MYROOMMATE I nt r oduct i on She' sasi mpl ey etv er ybeaut i f ul ki ndagi r l next door Shegr ewupwi t hnot hi ngmuch, i nanotso st abl ef ami l y , herGr annyi st heonl yf ami l ywho car edf orherf ut ur e, shei saf ocusedambi t i ous y oungl adywhoknowswhatshewant st odo wi t hherl i f e, sheknewherGr annywon' tbeabl e t opayf orherv ar si t yf eessoshest udi edhar d al t houghshewasnat ur al l yi nt el l i gent . .Buty ou cannev erbet oosmar tr i ght ? . . . Asbeaut i f ul as shewasshest ay edf arawayf r om boy sas possi bl ecauseshesawt her at eofpr egnancy i nhernei ghbor hoodandshedi dn' twantt obe hel dbackandobv i ousl yhergr andmot her pr eachedt hesamet hi ngt oher , butl i keany ot hert eenagershedi dt r ydat i ngbutt hi ngs di dn' tgoassheexpect ed, I ' l l l ethert el l y ou aboutt hatwhenshe' sr eady . . . . f i nal l y !shef l ees t henest , l eav i nghome, t hedust yr ur al ar easof Mt hat ha, of fshegoest ot heCi t yofGol d. .What abi gt r ansf or mat i onr i ght ?Shegotherbur sar y butt hent her ewasat ur nofev ent sBURSARY WENTWRONG shef oundoutshewasn' tof f er ed accommodat i on, what ev erwasshet odo?She wasal r eadyi nt hebi gci t y , sheknewabsol ut el y nooneandhadnowher et ogo, t hatni ghtshe wassur eshewoul dbesl eepi ngi nt hest r eet s, buthowwasshet ost udywhi l el i v i ngi nt he st r eet s?Thi swasdef i ni t el ynotpar toft hepl an! Shedi dn' twantt ocal l hergr andmot her , she woul ddi eofhear tat t ackcauseshewast he mostexci t edwhenshewasl eav i ngt ogomake somet hi ngofher sel f , Att hi smomentshehad noone, I nt hebi gci t y , noonet ocal l , shewas exposedt ot hemanydanger soft hi sTown any t hi ngcoul dhappent oheratt hi smoment , she' sl ost , she' scol d, sheconf usedandshe' sa t eenagegi r l . . . . Iwonderhowl i f ewi l l t ur noutf or t hi smy st er i ousl ady ? . . . . . . . wi l l shemakei t t hr ought heni ght ?Coul dt hi sbet heendoft he begi nni ng?Wi l l someonesav eher ? . . . somany quest i ons. . . . wi l l shegobackhome?how?wi l l somet hi ngbadhappent oher ?whatki ndof per soni sshe?wi l l wegett oknow her ? . . . . . . . . . . . . . . wi l l Admi ncar r yonwi t ht hi sst or y ? orwi l l shel eav eushangi ng? . Gr aby ourpopcor n, y ourbl anketf i ndy our comf or t abl ecouchandl et ' swat chhowt hi s st or ywi l l unf ol d . . . Youknowwhatt odo. . . ment i on. . shar e. . . . comment , . . . . l i ke. . . . Ar ey ' al l i nt er est ed?Ineedt oknow, soIknow whet hert ocont i nueornot. . . . t hemor el i kest he mor el i kel ywecont i nuewi t ht hi sst or y [ 07/ 28, 11: 04]W: i nser t1 . . . . oney earl at er Ir eal l ywantt obebot her edoratl eastangr yby t hedi sgust i ngsi ghti nf r ontofme, butr eal l y , I ' m not , Iact ual l yf eel l i kecheer i ngt hem oncause t heyj ustmademyl i f eawhol el oteasi er .She' s onherkneesf aci ngt heheadboar dwhi l ehe' s poundi ngheruncont r ol l abl yf r om behi nd " Fuckmehar der , y eah!Yeahooooohf uckf uck oohshi i i t ! " " Ohy ourpusssysogoodohhhmmmh" Me: " wow" Ibangt hedoorbehi ndmeasIwal kout .Imake mywayt ot heki t chen, I ' m st ar v i ng, i t sbeena l ongdayt henIcomebackt ot hi s " Baby , Icanexpl ai n" I ' m nowenj oy i ngy ogur twhent heJer kspeaks, I ' m socal mi t ' snotev enf unny , wel l i ti ski nda f unny . I ' v ebeenmeani ngt obr eakupwi t ht hi s dout chbutIj ustcoul dn' tgett het i meorf i ndt he r easont ol eav ehi ssor r yass shamepoorguy . . . If eel sor r yf ori nt er r upt i nghi s f un Me: " expl ai nwhatbabe? " Hel ooksatmewi t haf aci al expr essi onIcan' t expl ai n Hi m: " ar en' ty oumad?" Me: " whatf or ?Thaty ouwer ehor nyanddeci ded t ogetaboot ycal l , ohnobabeIt ot al l ygeti t , I ' m notangr y , act ual l yIwasaboutt ol eav esoy ' al l cancar r yon, i t sy ourhouseany wayy ouf r eet o doasy oupl ease, Ihopey oudon' tmi ndabout t hi sy ogur tI ' m abi thungr y , butnowI ' m gone, hopef ul l ywenev ercr osspat hsagai n, by e babe" Imakemywayt ot heexi tdoorasIai mt he empt ycont ai nerofy ogur tatt hebi nandIscor e Me: " y esss! "IsayasI ' m out Hi m: " pl easebabe, gi v emeonemor echance, I ' m sor r y " Me: " chance?Mebei ngwi t hy oui nt hef i r st pl acewasachance, t hegr eat estchanceI ' v e ev ermade" Il eav ehi m st andi ngt her edumbst r uckandhal f naked. Ical l anuberaf t erI ' v ewal kedaf ewhouses awayf r om hi s. Tot hi nkt hi swasoneoft hel ongest r el at i onshi psI ' v eev erhad, Imeanguy sawhol e t womont hs!Yoht hati swayt ool ongf orme mostofmyr el at i onshi psar enotmor et hanone mont horf ewweeks, Idon' tknowwhet heri t ' s goodorbadl uckbutt heyal way sshowt hei r t r uecol our sear l y , butwi t hThat oi twasl onger t hanIant i ci pat ed, l ongandsooobor i ng, t o t hi nkIwasaboutt ogi v ehi mt hecooki e t hi nki ngi twoul dmay bespi cet hi ngsup ny ana, t hankgoodnesshedi dt hi s, t hanky ou Lor d!It hi nkIshoul dt akeabr eakf r om dat i ng nowandj ustf ocusonmy sel fandbooks, I ' m doi ngmysecondy earnowsoIgot t af ocus, I woul dn' twannadi sappoi ntmy gr andmommy , shesacr i f i cedt oomuchf orme t ogether e, I ' v ebeent hr ought hewor st chi l dhood, butt hat ' sast or yf oranot herday . TheUberpi cksmeup, Idon' tf eel l i kegoi ng st r ai ghthomeso Me: " pl easedr opmeof fBr aamf ont ei nnear WAM caf é" Hedr opsmeof ft her ei ndeed, Idon' tknow abouty oubutI ' m supperf ami shedr i ght now, andI ' m notaboutt ogot ot hatpi t i f ul house Il i v ei n.Imakemywayi nt hecaf ét hensi tr i ght att hef arcor nerend, Il ov esi t t i ngatf arcor ner endsi nr est aur ant sandj usthav eacl earv i ew ofwhowal ksi nandwhowal ksout , howar e t heydr essed, makeupt hei rl i v esi nmymi nd j ustbyl ooki ngatt hem, cal l mecr eepybutt r ust me, i t sf un. . . Qui nt oni st heonl yhumanbei ngwhodoesn' t t hi nki t swei r d, i nf actwebot hl i ket odot hi s. Wai t er : " canIgety ousomet hi ngmam orwoul d y oust i l l l i ket ol ookt hr ought hemenus? " Me: " I ' l l hav ey ourcappucci nomuf f i nsanda l at t epl ease" Hewr i t esonhi snot epad Wai t er : " t hatbeal l ? " Me: " y es" Henodsandwal ksaway , y ohIwonderhowwi l l I f al l asl eept oni ghtwi t ht hi smuchcaf f ei ne, mi ghtaswel l st udy . . whoam Iki ddi ngr ecessi s notev enov ery et " CanIj oi ny ou? " Il ookupathi mt henIst ar texami ni nghi m, hei s acar amel bone, abi tt oot hi nbutnot ski nny , woul dn' tsayhe' shotbuthe' sgotl ooks ny anaj ustnj eee, he' sdr essednotv er ydecent , l ooksl i kesomer apperwannabe, t heski nny j eans, t hem bi gsneaker s, t hepant sar enot pul l edr i ghtupt heysi t t i ngbel l owhi sbut t showi ngof fhe' sboxer s, hehasonawhi t ev est andal eat herj acket , hebet t erbeabi ckerorel se he' sout f i ti sabi gt ur nof ff orme " Wel l ?MayI ? " Icomebackt oear t h Me: " uhm. . . . . wel l l l . . . . I . . . . .eer r r m Hef l ashesmeabi gsmi l eIal mostf al l outmy chai r , hast hi sguyev erhear doft oot hbr ushand t oot hpast e! ? t r ustmet heydowondermy br ot her , Ev enwor sehe' sgotagol dt oot h!Yoh her eal l ydi dn' tneedi tcausehe' st eet har eal l t ur ni nggol d Me: " , uhm, act ual l y . . .I " , she' sher ewi t hme, sor r ybutweonadat e, soa t hi r dwheel woul dbei nt r udi ng" Phew, t hi sguyi sal way sher ewhenI ' mi nsome ki ndat r oubl e, somet i mesi tscar esme Me: " Qui nt on! , f i nal l ywhatt ooky ouso l ong, babe" Ipl ayal ongsot hi sguycanv ani sh Hecomesandki ssesmycheekt hent akeshe' s seat Qui nt on: " sor r yt okeepy ouwai t i ng, di dy out ake meanor der ? " Me: " No, y ouknowhowpi ckyy ouar e" Wef akel aughateachot her , t hegol dt oot hguy get st hemessageandl eav es, f i nal l y !Ican br eat h! Isi gh Me: " t hanksf ort her escue" Qui nt : " Iwi shIdi dn' t , andwat chy ousuf f ocat e" Hel aughsandIgi v ehi m adeadgl ar e Me: " t henImakey ouwasht hedi shesf ort he r estoft hey ear " Qui nt : " unf ai r !I t snotl i kei t smyj obt or escue y ou" Me: " buty oual way st her ewhenI ' mi nt r oubl e, mi ghtaswel l makei ty ourj ob" Qui nt on: " gi r l pl ease, Igotbet t ert hi ngst odo t hansav i ngy ourass" Me: " mmmhr eal l y ?Li kewhat ?Br eaki nghear t s? " Qui nt on: " wow, r eal l ynow?Wegoi ngt her e? " Me: " l etusnot " Qui nt on: " good, causeI ' v eonl ybr oket wot hi s mont h, I ' m get t i ngbet t er " Thi sguyi sunbel i ev abl e Me: " IhopeGodonedayhear sal l mypr ay er sf or y ou. . . . . . any waywhi l ewest i l l i nt het opi c. . . .I br okeupwi t ht hatsonofa Qui nt on: " t i i i i i i i . . . Heal way ssay st hatwhenI ' m aboutt osweari n publ i c, Ial sodoi tf orhi m. Me: "Icaughthi mr edhanded, cheat i ng, t oday " Qui nt on: " asi nl i key ousawhi mf ucki ng?Wi t h y ourownt woey es? " Inodsmi l i ng, don' taskwhyI ' m smi l i ng Qui nt on: " Ineedt opayhi m ashor tv i si t " Ohnoheal way sdoest hi s Me: " nopl ease, he' snotwor t hi tr eal l y , I ' m not ev enhur t , I ' v ebeenmeani ngt obr eakupwi t h hi m, y ouknowt hat " Qui nt on: " okayIguessy our i ght , hur r yandf i ni sh up, Ineedt ogetbackt ot hehouse, I ' mt i r edj ust wannachi l l andt al kt oy ousoIcanf al l asl eep andr est " Igasp Me: " ar ey ousay i ngI ' m bor i ng, MrO' Br i en?" Qui nt on: " Thati snotwhatI ' m say i ngmyLi l l y , j ustsay i ngy ourpr esencei ssor el axi ng" Me: "goj umpof facl i f f " Wef i ni shupt henhedr i v esusbackt oour apar t ment , y es" our "wel i v et oget her , l et ' sj ust sayi fi twasn' tf orhi mI ' dbesomewher ei nt he st r eet s, i twasoneoft hoset hi ngs" bur sar ywent wr ong"t ur nedoutIwasn' tof f er ed accommodat i on, butIonl yf oundt hatoutwhenI wasal r eadyher e, Ir ememberIhadnowher et o go, i coul dn' tcal l mygr amscausei twoul d' v e st r essedherandIwoul dn' twantherget t i ng anot herhear tat t ackduet ost r ess, soIdr agged mybi gl uggagenotknowi ngwher et ogoj ust r oami ngt hest r eet sofJo' bur gt i l l i tgotr eal l y dar k, agr oupofy oungmensur r oundedme, i t wast hemostt er r i f y i ngmomentofmyl i f e, when outofnowher eahandsomeKni ght ( heshoul d nev erhearmecal l hi mt hat , i twi l l boosthi s al r eadybi gEgo) camet ot her escue, hescar ed t hem of fwi t hhi sgun, Iwasr el i ev edand t hankf ul andchar med, t henIwast er r i f i edagai n causeaf t eral l hewasst i l l ast r angerwi t ha gun, Iwasy oung, l ostandv ul ner abl esohe coul d' v edoneashepl easeswi t hmeandI r emember edIwasi nt heci t yofgol dany t hi ngi s possi bl e, butt hecut egent l emani nf r ontofme assur edmet hathewoul dn' thur tmet hen of f er edmear i de, It ookmychancesandt r ust ed hi m wi t hmyl i f e, It ol dhi m Ihav enowher et ogo andt hat ' swhenheof f er edmear oom i nhi s bachel orapar t mentoff i v er ooms, i twasani ce r easonabl ehouse, butatf i r sti twasScar r yt he t houghtofshar i ngwi t haguymanyt hought s r ant hr oughmymi nd, l ucki l yt hewhol eofl ast y earhedi dn' tst aywi t hme, he' dcomebybutnot sl eepov er , heaskedhe' sf r i endi fhecoul dcr ash wi t hhi m, j ustf oroney earunt i l Iwas comf or t abl et henhe' dmov ebacki nt hi s y ear , webecamev er ycl oseasf r i endsf r om t hen, t hey earj ustst ar t edsoher ecent l ymov ed i nt woday sago, butt hi swi l l bet hef i r stni ght we' l l spendasr oommat es.I ' v enev erl i v edwi t h any onebesi desmymom andgr ams, Idi dn' t hav emuchofani nt er est i ngl i f ebackt hen, but t hatal l changedl asty ear , v ar si t yl i f e, wher ehav e y oubeenal l myl i f e?Buti tal sohasi t s downs, t hat ' swhenIst ar tmi ssi nghome. I fi twasn' tf orQui nt on, Godknowswher eI ' dbe doi ngwhat , t het houghtt er r i f i esme.Suddenl yI f eel ner v ous, why ? Qui nt on: " pennyf ort hought s?" Wenowatt hehousechi l l i ngi nf r ontoft heT. V j ustf i ni shedaboxofpi zza Me: " sor r ybutIonl ydeal wi t hRands, wheny ou hav et hat , t henwecant al k" Qui nt on: " wow, Ial way sknewy ouwer eagol d di gger , di dn' tt hi nki twast hatbadt hatI ' dal so hav et opayf ory ourt hought s" Hesay sj oki ngl ywhi l el aughi ngi nbet ween Me( chuckl e) : " hey , i nmydef ensey ouof f er edt o payf ormyt hought s, soIt ookmychances, l i ke anyot herbusi nessmi ndedper sonoutt her e" Qui nt on: " y ousuchasmar tmout h" Me: " t hat ' swhyy oul uur r r vme" Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " haaay eahr i ght . . . pshhh" Me: " I ' m goi ngt obednow, goodni ght" Hel ooksatmedi sappoi nt ed Qui nt on: " i t sonl yt en, andani cemov i ei sabout t ost ar t " Ishakemyhead, t henhegi v esmet hosepuppy pl eadi ngey es, wi t ht hoser ai nbowey esof hi s, nowhowdoy ousaynot osuchanador abl e f acel i ket hat ?Pl easet eachme, I ' m ser i ous, pl easet eachmeIr eal l yneedt oknowcauseI r eal l yneedt osl eepr i ghtnow, asi nnow, anyone t her e? , hel l o?Iguessnoonewant st ot eachme Me: " Ei sh, Qui nt on. . . . Qui nt on: " comeon, I ' l l makepopcor n" Hegi v esmet hatchi l di shexci t edcut ef ace showi ngev er ysi ngl et oot hi nhi smout h. ( Ohboyy oubet t ert hankGodf ort aki nghe' s t i mewhi l ecr eat i ngy ou, ot her wi sencncnc) Me: " popcor n?Mmmhokayt henIguessone mov i ewon' thur t " Hef l ashesasmi l e, mor el i keasmi r k Hemakespopcor nt henwat cht hemov i e, he wr apshe' sar mr oundmyshoul deraswe i ndul gei nt hepopcor nonmyl ap, mi ghtbea pr obl em st ay i ngwi t ht hi sbi mboi fhe' l l make mest ayupt i l l l at eev er yt i me. . . . . . . . ohheyI al mostf or got , mynamei sLi sakhany a Mt het hwaI ' mt ur ni ng18nextmont hMar ch03, I can' tputi nt owor dsonwhatki ndofper sonI am buty ouwi l l soonf i ndoutandmay be descr i bemei ny ourownwor ds, I ' m doi ngmy secondy eari nLaw, t her e' snotsomanyr easons ofwhyl awbutt her ei sone, whi chy ' al l boundt o f i ndout . . . l et ' skeepeachot hersat i sf i ed. . .I ' l l doi tby post i ng. . . t heni nr et ur ny ' al l comment . . l i ke. . . ment i onasmanyf r i endsasy ou can! [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: i nser t2 Li sa I ' m wokenupbymov ementofsomeone br eat hi ngbeneat hmyhead, whati st hi s?Ouch myback, can' tbel i ev ewesl eptont hi ssmal l couch, weal l t angl eduponeachot her , Il i f tmy headf r om hi m, weabi tsweat y , Imeani t sst i l l t hebegi nni ngoft hey eart het emper at ur esar e hot , def i ni t el ynotf orcuddl i ngorwhat ev ert hi s i s, andwor seI ' m st i l l wear i ngmywar m PJs, whatwasIt hi nki ng? . . . . aawwwwwoul dy ou l ookatt hat , hel ookssoi nnocentandcut ewi t h hi spout edpur pl i shl i ps, howcomet hey pur pl e, i t sbecausehesmokesof cause. . . . . uuuhhIhav eani dea, It r yt ount angl emy sel ff r om hi m Isl owl yt hr ow myl egsgent l yov erhi m asImakemywayt o t heki t chen. . . . Ihopewehav esome cr eam. . mwahahahat hi si sgoi ngt obef un Me: " ei sh, wedon' thav ewhoopcr eam" Ar ghgr eatIr eal l ywant edt opr ankt hatf ool Me: " ohwhati st hi s?Chocol at esy r up! " Me( whi sper s) : " shhhhhkeepi tdownLi sa, we woul dn' twannawakehi m upbef or ehav i ngour f un" It i pt oebackt ot hecouch, j ustonemor et hi ng. . . Nowwher ei st hatf eat herdust er ?Oht her ey ou ar e!Letmepul l outonef eat her ( he' ssogonnagetmef ort hi s)Isayt omy sel f Isqueezet hesy r uponhi sr i ghthand, noIt hi nk heneedmor e, soIsqueezeev enmor e.It r yt o hol di nmyl augh. . . . ohwai tmyphone, Ihav et o gett hi sonv i deo, Il aughsi l ent l yasIont he v i deo Me( t al ki ngt ot hecamer a, whi sper i ng) : " okay guy s, I ' m aboutt opr ankmyf r i endher e, sot he r easonI ' mv i deoi ngt hi si scausei fheshoul d makeanyt hr eat st oki l l meandy ' al l don' tsee mef ormor et hant hr eeday s. . . . pl easecome af t erhi m. . . . hehehe. . okay , her egoes" Igent l ymov et hef eat heronhi sl ef teart i ckl i ng i tbuthej ustshakeshi shead Me( whi sper s) : " ohcomeon. . . don' tbebor i ng now" It i ckl ehi snoseandmout h, hewi ggl eshi snose i nf r ust r at i on, Igi ggl esof t l y , doeshehav et obe t hi scut e?Icar r yoni r r i t at i nghi m wi t ht he f eat her , whenhesuddenl ysl apshi sf acewi t h he' sr i ghthand. . YES! Me( l aughi ng) : " oops! " Heget supt ot al l yshocked, goshy oushoul dsee hi sf aceal l smudgedwi t hchocol at e I ' ml aughi nguncont r ol l abl ywhi l ev i deoi nghi m Me( l aughi ng) : " y oul ooksoy ummymmmhI coul dj usteaty ouup! " Qui nt on: " whatt hef uckLi sa. . . . y oudi dt hi s? " Hi sf acet ur ni nt oanangr yone. . . shhi i t Me: " Me?WhyMe? " Iaskal l shockedandi nnocent Hel aughswhi l el i cki ngt hechocol at eonhi sl i ps Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " I ' m sogoi ngt ogety ouf or t hi sLi sa" Me: " y oushoul d' v eseent hel ookony our f ace. . . pr i cel ess!" Hel ooksatmei ndi sbel i ef Qui nt on: " Ar ey ouv i deoi ngt hi s? " Ishakemyheadal t houghi t scl ear l yev i dentI am Me: " No" Qui nt on: " del et ei tnow! " Il aughshaki ngmyhead Me: " Nev er ! " Qui nt on: " br i ngt hather ebef or eIki l l y ou! " Me: " y ouseepeopl e, t her e' st het hr eatIwas t al ki ngabout " Heget supcomi ngt owar dsmebutI ' mt oof ast f orhi mI ' m al r eadyout si de Qui nt on: " Youbet t ergi v emet hatphoneYoung l adyAndI ' m notpl ay i ngwi t hy ou, Del et et hat v i deonow" Me: " y oubet t erbeni ceYoungman, causey ou st i l l oncamer a. . .Sosmi l ef ort hecamer a chocol at ef ace! " Igi ggl et henhest ar t schasi ngme Qui nt on: " y out hi nky oucanout r unme. . . Idon' t t hi nksoMi ssy " Iwasnowi nt hebedr oom hi di ngnextt ot hebed ont heot hersi de It r yt obeasqui etasamousebutmybr eat hi ng i st ooheav y .Iheart hebedr oom doorcl ose Qui nt on: " Iknowy oui nher e, andt her enomor e r unni ngcausey oust ucki nt hi sr oom wi t h me. . . i fIwer ey ouI ' dgi v eupnow. . Ihav et he key saf t eral l " Shi tI ' m bust edIqui ckl yt al kt ot hecamer a bef or eIswi t chi tof f Me( whi sper i ng) : " okayguy sI ' m bust ed, i twas f unwhi l ei tl ast ed, r ememberwhatIsai d, i fy ou don' t . . . . . . "t her ey ouar e" Iswi t chof ft hev i deoandsav ei t , Il i f tupmy ey esandsuddenl ymyhear ti sr aci ngi nf ear Me: " l ook. . . Qui nt on. . . . .MyBf f . . . . mybeaut i f ul br ot her . . . . l et ' st al kaboutt hi s" Hesmi r ks Qui nt on: " Iseey ouhav eadeat hwi shhuh? " Me: " I . . . Iwasj ust . . . comeon. . . Ij umpont hebedasIt r yt or unt ot heot hersi de buthequi ckl ycor ner smebef or eIcanev en makei tt ot hedoor .I ' m st andi ngst i l l whi l ehi s handsar ehol di ngagai nstt hewal l l ocki ngme bet weent hem Qui nt on: " soy out hi nky ouhav ej okeshuh? " Me( br eat hl ess) : " comeon. . . . Qui nt on. . .I. . was j ustmessi ngwi t hy ou. . . . not hi ng per sonal . . . . . l et ' sf or gett hi sev erhappened. . . . . Okay ? . . . . Ist r et choutmyhandabi t Me: "Tr uce? " Ismi l ener v ousl yshowi ngev er yt oot hi nmy mout h Hest i l l haschocol at eonhi sf ace, i t ssmel l sso good, byt hewayI ' m obsessedwi t hchocol at e Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " Tr uce? . . . y ouhav et obe ki ddi ngme. . comeher e" Icl osemyey escauseIdon' tknowwhathe' s aboutt odo, whenIf eel hi m pi ckmeupt hen t hr owsmeont hebedr oughl y , Il ayonmyback heget sont opofme Me: " whaty ougoi ngt odot ome?Pl easedon' t t i ckl epl easeIwon' tdoi tagai n! " Qui nt on: " t hat ' snotsuchabadi deaaswel l " Hesmi l esIt r yt omov ebuthepr esseshi msel f ev enmor eont opofme, het akesmyhands t henhol dt hem t i ght l yov ermyhead, I ' m now compl et el yst uck, hebr i ngshi sf acecl osert o mi ne, whoawhati sgoi ngon?Myhear tst ar t s beat i ngf ast erandsodoest heonedown t her e, don' tl ookatmel i ket hathe' sdi cki st oo pr essedagai nstmyhoney potandi t sv er y bi g, okaywhyam It hi nki ngabouthi sdi ck? t hi si s myf r i end, hel l oLi sa! ? Me( whi sper s) : " Qui nt on? " Hesmi l es Qui nt on: " i t ' st i mey oucl eanupy ourmess y oungl ady " Me: " what ? " Qui nt on: " y ougoi ngt ol i ckmyf acecl ean, si nce y oul ov echocol at esomuch. . . . . goon" Me: " ar ey ouser i ousI ' m notdoi ngt hat . . . eewww" Qui nt on: " f i net henwewi l l st ayi nt hi sposi t i on asIt or t ur ey ouwi t hawkwar dsi l enceand i nt ensi v est ar edown" Me: " Icanl i v ewi t ht hat , butI ' m nev erl i cki ngy our f ace, ev eni fi twast hel astchocol at ef aceon ear t h! " Qui nt on: " okayt hen" I tgoessi l enthi sf acest i l l cl oset omi ne, he' s st i l l ont opofme, he' sst ar i ngdeepi nt omyey es l i kehe' ssear chi ngf orsomet hi nghel ost , hi s l i ghtbr ownhazel ey es. . . .I t sbeenf i v emi nut es nowmybr eat hi nghaschanged, myhear ti s beat i ngi nadi f f er entway , he' ssmi l esar e sendi ngshi v er sdownmyspi ne, what ' s happeni ngt ome?I ' v enev erf el tl i ket hi sbef or e t owar dsany one, al l oft heset hi ngshappeni ng t omef eel sof or ei gn. . .Thi si sr eal l yt or t ur e If i nal l ybr eakt hei ce Me: OK!Fi ne!Youwi n. . I ' l l l i cky ourf ace" Qui nt on: " goodgi r l " Hel et ' sgomyhandsasIpul l hi sf aceandst ar t l i cki ngal l t hechocol at eof fi t . . . f i nal l yI ' m done, I j ustl ef tt hebi tt hatwasar oundhi sl i ps Me: " al l done. . canIbesetf r eenow? " Idon' tknowi fi t sj ustmeorhe' sdi ckf eel sv er y har donmenow. . . . It hi nki t sj ustme, Ican' t possi bl ymakehi mf eel t hatway . . I ' m nott he t y peofgi r l l i ket heoneshedat es. . sonoI mj ust i magi ni ng Qui nt on: " whataboutt hechocol at ear oundmy l i ps? " Me: " y oucant akecar eoft hat " Qui nt on: " i t sy ourmess, y oucl eani t " Isi gh Me: " ar gh, t hi si ssoodi sgust i ngy ouknow" Qui nt on: " Iknow. . . j ustsoy oubar ei nmi nd. . I sweat edal otl astni ght " If el tt heur get opuke. . ILI CKEDHI SSWEAT! ! ! eeww Me: " di dy ouhav et oment i oni t " Qui nt on: " y oudi dn' texpectmet omakey ou enj oyt hi spuni shment ?di dy ou? " Me: " y out hecr uel estf r i endev er ! " Qui nt on: " whyt hanky ou. . Ionl yai mt opl ease" Me: " mor el i ket odi sgust" Qui nt on: " t hemor ey out al kt hemor et hi s chocol at ewi l l mel twi t hmysweat " Me: " y uck!l et ' sj ustgett hi sov eranddonewi t h" r emi ndmet onev erpr ankt hi sf ool agai n Ipul l hi sf acecl oserandl i ckt hechocol at e ar oundhi sl i ps, nex tt hi ngIknowourl i psar e t ouchi ng, hest ar t smov i ngt hem ashesucks myupperl i p Qui nt on: " sor r yy ouki ndahadabi tofchocol at e t her e. . . . . andher e" Hesucksmybot t om l i p. . . nextt hi ngwesucki ng eachot her sl i ps. . . OMGweki ssi ng!Thi si sso wr ong. . . . buti tf eel ssodamngood. . . Ibr eakt he ki ss Me: " uhmm. . . I. . . . Ihav et ogo" Heget sof fmeandIj umpoutofbedasqui ck asl i ght ni ng Okayt hi ngsar egoi ngt obesoawkwar df r om nowon. . . . . Ihopet heywon' tt hough Qui nt on: " Iseey oual soenj oy edmychocol at e l i psasmuchIenj oy edy our s? " Hesmi r ks Me: " don' tf l at t ery our sel fbuddy . . . y ouknowhow obsessedIam wi t hchocol at e. . .woul dn' tsay muchf ory ourl i ps. . sowi pet hatsmugof fy our f ace" Ismi r kback Qui nt on: " andher eIwast hi nki ngt hi swasa st ar tofsomet hi ngamazi ng" Me: " haa! !Ni cet r ynoti nami l l i ony ear s. . . . butno of f ence. . I ' m wayoutofy ourl eague" Hehol dhi schest Qui nt on: " y oubr eaki ngi t " Me: " i t saboutt i mey ougotat ast eofy ourown medi ci ne" Wecr ackupandl augh Qui nt on: " wher ehas' har dt oget ' got t eny ou? " Me: " v er yf arf r om hear tbr eaker sl i key ou" Di dIment i onI ' m ki ndofasmar tmout h? Qui nt on: " smar tmout h" Heyher eadsmi ndsnow? Qui nt on: " st opt hi nki ngt oomuch. , . . nowgetout ofmyr oom, bef or eIgetmyr eal r ev engeony ou" Me: " I ' l l pass" Il i t er al l yr unout , phewIt hi nkIhandl edt hat wel l . . . . ourf r i endshi pi snotbr ui sedbyt hi s, t hank goodness. Me: " phew!Whatt odonow? " It hr owmy sel font hecouchandt hengo t hr ought hechannel swhenmyphonest ar t s r i ngi ng, Icheckt heI Dandi t sgr ams, Ei shIwas postt ocal l herf i r stt hi ngy est er daybef or e t hi ngsdi dn' tgot hewayIhadi magi ned Me: " I fi ti sn' tt hebestgr annyi nt hewhol ewi l d wor l d" Gr ams: " Li sa, ubuy ani ni kant i ? " ( whenar ey ou comi ngback? ) Il augh, i ssheser i ous Me: " kodwamakhul ubendi nawei zol ooku? " ( but gr amsIwaswi t hy ouj usty est er day ? ) Shel aughsIl ov ei twhenshel aughs, i t san Angel ' sl augh Gr ams: " sendy ak' khumbul anj e"( Imi ssy ou al r eady ) Me: " aawImi ssy out oomagr ee" Shesi ghsl oud Me: " kukhoi nxhaki makhul u? . . . . ( i st her ea pr obl em gr ams? ) I tgoesqui et . . . t hi scan' tbegood, Icanal r eady senset r agedy , t hi si st hesamesi l enceIhear d whengr amswasgoi ngt ot el l memydadhas passedon Me: " makhul u. . . . . . . . . . pl ease, t al kt o me. . . . ( whi sper ) . . . i smom okay ? " Gr ams: " ( sni f f s)ay i umamakhouy aphi l a( y our mom i sf i ne) , j ustshe' snotgi v i ngupont hat bot t l e, she' ssomewher eoutt her ei nt he t av en, dr i nki ngherl i f eaway " Isi gh, al t houghI ' m usedt ot hi s, I ' m notr eal l y usedt ot hi s, mymom hasbecomeadr owni ng al cohol i cev ersi ncedadpassedawayf i v ey ear s ago Me: " ay i mnaandsazi ngokuukbasi zoy i t hi ni l ent okamamany an" ( Ir eal l ydon' tknowwhat ev erar ewet odoabout mom' spr obl em) Gr ams: " kodwake, akusi soi si zat huendi ku f onel esona" ( That ' snott her eal r easonwhyIcal l edy ou) Me: " obv i ousl y . , . . .I t scausey oumi ssedme" Shel aughsl i ght l y Gr ams: " Li sa, mnt am. . . .Iwentt ot hedoct ora f ewmont hsbackndy azuk' baakul oxeshael i hl e l okuk' xel el ael i (andt hi si spr obabl ynott hebest t i met ot el l y out hi s" ) Myhear tski psabeati nf ear Me: " i sev er y t hi ngokaygr ams?Doy ouhav et he f l uagai n?I si ty ourbonesact i ngup. . . y oudi d bl oodcheckup? " Mysuspensei sr unni ngwi l d Gr ams: " hl i saumoy al i l l y " ( cal m down, l i l l y ) It r yt ocal m down Gr ams: " Iwanty out ost udyhar dokay , don' tl et t heci t yofgol ddecei v ey ou, ungadl al i amakhwenkwe( don' tbef ool edbyboy s) , Iwant y out ogopl acesandmakesomet hi ngoutof y our sel fkodwaungasozeul i bal eaphouv el a khona( butnev erf or getwher ey oucomef r om) " Me: " o_ okaykut heni ut het hakanj e?Ngaba y onkei nt oi hambakakhl ekhonai nt oek' di ng' ba ndi y azi ? " ( whyar ey out al ki ngl i ket hi s, i st her e somet hi ngy ouwantt ot el l me? ) Gr ams: " Ihav ecancerbaby . . . . andi naxesha l i ngakanani emhl abeni (AndIdon' thav emuch t i meonear t h) Myear swentdeafev er y t hi ngj ustshutof f Gr ams: " I ' m sor r yIdi dn' tt el l y ouear l i erorov er t hehol i day s, butIj ustwant edt ospendqual i t y happyt i mewi t hy ou, Iknewy ouwoul d' v e i nsi st edi nst ay i ngher ei nst eadofgoi ngbackt o school andIcoul dn' tl ett hathappen" Me( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " howl ongdoy ouhav et o l i v e? " Gr ams( cr y i ng) : " t hr eemont hsort wo. . . . Ibur sti nt ot ear s Me: " No!No!Pl easet el l mey ouj oki ng. . .Ican' t l oosey oumakhul u. . . Ican' t ! . . . y oumyonl y f ami l y" She' scr y i ngl oudl yont heot hersi deaswel l , Gr ams: " sobuy esi t het heNana. . Il ov e y ou. . . r emembert hat " Shedr opst hecal l , t henal l t het ear scome gushi ngdownl i keawat er f al l , Ican' tbr eat h, my hear ti ssuf f ocat edandi sv er ypai nf ul l i kea t housanddagger sj ustcutr i ghtt hr oughi t . . . why me?Whydobadt hi ngsl ov ehappeni ngt ome? . Idr opmyphonet hendr oponmykneesasIcr y myey esout . . If eel someonei nf r ontofmehuggi ng me, maki ngmecr yev enmor e, hedoesn' tsay any t hi ngbutj usthol dsmet i ght erandl et ' sme cr yonhi sshoul der " Sshhhev er y t hi ngwi l l beokay " . . . commentandl i kepl ease [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: i nser t3 LI SA It r yt oopenmyey esbutt heyt ooheav yand pai nf ul " Heysl eepyhead" Imanaget oopenoneey eandIseeacl ean f r eshQui nt on Qui nt on: " Ihav et ogetgoi ng, Imadebr eakf ast , i t si nt hemi cr owav e, by e" Heki ssesmyf or eheadt henwal ks Me: " Wai t ! " Hest opsandl ooksatme Me: " whydi dn' ty ouwakeme?NowI ' l l mi ssmy mor ni ngcl ass" Qui nt on: " Idon' tt hi nky oushoul dgot oday " Me: " andsi tar oundher eanddonot hi ngand t hi nkabouthor r i bl et hi ngs" IsayasI ' mr ushi ngupanddownt r y nagetr eady bef or ehel eav esme.Iqui ckl ywashedmyf ace t hr ewi nsweatpant sbr a, v est , I ' m nowt r y naput onmyshoeswhi l ehoppi ngt ot hebat hr oom whi chi sacr ossmybedr oom, Ibr ushmyt eet h asImanaget oputononeshoe, Ir unbackt o t her oom whi l ebr ushi ngmyt eet handt akemy ot hershoeIr unbackt ot hebat hr oom, Ir i nse mymout handbef or eIknowi tI ' m al l done, Igo backt omyr oom t ogetmybag Me: " r eadyt ogo" IsayasIpasshi m Me: " ar ey ouj ustgoi ngt ost andt her e? " I ' l l bat hwhenIgetbacksoIj ustpuf f edsome per f umeandr ol l on. . . don' tj udgeme. . weal l hav eourday s Hel ooksatmewi t hhi smout hhangopen Qui nt on: " t hat ' st hequi ckestI ' v eev erseenagi r l dr essup" Me: " i fy oudon' tcl osey ourmout h, i t ' l l bet he qui ckesty ou' v eev erseenaf l ygeti nsomeone' s mout h" Hel aughst henweheadoutt ohi scar , i t ' s not hi ngf ancyj ustoneoft hoseol dgol fcar s , buti t sal l pi mpedupandv er yni ceandshi ny , he al way skeepsi tcl eanev eni nt hei nsi dewi t hr ed andbl ackl eat herseat si t sbl ackont heout si de, t her i msar et hebestt heycanr ot at ef oraf ew mi nut esaf t ert hecarhasst opped, i t ' sasexy babe. . Idon' tknowhowheaf f or dedt opi mphi s carl i ket hi s, causewel l hedoesn' tcomef r om a v er yf i nanci al l yst abl ehome, he' st ol dmeabout hi msel fbutnotmuch. . t heonl yt hi ngIknowi s t hathehat eshe' sf at herev ent houghhepassed away . . t her easonsbei ng?He' snotr eadyt ot el l me. . . buthel ov eshi smot herdear l y , I ' v enev er seenwher ehecomesf r om buthe' sf r om ar oundJo' bur g, Ionceaskedi fIcoul dv i si t wher ehi sf ami l yst ay ssi ncehesay she' smom knowsaboutmeandwhathe' sdonef or me, appar ent l yhet el l smehi sf ami l yl ov esme butwhenIaskt omeett hem hebecomedodgy maki ngupex cuses, t el l i ngmehe' sashamed andembar r assedbyt hesi t uat i onathi shome, I don' tgetwhycauseIdon' tcomef r om af ancy homeei t hersoI ' mt hel astper sont oj udge. . so I ' v est oppedaski ng, causeIguessi t sr eal l y bad, hewor kspar tt i measabar t enderat" The I mmi gr ant "ni ghtcl ubhe' ssal ar yi snotmuch buthe' ssur v i v i ng, heal sohasabur sar ypay i ng hi sf ees, It hi nkt hi sf l ati sal socost l yt he l andl or doncecameanddemandedhi sr entand att hatmont hQui nt onwasbr okesoIhel ped hi m outwi t ht hel i t t l espendi ngmoneyIget f r om mybur sar yandt hel i t t l eIgetf r om gr ams atl easti tmanagedt opayhal foft hei rr ent , I wasst ar v i ngf ort hosepastf ourorf i v emont hs causeIst ar t edusi ngmymoneyt ohel poutwi t h r ent , butQui nt onwoul dmanaget ogetaf ew t hi ngsf orust oCook, causeev ent houghwe di dn' tst ayt oget herbuthewasher emostoft he t i meonl yhe' dsl eepov erathi sf r i end Br andon, someday swe' dhav ebr eadandbut t er f orsupper , nott hatI ' m compl ai ni ngcause t hat ' st hel i f eIl i v edbackhome, buti t snot al way sbadmostt i mesi t sgood, wemanaget o buyl ot sofgr ocer i esev engoshoppi ngf or cl ot hes. . . soourst r uggl ei sshor tl i v edbut becomesv er ybad. he' snotr eal l yanopenper sonandI ' m notr eal l y ameddl i ngper sonsoi fy ousayi t snonofmy busi nessi tpr obabl yi snonofmy busi ness. . t hat ' swhyI ' m notopenwi t hhi m ei t her , l i kel astni ght , Idi dn' tt el l hi m whyIwas cr y i ngaf t erheasked, i t snonofhi sbusi ness.I wonderhowwi l l Isur v i v ewi t houtGr amsI ' l l hav enoone Idon' tknowhowt odescr i beQui nt on. . wel l he' scut e, okaymay becut ei san under st at ementhe' shot , l i kehe' st heki ndahot t hatmakesagi r l t hr obj ustbyhi ssi de smi l e. . t heki ndahott hatmakesy ougodamn mor et henf i v et i meswhenev erhecomesby andt r ybyal l meanst ocat chhi sat t ent i on. .Wel l atl eastt hat ' swhatIhearf r om ot hergi r l scause Ir eal l ydon' tcar e. . what ?Idon' t . . . . Gi r l sar eal l ov erhi ml i kel i t er al l y , t heycan' tev enpr et endt o notwantt ogetunderhi spant s!Al t houghhe nev erpay sat t ent i ont ogi r l s, wel l hedoesbut cer t ai ngi r l sandt hey ' r et hoseki ndacheer l eader beaut i f ul popul argi r l sweusual l ywat chon mov i eswhoal way sgett he" guy "nowt hati shi s t y pe. . . . he' snotser i ouswheni tcomest o r el at i onshi ps, Iwon' tev encal l t hem r el at i onshi pscausehedoesn' tst aywi t honegi r l f ormor et hanoneweekort woweeks, heget s whathewant sandl eav est hem, whenIasked whydoeshedot hi s, het ol dmehe' sj usthav i ng f unandIcan' texpecthi mt obeser i ouswi t h gi r l swhof l i r twi t hhi m atwor kwhi l emi xi ng t hem cockt ai l sandbesi dest hesegi r l sl ov et he expensi v el i f eandhe' snotaboutt obesucked dr ybysomebi t ch. . hi swor dsnotmi ne. . . Iwon' t putmy sel fdownI ' mv er ycut ei fIsayso my sel f . . *wi nkwi nk*i fIwant edt obeoneof " t hosegi r l s"i twoul dn' tbesuchahar dt askbut I ' m notaboutt hat , I ' m wayt oobusyandhav ea l i f e, t obel i ket hat , Igott hebody , y eshour gl ass ki ndbutnott heNi cki mi naj , I ' m mor emedi um boobsf l att ummy , poi nt yhi psmedi um ass, l ong butnotski nnyl egs, l i ghtgol denbr own compl exi on( y el l owbone) , Chi nesebi ggr een ey es, don' taskmehowcomeIgotgr eeney es, I don' twannar ui nmyal r eadybr ui sedmood t al ki ngaboutt hat . . Iputbl ackey escont act sno oneknowsIhav egr eeney esexceptmyf ami l y , mygr amsdoesn' tl i ket hef actt hatIhi det he col ourofmyey esshesay st heyv er ybeaut i f ul butshedoesn' tunder st and, Ihav enat ur al l ong si l khai r , I ' m hal fcol or ed, Ihopey ounowhav ea cl earv i si onofhowIl ook? Qui nt on: " , getoutofmycar " Ohweher e. Me: " Noneedt obeador kassabouti t . . . . I ' l l see y oul at er " Isayaswegetoutt hecar Qui nt on: " I ' m notwai t i ngf ory out oday , y ou' l l hav et ocal l anuberorsomet hi ng" Me( smug) : " gotahotdat e? " Qui nt on: " whydoy oual way sassumet hat ? May beIgotast udydat e. . . ev ert houghtoft hat ? " Il aughoutl oudbutf akel augh Me: " haaa!You?St udy ?Tr yagai n!" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " okayokayy ougotme, t her e' st hi shot chi ck, Br andoni nt r oducedmet ol astweek, her namei sMi nent l e, weexchangednumber s, she wasl i t er al l ycr av i ngf orme, wef l i r t edov ert he phone, unt i l shecoul dn' twai tf ormet omaket he f i r stmov et henshe. . . . guesswhat ? " Ishr ugmyshoul der s Me: " sheaskedy out omar r yher ? " ( sar casm) Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " geei t st oosoonf ort hat . . . . sheasked meout " Me: " she. . . asked. . . y ou. . . out ? " Henodspr oudl y Me: " wow, desper at emuch? " Hel aughs Qui nt on: " hey , Idon' tmi nd, sot hat ' swhatI ' l l be doi ngaf t ercl asses" Me( smi r k) : " agi r l y oudi dn' tmeetatt he cl ub. . . i nt er est i ng" Qui nt on: " ohpl ease, Idoubtshe' l l beany di f f er ent , shef l i r t edwi t hmeandaskedme out . . soshe' snodi f f er entf r om al l t heot her sI ' v e dat . . . . hadf unwi t h" Me: " mmhi fy ousayso. . .okayt henchar merboy I ' l l seey oul at er , I ' m al r eadyr unni ngl at eby e! " Ir eal i seIt hi nkI ' m act i ngwei r dorIdon' tf eel l i keIsoundedhappyf orhi m. . whi chi swei r d r i ght ?soIst oppedandl ookbackathi m Me: " goodl uckwi t ht hedat e, hopey oudon' t messt hi soneupl i ket her est " Hesmi l es Qui nt on: " goaway ! " Me: " seey oul at erRoomi e" Qui nt on: " don' tcountoni t* wi nks* . . Roomi e! " Ir unt ocl assandI ' mf i f t eenmi nut esl at e, Igosi t byt het hi r dr owf r om t hef r ont , Idon' tl i kesi t t i ng att heback, Iwon' tf ocussi nceI ' m suchabl ab mout hI ' l l easi l ygetdi st r act ed Me( whi sper ) : " heygi r l f r i end" OhIf or gott oment i onIhav eanot herbest i e besi desQui nt onhernamei sYonel a, wel l wego waaaybacksi ncehi ghschool , gr ade10. . . but weonl yf oundoutwhenwest ar t edv ar si t yt hat wewer eaccept edatt hesamev ar si t y Yonel a: " y oul at e. . . . . agai n" Sher ol l sherey es Me: " gi v emeabr eak, bet t erl at et hannot showi ngupatal l " Yonel a: " obv i ousl y , y ou' l l t akey oursi de" It r yt ol aughsi l ent l y Me: " aahh. . . .Dur r h" Ir ol l myey esandhi tmyf or eheadst upi dl y Thedaypr oceedsaswegof r om onecl asst o t henext Yonel a: " di dy ouhear ? " Wenowt aki ngawal kt omypl acei t sa wal kabl edi st ancebuti t sal soadr i v abl e di st ancebutsi ncewehav et i meandwecame outear l ysi ncemostl ect ur eswer en' tpr esenti t s onl y15: 00pm Me: " No. . . . I ' m guessi ngy ouwi l l t el l me? " Yonel a: " wehav i ngat r ansf erst udent . . . .Heor shei scomi ngt omor r ow" Howdoesshegetal l t hesenews? Me: " wowt hat ' scool . . . Iwonderwher eshe\ hei s f r om" Yonel a: " f r om Amer i caIhope. . . . andIWi shi t woul dbeav er yhandsomeguy " Shesi ghsl i keagi r l i nl ov el ooki ngup Me: " okay . . . . Ibety oudo" Yonel a: " dude, we' v eal way st al kedaboutgoi ng t oAmer i ca, mar r y i ngacut ewhi t eAmer i canguy andbei ngf i l t hysuccessf ul " Il aughasIr ememberourcr azydr eams Yonel a: " andbesi des, weneedsomeonewho wi l l out doQui nt on, hecan' tbet hehot t estguy f or ev er ! " Me( l aughi ng) : " y ouexagger at i ngnow, Ther ear e pl ent yhotguy sar ound" Yonel a: " y eahbutnotl i keQui nt on. .Comeon y ouknowwhatImean, hej usthast hat t hi ng. . . y ouknow. . . . t hatt hi ng. . . abouthi mt hat noot herhotguyhas. . Idon' tknowwhet heri t s t hebody , ort hewayheuseshi sbodyl anguage mor et hanwor ds, ort hef actt hathedoesn' t ev enhav et ot r yt ogetwhathewant sori si t t hatl azysmi l ehef l ashesev er yt i me, t hat doesn' tev enl astf i v esecondsori si tt hatcar hedr i v est hatmakeshi ml ookl i keahot gangst er . .Hav ey ounot i cedhowi mpor t anthe l ooks? , f oranav er ageguywi t hnonmuch. . . . . t hi s t r ansf erst udenthasbet t erbeal l t hat . .Orel se I ' m gonnascr eam" Me: " whoa. . cal m down, Qui nt oni snotal l t hat , I r eal l ydon' tgetwhaty ' al l seei nhi m" Yonel a: " ahaay oupr obabl yt heonl ygi r l who t hi nkst hati nt hewhol enei ghbor hood" Me: " ar gh. . . . i tdoesnthav et obeal l aboutt he l ooksal l t het i me. . t her ear emanymor et hi ngs t hatshoul dat t r actust oguy si nst eadof appear ance, wel l asl ongast heycl ean, neatand decent " Sher ol l sherey esasweent ert hegat e Yonel a: " Idon' tev enknowhowwi l l y oumange st ay i ngwi t hahunkl i ket hatunderoner oof wi t houtf ucki ngf ort henex tt hr eey ear sor r esi st i ngt hosepur pl i shl i ps" Me: " ohpl easedon' tbesodr amat i c, I ' l l manage andbesi desIdon' tseeQui nt oni nt hatway , I seehi mt hesamewayIseey ou, mybestf r i end" Yonel a: " y oohuy abor a. . . . . I ' dbegoi ngoutofmy wayt ogethi sat t ent i on, i tmustbeeasyi fy ou l i v ewi t hhi m. . . . l i key ouj ustwal kar oundt he househal fnaked, dr opy ourt owel bymi st ake af t erabat h. . . " Ibur sti nt ol aught er Me: " okay . . . I ' v ehear denough, eewwnotf or Qui nt on. . . Ev er !Si ck. . nooo" Sheal sol aughs Yonel a: " I ' mj ustt easi ngy ou, any wayenough aboutQui nt onhowar et hi ngswi t ht hat o? ( Smi r ks)Gav ehi mt hatsur pr i sewet al ked aboutdur i nghol i day s? " Me: " hehehe. . . . ubani y ena? . . . . i nst eadIgott he sur pr i seofmyl i f e. . . . If oundhi m bangi ng anot herbi t ch" Herey esandmout hwi deni nshock Yonel a: " what ! ?Af t ert womont hsy onke. . . I r eal l yt houghthewast heone" Il aughoutl oud Me: " y oumakei tsoundl i ket woy ear s" Yonel a: " t hat ' swher eIt houghti twasl eadi ng" Me: " mx m, y ouknow, guy sl oosei nt er esti nme qui ckl y , IwonderwhatIdowr ong, becausei t s notl i keIev engi v et hem mypussysoIcan' tsay hegotwhathewant ed?Ormay bei t sbecauseI don' tgi v et hem? " Yonel a: " okayy oushutupr i ghtt her e, i t snot hi ng y oudowr ong, i t sev er y t hi ngy oudor i ght , heyy ou hav en' tbeendat i ngt hatmuch, Imeany ouonl y st ar t eddat i ngi nmat r i candaf t erhi my ou' v e onl ydat edt hr eeguy s, soI ' m sur ey ouj ust hav en' tbumpedi nt ot hegent l emany et " Me: " butt heyal l seem l i kesuchgent l emeni n t hebegi nni ng" Yonel a: " babe, pl easedon' tt hi nkmuchabout t hat , andr emembert hi s, . . . don' ty ouev erbl ame y our sel ff oramancheat i ngorl eav i ngy ou, I meanl ookaty ou, y oubeaut i f ul l ysexy , y ou ambi t i ous, y ousoi nt el l i gentandf ocused. . . .I guessy out oomuchf ort hesel oser st ohandl e" If l ashahugesmi l eather Me: " y oual way shav et her i ghtt hi ngst osay , . .I l ov ey ousomuch" Yonel a: " Il ov ey out oo, nowwi t hal l t hatl ov ei n y ouf orme, woul dy oubeadar l i ngandmakeus somef ood. . . I ' m st ar v i ng, I ' l l gohomeabi tl at e, I don' tf eel l i kecooki ng" Il ookatheri ndi sbel i ef Me: " di dn' tknowIopenedar est aur ant" Igetupl aughi ngmyphonev i br at esi nmy pocketIchecki toutandi t saWhat sAppf r om Qui nt on Qui nt on: ar ey ouokay ?Gothomesaf e? Me: I ' m good, y esal l saf e, how' st hedat egoi ng? He' sal r eadyt y pi ng Qui nt on: i t ' samaz i ng, she' samazi ngLi sa, It hi nk shemi ghtj ustmakei tf ort woweeks Il augh Me: wow, shemust ' v emadequi t et he i mpr essi onhuh Qui nt on: Iact ual l ywoul dl i key out omeett hi s one It akeaf ewmi nut esbef or eanswer i ng Me: oh. . r eal l y ? . . .I nt hatcaseIcan' twai tt omeet her Heanswer squi ckl y Qui nt on: It hi nkImi ghtact ual l yl i keher Me: wel l wel l wel l , i fi ti sn' tMrt oocool f or l ov e, l ookaty ouf al l i ng, ont hef i r stdat e! Qui nt on: shutup, Isai dl i keher . .andIsai dI ' t hi nk' I' mi ght ' l i keher . . .Noonesai dany t hi ng aboutl ov e Me: " mhm we' l l seeaboutt hat . . . l et ' sbet ? . . . y ou' l l f al l f orher Qui nt on: Iwon' t . . .I t sabett hen, IknowI ' l l wi n, we' l l di scussmyr ewar dwhenIgethome Me: hahaha. . . . okayaf t eramont ht hough Qui nt on: Idoubti twi l l ev enl astt hatl ong, doy ou knowt hedi f f er encebet weenamont handt wo weeks? Me: I ' l l keepmyf i nger scr ossed Qui nt on: ohshuuher eshecomes, by e Me: by e. . . . * whi sper * . . y ouf al l i ng Hedoesn' tr eadorr espond Icar r yonmaki ngf oodasI ' m aboutt of i ni shmy phonev i br at es Qui nt on: st opsay i ngt hat ! . . .don' twai tup f orme. . . . Ij ustscor edj ackpot ! Me: dude!Toomuchi nf o . . enj oy ! Iputmyphoneawayt henheadt ot hel ounge wher ey onel aal r eadymadeher sel fcomf or t abl e Me: " y oucansl eepov ert oni ght . . .Pl ease" Shesmi r ks Yonel a: " wi l l Qui nt onbeher esoon? " Me: " uhm, . . . . f or t unat el ynope, he' snotcomi ng backt oni ght" Hersmi l edi sappear s Yonel a: " aawwwIwasal r eadyt hi nki ngofusi ng t hoset i psIt ol dy ouear l i er . . . wal ki nghal f naked. . . mi st akenl ydr oppi ngt owel s. . whi l e pl ay i ngRi hanna' ssong. ( sheget supandst ar t s si gni nganddanci ng) . . . don' tknowi fy ou coul dt akei t . . . Knowy ouwannaseemenakey , nakey , naked Iwannabey ourbaby , baby , baby .. . wi l dwi l d wi l dt hought s" Webur sti nt ol aught er . . . Thi sgi r l i si nsane! . . . pl easeshar e, commentandl i ke [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: I nser t4 LI SA Whatabeaut i f ul dayi ti st oday , t hesuni sout t hebi r dsar echi r pi ng. . . .Butdamnt he t emper at ur esar et oohi gh, t hesuni sbl azi nghot . Toobadwehav et oat t endcl asses, wej ust f i ni shedf r esheni ngup, Iwor emyshor tr edand bl ackscot chski r tandapl ai nwhi t eshor tsl eev e f or mal shi r tandal l st ar , y onel acombedmyhai r andt i edi ti nt oamessybunl eav i ngt heshor t par t sofmyhai rt or unl ooseal ongt hesi des wi t hmybabyhai r , shel ef therhai rl ooseweput somel i pst i ck, wecal l edanuber Yonel a: " sohowdoIl ook? " Wej ustar r i v edi ncampus Thi si st hehundr edt ht i meshe' saski ngmet hi s Me: " y oul ookgood" Ir ol l myey es Yonel a: " j ustgood? " Me: " dudey oul ooknor mal , y oul ook gr eat , beaut i f ul " Yonel a: " ar ey ousur e" Me: " geezy es. . . .Uzov el euj al ekuv el ekubey i nt ombi l eTr ansf erst udent "( t hi st r ansf er st udentmi ghtbeagi r l ) Shegasp Yonel a: " y oohpl easedon' tsayt hat . . . . l et ' sst ay posi t i v eher e" Me: "howdi dy ouev enknowt her e' sgonnabea t r ansf erst udent ? " Yonel a: " wewer et ol dbef or ey oucamet o cl ass, he' l l bedoi ngt hesamecour seswedoi ng" Me: " sohe' saf or ei gner ? " Yonel a: " y eap" Me: " ay i okayl et ' sgett ocl asst hen" Wewentt ocl assandt hel essonspr oceeded Wewer enowont hel astcl assoft hedayand myf r i endher ewasabi tdi sappoi nt ed Me: " may behe' l l st ar tnextweek" Yonel a: " ar ghaf t erIputi nsomuchef f or t " Il aughatherexpr essi on Me: " Idon' tknowwhyy oust r essi ngy our sel f , i t s notl i key oudon' thav eaboy f r i end. . . byt heway howi sChr i s? " Asmi l ecr epedonherf ace Yonel a: " he' sokay " Me: " okay ? " Yonel a: " ar ghhe' sj ustt ooper f ectf ormyl i ki ng, he' st oosweet , t oor omant i c, i t si r r i t at i ng somet i mes, ev er y dayIl ov ey ou, y oubeaut i f ul , myangel , r omant i cpoems, i t ' sl i kewehav e not hi ngel set ot al kaboutbesi deshi m pr ai si ng me. . . . y ooohi t sdr i v i ngmenut sandbor ed" I ' m nowl aughi ngmygut sout , shewai t sf orme t of i ni shbutIcan' tbr i ngmy sel ft ost op, sowe wal kt ocl asswi t hmel aughi ngather , t i l l shegot i r r i t at ed Af t ercl asswepar t edway s. Idon' thav eenoughmoneyf oruber , Ei sht he begi nni ngsoft hemont h, Ihat ei t .Ist ar twal ki ng whenacarst opsnextt omebutIdon' tl ookI j ustpi ckupt hepace " MayIgi v ey ouar i depl easepr et t yLady ? " Thatv oi ce, Iknowi t , soIt ur nt ol ook Me: " ar ghi t sj usty ou" Ij umpi nhi scart henwedr i v ehome Qui nt on: " howbor i ngwast hehousewi t hout me? " Me: " t hat ' swhaty out hi nk?Shame, Ihadt het i me ofmyl i f e. . Iwashopi ngy ou' dspendanot her ni ghty az, whydi dn' ty ouany way ? " Qui nt on: " wow, y ousomean, pl easegetoutmy car " Il aughathi schi l di shr eact i on, t henIr emember mydr eam l astni ghtwaspr et t ywei r dandscar y Me: " Q? " Qui nt on: " L" Me: " Ihadav er yst r angedr eam l astni ght " Qui nt on: " Iknewmyabsenceaf f ect edy ou somehow. . . . whatwasi tabout ? " Weehay i t hi si di ot Me: " what ev er . . . . i twasabouty ourmot her " Hekeepsqui etashepar kst hecari nf r ontof t hehouset henl ooksatme Qui nt on: " buty ou' v enev erev enmetmymom" Me: " y eahbi tI ' v eseenpi ct ur es" Qui nt on: " oh. . . car r yon" Me: " i twasl i keshewasshout i ngf orhel pbut wheny out r i edt ogetcl osert ohel phert hemi st woul dgr owmor eandmor eunt i l y oucoul dn' t seeherany mor e, y oubr okedownandcr i ed t heny ousai dashor tpr ay er , t hat ' swhent he mi stdi sappear edandy ourmot hercameback smi l i ng. ." Qui nt on: " soy out hi nksomet hi ngl i ket hatwi l l happen? " Me: " No, i twasj ustadr eam, i tki ndascar edme, I j usthadt oshar ei t " Hel ooksatmef orawhi l ewi t hhi sl azysi de smi l e, Iki ndahat ei twhenhest ar esi nt omy ey esi tmakesmeshy , butIcan' tl ookawayI hav et okeept heey econt actcauset henhewi l l t hi nkIl i kehi mi n" t hatway "orsomet hi ng, whi chIdon' t ! Wegeti nsi det hehousei mmedi at el ywhenwe geti nsi deweheadf ort hef r i dge, i t sourhabi t , weopeni tandst ar ef orawhi l e, Igr abwat er t ur nsoutheal sogr abswat ersohi shandi son mi ne Me: " Ihel di tf i r st " Qui nt on: " butI ' m mor et hi r st y " Me: " l etgoQIwannadr i nk" Qui nt on: " l et ' spl ayr ockpapersci ssor sf ori t " Me: " f i ne" Hi m&I : " r ockpapersci ssor s!" Het hr ewar ockandIapapersoIwon Qui nt on: " cheat er " Me: " t hatwaseasy " IsayasIpourmy sel fi nagl asst hengi v ehi m buthedeci dest odr i nkoutt hebot t l e. .Ihat e t hat Me: " ar ghmanQui nt on, y out hi nkI ' m cr azywhen Ipouri nagl ass, ay i dudet hat ' ssodi sgust i ng, I al sodr i nkt hatwat ernxaaahga" Ist or m outoft heki t chent omyr oom " I ' m Soor r r y y y ! ! " Heshout s " Shutuuuup! ! " Ishoutback He' ssoi r r i t at i ngsomet i mes, Ichangei nt o somet hi ngmor ecomf or t abl el i keshor t sand pl ai nl ooseshi r twi t hnobr a, i t st oohotf ort hat andi t snotl i keI ' m goi ngany wher e, It hr ow my sel font hecouchi nt hel oungewher e Qui nt oni swat chi ngcr i cket , Il ov et hi sspor t , wel l If i r stdi dn' tl i kei tcauseInev erunder st oodof unt i l heexpl ai nedi tt omeandhewoul dwat ch i tal l t het i meunt i l Igr ewt ol ov ei tt oo.Il aymy whol ebodyont hecouchandputmyl egsonhi s l ap. Me: " f ootr ubpl ease? " Qui nt on: " No" He' sf ocusedont hegame Me: " pr et t ypl easeorwechangi ngt hechannel causeIwantt owat cht her eal now" Hedoesn' tl i ket hatshow, hel ooksatmewi t ha f r ownt henst ar t smassagi ngmyf eet Me: " mmmh. . t hanks" Icl osemyey esnextt hi ngIknowI ' mt hi nki ngof mygr amsandev er y t hi ngshet ol dme, Il ov eher somuch, Ican' taf f or dt ol oosehersosoonIst i l l wanthert ol i v esot hatwhenI ' m successf ul she wi l l beabl et oseeal l t hatandbepr oudofme, I wantt of l our i shherwi t hal l t heni cet hi ngsshe deser v es, nowshewon' tev enbet her ewhenI gr aduat e If eel Qui nt onmov i ngcl osert omenextt hi ngI knowI ' m si t t i ngonhi sl ap Qui nt on: " heey y , don' tcr y " Hewi pesmyt ear s, Idi dn' tev enr eal i seIwas cr y i ngsoIal sowi pedt hem, hepul l smei nt ohi s embr ace, hi sscentf i l l smeup. . . t hi sguysmel l s ofmoneyandpower , Idon' tknowhowbut , he smel l sofmoney , whi chdoesn' tmakeany sensecausehe' snot hi ngcl oser i ch, somet i mes hecan' tev enusehi scarbecauseofpet r ol expenses Qui nt on: " t el l mewhat ' sbot her i ngy ou. . . whyar e y oucr y i ng? " Ishakemyhead Qui nt on: " i si tt hesamer easony ouwer ecr y i ng t heot herday ? " Inod Qui nt on: " y ouknowy oucant al kt omer i ght ? " Me: " y eah. . " Isi ghl etmej ustt el l hi m al t houghIdon' tl i kei twhenpeopl ef eel sor r yf or me Me: " i t sj ust . . . t heot herdayIgotacal l f r om my gr ams. . . . . . .She. . . shet ol dme. . " Hi sphonedi st ur bsmehet akesi tand " pr i ncess"f l ashesonhi sscr eent hat ' shi ssi st er Qui nt on: " sor r y , canIt aket hi s? " Inod Qui nt on: " hel l o, candr a" . . . . Qui nt on: " whoawhoacal m down, wher ear e y ' al l ? " . . . . Qui nt on: " I ' l l bet her ei naf ew" Hedr opst hecal lIgetof fhi sl ap Me: " whathappened! ?" Hequi ckl yputonhi sshi r tsi ncehewas shi r t l ess Qui nt on: " somet hi nghappenedt omom. . . Ihav e t ogo" Me: " I ' m comi ngwi t hy ou" IsayasIl ookar oundf orshoesIf i ndt hem and sl i pi nt omysl eeper s Qui nt on: " Noy oust ayher e" Me: " No!I ' m comi ngwi t hy ouQui nt on, endof di scussi on!" Hewasi nar ushsohedi dn' tar guewi t hme Qui nt on: " l ockt hedoor " Il ocked, hei sdr i v i ngl i keamani ac Me: " sl owdown, pl ease!" Di dhel i st ent ome?Li kehel l . . . wegott ot he hospi t al , butt hi swasapr i v at ehospi t al Me: " y ousur et hi si st her i ghthospi t al ?" Hei gnor esmeaswer ushi nsi det ot he r ecept i on Qui nt on: " Mr sO' Br i en" Recept i oni st : " t hedoct ori sst i l l at t endi ngher pl easewai tbyt hewai t i ngar ea" Wewal kt ot hewai t i ngar eawhenIseea beaut i f ul y ounggi r l , she' sdr essedsi mpl ebut l ooksl i keami l l i ondol l ar , whol ooksexact l yl i ke Qui nt on, t heyhugeachot her , t henshel ooksat mewi t hbl oodshotey esl i keshe' sbeencr y i ng shecomesandhugsmet oomor el i ke squeezesmel i keshe' smi ssedmesomuch, buti tmyf i r stt i memeet i ngher Her : " y oumustbeLi sa" Me: " y oumustbeCandr a" Shegi v esmeaweaksmi l e IknewQui nt onhasasi st erandt wobr ot her s butIdi dn' tt hi nkt hey ' dl ookt hi smuchal i ke Me: " wher ear ey ourot herbr ot her s" Candr a: " t heyov er seas, sot heycan' tcome" ov er seas?Idi dn' tknowt hat , howcant hey af f or dt obeov er seas? Me: " oh? . . whatar et heydoi . . . . . Doct or : " goodev eni ng" Qui nt on: " i ssheokay ?Whathappened?I sshe awake? " Candr a: " canweseeher " Doct or : " shehadahear tf ai l ur e, butwe managedt ost abi l i zeher , buti tmi ghtt akesome t i mebef or eshewakesup, she' si nami nor coma" Candr abr okedownbutQui nt onr emai ned nor mal , Candr a' scr ymademeshedt ear st ooas Iwasembr aci ngher Qui nt on: " canweseeher ? " Thedoct orl eadust oherwar d, wher eshewas l ay i ngt her el i f el ess, Candr abr okedownev en mor eIwascal m butt het ear swer est r eami ng down, Icoul dn' tr eadQui nt onhewas emot i onl ess Candr at al kedt ohermot hersheshewasdone sheaskedt ol eav e, shel ef t , Iwasnowwi t h Qui nt onandhi smot her Me: " ar en' ty ougoi ngt osaysomet hi ng?" Hei gnor edme, hegotupandki ssedher f or eheadt henwal kedout , Ir emai nedi nt her e al onewi t hher Me: " i twasni cef i nal l ymeet i ngy ouMr sO' Br i en, al t hought hi si snott hebestway , Ipr ayt haty ou wakeupv er ysoon" Il ookedathershei ssobeaut i f ul she' s whi t e( r ace)wi t hdar kbl ackhai r Ist oodupandwentt ot hecarwher eQui nt on waswai t i ngf ormehewassi t t i ngont hebonnet f aci ngdown, Iwentandst oodi nf r ontofhi m, I l i f thi sf aceandf oundhe' scr y i ngsoIj ust embr acedhi m Me: " sshhhev er y t hi ngwi l l beokay " Hehel dmear oundmywai stt hengotdown f r om t hecart ohugmepr oper l yaf t erawhi l ehe l etgoandputhi shandsi nhi spocket Qui nt on: " t hanky ou" Me: " f or ? " Qui nt on: " ev er y t hi ng" Ij ustsmi l ecauseIknowwhathemeans Me; " whatar eRoomi esf or " He' ssmi l edi sappear ed Qui nt on: " l et ' sgetgoi ngRoomi e, y oust i l l owe meanexpl anat i on" Ihopedhe' df or getaboutt hat , Idon' tf eel l i ke t al ki ngabouther , especi al l ynowt hatt hi swhol e t hi ngofhi smot herj usthappened, oneofus hast obest r ong, wecan' tbot hbeemot i onal l y weakl i ket hi s . . . . pl easel i keandcomment , ment i onandshar e i fcomment sar eboomi ng, I ' l l dr opanot her i nser tl at er [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: cont i nuat i on LI SA Bef or ehest ar t st hecarheasksme Qui nt on: " sot el l me, whywer ey oucr y i ng? " Isi gh Me: " mygr ams, shet ol dmeshehadgonet osee adoct oraf ewmont hsbackandshe.. . . . she f oundt hatshehascancer , Iguessi thadal r eady spr eadsi ncesheal r eadyhasl i mi t edday st o l i v e. . . . . . shewi l l di eQui nt on. . . .Shewi l l di eand l eav emeal onei nt hi scr uel wor l d. . . I ' l l hav eno one" Iwi pet het ear sst eami ngdownhewi pest hem t oot henhugsmeIcr yonhi sshoul der Qui nt on: " I ' m sosor r yt oheart hat , Ihadnoi dea y ouwer ecar r y i ngsuchal oad, y ouwon' tbe al one, I ' l l ber i ghther e, I ' l l al way sber i ghther e wi t hy ou, t hr oughi tal l , i twon' tal way sbel i ke t hi s, we' l l makei tt hr ough, st r uggl esdon' tl ast f or ev er " I ' m nowcal m soIgetof fhi sembr ace Me: " Idon' tknowwhatI ' dbewi t hout y ou. . . t hanksf orev er y t hi ng, y oumyev er y t hi ng" Qui nt on: " y oumeanabi gpar tofmyl i f enow Li sa, soI ' ddoany t hi ngt okeepy ouhappy , and t oni ghtIwantust oj ustbecar ef r ee" Me: " whatdoy oumean? " Wedr ov ehomei nsi l ence, whenhesuddenl y par kedt hecari nf r ontofapub Me: " andt hen?" Qui nt on: " i t sFr i day , comeonl et ' sdi st r essal i l " Me: " Q, Idon' tt hi nkt hi si st her i ghtt i met obe. . . . . " Hedoesn' twai tf ormet of i ni shwhenhej umps of f , Ial sogetof fandf ol l owhi m.Wegett her e andsi tbyt hechai r sopposi t et hebar Qui nt on: " gi v eust enshot s" Ir ai semybr owsathi m war ni ngl yhewi nks Me: " Qui nt ondoy ouknowhowexpensi v et hese ar e? " Qui nt on: " comeonl i v eal i t t l ewi l l y ou" Me: " y oucandr i nk, butoneofushast obesober t odr i v e" Qui nt on: " comeononl yf i v eshot st hatwon' tget y oudr unk" Me: " NoQui nt on" Qui nt on: " pl ease" Hegi v esmet hosepuppyey es, Ihat ei t , he' st ooo cut e Ishakemyhead, I ' m notf al l i ngf ort hoseagai n Qui nt on: " I ' l l doany t hi ngy ouwantmet odof or r estoft hemont h" Hebl i nkscont i nuousl ycur v i nghi sl i psupsi de down Me: " any t hi nghuh? " Qui nt on: " any t hi ngt hat ' sev er y t hi ng" Me: " wai t " It akeoutmyphonef r om mypockett hengot o v oi cer ecor dIputi tnearhi smout h Me: " whatwast hat ? " Hel aughs Qui nt on: " I ' l l doany t hi ngy ouwantmet odo" Me: " any t hi ngt hat ' s?" Qui nt on: " ev er y t hi ng" Me: " pr omi se? " Qui nt on: " Ipr omi sey oul i l l y " Me: " good" Ist opandsav ei tt henputmyphoneback, I ' m sogoi ngt ot akeadv ant ageoft hatpr omi se Theshot scameandwest ar t edr aci ngonwho wi l l f i ni shf i r st , hebeatmecauseIcoul dn' tst and t het ast eIwasst i l l onmyt hi r dshotwhenhe f i ni shedal l hi sf i v e Qui nt on: " wow, ar ey ouev ent r y i ng? " Me: " i t sbi t t er " Heaskedf orl emons Qui nt on: " her e, t hi swi l l makei tbet t er " Isuckedt hel emonandi twasni ce Me: " l et ' sgoagai n, l astt i mesot hatIbeaty ou" Qui nt on: " can' ty ouacceptdef eat ? " Me: " y ouknowt hatai n' tme" Wedr ankmor enextt hi ngIknowt hedr i nksar e j ustcomi ng, If el tmyey esget t i ngheav yandmy headspi nni ngabi tIt r i edt ost andt ot esthow dr unkIam soIwentt ouset her est r oom. Icameback Me: " Q? " Hewast r y i ngt ogetr i doft wogi r l swhower e t hr owi ngt hemsel v esathi m Qui nt on: " l adi es, pl ease, Ihav eagi r l f r i end" Hekeptonl aughi ng, he' sdr unk Gi r l 1: " Idon' tseeherany wher e" If eel hi m pul l met ost andi nf r ontofhi mt hen wr appedhi sar msar oundmef r om behi nd, I wasnowf aci ngt hesegi r l s Qui nt on: " t her eshei s, mybeaut i f ul gi r l f r i end. . . . Ri ghtbeaut i f ul gi r l f r i endofmi ne? " Inod Me: " y eapmybeaut i f ul boy f r i end" Gi r l 2: " Idon' tbel i ev ey ' al l , y ouj ustwannagetr i d ofus" Qui nt ont ur nedmear oundandhi scol dl i ps smashedonmi neIki ssedhi m backIf el tmy whol ebodyshi v ermyal r eadyweakknees coul dn' tt akei t , hebr okei taf t erawhi l el eav i ng mebr eat hl essandki ndofwant i ngmor e?No y oudon' twantmor eLi say oudon' t , i nf acty ou r egr ett hi s, y oushoul dnotl eti thappenagai n, y ouhat ehi mf ort hi s, andnowy oushoul dst op st ar i ngathi sl i ps. . . Goshwhat ' swr ongwi t hme? Qui nt on( l ooki ngi nt omyey es) : " doy oubel i ev e usnow? " Gi r l 1: " wesosor r y , we' l l l eav ey ' al l be" Wewer est i l l st ar i ngateachot herwedi dn' t ev enseet hem l eav e Qui nt on: " l et ' sgetoutofher e" Me: " wher et o? " Qui nt on: " y ou' l l see, t oni ghtt heci t yr unsbyour r ul es" Me: " Okay ? " Qui nt on( i nspi r at i onal v oi ce) : " NoIneedy out o bel i ev ei t , t oni ghtt heci t yi sour s" Me( unsur e) : " t oni ghtt heci t yi sour s? " Qui nt on: " l ouderandbel i ev ei ny our sel f ! " Me( l ouder ) : " Toni ghtt heci t yi sour ! ! ! " Ishout ed Qui nt on: " t hat ' st hespi r i t , l et ' sgopai ntt heci t y r ed" Wer ushedoutoft hepubt ot hecar Me: " butIwanti tor ange" Qui nt on: " f i ne. . . l et ' smakei tf ai r , we' l l pai nti tr ed andor ange" Me: " f ai renough" Wel aughatourst upi di t y , goshwedr unk, he speedsof fandf ort hef i r stt i meI ' m enj oy i ngt he speedIf eel socar ef r eel i keIhav eni cel i f e pr obl ems Wedr i v et oSandt onci t ymal l Me: " t hi spl acei sf orr i chpeopl e, Idon' tt hi nkwe shoul dr ul et hi ssi deoft heci t y " Qui nt on: " t hewhol eci t yi sour snowcome" Hepar kedt hecart henwewal kedpassi ng someshops, mostwer eal r eadycl osedaf ew wer eopen Qui nt on: " t her eani cej ewel r yst or e" Wewenti nsomev er ybeaut i f ul st or e, wi t hhi gh secur i t y Wewer el ooki ngar ound, y ooht hepr i cesofal l t hesedi amondneckl essesandr i ngsar eonsky hi ghl ev el , t her e' st hi sspeci f i cr i ngt hatcaught myey e, i t ssooost unni ngbutdamni t s800000 Theyar emad Ican' tst opst ar i ngati tgoeswi t haneckl ess whi chi s500000 Me( t al ki ngt omy sel f ) : " dopeopl eev enbuy t heser i di cul ousl yexpensi v et hi ngs" Qui nt on: " ev er y day " Hest ar t l edme Me: " If or goty ouwer eher e" Qui nt on: " Iseey oul i ket hatone" Il ookati toncemor e Me: " naahdi amondsar enotmyt hi ng" Qui nt on: " y eahr i ght . . di amondsar ebestf r i ends wi t hgi r l s. . . wai ti si tgi r l sar ef r i endsof di amonds, f r i endshi pi si nbet weent hegi r l and di amonds. . . .What ev er . .Buty eaht hesay i nghas gi r l sanddi amondsandf r i endsi ni t " I ' ml aughi ngmygut sout Me: " i t s. . . adi amondi sagi r l ' sbestf r i end" Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " y eahy eah. . . . sowhatwas t hepoi ntoft hi sconv er sat i onagai n? " Ishr ugmyshoul der s Me: " l et ' sgetoutofher e, i t st ooshi ny " Qui nt on: " y eahi t sbl i ndi ngme" Wewal koutl aughi ngatsweetnot hi ng Wegotoutoft hemal l t henwentt osomeni ce shopar oundt own Qui nt on: " l ookf orany t hi ngy oul i keher e, j ust onet hi ngt hough" Me: " okay , l et ' sdot hi sIneedanewsmal l bagt o f i tmyt extbooks" Weheadt ot hebagsbutev er y t hi ngi nt hi sshop i sexpensi v e Me: " t heyt ooexpensi v eQui nt on" Qui nt on: " whi chonedoy oul i ke? " Me: " t hi sone" Het akesi t Me: " Qui nt on, t hi si sR500, west i l l needt obuy gr ocer i es, r emember" Qui nt on: " It ol dy ou, t heci t yi sour st oni ght , our r ul es" Hepi tt hebagar oundhi m Qui nt on: " t akemyhand" It ookhi shandandhehel dmet i ght Qui nt on: " y oucanr unr i ght ? " Me: " y eah, why ? " Hepul l smeandwewal kt owar dst hedoor Me( whi sper ) : " Qwehav et opay " Heshushesmewegetoutoft hest or et hent he al ar m goesof f Hest ar t sr unni ngIf i r sthesi t at e Me: " Qui nt on! . .Wai t . . no. . what . . y oh" Isawsecur i t ycomi ngImadear unf ori t f ol l owi ngQui nt onIr anasf astandf arasmy l egscoul dt akeme Secur i t y : " st op!St op! " Iwaskeepst umbl i ngcauseI ' m st i l l dr unk. . . we l ostt hesecur i t y Butwekeptonr unni ngIsawQui nt onsl owi ng downbutmyl egscoul dn' tl etmeIpassedhi m asIwasr unni ngf ormyl i f e " Li sa! !Wai t !Sl owdown, wel ostt hem" Fearov er t ookmeIcoul dn' tst opi tf el tl i ket he secur i t ywasr i ghtbehi ndme, If el tsomeone gr abmyar m al mostmaki ngmef al l buthe caughtmeandl ockedmei nt ohi sar ms Qui nt on: " Isai dsl owdown" Iwasbr eat hi ngv er yheav i l y , Ihadsomany quest i onsIwant edt oaskhi m, butIj ustl aughed i nst eadhel aughedt ooIcr ackedupand l aughedr eal l yhar dwebot hf el l ont hegr ound onourbut t sandl aughedourbut t sout Me: " t hat . . . .Was. . . . . so. . . . f un! ! ! " Wecont i nuedl aughi ng Qui nt on: " Iknewy ou' dl i kei t " Me: " l i kei t ? . . . . Il ov edi t , whoawhatat hr i l l " Qui nt on: " y out hebest " Me: " weshoul dnev ergot ot hatsi deoft own agai n, I ' m sur et hey ' l l seei sont hecamer a f oot age. . . ." Qui nt on: " we' l l bemostwant ed" Il aughedathowcool hemadet hatsoundwhen i t sact ual l yabadt hi ng Me( l aughi ng) : " I ' l l got oj ai l ! " Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " mi ghtbesent encedf or y eeear s" Me( l aughi ng) : " myl i f ei sov er . . . Icanj ustf or get aboutgr aduat i ng" Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " goodby edr eams" Me( l aughi ng) : " hel l oor angej umpsui t " Wel aughi ngsohar dr i ghtnowbutwear ei n deepshi twel eav et hecar , Qui nt oncal l sanuber causewet ooscar edt ogobackf ort hecar Wenowi nt heuberwebot hsatatt heback Me: " hel l oMrbusdr i v er " Dr i v er : " hel l o" Qui nt on: " t hi si snotabus?I si t ? " Webustoutl aughi ng Dr i v er : " wher et o? " Me: " Ei sh, pl easej ustt akeushomeneh" Dr i v er : " okay , andwher ei st hat ? " Qui nt on: " byourhouse. . .Dur h" Hel ooksatmeasi fhe' saski ngi fi st hedr i v er " okay " Il aughathi m Dr i v er : " pl easet el l met henameoft hel ocat i on" Me: " byQui nt onandLi sa' spl ace" Wekeepl ooki ngateachot herandl augh Dr i v er : " I ' m gonnahav et oasky ' al l t opl ease j umpof fi fy oucan' tt el l mey ourl ocat i on" Qui nt on: " okayokaygeeznoneedt ober ude abouti t " Me: " y eah. . wepai dmoneykal oku" Qui nt on: " y ouhav e? " Me: " y ouhav en' t ?" heshr ugshe' sshoul der s Wel aughagai n, shi tal cohol makesusdumb Qui nt ongi v est hedr i v ert hel ocat i oni nt heGPS si ncewecan' tdi r ecthi m hest ar t edt hecarand dr ov e Qui nt on: " soMrbusdr i v er , whati si tt haty ou do, l i kef oral i v i ng? " Me: " whatt hef uck?Hedr i v esanuberhel l o? " Qui nt on: " ohy eah, okayf i ne, . . . sohowi si tl i ke bei ngadr i v er ? " Me: " t hesamewayi t sl i kewheny oudr i v e y our sel f" Qui nt on: " mmhokayt hatmustbepr et t y awesomet hen" Me: " notev er y onespeedsl i key ou" Qui nt on: " doy ouhav eagi r l f r i end? " Me: " ofcausehedoes, l ookathi m, he' sa char mer " Qui nt on: " ar ey out hedr i v ernow? " Me: " doIl ookl i keadr i v ert oy ou? " Qui nt on: " y ounotsoshutupandl ett hedr i v er s hav eaconv oher e" Me: " Icandr i v et ooay i bo" Qui nt on: " sohav ey ouev erbeeni nj ai l ? " Bef or eIcoul danswerQui nt onputhi shands ov ermymout hbl ocki ngmef r om t al ki ng Qui nt on: " sohav ey ou" Dr i v er : " nott hatIr emember " Qui nt on: " y ousur e, causey oul ookl i kesomeone whosebeent her e" It r yt ot al kbuthet i ght enshi sgr i nov ermy mout h Hedoesn' tanswerImanaget or emov ehi s handf r om mymout h Me: " i fy ouhav epl easet el l ushowi t ' sl i ke, we mi ghtbegoi ngt her esoon" Dr i v er : " what ? " Hesoundedshocked Me: " don' twor r ywehi dourt r ackst hey ' l l nev er f i ndi t " Qui nt onl ooksatmeandsmi l es Qui nt on: " y eahImeanwedi sposedi twher eno onewi l l ev erf i ndi t " Dr i v er : " whatexact l ydi dy ' al l do? " Me: " wer eal l ywoul dl i ket ot el l y oubut . . . " Qui nt on: " y oucan' tl i v et ot el l t het al e" Dr i v er : " ar ey ' al l mur der s? " Icoul dsenset hef eari nhi sv oi ce Me: " wechoosenott ol abel our sel v es" Qui nt on: " y eah. . soy ou' v ebeent oj ai l bef or e? " Dr i v er : " er r my eah. . buti twasf orassaul t , Ionl y spentoneni ghti nacel l soIwon' tsayI ' v ebeen i nj ai l " Me: " soy ou' v ebeent oj ai l but Qui nt on: " notr eal l yi nt oj ai l j ai l " Hest opst hecarandwe' v er eachedhome Me( si ngi ng) : " " Thanky ouMr .Busdr i v er , bus dr i v er , busdr i v er .Thanky ouMr .Busdr i v erf or t hesaf er i de, causey ourf r i endsar emyf r i ends, andmyf r i endsar ey ourf r i ends, t hanky ouMr . Busdr i v erf ort hesaf er i de. " Dr i v er : " pl easegetoutofmycar " Hesoundedsacr edandi r r i t at ed Qui nt on: " heey y y , y ouwi l l notgetmymoneyi f y oudon' tbeni ce" Dr i v er : " y oucankeepy ' al l di r t ymoney " Me: " notev enat hanky ouMrbusdr i v er ?af t erI sangsobeaut i f ul l y" Qui nt on: " l et ' sgobabehedoesn' tdeser v ei t , he shoul dbear r est edf ornothav i ngmanner s" wegotof f, hedr ov eof fi naspeedofl i ght eni ng Qui nt on: " l ooksl i kesomeonewi l l begoi ngback t oj ai l t oni ght , f orr eckl essdr i v i ng" Webur sti nt ol aught eraswemakeourway i nsi de, wecan' tev enkeepi tdown, I ' m sur et he dr i v erwasi r r i t at edbyt hemi l l i onquest i onswe wer easki nghi m whi chIwasanswer i ngbyt he way Ij umponQui nt on' sbackf orapi ggyr i debutwe bot hf al l f l at Me( l aughi ng) : " ooouuuch" Qui nt on: " whatt hehel l wer ey out r y i ng? " Me: " Iwant edy out ocar r ymebedI ' mt i r edof st umbl i ng" Wel aughandhel peachot herup, hepi ggyr i de met ot her oom butheadst ohi sr oom i nst ead, wef al l ont hebed Qui nt on: " whatani ght ! " Me: " wer eal l ypai nt edt heci t yr ed" Qui nt on; " we' l l bepai nt i ngi tor angei nj ai l somet i me" Webur stoutl aughi ng . . . pl easeshar et hi spageguy si tneedsl i kes [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: I nser t5 LI SA Me: " daddy ! ! ! " Ir anupt ohi m andhescoopsmeupandspi ns mear oundi nahug Dad: " MyAngel . . . how' sdaddy ' sl i t t l epr i ncess?" Me: " good, how' sdaught er ' sbi gki ng? " Dad: " Awesome! " Me( whi sper ) : " di dy oubr i ngmet hesecr et di amondst oday ? " Dad( whi sper ) : " t odayIgoty out wo" Igaspi nexci t ement Hehandsmet wosmal l shi nydi amonds Dad: " wher ear ey ouhi di ngt her est ? " Me( gi ggl es) : " Ican' tt el l y out hatsi l l y , i t smy secr et " Hel aughs Dad: " t hat ' sagoodgi r l , oncey out ur nt went y one, t heny oucant aket hem okay " Me: " Iknow, t henIcanbuyt hataer opl aneI showedy ou, r emember " Dad: " y esbaby , y oucanbuyy our sel fwhat ev er y ouwant " Me: " ar ey oust ay i ngov ert oni ght ?" Dad: " I ' m sor r ymypr i ncess, nott oday , y ouknow I ' l l seey oul ongeronDecemberr i ght ? Me: " pl easedon' tgo, Imi ssy ou" Dad: " daddyhast owor kbaby " Me( cr y i ng) : " pl easedaddy , pl easedon' tgo!" Dad: " mommywi l l beher e, I ' l l askgr amst obuy y ousomechi pshuh? " Hegotupandt ookhi sbr i ef case, Iwr appedmy l i t t l ebodyar oundhi sl eg Me: " y ouj ustgother e, pl ease, don' tl eav epl ease myki ng" Hepi cksmeuppecksmyl i psandf or ehead Dad: " daddyl ov esy ou" Heputmedownandhur r i edout Ir anaf t erhi m butst oppedasIr eal i seIwasby t hegat ewhi chI ' m notal l owedt ol eav e Me( shout i ng) : " comebackdaddy ! Pl ease, dad! . . daddy ! . . daddy ! " . . . . " Daddy " Iopenmyey esIr eal i seI ' mi nbed, al l sweat y , I hat ei twhenIgett hesedr eams, i t sbeenal ong t i mesi nceIdr eamtaboutmydad, Iwonder , my dr eamsusual l yhav eameani ngsomet i mesI dr eam somet hi ngt hatmi ghthappen, mygr ams say si tagi f t , Ihat ei tt hough. Goshmyheadi sbuzzi ngIcl osemyey esasI l i st ent ot hehead, Iqui ckl yopent hem agai nasI r eal i set hatI ' m noti nmybedIl ookar oundand I ' mi nQui nt on' sbed, Idon' tr ememberany t hi ng f r om l astni ghtaf t erwel ef tt hepub, Ei shIcan' t r emember , Il ookatmy sel fandI ' m nakedatt he t op. . . hol yf at herl eti tnotbewhatIt hi nki t i s, Qui nt oni sbusysnor i ng, Icl osemyey esasI sl owl ypul l upt hebal nket , Iopenoneey eand I ' m but tnaked Me( pani cki ng) : " f ucknonof uck" Il i f tt hebl anketagai nt oseeQui nt onandhe' s al sobut tnaked Myhear taccel er at es Me: " whathav ewedone? " If eel mynunubuti tf eel sf i ne, may beQui nt on hasasmal l di ck? Il i f tupt hebl anketagai nt ohav eapeakbuthe makesasoundandst ar t smov i ng, hemov es cl osert omet henwr apshi sar msar oundme t hent hr owshi sl egsov ermet henhol dsme cl oseashecont i nuessnor i ngsof t l y , he' sst i l l i n v er ydeepsl eep, ohmy , Icanf eel i t . . onmyt hi gh, I needt ogetoutoft hi sposi t i onbef or eIl oose mysensesandst ar ti magi ni ngt hi ngs Ishakehi m Me: " Qui nt on. , . . . . wakeup" Hegr oans Me: " wakeupQ" Hesl owl yopenshe' sey eshel ooksupatme t henhesmi l es That ' swhenIr eal i semybr east sar eexposedso Icov erwi t hmyar m Me: " , heywhaty oul ooki ngat ? " Qui nt on: " y ou. . . mor ni ng. . .Ouchmyhead" Heunt angl eshi msel ff r om meatl ongl ast ! Me: " doy our ememberany t hi ngf r om l astni ght ? " Hekeepsqui etf orawhi l e. . t henhel aughs Me: " whathappened?Ineedt oknow" Qui nt on: " y oudon' tr emember ? " Ishakemyhead Me: " cany ouf i r stst ar tbyexpl ai ni ngwhyar ewe but tnaked, ony ourbed, t oget her ? " Qui nt on: " damn, I ' l l nev erf or get . . . damngi r l . . y ou f r eaky " Myey espopout . . . I ' mf r eaky ? Me: " ohno!Youmeanwe? . . I ? . . l i ke? " Iwast al ki ngwi t hmyhands Qui nt on: " i twasmagi cal " Thi scan' tbe, whycan' tIr emember Me: " wedi di t ? " Qui nt on: " wedi di tl i kenooneel sehasev er donei t " YohhowcanIbesocheap?I ' m nev erhav i ng al cohol agai ni fi tmakesmesol oose, andwi t h myf r i endofal l peopl e, Ihat emy sel f Me: " ohmyGod, I ' m soashamed, howwasI ?I meanl i key ouknow" Qui nt on: " wewer esot i ghtgi r l . . . . y ouonecr azy asswheny oudr unk" He' sl aughi ng, whyi shel aughi ng?If eel t ear s t hr eat eni ng Me; " Ican' tbel i ev et hi s" Qui nt on: " met oo" Us: " wehadsex \ wer obedashop" Wel ookateachot her Me: " wai t . . . what ? " Hel ooksatmeper pl exed Qui nt on: " sex? . . whatar ey out al ki ngabout ? " Me: " wai t . . .Whatar ey out al ki ngabout ! ? " Qui nt on: " I ' mt al ki ngaboutwhathappenedl ast ni ght " Me: " wer obedashop? " Qui nt on: " y eah" NowI ' m conf used Me: " sowedi dn' thav esex ? " Qui nt on: " what . . no. . ofcausenot " Me: " t henwhyar ewenaked" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " y ousai dy ouwer ef eel i nghotandy ou wer esowast edsoy ourshor t swer et oot i ght ony ousowhenIwashel pi ngy ouundr esst he pant ysl i ppeddownwi t ht heshor t s, whi l eIwas st i l l undr essi ngy ou, y ouwer eundr essi ng me, y ouwer esohor nyy ouaskedmet of uck y ou, Iwasn' tgoi ngt ot houghbecausey ouwer e t oodr unkandIwoul dn' tt akeadv ant ageofy ou l i ket hat , byt het i mewewer ebot hnakedy ou wer ef astasl eepy oupassedoutandsoI t uckedy oui nandwesl epti nnocent l y " Ibr eat hout Me: " phew. . . wai ty ousawmynaked? " Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " don' twor r yi t snot hi ngI ' v enev erseen" Igaspt henpunchhi m onhi sshoul der Me: " nev eragai n! " Qui nt on: " woul dn' tbetont hati fIwer ey ou" Me: " andwhatmakesy out hi nkI ' l l al l owy out o seemenakedagai n? " Heget sundert hebl ankett hencomesback out , Iwasmov i ngmyhandsal l ov ermybody t r y i ngt ohi demynakedsel f Qui nt on: " Ij ustsawy ounaked. . . . agai n" Me: " mx m" Heget sunderandout Qui nt on: " andagai n" Hedoesi tagai n Qui nt on: " andagai n" Me( l aughi ng) : " st opi t " Igr abt hesheetandwal kawaywi t hi tar ound me " Li sa! " It ur nbackt ol ookathi m Qui nt on: " pl easedon' tgo. . . . pl easest ayi nbed wi t hme" Me: " okaybutl etmef i r stgetdr essed" Qui nt on: " y oudon' thav et o. . . Iwon' tpeepI pr omi se" Iwal kbackt ot hebed Me: " cl osey ourey es" Heput shi shandsov erhi sey es. Idr opt hesheett henwearmypant yandhi s ov er si zedshi r tt hengoi nsi det hecov er s Me: " y oucanopent hem now" Her emov est hem Wesl i dei nt hecov er shel ay sonhi sbackwhi l e Il aywi t hmysi def aci nghi m, suddenl y ev er y t hi ngcomesbackt ome Me: " OMGQui nt on!Wear ecr i mi nal s!" Hel ooksatmeandr ol l he' sey es Qui nt on: " andy ouj ustnowf i gur edt hatout ? " Me: " dudet hepol i cear epr obabl yl ooki ngf or us. . . t hatbagwasexpensi v e" Qui nt on: " y eahy our i ght " He' st oocal mf ormyl i ki ng Me: " ohsoy ouusedt ot heset hi ngs" Qui nt on: " no. . . butcomeoni twasj usta bag, we' l l makebai l " Me: " butwer anaway . . . we' l l pr obabl yspendt wo weeksorev enamont hbef or et heyal l owus bai l , whi chwewon' tev enaf f or d, t henwe' l l spend mor et i me. . . . ohgoshmygr amsdoesn' thav e mucht i mel ef tandI ' m al r eadydi sappoi nt i ng her . . . I ' m such. . Hi sl i psar eonmi ne, buti twasj ustapeck Me: " ohokay . . . . whatwast hatabout ? " Qui nt on: " i twasabout , pl easeshutup. . . . we won' tgot oj ai l Ipr omi sey ou" Onet hi ngaboutQui nt onhenev ermakesempt y pr omi seshehar dl ypr omi sesbutwhenhe does, hekeepst oi t Me: " y ousosur e, how?I st her esomet hi ngy ou wantt ot el l me? " Qui nt on: " I ' mt ooy oungandhandsomet ogot o j ai l " Il aughathi sEgo, hi sphoner i ngs Qui nt on: " hel l o? " . . . . . Qui nt on( smi l i ng) : " ohheyEnhl e, howar ey ou beaut i f ul ? " . . . . Qui nt on: " I ' m okay " . . . Qui nt on: " Imi ssy out oohl ehl e. . . " . . . Qui nt on( smi r ks) : " mmmhi si t ? " . . . Qui nt on: " sowhatar ey ouwear i ng? " . . . . Hel aughs Qui nt on: " t hat ' sal l ?WowIcanj usti magi ne" . . . Qui nt on: " becar ef ul now. . . Imi ghtj ustpopup r i ghtnow" . . . Qui nt on: " y out empt i ngmewoman" Icl earmyt hr oat Qui nt on: " l ookbaby , Ihav et ogookay " . . . . Qui nt on: " I ' m gl ady oudo" Hedr opst hecal l Me: " t hatwasMi nenhl e? " Henods Qui nt on: " y eah, I ' m sor r yIshoul d' v et ookt hecal l somewher eel se" Me: " ay i bowhy ?Wehi di ngt hi ngsf r om each ot hernow? " Qui nt on: " No. . It houghti twoul dmakey ouf eel uncomf or t abl e" Me: " al l f r i endswantt oheart hei rf r i endsona phonecal l wi t ht hei rpar t ner , sot haty oucanf i l l meupont hegossi p, l i kef orst ar t er s, howwas t hedat e! ?Wher edi dy out akeher ?Whatdi dy ' al l t al kabout , howi sshe? " Hel aughs Qui nt on: " damnwoman, onequest i onata t i me. . . wel l she' sa. . . Myphoner i ngsi nt er r upt i nghi m Me: "sor r yhav et ot aket hi s" Isi tup Me: " myf av our i t emeemai nt hewor l d" Gr ams: " Li l l ymybaby . . unj ani kodwa? " ( howar e y ou? ) , Me: " I ' m notf i negr ams, Ican' tst opt hi nki ng abouty ou" Gr ams: " ungazi hl ukumezi mnt am pl ease" ( don' t t or t ur ey our sel fmychi l d) Me: " nhl i zi y oy am i buhl ungumakhul u" ( myhear t i spai nf ul ) Gr ams: " j ongat her e' ssomet hi ngIwoul dl i key o t odof ormebef or eIl eav et hi swor l d" Me: " I ' l l doany t hi ngf ory ougr ams, what ev ery ou wi sh, i twi l l bemycommand" Qui nt onget supandsi gnal she' sgoi ngt omake f ood, Inod Gr ams: " t her e' saweal t hyf ami l yf r om P. E, Iused t owor kf ort hem asamai d, t heyar eav er y l ov i ngandwar mf ami l y , t heyar et he Johnsons, t heyhav et wodaught er sandone sonwhowasschool i ngov er seasbuthe' s comi ngbackt oSout hAf r i ca" Isi gh Me: " okayt hat ' sal l goodandni ce. . . butwhyy ou t el l i ngmeal l t hi s? " Gr ams: " t hesonneedst ogetmar r i edsot hathe cant akeov ert hef ami l ybusi ness" Me: " ohwow, goodf orhi m, hopehef i ndst he l uckygi r l " Gr ams: " t hel uckygi r l i sy ouNana" Il aughoutl oudIt endt of or gethowgr ams l ov esj oki ngar ound Me: " ay i makhul uwenanal amahl ay a akho. . . ay i kengokuy oooh" ( Ohgr amsy ouandy ourj okes, ser i ousl ynow) I tgoesqui etwai tshecan' tbeser i ousr i ghtnow Me: " ohmyGod!Youser i ous?" Gr ams: " y esl i sa, t hi si smyl astwi sh, Idon' t wantt ol eav ey oui nt hi spov er t y , Iwantt ol eav e y ouwher eIknowy ou' l l bewel l t akencar eof , I knowt hatf ami l yt heyhav ehel pedusal ot dur i ngt hey ear sI ' v ebeenwor ki ngf ort hem, I al sowoul dl ov et oseey oui nt hatbeaut i f ul dr essl ooki ngl i ket heangel y ouar e, Iwantt oat l eastexper i encet hat , pl easedot hi sf orme" Ikeepqui et , Ican' tbel i ev egr amswant st o mar r ymeof f , I ' mt ooy oungf ormar r i age, I hav en' tev ent ur ned18y et , Inev erdr eamtof get t i ngmar r i edIal way swant edt obean i ndependentwomannowshe' sr ui ni ngmypl an Me: " kodwamakhul u. . .I ' mt ooy oungf or mar r i age, whati fIcan' thandl ei t ?" Gr ams: " y oucan, Ir ai sedy ouwel l , Idon' tl i ke choosi ngy ouaper sont omar r y , Ial way s want edy out omar r yt heper sony oul ov e, but nowt hesi t uat i on, Ican' tl eav ey oul i ket hi sbaby " ComeonLi sat hi nk. . . y oucan' tdot hi sbuty ou al socan' tnotf ul f i l l herl astwi sh Me: " uhm. . . whati ft her e' sal r eadysomeonei n myl i f et hatIl ov e? " Gr ams: " baby , att hi smomenti t snotaboutl ov e" Me: " butwhati fIt el l y out hathe' sf i l t hyr i ch? . . . . I l ov ehi m makhul uandhe' sl oadedwhi chi sa bonus, pl easedon' tmakemedot hi st ohi m" Shesi ghs Gr ams: " howl onghav ey ' al l beent oget her ?" Me: " uhm i t sbeenel ev enmont hsnowwe al mostf i ni shi ngay ear " Gr ams: " okay . . . Iwantt omeett hi sguy " Shi t ! Me: " uhm meethi m?Why ? " Gr ams: " causeIwantt oseet hemanLi saand hav eaf ewwor dswi t hhi m" OhGod. . whyme? Me: " uhm ohokayke. . . whendoy ouwantt o meethi m? " Gr ams: " I ' m comi ngnextweekend" Sosoon! Me: " y ohmakhul u, butI ' l l bebusynj enext weekendand. . . Gr ams: " noex cuses, i t st hatorIt al kt ot he Johnsonsaboutt heof f ert heygav eme" Me: " Nono, noneedf ort hat , nextweekendi s per f ect !" Gr ams: " good. . . Nana, I ' m sosor r yaboutt hi sbut Il ov ey out oomucht ol eav ey oual one, and t her e' snohopef ory ourmot her , Iwanty out obe wel l t akencar eof " Me: " , i t ' sokaygr amsIunder st and, I ' l l seey ou nextweekendt hen" Gr ams: " Il ov ey ouNana" Me' " Il ov ey out oomeema" Idr opt hecal l , myhear tsi nks Wher et hewor l dam Igoi ngt of i ndaf i l t hyr i ch mani nf i v eday s?Amanwhowi l l wannamar r y meandt el l gr amswe' v ebeent oget herf or al mostay ear , IknowI ' m beaut i f ul , butr i ghtnow Ineedami r i cal Me: " Godpl easeshowmet heway , whatdoIdo now? " " Br unchi sser v ed" Hecomesi nwi t hat r eyoff ood, eggssl i ced t omat oesandt oastwi t hgr at edcheeseov ert he egg, Il ov edoi ngt hat Me: " wowl ooksdel i ci ous" Qui nt on: " t ast esev enbet t er " Heput smypl at eonmyl apt henget si nsi de Me: " y ounoteat i ng? " Qui nt on: " we' l l eatt oget her " Me( smi r k) : " y oul az yt owasht hedi shes? " Hel aughs Qui nt on: " y oucaughtme" Hesay sashef eedsmeegg Qui nt on: " whyy ouf r owni ng, doesn' tt ast e good? " Ismi l eIdi dn' tev enr eal i seIwasf r owni ng Me: " i t sgoodv er ygood" Hemov est hepl at eandput si tont het abl e besi de Qui nt on: " what ' swr ong? " Gosht hi sguyseesr i ghtt hr oughme Me: " I ' mf i neQr eal l y " Qui nt on: " hey , y ourgr annyi sanamazi ngwoman, she' sdef i ni t el ygoi ngt oabet t erpl ace, Iknowi t wi l l t aket i mef ory out oacceptt hatshe' s l eav i ngy ousoon, butShe' l l al way sbewi t hy ou andf r om whatI ' v el ear nedi st hat , Peopl ewho ar espi r i t scant akecar eandpr ot ecty ouway bet t ert hanwhent heywer eal i v e, y ou' l l get t hr ought hi sl i l l y , we' l l gett hr oughi t t oget her . . . . okay ? " Inodandwi pemyt ear s Me: " whi chev ergi r l wi l l mar r yy ouonedaywi l l be onel uckygi r l " Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " wel l Iwoul dn' tar guewi t ht hat " Her ubshi ssmal l must ache Me: " Egomuch" Hegi v esmebackt hef oodandweeat Qui nt on: " cany oucamewi t hmet ot hehospi t al l at er ? " Me: " ofcause" Qui nt on: " t hanks" Heki ssesmycheek Ineedapl anandf ast . . . y onel ai sgoodatt hese ki ndoft hi ngs, Ican' tmar r ysomeoneIdon' t know, . . . goshnev ert houghtI ' dsayt hi sbutI NEEDAMAN! . . . pl easecont i nueshar i ngt hepageguy sand ment i oni t sst i l l ear l y [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: I nser t6 LI SA Yonel a: " shewant sy out owhat ! ? " Me: " y eap, andIonl yhav eonemor edayunt i l she comes, i fIdon' tgetamant oday , Imi ghtget mar r i edt osomeoneIdon' tknow. . . . buthey what ' st hedi f f er ence,i fIdogetamant oday , i t wi l l bej ustt hesame, causeIwon' tknow hi m. . . aaar r r gghhmyl i f ei sdoomed!" Yonel a: " okayl etmet hi nk" * si l ence* * 20mi nut esl at er * Yonel a: " Igoti t ! " Shesay sasshej umpsup Me: " Igoti tt oo. . . . whydon' ty ouwearadi sgui se y our sel fasaman, t henwegetmar r i ed. .You al r eadyknowev er y t hi ngaboutmesot hat ' sa bonus. . . . ohmy !I ' m suchageni us" Shel ooksatmef orawhi l e Yonel a: " f orani nt el l i gentgi r l whopasseswi t h di st i nct i ons. . . . .Youcanbesodumb" That ' swhenIr eal i semypl ani ssowack Me: " Ei sht hati ski ndal amehey " Yonel a: " not hati st hedumbestt hi ngI ' v eev er hear d" Wel augh Me: " sowhatwasy ourbr i l l i antpl anMi ssknowi t al l ? " Yonel a: " weeel l l . . . . y oudoknowt haty oul i v ewi t h aguy " Me: " Ei shy ah, hehast ogot oBr andon' sbef or e gr amscomes" Shel ooksatmedef eat ed Me: " whyy oul ooki ngatmel i ket hat ? " Yonel a: " y ouar et hemostcl uel essper sonI know. . . dude. . . Qui nt oni samal e" Me( conf used) : " y eahofcausehei s. . . hehasa di ckt oo. . l et ' sst at et heobv i ous. . .Whatar ey ou onabout ? " Yonel a: " GoshdoIr eal l yhav et ospel l i tout? " Me: " spel l whatout" Yonel a: " si ncey oual r eadyl i v i ngwi t h Qui nt on. . . whydon' ty ouj ustaskhi mt obey our boy f r i endf ort heweekend" Myey eswi den Me: " y oumeanl i ke, hemustbemypr et end boy f r i end?" Shenods, wesmi l eateachot her Me: " NoWay !NotQui nt on" Yonel a: " whynot , Imeany ' al l al r eadysocl osehe knowsqui t emuchabouty out hananyguy , and he' scut ewhi chi sabonus" Me: " y eah, butdudet hi si sQui nt on. .Andhehas agi r l f r i end. . . ofwhi chhe' sbeendat i ngf or al mostawhol eweeknow. . . . andi tl ooksl i kehe r eal l yl i kesher " Yonel a: " So? . . . . y ouonl yaski nghi mt opr et end, i t snotl i key ou' l l hav et omar r yhi mf orr eal or any t hi ngl i ket hat " Me: . . . . . . Me: " Idon' tknow. . . " Yonel a: " doy ouhav eanot herbr i l l i anti dea? Causet hewayIseei t , y oudon' thav eamuchof achoi ce, Iknowy ouhotf r i endbutt r ustmey ou can' tf i ndaper f ectguyi nt woday s. . . soat l east Qui nt onwi l l pr et endf ory ou, y ouknowhowhe' d doany t hi ngf ory out hatone. . whi chmakesme wonderwhyar ey ' al l st al l i ng, whycan' ty ' al l j ust beacoupl eal r eady " Suddenl yIr emembersomet hi ng Me: " any t hi ng!Ofcause, he' ddoany t hi ngt hat ' s ev er y t hi ng!" Yonel a: " okayy oubei ngwei r dagai n" Me: " heowesme, hepr omi sedandIhav epr oof " Yonel a: " IknowI ' m ageni usnoneedt opr ai se andt hankmef ort hegr eati deabyt heway " Il aughasIgetupandmakeherst andt henI pi ckherupwi t hherl egswr appedar oundmy wai standspi nher Me: " t hanky out hanky ou!Youar et hegr eat est , I l ov ey ou! " Shegi ggl est henIputherdown Me: " damngi r l , y ouheav ydi dy ougai n" Ispankherassshej umps Yonel a: " y ouhav et ost opwi t hy ourgay t endenci es, I ' m st r ai ght " Me: " comeon, wecoul d' v emadeagr eatcoupl e i fwehadwentwi t hmypl an" Yonel a: " ohpl easey ourgr amsi snotst upi d, she woul dnot i cebef or eIev engeti nsi det hatdoor " Me( l aughi ng) : " y eahy our i ght , Idon' tknowwhat Iwast hi nki ng. . . IknewIcoul dcountony ou, I j ustwi shIhadt ol dy ouear l i er " Yonel a: " nextt i me" Me: " y eahnextt i meIhav eguyi ssues. . . y out he man" Yonel a: " notonl yguyi ssues hawu. . . . ( unsur e) . al sowi t hsomebooksand st uf f " Me: " y oumeanout f i t smakeupandst uf f " Webur sti nt ol aught er Me: " l etmegetgoi ng. . .Theweat herl ooksl i ke i t sgonnar ai n" Yonel a: " y eaht hewayi t sget t i ngdar ki tmi ght ev enst or m" Myhear tski psabeat Me: " ohDearGodIhopenot " Yonel a: " whenwi l l y ougetov ery ourf earof st or ms? " Me: " Nev