Chapter 4
Many years have now passed and a lot of the strange happenings were suppressed. I was working in television and enjoying the hard work and the parties. It was a great way of studying the ego.
Watching other people change as soon as the red light came on to the camera is a great lesson in the game of life. The professionals were the ones that would be very pleasant off camera and then do whatever was necessary and then return to the normal world. For some people this could happen quickly and for others it may never happen in a lifetime.
One of the programme assistants called Lisa had met this interesting character called Paul who she felt that maybe I should meet. The conversation had started about an event that had got around the station. One evening when I was in the sports and social club Jimmy
Bartley (Bella) hobbled past me holding his back. It was obvious that he was in pain and he was also one of the most professional actors that
I have ever met. Jimmy would always give anyone who was new to fair city a helping hand. Always being very discreet and suttle.
As he walked by I asked what had happened. He described where the pain was and you could see the pain all over his face. I knew that a lot of the work that he was going to do involved walking about the set and stopping on marks. As we talked a cool breeze ran down my back and I knew that there were guides that wanted to help. Maybe it was because I had a few drinks after work that I offered to bring him into a small back room used for meetings and see what might happen.
“what are you going to do” he asked . “ I have no idea” I replied. As we walked into the room I could feel a gentle change coming over me. A sense of love and contentment that was quite overpowering.
He looked at me and smiled “I am starting to feel rather strange”. I laughed and put my hand at the lower end of his back. There was no need to touch him but I let my hand hover over the area of the pain.

My hand started to move and pull strands of light from his back. It was if they were discoloured and I kept pulling until they changed into pure white light. He said that he felt a lot of heat entering his back and then I stopped. I think the event lasted for about five minutes but time seems to be irrelevant I asked him to move around and see if there was any difference. He started to walk and both of us both burst into laughter. It was obvious that the pain was gone as he jumped around the room. We were both delighted with the result and we walked out into the main bar. I returned to my barstool as Jimmy walked back to join his friends. I knew that there would be a reaction to this but I felt that it was time to use my gift again.
I found parking in Ballsbridge and I walked over to the building opposite the American embassy. I stood in front of the big yellow
Georgian door and I pushed the bell. My heart rate increased as I was about to tell some stranger some of the things I knew and to hell with the consequences. A young woman opened the door and smiled.
“you are here to see Paul” she asked. “I think so” I replied and went inside.
There was a large hallway and stairs in front of me. Upstairs and the first door on the left. As I went up the stairs I admired the painting on the wall. Huge angels had been painted on to the wall with pure white clouds around them. As I ascended more ( the stairs that is) I could hear the sound of monks chanting. I began to feel more at home maybe this is what I have been looking for? The smell of incense filled the air as I knocked on the door. “Its open” a voice called and I entered into a beautiful place. Paul was sitting on a large bean bag leaning with his back straight against the wall. It was the closest I had seen to a monk in meditation. He picked up a remote and the monks volume reduced to a level that we could now talk. He was a man of medium build and with dark hair, he wore black jeans with a black

shirt and looked very content. He smiled and asked me to sit on the mattress opposite him. I took my shoes off and sat down. “ I believe that you have been chatting to Lisa!” “yes” I replied.
A large portrait of Paul was over his head but it had a cross between an Egyptian character and a Chinese.
He asked me about my past and all of the strange events that have happened. He listened to my stories and then asked me to sit up straight and imagine a red waterfall pouring over me. As I did this I could feel a tingling sensation in my body. He then changed the colour to orange. This brought up strange feelings and emotions but I could feel that this was having a good effect. He changed to yellow and my body started to shake. It was if there was a happy pill that was plugged into me and the more the energy increased the more I became energised. The energy or light that was pouring over me was becoming intense. When he changed the colour to green I could see light forms moving around the room and also around Paul he asked if I was ok and I smiled. I felt that the smile was enough and he moved on to the colour blue. At this point I started to talk to this man. I started to tell him of his own path of searching and where he was needing more attention. I was able to say things that where quite personal but I knew that they were accurate and of good benefit to him. Tears started to fall down his cheeks but I knew that this was a result of clearing his energy field so that he may develop and understand more. As the sense of loving intensified I too could feel the tears flowing effortlessly down my face. I could see two separate forms of white light behind his shoulders and I knew that they were giving me this information . I told him about the guides around him and he smiled. I asked him to stand up and he did so without question. I approached him with my arms open and then put my right hand over his heart. Without knowing why or what I was doing I started to pull energy from his heart. He could feel the sensation and it was if I as pulling a string from his heart and he

