PERSONAL TESTIMONY
THE RELIGIOUS
WRITE
NEWSLETTER
OF
BARBARA ANN HAINES
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And they overcame him by the blood of the
Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and
they loved not their lives unto the death.
Revelation 12:11
I believe that in loving one another we should
attempt to get to know one another. God
knows our thoughts from afar and the very
hairs of our head are all numbered. So, I will
share about who I am and how I came to
believe in Jesus. I share my life lessons. Much
of my story is of hard knocks training, with little
discipleship training until I moved to Ames,
Iowa. Without finding anyone to help me, I fell
into spiritual darkness in Dubuque, IA and spent
most of my young adult life trying to find the
light. This is my odyssey.
Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am
the light of the world: he that followeth me
shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the
light of life. John 8:12
Confirming the souls of the disciples, and
exhorting them to continue in the faith, and
that we must through much tribulation enter
into the kingdom of God.
Acts 14:22
Statue of Liberty – USA
But whoso looketh into the perfect law of liberty, and continueth therein, he
being not a forgetful hearer, but a doer of the work, this man shall be blessed
in his deed. (James 1:25) KJV
So speak ye, and so do, as they that shall be judged by the law of liberty.
(James 2:12) KJV
October-December, 2014
No. 13
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Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but
the LORD delivereth him out of them all.
Psalms 34:19
The Great Commission
"Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations,
baptizing them in the name of the Father and the
Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe
all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you
always, even to the end of the age."
For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and
scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. If ye
endure chastening, God dealeth with you as
with sons; for what son is he whom the father
chasteneth not? But if ye be without
chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then
Matthew 28:19-20
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are ye bastards, and not sons. Furthermore we
have had fathers of our flesh which corrected
us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not
much rather be in subjection unto the Father of
spirits, and live? For they verily for a few days
chastened us after their own pleasure; but he
for our profit, that we might be partakers of his
holiness. Now no chastening for the present
seemeth to be joyous, but grievous:
nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the
peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them
which are exercised thereby.
Hebrews 12:6-11
I was born in Dubuque, Iowa on the Sabbath
day of April 23, 1955 to Joan Louise and Dr.
Douglas Kelly Packard. My father was a surgeon
and my mother was a nurse when she met my
father. My known heritage is English, Welsh,
Irish, Scottish, German and Belgian. I was the
third of seven daughters. We lived in an
apartment until my father purchased land and
had our contemporary home built. I was about
one year old when we moved into our brand
new home. We lived in an upper middle class
neighborhood and had views of the Lutheran
Wartburg Seminary out our back windows and a
neon cross on a southern hill off in the distance
that would shine at night. I remember the
comforting sound of the train whistling as it
rode by at night in the Catfish Creek valley
down the back street of our home.
My earliest memories of church were at St.
Luke’s Methodist Church in downtown
Dubuque.
I remember Sunday school (mostly the games
we played - duck, duck, goose and who’s got
the button) and my questioning what I was
hearing about Jesus. I heard the truth of Jesus.
I knew the stakes were great, if I missed out on
eternal life. In unbelief I could end up in hell, so
I went directly to God. I did believe that God
was real because I had no reason to doubt the
good people who told me about Him. God was
good. My parents were good to me and they
loved Him and me. I believed that God would
tell me because of my (childlike) faith in Him. I
was about three years of age at the time. I
therefore prayed, alone in my bedroom, to God,
“If Jesus is really true, I want to see Him.” I
made sure that I did not drum up any vision on
my own, and then I saw a vision of Jesus Christ,
like a picture. I believed without a doubt that
Jesus was true. From that moment on, I have
believed. God saw that I was seeking and He
made sure that I found Jesus. He answered my
prayer. It was the fear of the Lord and my love
of truth, probably instilled in me by God and my
parents that saved me.
Sanctify them through thy truth: thy word is
truth. John 17:17
For this is good and acceptable in the sight of
God our Saviour; who will have all men to be
saved, and to come unto the knowledge of the
truth. 1 Timothy 2:3-4
My earliest memories were, at around two
years of age, of looking out our big picture
window to see my older sister walk off to Jack
and Jill Nursery school, which I attended two
years later. I also remember visiting Mrs.
Moore at her old home which was at the top of
the hill that was Moore Heights, which is the
street we lived on. I remember that later her
home was demolished and I saw the debris
lying on the ground.
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Jesus was saying to those Jews who believed
Him, “If you continue in my Word, then you are
truly disciples of mine; and you will know the
truth and the truth will make you free.”
John 8:32
Later on, my father asked me if it was OK for us
to go to another church. He must have
understood that I believed and had a spiritual
interest. I gave my approval. We became
members of the Westminster Presbyterian
Church. I was baptized there, in the name of
the Father, Son and Holy Spirit by sprinkling of
water in the new sanctuary on December 25th,
1960 at five years of age. I very much enjoyed
my grade school years with Sunday school and
summer bible school. While we were there a
larger sanctuary was built. It was very nice,
with small colored glass windows in front.
And with all deceivableness of unrighteousness
in them that perish; because they received not
the love of the truth, that they might be saved.
2 Thessalonians 2:10
That they all might be damned who believed
not the truth, but had pleasure in
unrighteousness. But we are bound to give
thanks alway to God for you, brethren beloved
of the Lord, because God hath from the
beginning chosen you to salvation through
sanctification of the Spirit and belief of the
truth: 2 Thessalonians 2:13
Barbara at about age four
Not too long after I believed, I was confronted
with the question, I believe from God, if I would
follow Him. Since I knew that Jesus was true, I
decided to follow Him. God had produced a
Christian soldier in me, at the approximate age
of three. I decided to show my newfound faith
in Jesus by doing a good work. While the family
sat around the table for a meal, I got up and
started to sweep the floor. My younger years
were filled with learning, good works and with
the little knowledge I had, obedience to God
and my parents. Problems were that I did not
know how to develop a relationship with God, I
was not reading the Bible daily outside of
Sunday school nor actively sharing my faith.
Old Westminster Presbyterian Sanctuary
I wrote a composition about church when I was
older. I started out with “My church is very
beautiful.” But for some forgotten reason, I
crossed this sentence out. “Every Sunday I go
to church. This place is so familiar to me; it is a
regular part of my life. The church is a large
sanctuary. It has a steeple that towers high
above the neighboring buildings.”
When I was about five years old, my Parent’s
lawyer invited us to his house. I tried to be
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friendly, but instead caused him to have an
inordinate interest in me. I was not happy that
he moved next door when I was about six years
old. Life was a struggle after that. I felt like I
was living in a fishbowl. The firm hand of God
chastened me. Since that man was a friend of
my parents, I did not know of or have anyone to
talk to about it. I developed a fear of man, that
I was not able to overcome until my high school
years, when I confessed my fear of men to a
male friend.
Jesus that I was baptized in the Holy Spirit. It
felt like waves and waves of love poured over
my body. I was on fire for Jesus.
That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the
Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that
God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt
be saved. Rom 10:9
Whosoever therefore shall confess me before
men, him will I confess also before my Father
which is in heaven. Mat 10:32
During grade school I was President of our
neighborhood Barbie Doll fan club and
Treasurer of Brownies. I remember being upset
that I did not get a better leadership position
than treasurer. I later became a Girl Scout. We
learned to swim and went to Girl Scout camp in
the summer. We also went swimming at the
Country Club. I took ballet lessons for five years
and art lessons at the local Clarke College from
the nuns there. I started to learn how to play
the clarinet. I was athletically inclined and won
first place in a field event at our Ice Cream
Social one year.
