Please Don’t Hurt Me (Stories of Abuse) FIC & YA FIC ADI Adichie, Chimamanda Ngozi Purple Hibiscus From the outside, fifteen-year-old Kambili has the perfect life. She lives in a beautiful house, has a caring family, and attends an exclusive missionary school. She's completely shielded from the troubles of the world. Yet, as Kambili reveals in her tender-voiced account, things are less than perfect in her wealthy Nigerian home. Although her papa is generous and well respected, he is fanatically religious and tyrannical at home. He looms over his family's every move, severely punishes Kambili and her older brother, Jaja, if they're not the best in their classes, and hits their mama if she disagrees with him. Home is silent and suffocating. But everything changes once Kambili and Jaja visit Aunty Ifeoma outside the city. For the first time they experience freedom from their papa. Jaja learns to garden and work with his hands, and Kambili secretly falls in love with a young, charismatic priest. As the country begins to fall apart under a military coup, tension within the family escalates. And shy Kambili must find the strength to keep her family together after her mother commits a desperate act. YA FIC AMA Amateau, Gigi Claiming Georgia Tate Twelve-year-old Georgia Tate wishes she could stay home forever with her no-nonsense nana, her preacher granddaddy, and her sassy friend Ginger, celebrating church revivals and the Fourth of July with icy cold watermelon and all the deep-fried fish she can eat. She wishes her deadbeat daddy had never reappeared on the scene, and that Ginger hadn't blurted out the awful truth about Mama. But most of all, when Georgia Tate loses her nana to a sudden heart attack, she desperately wishes she could find a way to tell Granddaddy why she can't possibly leave Mississippi to move in with Daddy — about the things he does that make her feel so ashamed her mind takes her off to a faraway, made-up place. YA FIC AND Anderson, Laurie Twisted High school senior Tyler Miller used to be the kind of guy who faded into the background-average student, average looks, average dysfunctional family. But since he got busted for doing graffiti on the school, and spent the summer doing outdoor work to pay for it, he stands out like you wouldn't believe. His new physique attracts the attention of queen bee Bethany Milbury, who just so happens to be his father's boss's daughter, the sister of his biggest enemy-and Tyler's secret crush. And that sets off a string of events and changes that have Tyler questioning his place in the school, in his family, and in the world. YA FIC AVA Avasthi, Swati Split Sixteen-Year-Old Jace Witherspoon arrives at the doorstep of his estranged brother Christian with a re-landscaped face (courtesy of his father's fist), $3.84, and a secret. He tries to move on, going for new friends, a new school, and a new job, but all his changes can't make him forget what he left behind--his mother, who is still trapped with his dad, and his ex-girlfriend, who is keeping his secret. At least so far. Worst of all, Jace realizes that if he really wants to move forward, he may first have to do what scares him most: He may have to go back. 1 YA FIC BIL Bilen, Tracy What She Left Behind Sara and her mom have a plan to finally escape Sara’s abusive father. But when her mom doesn’t show up as expected, Sara’s terrified. Her father says that she’s on a business trip, but Sara knows he’s lying. Her mom is missing—and her dad had something to do with it. With each day that passes, Sara’s more on edge. Her friends know that something’s wrong, but she won’t endanger anyone else with her secret. And with her dad growing increasingly violent, Sara must figure out what happened to her mom before it’s too late…for them both. YA FIC BRA Green Braff, Joshua The Unthinkable Thoughts of Jacob Pity Jacob Green: He worships his rebellious artist older brother, Asher. He lusts in his heart (and loins) for his shiksa goddess nanny, Megan. And he stews in a volatile marinade of fear, adoration, and resentment of his alternately loving and tyrannical father, Abram, whose constant demands for perfection in all matters-from personal appearance to the crafting of thank-you notes for Bar Mitzvah presents-cause his family to implode. Each episode of Jacob's mortifyingly funny struggles to find the correct responses to Abram's commands, while following his own internal compass, explodes with hilarity even as it brings a lump to the throat. YA FIC BRO Brown, Jennifer Bitter End When Alex falls for the charming new boy at school, Cole -- a handsome, funny, sports star who adores her -- she can't believe she's finally found her soul mate . . . someone who truly loves and understands her. At first, Alex is blissfully happy. Sure, Cole seems a little jealous of her relationship with her close friend Zack, but what guy would want his girlfriend spending all her time with another boy? As the months pass, though, Alex can no longer ignore Cole's small putdowns, pinches, or increasingly violent threats. As Alex struggles to come to terms with the sweet boyfriend she fell in love with and the boyfriend whose "love" she no longer recognizes, she is forced to choose -- between her "true love" and herself. YA FIC CAL Caletti, Deb Wild Roses Seventeen-year-old amateur astronomer Cassie Morgan wants a "normal" life, but that possibility flew out the window three years earlier when her musician mother, divorced five days, married famous violinist Dino Cavalli. Living with arrogant Dino is like walking on eggshells, and the usually competent, clearheaded teen believes he has the unique ability to make her feel "incapable to the point of needing to be institutionalized." Any little thing sets him off, and the problem only gets worse when he stops taking his depression medication while he prepares for his huge comeback concert. When Ian Waters, a promising-and poverty-stricken-young violinist, shows up for lessons with the maestro, Cassie falls in love at first sight despite her belief that passion only brings about pain. Dino demands that the two stay away from one another to avoid compromising the young man's focus, but that is impossible. And as Dino's concert and Ian's scholarship audition draw closer, even Cassie's loving mother can't protect her from Cavalli's escalating bizarre and paranoid behavior. YA FIC CAL Caletti, Deb Stay Clara’s relationship with Christian is intense from the start, and like nothing she’s ever experienced before. But what starts as devotion quickly becomes obsession, and it’s almost too late before Clara realizes how far gone Christian is--and what he’s willing to do to make her stay.Now Clara has left the city—and Christian—behind. No one back home has any idea where she is, but she still struggles to shake off her fear. She knows Christian won’t let her go that easily, and that no matter how far she runs, it may not be far enough.... 