was being pulled towards me. My hands started to spin the cord and speed it up and as I did this I could feel the love sensation increase rapidly. He looked into my eyes and we both knew that this was a beautiful moment taking place. I continued on various chakras of his body. ( These chakras are light energy points that exist in the body in the west we call them glands.) When everything felt good I could feel the energy fall away and I began to return to normal (whatever that might mean). We stood in silence for a few seconds and then he said “
I think that you have realised that you have a gift of healing”. “I think that I have had this for a long time but you are the first person to experience this fully and openly.” “do you want to go for a coffee” he asked. “ After that I think that I would like a pint and a smoke” I replied.
Chapter 5
As I looked out of my lounge window one morning I started to rub my eyes. I had been out quite late the night before as I had finished work quite late and I had then gone on to a party in town. We had spent the last couple of days recording a music programme and there were a few beers after the show but the party was in a well known nightclub that opened very late. I tried to focus my eyes but as I rubbed them yet again I became aware that there was something wrong. As I looked at the telephone pole outside the window I realised that it was slightly distorted. I covered my left eye and I became aware that my right eye was seeing the pole in a pink colour and also it was all bending on the vertical plane. When I swapped my hand over the right eye everything became normal again. I knew that something was very wrong and I started to look for the doctors phone number. I could only get an appointment for five o`clock and I decided to go down to the opticians instead.

A young lady called Carol started to examine my eye. She wore a pristine white blouse with a dark skirt. She looked mid twenties and was very attractive but as she came close to my eyes to look with her scope I could smell strong tobacco from her. She seemed very relaxed as she looked around and very methodical in her movements. She was just in the middle of telling me that everything was ok when her voice went up a tone and she said “ whats this”. Without notice she lifted her leg up onto my right thigh and leaned in close to my face. Her skirt went very high up her leg which my left eye wanted to glance down but her smoky breath and her sigh of “O DEAR” mad me realise that something was not good. She explained that I had a burst blood vessel in my eye and that it was in my field of vision. “what should I do I asked” and she said that she needed to make a phone call. As the door closed my mind started to wonder what was going to happen. I glanced around the room at the charts and the technology so that I would not let my imagination get carried away. Carol returned in the door and explained that she had been on to an eye surgeon and that
I must see him in the morning. I was a little shocked by this but she reassured me that she was just being cautious.
The next morning I was sitting in a different waiting room with more charts and toys also scattered around the room. A young girl of about three years of age came out of the doctors door clutching a teddy bear with a patch over her eye and a matching one over the teddy bear. I liked this doctor already. He seemed to have the young girl at ease as she looked at the bear.
“Tom come in and let`s have a look at you”. Said Dr. O`Conner. As I sat down I glanced around the room. The walls were clean and white and a wooden desk with a device for looking into your eyes on the table. The device had two tall black stilts and a small bending bridge for putting your chin on. There was a magnifying glass on one side with lights that shone into your eye. It was very similar to the one that had

been in the opticians. I was aware of the smell of toothpaste and I tried to observe this man with one eye looking through the eyepiece while my left eye tried to sum up the situation. “look up please” he asked and I ended up looking at the ceiling with my left eye and my right seeing intense white light. “O dear” he remarked and he had my attention immediately. “whats wrong” I asked . “you do have a burst blood vessel in your eye and it does not look to good I am afraid. I will send you to have some photographs taken and we will see from there”
He apologised to me saying “I will have to put some drops in your eye and it will open your iris fully. This will effect your vision but it will only last for a few hours. I was guided down a few corridors where I had to sit and wait for these drops to take effect. “Mr. Murphy this way please and I followed a young nurse down a corridor. I tried to observe her but my distorted vision was quite distracting and I had to concentrate with my left eye and walk with my right eye closed. I turned into an open doorway and a young doctor wearing a white coat welcomed me in. “hello I am Dr. Deehan and I am going to take a few photos of your eye. Sit down and look into this lens please.” I sat down and started to admire the equipment around me. It looked like top photography equipment but most of me did`nt care due to the concern about my vision. The drops had created a lot of discomfort and I just wanted to get this over and done with. He was quite young around mid thirties and fair haired. He seemed the sort of person that I would be quite happy to have a pint or two with.
“I am going to inject some fluid into your arm and I will sting a little” he said. The needle did sting a little but with the eye all blurred and also stinging another disorientation didn’t seem to matter. I was getting a little irritable with all these observations but I knew it had to be done. I looked again into this device and was aware of the camera shutter clicking away and he said that it would not be long before the session would be finished. I asked him what my eye looked like and he said