er . . . . Ihav et ogetgoi ng, l etmecal l an uber . . . Ei shcany oubor r owmeaf ewbucks? " Yonel a: " y eahofcause" Shegetupandgoest oherr oom whi l eIcal l an uber , shegetbackandgi v esmeR50 Me: " t hanks, I ' l l payy ouback" Yonel a: " ohpl easet her e' snoneedf ort hat " Me: " t hanky ou" Yonel a: " t her ai nwi l l cat chupwi t hy ouofy ou j ustgoi ngt ost andher et hanki ngmet hewhol e ev eni ng" Ihat ebor r owi ngany t hi ngespeci al l y money , t hat ' swhyI ' l l payherback, Ial way sdo ev eni fshei nsi st sIdon' t , Iwoul dsneaki ti nher bagwhenshe' snotl ooki ngbutsheal way sf i nd out Me: " okayokay , ungadeundi gxot he( noneedt o ki ckmeout ) WehugandImakemywayout , t heuberget her ei nnot i meandt akesmehome, t her ai n pour sassoonasI ' m byt hegat e, Ir unqui ckl yt o t hehouse, Il ockt hedoor , I ' m soaki ngwet al r eady , It akeof fmyshoes, l eav et hem byt he doort henmakemywayi n, If i ndt heTVpl ay i ng butnoonei swat chi ngmay behe' si nhi sr oom, I got ot hebat hr oom It akeof ft hewetcl ot hes andhangt hem byt hehandl eabov et het ub wher ewehangt owel s, It akeani cewar m bat h, I getoutandwi pemybody , t hedooropensand Qui nt onbudgesi n, Ihal fscr eam Qui nt on: " Shi t . . sor r y " Heget soutandcl osest hedoor , Iwasj ust cov er i ngmypr i v at epar twi t hmy hands, i mmedi at el yaf t erheget soutIwr apa t owel ar oundmet henbr ushmyt eet hbef or e headi ngoutt omyr oom, Ibumpont ohi m agai n Me: " dude, y ouev er y wher e" Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " sor r y . .OhI ' m sor r yaboutt hatI shoul d' v eknocked" Me: " t hatokay . . . . i t snot hi ngy ou' v enev erseen r i ght ? " Wel augh Qui nt on: " y ousai di t " Me. . . Qui nt on: " Iwasaboutt owat chahor r ormov i e" Me: " ohy eah?Whi chone? " Qui nt on: " Idon' tknow, Ihav epl ent y , we' l l seet he scar i est" Me: " wannahav eni ght mar esIsee" Qui nt on: " I ' m nobaby " Me: " mmh" Iwal kt omyr oom andwearmyshor tPJsIt ake at hr oebl anketandheadt ot hel ounge, he connect shi sl apt opt ot heTVandput samov i e Qui nt on: " getr eadyf orsomehor r or . . . .Letme swi t chof ft hel i ght s" Me: " ohno, I ' m scar edal r eady" Heswi t chesof ft hel i ght sandt hemov i est ar t s, I si tatoneendoft hecouchwhi l ehesi t satt he ot her Qui nt on: " Ial sowantabl anky " heget scl osert ome Me: " Nonodon' tgot her e. . . wowshe' ssost upi d" Qui nt on: " whoaIr eal l yt houghthewasgoi ngt o bet hel astmanst andi ng" . . . , . . " Aaahh! " Ihi demy sel fundert hebl anketwhenIhearhi m l aughatme Qui nt on: " i t sov ernow" Icomeoutandt hemov i ewasf i ni shed Me: " t hatwast heendi ng? . . . . af t eral l oft hat sur v i v i ng, shedi esatt heend. . whatashame" Qui nt on: " t hatwassomescar yshi t " Me: " t el l meabouti t " Hepackshi sl apt op Qui nt on: " goodni ghtI ' m of ft obed" I ' m soner v oust oaskhi mt hi s. . . Ineedt oask hi mt oday Me: " goodni ght" Hewal ksaway , Ei shIcoul dn' tdoi t , I ' m scar edhe mi ghtsayno Igot omyr oom andj ustl ayundert hecov er sas t her ai nget sst r ongerandt hel i ght eni ngst ar t s Me: " ohno, pl easel eti tnott hunder , pl easeGod" I ' m shi tscar edofst or ms, ev er yt i mei tst or medI usedt or unandsl eepwi t hgr amsandwe' d cuddl easshet el l smei nsomi ( t al es) . . l asty earsi nceIwasal oneI ' donal l t hel i ghtcur l my sel font hecouchcl osemyear sandhum a song, butI ' dendupcr y i ng * DOOODODODOOOO! ! " Ij umpt omyf eet , t hatwasal oudone, t omake t hi ngswor set hescar ymov i ewewat chedhada l otoft hunder st or ms * DOOOO!DOOO! " Myhear tst ar t sbeat i ngf astIr unt ohi sr oom andj umponhi sbed Me: " Qui nt on!Qui nt on" Ishakehi m andhequi ckl ysi t sonhi sbut twi t h hi sey eswi deopen Hi m: " huh?Huh? . . . what ' shappeni ng?" Het ouchesmeal l ov ermyf ace Hi m( concer ned) : " ar ey ouokay ?What ' s wr ong? " Me: " I ' m. . . . * DOOOODOOODODO! ! * Igetunderhi scov er sandbur ymy sel fi nt ohi s ar mshehol dsmeback Qui nt on: " i t sokay , i t sj ustast or m" Me: " I ' m scar ed. . . . Thet hunderget sl ouderandt hel i ght eni ng br i ght er Me: " pl easej usthol dme" Hel ay smeonhi schestandhol dsmet i ght er maki ngmef eel ev ensaf er West ayl i ket hatunt i l t hest or m set t l esaf t eran hourorso Qui nt on: " i t sov ernow" Isi gh Me: " y eah, f i nal l y" It r ygetof fhi sgr i pbuti t sst i l l t i ght Me: " I ' l l gobackt obednow" Qui nt on: " butI ' mf eel i ngwaywar mernow, y ou doi ngawaybet t erj obt hant hi s bl anket . . . . pl easest ayj ustunt i l If al l al seep? " Me: " okay " * si l ence* Wel l t hi si sr at hert oocomf or t abl e, our br eat hi ngi st hesameandi t sget t i ngl ouderby t hemi nut e, Idon' tt hi nkIcanf al l asl eep, he' s dr awi ngci r cl eswi t hhi sf i nger sonmyback under neat hmyshi r t , he' sshi r t l essandhi s muscul arbodyagai nstmi ne, I ' m st ar t i ngt of eel somet y paway Me: " Qui nt on?" Hi m: " Youal socan' tsl eep? " Ichuckl e Me: " y eap" Imov ef r om hi schestanl ayont hepi l l owhe t ur nsandf acesmewi t hhi sar msst i l l ar ound me Me: " doy oust i l l r emembert hatt i mey ousai di fI dr i nkshot swi t hy ou, y ou' l l doany t hi ngI want . . . . any t hi ngt hat ' sev er y t hi ng?" Hedar esdenyi t , Ihav epr oofI ' m sof eel i ngmy l awy erv i besr i ghtnow Qui nt on: " ohboi whatdi dIgetmy sel fi nt o, I t houghty ou' dgetdr unkandf or getal l about t hat " Me: " hahaha, wel l y ourbad, causeIneeda f av our . . . . .Ahugeone" Qui nt on: " ohno, I ' m nowmor escar edt hanIwas whent hatgi r l waseat enbyherzombi ef r i ends" Il augh Me: " so?Wi l l y oudoi t ?" Qui nt on: " whati si tf i r st ? " Me: " no! mat t erwhati ti s, y ouhav et odoi tcause y oupr omi sedme. . . . r emember ?Orshoul dIgo t akemyphone? " Qui nt on: " okayf i ne. . . j ustspi ti toutal r eady" Isi gh Me: " wi l l y oubemyboy f r i end?Andwi l l y ou mar r yme? " Hi sey espooout Qui nt on: " Saywhat ? " . . . t obecont i nued . . pl easeshar et hepage, ment i onl i keand comment t her easonI ' mt aki ngl ongt owr i t ei sbecause I ' m wai t i ngf orl i kes, sopl easehel pmeout her e [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: cont i nuat i on LI SA Me: " wi l l y ou? " Qui nt on: " whoa, Down, gi r l ! " Qui nt on: " Iknowy ouhav eamaj orcr ushonme, butheywhat ' st her ush? " Me: " ohpl easey ouwi shIhadacr ushony ou" Qui nt on: " Iwi sh?Let ' sj ustr ephase. . . . ' wi l l y oube myboy f r i endandwi l l y oumar r yme? ' . . . . . mmh y our i ghty oudon' thav eacr ushonme. . . Gi r l y ou obsessed" Il augh, Igetoutofhi sgr i pandsi tonmybut t Me: " Imeanl i kej ustf ort heweekend, t hr eeday s andt woni ght s? " Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " Twoni ght shuh? . . . . sol i key out he ki ndagi r l whobel i ev esi nmar r i agebef or e sex? . . . andsi ncey ouneedsomesexual heal i ng y ouwantmet omar r yy ouf i r st ? . . . damn, IknowI sai dany t hi ngt hat ' sev er y t hi ngbutt hi si s. . . . al i l ext r eme? " OhGod, Li sa, y ouf or gott oexpl ai ny our sel f . . gee y onel awasr i ghtIam cl uel esswheni tcomest o t heset hi ngs Me: " Noman!Idon' tneedsexual heal i ng, andI mostdef i ni t el ydon' twantwantt omar r y y ou. . . ev er ! " Qui nt on: " okayf i r stofal l y our eal l ydoneedt o getl ai d. . . . secondofal l , ouchy oudi dn' tneedt o addt he' ev er ' geezIhav eahear ty ouknow, and nev ersaynev erev ercausey oudon' tknowwhat t hef ut ur ehol ds" Hegaz esdeepi nt omyey es, abi tofsi l encef i l l s t her oom f oraspl i tsecond Me: " f i r stofal l , Idon' tneedt ogetl ai dI ' m per f ect l yf i ne" Qui nt on( mummer s) : " y eahr i ght " Me: " secondl yIhear dt hat . . . . . t hi r dl yIdoknow whatt hef ut ur ehol dsandi t snotmemar r i edt o y ouorany one. . andl ast l ymygr amsar r anged mar r i agef orme" Hewal ksoutoft hebedt owar dt hedoorand swi t chesont hel i ghtt hencomesbackt obed l ooki ngatmeat t ent i v el y Qui nt on: " shecan' tdot hat . . . Imean, y oushoul d mar r yaper sony oul ov e, notast r anger " Me: " y eah, butt hi si sherl astwi sh, soIcan' tl et my sel fmar r ysomeoneIdon' tknowj ust becauseofmoney " Qui nt on: " money ? " Isi gh Me: " y eahmygr amsdoesn' twannadi eknowi ng t hatI ' m st i l l l i v i ngi npov er t y , shewant smet obe wel l t akencar eof , andi tt ur nsoutt hataweal t hy f ami l ysheusedt owor kf orbacki nherday s hasasonwhoneedawi f et ot akeov erf ami l y busi ness, ar ghr i chpeopl eandt hei rst upi d nor msIhat et hem, any wayt heyof f er edgr ams t hi sdeal wi t hme" Qui nt on: " . . . . . . Qui nt on: "t hat ' s. . . soabsur dandsadatt hesame t i me. . . soi fImayask?Whydi dy ouaskmet o mar r yy oui fy ousupposedt omar r ysomeone el se? " It akeadeepbr eat he Me: " It ol dgr amst hat , Ial r eadyhav eaboy f r i end whi chI ' mi nav er yser i ousr el at i onshi pwi t hf or al mostay earnow, andhe' sf i l t hyr i ch" Qui nt on( smi r ks) : " andI ' mt hathandsome boy f r i end?Who' spl anni ngonmar r y i ngy ouand f ul f i l l y ougr amswi sh? " Me: " di dn' tsayany t hi ngabouthandsome. . . but y eahwhat ev ermakesy ousl eepatni ght " Wel augh, Igetoutoft hebedt henpul l hi mt o st andupasIst andi nf r ontofhi m Qui nt on: " what ' sgoi ngon? " Me: " Iwantt oasky oupr oper l y " Igetdownononeknee Qui nt on( gi r l yv oi ce) : " OMGeee" Ibur sti nt ol aught erbef or eget t i ngser i ous agai n Me: " Qui nt onAmbr oseO' Br i en. . . woul dy ou makemet hehappi estwomani nt hewor l dand bemypr et endboy f r i endwi l l i ngt omar r yme soon? " Hehol dshi schestandgaspsdr amat i cal l y , he nodshi sheadcont i nuousl y Qui nt on: " Ohmy !Ial way sknewt hi sdaywoul d come. . . butIdi dn' tt hi nki twoul dbet hi s soon( sni f f s) " Me: " i st hatay es? " Qui nt on: " Yes. . YesIwi l l ! " Hehel psmest andashegr absmyl egspi cki ng meupandspi nni ngmear oundmaki ngme l aughmygut sout Me( l aughi ng) : " okayokay ! !Putmedown! " Iwasget t i ngdi zzy , hest opsandhewas st umbl i ngsi ncehei sdi zzyt oo Qui nt on: " whooaawhoa! " Me: " don' tdr opme" Hest umbl est ot hebedandf al l sonhi sback wi t hmeont opofhi m Ist opl aughi ngassoonasIr eal i seIwasnow l aughi ngal onecausehi sst ar r i ngatmewi t ha happysmi l eonhi sf ace, Ismi l ebackt henget of fhi m buthehol dsmet i ght er Me( heav ybr eat hi ng) : " Qui nt on. . . " Thatcomesoutasawhi sper Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r y " Hel osseshi sgr i p Igetupqui ckl yandsi tonmybut tandsodoes he Me: " sor eadyt ol ear nhowt obemyl ongt er m boy f r i end?" Qui nt on: " It hi nkIknowhowt odot hat " Me: " No. . . noy oudon' t , I ' v eseeny ourr el at i ons wi t hot hergi r l sandt r ustmet hat ' snothowmy boy f r i endshoul dbe. . . andwegonnaneedt o comeupwi t hapr et t ygoodst or yofhowwe metandal l t hatt henI ' m gonnaf i l l y ouupon someoft hehi st or yaboutmy sel fandsodoy ou abouty our sel f " Qui nt on: " damn. . doweneedt odot hi snow? " Me: " Yes!Tomor r owi sFr i dayandmygr amsi s comi ng" Icheckt het i me Me: " act ual l yt odayi st heday , sol ooksl i kewe notsl eepi ngmi st er " Hegr oans Qui nt on: " di dIr eal l ymaket hatpr omi se? " Igi v ehi mt hat" don' tst ar twi t hme"l ook Qui nt on: " ar ghf i ne, whatdoy ouwannaknow? " Ipl aywi t hhi scheeks Me: " cheerupnow, i t sonl yf oraf ewday s" Hesmi l es Qui nt on: " wel l t henwebet t ermakeupt hemost i nl ov ecoupl e, y ourgr andmahasev erseen" Ismi l eandbi t emybot t om l i p Qui nt on( smi r ks, ) : " ohy oul i ket hat ? " Iputbackmyst r ai ghtf aceasIr eal i sewhatI j ustdi d Me: " No. . . now, comewe' l l st ar tbymov i ngmy t hi ngst oy ourr oom" Ij umponmyf eetandpul l hi m hel azi l yget sup huf f i ngandgr oani ng Qui nt on: " mypoorsl eep. . . .I ' m sogonnagety ou f ort hi s" Me: " y oucanst ar tbymov i ngt hatt abl eov er t her e" Qui nt on: " mxx xxm" Il aughathi sgr umpysel f , OhdearGodIhope ev er y t hi nggoessmoot hl y . . . I ' m sur eIdon' tneedt oasky ' al l t ol i keand commentany mor e t hemor ey ' al l doi tt hequi ckert hei nser t s come [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: I nser t7 LI SA Me: " soaf t ert hatdaywhenmydadboughtt wo di amonds, i twast hel astt i meheBoughtt hem, I di dn' tknowt heywer er eal att hatt i me, hecame backi ni nDecemberasusual , l ooki ngr at hera bi tst r essed. . * At earf al l br eaksoutmyey e* . . . . . . I ' m sor r y , t hatwast hewor stdayofmyl i f e, i t wast hedaymyf at herwasshott odeat hi n f r ontofme, whenmygr amst ol dmehepassed awayi twast hemosthor r i bl eandhor r i f i ct hi ng I ' v eev erwentt hr ough" Qui nt on: " doesany oneknowt hemanwhoki l l ed y ourdad? " Me: " y eah, butonl ymymom sawhi m, shewas t her et oowhent heyshothi m, t ur nsoutmom hasoncemethi m, si ncemydadusedt owor k f orhi m" Hehol dmyhandandwi pesmyt ear Qui nt on: " I ' m sosor r yf ory ourgr eatl oss, If eel y ourpai n, l oosi ngsomeonewhopl ay edabi g par ti ny ourl i f ei snoteasyt ohandl e. . . our st or i esar et ot al l yopposi t e, y ouseemy dad. . ( pauses) . . Me: "what ?" Qui nt on: " ( si ghs) . . not hi ng. . .I t ' sj ustIdon' tl i ke t al ki ngabouthi m. .I ' m notpr oudt ocal l hi m my f at her " Inot i cet hehur ti nhi sgr eyey es, Icannev erget usedt ohowhi sey eschangecol ourt hat ' swhyI cal l t hem r ai nbowey es Me: " y oudon' thav et ot al kabouti t , Imeanwe al r eadycov er edhal foft het hi ngsIneedt o knowabouty ou" Qui nt on: " myf at herwasawi ckedman" Hesay swi t habr eaki ngv oi cef i l l edwi t hpai n Qui nt on: " he. . hewasi nv ol v edi nshady busi nesses, hewasr espect edcauseheowned al l t hesebusi nessesofhi s, Inev erknewwhat myf at herdoesf oral i v i ngexact l yunt i l one t i me( pauses) . . Me: "y our eal l ydon' thav et o. . . Qui nt on: " unt i l onedayonmysi xt eent hbi r t hday , hesai dhehasasur pr i sef orme, i twasmy bi r t hdaysoheey yIwasexci t ed, t hat ' swhenhe t ookmet osomewar ehousei nt hemi ddl eof nowher e, Iaskedhi m whyi shebr i ngi ngme her e, het ol dmehe' scomi ngt ot eachmehowt o beaman, wegoti nt her eandt her ewer et hr ee ment i edup, menwhohadbet r ay edhi m, heshot oneont hehead, andt ol dmet hat ' showaman deal swi t hpeopl ewhodoubl ecr osshi m, t hen he. . Hegav emet hegun. . . het ol dmet oshoot t hem. . . Iwassof r i ght ened, shockedand scar ed, l ooki ngatt heot herguyj ustl ay i ngt her e i napool ofbl oodwast or t ur e. . . Ipeedmypant s t hatday , Ipoi nt edt hegunatt heot heronhi s head, hewaspl eadi ngmet onotdoi t , hesai dhe haski ds, butmydadt ol dmet onev erl i st ent o anenemy ' sex cuse" Onet eardr opescapedhi sey ef ol l owedby anot her , Icamecl osert ohi m andwi pet hem wi t hmyt humb Me: " di dy oudoi t ? " Qui nt on: " Icoul dn' t . . . . but . . . " Myphoner i ngsi nt er r upt i nghi m Me: " ohno, i t sgr ams" Hi sey espopout Qui nt on: " shi t ! " Ist andupandanswert hecal l Me: " makhul u, . . . unj ani ? " ( gr andma, howar ey ou? ) Gr ams: " ndi set exi ni , okany endzobal aphol at e ngabot enkuy akul ev en, y ohkukudeegol i mar n" ( I ' mi nt het axi , I ' l l ar r i v et her ev er y l at e, pr obabl yar oundt ent oel ev en, Jo' bur gi sf ar hey !) Il augh Me: " Ei shy ahsor r ygr ams, I ' l l gi v ey ouani ce massagewheny ougether e" Gr ams: " I ' l l hol dy out ot hat , ukhona umkhweny ana? " ( i st hehubbyt her e? ) Me: " comeongr amswenotev enengaged" Il ookathi m andhehasadev i l i shsmi l eonhi m f ace, Ir ol l myey esathi m Gr ams: " t henIbet t erhav eawor dwi t hhi m" Me: " ay i nawemah. . . pl easeswi t chof fy our phonenow, soy oucansav ebat t er ysot haty ou wi l l cal l uswhent het axi dr opsy ouof f " Gr ams: " uny ani si l ey az( y our i ght ) . .If or gethow smar ty ouar e" Me: " Il ov ey ougr ams, saf et r i pokay " Gr ams: " Il ov ey out oo, t hanky ou" Idr opt hecal l It ur nbackt oQui nt on Me: " okay , y oust i l l r ememberev er y t hi ngwe t al kedaboutr i ght ?" Qui nt on: " Ei sh. . . It hi nkso" Ihi thi schest Me: " No. . don' tdot hat " Hel aughsatme Qui nt on: " hey , doy oubl ameme?Iwassl eepy t hr oughoutt hewhol epl anni ng" Me: " l et ' sj ustr ephr ase. . . . . wemeti nuni v er si t y , y ouwer ecomi ngf ormot i v at i onal speaki ng, y ou wer easki ngquest i onst ousst udent sandweal l hadourhandsupt oanswerbuty ourey es l andedonme, Ianswer edsmar t l yandt hat ' s wheny our eal i zedhowbeaut i f ul Iam and smar t . . Qui nt on: " Ii nst ant l yf el l i nl ov ewi t hy ou. . . f r om t hev er yf i r stmomentIl ai dmyey esony ou" Wel ookateachot her Me: " y oudi d? " Hel aughs Qui nt on: " y eah. . i sn' tt hatpar toft hest or y ? " Me: " oohhy eahofcause. . t hat . .Yeah" Foramomentt her eIt houghtmay behe. . . . ar gh nev ermi nd Me: " r emember , t her easonwest ayi nt hi ssmal l apar t ment , Iwi l l expl ai nt hatt ohercauseIknow shewi l l ask. . . . okaysowhatel sear ewe f or get t i ng?OhnoIhopewenotf or get t i ng any t hi ng, okayourr oom i ssor t edgr amswi l l sl eepi nmyr oom" Qui nt on: " y oumeanourspar er oom" Me: " y eah, andanduhm ohy ouknowy ougonna hav et opr et endl i key ougoi ngt owor ki nt he mor ni ngsr i ght ?Andcomebacki nt heev eni ng" Hel ooksatmef r owned Qui nt on: " andwhatexact l ywi l l Iber eal l ydoi ng t hewhol edamnday ? " Il aughathi m Me: " Idon' tknow, y ouabi gboyy ou' l l f i gur ei t out , y oucangohangoutwi t hBr andonor somet hi ng, orev enbet t erv i si tmi nenhl e" Qui nt on: " wow, myowngi r l f r i endt el l i ngmet o spendt i mewi t hmysi dechi ck" Me: " y eahI ' m acool gi r l f r i end" Hel aughs Me: " j ustr emembert her ul esaboutt hat , no t ext i ngorcal l i ngherwheny oui nt hehouse, my gr amsi sv er yobser v antshewi l l knowi fy ou cheat i ngonme" Qui nt on: " goti t . . nocheat i ngi ndoor s" Hel aughs, I ' m soner v ous, I ' v enev erdone any t hi ngl i ket hi si nmyl i f e If eel hi mr ubmyar m Qui nt on: " chi l axwoul dy ou. . . ev er y t hi ngwi l l wor k outgr eat , Imeani t sonl yt woday s, we' l l def i ni t el ypul l i tof f " It akeadeepbr eat he Me: " y our i ght , i t sj ustgr owi ngupIwasnev er r ebel l i ous, Iwast heper f ectgr anddaught erand daught er , excel l edi nschool , wont r ophi esgot di st i nct i ons, l ov edr eadi ng. . . . I ' m notsay i ngI hav en' tdonemi st akesandt hi ngst hatwoul d di sappoi ntgr amsi fshef oundout , butt hi s, I t hi nkt hi si st hewor stl i eIhav eev ermade" Qui nt on: " Iunder st and, buty oudoi ngt hi sf or t hegood, don' twor r ywi t hy ourl awst udent knowl edget hi sl i eshal l besuccessf ul " Hesay si nanmot i v at i onal t onemaki ngme l augh Me: " ofcausel et ' sj okeabouti t " Qui nt on: " Iwon' tdi sappoi nty ou, sweet hear t " Me: " sweet hear t ?" Qui nt on: " bet t erst ar tcal l i ngy oupetnames f r om nowon" Me: " mmhy ouki ndaget t i nggoodatt hi s, honey " Wel augh, Ihav ecl assest odaybutI ' m not at t endi ngI ' mt oot i r ed, byt hewayQui nt oni s doi nghi smast er si nAer ospaceengi neer i ng, I knowr i ght , he' sv er ysmar t , buty ouwoul dn' t t el l , hedoesn' tl ookf ocusedatal l andhe' st oo cut et obesmar t . . . . Imeant hat ' swhatot hergi r l s mi ghtt hi nk Qui nt on: " l et ' st akeal ongnapwhi l ewe wai t , causeI ' mt oot i r edt oat t endany t hi ng t oday " Me: " y our i ght* y awni ng* . . l et ' sgo" Weheadt ot her oom butIt ur nt ogoi nmy r oom Qui nt on: " wher edoy out hi nky ougoi ngmyl ov e? Ourbedr oom i st hatway " Me: " comeon, gr amsi snother ey et" I t sst i l l t eni nt hemor ni ng Her ai seshi sey ebr ows Qui nt on: " y oushoul dconv i ncey our sel fbef or e y oucanconv i ncey ourgr ams, so, ' pr et end gi r l f r i endboy f r i endmode' st ar t snow" Igr oan Me: " aar ghf i ne" Wesl eepont opoft hecov er sanddozeof f i mmedi at el y * * * * I ' m wokenupbymyphoner i ngi ng, Igr abi twi t h myey esst i l l cl osed Me( sl eepyt one) : " l ow" " Ul al el eni emi ni nkazi ny ana! "( Whyy ousl eepi ng dur i ngt hedayy oungl ady ? ) Il azi l ysi tupasIcheckt het i mei t sl at eact ual l y i t shal fpastni ne Me: " Gr ams, kusebsukunj e, sowuf i ki l e? " ( i t sl at e atni ght , hav ey ouar r i v ed? ) Gr ams: " y esy oucancomepi ckmeup, t het ax i i s al mostt her e, Ihopey oupr epar eddi nnercause I ' m st ar v i ng" Me: " y esgr ams, I ' m get t i ngr eadyt ocomepi ck y ouupnow. . don' twor r ydi nneri sl ongr eady " Gr ams: " okayt henby e" Me: " by e" Shi t !It ot al l yf or gotaboutdi nner , Ishake Qui nt on Me: " Qui nt on, wakeup! " Qui nt on: " mmh" Hegoesqui etaf t ert hat Me: " ar ghQui nt onwakeupdammi t ! " Qui nt on: " y ohay i ngekey ousoi r r i t at i ngy az" Heget supal l f r ust r at ed, Il ov ei twhenhe speaksZul uorwhenhemi xesi twi t hEngl i sh, i t gi v esmegoosebumpsandbut t er f l i es, Idon' t knowwhymay bei t scausehedoesn' tspeaki t muchbutwhenhedoeshespeaksi tsof l uent l y Me: " Gr amsneedst obef et ched. . andshe' s hungr yIf or gott opr epar esupper , weov er sl ept" Heget sof ft hebedandl ooksf orsomet hi ngt o wear Qui nt on: " cal m downwe' l l or dersomet hi ng, I knowapl acewher et heyser v eAf r i canhome madedi shes, y ou' l l j ustputi ti nt hepot sand ' pr et end' y oucooked" Hel aughs, Inot i cedhowheemphasi zedt he " pr et end"i nt hatst at ement Me: " hahahasonotf unny " Hegi v esmet hei rnumberandweor deri nt hey comeaf t erf i f t eenmi nut es, Isetev er y t hi ngup, weev encl ear edt hedi nner t abl ewhi chwewer eusi ngasast udyt abl ej ust sowemaket hepl acel ookabi tf ancy Qui nt on: " l et ' sgoLi sa, y ourgr amsi spr obabl y al r eadyt her eandy ouknowhowt her anki sso danger ous" Me: " y eahy eah, l etmej ust . . . . okayI ' m done. . . l et ' s go" Weheadoutt of et chgr amsshecal l smej ust assoonaswear r i v e Gr ams: " t het axi j ustdr oppedmeof f , wher ear e y ou" Il ookar oundt henIspother Me: " Iseey ou. . I ' l l ber i ghtt her e" Ihangupandr unt owar dsherl eav i ngQui nt on i nt hecar Me( exci t edl y ) : " Makhul u! " Sheseesmeandwal kst owar dsme, Iat t ackher wi t hahugassoonasIr eachher , west ayi nt hat posi t i onf orawhi l e, If eel myey esbur ni ngupso Il ethergo Gr ams: " ndakukhumbul akemnasi si "( Imi ssed y ou) Me: " ukhumbul wendi m nont ombi "( Imi ssedy ou t oogi r l ) Wel aughandwal kt ot hecar Gr ams: " uzenomkhweny ana? "( Youcamewi t h hubby ? ) If akeal augh Me: " y eap" Wegett ot hecarIputhert hi ngsi nt he boot , t hesear ewayt oomanyt hi ngsf orj ustt wo day s?Ar ghmay beshedi dn' twantt ohav e l i mi t edopt i ons? Qui nt onget soutoft hecarandt heyhugand shar egr eet i ngs Iopent hedoorf orhert osi ti nt hef r ontbutshe i nsi st sonsi t t i ngatt hebacksoIal sogetatt he back Qui nt on: " baby , pl ease, y ouknowIdon' tl i ke si t t i ngbymy sel fi nt hef r ont " Gr eatr eal l ynow?Mygr amssmi l esatmeand wi nks, Igi ggl et hengosi tatt hef r ont Qui nt on: " muchbet t erbabe" Hehol dsmyhand, wedr i v ebackhomewhi l e maki ngr andom conv er sat i onsher eandt her e. Ishowgr amst ot her oom wher eshe' l l be sl eepi ng, shewasnowt aki ngabat h. Iwasnowpr epar i ngt het abl ewi t hQui nt on hel pi ngme, suddenl yIcansensehe' sner v ous causet hespoonshe' shol di ngar eshaki ngabi t . Iwal kupt ohi m Me: " don' twor r y , Icansensesheal r eadyl i kes y ou, Imeanshehuggedy oui nst eadofgi v i ng y ouahandshake, t hat ' sagoodst ar t " Hel ooksatmeunsur e Qui nt on: " y out hi nkso? " Me: " Iknowso. . y ou' l l dogr eat , I ' m sur eGr ams won' tgohar dony ou" Qui nt on: " Ihopeso" Hel ooksmei nt heey esandwesmi l eateach ot her " Ni zol i bal akukncumel anaengat hi ni y aqal ana. . . khankeni beni ndi phakel a kemna, ndi bendi si dl ani phi ndekeni ncumel ane emv akoko" ( y ' al l busysmi l i ngateachot herasi f i t st hef i r stt i mey ' al l seei ngeachot her . .Di shup f ormei nt hemeant i met heny ' al l cangobackt o smi l i ngateachot her ) Wel aughasIdi shf orev er y one, gr amsi nsi st s wesaygr acebef or eeat i ng Gr ams: "mmh. .Youcookedv er yni cel yNana, i fI knew, y ouhav i ngamani sal l i tt akesf ory out o cookt hi sgood, Iwoul d' v el ongal l owedy out o dat e. . t hi si saf i r st " Mymout hi swi deopenf r om shock, shej ust i nsul t edmycooki ng? Qui nt onl aughs Qui nt on: " act ual l y , i t st hef i r stt i meI ' mt ast i ng suchdel i ci ousness, It hi nkshet r i edanew r eci pe, r i ghthoney ? " Isqui r tmyey ebr owsathi m Me: " wel l . . . I . . y ouknowwhatIwon' tev en ent er t ai ny ' al l r i ghtnow" Theyl aughatme, Gr amshasmetQui nt onf or what ?2secondsandt heyal r eadygangi ngup onme Gr ams: " so. . . t el l me, hav ey out wohadsex? " Ichokeonmyj ui ce, l i ker eal l ychoke, I ' m coughi ngnonst opQui nt onr ubsmybackt r y i ng t ohel pme, hemakesmedr i nkwat erandIf eel a bi tbet t er Qui nt on: " y ouokay ? " Inod Outofal l quest i onsgr ams.Wowt hi si sgoi ngt o beal ongni ght Gr ams: " sohav ey ' al l ? " somebodyshootmenow . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: I nser t8 LI SA Me: " Makhul u! " ( Gr ams! ) Gr ams: " what ?I t sasi mpl equest i ont hatneeds asi mpl eanswery esorno? " Hi m&I : " NO" Gr ams: " Idon' tbel i ev ey ' al l , ngekey oumeany ou t wohav ebeendat i ngf oral mostay ear , l i v i ng t oget herandy ' al l hav en' thadsex?I nt hi s t went yf i r stcent ur yt i me, i nJo' bur g, wi t har i ch man?Ni y axoka" ( y ' al l l y i ng) Me: " y ohcomeongr ams, y ouwant edasi mpl e y esorno. . . . .Andt heansweri sno, andQui nt on i snotl i ket heot herguy s. . . . he' sdi f f er ent" Ir ubhi sshoul derandwef akesmi l eateach ot her Qui nt on: " l ook, gr ams, Igetwher ey oucomi ng f r om, al otofmenouther ear eal way saf t erone t hi ng, butt r ustmei fIwasaf t ert hatonet hi ng, I woul d' v el onggoti tandl ef t , butt hati snott he casewi t hy ourdaught erov erher e, I ' m notaguy whowasi nt or el at i onshi psbutwhenImetLi sa al l Iwant edt odowasj ustgett oknowher , she wasj ustsomy st er i oust omeandIwascur i ous, soIdr ewmy sel fcl osert oher , t hemor eIspent t i mewi t hherev er y dayt hemor eIf al l i nl ov e, Up unt i l t odayI ' m st i l l get t i ngt oknowher , ev er y day t her e' sj ustsomet hi ngabouthert hatmakesme madl yi nl ov ewi t hher , soGr amsmyi nt ent i ons wi t hy ourdaught erar ewaymor et hany ou t hi nk, she' sst i l l y oungandIunder st andshe' s notr eadyf orsomet hi ngs, I ' m wi l l i ngt owai t because. . . .Wel l becauseIj ustl ov eher " Hel ooksatmeandsmi l e, Icannotbel i ev emy ear s, damnhe' sgoodatt hi st hewayhe' s l ooki ngatme, y ou' dsweart hathe' sr eal l y madl yi nl ov ewi t hme Gr ams: " wow, ay i ny anaunqabi l eny anamadoda anj engaweanqabi l e( y ouar escar ce i ndeed, , menl i key ouar er ar e)sohowdi dy ou t womeet ? " Us: " r est aur ant\ v ar si t y " Whatt hehel l ! Qui nt on: " sweetpi e, wemeti nv ar si t y r emember ? " Me: " ohy eah, t hat ' swhatImeant " Gr eatIf or gotmyownst or y Me: " y eahIr ememberi tl i kei twasy est er day , Qui nt onbei ngay oungbusi nessman, hecame t ocampust omot i v at eus, hest ar t edaski ngus quest i onsandIwasanswer i ngandaski ng quest i onsmor et hanany onet hatday . . . IguessI wasi nspi r ed" Gr ams: " ory ouwer echar med" Ibl ushandgi ggl e Qui nt on: " notonl ywasshet hemostbeaut i f ul gi r l t her e, sher eal l ycapt ur edmyhear t , Icoul dn' t f ocusonany t hi ngaf t ert hatday , Icoul dn' tget herof fmymi nd. . . unt i l Ibumpedi nt ot oheri n t hatr est aur ant , r ememberbabe? " Me: " y eah, heaskedt oj oi nmeandpay edf ormy l unch. . wet al kedf orhour sandhour s. . Iguess t hat ' swhyi tf eel sl i ket hatwast hef i r stt i me meet i nghi m" ThankgoodnessQui nt onment i onedt hat , t o cov erupf ormymi st ake Gr amsi snowsmi l i ngandnoddi ng Gr ams: " soQui nt on, si ncey ousomadl yi nl ov e wi t hmygr anddaught erhowsoonar ey ou pl anni ngonmar r y i ngher ? " Ohno Qui nt on: " wel l . . I . . . Ir eal l ycar ef ory our gr anddaught er , andIwast hi nki ngonwai t i ngf or herunt i l shegr aduat es, Iwantherf ul l yf ocused onhereducat i onandmar r i agebei ngabi gst ep It houghti twoul dmay bedi st r acther , hav i ng herf ocusonbei ngawi f eandherbooks, i t woul dputast r ai nonher , andIwantnot hi ngbut t hebestf orher . . . . Sogr amswi t hal l duer espect , cany oupl easeal l owust owai t ? " Mygr anny ' ssmi l edi sappear s, shesi ghs Gr ams: " Iunder st and. . . . Ij ustwi shIcoul dal so wai tunt i l t hatday . . " * si l ence* Qui nt onandIl ookateachot herwi t hsadf aces Me: " oh. . gr amsI . . I ' m sor r y " Sheput sherspoondownandl ooksatus Gr ams( shal l owsmi l e) : " I ' mf eel i ngt i r ed. . . canwe cal l i tani ght " Qui nt on: " y eah, ofcause" Igetupwi t hherandl eadhert oherr oom, Iopen t hebedcov er sf orher , sheget si nbedandIt uck heri n Gr ams: " cany oupl easepassmemypi l l s" Iwal kt oherbagsandt akeoutherpi l l sf orher , ohmysomanypi l l s i tbr eaksmyhear t , It ake t hem t ohert henheadoutt ogetherwat erIf i nd Qui nt oncl ear i ngt het abl e Me: " I ' l l dot hedi shes" Qui nt on: " I ' l l wai tf ory ou" Me: " okay" Iwal kbackt ot her oom andsi tatt heedgeof t hebedIgi v eherherwat erandshedr i nks up, wat chi nghert akeal l t hosepi l l spi er cedmy hear t Gr ams: " sul i l akal okbaba( don' tcr ybaba), t hi s t ooshal l pass" Me: " makhul u. . di dt heysuggestt haty oudo oper at i on?Sot haty ouwi l l becur ed? " Gr ams: " y es, buti t sv er ycost l yandbesi des, i t sa br ai nt umor , Imi ghtdi edur i ngt heoper at i onI mi ghtl i v e, i t snotapr omi sedcur e, Imi ghtev en l oosemymemor y , Ican' taf f or di t . . " Me: " butgr amsIcoul dwor ksomet hi ngout , I cansi gnupf ort hatschol ar shi pt ogost udyi n Har v ar dl awschool ov er seas, t hey ' l l gi v emea hugeamountofmoneyt her et ot akecar eof my sel f , i magi nei fIchanget hosedol l ar si nt o r andsi twor l dcov ersomet hi ngwor t ht he oper at i onandI ' dal so. . . . Gr ams( i nt er r upt i ng) : " shhhhLi l l y . . . . . . . come her e" Imov ecl osert oherandsheembr acesme, I hol dbackt het ear s Me: " Il ov ey ougr ams, Idon' twanty out ol eav e met hi ssoon, Ihav en' theal eddad' sdeat h, t he woundsar est i l l f r esh, pl easel etmedo somet hi ng, we' l l ev enaskal oanshar k, j ust any t hi ng" Shel et ' sgoaf t eraf ewmi nut es Gr ams: " don' tdot hi st oy our sel fnana, l et ' sj ust maket hemostoft hi st i me, Iknowy ouand Qui nt onwantt owai t , butt hatwi l l mean, I ' l l nev er wi t nesst hedayy ougetmar r i ed, Ir eal l ydon' t wantt ol eav ey ouwi t hnof ami l y . . . . Letmet al k t oQui nt on. .Pl ease" * si l ence* Isi gh Me: " okayf i ne, y oucant al kt ohi m" Herf acel i t sup, Il ov ei twhenshe' shappy , i t makesmycr i ppl edhear tdance Me: " goodni ghtmakhul u. . * ki ssi ngher f or ehead* . . sweetdr eams" Gr ams: " goodni ghtNana" Iswi t chof fherl i ght , Iwat chherget t i ng comf or t abl eont hebedbef or ecl osi ngt hedoor . Iheadt ot heki t chenIf i ndQui nt onr unni ng wat eri nt hesi nkf ort hedi shes Qui nt on: " hey , It houghtIshoul dst ar tsof ar si ncey ouwer et aki ngy ourt i me" Me: " wel l howt hought f ul ofy ou, t hanks" Ther e' st wosi nkssoI ' m washi ngt hedi sheson onewhi l eher i nsesandpackst hem ont hedi sh r ack Qui nt on: " sohowi sshe? " Me: " she' sf i neIguess. . . al t houghI ' m nothappy wi t ht heamountofpi l l sshe' sl i v i ngon" Qui nt on: " whatki ndofcancerdoesshehav e? " Me: " br ai ncancer" Qui nt on: " whydoesn' tshedoanoper at i on, i t s st i l l ear l yshecanst i l l becur ed" Me: " Iwi shi twer et hateasyQ, t hosear er eal l y expensi v e, andi tseemsl i ket her e' snot hi ngI cando, I ' m br oke, Iwoul dbor r owf r om al oan shar kbutI ' m af r ai dt hatwi l l putusi nmor e danger " Qui nt on: " may beIcoul dhel p, t hemoneyImake f r om t hecl ubi snotmuchbutI ' m sur eIcan. . . . Me( i nt er r upt i ng) : "No, Qui nt on, don' t , y ouhav e y ourownf ami l yt ot akecar eof , y oual r eady hav edonemor et hanenoughf orme. . . Qui nt on: " butLi saIcan. . . . Me: "NoQui nt on, Isai dno, l et ' sdr opi tokay " Hesi ghsl oudl y Qui nt on: " so?Doy out hi nkt hedi nnerwent wel l ? " Asmi l ecr eepsi nmyf ace Me: " Ihav et ogi v ei tt oy ou. . . y ouqui t et he char mer " Qui nt on: " wel l weal l al r eadyknowt hat " Her ol l shi sey et henbl owsof fi mager ydustof f hi sshoul der s Me( si ngi ng) : " Het al kl i ket hi s' causehecan backi tup Hegotabi gego Suchahugeego Il ov ehi sbi gego I t ' st oomuch Hewal kl i ket hi s' causehecanbacki tup" Iwasdanci ngwi t hmyshoul der swhi l ewashi ng t hedi shes, hel aughsatmet henal sosi ngs Qui nt on( si ngi ng) : " It al kl i ket hi s' causeIcan backi tup Igotabi gego Suchahugeego But , shel ov esmybi gego" Hi m&I : " Iwal kl i ket hi s' causeIcanbacki tup I , Iwal kl i ket hi s' causeIcanbacki tup I , It al kl i ket hi s' causeIcanbacki tup I , I , Icanbacki tup, Icanbacki tup IWal kl i ket hi s' causeIcanbacki tup" Hewasdoi ngv er ysmoot hdancemov esbuti n ami schi ev ouswaymaki ngmel aught henwe st ar t eddanci ngandwhi l esi ngi ng Qui nt on: " y ouawackdancer " Il aughandspl ashhi m wi t hwat er , hespl ashes backatme, wekeptondoi ngt hatt i l l t hewhol e ki t chenwaswet Me: " gr eatnowl ookatt hemessy oumade" Qui nt on: " y oust ar t edi t " Me: " y oumademest ar ti t " Wecar r i edoncl eani ngt heki t chenwi t hhi m maki ngj okesandt el l i ngf unnyst or i es, about hi msel fwhi char epur el i esandexagger at ed Me( l aughi ng) : " soy ouwantmet obel i ev et hat y our eal l yhav esecr etsupperpower s" Qui nt on: " y ou' dbest upi dnott o. . . Imeanl ookat t hi s" Het akesof fhi swetshi r t , andst ar t sf l exi nghi s muscl esf ormemaki ngf unnyf aces. . . . . Il ov et he wayIf or getal l mydepr essi ngpr obl emswhen I ' m ar oundt hi shandsomef ool . . . . Imeanf ool ar oundt hi sf ool Me( l aughi ng) : " dudey oul ookl i key ou const i pat ed" Webot hbur sti nt ol aught er Qui nt on: " wel l i t sbeenawhi l eokay . . . and nor mal gi r l swoul dbedr ool i ngov eral l t hi s" Hemov eshi m bodysl owl yandsexi l y, okay doeshehav et ol ookt hi shot , heshoul dr eal l y st opdoi ngt hatnow Me: " okayst opi tnow. . . geez , showof f . . . j ust causesomeofuscan' tmov e" Hecomescl osert omeandmov eshi sf acet o myear , maki ngmykneesweak Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " don' twor r y. . I ' l l t eachy oua t hi ngort wo, bub" It akeadeepbr eat heasIf eel myst omach cr unchl i ket her e' sbubbl es, Iguessi twhatt hey cal l but t er f l i es Me: " l et ' sgot obed" Hel ooksatmeamused Me: " I . . Imean. . t osl eep. . l i kel et ' sgosl eep, si nce i t sl at eandst uf f . . butl i kej ustt osl eep. . . nott hat Iwanty out ot eachmeat hi ngort woi n bed. . butl i keImeant . . . Hewasnowl aughi ngatmeIpunchhi s shoul derandpasshi m asImakemywayt ot he r oom, Igoti nt hent ookmybi gt owel , Qui nt on comesi nst i l l l aughi ngatme Me: " mx xm i twasn' tt hatf unny . . .Ar ghy ou t r i ckedme" Iwasf eel i ngabi tst upi dandembar r assed, I wentt ot akeashower , Ihear dt hedooropen Me: " someone' si nher e" Qui nt on: " don' twor r yI ' l l t aket hebat ht ub" Lucki l yt heshowersl i dei snott r anspar ent , af t er awhi l eIgetout Me: " pl easel ookaway . . Ineedt owr apmyt owel " Hel ooksawayandIst epoutoft heshower t hencov ermybody Me: " i t ssaf enow" Hel ooksmyway Qui nt on: " heypl easepassmet hatt owel " It akehi st owel andgogi v ehi m het akesi tbut hol dsmyhand, f orawhi l eIf r eeze, Ishoul dst op l ooki ngathi sbodynow, whyar emyey es di sobey i ngme? Qui nt on: " t hanks, y oucanl etgooft het owel now" Hebr i ngsmebackt oear t h Me: " oh. . sor r y " Il etgoandgetoutasf astasIcan. . . whatt he hel l i swr ongwi t hme?Cont r ol y our sel fGi r l !For oneday , Thi shasal r eadybeenonel ong weekend . . . . guy sIneedmor el i kes. . . pl easekeepment i oni ng andshar i ngt hepagesoIcancont i nuet hest or y happy . . . andal l y ourcomment smat t ersokeep t hem comi ng. .t hanks [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: I nser t9 LI SA Iwakeupear l y , soIcangetst ar t edonbr eakf ast , If i r stt ookashower , t henwor emyshor tPJs agai n, Imustsaywecoul dn' tsl eepl astni ght , I t hi nki t sbecausewesl eptal mostt hewhol e day , sowewer ej ustt al ki ngandl aughi ng, It hi nk wef el l asl eepaf t eronesomewher et her e. Any wayI ' m nowpr epar i ngbr eakf ast , por r i dge t henl at erI ' l l makeEngl i shbr eakf ast , Qui nt on l ov espor r i dge, hel ov esmi xi ngi twi t hbut t erand mi l korpeanutbut t eronl y , It aughthi mt he peanutbut t ermi x, butIonl ygett omakei ton someweekendsbecauseofschool , I ' m now mi xi ngt hepotwhenIf eel st r ongar mssnaki ng mef r om behi nd, mykneesi nst ant l ywent wobbl y Hi m( whi sper i ngi nmyear ) : " goodmor ni ng bub, mmhy oumaki ngmyf av or i t e" Icl osemyey est ot hesoundofhi sv oi ceand t heheatofhi swar m br eat hagai nstmyear s Me: " g. . goodmor ni ng. . . .Yeahi t ' l l ber eadyi na f ew" Ir emov ehi sar msf r om meandt ur nt of acehi m Me( whi sper i ng) : " wedon' thav et opr et endi f gr amsi snotar ound" Qui nt on: " butshe' si nt hehouse, soshemust expectt owal ki nonus, whi l ewedoi ng somet hi ngpeopl ewhoar ei nl ov edo, t hat ' show we' l l conv i nceher . . . i fweonl yt ouchand r andoml yki ssi nf r ontofher , t hatwoul dbe r ude, andi twoul dbeobv i ouswej ustdoi ngi tf or hert osee" Oohhy eahhehasapoi ntt her e Me: " oohhy our i ght , wher easi fshewal ksi non us, i t ' l l bepr ov i ngt hatwer eal l yl ov eeachot her wi t houtbei ngr udeanddoi ngi ti nf r ontofher " Qui nt on: " exact l y " Hesay st hatashepul l smecl osert ohi m our nosesandf or eheadst ouch Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " r eadyf orourf i r stki ssasa coupl e" Myhear ti sski ppi ngqui t eaf ewbeat s, t he but t er f l i esar ebackagai n Me( whi sper s) : " y eah" Hepl aceshi sl i pssl owl yandgent l yonmi ne, my ey esaut omat i cal l ycl ose, f orawhi l eourl i psar e j ustt ouchi ng, Hi sl i psar esosof tandwar m.I f eel hi shandmov ef r om mybackdownhewas al mostbymybut twhensomeonecl ear edher t hr oat , wei mmedi at el yst oppedandIdon' tknow whenandhowbutIwasv er yf arawayf r om hi m mi xi ngmypot s, webot ht ur nedt oseegr ams wal ki ngi nt ot heki t chenandheadsf ort he f r i dgewi t houtsay i ngawor d Iwaski ndadi sappoi nt ed. .Idon' tknowwhy . . . we wer esocl oset oki ssi ng Qui nt onl ooksatmeandst ar t st al ki ngt ome wi t hhi sey ehecl encheshi st eet hwi t hhi sey es poppedoutmaki ngt hat' UhOh' l ook Me( cl ear i ngt hr oat ) : " goodmor ni nggr ams" Gr ams: " mor ni ngzi t handani " ( l ov ebi r ds) Shecl osest hef r i dgeabi tdi sappoi nt ed Gr ams: " ani naf r ui taphaekhapha? "( Y' al l don' t hav ef r ui t si nt hi shouse) Me: " Ei sh, no. . . Qui nt onwi l l buyi twhenhecomes backf r om wor k, r i ghthoney ? " Qui nt on: " ofcause. . . .Nowwoul dy ouhur r yup wi t ht hatpor r i dge, I ' m st ar v i ng" Gr ams: " don' tl ett hemanst ar v el i l y " Shesmi r ksatme. . . heeeeay i umakhul u endi nay engeny ei nhl obo ( Mygr amsi sr eal l ysomet hi ngel se) Ij ustsmi l eather , t henl ookatQui nt onwhohas t hesamesmi r k Qui nt on: " mxel el emakhul u, akev aht uu"( t el l her gr ams, shenev erl i st ens) OhmyGoshheal sospeaksXhosa! !Sof l uent l y , wowt hi sguyi sf ul l ofsur pr i ses, heal way st ol d meheonl yunder st andsi tbutcan' tspeaki t , onl y Zul u. . akal oxoki ! ( Li ar ! )NowIhav et oactcool causeappar ent l yasmymanIshoul dknow ev er y t hi ngabouthi m Me: " akev ahnt onkewena. . . engat hngewuv al a l oml omowakho, t shi n" ( nev erl i st enst owhat ? Youbet t ershuty ourpi ehol e) Theyl aughatme, Idi shupandweal l eat , gr ams wasj ustdi shi ngoutmychi l dhoodst or i es, l i ke howsheoncef oundmecov er edi nbut t eri nt he ki t chensl i di ngmybodyal l ov ert hepl acewhen Iwast hr eeandshegav emeonehel l ofa spanki ng, Qui nt oni sl aughi nghi sgut soutr i ght now Me: " butgr ams, whyy ougot t aputoutmy busi nessl i ket hat " Shel aughsandwal ksoutt oherr oom Qui nt on: " y oubat hey our sel fi nbut t erhuh? " Me: " mx m, shutup" Qui nt on: " nowondery oul i ket hi s" Hey !What ' st hatsupposedt omean Me: " l i kewhat ? " Qui nt on: " l i ket hi s" Hel ooksatmeupanddowndi sgust edl y Me: " ohmygosh. . l i kewhat ?What ' swr ongwi t h me? " Hechuckl esl ooksatmeupanddownagai n t henwal ksaway Me: " Qui nt on! . .Whatdoy oumean?Nowonder I ' ml i kewhat ? " I ' mr unni ngaf t erhi mt ot her oom, he' sbyt he war dr obepi cki ngoutcl ot hes Ist andnextt ohi m Me: " howam I ?" Qui nt on: " wi t hwhat ? " Hemov est ot hebedIf ol l owhi m Me: " l i kewhatdi dy oumean?" Qui nt on: " not hi ng" Hewal ksbackt ot hewar dr obe, he' saboutt o t ur nt ogot ot hebedbutIbl ockhi m Qui nt on: " y oui nmyway " Me: " f i r stt el l mewhaty oumeant " Hemov escl osert ome Qui nt on( sof t l y ) : " Isai d. . mywayl i sakhany a" Me: " f i r stt el l mewhaty oumeant ?" Hemov eshi sf acecl osert omi ne. . . okayIt hi nk t hi si sst i l l par toft hewhol epr et endi nggameof our s. . butwhydoeshel ooksosi ncer e, our nosesar et ouchi ng Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " y oui nmywaybub" If eel l i kemybodyi sf l oat i ngonai r Me( whi sper s) : " t el l mef i r st " Het ouchesmyl i pswi t hhi st humb, hemov es hi sl i pscl oseronl yani nchapar t , hepar t shi s l i psr eadyt oki ssme, myey escl ose * phoner i ngi ng* Icomebackt omysensesashi sphone di st ur bst hemoment , Imov eaway , Ihearhi m cur seunder neat hhi sbr eat heashewal ks t owar dt hephoneandpi cksi tup Qui nt on: " Mi nenhl e. . . hey " . . . Qui nt on: " sur e, I ' m get t i ngr eady , I ' l l bet her ei na f ew" Iqui ckl ywal koutoft her oom, Qui nt onshoul d' v e r eal l yt ookupacar eeri nact i ngcauser i ghtnow notonl yi sheconv i nci ngmygr ams, he' sal so conf usi ngme. . andwhatt hehel l i smybody doi ngbet r ay i ngmel i ket hat , Ican' taf f or dt o cat chf eel i ngs, noIr ef use, he' smyf r i endand he' sj usthel pi ngmeout , wecan' tcompl i cat eour r el at i onshi pl i ket hat , wej ustdoi ngt hi sf or gr amsnot hi ngmor e. Igoandcl eant heki t chen, hecomest owar ds t hesi t t i ngr oom wher egr amsi schi l l i ng Qui nt on: " I ' l l seey oul at ergogo, Ihav et osor t outaf ewt hi ngsatwor k" byt hewayi fy oui nt heki t chent hesi t t i ngr oom i sv er yv i si bl e, Ihearhi m comi ngt owar dsmei n t heki t chen, hehugsmef r om behi nd, heki sses myneck Qui nt on: " I ' l l bebackabi tl at e, hav eaf ew er r andsatwor k" Me: " okayhoney " Qui nt on: " Il ov ey ou" Het ur nsmear oundandhugsme Me: " Il ov ey out oo" Hel ooksatmeandsmi r ks, t henki ssesmy cheekandheadsout , Ibr eat houtasi fIwashol di ngmybr eat he. . . wel l t hatwasi nt ense Gr ams: " ay i uy akut handaumt wanawabant u ndy akxel el a( t heboyi smadl yi nl ov ewi t h y ou) . . nowt hi si swhatIcal l t r uel ov e, t hewayhe l ooksaty oui nt heey es, Iknowhewoul ddo any t hi ngt opr ot ecty ou, he' st heoneNana, nguy eumaqondanawakho( he' st heonef or y ou) " Ismi l et omy sel fi fonl ysheknewt hatt hi si s not hi ngmor ebutabi gFATLI E! QUI NTON Wel l t hi shasbeenar at heri nt er est i ng week, l i v i ngwi t hLi sahasboughtoutasi deof meInev erknewexi t s, shemakesmegocr azy andwantt odowi l dt hi ngsl i kef orexampl e r obbi ngshops, maki ngf unofuberdr i v er soh andhowcanIf or get , bei ngherpr et end boy f r i end, Iwoul dhav enev eri nami l l i ony ear s t hi nkI ' ddot hi ngsl i ket hatev er , whenIf i r stmet Li sashewast hi sdownt oear t hgi r l , whoknew not hi ngaboutt heci t yl i f e, shewasl ostand af r ai d, somet hi ngaboutherbur sar ywentwr ong, If oundherwonder i ngi nt hest r eet sr i ght out si det hecl ubIwor ki n, Iknewsheneeded hel pcausei twasl at eatni ghtandshewas car r y i ngbi gbags, sheseemedl i keshehad nowher et ogo, soasIwat chedherf oraf ew hour st hi nki ngmay besomeonewi l l comepi ck herupunt i l Isawagangoft hugssur r oundi ng herl ucki l yIal way scar r ymygunundermycar seatsoIwentandscar edt hem of fy oucan nev erbet oosaf er oundher e, Iof f er edheral i f t andshet ol dmeherst or ysobei ngt he gent l emanIam Iof f er edherapl acet ost ay , I sawhowuncomf or t abl eshewasar oundmeat f i r stsoIgav eherspacet ost ayal onef oray ear whi l eIcr ashedatmyf r i end' sBr andon, shewas happywi t ht hat , r emembert hef akest or yIt ol d hergr amsdur i ngdi nner , wel l t hest or ymi ghtbe madeupbuti t snotcompl et el yf ake, f or i nst ancet hewayIf el twhenIf i r stmether , al l t hati st r ueshewasamy st er yandIwascur i ous, butIf i gur edshe' st oogoodf orme, I ' ma Hear t br eakerI ' m notaser i ousr el at i onshi p ki ndaguyandapar tofmecar esf orheral ot anddi dnotl i ket oseeherhur tspeci al l ybei ng t her easonofherhur t , t hemor er easont okeep myf eel i ngsf orherasi deandj ustf ocuson bei ngt hei rf orherasabr ot herandf r i end, t henI wi l l knowt hatI ' l l pr ot ect i nghermor et han hur t i ngher . . . t her eal t r ut haboutmei st hatI ' m not . . . . . .Noy ' al l notr eadyt oknowt hat . Let ' sj ustsayIgr ewupwel l of f , butIj ustdon' t l i ket hewayIgr ewup, Il ov emyf ami l y , butI ' d r at herbei ndependentt hendependenton peopl ei ncl udi ngmyf ami l y . .Idespi semy f at her . . hedi edi nJai l af t erbei ngcaughtbyt he pol i ceandar r est edf orki l l i ngoneoft hemen t hatusedt owor kf orhi mi nhi sdi amond t r anspor t at i onbusi ness, t hemanbet r ay edhi m andwasst eal i ngf r om hi m bi tbybi t, hef ound outandwentaf t erhi m andki l l edhi m, t hatwas f i v et osi xy ear sago, i nj ai l peopl ewhohehad t hr owni nt her egangeduponhi m andt hatwas t hel astIsawofmyf at her , Ihat ehi m, Ihat e ev er y t hi nghe' sputust hr ought oget herwi t hmy br ot her sbutmost l yIhat ehi smoneyal l ofi t , i t s bl oodmoneyandIwantnot hi ngt odowi t hi t . Any wayI ' m onmywayt oMi nenhl emynew gi r l f r i end, Imustsayshei sav er yi nt er est i ng l ady , shegott hebody , t hesexyswagandt he beaut y , she' sf r om ar i chf ami l ysoIwoul dn' tsay she' saf t ermymoney , sheev enof f er edt opay f orourdi nneront hef i r stdat e, soIguessshe r eal l yl i kesmef orme. . . orf ormygood l ooks, t hatar eappar ent l yt het al koft own, Idon' t knowIguessI ' l l f i ndoutast i megoes, It hi nk she' sakeepert hough, Ir eal l yl i keher , she' s sweet . . . . al t houghIwi shshemademyhear tf eel l i kei t sf l oat i ngorgi v emesmi l est hatsend shi v er sdownmyspi neormakemegoi nsane j ustt ot hef eel i ngofhert ouchormakemewant t oj ustst ar ei nt oherey esasIwat chherl augh ormakemewantt ol i st ent ohercr azyst or i es abouther sel f . . .IguessIwi shshemademef eel l i kehowLi samakesmef eel Ipar kmycarbyherdr i v eway Shewasal r eadywai t i ngf ormebyt hedoor wear i ngt hemostr ev eal i ngdr essev er , Iwal kup t oher Enhl e: " baby ! ! " Sher unst omeandj umpsonmewr appi ng her sel fal l ov erme Me: " heysexy" Iki ssedherhungr i l y Enhl e: " Ipr epar edy oul unch" Me: " butIwanty our i ghtnow" Shewasaboutt osaysomet hi ngIshutherup wi t haki ssandheadedf ort her oom, shedi dn' t pr ot est , Iguesssheal sowant sme, Iwast ooon f orf or epl aysoIj ustent er edwi t houtwar ni ng * * * * * * si xhour sl at er * We' v ebeeni nbedf orhour shav i ngsex Me: " Ihav et ogetgoi ng" Igetupandputonmycl ot hes Enhl e: " what ' st her ush, i t sonl yei ght , andi t snot l i key ouhav eawi f eathomeorababy " Ichuckl e Me: " sor r ybabe, butIpr omi sedmyr oommat eI ' l l bet her ebef or esupperandI ' m al r eadyl at e" Enhl e: " ohcomeon, t hey ' l l bemanymor e supper she' l l sur v i v e" OhIdi dn' tment i onmyr oommat ei sagi r l shi t Me: " y oumeanshe' l l sur v i v e" Enhl e: " what ? . . y oul i v ewi t hagi r l ? " Shesoundsshockedandangr y Igosi tnextt oher , Iwasnowr eadyt ogo Me: " nobaby . . Imeany es, butIsweary ouhav e not hi ngt owor r yabout " Enhl e: " y oul i v ewi t hagi r l whohasapussyand y out el l i ngmeIhav enot hi ngt owor r yabout ? " Il augh Enhl e( i r r i t at ed) : " not hi ngi sf unnyaboutt hat " Me: " l ookbabe. . . uhm she' snotmyt y pe, she' s ki ndaofaf ar m gi r l , notcl assyl i key ou, andar gh y ouknowhowIl i kemygi r l s, she' snotev en cl oset oy ourst andar ds, soser i ousl yy ouhav e not hi ngt owor r yabout" Ihat eev er y t hi ngIsai di nt hatsent ence, cause i t ssonott r ueandi fLi sacoul dhearwhatIj ust sai di twoul dhur therdeepl y Asmi l ecr eepsi nherf ace Enhl e: " r eal l y ? " Me: " y ouknowIonl yl ov ey ou" Shegasps Enhl e: " y oudo? . . . Me: "Idowhat ? " Enhl e: " y ouj ustsai dy oul ov eme. . . i t st hef i r st t i mey ousai di t " Thatr eal l ysl i ppedoutInev ersayt heLwor d Me: " IguessIdo. . . . y oudi f f er entEnhl e, andI ' v e nev erbeenwi t hagi r l whol ov esmef orme" Shecomest omeandhugsme Enhl e: " Il ov ey out oobaby " Weki ss Me: " Ihav et ogonow" Shesul ks Enhl e: " y oushoul di nt r oducemet oy our r oommat esomet i me. . . . ( gi ggl es) . .Ipr omi seI won' tmakef unofher " Me( chuckl es) : " okay . . . Iwoul dl ov ey ' al l t omeet act ual l y . . .Lookev ent houghshe' snotmyt y pe, I st i l l car ef orher , we' v ebeent hr oughal otsoI wanty out oshowhersomer espectokay " Shenods Enhl e: " y essi r " Weki ssagai n, bef or eIheadbackhome, Iget t her eandt hel i ght sar eof f , Icheckt het i meand i t shal fpastt en, Mi nenhl el i v esqui t eadi st ance away , Iopent hedoorandl ocki taswal ki nas qui et l yasIcoul d, Iseet heTVpl ay i ngbutno onewat chi ngsoIgoswi t chi tof f , onl yt of i nd Li sasl eepi ngpeacef ul l yont hecouch, Ibendt o herl ev el andwat chhersl eep, Ir emov et hehai r onherf aceandpushi tbackt or ev eal her beaut i f ul f ace, Ipi ckherupasgent l yasIcan, but herey esopen Li sa( sl eepyl owv oi ce) : " Qui nt on. . . whendi d y ou? " Me: " j ustnow. . . shhhh" Iputheront hebedandt uckheri n Li sa: " y ourf oodi si nt hemi cr owav e" Me: " okay , t hanks. . . goodni ghtbub" Shecl osesherey es, Iki ssherf or eheadt hengo t akeani cewar m showerbef or eheadi ngf or bed . . . Just500mor el i kesandwemakea1k. . . . canwe doi t ? [ 07/ 28, 11: 05]W: I nser t10 LI SA " Li sast ayher e. . I ' l l bebacky ev ah" Me: " daddydon' tl eav emeher endy oy i ka( I ' m scar r ed)t hosemenhav eguns" " I ' l l al way spr ot ecty oul i l y , don' tbescar r edal l t hi swi l l beov ersoon" Me: " andwe' l l gohomesaf el y ?" Wehi di ngbehi ndhi sbi gv ananddadi s kneel i ngi nf r ontofmehol di ngagun, mom was i nsi det hecar , t heysai dt heywer et aki ngmet o t hepar k. . t hi si snott hepar k, I ' m conf used, I ' m st i l l aki d, i t ssodar konl yst r eetl i ght sar eon.I hearf oot st epscomi ngt owar dsus " I ndodaay i cashi Mt het hwaonl ycowar ds do. . . . nowcomef acemel i keaman" Ican' tseet hemanhe' sv oi cei scomi ngf r om behi ndme, dadgetupsl owl yt hensi gnal smet o goundert hecar . . . Igounderandhi de, Icanf eel t heuncomf or t abl eheatonmyski n Al oudcommot i onwentonbef or eIknowi t * BAAH!BAAH!BAAH! * gunshot sar ebei ngf i r ed. . . Iscr eam asIgett he f r i ghtofmyl i f e * BAAH! * Mor eshotIr emai ni nt actundert hecarwhenI seehi sgunf al l downf ol l owedbyhi m kneel i ng, hel ay sont hegr oundandl ooksatmehet r i es t ospeakbuti tcomesoutasawhi sper Dad: bal eka, . . . r un Hi sey esshut, Ist ar tmov i ngandr unf ormyl i f e, Icannotdi e, I ' mr unni ngI ' m scr eami ngf orhel p * * * * * * * " Heeel p! " Ii nst ant l ysi tonmybut , I ' m sweat i ngl i ke cr azy , what ' supwi t hme?Ihav en' thadt hese dr eamssi nceIwasachi l d. . ar et heyev endr eam i ft heyact ual l yhappened?Idon' tunder st and, whyar et heseni ght mar escomi ngbackt o hauntme? Qui nt on: " Li sa!Ar ey ouokay ? " Ican' tcont r ol mybr eat hi ngmyhear t beati s beat i ngonf ear Qui nt on: " cal m down, i twasj ustani ght mar e, y ousaf enow" Hepul l smecl osert ohi m andhugsme Qui nt on: " l et ' sgogety ouwat er " Heget supandhel psmeupashel eadsmet o t heki t chen, Ist i l l hav et hati magei nmymi ndof myf at herl y i ngt her ei napool ofhi sbl ood, hi s v oi cei sst i l l echoi ngi nsi demyhead " bal eka! . . . . . r un! "i t sl i kehe' sr i ghther e If eel someonet ouchmyshoul derIst ar t l ei n f earl et t i ngoutapani csi gh Qui nt on: " i t sj ustme. . t her e' sy ourwat er " Hegi v esmeani cecol dgl assofwat erwhi ch r eal l yhel pedmecool downt ot heheatIwas f eel i ng, Igal pi tdowni nonego Qui nt on: " It hi nky ouneedanot hergl ass" Hepour edmemor eandIdr ankup Qui nt on: " nowcome, l et ' sgety ouof ft hosewet cl ot hes" Hehol dsmeandl eadsmet ot her oom he swi t chesont hel i ghtandl ooksf orsomet hi ngI canwear , hegav emehi sov er si zedbasket bal l v est Qui nt on: " It hi nkt hi swi l l bemor ecomf or t abl e andcool i ng" It akeof fmycl ot hes Qui nt on: " whoa" That ' swhenIr eal i zedIj ustgotnakedi nf r ontof hi m, butr i ghtnowt hat ' st hel eastofmywor r i es, Ir eal i seIhav en' tsai dawor dt ohi m Me: " t hanks" Heswi t chesof ft hel i ghtt henheadbackt obed i twasar ound2am Me: " pl easel eav et hel ampon" Qui nt on: " okay " Imov er eal l ycl oset ohi m andsnuggl emy sel f i nt ohi sbody , hehol dsmet i ght , nowIf eel much saf er Me: " don' tl etgoofme" Hemakeshi msel fmor ecomf or t abl eandf aces hi sbodyt owar dmewi t hhi sonear m pi l l owi ng myheadandt heot herar oundmywai stt henhe pul l smei nt ohi mt i ght er Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " Nev er " Myf acei sbur i edonhi schestandhesmel l s good. . . power , Iwr apmyl egsar oundhi m ashe put shi sonel egi nbet weenmi ne, Icanf eel ev er ypar tofhi m andIf eel l i kenot hi ngwi l l ev er hur tme, I ' m saf e, I ' m home. Qui nt on: " don' twor r yy ousaf enow. . . Iwon' tl et any t hi ngorany onehur ty ou" Heki ssesmyf or eheadr epeat edl y , It i l tmyhead upal i l heki ssesmynose, It i l ti tupagai nand wegazei nt oeachot her ' sey es, hi sl i pssmash i nt omi ne, Icl osemyey esasIenj oyhi ssof tl i ps , myt ummyi si nnot s, el ect r i cwav esr unni ng downmyspi nest r ongert hanev er , myhear ti s nol ongerbeat i ngi nf earbuti nexci t ement , our l egsar emov i ngal l ov ert hepl ace, heget son t opofmeandl ay si nbet weenmyl egsast he ki ssgetheat ed, i t snowf i l l edwi t h hunger , l ongi ng, passi onanddesi r e, Icanf eel hi s har don, hewasal r eadyonl yi nhi sbr i ef scause t hat ' st heonl yt hi nghesl eepsi n, hi shandsar e r unni ngal l ov ermyt ensedbodyandsoar e mi neal l ov erhi smuscl edbody , hesqueezes myboobr oughl ybutgent l yatt hesamet i me, he br eakst heki ssandheaddownmyneckki ssi ng andsucki ngdownmybr eastt oo, Iwasbi t i ng mynai l suppr essi ngt hemoanshewasmov i ng downt omynunuhesl i ddownmypant ysl owl y , ev er y t hi ngwashappi ngi nsl owmot i on, Idon' t knowwhyI ' m nott r y i ngt ost ophi m, " Uuhhh" If eel hi m doi ngsomet hi ngamazi ngdown t her e, Idon' tknowwhatt odowi t hmy sel f , Igr ab ont ot hesheetbi t i ngmybot t om l i pcl osi ngmy ey est i ghtasIt r yt osuppr essmyur get o pee, butIcoul dn' tany mor esoIl eti toutandi t f el tgoodIt hi nki twasanor gasm , hecomes backt omyf aceandki ssesme, If eel hi sman hoodonmybel l y , hewasbut tnaked Qui nt on: " y ousur ey ouwantt odot hi s? " Idon' tknowwhatt osay , awhol epar tofmei s v ot i ngy es, Imeani fIgi v ei tupt ohi m, atl eastI knowhe' l l nev erhur tme, si ncehe' smyf r i end andIal r eadyknowhe' si nar el at i onshi p, he' s t heoneoft hef ewpeopl eIt r ust whol ehear t edl y , and, It r usthewon' tmakeme r egr eti t Inodmyhead Me: " y es, I ' m sur e" Hepl aceshi sf or eheadonmi ne, If eel hi mr ub hi msel fonmyt empl ebef or esl owl yt hr ust i ng i n. . . Iscr eam aspai nandpl easur ef i l l smeup * * * * * * * * * Af t erani cebat hIheadt ot heki t chent omake br eakf ast , gr amsi sl eav i ngt odayandIdon' t knowwhet herI ' m happyorsad. .IguessI ' m happyt hatt hepr et endi ngcannowst opandwe cangobackt onor mal butI ' m sadt hatgr amsi s l eav i ngIwantt ospendmor et i mewi t hher , but notl i ket hi s. I ' m nowdi shi ngup, Idon' tknowwhybutI ' mi na v er ygoodmoodI ' m ev ensi ngi ng Me( si ngi ng) : Iwasgonnacl eanmyr oom Unt i l Igothi gh Iwasgonnagetupandf i ndt hebr oom Butt henIgothi gh Myr oom i sst i l l messedupandIknowwhy " whyman? " Qui nt on' ssay st hatpar tashespanksmyass Me: ' CauseIgothi gh BecauseIgothi gh BecauseIgothi gh Qui nt on: Iwasgonnagot ocl ass Bef or eIgothi gh Icoul dacheat edandIcoul dapassed ButIgothi gh Iam t aki ngi tnextsemest erandIknowwhy Me: " whyman? " Qui nt on: ' CauseIgothi gh BecauseIgothi gh BecauseIgothi gh " Ni t handai nsangonakul omzi ? "( Y' al l smoke weedi nt hi shouse?) Webur sti nt ol aught erasmygr amsmadeher wayt ot hesi t t i ngr oom whi l ewewer ei nt he ki t chen Me: " i t sj ustasongmakhul u" Iwal kedt owar dst hef r i dge, oncey oubyt he f r i dget hesi t t i ngr oom ar eai snotv i si bl e. . .Iwas l ooki ngf orwat ersot hatImakej ui ce, If eel Qui nt onhol dmef r om behi ndandbi t smy ear l obesendi ngwar m bl oodal l ov ermyi nsi des Qui nt on( whi sper i ng) : " guesswhowant st o meety ou" Me( whi sper i ng) : " who? " Qui nt on: " Enhl e" Me: " oh?When? " Qui nt on: " sheaskedf ort omor r owandsi nce gr amsi sl eav i ngIt houghti t scool " Me: " y eahi t st ot al l ycool , can' twai tt omeet her , t hegi r l whomadey ouf al l " Il aughsi l ent l y Qui nt on: " t hat ' ssonott r ue" Het ur nsmear ound Me: " aboutt hatbet , wenev erdi scussedi t . . .I sai dshe' l l makeamont handy ousai donl yt wo week. . . sowhatdoIgeti fIwi n? " Qui nt on: " whatdoy ouwant ? " Me: " Iwanty out obemysl av ef oramont h" Her ai seshi sbr ows Qui nt on: " whati fIwi n? " Me: " whatdoy ouwant ? " Qui nt on: " Iwanty out ost r i pdancef orme" Il augh. . nextt hi ngIknowhi sl i psar eonmi ne sucki ngeachot her , hepi nsmeagai nstt he count er, hi shandssl i dei nsi demypant sand gr absmybut tcheeks " Mmmh" Amoansl i ppedoutmymout handIbr oket he ki ss Me: " gr amsmustbehungr y " " Kant i nenzani apho?Akuv ut hwana okudl a? ! " ( whaty ' al l doi ngt her e!Wi l l f oodev er ber eady ! ? ) Wel aughandser v eherherf oodandweal l eat byt hesi t t i ngr oom Me: " Idon' tmeant or ushy oumakhul ukodwa y oushoul deatupf ast , kukudeeMt hat ha ( Mt hat hai sf ar )andIdon' twanty out r av el l i ng atni ght , whowi l l gi v ey oual i f tf r om t hest op v el e? Ishoul dcal l someoneIknowadudewho hasacarhecan. . . . Gr ams( i nt er r upt s) : " I ' m notgoi ngt oday " Wel ookather Qui nt on: " huh? " Gr ams: " I ' m st ay i ngf ort hewhol eweek, t her e ar et hi ngsIst i l l needt odoher ebef or eIl eav e" Me: " what ? .. Imeanl i kewhatgr ams? " Shecan' tbeser i ous, Iwashopi ngt hataf t erl ast ni ghtheat edscenar i owoul dbet hel astt i mewe sl eepont hesamebedandf or getaboutwhat happened Gr ams: " doIneedar easont ospendmor et i me wi t hy ou? " Me: " Nogr ams, buti t sj ust , IIwas. . . . uhm who wi l l t akecar eofy ou. . Imeancausel i keIhav e school andst uf f " Gr ams: " nott owor r y , i t sbet t erher e, t henbei ng al onet her ei nmyhouseatl easther eIcanbe wi t hpeopl ej ustt ot al kt o" If eel myhear tbr eakbyherwor dsshemustbe sol onel yt her ewi t hnoonet ot al kt oandmom j ustcomi ngbackdr unkornotatal l i sst r essi ng herout Me: " Iunder st andgr ams. . . . y ouwel comet ost ay l onger " Qui nt on: " y eah. . . uhm canIbeexcused? " Hegi v esmet he' wenewt ot al k' l ook Hewal ksawayt ot her oom. . . Iwast hi nki ngof somet hi ngt osayt hatwi l l excuseme Gr ams: " hambauy ot het hanomnt uwakho, ndy abonabani f unaut het ha, kal okukukwakhe apha. . . kodwai fakekhohappybandi hl al e ungazami umkumncengandi zohamba andi naxaki "( got al kt oy ourmanIcanseey ' al l needt ot al kbuti fhi snothappywi t hmy ext endedst aydon' tt r yt oconv i ncehi m, Iwi l l l eav e, nopr obl em) Me: " nonsense, Qui nt onl ov esy ou, hedoesn' t hav eapr obl em wi t hy oubei ngher el ongert r ust me, I ' m sur ei t ssomet hi ngel se, l etmegof i nd out " Igetupandki ssherf or eheadt henheadt ot he r oom andcl oset hedoor Hi ssi t t i ngatt heedgeoft hebed Igosi tnextt ohi m Me: " Iknowhey" Qui nt on: " nowy out ol dmeonl yt woni ght s" Me: " Ei shQui nt on, It houghtsot oo" Qui nt on: " Idon' tknowLi sa, t hi sgamewe pl ay i ng, i tdoesn' tf eel saf eany mor e. . . " Me: " ar ey oubai l i ngoutonme? " Qui nt on: " Li sa, wepl ay i ngwi t hf i r e, t hel onger y ourgr amsst ay , t hemor edanger ousal l t hi s becomes" Me: " Iknow. . . . butIcan' tmar r yast r angerI ' d r at herf akemar r yy ou" Qui nt on: " Li sa, al otofpeopl ewi l l gethur ti nt he endofal l t hi s. . . t r ustmei t snotgoi ngt oend wel l " Me: " y ouwor r i edaboutEnhl e? . . . don' twor r yy ou j ustt el l herI ' my oursi st erandt hat ' sourgr ams" Qui nt on: " Ican' tIt ol dherIl i v ewi t hagi r l , she woul df i ndi tsuspi ci ousi fIj ustsayshe' smy si st eraf t erIconv i ncedhert hatt her e' snot hi ng goi ngonbet weent het woofus" Me: " t henj ustt el l herI ' m gay . . y eahIhav ea gi r l f r i endandmeandy ouar ej ustr eal l ycl ose f r i ends" Hesi ghsandbur i eshi sf acei nhi shands Qui nt on: " mor el i es. . . t hi swon' tendwel l " Me: " Qui nt ony oupr omi sedme" Qui nt on: " IknowLi sa. . .ButIj usthav eabad f eel i ngaboutal l t hi s. . . j ustt al kwi t hy ourgr ams may beshe' l l under st and" Me: No!Youdon' tgeti tdoy ou. . . . mygr amshas f or ev erbeenunhappyi nt hi swor l d. . . . andt hi s weekendseei ngmehappywi t hsomeonewho wi l l l ov emeev enwhenshe' sgonehasmade herv er yexci t ed. . . .I ' v enev erseenhert hi s happy . . . . .Youdon' tunder st and!" Ibr eakdownandcr y . . . Ican' tdeal any mor e, he hugsme Qui nt on: " shhhpl easedon' tcr ybub. . . . okay l ook. . . I ' m onehundr edper centbehi ndy oui nal l t hi s, okay ?Iwon' tbai l outnow, Iwasj ust wor r i ed" Me: " wecanpul l i tofQui nt on. .Iknowwecan" Hecupsmyf ace Qui nt on: "i t ' sokayl i l y . . . . . Igoty ourback. . . al way s " Heki ssesmyf or ehead Me: " andIgoty our st oo" Wesmi l eateachot her , hepecksmyl i pst hen weheadbackt ot hesi t t i ngr oom t owel come gr amsf ort her estofherst ay . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 28, 16: 52]W: cont i nuat i on LI SA ( Shor t ) I ' mi nbedr eadi nganov el bykatMar t i n, ' bey ond r eason' i st het i t l e, i t squi t eani nt er est i ng r omant i cbook, I ' mf i ndi ngi thar dt o Concent r at et hough, Qui nt oni ssi ngi ngi nt he showeratt het opofhi sv oi ceandIkeep l aughi ngathowhor r i bl ehi shi ghnot ei s, I ' m sur egr amscanhearhi m ev ensomeone wal ki ngpastt hehousewoul dhearhi m. Iheart hedooropeni ngIl owermybookf r om myf aceameetaf r eshcl eanRoomi ewr apped i nat owel ar oundhi sl owerbodyexposi nghi s t anbodyandwat err unni ngdownhi sabbs.He wasst i l l si ngi ngt hesongwewer esi ngi ngi n t hemor ni ngdanci ngi naf unnyy etsexyway Qui nt on( si ngi ng) : " Iwasgonnamakel ov et o y ou Butt henIgothi gh Iwasgonnaeaty opussyt oo Butt henIgothi gh NowI ' mj acki ngof fandIknowwhy " "whyman! ? "Ij usthadt osayt hatpar t Qui nt on: ' CauseIgothi gh BecauseIgothi gh BecauseIgothi gh Wel aughedandhecamet owar dst hebed, he t ookhi sl ot i onandl ot i onshi sbody , Ist op st ar i ngbef or eIst ar tget t i ngi deas, I ' mj ust st ar i ngatt hi sbooknowIcan' tst opt hi nki ng aboutl astni ght ' sepi sode, If eel hi m getont he bedt henIpr et endt obemor ef ocusedont hi s book, hegr absi tawayf r om me, t hent akesof f myner ds. . . . y eahi weargl assesonl ywhenI ' m r eadi ngandwr i t i ngt hough, heput st hem ont he headboar dt abl e Me: " heey yIwasr eadi ngt hat " Qui nt on: " nor eadi ngi nbed, i fy ouwantt or ead y oucangosi tsomewher eel se" Me: " But . . . Qui nt on: " nobut s. . . i t sei t hery ougety ourbut t outoft hi sbedorsl eepy ourbut tdown" Ihuf fasIr el uct ant l ysl i dei nsi det hecov er s Qui nt on: " t hat ' sagoodgi r l " Hegoesswi t chof ft hel i ght st hensl i desi nsi de t hecov er s, t her oom f i l l swi t hsi l ence, Iguess l astni ght ' sev enti scomi ngbackonbot hof us, nowI ' m ner v oust oev ent ouchhi m soIsl eep asf arf r om hi m aspossi bl er i ghtatt hef arend andl eav ehi m att heot herend, Icl osemyey es andt r yt osl eep. I t sbeenf i v emi nut esnow, hekeepsshuf f l i ng andt ur ni ngsi ghi ngandhuf f i ngasi fsomet hi ng i sbot her i nghi m. . . t hat ' si tI ' l l nev erf al l asl eepi f hegoesonl i ket hi sIt ur nt of acehi mt hent ap hi sshoul der Me: " Q?What ' sup? " Me: " y ouseem i r r i t at ed, huf f i ngt wi st i ngand t ur ni ng, maki ngl oudsi ghs" Qui nt on: " Idon' tknow, IguessIcan' tsl eep" Me: " why ?What ' sbot her i ngy ou?I si tt hewhol e gr amst hi ng? " Qui nt on: " No. . . wel l al i l bi t " Me: " whati si tmost l y ?" Hesi ghst henkeepsqui etf orawhi l ehest ar i ng i nt omyey es, al t hought hel i ght sar eof fIcan seehi mf r om t hel i ght scomi ngt hr ought he wi ndowt hecur t ai nsar enott hatt hi ck Qui nt on: " l astni ght " If i gur ed Me: " y ouwantust ot al kabouti t ? " Henods Me: " okay . . . . . l et ' st al kt hen" * si l ence* Qui nt on: " wer ey ouav i r gi n? " Inod Me( shy l y ) : " y eah. . . . . i st her eapr obl em?" Qui nt on: " No. . not hatnotapr obl em. . . act ual l y t hat ' sagoodt hi ng, wel l f ory ou. . notf orme. . I meanl i kei t s. i t s. . Il augh Me: "Igety ou, i t snotapr obl em. . . . . .Thenwhati s t hepr obl em? " Qui nt on: " f i r st l y . .It hi nkIshoul dsayt hanky ou" Ir ai semybr owsamused Me: " f or ? " Qui nt on: " f ort r ust i ngmeandgi v i ngmey our v i r gi ni t y " Me: " Iwoul dn' thav echoseany onebet t er . . . t o t hi nkIal mostgav ei tawayt ot hatj er k t hat o, whowaspr obabl ygoi ngt ogi v emesome di sease, nxaIhat ehi m. . . . . wai t . . . . . y oudon' t happent ohav et hedi sease?Doy ou? " Heswi t chesont hel ampandwesi tup Qui nt on: " shi t . . " Myhear tst ar t sr aci ng Me: " what ?Whatdoy oumeanbyshi t ! ? " Qui nt on: " Ihav en' tt ol dany oneaboutt hi s. . cause Iwasashamed" Me: " Qui nt on. . .Noo. . y oucan' tdot hi st ome" Qui nt on: " I ' m sosor r yLi sa, Igott oocaughtup i nt hemoment . . . I . . Ishoul d' v et ol dy oual ong t i meago" If eel t ear st hr eat eni ngme Me( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " OhNoQui nt on. . . wedi dn' t ev enusepr ot ect i on" Hest ar t sl aughi ng Me: " what ' dsof unny . . . y ouhappyt haty ounot t heonl yonei nf ect ednow? " Hel aughsev enhar der If eel mybl oodboi l i ng Me: " y oubei ngcr uel ev i l orj ustpl ai nmean? " Qui nt on: " Igoty ougoodt hi st i me" Me: " what ? " Qui nt on: " r ememberhowy oupr ankedme? ThenIsai dI ' dgetmyr eal r ev engeony ou, wel l I t hi nkt hi soppor t uni t ywasasuccess" Tear swer eal r eadyr ol l i ngdown, Ican' tbel i ev e t hi sf ool , howcanhepl ayl i ket hat Me( cr y i ng) : " t hat ' ssonotf unnyQui nt on!You scar edt heshi toutofme! " Ist ar t edsl appi nghi sar mr eal l yhar dbutIwas j usthur t i ngmypoorhands Me: " ( cr y i ng) : " y ouj er k. . . .Thatwasev i l . . Isawmy whol el i f ef l ashbef or emyey es" Hel aughedandhel dmyhandt henst ar t ed t i ckl i ngme Me( l aughi ngt hr ought het ear s) : " l eav emeal one! ! Ihat ey ou! !Youbi gmeany ! " Hewasont opofmet i ckl i ngt i l l Icoul dn' t br eat h Me( l aughi ng) : " Leav emeal one! ! " Qui nt on: " f i r stf or gi v eme" Me: " okayokayIf or gi v ey ou" Hest ops Qui nt on: " good" Me: " l etal onej okes. . ar ey oucl ean? . . noof f ence buty ouki ndaaf uckboy " Hehol dshi schest Qui nt on: " t her ey ougobr eaki ngi tagai n" Il augh Qui nt on: " don' twor r y , Iwoul dn' tj ustsl eepwi t h gi r l sImeeti ncl ubsandnotpr ot ectmy sel f . . I ' v e nev ersl eptwi t hanygi r l wi t houtpr ot ect i on.t hi s i sJo' bur gsoIwoul dn' tr i skmyl i f el i ke t hat . . . andIcheckev er yaf t ert hr eemont hs, l ast t i meIcheckedIwascl ean" Isecr et l ysi ghi nr el i ef Me: " nowgetof ff r om me" Heget sof ft her ewasabi ti fsi l enceasIwas st i l l t r y i ngt ocat chmebr eat heandkeepon gi ggl i ng, Il ookathi m andhe' sj ustst ar i ngat mewi t hhi sl azysmi l e. . .Ther ehegoesagai n wi t ht hatl ookt hatmakesmeshy hel ooksatmel i kehi sl ooki ngatt hemost pr eci ouspi eceofj ewel Suddenl yhehasawor r i edf ace Me: " what . . . what ' st hatf ace? " Qui nt on: " shi tLi sa, wedi dt hemostst upi dt hi ng ev er " Ohwow, her egr et si t , Ishoul d' v eknown, he obv i ousl yl ov est hi sEnhl egi r l I ' m sost upi d Me: " y out hi nki twasst upi d?" Qui nt on( conf used) : " what ? . . no. . Imeanwe di dn' tusepr ot ect i on" Me: " y eahso? " Hel ooksatmeshocked Qui nt on: " l ookdon' tgetmewr ongIl ov ey ouso muchbutI ' m notr eadyt ohav eki ds" Me: " y oul ov eme? " Her ai seshi sey ebr owsi nshock Qui nt on: " I . . . Imeant . . No. . Somet hi ngi nsi demedi edorf ai nt edbuti t snot f unct i oni ngpr oper l y Me: "oh" Qui nt on: " Imean. .Li sa. . . l ookI, t hatsl i pped out , I ' m sor r yIdi dn' tmeani tl i ket hat " Hedi dn' tmeani t . . . ofcausehedi dn' tmeani t , he shoul dn' tmeani tcauseweonl ypr et endi ng whenwesaywel ov eeachot her . . . wedoi ngf or gr ams Me( chuckl es) : " ar ghay i bodon' twor r yabout i t . . . i twasami st akeweal l sayanddomi st akes, andheyIdi dn' tex pecty out omeani t . . . Imean y ouwi t hEnhl eandwebestf r i endssot hat ' dbe cr azy( f akel aughs)am Ir i ght" Ther e' ssi l enceagai nbutt hi st i mei t sr eal l y awkwar d Me: " don' twor r yaboutpr egnancy , aweekagoor sobef or eIcamebackf r om home, Iwentf or t hei nj ect i oncauseIwant edt osur pr i set hat o onl yt ogett hesur pr i seofmyl i f e. . . . soy eahI m notpl anni ngonget t i ngpr egnantany t i mesoon" Qui nt on: " oh. . . Me: " Ican' tsl eep. .SoI ' m gonnagowat chTV now" It akeasmal l t hr oebl anketandapi l l ow, I ' m pl anni ngonsl eepi ngont hecouchcausewi t h t hi sawkwar dt ensi onIcan' tdeal , Iwat chTVt i l l If el l asl eep * * * * * * . . . al mostget t i ngt her eguy s280mor el i kest hen wemake1k [ 07/ 28, 16: 53]W: I nser t11 LI SA Iwakeupv er year l yi nt hemor ni ng, Idon' twant gr amsseei ngt hatIsl eptont hecouch, t hi s uncomf or t abl esmal l couch, mynecki ski l l i ng me, Idr agmyf eett ot hebat hr oom andt akea bat h, Isoakmy sel fi nt her ef orawhi l eandcl ose myey es Me: " wowt hi st ubi smor ecomf or t abl et hant hat couch" " Youdi dn' thav et osl eept her ey ouknow" Iopenmyey eswi deandt heymeetQui nt on' s. .I t akemysmal l t owel andhi demyboobswi t hi t si ncet hewat eri sal r eadyhi di ngmyl owerpar t s Qui nt on: " I fy ouf el tuncomf or t abl esl eepi ngwi t h me, Icoul d' v esl eptont hecouchi nst ead" Ikeepqui et , Idon' tknowwhatt osay Qui nt on: " I ' l l comebackwheny oudone" Hel et ' shi msel foutIsi gh Ishoul d' v eknownt hi ngswer egoi ngt oget awkwar daf t ersl eepi ngwi t heachot her , butI di dn' tr eal l yt hi nkt heywoul d, Imeanwe' v ebeen ki ssi ngev enacoupl et i mesbef or ewest ar t ed bei ngpr et endpar t ner sandwe' v ehandl edi t pr et t ywel l wi t houtcompl i cat i ngt hi ngs, Ij ust wi shhenev ersai dhel ov esmeordoIwi shhe nev ersai dhedi dn' tmeani t ?NoIwi shhenev er sai dhel ov esmei nt hef i r stpl acear ghwhyi s t hi sev enbot her i ngmei t snotl i keIf eel i ngsf or hi m Igeti nt her oom Qui nt on: " y oudone? " Inod Hewal kst owar dst hedoorandst opswhenhe r eachesme Hei saboutt osaysomet hi ngbuthest ops hi msel ft hencont i nueswal ki ngout . Igetmy sel fr eadyanddr essup, i t sani cesunny daysoIj ustwor emyr edshor tsummerdr ess wi t hankl el engt hgl adi at orsandal s, It i emyhai r i nal ooseponyt ai l , Iputonr ed l i pst i ck, powder edmyf aceabi tt henputsome mascar a.ImakemywayoutIbumpi nt ohi m by t hedoor , Imov ef orhi mt opassbutwemov et o t hesamesi de, wemov et ot hesamesi deagai n Ihol dhi m andmakemest opt henmov eand car r yonwi t hmywayt ot heki t chen, Imake br eakf astf orgr amsf i r standputi ti nt he mi cr owav e, IgocheckuponherasIwai tf or Qui nt ont ogetr eady Me: " mor ni nggr andmot her" Shel aughsal i t t l eandcl osesherbi bl et hen t akesof fhergl assesandpl acest hem ont he headboar dt abl e Gr ams: " mor ni nggr anddaught er" Igosi tnextt oher Me: " howy ouf eel i ngt oday ? " Gr ams: " I ' m okay , al t houghmyheadachesar e get t i ngwor sespeci al l yi nt hemor ni ngsandI f eel t heur get ov omi t" Me: " oohhhumakhul uwam kodwa( ohmypoor gr ams) . . . . Imadey oubr eakf ast , y oushoul deat sot haty out akey ourpi l l s. . i nf actl etmebr i ng y ouy ourf oodnowandwat erf orpi l l s" Igetoutandf et chherf oodt henpourherwat er It ur nt obemetbyQui nt on. . . whyi shi spr esence suddenl ysuf f ocat i ngme Qui nt on: " I ' mr eady , wecangetgoi ngoncey ou donewi t hwhaty oudoi ng" InodasIpasshi m Igi v egr amsherf ood Gr ams: " t hanky oul i l yy ousuchanAngel " Ismi l e Me: " Ihav et ogetgoi ngnowgr ams, I ' l l seey ou l at erokay ? " Gr ams: " khawuhambeuy eeskol eni uy eke ukut het hanam ngat hi ndi l usana"( woul dy ougo t oschool al r eadyandst opt al ki ngt omel i keI ' m ababy ) Il augh Me: " y ohay i sor r ykemagr eeza. . ndy al i bal aukba awuqhel angaukut heket i swa"( If or gety ounot usedt obei ngbabi ed) Gr ams: " amp!Suka! " Igetoutl aughi ngIf i ndQui nt onal r eadyi nt he car , wedr i v et ocampusi nsi l encewegett her e Qui nt on: " by e. . hav eani ceday " Ij ustsmi l eathi mt henwal kaway Imeetupwi t hYonel at henweheadt ocl ass Yonel a( whi sper s) : " r emembert het r ansf er st udent ? " Me( whi sper ) : " howcanIr ememberhi mi fI ' v e nev erev enseenhi m" Sher ol l sherey es Yonel a: " ar ghmxm, any wayt ur nsouthe' sdoi ng hi st hi r dy earsohewon' tbei nourcl asses" Me: aaawwwwhatashameIwasr eal l yl ooki ng f or war dt ohav i nghi m her ewi t hus" * sar casm* Yonel a: " Ihear dhe' ssupperhot , he' st het al kof t hecampust hi smor ni ng, t oobadIdi dn' tsee hi mt hough" Me: " Ihopet odayy ouputony ourbest ?" Shegaspwor r i edl y Yonel a: " y oumeani t snotev enobv i ous, t hatI ' m atmybestl ev el t oday ? " Il augh Me: " I ' mj oki ngf r i end, y oul ookhot , l i kehot sauce" Shel aughsI ' mv er ybadwheni tcomest o compl ement i ngev endi ssi ng Yonel a: " y oust i l l suckatt hi s" Ii gnor edherasIputonmyner dsand concent r at edbackt ot hel esson Thedayf i nal l ycamet oanendaswenow comi ngoutourl astcl ass, west i l l hav en' t bumpedi nt ot hi sguyandy onel ahasbeen maki ngusgoar oundt hewhol ecampussot hat webumpi nt ohi m, Iwaski ndaget t i ngi r r i t at ed Me: " dudet hi si susel esswedon' tev enknow howhel ookswecoul d' v ebumpedi nt ohi m so manyt i mesbutwedon' tknowcausewedon' t knowhi m" Shel aughsoutl oud Yonel a: " okayf i ne, butcomeonI ' m sur ewe woul d' v enot i cedi fhi shotast heysayhei s. . . so f arIhav en' tseenahotguywe' v ebumpedi nt o" Isi gh Wewer enowout si decampus Yonel a: " pl easewai ther eabi t , l etmegogetus somei cel ol l i esi nt hatshopt her e" Me( smi l i ng) : " nowy out al ki ng" Shehandsmehersmal l bagandheadst ot he near byshop, byt hewayI ' m usi ngt hatbagwe st ol e, i t sj ustsopr et t y , Il aught omy sel fev er y t i meIt hi nkabouti tcan' tbel i ev et hecopsar e notl ooki ngf orus, hahaha If i ndmy sel fl aughi ng " Iwoul dal sol ov et ol aughal i t t l et oday " Asmoot hdeepv oi cei nf r ontofme, Il i f tmy ey esupandourey esl ock " Car et oshar et hei nsi dej oke? " Damn!I sal l Icansayr i ghtnow, he' sl ooki ng st r ai ghti nt omyey esandI ' m st ar i ngback, f ora momentt hewor l dst ops Yonel a: " sor r ygi r l butt her ewasonl yonev ani l l a soy ouwi l l j usthav et he. . . . . . . " Shet r ai l sof f Guy : " hel l ot her e" Yonel a: " h. . h.Hi . . " West ar eathi mi nawe Guy : " ar ey oul adi esokay ? " I ' m speechl ess Guy : " ohokay . . .Any waymynamei sLi am, but y oucancal l memncedi si " Webot hst ut t erf orawhi l e Yonel agat her suphercour age Yonel a: " ni cet omeety ouMncedi si . . . myname i sYonel aandt hi si smyf r i endLi sakhany a" Mnce: " ni cet omeety oubot hbeaut i f ul l adi es, I ' m ki ndanewar oundher e, soIwant edt oaskf or t henear estt ownorsomet hi ng, Ineedt obuya f ewt hi ngsf ormyapar t ment" Yonel a: " wecoul ddi r ecty oubuti twoul dbe bet t eri fIgowi t hy ousi nceIl eav ei nt ownv el e" Il ookather . . damngi r l y oudon' twast et i me. . I t hi nkt omy sel f Mnce: " t hat ' dbeev enbet t er , pl easet el l mey ou al soheadi ngt hatsi de. . . Li sakhany a? " Me: " uhm wel l . . IIwaski ndaheadi ngt hatway " Ipoi ntt ot hedi r ect i onofhome Mnce: " t hat ' sabummerIr eal l yhopedI ' dgett o t al kt oy oumor e" Il ookedathi m andhewasl ooki ngi nt omyey es f oramomentourey esl ock Me: " oh. . uhm sor r ymay benextt i me. . " Mnce: " y eahmay beIcoul dbey ourr i de home, causemyapar t menti sal sosomewher e t hatsi de" Hepoi nt st ot hedi r ect i onIpoi nt edi n Me: " Ial r eadyhav ear i dehome, butt hanksf or t heof f er " Mnce: " i si tany t hi ngl i ket hat " Hepoi nt satabeaut i f ul machi ne Yonel a: " wowIwaswonder i ngwhodr i v es t hat . . . damny oumustbel oaded" Hechuckl es, wowhedr i v eani 8, unbel i ev abl e Me: " wow. . y ohwel l i tnot hi ngcl oset ot hat " Hegr i ns Me: " buti tt akesmef r om pl acet opl ace" Hi ssmi l edi sappear s, goodIcant ol er at e Qui nt on' segobutnotany oneel se' s, speakof t hedev i l , hecomespar kr i ghti nf r ontofme al mostknocki ngMncedi si si ncehewasabi t outoft hepav ement , butt hatwasso unnecessar y , her ev v edhi scarmaki nganoi se gi r l sst ar t edscr eami ngf orhi m Qui nt on: " Li sa, j umpon" Me: " wel l t hat ' smyr i de, by e. . . i twasni cemeet i ng y ouMncedi si " IhuggedYonel a Mnce: " I ' dl ov eonet oo" Iwasaboutt ogi v ehi m ahugwhenQui nt on hoot st hecarabi t , andst ar t l esme Qui nt on: " Idon' thav eal l daywoman" Ij umpedonandhespedof f, wedr ov ei nsi l ence, hedi dn' thav et obesor ude Qui nt on: " howwasy ourday ? " Ir emai nqui et Hesi ghsl oud Qui nt on: " howl ongar ey oupl anni ngongi v i ng met hesi l entt r eat ment ?ComeonLi say ou hav en' tsadawor dsi ncey est er day " Me: . . . . Qui nt on: " pl easet hesi l encei ski l l i ngme, Imi ss y ou, t hebubbl yy ou, t al kt ome, any t hi ngt el l me whatcr azyt hi ngYonel amadey oudot odayl i ke al way sorhowy ourhumanr i ght sl ect ur erwas suchabor e, pl ease" Isi gh Me: " I ' mt i r ed" Hepar kst hecaratsomepar k Qui nt on: " okay . . l ook, aboutwhatIsai dy est er day , Idi dmeani tLi sa" Il ookathi m andhel ookssi ncer el ycut e, Imean honestsi ncer el yhonest Qui nt on: " t r ut hi s, we' v ebeent hr oughal otLi sa andwest i l l goi ngt hr oughsomest uf f , y ou al way st her et osuppor tmeatmyweakestand y oual way sher et ocel ebr at ewi t hmeatmy happi est, Il ov ey ou, Il ov ey ouasmyv er yown si st erandaf r i end" Whyi smychestpai nf ul now, coul di tbehej ust br okemyhear tbyt hosel astf ewwor ds Me: . . . . Qui nt on: " Ican' tl ov ey ouany t hi ngmor eLi sa, I l ov eandcar ef ory out oomuch, y ou' v eseenmy pastr el at i onswi t hot herwoman, I ' m ahear t br eakerandbr eaki ngy ourhear ti st hel astt hi ng Iwantt odo" Iswal l owt hebi gl umpi nmyt hr oat Me: " oh. . I . . . Qui nt on: " okayl etmeconf ess, Il ov ey ouI ' v e l ov edy ouf r om t hev er yf i r stdayIsawy ou, but asIgott oknowy ouIgr ewt ol ov ey ouev en mor e, onesl i t estmomentwheny ousadal way s br eaksmei nsi de, andIknewi fImakeamov e ony ou, I ' dmakey ousadal l t het i mecauseI knowmy sel ft oowel l l i l y , Ihur tpeopl e, speci al l y gi r l s, manyhav et r i edt ogeti nt oaser i ous r el at i onshi pwi t hmeandIhav eal sot r i edt oo buti tnev erl ast s, Ial way smessup. . . . Idon' t wantt omessupwi t hy ouandusbei ng any t hi ngmor ewoul ddef i ni t el ymessus up. . . speci al l ynowt hat . . . " Het r ai l sof f Me: " speci al l ynowt hat ? " Qui nt on: " r emembert hest or yy out ol dmeabout y ourf at her ? " Inod Qui nt on: " t hewayy ourf at her ' ski l l erdi ed. . . . Het r i al sof fagai n Me: " y eah. . . Hesi ghst henshakeshi shead Qui nt on: uhm oh. . . . wel l i t sj ust. . . hedeser v edi t , I hopehi sr ot t i ngi nhel l now" Thatdoesnotsoundl i kewhathewasaboutt o say , hewant edt osaysomet hi ngel se. . . onet hi ng aboutst udy i ngl aw, Icanr eadpeopl e Me: " Iguessso" Qui nt on: " pl easecanwegobackt ot heway t hi ngswer e" Me: " ofcause. . . I ' m sogl adwet al kedabout t hi s. . . wel l y out al kedaboutt hi s" Wel augh Me: " f r om nowon, l et ' sj ustst i ckt ot hebondwe hadgoi ngandbei ngmyf akeboy f r i end" Qui nt on: " t hatIagr eewi t h" Wesmi l eateachot hert henshar eahugImov e myheadf r om hi sshoul derandourey esmeet hepl aceshi sf or eheadonmi neandwel ook deepi nt oeachot her ' sey es Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " l et ' sgethomebub" Iki sshi sf or ehead Me: " t hatIagr eewi t h" . . . . . . pl easet r ycomment i ngmor e, Il ov er eadi ngy ' al l comment s [ 07/ 28, 16: 54]W: cont i nuat i on LI SA Wegothomeandwewer ewel comedbyt he smel l ofmout hwat er i ngf ood, weheadt ot he f r i dgef i r stt hi ngasusual , Igr abbedwat erand Qui nt ongr abbedanappl e, wecl oset hef r i dge wi t hhi mf ol l owi ngbehi ndmeasweheadt ot he si t t i ngr oom Me: " heygr ams" Shewasl y i ngont hecouch Gr ams: " seni buy i l e. . . ni y ahl al anokokwesi skol o senu" ( y ' al l back. . . y ousur et akey ourt i mei nt hat school ofy our s) Qui nt on: " t hi si sv ar si t ygr ams, somet i mest hey hav eni ghtcl assessot hi si spr et t year l y " Gr ams: " mmh. . . y oual sogot ov ar si t y? " Qui nt on: " y esgr amsI ' m compl et i ngmymast er s i nAer ospaceengi neer i ng, whi l eIwor kpar tt i me i nt hef ami l ybusi ness" Gr ams: " t hat ' sni ce. . . mayIhav eawor dwi t hy ou" Qui nt on: " sur et hi nggr ams" Hegoessi tnextt oher , If ol l owandsi tnextt o hi m Gr ams: " i npr i v at epl ease" Me: " oh. . . okay" Igetupandgot akeani cewar m bat hbyt he t i meIgoti nt her oom Qui nt onwasal r eadyi n t her oom, If el thi sey esonmybodyasIwas l ot i oni ngmy sel f , It ookmypant yandsl i di ton bef or edr oppi ngt het owel sot hatIcanl ot i on t her estofmybody , Ihadmybackt ur nedon hi m asIputonmyni ghtdr esst henheadt o bed, heseemeddi st antl i kehi smi ndwas somewher eel se Me: " sooo? . . . . . gr amshuh? . . . she' squi t e somet hi ng. .Am Ir i ght ? " Iwast r y i ngmyl uckf orhi mt ot el l mewhatt hey wer et al ki ngabout Hel ookedatmewi t hasmi r k Qui nt on: " j ustaskmewhatshesai d. . andst op r oami ngar oundbushes" Il augh Me: " Iwasnot . . . . andi t snotr oami ng, i t s beat i ng. . . don' tbeatar oundt hebush.Goshy ou suckatt hesei di oms" Wel augh Qui nt on: " l ooksl i keI ' l l hav et opr oposesoon" Me: " wow. . . t hat ' suhm ni ceIguess" Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " noi t snot , t hi swi l l meani nv ol v i ngmy f ami l yf ort hel obol aandwhatnot , wecan' t af f or dt oexpandt hi sl i e" Me: " okay . . . t hi si sbecomi ngamess. . . av er y cost l ymess" Qui nt on: " doy oust i l l wannagoon?CauseI ' m st i l l wi t hy ouhundr edper centl i keIsai d" Ishakemyhead Me: " No. . . weneedsomet i met ot hi nkabout t hi s" Qui nt on: " Icanor gani seaf akef ami l y , Iknow peopl e" Il ookathi mf orawhi l e, i shef orr eal , Me: " t hat ' sj ustcr azy , whowoul dagr eet obe y ourf akef ami l y ?" Qui nt on: " I ' mt el l i ngy ou. . Iknowpeopl ewho knowpeopl ewhoknowpeopl ewhoknowme whoIknow" Ican' thel pbutl augh Me: " doy our eal l yt hi nkwecanpul l i tof ?Imean t hi si saweddi ngwet al ki ngabout . . .Af ake weddi ng" Hegi v esmear eassur i ngl ooknoddi nghi shead Qui nt on: " wecan. . . al l wehav et odoi sconv i nce gr amst ohav ear eal l ysmal l andi nt i mat e weddi ngofonl yf ami l yi nachur ch, nonoft hose t r adi t i onal bi gweddi ngsandshi t " Me: " Ei sh. .It hi nkt hat ' swhatshewant s t hough, t hewhol ebi gwhi t eweddi ngwi t hpeopl e f r om t henei ghbor hoodandt r adi t i onal , al l t he wor ks" Qui nt on: " t hatwi l l bet oor i skyandwoul dendup f al l i ngt owr ongear s" Me: " y our i ght , I ' m sur eIcanconv i ncehert o hav easmal l weddi ng" Ther ewassi l encewebot hdeepi nourt hought s , It hi nkwet aki ngt hi swhol et hi ngwayt oof ar now Me: " ohmy ! " Qui nt on( wor r i ed) : " what ? " Me: " If or gott oeat " Qui nt on: " mxm, r eal l y ? " Il aughathi mt hengodi shup, If i ndgr amsi n t hesi t t i ngr oom soIf i r stwal kupt oher Me: " makhul u, ur i ght ? " Sheshakesherhead Gr ams: " af t ermaki ngdi nner , Igotdi zzyandI t hi nkIl ostmyconsci ousness, mybodyf r oze andIf el l , i t sget t i ngwor seNana, myey esar e gi v i ngmepr obl ems, whenIwast r y i ngt or ead t hebi bl ei tbecamebl urev enwi t hmygl asses on, If al l asl eepal ot " She' sbr eaki ngmyhear t , howmanyt i mesdoes onehear thav et obr eakf ori tt ost ophur t i ngso much?I ' m shat t er ed Me: " t omor r owwet aki ngy out ot hedoct or " Sheshookherhead Gr ams: " nono, don' t , t hedoct ort ol dmet hat t heset hi ngswoul dhappent heyj ustpar toft he sy mpt oms, af t erIt ookmypi l l sIwasf i ne, don' t wor r yNanaI ' l l bef i ne" Me: " howcanInotwor r ywheny ouar edy i ng r i ghti nf r ontofme?Ican' tt akei t , I ' v ehadi twi t h peopl eIcar eofdy i ngi nf r ontofme, why ?Why me?WhydoIgett or t ur ed" I ' m angr yt het ear sar enotev encomi ngout Gr ams: " don' tdot hi st oy our sel fl i l yev er y t hi ng happensf orar eason" Me: " whatcoul dpossi bl ybet her easonf oral l t hi s?What ? " Shekeptqui et Ical medmy sel fdown Me: " di dy oudr i nky ourpi l l snow? " Shenods Gr ams: " Li sa, Il i ket hi sQui nt onofy our s, he l ov esy ousomuchi t sj ustt oov i si bl et heway y ' al l l ov eeachot her , he' sagoodboyandhe' ddo any t hi ngt opr ot ecty ou, but . . . " Shet r ai l sof f Me: " what ' swr ongmakhul u? " Gr ams: " Idon' tknowIf eel l i keIshoul dn' tt r ust hi m, t her e' ssomet hi ngnotr i ghtwi t hhi sbl ood, hegi v esmegoosebumps, apar tofmef ear s hi m. . . . Idon' tknowwhy " Me: " ookay . . . y ouscar i ngme, Idon' tknow, wel l Qui nt ondoeshav equi t eani nt i mi dat i ng per sona, i t sj ustt hewayhei s. . . . i t soneoft he t hi ngst hatmademef al l i nl ov ewi t hhi m" Wel augh Gr ams: " Iguessi fi tdoesn' tbot hery out heny ou i ngoodhands, j ustasl ongashedoesn' tev er l ayahandony ou. . ngobandi y ov ukaencwabeni t anaakheazamenj ey enauy andi bona"( I ' l l r i se f r om t hegr av e, heshoul dj ustt r y , hewi l l seeme) Webur sti nt ol aught er Me: " ay i l etmedi shupf orus. . . ubusow' dl i l e wenamakhul u?" ( Hav ey oueat enal r eady gr ams? ) Shenods Me: "okay , y ouwi l l swi t chof ft hel i ght swhen y ougot obedke. . goodni ght " Gr ams: " goodni ghtNana" Idi shupal otf ormy sel fsi nceI ' l l shar ewi t h Qui nt onIt aket wospoonst henheadt ot he r oom Me: " Igotussomedzi nar r " Iwasexpect i nghi mt ol aughorsomet hi ngbut hehadasadf ace, Iaut omat i cal l ybecamesad t ooandmyhear tsank, Iputt hef oodont he t abl et hengoti nsi det hecov er s Me: " pennyf ort hought s?" Her emai nedqui ethewasbur i edi nhi s t hought s, It ur nedhi sf acet ol ookatme, he l ookedmywaybutcoul dn' tgi v eey econt acthe i sl ooki ngdown Me: " whyt hel ongf ace, whathappened?" Hesi ghsheav i l y Qui nt on: " Ij ustgotacal l f r om t hehospi t al " Me: " i sy ourmom okay , ohGodpl easet el l me she' sokay" Heshookhi sheadhi sl i pscur v edupsi dedown Imov ecl osert ohi m Me: " whathappened?" Qui nt on: " she' snotget t i nganybet t er , t heysay shehadasei zur eandt heysayi fshecont i nues l i ket hi sshemi ghtneedahear tdonor " Myhear tbr okei nt oami l l i onpeaces, t he gl assest hathadf or medi nhi sey esbr eakand onet eardr opsf ol l owedbyt wo, Ipul l edhi mi nt o myembr acet hat ' swhenhel eti tal l outhe br okedown, Icoul dn' thol dbackmi neany mor e sowecr i edt oget heri neachot her sar ms Me: " don' tcr yQ, ev er y t hi ngwi l l beokay , y ou' l l see" Hesatupst r ai ghtt henmademesi tont opof hi m myl egsonei t hersi deofhi st hi ghs, we st ar edi nt oeachot her ' swetey es Qui nt on( , br eaki ngv oi ce) : " Idon' tt hi nkso Li ss. . . It hi nkI ' ml oosi nghert hi st i me" Me: " comeonQui nt onhav eal i t t l ef ai t h, t hey sai dshemi ghtneedadonorwhi chmeansshe canst i l l f i ghtt hi s, r emembermydr eam? " Henods Me: " mydr eamsar eusual l ywar ni ngsorsi gns ofsomet hi ngt hatmi ghthappen" Qui nt on: " soy oucanl i keseet hef ut ur e?Li kea sangomaorsomet hi ng? " Me: " Notexact l yt hef ut ur eno, butIknowwhen somet hi ngt r agi ci sgoi ngt ohappen. . .Now backt omypoi nt . . . . r ememberIsai dy ourmom wasbl ockedbymi standy oucoul dn' tsav e her ? " Henods Me: " wel l i twasn' tt hewhi t emi stweknowi twas bl ack. . . . r ememberIsai dy ousai dapr ay erand t hemi stv ani shed" Henods Me: " whatI ' m say i ngi s, st i ckt opr ay erQui nt onI knowy ounotast r ongbel i ev erbutpl easekeep i nf ai t h, Godi st heanswer , t el l y ou what , ev er y daywhenwewakeupandbef or ewe sl eepwewi l l pr ayt oget herf ory ourmot her ' s heal t hf orhert obeheal ed. . . okay ? " Hesmi l esandwi pesmyt ear s Qui nt on: " andal sof ory ourgr andmot hert oo, i f y oubel i ev eGodcanheal mymom t henIbel i ev e hecanheal y ourgr andmot hert oo" Ismi l eathi m andwi pehi st ear s, hepul l smei n f orahug, whi chsentshi v er sal l ov ermy body , t hel ongert hehuggott hemor emyhear t beat eduncont r ol l abl yandbei ngont opofhi s di ckmadet hi ngswor se, soIl etgocauseI ' m st ar t i ngt ol oosei t , hecuppedmyf aceand boughti tcl oset ohi mt henpeckedmyl i ps, he l ookedatmel i kehi smemor i zi ngmyf acet hen peckedmyki psagai nandagai nweendedup ki ssi ngpassi onat el yhef l i ppedmeov erandgot ont opofme, hest ar t edr ubbi ngmypunani maki ngmemoan, hest oppedhel ookedatme andsmi l edt heni tdi sappear ed Qui nt on( whi sper ) : " I ' m sor r y " Me( whi sper ) : " don' tbe, pl ease" Iwant edhi mt ocar r yonIneededhi m Qui nt on: " IIcan' tdot hi s, I ' m sor r y " Me: " why ? " Hegotof fmeandswi t chedoft hel ampbutt he l i ghti nt her oom wasst i l l on Qui nt on: " goodni ghtl i ss" Heki ssesmycheekt hent ur nshi sbackonme Me: " wow" Igotupandwentt oputmypl at eawayIl ostmy appet i t et henheadedbackt osl eep, Iputa pi l l owbet weenus, i ft hat ' showhewant si tt hen t hat ' showhe' l l geti t * * * * * * * If el tt hepi l l owmov e, hecamecl oserand wr appedhi msel far oundme. . Il ethi m, whycan' t west ayawayf r om eachot her , i t sl i kesome power f ul sour cei spul l i ngust oeachot herand anot herweaksour cei spushi ngusapar t , he ki ssest hebackofmyneck Qui nt on( whi sper ) : " goodni ghtbub" . . . . . t hemor et hecomment st hemor el i kel yIpost agai nt oni ght [ 07/ 28, 16: 54]W: I nser t12 LI SA I ' m putonmyof fshoul dershor tpl ay sui twi t h bl ackandwhi t est r i pesandankl ewhi t e boot s, f i xedmyf aceandhai r " Li saI ' ml eav i ngy ouf orr eal now! " Me: " I ' m comi ng, I ' m done! " Iappl i edl i pst i ckgr abbedmybagt henr anout heal r eadyst ar t edt hecar Igoti nt hendr ov et oschool r at hersl owl yt hanI ant i ci pat edast het r af f i cwashect i c, l ookedl i ke t her ewasanacci dent Qui nt on: " Dammi t " Hehi tt hewheel har dmaki ngt hecarhoot Me: " gr eatI ' l l mi ssmyf i r stcl ass" Qui nt on: " t hi si sal l y ourf aul t " Me: " excuseme, y out heonewhodi dn' twantt o wakeupwheni twaspr ay ert i me, t ooky ou t went ymi nut est owakeup" Hechuckl ed Qui nt on: " buty out heonewhot ookhour si nt he showerandont hemi r r or " Me: " i fy oudi dn' tbat t l ei nwaki ngupwe woul dn' tbeher e, y out ookupmostoft het i me" Qui nt on: " andhowl ongdoy oupr ay . . awhol e t hi r t ymi nut es? " Me: " ohsonowI ' m wr ongf orbei ngspi r i t ual ? Thatshoul dn' tev enbeani ssue" Qui nt on: " Iknowi t sf oragoodcausebut ser i ousl yl ookwher eweatnow? " Me: " don' tpi nt hi sonpr ay erQui nt on, y oual so t ooky ourownsweett i mei nt heshower , busy si ngi ngatt het opofy ouhor r i bl ev oi ce. . . Hegaspsandl ooksatmei ndi sbel i ef Me: " t hat sr i ghtIsai di t !Hor r i bl eIt el l y ou. . . t hen y oul ef ty ourunder wearj ustl ay i ngt her ewi t h noonet owashandhangt henont opoft hatt he wi dowswer ecl osedt hebat hr oom wassooo st eamyandy oudi dn' tev enbot hert owi pet he f l oor . . . . . somebei ngy ourmai dr i ght ?Ihadt o cl eanupaf t ery oubef or eIcant akeashower , t henIcal l edy out owashy ourundi eswhi chI doubty ouhangt hem out si deoranyofy our t owel s, Idon' tknowhowmanyt i mesmustI pr eacht hesamet hi ngt oy ouov erandov er agai nt hesuni soutnj ef ormahal abutnoooo Qui nt on' sunder wearcan' tbehangedout si de huh, doy ouknowhowwett hi ngsi nsi det he housemakeanunpl easantsmel l ?t heyneed f r eshai rwehQui nt onoobutdoy ouev erl i st en? No!nowIshoul dber unni ngaf t ery oul i kea Nanny . . . . .Soi fy ouwonder i ngwhatmadeus l at e, t hi nkaboutt hat ! " Hewashol di nghi sasi fhehasaheadache whi l eshaki nghi shead Qui nt on( mumbl i ng) : " wenotev enf akemar r i ed y ety oohh" Ihuf f Me: " ar ghy ousuchabi mbo" Qui nt on: " f i nal l y !Peace. . . . geezy oucant al k woman" Me: " ungandi qhel i Qui nt on" ( don' tmesswi t hme) Qui nt on: "y eahwhat ev er . . . st i l l y ourf aul tt hough" Hechuckl es If eel l i kest r angl i ngt hatsmugofhi scut ef ace! Nx Me: " oneoft heseday sI ' l l mur dery ou! " Hej ustl aughedatme Yeaht hatwasanar gumentbyt heway If ol dmyar msandl ookoutt hewi ndow If eel hi shandsqueezi ngmyt hi gh Qui nt on: " okayI ' m sor r yIshoul dn' thav epi ned t hi sony ou. . . l et ' sj ustsayi t st heacci dent sf aul t okay ? " Me: " what ev erdude" Qui nt on: " t hi sout f i ti st oor ev eal i ng" Me: " so?i t shotnj e" Qui nt on: " t hatdoesn' tmeanwal kar ound naked. . . Ihopey ounotdr essedl i ket hi sbecause oft hatboyy ouwer est andi ngwi t ht heot her day " Me: " Mncedi si ?ohpl ease. . . . . andi t snonofy our busi nesswhoIf i shf or " Qui nt on: " mmmh" Si l encef i l l edt hecar Me: " mx m, sower en' tIsupposedt omeetEnhl e y est er day ? " Qui nt on: " It ol dhert hi scomi ngweekendI ' l l t ake ust oadat e, f ordi nnerj ustt het hr eeofus" Me: " t hat ' sni cet hatwayshewon' tev enmeet gr ams" Qui nt on: " exact l y " Hesay spoi nt i ngatme Me: " butI ' l l bel i keat hi r dwheel " Hel aughed Qui nt on: " exact l y " Hepoi nt edatmeagai n Me: " y ' al l bebusyki ssi ngandgi ggl i ngasi fI ' m nott her e" Qui nt on: " exact . . . . . Me: "f i ni sht hatwor dandy ou' l l seemyt r ue col our s" Isai dannoy edhej ustl aughedatmeandt ur ned upt hev ol umeourf av our i t esongcameonand west ar t edsi ngi ngal ong Hi m: " y oush" Me: " whatupkel l s" Hi m: " Wannai nt r oducey out ot hi sgi r l .Thi nkI r eal l yl ov et hi sgi r l . " Me: " y eah? " Hi m: " Manshe' ssof i ne" Me: " st r ai ghtupdawg" Hi m: " Shest andsabout5' 4" , CocaCol a, r ed bone" Me: " Damn! " Hi m: " Shedr i v esabl ackDur ango Li censepl at esay" Angel " . Me: " What ? " Hi m: " Tat t ooonherankl e Pl usshe' smaki ngpesos. . . . . . . Gotacr i bon Peacht r ee"Me: " Peacht r ee? " Hi m: " Ri ghton17t hst r eet AndIcal l her" TeTe" . Me: " Wai tami nut ehol dondog.Doshegota ki d? " Hi m: " y ep" Me: " Shel ov essomewaf f l ehouse? " Hi m: " y ep" Me: " Doshegotabeaut ymar kont hel ef tsi de ofhermout h? " Hi m: " man! " Me: " Wentt oGeor gi aTech? " Hi m: " y ep" Me: " wor ksf orTBS? " Hi m: " y ep" Me: " ManIcan' tbel i ev et hi sshi t .Damn! " Wegoti ncampusandheswi t chesi tof f Me: " ohcomeoncoul dn' tweatl eastf i ni sht he song" Qui nt on: " wel at eLi ssnowgety ousexyassof f mycarIneedt ogett omycampus" Ihuf f , heki ssesmycheek, t henIheadt ocl ass, I won' tev enbegi nexpl ai ni nghowhect i cschool i s, Ial r eadyhav et woassi gnment sduei nf our weekst i me, wewer ewai t i ngf orourl astcl ass sowewer enowt aki ngawal kar oundcampus Yonel a: " gi r l di dy ouseehowhotLi am i s?Can' t bel i ev ehe' sSout hAf r i cany ethi scomi ngf r om ov er seas, di dy ounot i cehi sl i ghtbr ownhazel ey es?He' ssmoot hcar amel ski n?Thebody , y ou canj ustseet hatt hi sguyi susedt opi cki ngup heav yt hi ngs. . . hi scar ? " Me: " dude, Inot i ced, Igi v ei tt ohi m shamet he ni ggari shot " , Yonel a: " y oushoul d' v eseenal l t heheal t hy t hi ngsheboughty est er day , hi ssocaut i ous aboutwhatgoesi nhi smout h, It hi nkhespent 5000r andonj ustt eni t ems" Me: " y oohhe' sl oadedhey " Yonel a: " gi r l di dn' ty ounot i cet heswag?Thecar ? Loadedi sanunder st at ementt hedudei sf i l t hy r i ch, Icanj usti magi net hepl acehecal l san apar t ment , mustbeabi gmansi on" Webur sti nt ol aught er Me: "y ahnehhe' sl i v i ngt hel i f e. . . don' twor r y f r i endwe' l l al sogett her e" Yonel a: " It hi nkI ' mi nl ov eLi sa" Ist opandl ookatheramaz edshest opst oo Me: " downgi r l ! " Yonel a: " f orr eal , he' sev er y t hi ngI ' v eev er dr eamedofandy est er daywhenheaskedmet o hel phi m wi t hhi sgr ocer i est henweat eat st eer si tf el t . . . Me: "l i key ouwer eacoupl e?" Shenodshappi l y Yonel a: " It hi nkshel i kesmet oo" Me: " wow, t hat sni ce" Apar tofmegotdi sappoi nt ed, Idon' tknowwhy Yonel a: " Ibet t erwor konmymov ebef or et hese bi t chessnat chhi m" If akeal augh Me: " y oudot hat , cr azygi r l . . . woul dy oul ookat t het i meweshoul dgett ocl ass" Wewentt ocl assshewasgoi ngonandon aboutt hi sMncedi si dude, sher eal l yl i kes hi m, f i nal l yt hedaywasov erIwai t edwi t hy onel a wher ewewai tf oranubert opi ckherupand Qui nt ont opi ckmeup, t heubercamef i r st Me: " aawwy ougoi ngf i r stt oday" Yonel a: " sor r ygi r l , l ooksl i key ou' l l gett o exper i encehowl onel yIgetwhenQui nt onpi cks y ouupf i r st " Wel aughandhugt henshedr i v esaway , Iwai t f orl i ket went ymi nut esandst i l l noQui nt onsoI cal l hi m, hepi cksupaf t erI ' v et r i edhi mt wi ce Me: " wher et hehel l ar ey ou, i t sget t i ngl at edar k andempt yher e" Qui nt on: " ohshi t , Idi dn' tr eal i set het i me" " Babywho' st hat ? " Ihearawomani nt hebackgr ound Me: " don' tt el l mey ouwi t hagi r l whi l eI ' m wai t i ngher e! ? " Qui nt on: "Li sa, I ' m sosor r y , pl easecal l anuber , causeI ' m sof arandi twi l l . . . " Me: " f ucky ouQui nt on.Nx! " Idr opt hecal l andscr eam abi toutof f r ust r at i onandst ompmyf eet can' tbel i ev ehedi t chedmef orpussy Me: aaaaar r r r gggh mot her f uckeer r r ssv dhv chv sv sv gsbshxv hshbk" " Whoa. . whati st hat ? " Il ookatt hebeaut ypar kedi nf r ontofme Mnce: " i t sr eal l yget t i ngdanger ousouther e, f ora beaut i f ul Ladyl i key our sel ft hi spl acei snot saf e" Me: " wel l t hanksf orst at i ngt heobv i ous" Mnce( chuckl es) : " canIpl easegi v ey oual i f t ? " Me: " what ' si ni tf ory ou? " Ir ai semybr ow Hel aughs Mnce: " don' twor r yy oudon' thav et ogi v eme any t hi ngy oudon' twantt ogi v eme" Ismi l et hengeti nsi de, hespeedsof f , damnhi s carsmel l ssof r eshandr i ch Mnce: " sohowar ey oubeaut i f ul ?" Me: " I ' m goodIguess" Mnce: " whathappenedt oy ourr i de? " Me: " ar ghIdon' twannat al kabouti t " Mnce: " okay , i st haty ourboy f r i end?" Me: " whi chone? " Mnce: " t heguywhopi ckedy ouupy est er day ?" Me: " nohe' sj ustaf r i end" Henods, hehasn' tl ookedatmeev enagl ance, I can' thel pbutst ar eathi sst r ongar mshol di ng t hewheel andt hesi deofhi sf ace, he' sneat l y t r i mmedbear edt hatl i nesupt ohi st r i mmed hai r cut Mnce: " soy ourboy f r i endl i v esar oundher e? " Me: " Idon' thav eaboy f r i end" Hegl ancesatmet henatt her oadqui ckl y , a smi l ef or msonhi sf ace Mnce: " abeaut i f ul gi r l l i key ou, si ngl e?Idon' t bel i ev ei t " Me: " bet t erbel i ev e" Mnce: " t henwehav et odosomet hi ngabout t hat " Me: " we? " Hechuckl es Mnce: " notr i ghtawayt hough" Me: " ar ey ouaski ngt obemyboy f r i endmi st er ? " Hel aughs Mnce: " i fIwas, woul dy ousayy es? " Il augh Me: " No" Mnce: " ouch. . . t henIwasn' t " Wel augh Mnce: " canIatl eastt akey ououtf ordi nner somet i me? " Me: " Idon' tknow" Mnce: " pl ease, I ' m beggi ngher e" Me: " si ncey oubeggi ng. . .I ' l l t hi nkabouti t " Mnce: " Icanl i v ewi t ht hat , cany ounotkeepme wai t i ng" Me: " Icant akeasl ongasIwant " Hechuckl es Mnce: " ofcauset hat ' swhatImeant " Il aughathi m Me: " af t ert henextt hr eehousesi smyst op" Hest opst hecarbyt hegat e, IseeQui nt oni s al r eadyhome, wel l Mncedi si t ookt hev er yl ong wayher e Mnce: " y oul i v ewi t hy ourf r i end?" Me: " y eah, he' smyr oommat e" Hef r owns Mnce: " Idon' tknowhowIf eel aboutt hat " Me( angr i l y ) : " i t snotf ory out oj udgeorf eel any how, i fy ouhav eapr obl em t hendeal wi t h i t , causey oudon' tknowhal foft hest or yand y oual r eadyf eel t hi ngs" Her ai seshi sbr owshocked Mnce: " Idi dn' tmeani tl i ket hat . . . pl easeI ' m sor r y , i t sj ustIwasshocked. . I ' m sor r yi t snotmy pl acet oj udgepl easef or gi v eme" Me: " Ihat epeopl ewhomakeupt hei rown concl usi onswi t houtknowi ngt hewhol est or y " Mnce: " i twaswr ongofme, andIapol ogi ze" Isi ghandcal m my sel fdown Me: " i t sokay , y ouf or gi v en" Het ouchesmyhandwhi chwasonmy t hi gh, t akesi tandki ssesi t , myhear t smel t s Mnce: " t hanky oul etmemakei tupt o y ou, t omor r owaf t ercl assesI ' l l pi cky ouup" Me: " uhm, Idon' tknow, i nt hemi ddl eoft he week? " Mnce: " j ustf orashor tt i me" Wel ookedateachot herf orawhi l eIsi ghed Me: " IguessI ' mt oocur i oust osayno" Hesmi l esshowi ngal l hi sper f ectt eet h Mnce: " canIhav ey ournumber . . . pl ease" Igi v ehi m myphonehedi al shi snumbert hen cal l shi msel f Mnce: " sowhatshoul dIsav ei tas?Fut ur ebae? f ut ur ewi f ey ?f ut ur emay be? " Webur sti nt ol aught er , t hewayhequot edt hat f r om t hesongmi dni ghtst ar i ng Me: " what ev ersui t sy ou" Mnce: " f ut ur ewi f eyi ti s" He' scr azy Il aughandopent hedoor Me: " by eMncedi si " Mnce: " goodni ghtbeaut i f ul " Icl oset hedoorIst andbyt hegat eandwat ch hi m speedof f . Iheadi nsi de, Iseehi m byt hesi t t i ngr oom j ust wat chi ngt hebl ankscr eenandmybl oodboi l s ast heangercomesback, hel ooksatme Qui nt on: " Li sa. . oohhI ' m sogl ady ousaf e" Me: " ar ey ou! ? " Ist or m of ft ot her oom, hecomesi nasIwas undr essi ngaboutt ogot akeashower Qui nt on: " l ook, Li sal etmeexpl ai n. . " Iwr apmyt owel Me: " noneedf ort hat " Iwal kt ot hebat hr oom andgeti nsi det he shower , t hedooropens Qui nt on: " Enhl ecal l edmeshet ol dmeshehada pr obl em andi tsoundedsour gentsoIdr ov et o herandendedupnotat t endi ngmyl ast cl ass, shewasi nacaracci dent " Myey eswi denf eel i ngsor r yf orher , butt henI r ememberi nt hebackgr oundshesoundedf i ne. Qui nt on: " buti twasami nort hi ngshebummed acarwhi l eshewaspar ki nghercarshedi dn' t gethur t , soaf t ert hatIwasangr yatherf or cal l i ngmef orsomet hi ngsor i di cul ous, It ook hert oherpl ace, sheapol ogi sedandonet hi ng l edt oanot her , It ot al l yl ostt r ackoft i me" Me: " noy oudi dn' tl ooset r ackofTi mey ouf or got aboutme" If eel myhear t br eak, i t sdoi ngt hatal ot nowaday s Iheart heshowersl i deopenandIf eel hi m behi ndme, hehuggedme, l ucki l yhi swear i nghi s br i ef s Qui nt on: " I ' m sosor r yLi ss, Idi dn' tmeant ohur t y ou" Af ewt ear sescapemyey esasIf eel but t er f l i es i nmyt ummy It ur nt of acehi m Andwehugi nt ensel yast he wat erhi t sourbodyhepi cksmeupandwr ap myl egsar oundhi m hepi nsmeagai nstt hewal l hemov eshi sf acecl oserIst ophi m Me: " wecan' tdot hi s" Qui nt on: " j ustoneki ss" Me: " pl easeputmedown" Heout smedown Me: " Qui nt on,wef r i ends, f r i endsdon' tdot hese ki ndoft hi ngs, y oumadei tcl eart haty ouonl y andev erwi l l l ov emeasasi st er , t hi si snothow br ot her st r eatt hei rsi st er s, t hi shast ost op, I can' tt akei tany mor e, y oumakemet oo weak, andwecantbef r i endswi t hbenef i t s, I don' tbel i ev ei nt hat " Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " y our i ght . . . I ' m sor r y , Ij ustIcan' t r esi st . . . . I ' l l keepmydi st ance, I ' m sor r y " Wegazeateachot her Me: " i fwear oundt hehousewecant oucheach ot herl i ket hatandst uf ff orgr amst owal ki non usorhearus" Henodswecar r yonbat hi ngt oget her , l aughi ng andsi ngi ng Wenowal l f r eshenedupandi noursl eepwear Me: " l etuspr ay " Wekneel downnextt ot hebedhol deachot her s handsandst ar tpr ay i ngwepr ay edf orqui t ea whi l e Us: " Amen" Il ookathi m andhehadt ear sIwi pedt hem t hen wegoti nbed Hewasnowt el l i ngmehi sf unnyunr eal i st i c st or i es Me( l aughi ng) : " howol ddoy out hi nkIam Q" Hel aughed Qui nt on: " I ' m ser i ous, Ir eal l ydi dpunchhi m he f l ewacr osst heev er ywal l ofev er ycl assal l t he wayt ot het hi r dcl ass" Il aughedev enhar derhei ssoser i ous Myphoner angwhi l ewewer el aughi ng Me( l aughi ng) : " hel l o" " Someonei si nagoodmood" Iadj ust edmy sel f Me: " ohMncedi si ? " Mnce: " orf ut ur ehubby " Igi ggl ed, Qui nt onl ookedatmewi t hhi sone br owupIr ol l edmyey esathi m Me: " whyy oucal l i ngsol at e? " Mnce: " Ij ustwant edt osaygoodni ght" Me: " goodni ght" Mnce: " okayt het r ut hi sIj ustwant edt ohear y ourv oi ce" Me: " Iknewi t " Igi ggl edagai n, what ' supwi t hme Qui nt oncl ear shi st hr oat Me: " nowy ouhear di t " Mnce: " y eah, sl eept i ghtbeaut i f ul anddr eam aboutme" Me: " I ' l l t r ybutnopr omi ses" Ihangupandl ookedatQui nt on Qui nt on: " whowast hat ? " Il augh Me: " noone" Qui nt on: " newboy f r i end? " Me: " Isai dnoone" Hesqui r t shi sbr ows Qui nt on: " wehi di ngt hi ngsnow" Igeti nt hecov er sandt ur nmybackonhi m gi ggl i ng, het ur nsmeandst ar t spoki ngmy t ummymaki ngmel augh Me: " st op" Hecont i nued Qui nt on: " f i r stt el l mewhowasi t ! ? " Hewasnowt i ckl i ngmeI ' ml aughi ng uncont r ol l abl yhi sont opofme Me( l aughi ng) : " okayokayI ' l l t el l y ou! !" Hest oppedandgotof fme Me: " he' sanewt r ansf erst udent , hegav emea l i f tt odaywheny ouf or gotme" Hi ssmi l edi sappear s Qui nt on: " pl easest opput t i ngi tl i ket hat " Me: " sor r y , buty eah" Qui nt on: " what ' shi sname? " Me: " Mncedi si " Qui nt on: " f r om? " Me: " ay i bowhat ' swi t ht he3r ddegr eequest i ons " Qui nt on: " comeonf i l l meupont hedet ai l s phel achommi e" Ibur sti nt ol aught er Me: " y ohay i ngeke. . . goodni ghtchommi e" Hegr oanedandwesl ept, gosht hi sdudecan' t sl eeppr oper l y , i t sei t herhi sal l ov ert hebedor hi st angl eduponme, y est er dayheal most pushedmeof ft hebed * * * * * * * " don' tbescar edbaby . . . . I ' l l al way spr ot ecty ou" " bal eka. . . . r un! ! " * * * Iopenedmyey edwi demyhear tbeat i ngf ast agai nmyr i bcage. . . okayIwasn' tev eni ndeep sl eepy et . . butIhear dhi sv oi ce. .Imov edcl oser andsnuggl edonQui nt on, hehadhi sbackon me, hef el tmyhandt hensqueezedi tgent l y , I sl eptpeacef ul l yaf t ert hat . . . keepshar i ngt hepageguy sweal mostt her e1k [ 07/ 28, 16: 55]W: I nser t13 LI SA Yonel a: " sohow' st hewhol epr et endboy f r i end t hi nggoi ngsof ar ? " Isi gh Me: " don' tev enask" Yonel a: " t hatbad?Wel l i twasmyi deasoI deser v et oknow" Me: " ev er y t hi ngi ssl owl ybecomi ngamess, gr amsext endedherst ay , andIdon' tt hi nkshe' s l eav i ngany t i mesoon" Yonel a: " ohno, t hatcan' tbegood, why ? " Me: " shewant sQui nt ont opr oposesowecan getmar r i edASAP" Herj awdr ops Weonl yhadt wocl assest oday , wecameout ear l ybutwest i l l chi l l i ngi ncampusbuyt he bench Yonel a: " ohno!Thi smi ghtber i skyt hanI t hought " Me: " t el l meabouti t , nowwewi l l needaf ake f ami l yf ornegot i at i onsandav er ysmal l f ake weddi ng" Shehi t smyshoul derwi t hherey espoppedout Me: " ouch" Yonel a: " dude, t hi si sadi sast er , t hemor epeopl e y ' al l i nv ol v et hemor edanger oust hi sbecomes" Me: " t el l mesomet hi ngIdon' tknow" Yonel a: " j ustcomecl eanwi t hy ourgr ams gi r l , t hent el l hery oudon' twantt ogetmar r i ed shemustj ustf or gi v ey ouf ornotbei ngabl et o f ul f i l l herwi sh" Me: " ar ey oucr azy ?Af t erwe' v ecomet hi sf ar wi t ht hi swhol epr et endi ngt hi ng, i twi l l cr ushher t hatIl i edt oher , shewon' tbeabl et ohandl et he t r ut h, she' l l di eear l i ercauseofhear tat t ack, No, any t hi ngbutt het r ut h" Yonel a: " shi t , okayj ustt el l hery ' al l notr eadyf or mar r i age" Me: " t r i edt hat , di dn' twor k" Yonel a: " doy out hi nky ' al l canpul l of ft he weddi ngwi t houtany oneknowi ng? " Me: " Isur ehopeso" Shel ooksatmef orawhi l e Yonel a: " don' ty ouf eel al i t t l er emor seaboutal l t hi s, Iknowy oust udy i ngl awbutsi ncewhen hav ey oubecomet hi sr esi st antt ol y i ng, i t sl i ke y ounotev enabi twor r i edaboutt hi swhol e t hi ng" Howcanshesayt hat Me: " Idon' tbel i ev ey ou, y out heonewhocame upwi t ht hi sbi gbr i l l i anti dea, nowy ouher e t el l i ngmeIshoul dbef eel i ngbadaboutt hi s? Pl easedon' tst ar twi t hme" Yonel a: " andIr egr etev ercomi ngupwi t ht he i dea, It houghti twoul donl ybeaf ewday s, y our gr amsl eav esandy oucar r yonwi t hl i f e, Idi dn' t knowshe' df or cemar r i ageev enwi t hy ourf ake boy f r i end" Me: " t hatmakest het hr eeofus, weal sodi dn' t know, butheyi t shappeni ngandwej usthav et o gowi t ht hef l ow" Shesi ghs Yonel a: " sowher ear ey ' al l goi ngt ogetaf ami l y f orQui nt on? " Ishr ugmyshoul der s Me: " nam andaz( Ial sodon' tknow)hesai dhe knowspeopl ewhoknowpeopl ewhoknow peopl ewhoknowhi m whoheknows" Shel aughed Yonel a: " Ibethesai di texact l yl i ket hat " Me: " y ouknowhi m" Yonel a: " di dhet el l y out her easonwhyhe f et chedy oul at ey est er day ? " Me: " mx m di dheev enf et chmeatal l ? " Shegasps Yonel a: " what ?Why ? " Me: " causeofhi sgi r l f r i end" Yonel a: " y ohhedi t chedy ouf orhi sgi r l f r i end? Hemustr eal l yl ov et hi sgi r l , Ihav et omeether " Me: " mx m, I ' m meet i nghert hi scomi ngweekend, heey yy oushoul dcomewi t hmeIcan' tdeal wi t hbei ngat hi r dwheel speci al l yf orQui nt on" Yonel a: " Iwonderhowl ongwi l l i tt akef ory ' al l t o r eal i sey ' al l r eal l yl ov eeachot her , i t scut eathow bl i ndy ' al l ar ebutsomet i mesi t shear t br eaki ng l i ker i ghtnow" Me: " mx mt her e' snol ov eher et r ustme. . . " Yonel a: " sowhatdi dy ouendupgoi nghome wi t hy est er day ? " Me: " ohuhm Iki ndabumpedi nt oLi am " Shel ooksatmeshocked Yonel a: " hegav ey ouar i de? " Inod Yonel a: " aand? " Me: " not hi ng" Yonel a: " ohcomeon, hedi dn' tsayany t hi ng. . . . aboutme? " Me: " wedi dn' tt al kmuch" Yonel a: " j ustl i kehowhedi dn' tt al kmucht he t i meIwaswi t hhi m. . . It houghthewoul datl east askf ormynumberbutdol ol o" Me: " oh. . y ouwanthi snumber ? " Yonel a: " dur hdi dhegi v ey ou? " Me: " y eah. . . t her el etmegi v ei tt oy ou" Yonel a: " wowsoheaskedf ory ournumber ? " Me: " y eah, buti t snotl i keIwant edi t . . . . 082. . . Yonel a: "No, Idon' twanti t , i t sobv i oushewant s y ounotme" Me: " don' tbel i ket hat , Idon' twanthi m any way I ' v egotwayt oomuchgoi ngonf orme" Yonel a: " Ibetheev enaskedy ouout ? " Il ookedawayf r om her Yonel a: " andy ouagr eed? " Ir emai nedqui et Yonel a: " soy oudowanthi m, f ort hef acty ou ev ent ookhi snumber , wow" Me: . . . . . Yonel a: " af t erIt ol dIIt hi nkI ' mi nl ov e. . .I t sokay y oucanhav ehi m, t ot hi nkIev enbr okeupwi t h Chr i sl astni ght " Me: " y oudi dwhat ? " Yonel a: " y eap, i twasal l f ornot hi ng, t hanksal ot f r i end" Me: " comeony onel aI ' m notev endat i ngt heguy andIdi dn' tev enagr eet ot hatst upi ddat ehe askedme" Yonel a: " di dy out ur nhi m down? " Me: " wel l Ist i l l hav emuchpowert ot ur nhi m down" Yonel a: " y ou' ddot hat ? " Me: " ofcausei fy oul ov ehi m somuch, Idon' t seewhynot " Shesmi l es Yonel a: " y ouknowwhat , don' tt ur nhi m down, y oucant ur nt hatdat et o' oper at i onhookup y onel a' " Ibur sti nt ol aught er Me: " i ft hat ' swhaty ouwant , y ougoti t " Yonel a: " y out hebest ! " Wehugged Yonel a: " l et ' sgetgoi ng, t hesuni sbl azi ng" Wewal kedoutoft heschool pr emi ses Mncedi si ' scarpar kedr i ghti nf r ontofus, shi t Heget soutandcomest owar dsus Hi m: " l adi es" Yonel a: " hey " Me: " hi " Hi m: " howar ey ' al l ? " Yonel a: " wegood" Me: " f i ne" It ot al l yf or gotabouthi m pi cki ngmeupt oday Hi m: " sor eadyt ogo. . . f ut ur ewi f ey ?" Ohno, t el l mehedi dnotj ustcal l met hatnono no Me: " uhmmm. . . . Yonel a: " ohf ut ur ewi f ey ? " Il ookather Yonel a: " wow" Shest or msof f Me: " y onel a!Wai t ! " Iat t emptt ogoaf t erherwhenhest opsme Mnce: " di dIsayordosomet hi ngwr ong. . . i f so, I ' m sor r y " Isi ghdef eat ed Me: " no. . . y oudi dnot hi ngwr ong, l et ' sj ustgo" Het ookmet oSandeckhot el i nsandt on Me: " wow, t hi spl acei sbeaut i f ul " Mnce: " f orabeaut i f ul Lady , y oudeser v et obe t akent obeaut i f ul pl aces" Wewal kedi nsi deandt ookt hest ai r st henwe wer ei nsomer oom, t hi si st hemostbeaut i f ul pl aceI ' v eev erseen Me: " Wow, t hi si s. . . wow" Heput shi sar m ov ermyshoul der Mnce: " I ' m gl ady oul ov ei t , t hi si swher eI ' m st ay i ngt i l l Igetapl ace" Me: " oh, di dn' ty ousayy ouhav eanapar t ment ?" Mnce: " t hi si si t . . f ornow. . comel etmeshowy ou wher ewe' l l bechi l l i ng" Wewentoutt ot hebal cony, ohmyt hi spl ace get sev enmor emor ebeaut i f ul , t her e' sani ce pool ori si taj acuzzi ?Beaut i f ul pool couches andabr aai ar eaal soani cet abl et hatwas al r eadydecor at edwi t ht wogl assesandabot t l e ofchampagneandabunchoff ancyf oodI di dn' tknow Me: " It houghtIwasst i l l t hi nki ngaboutt he dat e? " Hechuckl ed Mnce: " oht hi s. . t hi si snot hi ngl i ket hat , i t sj ust memaki ngupf orbei ngaj er ky est er day " Me: " wowi ft hi si showy ouapol ogi sef orbei ng aj er k. . boyy oushoul dbeaj er kal l t het i me" Hebur st si nt ol aught erandIj oi ni n Hepul l soutt heseatf orme Me: " mmhgent l eman" Mnce: " It r y " Hepr epar edsomef ancyf oodf orus, Idon' tev en knowt henameofhal ft het hi ngsi nt hi st abl e , onl yr ecogni zedt hechi cken Me: " uhm t hi sal l l ooks. . . . heal t hy " Mnce: " wai tunt i l y out r yt hi sSal t andPepper Chi ckenwi t hSpr i ngQui noaPi l af " Whatt hef uckdi dhej ustsayt heonl yt hi ngI under st oodi nt hatsent encei schi cken, wow Me: " mmmhokay " Suchasmal l por t i onIdon' tt hi nkweeat i ngt o getf ul l her e Me: " ar ey oudonedi shi ngup? " Mnce( chuckl es) : " y eah. . di gi n" For kandkni f eokayIcandot hi s. . i t sf or kon r i ghtandkni f eonl ef t?It r i edi tandI st r angl ed, t hi si ssoembar r assi ng Mnce: " comel etmehel py ouwi t ht hat " Heget supandwal kst owar dsmehest ands nextt omet henbendsdownhewr apshi sar ms ar oundmet het akesmyhandsmaki ngt hem swi t cht hekni f et ot her i ghtandt hef or kt ot he l ef t , Icantev enconcent r at ewi t hhi m br eat hi ng oncheekIcanhearmyownhear tbeatI ' m sur e hecanheari tt oot hewayi t ssol oud Mnce: " t heny ouhol dt hechi ckenwi t ht hef or k whi l ey oucutwi t hy ourr i ght " Hehel psmecut , hi sar msar esost r ong, hi s col ognemmmhl or dhav emer cy Mnce: " j ustl i ket hat . . . . y ougoti t ? " Heasksaswest ar eateachot herst i l l hol di ng me Me( whi sper ) : " y eah, Igoti t " Hedoesn' tt akehi sey esof fme, If eel myf ace aut omat i cal l ymov i ngcl oser , myey esgl uedt o hi spi nki shl i ps, ournosest ouchIpountmyl i ps r eadyt oki sshi m If eel hi m br ushmyl i pswi t hhi sf i nger Mnce: " Iwantust osav ei t , f ort hedat e? " Ismi l easIf eel mycheeksheatup Me: " y oumeant heoneI ' m st i l l t hi nki ngabout ?" Mnce: " t hat st heone, Sat ur dayni ght ? " Me: " Idon' tknow, Idon' tt hi nki t sagoodi dea" Hemov esawayandsi t sonhi sseat Mnce: " whynot ?Imeany ousi ngl eI ' m si ngl e, so muchi ncommon" Il augh Me: " r eal l ynow? . . . . . wel l i t sj ustmyf r i endr eal l y l i kesy oual ot" Hecr easeshi sbr owst oget her Mnce: " sor r ybutI ' m st r ai ghtnj enger ul er mshana" ( asar ul er ) Ibur sti nt ol aught er Me: " nonomannott hatf r i end, t heot herone Yonel a" Hel aughs Mnce: " oohhhbesi ndi t huki l emf ondi ni " ( y ou scar edmeman) Mnce: " butIr eal l yl i key ou. . . . . don' tgetmewr ong Il i kehershe' sr eal l ycut eandbubbl y , butI al way shadmyey esony ouf r om t hev er y st ar t , andIwoul dl ov et ot akey ouout" Isi gh Me: " l ookLee. . . . Hechuckl es Me: " what ? " Mnce: " not hi ng, Ij ustl i ket hewayy oucal l edme" Ismi l emycheeksar esol i t er al l yonf i r eIswear Me: " any wayasIwassay i ngLee. . . Hehasabi gchi l di shsmi l epl ast er edonhi s f acemaki ngmel augh Me: " goshnowIf or gotwhatIwasgoi ngt osay ! " Wel aughed Mnce: " y ouwer egonnasay . . ohwhatt he heck, Leel et ' sdot hi s!" Ibur sti nt ol aught eratt hewayhewast al ki ng l i keagi r l Me: " Idon' tsoundl i ket hat " Mnce: " wantpr oof ? " Me: " shutup! " Ij usti ndul gedi nmyf oodandi tt ast esso good, myey eswoul dl i t er al l ycl oseasIenj oy ev er ybi t e, buti tf i ni shedi nj ustaf ewmi nut es Me: " i st hi showmuchy oueatal l t het i me? " Henods Me: " doy ouev engetf ul l ?" Mnce: " y eah, i t ' snotaboutbei ngf ul l , i t sabout bei ngsat i sf i ed" Hepour sussomechampagne Mnce: " t hi sshal l f i l l y ouup" It aket hegl assIusual l yseeonTVhowsl ow t heydr i nkandhowt heyshoul dhol dt he gl ass, t owar dst hebaseoft hest em bet ween y ourt humb, f or ef i ngerandmi ddl ef i nger .Il ook athowhe' shol di ngi tYepj ustl i ket hem, t hi sguy i st oof ancyIdon' tt hi nkIcoul dr eachhi s st andar dsIf eel l i keI ' l l hav et ol ev el upwi t hhi m al l t het i me It akeasi pt henputi tdown Mnce: " Moët&ChandonI mpér i al Rosé" Me: " huh? " Mnce: " t hat ' st henameoft hechampai gn, do y oul i kei t ? " Me: " oh. . . y eah, Il ov ei t , i t ssof r ui t y " Mnce: " It houghty ou' dl i kei t " Wecont i nuedt al ki ngandl aughi ng, wear enow st andi ngbyt hepar apetoft hebal conyl ooki ng att hebr eat ht aki ngv i ew Me: " sot el l meLee. . . whatbr i ngsy oubackt o Sout hAf r i cai fy ousayy ougr ewupi nEngl and? " Mnce: " t heweat hert her ei sf r eezi ngcol d" Il augh Me: " ohpl ease. . I ' m ser i ous" Mnce: " j ustki ddi ng, wel l i t ski ndofaf ami l y t hi ng" Me: " wannat el l meabouti t ? " Hesi ghs Mnce: " Ihav et opr epar emy sel ft ot akeov er f ami l ybusi nesses" Ty pi cal r i chki ds Me: " y oudon' tsoundsoexci t edabouti t ? " Mnce: " Iam, i t sj ustt her e' st hi ngsI ' mf or cedt o dobef or eIcant akeov er" Me: " andy oudon' tl i ket hoset hi ngs? " Heshakeshi shead Mnce: " atal l " Me: " ar et heyi l l egal ? " Heshakeshi shead Mnce: " notatal l " Me: " ar ey ougoi ngt ot el l mewhatt heyar e? " Mnce: " wel l f i r stofal l Ihav et ospendmywhol e l i f ewi t hsomeone. . . . Thedoorbel l r i ngs, di st ur bi nghi m Mnce: " pr obabl yr oom ser v i cel etmegogeti t " Hedi sappear si nsi de, Ideci det ogetmyphone f r om mybag Me: " whoa! ! " Somanymi ssedcal l sf i f t yt hr eeal l f r om Qui nt on, Ii mmedi at el ycal l hi m hepi cksup Qui nt on( wor r i ed) : " Li saar ey ouokay , ohmyGod wher ear ey ouar ey ousaf eIt r i edcal l i ngy ouI ev ensentabunchoft ext s, i twasget t i ngl at eI ev encal l edy onel ashesai dsomeguypi cked y ouup, pl easet el l mey ousaf e" Me: " Qui nt on!Cal m down, I ' m saf e" Hei sbr eat hi ngheav i l y Qui nt on: " ohmyl i l y , Iwassooooooooosososo wor r i edabouty ou, i fsomet hi nghadhappenedI t hi nkIwoul d' v ecommi t t edsui ci de" Il aughal i l Me: " I ' mt ot al l yf i ne, andst opwi t hy ourdr ama y oohhh" Qui nt on: " ar ghwher ear ey ou?I ' v ebeent r y i ngt o r eachy oubuty ourphonet ookmest r ai ghtt o v oi cemai l , Iwant edy out ocomet ot hehospi t al wi t hme" Hi sv oi cewasnowf i l l edwi t hanger Me: " hospi t al ?Whathappened? " Qui nt on: " y ourgr amsi si nhospi t al , whatar e y oubusydoi ngt her e, ar ey ouwi t ht hatguy ? " " Iwasr i ghtIr ent edsome. . . . . Isi gnal hi mt oshutup Me: "Qui nt onwhathappenedt ogr ams. . . . j ust sendmet hel ocat i onI ' l l ber i ghtt her e" Qui nt on: " nowy our eal i sey ouhav epeopl et o wor r yabout ?Nx" Hedr opst hecal l Mnce: " ev er y t hi ngokay ? " Me: " No, y ouneedt ogetmet ot hehospi t al now! " Hedi dn' taskf ur t herquest i onsbutgr abbedhi s carkey sandwer ushedout , aWhat sAppcame f r om Qui nt onsendi ngmet hel ocat i onIcl osed myey es DearGodpl easel etmakhul ul i v e, pl easef at her nott hi ssoon, pl easer ev eal y ourmi r acl es t oni ghtLor d, Iputal l myf ai t hi ny ouGodi nt he nameoft hebl oodofJesusChr i st Me: " Amen" . . . Goodni ght [ 07/ 28, 16: 55]W: I nser t14 LI SA Ir uni nsi det hehospi t al l i keapsy chopat h l eav i ngMncedi si i nt hecar , Idi dn' tev enask quest i onsasIi mmedi at el yspot t edQui nt onby t hewai t i ngar ea, Ir anupt ohi m heseesmeand st andsup, hemeet smehal fwaywi t hhi sar ms open, It hr owmy sel fi nt ohi sar ms, hehol dsme f ordearl i f eashepi cksmeupal i l Qui nt on: " ohhbubIwassowor r i edabouty ou" Hel et ' smego Me: " whathappened?Wher e' sgr ams? " Qui nt on: " shehadasei zur e, f oundheront he f l oor " Myl i pscur v eupsi dedownast ear st hr eat en, he hast hesameexpr essi on Qui nt on: " i t swassohear t br eaki ngLi ss, I t houghtshewasdy i ng" Hi sf aci al expr essi onchangedt oanger Qui nt on: " wher et hehel l wer ey ou!Whydi dn' t y out el l menott opi cky ouup, t haty ouhad pl ans?damnLi sakhany adoy ouknowt he t r aumaoft hi nki ngsomet hi nghor r i bl emi ght ' v e happenedt oy ou, howdoy ouexpectmyl i f et o goonwi t houty ou!Orgr amsl i f e, howcoul dy ou besosel f i sh? ! " Howcoul dhesayt hat Me( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " I ' m sor r y " Ibr eakdown, hecomf or t sme Me: " Ishoul d' v ebeent her e, shepr obabl yf or got t ot akeherpi l l s, Iwassupposedt obet her et o r emi ndher " Ibur sti nt oal oudcr y Qui nt on: " i t snoty ourf aul t , I ' m sor r yIshoul dn' t hav ebur st edoutl i ket hat , Iwasj ustso concer nedwhi chmademeabi tangr y " Me: " Iknowbut . . . Someonecl ear shi st hr oat Mnce: " sor r yt oi nt er r upt , Li sai sev er y t hi ng okay ? " Qui nt on: " andy ouar e? " Inudgehi m causeIknowhe' saboutt ogetr ude j ustl i kehowhewasal way sr udet ot hat oand t heguy sbef or ehi m Me: " Idon' tknowMncedi si , west i l l wai t i ngon t hedoct ort ot el l ussomet hi ng" Hel ooksatmewi t hpi t y Mnce: " I ' m sor r y , i st her eany t hi ngIcando" Qui nt on: " i fy ousomeki ndofJesusIguess t her ei ssomet hi ngy oucoul ddo. . . ei t hert han t hat , y ouusel ess" Me: " Qui nt on!" Iwar n, her ol l shi sey es Mncedi si comesandsi t snextt ome, I ' m nowi n t hemi ddl eoft heset womenwhoseem t ocar e aboutme Mnce: " comeher e" Hewr apshi sar msar oundmeandmakesme l ayonhi sshoul der Thedoct orcomest owar dsus, Iqui ckl yst and onmyf eet Me: " Doc, i ssheawake, br eat hi ng?" Doc: " she' sf i nef ornow, sheexper i encedaToni c Cl oni csei zur e, Lossofconsci ousnessand bodyt one, f ol l owedbyt wi t chi ngandr el axi ng muscl est hatar ecal l edcont r act i onswhi chl ed t oLossofcont r ol ofbodyf unct i ons, sheal so exper i encedashor t30secondper i odofno br eat hi ngandt hat ' swhyshet ur nedashadeof bl ue" Qui nt on: " t hat ' st er r i bl e, doccant hi scancerof her sbecur ed? " Me: " ev eni fi tcanbecur ed, we' l l nev eraf f or di t " Mnce: " Iwoul dl ov et ohel pwi t ht hat " Me: " Idon' tt hi nkso" Qui nt on: " I ' m sur ei t snot hi ngIcan' thandl e" Me: " Qui nt onwet al kedaboutt hi s" Qui nt on: " Li sakhany at hi si snotupf or di scussi on, Iwantt odoi tf orgr amsnotf or y ou, i t sherl i f eont hel i neher enoty our s" Mnce: " he' sr i ght , i t st i mey out hi nkabouther " Doc: " I ' m sor r yt or ui nt hemomentbutI ' m af r ai d wi t hhert y peoft umori tmi ghtnotbecur abl e" Qui nt on: " whatki ndoft umorandwhycan' ti tbe cur ed? " Doc: " Thesear et hemostmal i gnantt umor s. Theyr epr oducer api dl y , andeasi l ygr owi nt o near bynor mal br ai nt i ssue.Wi t hy our gr andmot herl ooksl i kei thasal r eadyspr eada l ot , ev eni fwedodot hesur ger yi twi l l bev er y v er yr i skyast heset umor sf or mt hei rownnew bl oodv essel s, t hi si sal mostani mpossi bl e sur ger yt ocar r youtwi t h85%chancet hatshe won' tmakei tandwi l l bev er ycost l yony our pocket " Mnce: " moneyi sno. . . . Me: " No, cany oual l j ustst op!Pl ease!DoccanI pl easeseeher " Doc: " ofcauseshe' sawakef ol l owme" Wef ol l owedbehi ndhi m Mnce: " uhm Li sa, It hi nkIshoul dgetgoi ng" Qui nt on: " t hat ' st hesmar t estt hi ngy ou' v esai d si nceI ' v eknowny ou" Igi v ehi m awar ni ngl ook Mnce: " l ooksl i key ouhav eapr obl em chap? " Qui nt on: " i st her esomet hi ngy ou' dl i ket odo abouti t . . . . . chap? " Mnce: " y oushoul dwat chy ourmout h" Qui nt onmov escl osert ohi m Qui nt on: " orwhat ? . . . . . chap? " IGer tbet weent hem Me: " woul dy out wocuti tout , i fy ' al l wantt of i ght pl easegodoi tout si de" Il ookatMncedi si Me: " t hanksf ort hegr eatev eni ng, y oucango" It ur nt oQui nt on Me: " pl easest opwi t hy ourchi l di shness, we hav ebi ggerpr obl emst owor r yabout" Mnce: " I ' l l cal l y ou" Hecomescl oserandhugsme Mnce: " hangi nt her eandt akecar e" Hegl ar esatQui nt onandher et ur nst hedead gl ar ehewal ksaway Wegeti nsi degr amswar dImar chupt oherand squeezehergent l yi nahug Me: " ohmakhul uI ' m sogl ady ouokay , I ' m sor r yI wasn' tt her e" Gr ams: " I ' m happyy ouher ebhabha" Me: " Iwassupposedt obet her e, t or emi ndy ou t ot akey ourpi l l s, t hi sal l myf aul t , nowl ook wher ewear e, I ' m sosel f i sh" Sher ubsmybackassheshushesme Gr ams: " i t snoty ourf aul tNana, I ' m si cki t sj ust t hewayt hi ngsar e, don' tbl amey our sel fy ev ah keNana" Il etgoofherQui nt onboughtachai rf ormesoI satnextt oherhol di ngherhand Gr ams: " l ooksl i keI ' l l di esoonert hanI expect ed" Me( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " Nonopl easedon' tsay t hat , y ounotdy i ngnow, i twasj ustasei zur e, y ou st i l l hav esomet i me" Gr ams: " Qui nt ont ol dmeabouthi smot her , when Idi epl easegi v emyhear tt oher " Me: " gr ams. . . y ounotdy i ng. . .notnow" Gr ams: " ofcausenotIj ustneedt or est " Shecl osedherey es, myhear tski ppedabeati n f ear Me: " No!Makhul upl easedon' tdi e!Pl ease" Sheopenedherey es Gr ams: " ay i sukaLi sandi t hendi f unauk' l al a t shi ni andi f anga" ( Isai dI ' mr est i ngI ' m notdead) Me: " oh. . .It hought. . . IhearQui nt onchuckl e, gr amsal soj oi nshi m, I f i ndmy sel fsmi l i ng Me: " ohIknewt hat " Qui nt on: " y eahr i ght " Il aughal i l bi tt heyl aughmor eweal l endup l aughi ng Themoodchangesasi fnot hi ngbadev er happened Me: " I ' l l sl eepher e" Gr ams: " phi ngoku? " ( wher e? ) Me: " r i ghther ei nt hi schai r " Gr ams: " sugezawenaapha, kwedi ni kawut hat heel i gezani goduke"( don' tbecr azy , boy , t aket hi scr azyper sonandgohome) Me: " butIwantt obeher et hi st i me" Gr ams" I ' mi nt hehospi t al Li sa, I ' m sur et he doct or scandowaymor et hany oucan, j ustgo getsomer est , y ouhav eschool t omor r ow" Qui nt on: " y ourgr annyi sr i ght , l et ' sgetgoi ngshe needst or esti npeace" Me: " What ? ! " Qui nt on: " ohshi tImeansheneedst or est , l i ke wi t houtus, l i kedi st ur bances, i nqui et , sheshe needst osl eep, notasi nf or ev erbut . . . Webur sti nt ol aught er , hescr at cheshi shead wi t haconf usedl ookonhi sf ace Me: "okayQui nt onwegeti t , gr andmot her , I ' l l see y out omor r ow" Shenodsasshecl osesherey es Me: " t hatwasqui ck" Qui nt on: " t hemedi cat i onmusthav egot t ent o her " Wel eav eherwar danddr ov ehomei nsi l ence Ij ustf i ni shedt aki ngashower, Qui nt onwas nowt aki ngashower Icl osemyey esandhor r i bl et hought sr un t hr oughmymi nd Mybestf r i endpr obabl yhat esme, Ichoseaboy ov erher , someoneImetf i v emi nut esago, t henI di t chQui nt ont ospendmywhol eev eni ngwi t h hi m, t henIt ot al l yabandonmygr amsnowshe' s i nhospi t al becauseIdeci dedt obi t char ound wi t haguyIbar el yknow, Qui nt onwasr i ghtI ' m sel f i sh If eel someonewi pemyt ear s, Iopenmyey est o bemetbyt hemostcapt i v at i nggr eyey es Qui nt on: " I ' m get t i ngt i r edoft hi sLi sa" Me: " ofwhat ? " Qui nt on: " t ear s, si ncewe' v emov edi nt oget her onl ybadt hi ngshav ebeenhappeni ng, f i r sty our gr ams, t henmymom, t hent hebi gl i es, y our ni ght mar es, nonoft heset hi ngshappened bef or eImov edi n" Me: " whatar ey out r y i ngt osay ? " Heshr ugshi sshoul der s Qui nt on: " Idon' tknowmay beI ' mj usti magi ng t hi ngs, butI ' m si ckandt i r edofseei ngy ou cr y , i t ssl owl ybr eaki ngmyhear t , Ihat ei t , Imi ss y ourl augh, y oursi l l ynotsof unnyj okest hatI onl yf i ndf unny " Igasp Me: " heey ymyj okesar ef unnyf orev er y one" Qui nt on: " ohy eahr i ghtofcauset heyar e" Hel aughsatme Heget si nsi det hecov erandIsi tup Qui nt on: " okayt el l meani cej okenow" Me( l aughi ng) : " ohy ougonnal ov et hi sone" Her ol l shi sey es Me: " knockknock" Qui nt on: " who' st her e? " Me: " Eur ope" Qui nt on: " Eur opewho? " Me: " No. . . Urapoo. . . hahahahhahahahah" Ibur sti nt ol aught erbuthehadaconf usedl ook Me: " geti t ?Eur opewho. . .No, Urapoo" Hel ooksatmeandshakeshi sheadt hen l aughsatmer eal l yhar d OkayIknowhe' snotl aughi ngatmyj oke Me: " mx xxm, I ' m nev ert el l i ngy ouj okesagai n" If ol dmyar msandl ookt heot herway Het ur nsmear oundbutIkeepmyheaddown Qui nt on: " t hatwast hef unni estj okeI ' v eev er hear dLi ss" Me: " ohpl ease, y oucoul dn' thi det heconf usi on" Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " No, t hatwasn' tconf usi on. . I ' mt el l i ngy oububKev i nHar tgotnot hi ngon y ou" Il ookupathi m andasmi l ecr eepsi n Me: " r eal l y ? " Qui nt on: " Gi r l Ineedsomemor eoft hem j okes comeon" Me( exci t edl y ) : " okayokay , y ou' l l l ov et hi sone" Iseehi mt r yt ohol di nhi sl aughashenods Me: " y ouknowQui nt oni t st i mesl i ket hi sIwi shI hadl i st enedt omymot her " Hel ooksatmeconf used Qui nt on: " why ?Whatdi dshesay ? " Me: " Idon' tknow, Iwasn' tl i st eni ng" Webur sti nt ol aught er , t hi st i mehewasr eal l y l aughi ngatt hej okeandnotme Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " ooohhhIdi dn' tseet hat onecomi ng" Wecont i nuel aughi ng, Inot i ceIwasl aughi ng al onehewasj ustsmi l i ngandst ar i ngatme Me: " what ? " Qui nt on: " t hi si swhatImi ssed, Iwi sht hi ngscan st ayt hi swayf or ev er" Me: " j ustmeandy ouandmyJi m Car yspi r i t " Hel aughs Qui nt on: " okayeasyIsai dbet t ert hanKev i n Har t . . .Ji m Car y ?Gi r l y oupushi ngi t " Wel aughIhadt ear sf r om l aughi ngsohar dnext t hi ngIknowIhav ehi ccups Qui nt on: " l et ' sgety ousomewat er " Hegoesoutt ogetmewat er , amessagecomes t hr oughmyphone, Ichecki t Mnce: " Ihopeev er y t hi ngwentwel l wi t hy our gr andma, Ican' thel pbutf eel t obebl amedf or keepi ngy ouaway , I ' m sor r y , Ir eal l ycar ef ory ou Li sa, Idon' tknowwhybutIr eal l yhav est r ong f eel i ngsf ory ou, goodni ghtkhany a" Iputmyphoneawayaf t err eadi ngi t Qui nt on: " t her ey ougo" Ismi l e Me: " t hanks" Qui nt on: " uuhhIhav eagamei nmi nd" Igul pmywat erputmycupawayt hensi tonmy knees Me: " whatdohav ei nt hatmi nd" Qui nt on: " l et ' spl ay , woul dy our at herquest i ons" Me: " Il ov et hatgameokayy ougof i r st" Qui nt on: " wai tIhav er ul es" Me: " ohGod, okay " Qui nt on: " i fy ouf ai l t oanswert hequest i ony ou t akeof fapi eceofcl ot hi ng" Me: " haaaokayl etmegetmor ecl ot hi ngon t hen" Hewasonl yi nhi sbr i ef ssoheput sonj usta shi r t , Ihadmyshor tPJsonsoIwor eabr aand aj acket , hel aughedatme Qui nt on: " wowser i ousl y ? " Ij umpbackonbed Me: " y epser i ousl y" Qui nt on: " Woul dy our at herSwi m 300met er s t hr oughshi tordeadbodi es? " Me( di sgust ed) : " si ck!Nei t her " Her ai seshi sbr ow Me: " sor r ybutshi t ?Naah. . .Deadbodi es?Yoh Nev er ! " It akeof fmyj acket Me: " Woul dy our at herEatshi tt hatt ast edl i ke chocol at e, oreatchocol at et hatt ast edl i ke cr ap? " Hel aughed Qui nt on: " I ' dr at hert akeof ft hi sshi r t , si es" Il aughathi m Wecont i nuedpl ay i nghewasaski ngr eal l yhar d quest i ons, Iev ent ookoutmybr aj ustnow, hi s ey eswer egl uedt omyboobs Me: " ey esupher ebaba" Hei gnor edmeIsl appedhi m al i l hel ooksupat me Me: " hel l omyf acei supher e" Qui nt on: " ohi si t ? " Wel aughI ' m nowonl yl ef ti npant yhi si nhi s br i ef she' sbeenanswer i ngal l myquest i ons Me: " mmhWoul dy our at herLookl i keaf i shor smel l l i keaf i sh? " Het houghtv er ycar ef ul l y , Icoul dn' tst op l aughi ng Qui nt on: " damnIcan' tbel ooki ngl i kea f i sh, t hat ' dbewei r d, l etal onesmel l i ngl i keone t hat ' sj ustpl ai ndi sgust i ng. . .Ei sh" Het ookof fhi sbr i ef sy ooohhhhel pmyey es! Ikeptcl osi ngandopeni ngmyey esbutt hey woul dl andonhi sbi gbuddy Qui nt on: " don' tbescar ed, i tdon' tbi t e, wel l t hat ' s i fi t snothor ny " MycheeksheatupIbl ockmyf acewi t hmy hands Me: " I ' m notpl ay i ngany mor e" Qui nt on: " uhm l i ss? " Ipeakt hr oughmyhands Qui nt on: " y ourboobsar ewaki ngupt hi ngst hat bi t e" Igaspandhi dmyboobshel aughsatme Hecomescl osert ome Qui nt on( whi sper ) : " Ihav eanot hergamei n mi nd" Hehasanaught ysmi r konhi sf aceashel ooks atmyboobsi nadmi r at i on Me( l aughi ng) : " y ou' l l hav et ocat chmef i r st " Imakear unf ori t , Iwi shIcoul dsayIgotf aras outt hedoororoutt hebed, hej ustj umpedon me . . . . . I ' m sooooexci t edguy swemadei tt o1kt hanks t oal l ofy ouwhospr eadt hei rl ov ef ort hi sst or y kusazobamnandi apha! ! . [ 07/ 28, 16: 56]W: I nser t15 LI SA " Li sakhany a. . . . Pr i ncessy ourl i f ei si ndanger " Me: " Dad?Whatar ey oudoi ngher e?Ar en' ty ou supposedt obei nheav en? " " Ican' tr estmybaby , Ihav et opr ot ecty ou" Me: " f r om whatdad? " " Fr om t hepeopl ey oucal l y ourf r i ends. . . Run Li sa, y ounotsaf e" Me: " don' twor r yDad, Qui nt onwi l l pr ot ectme" Heshakeshi sheadhi sf acet ur nedangr y " ISAI DYOUNOTSAFE! !DON' TYOULI STEN! ! GETAWAYFROM THEM! ! " Me( cr y i ng) : " pl easego, y ouscar i ngme" " I ' m notgoi ngany wher e! " Hei sst andi ngbyt hedoorofourr oom Me: " GOPLEASE!JUSTGO!GOAWAY" * * * * * * * * " LI SA!wakeup, Li sa! " Me: " pl easegoaway ! ! " " Li sai t sme, wakeup" Someoneshakesme, Isi tup, I ' m br eat hi ng heav i l yandal l sweat y Qui nt on: " i twasj ustadr eam l i ss" Mydadi sst i l l st andi ngt her e Me: " pl easegodadpl easey ouscar i ngme" Qui nt on: " i twasaadr eam. . Me: " Not her ehei st her e. . . l ook! " Ipoi ntt owar dst hedoorhi scov er edi nbl ood Qui nt on: " t her e' snooneher eLi sa" Whycan' theseehi m Me: " he' sr i ghtt her edammi t !He' sr i ghtt her e! " Heget supandswi t chesont hel i ght Qui nt on: " Li sai t sj ustmeandy ouher e" Hedi sappear ed Me: " he' sgone" Ibur sti nt oal oudcr y , Isawhi m, hei sangr yat me If eel someonepul l mecl oseri nt ohi sembr ace Me: " hewast her eQui nt onIswear , hewas st andi ngr i ghtt her eIsawhi m, Isawhi m wi t h myownt woey es, howcomey oudi dn' tsee hi m! ! " Qui nt on: " shhhhcal m downLi ss" Ibr eakoutofhi sgr i b, t ear sst r eami ngdownmy f ace Me: " Leav emeal one!Whydi dn' ty ouseehi m! ! " Qui nt on: " Li sat her ewasno. . . . Me: "Getout ! " Qui nt on: " what . . l i ss Me: "ISAI DGETOUT! " hel ooksatmewi t hpi t yt henget supandwal ks out It hr owapi l l owathi m Me: " I ' m notcr azy !IknowwhatIsaw! " Hel ooksatmeoncemor et henheadsoutt he doorcl osi ngi tbehi ndhi m Icov ermy sel fwi t ht hebl anketandbr eakdown, I mi sshi m, Imi ssmyf at her , Isawhi m hewas st andi ngr i ghtt her ewi t hbl oodal l ov erhi sbody Igetof ft hebed, makemywayt ot hebat hr oom, I t sst i l l i nt hemi ddl eoft heni ght , Iwashmy f ace, I ' m al r eadynakedsoIj ustwor emyPJs, I canst i l l f eel mycooki ebur ni ng, Qui nt onf ucked mel i kecr azyt oni ght , If ai l edt or esi st hi m. . agai n, Ihat ehowhemakesmeso weak, emot i onal l yandphy si cal l y , nowIf eel bad f orshout i ngathi m, t heseni ght mar esar edr i v i ng mecr azy .Iwal kar oundt hehousel ooki ngf or Qui nt onbuthe' snother e, Inot i cet hedoorabi t opensoIheadout si deonl yt of i ndhi m si t t i ng onabr i cki nf r ontoft hehousesmoki nghi s ci gar et t e, Isi tnextt ohi m onanot herbr i ck.We si tt her ei nsi l ence. Me: " I ' m sor r yaboutear l i er" Hepuf f soutt hi nl i neofsmokef aci ngup, Iwi sh hedi dn' thav et ol ookt hi scut ewhi l edoi ngt hat Qui nt on: " IguessIunder st and" * si l ence* hecar r i esonenj oy i nghi ssmokeev enmaki ng t hosehi ssi ngsounds, t hi sguyl ov esni cot i ne Me: " canIt r yt hat ? " Hel ooksatmet henshakeshi shead Qui nt on: No, y oucan' t , y ouunderagey ou shoul dn' tev enbedr i nki ngal cohol " Me: " ohpl ease, dad, I ' mt ur ni ngei ght eeni nt wo weekst i mesoi t st hesameasi fI ' m ei ght een" Qui nt on: " nott hesame" Me: " ar ghj ustgi v emet hat " Igr abi tf r om hi m, l ookati tf orawhi l e, bef or e br i ngi ngi tcl oset omymout h Isucki nasmuchasIcan, nowI ' m coughi ng l i kecr azy Qui nt ont akeshi sci gar et t ef r om me Qui nt on: " It ol dy ou, y out ooy oungf ort hi s" Iwai tf orhi mt of i ni sh, hef l ecksi tof f Qui nt on: " l et ' sgobackt obed, wehav eal ong dayt omor r ow" Me: " y oumeant oday " Hechuckl est henwegobackt obed, It el l hi m al l aboutmydr eam Qui nt on: " whatdoy out hi nkt hi sdr eam means? " Me: " Ihav enoi dea" Qui nt on: " doy out hi nkt hef r i endshi st al ki ng aboutcoul dbeme? " Me: " i tcoul dbeany one, y ou, y onel a. . . wel l y eah t hat ' sabouti t , butwhywoul dhebepr ot ect i ng mef r om y ' al l wheny ouar et het wopeopl et hat ar eal way st her ef ormemor et hanany one, y ' al l l i kemysecondf ami l y" Qui nt on: " may beIshoul dmov eout " Me: " No!Younotmov i ngout , Ineedy ounow mor et hanev er " Qui nt on: " t hat ' snott heonl yr easonIneedt o mov eout " Me: " why ?What ' st heot herr eason?" Qui nt on: " Ican' tr esi sty ouLi sa, weal way sget t empt edt osl eepwi t heachot her , andy ounot ev enmygi r l , If eel l i keI ' m usi ngy ouandt hat ' s somet hi ngIdon' twannado" Me: " andy ouj ustcheat edony ourgi r l f r i end, I ' m sor r y " Hecupsmyf ace Qui nt on: " pl easenev erapol ogi sef ort hat , t hi s mi ghtbewr ongbutl i ssIdon' tr egr eti tatal l " Me: " y oudon' t ?" Qui nt on: " Nev er , I ' l l al way sbet hankf ul f ort he t i mey ougav emey ouri nnocence, andf orl ast ni ght ' sawesomet i me, andf orwaki ngupnextt o y ouev er y day " Me: " Idon' tr egr eti tt oo" AndIl ov ey ousomuch. . . . butwecannev erbe Me: " pl easedon' tmov eout " Qui nt on: " noIwon' t , I ' m goi ngt opr oposet oy ou t odaywheny ourgr amscomesback, dur i ng di nnerI ' l l pr opose" Me: " ohIcan' twai tt obeMr sO' Br i en" Hesmi l es Qui nt on: " i tsui t sy ouper f ect l y " Wehav et hatey econt actmoment Me: " l et ' ssl eepshal l we" Wegeti nt hecov er swet ur nourbacksoneach ot her . . . . If eel hi m mov ear ound, nextt hi nghi sal l wr appedagai nstme, Ismi l et omy sel ft hendoze of f * * * * * * * * * * Me: " comeony onel ay ou' v ebeengi v i ngmet he si l entt r eat mentt hewhol edaynow" Yonel a: " Ihav enot hi ngt osayt oy ouLi sa" Me: " comeonnel a, l et ' snotal l owaboyt ocome bet weenus, any t hi ngbutadi ck" Yonel a: " causey ouwantt okeepal l t hedi cks f ory our sel fr i ght ? , Qui nt on' sdi ck, Il i kedt hat o f i r stbuty ouhadt odat ehi mr i ght ?I ' v ebeen t al ki ngaboutt hi st r ansf erst udentwaybef or e hecameIl ov edhi m bef or eIev enmethi my ou t houghtIwascr az y , t henhecomesandIt el l y ouIl ov ehi m, whatdoy oudo, makehi my our f ut ur ehubby ?Youal way sget t i ngt hecut e ones, y oupr et endy oudon' twantt hem butno deepdowny ouat hi r st ybi t ch. . . i nhi ghschool y ouact edal l hol l ybutIseet heci t yhas r ev eal edy ourt r uesel f , Iwon' tbesur pr i sedi f y oucat cht hev i r us, causeaf t eral l t hi si sThe ci t yofgol d" She' sl i t er al l ysqueezi ngandsquashi ngmy hear tr i ghtnow Me: " Idon' tbel i ev ey ou. . . . y ouknowwhat y onel a, i fy oul ov eMncedi si t hatmucht haty ou woul dt al kt omet hewayy out al ki ngaf t erso manyy ear sofourf r i endshi pt heny oucanhav e hi m okay !Idon' tcar e, i fy ousodesper at eand obsessedaboutt hi sguyy oucanhav ehi mI ' m notgoi ngt ost andi ny ourway , Ibr okeupwi t h t hat oweeksago, y ou' v enev eronceshownt hat y ouhadf eel i ngsf ort hat oy out heonewho pushedmei nt odat i nghi mi nt hef i r stpl ace, so y oucanhav ehi mt oo. . . asf orQui nt onwebot h knowhe' sapl ay eri fy ouwanthi m sobadgo t akehi mI ' l l ev enhooky ouuphe' dbegl adt o hav esomef r eshpussyt hr owi ngi t sel fon hi m, hav et hem al l Yonel aIdon' tcar e, Ihav e gr eat erandmor ei mpor t antt hi ngst owor r y aboutt hanf i ght i ngf ordi cks" Yonel a: " y eahr i ghtmor ei mpor t antst uf f ?Li ke what ?Ly i ngt oy oursi ckgr andmot herpl ay i ng f akef ami l i eswi t hQui nt on. . . . . .MmmhIwonder howy ourgr annywoul df eel i fshef i ndsouther i nnocentl i t t l eangel ' ssecr et e" Shegi v esmeanev i l ey e Me: " y ouwoul dn' tdar e! " Shecomescl osert omebr eat hi ngonmyf ace Yonel a: " wannat r yme? " Me: " whatdoy ouwantf r om mey onel a? " Yonel a: " Iwanty out ost ayawayf r om Li am and whi l ey oudot hatmakesur ehecomesf orme" Me: " I ' l l st ayawayf r om hi m. . . butwhati fhe doesn' twanty ou? " Yonel a: " t heny oubet t ermakesur ehedoes" Me: " Ican' tf or cehi mt ol ov ey ouy onel a" Yonel a: " j ustl i kehowy oucan' tf or cemet onot t el l y ourgr amsal l y ourdi r t y . . . . . Igr abheshi r tt henpi nheragai nstt henear est wal l Me: "l i st ent omecar ef ul l y , y ougonnast ayf ar awayf r om mygr andmot her , y out el l herawor d t hat ' sgoi ngt obr eakherhear torev encome cl oset oher , i fany t hi nghappenst oherbecause ofy ourmout h, Isweart oGodYonel aIwi l l ki l l y ou, wi t hmyownbar ehands. . . . i fi t sboy sy ou wantgogett hem Iwon' tst andi ny ourway ! " Il etgoofhert henwal kedaway , wewer est i l l i n campusandsomesawusbutIcoul dn' tcar e l ess, t hedaypr oceededaf t eral ongdayi twas t i met ogohome I ' m nowwai t i ngf orQui nt ont opi ckmeup. . . I guessnowI ' mf r i endl ess " Whyt hel ongf ace? " Igetst ar t l edbyt hesoundofhi sv oi ce Me: " ohMncedi si " Mnce: " hey , howy oudoi ng" Me: " I ' m okayIguess" Mnce: " y ousur e?How' sy ourgr andma? " Isi gh Me: " she' sf i neshe' l l bedi schar gedt oday " Mnce: " I ' m gl adt oheart hat , Li saI ' mr eal l ysor r y aboutkeepi ngy ouaway " Me: " i t snoty ourf aul ti t snotl i key ouki dnapped me" Mnce: " andImeantwhatIsai dt oy ou. . i nt he t ext " Il ookupathi m, goshIf or gothowhandsomehe i s Me: " Mncedi si , I ' m sor r ybutI ' l l hav et or ej ectt hat dat e" Hef r owns Mnce: " butwhy ?comeonkhany a, Iknowt hese f eel i ngsar emut ual , y oucan' tt el l mey oudon' t f eel ev enal i t t l ef eel i ngf orme" Me: " ev eni fIdo, Ican' tbewi t hy ou, Idon' twant anyenemi es. . . al otofgi r l sar oundher ewant y ouandy ouknowi t , i fagi r l l i kemecoul dhav e y ou, I ' l l behat edmor ewi t hr easonmor et hanI washat edwi t houtr eason" Mnce: " nowwhocoul dpossi bl yhat ean ador abl edol l l i key our sel f , peopl ewi l l bej eal ous nomat t erwhoy oudat e, don' tal l owhat er st o di ct at ehowy oushoul dl i v ey ourl i f e, whot ol ov e andnott ol ov e, y ou' l l endupl i v i ngl i f et r y i ngt o pl easey ourhat er st henr eal i seatt heendt hat y ounev ergott hechancet ol i v ey ourownl i f e causey ouwer et oobusyt r y i ngt ogett he appr ov al ofy ourhat er s. . . . t r ustme sweet y , hat er swi l l al way sbehat i ngnot hi ngy ou doorsaywi l l ev erchanget hat , nomat t erhow per f ecty oucant r yt omakey our sel f , t hey ' l l al way sf i ndsomet hi ngt obr i ngy oudown. . ." Me: " Iheary oubutMncewecan' t . . . . Hehol dsmyhandst henl i f t supmyf acet ol ook athi m Mnce: " pl easeLi sa, pl easegi v emeachance, I knowI ' m notper f ectbutIwanty out o exper i enceal l t hel ov eIhav ei nmet ogi v et o y ou" Ourey esl ockf orabr i efmomentIseet he si ncer i t yi nhi st i gerbr owney es Ichuckl e Me: " mybestf r i end( wel l exbestf r i end)l ov es y ouLeeandshehat est hef actt haty ouwant me, It hi nkshej ustbr okeupwi t hmeaf ew mi nut esagobecauseofy ou, It ol dherI ' l l st ay awayf r om y out hatshecanhav ey ou, pl easego t ohersher eal l yl i kesy ou" Mnce: " dammi tLi saIl i key ou, okay , ev eni fIdon' t gett obewi t hy ouIwon' tgot oherbecauseIdo thav ef eel i ngsf orher , Ihav ef eel i ngsf ory ou, I wanty ou. . . . Hepul l smecl oserhol di ngmear oundmy wai st . . .Wei npubl i cbyt heway Mnce( whi sper s) : " Ineedy ou" Myhear t beatexcel er at esasourf acesar eonl y ani nchapar t Mnce( sof t l y ) : " j ustonechance, I ' l l t r eaty oul i ke t hebeaut i f ul Queeny ouar e. . . . . . al l Iwanty out o saynowi sy esbef or eIl etgoofy oui fy ousay no. . . I ' l l nev erbot hery ouagai n" Mybodyi sget t i ngt ooheav yf ormyl egs Me( whi sper s) : " I . . . I , . . Mnce: "j ustonechancepl ease" Me: " f i ne. . . . but . . Mnce: " Yeeeaaah! " Hepi cksmeupandspi nsmear ound Me( gi ggl i ng) : " putmedownmar n! " Heput smedown Mnce: " Isweary ouwon' tr egr ett hi s" Me: " butIwantust ot aket hi ngssl owokay ? " Henodsexci t edl yl i keal i t t l eboy Me: " l i kev er ysl owl yLee, asi nourf i r stdat e can' tbet hi sweekend" Hef r ownsst i l l l i keal i t t l eboymaki ngmel augh Me: " andasf orsex, y ou' l l hav et ober eal l y pat i ent" Mnce: " okaycanwenotdi scusst hi sher e, canI gi v ey ouar i dehome? " Iwasaboutt oanswerhi m whenQui nt on' scar par ksr i ghti nf r ontofus Mncedi si wasst i l l hol di ngmyhands, Imov e t hem awayf r om hi m qui ckl y Me: " I ' l l seey ouar ound" Mnce: " canIatl eastgetahugf r om mybeaut i f ul gi r l f r i end" Ohy eah. . he' smyboy f r i endnow, Idon' tknow whyt hatdi dn' tr egi st eri nmyhead Ihughi m, hegi v esmeat i ghtsqueezepi cki ng meupal i t t l e Qui nt onhoot s Wel etgoofeachot her Me: " by e" Mnce: " ki ss? " Igi v ehi mt hel ook Mnce: " f i ne. . . I ' l l cal l y oul at erneh? " InodasIgeti nt hecarandQui nt onspeeds away Me: " heyy ou" Hei gnor esme Me: " hel l oQui nt on?" Nowor df r om Qui nt on, IwonderwhatIdi dt hi s t i me Me: " y oAmbr ose" Hel ooksatmet henbackatt her oad Me: " badday ? " Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " heyLi sa" Me: " okaywhyy oubei ngsocol dt ome? " Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r yguessIhadal ongday " Me: " t el l meabouti t " Qui nt on: " y oul ookl i key ouenj oy edy ourday wi t ht hatcheeseboyofy our s. . . what ' shi s name. . mncencence? " Ibur sti nt ol aught er Me: " y ohAy i Qui ncyha. ast opi t " Hel aughs Qui nt on: " who' sQui ncy ? " Webot hl aughhar d Me: " andwho' smncencence?" Wecr ackupandl aughmor egosht hatsounds sowr ongmncencence! ! Wegett ot hehospi t al wher ewear et ol dt owai t Wesatt her el aughi ngandt al ki ngaboutsi l l y st uf fwhent hedoct ormakeshi swayt ous West andup Doc: " shewi l l ber eadyj ustnow, butt her e' sj ust onepr obl em " Mybl ooddr opsf r om t heexpr essi ononhi sf ace Qui nt on: " whati si t ? " Doc: " t hecanceri sget t i ngwor se, she' sonl yl ef t wi t happr oxi mat el yt woort hr eeweeks" Myhear tsi nks Doc: " i fy ' al l dot hesur ger y , t her e' sahi gh possi bi l i t yshemi ghtdi edur i ngsur ger yanda v er yl i t t l echancef orhert osur v i v e, ory oucan deci denott odot hesur ger ywhi chi swhatI r ecommend, t henspendasmucht i measy ou canwi t hher , maket hemostoft het i meshe' s st i l l al i v e" * si l ence* Doc: " I ' m deepl ysor r yIknowt hi si snoteasyf or y ' al l , ar et her eanyquest i onsy ou' dl i ket oask? " Qui nt onshakeshi shead Me( shakeyv oi ce) : " canwegot akeher ? " Doc: " y es, t hesamewar d" Henodsandwal ksaway , wet ur nt ol ookat eachot herwi t ht hesamesadf aci al expr essi on mymout hi sshaki ngIwantt ocr y Qui nt on: " j ustt r yt ohol dt hem i nf ornow bub, we' l l cr yl at er , l et ' sj i ustt r yst ayst r ongf or gr amsr i ghtnow" Ipushmyt ear sback Me( whi sper s) : " y eah" Hehugsmef orawhi l et henweheadt oher war d Shewasl ooki ngal l j ol l yandbeaut i f ul l i keshe hadnowor r i es Wedr ov ehomemaki ngl i ghtconv er sat i ons her eandt her e. Icookedani cewar m meal f ordi nner I ' m st i l l cooki ngwhenIf eel someonewr aphi s ar msar oundme Me: " hungr yal r eady ?" Qui nt on: " hungr yf ory ouy eah" Igi ggl east hebut t er f l i escomeback Qui nt on( si ngi ng) : " doy oumi ndi fIt al kt o y ou? . . . . . . . . . . anddoy oumi ndi fIt ouch y ou. . . t her e" hesl i deshi shanddownmyt ummyandcups mypunani , maki ngmel oosemybr eat hasI gasp Me( whi sper s) : " st op" hechuckl est henwal ksaway , If r eezef orawhi l e asmybodycool sdown Idi shedupandsett het abl e Wear enowar oundt het abl eeat i ng Qui nt oncl ear shi st hr oatwel ookathi m Qui nt on: " t her e' ssomet hi ngI ' dl ov et odo, t hat I ' v ebeenl ongi ngt odof orav er yl ongt i me" Il ookatgr amsandshehasabi gsmi l eonher f ace Qui nt on: " Li sa, i t snol i et hatIf el l i nl ov ewi t hy ou f r om t hev er yf i r stmomentIl ay edmyey eson y ou, t hi smaysoundcl i chébuty out ookmy br eat haway , f r om ourf i r stencount eratt he r est aur ant , Iknewy ouwer et heki ndofwoman I ' dl ov et ospendt her estofmyl i f ewi t h. . . . . andI don' twantt owast eany mor et i me" Heget sonhi sknee, myhear tbeat sf ast er , I ' m so ner v ous Qui nt on: " Li sakhany aMt het hwa, woul dy ou makemydr eamscomet r ueandpl easemar r y me? " Gr ams: " Yes! ! " Wel ookatherandbur sti nt ol aught er Me: " y ouhear dt hewoman, y es, y esI ' l l mar r yy ou " Hesl i dest hebeaut i f ul r i ngi nmyf i nger . . . . wai ta mi nut et hi sl ooksf ami l i ar Me: " Qui nt on!I st he?The? " Henods Me: " howdi dy ou. . . . . Ist opassoonasIr emembert hathe' s supposedt ober i ch Heget supweshar eaki sshesqueezesme t i ght Qui nt on: " Il ov ey ousomuch" Me: " Il ov ey out oo" Gr ams: " ncaaaaht hi si st hehappi estdayofmy l i f e" Thatwasmusi ct omyear s Wecar r yonhav i ngdi nnerl aughi ngand r emi ni sceonpastst or i es Myphonev i br at esi nmypocketIt akei toutand check, i t sMncedi si , Ir epl ywi t hat ext " I ' l l cal l y oul at er " Iputi taway , Il ookatQui nt onwhogav emeone di sappoi nt edl ookt hencar r i edoneat i ng Gr ams: " usakhumbul akodwaLi sa? " ( doy oust i l l r ememberLi sa? ) Il augh Me: " y eahwor stdayofmyl i f e" Qui nt onwasn' thi msel fany mor enowhi sl aughs wer ej ustpur epr et ence Qui nt on: " pl easeexcuseme" Me: " wher ey ougoi ngbabe? " Qui nt on: " Ij ustr emember edIhav et oget somet hi ngi nt heof f i ce" Ican' tbel i ev ehe' sgoi ngt oEnhl er i ghtnow! Ar gh! Gr ams: " y ohusebenzanzi maumkhweny ana" ( har dwor ki nghusbandy ouhav e) . . . . . i sLi samaki ngt her i ghtchoi ces? ? ? ? ? ?what woul dy oudoi fy ouwer eher ? [ 07/ 28, 16: 56]W: I nser t16 LI SA I ' m wokenbymyphoner i ngi ng It osst ur nandgr oanbef or est r et chi ngmyhand al l ov ert hebedsear chi ngf ori t , IguessQui nt on di dn' tcomebacksi ncehel ef tl astni ght , I ' m si ck wor r i edabouthi m, wher ei she, howdi dhe sl eep, i sheokay , i shesaf e, whoi shewi t h, wher e di dhego, whydi dhej ustl eav el i ket hat , i she madatme, di dIdosomet hi ngt hatmadeangr y ? OhGodIhopehe' si nonepeacewher ev erhei s. Goty ou!Iputi tonmyear Me: " mmhm? " Sor r ydi dIwakey ouupbeaut i f ul ? " Me: " heey yLee, noact ual l yI ' m sur eIwasabout t owakeupany way " Mnce( chuckl es) : " doy ouknowwhatt i mei ti s? " Me: " mmmmhei ght ?Ni ne? " Hel aughsal i t t l e Mnce: " i t squar t ert oone" Il azi l ygetupt osi tonmybut t Me: " ohno!Iov er sl ept" Mnce: " ngeny ei nhl oboy ent ombi el al akude kubet hel amaxesh! !Ay i ay i makuv ukwet shi ni " Ibur sti nt ol aught er Me: " y ousoundl i kemygr andmot herr i ghtnow" Mnce: " Ei sht hatcan' tbegood. . . . uhm babycel a uv ukengokust handwaSam sekusi l e" Ohmyhi sdeepl owv oi cei st odi ef or Me: " mmht hat ' smor el i kei t " Wel augh Mnce: " beaut i f ul , Ineedt oseey ou" Me: " I ' dl i ket oseey out oo, butt odayI ' mj ustnot f eel i ngwel l " Mnce: " what ' swr ong?Doy ouneedt hedoct or ?I cant akey oui fi t sser i ous" Me: " No, i t snot hi ngser i ous, j ustaheadacheI ' m sur ei t sbecauseofsl eepi ngt oomuch" Mnce: " doy ouhav eot herpl anst oday ? " Me: " t oni ght , y esbutdur i ngt heday , No" Mnce: " t hengety oursexyassup, t hencl eani t up, sot hatIcomeandpi cki tup" Ibur sti nt ol aught er , ohmy !It hi nkImi ghtj ust l i ket hi sguy Me: " YesSi r ! . . . j ustonequest i on" Mnce: " I ' m nott el l i ngwher eI ' mt aki ngy ou. . . . but ei t hert hant hataskawaybeaut i f ul " Me: " ohcomeon, y ouknowt hat ' sexact l ywhatI want edt oask" Mnce: " t henI ' m sor r yIcan' tt el l mi al ma" Me: " whatwast hat ? " Mnce: " waswhat ? " Me: " mi somet hi ng. . . . t hel astpar t " Mnce: " t hel astpar tofwhat ? " Me: " Ar ghmncedi si y ouknowwhatI ' mt al ki ng about " Mnce: " y ou' v et ot al l yl ostmenowbabe" Me: " mhmhmhnx aar ghhhnev ermi nd" Mnce: " y ouseem f ust r at ed, what ' st hemat t er ? " Me: " got oheav en! " Mnce( l aughi ng) : " wowsosoon?ButIj ustmet y ou" Me: " shutupLee" Mnce: " makemeLee" Me: " y oucan' tcal l meLee, y ouLee" Mnce: " buty ouLi sashor tf orLee" Me: " andy oul i am shor tf orLee" Mnce: " Iguesst hi swasdest i ny . .Mat chmadei n heav en" Me( bl ushi ng) : " don' tsweett al kme, I ' m st i l l f r ust r at ed" Mnce: " whenl astdi dy ouhav esex? " Il augh Me: " I ' m notsexual l yf r ust r at edLi am Mncedi si . . . . . . uhm Sur name! " Hebur st si nt ol aught erIf i ndmy sel fl aughi ngat mycl umsymout h Mnce( l aughi ng) : " Sur name?Real l y ?" Me( l aughi ng) : " y ounev ert ol dmey ourl astname nj e" Mnce: " y ousocut e, y ouknowt hat " Me: " cat sar ecut eLi am, t eddybear sar e cut e, babi esar ecut e" Hel aughs Mnce: " okayy ousoador abl e" Me: " t hat ' soneandt hesamet hi ng" Wel augh Me: " by e, y ouf i ni shi ngmyai r t i me" Mnce: " l astt i meIcheckedI ' mt heonewho cal l ed? " Me: " ohy ah, wel l y ouf i ni shi ngy ourai r t i me" Mnce: " ncwaaaahl ookaty oucar i ngaboutmy ai r t i me" Me: " ohboi Icanal r eadyi magi net hatgoogl y f acey oumaki ng" Hel aughs Mnce: " l ookaty oual r eadyget t i ngt oknowme" Me: " weeehay i ul i gezaby e" ( y oucr azy ) Mnce: " l ookaty oual r eadyf i gur i ngoutmy per sonal i t y" Me: " l ookatmeaboutt ohangup! " Hel aughoutl oud Mnce: " seey oui naf ewmi nut esMi Al ma" Me: " t her ei ti s!t hatwor dagai nwhatdoesi t mean! ? " . . . Me: " hel l o? " . . . Me: " Lee?Youst i l l t her e? " Icheckmyphone, wowt hati di otdr oppedt he cal l , mxm I ' m sogoi ngt ogethi m, Iknowaf ew l anguagest ooy ouknow, f ori nst ance, l i ke. . . . . wel l l i ket heonesI ' l l googl ebef or ehecomesLOL WowIf eel l i kemymoodhasbeenpumped f r om zer ot oher o Igetupal l exci t edev enhummi ng, cl eanour r oom, If r eshenup, nowI ' ml ooki ngf orani ce sunnydayoutout f i t , Ideci det owearmyshor t Pi nkf l or al pr i ntof fshoul derl ongsl eev ehi gh wai str omper , i t sshowsj ustaboutenoughski n myshoul der sandchestandmybeaut i f ul l egs andt hi ghs, Iputonmywhi t est r appy sandal s, t i edmyl onghai ri nt oamessybun, f i xed myf ace, t henf i ni shedof fwi t hdeepr osepl um mat tl i pst i ck. It akeagoodl ookatmysel f , ImustsayIl ook f l ames, Igabmysmal l handbagt henheadout t her oom, If i ndgr amsi nt hesi t t i ngr oom Me: " goodaf t er noongr ams" Isi tont hesi ngl ecouchwhi l eshewasr est i ng ont hebi ggercouch Gr ams: " Mol onana, eehwav el ewav ukasomhl e kangakakuy i waphi ? " ( y ouj ustwokeupandy ou al r eadyl ooki ngt hi spr et t y , wher ey ouof ft o? ) Me: " naweuy abonanj eukbai f r i dgei sempt yI wantt odoal i t t l eshoppi ng" Gr ams: " uny ani si l ekekwel ocal a( y ougott hat par tr i ght )t hef r i dgeandcupboar dsar e empt y . . . . ugqi bel eebuy i l eumkhweny ana? ( di d hubbycomebackl astni ght ? ) Me: " y eahhecamebackv er yl at et henwentt o wor kear l y " Gr ams: " mmmh. . . . wheny oucomebackwe needt ot al k" Yooohht hi sdoesn' tsoundgood Me: " soundsser i ous? " Gr ams: " i t sv er yser i ousandy ouwon' tl i kei t " Me: " mmhpl easej ustt el l menow" Gr ams: " NoIdon' twantt or ui ny ourgood mood, godot hatshoppi ng, buymesomet hi ng ni cet oo" Me( smi l i ng) : " ofcause, howcanInot " Myphoner i ngs Me: " hel l o" Mnce: " I ' m byt hegat e. . . shoul dIcomei n? " Me: " No, I ' l l ber i ghtt her e" Idr opt hecal l Me: " t heuberi sher e, l etmegetgoi ng, Ishoul d bebackbef or eorj ustaf t ersi x" Ipeckherf or eheadt heheadout , hewas l eani ngagai nsthi scarf aci ngt hegat e, hegr i ns ashi sey esmeetmi ne, Ist andi nf r ontofhi m he pul l smei nf orahug, hi sCol ognef i l l meup maki ngmeweakt ot heknees Mnce: " y oul ooksohotr i ghtnow" Me: " y ounotsobady our sel f " Mnce: " It r y " Tr y ! ! ! ?Thi sdudel ooksl i keami l l i ondol l ary ou canj ustsmel l t hemoneyonhi m, he' sdr essed i nawhi t eshi r twi t ht hecr anebi r dsal l ov er , I not i cehehasat at ooonhi schestpr obabl yhi s whol echestbutIcanonl yseeal i t t l ebi tofi tas onl yt wobut t onsar eunbut t oned, r edshor t s whi chhol dhi m per f ect l ynott oot i ght , Ican' t hel pbutnot i cet hebi gbumpwher et heguyi n bet weenhi sl egst ay sLOL* wi nkwi nk*and whi t eai rJor dan. Wear enowi nt hecar , he' spl ay i ngbor i ng musi c, r ap Me: " l et ' sswi t chof ft her adi o" Hechuckl es Mnce: " guessi ngr api snoty ourt hi ng" Me: " notr eal l y" Mnce: " menei t her" Il augh Me: " t henwhyy oupl ay i ngi t ? " Mnce: " It houghty ou' df i ndmecool i fIpl ayt hi s ki ndofmusi c" Me: " aawwy ouwer et r y i ngt oi mpr essme? " hechuckl es, nodst hensmi l esshy l ywhi l e concent r at i ngont her oad Damn!I swhatIt houghtaboutt hi sguywhenI f i r stsawhi m andhonest l yI ' m st i l l say i ngi t . . . . Damn! Me: " pl easedon' tst r essy our sel faboutt r y i ngt o i mpr essmeLee, j ustbey our sel fandi nt r oduce mei nt oy ourwor l dwher ey ouar ebei ngy ou, f ocusonkeepi ngmesmi l i ngandhappyandI ' l l dot hesame, asl ongaswemakeeachot her comf or t abl eonbei ngour sel v esar oundeach ot her , j ustgi v emey our l ov e, t r ust , honest y , communi cat i on, company , andl oy al t y , wi t ht hosesi xt hi ngs, I ' l l bet hemost i mpr essedgi r l i nt hewor l d" Mnce: " not edMi Al ma" Het akesmyhandandpl acesi tonhi scol dl i ps f orawhi l e Het akesmet osomebeaut i f ul par kwehada pi cni c, i twassoamazi ngIf el tl i keIwasi na r omant i cmov i e, wehadsomucht ot al k about , wel aughedal mostt heent i r et i mewe ev enpl ay edf oodf i ghtwi t hgr apest hough, I ' v e nev erf el tt hi shappyi nal ongt i me, If or gotal l mypr obl ems. Iaskedhi mt ot akemet ot hemal l wear enow doi ngsomegr ocer yshoppi ng Me: " NoManwedon' tneedt hat " Mnce: " comeonhowdoy oul i v ewi t hout or eos. . . . t heysooodel i ci ouswi t hmi l k, t r ustmeI makesur eev er y dayi nmi dni ghtIwakeupf or t hem" He' ssochi l di sh. . . . .Justl i keQui n. . . ar ghwhyam Iev encompar i ngt hem Me: " okayt heydel i ci ousnowputt hem back" Hei gnor esmehekeptt hr owi ngi nal otofj unk andt hi ngsIdi dn' tneed, Il ethi m beI ' l l j ustl eav e t hem byt het i l l Wegott ot het i l l Ij ustt ookt hest uf fIneeded f r om t het r ol l eyandl ef tal l hi sj unkhewas t hr owi ngi n, hedi dn' tcompl ai nhej ustgav eme an' y ousoev i l ' l ook Ipai df ormyt hi ngsandhepai df orhi sj unk. I t snowar oundsev enhei spar kedbyt hegat e Me: " t hi swasoneoft hebestday sofmy l i f e. . . t hanky ou" Mnce: " Iwi shwecoul dr epeati t " Me: " met oo" West ar eateachot her Mnce: " y oubeaut i f ul khany a" Me: " y ouhandsomeLi am" hesmi ks Hebr i ngshi sf acecl oset omi neImeethi m hal f wayandweki ss, f oragoodf i v emi nut es Me: " goodni ghtLee" Mnce: " goodni ghtMi Al ma" Gr eatIf or gott ogoogl eaf ewwor dst oconf use hi m wi t h, Ei shnextt i me Iwal koutandheopenst hedoorf orme Me: " Icangetusedt ot hi s" Hel aughs Mnce: " Ishoul dhel py ouwi t ht hepl ast i cbags" Igl anceatt hehouseandQui nt on' scari s par kedout si de Me: " uhm I ' l l manage" Mnce: " nonsense, t her e' sl i ket went ybagsher e, I shoul dn' tev enaskt ohel py ou" Heopenst hebootandwet akesomepl ast i cs Ei shwhatwi l l Ii nt r oducehi mt ogr amsas? Wef i r stpackedt hepl ast i cbagsi nf r ontoft he doorhewentt of et chmor e Me: " heybutt hesear ey ourpl ast i cs" Mnce: " wel l Ij ustr eal i zedIal r eadyhav eal l t hese t hi ngssocany oupl easehav et hem i nst ead? " Me: " y ouwer ebuy i ngt hem f ormei nt hef i r st pl acer i ght ? " Mnce: " okayy oucaughtme" Wel aughasIopent hedoor Myey esmeethi sasIopent hedoor Mncedi si hel psmewi t ht hepl ast i csi nsi de Me: " heyQ" Henods, okay ?Iguessgr amsi si nherr oom" Mncedi si : " supman" Hei gnor eshi m andj ustgi v eshi m anast yl ook Het ur nst ol ookatme Mnce: " I ' dhel py ouunpackofy ouwant ? " Me( gi ggl i ng) : " t i mesupLee" " Ngubanowo? "( Who' st hat ? ) Weal l t ur nt ol ookather Me: " ohgr ams, t hi si s, i smyuberdr i v er " Il ookatmncedi si whowasabi tconf usedbut r et ur nednor mal oncehel ookedatmef ora whi l e Mnce: " y es, uhm Iwasj usthel pi ngmam wi t hher pl ast i cbags" Gr ams: " oohokay , ungwaphi wenany ana? " ( Wher ey ouf r om son? ) Me: " y oohmakhul u, hehasot hercl i ent shehas t or ushf or " IsayasIl eadhi m out , Icl oset hedooraswe out si de, wenowbyt hegat e Me: " I ' m sor r yaboutt hatI . . . . " Mnce: " Iunder st and, y ounotr eadyt oi nt r oduce met oy ourgr ams, i t sokay " Me: " y ouunder st and?" Henods Mnce: " y oucant akeasmucht i measy ou want , r emember , Iagr eedi nt aki ngt hi ngssl ow" Isi ghi nr el i ef Me: " t hanks" Hepul l smei nt ohi sst r ongbuf far msIhav et o t i pt oesot hatwecanbeont hesamel ev el , he ki ssesmyf or ehead Mnce: " we' l l chatal l ni ghtr i ght ? " Me: " y oubet" Weshar eonel astdeepki ssbef or ehel eav es. Icl oset hegat et hent ur nt owar dst hehouse onl yt onot i ceQui nt oni nf r ontoft hehouse smoki ng, hest ar t l edme Iwal kt owar dshi mt henpasthi m, Iwasaboutt o opent hedoor " Ni cecarhegot " Ist opandt ur nt ol ookathi m Me: " y eah, i t sni ce" Qui nt on: " soy ' al l dat i ngnow? " Me: " y eah, ki ndof " Qui nt on: " ki ndof ? " Me: " wear e" Hepuf f soutsmoke Qui nt on: " y oul i kehi m? " Me: . . . . Hel ooksatme Inod Me: " y es, Il i kehi m" Qui nt on: " al ot ? " Me: " Iguessso" Qui nt on: " y oul ov ehi m? " Me: . . . . . . Hel ooksatmeagai n Wegazei nt oeachot her sey es Me: " I . .I t sst i l l t ooear l yt ot el l " Qui nt on: " y ouhappy ? " Inod Me: " y eah" Qui nt on: " hemakesy ouhappy ? " Idon' tknowwhymychesti ssopai nf ul l i kemy hear ti ssuf f ocat i ng Me: " y es, hemakesmehappy " Thatcameoutasawhi sper Hef l eckshi sci gar et t eandsquashesi twi t hhi s shoe Hecomescl osert ome Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " t heni fhemakesy ou happy . . . . I ' m happy " Hepecksmyl i pssl owl y , If eel mybodygoi ng t hr oughal l ki ndsofexot i cf eel i ngs Qui nt on: " y oumi ghtwannaputony ourr i ng bef or egoi ngi nsi de" Hel eav esmest andi ngt her edumf ounded, It ake i toutf r om mysmal l handbagandsl i dei ti n. . . . . I guesswenotgoi ngt ot hatdi nnerwi t hEnhl e t oday . . . . . . . . Af t erunpacki ngt hegr ocer i esIheadt o gr andma' sr oom shei ssi t t i ngupi nsi deher cov er s, Isi tatt heedgeoft hebed Me: " di dy oudr i nky ourpi l l s? " Gr ams: " ewe( y es) " Me: " whati si ty ouwant edt ot al kabout ? " Gr ams: " y oucan' tmar r yQui nt on" Myhear tski psal otofbeat s Me: " whynot ? " Gr ams: " t heJohnsonf ami l ycal l edme, t heyt ol d me, whenIsi gnedt heempl oy mentcont r act t her ewasanagr eementi ni tt hat , Iwoul dgi v e t hem oneofmygr anddaught er ' si nt hef ut ur et o mar r yoneoft hef ut ur egr andson' s. . . . . att hat t i meIneededaj ob, andIwasal sonott hat educat edsoIsi gnedany t hi ngt heymademe si gn, I ' m sor r ybaby , atf i r stwhenIt ol dt hem I can' tal l owt hatt ohappen, t heyl etmebe, t hat ' s whyIal l owedy out omar r yt heper sony ou l ov e, butnow, t heysayt hei rsoni sbackf r om ov er seas, andheneedsawi f eassoonas possi bl e, t heyt hr eat enedmeLi sa. . . * cr y i ng* . . I ' m sor r ymnt anam" If eel war ml i qui dr unni ngdownmycheeks Me: " wow. . sonowI ' mf or cedt omar r yhi m, ev en i fIdon' twantt o. . . Ihav enosay " Gr ams( cr y i ng) : " i t sal l myf aul t " Igeti nsi det hecov er swi t hherandwehugeach ot her Me: " no. . . i t snoty ourf aul t , i t ' sokaygr ams, I ' l l br eakupwi t hQui nt onandmar r yt ot hi s est r angedf ami l y. . . . pl easedon' tcr y makhul u, y ousai dsoy our sel f , t hi st ooshal l pass" I ' mt r y i ngt obeascal m asIcanaboutt hi sf or t hesakeofmygr ams Icomf or thert i l l shef al l sasl eep, It uckheri n ki sshert henheadt obed If i ndQui nt onpr essi nghi sphone, Ichangei nt o PJst hengeti nt hecov er s It ur nmybackonhi m, bef or eIknowi t , Ican' t hol dt hem i nany mor e Ibur stouti nt oal oudcr y , If eel Qui nt onqui ckl y get t i ngupandl i f t smet osi tup, Icr yonhi s chest , Ican' tt akei tany mor et hi si sj ustt oo muchf oroneper son, I ' m of f i ci al l ybr oken, i nt oa zi l l i onpeaces Qui nt on: " t al kt omebub" Igetof fhi schestIev enhav ehi ccupsf r om cr y i ng, mynosei sr unni ngt oo Qui nt on: " comeher e" Hepat shi sl ap, Isi tonhi sl ap, het akesof fhi s v est Qui nt on: " bl ow" Hemakesmebl owmynoseonhi sv estwhi ch i ssodi sgust i ngbutt hat ' st hel eastofmy wor r i es Me: " i t sov erQui nt on" Hel ooksconf used Me: " t hewhol epr et endi ngt hi ngy , i t sal l ov er , we don' thav et opr et endany mor e" Qui nt on: " what ! ?Sheknowst het r ut h? " Ishakemyhead Me: " No!Ihav enochoi ce, Ihav et oget mar r i ed, whet herIl i kei tornotIhav et omar r y i nt ot heJohnsonf ami l y !" Hedoesn' taskanyf ur t herquest i onshepul l s mei nt ohi sembr ace Me: " t her egoesmydr eams, t her egoesmy i ndependence, t her egoesmyf r eedom, t her e goesmyy out h! ! . . . . aahhh" Qui nt on: " shhhhhI ' m sor r ybabe, pl easecal m down" Me( cr y i ng) : " Ican' t ! !I ' m hur t i ng! !I t st oopai nf ul Qui nt on!Mygr andmai sdy i ngandI ' m bei ng t hr ownt ot hewol v es. . . I ' l l nev ergett of al l i n l ov e. . . . I ' m cur sed!Act ual l yI ' m acur se! " Qui nt on( cr y i ng) : " don' tsayt hat . . . . ohgod, doy ou wanti cecr eam? " Hedoesn' tknowwhatt osay , he' spani cki ngand l ooksashur tasIam Me: " No, Iwantt odi et oo, I ' mt i r edofpeopl e dy i ngl eav i ngmet osuf f er , Iwantt odi et oo" Qui nt on: " No. . noy oucan' tdi e, t henI ' l l suf f er " Me: " why ?Whywoul dy ousuf f er , y ouhav ey our per f ectf ami l y , beaut i f ul r i chgi r l f r i end, y oudon' t needme, I ' mj ustabur dent oy ou, I ' v eal way s beenev ersi nceIgot . . . . . . Nextt hi ngIknowhi sl i pssmashesi nt omi ne, hepul l sout Qui nt on: " because, Il ov ey ouLi sa. . . . I ' dsuf f er becauseIl ov ey ousodamnmuch! " Tear swer er unni ngdownhi sf ace Qui nt on: " I ' v enev erl ov edany onel i ket hewayI l ov ey ou" I si tj ustmeorhashebeenr epeat edl ysay i nghe l ov esmeal l Ionesent ence Me: " whynow?Whyy ouonl yt el l i ngmet hi s now? " Qui nt on: " t her e' st oomanyr easons, somey ou notr eadyt oknow. . . . butt her e' smanyt i mes wher eIwi shedt ot el l y ouLi sa" Me: " y oucoul d' v ej ustt ol dme!Wecoul d' v egot somucht i met obet oget her , bef or et hi swhol e mar r i aget hi ng, al t houghwewoul d' v ebeen br okenbutatl eastwewoul d' v eshar edsome r omance, nowi t st ool at e, i t st ool at e" Hesl i desi nt hebedsl eepi ngonhi m back, I sl eepont opofhi m Qui nt on: " , may bewewer ej ustnev ermeantt o bet oget herLi sa, may bet her e' smor et ousnot bei ngabl et obet oget hert hant hi s" Me: " butIl ov ey ouQui nt on, Il ov ey ouwi t hal l my hear t , I ' v enev erhadt hi smuchconnect i onwi t h any one, wel ov eeachot her , i sourl ov enot st r ongenought of i ghtagai nstal l odds? " Qui nt on: " Iwi shIcoul danswery oumyl ov e" Wecar r i edoncr y i ngi nsi l ence, Icanf eel ev er y par tofhi sbodyonmi ne Chestt ochest , t ummyt ot ummypel v i ct o pel v i c, ourhear t sar ebeat i ngt ot hesame r hy t hm, Ican' tbel i ev emi nei sst i l l beat i ng. . . .Al l t hef or ei gnf eel i ngscomeback, If eel hi scr ot ch get t i nghar der , Ipr essmyt hi ghst oget herasI f eel ar eal l ywar mi t chdownt her e, Hef l i pped meov erandpl easur edhi msel fal l ov ermy body , ki ssi ngev er ypar tofi t , ki ssi ng, l i cki ng, t ouchi ngandsucki ng, att hi smomentI f eel l i keI ' mi npar adi se, i nourownwor l dj ust t het woofus, hei saboutt ot hr ustbutst ops andl ooksmei nt heey esi nt ensel y , t hel i ght s ar eon, Iwantt oseeev er yemot i onhef eel s Me( whi sper s) : " Makel ov et omeQ" Wi t ht hatsai dhet hr ust si ngent l ybutmy moansshoutot her wi se t hi si spr obabl yt hel astt i meIgett oexper i ence Lov e . . . . . . Aswewai tf ort het ur nofev ent s ♥ [ 07/ 28, 16: 57]W: I nser t17 LI SA I ' v ebeenupf orqui t eawhi l enow, andIcan' t t akemyey esof fhi m, he' ssl eepi ngso peacef ul l y , If eel r el i ev edf r om wat chi nghi m sl eep, hel ookssoi nnocentandcut e, Ican senset hecomf or tonhi sf aceandsmi l e, he openshi smout habi tt hensnor t s, Ican' tseem t ot akemyey esof fhi m, he' ssor el axedand i nnocent , Iwi shIcoul ddot hi smywhol el i f e j ustwat chhi m sl eep. . . af r ownf or msonhi s f ace, may behe' shav i ngabaddr eam Qui nt on( sl eepy ) : " pl ease. . . . Hekeepsqui et Qui nt on: " don' t . . . . .Don' tdoi t . . . . . . pl ease. . .y ou hur t i ngher Hi sst ar t i ngt osweatsoIshakehi m Me: "Qui nt on. .Wakeup" Qui nt on: " pl ease. . don' t . . . . .Don' tdot hi s. . . No Me: "Qui nt on!Wakeup! " hewasmov i ngar oundandsweat i ngIt hi nkhe' s cr y i ng Qui nt on: " You. . ki l l edher . . . . Nooo! . . Ishakehi m har derheopenshi sey eswi de l ooksatmef orawhi l et hensi t sup Qui nt on: " ar ey ouokay ? " Me: " I ' mf i ne" Qui nt on: "y ouhur t ? " Ishakemyhead Me: " No, I ' mf i ne, j ustadr eam" Qui nt on: " I ' dnev erl etany t hi ngorany onehur t y ou, y ouknowt hatr i ght ? " Me: " IknowQui nt on, i ny ourdr eam, was someonehur t i ngme? " Hel ooksatmet hennods Qui nt on: " butI ' dnev erl etsomeonehur ty oul i ke t hatLi sa" Imov ecl oseandcomf or thi mi nmychest Me: " Iknowy ouwoul dnev er , i twasj ustadr eam" Qui nt on: " pr ot ect i ngy oui st heonl yt hi ngI ' v e ev erdone, t heonl yt hi ngI ' l l ev erdo, I ' dnev erev er hur ty ouspeci al l yphy si cal l yl etal oneany one el sehur ty ou" Me: " whowashur t i ngme? " Qui nt on: " Idi dn' tseet hef ace. . . don' twor r yi t wasj ustadr eam. . r i ght ? " Me: " y eah" heki ssesmyf or ehead Heget sof ft hebed Qui nt on: " okay , l etmegomakeusbr eakf ast " Me: " wenanana! " Hel aughsandput sonhi sbr i ef sbef or eheadi ng out It akemyphone. . .Ther e' saf ewt extf r om Li am andt womi ssedcal l s Ical l hi m hepi cksupal mosti mmedi at el y Lee: " hel l o" Ishoul dbr eakupwi t hLi am, myl i f ei st oo compl i cat ed Me: " heyy ou, howar ey ou" Hesi ghs Lee: " Li saIknowt haty ouwantust ot aket hi ngs sl owandy oupr obabl ynotsur ewhet hery ou l ov emey et , butt hel easty oucandoi st r ygi v e mej ustal i l bi tofy ourat t ent i on" Me: " I ' m sosor r