2 YA FIC CHA Chaltas, Thalia Because I Am Furniture Anke's father is abusive. But not to her. He attacks her brother and sister, but she's just an invisible witness in a house of horrors, on the brink of disappearing altogether. Until she makes the volleyball team at school. At first just being exhausted after practice feels good, but as Anke becomes part of the team, her confidence builds. When she learns to yell "Mine!" to call a ball, she finds a voice she didn't know existed. For the first time, Anke is seen and heard. Soon, she's imagining a day that her voice will be loud enough to rescue everyone at home—including herself. YA FIC CHA Chayil, Eishes Hush Inside the closed community of Borough Park, where most Chassidim live, the rules of life are very clear, determined by an ancient script written thousands of years before down to the last detail—and abuse has never been a part of it. But when thirteen-year-old Gittel learns of the abuse her best friend has suffered at the hands of her own family member, the adults in her community try to persuade Gittel, and themselves, that nothing happened. Forced to remain silent, Gittel begins to question everything she was raised to believe. YA FIC COH Cohen, Joshua Leverage The football field is a battlefield There's an extraordinary price for victory at Oregrove High. It is paid on–and off–the football field. And it claims its victims without mercy–including the most innocent bystanders. When a violent, steroid-infused, ever-escalating prank war has devastating consequences, an unlikely friendship between a talented but emotionally damaged fullback and a promising gymnast might hold the key to a school’s salvation. Told in alternating voices and with unapologetic truth, Leverage illuminates the fierce loyalty, flawed justice, and hard-won optimism of two young athletes. YA FIC COL Colasanti, Susane Keep Holding On Noelle's life is all about survival. Even her best friend doesn't know how much she gets bullied, or the ways her mom neglects her. Noelle's kept so much about her life a secret for so long that when her longtime crush Julian Porter starts paying attention to her, she's terrified. Surely it's safer to stay hidden than to risk the pain of a broken heart. But when the antagonism of her classmates takes a dramatic turn, Noelle realizes it's time to stand up for herself--and for the love that keeps her holding on. Tween & YA FIC CON Connor, Leslie Waiting for Normal Addie is waiting for normal. But Addie's mom has an all-or-nothing approach to life: a food fiesta or an empty pantry, jubilation or gloom, her way or no way. All or nothing never adds up to normal. All or nothing can't bring you all home, which is exactly where Addie longs to be, with her half sisters, every day. In spite of life's twists and turns, Addie remains optimistic. Someday, maybe, she'll find normal. YA FIC CRU Crutcher, Chris Staying Fat for Sarah Byrnes An obese boy and a disfigured girl suffer the emotional scars of years of mockery at the hands of their peers. They share a hard-boiled view of the world until events in their senior year hurl them in very different directions. A story about a friendship with staying power, written with pathos and pointed humor. 3 YA MYS DAV Davis, Aric Nickel Plated Nickel is a survivor. He has to be. For as long as he can remember, his life has hinged on the flip of a coin. Or, rather, the scribble of a social worker’s pen. He’s been through the system, even had a good dad for a few years, until he was gone, too. But Nickel remembers everything he taught him, and since the day he escaped from foster-care hell, he’s put that knowledge to good use. Just twelve years old, he makes a steady living by selling marijuana to high schoolers, blackmailing pedophiles he ferrets out online, and working as a private investigator. When a beautiful girl named Arrow hires him to find her little sister Shelby, Nickel figures at best the kid’s a runaway; at worst, some perv’s gotten a hold of her. He scours the internet and the streets of Arrow’s suburban neighborhood, and what he finds there is as ugly a truth as he’s ever seen. For beyond the manicured lawns, Nickel discovers children for sale, and adults with souls black as the devil. And people like that aren’t about to let some kid ruin their game. This edgy thriller introduces a canny, precocious anti-hero, the likes of which young-adult readers have never seen. YA FIC DES Dessen, Sarah Dreamland After her older sister runs away, sixteen-year-old Caitlin decides that she needs to make a major change in her own life and begins an abusive relationship with a boy who is mysterious, brilliant, and dangerous. YA FIC DES Dessen, Sarah Lock and Key "Ruby, where is your mother?" Ruby knows that the game is up. For the past few months, she's been on her own in the yellow house, managing somehow, knowing that her mother will probably never return. That's how she comes to live with Cora, the sister she hasn't seen in ten years, and Cora's husband Jamie, whose down-to-earth demeanor makes it hard for Ruby to believe he founded the most popular networking Web site around. A luxurious house, fancy private school, a new wardrobe, the promise of college and a future-it's a dream come true. So why is Ruby such a reluctant Cinderella, wary and defensive? And why is Nate, the genial boy next door with some secrets of his own, unable to accept the help that Ruby is just learning to give? YA FIC DEU Deuker, Carl Swagger Levi was simple, like a child. It was the best thing about him, and it was the worst, too. When high school senior Jonas moves to Seattle, he is glad to meet Levi, a nice, soft-spoken guy and fellow basketball player. Suspense builds like a slow drumbeat as readers start to smell a rat in Ryan Hartwell, a charismatic basketball coach and sexual predator. When Levi reluctantly tells Jonas that Hartwell abused him, Jonas has to decide whether he should risk his future career to report the coach. YA FIC DOM Dominque, Paul Possibility of Fireflies Ellie Roma's father left them a year ago. Her verbally and physically abusive, alcoholic mother stays out every night, many times locking Ellie out of the house. Her rebellious older sister, Gwen, yells back at her mother and takes her beatings stoically. She hangs out with friends, smoking and drinking. Ellie is the "good" child, trying to preserve a nonexistent family. The mother convinces her children that their father hates them as much as she does. Ellie's outlet is fantasizing about her friend Celia's perfect family or unattainable love, such as with Elvis Presley or her teacher. When a cute older guy-aged twenty to Ellie's fourteen-moves in across the street, she imagines that they are in love. Ellie's need for attention occasionally outwardly manifests itself. In one instance, she shoplifts cosmetics. But mostly, she is the submissive child, until the denouement when Gwen runs away and Ellie realizes that she must leave too. But where will she go? 4 YA FIC FEH Fehlbaum, Beth Hope in Patience Fifteen-year-old Ashley Asher has spent half of her life living in fear. Her stepfather sexually abused her for years, but her mother didn’t believe her. After Child Protective Services finally removes Ashley from their home, she goes to live with the father she barely remembers. Her new life in Patience, Texas, is much better. She’s in therapy to deal with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder; she’s getting used to living with her father, stepmother, and stepbrother; and she’s made some friends at her new high school. But Ashley is so traumatized by her past that she sometimes scratches herself until she bleeds. When her stepfather is finally put on trial for hurting her, she learns that truth and justice don’t always go together. Will Ashley