There was also trailer which came to our grade
school, which was a trailer parked outside of
school in which the children, with parental
approval, were given Bible Studies.
The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso
putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe.
Proverbs 29:25
New Sanctuary at Westminster Presbyterian
I followed the teachings that I received from the
church and was confirmed at about age 14 at
the confirmation ceremony. While standing at
the front of the sanctuary with other children of
my class, we confessed our faith before the
congregation. It was as I confessed my faith in
My Grandfather Packard, with the grandkids,
the cousins and us; I am sitting in the center.
I was being taught the Bible and church history
in church, but still was not taught how to share
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my faith nor was I told that I needed to share
my faith. I knew that I desired to know God and
live a life of holiness and purity, serving him. I
knew very little of my family ancestry beyond
great grandparents. I did not know who I was
or how we got here or why we came to the
USA. I was much older and was living in
Washington, DC when I found out that I was a
Mayflower Pilgrim Separatist descendant. They
were special in that they came to America for
religious freedom. I was falling away from the
faith because I did not continue in His Word on
my own, was not active in sharing my faith, nor
did I preach the gospel as we are commanded
to do. Yet I was doing fairly well in school and
getting along fairly well.
I became a
cheerleader in Junior High School and high
school. I received a service award three years in
high school. I also received a scholarship
award.
And he said unto them, Go ye into all the
world, and preach the gospel to every creature.
Mark 16:15
And when he was come nigh, even now at the
descent of the Mount of Olives, the whole
multitude of the disciples began to rejoice and
praise God with a loud voice for all the mighty
works that they had seen;
Luke 19:37
Saying, Blessed be the King that cometh in the
name of the Lord: peace in heaven, and glory in
the highest. Luke 19:38
And some of the Pharisees from among the
multitude said unto him, Master, rebuke thy
disciples. Luke 19:39
And he answered and said unto them, I tell you
that, if these should hold their peace, the
stones would immediately cry out.
Luke 19:40
I thought about reading the Bible on my own,
but decided against it because I was not trained
to do so. I followed instruction. The home
needs to be a place of acceptance and
encouragement for healthy living, with the
parents teaching the word of God, and speak of
it when they rise up, lie down and sit in the
house, so that none of the children would be
afraid of speaking the word.
Therefore shall ye lay up these my words in
your heart and in your soul, and bind them for a
sign upon your hand, that they may be as
frontlets between your eyes. And ye shall teach
them your children, speaking of them when
thou sittest in thine house, and when thou
walkest by the way, when thou liest down, and
when thou risest up. And thou shalt write them
upon the door posts of thine house, and upon
thy gates: That your days may be multiplied,
and the days of your children, in the land which
the LORD sware unto your fathers to give them,
as the days of heaven upon the earth.
Deuteronomy 11:18-21
In my early teenage years I was told by my
parents to see a dermatologist, was put on
some sulfur drugs that were supposed to give
me a clear complexion, even though in my
opinion, did not have a skin infection or
problem complexion. I did not want the drugs,
but did not want to disobey my parents, either.
I trusted in God, but I was still heading the
wrong way.
I tried to get in touch with God and myself on
my bed but was not allowed to. I did not know
the word well enough to stand up for the truth.
I was in a pit in darkness, but was kept there.
Stand in awe, and sin not: commune with your
own heart upon your bed, and be still. Selah.
Psalm 4:4
Believing children should be taught to resist the
devil to make him flee and be trained in
spiritual warfare, which includes healing and
even the casting out of demons. That is the
responsibility of the parents, not someone else.
When I was about 14 years of age in the wild
sixties, God spoke to me saying, “Your future
husband wants to marry someone else.” My
immediate reaction was that I was rejected. I
did not know how to overcome the rejection, so
I was offended that he did not want me and
told God that he could marry her. My reaction
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was rather immature. I should have fought for
him in love, purity and holiness. I needed to
save my soul and grow in God before I could
help him or I and that would take a long time. I
was seeking the Lord, not marriage.
following verses from Titus that the word of
God not be blasphemed.
The aged women likewise, that they be in
behaviour as becometh holiness, not false
accusers, not given to much wine, teachers of
good things; That they may teach the young
women to be sober, to love their husbands, to
love their children, To be discreet, chaste,
keepers at home, good, obedient to their own
husbands, that the word of God be not
blasphemed.
Titus 2:3-5
But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his
righteousness; and all these things shall be
added unto you. Matthew 6:33
I therefore, left him in the dust and began a
lone pilgrimage. I thought I was through with
that relationship. Little did I know that I was
bound to marry him. I tried to believe that that
confrontation was not real. But, lo and behold
in 1992 I did marry that man who had married
someone else. His someone else left him and
married a man in their church. He was free to
remarry. I have since regretted my decision to
let him marry her. I suffered years of pain,
depression and nearly fell apart. After moving
to Ames, IA, I was tempted to commit suicide. I
came to the belief that I would not make it to
heaven, committing the sin of killing myself
(murder), so suicide forever became not an
option. I now believe that it was partly the
sulfur drugs I was taking when I made the
decision about my future husband that
impaired my judgment. I am now very wary of
drugs and medical science.
Christian parents ought to pray with their
children for their future mates and parents
should teach their children to pray for their
future mate. That is what I learned through
that severe and long lasting 20 year trial. Loving
your mate should begin even before the
meeting. I was under the mistaken idea that I
should let my future husband alone to test him,
seeing what he could do on his own, without
me, so I could find out how much he loved me
and find out whether he would be a man of
principle who followed God. We both failed
and missed the glorious wedding and family life
that God would have given us if we had been
trained to prepare for marriage.
We Christians definitely need the support and
prayers of other godly Christians. So, I was on
my own, headed in the wrong direction and was
spiritually lost. My father did confront me later
about forgetting the faith. I was shocked but
needed that reproof. From then on I was on
the path to know God.
Important lessons learned were that we need to
trust God for healing, obey God rather than
man, and that we Christians should fight for our
future mate through prayer. Children ought to
be heard and not just seen. The Christian
community should have a role in the futures of
the children in the church, through prayer
about their future marriages and discipleship
training to avoid the divorce phenomena.
Young girls should be taken through marriage
preparation classes taught by the older women.
They also should teach what is mentioned in the
During High School I slowly fell apart inside, but
at the same time had a good veneer on the
outside. One male friend of mine asked me
what made me tick. I answered that I did not
know. I was not prepared to give an account
for the hope that was in me, Jesus. I was
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absolutely devastated. That is why I remember
that one conversation to this day.
homecoming court. I was on swim team my
senior year (I swam breaststroke in 200 yard
medley relay at the state meet) and was on the
junior varsity tennis team. I played clarinet in
Band, Marching Band, Orchestra, and Ensemble.
I had some nice friends, one who told me about
her conversion to Jesus Christ, when an
evangelistic group visited her church. Other
than her friendship and our mixed group
parties, I was pretty much a loner. My father
believed in living a full life with exciting
recreational activities. He bought us a boat and
two snowmobiles. So a lot of my summers
were spent boating on the Mississippi River and
winters, I spent skiing and snowmobiling.
But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be
ready always to give an answer to every man
that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in
you with meekness and fear: 1 Peter 3:15
Children should be trained to share the gospel
at a young age, so that they will be ready always
be able to answer to everyone that asks them a
reason of the hope that is in them.
Family life should be conducive to Christian
living, with a loving, supportive and accepting
environment. The seeking of God and speaking
of the word should be central in the home. The
word of God is to be spoken when we rise up,
when we lie down, when we walk along the way
and when we sit in our house.