ymncedi si , Ij usthadal otgoi ng onl astni ght " Lee: " y oucoul d' v eatl eastt ext edgoodni ghtor ' I ' m busy ' " Me: " If eel l i kesuchaj er kr i ghtnow, pl ease f or gi v eme" Lee: " nowhowcanInotf or gi v eabeaut yl i ke y our sel f " Me: " y ou' r eagodsent " Lee: " sentt oy ou" Me: " y eah" Hesi ghsheav i l y Me: " what ' st hemat t er ? " Lee: " may beweshoul dn' tgoanyf ur t herLi sa, I t hi nkweshoul dbr eakup" Me: " wh. . what ?Why ?Isai dI ' m sor r ynj e. . . Iwon' t doi tagai n" Lee: " i t snott hat . . . . . r ememberwhatIt ol dy ou about , t hatIhav et ot akeov ert hef ami l y busi nesssoon" Me: " y eah" Lee: "I . .I ' mf or cedt odosomet hi ngIdon' twant t oandt hi swi l l def i ni t el ybr eakusup" Me: " Idon' tev enwannaask. . . . I ' m al sof or cedt o dosomet hi ngIdon' twantt odo, Ial sot hi nki t woul dbebesti fwebr okeup" Ihearhi m sni f f Lee: " Ir eal l yhat ebei ngf r om ar i chf ami l y " Me: " Iwi shIwasf r om ar i chf ami l y , may beal l t hi swoul dn' tbehappeni ng" Lee: " I ' m sor r yt hatwecan' tbet oget her , Idon' t wantt ohur ty ou" Me: " Iwi sht hi ngscoul d' v ebeendi f f er ent" Lee: " Iknowi twasashor tper i odoft i mebut Li saIr eal l yl ov ey ou" Me: . . . . . . Lee: " sor r ybuti t st het r ut h, Il ov ey ouandt her e' s not hi ngIcandoabouti t " Me: " uhm. . . Whenwi l l t hi send, t hehear t br eak? Lee: " Ihopewecanst i l l bef r i endst hough" Idon' tt hi nkIcanhandl eany mor ef r i ends Me: " Iwi shwedi dn' thav et hi sconv oov ert he phone" Lee: " Iwantt ohol dy ou" Me: " t of eel y ou" Lee: " t oki ssy ou" Me: " l et ' smeet " Lee: " wecan' t . . . .I ' m headedt oP. Er i ghtnow" Me: " r i ghtnow? " Lee: " y eah. . . I ' l l seey ouwhenIgetback" Me: " when? " Lee: " Idon' tknow" " Andbr eakf asti sser v ed" Me: " IguessI ' l l seey out hen, by e" Lee: " by ebeaut i f ul " Ihangup Qui nt on: " wast haty ourboy f r i end? " Isi gh Me: " exboy f r i end" Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r yt oheart hat " Hecoul dn' thi det hespar ki nhi sey es Me: " ohpl ease, Iknowy ouwannacel ebr at e" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " nott r ue, buti ft hat ' swhaty ouwant " Me: " shutupandf eedme" Weeatwi t hhi mf eedi ngme Me: " ha. ast opi tman! " Hekeepsmi ssi ngmymout h Qui nt on: " y ourmout hi ssot i nybabe, Ican' tsee i t " Me: " mymout hi snott hatt i ny , andst opeat i ng myf ooduy aphanga" Qui nt on: " ndy axol i saket hambol am l e pol ony " ( I ' m sor r ymypol onybone) Ibur sti nt ol aught er . . ev ent houghIdon' twant t ol aughheal way smakesmel augh Me: " pol ony ?Real l ynow" Qui nt on: " y eapmypol onybone" Me( l aughi ng) : " y oucr azy " Qui nt on: " y oudr i v emecr az y " Igi ggl eandwecar r yoneat i ng Me: " Qui nt on?" Qui nt on: " y esbub" Me: " wher ewer ey ouy est er day ?Andt heni ght bef or e? " Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " Iwentt oEnhl e" Thatst ung Me: " oh, wel l Iwasj ustwor r i edabouty ou, y ou di dn' tt el l me" Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r y , myni ghtdi dn' tgov er ywel l act ual l y " Me: " whathappened?" Qui nt on: " Iguessaf t erIpr oposedt oy ou, t hat whol escene, mademer eal i set hat , Iwasn' t pr et endi ngany mor e, ev er y t hi ngt hatwe' v ebeen doi ngsay i ngwepr et endi ng, Iwasn' t , Inev er pr et endedasi ngl et hi ng, al l t het hi ngsIsai dt o y ourgr ams, t het i mesI ' dsayIl ov ey ou, t he r andom ki ssesi nt heki t chen, Idi dal l t hose t hi ngswhol ehear t edl y , I ' v enev erbeent hat happyi nmywhol el i f e, ev er yt i meI ' m wi t hy ou I ' m happy , If eel t heneedt opr ot ecty ou, when y ouwi t hsomeot herguyIf eel j eal ous, t hatni ght mypl anwast ogoandBr eakt hi ngsof fwi t hher causeIr eal i sedI ' m notr eadyf oraser i ous r el at i onshi p, Idi dn' tcal l herort el l herI ' m comi ng, andguesswhat ? " Hechuckl es Me: " what ! ? " Qui nt on: " Ibust edhercheat i ng" Igasp Me: " whoa. . . t hat ' sbad. . Qui nt on: " y ouwon' tbel i ev ewi t hwhom? " Me: " who? " Qui nt on: " Br andon" Idi dnotexpectt hat Me: " Br andon?Yourbestf r i endBr andon?" Henodsandchuckl es Qui nt on: " bestf r i end?Yeahr i ght " Me: " somuchbet r ay al " Qui nt on: " Ir eal l yt houghtshewasdi f f er ent somehowandj ustmay besher eal l yl ov edme l i keshesai dshedi d" Me: " I ' m sor r yQ" Hesmi l es Qui nt on: " Iguessy out heonl yper sonI ' l l ev er t r usti nt hi swor l d" Me: " andy ourf ami l y " Qui nt on: " Idon' tknow, i fmydadcoul ddot hat t ohi sownf ami l y , Idon' tknowi fIcanf ul l yt r ust f ami l y " Me: " y ounev ergott of i ni sht hest or yabouty our dad" Qui nt on: " nott oday , t odayIwantust ohav e f un, bef or et heyt akey ouawayf r om me" Me: " Ican' thel pbutf eel l i kecr y i ng" Hehol dsmyhands Qui nt on: " don' twor r y , y ouwon' tl astl ong t her e. . . I ' l l comef ory ou" Me: " how? " Qui nt on: " I ' l l f i ndaway " Me: " soon? " Qui nt on: " y eah, soon" Me: " t henwecanbet oget her " Henods Qui nt on: " f or ev er " Me: " y oupr omi se" Qui nt on: " Ipr omi se" Wewer esi t t i ngatt heedgeoft hebed, hemade mest andt osi tonhi sl ap Me: " l et ' sr unaway . . . we' l l gof arf arawayand st ar tanewl i f et her e" Qui nt on: " whataboutschool ? " Me: " I ' l l qui tandgetaj ob, l ot sofpeopl ecan makeal i v i ngwi t houteducat i on, atl eatIgot mat r i c" hej ustsmi l esl ooki ngatme Me: " IknowI ' m bei ngnai v e. .butIj ustwi sht o getawayf r om al l oft hi s" Qui nt on: " Il ov ey oubub" Me: " Il ov ey oumor e" Hepr esseshi swar m sof tl i psonmi nebutnot ki ssi ngme, west ayl i ket hatf orsomet i me, i t s l i kehewaspour i nghi shear toutt omewi t hout Usi ngwor dsj usthi shear tbeatandbr eat hi ng sai di tal l Qui nt on: " bef or ey ougoi wanty out oknowt he t r ut haboutme" Me: " t hat ' ssoscar y " Qui nt on: " pl easedon' tf r eakout " Me: " mmhIdon' tknow. . . " Qui nt on: " ev er y t i me. . . . Me: "ev er yt i mewhat ? " Hesi ghsheav i l y He' sr eal l ycr eepi ngmeout Qui nt on: " ev er yt i meIpoop, i tr emi ndsmeof y ou" Me: " ar gh. . . . si ckman! " Ipunchhi mr epeat edl yont hechest Qui nt on( l aughi ng) ; " I ' mj oki ng. . geezcan' ty ou t akeaj oke" Me: " t hat ' snotani cej oke" He' sl aughi ngsohar dr i ghtnow, Ij ustf ol dmy ar m andl ookathi m Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " I ' m sor r ybub, i twasj usta j oke" Me: " andy ousayIhav el amej okes" Hecal msdownandl ooksatmewi t ht hat st upi dgr i nonhi sf ace Qui nt on: " I ' m waybet t ert hany ou" Me: " y oudi dn' tseemel aughi ngnowdi dy ou? " Qui nt on: " t hat ' sbecausei twasar oast " Me: " Icanr oastt oo" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " okay , l et ' sheary out r y " Me: " uhmm. . y ousof at . . . y oucoul dsel l shade. . ooooohhhhh" Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " butI ' m notf at " Me: " comeonIt houghtwewer er oast i ngeach ot her " Qui nt on: " okay , soi t sl i ket hat . . . . wel l . . . I ’ m sor r y , wasImeantt obeof f ended?Theonl yt hi ng of f endi ngmei sy ourf ace" Hel aughs Me( gasps) : " Jesusl ov esy ou…butev er y oneel se t hi nksy ou’ r eanasshol e" Qui nt on: " Idon’ tknowwhatmakesy ousost upi d, buti tr eal l ywor ks" Me: " I ’ m sor r yIdi dn’ tgett hat–Idon’ tspeak i di ot " Qui nt on: " I t ’ sbet t ert ol etsomeonet hi nky ou’ r e st upi dt hanopeny ourmout handpr ov ei t " Me: " I tl ooksl i key ourf acecaughtf i r eand someonet r i edt oputi toutwi t hahammer " Hel aughsIhopehe' sr unni ngoutcauseIam Qui nt on: " I fIhadaf acel i key our sI ’ dsuemy par ent s" Me( gasps) : " ar ey ousay i ngI ' m ugl y ? " Qui nt on: " gi v eup? " Me: " mx m Theonl ywayy ou’ l l ev ergetl ai di si f y oucr awl upachi cken’ sassandwai t " Hi smout hhangsopen Qui nt on: " y oumeanIwon' tgetl ai dany t i me soon" Me: " unf or t unat el ywedon' thav echi ckens ar oundher e" Wel augh Qui nt on: " okayy ouwi n. . . I ' m out" Me: " Wheny ouwer ebor n, t hedoct orcameout t ot hewai t i ngr oom andsai dt oy ourdad, “ I ’ m v er ysor r y .Wedi dev er y t hi ngwecoul d.Buthe pul l edt hr ough. ” Qui nt on: " Isai dy ouwi n" Me: " . ” It houghtofy out oday .I tr emi ndedmet o t aket hegar bageout " Qui nt on: " Li sa, enough" Me: " You’ r esougl ywheny oul ooki nt hemi r r or , y ourr ef l ect i onl ooksaway " Hest ar t st i ckl i ngme Me( l aughi ng) : " st op" Qui nt on: " Iwar nedy ou" Me: " okay !I ' l l st op. . pl easest op" Hest oppedIgotof fhi sl ap, Iwal kt owar dst he doorIl ookbackathi m bef or eheadi ngout Me: " Doy our sel faf av orandi gnor eany onewho t el l sy out obey our sel f .Badi deai ny ourcase" Imakear unf ori taf t ert hat , Ihear dhi mf ol l ow mebutIqui ckl ygeti nt oGr am' sr oom Icl ose t hedoorl aughi ng Me: " mor ni ngmakhul u" Gr ams: " y ouseem cheer f ul t oday " Me: " i t sal l Qui nt on' sdoi ngs" Gr ams: " soy ouhav en' tt ol dhi my et ? " Me: " Ihav e" Gr ams: " howdi dhet akei t ? " Me: " Notwel l atal l , buthet r i edt ounder st and t hatIdon' thav eachoi ce" Gr ams: " I ' m sur ey ' al l bot hhat eme" Isi tnextt oher Me: " Nev er , Icoul dn' that ey ouev eni fIt r i ed, don' t wor r ygr ams, I ' l l mal esur et hi smar r i agedon' t l ast , i fi t st hel astt hi ngIdo" Gr ams: " pl easedon' tdoany t hi ngst upi d" Me: " don' twor r yabouti t . . . sowhenam Igoi ng t her eany way ? " Gr ams: " t omor r owmor ni ng" Me: " what !Sosoon?coul dn' tt heywai tf ort he hol i day s?" Gr ams: " t heyknowaboutmycancer , t heysai di t wi l l onl ybef ai ri fI ' m al sot her et owi t nesst he daymygr anddaught erget smar r i ed" Me: " t hi si sj ustt oomuchnow" Gr ams: " I ' m sor r yf orget t i ngy oui nt ot hi smess" Me: " makhul u. . . . ar ey ousur ey oudi dn' tknow whaty ousi gnedy our sel fi nt o?Li ket heynev er ment i onedi tt oy ou" Gr ams: " t heyal way ssai dasl ongasI ' m wor ki ng f ort hem I ' mi ngoodhandsI ' ml i kepar toft he f ami l y , t heydi dn' tt r eatmel i keamai d, t hey t r eat edmel i kef ami l y , wheni twast i mef orme t or et i r et heyt ol dmenott owor r yI ' l l al way sbe par toft hem andmyf ami l ywi l l al way sbe pr ot ect ed, att hatt i meIt houghtt heyr eal l ydi d t hatcauset heyar egoodpeopl eIdi dn' tknowi t wasal l par toft hecont r act " Me: " andI ' m sur et hi scont r actcan' tbe t er mi nat edbyy ourdeat hsi ncet heagr eement doesn' tneedy oui tcanonl ybet er mi nat edby mydeat h. . . . gr eat " Gr ams: . . . . . Me: " di dy oudr i nky ourpi l l s? " Shenods Me: " soI ' m get t i ngmar r i edt hi sweekend? " Ihat et heJohnsonsandt hei rst upi dsonf or bei ngbor n Il aughi ndi sbel i ef Me: " ar r angedmar r i age?It houghtwewer ei n t het went yf i r stcent ur y. . . . ohwai twe ar e, ar r angedmar r i agesar enowdoneby cont r act s" Gr ams: " Iwi sht her ewassomet hi ngIcoul ddo t ost opal l t hi smadness, y out ooy oungf ort hi s" Me: " i t sokay . . . . I ' l l sur v i v e" Igetupandheadt ot hebat hr oom, Ineedt o f r eshenup, af t erani cecol dshowerIdr essup t henheadt ot hesi t t i ngr oom Qui nt on: " r eadyt ogo? " Me: " y eahsur e" Wear enowdr i v i ngt osomewher e. . . Idon' tknow what ' supwi t hpeopl eandnott el l i ngmewher e t heyt aki ngme Wewer edr i v i ngt hr oughv er ycl assysubur bs Me: " okay . . . t hi spl acei snotf orpeopl el i ke us. . whatar ewedoi ngher e? " If el tsosmal l wi t hal l t hef ancyf l ashycar s dr i v i ngbyandwei nt hi sskor okor o Qui nt on: " pr omi senott ogetmad? " Me: " Ican' tdot hat , i fi t sgonnamakememadI ' l l getmad" Qui nt on: " j ustt oday , pl easedon' t " Me: " okayi fi tdoesmakememad, I ' l l pr et endI ' m not " Qui nt on: " pr omi se? " Me: " pr omi se. . . nowwhati si t " Hekeepsqui etaswepar ki nf r ontofav er y beaut i f ul bi ggat e Hepr essedsomebut t onst henpr essedhi s t humbf orl ong " Accessr ecogni zed" Somewomant al ksf r om t hemachi nel ooki ng t hi ngyhewaspr essi ng, t hegat eopens Me: " woooow" Thef r onty ar dal onewassobeaut i f ul andbi g wi t hsomet hi ngl i keawat erf ount ai ni nt he mi ddl ewi t ht r i mmedsmal l t r eesher eandt her e andf l ower s, t hedr i v ewayt ot hehousewas qui etl ong, wepar kedi nf r ontoft hi sbi gwhi t e t hr eest or ymansi onwi t ht hr eesexycar spar ked i nf r ontoft hehouse Me: " ohmygr eatGod, whati st hi spl ace? " Hewal ksoutandcomesopent hedoorf ormeI gotoutandwemadeourwayt ot heent r ance heopenedt hesl i di ngdoor Me: " wecan' tj ustbadgei nher e. . . Qui nt on?" Myey eswonderar oundadmi r i ngev er ysi ngl e t hi ngi nt hi shousef r om t hespar kl i ngf l oort o t hemesmer i zi ngr oof Qui nt on: " wel comet omyhome" Il ookedathi m amusedt henbur sti nt ol aught er , Ist oppedwhenInot i cedabi gpi ct ur ef r amedof hi swhol ef ami l y , Nextt ot hatonewasof hi msel fal onewear i ngav er ypol i shedsui t Thenanot heroneofahandsomey oungman whol ooksl i kehi m nextt ot hatonewasa pi ct ur eofCandr ai nt hemostbeaut i f ul dr ess nextt oherwasanot herhandsomemanwho l ookedol dert henQui nt on Il ookedathi m andhehadaner v oussmi l e Me: "Youser i ous! ?" Henods Nowayhecan' tbeser i ous, he' spoor . . . hei s v er yv er ypoor . . . I ' m dr eami ngagai n!Qui nt oni s Poor . Inot i ceCandr awal ki ngdownt hest ai r Candr a: " Br o!Youf i nal l yboughtherhome! " whatt hehel l i sgoi ngon? ? Me: " Qui nt on?" ( Whi sper i ng) Candr acamet owar dsmeandgav emeahug, wear enowsi t edi nt hi sbeaut i f ul bi gy etv er y si mpl el ounge, i thadt ool i t t l ebutwasso beaut i f ul Candr agotupt ogogetussomet hi ngt odr i nk Qui nt on: "Iknowy ouhav emanyquest i onsf or mer i ghtnow" Me: " y oubet t erst ar tt al ki ng" Qui nt on: " I ' l l expl ai nev er y t hi ng, butal l I ' l l t el l y ou r i ghtnowi st hat , t hi si smyhome, wher eIgr ew up" Me: " Idon' tunder st and, y out ol dme. . . Candr a: " her ear ey ourdr i nksohandwoul dy ou l i kesomehor sd' oeuv r e? " Shewasaski ngme. . If eel soembar r assedr i ght now, whati nt hel i v i ngwor l di st hat Me: " I . . uhm. . excuseme? " Candr a: " hor sd' oeuv r eswoul dy oul i kesome? " I tsoundsl i keshe' ssay i ngor der Me: " I ' l l hav easandwi cht hanks" IsawQui nt on' sf acet ur ni ngr edt r y i ngt ohol di n hi sl augh Candr al ooksatmeconf used Candr a: " uhm. . oh. . ookay " Shewal kedbackt ot hedi r ect i onshecame f r om Me: " what ' ssof unny ?" Hebur sti nt ol aught er Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " y ohhbuby ouki l l i ngme" Me: " mx m, t akemehome" Ist oodup Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " comeon. . . wai t . . I ' m sor r y " Me: " whatwasCandr ar eal l yof f er i ngme?" Qui nt on: " hor sd' oeuv r es. . . . t heyar eappet i zer s, a sor tofsnack" Me: " oohh" Hemademesi tdown. .If eel soembar r assed andsmal l r i ghtnow . . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 28, 16: 57]W: I nser t18 LI SA Af t erwehadsomesnacks" hor sd' oeuv r es"l ol t heywer edel i ci ous, i twasj ustf r i edchi ckenon at oot hpi ckorasshecal l si t"PeanutChi cken Skewer sWi t hChi l i May onnai se"ar ghr i ch peopl e, Candr agotacal l f r om herboy f r i endand excusedher sel fsoi t snowj ustmeandQui nt on, heshowedmear oundt hewhol ehouse, i t sso bi g, ev er y t hi ngi swhi t eandgol dshi nyand spar kl y . Wear enowatt hebacky ar d, i t ssoohuge , t her e' sachi l l i ngpool ar ea, andabi gy ar dwi t h ni cel ycutgr ass, t her eabasket bal l cour tand al soacr i cketpi t ch, wecar r yonwal ki ng Me: " damnt hi spl acei smagi cal , l ooksl i kea pal ace" Qui nt on: " y eahi tdoes" Me: " Qui nt on, whydi dy out el l mey ouwer epoor whengr owi ngup? " Qui nt on: " wel l wewer eoncepoor , onl ygott hi s r i chwhenIwast en" Me: " butst i l l y ougr ewupr i ch, al l t hi st i mewe wer esuf f er i ng, y our i ch" Qui nt on: " Li sa, y oudon' tunder st and, al l of t hi s, t her e' snot hi ngni ceabouti t " Me: " whatdoy oumean?Ar ey ououtofy our mi nd, Qui nt onweusedt ost ar v ef oral mostt he whol ey earwi t habsol ut el ynot hi ngt oeat , we al mostgotki ckedoutofourapar t mentcause t hi ngswer esobad, Isacr i f i cedmybur sar y moneysot hatIhel pwi t hr ent , myGr anny ' s pensi onwoul donl yl astushal foft hemont h, t he moneyy oumadeatt hecl ubwassol i t t l ei t f i ni shesj ustont heser v i ceofy ourscr ap car , we' dsl eepwi t hbr eadandbut t erf ormont hs wi t hnot ea, i fy oudi dn' tgett her ai sey ougot t hi sy earwewoul d' v emov edt oasmal l erand cheaperapar t ment , weal mostsol dy our car , r emember ? . . .Idon' tgeti tQui nt onwhy woul dy oul ety our sel fsuf f ersomuchwheny ou canhav eany t hi ngy ouwanti nt hi swor l d, a mot hert hatl ov esy ou, asi st ert hat ' sv er yf ond ofy ouandt wobr ot her sandabi gasshouse, why , whywoul dy ounott akeadv ant ageofy our pr i v i l eges?" West opwal ki nghel ooksatme Qui nt on: " r ememberIt ol dy oumydadwas i nv ol v edi nshadybusi nesses? " Me: " y eah" Qui nt on: " mydadwasar ut hl essmanwho car edaboutnot hi ngbuthi sbusi nessesand moneyandt aki ngcar eofhi senemi es, het ook car eofhi sf ami l y , y es, butnev ershowedus f at her l yl ov el i ket heoneIsawonmov i esor ot herki dsatschool , wheni twascar eerday , chi l dr enwoul dcomewi t ht hei rf at her sand mot her swhower edoct or s, l awy er s, pol i cemen andal l t hat, mymot hershewoul dcomebut l eav eear l ybecauseofbusi ness, mydadj ust madei tcl eart hathehasnot i mef ort hatcr ap andnev erwi l l , hehadsomany enemi es, somet i mest hey ' dhav et hei rgun f i ght sr i ghther ei nt hi sv er yl uxur i ousy ar d, y ou seet hebeaut i f ul gr asswest andi ngon, l ot sof bl oodhasbeenspi l ti nt hi sv er yl uxur i ous pr emi sesev eni nsi det hehouse, Ihat et hi spl ace Li sa, i thol dsmanybadmemor i es, It hat l uxur i oushouse, Ihat et hatpool , Ihat et heai rof t hi spl ace, Ihat eev er y t hi ngmyf at herhasev er accompl i shedf r om hi sdi r t ybusi nesses" Mybodycr i nges, asIt hi nkoft hepeopl ewho mi ght ' v edi edher e, Ihat epeopl el i keQui nt on' s dad Me: " sot hathat r edi st hecauseofy oumov i ng out ? " Qui nt on: " Yes, Iwant ednott odowi t ht he money , dur i nghi ghschool dadt aughtme ev er y t hi ngabouthi sbusi nesses, sot hatIcoul d onedayt akeov erhet aughtal l ofusexcept Candr asi nceshe' sagi r l , hedi edwhenIwas doi ngmat r i ct hankgoodnessIwasnotf or ced t odoi l l egal t hi ngsany mor e" Me: " wai t , whenhet aughty ' al l , y oumeanl i key ' al l wer er eal l ywor ki ngf orhi m anddoi ngal l t hose st uf f ? " Henods Qui nt on: " y es, Li sa, al otofbl oodr unst hr ough t hesehands" Hepul l southi shandst ome Qui nt on: " somet i mes, Iwantt ochopt hem of f " Ihol dhi shandsandl ockt hem wi t hmi ne Me: " y oucan' tbl amey our sel ff ory ourFat her ' s sel f i shway s" Qui nt on: " nowy ouseewhatl i esbehi ndt he f l ashyl uxur i ousl i f e? . . bl oodandhat r ed, no happi ness, nol ov e, nocomf or t , nosl eep, no peace" Hepul l smecl osert ohi m andl ockshi sar ms ar oundmywai st Qui nt on: " r ememberourwoul dy our at her game? " Me: " howcanIf or get " ( l aughs) Qui nt on: " I ' v egotaf ewwoul dr at herf ormy sel f " Ir ai semybr owsmi l i ng Qui nt on: " I ' dr at herbepoorandbehappyt han r i chandgr umpy , I ' dr at herbepoorandhav ea peacef ul sl eept hanr i chandal way shaunt edby ni ght mar es, I ' dr at herbepoorandbel ov edt han r i chandbehat ed, I ' dr at herbepoorandhav e y oubymysi det hanber i chandhav eagol d di ggi ngwhor ewho' l l l ov emymoneymor et han me. . . . . y ouseebub, I ' dr at hersuf f erandwor kmy wayt ot het opt her i ghtwayt hangett her e usi ngpeopl e' st ear sandbl ood" Mybodycr i ngesagai nwhenhesay s bl ood, . . . . whatt hehel l - Me( whi sper s) : " Qui nt on. . . . Qui nt on: "what ' swr ong?Whatdoy ousee" Me: " behi ndy ou. . . he' sback, l ookhe' sr i ght behi ndy ou. . . " Mydadi sst andi ngt her el ooki ngt hesamewi t h bl oodal l ov erhi m Hel ooksbehi ndhi m Qui nt on: " t her e' snoonet her e" Hedi sappear ed Isi ghandmybr eat hi nggoesbackt onor mal Me: " nev er mi ndI ' m. . . Idon' tknowwhat ' supwi t h me" Hehugsme Qui nt on: " wasi ty ourf at heragai n? " Inod Qui nt on: " It hi nky ourf at herdoesn' twanty out o bewi t hme" Me: " what ?Noi t snoty ou, whywoul dn' thewat y ou, y ou' v ebeennot hi ngbutgoodt ome" Qui nt on: " ev ersi nceI ' v emov edi ny ou' v ebeen hav i ngni ght mar esandbadt hi ngshav ebeen happeni ng, wef el l ev enmor ei nl ov e, nowmany t hi ngsar er ui ni ngourchanceatl ov e, y ourdad keepst el l i ngy out or unaway , It hi nkhemeans f r om me" Ishakemyhead Me: " No, t hosear eonl yni ght mar esandt hatr un away , i t swhathesai dwhenhedi edhewas t el l i ngmet or unawayf r om hi ski l l er , Idon' t knowwhyhe' sonmymi ndagai n, may bei t s causeImi sshi m, buthei snotatpeaceandI don' twanthi mt ov i si tmewhi l ehe' sst i l l i n dar kness, he' sf r eaki ngmeout " Qui nt on: " hesai dhe' spr ot ect i ngy ouf r om t he peopl ey oucal l y ourf r i ends" Me: " y ouknowwhathappenedt henextdayaf t er t hatdr eam? " Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " y onel ashowedhert r uecol our st ome, she pr ov edt hatshewasnev eraf r i endt omeshe' s al way sbeenj eal ousofme, i nsul t edmei nway sI coul dnev eri magi ne, sheev ent hr eat enedt ot el l gr amst het r ut haboutt hewhol epr et endi ng t hi ngal l becauseshewasj eal ousandwant ed Mncedi si t odat eheri nst eadofme" Qui nt on( shocked) : " what ! ?Yonel a?Yourbest f r i endy onel a? " Me: " y eap. . .Bestf r i endhuhy eahr i ght " Qui nt on: " t hef r i endswehav e" Me: " soIt hi nkt hat ' st hef r i endhewast al ki ng aboutnoty ou, Imean, y ou, i tj ustwoul dn' tmake anysense" Qui nt on( f akesmi l es) : " y eahIguessso, t el l me, i f y ouwer et oknowy ourf at her ' ski l l er , howwoul d y ouf eel orr eact ? " Mybodyboi l sasangerf i l l smeup Me: " I ' dbef ur i ousathi m, Ihat ehi m wi t hal l my bei ng, i fIwer egi v ent hechanceI ' dki l l hi m wi t h t hesamegunheusedt oki l l myf at her " Qui nt on: " whatabouthi sf ami l y ?Woul dy ou hat et hem t oo" Me: " ev er y t hi ngoft hi sQui nt on, hi swi f e, how canshemar r yamonst erl i ket hat , hi schi l dr eni f I ' dcomeacr ossoneoft hem, It hi nkI ' dgi v ehi m orherabeat i ngj ustsot heycant akei tf ort hei r f at hersi ncehe' snol ongeral i v e, i hat ehi m, I ' m gl adIdon' tknowhowhel ooksorel seI ' dhat e ev er y t hi ngt hatr esembl eshi m" Mybr eat hi ngwasheav y , I ' m soangr yIhat et hat manwhoki l l edmydadi nf r ontofhi swi f eand ki dhowcr uel canonebe Qui nt on: " whoa, t hat ' sdeep. . . comeonl et ' sget r i doft hesebadv i bes, l etmeshowy ou somet hi ngcool " I ' v ecal medmy sel fdown Me: " y oumeant her e' ssomet hi ngmor ecool t hant hatci nemaandgamer oom and ev er y t hi ngel sey ouj ustshowedmei nt hat house" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " y ep, f ol l owme" If ol l owhi mt ot heot herendoft hey ar dwher e t her ei sawoodenhousemor el i keacot t agehe l eadsmei nsi deI ' m hi tbyt hesmel l off r eshhay Ihearsev er al hor seswhi nnyf r om t heencl osed wal l s Me: " ohmy !Youhav ehor ses? " Qui nt on: " asy oucansee" Il ookar oundeachcl osedupi nast abl e Qui nt on: " comehav eacl oserl ook" Igetcl osert hehor sepeeksi t sheadoutov er t hewoodendoor Me: " wowshe' sabeaut y . . what ' sy ournamegi r l " Qui nt onchuckl es Qui nt on: " i t saboyact ual l y " Me: " oh, buti t ssocut e, damni fIwer eaf emal e hor seI ' dhav eamaj orcr ushonhi m" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " t hankgody ounot . . . . hi snamei s t r i gger , t hi si smyf av our i t ehor seoutofal l I pr act i cal l yr ai sedhi m, t hi sguyknowsal l my secr et sandembar r assi ngst or i esasa t eenager " Me: " i fonl yhecoul dspeak, oht r i gger , y ouwoul d t el l meev er y t hi ng" Qui nt on: " nev er , he' st ool oy al t ome, r i ghtt r i gger " Henei ghs Icopyhi m Me: " ni eeeeghhh" Qui nt onl aughsatmet henj oi nsmet oget her wi t ht hehor semaki nghor sesounds Me&Q&Tr i gger : " ni i eeeeeeeghhhh" Webur sti nt ol aught er , exceptt hehor seof cause, t hat ' dbescar yl ol Qui nt on: " wannagof orar i de! ? " Ij umpexci t edl y Me: " t houghty ou' dnev erask! " Wef i r stf eedhi m hayt henhet akeshi m out Hepi cksmeupandIj umponhesandsnextt o t hehor seandsl owl ywal kshi m Me: " t hi si ssoni ce, I ' v eal way swant edt or i dea hor se" Qui nt on: " f oraf i r stt i mer , y ouanat ur al " Idon' tknowwhathappenedIwasf ool i ng ar oundwi t ht her opesoni t sneckIt hi nkI pul l edi tbutr i ghtnowIt hi nkI ' m gonna di e, t r i ggeri sr unni ngl i kecr azyheev ent r i pped Qui nt onandhef el l behi nd " Heeel l l l l l ppppp! !Somebody ! ! ! !Qui nt on! ! !St op t hi shor senow! ! !St opst opst op! ! " Tear sar est r eami ngdownI ' m hol di ngonas t i ghtasIcanbutmybut ti ssl i ppi ngImi ghtf al l any t i me, Imi ghtdi eany t i me " Quuuuui i i nt ooooooooon! ! " Hei sr unni ngaf t erusl i kecr azyi fIwasn' t wor r i edaboutdy i ngr i ghtnowI ' dbel aughi ngat hi m Tr i ggerst opped. . .Fi nal l yIcanTr i gger : nni i eeeegghhh! Hel i f t shi sf r ontl egsupbef or eIknowi tI ' m on t hegr oundf el l f l atonmyt ummygoshi thur t s somuch Tr i ggerj ustst oodt her e Qui nt on( br eat hi ngheav i l y ) : " bub!Youokay ? ? " Me: " whatki ndofquest i oni st hat ! ?Nxaof causeI ' m notokayI ' mf uckenhur t ! . . aahhh" Myheadpai nst hemosti tr eal l ybangedhar don t hegr ound Hepi cksmeupandweheadbackt ot hehouse whi chwasal ongdi st ancehekeepsst oppi ng t r y i ngt ocat chhi sbr eat h, i t ssocut e, hel ooks sof i ner i ghtnow, can' tbel i ev eI ' m dr ool i ngy et I ' mi nsomuchpai n Me: " hhl l i i ahh. . . . . ouch. . . easy" Hewasr ubbi ngsomeher bal st uf fonmyknee whi chal sogotscr at ched Qui nt on: " sor r ybub. . al mostdone" Hef i ni shedatl ast Me: " I ' m nev err i di ngahor seagai n!" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " comeont heynott hatbad" Il ookathi mi ndi sbel i ef Me: " nott hatbad? " Qui nt on: " I ' m ki ddi nggeezdon' tbi t emyhead of f " Me: " mx m, I ' mi npai npl easespoi l me" Iki ndagett oobaby i shwhenIgeti nj ur edI demandnur si ngandcar e Qui nt onwasof f er i ngmeal l t hej unkIcoul d t hi nkof, i twasget t i ngl at eandwewer ej ust chi l l i ngathi shouse, l ucki l yIaskedournei ghbor t ocheckongr amsnowandt henandIcal l ed hert ochecki fshe' sokay Qui nt on: " t her e' sonemor epl acei nt hehouseI wantt oshowy ou" Me: " okay" ( exci t edl y ) Hest andsupandwal ksl eav i ngmebehi nd, he l ooksbackasher eal i sesI ' m notf ol l owi nghi m Qui nt on: "ar ey oucomi ng?" Me: " y oudon' texceptmet owal kmy sel fnowdo y ou. . . needIr emi ndy out hati t sy ourf av our i t e hor set hat . . . Qui nt on: " okayokay , goshI ' v ehear denoughof t hati nci dentf oroneday " Hecomesandr el uct ant l ypi cksmeup, hemade mewr apmyl egsar oundhi m Me: " coul dn' ty oupi ckmeupbr i dal st y l e?" Icoul df eel hi scr ot ch Qui nt on: " what swr ongwi t ht hi sway ? " Hewaswal ki ngwhi chwasmaki ngt hi ngs wor secauseourt hi ngswer ebumpi ngeach ot herashewasgoi ngdownt hest ai r s Me: " i t sabi ti nt ense" Qui nt on: " Il i kei nt ense" It hi nkI ' m get t i ngwet Me: " wel l Idon' t" Wer eachedapl acel i keabasementi twasso dar k, t hent hel i ghtwenton Ther ewasbot t l esofwi neal l ar ound Qui nt on: " wel comet ot hecel l ar , t hi si smoms col l ect i on" Me: " wowt hi sr oom i sbeaut i f ul , somuchwi ne" Qui nt on: " y eaah, weusedt ocomedownher e andst eal af ewwhenev ermybr ot her sandI woul dt hr owahousepar t ywhent her ent s wher enotar ound" Me: " heeekant i y ouwer emi schi ev ous, I shoul d' v eknown" Qui nt on: " babe, Iwasnosai ntIal sohada r ebel l i oussi del i keanyot hert eenager " Me: " Ibety ou' dbr i nggi r l sdownher et oi mpr ess t hem soy oucanshag" Ismi r k Qui nt on: " y eap, y oucaughtme, I ' dgett hem dr unkt henshagt hem. . . . sowoul dy oul i kea gl ass? " Hesmi r ks Me( l aughs) : " notgoi ngt owor kwi t hme" Qui nt on: " I ' mj oki ng, I ' v enev erboughtgi r l s downher eorany one, t hi spl acei sst r i ct l yf ami l y " Me: " butI ' m notf ami l y" Hecomescl oser Qui nt on: " y oumyf ami l ybub, andsoon enough, we' l l st ar tourownf ami l y " If eel but t er f l i esast het houghtpassesmymi nd Me: " aboutt hatgl ass?Doest heof f erst i l l st and? " Qui nt on: " hawuv el ephel a, naweuy az" ( obv i ousl y , ) Hepour sussomewi newedr i nk, i twas amazi ng Me: " ar et hosegr apes? " Iseeabunchofgr apesi nawoodenbasi n Qui nt on: " y ep" Me: " somany " Qui nt on: " f ort hewi ne" Me: " y ' al l makey ourownwi ne? " Henods Qui nt on: " mom makesi tt hat ' soneofher busi nesses, mom onl yr unsl egal busi nesses" Me: " t hat ' swhyy oul ov ey ourmot herso much, she' st heonl yonewhopl ay edt hegood par entr ol e" Qui nt on: " al t houghshewasn' tt hatgood, f orev en mar r y i ngamanl i kedadbuty eahIl ov eher " Ther ewasal sosquashedgr apes, Iwasst i l l l ooki ngar oundwhenIf el tl i qui donmy sel fi t wasgr apej ui cef r om t hesquashedgr apes Me: " whatt hehel l " Qui nt on( l aughs) : " oopsmybad" Me: " ohhhy ougonnageti tnow" Iscoopahandf ul andt hr owi tathi mr i ghton t hef ace Me( l aughi ng) : " y eess. . . y oumessedwi t ht he wr onggi r l " Hest ar t edl aughi nghar dandwet hr ewgr apes ateachot herwemadeamessal l ov ert he pl ace, ourcl ot hesandbodywer ecov er edi n gr apej ui ce Me: " noonotmyhai r . . . .Oht hat ' si t ! " Ir anaf t erhi m her unsupst ai r sunt i l wewer eby t heki t chenIcor ner edhi m hewasst uck Me: " goty ou" It hr ewmy sel fathi m andhepi ckedmeup, we wer eki ndoft i psyf r om al l t hatwi ne Heki ssedme Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " No. . Igoty ou" Weki ssedmor ehungr i l y , onet hi ngl edt o anot her * * * * * * * Qui nt on: " don' tcr ybub, I ' l l comef ory ou. . " Me( cr y i ng) : " Idon' twantt ogo, Idon' twantt oget mar r i ed" Qui nt on: " I ' l l f i ghtf ory ouIpr omi se, i fi t st hel ast t hi ngIdo" Me: " Imi ssy oual r eady " Qui nt on: " Imi ssy out oo, butbabey ou' l l beback soont heycantkeepy ouawayf r om school f or l ong" Me: " Ihat et hem QIhat et hem wi t hal l my mi ght " Hesqueezesmei nahugoncemor e, I ' v eal r eady packed, t heyev ensentadr i v ert ocomepi ckme andgr amsup, gr amswasal r eadyi nt hecarI wasst i l l say i ngmygoodby est oQui nt on, we di dn' tev ensl eepl astni ghtwet al kedandmade l ov et hewhol eni ght Qui nt on: " j ustpr omi semeonet hi ng" Me: " any t hi ng" Qui nt on: " wel l Ican' tsaydon' thav esexwi t ht he guy , causeIknowt hatwi l l happensooneror l at er . . j ustbepat i ent , makesur ehe' snot i nf ect ed" M: " i twon' t , Iwon' tl eti t " Qui nt on( si ghs) : " i nal l y oudopl easepr omi se met hi s. . . . y ouwon' tf al l f ort heguy " Me: " ofcausenot , Ionl yl ov ey ouandIonl y al way sl ov ey ou" Qui nt on: " Ineedy out opr omi semel i ss" Me: " Ipr omi se" ( cr y i ng) Me: " pr omi semei nwhat ev ery oudo, y ouwon' t ev erf al l i nl ov ewi t hanot hergi r l " Qui nt on: " Ipr omi se. . . myhear tonl ybeat sf or y ou" Weshar eaki ssf i l l edwi t hpassi onandl ot sof emot i ons Hepul l sout Qui nt on: " t akecar eofy our sel fbub, t hi si snot goodby e" Me: " i t saseey oul at er " Hepecksmyl i ps Qui nt on: " Il ov ey ousomuch" Me: " Il ov ey ouwayt oomuch" Weki ssagai n, webot hdon' twantt ol etgo " Wehav et ogetgoi ngmam" Thedr i v eri nt er r upt s Qui nt on: " by ebub, hav easaf et r i p" IPeckhi sl i psr epeat edl yt hengoti nsi det hecar Me: " by eQ" Qui nt on: " wai t " Het akesoutsomet hi ngf r om hi spocket Hegi v esmet her i ngt hathepr oposedwi t ht hat ni ghtal ongwi t ht heneckl ace. . . byt hewayt hi s i st hesamer i ngandneckl aceIsawi nt hatshop andl i kedt hem, t heni ghtwhenwer obbeda shop, whenwewer edr unkashel l , y ept hat ' st he ones Ibur sti nt ot ear sashehel psmeputont he neckl ace Heki ssesme Qui nt on: " don' tcr ypl ease, y oubr eaki ngmy hear t " Me: " I ' m sor r y . . . by eQui nt on" Thecart akesof fandof fwego. . . apl aceI t houghtIwoul dnev erst ar tmyl i f et her eagai n backt oeast er ncape, Idon' tknowwhybuti t f eel sl i keI ' ml eav i ngt heci t yf or ev er . . . noway ! I ' m comi ngback, onewayort heot her ! Il ookbackandIcan' tseeourhouseany mor e Ican' tst opt het ear sf r om f al l i ng Gr ams: " pl easest opcr y i ngNana, kuzol unga, l et ' s j ustkeepi nf ai t h" Ij ustwantt ot ouchhi m onel astt i me, once mor e, al l ofy est er day ' sev ent scomef l ashi ng back, whenheshowedmehi shome, t hegr ape f i ght , meet i ngt r i gger , t r i ggerdr oppi ngme, t he l ov emaki ng. .Ohgodwhatki ndofpuni shment i st hi s?Justwhenwef oundeachot her . . . . P. Eher ewecome! ! [ 07/ 28, 16: 58]W: I nser t19 LI SA I ' m wokenupbysomeoneshaki ngmeIopen myheav yswol l eney es, Icr i edt i l l If el l asl eep Gr ams: " weal mostt her eLi sa, doy ouwant somet hi ngt oeat " ShepassedmeKFCpaperbagIshakemyhead Gr ams: " y ouhav et oeatsomet hi ngNana" Me: " noI ' mf i negr ams" Gr ams: " Iknowt hi si snoteasyf ory ou, y our eal l y l ov edQui nt onbutwehav enochoi ceLi sa" If eel t het ear st hr eat eni ng Me: " Iknow. . Ij ustmi sshi m somuch, Il ov ehi m gr ams, nowI ' l l hav et omar r yat ot al st r anger whi chI ' l l nev erl ov e" Gr ams: " ast i megoesy ouwi l l gr owt ol ov ey our husbandi twi l l t akeawhi l et of or getabout. . , . . Me( i nt er r upt s) : " Howcany ousayt hat . . . Il ov e Qui nt ongr amsI ' l l nev erev erf or gethi m, Ican f or getev er y oneel sebutI ' l l nev erf or get hi m, he' smyev er y t hi ng, hewast her ewhenIhad noone, i fi twasn' tf orhi m, Iwoul dn' tbeher e, y ou woul dn' tev enhav eagr anddaught er " Thegl assesf i nal l ybr eakandt het r eadst r eam down Gr ams: " ut het haukt hi ni ukbaIwoul dn' thav ea gr anddaught er ? "( Whatdoy oumean? ) Me: " hesav edmyl i f ef r om t hef i r stdayIgott o Jo' bur g, het ookmei nwhenIhadnowher et o go, heshowedmel ov ewhenIhadnoone, he' s j ustal way sbeent her e, Il ov ehi m, Il ov edhi m f r om t hev er ymomentIl ai dmyey esonhi m, I ' l l al way sandf or ev erl ov ehi m" Gr ams: " sav edy ourl i f e?" Me: " mybur sar ynev erof f er edme accommodat i on, Idi dn' tt el l y oubecauseIdi dn' t wantt ost r essy ou, Ihadnowher et ogo, Ispent t hewhol edayandni ghtwonder i ngt hest r eet s ofbr aamf ont i enIal mostgotmuggedandgang r apedbutQui nt oncamej usti nt i meandsav ed myl i f et henof f er edmeapl acet ost ay " Wai tami nut edi dIj ustt el l gr amst het r ut h abouthowwemet ? Gr ams: " butt hat ' snotwhaty ' al l t ol dme?So y ou' v ebeenst ay i ngwi t hhi m si ncey ougott o Jo' bur g? " Me: " y eah, wedi dn' tt el l y oucausewedi dn' twant t ost r essy ou, y ouol dnowgr amsany t hi ngt hat st r essesy oucoul dki l l y ou, somet hi ngsar e besty oudon' tknow" Gr ams: " I ' m handl i ngi tpr et t ywel l nowar en' tI . . pl easenextt i mewheny oui nt r oubl et el l me" Inod Dr i v er : " andweher e" Hepar ksi nf r ontoft hi sbi ghouse, t hewal l sar e nott hathi ghandt heyt r anspar entsot hehouse andev er y t hi ngi sv i si bl e, wowi t sbeaut i f ul Thegat eopensandwedr i v ei nandPar ki n f r ontoft hi sbi gt wost or ymansi onasbeaut i f ul ast hi spl acei s, I ' dr at herbei nourwackpi t i f ul apar t mentwi t hQr i ghtnow Weheadt owar dt hedoorInot i ceagor geous mi ddl eagedwomanwi t habi gki ndsmi l e comi ngt owar dus Woman: " Mol weni y uuhhandav uy a ukuni bona" ( hel l o, I ' m sohappyt oseey ' al l ) Us: " mol onakuwe" ( hel l o) Shehuggedmakhul ut hensqueezesmet oo Woman: " awusemhl eugqi t hai zt hombe bendi kubonakuzo" ( y ouev enmor ebeaut i f ul t hant hepi ct ur esIsawofy ou) Me: " Enkosi mah( t hanksmah) Woman: " mynamei sLi zekaJohnsony oucan cal l meLi zz, pl easef ol l owme. . . . Joshpl ease t aket hel uggaget ot hei rr ooms" Weheadi nsi de, whoat hi spl acei sbr eat ht aki ng, sosophi st i cat ed. Shel eadsust ot hesi t t i ngr oom Mr sJohnson: " di nnerwi l l ber eadyi na f ew, knobani l ambe"( y ' al l mustbest ar v i ng) Gr ams: " beskesat hengai nt oy okudl aendl el eni soay i nokosi r i ght " ( weboughtf oodont heway sowest i l l good) Mr sJohnson: " ar ey ouokaybabygi r l ?Yourey es ar eswol l en" Ismi l e Me: " I ' m goodmah, j ustami noral l er gy , andI t hi nkI ' m abi tt i r ed, Jo' bur gi sf ar " Mr sJohnson: " mmhokay , af t erdi nnerI ' l l show y oust r ai ghtt oy ourr oom" Me: " I ' dl i ket hat . .Uhm mahcanIgof r eshenup bef or edi nner ? " Mr sJohnson: " ofcause, f ol l owme" Igotupandshel edmet hr ought hepassage Mr sJohnson: " y ou' l l meetmyot herchi l dr en, t heywentoutbutt hey ' l l bebackanymi nut e now" West i l l wal ki ngt hi shousei sbi g Me: " okaymah, y oumeanal l y ourchi l dr en?" Shel ooksatmeandsmi l es Mr sJohnson: " ar ey out r y i ngt oaskmeabout y ourhusbandt obe? " If akeal augh Me: " y oucaughtme" Mr sJohnson: " hewentt owor kwi t hhi s f at her , t heymi ghtbebackv er yl at e" Me: " ohokay " Mr sJohnson: " don' twor r y , Ij ustknowhe' l l l ov e y ou, y ousobeaut i f ul " Me: " t hanky oumah" Mr sJohnson: " pl easeI ' mt ooy oungt obecal l ed mah, It ol dy ou, y oucancal l meLi zz" I ' m sonotcomf or t abl ewi t ht hatshe' sst i l l an al der Me: " okaymam Li zz" Mr sJohnson: " t hat ' sbet t erLi sa. . " Wef i nal l yr eachedt her oom i ti ssobi g, gr eyr ed andbl ackwer et hemai ncol our s, v er yboy i sh butni cer oom Mr sJohnson: " t hi si sy ourr oom, hopey ou set t l ei nwel l , andpl easet r ynott ot aket ool ong honey , t heot her swi l l beher eanymi nut enow anddi nneri sal mostr eady " Me: " I ' l l bequi ck" Shesmi l esatme Mr sJohnson: " Il i key ouLi sakhany ay ouso y oungsweetandbeaut i f ul , Iknowy ou' l l f i ti n per f ect l yi nourl i t t l ebi gf ami l y " OhbutI ' m nother et ost ayunf or t unat el y Me: " Il i key out oomam Li zz" Shesmi l est hent ur nsherheel sandwal ksout , I br eat houtt hesecondshe' sout , whuusomuch domi nanceherpr esencewassuf f ocat i ng me, she' sbeaut i f ul shame, v er ybeaut i f ul , Ihope t hesonatl eastt ookherl ooks, sot hi sr oom i s anensui t ebedr oom, t her e' sahugesl i di ngdoor t hatsepar at est hebat hr oom f r om t her oom, I getundr essedandheadf ort heshower . It akemysui t caset hent akeoutmyl ongPJs east er ncapeweat herdoesn' tmessar oundi ti s dar ncol datni ghtsummerornosummer , Iwr apmygownt oo, combmyhai randt i edi t neat l yup, Il ookar oundt her oom abi t , t her e' sa bal cony , av er yni cev i ew, Il ooki nsi det hecl oset andt her e' scl ot hes, t heymustbet hesocal l ed husband' sofmi ne. . . Iheaddownst ai r sIhear peopl el aughi ngandt al ki ngasIgetcl oser Theyal l becomequi etwhent heyseemet hey al l si t t edar oundt het abl e " Comesi tnextt ome! " Al i t t l eador abl egi r l shout s, shel ooksf i v eorsi x , Ismi l eandsi tnextt oher Ther ewer ef ourgi r l sandoneguy Mr sJohnson: " ev er y onet hi si st heLi sakhany a I ' v ebeent el l i ngy ' al l about , Li sat hesear emy chi l dr en, mychi l dr eni nt r oducey our sel fonce agai nf orLi sa" " HeyLi saI ' m Nol ut handobuty oucancal l me t hando, I ' mt hepr i ncessoft hi shouse" She' ssocut eshel ooksmyageoroney ear y ounger " I ' ml et hut hesecondt ol astbor n, i t sni cet o meety ouLi saIcan' twai tt ot akey ououtf or gi r l sdayout " Shgi ggl esshel ooksl i ket hegl ammeroft hi s f ami l yshe' sv er ybeaut i f ul wi t hherbi gamber ey es Me: " ni cet omeety out oo" " I ' m Sandr a" Shesay ssof t l y , okayshemustbet hequi etone Me: " ni cet omeety ouSandr a" " Mnakendi guLwazi t hesecondbor n, t he cool estbr ot herev er , r i ghtl adi es? " Theyl aughsomeagr eeandsomedon' tbut j oki ngl y Ther e' sj ustt hi sonegi r l , she' sbeenqui etl ooks l i ket heel destsi st ershe' ssobeaut i f ul wi t hher Br azi l i anweav e Mr sJohnson: " ay i bowena, wat hul a nj e. . kawuy ekeukbamuncuuzazi se" " Ar ghmah, I ' m sonoti nt hemoodf ort hi s, canI beexcused" Shegotupandl ef tbef or ehermom coul d pr ot est , y oohht hecheek Lwazi : " don' tmi ndher , shej ustgotdumpedby herboy f r i end" Mr sJohnson: " ay i wenasut hut hai ndabazi kasi s wakho"( st opbr oadcast i ngy oursi st er ' s busi ness) Let hu: " byt hewayt hat ' sourbi gsi sMi nenhl e butweal l cal l herEnhl e" Myhear tbeat sabi tf astasQui nt on' sgi r l f r i end comesacr ossmymi nd, butIbr ushi tof f , t hat can' tbeher , she' si nJo' bur g Me: " i t sr eal l yni cet omeety oual l " Thando: " wai tunt i l y oumeetourol destbr ot her anddad" Wecar r yoneat i ngandt al ki ng, t heywer easki ng meandgr amsmi l l i onquest i ons " y ' al l f or gotaboutme" t hatwast heador abl egi r l besi desme weal l l augh Me: " ohheywhat ' sy ournamecut i e? " " mynamei ssnakhokonke!I ' mt hi smuchol d" shehol dsupf i v ef i nger s Me: " woowsomuch!Iwi shIwast hatmuchol d t oo" shegi ggl es, ohmygoshshe' ssoador abl e, but who' schi l di sshe?causet handosai dshe' st he l astbor n? Icar r yoneat i ngf aki ngsmi l esher eandt her e, I hopet heynott oov i si bl et hatI ' mf aki ng Mymi ndi snother eatal l , Iwantt oescape al r eady , Ineedt ohearQui nt on' sv oi cet el l i ng met hathe' l l comegetmef r om t hi spl ace Ihearshout i ngcomi ngf r om t heki t chenwher e t hemai ndoori s, i tsoundsl i ket womenar gui ng Let hu: " ohboi t her ecomest hedr amat i cduo f at herandson" Sher ol l sherey es " Idi dwar ny ouaboutgol fbutnooool et ' snot l i st ent ot hef ool i shsonheknowsnot hi ng" " Ohshutup, i fy ouwer en' tbusyt r y i ngt ochar m t hatgi r l may bey ouwoul d' v escor edaf ew goal s, y ouwer en' tconcent r at ed" " Ohpl easedad, y ouknowt hat ' snotev enhal fof t het r ut h" Theybeganl aughi ngast heygotcl oser , Iwas j ustconcent r at edonmyf ood Mr sJohnson: " i fi ti sn' tmyt wof av or i t eboy s" " Hel l of am, ohIseewehav eguest s" Mr sJohnson: " guest s?Nonsense, t hat ' s f ami l y , t hat ' sLi saandVi ct or i ahergr andmot her , r emembersheusedt owor kher e" " HowcanIf or get " Il i f tupmyheadandsmi l eathi m myey es i nst ant l yl ockwi t hhi s. . . wai twai tIt hi nkmyey es ar edecei v i ngme, t hi scan' tbe, he' sal sol ooki ng atmeconf used Mr sJohnson: " Li sat hi si smyf i r stbor n. . . . . Me&Hi m: "Li sa\ Mncedi si ? " Whatt hehel l i shedoi ngher e, hecan' tbe. . . . . .No! ndav el endaphi swangumcamo( suddenl yIf eel t heur get opee) Me: " uhm. . . I. . Ineedt hebat hr oom. . .Excuseme! " Il i t er al l yr unoutandmakemywayt ot her oom . . . . . t obecont i nued. . [ 07/ 28, 17: 00]W: cont i nuat i on LI SA Idon' tknowhowl ongI ' v ebeensi t t i ngont hi s t oi l etbuti tbeenqui t eawhi l e, I ' mt ooner v ous t ocomeout , whati ft hi st i meI ' l l f eel t heur get o poop?Ican' tbel i ev et hi s, Li am i sgoi ngt obe myhusband?Thi scan' tbegood, he' smy ex. . t hi smustbet het hi nghe' sf or cedt odot hat hewast al ki ngabout . .Okay , Icanr eadbet ween t hel i nesbutt hi sheheheay i Inev ersawi t comi ng, i twoul d' v enev erev ercr ossedmy mi nd, Idon' tev enknowhowt of eel aboutt hi s whol et hi ngany mor e, ohgr aci ousGodIneedt o cal l Qandt el l hi m, oohhbuthe' l l besomad whenhef i ndsouti t sLi am, heal r eadynev er l i kedhi m nowi t ' l l maket hi ngswor sebutst i l l I hav et ot el l hi m " Hel l o, sweet yar ey ouokayi nt her e? " Thatsoundsl i keLet hu Me: " uhm y eahI ' mf i ne, I ' l l beoutj ustnow" " Okaysweet s, Iwasget t i ngwor r i ed" Me: " I ' mf i ne. . . " Iopenedt hedoor Me: " andI ' m done" Let hu: " aboutdamnt i me, I ' m sur ey ouf eel l i ke y ou' v el osthundr edkgs" Wel augh Me( l aughi ng) : " It hi nkI ' dbedeadi fIl ostt hat much" Shel aughedhar dery oohshehasawei r dl augh whi chwasmaki ngmel aughmor et i l l we r eachedev er y one, wesati nourpl aces, Idi dn' t ev enwantt omakeey econt act Thando: " i sn' tLi sat ooy oungt obemybr ot her ' s wi f e? " Okayshe' sabr at Let hu: " ay i bol ov edoesn' tgobyage" Lov e?Lol Idon' tknowaboutt hat MrJohnson: " ay i mam Vi ct or i a, wazal aapha i nt ombi y akhondy akxel el a"( y ourdaught ergav e bi r t ht oabeaut yIt el l y ou) Gr ams: " ndy ambogel a, si zal ai nkosazanazodwa kwaMt het hwa" MrJohnson: " aahhhoNy obosemadodaoJobe ay i ndi zophel aapho" Theybur sti nt ol aught er Mr sJohnson: " sekuzogqi bezel auny ana kal oku" ( mysonshal l car r yon) MrJohnson: " kawut shokal okuny anananci i nt ombi , qhasakal oku"( comeonsont her e' s y ourgi r l , pr ai seher ) Il ookupathi m hehasal azygr i n, Ial way s seem t of or gethowcut et hi sguyi s, t hef at heri s acol our edbuthel ookswhi t eev enhi shai ri sof awhi t eper son, buthespeaksf l uentXhosahe i ssohandsomehedoesn' tl ookadayol der t hant hi r t y Lee: " comeondad, whydoy oul i ke embar r assi ngme? " Lwazi ( chuckl es) : " y eahdad, wazi ni uMncedi si ngezi t hakazel o, azi t het hwaezozi nt ol e eEngl andeebal ungwi ni " ( whatdoesmncedi si knowaboutcl annames, t heydon' tt al kl i ket hat i nEngl and, whi t epeopl epl aces) Theyl aughabi t Lee: " khawuv al el oml omano wakho, suphapha" ( y oubet t ershuty oumout h andst opbei ngf or war d) If i ndmy sel fsmi l i ngatt hei rcr azi ness Let hu: " sobr o, whatdoy out hi nkofournew si st eri nl aw? " Lee: " It hi nkshe' sv er yhot " Il ookupathi m, If i ndhi m st ar i ngatme, Il ook backdown, wewer enowwai t i ngf ordeser t Lwazi : " she' smor et hanhotbr o, she' ssexy , she' s beaut i f ul she' s. . . . . Lee: " okay , Igeti t , l et ' sl eav et hosecompl i ment s t ot hehusband. . . . . Theyl augh Gr am: " i mani . . ay i boy azmanxa ndi khumbul a, l oMncedi si engay hi sendke ndi kubonenj e? " ( wai tami nut e, Ij ust r emember edt hi sMncedi si It hi nkI ' v eseeny ou bef or e) OhdearGodshehas Gr am: " eGol i af ewweeksback, y ouboughtback Li saf r om shoppi ng?Yousai dy ouwer eanuber dr i v er ?" Shi tshi tshi t . . . okaynowIf eel t heur get opoop, i si tget t i nghoti nher e? ? Thando: " Uber ! ?Nev ernotmybr ot her" Let hu: " soy ' al l hav emetbef or e?" MrJohnson: " don' tt el l meshe' st hegi r l f r om Jo' bur gy ou' v ebeent al ki ngabout ? " Somebodypl easecomeandr escue me. . Qui nt on! !Wher ear ey ouwhenIneedy ou! ? Gr ams: " y est heot herni ghthedr oppedof fLi sa whenshecamef r om shoppi ng, hesai dhewas herdr i v er , whenLi sawasst i l l engagedt o Qui nt on" Nooo! ! Mr sJohnson: " ohQui nt on, Ir emembery ou t el l i ngmeabouthi m gogo, sor r yt hatt hi ngshad t oendl i ket hatLi sa" Lee: " Engaged?" Fuckenhel l !I st hi ssomesor tofmomentof t r ut h? Enhl ecomesback Enhl e: " Ihear dQui nt on' sname? " Let hu: " oohhy eahi sn' tt haty ourexboy f r i end?" MrJohnson: " wai twai twai tami nut e, l etmeget t hi sst r ai ght . . . .So, Li sawasengagedt o Qui nt on. . . . .Whi cht hi sQui nt oni sal soEnhl e' s boy f r i end. . .Att hesamet i met hi sLi sawasal so dat i ngmySon?Whi l eengagedt oQui nt on?who wasmydaught er ' sboy f r i end?andnowshe' s gonnamar r ymyson?whom happenst obeher exf i ancé' sgi r l f r i end' sbr ot her ?whowi l l nowbe hersi st eri nl aw? " IknowIshoul dn' tbef eel i ngl i kel aughi ngbutI am abi t Ther oom f al l ssi l entasev er y onegott hei rey es onme, r i ghtnowwoul dbeagoodt i mef ort hi s f l oort oopenandbur ymedeepdeepi nt ot he wor l doft heunl i v i ng Enhl e: " wai t ?Soy ouar et heLi sahewas pl anni ngoni nt r oduci ngmet o?Thef ar m gi r l r oommat e?" Di dshej ustcal l meaf ar m gi r l ? . . . okayl et ' s br usht hatof f , It hi nknowwoul dbeagoodt i me t ot el l t het r ut h, i fI ' ml uckyt hi sf ami l ywi l l want not hi ngt odowi t hmeandt hey ' l l sendme packi ng, ohmyGodt hi scanact ual l ybemy t i cketoutoft hi shousef orgood!WowGod wor ksi nmy st er i ousway si ndeed! Gr ams: " Li sa, pl easet el l mewhat ' sgoi ngon? " Isi gh Me: " okayI ' l l t el l y ' al l ev er y t hi ng. . . . whenIf i r stgot t oJo' bur gIhadnopl acet ost aysoIbumped i nt oQui nt onwhenhesav edmyl i f ef r om t hugs, het ookmei nandof f er edmeapl acet ost ayf or f r eei nhi sapar t menthel etmest ayal onef ora y eart i l l Iwascomf or t abl ear oundhi m, hemov ed backi nhi sf l atwi t hmet hi sy ear , andwe' v e becomet hebestoff r i ends, sot henmygr ams t ol dmeshei sdy i ngsoonIwasdev ast at ed, Qui nt onwast her et osuppor tmeasaf r i end, we nev erdat ed, ar oundt hatt i met hat ' swhenhe wasdat i ngEnhl e, hewant edust omeetbut somet hi ngal way scameupt hat ' swhyenhl e andIdon' tknoweachot her , asday swentby st ay i ngt oget herwegr ewcl oser , sot hengr ams t ol dmeIhav et ogetmar r i edt oast r angeri n t heJohnsonf ami l y , Icoul dn' tal l owt hat , I ' mt oo y oungf ormar r i age, Ican' tpossi bl ygetmar r i ed, I haddr eamsandagamepl ansor t edoutand mar r i agewoul dr ui nt hat , soIl i edt ogr amsand t ol dherIdon' twantt ogetmar r i edcauseI ' m al r eadyi nar el at i onshi pwi t har i chguysi nceI f i gur edI ' m bei ngsol dt oar i chf ami l y , Il i ed abouthav i ngaboy f r i endandhi sweal t h, when gr amswant edt omeett hi si magi nar yboy f r i end ofmi ne, IaskedQui nt ont obemypr et end boy f r i end, j ustunt i l t hi swhol et hi ngaboutme get t i ngmar r i edt oast r angerbl owsof f , sowe becamepr et endcoupl e, gr amswasi nsi st i ng Qui nt onandIshoul dgetmar r i edsohe pr oposedwewer eev enpl anni ngaf ake weddi ngi fi tgoest hatf arandhewas100% behi ndme, Ij ustwant edt omakegr ams happy , t hatwast het i meImetl i am atschool he caughtmyey eandchar medme, si ncei nmy mi ndIwassi ngl eIt ookmychanceswi t hhi m andf oundt hatIr eal l yl i kehi m, butbackathome Iwascat chi ngf eel i ngsf orQui nt onf orr eal al l t hepr et endi ngdi dn' tf eel l i kepr et endi ng any mor e, wewer ebot hcat chi ngf eel i ngs, and t hechemi st r ybet weenuswast ool oud, whi l e t hatwasgoi ngonmygr amst ol dmeIcan' t mar r yQui nt oncauseshej ustf oundoutt hat shesi gnedacont r actwhi chy ' al l di dn' tbot hert o expl ai nt oher , t hathergr anddaught erwi l l hav e t omar r yi nt hi sf ami l y , sowehadt obr eak t hi ngsof f , t hepr et endi ng, t hat ' swhenIt hought myl i f ei sov erIcr i edt hewhol eni ghtQui nt on wast her et ocomf or tmeasal way s, t hat ' swhen weconf essedourl ov ef oreachot her , buti twas t ool at e. . . " Il ookatgr amswhol ooksv er ydi sappoi nt ed Me: " I ' m sosor r ymakhul u, butIdi dn' twantt oget mar r i ed, andatt hesamet i meIwant edt omake y ouhappy " Enhl e: " y ousuchahy pocr i t e!Qui nt onwasr i ght abouty ou, y ouj ustal owl i f el owcl assbi t ch who' sbeennot hi ngbutahandf ul t ohi m, y ou l y i ngQui nt onnev erl ov edy ou, heal way st ol dme howy ousoi r r i t at i ngandal way swanthi m homeear l yandhowhi ssi cknt i r edi fhav i ngt o r epor tt oy ouev er y wher ehegoes, henev er l ov edy ougi r l , hi swayoutofy ourl eague. . y ouar ej ustdegr adi nghi sl i f eandy ouhol di ng hi m back. . He' smi neandI ' l l makesur eIgethi m back , nxa! " Shest or msof f . . wai t , di dQui nt onr eal l ysayal l t hataboutme?No, hewoul dn' t , wowt hatr eal l y st ung, Idon' tknowwhatt of eel any mor e MrJohnson: " y oht hati sonet wi st edupst or y " Hechuckl es, t henst ar t sl aughi ngabi the l aughsev enmor e, t hewi f ej oi nsi n, l wazi al so l aughsnextt hi ngIknowev er y onei sl aughi ng ev engr ams, okayI ' m conf used, Il ookatLi am he i snotl aughi ngatal l hej ustl ooksi r r i t at ed Heexcuseshi msel f Mr sJohnson: " y ourst or ymakesal otofsense mybaby , i fIwer ei ny ourshoesI ' dhav e pr obabl ydonet hesamet hi ng" Let hu: " wowt hi si sal l j ustsocoi nci dent al damn" Me: " canIpl easebeexcused" Idi dn' twai tf ort hem t oanswerImademyway t ot hebedr oom andt hr ewmy sel fi nbedt hey t ookt hatwel l t hanIexpect ed, I ' m nev erget t i ng outofher e, Ican' tbel i ev eEnhl ei sLi am' s si st er , t hi si ssomessedup, whyam Iso cur sed, whatshoul dIdoi nor dert obehappy Myphoner i ngsdi st ur bi ngmymi ser abl e t hought s Me: " hel l o? " " Heybub, ar ey ouokay ?Youseem down? " If eel al i t t l eexci t ementi nme Me: " OhQui nt on, ev er y t hi ngi ssuchamess" Qui nt on: " whathappenedmybub" Me: " y ouwon' tbel i ev ewhoI ' m get t i ngmar r i ed t o" Qui nt on: " doIknowhi m? " Me: " Yes, y oudo" Hegoesqui et Qui nt on: " Ihopei t snott hatt hat oboy ? " Me: " Nobuty oucl ose" Hekeepsqui et Me: " i t sMncedi si , t heguyIj ustdumped" Her emai nssi l ent Me: " IknowIdi dn' texpecti tt oo, andy ouknow what ' swor se?Gr amsr ecogni zedhi mf r om t he ot herdaybef or eIknewi tbhabhat hewhol e t r ut haboutourpr et endi ngi soutourf ake pl annedmar r i age, Ir eal l yt houghtt heywoul d hatmeorsendmehomeoncet heyknowt he l i esI ' m capabl eofbutIguesst hatwasnot hi ng compar edt ohowev i l t heyar e" Her emai nssi l ent Me: " hel l o?Qui nt ony out her e? Qui nt on: " y esbub, I ' m her e, I ' mj ust shocked, . . . whoasooursecr eti sout , di dgr ams t akei twel l , I ' m sur eshehat esme, Il i edt oher f ace" Me: " wel l Idotknowi fshe' sj ustf r ont i ngf ort he Johnsonsorshest aki ngi twel l , It hi nkLi am di dn' tt akei twel l hel ookedmadev enexcused hi msel f" Qui nt on: " asl ongasgr amsdi dn' tgoal l hear t at t ackonus. . . Icoul dn' tcar el eeshowt hat mnceshi si f eel s" Igi ggl e Me: " Ij ustwantt ogetoutofher e, f eel sl i keI ' v e beenher ef ory ear s" Qui nt on: " hangi nt her ebabyI ' m al r eadywor ki ng oni t . . . pl easedomeaf av ourandal way swear y ourneckl acewi t hy ou, wher ev ery ougo, asa r emi nderofhowmuchIl ov ey ouandt hatI ' m al way st her ewi t hy ouwher ev ery ougo" Me: " aaawww, t hat ' ssosweetbabe, I ' m act ual l y wear i ngi tr i ghtnow, I ' m nev ert aki ngi tof fonl y whenIbat h. . . Imi ssy ousomuch" Qui nt on: " y oumi ssedbymel ov e, I ' m cr av i ngf or y ourl i psr i ghtnowandy ourt ouch" Me: " y out ur ni ngmeonQ" Qui nt on: " wi shIcoul dr unmyhandsal l ov er y oursexyt ur nedonsel f " Amoanescapesmymout h, myt ummyi si nnot asIf eel bubbl es Me: " pl easel et ' snotcar r yonwi t ht hi s conv er sat i on" Hel aughsatme Me: " ohIal mostf or gott ot el l y ou. . . y ouwon' t bel i ev ewhoi spar toft hi sf ami l y" Qui nt on: " who? " Me: " Mi nenhl e" Qui nt on: " asi nEnhl e? " Me: " y ept hatone, she' sMncedi si ' ssi st er " Qui nt on: " what ?No" Me: " I ' mt el l i ngy ou, sonowwhent het r ut hcame outshewasf ur i ous, si nceIal soment i onedt hat weki ndoff el l i nl ov e, shewasf umi ng" Qui nt on: " y out ol dherwel ov eeachot her ? " Me: " y eah, wel l notheronl yIwast el l i ngt hest or y t oev er y one, Ihadt ol ett hem knowt hatmy hear ti swi t hsomeoneel sesoi fInev erl ov e t hei rsonatl eastt heyknowwhy " Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " y oushoul dn' thav ement i onedt hatwe ar ei nl ov e" Me: " why ? " Qui nt on: " t hatwi l l ki ndofmessupmypl ant o comegety ou. . . ohbub. . buti t sokayI ' l l comeup wi t hsomet hi ngel se" Me: " I ' m sosor r y , att hatt i mei tseemedl i kemy onewayt i cketout " Qui nt on: " IguessEnhl ei snott aki ngt hebr eak upwel l ?nott hatIcar eany way " I shechecki nguponhert hr oughme? Me: " Idon' tknowandIdon' tcar e, wedi dn' tget of font her i ghtf ootandIdon' tt hi nkwe' l l ev er getal ong. . y ouwon' tbel i ev eal l t hel i esshe madeupabouty ou" Qui nt on: " l i es?Whatdi dshesay ? " Me: " shet ol dmehowmuchy oudi sl i keme, t hat y ousai dI ' m al owl i f el owcl assbi t chwho' s beennot hi ngbutahandf ul t oy ou, howy ouar e sof edupwi t hmet haty ouhav et or epor tt ome ev er y t hi ngy oudot hatI ' mj ustdegr adi ngy our l i f eandI ' m hol di ngy oubacki nl i f ecausey ou hav et of eedme. . . If eel t ear st hr eat eni ngmyv oi cebr eaki ng Me: " ar ghj ustsai dal otofmeant hi ngs, Ihat e her , butIknowshewasl y i ngcauseshe' s j eal ousmay be. . . r i ght ? " Her emai nssi l ent Me: " y oudi dn' tr eal l ysayt hoset hi ngsabout me. . . . r i ght ? " Qui nt on: " uhm. . . l ookLi sa. . . " Me: " ohno. . ( gasps) . . y oudi d. . shewasr i ght . . " Qui nt on: " bubl i st ent ome, Idi dn' tmean. . . . Ij ust sai dt hoset hi ngssot hat . . . . Me( whi sper s) : "buty ousai dt hem. . . . . shewas r i ght . . . . I . .It houghty oul ov eme? " Qui nt on: " Li sspl easel i st ent ome. . .Il ov ey ou. . I . Me: " No, peopl edon' tsayt hoset hi ngsabout peopl et heyl ov e. . . ar ghIcan' tdot hi sr i ghtnow" Qui nt on: " bub. . . . Idr opt hecal l andcr ymyl ungsout , Ihat e my sel f , obv i ousl yi twast oogoodt obet r ue, al l t hatl ov ewast oof ai r y t al ef oragi r l l i keme, I ' m notdeser v i ngofl ov e, onl yhear t acheand endl esspr obl ems "Li sa?Ar ey ouokay ? " Iheart hedoorcl ose, I ' m sl eepi ngonmyt ummy wi t hmyheadbur i edi nmyar m Ishakemehead, I ' m cr y i ngoutl oud If eel hi m si tnextt ome Lee: " Iknowt hi si sal l t oomuch, Icanj ust i magi nei tmustbemor ehar dony ou" Me: " I ' mt i r edLee, I ' mt i r edofev er y t hi ng, I ' m t i r edofl i v i ng" Lee: " hey ydon' tsayt hat , pl easest op cr y i ng. . comeher e" Isi tupandl ookathi m hepassesmet i ssuet o bl owmynoset henpul l edmecl oset ohi m, I cr i edonhi schest Lee: " Inev erwant edt ogetmar r i edLi sa, speci al l yatt hi sageanddef i ni t el ynotar r anged f or , buti thappenedandapar tofmei sv er y exci t edt oknowt hati t sy ou, I ' m notper f ectLi sa t r ustmeIhav emyf l aws, butIst i l l f eel t hesame wayIf el tabouty ouwhenIf i r stsawy ou, Iwant ust oputasi deourdi f f er encesandwor k t owar dsmaki ngour sel v eshappyandnot any oneel se, nowt hatwear ef or cedt oget mar r i edI ' m notgoi ngt ot r eaty ouanydi f f er ent , t her ul eswesetoutwhenwewer edat i ngst i l l appl y , l i ket aki ngt hi ngssl ow, I ' m notgoi ngt o r ushy oui nt oany t hi ngy ounotr eadyf or , west i l l goi ngt ogot hr ought hephaseofget t i ngt o knoweachot her , I ' l l gi v ey out hosesi xt hi ngs y ouaskedf r om me. . whatwer et heyagai n?Oh . . l ov e, t r ust , honest y , communi cat i on, company , andl oy al t y , wi t ht hosesi xt hi ngs, y ou' l l bet he mosti mpr essedgi r l i nt hewor l d. . . r emember t hat ? " Ichuckl ebet weent hehi ccupsandt ear s Me: " y our eal l yagoodl i st ener " Lee: " i t shar dnott ol i st ent oaBeaut yl i ke y our sel f " Me: " I ' m sor r yf oral l t hel i es" Lee: " i t st ot al l yunder st andabl e. . . .ButI ' m gonna needy out oatl eastpl easet r yt ouncat cht he f eel i ngsy oucaughtf ory ourf r i end" HaaanoIcan' tdot hat , Il ov eQui nt ont ot he gr av e, al t houghI ' m st i l l v er ymadathi m Me: " Iwi l l , I ' l l t r yt obet hebestwi f eIcanbe" Lee: " pl easedon' tt r yt oohar dy oust i l l t ooy oung f ort hat , I ' m al soal l owedt ocookf or y ou, al t houghy ouwi l l doi tmostoft he t i me, somet i mesi fy out oot i r edwecangoeat outoror deri n, wewi l l gooutonal otof dat es, y oudon' thav et ochanget hewayy ou dr ess, j ustknowi mmaki l l ani gart hatt r i eshi s l uck, t heycandr ool butt hat ' sal l t hey ' l l ev erdo notal l owedt ot ouch" Il augh Me: " okay . . . y esSi r" Lee: " l et ' smaket hi soneoft hebestmar r i agesi n t hewor l d. . shal l we? " Me: " y esweshal l " Lee: " okayf i r stofal l sot hatwedon' tf eel l i kewe t ot al l yf or ced, wehav et of eel l i kewehav ea say , sol etmedot hi s" Hemakesmest andont hebedt henheget s downononeknee Lee: " Li sakhany aMt het hwa, woul dy oupl ease makemet hel ucki estmanonear t handbemy wi f e?" Hewhi sper sunder neat hhi st eet h" pl easesay y espl easesayy es" Ibur sti nt ol aught er Me: " YesLi am Mncedi si Johnson, I ' l l bey our wi f e" Hepi ckedmeupandj umpedont opoft hebed andwef el l hef el l ont opofme Me: " ouchy ousoheav y " Heki ssedmeal l ov ermyf ace Me( gi ggl i ng) : " st op. . getof fme! " Lee( ki ssi ngmyf ace) : " t hanky out hanky out hanky ou!" Hegotof fme Me: " geezman, y ousodr amat i c" Hel aughedt henwentt ot hebat hr oom t ot akea shower , he' snotgoi ngt osl eepher ei she Me: " ar ey ousl eepi ngher e! ? " Hewasi nt hebat hr oom whi l eIwasshout i ng f r om t her oom Lee: " No!I ' l l sl eepi nt heguestr oom, appar ent l y wenotal l owedt osl eept oget hert i l l wemar r i ed " Me: " andwet aki ngt hi ngssl ow! " Hechuckl es Lee: " andt hatt oo" Il aughasIcheckmyphoneandIhav e messagesf r om Yonel a " Li sa, I ' mr eal l ysor r yaboutt hewayIt r eat ed y ou, canwepl easemeet , t her e' ssomet hi ngy ou hav et oknowaboutme, t her eal r easont hathas mademesobi t t ert owar dsy ou, wheny ouhav e t het i mepl easet el l me, Ir eal l ywantust of i x t hi ngsInev ermeantt hosemeant hi ngsIsai d . . . Imi ssy ousomuch" Isi ghandt hr owmybackont hebed, t hi xocel a undi boni seukukhany anendl el ael ugi l ey o( God pl easeshowmet hel i ghtandl eadmet hr ough t her i ghtway )Idon' tknowwho' sgotmyback andwhodoesn' tany mor e, I ' m al one . . . . . who' sr eal l ygotLi sa' sback? . . keepr eadi ngand we' l l soonf i ndout . . . . Lol don' tl ett hePr of i l epi c f ool y ou [ 07/ 28, 17: 00]W: I nser t20 LI SA I ' m wokenupbyar i ngi ngphoneIgr abi tand checkt het i me, i t sst i l l mi dni ghtandi t sQui nt on, what ' sdoeshewanti nt hemi ddl eoft heni ght Me: " l ow" Qui nt on: " sor r yt odi st ur by oursl eep" Me: " whatdoy ouwantQui nt on?" Qui nt on: " Ican' tsl eep" Me: " so?Whydon' ty oucal l Enhl eandsweett al k herabouthat i ngmecauseshedesper at el y want sy ouback" Qui nt on: " pl easedon' tsayt hatLi ss. . .Al l t hose t hi ngsIsai dabouty out oherwer ej ustt o pr ot ectheri nsecur i t i es, Inev ermeantt hem, I l ov ey ouandIr egr etsay i ngal l t hosemean t hi ngs, she' scr azyLi ssev er y t i meI ' m wi t hher she' daskmet osaysomet hi ngmeanabouty ou sot hatshedoesn' tgetj eal ousofy ou" Wowshe' saphy schobi t ch Qui nt on: " Li ssImadesur eIwashmymout h ev er yt i meIcamebackf r om her , i fy ounot i ced whenIcomebackI ' df i r stbr ushmyt eet h bef or et al ki ngt oy ou, Ihat emy sel ff orev er ybad wor dI ' v eev ersai dabouty ou, pl easef or gi v eme bub" Me: " Idon' tknowQui nt on, y oumi ghtnothav e meantt hem butt heysoundsot r ue, t heywer e notmadeup" Qui nt on: " bub, t heyar enott r ue, y out het ot al opposi t eofal l t hat , y oudon' tdegr ademe, baby ev ersi nceImety ouI ' v ebeenupgr adedy ou mademewannabecomeabet t ermanandy ou st i l l do, y oucamei nt omyl i f eandIhadnot hi ng mucht oof f ert oy oubuty oual way st hanked meandappr eci at edal l t hel i t t l et hi ngsIof f er ed mademef eel l i keIgav ey out hewor l d, y oudon' t hol dmebacki nst eady oui nspi r emet odo gr eatt hi ngs, y esy ouf r om t hef ar msbut , y out he beaut i f ul ki ndaf ar m gi r l l i keHannaMont ana. . . . . Igi ggl e Qui nt on: "andwhenIsai dl owcl assl owl i f e, I meanty ounotf or war dandy ounotagol d di ggerwhol i kesexpensi v et hi ngs, y ou' r eadown t oear t hki ndandcar i ngsoul . . . . y ouseeLi sa, al l t hoset hi ngsIsai dabouty ouImadet hem soundbadt oEnhl ebutdeepdownwhi l eIwas say i ngt hat , t hi si swhatIr eal l ymeant . . . Iknowi t doesn' tj ust i f ymebadmout hi ngy oucauset he f actst i l l r emai nsi st hatt hosewer enotni ce t hi ngst osay , shewasj ustsoj eal oust hatIl i v e wi t hagi r l , andwhenI ' dsaynast yt hi ngsabout y oushe' dbecomemor ecomf or t abl eandI di dn' twanthercomi ngcl oset oy ou, t hr eat eni ng y ouany how. . . . .I ' m sosor r ymybub, pl easef i nd i ti ny ourbi ghear tt of or gi v eme?" Ir emai nqui et . . . . I ' v eal r eadyf or gi v enhi m, butI wanthi mt obegme, Il ov ei twhenhebegs Qui nt on: " bub. . . pl easeI ' m sor r y , Idi dn' tmean i t , pl easeIcan' thav eapeacef ul sl eepwhi l ey ou st i l l angr yatme. . " Ikeepmymout hshut Qui nt on: " comeonmyQueen, Il ov ey ouandonl y y ou, I ' l l nev ersaymeant hi ngswhet heri t st o pr ot ecty ouornot . . . . I ' m al r eadyt or t ur edenough bynothav i ngy ouher ebymysi de, Ican' thav e y ounotbymysi deandangr yatmeatt hesame t i me, t hat ' shear tabuse. . . . bub. Me: . . . ( Isi gh) . . . Qui nt on: "bubbywam? ?Thambol am l e pol ony ? . . . . sqedeSam? " I ' m bl ushi ngl i kecr azynow. Yeaht hat ' swhatIwant ed Me: " nev eragai nQui nt on" Qui nt on: " nev erev erev erev erev eragai n. . . Ev er ! " Me( l aughi ng) : " don' tf or getEv er ! " Qui nt on: " andt heev erev er " Me: " ev er " Qui nt on: " f or ev erandev er " Webur sti nt ol aught er Qui nt on: " y esssf i nal l yIcangetmybeaut y sl eep" Me( gi ggl i ng) : " t hat ' ssogaydude" Qui nt on( gi r l yt one) : " what ev eeeer " Il aughoutl oud Qui nt on: " ohhhmybubi sl aughi ng, t hi si st he bestmi dni ghtev er " Me: " goodni ghti di ot " Qui nt on: " f i r stki ssy ouri di ot " Me: " mmmmnnnnccwwwaaaaaa! " Qui nt on: " ohy es, t hatwast hebestki ssI ' v eev er r ecei v edi nmywhol el i f e" Me: " t hebestev er ! ? " Qui nt on: " t hebestev erev erev erev erev er ! " Me: " wi l l r emai nt hebestf or ev erandev erev er !" Qui nt on: " andwi l l Iev ergetmysl eep now. . . ev er ? " Me: " nev erev er " Qui nt on: " goshi st hi susual l yhowmuchi thur t s t omi sssomeone? " Me: " i thur t ssobad. .ButI ' l l becomi ngback soon, af t ert hi sweekendwhent heydonewi t h t hel obol at hi ngy " Qui nt on: " ar ghIhat et hi s" Me: " Ihat ei tt ooQui nt on, what ev ery ou pl anni ngbet t erdoi tf ast " Qui nt on: " I ' m st i l l di ggi ngupsomei nf or mat i on aboutt hem, myguywi l l t el l meev er y t hi ngabout t hem i naweekst i me" Me: " sol ong! ? " Qui nt on: " appar ent l yt heyar ev er ysecr et , t hey ar enoteasyt ohack, I ' v eal r eadyt r i edandI al mostgotbust edt heyhi ghl ysecur ed" Me: " whi chmeanst heymusthav eal ott o hi de. . . " Qui nt on: " exact l y , t hat ' swhyI ' m sowor r i ed abouty oui nt hatf ami l y . .Idon' tt r ustt hem" Me: " t heyseem l i keagoodf ami l yt hough" Qui nt on: " t hat ' swhatt heyseem l i ke. . Ij ustdon' t t r ustt hem, speci al l yt hatmncahi . . . ar ghwhat ev er hi snamei s" Me: " why ?Causey oudon' tl i kehi m? " Qui nt on: " notj ustt hat . . notbecausehe' swi t h y ou.Ij ustdon' tt r usthi m, Idon' tknowwhy " Me: " Iguesswe' l l soonf i ndout " Qui nt on( y awns) : " y eahIguessso" Me: " goodni ghtl ov ebug" Qui nt on: " mmmhdon' thanguppl ease" Me: " y oust i l l wannat al k? " Ihearhi m aj usthi msel fasi fhei sget t i ng comf or t abl e Qui nt on: " pl easesi ngf orme, t i l l If al l asl eep" Me: "y ousuchababyQ" Qui nt on: " I ' my ourbaby , nowcomeon, si ngf or mebub" Me: " whi chsong? " Qui nt on: " any onebabe, pl easemakei t l ong. . . makesur eIdr eam abouty ou" Me: " heheheokay , howaboutmyIwannagr ow ol dwi t hy ou? " Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " Mmmhmustber omant i c, l etmehear i t . . . i fIgomut eony ou, i tmeansI ' m al r eady dr eami ngabouty ouokay ? " Me: " okay . . . . cl osey ourey esandl i st encar ef ul l y mysunshi ne" Hel aughst hensi ghsheav i l y Isl i dedownt hecov er sandsl eepcomf or t abl yI cl osemyey esasIputmyphoneonmyearand st ar tsi ngi ngsof t l y Me( si ngi ng) : " Anot herdaaayWi t houty our smi l e. . . . . Anot herdaaayj ustpassesby ButnowIknooow Howmuchi tmeeeans Fory out ost aaayRi ghther ewi t hme Thet i mewespendapar twi l l makeourl ov e gr owst r ongeeer Buti thur t ssobadIcan' tt akei tanyl ongeeer Iwannagr owol dwi t hy oou Iwannadi el y i ngi ny ourar ms Iwannagr owol dwi t hy ou Iwannabel ooki ngi ny ourey es Iwannabet her ef ory ou Shar i ngi nev er y t hi ngy oudo Iwannagr owol dwi t hy ou Qui nt on( i nt er r upt i ng) : " nowIwi shy ouwer e r i ghther enextt ome" Me( si ngi ng) : At housandmi i i i l es bet weenusnow I tcausesmet owondeerhow Ourl ov et oni ghtr emai nssost r ong I tmakesourr i skr i ghtal l al ong Thet i mewespendapar twi l l makeourl ov e gr owst r ongeeer Buti thur t ssobadIcan' tt akei tanyl ongeeer Iwannagr owol dwi t hy ou Iwannadi el y i ngi ny ourar ms Iwannagr owol dwi t hy ou Iwannabel ooki ngi ny ourey es Iwannabet her ef ory ou Shar i ngi nev er y t hi ngy oudo Iwannagr owol dwi t hy ou Qui nt on( i nt er r upt i ng) : " Bub. . Imi ssy ousobad now" Me( si ngi ng) : Thi ngscancomeandgo IknowbutBabyIbel i eeev e Somet hi ng' sbur ni ngst r ongbet weenusMakes i tcl eart ome Iwannabel ooki ngi ny ourey es Iwannabet her ef ory ou Shar i ngi nev er y t hi ngy oudo Iwannagr owol dwi t hy ou . . . Me: " Il ov ey ouQui nt on" Qui nt on: . . . . . ( snor s) . . Igi ggl ehe' ssl eepi ng Me: " sweetdr eamsl ov ebug" Idon' tdr opt hecal l , i twi l l dr opi t sel fwhenhi s ai r t i mef i ni shes, f ornowsi nceIcan' twat chhi m sl eep, Iwi l l j usthearhi m sl eep * * * * * * * * * I ' m nowf i ni shi ngof fdr essi ngup, Idi dn' tknow whatt owearconsi der i ngI ' mi nt hehouseoft he i nl aws, soIj ustputonmyl onggr eenf l or al dr ess, Iputmygr eenl i ghtscar far oundmyhead asadoekt henl ef tsomeofmyhai rshowi ng, I l ef tmyf aceasi ti swi t hnosor tofmakeup, i t s notl i keI ' m goi ngany wher eandi ft heynot happywi t hmewi t hnomakeuphoor ayal l t he mor er easont osendmehome. Imakemywayt ot hedi nni ngr oom wher e ev er y onei senj oy i ngbr eakf astIgr eatev er y one t henj oi ni nasIsi tnextt osnakhoagai n Snakho: " l ookAunt yLi sa. . . I ' mf i ni shi ngmyf ood" Me: " wowy ousur ey ouat eal l t hatbyy our sel f ?" Shenodsr epeat edl y Snakho: "daddysay si fIf i ni shal l myf ood, I ' l l hav esomechocol at e" Me: " r eal l y ?Wi l l y oushar ewi t hme? " Shemakesat hi nki ngf acemaki ngmewantt o l augh Snakho: " okay ! " Icl apmyhandsexci t edl y Me: " YaY! " Snakho: " buty oumustf i ni shy ourf oodf i r st , so y oucanbeabi ggoodgi r l l i keme" Il augh Me: " okayl etmegetst ar t edt hen" Theywer el aughi ngatourconv er sat i on Lwazi : " Iseemypr i ncessl i kesy ou" Ohsoi t shi schi l d Me: " Il i kehert oo" Gr ams: " Li sa, f anel euzi qhel i seukuv ukakuqal a kunamnt uwonke, kal okunguweumakot i bek' f anel ebasi phekel wenguwei si dl o sasekseni " ( Li say oushoul dl ear nt owakeup ear l i ert hanev er y oneel se, si ncey ouar et he wi f e, y oushoul d' v epr epar edbr eakf ast ) Me: " oh. . I ' m sosor r y , i twon' thappenagai n" Mr sJohnson: " i t sokaydearwehav eenough hel per sany way , andbesi desy oust i l l y oung y ou' l l l ear nasy ougo" Justt hent hef ourdaught er smaket hei rwayt o t het abl el ooki ngdr ai nedashel l st i l l i nt hei rPJs Them: " mor ni ngf am! " Theysi tandbr eakf astwasser v edt ot hem Enhl e: " wowy oust i l l her e? " Mr sJohnson: " Hl ehl ebeni cet uu" Enhl e: " what ev er" Sher ol l sherey es, mxm Let hu: " ohLi sawheny oudoneher ecany ou pl easegety our sel fbeaut i f ul Iwantt ot akey ou outSHOPPI I I I NG!" Il augh Me: " Idon' tknow, Ihav esomanyt hi ngst odo" Thando: " butsi sLet huy ousai di twasj ustgoi ng t obeourdayt oday " Let hu: " comeont hando, we' v ehadsomany' our day s' t odayIwantt oshowLi saar ound. . . so mucht odo?Li kewhat ? " Me: " Ihav et odot hemakot i dut i es" Let hu: " ohcomeony ounotev enmar r i edy et . . . Mah? " Mr sJohnson: " ohpl easeLi sadon' tst r ess y our sel fwi t ht hat , y oul adi esgohav ef un" " Fun?Di dIhearpeopl et al ki ngabouthav i ngf un wi t houtme? " Mcedi si makeshi swayt owar dsusl ooki ng dashi ngi nsmar tcasual asi fhe' sgoi ng somewher ehecomest owar dsmeandt al kst o Snakho Lee: " Nakho. .CanIpl easesi ther e? " Snakho: " No. . t hi si smypl ace! " Shef ol dsherar ms. . . hehehet hedr ama!She' s soador abl e Lwazi : " comesi tnextt oy ourki ngPr i ncess" Snakho: " butIwantt osi tnextt oAunt yLi sa! " Lee: " butAunt yLi sai smypr i ncess" Snakho: " ar ey ouherPr i nce? " Henods Snakho: " hhmmm okay ! " Shej umpsof ft osi tnextt oherdad Lee: " f i nal l y . . .Goodmor ni ngPr i ncess" Heki ssesmycheek Me: " goodmor ni ng" Let hu: " Li saandIar egoi ngt ot hemal l " Lee: " i nt er est i ng, wi shIcoul dt agal ong but . . . wor k" Let hu: " y ouwer en' ti nv i t edany way " Il augh Me( sof t l y ) : " oohhbuur r n" Weal l l augh Lee: " ohsoi t sl i ket hatnow?Iwonderwher ewi l l y ougett heext r acash" Let hu: " ohcomeonIwasj oki ngy ouknowy ou al way si nv i t ed. . . .ButEi shy ouhav et owor k" Lee: " mxm notget t i nganymoneyf r om me" Let hu: " Li sawor ky ourPr i ncessmagi cony our pr i ncet uu" Il ookathi m hel ooksatmewi t hasi l l ygr i n Me: " myPr i nce. . . ( Iwhi speri nhi sear ) . . Ineed l i nger i e. . sexyl i nger i e" Hesmi r ksandchuckl es Lee: " f i neI ' l l t r ansf ery ' al l somet hi ng" Let hu: " ohmy , whatdi dy out el l hi m? " Enhl e: " pl easedon' tshar et hati nf o, Idon' twanna t hr owup" Thandol aughs Lee: " don' tpi ssmeof fEnhl e, nxa. . . excuseme f am Ihav et ogetgoi ngbef or edadcal l s" Hepecksmyf or ehead Lee: " I ' l l seey oul at er " Hewal ksaway Wecar r yonsi t t i ngt her eov erl i ght conv er sat i ons Theadul t sandl wazi wi t hsnakhoexcused t hemsel v esi twasj ustusgi r l sar oundt het abl e Me: " heySandr a, y ouawf ul l yqui et , don' ty ouwant t oj oi nuswhenwegot ot hemal l ? " Sheshakesherhead Sandr al ooksbeaut i f ul andcr eepyshe' ssodar k shel i kesbl ack, y est er dayshewaswear i ng bl ackev ent odayshe' swear i ngbl ackPJs Me: " comeoni t ' l l bef un, pl ease" Sandr a: " no" I t sl i keshehasnoemot i onsatal l Me: " whynotdoy ouhav eot herpl ans? " Sandr a: " no" Me: " t heny oushoul dcomewi t hus" Enhl e: " ar ghar ey oudeaforsomet hi ng?She sai dno, nowl eav eheral one" Me: " Iwast al ki ngt oSandr a" Enhl e: " wel l I ' mt el l i ngy ou, bi t ch" Let hu: " ay i Enhl ekawumet uu( st op) Thando: "whyy oudef endi ngher ?Shecant ake car eofher sel f" Let hu: " Li sal et ' sgot omyr oom" If ol l owhert ot her oom, ar eal l bedr oomsher e ensui t s?I t sbeaut i f ul pi nkandwhi t e Let hu: " pl easedon' tpaymuchat t ent i ont omy si st er , she' sj ustbi t t er " Me: " don' tev enst r essaboutt hat , I ' m nott her e any mor e" Let hu: " good. . . Idon' tknowwhybutIl i key ou, I f eel l i kewewi l l getal ong" Me: " Il i key out oo, l etmegogetr eadywhi l ey ou f r eshenup" Igot omyr oom andchangei nt osomet hi ng t hatsay s" mal l "whi chwoul dbeni ghtwai st j eansandawhi t et ee, l ef tmyhai rl ooseand appl i edl i pst i ckaf t erf i xi ngmyf aceIgot oLet hu butbumpi nt ot handoonmyway Me: " ohsor r y . . ( l aughs) . . cl umsyme" Thando: " y eahcl umsyy ou, notonl ydeafbut bl i ndt oo" Shel ooksatmeupanddown Thando: " soonshe' l l getbor edofy out hen comebackt ome" Me( conf used) : " whatar ey out al ki ngabout " Thando: " I ' v eal way sbeenherf av our i t eand al way swi l l " Shecl i ckshert ongueandwal ksaway Okaywhatwast hatabout ? If i ndLet hual l r eadyshepuf f smesomeofher per f umet henwemakeourwayout Let hu: " j umpon! " WowIdi dnotexpecthert obedr i v i ngt hi scar anAudi R8V10. . shi t ! Igeti n Me: " wowy ourcari ssoni ce" Let hu( l aughi ng) : " don' tbesi l l y , t hi si sdad' scar wej ustbor r owi ngi t " Il augh Me: " whi t outhi sper mi ssi on?" Let hu: " wel l I ' mt aki ngadv ant ageatt hef acthe l i kesy ousohewon' tmi nd" Shegi ggl esandspeedsof f , t hespeedoft hi s cari soutoft hi swor l d Idi dn' tknowl et huwassuchashoppi ng f r eak, myl egsar eki l l i ngmewe' v ebeeni nand outat housandshops, butnowwegr abbi ng somet hi ngt oeatatspur Me: " t hi si sourl astst opt henhome" Let hu: " comeont her e' st hi s. . Me: "Nonol et huwe' v ebeenher ef orhour s, we goi nghome" Shehuf f sandwecar r yoneat i ngov erl i ght conv er sat i on Let hu: " sot henhechoseherov erme, cany ou bel i ev ei t ?Af t erev er y t hi ngI ' v edonef orhi m? Ungr at ef ul pr i ck" Me: " doy ouf eel l i keheowesy ou, f orev er y t hi ng y ou' v edonef orhi m? " Let hu: " hel l y eahi fi twasn' tf ormehewoul dbe somewher eIdon' tknow" Me: " whati fhewasf or cedsomehowt ochoose t heot hergi r l . . woul dy oust i l l hat ehi m? " Let hu: " y es, causei fhel ov edmehewoul d' v e doneany t hi ngt ochooseme" Isi gh Let hu: " ar ey ouwor r i edabouty our f r i end? . . Qui nt on? " Inod Me: " I ' m af r ai dhe' l l hat emeatsomepoi nt , t hat he' l l gett i r edof. . . . . . . nev ermi nd" " Wel l wel l wel l i fi ti sn' tt hepr eci ousJohnson pr i ncess" Wel ookupatt heper son, wowwhatabeaut y Let hu( i r r i t at ed) : " whatdoy ouwantLul ama" Lul ama: " t hat ' showi t sl i kenow, nowt hatI ' m not wi t hy ourbr ot herany mor ey oudon' twant any t hi ngt odowi t hme? " Let hu: " j ustl eav eman" Lul ama: " weusedt obesocl oseLet hu, Idi dn' t knowbr eaki ngupwi t hy ourbr ot hermeans br eaki ngourf r i endshi p" Let hu: " i t snotj ustt hat , y ouknowwhaty ou di d, howy oubet r ay edourt r ust . . I ' m sur pr i sed y oust i l l al i v eaf t ert hebet r ay al y oudonet owar d myf ami l y " Lul ama: " IknowIwaswr ong, butLet huIwantt o maket hi ngsr i ghtwi t hMncedi si , Il ov ehi m so muchandt her e' ssomet hi ngi mpor t antIhav et o t el l hi m" Ichokeonmyf ood, Icought i l l Iwasbet t ert hen si ponmyj ui ce Let hu: " Idon' tseehow' st hatanyofmy busi ness. . . . j ustst ayawayf r om mybr ohe' s happywi t houty ouandhe' sget t i ngmar r i edt o t hi sbeaut i f ul l adyher e, soj ustbuzzof fandget al i f e" Lul ama: " he' sget t i ngmar r i ed?Toher ? " Shebur st si nt ol aught er Me: " Let huIt hi nkweshoul dl eav enow" Let hu: " goodi dea" West andupandl eav eherst andi ngt her e Lul ama( shout i ng) : " I ' l l gethi m back, y ouj ust wat ch! " Wepayt hebi l l andheadout , wenowbyt he par ki ngl ot , onl yt hesoundofherheel swer e maki nganoi se Me: " Ihat ebasementpar ki ngt heycr eepy " Let hu: " y our i ght " Wehearsomet hi ngf al l andwest ar t l ewer un t owar dst hecaranddr i v eawayl i st eni ngt o musi candl aughi ng Me: " heyi si tj ustmeort hatcarhasbeen f ol l owi ngussi ncewewer egoi ngt ot hemal l ? " Let hu: " y ounot i cedt oo" Wel ookateachot heri nf eart henshehi t st he accel er at esandspeedsof ft hecarspeedst oo Me: " ohmyi t sr eal l yf ol l owi ngus! " I ' m nowpani cki ng, shedr i v esf ast erandkeeps maki ngt ur nsunt i l wel osti t , shewasbr eat hi ng heav yandsowasI Let hu: " I ' v enev erdr i v ent hatf asti nmyl i f e! " Me: " whocoul dbef ol l owi ngus! ? " Sheshr ugsweont heGPSsi ncewedi dn' tknow wher ewewer eanddr ov ebackhome, Igott her e andr ant omyr oom, acal l i mmedi at el ycame f r om Qui nt on Me( whi sper s) : " Qui nt on" Qui nt on: " bub. ar ey ouokay ?Ar ey ousaf e? " Me: " I ' mf i ne, somet hi ngwi r edj usthappened" Qui nt on: " whathappened? " Me: " acarwasf ol l owi ngus. . . i twassocr eepy wast r i edt ol oosei tandwedi d" Qui nt on: " cal m downbub. . . Li sadon' twor r yI ' l l al way spr ot ecty ou, noonewi l l har my ou" Me: " I ' m scar edQui nt on" Qui nt on: " I ' m al way st her ewi t hy ou. . . I ' l l make sur enoonet ouchesy ou" Me: " how! ?Youf arawayhowwi l l y oupr ot ect me? " Qui nt on: " Ican, y ouhav et ot r ustme" Me: " y oucan' tQui nt ony oucan' tpr ot ectme f r om her e, Icoul d' v ebeenki l l edt oday . . wher ear e y ou?Youi nJo' bur g. . . y ouf araway " Qui nt on: " l i sakhany aI ' mt el l i ngy out hatt he peopl ei nt hey el l owcart hatwasf ol l owi ng y ou, woul dn' thav ehur ty ouonmywat ch, I al r eadyt ookcar eoft hem" Me: " howdi dy ou? . . how. . . " Qui nt on: " bub, Igoty ourback. . . . I ' l l maket hem t al kandt el l mewhatt heywant edf r om y ou" Me: " what ?Wher ear ey ou? " Qui nt on: " don' twor r yaboutt hat , j ustknowt hat y oudon' thav et obescar edasl ongasy ougot me, okay ? " Me: " okay " Qui nt on: " Il ov ey ouLi sa" Me: " Il ov ey out ooQui nt on" Isi ghanddr opt hecal l , Ichangei nt omy sl eepwearIwasaboutt ogooutwhenal i am camef l y i ngi nmyr oom andsuf f ocat i ngmei na hug Lee: " Let hut ol dmewhathappened, I ' m sor r yI wasn' tt her e, y oumust ' v ebeensot er r i f i ed, ar e y ouokay ?" Hecupsmyf acel ooki ngal l ov eri t Me: " I ' mf i ne" Hepecksmyl i ps Lee: " y oudon' thav et ogodownt her e, l et ' sj ust st ayher e" Hepi cksmeupandl ay smeonbedandhe cuddl esme Lee: " Iwi l l f i ndoutwhowasbehi ndal l t hi s. . and whatcoul dt heypossi bl ywant " . . . . . Iwonderwhowasf ol l owi ngt hem?whatki ndof dangercoul dLi sabei n? [ 07/ 28, 22: 56]W: I nser t21 LI SA Me( whi sper i ng) : " whatdoy out hi nkt hey say i ng? " Let hu( whi sper i ng) : " Idon' tknow, pr obabl y t al ki ngabouthowmuchy ouwor t h" Me( whi sper i ng) : ' wel l obv i ousl y . . . . l et ' sgobef or e wegetcaught " Wet i pt oebackt ot her oom andl aughatour si l l y ness Let hu: " di dy ouseemybr ot her ' sf ace, hei sso l ostandner v ous" Me: " Isawhi m, hel ookssocut e" Let hu: " hav ey ouseeny our sel ft hough, y oul ook soxhosar i shandbeaut i f ul l i kear eal makot i " Igi ggl e Me: " t hanky ou, Iwoul dn' twantt obel ooki ngl i ke af akemakot i nowwoul dI " Wel aughwhenaknockscomest hr ought he door Me: " comei n" Mam Li zz: " Li say i zauy af uwangapha" ( Li sa comeal ongy ouneededt hi ssi de) Me: " f ori nt oni mah? " ( whatf ormah? ) Mam l i zz: " khawuy ekeukundi buzauze( st op aski ngandf ol l ow) If ol l owedhert owher et heuncl eswer e, ar ghI can' tbel i ev emymom i sher e, whati sshedoi ng her e?Pr obabl ywant sashar eoft hemoneyt o gobl owi tof fatt het ar v en.I ' m madet osi ton t hef l oort heyaskmei fdoIknowMncedi si I want edt osayno, j ustsoIcoul dseei ft hey ' d r eal l yl etmegobutIdeci dedagai nsti t Me: " ewendy amaz i " ( y esIknowhi m) Ther ewasul ul at i ng I ' m ki ndaal i t t l eembar r assedsi ncewear eat myhomei nMt hat ha, Ionl ycamewi t hLet huher mom anddad, wel ef tt heot her sandofcause Li am,don' tgetmewr ongMt hat hai sani ce pl ace, j ustnott hepar tofi twher eIl i v e, whati f nowt hatt heyknowhowl i t t l ewehav eandt he smal l housewi t honer oundhouse, whati ft hey t akeadv ant ageoft hat , t heywi l l st ar tt ot hi nk may beI ' m desper at et obewi t honeoft he Johnsonsort heydi dmeahugef av ourby maki ngmepar toft hem. . t heyshoul dt hi nk t wi cecauseIdon' tneedt hem, I ' v emadei tt hi s f ari nl i f ewi t houtt hem. Il ookedupandmyey esmethi sbr ownt i ger ey es, hegav emeagenui nesmi l eandIr et ur ned i t , hel ookssoexci t edandhappyi fhecont i nues l i ket hi shemi ghtr ubi tof fonme, causeatt hi s momentI ' mf eel i ngabi tofhappi ness, he' s maki ngt hi swhol et hi ngal oteasi erf orme, he' s beennot hi ngbutgoodt omeandv er y suppor t i v easmuchasIhat et hi swhol ei deaof ar r angedmar r i aget hi ng, Mncedi si i senj oy i ngi t causeher eal l yl i kesmeandhe' smaki ngi thar d f ormet ohat ei t . Hewi nksatmeIbl ushandl ookdown Uncl e: " ungaphi ndaekamer eni nont ombi " ( y ou cangobackt ot her oom y oungl ady ) Igetupandheadbackt ot her oom Let hu: " sooooohowdi di tgowhatdi dt hey say . . . ar ey ' al l of f i ci al l yt r adi t i onal l ymar r i ed now? " Me: " y ohcal m down, t heyaskedmei fdoIknow hi m andIsai dy es. . . Iguesst hatmeanswenow husbandandwi f et r adi t i onal l y " Shescr eamsandhugsme Let hu: " t hi si ssoawesome, Ican' twai tf ort he whi t eweddi ng, wheny ou' l l beof f i ci al l yMr s JohnsonaahhhIcanal r eadyseei twr i t t eni n t heheadl i nes" Shel ooksupatt her oofandwav esherhands apar tmaki ngoutsomesor tofpi ct ur e Il aughathowser i ousshel ooks Me: " cany oust opbei ngcr azyf oronce" Myphoneget sanot i f i cat i onsoIt akeal ookat i tandi t saWhat sAppf r om Mncedi si Lee: " y oul ooki ngabsol ut el yst unni ngi nt hat at t i r e" Me: " t hanky ou. . y oul ookqui t ehandsome y our sel f " Lee: " Idesper at el yneedt oseey ouasi nnow" Me: " butI ' m notal l owedt ogoout " Lee: " t henmakesur enooneknows" Me: " l ol y ouwantmet osneakout ? " Lee: " y ounotcompl et el ycl uel ess, beaut i f ul " Me: " ohshutup, wher ear ey ou? " Lee: " I ' m out si det hegat eaf ewhouseswhen y ouheaddownt her oad" Me: " wow, y oual r eadygott hatf ar . . . . I ' l l ber i ght t her e" Lee: " I ' l l ber i ghther e. .wai t i ngony ou" Igi ggl eandl ogout Let hu: " whaty oual l gi ggl yabout ? " Me: " y ourbr ot herwant st oseeme" Let hu: " can' thewai tf ort omor r ow" Ishakemyheadf ast Let hu: " soy ou' l l sneakout ? " Inodf ast shel aughsatme Let hu: " don' twor r yIgoty oucov er ed, j ustdon' t t akey ourownsweett i me" Me: " y out hebest " Icl i mboutt hewi ndow, t hi ssmal l bodycame i nt ogooduseaf t eral l Ikeepchecki ngt hecoastasIkeepr unni ngand st oppi ngt i l l Iwasoutt hegat e, Iwal keddown t her oadandIspot t edhi ml eani ngagai nstt he wal l ofsomef encedoeshehav et ost andl i ke somemodel , he' sl ooki ngdownonhi sphonehe doesn' tseemeappr oacht i l l Iwasi nf r ontof hi m Me: " boo! " Hest ar t l edt henl aughedwhenhesawme Lee: " Iwaswai t i ngf ory ourr esponse, It hought y ouchangedy ourmi nd" Hehol dsmywai standpul l smecl oser Me: " wel l I ' m her enow, y oubet t ermaket hi s wor t hwhi l ecausei twasn' teasyget t i ngher e, I al mostgotbust ed. . . wast hi scl ose" Imeasur edwi t hmyf i nger s Hechuckl ed Lee: " t r ustmeIi nt endt o, comeIsawahi dden spot " Wewal keddownabi tandt her ewasasmal l passagebet weent wowal l f enceswegott her e andhei mmedi at el ypi nnedmeagai nstt hewal l l ookedatmef orawhi l ebef or esmashi nghi s col dsof tl i psonmi ne, Atf i r st , t heki sswas smal l .Butt hen, i tgr ewbi gger , andmor e i nt ense. Wi t houtanyt houghtorwor r i es, I j umpedonhi m, wr appi ngmyl egsar oundhi s wai st .Hest ar t edpl ay i ngal ong, hi sf i nger s t r ai l i ngmyl egal l t hewayt omypunani , hewas pl ay i ngwi t hi tov ermypant yhebr oket heki ss butwasst i l l pl ay i ngwi t hmynunuhewenton ki ssi ngmyneckhi swar m br eat hhi t t i ngmy ski n, Ibal ancedont hewal l ashi sot herhand f oundi t swayt omybr east smassagi ng t hem, moanswer est ar t i ngt oescapemymout h ashi st ouchwasget t i ngmor eef f ect i v et omy emot i ons. Hepul l edoutwhi l eIst i l l want edt ocont i nue Me( whi sper s) : " why ' dy oudot hatf or ? " Hepl acedhi sf or eheadonmi neandpeckedmy l i psl owl y Lee: " y ouar esoaki ngwet " Heboughthi shandt hathewaspl ay i ngwi t ht o myf ace, hi sf i nger sar ewet Lee: " y ouseey ourj ui ces? . . t ast et hem" Heputonef i ngeri nmymout handpl ay edwi t h myt onguet henputhi sot herf i ngeri nhi smout h Lee: " mmhht ast y " Al l t hi swast ur ni ngmeonbi gt i meIwantt o f eel hi sski nagai nstmi ne, hi sbuf fsel fal l ov er me, hei sst i l l car r y i ngme, Icanf eel hi scr ot chso Imov emywai sti nci r cul armot i on, hest ar t ed br eat hi ngl ouder Me: " y oul i ket hat ? " Lee: " f uckLi sa, l et ' sst opbef or eIdot hi ngst o y ou, Iwoul dn' twannadoi napl acel i ket hi s" Icoul dn' tst opi nst eadIwasmov i ngf ast er oohhhdamnhe' ssobi g Heki ssedmehungr i l yandpr essedhi msel f r eal l yhar donme" mmmmh" Hi shandswer et r ai l i ngal l ov ermybody f ast . . . hequi ckl yl etgoofme, mov edbackand t r i edcat chi nghi sbr eat h Lee: " I ' m sor r y . . . nother e" I ' m al sooutofbr eat hsoIj ustnod Me: " t hatwaswor t hsneaki ngoutf or " Lee: " we' l l geti nsomucht r oubl e, i ft heyf i ndwe wer et oget her" Me: " t hey ' l l pr obabl ychar gey oumor e" Wel aughedandheadbackwi t hhi m keep spanki ngme Isnuckbackt hr ought hewi dow, Ist ar t l edwhen Isawmymom si t t i ngonbysi ngl ebed Me( gasps) : " Mah!Yousacr edme" Mom: " wher ey oucomi ngf r om?Waqamka sowungenangamaf r est i l e( sneaki ngi nt hr ough wi ndows) " Me: " IIwas. . . . Iwentt ouset het oi l et " Yesourt oi l eti sout si deoni t sownsmal l r oom Mom: " sowhyuset hewi ndow?Andwhysneak i n? " Me: " ar ghmah( goi ngt osi tbyt hebed)Idi dn' t wantt ouset hemai ndoorsi ncet heuncl es wer est i l l busy . . ( changi ngt hesubj ect ) . .Any way howar ey ouhol di ngup? " Mom: " I ' mf i ne, I ' mv er ypr oudofy ou, y ouknow" Me: " whymom?CauseIgott ogot ov ar si t yand makesomet hi ngofmy sel f . . . . ohnoi t sdef i ni t el y nott hat , Iknow. . . y oupr oudcauseI ' m bei ngsol d t oar i chf ami l y . . . .I st hati t ?Thathast obe i t , causet hi si st hef i r stt i mey ou' v eact ual l ysai d y oupr oud" Mom: " ungazondi phucukel amnauci ngaukuba ungat het hanam nomakanj ani ngenxa y okughumsha? " ( don' tcomeacthi ghl ywi t h me, y out hi nky oucant al kt omeany howwi t h y oursi l l ycheesegi r l t endenci es) Mom: " okokqal andi m endi kuf undi sewade wagqi baut ensoungazoci ngbaf amsba uncono"( Imadesur ey ougeteducat i onupunt i l mat r i csodon' tcomeher et hi nki ngy oubet t er t hanev er y one) Wowt hemot herIhav e, shenev eral way shat ed mel i ket hi s, sheusedt ol ov eandspoi l mewhen dadwasal i v eal t houghshenev erspoi l edme wi t hmoneyandbuy i ngmet hi ngsbutshe showedmeuncondi t i onal l ov et oget herwi t h dad, Inev erf oroncef el tl i keIl i v edi n pov er t y , somet i mesIbl amemy sel ff ormy f at her ' sdeat h, nowt hatI ' m mat ur eIr eal i zedt he di amondswer er eal , myf at hercoul dn' thav e possi bl eaf f or dt obuydi amonds, It hi nkhest ol e t hem somewher eandt hat ' swhygangst er s wer eaf t erhi m, hewassecur i ngmyf ut ur e Me: " whathav eIev erdonet oy oumah? " Mom: " y ouknowwhatIdon' thav et i mef ort hi s, I cameher et ot el l y ouhowpr oudIam ofy oubut i t scl eary oudon' twantt oheari t" Sheget supandIpul l herar m gent l yf orhert o si tdown Me: " I ' m sor r ymahIshoul dn' thav espokent o y oul i ket hat , pl easecont i nue" Mom: " l ookkhany aIknowt hatIhav en' tbeen t hebestmot hert oy ouev ersi nce. . . . ev ersi nce. . . Inodmyhead Me: " Iunder st andmom" Mom: " I ' v ebeensocaughtupi nmyowngr i ef f oral l t hesey earIt ot al l ycuty ouof f , y ouand mom, I ' v ebeensosel f i sh, Ishoul dn' thav edeal t wi t hy ourf at her ' sdeat ht hewayIdi d, al cohol hasr ui nedmyl i f e, mademeso car el ess. . . . ( sobs) , . . . Icaughtt hev i r uskhany a . . ( sobs) . . . Idon' tev enknowwhoIgoti t f r om, t hat ' st heshamef ul par t . . Myhear tsi nks Me: " mah. . . t hat ' shor r i bl e, whendi dy ouf i ndout aboutt hi s? " Mom: " t woweeksback, whenIf oundoutIwas shat t er ed, Ir eal i zedt hatl i f ei sshor t , Ihav en' t t ouchedal cohol ev ersi nce. . . " Me: " ohmahI ' m sopr oudofy ou, Iknowi t must n' tbeeasyony ou, butj ustknowt hatHI Vi s nott heendoft hewor l d, y ouj ustt akey our t r eat mentev er y dayandhav eal ongl i f e" Mom: " Iknowi t sj ustI ' m sodi sappoi nt edat my sel f , whatki ndofexampl eam Iset t i ngt oy ou asamot herandI ' m onl yr eal i si ngt hi snow becauseIgotsi ck, I ' m pat het i c, ausel essexcuse ofamot her . .I ' m notev enamot herI ' mj usta b. . bi Me: " sshhhhhdon' tsayt hat , pl easedon' tcal l y our sel ft hat , y oust i l l mymom" Ipul l edheri nt omyembr ace, goshImi ssed bei ngi nherar ms, t hi si swhatIneeded Me: " I ' m her emom, I ' l l suppor ty oual way s, y ou nev eral one, okay ? " Mom ( cr y i ng) : " y oushoul dhat emekhany aaf t er ev er y t hi ngI ' v eputy out hr ough, t heemot i onal abuse" Me: " Iam mymot her ' sdaught erIcannev erhat e y ouev eni fIt r i ed. . . I ' mj usthappyy ouf i nal l y changi ngy ourl i f ef ort hebet t er " Shegotof fmygr i pandst ar eddeepi nt omy ey es Mom: " Il ov ey oukhany a" Me( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " Il ov ey oumor e" Wel aughedbet weent het ear s, i tf eel ssogood l i keawei ghthasbeenl i f t edf r om myshoul der s Mom: " l et ' sgett ot hej ui cyt opi cnowgi i r r l " Il augh, Iev enf or gotmymom i sadr ama queen, we' v eal way shadt hatf r i endshi pbond Me: " andwhatcoul dpossi bl ybet hej ui cyt opi c mamgobozi " ( gossi per ) Mom: " t hehusbandi sdr i ppi nghotsause umt hat hephi ? " ( wher edi dy ouf i ndhi m? ) Me( l aughi ng) : " nam ndi mcol el wesi si kwat hi wa i nat hat hangowakho, ndi bendi bangat hi ay i bo kwat hi wasi t hengowakhomt hat he! ! " ( hewas j usthandedt omeonasi l v erpl at t er , Iwasabout t opr ot estbutt heyj ustdumpedhi m onme) Webur sti nt ol aught er Mom: "y uuhhay i sanaakumnandi ukba nguwe, uv el ekut hi wei nanansi i ndoda, t hi na esi nqabel ekangakasi ngabany e abaf azi . . . si xel el eubauhl ambangant onkal oku nat hi si zi mi sel e" ( l uckyy ougi r l , ahandsomeman washandedt oy ouonasi l v erpl at t er . . y etsome ofuswomenoutt her et heyar er ar eonus, shar e y oursecr etgi r l ) Il aughhar dermom i scr az yshame Me: " ay i bomom y oumeant ot el l mey oudon' t knowt hi smar r i agei sar r anged? " Sher ai sedherbr owsshocked. . hawushedi dn' t know? Mom: " t uuu( atal l )whendi dt hi shappen? " It ol dherev er y t hi ngf r om t hebegi nni ngt hathas beengoi ngoni nmyl i f ei nJo' bur g, t ur nsout gr amsnev ert ol dany oneaboutt hi s, whi chi s maki ngmewonder . .I st her eev enacont r actt o begi nwi t h, whi chmakesmewonderev enmor e si ncewhenar emai dsmadet osi gn empl oy mentcont r act ?I ' m mi ssi ngsomet hi ng t hi sst or ydoesn' taddup Mom: " y ooohhy ourl i f ei ssocompl i cat edmy baby , gr amshasnev erment i onedt hi st ome andI ' mv er ymadatherf ornott el l i ngy our f at herandIaboutt hi s, howcanshesel l of fmy ownchi l dwi t houtmyper mi ssi on?" Me: " t her e' ssomet hi ngshe' snott el l i ngme, at f i r stshet ol dmet hi sandIt ol dherI ' mi nl ov e wi t hsomeoneel sesheunder st ood, nextt hi ng gqi gqi I ' mf or cedt omar r yt hi sguy " Mom: " Ineedt ot al kt ohert hi si nst ant " Me: " nonomom don' tdot hatpl ease, I ' l l f i xt hi s onmyown" Mom: " khany ay ou' v ebeenony ourownf orway t ool ongnow, pl easel etmebet her ef ory ou" Me: " mahIr eal l yappr eci at et hesuppor t , butI needt of i xt hi sonmyown" Shesi ghs Me: " al l y ouwi l l doi sshoutatherandmakeher f eel gui l t yandIdon' twantt hati t ' l l putast r ai n onherandhercanceri sget t i ngwor se, Ij ust wantust of ocusonkeepi ngherhappyand spendi ngasmucht i mewi t hheraspossi bl e, I ' l l askherwhenIf eel l i kei t st her i ghtt i met oask her , butf ornowl et ' sl etev er y t hi ngandev er y one set t l edownwi t ht hewhol emar r i aget hi ng" Mom: " Ei shy ahy our i ght , Ican' tbel i ev emom won' tbewi t hussoon" Herl i psbegi nshaki ng Me: " mom pl easewehav et obest r ongf orher " Mom: " I ' mt r y i ng. .Tr ustmeI ' mt r y i ng" * si l ence* Mom: " soy ousay i ngy our eal l yl ov et hi s Qui nt on? " Myhear tbeat si nexci t ementatt hement i onof hi sname Me( smi l i ng) : " y eeaahIdo. . . al ot " Mom: " whataboutt hi sguy , seemsl i key oual so hav ef eel i ngsf orhi m, y ouev ensnuckoutt ogo seehi mj ustnow" Ishoul d' v eknownshedi dn' tbuyt het oi l etst or y Me: " Imeanhe' sani ceguy , he' sbeenr eal l yki nd andl ov i ng, i t sr eal l yhar dt ohat ehi m" Mom: " hei squi t et hecat chandheseemsl i ke hegenui nel yl ov esy ou" Me: " hedoes, Il ov eQui nt onmyhear tbel ongst o hi m. . . mncedi si i sr eal l ychar mi ngandal l andhe doest r yt omakemehappyhet r eat smel i keI ' m t heonl ygi r l i nt hewor l d. . . . Qui nt onhemakesme f eel t hi ngs, l i kedeept hi ngs, Icant al kt ohi m aboutany t hi ngIknowhe' dt akeabul l etf orme" Mom: " Iseeal ov et r i angl eher e, . . . seemsl i key ou st ucki nt hemi ddl e, i tal soseemsl i key oudon' t knowwhoy our eal l ywant " Isi gh Me: " IdoknowIwantQui nt onmom, I ' dchooses hi m any day , Thet hi ngwi t hMncedi si i s compl i cat edhewasmyboy f r i endt hatbecame myexandnowI ' mf or cedt omar r yhi m, butnow he' scat chi ngf eel i ngsandI ' mt r y i ngsohar dt o not " Mom: " It hi nky oushoul dgowher ey ourhear t bel ongs" Thatwoul dbeQui nt on Mom: " Il ov et hest or yofy ouandQui nt on, f r om whaty ou' v et ol dme, Ibel i ev ehel ov esy ou dear l y " Me: " t henwhatam It odowi t hMncedi si ? " Mom: " heal r eadyknowsaboutQui nt on, j ustt el l hi mt het r ut ht haty oucannev erl ov ehi m" Me: " whati f . . . . . . . . . . . " Mom: " nowy oushoul dl ookatt hatdi amond neckl aceony ourneckandr emembert he pr omi sey oumadet oQui nt on" Me: " y our i ght . . . t hi sshoul dn' tev enbeconf usi ng me. . ImeanI ' m obv i ousl yi nl ov ewi t hQui nt on" Mom: " anddon' tf or gett hat " * * * Theweekendf i nal l ycamet oanendI ' m ont he r oadbackt oJo' bur g, Qui nt onhasbeent ext i ng meev er yaf t erf i v emi nut easki ngwher eam I now?Thati di otdoeshehav eanyi deahowf ar East er ncapei s Mncedi si coul dn' tcomebackwi t hme, hehas busi nesst or unhe' l l comebacknextweek. Fi nal l yI ' m her e, Iaskedt hedr i v ert odr opmeof f nearcampus, IspotQui nt onl eani ngagai nsthi s caracr osst her oad, Iwhi st l e, hel i f t shi shead andt hebi ggestsmi l ei spl ast er edonhi sf ace asher unsacr osst her oadandat t acksmewi t h ahugpi cki ngmeupandspi nni ngmeal most dr oppi ngmei nt hepr ocess Me( l aughi ng) : " whooaadon' tdr opme" Heput smedownwr apshi sar msar oundmy wai stt hencupsmyf acet hent ouchesmeal l ov erbef or ehesmashedhi ssweetl i psonmi ne ki ssi ngt heday l i ght sof fme, hepul l soutl eav i ng mebr eat hl ess Qui nt on: " goddammi tImi ssedy oubub" Hepi cksmeupbr i dal st y l eashewasaboutt o t akemet ot hecar Me: " wai t !Myl uggage? " Qui nt on: " oh. . wai ther e" Heput smedownandt akesmyt hi ngst ot he caracr osst her oadt hencomesbackt ome Me: " Qui nt on?Whydi dn' ty ouj ustt ur nt hecar ar oundt ot hi ssi de, wazi xakeki sa kangaka? ( maki ngt hi ngshar df ory ou) Hel aughs Qui nt on: " causei fIdi dt hatIwoul dn' tbeabl et o dot hi s" Hepi cksmeupbr i dal st y l eandwecr osst he r oad Me: " y ouwat cht oomanymov i esQ" Qui nt on: " y ouknow t hat ' sy ourf aul t , andIwant t oshowy oual otmor eI ' v el ear ntf r om mov i es" Hewi nksatmewi t hasi l l ysmi r kheput sme downandIat t ackhi m wi t hanot herhug, Ibur i ed myf aceonhi sbr oadchestasIi nhal edhi s i nt oxi cat i ngcol ogne, Idi dn' tr eal i seImi ssed hi mt hi smuch Qui nt on: " ar ey oucr y i ngbub? " Inot i ceIshedaf ewt eardr ops Me: " Ij ustmi ssedy ousomuch" Qui nt on: " aaww" het i ght enedhi sgr i pgi v i ngmegoosebumps . . . . . . Guy spl easecommentmor e, al oti sgoi ngon her epl easedon' tkeepy ouropi ni onst o y our sel v esIneedt oknowt hem [ 07/ 28, 22: 56]W: Cont i nuat i on LI SA 18\ SLVN( Par ent al gui dancei sadv i sed ( shor t ) ) Wewer est i l l dr i v i ngt ot heapar t ment Me: " cany oudr i v eabi tf ast er ? " Hesmi r ksandgl ancesov eratmet henbackon t her oad Qui nt on: " what ' st her ushhunbun? " Me: " t her ushi sbecause. .