adjust to a better life? YA FIC FEL Felin, M. Sindy Touching Snow The best way to avoid being picked on by high school bullies is to kill someone." Karina has plenty to worry about on the last day of seventh grade: finding three Ds and a C on her report card again, getting laughed at by everyone again, being sent to the principal -- again. She'd like this to change, but with her and her sisters dodging their stepfather's fists every day after school, she doesn't have time to do much self-reflecting. Finally her stepfather is taken away on child abuse charges, and Karina thinks things might turn into something resembling normal. The problem is, he's not gone for good. And as Karina becomes closer with a girl at the community center where her stepfather is not showing up for his parenting classes, she starts to realize a couple things. First, for all the problems her family had tried to escape by immigrating from Haiti, they brought most of them along to upstate New York. And second, if anything is going to change for this family, it is going to be up to Karina and her sisters to make it happen. YA FIC FLI Flinn, Alex Breathing Underwater Sent to counseling for hitting his girlfriend, Caitlin, and ordered to keep a journal, sixteen-year-old Nick recounts his relationship with Caitlin, examines his controlling behavior and anger, and describes living with his abusive father. YA FIC FRE Freitas, Donna This Gorgeous Game Olivia Peters is over the moon when her literary idol, the celebrated novelist and much adored local priest Mark D. Brendan, offers to become her personal writing mentor. But when Father Mark’s enthusiasm for Olivia’s prose develops into something more, Olivia’s emotions quickly shift from wonder to confusion to despair. Exactly what game is Father Mark playing, and how on earth can she get out of it? FIC & YA FIC FRI Friedman, Carl Nightfather Her father "has camp," but the young narrator does not know how or why he has it. Everything this loving family does leads to a concentration camp story told by Ephraim, the father. Because the horrifying details are so much a part of the children's lives, the narrator buries her toys so the SS won't find them, brother Max tries to freeze his feet, and Simon hides toothpaste used to prevent thirst. The children struggle to understand their father, wish he'd play soccer instead of talking about camp, and worry when he is in a tuberculosis sanitarium. By the end of this short novel, details about the death march completely replace accounts of family events. 5 YA FIC GAR Garse, Jeannine Before, After, and Somebody In Between. It is the eleventh place they have lived in six years, when Martha and Momma move in with Wayne, the new boyfriend Momma discovered in rehab. A sophomore at fourteen due to her intelligence, Martha has only attended rural schools and, in spite of her mother's history of chemical dependence and depression, Martha's first day at Jefferson High proves she is completely unprepared for the hostility, violence, and gritty reality of life for a white girl in Cleveland's impoverished inner city. Threatened constantly at school and at home, Martha has no respite until a calamitous series of events culminates in a wealthy lawyer's family taking her in. While she no longer has to fear physical abuse, hunger, or gang-related violence, Martha encounters a different set of problems as she masquerades as Gina, a persona she creates to keep the ugly truth of her past from her new-found upper class friends. Throughout her harrowing struggles, Martha/Gina turns to music and her desire to play the cello for solace. YA FIC GOO Goodman, Shawn Kindness for Weakness In an environment where kindness equals weakness, how do those who care survive? A fifteenyear-old boy from an abusive home desperately seeking his older brother's love and approval starts pushing drugs for him and suffers the consequences. YA FIC GRA Grace, Amanda But I Love Him At the beginning of senior year, Ann was a smiling, straight-A student and track star with friends and a future. Then she met a haunted young man named Connor. Only she can heal his emotional scars; only he could make her feel so loved - and needed. Ann can't recall the pivotal moment it all changed, when she surrendered everything to be with him, but by graduation, her life has become a dangerous high wire act. Just one mistake could trigger Connor's rage, a senseless storm of cruel words and violence damaging everything - and everyone - in its path. This evocative slideshow of flashbacks reveals a heartbreaking story of love gone terribly wrong. YA FIC HAD Mrs. Dumphrey Haddix, Margaret Peterson Don’t You Dare Read This In the journal she is keeping for English class, sixteen-year-old Tish chronicles the changes in her life when her abusive father returns home after a two-year absence. YA FIC HEA Headley, Justina Chen North of Beautiful It's hard not to notice Terra Cooper. She's tall, blond, and has an enviable body. But with one turn of her cheek, all people notice is her unmistakably "flawed" face. Terra secretly plans to leave her stifling small town in the Northwest and escape to an East Coast college, but gets pushed offcourse by her controlling father. When an unexpected collision puts Terra directly in Jacob's path, the handsome but quirky Goth boy immediately challenges her assumptions about herself and her life, and she is forced in yet another direction. With her carefully laid plans disrupted, will Terra be able to find her true path? YA FIC HOP Hopkins, Ellen Burned In cutting free-verse, 16-year-old Pattyn offers first-person narration of religious oppression and physical violence. Her Mormon church dictates that women grow up powerless. An entrancing sexual dream and a non-Mormon boyfriend make Pattyn feel giddy but guilty. Will she burn in hell? Exiled (for punishment) to a desert ranch, Pattyn blossoms under the respectful care of Aunt J and finds storybook love with neighbor Ethan. But at summer's end, she returns home to a situation even worse than before. Alcoholic Dad now beats the children (rather than just Mom); Pattyn, badly whipped, tries to hang on until she can leave home. 6 YA FIC HOP Hopkins, Ellen Identical Kaeleigh and Raeanne are identical down to the dimple. As daughters of a district-court judge father and a politician mother, they are an all-American family—on the surface. Behind the facade each sister has her own dark secret, and that's where their differences begin. For Kaeleigh, she's the misplaced focus of Daddy's love, intended for a mother whose presence on the campaign trail means absence at home. All that Raeanne sees is Daddy playing a game of favorites—and she is losing. If she has to lose, she will do it on her own terms, so she chooses drugs, alcohol, and sex. Secrets like the ones the twins are harboring are not meant to be kept—from each other or anyone else. Pretty soon it's obvious that neither sister can handle it alone, and one sister must step up to save the other, but the question is—who? YA FIC HOP Hopkins, Ellen Smoke Pattyn Von Stratten’s father is dead, and Pattyn is on the run. After far too many years of abuse at the hands of her father, and after the tragic loss of her beloved Ethan and their unborn child, Pattyn is desperate for peace. Only her sister Jackie knows what happened that night, but she is stuck at home