“have you ever seen a picture of a nebula in the universe?” “yes” I replied. “Then something like that but you can have a look at the pictures when I have them developed”. He walked towards me and guided me back to the waiting room, “you may have to wait there for a while” he said but the nurse will call you when Dr. O’Conner wants to see you. As I sat down in the waiting room I started to look around at the other patients. You could spot the ones who had been before as they were the ones that sat knowing that this was going to be a long day. There was a fish tank at the front and this attracted the children in the waiting room. It was the young boy that looked as if he needed a good wash and a diet was the one that was irritating me at the moment as he kept hitting the glass with keys and this was scaring the fish. As time went by I observed different names being called and various characters from the cast of life all went into different doctors rooms all with a different story to tell. One thing that they had in common was that at the end of each story something had happened to give them a problem with their eye! Eventually my name was called and I went back inside to see Dr. O’Conner. “ As I explained before and the pictures confirm it, your eye has a burst blood vessel and It is in the field of vision. I think that we may have to operate and quite soon!” I walked out of the room passed the waiting room and down a narrow corridor that had a public phone in it. I rang Tricia to see if she could collect me as I did`nt want to get a bus or listen to a taxi man talking at me for the journey home. I said that I would meet her in the
Burlington hotel and I would be in the bar having a fag and a pint! This thought was the only good thing that I had to look forward to all day. I did not realise that in the next two hours that I would be crying with laughter. As I walked out of the hospital door the brilliant sunlight hit me. My left eye was able to close its iris but the right eye was not due to the eye drops. It was like a pain in the head as the sunlight shone into my eye. I turned left out of the hospital and started walking to the

hotel. It only took a couple of minutes and it was a great relief to enter into the building with much less light in it. I walked through reception and into the bar. It was a long shaped oval bar at the centre with tables all around. I had been in here many times before and I felt a little more comfortable. I ordered a pint of lager and lit a cigarette.
There were a few businessmen in a corner otherwise it was nice a quiet.
I could`nt read a paper and so I just relaxed and waited. My first pint went quite quickly and I ordered another. Time passed and my ashtray had three butts in it. Tricia walked in the door and she was a comforting sight. She said she would have a glass of wine and I had one for the road. After this being my third or fourth pint I headed for the gents. There were two men at the urinals and there was a space in the middle for me. Without thinking or looking I went through the motions of what men do. As I looked to my left the man beside me was looking down at me with a look of astonishment! I looked to my right and this man was also looking bewildered at my urinal. I looked down to see what was distracting them and I think I shouted “jesus”. A bright yellow illuminous fluid was pouring out of me ! It almost shone.
As I took in a sharp intake of breath I realised that this must be the dye that was injected into me. As I tried to explain to the two men that were each side of me they looked away and were trying to leave as quickly as possible. I looked down again and started to laugh out loud.
The two men almost ran out of the toilet as I looked down at this amazing sight. It was great to have something to make me laugh and I knew that I would always remember this moment. Tears trickled down my leg and also from my eyes as this was a good relief from the stress of the day.
A few months earlier I had taken Tricia on her birthday to see a clairvoyant called Mr Murphy. I had heard that she was very good but
I had never been to one before and so I had just taken a risk. She was

at this time above a record shop down Merchants Arch in Dublin. It is a small lane that goes between temple bar and the ha`penny bridge.
We found the record shop and climbed the circular stairs up to a landing that seemed to be a small waiting area. There was a small settee covered with red velvet and a few old cushions. Two girls were waiting on it and we had to stand and wait. The landing was small and quite cramped with the four of us waiting for the door to open. I suggested to Tricia that we could come back but she was to excited about the event and was delighted with me for bringing her in the first place. After a few minutes the door opened and a young girl came out. The two girls on the settee stood up and giggled “how did you get on?” The other seemed to want to burst with stories as she walked down the stairs with the other girls. She called back to us and said
“excuse me she is absolutely brilliant, good luck”. She seemed to be shaking as she walked away. The door opened again and a frail woman looked at us and smiled who wants a reading then? I do said
Tricia and she pulled me with her into a small dark room. A small table with two chairs one facing the other and the rest of the velvet draped over the table. Mrs Murphy said to me “you can wait outside son until she is finished” Tricia said. “Can Tom stay as well?” Mrs Murphy looked at Tricia and said I only do readings for one at a time”. I shrugged my shoulders and said I would wait outside. I was still a little sceptical about this despite all the things that had happened to me. She looked at me and smiled. You two have known each other for a long long