And these words, which I command thee this
day, shall be in thine heart: And thou shalt
teach them diligently unto thy children, and
shalt talk of them when thou sittest in thine
house, and when thou walkest by the way,
when thou liest down, and when thou risest up.
Deuteronomy 6:6-7
My Parents and their Evinrude Speed Boat
My mother, her dog, my sisters and I
On a trip to California in 1969, my Dad asked my
opinion on which painting to buy from a well
known artist. I chose this painting of two ships,
In high school, I was a cheerleader three years.
I won the Service Award three years and
Scholarship Award one year. I was on the
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which was larger than two smaller paintings
that I liked better, because I thought that he
would want one single large one.
I chose Iowa State University in Ames, Iowa. I
first majored in Interior Design. There was the
statement, “Repent” written on the dorm
hallway wall. I took heed. I started reading in
the Bible while in the dorm. I was so
discouraged with my performance and grades
that I quit during the spring semester and
decided to go back to Dubuque and work. I was
not really interested in school and thought it
was God’s will to leave. I went back to Iowa
State for fall semester of 1974 and majored in
architecture. It was a very tough curriculum
and concentrated on engineering. I was more
interested in design. I could did not pass
physics. It was about this time that I met a
young woman from my dorm who talked to
me about Jesus. It was a blessing to find
someone who I could relate to.
Barbara’s High School Senior Portrait
When I decided to go to college, I looked for a
school where I could get lost in the crowd and
then search for and find myself and find out
who I was.
Spring Semester 1975, I attended Clarke
College, a small women’s Catholic College in
Dubuque, hoping I could succeed in art, so I
majored in art. I also thought that it would be
good to be around holy women and be in a
Christian College. I decided to stay in the dorm
rather than live with my parents.
Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man
will come after me, let him deny himself, and
take up his cross, and follow me. For whosoever
will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will
lose his life for my sake shall find it. For what is
a man profited, if he shall gain the whole world,
and lose his own soul? or what shall a man give
in exchange for his soul?
Matthew 16:24-26
Spring Semester, Clarke College, poster stated:
I Suspect People of Plotting to Make Me Happy.
I had a nice roommate the spring semester and
had a single room the fall semester. One
Iowa State University – Friley Hall Dorm
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summer I worked as a swimming instructor at
Camp Little Cloud, a Girl Scout camp that I
attended when I was a Girl Scout.
The Pool at Camp Little Cloud
PVC Pipe Sculpture - Loras College- 1975
I took a Watercolor course at Clarke College and
Sculpture at Loras College, a related Catholic
men’s college in the city.
After a successful year at Clarke College, I had
an intense desire to go back to Iowa State
University then, so I went back and took some
courses in Architecture from 1976 through
1978. I took Water Safety Instruction (WSI)
course at ISU and worked at the ISU Pool as a
lifeguard.
My camp name was “Splash”
The next fall semester at Clarke, I played
clarinet in a pit band for a production at a
Catholic Seminary. It was a very successful year
and I enjoyed it, having made friends with one
of the women in the dorm. I went out on a
double date with her and her boyfriend and
someone she set me up with.
ISU Dorm - 1977
I later moved out of the dorm and found an
apartment. I thought that I would have more
success in finding God and myself if I was away
Clarke College, Fall Semester 1975
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from the dorm distractions and its corruption. I
again did not do well in Architecture. In spring
of 1979 I moved into a house apartment with
roommates. It was there that I met another
young Christian woman who lived downstairs.
She was a member of the Great Commission
Church, the same church of the woman who
talked to me about Jesus in the dorm. She
asked me if I wanted to meet together and do a
Bible Study. I agreed. She showed me how to
have a quiet time with God reading in his word
and we soon became good friends. My dad
sent me an ad about a job as a draftsman in Des
Moines, Iowa. I applied and got that job in a
company that made steel forms for concrete
construction. I then moved into an apartment
in Des Moines.
work and a place to stay. I finally was on the
way to finding myself, in architecture, along
with getting to know Him by reading and
hearing the Word.
I attended Great
Commission
Church,
which
was
a
fundamentalist, evangelistic church. Since my
spiritual needs were to know God and His Word
and to share my faith, I finally was on the mend
and finding my way. The leaders had given up
things, such as wealth to reach me! The
sermons were so enriching and encouraging. I
was finally happy and at peace. I found that I
was deeply loved by God and man. It was the
kind of love that I might not have had in a
marriage. It was better, and I drank up the
Word, being faithful to the church. I was
growing up. My search for love and meaning
was finally over and I felt satisfied, though I
thought that I still needed to be married to be
complete.
I attended the University of Dubuque fall
semester of 1979 to take some courses that I
needed for architecture, history and
trigonometry. I also took Belief and Unbelief, a
religion class. That winter break I taught skiing
at a local ski area in Dubuque owned by
members of my parent’s church. I returned to
Ames and tried architecture again in 1980-1981
and then decided to give up on school
completely and develop my spiritual life. I got
heavily involved with the Great Commission
Church. I went to Bible Studies and church
there. I was a member of a Go group, which
met for fellowship, teaching and outreach. I
was making many new friends and growing in
the Lord. I got a job in photofinishing in Ames
and worked at the shop from 1982-1985.
Another woman from the Great Commission
Church worked there. The employers were
Christians.
Drafting at Economy Forms
I enjoyed the job, and after a while I could not
see myself working in it for a lifetime, so my
manager and I mutually agreed that I should
leave the job. While I was in Des Moines I kept
up the friendship with Judy, the woman I had
befriended in Ames. I talked to her on the
phone and she told me that there was a
drafting job in Ames with the USDA, making soil
maps. Two women from her church were also
looking for a roommate. One of the women
worked on the same job I was applying for. God
was really working for me and helping me to get
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Photofinishing at Pyle Photo, Ames, Iowa
Barbara in Colorado
In 1983 a past roommate committed suicide
and I suffered shock and depression and
voluntarily went to the hospital when I could
not get sleep. I felt that that I could have done
something to prevent it. We must be strong.
After I recovered, my mother told me that she
would take me anywhere in the world that I
wanted to go. I wanted to go where God would
be glorified the most, so I chose Israel. At first
she was reluctant because of the warfare in
Israel, but later she told me a group of
seminarians came to her church and spoke
about their upcoming trip to Israel and she was
invited to go. She then changed her mind about
going to Israel.
Go Group; Barbara is second from left
In the winter of 1982-1983 I went to a Great
Commission Church Conference in Colorado. I
was encouraged at the conference and while
there we went skiing at Copper Mountain Ski
Resort.
I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from
whence cometh my help. My help cometh from
the LORD, which made heaven and earth. He
will not suffer thy foot to be moved: he that
keepeth thee will not slumber.
Psalms 121:1-3
My mother and I went on the seminary study
tour in 1984. It was a whirlwind tour of Israel
and Petra in Jordan. We visited the Israeli holy
spots, a Christian Kibbutz and swam in the Dead
Sea. After I returned from Israel I attended
Great Commission Church a while and gave a
presentation on Israel to the children at the
church with a kit I was given for that purpose
and showed slides of Israel to my Go Group.
Then shalt thou delight thyself in the LORD; and
I will cause thee to ride upon the high places of
the earth, and feed thee with the heritage of
Jacob thy father: for the mouth of the LORD
hath spoken it.
Isaiah 58:14
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My Father, Dr. Douglas Kelly Packard
My father died in a tragic car accident in July of
1985. It is thought that he fell asleep and drove
off the road and then his red TransAm crashed
into a concrete structure. I grieved deeply
when I was told by a church member of his
death. I was picked up in a plane and flown to
Dubuque to attend his funeral. After my
father’s death, I had a problem with a leader of
my Go Group. I thought he had turned my
father against me. I also let them know of my
Pentecostal beliefs. The leaders thought that I
should find another church that believed the
same way I did and so I left the Great
Commission Church.