with their mother, who clings to normalcy by allowing the truth to be covered up by their domineering community leaders. Her father might be finally gone, but without Pattyn, Jackie is desperately isolated. Alone and in disguise, Pattyn starts a new life, but is it even possible to rebuild a life when everything you’ve known has burned to ash and lies seem far safer than the truth? YA FIC HUR Hurwin, Davida Wills Circle the Soul Softly Katie O'Connor needs a change. After her father dies, she begins having unexplainable nightmares and blackouts. Suddenly she is unable to keep up on her social life and she withdraws from her mom and older brother. Katie gets just the chance that she desires when her widowed mother becomes engaged to a wealthy accountant and the family relocates to upscale Brentwood, California. Determined to reinvent herself, Katie enrolls in an elite prep school. Always shy and awkward, Katie finally finds life going her way: a lead in the school play, friends to hang out with, and a cute boyfriend. Then without warning her nightmares return and she is once again haunted by "the monster." Katie must discover the secret her mind is harboring before everything about her new life is ruined. Tween & YA FIC JAC Jacobson, Jennifer Richard Small as an Elephant Ever since Jack can remember, his mom has been unpredictable, sometimes loving and fun, other times caught in a whirlwind of energy and "spinning" wildly until it’s over. But Jack never thought his mom would take off during the night and leave him at a campground in Acadia National Park, with no way to reach her and barely enough money for food. Any other kid would report his mom gone, but Jack knows by now that he needs to figure things out for himself starting with how to get from the backwoods of Maine to his home in Boston before DSS catches on. With nothing but a small toy elephant to keep him company, Jack begins the long journey south, a journey that will test his wits and his loyalties - and his trust that he may be part of a larger herd after all. YA FIC JAM James, Brian Perfect World Lacie's best friend Jenna wants to grow up fast. She wants to be cool and be known and be with a boy all the way. Even though Lacie isn't so sure, she follows Jenna anyway. She tries to block out her sadness. Her questions. Her fears. At first it isn't that bad. She even meets a boy whose problems are compatible with hers. But then Jenna's friendship turns fierce . . . and the perfect world comes tumbling down. 7 YA FIC JOH Johnson, Kathleen Jeffrie Gone It is the summer after high school, and Connor's life is now his to live. But what is it that he wants from his life? The future may be unclear, but one thing-or person-Connor cannot stop thinking about is Ms. Timms, his history teacher. "What had he thought about before he thought about her?" The child of alcoholic parents, one of whom now lives in a nursing home after an accident left him brain damaged, Connor has always felt that he was invisible. Ms. Timms "sees" him, and Connor is drawn in. A summer encounter leads to an unusual invitation, which leads to an affair. Connor's history has left him damaged, an easy target for a woman with her own dark history. This is a story of a damaged boy who is finding himself and his family. YA FIC KWA Kwasney, Michelle Blue Plate Special Doomed loves, failed families, nixed dreams—someone else's leftovers are heaped on our plates the day we come into this world. Big Macs and pop tunes mask the emptiness as Madeline watches her mom drink away their welfare checks. Until the day Tad, a quirky McDonald's counter boy, asks Madeline out for a date, and she gets her first taste of normal. But with a life that’s anything but, how long can normal really last? Hanging with Jeremy, avoiding Mam, sticking Do Not Disturb Post-its on her heart, Desiree's mission is simple: party hard, graduate (well, maybe), get out of town. But after Desiree accepts half a meatball grinder, a cold drink, and a ride from her mother's boyfriend one rainy afternoon, nothing is ever simple again. Too many AP classes. Workaholic mom. Dad in prison. Still, Ariel's sultry new boyfriend, Shane, manages to make even the worst days delicious. But when an unexpected phone call forces a trip to visit a sick grandmother she's never met, revealing her family's dark past, Ariel struggles to find the courage to make the right choice for her own future. As three girls from three different decades lives converge, they discover they are connected ways they could never imagine. Each of them finds strength that brings her closer to healing a painful past, and faith that there is a happier future. Tween & YA MYS KON Konigsburg, E.L. Silent to the Bone When he is wrongly accused of gravely injuring his baby half-sister, thirteen-year-old Branwell loses his power of speech and only his friend Connor is able to reach him and uncover the truth about what really happened. YA FIC KUE Kuehn, Stephanie Charm & Strange No one really knows who Andrew Winston Winters is. Least of all himself. He is part Win, a lonely teenager exiled to a remote boarding school in the wake of a family tragedy. The guy who shuts the whole world out, no matter the cost, because his darkest fear is of himself ...of the wolfish predator within. But he's also part Drew, the angry boy with violent impulses that control him. The boy who, one fateful summer, was part of something so terrible it came close to destroying him. A deftly woven, elegant, unnerving psychological thriller about a boy at war with himself. Charm and Strange is a masterful exploration of one of the greatest taboos. YA FIC LEA Leavitt, Martine My Book of Life by Angel When sixteen-year-old Angel meets Call at the mall, he buys her meals and says he loves her, and he gives her some candy that makes her feel like she can fly. Pretty soon she's addicted to his candy, and she moves in with him. As a favor, he asks her to hook up with a couple of friends of his, and then a couple more. Now Angel is stuck working the streets at Hastings and Main, a notorious spot in Vancouver, Canada, where the girls turn tricks until they disappear without a trace, and the authorities don't care. But after her friend Serena disappears, and when Call brings home a girl who is even younger and more vulnerable than her to learn the trade, Angel knows that she and the new girl have got to find a way out. 8 YA FIC LES Lester, Julius When Dad Killed Mom When Jenna and Jeremy's father shoots and kills their artist mother, they struggle to slowly rebuild a functioning family. YA FIC LYG Lyga, Barry Boy Toy Josh Mendel has a secret. Unfortunately, everyone knows what it is. Five years ago, Josh's life changed. Drastically. And everyone in his school, his town—seems like the world—thinks they understand. But they don't—they can't. And now, about to graduate from high school, Josh is still trying to sort through the pieces. First there's Rachel, the girl he thought he'd lost years ago. She's back, and she's determined to be part of his life, whether he wants her there or not.Then there are college decisions to make, and the toughest baseball game of his life coming up, and a coach who won't stop pushing Josh all the way to the brink. And then there's Eve. Her return brings with it all the memories of Josh's past. It's time for Josh to face the truth about what