I fucken
tried to kill myself you know
Dialogue: 0,0:59:19.52,0:59:25.04,::::life has just been different(next line)in the last 2 years
Dialogue: 0,0:59:27.80,0:59:33.24,::::I mean it’s not like I go around?(next line)Or whatever
but like
Dialogue: 0,0:59:36.08,0:59:39.56,::::that’s why I liked this guy too…
Dialogue: 0,0:59:39.56,0:59:42.20,::::but uhm granted(next line)I did not know he was?
Dialogue: 0,0:59:44.48,0:59:47.16,::::It was really awkward(next line)for somebody that’s like
Dialogue: 0,0:59:47.60,0:59:51.60,::::I’m sure he is met anyone(next line)like me in his entire
life
Dialogue: 0,0:59:52.48,0:59:55.96,::::I haven’t met anyone like him like
Dialogue: 0,0:59:56.68,0:59:59.80,::::you’re the only person(next line)Brandon’s pretty
intuitive also?
Dialogue: 0,1:00:00.76,1:00:04.04,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,1:00:04.68,1:00:08.32,::::I know a lot of people…(next line)and I know them
Dialogue: 0,1:00:08.88,1:00:12.64,::::but I actually took the time to walk in(next
line)somebody’s shoes for the first time
Dialogue: 0,1:00:12.64,1:00:18.96,::::and words meant something every word(next line)out
of my mouth I learned…
Dialogue: 0,1:00:19.76,1:00:21.64,::::meant something
Dialogue: 0,1:00:21.64,1:00:25.64,::::He couldn’t spell worth a shit… on purpose(next line)I
don’t know it doesn’t matter
Dialogue: 0,1:00:26.16,1:00:29.84,::::but every word that he wrote in an(next line)email to
me, not Brandon, this guy
Dialogue: 0,1:00:30.52,1:00:31.96,::::it meant something
Dialogue: 0,1:00:31.96,1:00:37.56,::::And here I wrote and then I read these(next line)emails
that I wrote for work or whatever
Dialogue: 0,1:00:38.12,1:00:43.36,::::here I was writing the treaty between(next line)United
States and Canada and I’m like...
Dialogue: 0,1:00:44.60,1:00:52.52,::::it’s supposed to mean something and(next line)like all
the sudden, you know
Dialogue: 0,1:00:52.52,1:01:01.52,::::my the capacity in my brain, like it uhm(next line)it kind
of caught up with itself like big time
Dialogue: 0,1:01:01.52,1:01:04.16,::::it’s not like I had a break down(next line)I had a mental
like
Dialogue: 0,1:01:04.16,1:01:08.60,::::I haven’t had time to reflect on life(next line)I been so
busy with action, my whole life,
Dialogue: 0,1:01:08.60,1:01:13.76,::::and I haven’t had time for reflection(next line)and I was
like not overwhelmed
Dialogue: 0,1:01:13.76,1:01:15.88,::::I’m like oh my god
Dialogue: 0,1:01:16.60,1:01:24.08,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,1:01:24.24,1:01:32.16,::::and I see clearly… you know I guess(next line)I had to
get here…
Dialogue: 0,1:01:33.68,1:01:36.16,::::so here we are
Dialogue: 0,1:01:38.40,1:01:40.00,::::(therapist speaking)Here you are
Dialogue: 0,1:01:45.44,1:01:51.56,::::Yes and here I am(next line)treating myself like shit
Dialogue: 0,1:01:55.56,1:01:58.88,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,1:01:59.12,1:02:01.28,::::They did a really good job
Dialogue: 0,1:02:07.36,1:02:11.56,::::(therapist speaking)The only person controlling you is
you
Dialogue: 0,1:02:22.16,1:02:29.40,::::Thank you so much it’s really quit a,(next line)I respect
you so much, and it's quite
Dialogue: 0,1:02:31.64,1:02:35.24,::::it's quite an honour that you would(next line)take this
time and I’m so sorry...