Israeli Trip
I asked a young woman in my rooming house to
take me to a Pentecostal church. She would not
because she did not have a car. She died from
an unknown cause while in her room not too
long after that. I was distressed by both my
father’s death, this young woman’s death and
not having a supporting church. It was like a
rug was pulled out from underneath me. It was
more than I could handle. I became deeply
depressed. I then moved into a half-way house
for some semblance of comfort and to recover.
The Assembly of God Church was near the halfway house, so I started attending church there.
The pastor was very helpful. God had worked it
Jerusalem, 1984
A Plaque I bought in Israel
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all out for me. He put me there. I was reading
straight through the Bible during that time. I
tried to do it in one year, but it took two years.
The enemy did not want me to know the word
of God, so it was a very difficult battle. The
Assembly of God Pastor encouraged me to go
off the drugs I was receiving at the half-way
house, so I left the half-way house, got off drugs
and moved into a room in a house.
done, using my Liberty Presentation. I also
preached at a nursing home.
I attended my last semester at Iowa State
University in the fall of 1986. I shared my
Liberty Presentation with the students in one of
my architecture classes, regarding an
assignment to design an improvement for the
head of the body. I thought that making an
improvement was really not realistic because
God had given us the best head possible. I
shared that they could change and improve
their head spiritually by receiving Jesus.
I then got a job working as a homemaker health
aide. I stayed with clients who were elderly and
needed help with their care. I was invited to
move into a house which was once the
residence of the parents of the woman who
attended my mother’s church. I had visited
them and then sent the father flowers when he
was in the hospital. The neighbors were
especially nice. They were a Christian couple
who collected Christian Art. I gave them one of
my own designed T Shirts.
During this time I was made President of the
Christian group, One Accord. A friend of mine
recommended that I take a leadership training
class on campus, which I did. I was trained by
God to be a leader. I attended a church that
believed in divine healing and did not celebrate
holidays that were based upon pagan
celebrations, such as Halloween, Christmas, and
Easter. The pastor, Pastor Rule, took me
through deliverance. After the deliverance, I
felt like I was having a second baptism of the
Holy Spirit, with waves and waves of love and
healing pouring over my body.
I attended Iowa State University Spring
Semester 1986, the same year as the Liberty
Centennial, and took a drawing class. I drew a
picture of a small copy of the Statue of Liberty
at a client’s home. I then incorporated this into
a colored pencil drawing during my drawing
class, using the colors I had picked out at the
store. They just happened to be the same
colors of the Old Testament Temple, along with
the colors of the flag. The summer of 1986, I
took an acrylic painting class and painted my
Liberty Gospel Presentation from the colored
pencil drawing with acrylics on a canvas
covered Masonite board. I believe that it was
directed by God. To view and read the Liberty
Gospel Presentation, please visit my website:
www.gloryofthelordministry.net. I preached
the gospel on campus grounds, like the
founders of the Great Commission Church had
Fall semester, in 1986, I ran out of money for
school and decided to leave Iowa for the
Washington, DC area to work. The leaders of
the Great Commission Church had moved out
to the DC area and I wanted to meet with them
to discuss some spiritual issues. I fasted one
day and was in such pain later that day, that I
had to lay down and in my pain, I could only
reach over and get a book that was on my chair
next to the bed. I read some of it. It was a book
by a famous Christian author. In the book he
related how he had a vision of going on a boat
and saw a vision of a man whom he identified
as the ticket salesman. Later, while buying a
passenger ticket to go on a boat, he saw that
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dream come true. I also, had a dream not too
long after that and I saw a plane flying in air.
My view of it was telescoped into the window
of the plane and I saw the pilot clearly, so that I
could identify him if I saw him. When I was l
leaving Iowa for Washington, DC, I went to the
airport terminal. I was sitting down in the lobby
waiting for my flight when a man in the next
room, opened a closed door in front of me,
walked through the door and smiled at me and
said, “Hi!.” I recognized him as being the man
in my dream! He was the pilot of the plane. I
believed that God had miraculously given his
approval of my plan to go to Washington, DC.
I then switched churches to a Jewish Messianic
Church, Beth Messiah, in Rockville, Maryland.
In 1987-1988, I also attended General
Communications
Business
College
in
Kensington, MD and graduated with an Office
Specialist Certificate. I began to wonder why
God had brought me to Virginia, when my
school and church were in Maryland. I believe
He revealed to me why. I put together Virginia
and Maryland and came up with Virgin Mary.
What was so special about Virgin Mary? She
gave birth to Jesus Christ. Washington, DC was
land given by Virginia and Maryland, to make
the capitol city of the United States. As Jesus
was born of Mary, so Washington, DC was born
of Virginia and Maryland (put together and
shortened, Virgin Mary). So I believed that
Washington, DC would be a place of spiritual
birth, as was manifested by the physical, then
the spiritual.
I arrived in Washington, DC in early 1987 and
stayed with my cousin, Betsy, for a while, in
Silver Springs, Maryland. I eventually found a
room in a house in Alexandria, in which
Christian women were seeking a roommate.
The home was in a nice neighborhood, and as
spring was approaching, it was beautiful, with
flowers, especially azaleas. There just happened
to be an Assembly of God Church close by. I
attended there. I met a woman there who told
me that she was praying for me before I came,
since she knew of the need for a roommate in
my home. Some of the women in my house
were going to a Jewish Messianic Church in
Virginia. It was a church of mostly Jews who
had received Jesus Christ as their savior. There
were also Gentiles. I started attending the
Jewish Messianic Church with my housemates.
The lease ran out at our house and I moved to
an apartment in Alexandria. It was here that I
started up Glory of the Lord Ministry with the
help of an African American Christian woman
who lived in the apartment upstairs.
March for Washington
Blessed is the nation whose God is the LORD;
and the people whom he hath chosen for his
own inheritance.
Psalms 33:12
If my people, which are called by my name,
shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my
face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will
I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin,
and will heal their land. 2 Chronicles 7:14
For the earth shall be filled with the knowledge
of the glory of the LORD, as the waters cover
the sea.
Habakkuk 2:14
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give my life to the Lord’s purposes and to just
stop pursuing wealth. I had to give away a lot
of my possessions and had to move out of the
apartment. I moved into a dorm and then
decided to go back to school. This time I was
going to have religious education. I chose to go
to Messiah Biblical Institute in Gaithersburg,
Maryland. I then moved up to Maryland and
found a room in the lower level of a home with
a Christian woman and her son. I got a job at
IBM/CDI in Gaithersburg in data entry. I took
classes for two semesters at Messiah Biblical
Institute. A friend of mine from church, Mary
Grace, worked on Capitol Hill in Washington, DC
in a ministry called Progressive Vision. She
knew of a man, Harry Valentine, who wanted
someone to help him with his ministry picketing
against abortion in front of the Supreme Court.
I thought that was the right job for me, and a
much needed ministry, so I quit my job at IBM
and started commuting to Washington, DC to
picket against abortion. I eventually moved
down to Washington, DC and moved into a very
nice Christian Women’s Rooming House across
from the Hart Senate Building. I had followed
my vision, first living in Virginia, then Maryland
and then Washington, DC. What I awaited was
a spiritual birth.