time and you can stay if you wish. I looked into her eyes and felt love and wisdom. I sat down and she had our full attention. She asked
Tricia to cut the deck of cards or would she prefer the crystal ball? The cards were chosen and then woven into a particular shape. They were then flipped over and then she began.. The events that she described to Tricia were very accurate and even I was impressed by the detail that evolved. After about fifteen minutes Mrs Murphy stopped and smiled again. “Now has that helped you”. Tricia looked amazed.
“That was brilliant”. Tricia then turned to me and then asked are you going to have yours done. “No Thanks I am fine” I replied. Tricia repeated again and I politely refused again but this time Mrs Murphy said. “Don`t worry son she said. You are very familiar with this anyway
You may be a little confused still with your healing gift but it will all come to you. I looked at her and she had my full attention again. The word healing then would not have been used as much as what it is today and I asked “ maybe you can help?” “would you like the ball or the cards she asked”. I laughed at her confidence and replied the cards please and I startd to shuffle the deck. She started to weave the cards into a shape that she called the marriage spread and then looked at them face down. She talked about events that only I could have known about and then turned them over. The cards were still woven together and she talked about my visit to Egypt. She described about a time that I would drive a jeep and other events that had happened and that were about to happen. I listened with interest and

then she stopped and looked into me. She put down the cards and said. “they want to talk direct.” She listened and then described what I must do to improve on the healing gift and that at some point I would require surgery in the right eye. The most important thing was that I must not let the doctors operate. This came at the end of the reading and I departed wondering when this would happen.
A few days later I returned to Dr. O’Conner’s surgery and he examined my eye again. He said that things were not good and he must operate next week! I walked out of the room quite dazed and I realised I had a week to get my eye healed or I would have to go for the operation.
Chapter 6
I bet it’s not for me as I walked briskly down the stairs. Graham and
Jennifer were at school and Tricia had gone to work but it was too early for anyone to ring me. “Hi its Catherine wait until I tell you who is coming to Dublin” she said. I stood there rubbing my eyes and not in the mood for guessing games. “please tell me Catherine I was up late last night and I`m just up”. She ignored my gruffness and continued
“Adam pestado” she exclaimed”. Catherine was a woman with an open heart and had a lovely aura about her when she was doing a healing. She was a friend of Pauls and I had been introduced to her at a healing meeting. She was about five feet six inches and had a strong

body that matched her manner, but she still had woken me up . “ I have never heard of him”. I replied. “He is a famous Philippine healer she explained in a manner that I was expected to know this! “He does psychic surgery and is world known, do you want his phone number to book a healing with him?” “No thanks” I replied but then as I rubbed my eye I realised that there may be a chance that I could have my eye fixed! “Hang on a minute and I`ll just get a pen.” “I wonder if he can have a go at my eye” I asked. “That’s why I rang you” she said laughing. I wrote down the number and I asked had she any news.
She started to tell me about some of her healing experiences in the last few weeks but unfortunately my late night started to catch up on me and when I had a chance I broke the conversation and said that I was bursting to go to the loo and I would ring her later. I put down the phone and returned to bed.
A few days later I was driving towards Tallaght looking for an old house that is a little run down as it is used as a community centre. Trent house was the name and it had a bumpy tarmac driveway. Fortunately the directions were good and I thanked the Lord that I had a jeep as the driveway was in bits. I liked the old trees that led up to the house and I could look around at the burnt out cars on the way. Anything more than 10 mph and the jeep and my back would be shaken apart. I pulled into the car park and sat and wondered what would happen inside. I realised that I was desperate to have this eye seen to and I walked through the open doors into a large hallway. It looked like a

scene from Florence nightingale as there were people scattered all around. Some holding bandages while a group of hippy types chatted dramatically in one corner. I wanted to leave immediately before they all joined hands and started chanting but the fear of my eye forced me to stay. “Hello a young woman called can I help you?” “I think I booked a healing with Adam pestado” I replied. “ He is so wonderful is`nt he” “ I hope so” was my reply. She looked at me as if I was ignorant of a great master and should be bowing at the mention of his name. This made me more nervous. “Mary is my name” she said. “
Would you like to pay me now?. Two Hundred and fifty punts she said.
“Jesus” was my irreverent reply. “I should get a new body for that!”
She was not impressed and gave me a ticket with a number on it. I sat in a corner and looked around me. A lot of desperate souls. Either with bad physical problems or just searching for a meaning to life. As time passed people who came back from the healings started to tell others of their experience. I had seen people who had gone into the session in wheelchairs and come out in the same. A blind woman had been accompanied into the healing about five minutes ago was now being returned. A middle aged woman called “Mary can you see? It was very obvious that she could not. My heart started to quicken as I became aware of my number approaching and that my surroundings were surreal. I was called by another woman who said that I could go into the room. As I walked across the room I was aware of people watching me trying to guess my reason for being there. I walked