happened. If only he knew what the truth was . . . YA MYS MAZ Mazer, Norma Fox When She Was Good The death of her abusive, manipulative older sister prompts seventeen-year-old Em to remember their unpleasant life together, with their parents and then later on their own. YA FIC MCK McKinley, Robin Deerskin As Princess Lissar reaches womanhood, it is clear to all the kingdom that in her breathtaking beauty she is the mirror image of her mother, the queen--but this seeming blessing forces her to flee from her father's wrath. With her loyal dog, Lissar discovers a world of magic where she finds the key to her own survival. YA FIC MEL Meldrum, Christina Madapple This novel is a fascinating look at belief and the interplay between the rational and the religious. Fifteen-year-old Aslaug has been isolated from family and friends; her only companion has been her mother and after weeks of waning health, her mother dies. Aslaug attempts to bury her in the back yard, which draws the attention of a grumpy old neighbor and the police. Her mother had been self-medicating with plants and herbs, and some of the plants have toxic qualities. They are toxic enough to draw attention, and Aslaug is accused of having poisoned her mother. The novel moves back and forth between Aslaug's trial for murder and the story of her life and experiences. Her life is surreal, a life of innocence disconnected from the realities of our culture. The courtroom is represented by the stark questions and answers of the witnesses and the lawyers, the twisting of words and the interpretations of those who have no understanding of the isolated upbringing of Aslaug. The story of Aslaug's life is one entrenched in charismatic religious belief and incestuous relationships, a full circle replicating her mother's supposed "virgin" pregnancy and her own birth. The juxtaposition of innocence and incest is an eerie, disturbing and thought-provoking exploration of religious belief and pagan superstitions, calling into question what is reality and what might be madness. 9 YA FIC MES Mesrobian, Carrie Sex & Violence Sex has always come without consequences for seventeen-year-old Evan Carter. He has a strategy--knows the profile of The Girl Who Would Say Yes. In each new town, each new school, he can count on plenty of action before he and his father move again. Getting down is never a problem. Until he hooks up with the wrong girl and finds himself in the wrong place at very much the wrong time. After an assault that leaves Evan bleeding and broken, his father takes him to the family cabin in rural Pearl Lake, Minnesota, so Evan's body can heal. But what about his mind? Nothing seems natural to Evan anymore. Nothing seems safe. The fear--and the guilt--are inescapable. He can't sort out how he feels about anyone, least of all himself. Evan's really never known another person well, and Pearl Lake is the kind of place where people know everything about each other--where there might be other reasons to talk to a girl. It's annoying as hell. It might also be Evan's best shot to untangle sex and violence. YA FIC MIC Michaelis, Antonia Storyteller Anna and Abel couldn’t be more different. They are both seventeen and in their last year of school, but while Anna lives in a nice old town house and comes from a well-to-do family, Abel, the school drug dealer, lives in a big, prison-like tower block at the edge of town. Anna is afraid of him until she realizes that he is caring for his six-year-old sister on his own. Fascinated, Anna follows the two and listens as Abel tells little Micha the story of a tiny queen assailed by dark forces. It’s a beautiful fairy tale that Anna comes to see has a basis in reality. Abel is in real danger of losing Micha to their abusive father and to his own inability to make ends meet. Anna gradually falls in love with Abel, but when his “enemies” begin to turn up dead, she fears she has fallen for a murderer. Has she? YA FIC MIC Michaels, Rune Fix Me Orphaned as a child, terrorized by her abusive brother, and haunted by memories, Leia feels exposed, powerless, and vulnerable. When her tormented mind can stand it no longer, she escapes to the zoo, where she finds shelter and seeks refuge. The zoo is a sanctuary: a protective space for families, and a safe place for the traumatized to forget. But can she ever feel safe? Can she ever forget? Once again, Rune Michaels brings us a harrowing psychological drama that raises questions about the very nature of humanity. This chilling tale will challenge our preconceptions of family, memory, and self, leaving readers wondering, are we the pinnacle of evolution—or are we just animals on display? YA FIC MOS Moser, Elise Lily & Taylor After her older sister is murdered in a horrific incident of domestic abuse, Taylor begins a new life in a new town. She meets Lily, whose open, warm manner conceals a difficult personal life of her own, coping with her brain-injured mother. The two girls embark on a tentative friendship. But just when life seems to be smoothing out, Taylor’s abusive boyfriend, Devon, arrives on the scene, and before they know it, the girls find themselves in a situation that is both scary, and incredibly dangerous. Abetted by Conor, a friend who owes him a favor, Devon takes the girls to a remote cabin. There is no heat, no food, no water. There is a hunting rifle, which Devon uses to intimidate the others. As he becomes increasingly agitated, and Conor threatens to bail, the girls engage in a silent battle of their own. Lily wants to escape, while Taylor feels hopelessly trapped by her relationship with Devon and uses sex and flattery to try to keep the situation calm. The cabin becomes a pressure cooker, filled with tension as the four teenagers wrestle with their anger, fear, resentment and boredom — any one of which could tip the situation into disaster. From the opening moments when Taylor witnesses her sister’s autopsy to the final cathartic scene after the two girls have survived their ordeal, the reader is glued to every page of this frank, gripping and beautifully written novel that raises questions for every teenager. Do you need to be a certain way to get a boyfriend? Can someone who loves you also hurt you? How can a million small compromises eat away at who you are? What happens when you don’t think you deserve to be treated well? How do you end up in an abusive relationship, and what keeps you there? 