Dialogue: 0,1:02:35.40,1:02:37.60,::::Especially when your girlfriend is sick
Dialogue: 0,1:02:38.00,1:02:42.76,::::(therapist speaking)It’s because she’s too sensitive
(next line)(therapist speaking)she got sick mocking with a patient
Dialogue: 0,1:02:42.76,1:02:45.24,::::(therapist speaking)just the same kind a BS
Dialogue: 0,1:02:46.12,1:02:47.76,::::(therapist speaking)Got to know your boundaries,
Dialogue: 0,1:02:48.88,1:02:54.24,::::(therapist speaking)got to have strong boundary’s got
to (next line)(therapist speaking)not mock with people that you
Dialogue: 0,1:02:54.76,1:02:56.88,::::(therapist speaking)shouldn’t be shouldn’t mucking
with…
Dialogue: 0,1:02:58.52,1:03:01.80,::::(therapist speaking)got to know when to turn people
away… (next line)(therapist speaking)know when not to talk…
Dialogue: 0,1:03:01.80,1:03:04.00,::::(therapist speaking)know when not to open yourself
up…
Dialogue: 0,1:03:04.92,1:03:08.48,::::But… I care about people
Dialogue: 0,1:03:08.48,1:03:10.64,::::(therapist speaking)Yeah so… does everybody
Dialogue: 0,1:03:10.64,1:03:11.84,::::No they don’t
Dialogue: 0,1:03:11.84,1:03:17.96,::::(therapist speaking)Lots of people do, surround you
with (next line)(therapist speaking)other people that care about
Dialogue: 0,1:03:19.68,1:03:22.12,::::I’ve never met anybody(next line)that cares as much
Dialogue: 0,1:03:24.96,1:03:27.20,::::People a fucked up person
Dialogue: 0,1:03:27.20,1:03:29.24,::::I mean I’m not some typical
Dialogue: 0,1:03:29.24,1:03:31.88,::::and I know they all say this(next line)I’ve read the
stories
Dialogue: 0,1:03:32.80,1:03:35.96,::::but I’m not some and that’s why(next line)I sat there
and I was a witness
Dialogue: 0,1:03:36.16,1:03:39.64,::::and that’s why I called you!(next line)Why the fucked
would you call
Dialogue: 0,1:03:39.64,1:03:41.76,::::somebody who’s initiate
Dialogue: 0,1:03:42.08,1:03:44.64,::::Rather than like uh(next line)you know somebody else
Dialogue: 0,1:03:45.32,1:03:50.52,::::but… you know if you weren’t ok with(next line)yourself
I was calling you on a different level
Dialogue: 0,1:03:50.84,1:03:53.80,::::when you heard him on the phone…(next line)and
when we talked you
Dialogue: 0,1:03:54.20,1:03:57.24,::::and I mean… granite & whatever
Dialogue: 0,1:03:57.24,1:04:01.28,::::and you heard what you heard and(next line)then you
became a counser over the phone
Dialogue: 0,1:04:01.28,1:04:05.28,::::I don’t like…
Dialogue: 0,1:04:11.16,1:04:13.40,::::I’m not concerned about
Dialogue: 0,1:04:13.40,1:04:16.48,::::Not a lot of people care about people
Dialogue: 0,1:04:19.72,1:04:22.08,::::but I don’t have the right to do that
Dialogue: 0,1:04:22.96,1:04:24.40,::::it’s like uhm
Dialogue: 0,1:04:24.92,1:04:29.68,::::Every great philosopher always said(next line)you
know & John’s…
Dialogue: 0,1:04:30.92,1:04:36.72,::::or whatever how to save the greatest(next line)amount
of people
Dialogue: 0,1:04:37.24,1:04:39.48,::::in the best way you know
Dialogue: 0,1:04:40.48,1:04:47.28,::::and uhm, you can’t do that if you spend(next line)all
your time dealing with a slow person?
Dialogue: 0,1:04:47.28,1:04:53.28,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,1:04:53.80,1:04:58.48,::::(therapist speaking)All these guys die… (next
line)(therapist speaking)most of them die penny less... (INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,1:04:59.08,1:05:03.68,::::(therapist speaking)Not that penny or penny having
penny’s (next line)(therapist speaking)doesn’t matter but what
Dialogue: 0,1:05:03.68,1:05:04.88,::::What matters?
Dialogue: 0,1:05:05.40,1:05:11.72,::::(therapist speaking)Is that most of those guys were not
known (next line)(therapist speaking)until after the fact that they died you know
Dialogue: 0,1:05:12.44,1:05:13.56,::::What matters?
Dialogue: 0,1:05:18.44,1:05:22.80,::::(therapist speaking)Just got to do whatever it is that’s
(next line)(therapist speaking)in your heart to do
Dialogue: 0,1:05:24.04,1:05:27.68,::::I like that lately I have been telling people(next line)...
(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,1:05:28.72,1:05:30.84,::::When I see something that’s wrong
Dialogue: 0,1:05:30.84,1:05:35.32,::::I went to this billionaires like put luck(next line)or
whatever the other night
Dialogue: 0,1:05:35.32,1:05:47.84,::::...About holicost...