across a hall with a high ceiling and into another room full of candles.
There was a young woman also from the Philippines who asked me to write down the nature of my complaint. I did so and then I was asked to lay down on a massage bed, as this big man with dark hair and a white shirt with dark trousers approached me and put his hand over my forehead. I remember heat and a beautiful presence and then he pushed against my eye. The next thing I remembered was the girl saying “ He wants to see you after lunch!”. I was escorted out and it was all over. I felt that it must have taken all of ten seconds but I was not sure. I tried looking through my right eye only and I could still see the distortion of my view and my heart sank. I walked into the waiting room again and all the eyes locking on to me and people wondering what had happened? If I knew I would have gladly told them but unfortunately I was confused and felt that I had been conned. I went up to the lady at the desk and said “He wants to see me again”
“Brilliant she said here is a new ticket and can you give me the
Hundred and fifty punts now please! My heart sank further as my wallet was being emptied and I felt that I was trapped. Should I just walk out now or keep going ? I decided to stay but I didn’t know why. So many strange things had happened to me that I had to follow this through. I waited for this famous healer come back from his lunch.
I saw a big black Mercedes limousine come up the driveway and a group of admirers got out of the car with Adam. I waited for half an hour as the same procedure was repeated and then I was called

again. I walked into the room again. Adam smiled again and helped me onto the bed. He looked as if he was in a trance and as he put his hands over me I saw a flash of gold light and then I felt A warm sensation going into my heart. It was as if someone had pushed my lung aside and then pulled something out of me. Before I could look or react it was all over again and I was going back to the room. I was even more confused now and I made my to sit in the recovery room. I waited for about ten minutes and watched all the people reacting to the treatment. I decided that it was time to leave and I returned up the winding driveway and drove home wondering what had happened. When I returned home there was a message on the answering machine from Catherine asking what had happened and would I like a healing? I got back into the jeep and called down to
Catherine`s house. I told her all of my observations and then she lay me down on her plinth and started healing. I remember the heat pouring from her hands and the colours going into my eyes. The idea of getting two healings in the one day was very relaxing and yet stimulating. Little did I know that there was even more drama to come.
I am sure that the rest of the evening was as normal as any one else’s and possibly watched the tv and then went to bed. Tricia turned off the light and climbed into bed. As I started to relax I felt energy pouring through my body and I started to shudder. This was something that I had experienced many times before during healings but this was very strong and Tricia had no choice to be aware as the bed shook

quite violently. I do not normally see as a clairvoyant but I will always remember the imagery as the clouds filled the room and white light speckled with gold poured from above. I was aware of a presence, a very strong love sense and I knew that I was in good hands. My arms were lifted up and placed crossed on my chest. It was if someone was gently touching my eye and pouring this white and gold light into my eye and heart. The love sense was almost overpowering and tears flowed down my face. I remember saying to Tricia that everything was fine and that she was not to worry. I opened my eyes to see her reaction and she was sitting up watching in a bewildered state. I new that she was ok, then I just allowed the healing to continue. To be more accurate the guides showed me that every thing was good and then resumed their work. The shuddering continued and then the healing, the love poured in. My hands were returned to me and I put them down by my sides. The energy started to recede and I turned to
Tricia and smiled. A guide that had been comforting Tricia faded from her vision. The room returned to normal as the clouds dissolved . We both watched the energy and became close.
The next morning I woke up feeling refreshed and as I looked around the room I could see clearly. My eye was not distorted. To this day I wonder was it Catherine, Adam pestado or the guides at night time but I still had to go to the hospital for my operation!

I sat on the bus watching the the world go by. It was like having a new toy to play with as I shut one eye and then the other and was able to see clearly through both. My appointment however was for an operation using laser and I hoped that Dr. O`Conner would examine the eye before starting or would he just go ahead and start the work. I knew that my heartbeat was increasing and I was getting concerned and I would have to take control of the situation but in a nice way as I had found Dr. O’Conner very sensitive and professional. I stepped off of the bus and walked towards the hospital. I smiled at the thought of the last time when my yellow river had caused the guy`s in the toilet to run away. I walked past the outpatients department to the appointments area. I gave my name and waited again like all the other times except this time I should be having an operation and I started to feel jumpy! After waiting for a while my name was called and I walked into Dr. O’Conner’s room and I started straight into the fact that there was a change in proceedings. However Dr O`Conner put his hand up and said that before I started to go into details that the laser had unfortunately broken down and he could not operate today!
There was a silence as as the words echoed through my mind I could hear all the psychics collectively saying “ don’t let them operate and I wondered if there was some higher beings taking control of the situation and as my attention came back to the present I knew that this was the case. I started to smile and then laugh at the moment. Dr
O`Conner smiled and said this is quite rare but I didn’t seemed to