( It r ai l edmyf i nger s onhi st hi ght ohi scock) . . . oft hi s" Isawhi sbodyt enseupandhi sbr eat hhi t ched, I keptmov i ngmyhandi nwar dsofhi st hi gh, whenIgotcl oset ot hedi ckI ' dmov ei tdown agai n Qui nt on: "I . . .Iseey ouhav eadeat hwi shbub" Me: " Ij ustmi ssedi t . . . Imeany ou. . Ij ustmi ssed y ousomuch" Hel aughsatme Qui nt on: " y ouwantsome. . . . Me( i nt er r upt i ng) : "y esIwantsome" Qui nt on: " f ood?Damny oumustbe hungr y , di dn' tev enl etmef i ni sh" Me: " f ood. . . ? " ButI ' m hungr yf orsomet hi ngel se, Idon' tknow what ' swr ongwi t hmebutIwanthi sdi cksobad i t snotev enf unny , Iwoul dhav esl eepl ess ni ght sf ant asi si ngabouthi m, nowt hathe' sher e Iwanthi m sobad, i t sl i kehegotawhol el ot sexi ersi nceI ' v ebeengone Qui nt on: " y eahwhatdi dy out hi nkIwasaski ng? " Ihuf fandf ol dmyar ms Me: " not hi ng" Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " soy ouwant some. . . . . . f ood? " Ishakemyhead, Iwantsomedi ck Me: " No. . . Iwantt hi s" It ouchedhi sdi ckt hensqueezedi tal i l hewas har dandbul gy Hegr oanedt henmov edmyhandf r om hi m, okay what ' sgoi ngon?Doesn' thewantme? Qui nt on: " bub, I ' m dr i v i ng, y oudi st r act i ngme, y ou knowy ourt ouchmakesmewantt ocl osemy ey es" Hi sey eswer esmal l Me: " f i ne" Qui nt on: " howdi dt hel obol ago? " Il ookathi m andhe' sconcent r at edont her oad, sot hat ' swhat ' sbuggi nghi m Me: " i twasokay " Qui nt on: " okay ? " Me: " okay " Qui nt on: " soy ' al l nowt r adi t i onal l ymar r i ed? " Me: " Iguessso" Qui nt on: " y ou' r ehi swi f e? " Hi st onesoundeddownandsadwhi chbr oke myhear t Me: " l ooksl i kei t " Qui nt on: " y ounowbel ongt ohi m" Me( sof t l y ) : " Qui nt on. . .Pl ease" Qui nt on: " doy oust i l l l i kehi m al ot ? " Me: " don' tdot hi sQ" Qui nt on: " doy ou? " Me: . . . . . Qui nt on: " si ncey ou' v ebeent her e, hav ey ou ki ssedhi m? " Me: " Qui nt on!" Qui nt on: " pl easeanswermebub. . . . di dy ouki ss hi m? " Me: " whyy ouaski ngmeal l t hi s? " Qui nt on: " Ij ustwantt oknow" Me: " t hat sst upi d, I ' m notent er t ai ni ngi t " Qui nt on: " Idon' tgetwhat ' ssodi f f i cul twi t ht hi s quest i on, i t ssosi mpl eandt heansweri sa si mpl ey es. . . . . . orno" Me: " Qui nt on, Il ov ey ou" Qui nt on: " y ouknowIl ov ey oumor e. . . j ust answermedi dy ouki sshi my esorno? " Me: " Q. . . Qui nt on: " y esorno" Me: " pl ease. . . . Qui nt on: " Yes. . . . . . orno? " Isi gh Me: " y es" Si l encef i l l st hecar Me: " buti twasonl ypr et enceQ. . . f ort hepar ent s i tdi dn' tmeanany t hi ng" Hesi ghsheav i l y Qui nt on: " seemsl i key ouget t i ngr eal l ygoodat t hi spr et endi nggame" Me: " comeonQ. . . don' tbel i ket hi s" Qui nt on: " Ihopet hi s( poi nt i ngathi m andI)i s notpr et enceany mor e" Me: " howcoul dy ouev endoubtmyl ov ef ory ou l i ket hat ? " Qui nt on: " pl easedon' tbr eaky ourpr omi sel i ss" Me: " Ist i l l pr omi seQ. . Icr ossmyhear tandhope t odi e, st i ckaneedl euponmyey e" Hemakest hatt er r i f i edwei r df ace Qui nt on: " okaywasi tnecessar yt oaddt hel ast par t ? " Il augh Wegott ot heapar t mentandheadedf ort he r i dge Me: " wowsomuchj unk! ? " Heshr ugshi sshoul der s Me: " Qui nt on!Hav ey oubeeneat i ngal l t hi sj unk whi l eIwasgone! ? " Hemakest hat' I ' mi nt r oubl ef ace' Me: " Pi z za?St eer s? . . . doughnut s, f r i es? Chocol at es. . . . ay i boQui nt on!Hav ey ouhadany pr operf oodnj eatal l ? " Qui nt on( mumbl i ng) : " t hepi zzawaspr oper " Me: " NomanQui nt ondoy ouwantt oget si ck, t hi si snotheal t hyatal l !Kant i wenaunj ani nj e!Howcoul dy oueatsomuchj unkf orsol ong ! ?Youknowf astf oodski l l ?Doy oual sowant t ol eav eme?JustbecauseIl ov ey ou!Nxay i man, y oudr i v emecr azy ! ! ! ! " GoshIdon' tknowwhyI ' m somadathi m, It hi nk I ' m sexual l yf r ust r at ed Ist or medt ot her oom andsatont hebedt aki ng of fmyshoesandgotcomf or t abl e, i t sbeena l ongdr i v eandI ' mt i r ed, It hr owmy sel fonmy backi nt hecent eroft hebedandcl osemyey es, Iheart hedoorsl owl yopen, Iopenoneey eand seeQui nt onpeeki nghi sheadt hr ought hedoor l i keaf i v ey earol di nt r oubl e Het i pt oedi nsi desatatt heedgeoft hebedand st ar t edmassagi ngmyf eet" mmhh"moans v ol unt ar i l yescapedmymout h Qui nt on: " Li ss? " Me: " mmh? " Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r y . . i t sj ustIwasl azyt o cook, andIki ndasuckati t " Me: " i t sf i neQj ustpl easedon' tov erdoi t " Qui nt on: " ont hebr i ghtsi deIdi dhav ehome cookedbr eakf ast " Me: " mx m don' tt el l meabouteggsandbr ead" Qui nt on: " oh" Hekeptqui etIl aughed Me: " comeher e" Hecr awl edt omeher est shi sheadonmy chest \ br east swear ecuddl i ngandI ' mf eel i ng myt emper at ur er i si ng, hear taccel er at i ng, t ummybl owi ngbubbl es, punaniar chi ng Ir unmyhandsunder neat hhi sshi r tal l ov erhi s muscl edbody Qui nt on: " bub. . . . . " Me: " Iwanty ouQ. . . sobad" Igr abbedhi sdi ck, hegr oansandhi sey escl ose Iki ssedhi sl i psheki ssedmeback, hewasn' t maki ngamov esoImadei t , Igotont opofhi m hepr essesmyasshar deronhi mt henpul l sout oft heki ss Qui nt on: " Li ss, Ican' thav esexwi t hy ou" Me: " whatwhy ? " Qui nt on: " i tj ustdoesn' tf eel r i ght " Me: " whatdoy oumean? " Isatupst r ai ghtst i l l ont opofhi m Qui nt on: " y oumar r i ed" Thi si sr eal l ybot her i nghi m Me: " butmyhear tandsoul i sy our s, mar r i edt o y ou" Qui nt on: " t hat ' sr i ght , t hehear tandsoul . . . but t hef l eshi shi s, hepai df ori thewasgi v en bl essi ngsbyy ourf ami l y , y oubel ongt ohi m now" Me: " butQui nt on, y ouknowInev erwant edany oft hi s, I ' mf or ced, Ir eal l yj ustwantt obeher e wi t hy ou" Hel ookssosadhecan' tev enhi dei t Qui nt on: " canwepl easewai tunt i l y ouof f i ci al l y mi nef i r st " Me: " NoIwanty ounow, comeonwe' v ebeen t al ki ngaboutt hi st hewhi l et i meIwasgone, how wegonnamakemadl ov ewhenIgetback, t he numberoft i mesy ouwer egonnamakemecum t i l l I ' m dr ai ned. . . . we' v ebeenf ant asi si ngabout t hi sov ert hephoneal l t het i meandnow, Ineed y ou. I ' v emi ssedy oubabe" Il aymybodyonhi m andki sshi sl i pshedoesn' t ki ssmeback, hi sdi cki ssohar dr ockr i ghtnow Idon' tknowhowhei sr esi st i ngme Qui nt on: " Ican' tseem t oer aset hef acty ou mar r i ed, asmuchasIhat emnci seshi buty ou hi swi f e, Ican' tsl eepwi t hsomeone' swi f e" Me( i r r i t at ed) : " Qui nt ony ou' v ebeenf ucki ng bi t chesf r om cl ubswhower epr obabl ymar r i ed orhadboy f r i endsandy ounev ergav et wo f ucks, si ncewhenhav ey ouchangednow? " Her ai seshi sbr ows, okaymay beIwasabi t har sh, buthe' spi ssi ngmeof f Qui nt on: " pl easegetof fme" Me: " No! " I ' m hav i nghi sdi ckt odaywhet herhel i kesi tor not , hecan' tgetmeaddi ct edt oi tt hendome l i ket hi s, nev er ! Qui nt on: " Li sakhany aIsai dof fme" Asmuchast hi shur t sbutI ' m notgi v i ngup wi t houtaf i ght Me: " NoQui nt on, Iwantdi ck" Ikeptmyat t i t udeonskyhi gh Qui nt on: " y oumar r i edy oushoul dasky our husband" Me: " y ounotgoi ngt ogi v emet hatbul l , y ouknow exact l ywhatI ' m goi ngt hr oughandhowt hat mar r i agecameabout , soy ounotaboutt ot r eat mel i keIchoset owal kawayandgomar r y hi m. . . y ouknowexact l yhowmuchIl ov e y ou, . . . y ounothappywi t ht hi smar r i age?Wel l newsf l ashQui nt on, I ' m nothappyei t her , cause her ewear epl anni ngonawayt obr i ngi tdown t oget her , sost oppl ay i ngt hesadv i ct i m her e, I ' m al soav i ct i m, I ' m al sosadIal sodon' tl i ke what ' sgoi ngonabi t , soy oubet t erst opf eel i ng sor r yf ory our sel fandf ocusonget t i ngy ourgi r l back! " He' snowf r owni ngar ghhe' sbei ngsuchacut e babyr i ghtnownx Qui nt on( cal ml y ) : " y ouget t i ngusedt or ai si ng y ourv oi ceatmeLi sakhany a" Asl ongashe' sst i l l cal l i ngmebymyf ul l name, he' smadatme Me: " y ouget t i ngusedt oact i ngl i keababy " Qui nt on: " getof fmeLi sakhany a" Me: " notunt i l y ouf uckme" Hef l i psmeov erandget sont opofmeget t i ng meexci t ed, f i nal l y ! Heget sof fmet hengoest ochangeasi nt ake of fhi scl ot hesandst ayononl yhi st r unkshe comesbackt obedandt ur nshi sbackonme Imov ecl oset ohi m andr ubhi sback Qui nt on: " l eav emeal oneLi saI ' m noti nt he mood" Icont i nueandsneakmyhandst ohi sabbs r ubbi nghi m upanddown Heshakeshi sshoul der s, Ipl antki ssesonhi s back, Ihav et omakehi mf eel bet t eri fi t st hel ast t hi ngIdo, Icant ol er at eanangr yormad Qui nt onbutnotasadandhear t br okenone. . . I hol dhi sandf r om behi ndandmakehi mr ubhi s bel l y , hest oppedf i ght i ngme, Imov edhi shand downt ohi svl i ne, hey ankedmyhandof faswe wer eaboutt or eacht hedi ck Ihuf fandf ol dmyar msf aci ngt hecei l i ng. .Okay t hat ' si t !Hewant si tt her oughway If l i phi m andsi tonhi m het r i est omov emebut Ikeepst eadyIhol dhi shandsupabov ehi s head Me: " ki ssme" Heshookhi shead Me: " f i ne" Iki ssedhi m buthedi dn' tki ssbackIdi dn' tcar e Idon' tmi nddoi ngal l t hewor k, Iki ssedhi sneck al l t hewaydownhet r i edt omov emebutI gr abbedhi sdi ckt i ght Me: " t r yt omov emeagai nandI ' l l squeezet he sper msoutoft hesebal l s. . . y ouhearme" Hedi dn' tr espondsoIsqueezedabi the gr oaned Me: " Isai ddoy ouhearme? " Qui nt on: " I ' l l r epor ty ouf orr ape" Me: " doIl ookl i keIcar e" Ipul l eddownhi st r unksandabi gmonst ercock spr angup, Idon' tgetwhyhe' sr esi st i ngme whenhe' ssohar don, Ir ubbedi tupanddown, t henputi ti nmymout handst ar t edmov i ng uponanddown, chocki ngi tdownmyt hr oat , he' s gr oanswer eget t i ngl ouderandl ouder Qui nt on: " aaahhf ucky esss" Wowt hi sguyi sheser i ousnow, Isuckedhi s bal l sandpl ay edwi t ht hem af t ermuchchoki ngI cameupt ohi m andki ssedhi sl i pst hi st i mehe ki ssedmeback, Isatonhi sf acewi t hmyl egs onei t hersi deofhi shead, hewassucki ngme l i kecr azy , maki ngmel oosemymi nd, Ineeded t ohol dont osomet hi ngI ' m shaki ng, Ihel don t heheadboar doft hebed " Aahhhhhshi t . . I ' m. . uuhhh" Ir el easedandhel i ckedmedr y , Iwentbackt o ki ssi nghi mt hi st i mehi shandswer emov i ngal l ov ermesendi ngal l ki ndsofel ect r i cwav es t hr oughoutmybody , Isatonhi sdi ckandhe sl i di ti n, i t ssopai nf ul whenhe' sst i l l put t i ngi ti n butt heni tset t l es Ist ar tmov i ngupanddownandr i di nghi ml i kea hor se, onl yt hi st i meIhadcont r ol oft hi st r i gger Me( br eat hl ess) : " st i l l wannar epor tmef orr ape" Hesmi l edashi ssmal l gr eeney esst ar edat me, hi sey esal way st ur ngr eenwhenwemaki ng l ov e Qui nt on: " y eah" Igetof fhi m asmuchasi ti shar donmebutI l ef thi m hangi ng Qui nt on: " why ' dy oudot hat ? " It ur nmybackonhi m andcl osemyey es Qui nt on: " Nobuby oucan' tdot hi st o me. . . . pl ease. . . shi ti thur t s" Hef l i ppedmeandgotont opofme Me: " Qui nt on, I ' mt ooy oungt ogot oj ai l so pl easeIl ef ty oul i key ouwant ed" Qui nt on: " f uckt hatshi t " Het hr ust si nandbangedmehar d. . . It ol dy ouI wasgonnahav ehi sdi ckwhet herhel i kesi tor not , def i ni t el ywor t ht hef i ght Me: " I ' l l r epor ty ouf orr. r . r . r aape" Her eachesf ort hephoneandgi v esi tt ome Qui nt on: " goahead" Hemov essl owl y , Icoul dn' tev enhol dt hephone pr oper l y Hest ar t edmov i ngv er yf ast Qui nt on: " cal l t hem bub. . . . comeon" Ij ustputt hephoneonmyear Me( shout i ng) : " somebodycal l 911! ! ! " . . ( notedi t ed) [ 07/ 28, 22: 56]W: I nser t22 LI SA " Youdon' tl i st enLi sakhany a" Me: " Dad, y oul ookbet t er " Hedoesn' thav ebl oodany mor ehe' scl eanand dr essednor mal l y Wei napar ki tl ookssomagi cal Dad: " y oui nev engr eat erdangermychi l d" Me: " Dadt el l mewhatt odo?I si tt heJohnson' s? " Dad: " al otofdar knessi sbear i ngov ery ou, y ou needt omaket her i ghtchoi ces" Me: " whi char et her i ghtchoi cesdad? " Dad: " I ' l l l eav et hatt oy ou, buty ouhav emy pr ot ect i on" Me: " pl easedadt el l mewhatt odo? " Dad: " wher ear et hedi amondsIgav ey ou?" Me: " t heyst i l l bur i edwher eIusedt ohi det hem" Dad: " getr i doft hem. . . . It houghtt heywoul ddo y ougood, t hey ' l l onl yputy oui ngr eatdanger , get r i doft hem" Me: " butt heymustbewor t hsomuch, t heycoul d r eal l ychangemyl i f e" Dad: " getr i doft hem baby , t heynogood, t her e' s noeasywayt osuccess, getr i doft he di amondsandst ayawayf r om. . . . . . . . . Hi sv oi cebecameweakerandhewasf adi ng away Me: " f r om whodad?St ayawayf r om who" Hewast al ki ngbutIcoul dn' thearhi m Me: " comeback!Fr om who! ! " Li sa! " Me: " pl easecomeback, Ineedy ou" " Li sa. . .wakeup" Myey esopen, If eel di sappoi nt edanddown, I ' m t r y i ngt of i gur eoutwhoi smydadt r y i ngt owar n meabout ? Qui nt on: " ar ey ouokay ? " Il ookathi m, coul di tbehi m, butwhy ?Heonl y v i si t smewhenI ' m wi t hhi m, buthel ov esme he' dnev erhar m me, whatcoul dmydadpossi bl y notl i keabouthi m? Qui nt on: " Li sa?Hel l o. . . . whyy oul ooki ngatme l i ket hat ? " I ' m boughtbackt oear t hbyhi swor ds Me: " what ? " Qui nt on: " y oul ooki ngatmel i key oususpect i ng meofsomet hi ng? " Me: " I ' mj ustwonder i ngwhatGodwast hi nki ng whenhecr eat edy ou? " Qui nt on: . . . . . . Me: " washet hi nki ngaboutme?Causehe answer edal l mydr eams" Hesmi l esandmov escl osert ome Qui nt on: " canIasky ouaquest i on? " Me: " ohboi " Qui nt on: " Ineedy out obet ot al l yhonestwi t h me" Me: " Qi fy ouwi l l askmeaboutMncedi si , pl easeI don' twannagot her e, i t st oomuch" Qui nt on: " i t snotabouthi m, i t saboutme" Me: " ow. . owhkaay " Qui nt on: " whydoy oul ov emesomuch? " What ?OkayhowdoIanswert hi s? , whydoIl ov e hi m, gosht her e' ssomanyr easons Me: " Qui nt on, i fIanswert hatquest i on, we' dst ay i nt hi sbedt hewhol eday " Qui nt on: " l uckyy ou, Ihav enocl assest oday " Me: " Ido" Qui nt on: " whatt i me? " Me: " t wel v e" Qui nt on: " t henI ' l l st opy ouwhenIf eel I ' v ehear d enough" Me: " Ir eal l ydon' tknowhowt oputmyansweri n wor dscauset her e' sj ustsomanyr easonswhyI l ov ey ou" Qui nt on: " t henputi ti nt oact i onandst ar t mov i ngy ourl i ps" Igi v ehi m adeadgl ar ehechuckl es Qui nt on: " whydoy oul ov eme. . . orwhatdoy ou l ov eaboutme? " Iadj ustmy sel fassl eeponmybackandl ook upatt hecei l i ng Isi gh Me: " Il ov e. . . . . . t hewayy ousmel l " Hel aughs Qui nt on: " r eal l y ?Wowt hat ' swhyy oul ov eme? " Il ookathi m andl augh Me: " woul dy oushutup. . . I ' m notdone, j ustl i st en" Hesl eepscl osert omeal soonhi sbackbut l ooksatmewest ar eateachot her sey esf ora whi l ebef or eIl ookatt hecei l i ng Me: " Il ov eHowy oul i ghtupt hewhol er oom wheny ousmi l e Il ov eHowy ou’ r eal way sj ustador abl ycut e Il ov eYourgor geousey es Butmostofal l . . . . Il ov eHowIcant r usty ouwi t h myl i f e. . . .Thaty out el l mesecr et st haty our f r i endsdon’ tev enknow. . . . .Howy ouneedme. . . . . Howy oual way shav et her i ghtt hi ngt osayt o me. . . . howy oucanmakemel aughev ent hough Ir eal l yr eal l ydon' twantt o. . . .Howwest ayup t ool at et al ki ngaboutourf ut ur e. . . . .Whenwe t al kont hephonef orhour s, ev ent houghi tonl y f eel sl i ket enmi nut es. . . ( Ichuckl eandsodoes he) . . . Il ov eThaty oust i l l l ov emeev ent hough y ou’ v eseenmel ooki ngt er r i bl e. . Qui nt on: " y oumeanhor r i bl e. .Orhor r i f i c. .Or bet t ery ett er r i f y i ngl yhor r i f i cal l yhor r i bl e. . .Or . . . Me: "shutupIgeti t . . .You' v eseenmeatmy wor stnowshutt hatpi ehol eorI ' l l st op" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " pl easecont i nuebub" Isi gh Me: " Il ov eHowy ousay , ‘ Il ov ey ou, bub' " Il ov eOurmemor i es. . .ourpl ans. . . Howwej ust can’ tl eav eeachot her . . . . Il ov eThatov ert i me, as Il ookaty ou, Il ov ey oumor eandmor e. . . .When y ouki ssmeandt hewhol ewor l ddi sappear s andev er y t hi ngi sper f ect . . .Howy oucangetme outofabadmood. . .ev eni fi t ’ sy ouwhoputme i ni t( hel aughsal i l ). . . . Il ov eThatj ustt hi nki ng abouty oumakesmesmi l e. . . . Il ov eThewayI f eel saf ewhenI ’ m wi t hy ou. . . .Thaty oual way s t el l meIl ookbeaut i f ul . . . . ev enwhenIbl at ant l y don’ t ! . . . . Il ov eHowy oual way sknowwhen somet hi ngi swr ong. . . Il ov eHowy ouhol dme whenI ’ m scar ed. . . . Il ov eHowy out el l me ev er y t hi ngwi l l beok. . . . Il ov eHowy ouf or gi v e mest r ai ghtawaywhenIdosomet hi ngt hat makesy ouangr y . . . Il ov eThaty our espectmy f eel i ngs. . . ev ent houghl astni ghtIhadt of or ce my sel fony oubuty eah( hel aughs. . . Idon' tf i nd i tf unnynxbutIl aughany wayar ghst upi d hi m) . . . Il ov eWheny ouexpl ai nt hi ngst ome whenIgetconf used. . . Il ov eWheny ouputme f i r st . . . . . . Il ov eHowy oul ov emej ustt hewayI am. . . . . Il ov eThet i meswhenwe’ v ebot hbeenso l owbut , somehow, y oumanagedt omakeme smi l e. . ( Il ookathi m andhe' sbeenst ar i ngat me) . . Il ov eThecut ef acey oumakewheny ou' r e t r y i ngt ot akeof fmybr a. . . . . Il ov eWheny ou st ar ei nt omyey esf orages. . . . Il ov eThatwhen wel i et oget her , wef i tper f ect l y . . . Il ov eWhen y ousmel l myhai r . . . Il ov eYourr i di cul ous, angr y l ooki ngsexf ace( hel aughsIbl ushandcov er myf ace di dIj ustsayt hat ?I fhedoesn' tst op menowGodknowshowmanymor et hi ngsI shoul dbesecr et l yl ov i nghi m aboutam Igoi ng t obl ur tout ) . . . . Il ov eHowy oul etmewat chwhat Iwant : Moul i nRouge, Sexandt heCi t y , Super nanny , andsoon. . . . Il ov eWheny oul et mebeaty ouwhenwewr est l e. . Il ov eHowy ou t al kt omyf ace, notmyboobs. . . mostoft he t i me. . ( Igi ggl ehesmi r ksl ooki ngatmyboobsI hi det hem t hi sguyi sunbel i ev abl e) . . . Bei ngi n t hecarwi t hy ouandsi ngi ngal onet oour f av our i t esongs. . . t hesi l l ypr ankswedot oeach ot her . . . Wheny ouembar r assmeatt hepar k. . . . . . Wheny oucr y . . . Thaty oucanhav eanygi r l t hat y ouwant , buty oust i l l chooseme. . . . . . . ar ghman Qui nt onIj ustl ov eEv er y t hi ngy oudot hat makesy out hemostamazi ngboy f r i endand bestf r i endi nt hewor l d! " Hemakesmel ookathi m, t her ehegoeswi t h t hest ar i ngagai nwi t hhi spi er ci nggr eyey es, I wi shmyey escoul ddot hat , changebymy moodorbecomet wocol our satonce Qui nt on: " Il ov ey out oosomuchbub. . . Il ov et he wayy oul ov eme" Me: " Iwantt oshowy ousomet hi ng" Qui nt on: " okay " Igetupandgot ot hebat hr oom It akeofmyey e cont act s, Il ookatmyr ef l ect i ont heyst i l l as gr eenasev er , Ihopet heywon' tscar ehi m away . Iwal kbackt ot her oom wi t hmyey escov er ed " Ouch! " Ibumpedmyf ootont hebed Qui nt on: " may bei fy ouwat chedwher ey ouwer e goi ng. . . " Icr awl i nt obedwi t hmyey esst i l l cl osed Me: " cl osey ourey es" Qui nt on: " okay ?Ar ewegoi ngt opr aynowor r . . . Me: "j ustdowhatI ' mt el l i ngy oumar n" Ipeekal i l andhi sey esar ecl osed, Iopenmi ne Iki sshi sl i psandheki ssesmeback Me( whi l eki ssi ng) : " y oucanopent hem now" Heopenedt hem ourey esl ock, t heshockonhi s hi sf ace, buthei sst i l l ki ssi ngme, he' sj ust st ar i ngatmyey esi nawe Ipul l out Qui nt on: " wow, whendi dy oubuyt hose? " Me: " Idi dn' tbuyt hem. . . . t heymyr eal ey es" Hehasaconf usedl ook Qui nt on: " what ?Buty ourey esar ebl ack? " Me: " t hosewer ef ake" Qui nt on: " soy ouwer ebor nwi t hgr eeney es? " Inod Qui nt on: " andal l t hi st i mey ou' v ebeenhi di ng t hem? " Inod Qui nt on: " why ?Theysobeaut i f ul " Me: " r eal l y ?It houghtt heymakemel ook wei r d. . . Iwasal r eadyt easedatschool cal l i ng mebi gey esorf atey esorusgqemeza. . . . whenI gott ohi ghschool Iputbl ackcont act s. .I t houghtmygr eeney eswer ewhatmadet hem not i ceIhav ebi gey es, sot oav oi dbei ngcal l ed t hegr eeney edzombi eorsomet hi ngl i ket hatI hi dmygr eeney esandgr owi ngupi nt hef ar ms washar dspeci al l yi fy oul ookeddi f f er entf r om t her est , l i keme, Iwasv er ywhi t ehadsi l kyl ong hai randmybi ggr eeney es, Igott oomuch at t ent i on, somewoul dt easemesomewoul d j ustst ar eorgossi paboutmeaf ewwant edt o hangoutwi t hme" Qui nt on: " aaww. . . wel l whocar eswhatt hewor l d t hi nksabouty ourey es, t heyal way sgoi ngt o cr i t i ci ze, i fy oucar eaboutpeopl esappr ov al y ou' l l al way sbet hei rpr i soner . . . . . y ourl i f ecan nev erbey our si fy oust i l l car ewhatot her s t hi nk. , . . . t r ustmenotcar i ngwhatot her st hi nk wi l l bet hebestchoi cey ou' l l ev ermake. . . l ook nowhowmuchbeaut yy ouwer ehi di ngf oral l t hesey ear s. . " Me: " y ousee?Thi si sexact l ywhyIl ov ey ou, y ou al way shav et her i ghtt hi ngt osay " Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " y eah. . mygr eeney es sgqemeza" Ihi thi schest Me: " mx m, meany " Qui nt on: " bub? " Me: " what ? " Qui nt on: " i fl i kel et ' ssaysomeonewer et ot el l y ousomet hi ngv er ybadl i kev er ybadt hatwoul d br eaky ourhear tandt hi sper sony oul ov ewi t h al l l l y ourhear t . . . . . woul dy ouhat et hatper son f or ev er ?Orcutt hem outoft ourl i f e? " Myhear tski psabeat , t hat ' sadeepquest i on Me: " uhm Idon' tknow, i twoul ddependonwhat i si tt hatt heper sont ol dme. . . . butIdon' tknowi f Icoul dev erhat esomeoneIl ov ewi t hal l my hear t , I ' dpr obabl ybeangr yatt heper sonbutnot hat e. . . . whyy ouask? " Qui nt on: " j ustaski ng, whati fwhatt heper son t ol dy ouwasnott hei rf aul tbutt heyal sov er y cl osewi t ht heper sonwhowasatf aul t ? " Me: " ay i Qui nt on, andaz , Idon' tknowhowt o answert hat . . . . ar ghy ouandy ourcompl i cat ed quest i ons( Iki sshi mf or ehead)l etmegobat h andgetr eadyf orschool " Hesmi l esIgetupandwr apmynakedbody wi t hat owel Me: " wai tIal mostf or gott oask. . . whot hehel l wasf ol l owi ngust heot herday , y ousai dy ou f oundout" Qui nt on: " i twast women, t heyr ef usedt ot el l me whosentt hem, nomat t erhowmuchIt r i edt o gett heanswer soutoft hem, nxaIwassomad soIj ust . . . . . . Het r ai l sof fandl ooksatmet henav oi dsey e cont act Me: "y ouj ustwhat ?Whatdi dy oudo? " Qui nt on( si ghs) : " Ij ustl ett hem go. . . butIbeat ed t hem upr eal l ybad" Isi gh It houghthewasgoi ngt osayheki l l ed t hem, phew, asmuchasI ' m sacr edofwhatt hey want edt odowi t husbutIcan' tl etQui nt onget bl oodonhi shandsbecauseofme Me: " goodIhopey oubeatt hem enoughf or t hem t onev ercomeback Qui nt on: " don' twor r ybub, t heywon' tbeat hr eat t oy ouany mor e, i ft heyknowwhat ' sgoodf or t hem" Me: " howdi dy ouknowaboutt hi sany way ?" Qui nt on: " don' twor r yaboutt hat . . j ustknowt hat wheny oui nt r oubl eI ' l l al way sbet her ei na speedofl i ght ni ng" , Me: "Qui nt on. . .Ar ey ouhav i ngmef ol l owed?" That ' st heonl yr easonabl eexpl anat i onofhow heknew Qui nt on: " noI ' m not " Me: " y esy ouar e. . . t hosewer epr obabl ypeopl e y ousentt of ol l owme" Qui nt on: " I ' m nothav i ngy ouf ol l owedLi sa, t hosemenwer eaf t ery ou, t heywer esentt oget y ou, danger ouspeopl ear eaf t ery ouLi sa" Me: " danger ouspeopl e?" Qui nt on: " r emembert hest or yy out ol dmeabout y ourdadgi v i ngy oudi amonds? " Inod Qui nt on: " It hi nksomeoneknowst haty ouhav e t hem, andt heywantt hem" Me: " what ? . . . I . . Qui nt on: "doy ouknowwher et heyar e? " Shoul dIt el l hi m, dadsai dnev ert ot el l any one Me: " No, Iwasst i l l y oungIf or gotwher eIhi d t hem, I ' v et r i edt ol ookf ort hem" Hel ooksatmei nt ensi v el yasi fhedoesn' t bel i ev eme Qui nt on: " ar ey ousur e? " Inod Qui nt on: " y ouknowy oucant el l meany t hi ng r i ght ?I ' mi ny oursi de" It houghtf orawhi l emay beIshoul dj ustt el l me, butt hen, dadwar nedmeaboutmyf r i ends, I don' tr eal l yknowwhi chonewashewar ni ngme about Me: " IknowQui nt on, I ' mt el l i ngy out het r ut h. . do y out hi nki fIknewwher et heywer eI ' dst i l l be her e?I ' dbesomewher ei nAmer i cal i v i ngt he l i f eeat i nghor sd' oeuv r e" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " Ibety ouwoul d. . butLi ssy ouhav et o f i ndt hem" Ishr ugmyshoul der s Me: " l etmegetr eadyf orcl ass" Igot akeashowert hendr essmy sel fup * * * * * Wej ustcameoutofcl assandy onel awant sme t ov i si therf oral i t t l ebi tcauseshewant sust o t al ki npr i v at esowenowatherapar t ment Imakemy sel fcomf or t abl eont hecouch, she' s beenact i ngr eal l yst r anget oday Yonel a: " woul dy oul i kesomet hi ngt o dr i nk. . . ar ghofcausey oudo, si l l yme" Shequi ckl ygoesandcomesbackwi t hj ui ce andbi scui t s Me: " t hanks" Shesmi l esandnods, Idr i nkmyj ui ceandt akea bi t eoft hebi scui tImaket hat" mmmh"t hey r eal l yt ast y , Il ookupandherandshe' sst ar i ng atmei nadmi r at i on Ishr ugmyshoul der s Me( mout hf ul ) : " Whaa? " Shechuckl es Yonel a: " y ousocut e, Iseey out ookoutt he cont act s, y ourey esar ebeaut i f ul " Me: " t hanky ou, Icoul dn' thi det hem f or ev er" Yonel a: " butI ' v ebeenpr eachi ngt hatt o y ou, whatf i nal l ygott hr oughy ourt hi ckskul l ? " Il augh Me: " t hat ' dbeQui nt on, Idon' tknowhowbuthe j ustbr i ngsoutasi deofmet hathasn' tbeen t her ebef or e, hemakesmebel i ev ei nmy sel f ev eni fIknowIcan' tdoi t , hebr i ngsoutt he cr azysi de. Shel ooksatmeast houghshe' ssador di sappoi nt ed Me: " sor r y , Ishoul dn' thav eaddont her estof t hoset hi ngs. . i twasQui nt onf ul l st op" Shechuckl es Yonel a: " Li sa, Iwant edt oapol ogi se. . .Act ual l y Li saI ' m sosor r yf ort hewayIact edt heot her day , Idon' tknowwhatcameov erme, i twasso uncal l edf orandIwoul dnev erev erspi l l y our secr et sl i kehowIt hr eat ened, y out el l met hose becausey out r ustmeandi t ' dbecr uel ofmet o bet r ayy ourt r ustl i ket hat " Me: " y onel a, Iunder st and, Ial soki ndabet r ay ed y oubydat i ngMncedi si wheny oul i kedhi mf i r st " Yonel a: " ohpl easeMncedi si who?I ' ml ongov er hi m" Me: " r eal l y ?Buty ouwer esomad" Shesi ghs Yonel a: " Li sa, Inev erwant edMncedi si i nt he f i r stpl ace, Inev erl i kedt hat o, IknowIal way st al k aboutQui nt onbutt r ut hi sInev erl i kedhi mi n t hatway . . . ev enChr i sIdi dn' tl ov ehi m" Wel l t hatwasobv i ous, t heChr i spar t Me: " what ?Buty ouwer el at er al l ypr ai si ng Mncedi si It hought . . ." Yonel a: " Li sai fy ou' v enot i cedI ' v eal way sbeen i nt oboy swhoar ei nt oy ou, l i ket hatguyi ngr ade 11whol i kedy oubutIendedupdat i nghi m, I nev eract ual l yl i kedhi m" I ' m conf usedAFwhati sshet r y i ngt osay ? Me: " oh. . . . " Yonel a: " t het r ut hi sIl i key ouLi sa" Me: " ofcausey oul i keme, y oul ov eme, webest f r i endsdar h" Ir ol l myey es Yonel a: " no, Imeanl i ke. . Ir eal l yl i key ouasi nl i ke t hi s" Shemov escl osert omeherf acer i ghtonmi ne shel ooksdeepi nt omyey est hencupsmy f ace, shecl osesherey esandbr ushesherl i ps onmi ne, shepecksmyl i pIpeckhert oo, she deepenst heki ss, sur pr i si ngmy sel fI ' m ki ssi ng herback, whatt hehel l i sgoi ngon?Ar ewer eal l y ki ssi ng?Whyar en' tIst oppi ngher . . . damnwhy doesi tf eel sogood Ipul l out Me: " Yonel a! ? ?" Yonel a: " I ' m sosor r y . . . .It houghty ouf eel t he same? " Me: " what ? . . . . uhm I . .Ihav et ogo" Iqui ckl ygetupandheadoutIhearher shout i ngmyname, butIneedt ogoIcan' tst ay her ef oranot hersecond, Ical l edanuber , Iwent t ot hel i br ar y , Ineedt ogetmi ndmi ndof f t hi ngs, Ishoul dwr apupmyassi gnment . . * * * * Thel i br ar yi ssopeacef ul butt hi st i met hi s peacef ul nessi smaki ngmymi ndr unwi l dandI can' tst opt hi nki ngabouty onel a, howcomeI nev ernot i ced? Acal l comest hr ough Me: " hel l o" " Mywi f e, howar ey oubeaut i f ul ? " Me: " heyLee, I ' m goodt hanksandy our sel f ?" Lee: " I ' m goodt oo. . . . wher ear ey ou? " Me: " i nt hel i br ar y" Lee: " t hat ' swhyy ouwhi sper i ng, canIcomepi ck y ouup? " Me: " what ?Wher ear ey ou?Whendi dy ouget back?Youback? " Hel aughs Lee: " YesI ' m backbeaut i f ul , Ihadt ocomeback ear l i er , Imi ssy ousomuch" Me: " oh. . . uhm Iguessy oucancomepi ckmeup" Lee: " I ' l l ber i ghtt her e, gi v emef i v e" Me: " okayt hen, by e" Lee: " by ebeaut i f ul " Ihangup, af ewmi nut esl at er , I ' mi nhi s apar t ment , wewer ej ustchi l l i ng, pl ay edhi spl ay st at i on, t al kedandhadsnacks He' ssi t t i ngcl oset omewat chi ngt . v Me: " Ishoul dgetgoi ng" Lee: " oh?Sosoon? " Hehasadi sappoi nt edl ookonhi sf ace Me: " y eahi t ski ndaget t i ngl at e" Hesi ghs Lee: " okay" West ar eateachot her Lee: " Ican' tgetov ery ourey es" Me( smi l es) : " t hanks" * si l ence* Lee: " Iwast hi nki ng" Me: " y eah? " Lee: " whydon' ty oumov ei nwi t hme? " Me: " what ? " . . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 28, 22: 57]W: cont i nuat i on ( shor t ) Lee: " I ' m sor r yIdi dn' tmeant oscar ey ou" Me: " uhm what ?No, Imeanuhm what ' st he r ush? " Lee: " i t snor ushLi sai twasj ustat hought " Me: " oh. . . mov i ngi n?That ' sabi gst ep, don' ty ou t hi nk? " Lee: " wedat edf oronedayt henIpai d l obol a, nowengagedf ormar r i age, buty out hi nk mov i ngi nwi l l beabi gst ep?" Hesai dwi t hagr i nonhi sf ace, Il aughal i t t l e Me: " wowhubbyIt hi nkwemov i ngt oof ast , who dat esf oronedayt henget smar r i ed? " Wel augh Lee: " don' ty ouf i ndi tf unnyt hef i r stt i meIgav e y ouar i dehomet henaskedf ory ournumber s, I sav edi tasf ut ur ewi f ey . . . . Me: " onl yt of i ndt hat , I ' l l r eal l ybey our wi f ey . . . . ( l aughs) . . whatar et heodds" Wel augh Lee: " l ookkhany a, I ' m notdemandi ngt haty ou shoul dmov ei nwi t hmej ustcauseIpai dl obol a orcauseI ' my ourhusbandorany t hi ngoft hat sor t , t her e' sr eal l ynor ush, i t sj ustwhenI ' m wi t h y ouIbecomer eal l yhappy , i t ssof unbei ngi n y ourcompany , t al ki ngt oy ouwi t hy ourbl abbi ng mout h, Il ov ei twhenIl osemy sel fi ny our ey es. . . . Ij ustwantt ocuddl ewi t hy ouwhenI sl eepandwakeupnexty ouev er ymor ni ng, so t hatwhenIl ookaty oui t ' l l makemebel i ev et hat t her e' ssomet hi ngi nt hi swor l dwor t hl i v i ng f or , wor t hwaki ngupf or , wor t ht aki ngcar e f or , wor t hl ov i ngandwor t hev er yef f or t s" Myhear tmel t swhi l ebeat i ngf astatt hesame t i me, Ismi l e Me: " t hat ' ssosweet. . . . doy our eal l yf eel t hi s st r ongl yaboutme? " Henods Lee: " If eel somuchf ory ouLi sai t snotev en f unny , Il ov ey ou" Me: " oh. . . I ' m notsur eaboutmov i ngi n" Lee: " y oust i l l enj oy i ngscr ewi ngy our f r i end. . . Qui nt on?" Whatdi dhej ustsay ? Me: " par don? " Lee: " i st hatwhyi t shar df ory out omov eout , y ou hav en' tbr oket hi ngsof fy et , y ' al l st i l l l ov eeach ot herandhe' sscr ewi ngy our i ght ? " Me: " Mnce. . . . . Lee: " NoLi saIgeti t , y oul ov ehi m, butcan' ty ou atl eastt r yt or espectt hef actt hatwemar r i ed? Wi l l y ouev ert r yt omakeuswor k?Oram Ial l al onei nt hi s?Whatam Iev enaski ng, y ounev er want edt hi si nt hef i r stpl acesoy ou' l l pr obabl y doany t hi ngI ny ourpowert odest r oyi t " Me: " Lee. . . don' tbel i ket hi s. . I . .I Lee: " y oucan' tev endenyi t , i t sf i nekhany ay ou cangobacky oy ourmanl etmenotst andi n y ourway , IguessIwasal i t t l enaï v et ot hi nkwe hadsomeki ndofconnect i on, t ot hi nkt hati t wasf at et hatboughtust oget her . . . . . y ouknow what , i t sget t i ngl at ey oushoul dgo. . l etmego gett hekey s" Heget supIpul l hi sar m maki nghi m si t , Idon' t knowwhet herIf eel somet hi ngf orhi m orI r eal l yf eel sor r yf orhi m Me: " Lee, i t snott hatIdon' tl i key ouorany t hi ng, Ij usthat et hewaywear eboughtt oget herIst i l l don' tunder st andt hedeal behi ndt hi smar r i age andi t sf r ust r at i ngme, causeasmuchasIl i ke y ousomuchIj ustdon' tt r ustwhydi dwehav e t ogetar r angedf orwhat ' supwi t ht hat ? " Hesi gh Lee: " i fIknew. . . Ir eal l ywoul dt el l y ou, myf at her j ustt ol dmet hati fIdon' tmar r yy ou, t henIcan f or gett aki ngov ert hef ami l ybusi ness" Me: " whati sy ourf ami l ybusi nessabout ?" Lee: " al otoft hi ngsbutt hemai npar tofi ti st he shi ppi ngofcar go" Me: " ohwhatt y peofcar go? " Lee: " v ehi cl es. .Ai r cr af t sandmanyot hert hi ngs" Me: " mmmh" Lee: " l etmegety ouback" Hest oodupIpul l edhi m backdownbutt hi s t i mehei st oocl oset omewel ookedateach ot herhepul l smyheadandsmasheshi sl i pson mi ne, hi shandbr ushi ngmyt hi ghsi nwar ds, I wr appedmyar msar oundhi sneckt henpul l ed out Me: " l etmet hi nkabouti tokay ? " Lee: " Iunder st and, butpl easedon' tt aket oo mucht i me, Ir eal l ydon' tl i ket haty oust aywi t ha ni ggart haty ouhav ef eel i ngsf or " Me: " okayf i neI ' l l mov ei nnextweek" Hi sf acel i t supashesmi l es Lee: " r eal l y ? " Inod Heki ssesmeIki sshi m backourki sst ur ned i nt oamakeoutsessi onIpul l edout Me( br eat hl ess) : " Ishoul dgobef or et hi sgoes anyf ur t her " Lee( smi r ks) : " what ' swr ongwi t hf ur t her ?" Me: " j ustt akemehome" Lee: " butt hi si sy ourhome, wi t hy ourhusband" I tst i l l hasn' tr egi st er edt hatI ' m someone' swi f e Me: " shoul dIcal l anuber? " Hechuckl es, hedr i v esmebackhome. Iunl ockandgeti nsi de, myhear tski psi n exci t ement , Il ov et hi spl acei tmyhome, I ' m happyher eIdon' twannamov eout , Iwal kt ot he f r i dgeIopent hencl osei t , Idon' tneedany t hi ng f r om i t , i t sj ustanor m nowt hatIcan' tpasst he ki t chenwi t houtopeni ngt hef r i dge, Qui nt onhas r eal l yr ubbedof fhi sbadhabi t sonme. Il ookar oundt hehousehe' snother e, If r eshen upandwor emyPJs, It ookoutmyl apt opand gotdownt obusi ness, Iwasf i ni shi ngof fmy assi gnment , af t erhour sofr esear chandt y pi ngI wasf i nal l ydone, Icheckt het i mei t spast mi dni ghtandQui nt oni sst i l l notback, It akeof f myner dsandst ar tpacki ngup, Idi dn' tev en cookdi nner , soIj usthav esomey ogur tt hen headedf orbedaf t erswi t chi ngof ft hel i ght s It r i edcal l i nghi m buthedoesn' tpi ckup, Isent l ot sofmessagest i l l Igav eupandf el l asl eep. . . . If el tt hebl anketmov i ng, hi sscentf i l l edme up, hegoti nt hecov er sIhadmybackt ur nedon hi m, hesmel l sofci gar et t eHemov escl oserand wr apshi sar msar oundme, If eel hear t br okenat t het houghtofwher ei shecomi ngf r om, Ican' t ev enpr et endt osl eephi st ouchi sj ustt oo st r ongt omyemot i ons Me: " wher ey oucomi ngf r om?" Idon' tt ur nt ol ookathi m Qui nt on: " sor r yt owakey ouup" Me: " wher ear ey oucomi ngf r om? " Qui nt on: " Igothel dup, I ' m sor r yIdi dn' tr et ur n y ourcal l s" It ur nt of acehi m Me: " hel dupwher e? " Qui nt on: " Iwasatt hehospi t al , t heyf ounda sonarf ormom, t heywi l l best ar t i ngt hesur ger y byt omor r ow" Exci t ementov erpower sme Me: " WowQui nt ont hat ' sgoodnews! ! " Qui nt on: " Yeahi ti s, Icoul dn' tbel i ev ei t , I ' m so happy , mom wasgi v enasecondchance" If eel t ear st hr eat eni ng, I ' m sohappy , t hi si sal l Godsgr ace Me( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " I ' m sohappyf orher , Iknew she' l l makei tt hr ough" Qui nt on: " t hanky oubub, t hanksf orbel i ev i ngi n her , t hanky ouf ory ourpower f ul pr ay er s, y ou r eal l ydomeant hewor l dt ome" Hepul l smecl oserIwr apmyl egsandar ms ar oundhi m Me: " i twasal soy ourpr ay er s, andy ourf ai t hbut mostofal l i twasGod' sGr aceandmer cy " Heki ssesmeunexpect edl y , weshar eaki ss f i l l edwi t hl ot sofemot i ons Hepul l sout Qui nt on: " sor r yf orcomi nghomel at e, she' s awake, Ist ay edwi t hhert i l l shef el l asl eep, she ki ndat al ksal ott oo" Ichuckl e Me: " t hat ' sokay , I ' mj ustgl ady oubacknow" Heget sont opofmeki ssi ngme, hegoesdown t omyneckmassagi ngmyboobs. . . " y oust i l l enj oy i ngscr ewi ngy ourf r i end. . . Qui nt on?" . . hi s v oi ceechoesi nmymi ndIcantgethi m outof mymi nd, Icl osemyey esandmoanl ouderasQ i smuf f i ngme. . . . "Iwast hi nki ng. . . . . whydon' ty ou mov ei nwi t hme? " . . . . . Imoanl oudert r y i ngt o concent r at eonwhatQui nt oni sdoi ngt omebut hi sv oi cest i l l r unst hr oughmymi nd, Icanst i l l f eel hi sl i psonmi ne, Ican' tst opt hi nki ngabout hi m. . . " " Ij ustwantt ocuddl ewi t hy ouwhenI sl eepandwakeupnexty ouev er ymor ni ng, so t hatwhenIl ookaty oui t ' l l makemebel i ev et hat t her e' ssomet hi ngi nt hi swor l dwor t hl i v i ng f or , wor t hwaki ngupf or , wor t ht aki ngcar e f or , wor t hl ov i ngandwor t hev er yef f or t s" If eel hi mr ubbi nghi msel fonmeIst ophi m Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " Qui nt on, nott oni ght " Qui nt on: " whynot ? " Heki ssesmyneck. Me( br eat hl essl y ) : " I ' m mov i ngout " Hest opsandl ooksatmef oral ongt i me Qui nt on: " oh. . . Heget sof fme, Ir eal l ydi dn' twanthi mt o Me: "Mncedi si want smet omov ei nwi t hhi m" Hi sl i psar ecur v edupsi dedownandsoar e mi ne Me: " I ' m sor r yQ. . . It r i edt o. . . Qui nt on: " NoIgeti t . . . he' sy ourhusband, y ou wer eboundt omov ei nwi t hhi m" Me: " Qui nt on. . . . Ir eal l ydon' twantt o, t hi si smy home" Qui nt on: " y eahwel l , y ournewhomei swi t hhi m now" Me: " Qui nt on. .Whyar ey oubei ngsocol d" Qui nt on: " oh. . I ' m sor r yy ouwantmet obehappy f ory ou?Tor ej oi ce?Tocongr at ul at ey ou? . . . . . wel l I ' m sor r y . . t hatIj ustcan' tdo" Tear swer enowr unni ngdownmyf ace Me: " I ' m scar edQui nt on, I ' m scar edt ol ose y ou, I ' m scar edofhav i ngt ochoosesomeone el set ospendt her estofmyl i f ewi t hwhoi snot y ou, I ' m scar edt oexper i encewaki ngupnextt o someoneel sewhoi snoty ou, I ' m scar edt ol ose t hest r ongf eel i ngsandchemi st r yIhav ewi t h y ou, I ' m scar edt ot el l amant hatIl ov ehi m causehe' snoty ou, I ' m scar edofchangi ng, Mostofal l I ' m scar edofwal ki ngoutoft hi s r oom andnev erf eel i ngt her estofmywhol e l i f e. . . . . t hewayIf eel whenI ' m wi t hy ou" Heswi t chesont hel ampandl ooksatme, hi s ey esar ebl oodshot , Qui nt on: " I ' m scar edt ooLi ss, I ' ml osi ngy ou, y ou sl i ppi ngawayf r om myhandsandIcantdo any t hi ngabouti t , Il ov ey ouLi sa. . . . . . . . . butIhav e t ol ety ougo, Il ov ey ou. . . ev er y onecant el l I do. . butIneedt oacceptt her eal i t yt haty ou needt ogo. . . I ' l l bekeepi ngmyl ov ef ory ouTo t hedeepestpar tofmeIwi l l notf or getwhat we' v eshar edBecauset hat ' st heonl yt r easur e I ' l l keep. . . . f ornowgot oy ourhusband, May be we' l l f i ndawaybackt oeachot her , whoknows may bet hi ngswer emeantt obet hi swayf i r st bef or ewecanbet oget her" Me( cr y i ng) : " pl easedon' tt al kl i ket hi s, y ou br eaki ngmyhear t , Il ov ey ousomuch, Iwi sh t hi ngswer edi f f er ent , we' l l st i l l bet oget herr i ght ? We' l l f i ndawayback" Hepul l smei nt ohi sembr ace Qui nt on: " Ipr omi set ohol dont omypr omi se, I wi l l nev erl ov eanyot hergi r l l i kehowIl ov ey ou, I knowy oual r eadyf ai l i ngt okeept hepr omi se y oumade, butI ' l l hol dont omi neandwai tf or y ou. . . IknowI ' m notper f ectbuti fgi v ena chanceIcoul dbe, IknowI ' l l f i ndt het r ut h behi ndt hi smar r i aget hatwi l l sety ouf r ee, Ij ust hopebyt hatt i mey ou' l l st i l l wantt obesetf r ee" I st hi ssomesor tofgoodby e?Noi tcan' t be, we' v eonl yj ustgott hechancet obet oget her , i tcan' tbeov ersosoon, i thasn' tev enst ar t ed! Me: " pl easedon' tsayt hat . . . I ' l l al way sber eady t ocomebackt oy ou. . y ou' l l al way sbemy numberone" hesi ghs, hecuddl esmeIcoul dn' tst opt het ear s Ij ustwentonandonandon. . . whyi sl ov eso compl i cat ed, whendi dmyl i f egetso compl i cat ed? . . . . I ' l l t r yt opostt oni ght , . .nopr omi ses [ 07/ 28, 22: 57]W: I nser t23 QUI NTON Aweekl at er Me: " wel l t hat ' st hel astofi t , di dy oupackt hat nov el y oul ov er eadi ng?Godknowsy ou woul dn' tsur v i v eadaywi t houti t " She' ssi t t i ngont hebedl ooki ngar ound Me: " hel l o! ? " Ist andi nf r ontofhershel ooksupatme, at ear dr opsf r om herey e Isquar tdownt oherl ev el Me: " bub, don' tcr ypl ease, we' v edoneenoughof t hat " Li sa: " Ican' tbel i ev eIwon' tbest ay i ngher e any mor e" Me: " i ti ssad, butdon' twor r yv er yv er ysoon y ou' l l beback" Sheshr ugs Me: " comeonl et ' sgett heset ot hecar " Li sa: " y eah" Ihel phergetupandwecont i nuepacki ng. Ir eal l yf eel l i keI ' ml oosi ngher , Iknowt hi si s hur t i nghernow, butsoonshe' l l f or getaboutme si ncei t st ooobv i oust hatshehascaught f eel i ngsf ort hedude, Ij usthopeshewon' tbe bl i ndedbyt her i chgoodl uxur i ousl i f eand change, I ' v er eal l ybeenmeani ngt ot el l hert he t r ut haboutherf at her ' sdeat hbutev er yt i meI t r yIseeherbeaut i f ul f aceandIcan' tst andt o seeherhur tspeci al l ybyme. . Yest her ei sa t r acki ngdev i ceonheneckl ace, Iputi tt her e causet hi swhol edeal bet weent heJohnsons andhergr andmot herj ustdoesn' taddup, andI j ustdon' tt r ustt hem atal l , I ' l l pr ot ectLi sawi t h myl i f enotcauseIf eel Ioweherf ormyf at her ' s deedsbutbecauseIr eal l yt r ul yl ov eherand car ef orherandI ' l l nev erf or gi v emy sel fi f any t hi ngev erhappenst ohernotundermy wat chwhenIf oundherIsav edherl i f e, t ookher i nandt ookcar eofher , shehadnoonesoI becameherf ami l y , herf r i endandher pr ot ect or , shemeansal ott omenow, she' smy pr eci ouspear l andImadeanoat ht omy sel f t hatI ' l l t akecar eandpr ot ectf orasl ongasIl i v e, IAl socan' texpl ai nwhyIf eel soconnect edt o herbutIj ustam. . . . t hoset woguy swhower e f ol l owi ngherIst i l l hav et hem capt i v ewel l one oft hem, Ihadt omakeanexampl eoutoft hee ot hersot hatt heot heronet al ks, he' snotdead t houghbutImadei tl ookl i kei t , Idon' tl i keki l l i ng buti fi t sf orMom Candr amybr ot her sorLi saI ' d doi tov erandov eragai n, cal l mecol d, bar st ur d orwhat ev erbutI ' dki l l andt akeabul l etf ort he peopl eIl ov ecausewhenIl ov eIl ov e uncondi t i onal l yt hat ' swhyInev erat t achedmy f eel i ngswi t hgi r l sandhav i ngr el at i onshi ps, and whenIhat eIhat ewi t hpassi onandr i ghtnowI hat et heJohnsons, Iknowaboutt hei rshi ppi ng company , i t sar egi st er edcompanysoi t sl egal butI ' m sur et her e' smor et oi tt hanai r cr af tand v ehi cl es, I ' l l f i ndoutt oday , asl ongasLi sahas t hosedi amondsherl i f ei si ngr eatdanger , al ot ofpeopl et r i edst eal i ngf r om mydadt her ewer e al way sgunf i ght scauseev er yt hugoutt her e want edt hedi amonds, Li sa' sdadwascl ev erhe wor kedi nt hei nsi degai nedmydadst r ustand noonesawi tcomi ngwhenhef oundouti twas hi m, Iwasar oundf i f t eent osi xt eeny ear sol dI al r eadyknewaboutdadsbusi nesseswhent hi s manbet r ay edhi m, hewentaf t erhi m andki l l ed hi m butdi dn' tgett hedi amonds, Iwasn' tt her e dur i ngt heki l l i ngj ustmybr ot her sandot her men, Inev erknewi twasLi sa' sdadunt i l she t ol dmer ecent l yt hest or yaboutherdadand di amonds, Iknowsheknowswher et heyar ebut It hi nkshedoesn' tt r ustme, i fonl ysheknewt he ki ndofpeopl eaf t ert hose, whendaddi edwe wer ef or cedt ocar r yon, Ir ef used, unt i l t hey ki dnappedCandr aIdi dal l Icoul dt osav eher l i f eandIdi d, notknowi ngt hatf r om t hat momentIwi l l f or ev erbe. . . . . wel l t hat ' sast or yf or anot herday , Ij ustneedhert ogi v emet he di amondsIknowhowt ot akecar eoft hem so t hatherl i f ei soutofdanger , causei fsheget s r i doft hem, whoev eri saf t erherwi l l ki l l herordo wor se, buti ft heyknowt heybysomeoneel se whi chi sme, t hey ' l l comeaf t ermei nst eadandI don' tcar ewhathappenst omeasl ongasLi sa i spr ot ect ed Ist opt hecarbyt hepar ki ngoft hehot el mncencencest ay si n Me: " wel l weher e" Li sa: " y eahweher e" Me: " Li ss, y ouknowI ' ddoany t hi ngf ory ou r i ght ? " Shenods Me: " andI ' dhat ei ti fany oneev ert r i est ohur t y ou, causeI ' dt ur ni nt osomet hi ngIhat et ur ni ng i nt o" Shel ooksatmeandf r ownsal i t t l e Me: " pl easebub, wheny our ememberwher ey ou hi dt hedi amonds, pl easet el l me, t r ustmei t ' s notbecauseIwantt hem f ormy sel fbutIwant t opr ot ecty ou" Li sa: " Idon' tknowwher et heyar eQui nt onbut I ' l l t el l y oui fIr emember " Shecl ear l ydoesn' tt r ustmeandIhat et hat , how am Isupposedt opr ot ectheri fshedoesn' t ev ent r ustme Me: " okay( si ghs). . .I ' mj ustaphonecal l away okay ? " Shenodswi t hherspar kl i ngt ear yey es Me: " i fheev erl ay shi shandsony ouandhur t s y ou, t el l me, I ' l l comegety oudon' twai tf orhi m t odoi tt wi ce. . . . i fheev ermi st r eat sy oui n any wayLi sa, don' tbescar edt ocal l meev eni f het hr eat ensy ou, hewon' thur ty ou, notwhi l eI ' m st i l l al i v e" Li sa: " hewon' thur tmeQ, buti fhedoesI ' l l t el l y ou" Me: " y oupr omi se? " Li sa: " Ipr omi se" Me: " al sopr omi semey ou' l l cal l meev er y day wheny ougett hechance, ev eni fi t sj ustt osay hi " Li sa: " Ipr omi seI ' l l cal l y ouev er y day . . ComeQi t s notl i keI ' m goi ngf arawayI ' l l v i si ty ouev er y chanceIgetwe' l l st i l l hangoutj ustl i kebef or e" Me: " Isur ehopeso, I ' l l cal l y out oo, ev er ysi ngl e day " Shemakesaf ai ntsmi l e Me: " comeher e" Shemov esherheadt owar dsmeImeetherhal f wayandweshar eaki ssav er yl ongone, t he v er yl astone, I ' m notpl anni ngonki ssi ngherl i ke t hi sorsexi ngwi t hherunt i l shebel ongst ome Ipul l out Me: " wecannev erki ssl i ket hi sort oucheach ot herany howasl ongasy oust i l l mar r i edt ohi m okay ? " Shel ooksatmedi sappoi nt ed Li sa: " y oumeant hatwasourl astki ss? " Inod Shesmashesherl i psonmeandweki ssagai n shepul l sout Li sa: " okayt hi si st hel astone" Weki ssonceagai n, damnIcannev erget enoughoft hesel i ps Shepul l soutandl ooksatme Li sa: " okayl astoft hel ast " Ichuckl eknowi ngherwe' l l nev erst opandI don' twanthert o af t eral ongwhi l emyj awswer eget t i ngt i r edbut Idi dn' twantt ost opandt hi ski ssi ngi sst ar t i ng t ot ur nmeonbi gt i me, Ij ustnot i cedI ' mr ubbi ng herpunani , shepul l soutwebot hgaspf or ai r , I ' m sur emyl i psar easswol l enasher s Li sa: " okayt hatwast heone" Wel augh Me: " okayl et ' shel py ougett heset hi ngsi nsi de" Wegetoutandt akehert hi nksupt ot hei r f l oor , sheonl yt ookhercl ot hesandaf ewot her t hi ngsshedi dn' tneedt ot akeany t hi ngbi g Me: " wher ei sy ourhusbandany way ? " Shesi ghs Li sa: " doy ouhav et osayt hat ? " Me: " what ? " Li sa: " y oudon' thav et oment i ont hatal l t he t i me" Me: " I ' m sor r y , i t sj ustawayf ori tt or egi st eri n mymi ndt haty ousomeone' swi f e" Li sa: " he' sonhi swayhewaswr i t i ngat estso hegav emet hekey s" Me: "doy oust i l l wantoutf r om t hi smar r i age?" Li sa: " we' v ebeent hr ought hi sQui nt on, keep doi ngev er y t hi ngy oucant of r eemeandI ' l l do t hesame. . Ihav en' tchosenhi m, Ichoosey ou" Me: " i t sj ustI ' v eseenhowcl osey ou' v ebeent o hi m, y out exthi m ev er yni ghthecal l sy ouev er y mor ni ngl i kear eal mar r i edcoupl e" Li sa: " i t snotl i ket hatQ. . hesai dhewant st o maket hi smar r i agewor kandt hat ' shi mt r y i ng. . I don' tl ov ehi m Iswear " Ihat ehowt hi sgi r l br i ngsoutmyemot i onsso easi l y , I ' v ebeenacr ybabyev ersi nceI ' v ebeen wi t hher , Ican' thi dei twhenI ' m sadandi tonl y happenswi t hher , ot her wi seI ' m one emot i onl essper son Me: Iknowy oudon' tl ov ehi m, It r usty ou" Shehasf eel i ngsf orhi m, Icanf eel i t Li sa: " t omor r owI ' l l beheadi ngt oP. E" Me: " whatf or ? " Li sa: " Ineedt ot al kt ogr amsandIhear dshe' s notwel l atal l , Ihav et of i ndoutt het r ut hbef or e shel eav es" Me: " wheny oucomi ngback? " Li sa: " Ihav et obebackt hedayaf t ert omor r ow causeIhav eat est " Me: " okaygood, Ihopey ourgr annyt el l sy out he t r ut h, Ihav eaf eel i ngt heyt hr eat enedher somehow" Shenodswi t haconcer nedf ace Me: " t hatneckl acer eal l yl ooksgoodony ou" Shesmi l esandl ooksati t Li sa: " Il ov ei tsomuch, I ' m nev ert aki ngi tof f " Me: " i t ssui t sy ouper f ect l y , y oushoul dnev er r epl acei t " Li sa: " nev er , ev er yt i meIl ookati tIget f l ashbacksoft hef unt i meswehad" " OhheyLi sa, y ouher e, sor r yIcoul dn' tf et chy ou" Hehugshert i ghtbutshequi ckl ypul l soutofi t Li sa: " oh. . . noi t sokayQui nt onwasv er yhel pf ul " Ourey esl ock, If eel mybl oodboi l andmy t emper at ur er i si ng, If eel al otofhat r edt owar ds hi m, i t sj ustt oomuchIf eel l i kest r angl i nghi mt o deat h, hedar eshur tmygi r l I ' l l gett hepr i v i l ege t odoi t Me: " I ' l l getgoi ng. . .( Iwal kupt oLi saandki ss hercheek) . . t akecar e" Li sa: " I ' l l wal ky ouout " Hi m: " heknowshi sway " Li sa: " so?Isai dI ' l l wal khi m out " Me: " t hat ' sokaybub, Iknow myway " Iwal koutcl osi ngt hedoorbehi ndme Acal l comest hr oughmyphoneasIent ermy car Me: " whatdoy ouhav ef orme? " " Let ' smeetatt heusual spot , Igotsomet hi ngon t hem t haty ouwi l l l ov e" Me: " I ' l l bet her ei nt en" . . . LI SA Me: " whydi dy ouhav et obesor ude? " Lee: " Ey i Li saIdon' tl i key ourf r i endabi tandI ' m notaboutt opr et endIl i kehi m" Me: " pl easedon' tdot hatagai n" Hel ooksatmeandsi ghs Lee: " okayf i ne, I ' m sor r y , nowcanwecel ebr at e y ourf i r stni ghtwi t hy ourman" Hemakesf unnyf acesIr el uct ant l ysmi l e Me: " Iguessso" Hepi cksmeupt hengoesputmeont hecouch Lee: " l etmegogetussomet hi ngt odr i nk" Hedi sappear st ot heki t chent hencomesback wi t hchampagneandt wogl asses Lee: " t onewbegi nni ngs" Her ai seshi sgl ass, Ihesi t at ebef or er ai si ng mi ne Me: " t onewbegi nni ngs" . . . . [ 07/ 28, 22: 57]W: I nser t24 LI SA Sheat t acksmewi t hahugassoonasIcome outt hecar Let hu: " y oohIt houghty ounev ercomi ngback! " Me: " howcome?Whent hi si smysecondhome" Sandr a: " doy ouneedhel pwi t hy ourl uggage?" Me: " Ineedanot herhugf i r st " Shesmi l esbef or eshy l yhuggi ngme Me: " y out oot hando?May be?No? " Shef akesal aughr ol l sherey est hengoesback t ot hehouse Me: " guesst hat ' saNo" Wel aughandheadi nsi dewher eI ' m at t ackedby SnakhoIpi ckherupandspi nherar ound, she gi ggl esl i keal i t t l ef i v ey earol d. .Ohwai tshei s. . Li zz: " : " Li sa, i tsoni cet ohav ey oubacksosoon " Me: " y eah. . .Ihear dgr amsi sget t i ngwor se, I needt ospendt i mewi t hher " Li zz( si ghs) : " ey i i t sbadLi sa. . .I t sgoody ouher e shewi l l bev er yhappyt oseey ou" Me: " i ssheher e? " Li zz: " Yesshe' si nherr oom, t hedoct orj ust at t endedheraf ewmi nut esagosoI ' m notsur e whet hershe' sawake" Me: " t hat ' sokayI ' l l gocheck" Imademywayt oherr oom, Iknockedsof t l y t henmademywayi n Me( whi sper i ng) : " heey y " Shel ooksupatmet hensmi l es, Isi tatt heedge oft hebed Me( whi sper i ng) : " howy oudoi ng? " Gr ams: " i npai n, butI ' mf i ne" Myl i psaut omat i cal l ycur v eupsi dedown Me( whi sper i ng) : " aawwIwi shIcant aket he pai nawayandbeari tf ory oui nst ead" Gr ams: " t hat ' ssweetandal l butcanIask somet hi ng? " Me( whi sper i ng) : " ofcausey oucanaskme any t hi ng" Gr ams( whi sper i ng) : " wasumakangaka kut heni ? " ( whyy ouwhi sper i ng, what swr ong? ) Me( whi sper i ng) : " ohmybad" Webur sti nt ol aught er , unt i l shest ar t scoughi ng r eal l ybadt aki ngherhandker chi ef , Inot i ced bl oodcomi ngout , Ist ar tpani cki ng Me: " ah. . uhm. . doy ouneedwat er ? !Ofcausey ou do. . uhm ah.Okaywai t " Ist oodup Gr ams: " noI ' mf i nehl al aphansi " ( si tdown) Ir el uct ant l ysi t Me: " ar ey ousur e? . . . causel i ke. . . Gr ams: " I ' mf i neLi sa" Isi gh Me( smi l es) : " okayke" Gr ams: " kunj ani ukbangumakot i ? "( How' si tl i ke bei ngawi f e? ) If eel angerr i si ngup, Ihat ei t , Idon' twantt obe mar r i ed, whydi dy ouputmei nt hi smess! Me: " i t sokayIguess" Gr ams: " i st her esomet hi ngbot her i ngy ou? " Me: " No" Shel ooksatmef orawhi l e Me: " Yes" Gr ams: " t het hanam kal ok"( t al kt ome) Me( si ghs) : " Ij ustdon' tgeti tgr ams" Gr ams: " whatdoty ouget ? " Me: " al l ofi t , Idon' tgeti t . . . . t hecont r act , t hi s mar r i age, t hi sf ami l y , y ou, ev er y t hi ng. . .Ij ust don' tgeti t " Gr ams: " whatdoy oumean? " Me: " Imean. . . whatki ndofpeopl emake agr eement sl i ket hati ncont r act s?Sel l i ngof f y ourgr anddaught er ?Whatdoest hathav e any t hi ngt odowi t hy ourJob. . . ? " Shel ooksar oundt henbackatme Me: " unl ess. . . . . . t her e' ssomet hi ngy ounott el l i ng me? " Shesi ghsheav i l y Gr ams: " Li sat hi si sf ort hebestt r ustme" Me: " Nomakhul uIcan' tt r usty oucausey ounot t el l i ngmet het r ut h, what ' st her eal r eason behi ndt hi smar r i age? . .Imeancomeongr ams y oudi dn' tev enl etmom nordadknowabout t hi s, t haty ou' l l besel l i ngoft hei rownchi l d, what ar ey ounott el l i ngus? " Gr ams: " t hi ngsar ebestt hi swayNana, somet hi ng' si t sbesty oudon' tknow" Bul l ! ! Me: " Ideser v et oknowgr ams, speci al l yi fi t i nv ol v esandr esol v esar oundme, Ihav et he r i ghtt oknow" Shekeepssi l entf orawhi l e Gr ams: "y ourf at herandMrJohnsonwer egood f r i ends, t heymadeadeal t hr oughcont r actt hat whent heybecomesuccessf ul t heywi l l Joi n f ami l i est obeonet hr ought hei rf i r stbor n daught erandson" Me: " butdaddi dn' tbecomesuccessf ul andhe' s deadnowsot hatcont r actwassupposedt obe t er mi nat ed" Gr ams: " y esi twassupposedt o, buti twasn' t , bef or ey ourdaddi edMrJohnsonsawt haty our f at herwasst i l l st r uggl i ngsoheof f er edhi ma deal t hathewi l l nott er mi nat et hecont r actbut wi l l t akecar eofy ou, andal l owhi mt obehi s par t neri nhi sbusi nesses" Me: " sodadusedt owor kwi t hMrJohnson?" Shenods Me: " andMrJohnson' sbusi nessesar eher ei n PEonl y ? " Gr ams: " hehasbusi nessesal l ov er " Me: " dot heyhav eabusi nesst hati nv ol v es j ewel r y ?" Gr ams: " It hi nkso, Ir eal l ydon' tknow" May bedadusedt ost eal t hedi amondsf r om t he Johnsons?AndnowMrJohnsonknowsandhe want st ogai nmyt r ustsoIcant el l hi m wher e t heyar eorhewant st ocomeaf t ermywhol e f ami l ywhi chi snowmymom andIl ef t , ohGod t hi si samessandi tl ooksl i kegr amsdon' t knowaboutt hedi amonds. . . . . andIcan' tbel i ev e mydadj ustsol dmel i ket hat Me: " oh. . butgr amswhydi dn' ty ouj ustt el l me t het r ut hf r om t hebegi nni ng?" Shesi ghs Gr ams: " y oul ov edy ourdaddear l y , Idi dn' twant y out ohat ehi mf ort hi nki nghesol dy out ohi s f r i endandbusi nesspar t ner " Damnr i ghthedi d! !Heputmei nt hi sdanger nowhe' scomi ngt opr ot ectmel i kehe' sso i nnocentandcar i ngnx Me: " Idon' that ehi m gr ams, I ' mj ust di sappoi nt edhewoul dl i el i ket hatandkeept hi s f r om mom andI. . . . butt her e' sj ustonet hi ngI don' tunder st and" Gr ams: " whati si t ? " Me: " i fdadusedt obebusi nesspar t ner swi t hMr Johnson. . . . . .Howcomewer ewest i l l poor ?And st i l l ar e? " Gr ams: "t heywer en' tof f i ci al l ypar t ner sunt i l t he f ami l i eswer ej oi ned, att hatt i mewhi l et hey wer est i l l wai t i ngf ory out ogr owup, hewasj ust wor ki ngf orhi ml i keanyot herempl oy ee" Me: " wowIcan' tbel i ev et hi s. . . . andwhatki ndof f r i endi sMrJohnsonwhopai dhi sownbest f r i endpeanut sl i ket her esty etheknewt he f ut ur et heywer epl anni ngt oget her . .Gr eedy much" Gr ams: " I ' m sosor r yNana, y oudeser v ebet t eri n l i f et hant hi s" Ido. . .Butl i f ei ssounf ai r Me: " somet hi ngst i l l doesn' taddup" Gr ams: " I ' v et ol dy ouev er y t hi ngIknow" Me: " y esy ouhav e, andt hanky ouf ort hat , Iwi sh y ouhadt ol dmeear l i ert houghbutatl eastI knowt het r ut h" Imov ecl osert oherandwi pehert ear s Gr ams: " t heyar eagoodf ami l yt hough, Ial so usedt owor kf ort hem asananny , t hat ' swhy y ourf at herusedt ot el l meev er y t hi ng, hedi dn' t t el l y ourmot hercausey ouknowy ourmom, she woul d' v ef r eakedoutanddoGodknowswhat " Ichuckl e Me: " Ist i l l needanswer st hough, t hat ' swhyI ' l l dowhat ev eri tt akest omaket hi smar r i agea success, Ibel i ev et her e' sahi ddenagendai nal l t hi s. . ( br eat hsi nandout ) . . andI ' m gonnaf i nd out " Gr ams: " i nal l y oudouqaphel emnt am"( be car ef ul ) Me: " don' twor r yaboutme, I ' m abi ggi r l , Ican t akecar eofmy sel f " Shel aughsatme Me: " what ' ssof unny ! ? " Gr ams: " y ounotev enei ght eeny et , y oust i l l a baby " Igasp Me: " heeyIam not !I ' l l beMr sJohnson soon. . hel l ooo, andnextweeki smybi r t hday y ou' l l seemebecomi ngawoman" Wel augh, shest ar t scoughi ngagai n, i t sso scar y Me: " t hat ' si tI ' m get t i ngy ouwat er " Sheshakesherhead Gr ams: " I ' mf i ne. . ahhh" Me( wor r i ed) : " what ' swr ong! ? " Gr ams: " not hi ng, I ' m o. . . aaahhhhh" Igetupqui ckl ynotknowi ngwhatt odo, Ikeep t ouchi ngandl eav i ngher " Heeeeel l l l l pp! !Ncedani booooo! ! ! ! " Ir anoutt her oom scr eami ngf orhel p, Iheara bunchoff eetst or mi ngt owar dst her oom Gr amswasi nal otofpai ngr oani ngi nagony " Kwenzekani ! ! " " Somebodycal l ambul ance" " Noi t ' l l bet oosl ow, I ' l l gogett hekey s, t r yt o car r yhert ot hecari nt hemeant i me" Mymi ndwasatst andst i l l , mywor l dj ust st opped, Ij ustzonedoutandev er y one di sappear edIf r ozej ustst andi ngt her est uck andst ar i ngouti nnowher emyhear tbeat i ng har dagai nstmyr i bcageasi fi t sgoi ngt oj ump out , bef or eIknewi tsomeoneswi t chedof ft he l i ght ! * * * * * I ' m wokenupbybeepi ngsounds, Ii mmedi at el y knowI ' mi nhospi t al t hesmel l say si tal l , It r y openi ngmyheav yey es, andIl ookar oundand I ' m metbyasobbi ngLet hu Me( hoar sev oi ce) : " wher e' sev er y one el se. . ( gasps) . . . makhul u?Uphi ? . . ohmygodI hav et ogoseeher " Ir emov et het ubesandst uf fget t i ngof ft hebed Let hu: " Li sa, y oucan' tj ustgetup, y ouneedt he nur seassi st ance! " Me: " Idon' tseeanur sear oundher e, doy ousee anur se?Ar ey ouanur se? . . . . noanswer ?Okay l et ' sgo" Iwal koutwi t hhert r ai l i ngbehi ndmewar ni ng met ost op, myl egsf eel soweak, Idon' tev en knowwher eI ' m goi ng, l ucki l yIbumpi nt oa doct or Ist ophi m Me: " excusemesi rI ' ml ooki ngf or . . . . " Theyt hatwayLi sa" Let hui nt er r upt s Me: " nev ermi nd" Let hushowsmet heway , wegett her eand ev er y onei st her eexceptMncedi si andEnhl e t heyi nJo' bur gcauseofschool , bl ocki ngme f r om seei ngherasIent ert hedoor , ev er y one l ooksbackatuswi t hsadf aces Me: " makhul u?Wher ei sshe? " Imakemywayi ncl osert heymakewayf orme andshe' sl y i ngont hebedl ooki ngweakert han ev er , Ihol dherhand Me: " makhul u. . . . . " Gr ams: " mmh" Me: " i st hi si t ? " Shesmi l eswi t ht ear yey es Gr ams( sof t l y ) : " t hi si si t " Tear si mmedi at el ydr i pf r om myey es Me: " t hi scan' tbei t . . . t hi sj ustcan' tbei t" Gr ams: " i t sov erLi sa, t hepai nandsuf f er i ngwi l l f i nal l ybeov er " Me: " but . . butmybi r t hdayi snextweek, I t hought . . ( bur sti nt oal oudcr y ) . . It hought . . " " Shhh" If eel Mr sJohnsonr ubbi ngmyback Gr ams: " I ' l l bet her esweet y " Me: " how?. . ( smi l i ng) . . .Doy ougetanot her week? " Gr ams: " I ' l l al way sbet her e. . . ( pokesmychest chest ) . . i nher e. . . . Il ov ey ouokay ? " Inodmyey esar ebl ur Gr ams: " gi v emeonel asthug" Ibendov erandhughergent l y Gr ams: " comeon, i st hatal l y ougot ?Gi v emea bearhug" AsmuchasIdi dn' twantt ohur therIcoul dn' t r esi st , Ihuggedhert i ght er Me: "Il ov ey oupl uspl uspl uspl usi nf i ni t y" Shesmi l es Me: " i fy ouseedadupt her epl easegi v ehi ma hugf ormeandmom, t el l hi m wemi sshi m and. . . . . . . . . Beebeebeebeebeebeebeebeebeebee! ! !The machi nesgobeepi ng, gr amsey esar ewi de openandshe' sshaki ng " I ' m gonnahav et oaskev er y onet opl easel eav e t her oom i mmedi at el y ! ! " Thedoct or sr ushi n, Ihol dherhand Me: " Nooooonooocomeback, she' snotgone y et " If eel peopl epi cki ngmeupheadi ngt ot hedoor , I seet hem swi t chi ngof ft hemachi neand cov er i ngherup, Ibr eakdownev enmor east he doorcl oses Me( cr y i ng) : " Noooo, nodon' tgo. . Ineed y oooouu! ! ! " Mr sJohnsonpul l smet oherchestshushi ng me Me: " she' sgone, shel ef tme. . . . she' sgone. . . she' s she' s. . . . If el tmywhol ewor l df al l i ngapar t , Iknewshe wasl eav i ngsoon, but . . . . .Iwasnev err eady QUI NTON Me: " SoIt hi nki t sdadwhoki l l edherf at her " Mom: " Mt het hwa?I st hathersur name? " Me: " y eah, whenIf i r stknewher , hersur name di dn' tqui t er egi st er , i tdi dsoundf ami l i arbutI nev ergav ei tmucht hought , butamont hago whenshet ol dmeaboutherf at her , t hat ' swhen i tr angabel l andst ar t edmaki ngsense, Iwasso shocked, whatki ndoff uckedcoi nci dencei s t hi s" Mom: " t hi smi ghtr ui ny ourf r i endshi pwi t hher " Me: " notonl yf r i endshi pmom. . . awhol el otmor e" Mom: " don' tt el l mey ouhav ef eel i ngsf ort he gi r l " Me: " mor et hant hat . . Il ov eher . . . Il ov eherwi t h myl i f e" Mom: " ohno, ani nl ov eQui nt on, t hi swi l l bea di sast er" Me: " butmay beonceI ' v esav edherf r om t her eal enemywhi char et heJohnsons, may bej ust may beshe' l l f i ndi teasyt of or gi v emef ordad' s cr uel t y . . .May beshe' l l under st andt hatIhav e not hi ngt odowi t hi tandshewon' that e me, may beourl ov ewi l l best r ongert hant he hat eshehasf ordad. . . . r i ght ?May be. . . " Mom: " Qui nt on. . . .Idon' tt hi nki t sagoodi deat o t el l hert het r ut h, j ustt el l heraboutwhaty ou f oundont heJohnsons" Me: " whati fshehear st het r ut hf r om someone el se, she' sgi f t edmahherdadhasbeenwar ni ng hert ost ayawayf r om me, al t houghshe' snot sur ei fi t smeherdadi st al ki ngabout , whati fhe t el l shert het r ut hbef or eIdo. . . t henshe' l l hat e meev enmor ef orhi di ngi tf r om her . . . t henshe f i ndsoutaboutt heot hert hi ngsaswel l , t hen she' l l t hi nkI ' m not hi ngdi f f er entf r om myf at her " Mom: " Qui nt on. . .St aycal m, shewon' that e y ou, andnooneel seknowsaboutt hi sbesi des us" Qui nt on: " shesai dsomet hi ngabouthermot her i st heonl yonewhosawherf at her ' ski l l er " Mom: " Qui nt on, don' tsayawor dt ot hatgi r l , y ou knowwhatj ustl ethergo, she' smar r i edany way t hemor er easont ost ayawayf r om her , st op t r y i ngt of i ghtf orhert ocomebackt oy ou, i t s besti fy ouj ustl etherst ar tanewl i f ewi t ht hi s f ami l yandkeepy ourdi st ance, t hatway , her f at herwi l l st opgi v i ngherwar ni ngs, andshe' l l nev erknowt het r ut h" Me: " t her e' sj ustonepr obl em " Mom: " what ? " Me: " Il ov eher . . . . . Mom ( i nt er r upt s) : " Qui n. . . Me: "whi chcausesanot herpr obl em. . . . .Ican' t st ayawayf r om her . . .Whi cht henaddsupt oa bi ggerpr obl em. . . .Ihat et heJohnsonsandt he dudeshe' smar r i edt oandi fIcan' thav eher t hent heycan' thav ehert oo, she' dr at herhat e me" Shesi ghsandshakesherhead Mom: " Isenseabi gwarcomi ng" Me: " i ft hat ' swhati tt akes" Myphoner i ngsandBUBf l ashesonmy scr een, asmi l ecr eepsonmyf ace, Idon' tknow whyt hathappensal l t het i me Me: " Ihav et ot aket hi s" Igetoutoft heherwar d Me: " bub? " Sher emai nsqui et Me: " bub. . . ar ey ouokay ? " Shebur sti nt oal oudcr ypi er ci ngt hr oughmy hear t " She' sgoneQ. . . she' sgone! " Me: " I ' l l ber i ghtt her e" . . . . Myapol ogi es, Iwasv er ybusy , butI ' m back now [ 07/ 28, 22: 58]W: I nser t25 LI SA " Li sa, pl easeopen! " Wewer esenthomeaf t ert heyt ol dusshe passedaway , I ' v ebeenl ockedupi nmyr oom, I j ustwantt obeal oneandnev erst opcr y i ng, t heyal l wantt ost opmef r om cr y i ng, howam I supposedt odot hat , Iwantt ocr yandcr yand cr yt i l l Ir unoutoft ear sf oral i f et i me Mr sJohnsonkeepsknocki ng Me( shout i ng) : " JUSTLEAVEMEALONE!GO AWAY!IWANTTOBEALONE! " Icr yev enl ouder , Icanl i t er al l yf eel myhear t bl eedi ng, Ihearherf oot st epswal ki ngaway . Whati shappeni ng?Whyam Ibei ngpuni shed? Whatdi dIdo?Pl easeGodj ustt el l mewhatI ' v e doneandhowt omaket hi ngsr i ght , Ij ustwant t ol i v el i keanor mal t eenagegi r l Anot herknockcomest hr ough. .Don' tt hese peopl eunder st andEngl i sh?Whatpar tofl eav e meal onedon' tt heyget ?Can' tagi r l cr yi npeace? " Li sakhany a, cel auv ul eumny ango"( pl easeopen t hedoor ) ThatwasLi am' sv oi ce Me( def eat ed) : " pl easej ustgo, Iwantt obel ef t al onepl ease" " ButIwantt ocomf or ty ou, pl easel etme i n, pl easest opcr y i ng, Ican' tt akei tany mor e, I wantt ohol dy ou" IshakemyheadasIsni f fcr y i ngsi l ent l y Me( whi sper s) : " pl easego" Att hi smomentIt r ustnonoft heJohnsons Myphoner i ngsIpi cki tup Me: " mmh" " Ican' tcomei nIpar kedaf ewhousesaway , can y oucomeout ? " Me: " Idon' tknow, pl easej ustcomei n" " Ican' tbub, pl easecomeout " Idon' tev enhav et hest r engt hf ort hi s Me: " okayI ' l l t r y " " Okay , I ' l l wai touther e" Idr opt hecal l , Iwi pemyt ear sandbl owmy noset henheadout Ipassev er y onesi t t i ngi nt hel ounge Mncedi si st andsi nf r ontofme Lee: " Babe, I ' m sor r y , ar ey ouokay ? " Me: " y eahI ' m supper " Lee: " sor r yt hatwasast upi dquest i on" Me: " Iwasheadi ngoutcanIbeexcused?" Lee: " wher ey ouof ft o?Youi nnost at eof wonder i ngal one" Me: " i fIst ayi nt hi shousef oraanot hersecond I ' l l bei nnost at eatal l , nowpl easeexcuseme, I needf r eshai r , Iwon' tgof ar " Henodst henhugsmet i ght Lee: " we' l l gi v ey ouy ourspace" Heki ssesmycheek, Imakemywayoutt he gat e, Ispotacarbi ti t snotQui nt on' si t sav er y f ancycarandi t st heonl ycart her esoIwal k unsur el yt owar dsi tunt i l Qui nt oncomesoutt he car , hewal ksf astt owar dsmeIal sopi ckupt he paceunt i l I ' mr unni ng, It hr owmy sel fathi m he pi cksmeuphol di ngont oeachot herf ordear l i f e, t hewhi ppi ngst ar t sal l ov erasIbr eakdown i nt ot ear s, hewal ksbackt ot hecarandwegeti n t hebackseat , t hecarwi ndowsar edeem, he' s si t t i ngnextt omeandhol di ngmeagai nsthe' s chesthedoesn' tshushmei nst ead Qui nt on: " l eti tal l outbub. . . j ustl eti tal l out " Maki ngmecr yev enmor e Me: " i twast oosoonQ. . . . i twast oosoon" Qui nt on: " Iknow. . . . . l i f ei ssounf ai r " Me: " Iknowr i ght ! ! " Ihearhi m sni f f , Icr i edunt i l Ir anoutofmy v oi ce, mychesti st oopai nf ul , wi t h uncont r ol l abl ehi ccupsandr unni ngnose, he mademesi tupandgav emef r eshbot t l ed wat erhel pi ngmedr i nkhet hanhel dt het i ssue f ormet obl owmynose, hemakesmesi ton onel apwi t hmybot hmyl egsi nbet weenhi s t henl ay smeonhi sshoul derwi t hhi sar ms wr appedar oundmemaki ngmef eel soooosaf e onceagai nandIf eel abi tbet t ernow, Icl ose myey esashebr ushesmyhai randback, not say i ngawor dbuti tf eel sl i kehe' ssai dal otby j ustbei ngher eandhol di ngmel i ket hi s, myf ace wasr i ghtonhi sneckbr eat hi ngi nhi s hy pnot i si ngCol ogne, t hehi ccupsar est i l l t her e Me: " howdi dy ougether esoqui ck?" Qui nt on: " It ookmom' sj et " Me: " who' scari st hi s? " Qui nt on: " Ibor r owedi t " Me: " y ouf eel comf or t abl eusi ngy ourpar ent ' s moneynow? " Qui nt on: " onl yf orr eal l yur gentemer genci es" Me: " butt her ewasnoemer gency" Qui nt on: " bub, whenev erIf eel y ouneedme, i t s al way sanemer gency " Me( y awns) : " aaww" If eel my sel fget t i ngl i ght erandl i ght erasIdoze of f * * * * * * MmhIf eel socomf or t abl eandwar m Imov e ar ound, t hi scari sv er ycomf y , Iopenmyey es andnot i ceI ' mi nbed, i l ookar ound, t hi si snot myr oom l ooksl i keahot el , Icheckt het i meat t heal ar mt hati sbesi det hebedandi t s20: 35, I getof ft hebedandwal kar ound, noonei sher e. Ipassabi gmi r r ori tonl ynowIr eal i seI ' m wear i nghi sshi r t , Il i f ti tup, pant yi son. Me: " Qui nt on!" Iwal kt ot heki t chennosi gnofhi m It hr owmy sel font hecouch " Heyy ouawake" Il ookov ermyshoul derandt her ehei s, car r y i ng pl ast i csandpaper bags Me: " y eah" Thatcameoutasahoar sewhi sper , It hi nkIl ost myv oi ce Heput st het hi ngsont hecount er Qui nt on: " wentt ogety ousomef ood" Hepr epar esev er y t hi ngandcomest owar dsme wi t ht hef ood Qui nt on: " knowhowmuchy oul ov enandos, got y ouext r ahot " Me: " mmmh, y ouknowmet oowel l " It r yt or eachf orachi pbuthesmacksmyhand Me: " ay i bo? " Qui nt on: " don' ty ouknowt hatbabi esar ef edby t hei rmommi esordaddi es" Me: " butI ' m nobaby " Qui nt on: " t hat ' sexact l ywhatababywoul dsay " Il augh, het akesar ol l opensi tt henst uf f si n somemeatandchi ps Mymout hi swat er i ng, Ihav en' teat ent hewhol e day , Ial r eadyhadmymout hwi deopenashe t ur nedt of aceme, hel aughs Qui nt on: " choochoot r ai ni scomi ng. . . .