10 YA FIC MUR Murdoch, Emily If You Find Me In If You Find Me by Emily Murdoch, a broken-down camper hidden deep in a national forest is the only home fifteen year-old Carey can remember. The trees keep guard over her threadbare existence, with the one bright spot being Carey’s younger sister, Jenessa, who depends on Carey for her very survival. All they have is each other, as their mentally ill mother comes and goes with greater frequency. Until that one fateful day their mother has disappeared for good, and two strangers arrive. Suddenly, the girls are taken from the woods and thrust into a bright and perplexing new world of high school, clothes and boys. Now, Carey must face the truth of why her mother abducted her ten years ago, while haunted by a past that won’t let her go . . . a dark past that hides many secrets, including the reason Jenessa hasn’t spoken a word in over a year. Carey knows she must keep her sister close, and her secrets even closer, or risk watching her new life come crashing down. YA FIC NA Na, An A Step from Heaven A young Korean girl and her family find it difficult to learn English and adjust to life in America. YA FIC NEL Nelson, R.A. Teach Me This is a book that you will not be able to put down. From the very first page, Nine speaks in a voice that is at once raw, honest, direct, and unbelievably eloquent. "There has been an earthquake in my life," she says, inviting you inside an experience that fascinates everyone -- an affair between a teacher and student -- and giving an up close and personal answer to the question: How does this happen? YA FIC NOL Nolan, Han Born Blue Janie was four years old when she nearly drowned due to her mother’s neglect. Through an unhappy foster home experience, and years of feeling that she is unwanted, she keeps alive her dream of someday being a famous singer. YA FIC OAT Oates, Joyce Carol Sexy "Darren Flynn has the perfect life - until that day in November." "After that day, after what happened (did it happen?), life is different. Darren is different. Nothing is as it was - before. His friends, his family, even the people who are supposed to be in charge are no longer who Darren thought they were. Who can he trust, now?" This novel explores one teenager's search for identity in a complex, deceiving world, and the answers he finds in the most unexpected places. YA FIC PHI Phillips, Suzanne Chloe Doe Chloe Doe chronicles a 17-year-old girl's tumultuous path to becoming a prostitute and her ultimate transformation back into mainstream society. During her therapy at Madeline Parker Institute for Girls, Chloe slowly reveals aspects of her painful past--the stepfather who abused her sister, the mother who let it all happen, the need to love and be loved--and faces the future she finally decides to build for herself. YA FIC POL Polak, Monique So Much It Hurts Iris is an aspiring actress, so when Mick, a well-known visiting Aussie director, takes an interest in her, she's flattered. He's fourteen years older, attractive, smart, charming and sexy--in other words, nothing like her hapless ex-boyfriend, Tommy. But when Iris and Mick start a secret relationship, she soon witnesses Mick's darker side, and his temper frightens her. Before long, she becomes the target of his rage, but she makes endless excuses for him. Isolated and often in pain, Iris struggles to continue going to school, where she is preparing for her role as Ophelia. When her family and friends begin to realize that something is terribly wrong, Iris defends her man, but she also takes the first tentative steps toward self-preservation. 11 YA FIC RAI Rainfield, Cheryl Scars Kendra is frightened. She knows the man that sexually abused her is now stalking her. She finds a note from him in her backpack, and then an MP3 player with a warning recorded on it turns up. As Kendra tries to keep herself together, the only thing in which she seems to find solace is cutting herself. Even her counselor does not know about how badly she harms herself, but when she begins to trust and fall in love with Meghan, another student at her school, she begins to share her secrets with her. Suddenly Kendra realizes the identity of her abuser, but will she be able to save herself from him? YA FIC RAP Rapp, Adam Punkzilla For a runaway boy who goes by the name "Punkzilla," kicking a meth habit and a life of petty crime in Portland, Oregon, is a prelude to a mission: reconnecting with his older brother, a gay man dying of cancer in Memphis. Against a backdrop of seedy motels, dicey bus stations, and hitched rides, the desperate fourteen-year-old meets a colorful, sometimes dangerous cast of characters. And in letters to his sibling, he catalogs them all — from an abusive stranger and a ghostly girl to a kind transsexual and an old woman with an oozing eye. The language is raw and revealing, crackling with visceral details and dark humor, yet with each interstate exit Punkzilla’s journey grows more urgent: will he make it to Tennessee in time? YA FIC RAP Rapp, Adam 33 Snowfish A homeless boy, running from the police with a fifteen-year-old, drug-addicted prostitute, her boyfriend who just killed his own parents, and a baby, gets the chance to make a better life for himself. YA FIC REE Reed, Amy Beautiful Cassie has just moved from Bainbridge Island to Seattle. No one at her new school knows her as the pudgy nobody her classmates in her small town ignored. Here, now, she is beautiful and determined to be noticed. Her decisions, while terrifying for the reader, are perfectly understandable. Her parents are loving, but more involved in their own unhappiness than in keeping a close watch on Cassie. Her new friend Alex is her ticket into the world of drugs, sex, and acceptance, but Alex's personal demons become clearer and more dangerous as their friendship deepens. The first-person, present-tense voice keeps the reader constantly absorbed in Cassie's life and never sure what the next moment may bring. YA FIC SAN Sanchez, Alex Bait When a guy in his class looks at him funny, Diego punches him in the face, and ends up on probation. At first he wants nothing to do with his probation officer. But as Diego starts to open up, he begins to realize that Mr. Vidas is the first person in his life who ever really wanted to listen to him. With Vidas's help, Diego begins to make real progress in controlling his anger. He even opens up enough to tell Vidas about the shark tooth that his stepfather gave him that he uses to cut himself. But only if Diego can find the courage to trust Vidas with the darkest secrets from his past will he be able to heal completely. YA FIC SAP Sapphire Push In an electrifying novel, a black street girl, sixteen years old and pregnant, again, with her father's child, speaks. In a voice that shakes us by its language, its story, and its unflinching honesty, Precious Jones records her journey up from Harlem's lowest depths... For Precious, miraculously, hope appears and the world begins to open up when a courageous black woman - a teacher hellbent to teach - bullies, cajoles, and inspires her to learn to read, to define her own feelings and set them down in a diary: to discover the truth of her life. Day after day they go over the pages, translating the illiterate but developing language of Precious' journals. The learning process itself, as vividly revealed as the most brutal aspects of Precious' daily existence, is the heartbeat of a novel that will disturb, galvanize, and stay in the mind. 12 YA FIC SCH Schroeder, Lisa Falling For You Rae’s always dreamed of dating a guy like Nathan. He’s nothing like her abusive stepfather—in other words, he’s sweet. But the closer they get, the more Nathan wants of her time, of her love, of her…and the less she wants to give. As Rae’s affection for Nathan turns to fear, she leans on her friend Leo for support. With Leo, she feels lighter, happier. And possessive Nathan becomes jealous. He’s not about to let her go. And with danger following her every move, Rae must fight for the life and love she deserves if she’s going to survive. YA FIC SCO Scott, Elizabeth Living Dead Girl When Alice was ten, Ray took her away from her family, her friends—her life. She learned to give up all power, to endure all pain. She waited for the nightmare to be over. Now Alice is