worried. “ I am not worried now” and said “can I go now”. “Maybe I should have a look at your eye”. “of course, Please do” as I wondered what changes he might see. I sat down in the chair and looked into the devise that I had looked through many times before. He adjusted his side so that he could see clearly and started to move it around. “ I am shining the light into your eye as before” he remarked and became much more agitated as he kept moving and breathing quite heavy.
He jumped out of the chair and said “wait there”! Before I could say anything he was gone. I sat back and thought that something is going on and I would learn more if I stayed quiet. He returned into the room with two other doctors and to this day I don’t think that we were introduced as one sat down and looked at my eye. He had been eating garlic the night before but I just watched his expression. He stood up and asked to see the photo`s of my eye. Have a look at that he gasped like a scientist that had just discovered a new element. The second doctor sat down and looked as the doctors behind discussed my eye. At this point while the doctor was still looking I sat back and called “ ok time is up, is someone going to tell me what is going on with me and my eye that is creating all this excitement”. Dr O`Conner came out of his distraction and said “Tom I am so sorry but we have never seen anything like this. Your eye was badly damaged and we have the photos here and yet the injury has been largely reduced and moved to the side. There is a perfectly straight line beside the injury like some sort of surgery has been performed but way in advance of

anything that we can imagine.” I smiled at him as he explained this and thought of all the various healings that had been performed. I started to talk but I looked at the three of them and smiled as they were gasping for an explanation. Dr O`Conner waited and then said
“you know who or what did this don’t you. “ I have a good idea and someday I will tell you when I know more”. I replied. “When do you want to see me again” I asked. “Your vision is fully restored he said.
“you don’t need to see me, but I would like to see you in six months or before if you can tell me what happened!” I walked out of the room knowing that all the people in that room had learnt a lot that afternoon. I thanked all the guides that were involved in this process and I wondered what was in store for me next. I was soon to find out and witness some of the dark side of the spirit world.
Chapter 7
I think that it was about midday on some day in early April. The car that was parking outside was the same as our own. It was a Renault 21 and the colour was the same it was white. The tall dark haired man struggled to get himself out, as he fumbled with his crutches. He looked early forties and as he came up the driveway I knew that he was in a lot of pain. I held the door open as he slowly came up the

driveway. As his eyes met mine and a cold shudder went through me.
He smiled as he said hello but I knew and felt that things were not good. He introduced himself as Tom and I asked him to come into the lounge before I started to work in the healing room upstairs. I asked why he needed his crutches and he explained after a long sigh that his back was in a lot of pain and so was his life. A local priest had recommended that he came to me. This was a surprise but a man had come for a healing before and I knew that he was keeping quiet about something and I think going by the description that it was the same person.
Tom`s eyes were tired looking with grey underneath. As he talked I could see that there was a negative cloud that was all around him and it was making me feel uneasy. I suggested that we go upstairs to the room that I do healing and I showed him the way. He stopped to admire two pictures on the wall. Each was drawn in pencil with energy flowing from them. One was a girl with a symbol in her heart and the other was a wise looking man with a symbol on his hat. “who are these people” he asked. I explained that these were healing guides that helped me when I was healing. He looked at me and said “good because we need all the help that we can get!”. He smiled and said
“whatever you are into” it was not dismissive but contained humour. He entered into the room which was warm and I had candles spread around the room. I had also put on gentle pan pipe music that contained water and ocean sounds and he slowly lay down on the plinth. I had a golden blanket over the table and a smaller purple one over it. Tom put his head down on the purple pillow and grunted with pain. I explained that I was going to stand and place my hands over his feet and after this I was normally shown where to go. He whispered in a tired voice “whatever you have to do” and he closed his eyes also.
I waited as I always did for energies to flow but I could not move.
About four minutes went by and it was if two little people were holding