( He st opsr i ghti nf r ontofmymout h) . . uhoht r ai ni s hel dupi nt r af f i c" Me: " ar ghQui nt onst oppl ay i ng!I ' m hungr y " Hel aughs Qui nt on: " askni cel y , l i keagoodl i t t l egi r l " Me( angr i l y ) : " i fy oudon' tgi v emet hatsandwi ch r i ghtnowI ' l l ki cky ouwher et hesundon' t shi ne. . ( ni cel yandsmi l i ng) . . okaydaddy ? " He' sey esar ewi deopenandsoi shi smout h Qui nt on: " wow" Hef i nal l yf eedsme, Igr abi tf r om hi m cause he' st oosl ow, Ist uf fmy sel fwi t hi tandeatl i ke t her e' snot omor r ow Qui nt on: " r emi ndme, t ot eachourki dsmanner s atanear l year l yagel i kev er year l y . . . . asi nl i ke bef or et heycanki ckdaddywher et hesundon' t shi ne" Ibur sti nt ol aught er Wecar r yoneat i ngwi t hQkeeponsay i ngst upi d f unnyt hi ngs, maki ngmel aughf oramoment t her eev er y t hi ngseemsper f ectandi nt opl ace Unt i l Ir ememberI ' m mar r i ed Me: " wher e' smyphone?" Qui nt on: " y oudi dn' tbr i ngi t " Me: " Shi t . . Ihav et ogo, ev er y onemustbe wor r i ed" Hef r owns Qui nt on: " y eah, ofcause. . ( si ghs) . . . goget y our sel fdr essedbubby " Me: " I ' m notbubby " Qui nt on: " y oumybubby . . . bub" Me: " whatdoest hatev enmean" Qui nt on: " meansmywor l d" It hr owmyar msar oundhi sneckhehol dsme f ordearl i f e Me: " Iwi sht onev erl etgo" Qui nt on: " Iwon' tev erl ety ougo" West ayl i ket hatf orf i v emi nut es Igetupandgochangei nt omycl ot hes, he dr i v esmeback" home" Hepar ksr i ghtbyt hegat e Qui nt on: " af t erev er y t hi nghasset t l ed, I ' l l t el l y ou ev er y t hi ngaboutt heJohnsonsandt her e' s somet hi ngy oushoul dknowaboutmyf at her t oo" Me: " t el l menow" Qui nt on: " Nobub. . . y ouneedt omour ny our gr ams, t hat ' smor et hanenoughst r ess, pr omi se t ot el l y ouaf t erev er y t hi ngokay ? " Inod Me: " by eLov ebug" Iki sshi scheekt hesecur i t yopensf ormeandI makemywayi n Lucki l ynoonei sbyt hel oungesoIheadt omy r oom, Ihearv oi cescomi ngf r om t heof f i ce, I wast ol dnoonei sal l owedt ogoi nt her e, i t soundedl i ket her ewasar gui ngsoIeav esdr op " Thenf i ndawayandgetr i deoft hatki d! " " DadIcan' tdot hat , I ' m notaboutt hatany mor e" " Bul l shi t , t hatboywi l l causeal otoft r oubl eand t hat st hel astt hi ngweneed. . . sodoasIt el l " " No!No!I ' m notgoi ngbackt her e, Il ov eLi sa, I ' m notaboutt omessi tupandr epeatt hesame mi st akes" " Iseey out hi nky ouact ual l yhav ea choi ce. . . . howcut e" " Ihat ey ou! " Iqui ckl yr unbackt omyr oom, cl oset hedoor door , It r yt ocat chmybr eat h, whatt hehel l was t hatabout ?Whi chboyar et heyt al ki ngabout ? Whi chmi st akescan' ther epeat ? * DooDoo! * Ist ar t l et ot hesoundofaknock, Iqui ckl yt ake of fmycl ot hes Me: " ahuhm whoi si t ! ? " Iwr apat owel ar oundmynakedbody " I t smekhany a, pl easel etmei n" Iwal kt owar dst hedoor , Iopent henwal kback t ot hebat hr oom Lee: " Wher ewer ey ou? " Icl oset hedoorandmakemywakei nsi det he shower , Ihearhi m opent hedoor Lee: " It r i edcal l i ngy ousomanyt i mesbuty our phonekeptsendi ngmest r ai ghtt ov oi cemai l " Me: " Il ef tmyphone" Lee: " Iwaswor r i edsi ckabouty ou, wher ewer e y ou? " Me: " I ' m her enow, andI ' mf i nesodon' twor r y " Lee: " pl easedon' tdi sappearl i ket hatagai n, i f somet hi ngcoul dhappent oy ou. . . . Iwoul dn' t deal " Me: " I ' m sor r y , won' thappenagai n" Lee: " speci al l ywheny ouatt hi s st at e, hear t br okenandv ul ner abl e, t hi swor l di s notsaf eany mor e" Me: " Iunder st and" Hesi ghsheav i l y , Iheart hedoor , If i ni shup, wr ap myt owel andheadbackt ot her oom, If i ndhi m l y i ngonhi sbackshi r t l esswi t honl y sweat pant s, hehashi shandsbehi ndhi shead, I f eel hi sey espi er ci ngt hr oughmyski nasIl ot i on mybody , Iwearmypant yandshor t swi t ht he t owel st i l l wr appedar oundme, Idr opt het owel andputont het op, Ispr aymyhai rcombandt i e i ti nt oal ooseponyt henheadt obed, Iopent he cov erandgeti thewasl y i ngont opoft hem Me: " doy oumi nd. . Iwantt ogeti nt hecov er " Lee: " ofcause" I st hatabonerIsee. . ohhel l no Heget supandwegeti nsi deIt ur nmybackon hi m Lee: " Li sa? " Me: " mmh? " Lee: " wi l l y ouev erl ov eme? " Myhear tski psabeatasIt ur nt of acehi m and si tup Me: " what ?Why ? . . . Imean. .wher ei st hatcomi ng f r om? " Lee: " Imean, bef or ewewer ear r anged, wef i r st dat edcausewer eal l yl i kedeachot herr i ght ? " Me: " uhm. . . . y eah" Lee: " t henwehadt obr eakupcausewehadt o getmar r i edt opeopl ewedon' tknowatt hat t i me. . . . whenwebr okeup, wer ey oudi sappoi nt ed orhear t br oken?" Me: " . . . I .Iwasdi sappoi nt edy es" Lee: " nothear t br oken?" Me: " Iwas. . . y es" Lee: " Iknowt hi swasar r angedbutwer en' ty oua l i t t l ehappyt hatwegotbackt oget her ?" Me: " Iwas. . . ImeanIam" Lee: " sodoest hatmeany oul ov eme? " Me: " uhm er h. . . ( si ghs) . . . honest l yLi am. . . Idon' t know, Idon' tknowhowIf eel r i ghtnow, t her e' s j ustsomuchgoi ngon, I ' m notsur ewhot ol ov e andwhot ot r ust . . mygr andmaj ustpassedaway t oday . . . Ij ustneedt i met of i gur eoutmyf eel i ngs " Lee: " Iunder st and, andI ' m sosor r yabouty our gr ams" Tear st hr eat en Me: " i t sokay . . I ' l l beokay . . . ( br eaki ngv oi ce) . . She' si nabet t erpl acenowr i ght ? " Lee: " ofcauseshei s. . awaybet t erpl ace" Hepul l smei nt ohi sembr ace. . . ev er y t hi ng r epl ay sagai n, nott hi sagai n, I ' m cr y i ng Me: " i si tsel f i shofmei fIwanthert ocome backt ot hi snotsobet t erpl ace? " Lee: " i ft her ewasawayI ' dbr i ngherbackf or y ou" Me: " whoam Igoi ngt ov i si tev er yhol i day s, who' sgoi ngt ot el l met hebestbedt i me st or i es, who' sgoi ngt or emi ndmeaboutmy chi l dhoodj ustt oembar r assmei nf r ontofmy f r i ends. . . who' s. . who' s. . . Lee: " shhhh. . . she' l l al way sbeher ewi t hy ou, t he bet t erpl acei si nher e" Het ouchesmychest Me: " Iknow. . . buti t ssopai nf ul " Lee: " i t ' l l getbet t erwi t ht i me" Icr yt i l l If al l asl eep " Don' tcr ymybaby , y ourgr andmai si nabet t er pl ace" " CanIseeher ? " " Al l i nduet i me "daddyam Isaf eher e? " " Younotsaf e, t her e' sst i l l gr eatdangercomi ng y ourway " " Buty ouboughtmeher e, whywoul dy ousel l me t ot hesepeopl e" " It r ust edt hem, t hat ' swhyIcan' tr estl i sa, Ican' t r estunt i l y ou' r esaf e" " Thi si ssoconf usi ngdad" " Wheny ouf i ndt het r ut habouthi m, f or gi v e hi m, don' that ehi m, buthehast oaskf or f or gi v enessf r om ourancest or sf i r st . . . . he' l l be y ourpr ot ect i onher eal l yl ov esy ou" " Whodad?Mncedi si ? " " Don' tl ethi m go, he' sy ourpr ot ect i on. . . . . t hi si s t hel astt i meI ' mv i si t i ngy ou" " Who?Dad. . who' smypr ot ect i on? " Hi sv oi cef adesagai n " DadIcan' theary ou" " Ican' theary ou! " * * * * * * * " Wakeup. . khany a, wakeup" Iopenmyey esandI ' m metbybr owney es Lee: " y ouokay ?Youwer esl eept al ki ng" Me: " I ' mf i ne" Hecuddl esmeandIf al l asl eepi mmedi at el y . . . . notedi t ed [ 07/ 28, 22: 58]W: I nser t26 LI SA Me( si ngi ng) : " If oughtf ory ou Thehar dest Youmademet hest r ongest Sot el l mey oursecr et s Ij ustcan' tst andt oseey oul eav i ng . . . . . . Butheav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou Noheav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou Heav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou Noheav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou Sogoon, gohome . . . . Wel aughedatt hedar kness Soscar edt hatwel osti t West oodont hecei l i ngs Youshowedmel ov ewasal l y ouneeded . . . . . Heav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou Heav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou Oh, heav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou Noheav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou, y ou, y ou, y ou… Noheav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou No!heav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou No!heav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou Ohh, heav encoul dn' twai tf ory ou Sogoon, gohome Sogoon, gohome . . . . . OurFat her Whoar ti nheav en Hal l owedbet hyname Thyki ngdom come Thywi l l bedone Onear t hasi ti nheav en Amen . . . . Thei nst r ument sst opandpeopl eset t l edown Me: " Godsawy ouget t i ngt i r edandacur ewas nott obe soheputhi sar msar oundy ouandwhi sper ed, “ Comet oMe” Wi t ht ear f ul ey eswewat chedy ou andsawy oupassaway andal t houghwel ov ey oudear l y wecoul dnotmakey oust ay . Agol denhear tst oppedbeat i ng har dwor ki nghandsatr est . Godbr okeourhear t st opr ov et ous Heonl yt akest hebest Godl ookedar oundhi sgar den andf oundanempt yspace. Thenhel ookeddownupont hi sear t h Andsawy ourt i r edf ace. Heputhi sar msar oundy ou Andl i f t edy out or est . God’ sgar denmustbebeaut i f ul Heonl yt akest hebest . . . . . . . Iwi pemyt ear s Me: " Il ov ey oumakhul u, y ou' l l al way sbei nour hear t s. . mayy oursoul r esti npeace. . . t i l l we meetagai nmeemaw" Iki ssherboxandl ayar oseoni t , Igosi tnextt o mom Mom: " t hatwasbeaut i f ul baby " Inodf or ci ngasmi l e * * * * * TWOWEEKSLATER . . . Thepassi ngofgr amshasbeenv er yhar d, If i nd my sel fpi cki ngupmyphonet ocal l herbutt hen Ir emember . .She' snomor e. Any wayt hi ngsar emov i ngf asther eal r eady peopl ear et al ki ngaboutt heweddi ngdayt ur ns outi nt hr eeweeksI ' m get t i ngmar r i ed Mam l i zz: " soLi sawhatdoy out hi nkoft hi sone" Shewasshowi ngmeacat al ogueofbeaut i f ul weddi ngdr esses Me: " i t sokay " Ir eal l ydon' thav et heener gyf ort hi s Mam l i zz: " j ustokay ?Thi si sHay l eyPai ge, t he bestweddi ngdesi gnerf r om Chi huahua, Mexi co" Me: " oht hat ' sni ce" Mam l i zz: " comeonLi sa, Iknowy oust i l l not ov ery ourgr andma' sdeat h, but . . . . . Me: " whatdi dy ouj ustsay ? " Mam l i zz: " Li saI. . . Me: " No. . . I ' l l nev ergetov eri t , Il ov edmygr ams shewast heonl yper soni nt hi swor l dwhomade sacr i f i cesf orme. . soI ' m sor r yMr sJohnson. . Buty oucan' texpectmet o" getov er "my gr andma' sdeat h" Igetupandl eav ehersi t t i ngt her ebyt he di nni ngt abl e, Igochi l l att hebacky ar d, It akea wal kar oundt hef l owergar den, i t sv er ypeacef ul her e Me: " may bet hi ngswoul dbeeasi eri fy ouwer e ar ound, Ij ustdon' tknowwhot ot r ust any mor e. . . Iwi shy ouwer eher e" " Whoar ey out al ki ngt o? " It ur nt obemetbyMi ssWor l d Me: " Noone" Enhl e: " Ial way sknewy ouwer ecr azy " Me: " r eal l y ?Iguessy oudon' tknowj usthow cr azyIam si ncey oust i l l st andi ngr i ghtnextt o me" Enhl e: " Idon' tknowwhatQui nt onsawi ny ou. . . I meanl ookaty our sel f , y oul ookpat het i ci ngl y wei r d" Me: " Iknowr i ghtappar ent l ymypat het i c wei r dnesst ur nshi m on, . . . somuch" Shel ooksatmeal l i r r i t at edpout i ngherl i ps Enhl e: " we' l l seehowl ongt hatwi l l l ast , y ousee al l t hi s. . . Shehol dsherwai standst andsconf i dent l y exposi ngherper f ectst r uct ur edbody Enhl e: " i t sal l hi s, whathe' l l wakeupnextt o ev er ysi ngl eday , whi l ey oumar r i edt omy br ot her . . . he' l l mov eonwi t hmewher ehe bel ongs" Shef l i cksherhai randsway sherbi gasswi t h hersexyl egsbackt ot hehouse. . . Goshdi dIj ust compl i mentherbody ?Wel l shei shot , damn! shecanhav eQui nt onal l upont hatwi t hacl i ck ofherf i nger , doesshehav et obesocut e. . . ar gh canIst opcompl i ment i ngheral r eady !Dammi t ! Imeanwhywoul dQui nt onwantt opr ot ectme andbewi t hmewhenhecanhav eal l " t hat " whi chi st echni cal l yt hr owi ngi t sel fonhi m, what wasI? Acal l comest hr oughIpi cki tupwi t hmydi st ant mi nd Me: " y es" " That ' snothowy ougr eety ourdaddy " Me: " whatdoy ouwantQui nt on?" " Yoh. . . Ihopet her estofy ourdayi saspl easant asy ouar e. " Asmi l eaut omat i cal l ycr eepsonmyf ace " I st hatasmi l eIhear ? " Howi st hatev enpossi bl e? " Tr ustmei t sv er ypossi bl ebub" Whatt hef uck?IswearIsai dt hati nmymi nd! " Icanr eadi tev enov ert hephone. . i t st ool oud bub" Il augh Me: " St opr eadi ngmymi ndQ" " Why . . . . y ouscar r r r edImi ghtr eadoutal l t he di r t yt hought sy ouhav eaboutmeand y ou. . t oget her ?I nourr oom?Ont hebed? Naked? . . . . cl ot hes. Me( i nt er r upt s) : "shutup!Justshuty ourbi g mout h. . andFYInonoft hati sont hi sv er ysmar t i nnocentmi ndofmi ne" " That ' swhatadi r t ymi ndedper sonwoul dsay " Me: " soy ouj ustcal l edt ot easeme? " " Notonl yt hat . . al sot omakef unofy ou" Me: " y ousochi l di sh. . . . boyIt hi nky ouneedt i me out !" “ St opt r y i ngt oseduceme, Iknowwhaty ou’ r e upt o. ” Me: " whatt hehel l dude, i t snotev enl i ket hat " " St opi t !Youl i t er al l yundr essi ngmeov ert he phone! " Me: " Iam NOT! " " St ophar assi ngmeLi sakhany ageeeeez ! . . I knowI ' m hotbutgi r l . . behav e! ! " Ican' tst opl aughi ng Me: " I ' m cut t i ngt hi scal l r i ghtnow! " " Li kehel l y ouar e. . don' tmakemespanky ou Mi ssy ! " Me( l aughi ng) : " by eQui nt on" " Okayokay , her e' st her eal r easonIcal l ed" Me: " I ' ml i st eni ng" " Iwantt ot akey ououtt woday sf r om t oday " Me: " what ' ssospeci al aboutt woday sf r om t oday ?" " don' tt el l mey ouf or got ? " Me: " For gotwhat ? . . OMGwhat ' sgoi ngont wo day sf r om t oday ?" " y ou' l l f i gur ei tout , butIwannat akey ou somewher ef un" Me: " I ' m socur i ousi t snotev enf unny " hel aughsal i t t l e, t hengoesqui etabi t " Imi ssy ou" Me: " Qui nt on. . . .Idon' tt hi nkweshoul dbe. . " Chi l l Li ssIwasj ustt el l i ngy ou, y oudon' thav e t osayi tback" Me: " Qy out heonet hatsai dweshoul dn' t . . " IknowwhatIsai d. . . Ij ustcan' thel pi t " Me( si ghs) : " Imi ssy out oo" " Youdo? " Me: " ofcauseIdo, whywoul dn' tI ?" " Idon' tknow, y ou' v ebeendi st ant l at el y , r emembery oupr omi sedt ocal l ev er y day ? " Me: " Ir emember . .I t sj ustal othasbeengoi ng onand. . . " Youdon' thav et oexpl ai nIunder st and, asl ong asy oudoi ngwel l " * si l ence* Me: " soy ouhav en' tt ol dmewhaty ouf oundon t heJohnsons? " " Ov ert hephone?It hi nkweshoul dmeet " Me: " Ir eal l ywon' tgetmucht i meQ. . . I ' m get t i ng mar r i edi naf ewweeks, I ' m guar dedt onotgo outmucht i l l af t erI ' m mar r i ed" Hesi ghsIcansenset heangeri nhi sbr eat hi ng " Theydon' tj ustshi pv ehi cl esandai r cr af t . . . . Theyal soi nt odanger ousweaponsi ncl udi ng bombs, dr ugsandhumant r af f i cki ng" I ' m soshockedIsodi dn' texpectal l t hi s Me: " hu. . humant r af f i cki ng?" " I t soneoft hemostdi scr et eones, onl yt he f at hermanagesi t , nonoft hef ami l ymember s knowabouti ti ncl udi ngy ourhusband" Me: " ohmyGodQui nt on, i fwecoul dj ustf i nd pr oof , wecangett hem t ot er mi nat ewhat ev er cont r actt heymadedadsi gnandI ' dbescot f r ee" " Theyv er ydi scr et eLi ssi twon' tbeeasyget t i ng pr oofwi t houtgoi ngagai nstt hel aw" Me: " ar r ghshi t !Shi t !Sowhatar ewegoi ngt o do! ? " Qui nt on: " honest l y , att hi smoment. . . . Idon' t know, i tj ustseemsi mpossi bl e. .It r i ed. . i t sbeen weekssi nceIknewandIst i l l can' tt hi nkof any t hi ng" Me: " Ohno. . . okaydon' twor r y , we' l l f i gur e somet hi ngout" " When?WhenLi ss. . . wheny oual r eadymar r i ed l egal l y ?Wheny ouhav et ogof ory our honey moon?Orbyt het i mey ' al l hav et ost ar ta f ami l yt oget herandhav eki ds? . . . . ( sof t l y ) . .When bub? " Hi swor dshi tr i ghtatt hecor e Me: " Qui nt on, pl easedon' tsayt hat" " I twon' tbeeasyLi sa, t hi smi ghtt akemont hs" Me: " hav eal i t t l ef ai t hwoul dy ou" " Ican' tbel i ev et hatmnceguyofy our si s cl ear , he' snoti nv ol v edi nt hei l l egal deal i ngsat al l " Me: " y oumeanhe' sgood? " " Notr eal l y , hehasabaddat i nghi st or y " Me: " r eal l y ?How' dy ouknowt hat ? " " Wel l Idon' thav eaccur at ei nf or mat i onbut . . . Me: "Qui nt on. . . comeon, t hi si snot i mef ory our r esent f ul suspi ci ons" " Okaybutt her ei ssomet hi ngnotgoodabout hi m, andI ' l l f i ndout . . . he' st oogoodt obet r ue" Me: " Ihav et ogo" " Am Ibor i ngy oual r eady ? " Me: " Noofcausenot , y oucannev erbor eme" " Idon' tknow, It hi nkI ' mi magi ni ngt hi ngsbut y ou' v ebeenr eal l ydi st antl at el y , ourt extar eno mor et hesame, t her e' snomor eef f or tputi nt o t hem, ourconv er sat i onsar eshor t er , whenIsayI l ov ey ou, i t sei t hery ouj ustsaymet ooorwar n menott osayi tbecauseofsomet hi ngIsai dwe shoul dn' tdowhenIwasst i l l hear t br okenabout y oumov i ngoutandgoi ngt ost aywi t hanot her man. . . . If eel l i keI ' ml oosi ngy ou" Me: " y ounot . . . i t sj ustev er y onei sst r essi ngme aboutweddi ngdr essesandf i t t i ngssendi ngme upanddownf orcaket ast i ng, v enuesi t esandal l t hat , Iguessmymi ndhasj ustbeendi st r act ed" " Youmeany oudon' tev engetf i v emi nut est o cal l andj ustsayhi ? " He' st onei sdown Me( whi sper s) : " Qui nt on" " ( Sadt one) I t sokay . . Igeti t . . . . ( si ghs) . . . any way r emembert hei mpor t antt hi ngaboutmydadI want edt ot el l y ouabout ? " Me: " y eah, I ' m sur enowi st her i ghtt i met ot el l me" " Thi scandef i ni t el ynotbesai dov ert hephone, canwemeet ?Wheny ouf r ee? " Me: " uhmm Idon' tt hi nkI ' l l bef r eeany t i me soon, Mam Li zzhast hesebunchof appoi nt ment sbookedf ormeand. . . " Iunder st andy oubusy , cany ouatl eastt r yt o squeezemei ny ourbusyschedul e, Ir eal l ywon' t t akemuchofy ourt i menotev enf i v emi nut esI swear " He' smaki ngmesoundl i kesuchabi t chr i ght now, Idi dn' taskf oranyoft hi s Me: " I ' l l t r yt omaket i mef ory ou, Ipr omi . . . . " Ahahpl easedon' tsayt hatwor d. . . . y our eal l y hav et ost opsay i ngt hatwor d, . . i t sonl yf or peopl ewhocanact ual l ykeepupt oi tandf ul f i l l i t . . . . sof ary ouhav en' tkeptupt oanyofy our pr omi ses, pl easedon' tev erpr omi seme any t hi ngi ny ourl i f eagai nokay ? " Me( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " Qui nt on. . . I . .Pl easej ust . . . "pl easej ustwhatLi sakhany a?Pl easej ustwhat ? Justbel i ev ey ou?Justkeepmyl i f eonst and st i l l andwai tf ort hedayy ou' l l act ual l ymakeup y ourdamnmi ndwhet hery oul ov ey ourhusband orme?Pl easej ustwhat ? . . . . t el l y ouwhat Li sakhany aI ' l l keepwai t i ngbutt r ustmei twon' t bel ongsoy oubet t ermakeupy ourmi nd. . but j ustknow, what ev erchoi cey oumake, y ouandI cannev erev erbej ustf r i endsev eragai n, I ' v e beent hr ought hatandi twasn' teasy , wedon' t hav et okeepi nt ouchany mor e, Iseey ouv er y comf or t abl et her eandj ustsoy ouknow. . y ou' v e changedLi sa. . . . j ustcal l mewheny ougett i me sowecanmeet , Ir eal l yhav et ogett hi sof fmy chest . . . by e" Me: " Qui nt on, don' tbel i ket hi s. . . . . Qui nt on?" Icheckmyphoneandhedr oppedt hecal l , what t hehel l j usthappened? Me( cr y i ng) : " hav eIr eal l ychanged? " " Fort hebet t eri fy ouaskme" Iwi pemyt ear sandt ur nt ol ookathi m Me: " ohheyLi am" Lee: " ar ey oucr y i ng? " Hecomest owar dsmeIt ur nmybackonhi m andwi pemyf acepr oper l y Me: " No. . noI ' m not . . i t ' sj ustsomet hi ngt hatgot i nmyey e" Hehol dsmef r om behi nd Lee: " y oudon' texpectmet obel i ev et hatnowdo y ou? " , Het ur nsmear oundt of acehi mt henhol dsme agai nsthi m Lee: " y ourl i psi ssay i ngsomet hi ngt ot al l y di f f er entt owhaty ourey esar et el l i ngmeand t hef actt hatIj usthear dy oucr y " Me( chuckl es) : " ar ghi t snot hi ngr eal l y" Lee: " Iknowy ouwer et al ki ngt ot hatnogoodf or not hi ngf r i endboy f r i endofy our s" Me: " don' tcal l hi mt hat " Lee: " why ?Hei sagoodf ornot hi ngl owl i f eofa gangst ergoodf ornot hi ngmur derdad" Imov ehi shandsf r om me Me: " st op. . hedi dn' tchooset obebor nbya r ut hl essman" Lee: " Iwonderwi l l y oust i l l bedef endi nghi m oncey ouf i ndoutwhatMrPr et t yf acel ov i ng boy f r i endhasbeenhi di ngf r om y oual l t hi s t i me" Me: " I ' m sur ewhat ev eri ti s, i twon' tbey ourpl ace t ot el l me" Lee: " It hi nki ti scauset r ustmehe' snot pl anni ngont el l i ngy out hi sev er . . . causey ou won' tev erl ookathi mt hesamewayagai n" Me: " whatar ey out al ki ngabout ?Qui nt on doesn' tkeepsecr et esf r om me" Hel aughssar cast i cal l y Lee: " wowbabe, y out r usthi mt hatmuch? " Me: " y es" * si l ence* Lee: " hashet ol dy ouabouty ourf at her ' ski l l er ? " Me: " what ? . .Wh. . . wh. . . whywoul dheknow any t hi ngaboutt hat ? . .IImeanbesi dest he t hi ngsI ' v et ol dhi m" Lee: " l ooksl i ket omey oudon' tknowhi mt he wayy out hi nky oudo" Me: " whatdoy oumean? " Lee: " He' sf at hercol dbl oodedl ymur der edy our f at hersi xy ear sago" Il ookathi m per pl exedmyl i psar emov i ngbut not hi ngi scomi ngout Me( whi sper s) : " What ? ? " Lee: " I ' m sosor r yy ouhadt of i ndoutl i ket hi s" Heembr acesme Me: " what¿ ? " . . . . [ 07/ 28, 22: 58]W: cont i nuat i on LI SA Me: " whatmakesy out hi nkI ' l l bel i ev ewhaty ou t el l i ngme?I ' v eknownQui nt onf orav er yl ong t i menow, hecan' tev enl i et ome, he' dr at herhur t mewi t ht het r ut ht hanpr ot ectmewi t hl i es" Lee: " wowy ousowr appedar oundt hi sguy sl i t t l e f i nger , he' dpoi nty ouwi t hagunr i ghtnowy ou' d st i l l pr ot ecthi m" Me: " sor r ybutIf i ndi thar dt obel i ev ey ou" Lee: " whydon' ty oucal l hi m nowandaskhi m y our sel f . . . . r i ghtnow" Il ookdeepi nt ohi sey eshel ooksbackatme Het akesmyphonef r om mypocketandhands i tt ome Lee: " cal l hi m" It aket hephonef r om hi shandr el uct ant l y Lee: " Iwoul dnev erl i et oy ou" Iputt hephoneonmyearashi sphoner i ngs, we l ookateachot her " Bub" Me: " Q. . . howar ey ou? " Hel aughs " ComeonIj ustcal l edy ouaf ewmi nut es ago. . butIdon' tbl amey ou, i fIwer ey ouI ' dmi ss met oo" Hecan' tev enst aymadatme Me: " Qui nt on, Ineedt oasky ousomet hi ng" " Yeahsur e" Me: " whati si tt haty ouneededt ot el l meabout y ourdad? " " Li sa, It ol dy ouwecan' tdi scussi tov ert he phone" Me: " Qui nt onj ustt el l me" " Ir eal l ywantt obenextt oy ouwhenIt el l y ou" Me: " i si tbad? " " Yeahi t sbad" Me: " oh. . . okayt henl et ' smeetl at ert oni ght " Li am cl ear shi st hr oat " I ' mi nJo' bur g, cany oumakei tt omor r ow" Me: " i t sst i l l ear l y . . y oucanmakei tbef or eni ght f al l " " ( Si ghs) . . okay , guessI ' l l hav et obor r owmom' s j etagai n, I ' l l seey oui nt wohour s. . . . pr omi seme onet hi ng" Me: " It houghty ounev erwantmet opr omi se y ouany t hi ngi ny ourl i f eagai n?" " Oh. . . nev er mi nd. . seey ou" Me: " y eah" West ayont hel i nef orawhi l ewi t houtsay i nga wor d, unt i l Idr op Lee: " and? " Me: " ohmygosh. . . It hi nkt hi si swhathewant ed t ot el l me" Lee: " whyi sheonl ypl anni ngont el l i ngy ou now? " Me: " howdi dy ouknowaboutt hi s? " Hel ookssi deway sbef or el ooki ngbackatme Me: " y ouhackedhi spr of i l edi dn' ty ou? " Lee: " Idi dwhatIhadt o, Ican' tl ety oubear ound peopl el i kehi m, l ookhesay shel ov esy ou, but he' sbeenl i v i ngal i ewi t hy ouact i ngl i kehei s poor , maki ngy oust ar v ef ormont hsmaki ngy ou payf orr enty ethecl ai mst obehel pi ngy ou out , henev err eal l ydoneany t hi ngf ory ouspeci al , y eshegav ey ouapl acet ost aybuty oudi d ev er y t hi ngf ory our sel f , i fhecanl i et oy our abouthi schi l dhoodandbackgr oundofhow andwher ehegr ewup, howmanyanot hert hi ngs canhel i et oy ouabout ?He' snott heper sony ou t hi nkhei skhany a, . . . . . . . y ouhav et obel i ev eme I ' mj ustt r y i ngt opr ot ecty oubabe" " Don' tl ethi m go, he' sy ourpr ot ect i on. . . . . t hi si s t hel astt i meI ' mv i si t i ngy ou" . . . coul di tbehi m? Coul dl i am bet hepr oct ordadwast al ki ngabout ? May beIshoul dst ayawayf r om Qui nt on, he' s f at herki l l edmydad, heobv i ousl ywant edt he di amonds( gasps)t hat ' swhyQui nt onwant s t hem t oo, ohmyGoshhowcoul dIhav ebeenso bl i nd Me: "Ican' tbel i ev et hi s. . . . . . . y our i ght " Hesmi l eal i t t l e Lee: " Iwoul dnev erl ety ouputy ourl i f ei n j eopar dy . . . got al kt ohi m, f i ndoutt het r ut ht hen cutal l t i eswi t hhi m, hedon' tdeser v ey ourl ov e andki ndhear t , t henmosti mpor t ant l yi fi tseems l i key oudon' tbl amehi mf orwhathi sf at herdi d t hatmay behe' snot hi ngl i kehi sdad, askhi m abouthi sdad' sbusi ness. . .Who' sr unni ngi tnow? Whocal l st heshot s? " Heki ssesmyf or ehead Lee: " I ' l l bewai t i ngf ory ou, wai t i ngt oshowery ou wi t hl ov eandpr ot ect i ony ousodeser v e" Hewal ksaway DearGodIpr ayt hatnonoft hi saboutQui nt on i st r ue, he' snot hi ngl i kehi sf at hernot hi ng! Igobacki nsi det hehouset omyr oom wher eI f r eshenup Af t er war dsIt akeoutmyl apt opandt r yt oshi f t myf ocusbackt oschool , somuchhasbeen goi ngoni nmyl i f eandIst i l l hav et wo assi gnment st osubmi tbot honl yl ef twi t hone week, Isweari fmygr adesdon' tdr opi t ' l l beby God' sgr ace, mygr adeshav enev erdr oppedI ' m anApl usst udentanddr oppi ngt oaBwoul dBe av er yBi gdi sast er . I ' v emi ssedoutoncl asses Aknockcomest hr oughwhi l eI ' m bur i edi nmy t extbooks Me: " comei n! " Thandomakesherwayi n Me: " ohMncedi si i snoti nher e, It hi nkhe' si nt he of f i ceandLet huwentt ocampust oday , sai d somet hi ngaboutst udy i ng" Shesi t sont hebedwhi l eIwasbyt hedr essi ng t abl ewher eI ' m wor ki ng Il ookbackather Thando: " I ' m act ual l yher ef ory ou" Me: " oh? " Thando: " y eah" Igetupandgosi tnextt oher Me: " what ' sup? . . . wai ti ft hi si saboutLet hu spendi ngmor et i mewi t hmeI ' v et r i ed. . . Thando: " nonoi t snotaboutt hat " Me( si ghs) : " oh. . okay " Thando: " Ij ustwant edt oapol ogi ze" Tf ! Me: " uhm. . okay " Thando: " I ' v ebeenr udet oy ousi ncey ougot her e, IguessIwasj eal ousofhowev er y one l ov esy ou, If el tl i key out ookt hespot l i ghtf r om me, ev er y t hi nghadbeenabouty ou, Let hui s al way st al ki ngabouty ouorwi t hy ou, Mom i s busyt r y i ngt oi mpr essy ou, Mybi gbr ot r eat sy ou sospeci al notmeany mor e, ev enEnhl e. . . . Me: "wai twai t . . enhl el i kesme? " Thando: " No. . . butt hewayshehat esy ou, she' s nomor et hecool si st erwhousedt ogi v eme t i psongi r l yandboy f r i endst uf f , noshe' sso busyt r y i ngt obebet t ert hany ou. . Ij ustf el tl i ke I ' ml oosi ngmyf ami l yt oy ou, ev enSnakhoused t ol ov epl ay i ngwi t hmebutwheny ouher eshe i gnor esmef l at " Yoht hi si ssad, If eel sobad Me: " I ' m sosor r yt hando, Ihadnoi deat hat ' s howy ouf el t " Thando: " i t snoty ourf aul tIr eal i sedt haty ou nev eraskedt obeher ey oudon' tev enwantt o beHer rcauseal l t hi swasar r angedf ory ou, y ou nev erhadachoi ce, y oui nl ov ewi t hsomeone el sey ety ouf or cedt ol ov emybr ot her . . . . .I ' m r eal l ysor r yf oraddi ngsal tony ouwounds" Me: " don' twor r yabouti t , i t st ot al l yf i ne. . . . . as l ongaswecangetal ongf r om nowon" Thando: " I ' dl ov et hat . . . andLi sa" Me: " y es" Thando: " y ousobeaut i f ul " Me( chuckl es) : " ohpl ease, wi t ht heseey ebags" Shel aughs Thando: " t hat ' sonl ybecausey ou' v ebeencr y i ng, i tmust ' v ebeensopai nf ul l oosi ngy ourgr ams" Me: " i twasbutI ' m gl adshe' snomor esuf f er i ng " Thando: " y eah. . . ar ey ouwhi t eorbl ack? " Me: " I ' m bl ack" Thando: " t henhowcomey ourhai ri sl i ket hat causey ounotwear i ngaweav e" Me: " mydadwascol our edbutmost l yhadwhi t e genes, IguessIt ookmydadsgenes" Thando: " wow. . . wi shIhadt hosegenes" Me: " Gi r l pl ease, hav ey ouseenhowhoty ouar e? Youar er ocki ngnat ur al " Shebl ushes Thando: " t hanks" Me( smi l es) : . . . . Thando: " Li samybr ot herr eal l yl ov esy ou" myener gydr opsagai n Thando: " I ' v enev erseenhi ml i ket hi sev er si nce. . . . shet r ai l sof f Me: "si ncewhat ? " Thando: " Ipr obabl yshoul dn' tbet el l i ngy out hi s" Me: " No, pl easef eel f r eet ot el l me, i t ' l l beour l i t t l esecr et . . .onet hi ngaboutbei ngal awy eri s bei nggoodatkeepi ngsecr et s" shesi ghs Thando: " t her e' st hi sgi r l mybr ot herwasmadl y i nl ov ewi t honce" Me: " y eah. . and? " Thando: " shebet r ay edhi m badl y " Me: " Ohmy . . shecheat ed? " Thando: " andwor se, shebet r ay edmybr ot her s t r ust " Me: " whatdi dshedo? " sheshr ugshershoul der s Thando: " butmybr ot her . . . . . . Myphoner i ngsdi st ur bi ngus Me: " sor r yl etmet aket hi s" Thando: " okay , I ' l l got omyr oom" Shewal ksoutandIanswer " I ' m her e, shoul dIcomepi cky ouup? " Me: " No, l et ' smeeti nt ownnearbay westmal l " " OkayI ' l l seey out her e" Idr opt hecal l Idr essupanddeci det obef ul l ybl ackf r om j ean t oshi r t , ev er y t hi ng. Iaskedt hef ami l ychauf f eurt odr i v eme, si nceI don' thav eal i censey et Wedeci dedt omeetatt heMuser est aur ant Igott her e, st oodbyt hedoorandl ookedar ound, hest oodupandt hat ' swhenIspot t edhi m Ourey esl ocked, mybodyf r ozef oraf ew secondsandmyhear t beataccel er at ed, apar t ofmewant edt or unupt ohi m andj umponhi m asal way s, asIwal kedcl oserIsawhewant ed t ocomeupt omeandpi ckmeup, t hat ' show weal way sdowhenweseeeachot heraf t era whi l e, hef i nal l ygotupandcamer ushi ng t owar dsme, Icoul dn' thel pmy sel ft oo, our bodi escl ashedasIj umponhi m hepi cksmeup andspi nsmear ound, Igi ggl e. . . al mostbumpi ng i nt opeopl est abl es, heput smedownnextt o t heboot hhewassi t t i ngi n, hest ar esi nt omy ey esheget scl oserwant i ngaki ssi tt ooka whol el oti nmet opushhi m back, hel etmego andsatatt heopposi t esi deofme, wef i r stsat t her eandnoonesai dawor df orami nut eor t wo Hesi ghsheav i l y Qui nt on: " so. . . .Howar ey ou? " Thi si st het hi r dt i mewet al ki ngt oeachot heri n oneday . . andhowar ey ou. . i st hef i r stt hi nghe cansay Me: " I ' mf i neandy ou" Qui nt on: " I ' m good. . . woul dy oul i ket oor der any t hi ng? " Me: " noI ' m good. . y ougoahead" Qui nt on: " I ' m goodt oo" Wai t r ess: " canIgety out hemenu? " Qui nt on: " Not hankswegood" Me: " j ustagl assofwat erwoul dbeni cef ornow" Qui nt on: " maket hatt wo, wi t hl ot sofi ce" Shenods Wai t r ess: " y ousur et hat ' l l beal l si r ?Wehav e l ot sofdel i ci oust hi ngsont hemenut ot r eat y ourgi r l wi t h" Qui nt onl ooksupather , hercheekst ur nr edas shesmi l es Qui nt on: " Not hanky oumi ss, I ' dr at herl etmy gi r l deci def orher sel f , andshesay sshewant s wat ert heni t swat ershe' l l get " Wai t r ess: " wel l y ourgi r l mustber eal l yl ucky " I st hi sgi r l f orr eal ?I st hi spar tofherj ob? Fl i r t i ng? Me: " wewer ei nt hemi ddl eofav er yser i ous conv er sat i oni fy oudon' tmi nd? " Wai t r ess: " ohI ' m sosor r y , t wogl assesofcol d wat ercomi ngr i ghtup" Shel ooksatQui nt ononcemor ehef l ashesa smi l eatherandwi nks, shegi ggl esandwal ks away , whatt hef uck?Ihat ehowheal way sl et ' s t hesegi r l sf l i r twi t hhi m, t henheal way sgi v es t hem t hathear tmel t i ngsi desmi l eofhi snx Me: " mx m" Qui nt on: " what ' swr ongbub? " Me: " not hi ng" Qui nt on: " t hatcan' tbenot hi ng" Thewor stpar thenev ernot i ceswhenagi r l has beenf l i r t i ngwi t hhi m unt i l shegi v eshi m her number Me: " t hatgi r l wast ot al l yf l i r t i ngwi t hy ou" Qui nt on: " Noshewasn' t , she "wasj ustbei ngni ce"wesayi nuni son Me: " y oual way ssayt hat . . . Iknowshewas f l i r t i ng" Qui nt on: " sowhati fshewasf l i r t i ng?I t snotl i ke I ' l l ev ergetwi t hher , I ' m her ewi t hy ouar en' tI ? " Ir emai nqui et Qui nt on( smi r ks) : " ar eweget t i ngj eal ousbub? " Me: " Me?Jeal ous?Ofy ou?( Laughs) . . i ny our dr eamsmay be" Qui nt on: " ohcomeoni t scl ear l yev i dental l ov er y ou, don' twor r ybub, myhear tbeat sf ory ou al one" Myhear tmel t s Me: " Qui nt on?" Qui nt on: " oh. . r i ght . . t her eal r easonweher e" Her eadmymi ndagai n, Ishoul dn' tt hi nkal ot whenI ' m ar oundhi m, i t sdanger oushe' l l expose myt hought s Inod Qui nt on: " Isensey oual r eadyknow? " Il ookathi mf orawhi l e. . . Inod Qui nt on: " t hatbast ur d, t hi si swhatIwasaf r ai d of , f i ndi ngoutf r om someoneel se. . . . hehadno r i ghtt ot el l y ou" Hel ooksangr yanddi sgust ed Me: " Justpl easet el l mei t snott r ue, t el l me somet hi ngel seabouty ourf at her , notwhathe t ol dme" Qui nt on: " bub. . . . . Her ubshi sey es Qui nt on: "myf at herdi dki l l y ourf at her , y ourdad usedt owor kf ormydadhewashi sr i ghthand man, myf at hert r ust edhi m al otwi t hev er y t hi ng, hepl acedhi m undert hemostexcl usi v epar tof t hebusi nesswhi chwast hedi amondbusi ness, y ourdadusedt ocol l ectdi amondsf r om ov er seasandbr i ngt hem t odad, butl i t t l edi dhe knowt haty ourf at herwasnotbr i ngi ngt he di amondsi nf ul l he' dt akesomef orhi msel f l i t t l ebyl i t t l e, unt i l onet i medadnot i cedhe f oundouti twashi m andcameaf t erhi m, ki l l ed hi m wi t houtt hi nki ngt wi ce" Idon' tknowhowIf eel r i ghtnowbutshat t er ed woul dbeanunder st at ement Qui nt on: " Iwasn' tpar toft hatshoot i ngt hat day , Iswear " Me: " whydi dy ouhi det hi sf r om me? " Qui nt on: " IwasScar edLi ss. .Iwasaf r ai dof l oosi ngy ou, Iwasaf r ai dt haty ou' dhat emef or whathappenedbet weeny ourf at herandI . . . . Me: " soal l t hi st i meIt houghty ouwer ehel pi ng me, i twasal l becauseofgui l t ?Youf el tgui l t y f orwhaty ourf at herputmet hr ough?Youdi dn' t t akecar eofmeoutofy ourowngoodwi l l , y ou wer ej ustdoi ngi tbecause. . . . Heshakeshi sheadcont i nuousl y Qui nt on: "Nonono. . . . i t snotev encl oset o any t hi ngl i ket hatLi sa. . whenIf i r stmety ou, i t r eal l ywasmyf i r stt i meknowi ngy ou, Isav ed y out hatdaycausey our eal l ywer ei nt r oubl e, I gav ey ouapl acet ost aycauseIr eal l ydi dwant t ohel py ou, Iknewnot hi ngt hatt i me, y ounev er t ol dmeabouty ourf at herandInev erknewt hat ourf at her ' shav eahi st or y , y esIknewabout y ourf at heral ongt i meago, butIdi dn' tknowhe wasy ourf at herunt i l r ecent l ywheny out ol dme abouty ourf at herwhenwewer egoi ngt obe pr et endi ngt obeacoupl ef ory ourgr ams, t hat ' s t heonl yt i meIknew, andev ersi ncet henI ' v e beenmeani ngt ot el l y out het r ut h, butIhad al r eadyf el l i nl ov ewi t hy oudeepl yandIwas af r ai d, It houghti twoul dr ui nev er y t hi ng. . . . . RememberIkeptaski ngy our andom wei r d Quest i onsaboutwhati fy ouknewy ourdads ki l l er ? Inod Qui nt on: " y ousai d, y ou' dhat eev er y t hi ngt hati s hi s, any t hi ngt hatr esembl eshi my ou' dhat e, y ou sai dy ou' dhur thi schi l dj ustsohecant akei t f orhi sf at hersi ncehi sdead. . . . wel l al l t hose wor dsy ousai dscar edt heshi toutofme, Iev en becamemor escar edt ot el l y ou. . butr ecent l y I ' v ebeenmeani ngt ot el l y out hat ' swhydur i ng t hesepastf ewweeksI ' v ebeenaski ngy out o maket i mef ormecauseIhav ef al l endeepf or y ouandIcoul dn' tkeepi tt omy sel fany mor e" Ishakemyheadwi t ht ear sr unni ngdownmy ey es Me: " whyQui nt on?Whydoesi thav et obey our f at her ?" Qui nt on: " t hi sdoesn' thav et ochangeany t hi ng Li sa, wecanst i l l f i ghtt obet oget her " Me: " No. . nowecan' t . . . .Whydi dy oul i et ome abouty ourbackgr ound?I fy ouknewnot hi ng aboutmef r om t hebegi nni ng. . . howcomey ou l i edt omeabouty ourbackgr ound, abouty our chi l dhood?Whydoy ouwantt hedi amonds?Ar e y oucont i nui ngy ourf at her ' squestonf i ndi ng t hem?Ar ey oupr ot ect i ngmeort hedi amonds? Yousai dy ourf at hert aughty ouv er ywel l on howt odeal wi t ht heenemy . . . . Ihav ebeeny our enemyt hi swhol et i me, y ousav edmyl i f emor e t hanonce, y oumademet r usty ou, y oumademe t obecomef ul l yhonestwi t hy ouabout ev er y t hi ngaboutmy sel fsomet hi ngIdon' t usual l ydo. . . wor stofal l , y oumademef al l madl y i nl ov ewi t hy ou. , . .Al l becausey ouwer epl ot t i ng y ournextbi gmi ssi onwhi chwasget t i ngback whaty ourf at hersodesper at el yneeded. . . t he di amonds. . .I t ssosadcausey ousodamngood att hi s" Qui nt on: " Li sa, y our eadi ngt hi swhol et hi ng wr ong. . y ouhav et obel i ev eme, I ' m not hi ngl i ke myf at her , I . . .Li sa.Ij ust . . .I . . Hesni f f sandl ooksawayf r om me Me: " y ounott heper sonIt houghty ou wer e. . . . ev er y t hi ngabouty oui sal i e, Idon' tknow i fIcanev ert r usty ou" Icl osemyey esandmor et ear scomer ushi ng out Me: " y ou' v enev erbeenf ul l yhonestwi t hme f r om t hebegi nni ng. . . . .Whatel sear ey ouhi di ng f r om me? " Qui nt on: " not hi ng. . . . . Li sa, pl ease, y ouhav et o bel i ev eme, Ionl yknewaboutt hi saf eemont hs ago, andI ' v ebeenmeani ngt ot el l y ou, Ir eal l y hav e. . Il ov ey ouLi sa, Ir eal l yt r ul yl ov ey ou, I ' v e nev eri nmyl i f epr et endedt ol ov ey ou, ev ent he t i mewewer epr et endi ngf ory ourgr ams, Iknow t hatwewer ebot hnotpr et endi ngweact ual l y gotachancet oex pr essourl ov ef oreach ot her , Imi ghthav el i edt oy ouaboutmy backgr oundbutt hat ' sbecauseIhat edi tbutI ev ent ual l ycameoutandt ol dy out het r ut h, I ev enwentt oshowy ouwher eIgr ewupandI t ol dy out het r ut handwhyIl i edabouti t , Ial so want edt ot el l y ouaboutwhatmyf at herdi dt hat daybutIcoul dn' t . .Butbel i ev emewhenI say , ev er y t hi ngt hathasbeengoi ngonBet ween y ouandIhasbeent r ue, t hegoi ngout , t he l aught er , t hecar i ng, t hel ov e, t hecomf or t i ng, t he suppor t , t hef unt i mes, t hesadt i mes, t he chemi st r y , al l t hememor i es. . . al l t hatwaspur e andt r ue, al l t hatwasy ouandI . . . . Isweart oGod Li saIhav edonenot hi ngbutpr ot ectandl ov e y ouandt hati sal l I ' l l bedoi ngf orasl ongasI l i v e, whet hery oubel i ev emeornot " Me: " whor unsy ourf at her ' sbusi nesses? " Hekeepqui etandl ooksatmeal l ov ermyf ace asi fhewi shesInev eraskedhi mt hat Me: " whoQui nt on?Whor unsy ourf at her ' sdi r t y busi nesses? " Hebr eat hsout Qui nt on: " Ai dan, myol derbr ot herandCl y demy y oungerbr ot her " Me: " i st hatal l ? . . . i t ' dbebet t eri fy ouj ustt el l me t het r ut hnow" Qui nt on: " t heydoaskmet ot akecar eofsome t hi ngs. . . butLi say ouhav et ounder . . . . . Me: "i t sokayQui nt on, y ouar ey ourf at her ' s son. . . andIcannev erchanget hat " Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r yLi sa" Me: " I ' m sor r yt ooQui nt on" Qui nt on: " pl easebel i ev eme, Iwoul dnev erhur t y oui nt ent i onal l y , i fany t hi ngLi saIl ov ey ou mor et hanIl ov emy sel f , pr obabl yev enmor e t hany oul ov ey our sel f . . . I ' ddi ef ory ou, t hatI pr omi sey ou" Thef actt hathenev ermakesempt ypr omi ses gi v esmenodoubtt hathemeansi t Me: " wecannev erbet oget herQui nt on" Qui nt on: " Pl easedon' tsayt hat " Me: " i t st r ue. . . ev er y t i mewet r ysomet hi ng out , somet hi ngbadal way shappens, nowI under st andwhymyf at heral way shaunt sme whenI ' m wi t hy ou, heknewy ouar et hesonof hi ski l l erandnot hi nggoodwi l l ev ercomeoutof usbei ngt oget her . . . .It hi nksi t sbestwego separ at eway s" Qui nt on: " pl ease. . . Idon' twantust ogosepar at e way s" Isni f fandwi pemyt ear st hatar ef al l i ng uncont r ol l abl y Me: " wewer enev ermeantt obeQui nt on, we' l l nev erwor kout , i t st i mewegetoutofourl i t t l e f ant asywor l dandf acet her eal i t y . . . .Ourl ov ei s f or bi dden" Qui nt on: " don' tgi v eupnow. . . pl ease. . I ' m beggi ngy ou. . . Bub" Me( cr y i ng) : " goodby eQ" Tear sf i nal l yescapehi sey es Qui nt on: " No. . t hi scan' tbei t . . pl ease. . pl ease don' tl eav eme. . . . he' smani pul at edy ouLi sa. . I ' m nott hebadguyher e, Iknowi tmayl ookl i kei t nowbutIswear . . . howmanyt i mesdoIhav et o sayIl ov ey ouf ory out obel i ev eme? " Ican' tt aket hi sany mor e, Ist andup, Ishakemy headandt ur nt ol eav e " ILOVEYOU!ILOVEYOUILOVEYOUILOVE YOU! . . . . COMEBACK!ILOVEYOU! ! ! ! ! " Hewasshout i ngandbangi ngt het abl et i l l Iwas out si det her est aur ant . . Igoti nt hecarandt hedr i v erdr ov eaway . . . . . . I br okedowni mmedi at el y , Ican' tbel i ev eal l t hat j usthappened. . . .Il osthi m.IhopeImadet he r i ghtdeci si on. .YesLi say oumadet her i ght deci si on, despi t et hewayi tf eel sl i ke, butt hi si s howt hi ngsshoul dbe. QUI NTON Ibur i edmyf acei nmyhands, she' sgone, what I ' v ebeenaf r ai dwoul dhappenal l t hi st i mehas act ual l yhappened, IknowI ' v edonebadt o manypeopl ebuti ft hi si skar ma. . . t hent hey wer er i ght . . she' sabi t chi ndeed. . . f uckI ' v enev er f el tt hi smuchpai ni nmyl i f e.Can' tbel i ev eshe j ustmademeshoutt hoset hr eewor dsi npubl i c outLoud, t hatI ' v eal way st ol dmy sel fI ' l l nev er sayt hem t oanygi r l whocomesi nt omyl i f eand say st heyl ov eme, y etwi t hheri t sl i ket heyj ust sl i poutwhenev ershel ooksatmewi t ht hose bi gpr et t yey es. . . f uckt hi sshi ti spai nf ul . Ij ustsi tt her et hi nki ngaboutev er y t hi ngwe' v e beent hr ought r y i ngt omakemy sel fbel i ev et hat i t sal l ov er " Excusemesi r " Il ookupandi t ' st hewai t r ess Me: " Yeah? " Her : " i t sl at eandwe' l l becl osi ngi naf ew" Icheckmyphoneandi t s23: 30pm Inodmyheadshesmi l esandwal ksaway. I tcan' tbeov er , t hey ' dhav et oki l l mef i r st , I ' m notst ay i ngawayf r om her Someoneoutt her ewhet heri t st heJohnsonsor noti saf t erher . . May beshe' sst i l l madaboutt hi smay beshe needst i met ocal m downandpr ocess ev er y t hi ng, may be, t hen, she' l l comear ound. . . but Ican' tpr ot ectheri fwedon' twor kt oget her , I ' l l wai tf orhert ocal m downt henI ' l l t r ycont act i ng her , hopef ul l yshedi dn' tmeanal l t hosewor ds shej ustsai d, Icannev ermov eon, howdoIev en mov eonwi t houtherI ' mf ai l i ngt oev enmov e of ft hi schai r" Goodby eQ"t hatj ustkeeps r epl ay i ngonmymi nd. . .Thi scan' tbegoodby e, t her e' sst i l l somuchIwant edt odo, may beshe' s r eal l yf al l enf ort hatguy , may beIshoul dj ust st ayaway , may behe' l l doabet t erj obi nmaki ng herhappyt hanIev ercoul d, af t erev er y t hi ngI ' v e donef orher , shest i l l doubt sme, apar tofmei s r eal l ymadanddi sappoi nt edi nher . . . . . . i t sf i neI ' l l t r yabi thar der , buti fshecont i nuest opushme awayl i ket hi s. . . I ' l l l ethergo, causei tcut sr eal l y deepwhenshedoest hat " Si r , wecl osednow" Me: " ofcause, sor r y " Igr abmyphoneandcarkey st henheadout [ 07/ 28, 22: 59]W: I nser t27 LI SA Me: " y ouwer er i ght , ev er y t hi ngy out ol dme abouthi m wast r ue" Lee: " comeher e" Iwal kcl osert ohi m hehol dsmeandr ubsmy backmaki ngmecr yev enmor e Lee: " hehast opayf ormaki ngy oucr yl i ke t hi s. . . . Li say ouhav et ost ayawayf r om t hat guy , he' sbadnews. . . asy ourhusband, Ican' t al l owpeopl el i ket hatt ocommuni cat ewi t hy ou orbecl oset oy ouany how, I ' m gonnadobyal l meanst opr ot ecty oubecauseIl ov ey ou, okay ? " Inodhemov emef r om hi schestandmakes mel ookathi m Lee: " pr omi semey ouwon' tt al kt ohi m orl et hi m cl oset oy ouev eragai n? " Me: . . . . . . Lee: " Pr omi se? " Me: " I . . I . .Ipr omi se" Het akesmyphone Lee: " we' l l st ar tbyget t i ngr i doft hi spat t er non y ourphone" Idr awt hepat t er nt hengot oset t i ngst or emov e i t Lee: " nowgot ohi snumber " Idoashesay s Lee: " del et eandbl ocki t " Il ookathi m he' sser i ous. .Idoashesay s Lee: " ev eni fhecal l sy ouwi t hadi f f er entnumber y ou' l l del et eandbl ocki tokay ? " Inod Lee: " f r om nowon. . I ' my ourman. . y oul i st ent o me" Inod Lee: " Ionl ywantt oshowy ouhowaQueenl i ke y oui ssupposedt obet r eat ed. . . Il ov ey ou khany aandI ' dhat ef orany t hi ngbadhappent o y oual l becauseofsomeoneIcoul d' v e pr ot ect edy ouf r om, agangst er . . . . y oudeser v e waymor et hant hat" Me: " pl easest op. . . st op, nobodyi sper f ect okay , nowIdi dwhaty ouwant edmet odo, Icut t i eswi t hQui n. . . ( sni f f s) . . Qui nt on. . .I ' l l nowf ocus onus, l i kehowy oual way swant ed. . . nowi fy ou' d excuseme, I ' mt i r edandIneedt osl eep" It akeof fmyshoes, wi t houtchangi ngmy cl ot hesIt uckmy sel fandcl osemyey es. . who am Iki ddi ng, Ican' tf al l asl eepwi t ht hi spai nf ul chest " " Wheny ouf i ndt het r ut habouthi m, f or gi v e hi m, don' that ehi m, buthehast oaskf or f or gi v enessf r om ourancest or sf i r st . . . . he' l l be y ourpr ot ect i onher eal l yl ov esy ou" Ir eal l yhopey ouwer et al ki ngaboutMncedi si ot her wi seIhav emadet hebi ggestmi st akeof myl i f e, Ir egr etmydeci si onal r eady , Il ov e Qui nt on, whet herhe' st hebadguyornot , i t s pai nf ul i thadt oendt hi sway * TwoDay sl at er * I ' m wokenupbymyphone, i t sapr i v at e number , Ihat epr i v at enumber sIpi cki tupbut don' tspeak " HappyBi r t hday " Me: " Qui nt on! ?" " Pl easedon' thangup" Il ookar oundandMncedi si i snotar ound, Ican smel l hi sCol ognewhi chmeanshel ef tf or cl ass, webacki nJo' bur g " LookIknowhemadey oubl ockmynumber , so I ' l l bei r r i t at i ngy ouwi t ht hi soneunt i l hef i nds outt henI ' l l useanot herone, butIwon' tst op communi cat i ngwi t hy ou" Me: " Qui nt on. . . . " ( Si ngi ng)onceay earwecel ebr at ewi t hst upi d hat sandpl ast i cpl at es. . . . . . . t hef actt haty ou wer eabl et omaket het r i par oundt hesun ( gasps) andt hewhol epl angat her sr oundand gi f t sandl aught erdoabound. . . . . . wel etouta j oy f ul soundandsi ngt hatst upi dsong!( Igi ggl e sof t l y )HappyBi r t hday , nowy ouroney earol der . HappyBi r t hday , y ourl i f est i l l i sn' tov er .Happy Bi r t hday , y oudi dnotaccompl i shmuch.Buty ou di dn' tdi et hi sy eari guesst hat ' sgoodenough. . . . . . . . Sol et sdr i nkt oy ourf adi ngheal t h, and hopey oudon' tr emi ndy our sel fy ourchanceof f i ndi ngf ameandweal t hdecr easewi t hev er y y ear .Dosei tf eel l i key ourdoi ngl aps, and eat i ngf oodandt aki ngnaps, andhopi ngt hat someday , per haps, y ourl i f ewi l l hol dsome cheer . HappyBi r t hday , whathav ey oudonet hat mat t er s?HappyBi r t hday , y ourst ar t i ngt oget f at t er .HappyBi r t hday , i t ' sdownhi l l f r om nowon. Tr ynott or emi ndy our sel fy ourbesty ear sar e al l gone. . . . . . I fcr y ogeni cswer eal l f r eet heny oucoul dl i v e l i keWal tDi sneyandl i v ef oral l et er ni t yi nsi dea bl ockofi ce.Buti nst eady ourt i mei ssett hi si s t heonl yl i f ey ouget , andt houghi thasen' t endedy etsomet i mesy ouwi shi tMI GHT! . . . . . . ( I bur sti nt ol aught er , Ican' thol di ti nany mor ehe soundssogunnywi t hhi sst upi dv oi ce) . . . . . . ( I st ar tsi ngi ngal ong) Hi m&I : HappyBi r t hday , y ouwi shy ouhadmor e money .HappyBi r t hday , y ourl i f essosadi t ' s f unny .HappyBi r t hday , howmuchmor ecany ou t ake?Buty ourf r i endsar ehungr ysoj ustcutt he st upi dcake.HappyBi r t hday , HappyBi r t hday , " HappyBi r t hday , Dear . . . . ." Ev er ysi ncewesawt hi ssongony out ube, he pr act i sedi tandmadesur ehemakesf unofme i nf r ontofourf r i endssi ngi ngt hatsadf unny song If eel t ear st hr eat eni ng Me: " Thanky ouQ, i tmeansal ot " " It r i edcal l i ngy ouatmi dni ghtbutIr eal i zedy ou bl ockedmynumber , I ' m sur eal otofpeopl e hav ebeatmet obei ngt hef i r stonet owi shy ou happybi r t hday " Me: " act ual l y , y out heonl yonesof ar . . . so no. . . y out hef i r stone" " Youmeannoonewokey ouupwi t hbr eakf ast i nbed?Ori r r i t at edy oui nt hemi ddl eoft heni ght t i l l y ouwokeup? . . . Ihadsuchagoodpr ank pl annedf ort hi sday " Myhear tsi nks Me( whi sper s) : " Qui nt on. . . . " Li sapl ease. . . .Iwanty ou. . Ineedy ousobad" Me: " Qui nt on. . . " IknowI ' v edonebadt hi ngsandmypasti snot per f ect , I ' v ehur tal otofpeopl e, butLi sat hi s puni shmenti st oomuch. . Me: "Qui nt on. . . . " I ' l l doany t hi ngf ory out of or gi v eme, any t hi ng Li sapl easegi v emeanot herchance. . . . . Me: Qui nt on. . . . "I ' l l gi v eupany t hi ngpl ease, Ineedy oui nmy l i f e, weneedeachot her , st oppushi ngme away . . . . Pl easemyBub. . . . I . Me: " Qui nt on!St op! . . . . y oushoul dn' thav ecal l ed, st opmaki ngt hi shar dt hani tal r eadyi s, j ustst ay away " " Youdon' tunder st andLi sa. .Youar emyl i f e, I can' tst ayaway . . . Ihat et ohav et ouset hi scar dbuthe' sf or ci ng me Me: "I ' m get t i ngmar r i edQui nt on, y ouhav et o st ar tr espect i ngt hat , I ' l l besomebody ' swi f e soonsopl easedon' tcal l meanddon' tev ert r y t ocont actmeev eragai n. . . . .Idi dn' twantt o hav et ouset hi sbuty oupushedme" " Wow, Ican' tbel i ev ey ouj ustsai dt hat . . al l f or someonewhodi dn' tev enr emembery our bi r t hday . . . .Li sakhany aI ' m gi v i ngy ouonel ast chancet ochangey ourmi ndcauseal l t hese wor dsy ouusi ngt opushmeaway , t heyar e hur t i ngmewaymor et hany out hi nk. . . y ouusi ng t he" y ouget t i ngmar r i ed"car dcausey ouso badl ywantmeaway . . . . Iwanty ouj ustasbad buty oudon' tseemeusi ng" af t erev er y t hi ngI ' v e donef ory ouwheny ouhadnoone"car dcause t hatwoul dbev er yl owofme. . . . . okayf i ne. . .Just sayt hi sandI ' l l nev erbot hery ouagai n. . Me: " saywhat ? " " Qui nt on, y out hewor stt hi ngt hathasev er happenedt ome, st ayawayf r om me, Iwi shwe nev ercr osspat hsagai n, Il ov eMncedi si . . . . .I don' tl ov ey ouandwhatwehadi sov erf or good! " I shecr azynonoft hoset hi ngsar et r ue!Can' t hej ustunder st andt hatnomat t erhowmuchI l ov ehi m wecannev erbe Me: " y ouknowIcan' tsayt hat " " Theny oucanf or getaboutmest ay i ngaway f r om y ou" I fhecont i nuesl i ket hi sMncedi si mi ghtcome af t erhi m andhe' l l hur thi m orwor seki l l hi m, The r eal r easonIwantQui nt ont ost ayawayf r om me, i sbecauseoft heconv er sat i onIhear dt hei r ot herdaybet weenLi am andhi sdad, t heywant t oki l l Qui nt on, andasl ongasI ' m wi t hhi m, t hey mi ghtki l l hi m, I ' dr at herhav ehi mf arawayf r om met hanhav ehi m dead Isi gh Me: " Qui nt on, y ou. . . y out hewor stt hi ngt hathas ev erhappenedt ome. . . . . . st ayawayf r om me. . . ( a t eardr opsf r om myey e) . . . . I . . Iwi shwe. . . nev er cr osspat hsagai n! . . . ( br eaki ngv oi ce) . . . IIl ov e. . . I l ov eMncedi si . . . . Idon' t . .( Sni f f s) . . Idon' tl ov e. . . . ( cr y i ngl oud) . . . Idon' tl ov ey ou! !Ahhh! . . . what wehadi sov er . . . . . ( comesoutasasob) . .For good! " * si l ence* " I ' m sor r y " Me: " whatf or ? " " Foral otoft hi ngsLi ss. . . .I ' m sor r yf orl ov i ng y ousogoddamnmuch! " Me: " don' tbesor r yQ. . " ( Cr y i ngv oi ce) Justl i st enokay ! " Me: " okay " " I ' m sor r yf ormi ssi ngy ou. . . . f orwant i ngt osee y ouev er ysi ngl edaycausewheny ounotwi t h meIf eel i ncompl et e. . . .I ' m sor r yf oral way s t hi nki ngabouty oubef or egoi ngt osl eep. . . . For f eel i ngupseti fIdon' tseey ou. . . . f orwant i ngt o bebyy oursi de. . I ' m sor r yf orwant i ngt omake y ouhappy . . . f orwant i ngy out obepar tofmy l i f e. . . . f ort r y i ngt omakey ousmi l e. . . . I ' m sosor r y f orbot her i ngy ou. . . . f ordr eami ngabouty ou ev er yday . . . . sor r yf orget t i ngmad, j eal ousand sad. . . . I ' m sor r yf oral way swant i ngt opr ot ect y ouev ent houghy ouabi ggi r l whodoesn' tneed t obepr ot ect ed. . . f ordi sr espect i ngy ourper f ect mar r i age. . . . sor r yf ort hi nki ngwecoul d' v ehad somet hi ngspeci al mostofal l f ort hi nki ngy ou Lov edme. . . sor r yf orannoy i ngy ouwi t hmy messagesandcal l s. . . . I ' m sor r yf orcar i ngabout y ou. . . I ' mj ustsor r yf orev ermi st akeImade. . . I ' m sor r yLi sa. . . . . Iwon' tev erbot hery ouagai n. .I pr omi se. . . ( sobs) . . Goodby eBUB" Hedr opst hecal l I ' m nowcr y i ngmyl ungsout Me: " Qui nt on! !No! . . comeback! " Ispendmywhol edayi nt hehousecr y i ngand eat i ngal l t hej unkt hi ngsMncedi si l ov esbuy i ng most l yi cecr eam andchi psandchocol at es, I wat chedsadmov i es. . . I ' mi nt hemi ddl eoft hi s sadmov i e' bl ueVal ent i ne' wher et hechar act er s cr yIcr ywi t ht hem. . acal l comest hr ough, Ihope i t sQui nt on. .It akei tmyhear tdr opswhenIsee y onel a. . . . Ihav en' tt al kedt oherev ersi ncet hat daysheconf essedherf eel i ngandcameout abouthersexual i t yI ' m suchabadf r i end Me: " Hel l o" " Happybi r t hdayt oy ouhappybi r t hdayt oy ou happybi r t hdaydaydearLi sa!Happybi r t hday dayt oy ouuuuu. , . . . hi phi p. .Hoor ay !Hi phi p hoor ay ! " Webot hl augh, butmyl aught ur ni nt oacr y " Heey ybi r t hdaygi r l . . . what ' swr ong? " Me: " myl i f ei samessYonel a! " " Wher ear ey ouI ' l l ber i ghtt her e" Me: " I ' m atLi am' sapar t ment" " I ' m onmywaywi t hj unk" Me: " NoIal r eadygotpl ent yoft hat " " Fi net henI ' m onmywaywi t hbooze" Ichuckl e Me: " Iguesst hatwoul dbet hebestwayt o cel ebr at emyei ght eent hbi r t hday " " Okay , pl easedon' tki l l y our sel fI ' l l bet her ei na f ew" Me: " I ' l l t r ynott o" Shedr opst hecal l , Icont i nuewat chi ngt he mov i e, af t eraf ewmi nut esacal l comest hr ough I t st hehousephone, Ir el uct ant l ygopi cki tup Me: " y es" " Sor r yt odi st ur by oumi ss, bi tt her e' sal adyby t henameofy onel aher et oseey ou? " Me: " sendherup" Idr opt hecal l andscr awl backont hecoucha knockcomest hr ough Me: " comei n! " Shebudgesi nl ooki ngbeaut i f ul asev er , i t sl i ke she' sbecomemor et omboy i shev ersi nce. . y ou know. . Yonel a: " heygi r l ! . . comeony ouj ustgoi ngt osi t t her e? " Sheopensherar msf orahugIgetupandwe hug, shesmel l ssof r eshandni cewhi l eIont he ot herhandsmel l l i kebedandf ur ni t ur e Wesi tdown Yonel a: " I ' m sor r yaboutt heot her . . . . Me: "Nonopl ease, I ' mt i r edofI ' m sor r i esf orone day . . . . y oudon' thav et oapol ogi ze, Iunder st and, I ' mt heonewhoi ssor r yf orr eact i ngt hewayI di d, y oumybestf r i end, Ishoul d' v et al kedt oy ou pr oper l yandsuppor ty ouf orf i nal l ycomi ng out . . Iact edl i keabi t ch. . . pl easef or gi v eme? " Yonel a: " y ouf or gi v en" Wehugagai n Yonel a: " nowt hatwebackt oget her . . . t el l me ev er y t hi ngt hathasbeengoi ngon" Isi gh Inar r at et hewhol est or yt oher , she' snowi n t ear s Yonel a: " ar ey ousur ewi t ht hedeci si ony ou made, doy out hi nki t st heoney ourf at her want edy out omake" Ishr ugmyshoul der s Me: " Ir eal l ydon' tknowany mor e, If oundoutt he t r ut haboutbot ht heseguy s. . . . Idon' tknow whi chonemydadwast el l i ngmenott ohat e onceIknowt het r ut h, t heybot hal way st el l i ng met heywantt opr ot ectme, t heybot hl ov e me. . . sodad' swor dswer enotspeci f i c enough, t heyl ef tmeconf used, onemi nut ehe' s t el l i ngmet or unawayf r om Qui nt ont henext he' st el l i ngmehedoesn' tt r ustt he Johnsons. . . sor eal l yI ' m conf used. . . whatwoul d y ouhav edone? " Yonel a: " becomel esbi an" Webur sti nt ol aught er Yonel a: " I ' m ki ddi ng, butt hi si sr eal l yconf usi ng andhear t br eaki ngandsof r ust r at i ngcause bot ht heseguy sar esuperhot , atl easti t woul d' v ebeeneasi eri foneoft hem wassuper duperugl y . . . . I ' m sor r yIknowI ' m nothel pi ng her e" Me: " t hat ' sokay . . may bey our i ghtmay bebei ng gayi st heanswer" Wel aughagai n Yonel a: " y ou' dmakeabeaut i f ul gi r l f r i endt oa beaut i f ul gi r l " Shesmi l esatme Me: " damngi r l st ophi t t i ngonmey oh! " Wel augh Yonel a: " l et ' sgetdr unkshal l we" Me: " pl ease! " Shepour ssomedr i nksandwedr i nkwhi l e pl ay i ngmusi canddanci ng, Iwasbusyt wer ki ng wi t hy onel aspanki ngmet henshest ar t s t wer ki ngherassagai nstmi ne " Oohhhhwhaaaaat t t . . . . t wer kgi r l shakei tshake i t " Thatwasy onel ashout i ng, wear esowast ed Wenowdanci ngt osl owmusi chol di ngeach ot herherar msar oundmywai stwhi l emi ne ar oundherneck Yonel a: " y ouagooddancer " Shewhi sper sr i ghtonmyf ace Me: " y out oo" Yonel a: " Ihopey ouenj oy edy ourbi r t hday " Me: " y out hebest " Suddenl yt hemusi cst opsIt ur nt ol ookwhat happenedandLi am i sst andi ngt her el ooki ng pi ssed Me: " Baby ! " Lee: " what ' sgoi ngonher e?Thepl acei sa mess! ? " Me: " whysol oud? " Yonel a: " Iwasonmywayout " Lee: " by e" Yonel a: " by e" Sheki ssesmycheekt henheadsout Wer emai nsi l entaf t ershehasl ef t Lee: " whatt hehel l Li sa!Suchamess? " Ist umbl et owar dshi m Me: " I ' m sor r ybabe. . Idi dn' tmeant o" Iwr apmyar msar oundhi swai st Lee: " y ouwast ed. . .I t si nt hemi ddl eoft heweek Li sa" Me: " Iwasn' tpl anni ngt obuti tj usthappened" Il aymyheadonhi schest Lee: " don' tgi v emet hatador abl ebabyv oi ce. . . Thi si sunaccept abl e" Hesay swr appi nghi sar msar oundme Lee: " wai t . . . i si tsomeone' sbi r t hday ? " Me: " why " Hemov esmeawayandgoest owar dst het abl e wher eheseest hebal l oony onel acamewi t h andacar d Hel ooksatmeaf t err eadi ngi t Lee: " Li sa. . .I . . . Idi dn' tknow. . . . I ' m sosor r y " Me: " whatf or ? " Lee: " Idi dn' twi shy ouhappybi r t hday , i tt ot al l y sl i ppedmymi nd, somuchhas. . . Me: " r el axbabe. . . y oudon' thav et oexpl ai n, I ev enf or goti twasmybi r t hdayt odayunt i l . . . . . ( I pauseasIal mostspi l l edQui nt on' s name) . . . , unt i l y onel ashowedup" Hecomest owar dsme Lee: " l et ' sgoout , Iwantt ot r eaty ou" Me: " I ' m notgoi ngany wher ewi t hy out hi sdr unk" Lee: " I ' m notdr unk" Il augh Me: " Imeantme" Lee: " Iknowi t sl at ebuthappybi r t hday" Me: " t hanky ou. . . i t sbet t ert hanbel at ed" Hesmasheshi sl i psonmi neIki sshi m backhe pi cksmeupandweheadt ot her oom whi l ehe t akesof fmycl ot hes, heput smedown, we t aki ngof feachot her scl ot hes. . Ikeptt r y i ngt o st ophi m buthedoesn' tl i st en, hepi cksmeup agai nonhi snakedbody , heputmedownand br eakst heki ss, Iopenmyey esandr eal i sewei n t heshower ? Me: " what sgoi ngon? " Lee: " bi r t hdaygi r l needsawash" Me( gasps) : " ar ey ousay i ngIst i nk? " Hel aughs Lee: " y ourwor dsnotmi ne. . . . butser i ousl y , y ou dr unk, wecan' thav esexwhi l ey ounoti ny our sobermi nd. . . andbesi desIwantust owai tt i l l wemar r i ed" Me: " i t snotl i keIwant edy ounowany way " Ir ol l myey esandt ur nmybackagai nhi m.He l aughsatmet henIf eel hi sl i pski ssi ngmy shoul der , Iheart heshowerdoorcl oseandhe wasgone * * * * * * THREEWEEKSLATER Ev er y t hi nghasbeengoi ngwel l sof ar , Li am has beennot hi ngbutsweett ome, hel ov est aki ng met ot heseexpensi v epl aces, It ol dhi m he shoul dn' tbuthedoesn' tl i st ent ome, hebuy s meexpensi v egi f t sdespi t et hef actt hatIdon' t wanthi m spendi ngsomuchmoneyonmebut hedoesn' tl i st en, hesay sI ' m hi swomanand he' l l spoi l mehowev erhewant st ospoi l me, so I ' v egi v enupi nf i ght i ngwi t hhi m, hewentasf ar ast r ansf er r i nghal fami l l i onr andi nmyaccount , Ist i l l hav en' tt ouchedt hatmoney , hesay she' s maki ngupf orf or get t i ngmybi r t hdaybutt hi si s t oomuch! Ihav en' thear df r om Qui nt onev ersi ncemy bi r t hday , i tbr eaksmyhear t , Idi dn' tt hi nkhe' d r eal l ygi v euponme, Imi sshi m somuch, nota daygoesbywi t houtt hi nki ngaboutunbl ocki ng hi snumber . . . I ' m get t i ngmar r i edt oday , Inev eri n myl i f ei magi nedmy sel fget t i ngmar r i ed, Inev er want edt o. . butIal way st ol dmy sel fi fIdoOne daygetmar r i edt hent hatguywoul dhav er eal l y sweptmeof fmyf eet , i twoul dbesomeoneI l ov euncondi t i onal l ynotj ustanyki ndofl ov ebut t heki ndwher eI ' dev endi ef ort heper son. . t he ki ndIshar edwi t hQui nt on. . .At earescapesmy ey e, If eel someonewi peme Let hu: " gi r l y ouwi l l r ui ny ourmakeup. . l ookhow beaut i f ul y ouar e" , Wel ooki ngi nt ot hi sbi gmi r r or , I ' mr eadyt ogo downt hei sl e Let hu: " ar ey our eady ? " Hel l No! Me: " y es. . " Shesmi l est henweheadout , mom wasnot happywi t hmydeci si onbutshedoesn' t under st andwhyImadet hedeci si onsI made, oneofmyuncl eswal kmedownt hei sl e, Li am hast hebi ggestsmi l eonhi sf ace Thepast ormakesusr epeataf t erhi m aswe say sv ows, Icoul dn' tpr epar eany t hi ng, he' s al way sbusysohedi dn' tpr epar eany t hi ngas wel l Past or : " Iknowpr onouncey ouhusbandand wi f e, y oumayki sst hebr i de" Weshar eashor tki ssandt hesmal l cr owd appl auded, Il ookatt hecr owdsmi l i ng. . . .My smi l edi sappear sasIseeQui nt on, ourey es l ock, Ishouthi snameandal l ey esonmeIl ook atLi am hel ooksv er yangr y Ir eal l ywantt ogoaf t erhi m unt i l myey esmeet MrJohnson' st hr eat eni ngey esIst opmy sel f , . . . I seet wost r ongmenqui ckl ymaki ngt hei rway out . . Not heygoi ngt oki l l Qui nt on, Ihav et o f ol l owt hem! Iat t emptt owal kbutLi am hol dsmyhand t i ght l yhur t i ngmei nt hepr ocess, Il ookathi m wi t hpl eadi ngey esheshakeshi sheadabi t whi l esmi l i ngkeepi ngapol i t el ookf ort he peopl e. . . . Igi v ei n, hepul l smef oranot herki ss t hecr owdul ul at es. . . . * BHAABHAABHAA* gunshot sgoof fev er y onescr eam andgoes downIat t emptt or unf ort hedoor " QUI NTOOOOOON! ! ! ! ! ! ! " * BHAABHAABHAA* Ist ar tr unni ngwhensomeonehol dsmeback Lee: " St aydownLi sa!You' l l getki l l ed! " Hemakesmegodownandhol dsmeashe pr ot ect smef r om t hehav ocgoi ngon Ibur sti nt ot ear " NooooQui nt on! !Theyki l l edMyQui nt on! ! ! ! Aaahhhhsomebody ! ! ! ! ! Pl ease. , . . . Qui nt oooooooooon! ! ! ! ! ! " Ibr eakdown Mor egunshot sgoof f Igetof fhi sgr i pandmakear unf ori t " QUI NTON! ! ! " somebodyhol dsmebl ocki ngmeandgetmet o godown " Pl ease, Ineedt ohel phi m. . . pl ease. .l etmego! ! ! ! aahhhhhhMyQUI NTON! " [ 07/ 28, 22: 59]W: I nser t28 LI SA TWOMONTHSLATER ° ° ° ° ° ° ° Ihav en' thear dany t hi ngaboutQui nt onsi nce t hedayoft heweddi ng, Ical l edhi smot her , but shedoesn' tknowwher ehei s, shehat esmeshe can' tev enhi dei tev enCandr ahat esme, Ibet t hewhol ef ami l yhat esmei ncl udi ngQui nt on wher ev erhei s, Ihat eLi am Ihat ehi m wi t hmyal l Ihat eal l t heJohnsonsev ent hei nnocent ones. . . f oral l Iknowt heyki l l edQui nt onandhi s hi sbodypr obabl yt hr ewhi mi nt hesea, Ican' t l i v ewi t houthi m, Ineedhi m.Li am i sv er y demandi ngi t shi swayornoway , i t sl i kehe st oppedcar i ngabouthowIf eel , heusedt ot el l mehe' l l nev erchanget hewayIdr essbutguess what ?Hedi d, Inowhav emyownspeci al desi gnerandI ' m notal l owedt owearshor t t hi ngsi fi t sshor ti tmustbej ustabov et he knee, l i kewhatt hehel l i st hat ?I ' m si ckandt i r ed ofhi mt el l i ngmewhatt odo, I ' mt ooy oungf or t hi s, t odayI ' m wear i ngmyshor t sandl ong t ee, i t shotashel l ! Hedi dn' tev enwai tf ormet ogetr eady , het ol d met ocal l anubercausehehasanear l ycl ass andappar ent l yI ' mt oosl ow, i t sl i kesomeday s hel ov esmesomuchandot herday she' sj ust t i r edofme, wehav en' thadsexy et , t hank goodnessal t houghhel i kest ur ni ngmeont hen l eav esmehangi ng, i t sl i kehe' sscar edt odoi t wi t hme, butIcoul dn' tcar el essI ' mj ustwor ki ng onget t i ngi ncr i mi nat i ngev i denceont hem, geta l awy erandgetmy sel foutoft hi smess, If ound outt hatAf t erLi am' sexgi r l f r i endbet r ay edhi m af t eraweekshedi sappear edf r om t hef aceof ear t h, t heysaysher anawaybutIdon' tbuyt hat st or y .Idon' tt hi nkI ' l l makei toutoft hi s mar r i ageal i v e.Iwi shIhadnev erpushed Qui nt onaway , Iknewt heywer egoi ngt oki l l hi m butIwi shIst ay edwi t hhi mr egar dl essatl east wewoul d' v edi edt oget her , I ' v ebeennot hi ngbut acur sei nt hatman' sl i f e, Ipr ayt oGodwher ev er hei shei ssaf eandal i v e, i fIf i ndouthe' sdeadI swearI ' l l commi tsui ci decausei fi twasn' tf or meHewoul dn' tbei nt hi smess, Ican' tev en concent r at ei nschool notonl ydi dmygr ades dr opbutt heywental l t hewaydownt oaC, i t s sodepr essi ng, Iwi shIwasal soki l l edt heni ght mydadwaski l l ed, t hatwayIwoul dn' tbesucha bur dent opeopl e' sl i v es. Ical l anuberandi tt akesmet ocampus It r yashar dasIcant oconcent r at ebutIcan' t i t sasi fI ' m notev enexi st i ng Yonel a: " I ' mr eal l yget t i ngt i r edoft hi s" Me: . . . . Yonel a: " whenl astdi dy ousmi l eorl augh, come onLi saatl eastt r yt omov eon" Me: " How? " Yonel a: " pr oper l y . . . Idon' tknowbutpl easeI needt heol dy ouback" Me: " howy onel a?Howam Isupposedt omov e onwhent heonl ymant hathasev erl ov edme hasdi sappear edf r om t hef aceofear t h, Idon' t knowwhet herhe' sdeadoral i v e, howam I supposedt omov eonwhenev er y onehas t ur nedt hei rbacksonme, myi nl awsseem t o notl i kemeany mor e, Qui nt on' sf ami l yhat esmy gut s, mymom har dl yev ert al kst ome, my husbandi schangi ngonme, Ihat emy sel fandI f eel l i kedy i ng. . Sot el l me. . . . howam Isupposed t omov eon? " Shel ooksatmewi t hpi t y Yonel a: " aawwy oupoort hi ng, y ougoi ngt hr ough somuch, y ousoy oungt hi si sj ustt oomuchf or y ou. . . . y oust i l l gotme, I ' l l al way sbeher ef or y ou, t heycanal l hat ey ou, j ustknowt hatIl ov e y ou, I ' l l al way sl ov ey ou. . sowheny out hi nky ou deser v et odi ecausey oudon' tmat t erj ust r emembert haty oumeanal ott omeandI ' dbe dev ast at edi fany t hi ngcoul dev erhappent o y ou" ShehugsmeIcr ysi l ent l y Af t ercl assesi twast i met ogohome, Iwai t ed f orLi am wher eIusedt owai tf orQui nt on, apar t ofmeal way shopest hathewi l l j ustcome speedi nghi scarj ustt opar ki nf r ontofmet hen r ev si tt ogett heat t ent i on " Sot hatev er y oneseest hesexymachi net hat f et chesy ou"sohesay s Ichuckl e I ' v ebeenwai t i ngf orhour s, Iguesshe' snot pi cki ngmeup, Ical l anuber Iaskedi tt odr opmeatQui nt on' sapar t ment t hatusedt obeour s Hedr opsmeof fIaskhi mt owai tf ormehe agr eed Imakemywayt ot hehouse Iknockbutnooneanswer s. . . oohhy eahIst i l l hav et hekey s, Ij ustwantt ochecki toutmay be he' si nher e, may behe' sbeenl ay i ngl ow, Iknow he' sst i l l al i v e, i fhe' sdeadIt hi nkIwoul d' v ef el ti t Imakemywayi nsi de Me: " Qui nt on!" Iopent hef r i dgeandmemor i escomegushi ng back. . t ear sst r eam downmyf ace. . . . l ooksl i ke ev er y t hi ngi sof fi nt hi sf r i dge.Icl osei tand cont i nuel ooki ngar ound, Igot omyol dbedr oom whi chgr amsusedt ouse, not hi nghas changed, ev er y t hi ngi sst i l l t hesame, Igot oour bedr oom, i t ssoneat . . Isi tatt heedgeoft hebed Inot i ceaphot oal bum, It akei tandi tdecor at ed soni cel yont heout si deIhol dmymout hwhenI not i cewhati tsay" HAPPY18t hBI RTHDAYBUB" Iopeni tsl owl y . .Thef i r stpi ct ur ewasoft he f i r stdaywemet , i t sofmecov er i ngmyf ace, I r ememberhowshyIwasar oundhi mt hatday , I wasal soabi tscar edofhi m, het ookapi ct ur e t hent ol dmet hathewant st or emi ndme somedaywhenIgetusedt ohi m howshyIused t obe. It ur nt hepagesmostoft hesepi ct ur esar eof st ol enmoment s, Idi dn' tev ennot i ceheusedt o t akesomaypi ct ur eofme. . . Icomeacr osst hi s oneandIi mmedi at el ybur sti nt ot ear s, i t sa pi ct ur eofmesl eepi ngandhe' ski ssi ngmy f or eheadi thasacapt i ont hatr eads " Wheny ouf al l asl eepev er yni ght , Ican` t ! Thought sabouty oudon` tl etmesl eep!My secr eti sout . . y es, Iwat chy ousl eep ev er y t i me, y ouj ustsoi r r esi st i bl ybeaut i f ul , Il OVE YOUBUB. . . haha. . Ir ememberhowy ousai dy ou l ov ei twhenIsay t hat , wel l I ' l l sayi tf ort her estofmyl i f e" Icl osei tandhugi tt i ghtasIbr eakdown Me( cr y i ng) : " Imadet hebi ggestmi st akeofmy l i f ef orl et t i ngy ougo, It houghtIwasdoi ngt he r i ghtt hi ng, IswearIt houghtIwaspr ot ect i ng y ouf r om mycur sedl i f e, It houghty ourl i f ewi l l bemucheasi erwi t houtme, It houghtIwas l i f t i ngupabur denof fy ourshoul der s. . . . l ooks l i ke. . . It houghtwr ong! " It hr owmybackont hebed Qui nt on( i nspi r at i onal v oi ce) : " NoIneedy out o bel i ev ei t , t oni ghtt heci t yi sour s" Me( unsur e) : " t oni ghtt heci t yi sour s? " Qui nt on: " l ouderandbel i ev ei ny our sel f ! " Me( l ouder ) : " Toni ghtt heci t yi sour s! ! ! " Ishout ed . . . . . . . Me( t al ki ngt omy sel f ) : " dopeopl eev enbuy t heser i di cul ousl yexpensi v et hi ngs" Qui nt on: " ev er y day " Hest ar t l edme Me: " If or goty ouwer eher e" Qui nt on: " Iseey oul i ket hatone" Il ookati toncemor e Me: " naahdi amondsar enotmyt hi ng" Qui nt on: " y eahr i ght . . di amondsar ebestf r i ends wi t hgi r l s. . . wai ti si tgi r l sar ef r i endsof di amonds, f r i endshi pi si nbet weent hegi r l and di amonds. . . .What ev er . .Buty eaht hesay i nghas gi r l sanddi amondsandf r i endsi ni t " I ' ml aughi ngmygut sout Me: " i t s. . . adi amondi sagi r l ' sbestf r i end" Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " y eahy eah. . . . sowhatwas t hepoi ntoft hi sconv er sat i onagai n? " Ishr ugmyshoul der s . . . . . . Qui nt on: " y oucanr unr i ght ? " Me: " y eah, why ? " Hepul l smeandwewal kt owar dst hedoor Me( whi sper ) : " Qwehav et opay " Heshushesmewegetoutoft hest or et hent he al ar m goesof f Hest ar t sr unni ngIf i r sthesi t at e Me: " Qui nt on! . .Wai t . . no. . what . . y oh" Isawsecur i t ycomi ngImadear unf ori t f ol l owi ngQui nt onIr anasf astandf arasmy l egscoul dt akeme Secur i t y : " st op!St op! " . . . . . Ij umponQui nt on' sbackf orapi ggyr i debutwe bot hf al l f l at Me( l aughi ng) : " ooouuuch" Qui nt on: " whatt hehel l wer ey out r y i ng? " Me: " Iwant edy out ocar r ymet obedI ' mt i r edof st umbl i ng" Wel aughandhel peachot herup, hepi ggyr i de met ot her oom butheadst ohi sr oom i nst ead, wef al l ont hebed Qui nt on: " whatani ght ! " Me: " wer eal l ypai nt edt heci t yr ed" Qui nt on; " we' l l bepai nt i ngi tor angei nj ai l somet i me" Webur stoutl aughi ng * * * * * OhQui nt on! wher ear ey oul ov ebug? Iweakl ygetupt ot hesi t t i ngr oom, If i ndmy t eddybearont hecouchandal l myf av or i t e mov i est hatIusedt of or cehi m wat chwi t hme wer eont het abl e, Iswi t chont heTVl ooksl i ke he' sbeenwat chi ngt hem, ohGodIr eal l ybr oke hi shear t , I ' m soev i l !Ican' tt aket hi sany mor e, I swi t chof ft heTVt akemybi r t hdaygi f tal bum andheadout Theuberwasst i l l t her et omysur pr i sebutIhad t opayhi m al ot Hedr opsmeof fatt hehot el Iunl ockt hedoorandgeti n, If i r sthi det he al bum i nmypur se, I ' m at t ackedwi t hahugasI ent er Lee: " Li sa. . Iwaswor r i edsi ckabouty ou" Ipi shhi m away Me: " Iwai t edf orhour sy oudi dn' tshowup" Lee: " IknowI ' m sor r y , If or gott ot el l y out ot ake anuber , Iwascaughtup" Me: " t hat ' sy ourexcuse?Caughtupwi t hwhat ? " Lee: " Ihadi mpor t antbusi nesst ot akecar eof babe. . . I ' mr eal l ysor r yIdi dn' tt hi nki twoul d' v e t ookt hatl ong" Me( si ghs) : " I ' mt i r ed. . . I ' m gonnagor est " Lee: " am If or gi v en? " Me: " y eahsur e" Hest opsme Lee: " pl easet al kt omel i key oui nt er est ed" Me: " y ouar ef or gi v enMncedi si . . If or gi v ey ou" Lee: " y oust oppedcal l i ngmeLee? " Me: " Idi dn' tt hi nki tmat t er ed" Lee: " what ' supwi t hy ou?Wher ewer ey ouand whyhav ey oubeencr y i ng? " Me: " y oul ef tmeatschool r emember ?Iwas cr y i ngcauseIgotscar ed" Hepul l smei nt ohi schest , hi scol dchest , he hol dsmet i ght , Ishi v er , If eel l i kehe' l l squeeze t hel i f eoutofme, Idon' tknowwhyI ' m sosacr ed ofhi m, hi sembr acedoesn' tmakemef eel saf e atal l i tmakesmef r eezei nf eari nst ead. . Somet hi ngi snotr i ghtwi t hhi m, hi smood swi ngsar escar yonmomenthi smadt henext hi shappy . . . It hi nkhehasbi pol ar , t hat ' sway Thandowar nedmet obecar ef ul howIt r eat hi m, dur i ngt heweekbef or ewegotmar r i ed, I di dn' tputmucht houghti nt ot hatunt i l r ecent l y Lee: " Il ov ey ou. . . . I ' m sor r yf orl eav i ngy out her e al one" Hel i f t smychi nandki ssesme Lee: " t oni ghtI ' l l makel ov et o" Me: " Lee. . I ' m notr eady" Lee: " comeonI ' v ebeenpat i entenough" Hepi cksmeupandheadsupst ai r s, hepl aces meont hebed Me: " Li am pl ease, Iwanti tt obespeci al , canwe wai tabi t " Lee: " Khany a. . pl ease. . . Ineedy ou, Ican' tt akei t any mor e, i t sbeenr eal l yhar dr esi st i ngy ou" Me: " pl easej ustal i t t l ebi tl onger " Hef r owns Lee: " ar ey ouav i r gi n? " Ishakemyheadsl owl y Lee: " t hendon' ty out hi nkt hr eemont hsi smor e t hanenoughpat i ence. . . . ( get si nbet weenmy l egs) . . . pl easebeaut i f ul , Ipr omi sey ou' l l l ov ei t " Heki ssesmebef or eIcoul dsayany t hi ng Het akesof fourcl ot hes, Iwi shIcoul d di sappear , I ' mr eal l ynoti nt hemoodf ort hi s speci al l yt oday Hest ops Lee: " pl easedon' tbef r eakedoutbyt hi sokay ?" OhGodhehast hev i r us! Me: " what ? " Heget supandcomesbackwi t hasmal l box Me: " what ' si nt her e? " Lee: " pr omi sey ouwon' tbef r eakedout ? " Me: " uhm. . j ustt el l me" Het akesoutcuf f s, anar mbi nderandot her bondageequi pment , myey esopenwi de Me: " whatt hehel l ? " Lee: " i t ' l l bef unIpr omi se. . . t r ustme, Iwon' thur t y ou" . . . . [ 07/ 28, 22: 59]W: cont i nuat i on MNCEDI SI I ' v ebeenr eal l yner v ousf ort hi sday , t hat ' swhy I ' v ebeenav oi di nghav i ngsexwi t hhercauseof mypr epost er oussexual desi r es, Iwasscar ed t hatI ' dhur therorshe' l l f i ndi tscar yandl eav e me, soIwai t edf orust ogetmar r i edandusedt o eachot her , t hatwayshecan' tl eav e me, al t hought hatdoesn' tmeanIwantt ohur t her , butIknowi twon' tbeeasyf orhert ol eav e me, I ' m nosexaddi ctbutwhenIgett ur nedonI getki ndawi l dwhi chcoul dbedanger ous, I ' m notbi pol ar , Ihav eanobsessi onl ov edi sor der , so t heysaybutIdon' tbel i ev et hat , Inev erf or ce someonet ol ov eme, y esInev ergav eupi n get t i ngLi sabutI ' v enev erf or cedherIal way s gav eherachoi ce, Ir eal l ydol ov eher , f r om t he v er yf i r stdayImether .IknewIwasar r angedt o getmar r i edbutInev erknewi twoul dbeher , I wasshockedwhenIf oundout , dadnev ert ol d met her eal r easonbehi ndt hi swhol ear r anged mar r i agei sh. Me: " y ouhav et ot r ustmeLi sa" Li sa: " Lee. . . . Idon' tknowaboutt hi s" Me: " Iwon' thur ty oubabe" Shel ooksatmewi t hf earal l ov erhernaked body Li sa: " I ' v enev erdoneany t hi ngl i ket hi sbef or e" Me: " Ipr omi sey ou. . y ou' l l l i kei t , y ouseet hi si s whyI ' v ebeenav oi di ngsexwi t hy oucauseIwas scar edofhur t i ngy ou" Sher emai nsqui etj ustl ooki ngatme, Igi v eher awar m smi l e, Igeti nbet weenherl egsandki ss hersof tl i ps, ourl i pst wi r l andt heki ssdeepensI massageherbr east sshemoanssof t l yt he pushesmeandpul l sout Li sa: " pl easedon' thur tme" Me: " Iwoul dn' tdr eam ofdoi ngt hat" IPeckherl i psIgogett hecuf f s, It akeherhand andki ssi t Me: " we' l l st ar twi t ht heeasyonesf ornowsi nce y oust i l l newatt hi s" Shemakest hatconf usedcut ef acewi t hherbi g gr eeney esal l outasshenodsunsur el y . Il ockt hecuf far oundherwr i stagai nstt he headboar doft hebedwhi chhasspacesi n bet weensoi t seasyf ormet ocuf fher , It ake herot herhandIki ssi tsof t l ybef or ecuf f i ngi tas wel l herhandswer enowl ockedupand usel ess, Igent l yspr eadherl egs, It akear ope, I wr api tt i ght l yr oundherankl e " Aah" Me: " sor r y " It i ei tt ooneoft hef ourupr i ghtpi ecesofwood ateachcor nerofabed, Ial sot i eherot her l eg, shet r i est omov ebi tshe' sst uck Li sa: " Li am, Idon' tf eel comf or t abl ewi t ht hi s" Me: " I ' l l l oosent her opesabi t ? " Li sa: " No, Ij ustdon' tl i ket hi swhol et hi ng, canwe pl easenotdoi t " Ii gnor eherIr unmyhandsal l ov erherbodyasI getont opofher Me: " I ' l l begent l e, Iwoul dnev erhur ty ou khany a, speci al l ynott hi sway , i fIgett oor ough ory ouwantmet osl owdown, shoutChi cago. . . . i f y ouwantmet okeepgoi ngshouty el l ow. . .And i fy ouwantmet ost opshoutTi bet . . okay ? ? " ShenodsIki sshermyhandssl i det oher punani Ir ubi tsof t l y , shest ar tbr eat hi ngheav y , I i nser tmyi ndexf i ngeral i t t l eshemoans, Ikeep pushi ngi ti nandout , she' snowsoaki ngwet , I l eav eherl i psandki ssherneckhersof tmoans makememor ehar derbyt hemi nut e, Ii nser tt wo f i ngershegasps, Imov et hem gent l y , Igo deeperandputi nmyt hi r df i ngershescr eams " Ti bet " Ist op Me: " pai nf ul ?" ShenodsIcar r yonwi t ht wof i ngerIst ar t mov i ngt hem f ast ershet ensesup, hermoans get t i ngl ouder " Chi cago! " Isl owdown Me: " y ousee. . . . t hosear ey oursaf ewor ds, y ou j ustl etmedoasIpl easewi t hy ou, i fy oudon' t l i kei ty ouusey oursaf ewor ds. . i st hatmor e comf or t abl ewi t hy ou? " Shenods, goshshel ookssobeaut i f ul and i nnocentwhi chf ul f i l smor et omydesi r es, Igo downi nherandsuckherj ui ces, Ipl aywi t hmy t ongueonhercl i t shermoansf i l l upt hewhol e r oom asIf uckherwi t hmyt ongue " Aahy el l ow" Shel i kest hat . . . .Igetbackt oherl i psweki ss mor ehungr i er , shekeepst r y i ngt omov eher hands, pr obabl ywant st ot ouchme Me: " st ayst i l l baby , y ougoi ngt ohur ty our sel f " Ir ubmy sel fonher Li sa: " wai t ! " Icar r yonandi nser tmydi cki nsi deher Li sa: " wai t . . . . aahh. . Ti bet ! " Ist op Me: " y ouonl yuset hesaf ewor dsIgav ey ounot anyot herwor dcauseIwon' theari t , okay ? " Shenods Me: " nowwhydi dy oudi st ur b? " Li sa: " canwepl easeuseacondom, i t sbeena whi l esi nceIt ookt heshot " Me: " what ' swr ongwi t hmaki ngbabi es? " Li sa: " haaaLee. . . I ' m notr eadyf ort hat , I ' m st i l l t ooy oung, Ihav eschool t of i ni sh" Me: " I ' l l gety out hemor ni ngpi l l t hen" Li sa: " t hat ' snott heonl yr easonf orcondom" Me( chuckl es) : " I ' m noti nf ect ed, Idon' thav e STDsI ' m cl ean" It hr usti nherwi t houtwar ni ngshescr eams whi cht ur nsi nt omoansasImov ei nand out . . . myadr enal i naccel er at es, t het hr i l l t akes ov ermeasIi ncr easet hepace, Icl osemyey es asIenj oyt hepl easur est hi swomani s f l our i shi ngoutt ome, Il oosemy sel fIgodeeper anddeeperi nher " Ooohhy eeahhf uckf uckf uckf uckf uck! ! ! . . f uck y ousot i ght ! ! " Af t erawhi l eIr el easei nsi deher Iopenmyey esandt hat ' swhenInot i ceshe' s cr y i ng, Ir emov emyhandf r om herneck, she coughs, Idi dn' tr eal i seIwasst r angl i ngher Whydi dn' tshesayany t hi ng? Me: " Li sa. . . Li sa( cr y i ng) : "unt i emepl ease" Igetof fherandunl ockt hecuf f s, herwr i stwer e r edandt heycutherbadl y , Iunt i eherl egst he r opewaswayt i ght ert hanwhenIputi t Me: " Li sa. . whydi dn' ty ousayt hesaf ewor ds? " Shebur sti nt ot ear s Li sa: " Idi d! !Ishout edTi betahundr edt i mesbut y oudi dn' tst op! !Idi d! " Shi t , Iwasaf r ai dt hi smi ghthappen Igot ot hebat hr oom andr unherwat eri nt he t ub Ipi ckherupandputheri nsi det hebat ht ub Me: " I ' m sosor r ysweet hear t , Idon' tknowwhat gotov erme, t hathasnev erhappenedt ome bef or e" Shewasj ustcr y i ng Li sa: " y oust r angl edmeLi am, y oual mostki l l ed me" Me: " I ' m sosor r ybabe, Idi dn' tmeant o, Ir eal l y di dn' tdoi tonpur pose" Li sa: " y ousai dy ouwoul dn' thur tme. . . . . y oudi d! " It r yt ohel pherbat he Li sa: " j ustl eav emeal onepl easeIcanbat he my sel f " Me: " Ir eal l yam sor r ykhany a" Shei gnor emeassheat t endst oherhur twr i st s Iwal kout , Ical l dad " Son" Me: " heydad, howdoy oudo? " Ohy ouknowsameol d, j ustbusy , how' sy ou? " Me: " I ' m cool " " Youdon' tsoundcool . . . how' smydaught eri n l aw" Me( si ghs) : " she' sokayIguess" " Ohno. . . di dy ouj usthav esexwi t hher ? " Me: " y eah" " Andy ouwental l cr azyonher ? " Me: " y eah" " Howmanyt i mesdoIhav et ot el l y ou. . y ouneed t ost opwi t hy ouf i f t yshadesofgr eyshi t . . . di d y ouhur ther ? " Me: " y eahshe' shur t , It houghtIcoul dcont r ol i t " " Younev erl i st endoy ou, y oubet t erdoal l y ou cant omakeherf eel bet t erandt r usty ouagai n, causey oucan' taf f or dt ol ooset hatone" Me: " i fshel eav esy oucanal way sar r ange anot hergi r l ? " " NO!ThatGi r l i sv er yi mpor t ant !Youl ooseher y oul oosey ourl i f e, y ouhearme? " Me: " why ?Whyi sshesoi mpor t ant , shenotev en f r om ar i chf ami l y" " Youwoul dn' tunder st and, y ouj ustcont r ol y our emot i ons, don' tscar eherof f " Me: " ButdadI ' mi nl ov ewi t hher . . . . y ouknow whathappenedt hel astt i meIwasi nl ov e" " Gof ort her apyt r yt ocont r ol y our sel f " Me: " doy ouhav eany t hi ngon. . . uhm t heO' Br i en son? " " I ' v ebeent r y i ngt of i ndhi m sear chedl ef tr i ght andcent r e, i t ' sl i kehedi sappear edf r om t hef ace ofear t h, nowher et obef ound" Me: " y ouneedt of i ndhi m dad, andgetr i dofhi m f orgood, Li sai sst i l l cr azyi nl ov ewi t hhi m, do y ouknowhowmanyt i messhe' scal l ed me. . ( whi sper s) . . Qui nt on? . . .It ot al l yl oosei t whenshedoest hatandi tt akesawhol el oti n menott ohur ther " " Keepi tt hatway , j ustdoev er y t hi ngy oucant o keepherhappy , showerherwi t hgi f t sandl ot sof moneygi r l sl ov emoney , t r av el t hewor l d, di st r act her " Me: " t hat ' sagoodi dea. .Tr av el t hewor l d, shel l def i ni t el yl ov et hat " " Ohmyson. . If eel sor r yt haty ouact ual l yl ov e t hi sgi r l " Me: " why ? " " Not hi ng. . .Iwi shy ouwer en' tt hi sat t ached, y ou nev erknowi nt hi scr uel wor l di fsomet hi ng wer et ohappent oher . . . . " Me: " don' tsayt hat .Not hi ngwi l l happent o her . . I ' l l pr ot ecther . . noonewi l l t ouchher " "ofcause. . . . Ihav ebusi nesst ogetbackt o" Me: " y eahsur e. . . . . by e" Igobackt ot her oom If i ndherf astasl eepIsi t att heedgeoft hebedandl ookather . . . . she deser v esbet t er . . . . andIhav et obet hatbet t er . . I br ushherhai r Me: " Noonewi l l t akey ouawayf r om menow beaut i f ul . . .Youar emi ne, y oubel ongt ome, i t woul dn' tbesuchabadi deai fwej ustst ar ta f ami l yofourownr i ghtaway . . . Imeanwhatar e wewai t i ngf or ? . . Inot i ceapi nkbookunderherpi l l ow, t hat ' s showi ngabi t , Isl i pi touti tsay s" HAPPY18t h BI RTHDAYBUB"Iopeni tandi t sawhol el ot t a pi ct ur esofherandt hatni ggarQui nt on, my bl oodboi l s, It akei tandt hr owi ti nt hebi n, It ake t hebi nout si deandamat chIl i ti tupi nf i r e. . . Me: " I t sov erbet weeny ouandherBuddy , She' s mygi r l now, Mi ne! !Noonewi l l t akeheraway f r om me. . . She' l l l ear nt ol ov emeandmeal one j ustgi v ehersomet i me. . . You' l l see, she' l l l ov e me. . . shehast o! " Rangef i l l smeup, Iwanthi sbl ood, Iwantt oki l l hi m wi t hmyownbar ehand, LI SAKHANYAI S MI NE! . . . . [ 07/ 28, 23: 00]W: I nser t29 LI SA Iopenmyheav yey es, al l t hepai nf r om l astni ght comesback, mybodyi ssor eashel l , It hi nkhe r i ppedmypunani apar t , i t sst i l l bur ni ng.Ir each myhandundert hepi l l ow, Igetupandr emov e t hepi l l ow, st i l l not hi ng, IswearIpl acedi ther e l astni ght , If or cemyweakpai nf ul bodyupasI t akeof ft hebedsheet sandev er y t hi ng, Il i f tt he mat t r essupbuti t snott her e, Iopenmy pur se, not hi ng! Me: " OhmyGod!Wher edi dIputi t ? " Il i mpal l ov ert her oom l ooki ngf ori t , If eel t ear s t hr eat en, ohhIcan' tf i ndi t , If eel myhear tache. . I wasl ooki ngati tj usty est er day , wher ecoul di t be! ! Isayashor tpr ay er Me: " DearGodpl easehel pmef i ndi t . . Amen" It ur nt her oom upsi dedown " Looki ngf orsomet hi ng? " Ist ar t l e, It ur nsl owl yt ol ookathi m, he' sl eani ng ont hedoorf r amewi t haquest i oni ngl ookon hi sf ace Me: " uhm. . . Imi spl acedsomet hi ng" Lee: " whati si t . . . Icanhel py oul ookf ori t ? " Me: " Noi tf i nei t snott hati mpor t antany way " Lee: " ar ey ousur e?Yout ur nedt hewhol er oom upsi dedown. .I tmustbei mpor t ant" Me: " i t sj ustabook. . . I ' l l l ookf ori tl at er , l etmego getr eady " , Lee: " oh. . I ' l l t el l y oui fIseeabookl y i ngar ound somewher et hen" Me( f akesmi l es) : " Thanks" Lee: " Idon' tt hi nky oushoul dgot ocampus t oday . . . . y oust i l l i npai n" Me: " Noi t sf i ne. . Idon' twannaent er t ai ni t , t he mor eIi gnor ei tt hequi ckeri t ' l l heal " Hecomest owar dsmeImov ebackal i t t l et i l l he' sr i ghti nf r ontofme Lee: " Li sa, pl easey ouhav et of or gi v eme, Igot l osti nt hemoment , Inev ermeantt ohur ty ou" Me: " buty oudi d. . , y our apedme" At eardr opsf r om hi sey eashecupsmyf ace Lee: " i t snotl i ket hatLi sa. . . . Me( i nt er r upt s) : NoMncedi si , y ouhur tme, I shout edf ory out ost opIusedt hesaf e wor ds, i nst eady oust r angl edme! !Youwant ed t oki l l me! !YouCr azy ! !" It ur nandat t emptt owal kawaybuthepul l sme r oughl yt owar dshi m He' scr y i ngbuthei sf i l l edwi t hanger Lee( cal ml y ) : " I ' m notcr azy . . . .Don' ty ouev ercal l mecr azy , doy ouhearme? " Hei shol di ngmyar mt i ghthur t i ngi t Me: " y ouhur t i ngme" Lee: " Doweunder st andeachot her ! ? " Heshout s, st ar t l i ngme I ' m af r ai dt ousemywor dssoInod cont i nuousl y Hel etgoofmel i kehej ustgai nedbackhi s sensest hathewashur t i ngmej ustl i kel ast ni ght Lee: " y ouhav et ounder st andkhany a. . . . Il ov ey ou somuch, Idon' twantt ol oosey ou" Me: " Iunder st and, canIpl easegobat hnow? " Hesi ghs Lee: " comeher ef i r st " Hepul l smecl oserandhugsmet i ght , f earr i ses asIsayasi l entpr ay erf orhi m nott osqueeze al l myi nsi desout , hel et ' sgoandki ssesmy l i ps, If eel t heur get opuke. . . Ihat ehi m, he di sgust sme, Ipul l out Me: " wehav et obuyt hoseaf t erpi l l s, r emember ? " Lee: " ofcausedon' twor r yI ' l l gett hem" Me: " okay " Igof r eshenup, It r i edhur r y i ngupbutmyhands ar et ooweak, Iwonderi fI ' l l beabl et o wr i t e, t hosecuf f sr eal l ycutmebadl ywhenI t r i edt obr eakf r eeashewasst r angl i ngme. Iwi shIcoul dcal l Qui nt onandt el l hi m, buthe' s goneandev eni fhewasar oundI ' m sur ehe hat esmeany wayaf t ert hehar shwayIpushed hi m away , he' sdonesomuchf ormeandhewas wi l l i ngt odowaymor e, butIst i l l t hi nkImade t her i ghtchoi ce, Qui nt ondeser v esbet t ert han me, hedoesn' tneedal l t hi sdr amai nhi sl i f e whenhecanhav ewaybet t er , Enhl ewasr i ghtI am degr adi nghi mI ' m hol di nghi m back, l ook now, I ' v edr aggedhi sl i f ei nt osomuch danger , nowhehast ol i v eont her un, al l because ofmyst upi dl ov e! !Sel f i shl ov e! !Ihat emy sel f may beIdeser v eLi am, webot ht hesame, we sel f i shandev i l andwehur tot herpeopl e' s f eel i ngs, Iguesswehav esomet hi ngi n common. I ' m nowpi cki ngoutanout f i t , Iwor ndeni ml ong nav yj eans, i twasahust l et r y i ngt oputt hem on, I hadt obandagemyankl es, Iwor emybl ackl ong sl eev epol oneck, combedmyhai randl eti t l oose. Inot i cet hebal conydoori sopensoIcl ose i t , butIspott hebi n, whyi si ther e? If i ndhi m chi l l edatt hel ounge Me: " y oubur nti t ? " Hel ooksupatme Lee( i gnor i ngt hequest i on) : " f i nal l y , l et ' sget goi ng" Me: " howcoul dy oubur nmygi f tl i ket hat ? " Hewentoutt hedoorandwasr eadyt ocl ose Lee: " y oucomi ng?" Isi ghdef eat edandheadout , wedr i v et o campusi nsi l ence Lee: " l ookbabeI ' m sor r yabouty oual bum, butI f i gur edsi ncey oucuthi m of fy ourl i f ey ou shoul dcuthi m of fcompl et el y , y oudon' tneed hi spi ct ur es" Me: " t her ewasonl yaf ewofpi ct ur eswi t h hi m, coul dn' ty oubur nt hosei nst eadoft he whol et hi ng?" Lee: " t hatwhol ebookwi l l r emi ndy ouof hi m, causeI ' m sur ehet ookmostoft hose pi ct ur es. . . . .Babe, Idon' twantany t hi ngt hat connect sy out ot hatboyagai n, y ouneedt o f or getabouthi m, hecl ear l yhasf or got t enabout y ou, wher ev erhei sI ' m sur ehe' smov edon. . . i t s t i mey oudot hesame" Me: " y ouhadnor i ghtMncedi si , y ouhadnor i ght t obur nmygi f twi t houtt el l i ngme, t hat ' spur e ev i l whaty oudi dt her e, I ' l l nev erf or gi v ey ouf or t hat ! " Lee: " pl easedon' tr ai sey ourv oi ceatme sweet hear t , I ' m sor r y , t hatwaswr ongofme, I ' l l t r yt ot onedownt hej eal ousyabi t , okay ? " Ii gnor ehi m andl ookoutt hewi ndow Lee: " l etmemakei tupt oy ou, t oni ght , I ' l l t ake y ouwher ev ery ouwantt ogo, y oudon' thav et o cook" Me: " i t sf i neMncedi si , what sdonei sdone, y ou don' thav et omakeupf orany t hi ng" Thecarst ops, wef i nal l yi ncampus Lee: " Iwantt o. . . howmanycl assesdoy ouhav e t oday ? " Me: " f our " Lee: " okay , enj oyy ourday " Me: " ohno, wef or gott opasst hephar macy" Lee: " shi t . . . I ' l l goback, I ' l l t exty ouwhenIget backokay " Me: " okay , pl easet r yt ohur r y , Iwassupposedt o t akei tf i r stt hi ngi nt hemor ni ng" Lee: " I ' v ehear di t sst i l l ef f ect i v ebef or e72hour s pass" Me: " butt hesoonerIt akei tt hemor el i kel yi t wor ks" Lee: " whyy ousoaf r ai doff al l i ngpr egnant ?I meanwemar r i ednow, i sn' twhataf ami l yi s whatcomesnext ? " Me: " Yes, butnotnow" Lee: " okay " Hebr i ngshi sheadcl oser , Iguesst hi si st hepar t weshar eaki ss, Il eanf or war dandpeck hi m, t henheadoutandmakemywayt ocl ass. . I f i ndYonel awai t i ngf orme Yonel a: " f i nal l yy ouear l y " Me: " mx m, what ev er" Yonel a: " Yoh, what ' swi t ht hedar kcol our ed cl ot hes? " Me: " j usthav i ngadar kday " Yonel a: " wow, t hesuni ssobr i ghtandabout , y et y ousocov er ed" Me: " l et ' sj ustgot ocl ass" Yonel a: " Idi dn' tgetmyhug" Weshar eani cewar m hug, shesqueezesmeas herhandswer ear oundmyneck " Ahouch" Igr oanshel et ' sgoandl ooksatme Yonel a: " Idi dn' tev ensqueezey oumuch" Me: " ar ghIt hi nki t st hewayIsl ept , mynecki s ki l l i ngme" Yonel a: " aaw. . . l etmemassagey ou" " No! " Ihal fshoutasIhi therhandsof fme Yonel a: " y oh, sor r yf ort r y i ngt ohel p" If akeal augh Me: " l et ' sj ustgett ocl assal r eady" Wewentf r om cl asst ocl assMncedi si di dn' t showupwi t ht hepi l l s, I ' m get t i ngwor r i ed, Ican gobuyt hem butwhati fi t st ool at e, t hel ast t hi ngIwanti st ogetpr egnantf ort hatj er k, as t hedaywentbyt het emper at ur esr oset hesun wasbl azi nghotandIwasf eel i ngweak, hotand st r essed Yonel a: " Yohay i gi r l uy akwazshame, i l anga l i gqat sauboboy i apha, wenaunxi bei nt o ezi shushukanj e?Ur i ghtupst ai r sper haps? " ( Thesuni sbl azi nghotouther eandher ey ou ar edr essedal l war m. . ar ey ouokayupst ai r s per haps? ) Me: " If eel col d, pr obabl yget t i ngt hef l ue" Shel ooksatmef orawhi l e Yonel a: " don' tl i e, y ouev ensweat i ng, y ouf eel i ng hot , y ouj ustt el l met het r ut hnow" Thet r ut h?Ohi fIt el l y out het r ut hi t ' l l pr obabl y bet hel astwor dsy ouev erhearf r om me Me: " okayy oucaughtme. . . . . . Ican' tt akei tof f causeI ' m notwear i nganyv estunder neat h" Yonel a: " wowl i l l yy ousocar el ess. . " Il augh Me: " y eah. . . car el essme, r i ght " Ihi tmyf or ehead Hepi cksmeup Lee: " heybeaut i f ul " Heki ssesmycheek, Ial mostwi pei t Me: " hey " Hesi ghs Lee: " comeon. . howl ongwi l l y oust aymadat me? " Me: " y oudi dn' tcomewi t ht hepi l l s? " Lee: " shi t . . . whenIgott her ei twasst i l l ear l yt hey wer en' topeny et " Me: " wel l . . doy ouhav et hem now? " Lee: " y eah. . . y ou' l l t aket hem whenweget . . . Me: " NoI ' l l t aket hem now" Ist r et chmyhandt owar dshi m hej ustl ooksat i tt akesi tandki ssesi t Lee: " t hesehandswi l l hol dourbeaut i f ul ki ds someday" Me: " y eahsomeday . . . . butnotanyt i me soon. . now, t hepi l l spl ease? " Lee: " okay , If or gott obuyt hem. . . wecangoget t hem now" Me: " Dammi tMncedi si !I ' v ebeenr emi ndi ngy ou t hewhol emor ni ng, whyar ey oudoi ngt hi s!I t s nott hatIdon' twantt obar echi l dr enf ory oubut notnow" Lee: " whatar ewewai t i ngf orLi sa? " Ican' tbel i ev ehej ustaskedmet hat ? Me: " Iwantt of i ni shmydegr ee, getj ob, become somet hi ngI ' v eal way swant edt obecome, make money , buymymot herabi ghouseandmov e hert oabet t erenv i r onment , buyheracar , t r av el t hewor l d. . . t henmay beaf t eral l t hat , t henwecan st ar tt hi nki ngaboutki ds" Lee: " butIcandoal l t hatf ory ou, y oudon' tev en hav et ost r essy our sel fwi t hwor k, I ' l l buyy our mot herherdr eam homeandcar , I ' l l buyusabi g houseandasmanycar sasy ouwant , y oucan st i l l t r av el t hewor l d, I ' l l ev enbuyy ouy ourv er y ownpr i v at ej et . . . t her e' snot hi ngIwoul dn' tdof or y ouandmychi l dr en" Il ookathi mf ort hel ongestt i me. . hemustbe outhi sBDSM mi nd! Me: " y eahbutIwantt oal somakemyown money , andi t snotonl yaboutt hemoneyIwant t obeal awy er , Iwantt oexper i encet hat" Lee: " buty oucandot hataf t erweatl easthav e onechi l d, t heny oucangobackt oschool and hav eacar eer . . . causei fwet r ywhi l ey ou wor ki ngy ou' l l bet oobusyandt i r edt oev ent r y t omal ebabi es" That ' si tIgi v eup Me: " i t sonl ybeent womont hsandal r eadywe ar gui ngabouthav i ngki ds?Ay i comeonLi am gi v emeabr eak! " Hel ooksawayf r om meangr i l y Lee: " whycan' ty ouj ustl i st ent ome, l i kebef or e wegotmar r i ed, y ouwer esuchagoodgi r l , y ou l i st enedt oev er y t hi ngIt ol dy ou" Iwi shIdi dn' t Me: " l et ' sgogett hesepi l l snowandnev erhav e t hi sar gumentagai n, y oucan' tf or cemet oget pr egnant" Lee: " ohcan' tI ?" Il ookathi mi nt ot al shock, whatdi dhej ustsay Hechuckl es Lee: " I ' m ki ddi nggeez . . . . l ookbabe, Iunder st and, i t st oosoonf orbabi es, I ' l l wai tf ory ouunt i l y ou r eady " Isi gh, t hatwasnotf unny ! Me: " t hanky ou" Lee: " i t ' sj ustIt endt ogett ooexci t ed, whenI wantsomet hi ng, Iwanti ti mmedi at el y . . . .Buti f y ousayy ounotr eadyi t sokay " Me: " I ' m gl ady ouunder st and" Heki ssesmyhandandwedr i v eof fwemakea st opatt hephar macyandi nst eadIbuyt he emer gencypi l l , Icoul dseet hathei s di sappoi nt ed, he' l l sur v i v e.Het ookmet oani ce r est aur antandweenj oy edani cemeal , hewas j ustbei nghi msel f , t hecool , sweetandcut eguyI l i kedf r om t hebegi nni ng, Iwonderwhatwent wr ong?Doal l menchangeoncet heyget mar r i ed?Ori shet aki ngadv ant agecausehe knowsIcan' tdi v or cehi m ev eni fIt r i edbecause oft hest upi dcont r act ! Hei sopeni ngdoor sf ormeandbei ngal l ni ce. . . wenowatt heapar t ment Lee: " It hi nkweshoul dmov e, don' ty out hi nk? Me: " Il i kei ther e, butIguesswecoul dmov et oa pr operhouse" Lee: " nott hatIdon' thav et hemoneybutI ' m si ck andt i r edofpay i ngf orapl acet ost ay " Me: " Igety ou" Het hr owshi msel font hecouch Lee: " sot i r ed" Ipasshi m whenhegr absmebef or eIcango f ar , hepul l smeabi tr oughandIf al l ont opof hi m, wel augh Lee: " wat chwher ey ougoi ngKhany a" Heopenshi sl egsf ormet ol aybet ween t hem, wel ookateachot herf orawhi l e, hepul l s mei nf oraki ss, weki ssf orawhi l e, Ipul l outas l astni ght sev ent scomeback Me: " IIneedt ogof r eshenup" Het i ght enshi sgr i p Lee: " butIl i ket hi sposi t i on, cany ouf eel myhar d on? " Hesmi r ks, Il augh Me: " Li am. . . . I ' mt i r ed" Heki ssesmet henpul l sout Lee: " Iwon' thur ty out hi st i me" Me: " No, wenev erdoi ngt hatagai n, i fy ouwanna hav esex, we' l l doi tl i kenor mal peopl e" Hesi ghs Lee: " okayIwon' tt i ey ouupt hi st i me. . . " Me: " Nowei r dt hi ngs" Hei gnor esmepi cksmeupandweheadt ot he r oom, he' ski ssi sget t i nghungr i erandhi st ouch r ougher , It r yt opul l outbuthedoesn' tal l owme, Ipul l myf aceawayhar der Me: " Li am, pl ease, notl i ket hi s" Lee: " I ' l l begent l e" Het hr owsmeont hebedandr oughl yt akesof f mycl ot hes, It r yt ogetupbuthepushesme back Lee: " Li sa!Pl easedon' tmakeme angr y ! . . . ( cal ml y ) . . j ustbeagoodl i t t l egi r l andbe submi ssi v e. . okay ? " Ishakemyhead Me: " pl ease, Ibegy ou, pl easedon' tf or ce me. . . pl easehoney " Lee: " Idon' thav et of or cey oui fy ouj ustobey me" Hest r i ppedmenakedandhi msel f Tear sf al l f r om myey es Hegoest ot akehi sequi pment , Igetupandt r y t or unoutt her oom butIf ai l , hepi cksmeupand t hr owsmebackont hebed, Ist ar tcr y i ngand pl eadi ng Me: " pl ease, pl easedon' tdot hi s. . . . pl ease baby , don' ty oul ov eme? " Lee: " Il ov ey oubabe, don' ty oul ov eme? " Me: " Ido" Lee: " y oudowhat ? " Me: " Idol ov ey ou" Lee: " t henl etmemakel ov et oy ou" Me: " okayokay , butpl easecanwenot . . . . Lee: " i fy oul ov emewe' l l doi tmyway " Me: " NO! !St ayAwayf r om me!Hel p! ! " Hel aughsnextt hi ngIknowmycheeki sheat ed up, hej ustgav emeahotsl ap, Ibur sti nt oal oud cr y Lee: " ShutUp!Whyar ey oumaki ngt hi ngs di f f i cul tf ory our sel f ? !Youmywi f e, whenIwant pussyIshoul dgetpussy. . . under st ood! ?" Me( cr y i ng) : " pl ease. . . pl ease. . pl ease. . . don' tdo t hi s" Lee: " y out al kt oomuch, t hat ' sy ourpr obl em, I hav easol ut i on" Het akesouthi sheadhar ness, heputi tonmy headi thasabal l gagheopensmymout hand shov est hebal l i nmymout h Lee: " t hi swi l l shuty ouup" Hel ockst hehar ness, It r yt or emov ei tbuti t s l ockedIcan' tt al kcauseoft hebi gbal l i nmy mout h " Mmmhmmmhhhh! ! ! ! " It r yt oscr eam, t hehar nessi shur t i ngmyf ace het i edi tt oot i ght Het akesoutabodyst r ap, heget sont opofme andst ar t swr appi ngi tar oundmywhol ebody f r om neckdownt ol egs keepi ngmybodyst r ai ghtasar ul er , het i esmy handsatmyback, Ican' tmov eanypar tofmy bodyexceptmykneeswhi chcanpar t . Lee: " t hi swoul dber eal l yf uni fy oucoul d' v ej ust par t i ci pat ed. . . ImeanIt ooky ououtt oani ce di nner , Iwasbei ngagent l emanbuty oucan' tdo t hi sonet hi ngf orme? . . . t hat ' sabi tunf ai r . .Don' t y out hi nk? " Al l Icandonowi scr y , I ' m st uckwi t ht hedev i l hi msel f , Iwi shhecoul dki l l meoncehe' sdone wi t hme, Idon' twannacont i nuel i v i ngl i ket hi s, I hat emyf at her , Ihat emygr andmaf oral l owi ng myf at hert oagr eet oal l t hi s, Ihat emy sel f ! Hef l i psmear oundandbangsmydogst y l e pul l i ngmyhai rr oughl y Icr yasl oudasIcanasIf eel al l ki ndsofpai n t hr oughoutmyent i r ebody I t sbeenhour s, t heamountofpai nIf el t If eel l i kemysoul hasbeencr ushed, i thasl ef t mybody Ist oppedcr y i ngIwasnownumb " Aaahhy eah! " Her el easesonceagai n t hencol l apsesonmewhi l ei nbet weenmyl egs [ 07/ 28, 23: 00]W: I nser t30 LI SA TWOMONTHSLATER . . . Nev eri nmyl i f ehav eIt houghtI ' dexper i ence abuse, Igr ewupi nal ov i ngwar mf ami l y , my f ami l yl ov edmeuncondi t i onal l yal t houghwe wer epoor , t her e' snot hi ngt heywoul dn' tdof or meIwasahappysoul , t hent her ewasmybest f r i endYonel awhowasoneoft hebestf r i ends agi r l canaskf or , l at eronImett hi shandsome pr i ncechar mi ngwhowasmyKni ghtand shi ni ngar mor , t heonl yt hi nghe' sev ershown mewasl ov e, ki ndnessandpr ot ect i on, hewas ev enwi l l i ngt odi ef ormehemademe happy , di dn' tshowermewi t hmoneyort akeme t oexpensi v er est aur ant sbuthegav emehi s hear twhi chwaswor t hmor e, wher ear eal l t hese peopl enow?Ihav enooneIwast hr owni nt he l i on' sden. . . Ihav egi v enupi nt r y i ngt oget my sel foutoft hi smar r i age, i t susel essev eni fI dof i ndev i denceIcan' taf f or dal awy er , I ' v ebeen st ay i ngi ndoor sasmuchaspossi bl ebecause ofmymessedupbody . . I ' v ebecomehi ssex sl av e, t hewor stpar ti st hati t sl i kehewas possessedcausewhenhe' si nhi sr i ghtmi nd, he becomest hi sl ov i ngcar i nggent l eman, hegoes outofhi swayt oapol ogi ze, l i ket odayhe' s st ar t i ngt her apy , butt hi sdoesn' tmakeupf or any t hi ngcauseIknowt oni ghthe' l l becomet he possessedmonst eragai n. I t sbeensi xmont hsnow, andst i l l nosi gnof Qui nt on, I ' mr eal l ywor r i edabouthi m, wher ei s he?I shedead?I sheal i v e?i fhei s, wher ei she st ay i ng?I shesaf e?Whatdoesheeat ?Wher e doeshesl eep?I shecomf or t abl e?I shehappy ? Whati shedoi ng?Wi t hwho?Imi sshi m Ineed hi m Ineedhi scomf or t i ngwor dshi swar m and saf eembr ace, Imi sshi sf i ct i onst or i es, hi s f unnysel f , Iev enmi sshi sbi gEgo. . . . . . . . . . Me: " l et ' sr unaway . . . we' l l gof arf arawayand st ar tanewl i f et her e" Qui nt on: " whataboutschool ? " Me: " I ' l l qui tandgetaj ob, l ot sofpeopl ecan makeal i v i ngwi t houteducat i on, atl eatIgot mat r i c" hej ustsmi l esl ooki ngatme Me: " IknowI ' m bei ngnai v e. .butIj ustwi sht o getawayf r om al l oft hi s" Qui nt on: " Il ov ey oubub" Me: " Il ov ey oumor e" Hepr esseshi swar m sof tl i psonmi nebutnot ki ssi ngme, west ayl i ket hatf orsomet i me, i t s l i kehewaspour i nghi shear toutt omewi t hout Usi ngwor dsj usthi shear tbeatandbr eat hi ng sai di tal l . . . . . . Me: " whatI ' m say i ngi s, st i ckt opr ay erQui nt onI knowy ounotast r ongbel i ev erbutpl easekeep i nf ai t h, Godi st heanswer , t el l y ou what , ev er y daywhenwewakeupandbef or ewe sl eepwewi l l pr ayt oget herf ory ourmot her ' s heal t hf orhert obeheal ed. . . okay ? " Hesmi l esandwi pesmyt ear s Qui nt on: " andal sof ory ourgr andmot hert oo, i f y oubel i ev eGodcanheal mymom t henIbel i ev e hecanheal y ourgr andmot hert oo" . . . . . . . Qui nt on: " f i r st l y . .It hi nkIshoul dsayt hanky ou" Ir ai semybr owsamused Me: " f or ? " Qui nt on: " f ort r ust i ngmeandgi v i ngmey our v i r gi ni t y " . . . . . . . Me: " so?Wi l l y oudoi t ?" Qui nt on: " whati si tf i r st ? " Me: " no! mat t erwhati ti s, y ouhav et odoi tcause y oupr omi sedme. . . . r emember ?Orshoul dIgo t akemyphone? " Qui nt on: " okayf i ne. . . j ustspi ti toutal r eady" Isi gh Me: " wi l l y oubemyboy f r i end?Andwi l l y ou mar r yme? " Hi sey espopout Qui nt on: " Saywhat ? " . . . . . . " Heeywhat swr ongbabe? " Ist ar t l eatt hesoundofhi sv oi ce, br i ngi ngme backt oear t h Me( chuckl es) : " ohnot hi ng, whywoul dany t hi ng bewr ong? " Lee: " causey oucr y i ng" Iqui ckl ywi pemyt ear saway Me: " Idi dn' tr eal i se, j usthav eal otonmymi nd" Lee: " l i kewhat ? " Isni f f Me: " IIj ustmi ssgr amssomuch" Lee: " aawmybaby . .Iknowhowi thur t st ol oose someoney oul ov e" , Hepul l smet ohi sembr acehur t i ngmyf r esh br ui ses Me: " hl l i ouch! " Hel et ' sgo Lee: " I ' m sosor r y . . . oh, t hi si sal l mydoi ng" Hecar essesmypur pl eneck Me: " ouch" Hest opshebur i eshi sf acei nhi shands Lee: " I ' m somessedup, howcoul dIdot hi st o y ou. . . Il ov ey ousomuchy etI ' m hur t i ngy ouso much, whatki ndofmonst eram I?Pl ease f or gi v emeLi sa" Don' tl ethi mf ool y ou, t hi si st hesameper son who' sbeenapol ogi si ngev er y dayy etatni ghthe r apesy oul i kenobody ' sbusi ness Me: " i t sokayLi am, atl easty ougoi ngf ort her apy t oday , may bei t ' l l hel py ou. . .AndI ' l l ber i ght her e, suppor t i ngy ou, ev er yst epoft heway " Hel ooksatmewi t ht ear yey es Lee: " r eal l y ?" Inod Lee: " y ousoki ndkhany a, t hanky ouf ornotgi v i ng uponme" Ihat ehowhemakesi tsoundl i keIhav ea choi ce, ev eni fIr epor tt hi sguyhewon' tgot o j ai l he' l l j ustgot oament al house, st ayaf ew mont hscausehe' ssodamngoodi npr et endi ng asi fnot hi ngi swr ongwi t hhi m, t henhe' l l be backt of i ni shmeof f , andt hel awwi l l nothel p mewi t hdi v or cesi ncei twasagr eedt hr ought he l awt hatIbel ongt ot hem, soei t herwayI ' m st uck. .Hesay sonceI ' m donewi t ht hi sy earI ' m notgoi ngbackt ost udynexty ear , somydr eams ofbecomi ngal awy erandf i ght i ngf orj ust i ce ar eal l gone! Me: " wel l Iam y ourwi f eandi t smydut yt ost i ck besi dey oui nsi cknessandi nheal t h. . . t i l l . . t i l l deat h. . . douspar t " Hesmi l eandcupsmyf acewel ookdeepi nt o eachot her ' sey es, r i ghtnowi tl i ket hemonst er t hatcomesoutatni ghtdoesn' texi st , hi sey es ar ef ul l ofl ov e, l i kehe' ddoany t hi ngf orme. . . he' s ey es. . . man!Theygetmeev er yt i me Lee: " y ouanangel , Idon' tknowwhatI ' dbe wi t houty ou" Hebr usheshi sl i psonmi nebef or eki ssi ngme, I pul l outaf t erawhi l e Lee: " i t sabeaut i f ul dayt oday , y oushoul dgoout " Whatdi dhej ustsay ! ?Henev eral l owsmet ogo out Me: " what ? " Lee: " IknowI ' v ebeenst r i ctabouty oubei ng out door sbuty ou' v ebeensuchagoodgi r l l at el y , y ouhav et ogetar ewar df ort hat" Wel l Idon' tf i ghthi m atni ghtany mor e, Iev en gett heequi pmentmy sel f , It r yt opar t i ci pat eso t hathel et ' smeuset hesaf ewor dsbut somet i meshedoesn' tl i st ent ot hem, speci al l yi f he' si nabadmoodl i kel astni ght .Ist i l l wonder howam Ist i l l br eat hi ng? Me: " whoa!Real l y ?Oht hanky ou" Ir eal l ydon' twantt ogoout , buti fIr ef usehi s r ewar ds, hemi ghtev enst opmef r om goi ngt o school compl et el y Lee: " y oudeser v ei t , I ' l l begoi ngt omyf i r st appoi nt ment , j ustmakesur ey oucov ery our sel f up, andweart hosesungl assesIbought y ou, y ourey ei sst i l l abi tmessedup, t r yt oput mor emakeupokay " Inod Me: " y eahIwi l l " Heki ssesmycheekt henget sup Lee: " I ' l l t r ansf ery out hemoneyy ou' l l need. . . her e' ssomecashf ort heuber " Hegi v esmeR500t oomuchbutIdon' t compl ai n Lee: " whi chr emi ndsme, Ishoul dgety out hek53 soy oucanst ar tst udy i ngf ory ourl ear ner s, y ou mi ghtbeget t i ngacarsoon" If l ashabi gsmi l e Me: " okay ! " Hewi nksatmet heheadsout Ibr eat houtasi fI ' v ebeenhol di ngmybr eat he. . I getupandl i mpt ot hebat hr oom, Ist r i pnaked andl ookatmy sel font hemi r r or , mynecki st he wor st , i t ' sev enpur pl e, Idon' tev enwanna ment i onmyt ummy , ar ms, chestandl egs, t hey hav est r apdar kl i nes. . . . hedoesn' tdomucht o myf ace, j ustl astni ghthewasr eal l ymad, I ki ndar ai sedmyv oi ceathi m, Idon' tknowwhatI wast hi nki ng, IguessIwassi ckandt i r ed, he punchedmeandl ef tmewi t habl ueey eand swol l enl i p, butIputsomei cesoi t snotswol l en any mor e.It i emyhai rup, wi pemyt ear st hen headi nsi det heshower , It akemyownsweet t i measIwashmysor esel f , Idon' tev enwantt o l ookatmypussy , j ustt het houghtmakesme wannapuke, Ial way sspendmostofmyt i me scr ubbi ngi t . Af t erdr essi ngmysel fupandcov er i ngev er y par t , Iappl ysomemakeup, i tdoesn' tcompl et el y cov ert hebl ueey et hough, Ial sopowdermy neck, i t st hemostpai nf ul par t .Iwr apascar f ar oundi tl etmyl onghai rl ooseandputont he shadesandappl i edSomel i pst i ck, t henheadout , t heubert akesmet ot hemal l . MrJohnsonhasbeenaski ngmewei r d quest i onsaboutmyf at her , l i kewher edi dhe wor k, asi fhedoesn' tknow, andwhatpr eci ous gi f thashegi v enme. . .It hi nkheknowsabout t hedi amondsbutI ' m notaboutt osl i pt hatout . Thewor stpar ti sIt hi nkIhav east al kerandhe knowsaboutt hedi amonds, hewant st hem, he st ar t edcal l i ngmef r om t woday sago, I ' mr eal l y scar edIdon' tknowwhatt odo, Ican' tt el l t he pol i cet hey ' l l j ustaskmeaboutt hedi amonds andmor epeopl ewi l l knowaboutt hem, Ican' t t el l Mncedi si causeI ' m notsur ewhet herhi s f ami l yi saf t ert hem ornot , andi fIgetr i dof t hem I ' l l beki l l ed. . sot hat ' sanot herr easonI shoul dbei ndoor sr i ghtnow Hedr opsmeatt hemal l Ipayt henmakemy wayi n. . Ikeepl ooki ngbehi ndme, If eel l i ket her e' s peopl ewat chi ngme, peopl emustt hi nkI ' m cr azy , Il ookl i kesomecel ebr i t yhi di ngher sel f f r om papar azzi , orl i kesomecr azyst al ker , wi t h mydar kcl ot hesandscar f sandShadesi nt hi s war m weat her . Imakemywayi nPi cknPay Ishopar ound, buy i ngany t hi ngt hatl ooksgood Myphonev i br at es, It akei toutf r om mypocket I t sanot i f i cat i ont hatR7000hasbeen t r ansf er r edi nt omyaccount . .Andamessage f r om anunknownnumberIopeni tandseet he shockofmyl i f e " I ' m wat chi ngy ou, Pi cknPaynotv er yf ancyf or abeaut i f ul l adyl i key ou. . . . Tel l mewher et hey ar eandy oumi ghtgethomesaf el y " Ipani ckasIl ookar oundt oseewhomi ghtbe l ooki ngatme, noonei sev enpay i ngat t ent i ont o me, It hi nkI ' m gonnashi tmypant st hewayI ' m f r eaki ngout !Il eav et het r ol l eyandmakemy wayout , Iwonderar oundt hemal l , scar edt ogo backhome Il ookupandmyey esmeett hebi ggestshock ofmyl i f e, t heywal kcl osert heybot hcan' tsee me. . . Hel ooksper f ect l yf i ne, andheal t hy Me( whi sper s) : " Qui nt on? " Theygetev encl oser , hi sey esl i f tupandt hey meetmi ne, hemov est hem awayandcar r i eson wal ki ngpastmeasi fhedi dn' tr ecogni seme? He' swal ki ngwi t hBr andon Whendi dhegetback? Di dhenotr ecogni seme? May bei t sbecauseofal l t hecov er i ngI ' v e done. . butf orasecondt her ewhenhel ookedat me, i t sl i keheknewi twasme. . . am I hal l uci nat i ng? Ibr ushi tof fassoonast heyt akeat ur nand di sappear , Icar r yonwi t hmywayt o. . Idon' t knowwher e. . t hatcan' tbehi m, hewoul d' v et ol d mewhenhe' sback, Af t erhour s, Ical l anubert o t akemehome, Ibl endi nwi t habunchofguy sI don' tknowasImakemywayout , andIspott he uberi mmedi at el yImakear unt oi t , It el l hi mt o dr opmeof fatQui nt on' sapar t ment . Iknocknooneopens, Iknockagai n, t hedoor opensandav er ypr egnantr eadyt opop, y oung beaut i f ul l adyopens Her : " hey , canIhel py ou? " . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 28, 23: 00]W: Cont i nuat i on LI SA Myhear tbr eaksi nt oami l l i onpi ecesasmy ey esar est uckst ar r i ngatherbi gt ummywhi ch canbur stany t i me, t el l meI ' m hav i ngoneofmy ni ght mar espl ease!It hi nkI ' m gonnahav ea hear tat t ack " Hel l o?Ar ey ouokay ? " Il ookupather , she' sabeaut y , ni cesmoot h car amel ski n, bi gbl ueamberey esandpal my smal l l i ps Her : " y oudon' tl ookgood, pl easecomei n" Shemakeswayf ormeIgeti nsi de, Il ookar ound andev er y t hi nghaschanged, i t ' snott hewayi t usedt obe, i t smor ef ancy , t hef r i dgei st wo door snow, shel eadsmet ot hesi t t i ngr oom andmakesmesi ti nt hebeaut i f ul couches, not t hesmal l uncomf or t abl eonest hatwehad, t her e' snotev enonet hi ngt hatusedt obe her e, ev er y t hi nghascompl et el ychanged. Her : " sowoul dy oul i kesomet hi ngt odr i nk? " Ohmygoshshe' ssoki nd, I ' m at ot al st r anger y etshe' sof f er i ngmesomet hi ngt odr i nk?No wonderQui nt onknockedherup Inod Me: " y espl ease, acol dgl assofwat erwi l l do" Shegi v esmeawar m smi l eandwal ksi nt ot he ki t chen, t henwal ksback Her : " t her ey ougo" It akeasi pmor el i kegul pdownt hewat eri n onego, wesi tonsi l encef orabi t Her : " socanIhel py ou?" Me: " Yes. . uhm mynamei sLi sa" Her : " ohmynamei sI sabel l e, buty oucancal l mebel l a" Inot i cear i ngonherf i ngerandIf eel l i ke br eaki ngdownt hati nst ant Me: " y ou. . y oumar r i ed? " Shesmi l es Bel l a: " noty et , weengaged" I t sl i keshej ustst abbedmest r ai ghti nt hehear t Me: " oh. . . I ' m act ual l yher et oseey ourf i ancé" Shel ooksatmeper pl exed Bel l a: " Oh?Howt oy ouknowhi m? " Weusedt obemadl yi nl ov e. . butI ' m notabout t osayt hat Me: " he' sanol df r i end, usedt obemyr oommat e " Bel l a: " oh?Ll oy dhasnev erment i onedany t hi ng abouthav i ngaf emal er oommat ei nt hepast " Me: " uhm Ll oy d?" Bel l a: " y eahmyf i ancé" OkayI ' m conf used Me: " y ourf i ancé' snamei sLl oy d?" Bel l a: " y es" Me: " Ohsowher e' sQui nt on?" Wel ookateachot herper pl exed Bel l a: " Qui nt on? " May behechangedhi snamecauseoft he peopl eaf t erhi m Me: " y eah, l i ghtski nneddude, t al l nott oot al l , pi nk l i ps, col our f ul ey es, shor tcur l yhai r , doesn' tsmi l e al ot , hest ay sher e? " Shesmi l esandr ai sesherbr ows Bel l a: " ooohh. . y oumeant heguyt hatusedt o st ayher e? " Me: " usedt o? " Bel l a: " y eah, hesol dt hi shouset ous, wej ust mov edi nher et woweeksago" Isi ghi nr el i ef Me: " oh. . t hankgoodness" Shechuckl es Bel l a: " t hankgoodnessy ouwer en' tl ooki ngf or myl ov e" Webur sti nt ol aught er Me: " doy ouknowwher ehemov edt o? " Bel l a: " I ' m notsur e, butIknowhemov edt o West cl i f f , i nt her i chersubur bsi nSandt on, he boughtabi ghouse, damnt heguymustbe l oaded, Imeant ol i v ei npl acesl i ket hatst ar t s f r om somewher ei nt heR11. 5mi l l i ons" Me: " Wow. . . uhm, doy ouknowwhi chst r eethe l i v esi n? " Shet hi nksf orawhi l e Bel l a: " I ' l l ber i ghtback" Shest andsupst r uggl i ngabi tanddi sappear s t ot her oom t hencomesbackwi t hapaperand pen Shesi t sdownandwr i t est henameoft hest r eet andaddr ess Bel l a: " l uckyf ory ouhet ol duswher ehe st ay s, j ustsoi fweexper i enceanypr obl ems wi t ht hehouseweknowwher ehel i v esandhow t ocont acthi m. . v er yki ndandgener oussoul he i s" Hei si ndeedsheal sowr ot ehi scel l number t henhandsmet hepaper Me: " t hanky ouv er ymuch, t hi smeanssomuch t ome" Bel l a: " y ouv er ywel come, Idon' tmeant obe nosey , butdoy ouandy ourr oommat eshar e mor et hanj ustbei ngr oommat es? Il aughal i t t l e Me: "y eah. . weshar edawhol el otmor e" Bel l a: " andwasl ov eoneoft hem? " Me: " l ov ewasmostoft hem" Shesmi l es Bel l a: " I ' m guessi ngi t sbeenawhi l esi ncey ' al l t al kedandy ouwanthi m back? " Me: " i si tt hatobv i ous?" Shel aughs Bel l a: " wel l i nt hatcase. .Gogety ourmangi r l ! " Ibur sti nt ol aught erbutst opsasIf eel mybody achi ng Bel l a: " ar ey ouokay ? " Me: " y eahI ' mf i ne" Bel l a: " I ' m nof ashi onexper tbut , coat ?Scar f ? Shades? . . ar ey ousur ey ouokay ? " Me: " I ' mf i neBel l a. . t hanksf ort hehel p, l etmeget goi ng" Shel ooksatmewi t hpi t y Bel l a: " l ookI ' m aPsy chi at r i st , Iknowt hat doesn' tgi v emet her i ghtt oj udgebutpl easei f y ouneedsomeonet ot al kt o, pl easecont act me" Shegr abst hepaperi nmyhandandwr i t esher numberoni t Bel l a: " wheny oudeci dey our eadyt ot al kt o someone" Sheshakesheheadasi fshe' sj usteat en somet hi ngsour Bel l a: " y oui ngr eatdanger , t her e' sabi gst or m comi ngy ourwayandi tdoesn' tl ookl i key ou' l l makei t " Whatt hehel l i sgoi ngon?Howdi dshe?Whoi s t hi sper son? Me: " excuseme? " Bel l a: " I ' m sor r yIdi dn' tmeant oscar ey ou, buti f y oudon' tconv i ncey ourr oommat et ohel p y ou, y ounotgoi ngt omakei tt hr ought hest or m" Me: " whatar ey ou? " Bel l a: " I ' m gi f t ed. . l ookal otofdangeri scomi ng y ourway , andIseebl oodi ny ourhands" Me: " whatar ey ousay i ng?Am Igoi ngt oki l l someone" Bel l a: " myv i si onscansomet i meschange, butI seebl oodi ny ourhands, i twon' tbeeasyf ory ou t oconv i ncey ourr oommat et ohel py ou, hi s hear ti sst i l l shat t er edbyt hedeci si onsy ou made, buti fhel ov esy ouhe' l l f or gi v ey ou" Me: " oh. . . " Shesmi l es Bel l a: " goonnow, hur r y " Me: " t hanky ou" Iwal kt owar dst hedoor Bel l a: " Li sa" Il ookback Bel l a: " becar ef ul " Ismi l eandnod OhdearGodt hi si samess, wi l l myl i f egetany mor ecompl i cat ed Iaskedt heubert ot akemet ot headdr esst hi s womangav eme Wepar kedi nf r ontofav er ybi ghouse Iaskedt hedr i v ert owai tunt i l I ' mi nsi dehe agr eed Ipr esst hebuzzerandIhearhi sv oi ceIal most f ai nt " Hel l o? " Mykneesbecomeweakandmyhear t beati s r eadyt opopout , Idon' tknowwhet heri t sf earor exci t ement , It hi nkabi tofbot h Me: " hhheyi t sme" I tgoesqui etIhearhi m si ghanddr opst he cal l , af t eraf ewl ongmi nut esIgi v eup, hehasn' t openedt hegat e, Iguesshedoesn' twannasee me, Idon' tbl amehi m, at eardr opsf r om my ey e, Bef or et ur ni ngmybackandwal ki ngback t owar dst hecarasIopent hedoor , Iheart he gat eopen, It ur nandwal kbacki nsi de, Ican' t hel pbutl ookar ound, i t ssobeaut i f ul , al most bet t ert hanhi shome, andIt houghti tdoesn' tget bet t ert hant hat . If i nal l ygett ot hedoor , Iknock, andknockagai n buthedoesn' topen Hef i nal l yopensaf t erawhi l e Ourey esl ockhel ooksatmeupanddown scanni ngme, myt ummymakesbubbl ysounds asIf eel t hebut t er f l i es, If eel at i ngl eandi t ch comi ngf r om downt her e, whoai t sbeenawhi l e si ncet hat ' shappened, If eel l i kej umpi ngonhi m soIcanf eel hi sst r ongar msar oundme, he' s shi r t l essonl yhasat owel wr appedr oundhi s wai st , showi ngof fhi st anmascul i net or soandV l i newi t hni cel yst ackedpacks, i t sl i kehe' s got t enbuf f er , he' sdef i ni t el ybeenwor ki ngout Qui nt on: " canIhel py ou? " Oucht hathi thome Me: " mayIcomei n? " Hel ooksatmef orawhi l et henmakeswayf or me, ohmywor dIf eel l i keIhav eent er edr oy al t y , hel eadsmet ot hel ounge Isi tdownl ooki ngar ound Qui nt on: " gi v emeaf ew, Ihav et ogetdr essed" Pl easedo!Bef or eIl oosemysenses Me: " ofcause" Hewal ksupst ai r s Wowhedi sappear st hencomesbackr i cher t hanbi l l gat es, IknowIshoul dst ayawayf r om hi m, I ' v eal r eadycausehi m al otofpai nand gr eatdanger , butIneedsomecl osur e, wher e washeandwhathashebeendoi ng, di dheget shott hatdayoft heweddi ng, whathappened t hatday ? Hecomesbackdr essedi nshor t sandal i ght t ankt opst i l l exposi nghi sbody , i shedoi ngt hi s onpur pose?Doeshehav et ol ookt hi s handsome? Hesi t sdownonacouchopposi t eme, hel ooks atme, i t sasi ft hatcar eandl ov ehehadhas gone, l i kehedoesn' tev enr ecogni seme Qui nt on: " canIhel py ou? " Icl earmyt hr oatandswal l owt hebi gl ump Me: " i t sme" Her ai seshi sbr owsasi fhe' l l say" andt hen? " Me: " Li sakhany aMt het hwaf r om Mt hat ha. . . Iwas oncey ourr oommat eandbestf r i end?" Her ai seshi sonebr ow Qui nt on: " Iknowwhoy ouar e" Isi ghi nr el i efhol di ngmychest Forasecondt her eIt houghthel osthi smemor y Me: " ohQui nt onpl easedon' tscar emel i ket hat " Hel ooksatmewi t hast r ai ghtf aceasi fhe' l l say" gett ot hepoi ntal r eady ! " Me: " uhm howar ey ou?" Qui nt on: " I ' m good" Icanseet hat Me: " so. . whendi dy ougetback? " Qui nt on: " f r om? " OhIdon' tknow!Thedead? Me: " wher ev ery ouwer ef ort hepastsi xmont hs" Qui nt on: " Idon' tseehowt hatconcer nsy ou? " Mymout hopensandcl osesagai nt ot al l yhur t byhi swor ds Me: " uhm. . . Iseey ousol dourapar t ment" Qui nt on: " y oumeanmyapar t ment " Ouchhe' sbei ngpur ecol d, IguessIdeser v e t hat Me: " Imi ssedy ou" Qui nt on: " whyar ey ouher e? " Me: " IIIdon' tknow. .IguessIt houghtIwas i magi ni ngt hi ngswhenIsawy ouatt hemal l ear l i er , andIwant edt omakesur eIwasn' t i magi ni ng" Qui nt on: " wel l . . y ouwer en' t . . . ( si ghs) . . l ookt her e' s somewher eIneedt obe, i fy oudon' tmi nd" Me( whi sper s) : " Qui nt on. . .Pl ease, don' tbel i ke t hi s. . I ' mr eal l ysor r yaboutwhathappenedt hat dayoft heweddi ng, Idi dn' tknowt heywer e goi ngt ot r yshooty ou" Hel ooksatmechuckl est henshakeshi shead Qui nt on: " i st hatwhaty ousor r yabout ?" Me; " andal otmor eQui nt on. . . . I ' m sor r yf ornot bel i ev i ngi ny ouwheny ousai dy ou' dpr ot ect me, wheny ousai dy ouwoul dn' tgi v eupon me, I ' m sor r yf orpushi ngy ouaway , f orhur t i ng y ourf eel i ngs, f ormaki ngy oucr y , f oral most get t i ngy ouki l l ed, mostofal l I ' m sor r yy ouhad t osav emyl i f ef r om t hev er yf i r stdayy oumet me, f orhel pi ngmeandt aki ngmei nand br i ngi ngmecl oset oy ourhear t , notknowi ng t hatont hatdayy ouwer ewel comi nga cur se, gr eatdangert owar dsy ou, notknowi ng howt oxi candcompl i cat edI ' dmakey our l i f e. . . . I ' m sosor r yQui nt on, I ' m sor r yIev ermet y ou" If eel war ml i qui donmycheeksIwi pet hem t henf i xmyshades Hel ooksatmecar ef ul l ywi t hhur twr i t t enal l ov erhi sf ace Qui nt on: " y ouwer enocur se, i twasnev ert oxi c orcompl i cat ed, Iwant edt opr ot ecty ouf r om dangery oudon' thav et obesor r yaboutt hat , i t s whatIdof orpeopl eIl ov e. . . buty ouhur tme Li sa, al otofpeopl ehav ehur tmei nmyl i f ebut noonehasev erhur tmet hewayy ouhur t me, t her e' snot hi ngIdi dn' tdot oshowy ouhow muchy oumeant ome, Iev enpr ay edt oGodt o br i ngy oubackt ome, Iseekedf oradv i ce, Idi d ev er y t hi ngIcoul dIputi nal l myef f or t s. . .But whatdi dy oudo?. . . . y oushov edi tr i ghtbackat myf ace, t henspi t t edoni t , t hat ' swhaty oudi d" Myhear tbr eaksi nt oami l l i onpi eces Igotdownonmyknees Me( poi gnant l y ) : " pl easef or gi v emeQui nt on. . . Youdon' thav et ocomebackt opr ot ectmeor l ov emeany mor e, j ustpl easef or gi v eme" Hewi pehi snosel ooksdownandpr esseshi s ey eswi t hhi sf i nger sasi fhe' shol di ngback t ear sheshakeshi sheadt henl ooksbackat me, t ear sescapehi sey es Qui nt on: " If or gi v ey ouLi sa, I ' v el ongf or gi v en y ou. . . . i t ssadwecan' tbet oget herany mor e. . " Me: " y oudeser v ebet t erQ. . . wewer enot dest i ned" Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " don' tsayi tl i ket hat " Me: " i t st r ue, I ' m ev i l , It houghtIwaspr ot ect i ng y ou. . . act ual l yno, Iwaspr ot ect i ngy ou. .And br eaki ngy ourhear twast heonl yway . . . t hey wer egoi ngt oki l l y ouQui nt on, Ihear dt hem t al ki ngandt heywer epl anni ngonki l l i ng, becauseofme, soIhadt obr eakupwi t hy ouso t hatt heyl eav ey oual one. . butt heydi dn' t , nowI f el tl i keIbr okey ourheatf ornot hi ng" Qui nt on: " Dammi tLi sakhany a! !Hav eIev er askedf ory ourpr ot ect i on! ?Ther e' sawhol e l ot t apeopl ewho' v ebeenaf t ermewayl ong bef or ey oucamei nt omyl i f e, awhol el ot t a peopl eoutt her ewantmybl ood, butl ookatme I ' m st i l l her e, Icanpr ot ectmy sel f . . Iwasy our man, y oushoul d' v el ef tt hepr ot ect i ngt ome!I knewt heywant edmedead!Theynott hef i r st danger ouspeopl et owantmegone. . . whatpar t ofDI EFORYOUdi dn' ty ouunder st and! ! ? " Il ookathi sf i er cef acei nt ot al shock, myhear t beat si nagonyagai nstmyr i bcage. . . af t era shor twhi l eofsi l enceIbur sti nt ot hel oudestcr y ev erandl eti tal l outwhi l ehol di ngmymout h hur tbyt hest upi dchoi cesImade Hedoesn' tcomf or tmei nst eadhesi t st her e wat chi ngmecr yast ear sar er ol l i ngdownhi s f acey etnotmaki ngasi ngl esound Me( cr y i ng) : " I ' m. . . . . I ' m sosor r y . . . Inev ermeant t ohur ty ou. . I ' m sosososor r y ! ! ! " Qui nt on: " cal m downLi sa" It r yt ocal m my sel fdown, t heshadesar e st ar t i ngt of eel uncomf or t abl ewi t hal l t hese t ear s, Igobackt ot hecouchandsi t Ihav ehi ccups Qui nt on: " I ' l l gogety ouagl assofwat er " Hedi sappear st ot heki t chen, It akeof ft he shadesandwi pemyt ear spr oper l y , I ' v eputhi m t hr oughsomuch, Ishoul dj ustkeept hewhol e abuset hi ngt omy sel fasIdi easl owpai nf ul deat h, Iputt hem backon Hecomesbackandgi v esmewat erIst r et chmy handt ot akei t Me: " t hanky ou" Hehol dst hegl asst i ghtasourhands t ouch, Ther egoest heshi v er sdownmyspi neI l ookupathi m andhi sl ooki ngatmyhandIl ook downatmyhandandnot i cet hebr ui ses. .Shi t !I f or gott hegl ov es! Il etgooft hegl assqui ckl yandpul l downmy sl eev es Qui nt on: " whatwast hat ? " Ican' tr eadhi sf aci al expr essi onwhet herhi s angr yorconcer ned Me( answer squi ckl y ) : " Not hi ng! " Qui nt on: " t hatwasn' tnot hi ng. .Letmesee" Me: " No. . i t snot hi ngr eal l y . . .Ishoul dgetgoi ng" Ist anduphebl ockmeandgr absmyhand, he l of t supt hesl eev eandgasps Het akesmyot herhandandl ooksati t Qui nt on: " whatt hehel l i st hi s? " Ir emov emyhandsf r om hi m Me: " i t snot hi ngmuchQui nt on, i t sj ustami nor i nci dentatt hegy m af ewweeksago" Thatwasn' tagoodone, j udgi ngbyt hewayhe' s l ooki ngatme Qui nt on: " gy m?Si ncewhendoy ougot ogy m? " Me: " si nceaf ewmont hsback" Qui nt on: " sowhatwast hi smi nori nci dent ? " Me: " uhm IIwas. . Iwasl i f t i ng. .AndandI . . . . Qui nt on: " Don' tf uckenl i et ome! ! ! " HesnapsIgaspr epeat edl yashest ar t l edme Looki ngatmewi t hsomuchangerhol di ngmy handt i ghtandhur t i ngi t Me( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " y ou. . yy ouhur t i ngme" Hi sf acechangest osor r owashel et ' sgo Qui nt on: " t akeof ft heshades" Ishakemyhead, he' l l f r eak, t heey ei sst i l l f r esh Qui nt on( cal ml y ) : " t aket hem of fLi sakhany a" Me: " No. . Ihav et ogetgoi ng, i t sget t i ngl at e. . . I ' l l geti nt o. . . . It r ai l of fasIr eal i sewhatIwasaboutt osay Qui nt on: " geti nt owhat ?Tr oubl e?I st hatwhat y ouwer egoi ngt osay , y ou' l l geti nt ot r oubl e? " Me: " i nt oamassi v et r af f i c, y ouknowt r af f i ci n Jo' bur gatt hi shour " Ichuckl e Qui nt on: " t akeof ft heshades" Me: Ir eal l yneedt oget . . . Qui nt on( shout s) : " DON' TMAKEMEREPEAT MYSELFDAMMI T! " f oramomentt her eMncedi si ' sf aceshowedup i nhi m asheshout edatme, Ibr okedown It aket hem of fsl owl y , exposi ngmyswol l en bl ueey eandcheekbone, he' smout ht r embl es, hemov escl osert ome, het i l t shi sheadt ot he si deashel ooksatmybl ueey ewi t hsomuch concer nandhur t , hecar essesmycheek Qui nt on: " hedi dt hi st oy ou? " Idon' tanswerhi m Ican' tst opcr y i ng Het akesof fmyscar fsl owl y , hedr opsi tont he f l oor , hi sey espopoutast ear sdr i pf r om hi s ey es Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " ohmyGod. . . howcoul dhe dot hi s? " Hegent l yt ouchesmyneckIf l i nch Me: " ah! " Qui nt on: " sor r y " Hel ooksatmeal l ov ermyf ace Qui nt on: " wher eel sedi dhehur ty ou? " Het akesof fmycoat , Il ethi m, hegent l yt akes of ft hepol oneckJer sey , het akesof fmyv est andi t sl i kehe' sseenaghostashel ooksatmy body , i t sl i keIcanf eel t hehur the' sf eel i ngr i ght now, i t sl i kehecanf eel mypai n Hesl i psdownmysweat pant s, It akeof fmy shoesusi ngmyf eet , hel ooksatmynakedbody i ndi smay Qui nt on: " whatdi dhedot omybody ? " Hemov esev encl oserwr apshi sar msar ound meandunt i esmybr at hendr opsi tont he f l oor . . . If eel soembar r assedandashamedmy bodyl ooksmi ser abl ewi t hal l t hedar kst r i pesof t hest r ap Qui nt on: " whydi dn' ty out el l me" Me: " hesai dIshoul dnev ercont acty ou, i fIdohe wi l l knowandt r acey out hent akey ouout . . . . I coul dn' tl ett hathappen, I ' dr at herdi e" Qui nt on: " He' ssogonnapayf ort hi s. . . whenIget myhandsonhi m. . . . I ' l l t earhi sl i mbsoutoft hei r socket sopenhi schest , r i pouthi scol dhear t andf eedi tt ot hedogs" Hehasadi sgust edandf ur i ousl ookonhi sf ace Me: " Ican' tl ety oudot hatQui nt on. . . .Younota ki l l er " Ir ef uset obel i ev ehe' scapabl eofsuch, Iknow whathi sf at hert aughtt hem butIr ef uset o bel i ev ehe' scapabl eofmur der Her emov essomehai rf r om myf ace Qui nt on: " OhBub. . . . I ' m sor r yIwasn' ther e" Me: " i t sokayQui nt on" Qui nt on: " i t snotokay . . not hi ngi sokay . . . . Ican' t l ety ougobackt her e" Ishi v eratt het houghtofnotcomi ngback Me: " NoQui nt on, he' l l ki l l me, Ihav et ogetgoi ng, hej ustst ar t edt her apy , Idon' twantt omake hi m angr y " Qui nt on: " Fuck! . . . okaywai t , f i r stt el l mehowdi d hedot hi st oy ou? " Me: " he' she' si nt obondage, hewoul dcuf fme, t i e meupwi l l al l sor t soft hi ngs, . . . ( br eakf ast v oi ce) . . . .He' dst r angl emef orsol ong. . s somet i mesI ' dl ooseconsci ousness, t henhe' d spl ashmewi t hwat ert owakemeup. . . . . hhhe' s cr azyQ. . . . he' smademehi ssexsl av e. . . . I ' m not al l owedt ocommuni cat ewi t hmymot her any mor e, we' v ehar dl ywentt ov i si thi sPar ent s ev ersi ncet heweddi ng. .Hehe. . I . .I. . herrr apes meeeee! Hepul l smei nt ohi sembr aceandhol dsme gent l y Qui nt on: " sshhhht hat ' senough, I ' v ehear d enough" Il eti tal l outasIcr ymyl ungsout , hel et ' sme cr y Qui nt on: " i t saboutt i meIgetoutoft hi s mess, al t houghI ' m sol at ebutI ' l l gety ouout " Wear esi t t i ngont hecouchhemakesmel ayon t hecouchhet r i est opul l downmypant ybutI hol di tt i ght , hel ooksatmewar ni ngl y , Il et hi m, hesl i dest hem down, hepar t smyl egshi s l i pscur v edownasheseesmypunani Qui nt on: " ohmycooky , mynunu" Her ubsi tgent l yIf l i nch " Aah" It houghtLi am hasf i ni shedev er ysexual desi r esofmyhear tbutIf eel i tbeat i ngf or hi m, I ' m sur eIi nst ant l ygotwet Qui nt on: " howcoul dhedot hi st omypr eci ous" Hebr i ngsheheadcl osert oi tImov eupabi t Me: " Qui nt on. . . Qui nt on: "don' twor r yIwon' tdoany t hi ngt hat ' l l hur t " Hemov eshi sf acet omypunani andIf eel hi s war ml i pski ssi t , j ustagent l epeckt hencomes backup, het akesmypant yanddr essesmeup Hehel psmeputont her estofmycl ot hes Iwasnowcal m, Icheckt het i meandi t spast ei ght , shi t ! Me: " aahIhav et or un. . . . ohGod, t went ymi ssed cal l s" Qui nt on: " y ounotgoi ngbackt her e" Me: " he' sgonnaki l l meQui nt on, pl easej ustl et mego, Iknowhowt ohandl ehi mt obel ess aggr essi v e" Qui nt on: " ar ey oul i st eni ngt oy our sel f ?Younot goi ngt her e" Mybr eat hi ngi ncr easesi nf ear Me: " Qui nt onpl easel etmego. . . wecan' tl ethi m knowy oubackj ustasy et " Qui nt on: " Ihav eev i dencev er ypower f ul ev i dencet hatwi l l t er mi nat et hatcont r act . . . .I knowt hebestLawy eri nt hecount r ywho' l l hel p usout " Me( hopef ul l y ) : " r eal l y ? " Qui nt on: " Yeah. . . okayy ougoback, t r yt ocal m hi m downbuti fhet ouchesy oui nanyway , I ' l l comef l y i ngi nt her ey ouhearme? " Inod Doest hi smeanwet oget heragai n?Orhe' sj ust wor r i edaboutme?I ' dr at hernotaskj ustasy et Hedr i v esmebackandpar ksaf ewhouses away Qui nt on: " wher e' sy ourneckl ace? " Me: " i t si nmyj ewel r ybox" Qui nt on: " okayt aket hi s" Hegi v esmeabr acel et Qui nt on: " keepi tonatal l t i mes, I ' l l beabl et o hearev er y t hi ngt hat ' sgoi ngon" Inod Me: " wi l l Ibeabl et oheary ou? " Hechuckl esandshakeshi sheadno Me: " okay . . butwhati fhewant smet ot akei t of f ? " Qui nt on: " t heny oukeepi tr eal l ycl oset oy ou" Me: " okay " Qui nt on: " okay . . good" Wel ookateachot herf orawhi l ehesmi l es f ai nt l y , andunl ockst hedoor sImakemyway out . . . . . . Heat t acksmewi t hahugasIgeti nsi de Lee: " y ouf i nal l yback, Iwassowor r i edabout y ou" Me: " I ' m okayhoney , don' twor r y" Lee: " wher ewer ey ou?Wher e' sal l t hest uf fy ou bought " Me: " uhm Idi dn' tbuyany t hi ngl ov e, Ij ustgot caughtupont heci nema, wat chedt hr ee mov i es, cany oui magi ne?That ' swhyIt ookso l ong" Lee: " oh, If or gethowmuchy oul ov emov i es" Me: " y ouknowme" Hepi cksmeupandwesi tont hecouchashe car r i esmel i keababyont opofhi m Me: " sot el l me, howwasy ourf i r stsessi on?" Lee: " i twasabi tscar y , butasIt al kedmor ei tf el t good" Me: " woul dy ousayi t shel pi ng?" Lee: " mmhi t sst i l l ear l yt ot el l butIdi denj oy i t . . . t hat ' sast ar tr i ght ? " Inod Me: " y esbaby , t hat ' sast ar t " Lee: " l et ' sgof r eshenup" Het akesmet ot hebat hr oom west r i pnaked andt akeashowert oget her , i twasi nnocent . . I guesst odayi soneoft hosef ewl uckyday s wher ewedon' thav esex Wecuddl ei nbedaf ewmi nut esl at erhe' sdead asl eep Ibr i ngt hebr acel etandwhi spert oi t " Goodni ght " Ismi l et omy sel f Iknowhehear dme Manyt hought spassmymi ndbef or eIf el l asl eep . . . . " myv i si onscansomet i meschange, butIsee bl oodi ny ourhands. . . . . . . . . " Li sa" . . . " becar ef ul " [ 07/ 29, 07: 14]W: I nser t31 LI SA Ist ar t l easIopenmyey est obemetbybr own t i gerey esst ar i ngr i ghtatme Me( shaky ) : " Lee. . . . y ouscar edme" Isi tupandr ubmysl eepyey es Lee: " sor r y , di dn' tmeant oscar ey ou" Me: " t hat ' sokay" Lee: " ohImadey oubr eakf ast" Het akest het r ayf r om t hesi debedt abl e Me: " t hanky ou, t hat ' ssosweetofy ou" Lee: " IknowIhav ebeenamonst erl at el y , Imean l ookaty ou, y ouusedt obesobeaut i f ul " Excuseme?Di dhesay' usedt obe' sonowI ' m ugl y Wel l i t she' sf aul t Me: " oh. . . " Lee: " Idi dn' tdoi tonpur posekhany a. . . Idon' t knowwhatcameov erme, Ir eal l ydol ov ey ou andIhat emy sel ff ort hi s" Me: " may beweshoul dn' thav esexf ora whi l e, j ustunt i l y oumakepr ogr esst hr oughy our t her apysessi ons, sot hatIal sogett i met oheal " Hel ooksatmei r r i t at ed Lee: " y oumakei tsoundasi fI ' m cr azy " Me: " y ounotcr azybabe. . . i t sj usty ouhav e angeri ssues, wheny ougetangr yi t sl i ke ev er y t hi ngar oundy oushut sof fandy ouj ust wannaki l l t heenemy " Lee: " Idon' thav eangeri ssuesLi sa! " Me: " buty oushout i ngatmer i ghtnowandI ' m t al ki ngni cel yt oy ou" Lee: " y oubackchat t i ngmenow? " Me: " backchat t i ng?Whyy out r eat i ngmel i keI ' m y ourchi l d" Lee: " y oumaki ngmeangr yLi sa! " Me: " y out hi nky out heonl yonei nt hi swor l dwho get sangr y ?Wel l Igetangr yt oobuty oudon' t seemebeat i ngy ouup" Hecl encheshi sj awandgav emeat hr eat eni ng ey e Lee: " wat chy ourt onebabygi r l . . . Iwokeupi na goodmood, l et ' skeepi tt hatway , wedon' twant t owakeupt hesl eepi ngbeast " Ikeepmymout hshutbef or eIgetK. Opunch ov ermyf r eshwounds Hesi ghsandwi peshi sf acet henl ooksatme wi t hr egr et Lee: " I ' m sor r ybaby , Ishoul dst opmaki ng t hr eat sl i ket hat , I ' m soscar edofl oosi ngy ou. . . II don' tknowIguessI ' m ov erpr ot ect i v ei nat oxi c way , Iwantt ochange, Iwantt ot r eaty oubet t er " Me: " y ounotgoi ngt ol oosemeLee, Il ov ey ou, I knowy oucanchangeandI ' l l ber i ghther et o suppor ty ou. . , . . . y ouseet hi s( f l ashi ngmyr i ngs i nf r ontofhi sf ace) . . . .Thi smeansI ' l l bey our s f or ev erandev ert i l l t hegr av e" Het akesmyhandandki ssesi t Lee: " y ouanamazi ngwoman, I ' mt ool uckyt o hav ey oui nmyl i f e" Me: " anddon' ty ouf or gett hat " Lee: " i t ssadIwon' tbespendi ngt hi sweekend wi t hy ou" Me( bi t t er l y ) : " aawwwhy ? " Lee: " Ihav et ogot oP. E. . . Iwasgoi ngt ot akey ou wi t hbut , Ican' t , t heycan' tseey oul i ket hi s" Wel l hehasn' tbeent aki ngmewi t hhi m whenhe goesbackhome, he' dmakeupexcusest ohi s f ami l yf orme, t heydon' tknowhehi t sme, may be t heydobutt hewayhe' shi di ngmeIdon' tt hi nk so, I ' dst ayher eal oneandshi tscar ed, I ' dl ock my sel fi ndoor snotev engot ot heshopunt i l he get sback, becauseofmysor eandbr ui sed body . . . . nowi twi l l bet hef i r stt i mehe' sl i v i ngme si ncet hest al kercamei nt omyl i f eandI ' mr eal l y pani cki ng! ! Me: " y oucan' tl eav emeal oneher e" Lee: " aawwbabe, pl easedon' tmakemef eel bad, Ial r eadyhav et ost ayabi tl ongert her e mi ghtcomebackMondayorTuesday " Me: " butt heweekendendsSunday " Lee: " Iknow. . . . butt her e' sal ott hatneedst obe done" Me: " y oul eav i ngmeal onei nt hi sbi ghouse, we j ustmov edi nt ot hi snei ghbor hood, whati f someonet r i est obr eaki nwhi l eI ' m sl eepi ng?" Hechuckl es Lee: " t hi si st hesaf estnei ghbor hoodt r ustme, no onewi l l t r ybr eaki ngi n. . . . I ' l l f acet i mey ou ev er y dayanychanceIget , okay ? " Inod Me: " buti t snott hesamebuti t sokay . . . . whati fi t st or msoneoft heday s? " Lee: " t her ewegowi t hy ourchi l di shf ear s. . . come onbabygr owsomet i t i eswi l l y ou" Het hi nksmyf earf orst or msi schi l di sh. . i t snot ! St or msar escar y . . whydoy out hi nkt heyuse t hem somuchi nhor r ormov i es?Causet hey scar y ! My : " mxm" Hecomescl oserandki ssesmyl i ps Lee: " I ' mj oki ng. . .Youwi l l j usthum asongor somet hi ng. . .I twon' tst or mt houghIknowi t won' t " Me: " y oucont r ol t heweat hernow? " Lee: " i twon' tst or ml ov e. . . nowl etmegoget r eady , wi l l y oubeadar l i ngandpackf orme? " Hesmi l esshowi ngal l hi st eet h Ismi l eback Me: " si ncey ouaskedsoni cel y " Heget sgoandgoesf r eshenup, Igoputaway t hef oodhemademet henst ar tpacki nghi s cl ot hest hathe' l l need. . . Ihearhi sphone v i br at e, i t sr i ghtont hebedsoi t shar dt omi ssi t , Il ookar oundbef or et aki ngi tandIseet he messagei nf r ont . . " Can' twai tt oseey ou. . . I ' v ebeenabadgi r l andI needt obepuni shed " Lul ama I thasapi ct ur ebutI ' dhav et ogoi nt oWhat sApp andopent hemessaget oseei t . Ican' tbel i ev et hi s. . . Thi sbust ar di scheat i ngon me, al l t hi st i me! Wi t hhi sEx!Aaar r ghhIhat ehi m! Howcoul dhedot hi st omeaf t erev er y t hi ng he' sputmet hr oughhest i l l cheat s, whatt he f uckdoy oucal l t hat ! ? It hr owhi sphonebackont hebed, If eel sof i l t hy r i ghtnow, t hesamedi ckhef ucksmewi t hi st he samedi ckhegoesandmakesl ov et ohi sEx wi t h " Thanky ousomuchbeaut i f ul " Hewr apshi sar msar oundmef r om behi ndand ki ssesmycheek, t hengoesandl ot i ons, Isi ton t hebedandwat cht hi shandsomeJer kdr essup I fhewasagoodper sonI ' dpr obabl ybedr ool i ng causenol i et heguyhasi tal l buti tj ustdi sgust s meal l . Hegr abshi sphoneandl ooksati t , hesmi l est o hi msel ft henbi t eshi sl i p Il ookdownandhi sdi cki sbul gi ng. . . wow, Idon' t ev enknowwhyt hi shur t s Coul di tbet hatIwasst ar t i ngt oset t l eandget usedt ohi mt oact ual l yt r yandl ov ehi m si nceI knewIwasst uckwi t hhi mf or ev er . . .Iwasev en st ar t i ngt odomor er esear chonbondagej ust soIcansomet i mesur pr i sehi m, butt hat ' snev er gonnahappenany mor e. Lee: " okaybabeIr eal l yhav et or un. . . begoodf or meokay ? " Inod Heki ssesmyf or ehead Lee: " don' tsul kphel aeehh" Hepecksmyl i ps Lee: " t akecar e. . . I ' mj ustaphonecal l away , i fy ou needany t hi ng" Me: " okay " Lee: " cel aundi khaphekal okubabe" ( pl ease accompanyme) Iwal khi mt ohi scar e Wesayourgoodby es Hespeedsof f Iwav eashedi sappear sdownt her oad Isi ghl ookar ound, t hi si sar eal l yqui et nei ghbor hood Imi sst hehot el Ther ewer emor epeopl et her e Ihearadogbar ki ngIst ar t l eandr unbacki nsi de t hehouse Il ockal l t hedoor sandcl oseal l t hewi ndows Idosomespr i ngcl eani ng Whi l el i st eni ngt omusi c That ' showIcal m my sel fwhenI ' m angr yor scar ed ButIcookmor ewhenI ' m angr yorbake I tr eal l yhel ps, Iwaspl ay i ngmusi conskyhi gh WhenIt hi nkIhear dsomet hi ngf al l i ngf r om t he oneoft her ooms Iqui ckl yswi t chof ft heT. Vandl i st encar ef ul l y Ihearnot hi ng, Iswi t chbackont heT. V Andcont i nuedanci ngwhi l emoppi ng, Iheara l otoft hi ngsf al l i ng Iswi t chof ft heT. Vagai n, t hi st i meI ' mr eal l y scar ed Ihol dt hemopst eadi l yr eadyf orat t ackasI wal ksl owl yt owar dst her ooms Me: " who' st her e! ? " Iopent hebat hr oom doorqui ckl yasIj ump i nsi del ooki ngar oundl i keahunt erl ooki ngf or hi spr ey Me: " Showy our sel fSat an! . . . . i nt henameof Abr aham, Moses, Dav i d. . . JesusChr i standal l t he ot herpower f ul menofGodi nt hebi bl e. . . Fi r e! " Iwal koutandheadt ot hebedr oomsbutt her e' s not hi ng. . .Igett oourr oom Me: " Ihav eagunandI ' m notaf r ai dt ousei t . . . . so y oubet t erst ayaway !OrIswearI ' l l shooty ou wi t houthesi t at i on" Iwal ksl owl yt owar dst hebat hr oom Me: " I ' mv er ydanger ousIt el l y ou. . . Iki l l edt he bi ggestspi deronear t hl astweek. . Squashedt he l i f eoutofi t . . t hesamewayI ' l l dot oy oui fy ou don' tshowy our sel f" Ir uni nsi det hebat hr oom spi nni ngar oundr eady t oj umponsomeone, onl yt of i ndabunchof st uf font hef l oor , Isi ghi nr el i ef , If or gott ocl ose t hebat hr oom wi ndowandi t ski ndawi ndy t oday , soal l t heshowergel sandshampoosf el l f r om wher et heyst aywhi chi sopposi t et he wi ndow Icl i ckmyt ongueandwal koutbutmyphone r i ngsIt ur nbackasIwasbyt hedoor , It akemy phoneoutt hechar ger , i t sapr i v at enumber agai n Il eav ei tanddon' tanswer , , Iputmyphoneon t hecount erasIwasaboutt ocl eant heki t chen. . . I tr i ngsagai n, st i l l pr i v at e, Ianswerbutdon' t speak Thecal l erAl sodoesn' tt al k Me: " who' st hi s? " si l enceMe: " whatdoy ouwantf r om me? " " Youknowexact l ywhatIwant " AScar ydeepv oi cet al ks Me: " st ayawayf r om mey oucr azyper son! " " Wher ear et hedi amonds, Iknowy ouhav e t hem" Me: " Idon' tknowwhaty out al ki ngabout . . . .Who ar ey ou? " " Yourwor stni ght mar e. . . .Iknowy ouhome al oner i ghtnow, y our eal l yt houghti twast he wi ndt hatdr oppedt hoset hi ngsi nt hebat hr oom ofy ourbedr oom? " Myphonesl i psf r om myhandsasIt r embl ei n f ear If eel mykneesget t i ngweaker * doodoodoo! ! * Ist ar t l eIf eel my sel fget t i ngdi zzy Someonei sbyt hedoor ! I t st hest al ker ! * doodoodoo! ! ! * Hewi ggl est hedoorhandl et r y i ngt oopen If eel t heur get opee Me( ski t t i sh) : " goaway ! ! !St ayawayf r om me! !" Thedooropens, It houghtILockedi t Iscr eam myl ungsoutcl osi ngmyey es asIf al l onmybut t agai nstt heki t chencount er " HELLLLLLLLLLLPPP! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! " If eel st r ongar mst ouchme That ' swhenIl etmybl adderr el axasIwent numbandwar ml i qui dgoesdownmyt hi ghs Ij ustdi edat housanddeat hs. . .t akemenow Lor d! " Li sa!I t sj ustme. . Li sa?Li sa! " Iopenmyey esandi mmedi at el yat t ackhi m wi t hahug Hol di ngont ohi mf ordearl i f emyhear tr eadyt o bur stt hewayi t sbeat i ngsopai nf ul l yagai nst mychest " I t sonl ymeBub. . . don' twor r y , noonei sev er goi ngt ohur ty ouagai n. .Notonmywat ch" Il etgoofhi m qui ckl yasIr eal i sewhatIj ustdi d Mycheeksheatupi nembar r assment Iwi pemyt ear sandl ookathi m Me: " I ' m sor el i v edi t sy ou" Qui nt on: " y oul ef tt hedoorunl ocked" Me: " Ir eal l yt houghtIl ockedi t " Qui nt on: " whenwer ey ougoi ngt ot el l mey ou hav east al ker ?Af t erheki l l sy ou? " Me: " Idi dn' twantt owor r yy ou" Qui nt on: " y oust i l l don' tgeti tdoy ou? " Ishr ug Qui nt on: " t hemor eIknow, t hemor eI ' l l beabl e t opr ot ecty ou, y ouhav et ost ophi di ngt hi ngs f r om menow" Me: " goti t. . . I ' l l t el l y ouev er y t hi ngf r om nowon" Qui nt on: " t hat ' sagoodgi r l , nowcome, wehav e al ott ot al kabout , r egar di ngt hi sst al ker " Heget supandt r i est ohel pmeupbutIr ef use Qui nt on: " getup" Ishakemyheadandpr essmyl egst i ght er t oget her Het r i est opul l meagai nbutIst andmygr ound. . . Orshoul dIsaysi tmygr oundf i r ml y Me: " uhm pl easecl osey ourey es" Qui nt on: " st opmessi ngar oundLi ss" Me: " whosai dy oucancomei nany way , y ouj ust l ety our sel fi nher e. . . . . getout , knockunt i l It el l y out ocomei n. . . wher edi dy oul eav ey our manner sboy ! " Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " st andup" If ol dmyar msandshakemyhead Me: " No! " Ipoutmyl i ps Qui nt on: " getupLi ss" Me: " No. . getoutf i r st" Hel ooksatmewar ni ngl y Qui nt on( f i r ml y ) : " Li sa" Me( shakeyf i r m) : " Qui nt on" Qui nt on: " Up" Me: " No! " Qui nt on: " Now" Me: " No" Qui nt on: " don' tmakememakey ou" Ishakemehead Me: " m. m" Hegr absmebymyar msnextt hi ngIknowI ' m onmyf eet , t hewar ml i qui dcont i nuesl eav i ng myv j downmyl egs.Il ookathi m andhi s l ooki ngdownaghast . . . Iseehi sf acechangi ng asi fhe' st r y i ngt ohol di nhi sl aught er Me: " mx m, asi fy ou' v enev erpeedy ourpant s bef or e! ! " . . . Ist or m of fIhearhi ml aughbehi ndme. . . Ar r r r ghhgnf uckenj nf mnf uckenmmcmmcj f ucken j dkbhv scj j kdkdnt hi si ssoembar r assi ng! [ 07/ 29, 07: 15]W: I nser t32 LI SA ( SHORT) . Me: " onl yst ar t edt hr eeday sago" Qui nt on: " y oushoul d' v et ol dmey est er day " Me: " Iwasal r eadyt ooov er whel medbyt he apol ogi esandandf or gv i es" Qui nt on: " f or gi v i es? " Me: " I ' mt r y nar hy meher esogowi t ht hef l ow" Qui nt on: " y eahIf or got , y ou' v eal way sbeengood att hose, " Her ol l shi sey es Qui nt on: " any waybackt ot hepoi nt , gi v emey our phonesoIcant r yhackt hatnumber " Me: " buti t sapr i v at enumber " Qui nt on: " Icanst i l l hacki t " Igi v ehi m myphone Me: " makesur ey oubr i ngi tbackbef or et hi s weekendends" Qui nt on: " i twi l l onl yt akeaf ewhour s, I ' l l doi t l at er " Me: " okay " Isi gh Me: " cany oust aywi t hmeunt i l l at ewhenI ' m al seepI ' mr eal l yscar ed, t hi sper soni sar ound her esomewher e" Qui nt on: " don' twor r y , t hat ' swhyI ' m her et ogi v e y oucompanywhi l ey ourhusbandi saway " Me: " wai t , howdi dy ou? . . . . ooohhht hebr acel et . .I guesst hat ' showy ouknewaboutt hest al ker t oo" Henods Me: " Qui nt on?" Qui nt on: " Li sa? " Me: " wher ehav ey oubeen. . . pl easet el l me" Qui nt on: " Iwasi nTi mbukt u" Me: " Ti mbukt u?Asi nMal i ? " Qui nt on: " i st her eanot herTi mbukt u?Any wayI wast her e, t her e' sahi deoutwehav el ocat ed t her e, wher ei t snoteasyf orany onet ot r aceme orhackme" Me: " soy ou' v ebeent her et hewhol et i me? " , Qui nt on: " No. . . af t ert hr eemont hsIknewt he Johnsonshav est oppedl ooki ngf ormehad t hem bel i ev eIwasdead" Me: " Notonl yt hem. . y ouhadmet oo" Qui nt on: " sor r ybuti twasf ort hebest " Me: " sowhataboutschool ?Howdi dy ouwr i t e t heexams" Qui nt on: " t hebenef i t sofbei ngcl osewi t ht he deanwoul damazey ou" Me: " soy ouusedt ot heset hi ngs. . goi ngon hi deout s, di sappear i ngf ormont hs? ?Notl et t i ng any oneknowwher ey ouar e, whaty ou eat i ng, howy ousl eepi ng, whaty ouup t o. . . not hi ng" Qui nt on: " It houghty oudi dn' twantt oknowal l t hat , y out ol dmet ost ayawayf r om y ousoI di dn' tt hi nki twoul d' v ebot her edy out hatmuch" Me: " ofcausei tbot her edmeQui nt on, Il ov ey ou anddespi t ewhatIsai dy ouknewIl ov ey ouno mat t erwhat " Qui nt on: " r eal l y ?Causey our eal l ycoul d' v e f ool edme" Igasp Me: " soy oust i l l madatme" Qui nt on: " mov i ngon. . . . l ookt omor r owI ' l l be headi ngdownt oP. Ehav eawor dwi t hMr Johnson, I ' l l gethi mt ot er mi nat et he cont r act . . . . Icapt ur edoneoft hegi r l st hatwor ks f orhi m, madeherdoav i deot al ki ngaboutal l t hedi r t ybusi nessdeal i nghedoes, al sohad someonewat chi nghi m, hav el ot sofpi ct ur esof hi m doi nghi sdi r t ywor k. . . y ouwannasee? " Icl earmyt hr oatandswal l owt hebi gl ump Me: " y eahsur e" Het akesouthi sphoneandwegot hr ought he pi ct ur esIwasshockedt oseeoneoft hem di ggi ngahol eandsomepul l i ngabi gpl ast i c t hatl ookedl i ket her e' ssomeonei ni t Me: " t hat ' senough, I ' v eseenenough" Qui nt on: " t heyev i l , Ir eal l yunder est i mat edt hem, wecoul dbei nmor edangert hanwet hi nk" If eel my sel fsweat i ng, t hesepeopl ecanki l l me any t i met heywantandnoonewi l l know Me: " i sMncedi si i nv ol v edi nal l t hi s? " Qui nt on: " Yes, het akescar eofsomet hi ngs, hi s br ot herLwazi i smor ehandson" Me: " whydot heyki l l peopl e? " Qui nt on: " r ememberIt ol dy ouhowmydad t aughtmet odeal wi t ht heenemy ? " Me: " y eah" Qui nt on: " t hat ' sal sohowt heydeal wi t ht hei r enemi esandt hr eat s" Me: " andnowIhav esomet hi ngt heywantwhi ch makesmet heenemy" Qui nt on: " andI ' m her et opr ot ecty ou, sot hey can' tdot hat " Me: " whi chmakesy out het hr eat " Henods Isi ghandr el axmy sel font hecouch Iputmyl egsonhi m andher ubsmyf eet " Mmhm" Qui nt on: " y oust i l l l ov ef ootr ubs" Me: " whodoesn' t ?" Hel aughs Me: " Imi ssedy ourf unnyl augh" Qui nt on: " whaty out r y nasayaboutmyl augh" Me: " Noooot hi ng" Me: " so. . . doy out hi nkl i ke. . . wecoul dbet oget her agai n?" Icl osemyey est i ghtasIawai tf orhi sr esponse Qui nt on: " Idon' tknowLi sa" Despi t eev er y t hi ngt hat ' sbeengoi ngon, t hat ' s t hescar i estt hi ngI ' v eev erhear d Me: " so. . . wecan' t ?" Qui nt on: " Idon' tknowLi sa. . . . .Ir eal l ydon' t know" Isi tupandf acehi m Me: " It houghty ouf or gav eme? " Qui nt on: " Ihav e. . . . butIhav en' tf or got t en" Me: " I ' m sur ewecanst i l l f i xt hi ngs" Qui nt on: " canwenotdot hi snow. . r i ghtnowI ' m j usther et opr ot ecty ou" Me: " not hi ngmor e" Qui nt on: " not hi ngmor e" Thatst i ngs Me: " whatdoIhav et odot of i xi t ? " Qui nt on: " f i xwhat ? " Me: " y ourbr okenhear t . . whatdoIhav et odot o f i xi t ? " Qui nt on: " It hi nkweshoul dj ustf ocusonget t i ng y ououtoft hi smessf ornow" Me: " butQui nt on. .Imi ssy ou, Iwantt oki ssy ou, I wantt of al l asl eepi ny oursaf ear ms, Iwantt o wakeupnexty ouev er ymor ni ng, Iwantt o wat chy ouwheny ousl eepi ng, Iwantt oshar e t hedeepestdesi r esofmyhear twi t hy ou, Iwant t ot el l y ouev er y dayhowmuchIl ov ey ou, IIwant t ospendt he. . . . . . . " It r ai l of f Qui nt on: " Iwantt hatt oo. . . . butLi say oubr oke myhear t , i t snotev er y dayoroncei nawhi l eIget myhear tbr okenl i ket hat , y out hef i r stgi r l I ' v e ev eri nv est edmyf eel i ngson, andy out hef i r stt o hur tmet hi smuch, Idon' tt hi nkI ' mr eadyt obei n aser i ousr el at i onshi p" Me: . . . . . . Qui nt on: " t hepastsi xmont hshav ebeent he mostmi ser abl emont hsofmyl i f e, i fweget backt oget herIknowhowmuchi twi l l hur ti fwe wer et of i ghtorl oosey ouagai n, Ican' tgo t hr ought hatagai n" Me: " pl easegi v emeasecondchance? " Qui nt on: . . . . . . Qui nt on: " Ineedsomet i meLi sa, i t ' l l t aket i me" Me: " howmucht i me? " Heshr ugs Me: " Qui nt on, we' v eal r eadywast edsomuch t i mef r om bei ngt oget her , f i r stwewer ef r i ends andwehi dourr eal f eel i ngst owar dseach ot her , t henweconf essedandt hi ngsatt hatt i me wer eal r eadycompl i cat ed, whi chdi dn' tgi v eusa chancet obet oget her , t heny oudi sappearf ora whol esi xmont hst hatwasev enmor et i me apar t . . . . ourl i v esar ei ngr eatdanger , I ' m af r ai di f wewast eAny mor et i me, wemi ghtnev ergett he chancet obet oget herev eragai n. . .Idon' tknow howmanyt i meshadMncedi si al mostki l l ed me, ev er y dayI ' dl i v ei nf earwonder i ngi fcoul d t odaybet hel astdayofmyl i f e?Whatscar ed memostwasdy i ngandnev erget t i ngt he chancet oatl eastapol ogi se, t hechanceof bei ngwi t hy ou. . . . wedon' tknowwhatt omor r ow hol ds, Imi ghtdi eany t i me, t her e' speopl eaf t er mybl ood. . . . . howmuchmor et i medoy ouneed Qui nt on, ( sof t l y )f ory out or eal i set her e' sno mor et i met owast e? Hel ooksatmef orawhi l et hendr opshi sey es Me( si ghs) : " I ' m sor r y , Idi dn' tmeant oput pr essur eony ou. . . I ' l l gi v ey oual l t het i mey ou need" Qui nt on: . . . . Me: " l et ' sgetonwi t ht hathacki ng. . .Iwantt o knowwho' st hatst al ker " Qui nt on: " r i ght " Hepr esseshi sphoneanddoessomehacki ng t hi ngs . . . . . . . hour sl at er . . . . . . . . . If eel someoneshakeme Qui nt on: " Li sawakeup" Me( sl eepy ) : " mmh" Qui nt on: " getupy ouhav et oseet hi s" Il azi l ysi tupandsl uggi shl ygazeathi m Me: " whati si t ? " Qui nt on: " If oundwhot hest al keri s" Me: " who? " Qui nt on: " y ouwon' tbel i ev et hi s" Me: " spi ti toutal r eady" Qui nt on: . . . . . . . Me: . . . . . . . . Qui nt on: " i t s. . . . . . . . . . . . ( puzzl ed) . . . Yonel a" Me( puzzl ed) ? . . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 29, 07: 16]W: Cont i nuat i on LI SA Me: " excuseme? " Qui nt on: " Ican' tbel i ev et hi s. . . i t sact ual l yher " Me: " I ' m cal l i ngher " Qui nt on: " okaybutcal l heronhernor mal number " Me: " wai tbutwhatdoIsayt oher ? " Qui nt on: " j ustt el l hert ocomeov er " Me: " okay" Isear chf orhernumber Me: " i t sr i ngi ng" " I fi ti sn' tmahomegi r l " Me: " heyy ou!Est r angedf r i end" " Gi r l I ' v ej ustbeenbusy , andy ouhar dl ywanna goout " Me: " wel l al othasbeengoi ngoni nmyl i f eI don' tev engett i met ogoout " " Andt hat ' swhymar r i agei ssonotf orme" Me: " y ouknowi fi twer eupt ome, we' dbe somewher eshaki ngourassesof f " Hecl ear shet hr oat Yonel a( l aughi ng) : " GoshImi ssy ou" Me: " wel l t odayi sy ourl uckydayt hen. . . I ' m home al one, pl easecomeov er " Yonel a: " r eal l y ? . . .Okay !I ' l l ber i ghtt her e" Me: " okaygoodj ustl etme. . . . . . Ti t i t i shehangsup Qui nt on: " she' scomi ng? " Me: " y eah. . . butdoy ouknowwhat ' sst r ange? " Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " wemov edher eamont hagoandshe' s nev erv i si t edmeher e" Qui nt on: " soshedoesn' tknowwher ey oust ay " Me: " No, I ' v enev ert ol dher , j ustt ol dherwe mov edf r om t hehot el , butdi dn' tt el l hert o wher e" Qui nt on: " wel l i fsheget sher ewi t houtaski ng f ordi r ect i ons. .That ' l l beourf i r stpooft hatshe i si ndeedt hest al ker " Me: " Ihopesheasksf ort hem" Qui nt on: " Inev erexpect edt hi s. . ( chuckl es) . .At al l " Me: " Ij ustwi sht hi si sal l j ustabaddr eam" Qui nt on: " oht hi sshi ti sr eal baby " Af ewmi nut esl at eracal l comest hr ough Me: " Heybabe" " Openup, I ' m her e" Me: " okayl ov e" Igoout si det henpr esst her emot eshecomes i nwi t hav er yni ceAudi a4 Howdi dsheaf f or dt hat ? Sheget soutandcat wal ksherwayt owar dst he houseasshel ockshercar Imeetherhal f wayandweshar eahug Yonel a: " mmmhmi ssedy ousomuch" Me: " mi ssedy oumor e" Webr eakt hehugandheadi nsi de, Il ockt he doorandkeept hekey si nmypocket If ol l owhert ot hesi t t i ngr oom Yonel a( shocked) : " Qui nt on! ?" Shel ooksl i keshej ustsawaghost Yonel a: Whatar ey oudoi ngher e?IImeany ou st i l l al i v e? " Qui nt on: " wel l hel l ot oy out ooNel l a. . i t sgoodt o seey ou, howhav ey oubeen? " Yonel a: " I ' mI ' m good. . .It houghty ouwer e dead? " Me: " t heydonotcal l hi m di ehar df ornot hi ng" Qui nt on: " uhm t heydonotcal l medi ehar dLi ss" Il aughasIsi tdown Me: " t akeaseatgi r l " Sher el uct ant l ysi t sdownst i l l i nt ot al shock, exact l yhowIwaswhenIsawhi m att hemal l Me: " Iknowgi r l t hatwasmyexactr eact i on" Yonel a: " butbutt hat ' si mpossi bl e. . . .Theyshot y ou? " Qui nt on: " whoev er ' sy oursour cef orr umor s got st oget st hei rf act sr i ght s" Il aughatt hewayhesai dt hat Me: " It hi nkweshoul dj ustbehappyhe' sher e r i ght ? " Shenodsunsur el y Yonel a: " y eaah. . . . wel comeback. . Iguess" Qui nt on( smi l i ng) : " i t sgoodsbesbacks" Me: " okaydude. . y oubet t erst opt al ki ngl i ket hat now" Hechuckl es Yonel a( f akel aughs) : " seey oust i l l cr azy " Qui nt on: " waymor ecr azi ert hanev ernow" Hesay si nabi tofat hr eat eni ngway Me: " Ri ght !Soany t hi ngt odr i nk?Jui ce, wat er , wi ne, whi skeyorbeer ? " Yonel a: " Jui cei sf i nef orme" Me: " y ousur e?Causet her e' spl ent yoft heot her st uf f ( wi nks) " Yonel a: " j ui cef ornowf r i end" Me: " okayt hen. . Qui nt on?" Qui nt on( l ooki ngi nt ensel yaty onel a) : " Icoul d usesomet hi ngst r onger " Me: " whi skeyi ti s" Iwal koutwi t honel ooki ngatt heot hert hr eat f ul l ywhi l et heot herl ooksgui l t y , IpourJui ce andwhi skeyt henser v ei tt ot hem, It akeabot t l e ofbeerf ormy sel fasIj oi nedt hem st i l l att he posi t i onIl ef tt hem Me: " whoay onel af eel athomegi r l , r el ax , t akeof f t heshoes, t hr owy ourl egsont hecouch, geez y ousost i f f " Qui nt on: " l ooksl i kesheneedst hi smor et hanI do" Hesay sashegul psdownhi swhi skey It akeasi pofmybeerl ooki ngather , shel ooks ner v ous Me: " ay i boIal mostf or gott oasky az. . . howdi d y ouf i ndy ourwayher e, causel i keI ' v ebeen wai t i ngf ory out oaskmef orl ocat i onbutdol ol o nowy ouher e? " Shechuckl es Me( j oki ngl y ) : " ay i f r i endsuhl ekandi ' ser i ous i ngabekant i sowuy andi st al ker ? " ( don' tl augh f r i endI ' m ser i ous, I ' dsweary oust al ki ngme? ) Weal l l aughbutweal l knownoonei sr eal l y l aughi ngher e Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " t hat ' dbecr azy " Yonel a( l aughi ng) : " Li ker eal l ynow? " Me: " okayj okesasi de. . . howdi dy ouf i ndy our way ? " Qui nt on: " y eahI ' m cur i ous" Shegul psdownherj ui cei nonego Yonel a: " oh. . . t her e' st hi sonet i meIwas pl anni ngoncomi ngt ocheckony ou. . y ouknow meandsur pr i sev i si t ssoIaskedMncedi si t o sendmet hel ocat i onandhedi dbutIendedup notcomi ngt hatt i me, whensomet hi ngcameup" Me: " oohhhIsee, shameIwoul d' v el ov edt hat sur pr i sev i si t " Qui nt on: " whatcameup? " Yonel a: " huh? " Qui nt on: " y oucoul dn' tmakei t , somet hi ngcame up. . . . whatcameup? " He' snowv er yser i ous Yonel a: " oh. . somet hi ngper sonal " Me: " ohmy . . whathappened?I tmust ' v ebeen ser i ous" Yonel a: " Noi twasn' tt hatser i ousr eal l yj ust mom want edt ocomecheckonmesoIhadt o gof et chher " Me: " ohokay . . .Youshoul d' v et ol dme, Iwoul d' v e l ov edt oseeher " Yonel a: " i twasoneoft hoseunexpect edv i si t s" Me: " oh" Yonel a: " y eah, butdon' twor r ynextt i meshe comesI ' m cal l i ngy ouov er " Me: "i fy ouknowwhat ' sgoodf ory ou. . . . ay i bo gi r l y oudi dn' tt el l mey ougotameanmachi ne! " Yonel a: " oht hatol dt hi ng" Me: " ol dt hi ng! ?t shi ni !gal y ouf or gott oment i on t haty ouar est i nki ngr i ch! ? " Yonel a: " i t sanear l ybi r t hdaygi f tf r om myol der br ouJongaboughti tf orme, i t sact ual l ya secondhand" Me: " buti t sbeaut i f ul andi nv er ygood condi t i on. . wowsohe' sbusi nessmustbedoi ng v er ywel l " Yonel a: " i ti s" Me: " mmh" * t ensesi l ence* Yonel a: " ohmy . . whathappenedt oy ourey e? " Me: " oh, t hi sl i t t l et hi ng. . Ibumpedi nt oapol e. . y ou knowcl umsyme" Qui nt oncl encheshi sj awshe' sv ei nsi nt hesi de ofhi sf or eheadpopout Yonel a: " y ohmyl ov e. . . aski est j oi tl ooksso pai nf ul " Me: " y eahi ti sbutt hepi l l sar ehel pi ng" Hecl ear shi st hr oat Qui nt on: " ar en' ty ougoi ngt ot el l heraboutt hat t hi ngy out ol dme? " Wel ookateachot herIl ookbackatt hecur i ous Yonel a Yonel a: " whatt hi ng? " Me( si ghs) : " wel l . . . f ort hepastt hr eeday swei r d t hi ngshav ebeengoi ngon" Yonel a: " wei r dt hi ngs? " Me: " y eah. . . . t heygotmer eal l yscar ed, gi r l Isl eep wi t honeey eopen" Sheadj ust sher sel fbutst i l l l ooks uncomf or t abl e Me: " I ' v ebeenget t i ngt heset hr eat eni ng messagesonmyphonef r om anunknown number . .Andr andom cal l sf r om aguywi t ha scar ydeepv oi ce, t hr eat eni ngt ot akemyl i f e, i fI don' tgi v ehi m whathewant s. . hewasev enher e ear l i er . . . ohGod, f r i end. . . Ihav east al ker . . . I ' m so t er r i f i edIdon' tknowwhatt hi sper sonwant s f r om me" At earescapesmyey e Yonel a: " y oht hat ' shect i cbabe. . . whatcoul dt hi s per sonpossi bl ywantf r om y ou?May behehas someki ndofobsessi onf ory ou, Imeany ou beaut i f ul , pr obabl yi ssomewei r dowhol ov es y oubutcan' tt el l y ou? " Ishr ugmyshoul der s Me: " buthewant sdi amondst hatIdon' tknow of ? " Yonel a: " di amonds?Ay i bodoy ouownsome ki ndav al uabl ej ewel r y ? " Me: " nott hatIknowof ? . . . ar ght hi si sj usta mess, Idon' tknowwhatt odo. . . I ' mj ustgl adI hav et heonl yt wopeopl eIl ov eandt r ustwi t h myal l her ewi t hme. . . y ouguy sar et hebest , t he gr eat estgi f tGodhasev ergi v enme" Ismi l eatt hem wi t ht ear sr unni ngdownmy f aceast heyl ookatmewi t hpi t y Me: " Idon' tknowwhatI ' ddoi fy ' al l wer et ot ur n y ' al l backsonme. . . ( l ooksaty onel a) . .Orbet r ay me. . Idon' tt hi nkI ' dsur v i v e" Yonel a: " II ' m al way sher ef ory ou. . I ' dnev erev er t ur nmybackony ou, orbet r ayy ou" Shecomest owar dsmeandsi t snextt ome t henweshar eahug Qui nt on: " r eal l y ? " Shel ooksathi m per pl exed Qui nt on: " I ' dkeepmymout hshuti fIwer ey ou" Yonel a: " wwhatar e. . . . what ' sgoi ng. . . .What ' sar e y ousay i ng? " Ir emov eherar msf r om me, shegoesbackt o herseat , wel ookatheri nt ensel y Qui nt on: " enoughwi t ht hepl ay i ngdumb act , nowweal l knowwhat ' sgoi ngonher e, so whydon' ty ouj ustst ar tt al ki ng? " Yonel a( i ncompr ehensi bl y ) : " uhm. . I ' ml ost ? " Me: " l etmef i ndy ou. . . Ihav east al ker , It ol d Qui nt on, hehackedhe' snumber , t ur nsoutt he hewasact ual l yashe, andt hatshewas. . . . . y ou" Qui nt on: " soi fIwer ey ouI ' dst ar tt al ki ngbef or e i tget sugl y " Yonel a: " ay i guy st her emustbesomeki ndof mi st ake. . ( chuckl es) . .Imeani tdoesn' tmake anysense? . . .Me? ?Whyandwhatwoul d possi bl ymakemedot hat ? " Me: " wewer ehopi ngy ou' dt el l us" Qui nt on: " pl easet r ynott owast eany mor e t i me. . . . andt al k" Shel ooksatmer emor sef ul l y , t henl ooksat Qui nt on, y ouwoul dn' tmi sst hef earonherf ace Me: " l ookbabe. . . j ustt el l meev er y t hi ng, howdo y ouknowaboutt hedi amondsandwhydoy ou wantt hem sobad? " Qui nt on: " causenoonei sl eav i ngt hi shouse unt i l weknowt het r ut h" Il ookathi m.OkaynowI ' m ev enscar edofhi m andIdi dnot hi ngwr ong, t hechi l l edy et danger ousl ookonhi mr i ghtnow, i fIwer e Yonel aIwoul dn' twast eany mor et i me, Il ook backather , y epIcanl i t er al l ysmel l herf ear Yonel a: " II ' m sor r y . . . . Shesay sl ooki ngatme Yonel a: "t heysai di fIdon' tdot hi st hey ' dcome af t ermyf ami l yandmakemewat chast hey ki l l edt hem, t hent hey ' dcomeaf t erme. . . t hey sai dIshoul dt r ybyal l meanst ogett he di amondsf r om y ou, si nceI ' my ourbestf r i end y ou' dt r ustmeandt el l mewher et heyar e, butI di dn' twantt odoi tper sonal l ycauseIdi dn' t wanty out oev ensuspecti twasme, soI deci dedt odoi tasast al keri nst ead. . . Shebr eaksdowni nt ot ear s Yonel a: " I ' m nott heoneaf t ert hem. . . Me: "Iknowi t st heJohnsons" Yonel a: " y es! . . . wai t . .Howdi dy ouknow? . . Imean t heyar ev er ycer t ai ny oudon' tknowany t hi ng" Qui nt on: " causet heyar ecr ackbr ai ned. . . " Me: " i st hatal l ?Whaty ou' v et ol dmei s ev er y t hi ng? " Shenodsunsur el y Qui nt on: " Idon' tl i kemaki ngt hr eat sYonel a causemi neal way scomet r ue, soy oubet t ersay what ev ert hat ' sst uckony ourl i t t l et hr oat , i fy ou don' twantt ol eav et hi shousewi t houty our t hr oat " Hesi desmi l esl ooki ngatherdeepi nherey es Ihearherswal l ow Yonel a: " t heysai di fIf ai l t hi st ask, t heycomi ng f ory ourmot herLi sa" Myhear tski psat housandbeat s, t heycan' tdo t hat , she' sl i t er al l yt hel astf ami l yIhav e Qui nt onandIl ookateachot herwi t hconcer n Me( whi sper s) : " Qui nt on" Qui nt on: " Notonmywat ch" Yonel a: " t heyal way sseem t oknowev er y t hi ngI doandsay , t heypr obabl yknowwhat ' sgoi ngon r i ghtnow" Qui nt onget supandst r i psy onel anaked. . . . TF? Me: " whatar ey oudoi ng?" Qui nt on: " t heymusthav espycamer asonher body " Hemakesherst andupst r ai ghtt henget sr eal l y cl oset oherwi t hhi shandsar oundherneckas i fhe' ssear chi ngf orsomet hi ng, he' sj ustt oo cl osei fy ouaskme, t hei rbodi esar et ouchi ng, I f eel apangofj eal ousy . Onceaponat i meIal sousedt ohav eabeaut i f ul spot l esssexybody Qui nt on: " goti t " Hepul l soutsomet i nycamer at hencomes t owar dmeandsi t sbesi demeIheary onel a br eat hout . . . hedoessomet hi ngt oi t Me: " whatar e. . . . . Heshushesme Qui nt on: " okaynowy oucant al k" Me: " whatwer ey oudoi ngt oi t ?" Qui nt on: " Ij ustdi senabl edi t " Me: " whydon' ty ouj ustdest r oyi t " Qui nt on: " No, Ihav eabet t erpl an" Me: " what ?" Qui nt on: " I ' l l t aket hi ssomewher ewi t h me, enabl ei tagai n, makei tsoundast hough Yonel ahasbeenki dnappedandki l l ed. . t henI dest r oyi t " Me: " butdi dn' tt heyal r eadyhearev er y t hi ngwe sai d, l i kewenowknowwhot hest al keri s?" Qui nt on: " Naahhedoesn' tcheckuponherat t hi shour , heonl yget sbackhomeaf t erei ght t henchecksev er y t hi ngshe' sbeendoi ng t hr oughoutt heday . . . soI ' v edel et edf r om when shegotacal l f r om y out oupunt i l now" Isi gh Me: " t hankGody ou' v eal sobeenkeepi ngt abs onhi m" Qui nt on: " het hi nkshe' ssmar t . . . I ' l l showhi m smar t " Me: " ohQ. . . I ' dbedeadmeatwi t houty ou, t hank y ou, f orev er y t hi ng" Hesmi l est henbr ushesmycheek Qui nt on: " y es, y esy ouwoul d" Hechuckl esIl aughandr ol l myey es Me: " andt heEgoi sback" Forasecondt her eIt houghthe' dsay somet hi ngmeani ngf ul , ay i t hi si di ot Me: " Yonel a. . . . . y oumybestf r i end, y oushoul d' v e t ol dme, r egar dl ess, wewoul d' v emadeapl an" Yonel a: " y oudon' tunder st andLi sa, t hosepeopl e ar escar y , t heypl acet heyt ookmewhent hey ki dnappedmewast hemosthor r i f i cwi t hdead bodi esl y i ngev er y wher e. . . t r ustme, y ou' dt hi nk t wi cebef or edoubl ecr ossi ngt hem, andnow t hey ' l l comeaf t erme" Qui nt on: " don' twor r y , t heywon' tt ouchy ou, Igot y ou" Yonel a: " r eal l y ? " Henods Shej umpsonhi m assheat t ackshi m wi t ha hug Yonel a: " t hanky out hanky out hanky ouso much! ! " Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " y eah. . y ouwel come" Hegent l ypushesheraway . . . Idon' tknowwhy am If eel i ngt hi sway , Imeanshe' sl esbi an, wel l she' sbi sexual . . .OhGodt hi si snot i met obe j eal ous. .Gosh! . . . I t sj ustI ' v ebeendy i ngt oj umponhi m si ncehe gotback, butIguesst hoseday sar eov er Qui nt on: " okayguy s. . . Ihav et ogosor toutt hi s ki l l i ngYonel at hi ng. . . . sol etmegetgoi ng" Yonel a: " socanIgobackt omyapar t ment ? " Qui nt on: " No!Youcannot , t hat ' st hef i r stpl ace t hey ' l l l ookf ory oubef or et heybel i ev ey our eal l y dead. . . noonemustknowwher ey ouar eunt i l t hi swhol et hi ngbl owsof f " Yonel a: " sowher ewi l l Igo? " Qui nt on: " y ou' l l comest aywi t hme" Me: " par don? " Qui nt on: " y eah, t heywon' tcomet ome, Ican pr ot ectherbet t erwhenshe' scl oset ome" OkayIcan' thi dei tany mor eI ' m angr y , sot hey ' l l besl eepi ngundert hesamer oof ?Toget her ? Al one?OhNo! . . . IknowQui nt onandhe' sl ov ef or punani , whati fhegoesbackt ohi sol d way s, wher ehecoul dn' tr esi stanygi r l t hat t hr owsher sel fathi m. . hecan' tev enr eadwhen agi r l i sf l i r t i ng! . . . NonoIshoul dst opf eel i ngt hi s way , It r usthi m, It r usthi m wi t hmyal l , he' dnev er dot hat , deepdownIknowhest i l l l ov esme, I shoul dj ustgi v ehi m he' sspaceandst opact i ng l i keabi t ch Me: " oh. . . okay . . andI ' mj ustst uckher ei nt he l i on' sden" Qui nt on: " don' twor r y , t hey ' l l t er mi nat et he cont r act , y ou' l l getadi v or ceandy ou' l l bef r ee" Me( di sappoi nt ed) : " y eahIguessso" Qui nt on: " whatI mmaneedy out odo, i sgoback homet omor r ow, l ookf ort hedi amondsand comebackwi t ht hem" Me: " Al one? . . whati fsomeonei sf ol l owi ngme? " Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " mmhokayI ' l l gowi t hy ou, t heni t ' l l hav et obet hedayaf t ert omor r ow" Hest andsup Qui nt on: " l etmegosor tt hi soutI ' l l bebacki na f ewhour s" Heki ssesmyf or eheadt henheadst owar dst he door , If ol l owhi m wi t ht hekey sandopenf orhi m, Ihol dhi sar m Me: " pl easebecar ef ul Q" Hel ooksi nt omyey esf orawhi l e Qui nt on: " Iwi l l " Hemakeshi swayout * * * * * * * * * QUI NTON THENEXTDAY Imakemywayi nsi det heconf er encer oom, I st andbyt hedoorasIwat cht hem t r y i ngt o wr est l emyl awy erwho' st el l i ngt hem t o t er mi nat et hecont r act MrJohnson: " That ' snev erhappeni ng, Mr Mt het hwaandIhadadeal , t hi scont r actcan onl ybet er mi nat edoncehi sdaught erpasses away , t heni twi l l beofnouse. . . butf ornow, she bel ongst ousweownher , soy oucanf or get aboutt hat , she' snotgoi ngany wher e" Lawy er : " MrJohnson, y oudon' twantust ot ake t hi st ocour tdoy ou? " MrJohnson: " t hel awi sonmysi de" Mncedi si : " t hecont r actwasl egal l ybi ndi ngso whet hery out akeust ocour t , not hi ngwi l l hel p y ou" " Iwoul dn' tbesosur ei fIwer ey ou" Al l ey est ur nupt ol ookatmeasImakemyway i n, Ipul l achai routnextt omyl awy er Theyl ookatmeasi ft heyj ustseei nga ghost , whi cht echni cal l yf r om t hei rpoi ntof v i ewst heyar e. Me: " whoacl osey ourmout hmncencenceIcan seel astni ght sdi nner " Ipi nchmynose Me: " shi i i Icansmel l i tt oo" MrJohnson: " whwhat. . . whwhen. . . Me: "whatwhenhuh?Iseey oust ar t er now. . . comeon, askaway " Mnce: " y ousupposedt obedead" Lawy er : " andhowwoul dy ouknowso?Cause mycl i entwasnev erdecl ar eddead? " Theyl ookateachot her Il aughdev i ousl y Me: " di dn' tt heyt el l y ou. . I ' m JesusPar tt wo baby !Behol dt her esur r ect i onofChr i st . . . . .Par t Two! " Il aughandMi ssl awy erj oi nsme Theyl ookatmei r r i t at ed Me: " okayokay . . . . bef or ey ' al l sendmet oGodf or hi mt of or gi v ey ouf ory our si ns. . . . ( v i gor ousl y ) . . . whydon' twegetdownt o r eal busi ness? " MrJohnson: " howl onghav ey oubeenback? " Me: " Imustsayy ' al l r eal l ynott hesmar t est gangst erar ound, ImeanI ' v ebeenbackf or al mostt hr eemont hsnow" Mnce: " what !I mpossi bl e!" Me: " y oushoul dr at herkeepy ourmout hshut y ouwomanabuser " Hel ooksatmewi t hangerandhi snose t wi t chi ng Me: " now, Icameher et omakeagener ousdeal wi t hy ou, ev ent houghy ' al l don' tdeser v emy gener osi t y" MrJohnson: " wedon' tmakedeal swi t ht he O' Br i en' s" Me: " Isuggesty our econsi dert hatconcl usi on . . . t hat ' si fy ' al l don' twantt ospendl i f ei nj ai l or st ar tav er ymessywar " MrJohnson: " I ' m nothear i ngi t . . I ' m outofher e" Heget sup Me: " si ty ourol dassdown! " Hel ooksatmet henatmyl awy ert hensi t s down Me: " good. . nowasIwassay i ngaboutmy gener oussel f . . . y ouwi l l t er mi nat ewhat ev er cont r acty ousi gnedwi t hMrMt het hwawi t h i mmedi at eef f ect" Mnce: " what ' si ni tf ory ou? " Qui nt on: " y ouj ustcan' tkeepi tshutcany ouboy ? Daddynev ert aughty oumanner ? . . . pat i ence man" Mnce: " j ustgett ot hepoi nt ! " Me( chuckl es) : " Iknowy oudi dnotj ustr ai sey our v oi ceatmeni ggar ? . . . l i st enher eMncesi shi or what ev ery ournamei s. . . . wat chy our sel fwhen y ouaddr essme. . . . I ' m notLi sakhany anoram I y ourf uckbuddy . . . . under st ood? " Hel ooksatmef i l l edwi t hangerv ei nspoppi ng outwi t hat wi t chi ngey e Me: " now. . i fy ' al l dot hi s. . Iwon' tsendy ' al l t oj ai l andhav emymenki l l y out her e. . orIwon' tgo i nt owarwi t hy ' al l andki l l y ' al l my sel f , ei t her way . . y ' al l getki l l ed. . . . sowhi chi si tgoi ngt obe? " Mnce: " howwi l l y ousendust oj ai l , we' v edone not hi ngwr ong" Il aughi ndi sbel i ef Me: " f i r stofal l y out hel astper sonwhoshoul d bet al ki ngabout' not hi ngwr ong' y ouhav eawi f e wi t hbr ui sesandscar esal l ov erherbody becauseofy ou. . . " Hekeepsqui ethi sf at herl ooksathi m di sappoi nt ed Me: " ohwai t . . daddydi dn' tknow?Shi tIhat et o beabar r i erofspi l l i ngsecr et s. . ( Ishr ug) . . wel l I guessnowy ouknow" MrJohnson: " y oucan' tsendhi mt oj ai l , hehasa ment al di sor der " Me: " Icanal way spuni shhi m myownway . . . . oh t her e' smor e" Il ookatmyl awy er , shenodsandpr essesher l apt opt henf acesi tt ot hem Theyst ar eati tpet r i f i ed MrJohnson: " howdi dy ougetal l t hi s? " Me: " Iam myFat her ' sson. . . y ounev ermessed wi t ht heO' Br i en' swhi l ehewasal i v e. . y out hi nk y oucanmesswi t ht hem now? . . t hi nkagai n" Ther oom f i l l swi t hr angeandt ensi ony oucan ev encuti twi t hanaxe Me( smi r ks) : " So. . . . dowehav eour sel v esadeal señor as? " . . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 29, 07: 24]W: I nser t33 LI SA Qui nt on: " andweher e" Me: " Ihav en' tbeenher esi ncet hel obol a negot i at i ons. . .Howembar r assi ng" Qui nt on: "i t ' snoty ourf aul ty ouhada cont r ol l i ngabusi v ehusband" Me: " hedoesn' tev endeser v et het i t l ehusband" Qui nt on: " atl eastt hecont r acthasbeen t er mi nat ed" Me: " al l t hankst oy ou. . . . al t hought hi swon' tst op t hem f r om comi ngf orme" Qui nt on: " Iknow. . . t hosedi amondshol dal otof v al uei nt hem, ev er y onei saf t ert hem, asl ongas y ouhav et hem, y ou' l l nev erbesaf e" Me: " andi fy ouhav et hem? . . y ouwon' tbesaf e t oo" Qui nt on: " don' twor r yaboutme, Icant akecar e ofmy sel f " Me: " whet hert heybyy ouorme. . . I ' l l st i l l bei n dangerbecauseI ' m par tofy ourl i f e" Qui nt on: " Iknow" Me: " l etgeti nsi de. . . i t sbesti fy ouhav et hem, I wantnot hi ngt odowi t ht hem any mor e, t hey hol dt oomuchev i l " Qui nt on: " l et ' sgogett hem" Heunl ockst hedoorandweheadt owar dst he house, Iknockbutnooneopens Me: " may beshe' sbyt her oundhouse" Iat t emptt ogobutIseehercomi ngt owar dsus car r y i ngabucketwhi chhasmi l l i escor n, l ooks l i keshewasf eedi ngherchi ckens. . mom l ov es chi ckens, sheal way susedt osl aught eronev er y endoft hey earwhenIpassandI ' dgett he bi ggestpi ece, quar t erl eg. . . I ' df eel l i ket heboss oohhy eah Mom: " Mol weni " (hel l o) Me: " Mol omah" ( heymom) Qui nt on: " Ewemol omah. . unj ani ? " ( hey mom, howar ey ou? ) Shef r eezesassoonasherey esl andon Qui nt on, t hi si st hef i r stt i meshe' smeet i nghi m Mom( ast oni shed) : "You! ? " Wel ookatherconf used, wel ookateachot her t henbackather Mom: " y ou. . . mur der er " Me: " mah. . . It hi nky ouconf usi nghi mt o someoneel se" Mom( qui v er i ng) : " y ou. . . MrO' Br i en? . . Youki l l ed myhusband" Wel ookateachot heranxi ousl y . . .Iguessmom i smi st aki nghi mt ohi sdad, whydoeshehav e t ol ooksomuchl i kehi sf at her ! ?They pr act i cal l yl ookl i ket hesameper son Me: " mah. . . cal m down" Mom: " cal m down?Cal m down?Whatdoeshe wanther e? " Me: " Mah. .Thi si sQui nt on, t heguyIt ol dy ou about , r emember ?" Sheshakesherhead Mom: " Nonot hi scan' tbehi m" Me: " mom cany oul etusi nsowecanexpl ai n?" Mom: " nankuusat anezonndi l i ngakwam! " ( t he dev i l mustbet est i ngme! ) Sheopenst hedoorandweheadi nsi de Il ookar oundasIseeal otofchangehasbeen madeawhol el ot t aupgr ade, butIguesst hi si s nott het i met oask. . . wesi tbyt hebr andnew couchesi nt henewl ydecor at edl oungewi t h br andnewf ur ni t ur e, Iseet hel obol amoney camet ogooduse Me: " Mah, t hi si snotRi nal do. . . . t hi si sQui nt on" Mom: "hi sson" Mom: " y ourf at herki l l edmyhusband" Il ookathi m hi sl ooki ngatmom wi t hpl eadi ng ey es Qui nt on: " Mr sMt het hwa. . . . . Isi ncer el yapol ogi se f or . . . . Mom( agi t at ed) : " apol ogi se! ?Youapol ogi se? What ' st hatgoi ngt osol v ehuh?Wi l l i tbr i ng backmyhusband?Wi l l i t ! ? " Qui nt on( humbl y ) : " Nomah, i twon' t " Mom: " what ev erdi dmyhusbandev erdot oy our f at her , whatki ndsofcr eul ev i l manki l l sanot her mani nf r ontofhi sf ami l yhuh? " Idon' tunder st andwhymom i sshout i ngat Qui nt on, hedi dnot hi ngwr ong, hewasn' tev en t her e, hewasst i l l y oung Qui nt onhashi sheadboweddownt aki ngi tal l i n Mom: " ni khohl akel e, nonkeNi na, ni y i mi gul ukudu nj eengal ungangani hambani bul al ai f ami l i es zabant u( y ' al l ev i l , al l ofy ou, y ' al l abunchof r ut hl esst hugswhoar eupt onogood, y ' al l go ar oundki l l i ngpeopl e' sf ami l i es)doest hat sat i sf yy ' al l huh?I st hathowy ' al l makey our r i chesf r om ot herpeopl e' ssuf f er i ngand bl ood! ? " " THAT' SENOUGH!STOPALREADY! " Ibur stout , I ' v ehadi t , i fQui nt oni snotgoi ngt o st andupf orhi msel fI ' l l doi tf orhi m Ij ustcan' t wat chmom hur t i nghi ml i ket hi sandhe' sj ust t oohumbl ef ormyl i ki ng Mom( war ni ngl y ) : " Li sakhany a!hl ukana! awungeni ndawo"( st opi t , t hi sdoesn' tconcer n y ou) Me: " Nomom, y ouhav et ost op, Thi si snot Qui nt on' sf aul t , i t snothi sf aul tt hathewas r ai sedbyanev i l man, he' sher eongoodt er ms t r y i ngt obeabet t ermant hanhi sf at her , Doy ou knowhowmanyt i mest hi smanhassav edmy l i f e?Thi sguyr i ghther et haty oushout i ngati s t her easonwhyy oust i l l hav eadaught eri nt hi s wor l d! . . . Mom: " al sot her easonIdon' thav eahusband, t heonl ymanI ' v eev erl ov ed. . . Me: " Nomahi t snot . . . . . " Li sakhany a! ! " Hesnapsandst ar t l esme, Il ookathi m andhe shakeshi shead Qui nt on( f i r ml y ) : " st op, t hat ' snowayt ot al kt o y ourmot her " What ! ?I shedef endi ngher ? Me: " ButQui nt onshe. . . Qui nt on: " Li sakhany a" Hel ooksatmet hr eat f ul l y , Ihuf fandsi tback Hel ooksatmom r emor sef ul l yt henl ooksback down Mom: " khawubhekeawusenay o nembeko, ut het hanam nomakanj ani ngoba kal okubhekaundi ndaest hubeni nemi gul ukudu kodwaut shat i l e, awuhl oni phi umt shat owakho ngobaubusynamakhwenkweababul al i ! " ( Youseey ou' v el osty ouway s, y out al kt ome any howbecausey oubusygal av ant i ngwi t hl ow l i f egoodf ornot hi ngt hugswhi l ey oumar r i ed! Don' ty ouhav eanyr espectf ory ourmar r i age! ? ) Me: "Mahofy ounotgoi ngt ol i st ent owhatwe hav et osay , It hi nki t sbestwel eav e, we' l l come backoncey ou' v ecool eddown" Qui nt onl ooksl i kehe' sr eadyt oki l l mebutI don' tcar e Ist andup Me: " l et ' sgoQui nt on, i t sobv i ouswenot wel comeher e" Her el uct ant l yget sup, hebowsdownabi tf or mom Qui nt on: " usal ekakhl emah, uxol ongokuza si ngat shongo" ( St aywel l mah, weapol ogi sef orour unannouncedv i si t ) Hebowsagai nt henf ol l owsme, Iwal kasf ast asIcant ot hecar , heopenst hedoor sandwe dr i v eaway Me: " Qui nt on. . .Mymot herhadnor i ght . . . . Qui nt on: " shutupLi sakhany a! " Igaspi nt ot al shock, di dhej ust . . . okay Ther estoft hedr i v ei ssi l ent , Il ookoutt he wi ndowt i l l If al l asl eep" " Yourmot herwi l l comear ound, j ustexpl ai nt o heraboutt hel i t t l ecer emonyt hathast obe done, hemustapol ogi seonbehal fofhi sf at her t oourancest or s" Me: " dad, y ouback!OhdadIj ustdon' tgetwhy mom i ssoangr yathi m" " Mydeat hr eal l yt r aumat i sedher , she' l l come ar ound, I ' m happyt hi sboysav edy ouf r om t hat t oxi cmar r i age, Iknewhewasy our pr ot ect or , st i ckwi t hhi m al oti sst i l l comi ngy our waybaby , butasl ongasy ouhav ehi m, y ouar e saf e, y esy ' al l wi l l hav ey ourupsanddownsi t won' tbeaneasyr oadbutasl ongast her e' s pl ent yofl ov ey ouwi l l bot hbef or ev er happy . . . . don' tt hr owt het owel whent hegoi ng get st oughcausei twi l l , butshowhi mt haty ou l ov ehi m andy oust andbyhi m nomat t er what , he' l l dot hesame" Me: " Iunder st anddaddy , andwhataboutBel l a dad. . . canIt r usthert ohel pme? " " Yes, she' sv er ygood, wi t hhery ' al l beabl et o hav eext r apr ot ect i onf r om t heenemyas t hr oughhery ourenemi eswi l l ber ev eal ed" Me: " Ican' tbel i ev eI ' m soy oungy etIhav e enemi es" " Wecan' tchooset hepeopl ewhowon' tev er bet r ayus, peopl ewi l l al way sf i ndsomet hi ngt o hat ey ouf orwhet hert hey ' l l hat ebecausey ou t oogoodory ouabadper sont hey ' l l al way s hat e. .Choosecar ef ul l yt hepeopl ey ou t r ust , don' tgi v ey ourt r ustt ooeasi l y " Me: " y esdad, I ' l l keept hosewor dsi nmyhear t , daddy , wi l l Qui nt onandIev erwor koutasa coupl eagai n?" " Ibel i ev ehe' l l comear oundj ustgi v ehi mt he t i meheneeds" Me: " okay . . . Ihopey ou' l l keepv i si t i ngme, I ' l l r eal l y needy ou" " Oncey ouhav eBel l ay ouwon' tneedme much, butI ' l l al way sbewat chi ngov ery ou" Hest r et cheshi sar mst omyf aceandcar esses mybr ui sesandIf eel t hepai ngoawayhehugs meandIf eel t hegl or i ouspoweri nhi sbei ng passedont ome, hepul l sout Me: " whooaIf eel l i ght erandbet t er " Ij umpupanddownmybodyi snotsor e any mor eIl ookatmyr ef l ect i oni nt her i v er besi deus Me: " I ' m heal ed!Thebr ui sesar egone!" " Yest heyar e" Me: " wi l l Iwakeupl i ket hi s? " " Notnowbutt henextday " Me: " whati st hi spowerIf eel i nsi deme? " " Thati st hepowerofpr ot ect i on, t hepowerof l ov e, t hepowerofwi sdom. . . .Youwer ebor nwi t h agr eatgi f ty ouar eaheal erandaf or eseer. . but t hi sgi f ti ny oucannotwor ki fy oudon' tbel i ev e i ny our sel fandf or gi v et hosewhohav ewr onged y ou" Me: " butdadhowdoy ouexpectmet of or gi v ea manwhohasv er bal l yandmost l yphy si cal l y abusedme?Amanwhoi spr obabl yst i l l af t er mybl oodaswespeak? " " You' l l f i ndawayt oev ent ual l yunt i l t hen, y our power scannev erwor k, oncey oucanuset hem j ustknowt hey ' l l nev erwor ki fy ouar eangr yor f ul l ofhat eandr ange, t hesear epur e power s, t heyneedapur ehear t " Me: " Iunder st anddad" " Letmel eav ey out oi t , al l t hebestandbe car ef ul oft hechoi cesy oumake" Me: " Iwi l l " " By emybaby " Me: " heeyt hi si st hef i r stt i mey oudi sappear wi t houtl eav i ngmehangi ng" Hel aughs " Inev erl ef ty ouhangi ngbaby , y ounev er concent r at ed" Hewav esandwal ksawayunt i l hev ani shes * * * * * Me: " Il ov ey oudad" " Li sa. . wakeup" Il azi l yopenmyey esandI ' m metby mesmer i zi ngr ai nbowey es Isi tupandInot i ceI ' mi nbed Me: " t hatwasqui ck. . . wher ear ewe? " Qui nt on: " west i l l i nMt hat haataB&B" Me: " oh" Hewal ksaway Qui nt on: " wakeupandf eedy our sel f , goty ou f ood" Isensehe' sst i l l madatme Igetupanddr agmyf eett ot het abl eand pr epar et heNandosmeatchi psandr ol l sf or my sel f , t hi si saoner oom wel l t wor oom i ncl udi ngt oi l et , butt hebedr oom andki t cheni t s al l t oget heri noner oom buti t sv er yspaci ous. Igosi tonmybed, hegott heonewi t ht wo si ngl ebeds, Iguessi tmakessensesi ncewenot acoupl esowecan' tsl eept oget her , If eel my hear tsi nk, t hi spuni shmenti st oomuch, Ir eal l y needt of eel hi m, at went ysecondhugatl east ? Wehav en' thuggedsi ncehecamebacky et y onel aal r eadygott ohughi m. . sounf ai r !And nowI ' m get t i ngt hesi l entt r eat ment , howmuch mor et or t ur ecanagi r l ' shear tt ake? Ist ar eathi m ashe' sl y i ngbont hebedpr essi ng hi sphone, soundsl i kehe' spl ay i ngcandycush, wel i ker aci ngeachot heront hatgameonwho wi l l l eadt ot hehi ghestl ev el , l astt i meIcheckedI wasl eadi ng, wel l t hat ' sbecausei nsomel ev el s whenI ' m st uckhepl ay sf orme, somet i mesI pl ayhi sone Me: " y ounotgoi ngt oeat ? " Hei gnor esme Me: " Qui nt on?" Qui nt on: . . . . .