It is very hard to talk with you, because you..
In truth is merely just an illusion.
You have came from those before you
And will probably bear more ahead of you
You are here yet there
But you did not exist in the past..
And will not exist in the future
So why do you run and hide?
You, with your beautiful skin and eyes,
Are prone to aging and sickness.
What use of it do you beautify..
When you are already the apple of someone’s eye?
Or the Fruit basket of your own parents,
Or the boon to your children
Or the greatness to society..
Conceit is a sin in itself
But so is hatred
Yet, why do you insist in torturing yourself with blame,
And when you stop that, why do you pleasure yourself with sin?
I do not know .
I do not know.
What good is it to trust in someone not real?
Yet what good is it to deny what is?
What is delusion, what is truth?
The sublime truth exists, yet i am tired from my marathon of
running after lies.
This is what happens to all beings. Poor beings, realizing truth
at the last moment that none of this really mattered anyway.
And that none of it would matter even if it was good enough
anyway.
Why love? Why hate? Love is good, pleasure is good. But over of
anything is bad. This world is full of paradoxes. This world is
full of deception. Yet i am still so entrapped in the clutches of
worldy treadmill, i don’t even think i have a body left over to
exercise. I want to hate, but it’s fruitless. What is the use?
If i get to compliment someone, i’ll compliment them for their
virtue, what good is it to lick another bosom? What pleasure
would i gain from doing so… if i had gained pleasure in the
past, why don’t i feel it now? All of this is fruitless. The
Dhamma is the only refuge. The Buddha is the only refuge,
The Sangha is the only refuge. How i wish i could understand
what they preach. When all satisfaction is out of reach. My
body is in a undignified breach. How i cannot breathe.
I am stuck in this cycle of wretched restlessness. Something is
strangling me but i do not know what .
OKAY .
Now enough of this so-called “philosophizing
language”
This does not bring happiness or peace in the way
seeing the truth does, so in fact. This too is delusion.
I am now going to write only good things, i’ll see how it
will transform my mindset. I am not going to shift
from this until i am happy and content and in High
Vibration.
1. A truly wise and contented is happy and light.
2. The true Buddha’s disciples live in joy and
content.
Gratitude prompts.
What in your life do you have now that you used to dream about having in the past?
1. My loku punchi’s love because, i think she is a
wonderful person.
2. The love of my family members, because i always
wanted to be a person whose loved by everyone.
3. My tea is warm and delicious. It soothes me.
4. The love for Buddhism. I have always wanted to
understand it and now i do a little by little !
5. Cute pretty Cats. they so adorable uwu
6. Mom back! Her food is delicious and i get hugs
7. A sick dad to take care of. If i take care of him well,
it is a lot of merit <3 so i am grateful for that
8. Mindfulness training , i want to be mindful and
joyful when Sadhu arrives
9. Venerable monk coming to visit us. It’s pleasing to
the eyes and heart when a Venerable Monk arrives .
10.
Seeing monks and listening Bana everyday . it
is such a beautiful and meritorious occasion for us
everyday to learn something new and become 0.01
% better everyday.
11. Having a healthy body, it makes me feel so grateful
i get to have a healthy body that is not in pain and
enables me to be exubarant and free everyday!
12.
The new year approaching! I get to turn 16 and
, my life is moving forward, may i get so many more
opportunities to grow and develop my mind
forawrds <3
● Where do you find the most joy in your days?
Writing sweet words to somebody,
Praying to Lord Buddha for hours at a time
Sleeping a wonderful evening sleep
Drinking warm tea,
Experiencing beautiful light meditation
Reading a wonderful Buddhist book and learning
something new.
Breathing lovingly
Today i learned maithree meditation :D