fifteen and Ray still has her, but he speaks more and more of her death. He does not know it is what she longs for. She does not know he has something more terrifying than death in mind for her. This is Alice's story. It is one you have never heard, and one you will never, ever forget. YA FIC SCO Scott, Mindi Live Through This If Coley Sterling’s best friend would stop hating her, if her dance-team captains would lighten up, if her friends would stop asking her about Reece, the geeky sax player she’s crushing on—then her life would be perfect. Right? After all, Coley’s stepdad is a successful attorney who gives Coley and her siblings everything, and her mother will stop at nothing to keep them all happy and safe—including having escaped ten years ago from the abuse of Coley’s real father. But Coley is keeping a lot of secrets. She won’t admit—not even to herself—that her almostperfect life is her own carefully crafted façade. Now, Coley and Reece are getting closer, and a decade’s worth of Coley’s lies are on the verge of unraveling—along with the life she thought she knew. YA FIC SIM Simmons, Michael Vandal Will is pretty much your average 16-year-old. He does well enough in school, plays in a rock band, chases girls with little success, and has a typical collection of oddball friends...with one significant exception. For as long as he can remember, he has been systematically beaten up-physically, mentally, and emotionally--by his older brother. YA FIC SMI Smith, Andrew Stick Fourteen-year-old Stark McClellan (nicknamed Stick because he’s tall and thin) is bullied for being “deformed” – he was born with only one ear. His older brother Bosten is always there to defend Stick. But the boys can’t defend one another from their abusive parents. When Stick realizes Bosten is gay, he knows that to survive his father's anger, Bosten must leave home. Stick has to find his brother, or he will never feel whole again. In his search, he will encounter good people, bad people, and people who are simply indifferent to kids from the wrong side of the tracks. But he never loses hope of finding love – and his brother. YA FIC STO Stone, Mary Hanlon Invisible Girl When poor Boston girl Stephanie is abandoned by her abusive mother and taken in by Annie's Beverly Hills family, she feels anything but home. Her dark complexion and accent stick out like a sore thumb in the golden-hued world of blondes and extravagance. These are girls who seem to live life in fast forward, while Stephanie is stuck on pause. Yet when a new rival moves to town, threatening Annie's queen-bee status, Stephanie finds herself taking sides in a battle she never even knew existed, and that feeling invisible is a wound that can only be healed by standing up for who she is. 13 YA FIC STR Strasnick, Lauren Nothing Like You High school senior Holly Hirsh knows little about Paul Bennett beyond the fact that he is goodlooking, popular, and has a "cool and put together" girlfriend. Seeking to fill the emotional void left by her mother's death, Holly loses her virginity to him and continues to see him. He demands that she keep their relationship secret, which exacerbates the complicated feelings she has toward her longtime best friend, Nils. When a school project provides a means for Holly to get to know Paul's girlfriend, her sense of betrayal becomes even deeper. YA FIC STR Strasser, Todd Can’t Get There From Here This gritty portrayal of the lives of homeless teenagers conveys the hopelessness of runaways and throwaway children with convincing realism. Fifteen-year-old "Maybe" lives with her friends on the streets of New York. They reject even the relative comfort of homeless shelters as they have rejected their own names, choosing street names such as Rainbow, Maggot, and Jewel. Maybe chooses freedom from all rules over any kind of security, but the story makes it clear that her total freedom ultimately leads to early death or slavery to adult predators. When she finally decides to try to help Tears, the 12-year-old newest member of her tribe, Maybe begins to find her own salvation. YA FIC TAN Tanaka, Shelley Nobody Knows It’s autumn in Tokyo, and twelve-year-old Akira and his younger siblings, Kyoko, Shige and little Yuki, have just moved into a new apartment with their mother. Akira hopes it’s a new start for all of them, even though the little ones are not allowed to leave the apartment or make any noise, since the landlord doesn’t permit young children in the building. But their mother soon begins to spend more and more time away from the apartment, and then one morning Akira finds an envelope of money and a note. She has gone away with her new boyfriend for a while. Akira bravely shoulders the responsibility for the family. He shops and cooks and pays the bills, while Kyoko does the laundry. The children spend their time watching TV, drawing and playing games, wishing they could go to school and have friends like everyone else. Then one morning their mother breezes in with gifts for everyone, but she is soon gone again. Months pass, until one spring day Akira decides they have been prisoners in the apartment long enough. For a brief time the children bask in their freedom. They shop, explore, plant a little balcony garden, have the playground to themselves. Even when the bank account is empty and the utilities are turned off and the children become increasingly ill-kempt, it seems that they have been hiding for nothing. In the bustling big city, nobody notices them. It’s as if nobody knows. But by August the city is sweltering, and the children are too malnourished and exhausted even to go out. Akira is afraid to contact child welfare, remembering the last time the authorities intervened, and the family was split up. Eventually even he can’t hold it together any more, and then one day tragedy strikes… YA FIC TAS Tashjian, Janet Fault Line Seventeen-year-old Becky Martin-smart, funny, ambitious-aspires to be a stand-up comic. While setting out to make her goal a reality, she meets Kip Costello, a rising star in the San Francisco comedy-club scene. And what could be better than an intense boyfriend who cares about every detail of her life? But Becky soon discovers a darker side to Kip, where emotional and physical abuse grow hand-in-hand. As the relationship goes from loving to controlling, Becky must find the courage to get help before it's too late. 14 YA FIC VAS Vasey, Paul A Troublesome Boy Teddy can’t believe how fast his life has changed in just two years. When he was twelve, his father took off, and then his mother married Henry, a man Teddy despises. But Teddy has no control over his life, and adults make all the decisions, especially in 1959. Henry decides that Teddy should be sent to St. Ignatius Academy for Boys, an isolated boarding school run by the Catholic church. St. Iggy’s, Teddy learns, is a cold, unforgiving place — something between a juvenile detention center and reform school. The other boys are mostly a cast of misfits and eccentrics, but Teddy quickly becomes best friends with Cooper, a wise-cracking, Wordsworthloving kid with a history of neglect. Despite the priests’ ruthless efforts to crack down on the slightest hint of defiance or attitude, the boys get by for a while on their wits, humor and dreams of escape. But the beatings, humiliation and hours spent in the school’s infamous “time-out” rooms, and the institutionalized system of power and abuse that protects the priests’ authority, eventually take their toll, especially on the increasingly fragile Cooper. Then one of the new priests, Father Prince, starts to summon Cooper to his room at night, and Teddy watches helplessly as his friend withdraws into his own private nightmare, even as Prince targets Teddy himself as his next victim. Teddy and Cooper’s only reprieve comes on Saturdays, when the school janitor, Rozey, takes the boys to his run-down farmhouse outside of town, the only place where the boys can feel normal — fishing, playing cribbage, watching the bears at the local dump. But even this can’t stop Cooper’s downward spiral and eventual suicide. And just when Teddy thinks something good might come out of his friend’s tragedy, he finds himself dealing with the ultimate betrayal. YA FIC VOI Voigt, Cynthia When She Hollers Tish is one confused, frightened girl. Pushed to the point of no return, she takes refuge behind a knife, hidden in her shoe, believing that this can protect her from her incestuous stepfather. But the voice of reason, which occasionally surfaces within her, moves her to confront her problem and her fears that no one will believe her or care. Voigt has tackled a distasteful topic, with forthrightness, bringing Tish to the realization that only she can help herself and doing so will bring a promising, but not perfect, future. YA FIC WAL Waldorf, Heather Leftovers A freak-out over a snapshot lands fifteen-year-old Sarah Greene on an island in the St. Lawrence River with several other juvenile offenders. There, she is to complete 400 hours of community service at a summer camp for dogs. The confinement leaves her with no way to complete the desperate mission she was on when she stole and subsequently crashed her mother's boyfriend's car—until the camp counselor's son, a boy she's been in school with since first grade, offers to take her across the river into Ottawa for a concert if she'll help him finish a project for his stepfather, the veterinarian who runs the camp. Sarah jumps at the chance, but plans to dump the boy at the concert. There, she will make her own way into the city, to the locked-up restaurant owned by her recently deceased father where she believes she will find the shameful evidence of the sexual abuse he inflicted on her from the earliest days of her memory. Sarah thinks that if she destroys the photographs and keep anyone else from finding out about the abuse, she can move on with her life. But Sarah is not the only one on the island trying to adjust to life-changing circumstances. YA FIC WEE Weeks, Sarah Jumping the Scratch It has been a rough year for 11-year-old Jamie Reardon. In short order, his cat, Mister, died, his father ran off with another woman, and the boy and his mother moved to a trailer park to live with his aunt Sapphy who, because of an accident at the cherry factory where she used to work, has lost her short-term memory and needs them to take care of her. Jamie is also suffering from being the new kid in school and bearing the brunt of a bully's attention. But worst of all is the dark secret that sits deep in Jamie's heart, a secret that he can't share with anyone, and that he would give anything to forget. 15 YA FIC WIE Wiess, Laura Such a Pretty Girl Three years ago, when she was 12, Meredith's father raped her. She went to the hospital; he went to prison. Now he's getting out on an early parole, and Meredith's life is falling apart. Her mother refuses to acknowledge what happened; all she cares about is getting her husband back. Meredith's boyfriend Andy—a boy molested by her father—takes off for Iowa in search of a miracle cure for his paralysis caused by a night of drunk driving. And her father won't leave her alone. This is a rare book: a "problem novel" in which the story is in service of the characters, not the other way around. Meredith, Andy, Andy's deeply religious mother, the retired policeman who befriends Meredith, and Meredith's tough grandmother are all flawed, engaging characters who are strong and weak in their own, sometimes unexpected, ways. Even Meredith's parents, the clear villains of the story, manage to seem like real people rather than two-dimensional monsters. Meredith is realistically terrified of her father and bears the expected emotional scars, but still finds the strength to help the policeman build a case to put her father away for good. This tale strikes just the right balance between hope and despair, and Meredith's will to survive and ability to take action in the face of her terror are an inspiration. YA FIC WIL Williams, Carol Lynch Glimpse Williams (The Chosen One) opens her latest novel with a bang--almost. Written in spare yet resonant verse ("Last night/ me and Lizzie/ sit/ in the dark,/ sit on my bed,/ in the quiet of/ night./ We're all grown up,/ I think./ But we are/ having us some/ troubles"), the book is told from the unreliable perspective of 12-year-old Hope, whose 14-year-old sister, Lizzie, threatens to shoot herself on page one. Lizzie is hauled off to a mental hospital, but the reason behind the suicide attempt remains unclear--even to Hope. As the story progresses, clues about the girls' upbringing are revealed in a series of flashbacks. Hope's memories paint a picture of sporadic sisterly bonding (secret club meetings in the attic, lip-synching to Jesus Christ Superstar), while other incidents (their father's death, Lizzie's crying spells, their alcoholic mother's abusive temper and prostitution) hint at a darker reality. Williams's decision to wait until the end to divulge the cause of Lizzie's misery is a gamble, but one that works. The truth-- exposed after Hope reads her sister's diary--is appalling. YA FIC WOL Wolf, Jennifer Shaw Breaking Beautiful Allie lost everything the night her boyfriend, Trip, died in a horrible car accident—including her memory of the event. As their small town mourns his death, Allie is afraid to remember because doing so means delving into what she’s kept hidden for so long: the horrible reality of their abusive relationship. When the police reopen the investigation, it casts suspicion on Allie and her best friend, Blake, especially as their budding romance raises eyebrows around town. Allie knows she must tell the truth. Can she reach deep enough to remember that night so she can finally break free? YA FIC WOO Woodson, Jacqueline I Hadn’t Meant to Tell You This Two girls: one white, one black; one abused, one protected, both missing their mothers. An unlikely friendship ignites between the two, and, in sharing their differences, both of their lives are transformed. YA FIC WRI Wright, Bil Putting Makeup on Dead People Since her father’s death four years ago, Donna’s been stuck in her grief, cut off from friends and family, and clueless about what to do after high school graduation. That is, until she’s standing in front of the dead body of a classmate at Brighton Brothers Funeral Home. At that moment, Donna realizes that what might give her life purpose is comforting others in death. That maybe she really wants to be . . . a mortician? This discovery sets in motion a life Donna never imagined was possible. By taking one big risk, Donna comes into her own. And she finally understands that moving forward doesn’t mean forgetting someone you love. 16