Barbara at the United States Capitol in WDC
I got caught into the WDC area wealth trap. I
ran into car trouble and decided to buy a new
car. I was warned by someone that getting a
loan would be life wrecking. I then got a job as
a courier, in Virginia. I used the time I spent
driving to listen to Christian radio. During this
time I attended a church meeting in Virginia and
heard a teaching on Jonah. Because Jonah
disobeyed God by not preaching to Nineveh,
God appointed a whale to swallow Jonah and
he was spewed up on dry land. So, Jonah
preached to Nineveh. All the time he was in
this self-imposed prison, the whale was moving
forward to his destination. Even in our times of
darkness and trial, the whale keeps moving
forward toward the goal. I was very touched
and started crying right there in the
congregation. There is hope in the midst of
darkness, God is still working and the whale is
still moving forward. I moved to another
apartment building in Alexandria. My job as a
courier ended and without a job, I ran into
trouble with my finances. I eventually could not
pay my rent or car payments. My car was
repossessed and then and there I decided to
I had to move out of the Christian Rooming
house because I turned 35 years of age, the age
limit. I then moved into an apartment nearby.
During this time I found out that my Jewish
Doctor brother in law was performing
abortions. I worked with Harry Valentine,
passing out pro-life literature. After doing this
for a while, I finally came to the realization that
just standing up against abortion was not
working to change this country. It was doing
some good, but the country needed the gospel.
There needed to be a change of heart. I then
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realized that the Glory of the Lord Ministry
would concentrate on preaching the gospel.
name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. The
teaching of the Great Commission Church was
that baptism was just showing the world that
we had received Jesus, though they baptised by
immersion.
Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee,
Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit,
he cannot enter into the kingdom of God.
John 3:5
I called the church that passed out the flyer on
baptism, letting them know that I wanted to be
baptized. I was invited to go to visit them in
York, Pennsylvania to be baptized. I did visit
them and found out while I was there that they
would not baptize me because I was
Pentecostal and they were Fundamental.
After my job ended at the Union Station I had to
find a new job and an apartment. I found an
apartment in a row house a few blocks east of
the Supreme Court. While I lived there, I looked
for jobs in the close vicinity. I found a job at
Capitol Hill Art and Frame Company. They sold
art and did framing. I worked as a framer and
helped in sales. It was there that I did
calligraphy for Senator Ted Kennedy. He had a
Bible verse put on a picture for a gift for his
mother. I worked with Supreme Court Justice,
Sandra Day O’Connor who came into the shop.
I worked there happily until they sent me over
to the bank with a forged check. The bank
recognized it as a forgery and would not make
the transaction. I was not happy about that, so
the manager let me go. I then found a job at
Frager’s Hardware down the street on Capitol
Hill. I worked there from 1991-1992. Right
across the street from there was a church called
Holy Temple. One day, as I walked by, a
gentleman invited me to their church. I started
attending their church, which was about 99%
black. There, they told me about baptism in
Jesus’ name. I had finally found a place that
was Pentecostal and that baptized by
Supreme Court, Washington, DC, USA
In 1990, I got a job working at the Porcelain
Shop at the Union Station. The Union Station
was a gorgeous building and I was very proud to
be working there. The owner of the shop
eventually closed down the shop and I had to
work elsewhere.
Union Station, Washington, DC
I attended the March for Life while living in
Washington. Someone passed out literature,
“Are you really saved?”. I read in the literature
that baptism was necessary for salvation. I had
never understood that truth about baptism
because I came from a fundamental background
that did not teach it. I had been baptised by
sprinkling in the Presbyterian Church in the
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immersion in Jesus’ name. I decided to be
baptized. So, I was baptized at Holy Temple
Church by immersion in the name of Jesus for
the forgiveness of my sins. I had found my
spiritual birth at last.
Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be
baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus
Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall
receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. Acts 2:38
I definitely did feel better after my baptism. I
felt the release of my sins. My sins were
washed away and I was finally set free. Around
this time I heard the call from God to build
God’s Temple in Jerusalem as I was reading in
Ezekiel about the temple plans. It is interesting
that that happened while I was attending Holy
Temple and worked at a hardware store. I
continued working at the hardware until I
decided to go out and start a preaching ministry
on the Capitol Steps in Washington, DC in 1992.
When the Pastor at Holy Temple advised that I
should not go out and preach, I left the Holy
Temple Church. I believed that, since I had left
my church, that God would provide me with
someone who would support me in my
ministry. I applied at the Park Police Station for
a permit to preach on the Capitol steps.
I was carrying my canvas covered, Masonite,
acrylic painting, approximately 3’ x 4’. I was
also carrying my literature to pass out. A man
that I met on the way offered to help me carry
my painting. I found out that he was a Jew. He
could only help me a little way. I then
continued on by myself. A little while later a
black man stopped to help me, and his name
was Adam. He carried the painting all the way
up to the Capitol steps. The painting has a cross
on it, so I was actually carrying my cross.
And he that taketh not his cross, and followeth
after me, is not worthy of me.
Matthew 10:38
I discerned that the first Jewish man
represented Jesus.
The second man
represented Simon the Cyrenian (supposedly a
black man) who carried the cross for Jesus to
Golgotha. He also represented the second
Adam, who was Jesus. One of the times I
preached, there was a band playing on the
House steps. God had given that gift of music
to me, signifying that this event was important
and that He wanted to announce this event of
reaching out to the world with His gospel and
He honored me. I was blessed. He honored me
because I honored Him.
And this gospel of the kingdom shall be
preached in all the world for a witness unto all
nations; and then shall the end come.
Matthew 24:14
I lived close by the US Capitol and did not have
a car, so when I began preaching, I walked to
the US Capitol.
Wherefore the LORD God of Israel saith, I said
indeed that thy house, and the house of thy
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father, should walk before me for ever: but now
the LORD saith, Be it far from me; for them that
honour me I will honour, and they that despise
me shall be lightly esteemed. 1 Samuel 2:30
If any man serve me, let him follow me; and
where I am, there shall also my servant be: if
any man serve me, him will my Father honour.
John 12:26
I was out preaching on the he capitol steps
when I saw a man out campaigning for
President. He came up to me and said that he
would like to kiss the Christian lady, so I held
out my hand and he kissed it. He asked me if I
was married and I showed him a diamond ring
that I wore on my left hand with three small
diamonds. I said that I was married to the Lord,
the diamonds standing for the Father, Son and
the Holy Spirit. Sometime later, I was on the
capitol grounds on my way to the Mall to jog. I
met this man again on the sidewalk and I
stopped to talk. I found out that he was prolife, so I then and there joined up with his
campaign. He then invited me to join him for a
meal at the House of Representatives dining
room. I accepted the invitation and went to the
meeting in my best dress, blue with white
polka-dots. We talked and had a meal together.
I found out that we had a lot in common and we
got along well. I invited him over for dinner at
my apartment. I decided to wash his feet
because he had sore feet. He says that is what
won him over and after dating for a while; he
told me that he wanted to marry me. Knowing
that he was a baptized Christian and an
American Patriot, I accepted.
A Christian friend of mine had recommended a
private marriage to me. I did not think it would
be in our best interest to have a wedding
ceremony to celebrate what was a second hand
marriage; there was not much glory in that. So,
we agreed to a private marriage and were
married quietly on the capitol steps, in a private
ceremony with one witness. I wore a second
hand dress and was a second hand bride, but
had a triumphal entrance into a pure and holy
marriage. I am happy with my decision and I
would not have been happy with a traditional
wedding ceremony. I was 37 years old and he
was 45. Robert was in need of a place to stay
and I thought he should settle down rather than
wait around months for a wedding. God had
brought someone to me that would support me
in my ministry and I in turn would support him
in his campaign. After our marriage we lived in
my apartment on Capitol Hill.