Dialogue: 0,1:05:47.96,1:05:52.52,::::And I’ve been doing this now and I don’t care anymore
but like
Dialogue: 0,1:05:52.52,1:05:56.68,::::You know and I just… And I have my tact…(next
line)I’m not some stupid…
Dialogue: 0,1:05:57.20,1:06:01.84,::::I look like one… But I’m not some Bimbo(next line)and
I let people know…
Dialogue: 0,1:06:01.84,1:06:06.00,::::Like… You know that’s actually not ok(next line)unless
you have walked in their shoes…
Dialogue: 0,1:06:06.00,1:06:10.48,::::You don’t know what people don’t(next line)understand
is children are the survivors
Dialogue: 0,1:06:10.48,1:06:14.96,::::like those are their parents and it skips(next line)a
generation and I actually
Dialogue: 0,1:06:14.96,1:06:20.24,::::because I walk in shoes of John(next line)I was able to
see my dad was also
Dialogue: 0,1:06:20.24,1:06:26.36,::::abused by two alcoholics but he ended up(next
line)turning his life around
Dialogue: 0,1:06:26.36,1:06:31.84,::::I had a lot of problems with John and I was(next
line)like why haven’t you turn your life around…
Dialogue: 0,1:06:31.84,1:06:37.88,::::Like life is so fucked you know children are so
important their brains
Dialogue: 0,1:06:37.88,1:06:43.00,::::They are genesis… Three brains are(next line)working
so fast the children
Dialogue: 0,1:06:43.00,1:06:48.80,::::and that’s why it really fucked with me when(next line)I
see this little Filipino laid and it’s just like
Dialogue: 0,1:06:48.80,1:06:57.84,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,1:06:57.84,1:07:05.20,::::The children like are the key and it’s not(next line)like
that children right now…
Dialogue: 0,1:07:07.52,1:07:11.00,::::The way that you’re raised…(next line)Is everything…
Dialogue: 0,1:07:11.00,1:07:13.24,::::(therapist speaking)It is everything but...
Dialogue: 0,1:07:13.24,1:07:17.60,::::and his not like … you know you brainwash(next
line)anyone a certain way
Dialogue: 0,1:07:17.60,1:07:19.12,::::but like uhm
Dialogue: 0,1:07:22.20,1:07:25.20,::::It really important like
Dialogue: 0,1:07:26.64,1:07:28.88,::::(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,1:07:28.88,1:07:29.88,::::(therapist speaking)So do that.
Dialogue: 0,1:07:31.12,1:07:34.36,::::(therapist speaking)figure that out work with kids
whatever
Dialogue: 0,1:07:34.68,1:07:39.16,::::I just ran into a lady the other day that(next line)I used
to work with
Dialogue: 0,1:07:39.16,1:07:46.28,::::and I didn’t talk about this...(next line)(INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,1:07:48.72,1:07:53.80,::::I’ve never been abused…(next line)my boyfriend was
sexually abused
Dialogue: 0,1:07:55.56,1:07:57.80,::::I had the greatest dad
Dialogue: 0,1:07:58.72,1:08:04.68,::::but he was sexually abused(next line)... (INAUDIBLE)
Dialogue: 0,1:08:05.20,1:08:09.48,::::and I never found out like he said he blacked(next
line)out everything he doesn’t remember
Dialogue: 0,1:08:09.48,1:08:14.24,::::he was the guy in the end who one of his sis…(next
line)he has 2 sisters one’s a dekon
Dialogue: 0,1:08:14.24,1:08:17.08,::::in a church the other ones a(next line)recovering heroin
addict
Dialogue: 0,1:08:17.08,1:08:18.72,::::she is all fucked up
Dialogue: 0,1:08:20.68,1:08:22.80,::::and everything(next line)fails from there…
Dialogue: 0,1:08:24.64,1:08:28.80,::::Anyways… thank you
Dialogue: 0,1:08:31.64,1:08:33.68,::::(therapist speaking)Alright take care
Dialogue: 0,1:08:36.20,1:08:40.48,::::I’ll see you tomorrow where is your office
Dialogue: 0,1:08:41.32,1:08:45.28,::::(therapist speaking)One block that way (next
line)(therapist speaking)1030 SW or 1013 SW
Dialogue: 0,1:08:55.16,1:08:59.00,::::Jonathan thank you
Dialogue: 0,1:08:59.00,1:09:00.44,::::(therapist speaking)Be good