From PA to Body Confident Grid Girl at 41 The beauty backlash in the wake of Samantha Brick led me to be interviewed on ITV Lorraine speaking out on my experiences being beautiful and how I deal with it. I have been in media on this debate and wish to share it with We Are The City female readers.To inspire women going through hard times,and life`s challenges in work and family –to comquer their fears and be strong. I just few weeks back celebrated makig the history books as the oldest Grid Girl at 41 standing proudly wit my flat abs out in a lycra outfit on Pole in the BTCC. My man Mike supported me and I work as his PA in Insurance Broker firm RCIB Insurance. I felt strong and body confident –standing in the rain like a trooper – competing next to 19-21 yr olds who stood there with their willies and hoodies on ! I had skyscraper 6 inch heels and size 8 skin tight suit on showing my hard-earned washboard abs. Flying the flag for mature women with confidence. After being compared to Madonna a few years ago in the press, I decided to re-invent myself and started a new high maintenance beauty regime at 35. My self confidence went from low to high and I never looked back.Women like Madonna inspired me for her confidence and ambition.But I am a real woman in the real world so hatched a plan in the gym to get mind strength through workouts. I had spent years fighting depression after a stillborn twin and relationship split.I spent 10 years as struggling single mum.Now I represent working women of ambition who have 9-5 job and a public profile for inspiring countless working women in the country. My beauty regime helped my body confidence. I had to compete in the workplace and be competitive. I started getting botox then it escalated from there. So now every inch of my face has been injected with precision by the surgeon who is top of his game. Madonna gets so much hate on her. But i think she looks amazing. The thing is that once you have a few wrinkles erased then you start to see more which need fixing! People think and have suggested to me that I am addicted to facial injections surgery. But I`m not. My beauty routine has gone from basic wearing make-up every day to a high maintenance routine of fillers to my face every 3 months. Lip filler for pouty lips, Nose to mouth lines filled and make my cheeks line free and plump,soft. Botox, for angry lines between the eyes, forehead wrinkles erased with muscle-relaxing botox,and then injected aruond teh eyes crows feet to erase laughter lines that fall down the cheeks. I had lots of those.Now they are gone. I have had all the procedures below and dont regret any of them. And I have just had my eyebrows tatooed on with a natural looking semipermanent make-up procedure. I look fresh in the morning without make up even and I know no matter how exhausted I am inside after a hard day in office or at gym, then i know my face won`t show my tiredness. That`s what it is all about for me. My face does not look "windswept" as I have never gone under the knife. You don`t need to nowadays as Clinics have the best lunchtime latest procedures like all the stars do to get your facelift by injection only. I went under the knife at 37 with a boob job from flat chest 32 AA to 32 D. A boyfriend back then paid for them. He knew I had insecurities about my freaky muscular boyish frame and I was desperate to have womanly curves. The boob job helped with my re-invention, and I work out hard in the gym 3-4 times week to keep toned and tight body. Madonna always inspires me and I know people criticise her so easily about wearing hot pants at 50.I think she should continue to do what she wants an ignore the haters who are just jealous. I have women all the time hate on me. Madonna makes me strong she is stellar- I am not. I`m a real woman with a real job and work long hours, but always find time to workout in the gym. I always try to be my best. And be body confident.Its hard work.you have to know what you have to give up in order to get it. Sacrafice involves pain, to be beautiful you have to suffer pain of the facial injections. im tough and request that I dont have any numbing agent in the filler for my lips. its so painful that tears rundown my cheeks - and im not even crying. Why do I do this - so i reduce the post procedure swelling and can go to work the next day. We all have bills to pay! That`s why they call it a lunch hour facelift. I spread mine out over the months and top up at the first signs of the wrinkles re-appearing. Some women wait and do it when its too late so they have to go under the knife. Im lucky as i started early. A facelift before 40 is an investment in my health and well being. I have strict nutrition regime too- strict high protein diet and gym workouts means no time for much else. im not obsessed but i agree i look like it to other people who dont work out. I never sit and watch the soaps after work.I `m so out of it. Luckily now i met the love of my life who trains with me an he is World Record holder in weight lifting. So he knows what sacrafice and pain means.to get body you want. Roughly it cost me about 2-300 per year - since I was 39 – before then I just started with botox and few procedures. Now I must save 2-3 k a year to maintain my facelift. It all started after being inspired by Madonna after my fitness regime was compared to hers a few years ago. I lvoe the way Madonna as an older woman stays in shape and also erases wrinkles off her face to keep fresh. The face should match the body.There is nothing worse than seeing a slim woman with blonde hair, from behind then as she turns around you see an old face on a young body. Thats what I try to avoid as I intend to grow old disgracefully and get all the help with fillers i need. My personality is young and so why not? Women should inspire each other and remember that we have come a long way since the Suffragettes .So let us be a force to reckon with in the workplace and celebrate being strong. Even if that means like me – I stand up and be counted – being unpopular and criticised for being a voice. Rachel Evans