Robert
campaigned hard across the country, but, lost
the election in 1992. He was running as an
Independent and therefore was not on the
ballots.
During this time, I was babysitting for our
neighbors and selling my art at the local
Farmer’s Market. Robert got a job as a driver at
the airport. So we settled into married life.
About three months later, I was pregnant. I
gave birth to our beloved son, Robert, in June of
1993 at the Georgetown Hospital in
Washington, DC.
When my son, Robert, was about one year old
and walking, he and I went to the House of
Representatives and delivered gospel tracts. I
gave the tract to my son and he gave it to the
person in the office. There was a short lived
Republican revival in 1994. For the first time in
50 years there was takeover of both houses of
congress.
I loved living in Washington, DC, but Robert
wanted to move out of Washington, DC
because he thought it was a dangerous place to
live. So, we moved out in December of 1994.
We packed up our truck and were traveling to
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the south. We ended up visiting his University
of Virginia Fraternity brothers in Charlottesville,
Virginia. They allowed us to stay during
Christmas Break. While there, Robert took a
plane to New Hampshire from Richmond,
Virginia and was gone about two weeks.
When Robert came back to us, we traveled to
Washington, DC to campaign and attended the
RNC Election Night Returns.
have a happy life. We purchased a home in
Manchester in March 1998 and moved in. That
was about a month before our daughter, Liberty
Ann Justice, was born in April of 1998. We had
a successful home birth, with much prayer.
Robert spent one month with his newly born
daughter and then he was taken to prison to
serve the sentence for the incident that
happened in February, 1995.
While still in Washington, DC, one cold day, my
son and I were waiting for my husband in our
truck. Someone reported us to DCYF. Our son
was taken from us on February 2nd, 1995 by
DCYF. DCYF brought charges against us and
then put Robert in foster care. My husband,
Robert, and I then traveled up to New
Hampshire. I hated to leave my son, but had to
obey my husband. I traveled back and forth to
Washington, DC to visit my son. I won the court
case and our son was returned to us.
Around that time, Robert, my husband, had a
court case regarding an incident with a man
who was going to attack him in Manchester,
NH, and much to my consternation, Robert
pulled out a rifle that he kept in the truck and
was arrested for reckless conduct and wearing
body armor, even though, as he claimed, he had
the 2nd amendment right to bear arms. Robert
did not fire the gun, nor was anyone hurt.
Robert lost his court case and then spent some
time in jail. He had an extended sentence, but
before the sentence was served we managed to
While Robert was suffering in jail, I had a
wonderful time in my first own home and with
our two beautiful and wonderful children. The
Lord had certainly blessed me and made me a
joyful mother of children. Our children were
baptized and taught the scriptures. The Lord
provided for us well. My mother offered to
help with the finances, which were taken out of
my inheritance. We visited Robert almost every
week in Concord, NH. I home schooled my son
Robert from 1999 until 2004. I wanted my
children to have a Christian upbringing in the
discipline and instruction of the Lord. So, I was
going to do it myself. I did not want them to go
to public school, where God was taken out of
the curriculum. My children learned from
Christian textbooks along with other approved
textbooks. They were taught by a parent who
cared about them. Our school was named
“Barbara’s Fun School”.
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my family and then simply turned on me. They
did not like the fact that Robert who was 10 1/2
years old was babysitting his five year old sister.
Other people told me of babysitting at age nine.
We were not alone, but were singled out.
Though I trusted my son even more than I
would a priest, they imprisoned me in the
hospital, took away my children from our home
and charged me with neglect.
My husband, Robert was away campaigning.
When he came home, I had to tell him the bad
news. We both then faced court charges for
neglect. This time we lost our children and they
were not allowed to come back home. They
were adopted away. I now remember Job.
They were beautiful children, and well
mannered. They were a joy to be around and I
am sure they were a treasure to anyone who
would have adopted them. They were not
problem children, but were believers, were
baptized, and taught from the Bible about God.
They got along well with us, but were swayed
by slander and were tempted with all the
goodies that the government had to give them,
and did not come home. They had a foster
brother and an older sister. The foster parents
took them to Disney World and had a
trampoline in their yard. They went to public
school and had plenty of attention and lots of
friends. They were tempted with the world,
and gave in to the world, with much
encouragement from the government. They
were told a lie about us, and live under that lie
to this day. They did not choose to love or
honor their parents according to the word of
God. They were told to write all the things
down that they did not like about their parents,
when the Bible states that they are not to take
into account wrongs suffered. The government
teaches children to not honor their parents, but
to turn against them and hate them. That is a
major problem here in the United States. Our
children were told that their parents did not do
the things necessary to get them back. The only
thing we did not do was get an evaluation.
According to our Christian religion, Psychology
Family Photo with son, Robert
Daughter, Liberty Ann Justice
Robert eventually came to a Manchester halfway house and we visited him there until he
was released to go home. Robert got a job
driving vans for the Holiday Inn in Manchester.
We attended a Pentecostal church around this
time. In 2004 Robert went to Pennsylvania and
south to campaign. He was not able to provide
for the family at this time. So I was put in a
position of having to work to provide for our
family. I got a job working for the MTA driving a
school bus after intensive training. It somewhat
contradicted my beliefs, but I had to provide for
my children. I was too proud to get help from
the government and I did not want my mother
to pay my way. During that time in April, 2004,
my children were taken away from me by the
division of Child and (DCYF) because I went to a
Catholic hospital ER to find help with an
infection that I had, early one morning while my
children were sleeping. I woke up my son and
told him I was going for a short while to the
Hospital. Hospital staff questioned me about
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and Psychiatry are other religions.
An
evaluation was against our faith.
Let a man so account of us, as of the ministers
of Christ, and stewards of the mysteries of God.
Moreover it is required in stewards, that a man
be found faithful. But with me it is a very small
thing that I should be judged of you, or of man's
judgment: yea, I judge not mine own self. For I
know nothing by myself; yet am I not hereby
justified: but he that judgeth me is the Lord.
Therefore judge nothing before the time, until
the Lord come, who both will bring to light the
hidden things of darkness, and will make
manifest the counsels of the hearts: and then
shall every man have praise of God.
1 Corinthians 4:1-5
We believe that it was because of our religious
beliefs that we could not get our children back.
And a man's foes shall be they of his own
household. He that loveth father or mother
more than me is not worthy of me: and he that
loveth son or daughter more than me is not
worthy of me. Matthew 10:36-37
was basically disinherited by my mother and her
lawyer shortly after we were married and
according to my mother’s will, would only
receive an inheritance that was controlled by
the bank, which I had to disclaim, to avoid being
brought into a controlling bondage.
Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith
Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled
again with the yoke of bondage. Galatians 5:1
Without any prior discussion or consultation
with me, members of my family, along with the
bank and their lawyer took me to court
regarding my disclaimer of that inheritance. I
was finally allowed to disclaim the inheritance
by the court’s decision in my favor. At that time
I sold my farm shares from the family farm back
to the family to pay for our home.
And Jesus answered and said, Verily I say unto
you, There is no man that hath left house, or
brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or
wife, or children, or lands, for my sake, and the
gospel's, But he shall receive an hundredfold
now in this time, houses, and brethren, and
sisters, and mothers, and children, and lands,
with persecutions; and in the world to come
eternal life. Mark 10:29-30
Persecutions are a part and parcel of leaving
lands, sisters and children for Jesus’ sake and
the gospel. A hundredfold of land, children and
sisters is the promised reward.