my hands and preventing me from moving. Six or seven minutes went by and tears of emotion ran down my face. The sense of love was overwhelming and yet I still could not move! Eventually I said “I am sorry I cannot move but it feels if there is two young people holding my hands and I cannot do anything yet.” He looked hard at me and then asked why was the tears rolling down my face? I explained the sense of love that was with them. He looked straight into my eyes and said “ I know that you don`t Know this but I had twin daughters that died and are you trying to tell me that they are here. His voice was a little sarcastic but he was also shocked by what I had said. As I answered my hands were let go. “ All I know is that there is a beautiful presence here and that I can now work after telling you what I felt! I put my hand on his stomach and his body arched as if plugged into the electrical mains. A groan came out of him as his body shuddered. He said that heat was pouring into his back and that it was relaxing very fast. My hands were spinning circles over his stomach and then they moved over his heart. Another groan and shudder came out of him and I became aware of a presence to the left of his head and I did`nt like the feel of it at all. As the presence became stronger I could feel a love sense behind me and it felt like a golden blanket around me! My hand went over his forehead which is also called his third eye and his eyes closed but flickered quickly and then a huge groan came out of him and tears rolled down his face. STOP! He called and the energy stopped immediately, he opened his eyes and said that he saw an image of his daughters and they looked beautiful. “ I need a break” he said. I explained that I had no idea that the healing was going to be so strong. He smiled again and said that the priest had warned him that he too had felt strong energies but he did not expect anything like this. I said that I was rather shocked myself. We both laughed and I suggested a cup of tea! He climbed off of the healing plinth and said he would like his strong. “By the way” I said as we walked down the

stairs. “do you want your crutches?” “Jesus, My back pain is totally gone” he cried. We both laughed at the change and went into the kitchen for tea. As I put the kettle on I thanked all the guides that had helped in the healing including Toms daughters! We chatted for a while and then he started to tell of his misfortunes, I asked him to stop and explained that I heal in the room but I do not council or attempt any form of intellectual advice as I see a conflict between the two.
“When will I see you again?” I asked. “How about in two days” time he asked. “I am working for the next three days” I explained “I will see you Friday” It was good watching him walk down the driveway without the crutches. I closed the door and worked for the next three days and then Friday at ten in the morning he knocked at the door and we all started again. This time however I would confront my first encounter with a negative entity.
As he lay down on the plinth he said that his back pain was much better and now if I could fix his marriage and his collapsing business things would start moving in the right direction. I put on some gentle music and lit the candles as he was talking. I explained again that I could only do what I was allowed to do and I could not change his karma. “What is karma ?” he asked. “If you imagine that you were a spirit that requires knowledge and understanding and you therefore ask a council of elders if you can go to the material world to learn that lesson” I replied. “then you are born on earth with faults and imperfection that help you understand when you return.”” If for example you chose to suffer with cancer for a long time that is your karma. If I had full control of a healing and you asked for me to heal your cancer if I did`nt ask for guidance then I might heal you totally and you would not learn the lesson in life that you asked for. Another example would be that if you had a deformed leg and could not walk fast or run because of it. I decided to fix it for you and when I had finished you could run as fast as anyone. You were so happy with my

work that you ran across the road to show a friend and then were knocked down by a bus and killed. If I had not fixed your leg then you would still be alive.
“Lie down now and lets see what we can do this time” I asked. Tom closed his eyes and we both went quiet. Slowly the energy travelled up my body, it was if there was a pillar on my left and right and as they became taller I entered symbols into them. Another two went over his head and then one each side of his hips. They travelled to a height of about 2 metres and then formed a canopy of golden light above us. I could not see it there constantly but get glimpses and flashes at different times. As I held Toms feet I became aware of the different coloured energies passing into his body. He gave a little shudder and then settled again. I walked along his right hand side and put my hands over his eyes. This always seemed to help all of my clients relax or sometimes go into a deep meditative state. His eyes started to flicker just like they do when someone enters into rem. I became aware of spirit guides behind me and I became focused and calm. I was pulling at energy from his head when I began to notice another presence to the left side of his head. This was normal as different spirits would come and assist. Those that were relations would normally stay near and give comfort this however did not feel good. I carried on as if this presence was not interfering. I moved down to his stomach area and could feel the energy was thicker than normal and I was finding it difficult to pull out. As I pulled it became thicker and thicker. The closest I could describe in physical terms was that it was like dirty treacle. The presence over Toms shoulder started to show its disapproval and the room became colder. Tom Started to shake and I whispered to him that everything was ok we were just going deep into his energies. I put my hands up as if asking the guides around me to clean my hands and any negativity that might be around. I would do this in any healing session. A presence came close to the back of my