I decided to produce a TV program in 20072008 called Liberty and Justice for Women. I
attended Boston Architectural College (BAC) in
Boston, Massachusetts in 2007 and 2009. I
commuted by bus back and forth from
Manchester, NH to Boston, MA. In 2007 I took
two Photography Courses and Web Based
Portfolio class. From what I learned in the Web
Based Portfolio class, I later set up my Glory of
the
Lord
Ministry
website,
www.gloryofthelordministry.net.
From the
people that had seen my website; I received
many emails, especially from Kenya, some from
Pakistan and India. Pastor Charles Orioro, from
Kisii, Kenya and I started up Glory of the Lord
Churches in 2010, making a church constitution
at that time.
After this experience with the courts, we
established in 2004, The Christian Center for
Liberty and Justice, concentrating on matters of
governmental injustice.
My mother, Joan Louise Packard
In 2008 my mother died in her home after a
long illness with supernacular palsy. Robert and
I were then faced with one of the biggest
battles of my life, the reaction of my mother to
our choosing not to have a family wedding. I
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I was advised by my counselor at Boston
Architectural College that the Dean of Students
had mentioned to her that he thought I should
not to come back to BAC. That was shocking
and I thought it was persecution. I had only
talked to the dean one time and originally did
not know why he had advised that.
I had
complained to an authority in the school about
nudity in art there at BAC and he found out
about it. He obviously was not happy.
I did not go back to BAC for awhile and tried to
find another school, to follow the Dean’s advice
and was accepted into the University of New
Mexico in Albuquerque, New Mexico. I had
purchased land near Belen, NM in 2008. I
purchased my plane tickets and as I tried to go
to catch my plane to NM, my husband blocked
my way and would not let me go. So, my plans
to finish up my education were foiled. I then
decided to go back to BAC against the advice of
the Dean of Students. It was a risky venture,
but I thought that God wanted me to go. While
there I had to take a course that the dean
taught. So, I was confronted with him head on.
I could not escape it. He was a nice instructor,
but tense. He gave each of the students a rose
to draw.
I assumed that he was prohomosexual because of a slide he showed in
class. So, I wanted my husband to go with me
to talk to him, but my husband refused. I then
went directly to the pastor of my church
regarding this man, because I felt that the lord
wanted me to share the gospel with him. My
husband did not want me to, but I could not
withhold the gospel from anyone. My pastor
agreed with me and we prayed for his salvation.
I, therefore, gave the dean my gospel
presentation in tract form. After I gave him the
gospel, I noticed a change in his demeanor. He
thanked the students for being patient with
him. There was no longer the tension that
there was before. I personally believed that he
was saved, though, I did not ask him, nor did he
tell me. We overcome by the blood of the lamb
and the word of our testimony. I now realize
that I was fighting a spiritual battle against the
forces of evil that would try to hinder the
building of the temple in Jerusalem. Since my
goal was to build the temple in Jerusalem, I had,
it seemed, forces of evil pushing on me to
destroy me and to keep the Lord from being
glorified through the rebuilding of His Temple.
In 2011 Robert and I had a problem in our
relationship. According to a Catholic priest, our
marriage was not valid due to Robert’s previous
marriage and divorce. I have since concluded
that the priest was wrong, due to his
misunderstanding of the one exception of
immorality. Robert then took a trip down to
the southeastern part of the USA to campaign. I
went to New York City for a couple of days and
preached at Battery Park. With the blessing of
my Pastor, I decided to take a bus trip out west
and share the gospel as I went. It was a dream
come true. On Wednesday, July 27th, armed
with gospel tracts, the sword of the spirit, I
traveled to Boston, Massachusetts and bought a
Discovery bus pass. I travelled south to New
York and then west to Cleveland, Ohio, then
south to Nashville, Tennessee, then to
Oklahoma City, talking with people and giving
out tracts. I then decided to travel west to New
Mexico to camp out for a few days near the
property that I had purchased there. When I
arrived in Albuquerque, I decided to go on to
Flagstaff, AZ. I ended up in Flagstaff on
Saturday. As I walked the streets in the city, I
noticed that the Seventh Day Adventist church
had an open door and was going to have a
worship service. I attended the worship service.
I then caught a bus back to Albuquerque and
got a room in a hotel. In the morning, I went to
check on the building codes for property I
owned in NM. My property was near Belen,
which is Spanish for Bethlehem. I received a
ride from a woman from Belen to close by my
property. It was absolutely beautiful, with
mountains all around this desert-like property.
There was a family nearby that I went over to
meet and visit with. They thought that it was
dangerous for me to be out in the wilderness all
alone. I had pitched my tent on land that was
perfect for camping with level ground and a
pathway leading to it. The solitude, along with
the beauty, was absolutely outstanding.
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The Heavens Declare the Glory of God
There is no speech nor language, where their
voice is not heard.
The heavens declare the glory of God; and the
firmament sheweth his handywork.
Day unto day uttereth speech, and night unto
night sheweth knowledge.
Their line is gone out through all the earth, and
their words to the end of the world. In them
hath he set a tabernacle for the sun,
Which is as a bridegroom coming out of his
chamber, and rejoiceth as a strong man to run a
race.
His going forth is from the end of the heaven,
and his circuit unto the ends of it: and there is
nothing hid from the heat thereof.
Psalms 19:1-6
Moses and the Israelites, David, Elijah, John,
and Jesus all had their wilderness experience. I
had my desert experience out in the wild.
But God led the people about, through the
way of the wilderness of the Red Sea: and the
children of Israel went up harnessed out of the
land of Egypt. Exodus 13:18
And David abode in the wilderness in strong
holds, and remained in a mountain in the
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wilderness of Ziph. And Saul sought him every
day, but God delivered him not into his hand.
1 Samuel 23:14
But he himself went a day’s Journey into the
wilderness and came and sat down under a
juniper tree; and he requested for himself that
he might die; and said, It is enough; now, O
Lord, take away my life; for I am not better than
my fathers. {Elijah} 1 Kings 19:4
In those days came John the Baptist, preaching
in the wilderness of Judea. Matthew 3:1
Then was Jesus led up of the spirit into the
wilderness to be tempted of the devil.
Matthew 4:1
rest of desert living. I enjoyed the nature. I saw
a rattle snake, a jack rabbit, and a turtle. I
heard coyotes howling at night. I was told that
cows can stampede in the area. I was spared
from a stampede. My neighbors told me that
there were tarantulas on their property.
For the invisible things of him from the creation
of the world are clearly seen, being understood
by the things that are made, even his eternal
power and Godhead; so that they are without
excuse: (Romans 1:20)
My time was up in New Mexico, so I packed up,
my neighbor gave me a ride to the Railrunner
that ran to the bus station, to catch a bus to Los
Angeles, California. I went witnessing out on
the streets of Los Angeles with a Christian
woman I had met in the bus station.
I would walk from my campground into the city
and back most every day. I went to the library
and shared my faith with people. One night I
got a ride part way to my land, but could not
find it from where I was left off, so I ended up
walking in the dark a long way. I faced the
possibility of natural dangers of snakes or
coyote. I was lost and it was rather bewildering,
so I decided to just go back to the highway and
to the nearest phone to get help. I found a
store and the police were called. A policeman
gave me a ride into the city to stay at a motel
for the night. The next day, I stopped at a
business to get directions to the road leading to
my land. A young man there offered to give me
a ride to my tent. Arriving at the campsite, my
tent had blown over and he helped me put it
back up. He had tools with him that he used to
stake the tent down. I successfully survived the
Christian Friend in Los Angeles, California
As a token of the southwest and of her
friendship, she bought me a turquoise cross
pendant. I then travelled up to Oregon, over to
Denver, Colorado and then to my sister’s home
in Dubuque, Iowa and stayed there for a while
before returning to Manchester, NH.
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Also, in the summer of 2011, I did volunteer
work for Habitat for Humanity helping rebuild a
house that had been damaged in a fire.
marriage. Our relationship was on the mend.
The hospital experience was very difficult. I
appreciate that they saved my life, but in my
opinion, the expensive aftercare was
unnecessary. I felt like I was in a jungle and just
had to try to survive it and get out alive. They
put in a defibrillator in my heart, without my
permission of which they did not have the right
to do. They did not make sure I got daily
exercise, so I lost use of my legs and was
required to go to a rehabilitation center, (that
was extra unnecessary taxpayer money). I was
told I could not get out of the hospital without
Medicaid (government insurance) approval. So,
I had to wait there at taxpayer expense for a
long time until I finally got Medicaid approval
and had to sign a paper that could eventually
put a lien on our home. Much of this suffering
was in place because staff went to court
without my knowledge, while they drugged me,
on the basis that I was incapacitated. I was
given a guardian who was not a Christian and
whose decisions were not necessarily based
upon the word of God. From then on I was not
allowed to make my own medical decisions and
was wrongfully forced into not being selfcontrolled. During much of the time spent in
the hospital I was not able to work on the
computer because my arms were so weak. I
therefore lost contact with the Glory of the Lord
Churches. I needed a rest. I lost about 60
pounds during the time I was in the hospital and
rehabilitation center. While at the hospital, I
believe that God told me that I had been given
the call of an apostle to the USA.
In December of 2011, I was attending a Habitat
for Humanity meeting in a Manchester Mill
building. I walked up four flights of stairs to
attend the meeting. I was at the meeting when
I started vomiting. I felt like I was having a
heart attack. Friends wheeled me down the hall
to the elevator, and then to my car. I felt that
could drive home, so I did. When I parked in
our driveway, I felt that I was reeling and my
head was spinning. I knew that if I did not get
help, I would die, because I was physically not
able to pull myself out of the tailspin, so I called
911 (our emergency number). An ambulance
came and took me to Elliot Hospital. I was
somewhat aware of what was going on because
I had seen an emergency room full of people
who were lined up along the edge of the room,
and then I observed only the color grey. I had
just died. Emergency Room staff immediately
defibrillated me and I came back to life. As I
recall, I sat up and told them not to do it
anymore. I was told that I said the right thing.
Staff immediately wheeled me into surgery. I
had an Angioplasty surgery, in which they
opened a completely blocked artery. Since the
staff would not let me go home and kept me
drugged, I spent about four months in the
hospital and then spent about two months in
the rehabilitation center.
Robert started
visiting me daily and then we concluded that
the Catholic priest was wrong about our
Verily, verily, I say unto you, Except a corn of
wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth
alone: but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit.
John 12:24
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run and I spent a lot of the winter reading the
Bible and writing a journal on what I had read. I
was spiritually strengthened, especially reading
the books of the prophets. I was much
convicted also. Spring and summer of 2014, I
got out and walked many places. The exercise I
got strengthened me physically. I have been
feeling fulfilled and not empty because I had
ceased striving and know that God is God. That
is a good place to be.
Robert Visited me at the Rehabilitation Center
Since getting back online, I have reestablished
The Religious Write Newsletter, weekly letters
and new Glory of the Lord Churches have been
added. I have gone out preaching in Victory
Park in Manchester, and have visited Jewish
synagogues in the city. I have written letters to
government officials and candidates. I have
continued my reading of the Bible cover to
cover and minister to my husband. Robert and I
attend churches to give out newsletters and to
encourage them. We recently attended the
Seventh Day Adventist Church because they
practice the Saturday Sabbath and I have
believed in practice of the Sabbath on the
seventh day since my Jewish Messianic days. I
was told that the Seventh Day Adventist Church
is the largest protestant church in the world.
With Robert’s help, I recuperated at home and
rested throughout the year of 2012 and part of
2013. I went from a walker to a cane to walking
without a cane during that time. I attended a
healing meeting at a Pentecostal church and the
healer said I was healed and wouldn’t need the
cane anymore. So, I believed him and have not
used the cane since.
For thus saith the Lord GOD, the Holy One of
Israel; In returning and rest shall ye be saved; in
quietness and in confidence shall be your
strength: and ye would not. Isaiah 30:15
Robert finally allowed me to get our website
back online in late 2013. I found out that our
church in Africa had basically disbanded, with
the new elder quitting after Charles Orioro left
Kenya to go to Uganda. Our men’s project of a
purchased cow and the sewing machines
purchased to help the women were given away.
Praise the Lord, Pastor Charles returned to
Kenya, after establishing five churches in
Uganda. He reestablished the Glory of the Lord
Churches in Kenya by the time I got back online.
Thus the heavens and the earth were finished,
and all the host of them. And on the seventh
day God ended his work which he had made;
and he rested on the seventh day from all his
work which he had made. Genesis 2:2
And God blessed the seventh day, and
sanctified it: because that in it he had rested
from all his work which God created and made.
Genesis 2:3
Robert had taken on too much responsibility at
home, since I had gotten out of rehabilitation.
He ended up in the hospital himself. He is
home now and is doing well. While he was
gone, I was homebound, since our car did not
This blessing and sanctification of the seventh
day was from the creation story, not from the
Mosaic Law and was intended for all men to
observe. There is no Biblical proof that the New
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Testament Christians were to observe the
Sabbath on Sunday, only a command that they
should set aside their tithe on that first day of
the week. Therefore, it is only a tradition, not a
command to celebrate Sabbath on the first day
of the week. The Lord’s Day is the seventh day
Sabbath, and has not changed.
But when we are judged, we are chastened of
the Lord, that we should not be condemned
with the world.
1 Corinthians 11:32
My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into
divers temptations; Knowing this, that the
trying of your faith worketh patience. But let
patience have her perfect work, that ye may be
perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
James 1:2-4
If thou turn away thy foot from the sabbath,
from doing thy pleasure on my holy day; and
call the sabbath a delight, the holy of the LORD,
honourable; and shalt honour him, not doing
thine own ways, nor finding thine own pleasure,
nor speaking thine own words: Then shalt thou
delight thyself in the LORD; and I will cause thee
to ride upon the high places of the earth, and
feed thee with the heritage of Jacob thy father:
for the mouth of the LORD hath spoken it.
Isaiah 58:13-14
Children should be loved and taught the Word
of God to become loving, strong and powerful
servants of God.
Now as touching things offered unto idols, we
know that we all have knowledge. Knowledge
puffeth up, but charity edifieth.
1 Corinthians 8:1
The pain of losing my children has since gone
away, because of the new, God given, spiritual
children added unto our churches and Ministry.
After my heart attack, I sold my property in
New Mexico. Robert and I are trying to work on
our marriage, honesty and love. We try to be
hot, not lukewarm or cold, always abounding in
the work of the Lord. We keep our vision and
trust in the Lord.
A wise man is strong; yea, a man of knowledge
increaseth strength. Proverbs 24:5
By this we know that we love the children of
God, when we love God, and keep his
commandments. 1 John 5:2
Yea, so have I strived to preach the gospel, not
where Christ was named, lest I should build
upon another man's foundation: Romans 5:20
So then because thou art lukewarm, and
neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my
mouth. Revelation 3:16
Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast,
unmoveable, always abounding in the work of
the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your
labour is not in vain in the Lord.
1 Corinthians 15:58
For the Son of man shall come in the glory of his
Father with his angels; and then he shall reward
every man according to his works.
Matthew 16:27
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