neck and I felt love and a sense of protection. My hands went deep into his stomach and I pulled at the energy again. A loud groan came out of Tom and then it was like a shadow of his body came out of him and floated above him. It started to take more shape of a body but it was like black tar with spikes slowly protruding out of it. My heart started to beat fast as I became aware of what I was dealing with. A golden light surrounded me and I felt safe as Tom groaned some more.
The entity was almost visible and lay suspended above Toms body a thick black cloud of energy. A head became more clear and then it turned to look at me. I should have been totally frightened but the golden light became stronger and I held out my hands waiting to be shown what to do next. The room got colder and I held my arms out waiting. I knew that all of the things that had happened to me in the past had all added up to helping me for a moment like this. A golden spiral came down from above his body and my hands took it and formed a spinning vortex above Toms head and then his feet. My hands then went into the floating beast and pulled it towards the vortices. There was only love coming the guides and also from me.
The love was sent into this form and transmute it into the spirals and it began to break up and slip away. Sweat ran down my back as this was hard work. I said to Tom to trust us as his body shook violently. The form became thinner and thinner as it was pulled into the vortices and then it was gone. Toms body stopped shuddering and I could feel the energy leaving me. I held out my hands again as they sent white energy through me, cleaning me. I was a little shaky and I put my hand on toms forehead and asked “are you ok”. He sat up and looked at me. “I should be terrified” he said. “That was amazing and scary but I felt protected.” “Lets have a cup of tea and see how you feel” I said . We went down both confused and shocked.
CHAPTER 8

The healing gift is something that is special. It is a new learning and it breaks down the learning barriers and limitations of many religions. I am not saying that any one religion is wrong but I am trying to understand that in many ways they are all trying to say the same thing. There are a lot of books and information about the spirit world and the connection with God or a higher being. Our intellect cannot yet grasp the complexities of life and sometimes we need to feel with our hearts instead of using our heads.
One day I was working on a woman with a bad back. At this stage I had learnt a new technique for fixing physical injuries, which I feel is still very advanced for its time. I pressed on various nerve points that released the muscles from pain and spasm. Although the pain was easing she still looked about ten years older than she was. I mentioned that she looked troubled and asked her was she feeling under stress.
She attempted a smile and explained she has been nervous and anxious for years. I asked her to close her eyes and I would do some energy work on her. She shrugged her shoulders and waited. I held out my hands and waited as I have done for many years to see if anything might happen. The image that came into my heart and mind was of a church with a high ceiling with wooden beams. The shape of a baby arrived as if floating in the roof area. I waited to see if there was any more information but the baby just floated above me.
“This might be inaccurate” I said “but I see a baby in a church floating high in the rafters”.
“That’s my baby” she gasped.
Knowing the age of the woman I asked her if this was this a while ago.
“Ten years ago, today” she said “and they won’t let me bury her”.
“ I don’t understand” I replied
She explained how she had a still born baby ten years ago and when she asked to have a funeral for her baby she was told that as the baby

has not been baptised this was not possible. I asked her to lie down again and see what would happen. As the energy or presence became stronger I could feel my heart opening and tears rolled down my cheeks. The lady opened her eyes and saw my tears but I told her not to worry. She became calmer and I could feel a young spirit beside me. Without thought or words I knew what to do. I opened my eyes and asked the woman to sit up. I asked her to go back to the church and ask for a mass to be said for her daughter. She explained that she had tried this for years but the priests had all declined her request. I told her that she must ask again and she will be refused again but this time she must say that it is not for her but for the spirit of the child that wants her mother to be happy and the child to be set free. The lady looked at me shocked
“I can’t say that to the priest” she said.
I explained that I was being asked this a young spirit that was standing beside me at that moment. The woman looked into my eyes and we both knew that she must do this. She thanked me for all the work on her back and said she would ring for another appointment soon. I smiled and apologised for the events that had happened so quickly and directly but I had no choice in what I was told to do and say.
“How do you know all this” she enquired.
I told her that every healing was different and sometimes I get information and sometimes I don’t!
“Think about what I have told you and good luck on your decision” I said as she left.
A few days later I received a phone call from the same lady. She sounded very excited. “Do you remember me” she shouted down the telephone line “I’m the woman with the baby and the priest”.
“Of course I remember” I said “any news”?

She explained in quick bursts how she called to the priest’s house and asked again about having a mass said for her dead baby. The same answer was given as many times before. She was standing in the hall of the priest’s house looking at all the holy pictures. She described how the priest looked at her with sorrow and how she looked down at the ground and then as her strength became strong she looked up and explained that this was not her request but that of the child! She laughed as she described how the priest’s face changed and he asked her into the living room of the house. He started to ask her questions and she explained what had happened and how the message had been relayed. He paused and said that he would see what he could do but he could not see how things would change.
However that afternoon she received a phone call from the priest to say that the mass would take place the following day. She started to cry and I asked her to call in to see me some time. She explained that she had made another appointment for her back problem for the following next week and that it was also much better.
A week later the same woman called into the clinic. When I saw her we both laughed. We both knew that she looked about ten years younger and glowed with a new enthusiasm for life. I have never seen her since but I wish all is well for both of them wherever they might be.