( Pr essi nghi sphone) Me: " Qui nt on?" Hecar r i esoni gnor i ngme Me( l ouder ) : " Qui nt on! " Hel ooksatmewi t ht hemosti nt i mi dat i ngl ook whi chmakesmer egr etshout i nghi sname Qui nt on: " what ? " Isi gh, t hi si st oopai nf ul Me: " ar ey ounothungr y ? " Heshakeshi sheadt hencont i nuespl ay i nghi s phone Igoputmypl at eaway , Il ostmyappet i t e, Il ay onmybedandf acet hecei l i ng, nextt hi ngI knowmyey esar ebur ni ngandt het ear s escape, Imi sshi m somuch, i t sl i kehe' sher ei n t hesamer oom wi t hmebuthe' snotr eal l yher e wi t hme, i t snodi f f er entf r om whenhewasi n Ti mbukt u, t heonl ydi f f er encei st hathi sher e phy si cal l yButI ' m st i l l al oneemot i onal l y , he' s nott hesameany mor e, It hi nkIl osthi m, Il ost t heQui nt onwhol ov edmeuncondi t i onal l yt he onewhocr ackedj okesandal way sput sasmi l e onmyf acenomat t erhowdepr essedI ' m f eel i ng, t heonewhoal way shadt her i ghtt hi ngs t osayatt her i ghtt i me, t hepl ay f ul andf unny one. . . nowIj ustf eel l i keIhav eanor mal body guar d Iwi pemyt ear s " Tel l meonegoodr easony oucr y i ng? " Il ookathi m Qui nt on: " whyar ey oucr y i ngLi sakhany a?I si t f orsomet hi ngy oudi dn' tbr oughtt oy our sel f ? " Me: " Ij ustdon' tgetwhydoy ouhav et obeso col dt owar dsme" Qui nt on: " col d?I ' mt heonebei ngcol d? " Hesi t supont heedgeoft hebed, Ial sogetup Qui nt on: " di dy ouheart hewayy out al kedt o y ourmot herLi sa? . . . t hatwasdi sr espect f ul and col d" Me: " Qui nt on. . .Shewasbl ami ngy ouf or ev er y t hi ng, al l y ourf at her ' sdeedsshewas. . . Qui nt on( angr i l y ) : " Sowhat !Li sahuhSowhat ! Thatdoesnotgi v ey out her i ghtt ot al kt oy our mot hert hatgav ebi r t ht oy oui nt hatmanner ! " Me( shout i ng) : " Iwast r y i ngt odef endy ou! " Qui nt on: " di dIasky out odef endme! ?DoIl ook l i keIneedsomeonet odef endme! ?No!Idon' t needy ourst upi ddef endi ngs! " Thosel astwor dshi tt hecor e, myey esar e pai nf ul f r om t hef l oodoft ear sI ' m hol di ngi n Me( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " I ' m sor r y , Idi dn' tmeant o actoutofst upi di t y" Mymout hi st r embl i nguncont r ol l abl yast he f l oodbr eaksl oosebutIdon' tmakesasound Qui nt on( cal ml y ) : " y ourmot herwasangr y , I under st andt hat , shehast obeangr y , y ou shoul d' v el ethert akeoutal l t hatanger , she neededt osayal l t hoset hi ngsLi sa, f orcl osur e" Me: . . . . ( cr y i ng) Hecomest owar dsmeher ai seshi shand t owar dsmeIcov ermy sel fwi t hmyar ms pr ot ect i ngmyf ace Me: " Pl easeI ' m sor r y !Iwon' tdoi tagai nI swear . . . . ( cr youtl oudandcl osemyey es t i ght l y ) . . . DON' THI TMEPLEEAASE! ! . . . I PROMI SEIWON' TDOI TAGAI N, I ' LLBEHAVE! , I ' LLBEAGOODLI TTLEGI RL! " If eel hi m shaki ngmehol di ngmyar ms Qui nt on: " Li sa!I ' m notgoi ngt ohi ty ou" Ican' thearhi m mycr y sar et ool oud Me: " pl eeaasedon' thur tme" Hepul l smei nt ohi sembr ace Qui nt on: " sshhhhcal m downLi sa. . . I ' dnev erl ay myhandsony ou. . I ' m nothi m, Iwon' thur ty ou Li ss, cal m downbub" Me: " . . . . ( cr y i ngsof t l y ) Qui nt on: " ThatSonofabi t chr eal l yt r aumat i sed y ou. . . oohhhe' l l geti tnow. . . . . ssshhhhI ' m sor r y Li ss, Idi dn' tmeant oscar ey ou, y ousaf enow, no onewi l l ev erputy out hr ought hatagai nokay " Inodandhol dont ohi mf ordearl i f eheal so t i ght enshi sgr i p Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r y . . .Pl easedon' tcr y " [ 07/ 29, 07: 43]W: I nser t34 LI SA Qui nt on: " wegoi ngt ot r yt hi sagai n, t hi st i me l et ' sbemor ehumbl eandr espect f ul t owar ds y ourmot her , okay ? " Inod, wel l west i l l i nsi det hecaraswej ust par kedout si det hehouse, t hi st i mehemade sur eIcal l mom andt el l herwecomi ng, she r el uct ant l yagr eed Me: " okay" Ev er y t hi ngi sj ustdr ai ni ngme, Idon' thav et he ener gyany mor e Qui nt on: " l ook, Ir eal l yappr eci at et haty ouwant t ost andupf orme, Ir eal l ydo, i tshowsmehow muchy oucar ef orme, butr i ghtnowIwanty ou t obej ustt her eandhol dmyhand, t hat ' sal l t he suppor tIneedf ornowokay ?" Inod, hesi ghsheav i l y Qui nt on: " Ihav et oadmi t , I ' m shi tscar edr i ght now, bi tIhav et of aceher , i t st heonl ywayshe canmov eon. . . . doy ouknowwhatwoul dr eal l y cal m myner v esandmakemehappyr i ght now? " Me( bl unt l yi nasadt one) : " wer unawayand nev erl ookback" Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " No, whatwoul dcal m mei st oseey our smi l e, i t sbeenawhi l e" Me: " r eal l y ?" Qui nt on: " y eah, comeonnow, smi l ef orme" Iaut omat i cal l ysmi l eev enshowi ngmyt eet h West ar ei nt oeachot her ' sey essmi l i ngl i ke r et ar dedi di ot s Qui nt on: " t her ei ti s, phew!NowIt hi nkIf eel abi t bet t er " Me: " y oudo? " Qui nt on: " j ustabi t , y ouwantt omakemea whol el otbet t er ? " Inodsmi l i ng Me: " y es, any t hi ng" Qui nt on: " whydon' ty out el l mej ustoneofy our i ncr edi bl yf unnyj okes" Isqui ntmyey esathi m Me: " sot haty oucanmakef unofme?Noway " Hesi ghsandsi t sback Qui nt on( somber l y ) : " guessI ' l l hav et ogoi n t her esadandcomebacksad, wel l somuchf or any t hi ng" Heunl ockst hedoorandat t empt st ogetout butIhol dhi sar m Me: " okayf i ne" Hegi v esmeasl yl ook. . . mxm i di ot Me: " okay . . . uhm, what ' st hedi f f er encebet weena snowmanandsnowwoman? " Hesmi l ewi del yandshr ugshi sshoul der Me: " Snowbal l s" Ihol dmymout haf t erIsayt hat Webur sti nt ol aught er Qui nt on: " hahaha. . . y ousonaught y . . anot herone pl ease" Me: " whatdoest hegr apesayaf t eri t sst epped on? " Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " Not hi ng, i tj ustl et ' soutal i t t l ewi ne" Wel augh Qui nt on: " oohhgoodone, wi neandwhi ne. . . . l ast onebef or eweheadi nsi de" Me: " ay i Qui nt onI ' m noty ourper sonal comedi an " Qui nt on: " pl ease. . I ' m socl oset obei ngsupper happy , pr et t ypl ease" Il augh Me: " ar ghokay . . . what ' st hedi f f er encebet weena t eacherandat r ai n? " Qui nt on: " Idon' tknow" Me: " t het eachersay s' spi touty ougum! ' Butt he t r ai nsay s' choochoochoo! " " Wecr ackupandl augh Qui nt on: " r eal l ychoochooasi nchewchew" Il aughev enl ouderathowf unnyi tsoundswhen heex pl ai nsi t , wel aught i l l ourl aughsgetf ai nt er aswest ar ei nt oeachot her ' sey esl aughi ngabi t Qui nt on: " y ourj okesar esodump, y etsof unny , I r eal l ymi ssedt hem. . . . buty ouknowwhatI mi ssedmost ? " Me( smi l i ng) : " what ? " Qui nt on: " t hesoundofy ourl aught er . . . . . .I tget s meev er y t i me" Me: " Imi ssedy our st oo" Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " st i l l can' tbel i ev ey ourbr ui sesj ust heal edl i ket hat , ov er ni ght " Me: " It ol dy ouaboutt hedr eam, heheal edme" Qui nt on: " y eah, butst i l l , I ' m notonet obel i ev ei n mi r acl esspeci al l ywheni thappensi nf r ontof mei tj ustf r eaksmeout , butI ' m happyy ou heal ed, hopewecanconv i ncey ourmot hert odo t hatl i t t l ecer emony " Me: " shehast o" Qui nt on: " pl easeLi sa, f i r stt hi ngy oudowhenwe geti nsi de, y ouapol ogi set oherf ort hewayy ou spoket ohery est er day " Me: " okay , Iwi l l " Hesmi l et henr ubsmycheek Thel ev el ofr espectanddi gni t yt hi sman possessesi si ncr edi bl e, Ishoul dst ar tshowi ng t hesamequal i t i est oo Me: " y ousur et her e' snot hi ngel seIcando, t o makey ouhappy ? " Myey eswer egl uedt ohi sl i psIl ookedupat hi m andsowashi sonmi ne Qui nt on: " y ourmom mustbewonder i ng, l et ' s geti nsi de" Thatwascl ose Wewal kedt owar dst hehouse, Iknockedand wai t edf orhert oopen, Qui nt onhadhi shandsi n hi spocketl ooki ngdownandobv i ousl yner v ous, Iputmyhandonhi sshoul der Me: " don' twor r y , al l wi l l gowel l " Hesmi l esf ai nt l y Thedooropens Wegr eetandar ewel comedi nsi de Wef i ndherwat chi ngt heonegospel channel Shel ooksal otcal mert hany est er daybutt he angeri sst i l l t her e Ishoul dj ustgett hi swhol eI ' m sor r yt hi ngov er anddonewi t h! Me: " Mah. . . f i r stofal l I ' dl i ket oapol ogi seabout t hemannerIspoket oy oui n, i twas i nappr opr i at eanddi sr espect f ul of me, r egar dl essofhowIf eel , y oust i l l myel der butmosti mpor t ant l yy ouar emymot her , I shoul daddr essy oui nahumbl ewayatal l t i mes, mah, cany oupl easef or gi v eme? " That ' smeswal l owi ngmypr i deandt r y i ngt of i x ev er y t hi ng, i twasmypr i det hatgotmei nt ot hi s muddysi t uat i onany way Il ookedupather Mom( si ghs) : " Li sa, y oust i l l , v er yy oung, j ust becausey ouf i ni shedhi ghschool atanear l y agedoesn' tgi v ey ouar i ghtt or ai sey ourv oi ce atme, t hehar shwayy ouspoket omer eal l y hur tmyf eel i ngs, al l becauseofaboy ?At hug? " Ohnoshedi dnotj ust . . . . .Il ookatQui nt onwho gi v emet hat" don' tev ent hi nkabouti t "l ook Me: " I ' m sor r ymom" Shei gnor esmebutl ooksatmef orav er yl ong t i me, Iguessshe' st r y i ngt or eadme Mom: " di dy out el l hert odot hi s? " Shef i nal l ysay s Mom: " Li sakhany anev erapol ogi ses" Hel ooksatmom f orawhi l e, It hi nkt hi smustbe pr et t yawkwar df orhi m andi snotqui t esur e howt or espondt omom Qui nt on: " Yesmah, Idi d" Si l enceagai n!Isweary oucoul dcutt hi st ensi on wi t hanaxet hat ' showbadi ti s Mom: " okay " Thi smustnotbeeasyf ormom, Iwi shIhad r eal i set haty est er daybef or eIdi sr espect edher l i ket hat Sheswi t chesof ft heTVandshi f therf ocuson us Mom: " di dy ouknowwhoshewaswheny ouf i r st mether ? " Hecl ear shi st hr oat Qui nt on: " Nomah, Idi dn' t " Mom: " whendi dy ouf i ndout ? " Qui nt on: " ar oundFebr uar yt hi sy ear " comeonQl i eal i t t l ey oudon' twantherki l l i ng y oui nf r ontofmedoy ou? Mom: " andy oudeci dedt ost i l l makeherf al l f or y ou, why ? " Mah!Wenott oget heratt hemoment ! !Damnhe won' tbeabl et oanswert hat Qui nt on: " Il ov eher , Icoul dn' tst op" Aawwmyhear tmel t s, hel ov esme, het ol dmy mot her , hel ov esme! ! Atl eastshehast hat" Isee"f acemay bet hat ' sa goodt hi ng Mom: " whendi dy out el l her ? " Qui nt onl ooksabi tconf used Mom: " abouty ourf at her "shecont i nues Qui nt on: " si xmont hsago" Mom: " whydi dy ouwai tt hatl ongt ot el l her ? " Yoohay i t hi sQuest i onandAnswersessi oni s get t i ngmeont heedge Qui nt on: " becauseIwasaf r ai dofl oosi ngher " Shel aughsabi t . . Al r i ght y ! . . .It hi nkwemaki ng pr ogr ess Mom: " andy ouLi sakhany a?Whyar ey oust i l l wi t hhi m?Whydon' ty oul eav ehi m? " Iguessi t smyt ur nt obegr i l l ed Me: " Idon' twantt ol eav ehi m" Okaymay bet hatcameoutabi twr ongbuti t s anhonestanswer Mom: " y oul ov ehi mt hatmuchhuh? " Inod Me: " y esmahIdo" Wel ookateachot her , hewi nksatme, wowt hi s guy , mymom i sr i ghther e, hel l o! ? Mom: " boyy ouhur tmydaught erI ' l l showy ouno mer cyt oy ou, under st ood?" Shewar ns Qui nt on: " y esmah, Iwon' t , Iwoul dnev erdr eam ofhur t i ngher " What ' sgoi ngonher e?I st hi susget t i ngback t oget her ?I st hi shi m gi v i ngmeasecond chance?Someonegetmeoutoft hedar kher e ! OkayIt hi nkmom' sat t i t udet owar dsQui nt on haschanged, i t sl i ket heymadesomesor tof t r uce It el l mom aboutMncedi si andev er y t hi ngt hat hashappened, exceptt hedi amondst or y , It hi nk i t sbestshedoesn' tknowt hat . Me: " soy eaht heyl awy eri sst i l l get t i ngt he di v or cepaper sr eady Mom: " Nxat hatdog, uy andi ny any i say az" ( he makesmesi ck) Me: " I ' v ehadenought al ki ngabouthi m. . . canwe notany mor e" wecar r yont al ki ngaboutot herr andom st uf f andt hemoodhasl i ght enedup Mom: "Khany a, got ot heki t chenandmaket he mansomef ood" Al r i ghtIgett hatt heycool now, butIdon' tt hi nk i t ssaf ef orhumani t yt ol eav et hem al onei nt he samer oom, t oosoon Me: " butmawej ustat e" Qui nt ont hr owsmeadeadgl ar e Ist andup I ' m choppi nguncont r ol l abl yasIwonderwhati s mom t al ki ngaboutIhopeshedoesn' tt el l hi m aboutmymat r i cdr amawi t hmyf i r stboy f r i end! Ohno, I ' m notr eadyt ot el l hi mt hat , i t st oomuch ofembar r assment ! Okayf i nel etmej ustf i ni shup. . Okayt hef oodi snear l yr eady, sol etmedi shup Iputev er y t hi ngonat r ayandheadt ot hesi t t i ng r oom andser v et hem t hei rf ood. Mom: " AhLi sakhany aar ey out r y i ngt oki l l us? " That ' smom hav i ngdi f f i cul t ychewi ngherf ood Ehwhatdi dIdowr ong?Il ookatQui nt onf or backupbackhehasadi sgust edl ookonhi s f acet r y i ngr eal l yhar dt ochewandswal l owbutI canseei t sj ustpai ni nghi m Me: " Mah? " Isayl ooki ngal l ki ndsofi nnocent Mom: " uzobul al aumnt anawabant ui fy oukeep f eedi nghi mt hi ski ndi sf ood, whathappened? Di dt hest ov ebr eakt haty ouhadt ocooki ti n t hef r i dge? " Shesay sasshet akesQui nt on' spl at ef r om hi m" Mom: "i t ' scol dandhor r i bl e, uf unaukusi bi zel a l el i sty osi si ! " Shecont i nuescompl ai ni ngt i l l shedi sappear s t ot heki t chen Il ookatQui nt onandwebot hi nst i t ches!Ei sh di dn' tmeanf ori tt ot ast et haaatbad Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " whathappenedt ot hef ood? I tt ast edl i kedung" Wecan' tst opl aughi ngbutwet r y i ngour har destt ol aughi nsi l ence Wewoul dn' twantmom comi ngbackand t hi nki ngwef i ndt hi swhol esi t uat i onf unny Me: " I ' m sor r y , i t sj ustIwassoner v ousabout y out wobei ngi nt hesamer oom, It houghtshe wasgoi ngt ochopy ouupandf eedy out o Bobbyt henei ghbour ' sdog" Wet r y i ngourbestt ohol di nt hel aughsbuti t har d Qui nt on: " wowLi sst hatwassomer eal bad f ood, i st hatwhaty ougoi ngt ocookf orme wheny ouangr yatmeoncewemar r i ed? " What ! ! ?Mar r i age! ?Sohe' l l mar r ymesomeday ! ? Idon' tt hi nkhehear dhi msel f ? Me( l aughi ng) : " Nohoney , whenI ' m angr yat y ou. . . y ouwi l l St ar v e! ! " He' sl ooki ngatmel i keIj ustst abbedhi mi nt he heat , y oht hedr amawi t ht hi sguy ! Qui nt on: " Ha!Li say oucan' tdot hatt ome, what am It odo?YouknowIcan' tcookandIcan' t l i v eonf astf ood. . I ' l l l oosemyabs. . . It hought y oul ov edt heseabs? " Hesay swi t hast upi dgr i n Me: " Idol ov et hem, Ibety oul ov et hem t oo. . . so y oubet t ernotmakemeangr y" Qui nt on: " y ouknowI ' l l domybest " Hesay sl eani ngov ert oki ssmyf or ehead, he pul l soutbuthi sf acei sst i l l r i ghti nf r ontof mi ne, hi sey esar eonmyl i psIt hi nkhewantt o ki ssmeont hemout h!Whoai fi twer e somewher eel seI ' dber ej oi ci ngI ' v ebeen wai t i ngf ort hi ski ssf ormont hsnow, butnot her e Me: " nankuumama! " ( t her ecomesmom! )Ishout whi sper Yoht hewayhej umps, hi shandsof fmebef or eI cansayI ' mj oki ng!Hej ustdr oppedmel i keI ' ma bagofweednj e!Good!noti nmom' shouse Qui nt on: " Nxuphi ? "( Wher e? )Heasksashe l ooksatt hedoor wayt ot heki t chen Me( gi ggl i ng) : " Iwasj oki ng, want edy out ol eav e meal one! " Hel ooksatmel i keI ' mt hebi ggestscum on ear t h, l i keIj ustcommi t t edt hemostdanger ous cr i mei nt hehi st or yofcr i mes Idon' tt hi nkI ' l l beabl et ost opl aughi ng Qui nt on: " y oudon' tj okel i ket hat , Inear l yhada hear tat t ack" He' st r y i ngt okeepast r ai ghtf acebuti s st r uggl i ng Mom i sback, f orr eal now. . . t hi smani ssucha t r ai t or , whenmom comesi nwi t hf oodhe st andsupandhel pswi t ht het r aybutwhenI camei nher ehewi t hmyt er r i bl ef oodhej ust st ar edatmenj e, j ustl i ket hatmxm Mom: " Li sagof et chsomehotsauceor may o, what ev ert hemanl i kes" Wowsuddenl yt hi smani ski ngnow. . andIdon' t under st andwhycoul dn' tshej ustputt hese t hi ngsont het r ay , Imeani t ' dbi genought of i t t hewhol eMadagascar , any wayIobeyandgo comebackwi t ht het hi ngs LookatQui nt on. . . . busyenj oy i ngmom' sf oodas i fi t st hebestf oodhe' sev erhadi nhi sl i f e, I shoul dj ustl eav ehi m her e, t hey ' dmakeagr eat coupl e Wowcan' tbel i ev eI ' m get t i ngj eal ousofmyown mom hay i ni guy s, t hi sguymust ' v eusedsome v oodoopot i ononme Qui nt on: " Somah, Li sat el l smey ouusedt o wor kf ordepar t mentofeducat i on? " Heasks, bar l eyev enpausi ngbef or eput t i ngt he nextspoonf ul i nhi smout h Mom: " Yes, Iusedt o, butnowI ' mt hi nki ngof st ar i ngmyownbusi nessbutI ' mt r y i ngt osav e, I don' twantt of i ndmy sel fi ndebt s" Qui nt on: " oh. . Isee" Mom: " whatdoy oudof oral i v i ngson?ar ey ou st udy i ng? " Qui nt on: " I ' m cur r ent l ydoi ngmymast er si n Aer ospaceengi neer i ngwhi l ewor ki ngf oroneof t hebi ggestcl ubsi nJo' bur g" Mom: " oh, soy oumakey ourownmoney ? " Qui nt on: " y esmah" Mom: " mmmhwel l y oudodr essl i keaschol ar " Ishoul dpr obabl yi nt er r uptnowQui nt onmi ght f i ndt hi samusi ngbuthedoesn' tknowmymom l i keIdo, onemi nut esshe' l l bet el l i ngy ouy ou dr essl i keaschol arandt henextshe' l l bef ul l bl ownsav aget el l i ngy ouy ourf acei st oo i nappr opr i at ef orl i f e Me: " uhm wel l don' tmi ndme, l et ' sj ustpr et end I ' m nother eatal l " Igetup Mom: " ohandwhi l ey ouati tLi sapl easewash t hesedi shes" Aaar r r ggnoman! !Ihuf fandt aket hedi shes wi t hme. . t heyst ar tt al ki ngassoonasI ' m outof si ght . . nowt hat ' sj ustdownr i ghtmean!, Iput t hem i nt hesi nk, t henmakemywayout si deIgo i nsi det hebi gf encedgar den, Iwal kar oundr i ght t ot hef arcor ner , Igetdownandst ar tdi ggi ngf or t het r easur eIusedt ohi def ordaddy , If i ndt hem andt heyar ebr owncov er edi ndi r t , nomor e shi ny , Iputt hem i nmypocket , al l f i f t yoft hem, I f or gott her ewer et hi smany , Inev erusedt o countt hem, I ' dj usthi det hem, t hesear eal otof di amondsnowondert heyar ewant edsobadl y , I chooset enandl eav et hem behi ndbacki nt he hol e. . Iheadbackt ot hehouseandwasht he di shesqui ckl y Iheadbackt ot hel oungeandQui nt oni sal r eady st andi ngupr eadyt osayhi sgoodby es Qui nt on: " i zobuy ei bonanekemah"( t i l l memeet agai nmah) Hest r et chesf orahandshakebutmom pul l s hi mi nf orahug Ohwow, whatar ewe?Best i esnow? Ial sogohugmom Me: " Ohmom. . . we' l l hav et odoal i t t l ecer emony f or . . . . Mom( i nt er r upt s) : " Iknow, Qui nt onal r eadyasked me" Me: " ooohhhIsee" Il ookathi m andheshr ugs, wow Me: " I ' l l seey ousoonneh" Mom: " okaymybaby , dr i v esaf el yguy s" Me: " wewi l l " Qui nt on: " we' l l gett odi scusst hatt hi ngmor e ov ert hephone" Mom: " y esofcause, wehav et o" Okay !That ' si t !Whatt hi ng?What ' sgoi ngon her e? Weheadoutanddr i v eaway . . . . Me: " weeel l l ? " Qui nt on: " wel l what ? " Me: " t hat' t hi ng' " I ' mt r y i ngher e Qui nt on: " whatt hi ng? " Me: " t heonewewi l l di scusswi t hmom ov ert he phone? " Qui nt on: " y eah, whatabouti t ? " Iscof fIguesshewon' tt el l me Me: " can' tbl ameagi r l f ort r y i ng" Hebur sti nt ol aughi ng, y ohhe' sl augh. . . NonoI seeev enTi mbukt ucoul dn' thel phi m Me: " notf unny " Qui nt on: " aawwi smynoseybubsul ki ng? " Yeey !Webackt ocal l i ngmebub!Thi si sbyf ar t hebestdayofmyl i f e Me( smi l i ng) : " y ourbub? " Hesmi l es Qui nt on: " y eah, ar ey ouany oneel se' s" Hegl ar esatmewi t hat hr eat eni ngy etf unny l ookwi t hhi sonebr owupbef or el ooki ngback att her oad Me: " No, notany oneel se' s" Qui nt on: " good, nowsayi taf t erme. . . . . . Mr Qui nt onAmbr oseO' Br i en. . . Hepausest henl ooksatme. . . ohIguesst hi si s t hepar tIr epeat Me"MrQui nt onAmbr oseO' Br i en" Qui nt on: " Ipr omi set or espectmymot her al way s. . . " Me: " Ipr omi set or espectmymot heral way s" Qui nt on: " nomat t erhowangr yshemakes me. . . " Me: " nomat t erhowangr yshemakesme" Qui nt on: " I ' l l nev erev erev err ai semyv oi ceat her " Me: " I ' l l nev erev erev err ai semyv oi ceather " Qui nt on: " f orshei st heQueenofmyhear t " Me: " f orshei st heQueenofmyhear t" Qui nt on: " MrO' Br i en. . . . Me: "MrO' Br i en" Qui nt on: " i fy ougi v emeanot herchance" Ohmyt hi si shappeni ng! Me: " i fy ougi v emeanot herchance" Qui nt on: " Ipr omi set ohol dy ourhear twi t hcar e asy oudof ormi ne" Me: " Ipr omi set ohol dy ourhear twi t hcar eas y oudof ormi ne" Qui nt on: " pr omi seIwon' tbr eaki tonpur pose" Me: " pr omi seIwon' tbr eaki tonpur pose" Hesi ghsandsmi l es, Iguesst hat ' showhe' s t el l i ngmehe' sgi v i ngmeanot herChance, he hol dsmyhandandki ssesi t Qui nt on: " OhandQui nt on. . " Ohwenotdoney et ? Me: " ohandQui nt on" Qui nt on: " y ouar et hemosthandsomemanI ' v e ev erseen" Okaynowt hat ' she' sbi gEgot al ki ngbuti t sf i ne I ' l l l ethi m hav et hi smoment Me: " y ouar et hemosthandsomemanI ' v eev er seen" Qui nt on: " andt hesexi est " Heheheheheay i I ' m notl aughi ngpeopl e! ! Me: " andt hesexi est" Il ookathi m andhi sbr ushi nghi sl i t t l et r i mmed must ache Qui nt on: " Il ov ey oumor et hanl i f ei t sel f " Me: " Il ov ey oumor et hanl i f ei t sel f" Qui nt on: " andt omakeupf orev er y t hi ng. . . Me: " andt omakeupf orev er y t hi ng" Qui nt on: " whenwegethome" Me: " whenwegethome" Qui nt on: " Iwi l l " Me: " Iwi l l " Qui nt on: " washandki ssy ourf eet " Me: " i ny ourwi l destdr eams, y oubi gknuckl e head!weeehay i bo! " Hecr acksupandl aughs Me: " mx m, i di ot ! " [ 07/ 29, 07: 45]W: I nser t35 LI SA Me: " wownowt heyl ookj ustasshi nyaswhen dadusedt ogi v et hem t ome" Qui nt on: " Yeaht heydo, y ourdadr eal l yl ov ed y ou, t ost eal somany , j ustf ory ou" It hi nkIshoul dt el l hi m Me: " uhm. . . wel l t hat ' snotal l oft hem" Het ur nst ol ookatme Qui nt on: " wher ear et her est ? " Me: " Il ef tt hem" Qui nt on: " why ? " Me: " Idon' tknow, somet hi ngi nmej ustt ol dme t ol eav et hem" Hesi ghst hencomest osi tnextt ome Qui nt on: " whywoul dy oudot hat ? " Me: " Qui nt on. . .Myf at herdi dn' tgot hr oughal l t hatt r oubl eandspi l l hi sbl oodj ustt ohav eal l t hedi amondshesacr i f i cedf orhi sdaught er t akenawayj ustl i ket hat , t hent hatwoul dmean hedi edf ornot hi ng" Qui nt on: " Iunder st and, nott hatIwantal l t he di amonds, butwhatwi l l y oudowi t ht heones l ef t , i t snotl i key ou' l l needt hem" Me: " Il ef tt hem f ordad, he' l l knowwhatt odo wi t ht hem" Qui nt on: " Iunder st and" Heki ssesmycheekIt ur nmyf acet ol ookat hi m br i ngmyf acecl oserandourl i pst ouch, he st ar t smov i nghi sandweshar easl ow passi onat eki ss, Ipul l out Qui nt on: " damn, Imi ssedy ou" Heki ssesmeagai nwi t hmor eent husi asm, hi s bodypushesmeont hebedt of al l onmyback, I hel pmy sel fgetf ur t hert ot hecent r eoft hebed wi t hhi mf ol l owi ngmymov eashe' sont opof me, her est sal l hi swei ghtonmemaki ngme f eel ev er ypar tofhi m, mybodyi sshaki ng, hear t beat i ngoutofcont r ol , i t sl i ket heshi v er sdown myspi nehav egot t enwor set ot hi sman' st ouch, Ican' tev enkeepupwi t hmybr eat hi ng, Ican f eel hi smanhoodget t i nghar derbyt hesecond, hel eav esmyl i psgoi ngdownmyneckt i ckl i ng mewi t hhi st onguemaki ngmegi ggl e, hest ops andpecksmyl i ps Qui nt on: " Il ov ey ouLi sa" Me: " Il ov ey oumor e" Heshakeshi shead Qui nt on: " y oudon' tunder st and" Me: " Ido" Qui nt on: " Li sa, Ir eal l yr eal l yl ov ey ou, i t st oo much, y oudon' tunder st and" Idon' tknowhowt or espondt ot hosewor ds wi t hhi sey essear chi ngont omi ne Me: " Imi ghtnotunder st and, butIknow, whatI f eel f ory ou, i sbey ondanywor dscoul d descr i be" Qui nt on: " y ou' v emademer eal i set het r ue meani ngofl ov e. . . . . . i t sbey ondwhatl ay sout si de f orev er y onet osee, buti t smor eaboutwhat ' s ont hei nsi det hatonl yy oucanseeandf eel f or t heper sony out r ul yl ov e" Me: " I ' m sor r yf orev er y t hi ngI ' v eputy out hr ough " Qui nt on: " pl easel etmenotheary ou apol ogi si ngaboutt hatagai n, okay ? " Inod Weshar ey etanot herki ss Heget sof fme Qui nt on: " gocl eany our sel fup" Il ookatmy sel fandsmel l my sel fwor r i edl y Me: " DoIst i nk? " Qui nt on: " Yes, y ousuf f ocat i ngme" Me( gasps) : " wel l l l . . . uhm. . y oust i nkmor e! You. . y oubi gmeany ! ! . . . st i nkyst i nky pant s. . st i nkyar mpi t s. . .St i nkyst i nky f ace. . . ev er y t hi ng!St i nky !Li kel i keaaabi gf at uhm Skunk!Yeaht hat ' sr i ghtskunk! ! !St i nky skunky ! " Ist or mt ot hebat hr oom wi t hmyheadhel dhi gh ButIknowhe' snotof f endedj udgi ngbyhow he' si nst i t ches Ev enbangi ngt hesi debedt abl eNxmor on Imustsayt hi si soneoft hef ancyshower sI ' v e onl yseenonT. V Whi chquest i onsmyt hought s, di dn' tQui nt on sayhehat est hemoneyandal l t her i cheshi s f at herusedt omake?Sohowi sheaf f or di ngt o st ayher e, Iknowasdamnhel l i t snott hemoney hemakesatt hecl ub, whi chhest oppedwor ki ng t her ef orawhi l enow, sonowt hatIknowt he t r ut haboutev er y t hi nghef eel scomf or t abl e usi ngdaddy ' smoney ?Ineedanswer s, butnot now, wej ustgotbackt oget herandIdon' t wannar ui nt hi smoment , Imi ssedhi m somuch. If i ni shupshower i ng, Iwal kbackt ot he bedr oom andf i ndhi m seat edont hebedal l dr essedupi nhi skhaki chi noswhi t epol kadot shor tsl eev eshi r tandi nst eadofabel thehasa khaki suspenderov erhi sshoul der sandf i ni shes of fwhi t ev ansol dskool , hi shai rhasgr ownabi t i nt oacur l yaf r o, l ooki ngal l ki ndsof sexy , al t hought hi sguyhasabi gEgobuthesur e i sr i ghtwhenhesay she' st hemosthandsome andsexymanI ' v eev ermetandIl ov ehi m mor e t hanl i f ei t sel f Qui nt on: " damngi r l , IknowI ' m hotbutgeezt one downal i t t l e. . . . y oumessi ngt hef l oorwi t hal l t hatdr ool comi ngouty ourmout h" Igasp Me: " ohpl easey ouwi shIwasdr ool i ng" It ur nawayandwi pemymout hj ustt omake sur enodr ool wasdr i ppi ngf r om i t , Ihearhi m l augh.Il ot i onmybodyi nt hebat hr oom anwear mypant yandbr at hencomebackoutwi t ha t owel wr appedar oundme Me: " Qui nt on. . .Whatam Igoi ngt owear ? " Qui nt on: " It hi nkt hatout f i ty oual r eadyhav eon i sdashi ngmyl ov e, weart hat " Ser i ousl y ?Thi sguyi sanbi mbof orr eal Me: " I ' m ser i ousQ" Qui nt on: " di di tsoundasi fI ' mj oki ng? " Me: " soy ouwantmet owal kar oundwi t ha t owel al l day ? " Hesmi r ks Qui nt on: " Imeani tsui t sy ousoper f ect l y , I ' v e nev erseenany onewhor ocksat owel l i key ou dobub. . . y out hebomb! . . . t heI sh! . . . t he Me: "t heshutupbef or eIst r angl ey ou! " Hemov eshi sf i nger sacr osshi smout hasi f he' szi ppi ngi tt henl ooksdown Qui nt on: " It hought . . . Me: "zi pi t " Qui nt on: " Iwasj ust Me: "l al al al aI ' m notl i st eni ng" Hekeepsqui etf orawhi l e Qui nt on: " I . . Me: "at at at at a. . " Heshut supdef eat ed Me: " good, nowt el l mewher ear ewegoi ng?" Heshr ugshi sshoul der s Me: " soy oual l dr essedupf ornot hi ng?" Hemakest hat" may be"f ace Me: " what . . . y oucan' tspeaknow? " Heshr ugs, hemov eshi sf i nger sacr osshi s mout hzi ppi ngi tandt hr owi ngawayt he i magi nar ykey Me: " okayf i ne. . . Igi v ey ouper mi ssi ont ot al k now" Hei ndi cat est hekey sar el ostusi nghi sbody l anguage Me: " ohcomeonQui nt on, j ustopeny ourmout h" Hesay sIcan' twi t hhi sf aci al expr essi onand hands. . goshhel ookssost upi dandcut eatt he samet i me Me: " f i ne, l etmel ookf ort hem. . . y out hr ewt hem t hatwayr i ght ? " Ipoi ntatt hedi r ect i onhet hr ewt hekey s Hemakest he" It hi nkso"f ace Il ookal l ov ert hef l oorl ooki ngf ort hese " i magi nar ykey s" Me: " Ican' tf i ndt hem Q" Hemakesasadf ace Me: " hel pmel ookf ort hem " Heget supandwel ookf ort hem, wear ebot h l ooki ngdownsear chi ngf ort hekey s whenourheadsbumpi nt oeachot her Me: " Ooouuch! " Hemakest he" sor r y "f ace, Il ookdownand t hat ' swhenIpr et endIseet hekey sr i ght bet weenus, heal sol ooksdown, wel ookateach ot heri nexci t ement , wegetdownatoncet o gr abt hem butbumpourheadsagai n Me: " Dude! . . . y ouhav et ost opbumpi ng me. . samespot ! " Het akest hekey st henhandst hem t ome, I t akest hem andunl ockhi smout ht henunzi pi t , hebr eat hesout Qui nt on: " Icant al k. . . i tami r acl eIcant al k, t hank t heheav ens, t hankt heAl mi ght yf . Me: "don' tmakemezi pi tagai n! " Heshuti ti mmedi at el y , Ibur sti nt ol aught er Me: " wesodumb" Qui nt on: " ppsshhhgi r l pl ease. . . speakf or y our sel f . . don' ti nv ol v emei ny ourpr obl ems" Hemadet hebuzzof fsi gnwi t hhi shandl i kea gi r l r ol l i nghi sey es Me: " pl easedon' tev ent r ychangi ngdi r ect i ons onme. . . Ineedy out ocont i nuest r ai ghtasa r ul er " Qui nt on: " whati fI ' mt hef l exi bl er ul er " Ir emai nqui etandj ustl ookathi m Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " I ' m ki ddi ng. . . y oushoul dsee t hel ookony ourf ace! " Isi ghi nr el i ef Me: " don' tpl ayl i ket hat , Iwasact ual l yst ar t i ngt o bel i ev ey ou" Iwasn' tr eal l y Hecomesupt ome Qui nt on: " doIl ookgayt oy ou? " Notasi ngl ebi t Me: " i t sokayt ost epoutoft hecl oset " Qui nt on: " whatcl oset ?Don' tmesswi t hme Li sa" Me: " Ipr omi seIwon' tj udge, y oucan' thi dewho y our eal l yar ef or ev er . . . . . . I ' l l under st and. . . Real l y . . . . . ( gi ggl i ng)Ther e' snot hi ngt obe ashamedof . . . . " Heshut smeupwi t hahungr yki ss, ki ssi ngme sof ast , hi shandsr unal l ov ermybodygr abbi ng myassr oughl y , hepi cksmeupandpi nsme agai nstt hewal l , myt oescur l i ng, br eat he deepeni ng, If eel moi stf or mi ngi nmyey est hi s ki ssi smaki ngmeemot i onal i t sf i l l edwi t hal l sor t sofemot i ons, he' smov i nghi swai sti n ci r cul armot i on, mybodyi sv i br at i ng, mypunani i spai nf ul andbeat i ngf ast , t hat ' showhor nyI am, hi sl i psl eav emymout hhi sFr enchki ssi ng mynoseHel eav esmynoset oki ssi ngmy ey es, Ican' tst opgi ggl i ng, whi l eI ' ml i cki nghi s l i psandcheeks, i t sget t i ngmessyandwei r dI l i ckhi m al l ov erhi sf aceandsoi sheon mi ne, moppi ngeachot herup, myhandsst r oki ng t hi ssof thai r , hepi nsmyhandsov ermyhead agai nstt hewal l andki ssesmyneckt henl eav es hi ckey sal l ov er , hecomesupt omyf ace sucki ngmycheek, i shemaki nghi ckey sonmy f ace?Ev enmyf or ehead, Ir et ur nt hef av ourand suckhi m al l ov ert hef acel eav i nghi ckey s Ipul l out , br eat hi ngheav i l y , t hatwasoneoft he cr azi estmakeoutsessi onI ' v eev erhadi nmy l i f e Wel ookateachot her , Il ookatal l t her edspot s onhi sl i ghtski nnedf aceandbur sti nt ol aught er Me( l aughi ng) : " guesswhat ! ? " Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " y oupol kaf acemat chesy oupol kashi r t " Wecr ackupandl aughashel et ' sgoofme Qui nt on: " wel l t hanky ou. . . gogetdr essed bub, weneedt ogetgoi ng, andy ouj ustcr eased myshi r tnowy ou' l l hav et oi r oni tagai n" Me: " ar ey ouaski ngmeort el l i ngme? " Qui nt on: " i t sanor der " Me: " oh?Wel l t henI ' dl i keadoubl echeese bur ger , f r i es, por kr i bs, st ake, pi zza, st i cky wi ngs, f ul l chi cken. . . . ohandsome( f ancy t one) . . . hor sd' oeuv r e? " I ' l l nev erf or gett hatwor dagai naf t ert hewayi t embar r assedme Hebur st si nt ol aught er Qui nt on: " hour sd' oeuv r e?Iseey ou' l l nev er f or gett hatdaywi l l y ou? " Me: " uy aphaphaQui nt on" Hepul l smecl oset ohi m andki ssesmy f or ehead Qui nt on: " andy oul ov emej ustl i ket hat " Me: " unf or t unat el y" Hechuckl es Me: " l et ' spl easehav eaconv er sat i ont hat ' s goi ngf or war dpl ease. . . nowt el l mewhatam I goi ngt owear ? " Qui nt on: " y oucanl ookf orsomet hi ngi nmy cl oset " Me: " soy out r y i ngt omakemeaf l exi bl er ul er l i key ounow? " Il augh, hesqui nt shi sbr ows Qui nt on: " y ouknowI ' m al r eadyr eadyt ogoso I ' l l j ustl eav ey ouher e" Me: " okayf i ne! " Iwal kt ohi scl osetandl ookf orsomet hi ngt o wear , If i ndani cepai rofgr eygy m shor t sanda bl ackandwhi t emockneckmuscl eshi r t , I deci det oweart hatt henwor ehi sot herpai rof v anst hatl ookl i ket heoneshei swear i ng, I combmyhai ri nt oal oosepony t ai l , Iwal kback t ot her oom, If i ndhi m pr essi nghi sphone Me: " l et ' sgo" Qui nt on( l ooki ngdownonhi sphone) : " t hought y oudi edi nt her e" Hel ooksupatmehi sj awdr opsashel ooksat mei nawel ooki ngatmeupanddownsl owl y Me( smi r ks) : " l i kewhaty ouseepapi ? " Imov emywai sti nci r cul armot i on Hel ooksatmysi l l yf aceandal l t hel ustand admi r at i ononhi sf acedi sappear sl ooki ngat meast houghIj ustl ostmymi nd. . . I ' m ki ndaa sackdancerIcan' tdancegosav emyl i f e, soy ou cani magi net hatci r cul armot i on. . . mor el i ke Pent agonmot i on Qui nt on: " y oumakeagoodaddi t i ont ot he br ot her hood" Hest r et chesouthi shandi naf i stf orust of i st pump Me: " mx m. . l et ' sj ustgo" Iwal kaheadofhi m asweheadoutt her oom he spanksmyassmaki ngmegi ggl e. .Thi sguy !I ' m t r y i ngt obemadathi m her e! Wear enowont her oadi t sar ound15: 30pm Me: " sowher ear ewegoi ng? " Qui nt on: " f i r stwegoi ngt of et chy ourst uf fi n mncekese' sapar t ment . . . . " Ichuckl ewi l l heev ersayhi snamecor r ect l y ? Qui nt on: " t henI ' mt aki ngy out ov i si tmyf ami l y " Me: " butIr eal l ydon' twantt ogot her e. . . t o mnceseke' s" hechuckl es Qui nt on: " hewon' tev encomecl oset oy ouofhe knowswhat ' sgoodf orhi m" Me: " he' scr azyQui nt on, whati fhel ocksusup andkeepushost age, andmakeusdocr azy t hi ngs? " If eel myhear t beatr aci ngi nf earandmyf aded br ui sesachi ngasi ft heyst i l l t her e Qui nt on: " bub. . . . don' twor r yabouthi m, hewon' t t ouchy ou, Ipr omi se" Hehol dsmyhandwhi chwasonmyt hi ghand l ocksi ti nt ohi s Qui nt on: " wewon' tev enwast emucht i me, y ou' l l j ustt aket hesmal l v al uabl et hi ngs. . . Inot i ced y ouf oundy ourbi r t hdaygi f t ?Youshoul dt akei t " Ohno, howam Igoi ngt ot el l hi mt hati t sno mor e If eel t ear st hr eat eni ngIl ett hem f al l Qui nt on: " okaywedon' thav et ogoi fy oudon' t wantt o? " Ishakemyhead Me: " i t snott hat " Qui nt on: " whati si t ?Hehasnocont r ol ov ery ou nowhecan' tt ouchy ou, notwhi l eI ' m st i l l br eat hi ng" Me: " hedest r oy edi t ! " Qui nt on: " huh? " Me: " t hebi r t hdaygi f t , het ooki twhi l eIwas sl eepi ngandhebur nti t !Hedest r oy edi t " Qui nt on: " hedi dwhat ? " Isob Qui nt on: " okay . . . i t sf i ne, Ihav epl ent yoft hose pi ct ur esI ' l l makey ouanot herone" Ismi l ef ai nt l yandl ookathi m concent r at edon t her oad Me: " r eal l y ?" Henodsbutangeri swr i t t enal l ov erhi sbody Qui nt on: " t el l meev er y t hi nghedi dt oy ou. . . . i n bed" Ohi tgi v esmet hecr eepsj ustt hi nki ngabouti t Me: " y oudon' twannaknowt r ustme" Qui nt on: " Li sa. . . . t el l me" It akeahugebr eat he Me: " heusedt ocuf fmet ot hebed, t i emybody wi t hr opes, hewoul dputal l di f f er entsi zesof di l dosi nmyv aj i na" Hemakesadi sgust edf ace Me: " he' dcl i ppai nf ul met al t hi ngsonmyni ppl es andmyVj cl i t s, t henhe' df uckmeuncont r ol l abl y , he' dpourhi scum al l ov ermybodyandcov er myf acewi t hi t , somet i meshe' dbl i ndf ol dme andcov ermymout hwi t habal l gagwhi l ehe t i esaheadhar nessar oundmy head. . . . . . ( cr y i ng) . . . .He' dhe' dsomet i mesf uck mei nt heanal hol e! " Qui nt on: " okay . . . . okay . . . . . . . . . . i t sokay . . . . . i t s okay . . . . . i ft hat ' showhel i kesi ti t sokay " Hewi pest eardr opst hatmanagedt oescape hi sey e, t hehur ti nhi sf aci al expr essi oni snot har dt omi sssoi st her ange Wegett ot heapar t mentandhi scari spar ked out si de Me: " he' shome. . . . Qui nt on. . .I ' m scar ed" Qui nt on: " y ouwi t hmenow, hecan' tt ouchy ou" Heget soutandIst ayi nsi dehecomesar ound t oopent hedoorf ormeandpul l smeoutI r el uct ant l ygetout , heknocksatt hedoor, Ihear hi sv oi cet al ki ngasi tget scl oser , Ihol dont o Qui nt on' sar m, heopensourey esl ock, If eel war mr ushofbl oodf l ushdownandIi nst ant l y becomecol d He' sont hephone Mnce: " I ' l l cal l y ouback" . . . . Mnce: " y eahy eahdowhat ev ery ouwant " Hedr opst hecal l Hesmi l esatme, t hatev i l smi l et hatonce char medme Mnce: " khany a?Youback" Me( qui v er i ng) : " I . Ij ust . . Qui nt on: " weher et opi ckupherst uf f . . . . i fy ou don' tmi nd? " Theyl ookateachot herequal l ydanger ousl yl i ke t heyaboutt oj umponeachot heraf t ert hecour t ofTHREE! . . . . t hat ' showr eadyt heyar e Mnce: " y oucancomei n. . . khany a" Hemakessur ehe' sonl yr ef er r i ngt ome Myf eetar egl uedt ot hi sspot , I ' m notgoi ngi n t her eal onewi t hhi m Qui nt on: " I ' m her et ohel phersoi fy oucoul d j ustmakewayf orust ocomei n. . . . . . . pl ease" Headdsasar cast i cpl eadi ng Mnce: " t hi si smi neandLi sa' shouseandy ounot wel come" Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " cr azyni ggargetoutofour way " Hebumpshi m ashepul l smyf r ozensel fi nsi de wi t hhi m Sur pr i si ngl yMncedi si doesn' tf i ghthi m Iheadt ot her oom l eav i ngt hem i nt hesi t t i ng r oom QUI NTON Me: " ar en' ty ougoi ngt oof f ery ourguest somet hi ngt odr i nk? . . . . y ouhav esomer eal l y goodwhi skey , Imustsayy ouhav esomet ast e" Mnce: " y ou' v ehadmywhi skey ?" Me( l aughi ng) : " don' tcr y . . . . Ionl yhadone gl ass. . . buti fi tmakesy ousosad. . I ' l l buyy oua newbot t l e, bef or ey ougor unni ngt o daddy , sni t chi ngt hatIst ol ehi sbaby ' sf or mul a" Il augh. . . manIenj oymaki ngf unoft hi sguy , j ust wai t i ngf ort hemomenthe' l l bur standt r yt o punchmeorsomet hi ng, butIguesshe' st oo muchofacowar dt of i ghtamanhe' dr at her f i ghtt hewwomenwhocan' tf i ghtback. . . If eel l i kest r angl i ngt hepsy chopat hi cl i f eoutof hi m. . . al l i nduet i meQui nt on. . cal m downbeast wi t hi nme. . cal m down. . . . her eal l ydi sgust sme j okesasi de, hemakesmyi nsi dest ur n, l i t er al l y ! Mnce: " i fy ougoi ngt ohav eabi gmout h, I suggesty ougetoutmyhouse" Me: " whooaal et ' snotgetemot i onal now. . . al l becauseofwhi skey ?Noman, It hi nkwehav e bet t ert hi ngswecoul df i ghtabout " Hecl i ckshi st ongueandmakeshi swayt ot he r oom, I ' m guessi nghe' sgoi ngt oLi sa, Iseehi m cl osi ngt hedoorbehi ndasheent er s. . If ol l ow andst andnextt ot hedoort oeav esdr op, Li sa mustbesof r eaki ngoutr i ghtnow. LI SA I ' m sof r eaki ngoutr i ghtNow!Hest andi ng agai nstt hedoorwat chi ngmepackmyst uf f Mnce: " Soy our eal l yl eav i ngme? " Ii gnor ehi m, mov i ngasf astasIcan, j ust dumpi ngev er y t hi ngi nmysui t case Mnce( somber l y ) : " pl easedon' tl eav eme" Hewal kscl oser , Iswearmyhear ti saboutt o popr i ghtoutt hr oughmychestandI ' m per spi r i ng Mnce: " I ' m sor r yaboutev er y t hi ng. . . . .Ther apyi s r eal l ygoi ngwel l , Iknowhowt ocont r ol my sel f now" Het akesashi r tf r om t hecl ot hesandf ol dsi t t henput si ti nt hesui t case Mnce: " Idon' tknowwhat ' swr ongwi t hme, why doIal way shur tt hepeopl eIl ov et hemost . . . . I hat emy sel f , causeIl ov ey ousomuchLi sa" I ft hi swer et heol dLi saIwoul dact ual l ybel i ev e t hewor dscomi ngouthi smout h, butt hi sLi sai s di sgust edandwant st ogetawayf r om t hi sman asf araspossi bl e Mnce: " pl easegi v emeanot herchanceLi sa, I don' twantt ol oosey ou" Igat herupmyscar cecour age Me: " Younev erl ov edmeLi am. . . wheny ouf i r st metme, y oudi dn' tf al l i nl ov e, y ouj ustsawa weakl i t t l egi r l whoy ou' l l makey ournextsex pr oj ect . . . . ( t akesadeepbr eat he) . . . Ihat ey ou Li am, Ihat ey ouf orev er y t hi ngy ouputme t hr ough, Ihat et hedayIev ermety ou, Ihat ey our f at herIhat ey ousomuch. . hat ehat ehat ehat e hat et hat ' sal l If eel f ory ou! " Mnce: " pl easedon' tsayt hat , Khany a, y out he bestt hi ngt hat ' sev erhappenedt ome" Me: " andy out hewor stt hi ngt hat ' sev er happenedt ome. . . . . ev enaf t erev er y t hi ngy ou putmet hr ough, wi t ht hesexandbeat i ngmeup wheny ouangr yort hi ngsdi dn' tgoy our way . . y oust i l l goaheadandcheatonme. . . y ou cheatonmewi t hLul ama, Iknowy oudi dn' t r espectmebutIt houghtI ' dact ual l yst ar tt o l ear nt ol ov ey ou, buti t sobv i ousIwasnot hi ng butapi eceoft r asht oy ou, howmanyot her womenhav ey ousl eptwi t ht hencamebackt o sl eepwi t hme?Huhhowmany ? . . . Youbl oody sexf r eak" Iseehi m get t i ngangr y Me: " Youcr azy . . ! " Mnce: " I ' m not ! " Me: " Youar e. . Youcr azyandy oushoul dbe l ockedup! " Mnce( shout s) : " I ' m.Not .Cr azy ! " Hehol dsmyshoul der st i ght l yshaki ngme. . . my ey espopoutast heangeronhi sf acebr i ngs backal l t hef l ashbacksoft heev i l t hi ngshedi d t ome Mnce( v i ol ent l y ) : " I ' m.Not .Cr azy " " Gety ourf i l t hyhandsof fher ! ! " Hegr abshi m wi t hhi scl ot hi ngf r om behi ndand pusheshi mv i ol ent l yt owar dst hewal l wher ehe hi thi sheadandgr oansi nagony Iqui ckl ycl osemysui t case. . . whi l eQui nt oni s busyki cki nghi m ont hest omachmul t i pl et i mes, het hr owshi sl egov erhi m gr abshi sshi r twi t h hi sonehandwhi l et heot heri spunchi ngt he day l i ght soutofhi m, t i l l hewascov er edwi t h bl oodal l ov er , hepassedoutbutQcont i nued punchi nghi m Me( spooked) : " Qui nt on!Youki l l i nghi m! " Qui nt on: " hemustdi e! !Hedeser v est odi e! !Son ofabi t ch! " He' spunchi nghi m unmer ci f ul l y Me( cr y i ng) : " Noti ny ourhands!Qui nt on!Pl ease! Noti ny ourhands! " Hest opsandl ooksupatme, whi l eI ' m cr y i ngon mykneespl eadi nghi mt onotki l l hi m Me: " Pl ease! . . . . don' tki l l hi m" Heget supandspi t sonhi m, It hi nkhe' sal r eady dead Qui nt on: " Ist opped. . . .Okay ?Ist opped" Hesay scomi ngsl owl yt owar dsme, heget s downonhi skneesi nf r ontofmeandhol dsme endur i ngl yi nt ohi sembr ace Qui nt on: " sshhhdon' tcr y . . . pl easedon' tcr y " Ipul l awayf r om hi m asIl ookatLi am' sst i l l bodycov er edi nbl ood Me: " Qui nt on. . .Youki l l edhi m? " Heshr ugs Imov ecl osert ol i am Ishakehi sbodyt r y i ngt o wakehi m up Me: " pl easedon' tdi e. . . pl ease, noti nt hehandsof t hemanIl ov e. . . . wakeupy oubi gj er k!Youcan' t di et hi seasi l y !Wakeup! ! " Hecoughs. . oht hankgoodness, It ur nt ol ookat Qui nt on Me: " he' sal i v e. . . . l et ' sgo" Igetupandwer ushoutoft hehouse Thedr i v ei ssi l ent , webot hst i l l t r y i ngt opr ocess ev er y t hi ng. IknowQui nt oni spr obabl yi nv ol v edi nshady t hi ngs, butmymi ndandhear tst i l l can' tbr i ng met obel i ev et hathe' scapabl eofki l l i ng? Taki ngal i f e?Mur der er ?. . . . Nonotmyl ov ebug he' st ooki ndandl ov i ngf ort hat . Igl anceathi m ashe' sconcent r at edont her oad l ooki ngasangr yasev er Hehol dsmyhandandgl ancesbackatme Qui nt on: " ar ey ouokay ? " Isi gh Me: " I ' mf i ne" Whydoweal way ssaywef i neev ent houghwe cl ear l yar en' t ? Qui nt on: " Iknowy ounotf i ne, y ou' l l nev erbef i ne whi l ehe' sst i l l br eat hi ng, obsessedandwant i ng y ouback" Me: " pl easedon' tki l l hi m Qui nt on. .Noty ou" Qui nt on: " Iwon' tki l l hi m" Me: " pr omi semey ouwon' t" Qui nt on: . . . . het akesmyhandandsqueezesi tbef or e ki ssi ngi tgent l y Qui nt on: " Ipr omi se" . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 29, 08: 39]W: I nser t36 LI SA Hepar kedout si det hehouseandwesati nt he carf orawhi l et r y i ngt ocal m our sel v esdown bef or egoi ngi nt ohav edi nnerwi t hhi sf ami l y , wehadt opassbyhi shouset houghsohe changedcausehi sot hercl ot heshadabi tof bl oodst ai nshewor eanout f i tcl oset ot heone I ' m wear i ng, buti nst eadofshor t shewor el ong pant sandamockneckmuscl eshi r t . . . Qui nt on: " okayy ou' v ebeendownsi ncet hat i nci dentwi t ht hepsy cho. .Comeon, Ineedt hat moodwehadgoi ngonear l i er , pl easesmi l e" Me( f akesmi l es) : " I ' m goodQui nt on" Qui nt on: " don' tf akesmi l eme" Me( genui nesmi l e) : " I ' m not " Qui nt on: " nowy ounot " Qui nt on: " come. . . gi v emeaki ss" Hel eanedt owar dsmyf acewi t hhi sl i ps pount edandey escl osed Me: " sayt hemagi cwor d" Heopenedoneey e Qui nt on: " comeonej ustki ssmeal r eady " Me: " nah, uhnotunt i l y ousayt hemagi cwor d" Hesi ghs Qui nt on( mut t er s) : " pl ease" Me: " Idi dn' tgett hat ? " Imov emyeart owar dshi sl i ps Qui nt on( qui et l y ) : " pl ease" Me: " soundl i key ousay i ng, nev ermi ndf or getI sai dany t hi ng? " Qui nt on: " pl easepl easepl easepr et t ypl ease wi t hacher r yont op! " Il aughathi m whenhej ustbl unt l yki ssesme whi l eI ' ml aughi ng, obv i ousl yIki sshi m back, unt i l Ipul l outsi ncehewasn' tpl anni ng i nt oany t i mesoon Qui nt on: " y ourhi ckey sar ev ani shi ng. . l etmedo t hem agai n" Me: " No!I ' m notaboutt ogoi nt oy ourpar ent ' s homewi t hhi ckey sal l ov ermyf ace!Youcr az y ? " Qui nt on: " abouty ou, y es" Me: " cl i ché" Hel aughs, t henpul l smeunexpect edl yf or anot herki ss, hemov est omycheekandsucksi t f ordearl i f e, whi chwaski ndapai nf ul andni ceat t hesamet i me Qui nt on: " t her ey ougo" Me: " Qui nt on!Whydi dy oudot hat ? . . .I ' m not goi ngi nt her el ooki ngl i ket hi s. . atl eastnot al one" Ipul l hi mf oranot herki ss, Isuckhi m onhi s cheekboner i ghtnextt ot heey e Me: " aahhy eahy oul ook. . . . uhm ar t i st i c" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " y out omyl ov e. . . l et ' sgoi nsi de, shal l we?Myar t i st i cmadar m" Me: " Yessi r " Heget soutt hencomesar oundt oopent he doorf orme, outofal l t heupgr adet hi smanhas done, hest i l l dr i v est hi sol dgol f , hel ov esi tso much, Idon' tt hi nkhe' l l ev ergetr i dofi t Het akesmyhandandst ar t swal ki ngbutI r ef r ai nmy sel fasIst andnextt ot hecar , causeI j ustr eal i zedhowner v ousIsuddenl yam Qui nt on: " l et ' sgeti nsi de" Ishakemyhead Qui nt on: " what ' st hemat t er ? " Me: " Ij ustr emember ed, y ourf ami l yhat esme" Qui nt on: " t hat ' swhyIboughty ouher e, t ost op t hei rst i nki ngat t i t udes" Me: " y ou' l l sayt hat ? " Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " wel l noti nexactwor ds" Me: " y oucansaywhat ev erbuti twon' tmake t hem changehowt heyf eel aboutme" Hemov escl osert ome Qui nt on: " t heydon' that ey oubub" Me: " t heydo" Qui nt on: " t heydon' t " Me: " t heydo" Qui nt on: " t heydon' t " Me( si ghs) : " t heydo" Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " y ousocut ewheny out al kl i keababy " Me: " mx m, t akemebackt oy ourpl ace" Qui nt on: " y oumeanourpl ace, pl easest ar t cal l i ngi thome" Me: " pl easet akemehome" Qui nt on: " No" Het ur nshi sbackonmet henf or cesapi ggy r i de, hel et ' shi msel fi nsi deaf t erpr essi ngsome but t onsbyt hedoor Qui nt on: " HoneyI ' m hooome! ! " Candr acomesr unni ngdownt hest ai r s, heput s medownasheopenshi sar mswi det ohol d Candr ai nahug Candr a: " Imi ssedy ouIl ov ey ouy out hebest br ot heri nt hewor l d. . . . sodi dy oubr i ngt hatt hi ng Iaskedf or ? " Qui nt on: " wow, suchgenui nel ov esi s" Shel aughst henbecomesser i ousi mmedi at el y Candr a: " di dy ou? " Qui nt on: " I ' v ebeenr eal l ybusy , wi l l geti tsome ot hert i me" Shef i nal l yl ooksatmeasIwasst andi ngbehi nd Qui nt on, het ur nsandhol dsmyhand Candr a: " whati sshedoi ngher e? " Qui nt on: " t ookmeawhi l et obei nt hi sgood moodsi s. . . pl easedon' tr ui ni t " Candr a: " t heot her sar eatt heback" Shel eadsust ot hebacky ar dwher et her e' sher mot herandt woot hergent l ement hatl ookl i ke hi sbr ot her s They oungeronewhol ookedmor ewhi t et han t her estcameupt ous I ' m guessi nghemustbeAi dan Tot al l yi gnor i ngQui nt onhecomesupt omeand pul l smei nahug Ai dan: " HeyLi sa. . . i t ssogoodt of i nal l ymeet y ou" Ihesi t at ebef or eIhughi m backf orqui t ea whi l e, l i kehe' smi ssedmesomuch Me: " gr eatt of i nal l ymeety out ooAi dan" Qui nt on: " t hat ' senoughAi dan" Hel et ' sgo, hesmi r ksashepoi nt satQui nt on wi t hhi sheadandey esmaki ngmel augh Ai dan: " ImustsayIknewy ouwer epr et t y , butI t houghtmybr owasexagger at i ngwhenhesai d y oul ookev enmor ebeaut i f ul i nper son. . . .Guess hewasn' t" Mycheeksheatup Me( bl ushi ng) : " aawwt hanky ou. . . Iseet he handsomenessr unsi nt heO' Br i enDNA" Hechuckl esst i cki nghi st ongueout , Ai dan( br ushi nghi scheeks) : " weel l l asy oucan see" Iguesst heEgoi sal soi nt heDNA. . Ir ol l myey es Ai danpul l smeawayf r om Qui nt on' shandsand l eadsmet ot hegr i l l erwher et heol derbr ot her wasf l i ppi ngpor kchopswhi chmademyt ummy gr umbl e, Idon' tr emembereat i ngaf t ersi nce br eakf ast . . He' st ooconcent r at edonwhathe' s t y pi ngonhi sphonewhi l ehi sot herhandi s hol di ngat ongpat t i ngt hemeatwi t hi t Ai dan: " pl easedon' tbur nt hemeatagai n, I ' m t i r edofeat i ngpor kr ocksev er yt i mey ougr i l l " Hequi ckl yf i ni shesof fpr essi nghi sphone bef or eput t i ngi ti nhi spocketandl ooksat us, hi sey esmeetmi nebef or ehecoul dut t era wor dt oAi dan Ai dan: " Iknowr i ght ?Thatwasmyf i r str eact i on" Cl y de: " sohewasn' texagger at i ngaf t eral l " Heput st het ongdownt henwal kscl osert o me, hel ookssobuf fwi t hhi st at t ooedar msand neckandpi er ci ngbl ueey es Cl y de: " I ' m Cl y de" Me: " I ' m Li sa" Cl y de: " Iknow" Me: " okay " Cl y de: " shoul dIhugy ouorhandshakey ou? " Me: " any one" Cl y de: " I ' l l hugy ou? " Me: " sur e" Heget scl oserandopenshi sar mswi dehe wr apst hem ar oundmyshoul dersuf f ocat i ngmy f aceonhi shar dchest , If r eezesay i ngasi l ent pr ay ert hathedoesn' tsquashmet odeat h Me( whi sper i ng) : " ohhol yJesusIdi dn' tmeant o squasht hatspi dert heot herweekpl ease f or gi v eme, t hi scan' tbemykar ma" IhearAi danl aughi ngt hensomeonesepar at es us Qui nt on: " t hat ' senoughhugsf oroneday " Hepul l smet ohi m Cl y dei sl i kear obotorsomet hi nghedoesn' t expr essmuchf eel i ngs, hi ssmi l el ast sf oronl y t wosecondst hendi sappear s, hel ooksv er y i nt i mi dat i ngandIt houghtQui nt onwast he mosti nt i mi dat i ngper sonIknow, Hegotnot hi ng onCl y de Ai dan( l aughi ng) : " Cl y deher eal mostsquashed y ourgi r l l i ket hespi dershesquashedaf ew weeksback" Qui nt on( conf used) : " what ? " Me: " nev ermi ndhi ml ov ebug" Ai dan( l aughi ng) : " Lov ebug! ? " Qui nt on: " shutupAi dan. . andnooneel sei s al l owedt ocal l met hat , orI ' l l r i py ' al l headsopen andmakey ' al l eaty ourbr ai ns" Me: " eeeww" Ai dancont i nuesl aughi ng Ai dan( l aughi ng) : " okay . . . Lov eBug! " Her unsawayt owar dst heot her s Cl y dechuckl es Qui nt on: " suchani di ot " Me( mumbl i ng) : " he' sdef i ni t el yy ourbr o" Qui nt on: " y ousai dsomet hi ngbub? " Me: " huh?Wasn' tme" Qui nt on: " r eal l y ? " Het hr owsmeov erhi sshoul derandr uns t owar dst heot her s, Ikeepspanki nghi sbut t shout i nghi mt oputmedown Heput smedownandwebot ht r yt ocat chour br eat hs Il ookupt obemetbyCandr aandhermot her l ooki ngatmedi sappr ov i ngl y , Ist andupst r ai ght andcutmyl aught ershor t Weal l si tar oundt het abl eCl y decomeswi t ht he meat , t akesof fhi sapr on Qui nt on' smom sai dgr ace Iwassi t t i ngi nbet weenAi danandCl y de, Qui nt oni sacr ossmei nt hemi ddl eofhi s mot herandsi st er . . . Iwant edhi mt osi tnextt o mebutCandr acal l edhi mt osi tnextt ot hem Q' smom: " Qui nt onbaby , ar ey ouset t l i ngi nwel l i nt hepent house? " Qui nt on: " y esmom, Iam. . . ev ent houghy ou f or cedmet ost ayt her e, buty eahIam" Ai dan: " howl ongwer ey oupl anni ngonpl ay i ng poorany way ? " Qui nt on: " unt i l Imakemyownmoney " Mom: " Igett haty ouwantt obei ndependentbut af t erwhathappened, al mostl oosi ngy ou, Ican' t af f or dy oust ay i ngi nar ot t enpl acel i ket heone y ouwer est ay i ngat " Qui nt on: " Igeti tmah, butIcant akecar eof my sel f " Candr a: " notwhi l et hegi r l whohur ty ouand al mostgoty ouki l l edi sst i l l al i v e" Shegi v esmeanast yl ook Mom: " andmaki ngy ougot ot hathor r i bl ehi de out " Myhear tsi nksasIl ookdownandpl aywi t hmy f ood Qui nt on: " now. . t hat ' snott r ue, i twasn' ther f aul t . . i twast heJohnson' s" Candr a: " y eahbutshe' st heonewho. . . Qui nt on( cl enchedj aws) : " shut .up.Candr a" Cl y de: " speaki ngoft heJohnson' s. . .Di dy ou sendt hosepeopl ey et ? " Il ookupatQui nt onandhe' sl ooki ngatmet hen hel ooksatCl y de Qui nt on: " Noty et . . st i l l wai t i ngf ort hepaper s f i r st " Cl y de: " y oumeant hede. . . . . Qui nt on( i nt er r upt i ng) : " Any way ! . . . uhm cany ou pl easepassmet hesal tbub" It akei tandgi v ehi m, hehol dsmyhandsf ora whi l e, sendi ngt hosechi l l sdownmyspi ne Ai dan: " aaahhhy oungl ov e" Wel augh. . . he' st hey oungestandmostbubbl y her e, wel l hel ooksmyageormay beoney ear ol der . . whi l eCl y dei spr obabl yt hr eey ear sol der t hanQui nt on Q' smom: " Qui nt onbaby , y our ememberSy dney ? " Qui nt on: " .Sy dneyf ox. . . howcanIf or get " Ai dan: " di dy ouhav et obr i ngherupmom" Candr a: " ohhIr ememberSy dney . . .Yourol d f r i endsi ncepr i mar yt i l l hi ghschool " Q' smom: " andt hef i r stgi r l he' sev erbought home" Okay , I ' m guessi ngt heydoi ngt hi sonpur pose, I won' tl eti tgett ome, Youar est r ongLi sa!You ar ePower f ul !Youar ebeaut i f ul !Qui nt onl ov es You! Qui nt on: " mom, whyar ey oubr i ngi ngherup? " Q' smom: " Iwant edt ol ety ouknowshe' son t own, Ibumpedi nt oheraf ewday sagoandshe sai dImustsayhi . . soIgav ehery our number , shesai dshe' l l cal l y ouwhensheget s t i me, soy ' al l cancat chup" Candr a: " wow. . t hatgi r l hasgotr eal cl ass, her makeupbusi nessi sboomi ngonsoci al medi a andYouTube. . .Sheev enwor kswi t hcel ebr i t i es al l ov ert hewor l d. . . ohmygoshbr owheny ' al l cat chuppl easei nv i t eherov erI ' dl ov ehert ot r y someofhert al entonme" Cl y de( cl ear st hr oat ) : " Candr a. . . " Hewar ns Qui nt on: " t hat ' senough! . . mom. . . Candr a. . .I si t becausey ' al l t oobl i ndt oseet hatmygi r l f r i end i ssi t t i ngr i ghther ear oundt hi sdi nnert abl ewi t h us?Howcany ' al l sayt hi ngsl i ket hati nf r ontof her ?Shehasf eel i ngsy ouknow. . . andshe' snot deafori nv i si bl e. . .Idon' tappr eci at ey ' al l di sr espect i ngherpr esencel i ket hat . . . nowI ' m aski ngy ' al l wi t hal l duer espect . . . pl easer espect herpr esence. . . okay ? " I tgoesqui et , If i ndmy sel ff al l i ngi nl ov ea t housandt i meswi t hhi m Q' smom: " Ij ustdon' tunder st andwhyy ouwi t h her . . Shebr okey ourhear t , Sheeasi l ygav eup on, shedoesn' tl ov ey ou, she' sf r om apoorf ami l y she' sj ustgoi ngt osuck. . . . Hebangst het abl e "ENOUGH! ! ! " Qui nt on: " Sowhat ! ?Sowhati fshedi dal l t hose t hi ngsori sst i l l goi ngt odomor ehur t f ul t hi ngs Sowhat ! ? , . . . . . Shedi dt hem t ome, noty ounot Candr aorany oneel sebutme. . andl ookatme I ' m per f ect l yf i ne, If or gav ehercauseIl ov e her . . . Il ov ehernomat t erwhat , shecansuckmy bankaccountf oral l Icar e, i t sourl i f e, I ' l l st i l l l ov e her , not hi ngwi l l ev erchanget hewayIf eel f or Li sakhany aMt het hwa. . . . . andi fanyofy ' al l hasa pr obl em wi t ht hat . . . . t ough" Hecomesar oundt owar dsme Qui nt on: " l et ' sgoLi ss, It houghtt i mewi t hf ami l y woul dbet hebestwayt oendt heev eni ngaf t er t hel ongbadday . . . . . Iguesst odayi sj ustnotour day " Igetupandwal koutwi t hhi m " Wai t " Wet ur nwhenwewer eal mostbyt hecar Ai dan: " canIcr ashaty ourcr i bt oni ght ? " Qui nt on: " why ? " Ai dan: " l ongst or y " Qui nt on: " what ev er " Wegeti nandheadhomenoti nsi l ence. . . Ai dan hasar unni ngf unnymout h, gotmei nst i t ches t hewhol ewayr el easi ngal l t het ensi ont hatwe l ef twi t h Wegothome Me( shout i ng) : " Nel l l a!Wehome! " Ai dan: " Nel l a? " Me: " y eah, mybestf r i end, she' sst ay i ngwi t hus unt i l . . . sheget sherl i f esor t edout " Ai dan: " oohh. . . . . ( whi sper s) . . . i sshehot ? " Il augh Me: " Yes. . andgay " Ai dan: " damn!Exact l ymyt y pe" Me( per pl exed) : " y ougay ? " Ai dan( l aughi ng) : " No. . butIcanchangeagay gi r l i nt omygi r l " Il aughoutl oud Me: " Yonel a! ! . . . comedowngi r l , t her e' ssomeone y ouneedt omeet ! " Shest i l l doesn' tcomedown Me: " aawguessshe' ssl eepi ng, y ou' l l seeheri n t hemor ni ng" Ai dan: " t hat ' scool , soI ' l l bet aki ngt hemast er bedr oom whi l ey ' al l t aket heguestr oom r i ght ? Many ' al l t ooki nd" Qui nt oncomesi nput shi m underhi sar msand r ubshi sheadwi t hhi sf i st Theyhav esomeboybr ot her l yf i ghtgoi ngon Il aughatt hei rst upi di t yandheadupst ai r st o checkony onel a, Iknockbyt hedoorofher bedr oom butshei gnor esmesoIj ustmakemy wayi nandt hel i ghtar eof f Me: " wowsomeonewentt obedwi t ht he chi ckenst oday " Iswi t chont hel i ghtandshe' snoti nherbed Me: " okay . . . . ? " Il ookal l ov ert hehouseandshe' snother e. . . Igo downst ai r s, If i ndQui nt onandAi danhav i ng beer schi l l i ngbyt heki t chencount er Me: " Qui nt on" Het ur nsandf aceme Me: " Yonel ai snoti nt hehouseandshedi dn' t t el l meshewoul dgoany wher e? " Qui nt on: " don' tpani cI ' m sur eshe' sher e somewher e. . .Thi si sabi ghouse" Mywhol ebodyshi v er si nf ear , Icl osemyey es andhearherv oi cecr y i ngf orhel p. . . . . If eel someoneshakeme. . Iopenmyey eswi de Qui nt on: " ar ey ouokaybub? " Me: " she' si nt r oubl eQui nt on, t heygoi ngt oki l l her " Qui nt on: " who?Whatar ey out al ki ngabout ? " Me: " It hi nkIj usthadsomesor tofv i si on, buti t wasv er ybl ur r y , Icoul dn' tseeany t hi ngj ust hear dherscr eami ng" Hel ooksatmeper pl exedwhi l ehol di ngmy ar ms Myphoner i ngsasamessagecomest hr ough It akei tf r om mypocket I t saabunchofpi ct ur esf r om anunknown number Il ookupatQui nt on Qui nt on: " whati si t ? " Ishr ugasIopeni t , Ist ar eatt hem f oraf ew secondsandmywhol ebodyf r ozeast hephone sl i ppedf r om myhands Il ookupathi m asmyey esf i l l upwi t ht ear sand mywhol ewor l dst andsst i l l asmyear sgodeaf ( Echoi ngv oi ces)" Li sa' a' a' a? . . . . ar e y ou. . okay a' a' a. . . . . . . . Li sa' a' a! ? ? . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 29, 08: 45]W: cont i nuat i on LI SA " Li sa! " Isnappedoutofi t Me: " huh? " Qui nt on: " Ai dangetherwat er ! " Hehel psmesi tdown Qui nt on: " whathappened?Whatdi dy ousee? " Me: " t hepi ct ur es. . .They . . Yonel ai sdead" Hi sey espopout Myphoner i ngsf r om t hef l oorhef l y st opi cki t up Ai danhandsmet hegl assofwat erandhel ps medr i nk Qui nt on: " i t sav i deocal l " Heswi pesandanswer si t At i edupnudeYonel acov er edi nbl oodpopsup Me: " Yonel a! " She' sl ooki ngondown " Lookatt hecamer abi t ch! " Av oi cef r om behi ndshout s Shel i f t sherf aceupandl ooksatt hecamer a Me: " Yonel a. . . baby . . .Doy ouknowwher ey ou ar e? " Heroneey ei sswol l enandcl osedt heot herone i sabi topen Sheshakesherhead " Youcan' tusey ourbi gmout hnow?Tal k bi t ch, t el l t hem howy ouaboutt odi ebecauseof y ourbi gmout h! " Me( cr y i ng) : " Yonel a! " " Tel l t hem! " Shesni f f s Yonel a: " I ' m goi ngt odi eanymi nut e now. . . . ( sobs) . . . Pl easet el l mom Il ov eher , ev en t houghwehadaf i ghty est er dayaboutmy sexual i t y . . . t el l herI ' m sor r y , t hel astt hi ngI want edwas. . . . wast odi sappoi nther . . . . ( sobs) . . . I l ov ey ouLi sakhany a, Il ov ey ouwi t hal l myhear t babygi r l , Qui nt on, t hanky ouf orev er y t hi ngy ou ar eav er yl ov i ngper son, Iknowy ou' l l t akegood car eofmybabygi r l . . . . ( sobs) . . . t i l l wemeetagai n f r i end" " Aaww. . . v er yt ouchi ngl astwor ds, t i mesup" Het ur nst hecamer aandLi am' sf acepopsup Me( spooked) : " You! . . Youdi dt hi s! ! . . . Br i ngher backy oumonst er ! " Mnce( l aughi ng) : " l ookwho' st ough now, Qui nt on? . . .LookI ' l l makey ouagener ous deal okay ? . . ( l aughs) . . ev ent houghy oudon' t deser v emygener osi t y " Mnce: " r emembert hosewor ds Qui nny ? ( l aughs) ohIj ustl ov ei twhent het abl es t ur n" Qui nt on: " whatdoy ouwant ? " Mnce: " don' tr ushme!Daddynev ert aughty ou manner s? . . . ( l aughs) . . pat i enceman" Qui nt on: " Igeti t . . . y oumocki ngme. . . nowj ust gett ot hepoi nt " Ai danhasdi sappear ed Mnce: " wel l . . . f i r st l yIknowy ouhav et he di amonds, Iwantt hem, secondl y . . . Li saandI ar en' tget t i ngadi v or ceshecomesbackt o me, wher eshebel ongs" Qui nt on: " f i ne" Me: " what ? " Mnce: " what ? " Qui nt on: " i t ' sf i ne. . . y oucanhav et hedi amonds. . . ButnotLi sa" Mnce: " aawwhowsweety out hi nky ouhav e opt i ons. . . .Wi t hLi saory ourf r i endher edi es" Qui nt on: " ki l l her . . . t heny ouwon' tgetnei t hert he di amondsnorLi sa. . . andy ouwoul d' v eki l l edher f ornor eason, j ustawast eofy ourt i me, st r engt h andbul l et s" Mnce: " okay . . . soIcanonl yhav eone? " Qui nt on: " y es" Mnce: " keept hedi amonds. . .I ' l l hav eLi sa" Qui nt on: " ar ey ousur e? " Mnce: " y es" Qui nt on( si ghs) : " okayt hen. . oft hat ' swhaty ou want " Me: " Qui nt on! " Hel ooksatme Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r ybub. . butadeal i sadeal " Bei ngst abbedi nt hebacki swor set hanbei ng st abbedont hehear t hemust ' v el osthi si di ot i cmi nd! Me: " t el l mey ouJoki ngpl ease" Hel ooksbackatt hecamer a Qui nt on: " namet hepl aceandt i me. . . y ougi v eme Yonel aandI ' l l gi v ey ouLi sa" IhearYonel ascr eami ngi nt hebackgr ound " Nooo! !Qui nt on! !Don' tdoi t . . i t sat r ap! " Mnce: " shutt hatbi t chup" Ihearhergr oani nagony Mnce: " t hat ' l l t eachhert okeephermout hshut " Hel ooksbackt ous Mnce: " ohsor r yaboutt hat , wher ewer ewe. . . . oh y eah, I ' l l sendy out hepl acey oushoul dbei n t went ymi nut es. . .Andi fy oudar et hi nky oucan t r yf unnyt hi ngs, t hi nkagai n. . . . ohhey Khany a. . . y ouseey oursocal l edboy f r i endnev er l ov edy ou, i twasal way saboutt hedi amonds, get t i ngbackwhatsor i ght f ul l ybel ongst ot he O' Br i enshahahaha. . . ooohhhhIpr omi seI ' l l t r eat y oumuchbet t er , beaut i f ul . . .Chow" Hedr opst hecal l . . . . IpunchQui nt onmul t i pl e t i mesonhi sv er yhar dback Me: " y ouJer k!Youj ustgoi ngt ogi v emeupl i ke t hat ? . . . ny i ny ov eny oumyf oot . . . y ounev erl ov ed me! " Hehol dsmyhandsandmakesmehughi m Qui nt on: " sshhhhh" Idon' tknowwhybutIobeyandhughi mt i ght l y Qui nt on: " wenotgoi ngany wher e" Me: " but . . . t hedeal ?Thepl ace? . . t i me? . . . . y onel a? " Qui nt on: " ev er y t hi ngwi l l makesensei naf ew mi nut es, Ai danshal l cal l anymi nut enow" Me: " howdo. . . . . * phoner i ngi ng* Qui nt on: " hav et ot aket hi s. . i tAi dan" Hel et ' sgoof fmeandst andsupasheanswer s t hephonel eav i ngmedumbf ounded QUI NTON Me: " Ai dant hecheat er . . . gothi m? " Ai dan: " y eah, goodmov eonkeepi nghi m di st r act edf orl ongov ert hephone" Me: " Yeahwel l i twasn' tt hathar d. . . he' sar eal cr ackhead" Ai dan: " I ' l l getNel l abackt her ewhi l eCl y de t akeshi mt ot hewar ehouse" Me: " good, y ouhur r ybackher e, soI ' l l gohav ef un wi t hCl y dewhi l ey out akecar eoft hegi r l s" Ai dan( gr oans) : " Ihat eandl ov emydut yatt he samet i me. . . . Iwantt ohav ef unwi t hy ouan Cl y de. . . butIal sowannakeepaney eandpl ay Super manwi t hgi r l s" Il augh Me: " j ustgetbackher e" It ur nt obemetbyabeaut i f ul y etv er yconf used señor i t a Me: " Ai dani sonhi swaybackwi t hYonel a. . . t hen y ' al l t akehert ot hehospi t al , okay ? " Li sa: " Qui nt on. . .Whati sgoi ngon?Howdi d y ou. . . ?When? . . . what ' sgoi ngon? " Me: " whi l ehewasbusymaki ngt hr eat sand demandi ngt hi ngsl i keaspoi l tpr i nceAi dan t r ackedwher ehi scal l wascomi ngf r om senti t t oCl y deandt heynowgothi m" Li sa( si ghs) : " whoat hatwasqui ckt hi nki ng" Me: " y oual way shav et obequi ckwhendeal i ng wi t hpeopl el i ket hi sbub. . . oncet hi ngshav e set t l edabi t , I ' l l bet r ai ni ngy ou, okay ? " Li sa: " t r ai ni ngme? . . . t odowhat ? " Me: " any t hi ng, sel f - def ense, shoot i ng, hacki ng, usi ngcer t ai n gadget s. .Ev er y t hi ng. . . .Ineedy out obe t ough, andst r ongLi sa, Ineedast r ongwoman besi deme. . . t hi si showl i f ef oruswi l l bel i ke mostoft het i me, af t ert heJohnsonst hey ' l l be mor epeopl e, t hecy cl enev erends" Li sa: " y oumean, t hi ngsl i ket hi swi l l happenal l t het i me? " Me: " notal l t het i me. . .ButIneedy out obef i t andst r ong" Shel ooksatmef orawhi l e Shenods Li sa: " Iwanty out ot eachmeev er y t hi ng" Me: " t hat ' smygi r l " Ipul l hercl osef oraki ss " Wowandt heyst i l l maket i mef or r omance. . . y ouguy si nspi r eme" Wepul l out . . Me: " Li sa, Ai dangetYonel at ot hehospi t al . . .I hav esomewher eIneedt obe" Ipeckherl i psoncemor et hent ur nbutshe hol dsmyar m Li sa: " dowhat ev ery ouneedt odowi t hhi m. . " Il ookatherandseet hehat r edbur ni ngi nher ey es Me: " y ousur e? " Shenods, Icupherf aceasIl ayaki ssonher f or ehead Li sa: " Justbecar ef ul . . . anddr i v esaf el y" Me: " Il ov ey ou" Li sa: " Il ov ey oumor e" " Geewi z. . . i t snotl i kesomeonei sl oosi ngal ot ofbl oodandcandi eanymi nut enow. . . sol et s spar eaf ewmi nut esf orTi t ani cpar tt wo" Ir unoutandspankAi danasIpasshi m Idr i v easf astasIcant ot hewar ehouse. .Today cameear l i ert hanIant i ci pat ed. . .ThedayIt each t hatsonofabi t chal essonhe' l l nev er f or get , t hat ' si fhe' l l st i l l beal i v et or emember i t , onceI ' m donewi t hhi m . . . . . . . Iwal ki nandt heyhav ehi mt i edup, Iwat chas t heysuf f ocat ehi m wi t hat owel andpour i ng wat eronhi sf acemaki ngi tdi f f i cul tf orhi mt o br eat h Hescr eami ngl i keagi r l . . Il aughbef or emaki ng mywayf ur t heri n " Enough, peopl e. . .I ' dl i ket ohav eawor dwi t h myspoi l tpr i nceher e" Theyl eav ehi m Guy1: " shoshobozay am" Guy 2: " awu. . skhul u. . " It akeachai randsi ti nf r ontofhi m Hest ar t sl aughi ngoutl oud Me: " Noneedt oactal l t oughi nf r ontofmebi g guy , Ial r eadyhear dy ourgi r l yscr eams" Mnce: " wehadadeal ! ! " Ichuckl e Me: " Deal ?Idon' tr emembershaki nghandswi t h y ou?Orsi gni nganycont r act . . . . sooonowehad nodeal " Mnce: " y ouwer esupposedt obr i ngmyLi sa. . Wher ei sshe? " Me: " wow. . . ( mov i ngmyi ndexf i ngeri nci r cul ar ont hesi deofmyf or ehead) . someonei st ot al l y Loco" Mnce: " y ougoi ngt opayf ordoubl ecr ossi ng me! ! " Ist ar tl aughi ngIl ookar oundandt heot her s al soj oi ni n Me( l aughi ng) : " r i ghtaf t ery oupayf ormessi ng wi t hwhat ' smi ne, r i ght ? " Me: " y oupayf ory oursi ns. . t henwhenI ' m done wi t hy ou, t hat ' si fy oust i l l al i v e, I ' l l payf or mi ne. . . . deal " Ist r et chmyhandf orahandshakebuthespi t s onmemaki ngmeangr y Ipunchhi sf acehegr oans Me: " don' tpi ssmeof f . . . y ouknowwhat , t oo l at e, I ' m al r eadypi ssed" Igetupandodert heguy st ost r i phi m naked Cl y decomesbackwi t hhi sel ect r i cal equi pment l ooki ngr eadyt ohav ef un Ther ewasat i mewhenIhat edal l t hi s Butt oday . . . I ' v enev erbeenmor eexci t ed Cl y de: " gotsomechemi st r y . . .( Chuckl es) . . . . geti t ? Causei t sel ect r oni candst uf f " Noonel aughs, heshoot st hem al l hi sdeadl y gl ar e, ev er y onepr et endst obel aughi ngt hei r gut soutwhi l eIl aughathi mf orr eal . . . he chuckl esoncemor easheset suphi sst uf f Mnce: " No. . whati st hat ? . . whatar ey ougoi ngt o dot ome! ? " Me: " dude, chi l l man. . . somuchnoi se" Mnce: " y ' al l notgoi ngt ogetawaywi t ht hi s. . . my f at heri scomi ngaf t erhi sdi amondsandy our pr eci ousl i t t l eLi sawi l l behi st or y !" Cl y de: " cansomeonegetdaddy ' sbabyhi s dummyandshuthi m up. . pl ease! " Theguy sl augh Isi tr i ghti nf r ontofhi m Me: " nowt el l me, what ' st aki ngy ousol ongt o si gnt hedamnpaper s? " Mnce( l aughs) . . y out hought . . . .Yout houghtIwas r eal l ygoi ngt osi gnt hoser i di cul ous paper s? . . HA!Nev er ! " Me: " Iseey oul ov edoi ngt hi ngst hehar d way . . . . Cl y de?" Cl y de: " y eah? " Me: " i sMr sGr eyont heway " Cl y de: " y ep, shoul dbeher eanysecondnow" Justt hent hedoorbust sopenandshewal ksi n wi t ht womenbesi deher Igetupandwal kt oher Me: " Mi ssl awy er , t hanksf orcomi ngi nsucha shor tnot i ce" Her : " pl easecal l mePear l , andi t snotabi gdeal I ' m st i l l ar oundany way " Shesay st i l t i ngherheadt ol ookbehi ndme Pear l : " Iseehe' sget t i ngi tt hehar dway ? " Me: " hej ustdoesn' tl i st en, nowy ouseewhatI hav et odeal wi t h? " Herphoner i ngs Pear l : " OhMoses. . . t hat ' smyhusband, hav et o t aket hi s" . . . Pear l : " I ' m onmywaybubu" . . . Pear l : " what ev ery ourhi ghass" Shehangsup Pear l : " sor r yaboutt hat " Shet akesoutapocketf i l ewi t ht hepaper s Pear l : " t her ey ougo" Me: " t hanky ouv er ymuch, Pear l " Pear l ( nods) " y ouwel come. . . .Goodni ght gent l emen" Shewal ksout Iwal kbackt ot hem andhe' snowl ockedont he el ect r i cchai rwi t hCl y decar r y i ngpi cana el ect r i car eadyt or oasthi sbr ai n Isi ti nf r ontofhi m Me: " y ouknowy oudon' thav et ogot hr ought hi s i fy ouj ustapol ogi sel i keagoodboyandsi gn t hepaper s" Mnce: " nothappeni ng!Li sakhany ai smi neand wi l l f or ev erbemi ne! " If eel myst omacht ur ni ng Me: " j ustsi gnt hedamnpaper s! " Mnce: " No! " Me: " Ir eal l ydon' tl i kebeggi ng. .Sof i ne, we' l l hav e i ty ourway " InodatCl y de, hegi v esmeadev i l i shsmi l e, he l ov est heset hi ngs. Hepr essesabut t onoft heel ect r i cchai r Hescr eamsi nagonyashegoest hr ought he shock Me: " st i l l don' twantt osi gnt hepaper s? " Hej ustl ooksatme, InodatCl y de Heel ect r i f i eshi mt oget herwi t ht hechai rand pacanaonhi shead Hi sey esf l i pashi sbr ai ni sbei ngt oast ed Ii ndi cat eCl y det ost op Me: " j ustsi gnt hepaper swhi l ey oucanst i l l use y ourhands" Hekeepsqui etst i l l t r y i ngt ocat chhi sbr eat h InodatCl y de Mnce: " wai t ! " Me: " ohwai t . . . y esmnceshi st i cks, wewai t i ng?" Mnce: " I ' l l si gnt hedamnpaper s. . .She' snot wor t hi tany way " Me: " ar ey oui nsul t i ngmygi r l ? " Mnce: " she' sdamagedgood, Ist r et chedher pussywi de, she' sj ustapat het i ct ast el essbi . . . . . Cl y deel ect r i f i eshi m bef or ehecoul df i ni shhi s di r t ysent ence, hegoesonf orawhi l et i l l It el l hi mt ost op Me: " y ouwer esay i ng?" Heshakeshi shead.Iputt hepaper si nf r ontof hi m andhandhi mt hepen, hecan' tev enhol di t pr oper l yashei sshaki ng. . . hescr i bbl eshi s si gnat ur e Me: " t hatwasn' tsohar dnowwasi t ? " Mnce: " j ustl etmego. . . y ougotwhaty ouwant ed" Me: " oh. . t hatwasj usthal fofi t . . . . nowf ory our r eal puni shment s" Cl y de: " t hi sonewi l l t eachy ounev ert ol ayy our f i l t hyhandsonourwomen. . webusyt aki ngcar e oft hem whi l ey ouscumbaggoodf ornot hi ng mot herf ucki ngasshol egoar oundbeat i ngup andr ear r angi ngt hei rbeaut i f ul f aces. . . . . l et ' ssee howy oul i kei t " Het akeshi mf r om t heel ect r i cchai randmakes hi ml aydownonabi gwoodenbenchwi t hhi s t ummyashet i eshi shandsar oundt hebench maki nghi m hugi thedoest hesamef orhi sl egs Me: " Now. . . y ouusedy ourf i l t hyhandst obeat Li saup, r ear r angedhepr et t yf acei nt oazombi e f ace, t heny oucl i pal l sor t sofy ourki nky bondagest uf fonherbodyl eav i ngherwi t h scar esandmar ks. . . t hent hewor stpar ty our ape her . . y ourownwi f ewhom y ouhadt her i ghtt o sl eepwi t hl i keanor mal per sonandy ougo aheadandr apeher , y ouput . . . y ouputdi l dosi n hert i nypussyasi fy oudumpi ngt hem i nt he gr eathol eofKi mber l y . . .( Hechuckl es) Cl y de: " y out hi nkt hi si sf unnycocksucki ngmot her f ucki ngsonof abi t ch! ! ? " Me: " we' l l seewho' l l bel aughi ngonceI ' m done wi t hy ou. . . . Cl y dedoy ourt hi ng" Hebeat shi m upmaki ngsur ehel eav eshi sf ace unr ecogni zabl e Hebr i ngsi nhi smen, t heyal l but tnakedand hor nyashel l Me: " l et sseehowy oul i kebei ngf uckedi nt he anal , si ncet hat ' showy oul i kei t , r i ght ? " Theycomei nwi t hal l t heki nkybondage equi pment , whi ppi nghi sass, dr i ppi ngcandl es onhi sback Me( l aughi ng) : " ohohmakehi m uset hosesaf e wor dst heyuse" Cl y de: " whatwer eLi sa' ssaf ewor ds? " Hekeepsqui etsobbi ng Mnce: " pl ease. . . I ' m sor r y , pl easedon' tmake t hem f uckme" Ibur sti nt ol aught erasIwal kupt ot het abl e andt akeav i deocamer a Me: " l et ' st akeav i deof ordaddyshal l we. . show hi m howhi ssoni senj oy i nghi snast yl i t t l e hobby " Isi tandwat chast heydoal l sor t sofdi sgust i ng t hi ngswi t hhi m Me: " t hi nkI ' m gonnat hr owup. . . . . I ' m out t aher e" Cl y de: " shoul dIf i ni shhi m of f ? " Il ookathi mf orawhi l e " " pl easedon' tki l l hi m Qui nt on. .Noty ou" " Iwon' tki l l hi m" pr omi semey ouwon' t" " Ipr omi se" Me: " dowhat ev er" Iwal koutandheadbackhome [ 07/ 29, 08: 48]W: I nser t37 LI SA I t sbeenhour sAi danandIj ustsi t t i ngher e wai t i ngont hedoct or st ot el l uswhat ' sgoi ngon Me: " i t sbeenhour s. . . what ' sgoi ngoni nt her e" Ai dan: " I ' m sur eshe' sokay , shel ooksl i kea st r ongwoman" Me: " shei s" Isayast ear sescapemyey e Hemov escl osert ohi m, hest r et cheshi sar m ov ermemaki ngmer estonhi schest Ai dan: " al l wi l l bewel l , soon, y ou' l l see" Me: " myl i f ej ustseemsl i keanev erendi ng t hr i l l ermov i e, Ican' tgetpeace" Ai dan: " peacei sf ort hedeadLi sa, t hi si sear t h, f ul l ofcor r upt edgr eedyl i v i ngsoul s" Thosewor dsmov edi nmeandr oseal otof anger " Yonel aGr i f f i ns? " Wej umpedupt owar dst hedoct or Me: " y esdoct or ? " Ai dan: " i ssheokay ?" Doc: " she' sf i ne, j ustabr okenar m andcr acked j awandnose, butshe' l l heal wi t ht i me" Me: " i ssheawake? " Ai dan: " canweseeher ? " Doc: " she' snotawakebuty es, y oucanseeher " Hel eadsust oherwar d Me: " y onel a. . . babe, I ' m sogl ady ouokay , al t hough y ounotf i nebuty ouokay " Ihol dherhand Ai dan: " buty ouar e. . f i ne" Me: " Inev erknewt het houghtofl oosi ngy ou woul daf f ectmet hi smuch, y oumeant hewor l d t omey onel a" Ai dan: " andt het houghtofl oosi ngy ouwhenwe hav en' tev enmet . . . r eal l yt ookat ol l onme" Il ookathi m hehasaser i ousf aceonhi m Me: " r eal l ydude? " Ai dan: " oh. . . sor r y . . . . hadamoment " Me: " coul dy ounothi tonherwhi l eshe' sont he deat hbed? " " Takemor et hanadeat hbedt ogetr i dofme" Me( exci t ed) : " Hal l el uj ah! !She' sawake! " " Aaaaaaameeen! ! " Wel ookatt hedoorandQui nt onmakeshi sway i ndanci ngal l hol y Ai danget supandj oi nshi m Ai dan( si ngi ng) : " Amen! " Qui nt on( si ngi ng) : " Hal l el uj ah! " Ai dan: " Amen! ! " Qui nt on: " hal l el uj ah! ! " Theydoi ngsomewei r ddance, goty onel aandI i nst i t ches Yonel a: " guy s. . . pl easest op. . . . . i tpai nf ul " Theyl augh, doahandshaket hencomet owar ds usaswesi tnextt oherbedwi t hQui nt onnext t omeandAi danopposi t e Yonel a: " howdi dIev engether e? " Il ookedatAi danwhohasst upi dgr i nonhi s f ace Me: " al l t hankst oAi dan, hemanagedt ohackt he cal l whi l ewewer est i l l busyont hephone" Shel ooksatAi danandsmi l es Yonel a: " t hanks" Fort hef i r stt i mesi nceI ' v emethi m hef l ashesa decentsmi l e Ai dan: " y ouwel come" Shesi ghsandl ooksatus Yonel a: " t hanky out ooguy s, f orev er y t hi ng" Qui nt on: " don' tment i oni t " Me: " y ouf ami l y , we' l l al way spr ot ecty ouandbe t her ef ory ou" Qui nt on: " y eah, pl usIshoul dbeapol ogi si ngf or nothav i ngt i ghtsecur i t y . . . Ishoul dgett hat f i x ed" Yonel a: " i t snoty ourf aul t . . .Ihat et heJohnsons wi t hal l t hat ' si nme" Ai dan( smi r ks) : " l ooksl i kewehav esomet hi ngi n common" Shet ur nt ol ookathi m Ai danwi nksather Shel ooksatme Yonel a: " okay . . whoi st hi sguyagai n? " Me( l aughi ng) : " t hatwoul dbeAi dan, Qui nt on' s cr azyy oungerbr ot her " Yonel a: " cr azy . . . . Igott hatpar t " Ai dan: " cr azyf ory oumamasi t as" Qui nt on: " Ai dan. . . ( shakeshi shead) . . . nott he t i meman. . . cuti tout " Ai dan: " buty onel aandIwer ehav i ngamoment " Yonel a: " y eah. . . countmeout " Hehol dshi schest Ai dan: " myf i r sthear t br eak. . . .Iwi shsomeone hadwar nmei t ' dbet hi sbad" Shel aughed Yonel a: " ar ey ousur et hi si st heguywhosav ed myl i f e? " Me: " y eap. . .That ' shi m" Qui nt on: " unf or t unat el y " Ai dan( si ngi ng) : " Icanbey ourher obaby , . . . Ican ki ssawayt hepai n. . . . l al al al al al al a" Webur sti nt ol aught er Yonel a( l aughi ng) : " Yohay i mnaIcan' tdeal " Shef l i nchesi npai n Me: " Ai dan, st opy ourcr azi nessshe' sst i l l i n pai n, y oucan' thav eherl aught hi smuch" Qui nt on: " y ouwoul dn' twannaki l l herwi t h l aught eraf t ersomucht r oubl esav i ngherl i f e" Yonel a: " It hi nkI ' m bet t ernow, Idon' twanna spendt heni ghther e, i t snotsaf e" Me: " butt hedoct orsai dy ou. . . . Yonel a: " f or gett hedoct or . .Ther e' speopl eout t her ewhopr obabl yst i l l l ooki ngf ormeand won' tst opt i l l I ' m dead, pl easedon' tl eav eme her e" Il ookatQui nt on Qui nt on: " getherr eadywhi l eIhav eawor dwi t h t hedoct or " Me: " y out hebest " Yonel a: " y eah. . . t hanky ou" Ai dan: " y eahy eah. . . hecan' tbebet t ert hanme r i ght ?" Me: " weehay i l et ' sj ustgetgoi ng, bef or eAi dan st ar t sdoi ngbackf l i pst r y i ngt ochar my ou" Wel aughandhel pherupAi dani nsi st edt o car r yheral l t hewayt ot hecarandQui nt on managedt oconv i ncet hedoct ort odi schar ge y onel a . . . . . . " Whataday ! " Hesay sashet hr owshi msel font hebed Me: " t el l meabouti t ! " It hr owmy sel fnextt ohi m aswef acet he cei l i ng Wel i et her ei nsi l ence Me: " di dy ouki l l hi m? " Ij usthav et oknow Her emai nsqui etf orwhi l e Qui nt on: " No" Isi gh Me: " whatdi dy oudot ohi m? " Qui nt on: " t aughthi m al esson" Me: " how? " Qui nt on: " i t sbesti fy oudon' tknow. . . butj ust know, he' l l nev erbebot her i ngy oul etal onel ook aty ouagai n, i fheknowswhat ' sgoodf orhi m" Me: " oh. . . Qui nt on: " hesi gnedt hedi v or cepaper st ooso t her e' snot hi ngconnect i ngy out ohi m any mor e" Me: " t hankGod" * si l ence* Me: " y ourmot herr eal l ydoesn' tl i keme. . andy our si st er " Qui nt on: " don' tmi ndt hem, t hey ' l l comear ound" Me: " al l t hoset hi ngsshesai d. . . . . . r eal l yhur tmy f eel i ngs" Het ur nshi sbodyt of aceme Qui nt on: " hey . . . I ' m sor r yaboutt hat , mymom can bev er ypr ot ect i v eofussomet i mes, whi ch becomesannoy i ng, butI ' l l t al kt oherokay ? " Isi gh Me: " Ir eal l ydon' tunder st andwhyshehat esme somuch, Idi dn' tdoany t hi ngwr ong" Qui nt on: " Iknow, i fany t hi ngsheshoul dbe t r eat i ngy oul i keanangel af t erwhather husbanddi dt oy ouandy ourf ami l y " Me: " i tt ookal oti nmet onotbur stt hatout t oday , i tt akesal oti nmet onothat eherf orher husband' sdoi ngs, i tt akesal oti nmet ot r yf i ti n wi t haf ami l yoft hemanwhoki l l edmy f at her , buty oudon' tseemebr i ngi ngi tupev er y t i me, soi fshe' sgoi ngt okeepbr i ngi ngupt he f actt hatIbr okeupwi t hy ouandbr okey our hear tal l t het i me, wenotgoi ngt oget al ong. . . . causeQui nt on. . .Iwasal sof or cedby ci r cumst ancest omaket hedeci si onsI made, y ouknowInev erwant edt ohur t y ou. . . . . . . r i ght ? " Il ookathi m, hef l asheshi sl azysmi l e Qui nt on: " I ' v enev ermetsuchamat ur e, st r ong andl ov i ngei ght eeny earol dl i key oui nmy ent i r el i f e" Me: " I ' mj ustt i r edofal l t hedr amaQ. . . Iwantt o behappynow. . . . . wi t hy ou, l i kewewer ebef or e whenwewer est i l l j ustr oommat esandbest f r i ends" Qui nt on: " y ouseet hi s" Hepoi ntathi m andI Qui nt on: " t hi sr i ghther emakesmehappy " Hemov escl oserandpul l smecl oser Me: " Qui nt on?" Qui nt on: " Li sa? " Me: " nomat t erwhathappens, nomat t erhow muchwemi ghtgetangr yateachot herorf i ght f orsomer eason. . . . pl easedon' tl eav emeor di sappearf orsi xmont hsormor e" Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " I ' m nev erl eav i ngy ouagai n, y ou' d hav et oki l l met ogetr i dofmenextt i me" Me: " I ' m sobl essed" Qui nt on: " damnr i ghty ouar e" Heki ssesme, t heki ssdeepensasheget si n bet weenmyl egs Het akesof fmyshi r tandbr aandst ar t s massagi ngmyboobsmywhol ebodyr eact st o hi st ouch, hesl i deshi shandsdownt omybut t andsqueezesi t , Imov ehi shandawayf r om my but tt omywai st , hesl i desi tdownagai nImov e t hem backt omywai st , hepi cksmeupt oget mef ur t heri nt hecent eroft hebedhet akesof f myshor t s, wel l hi sshor t sbutar eonme, any way het akesof ft heshor t s, t hent akesof fhi s t oo. . . mybodyi shungr yf orhi m, Idon' tknow what ' sgoi ngoni nsi demyhead, buti t sbat t l i ng wi t hmyhear tandbody . . her ubsmydr i ppi ng punani Imoanandmov ehi shandst omassage myboobs, hepul l soutoft heki ssandl ooks deepont omyey eswi t haf r ownonhi sf ace. . . he kepthi sey esonmi neashet ouchesmypunani Iar chmybackmov i ngupabi t Qui nt on: " okay , what ' sup? " Me: " huh?Whaty out al ki ngabout ? " Qui nt on: " t hi s" Her ubsmypunani agai nIt r yt ost ayst i l l Qui nt on: " y oucan' tkeepst i l l , y oumov emy handsawaywhenIt ouchy ou" Me( t i mi dl y ) : " whhaaaat ? " If eel hi mr ubhi sdi ckonmyent r ancemybr eat h hi t chesasIcl osemyey eswai t i ngf ort hepai n t oki cki n. . butnot hi nghappenshe' sal r eadyof f meandnownextt ome Qui nt on: " y ounotcomf or t abl e, y oucan' tev en hi det hef ear . . . whydon' ty out el l met ost op? " Me: " IIdon' twanty out ost op" Qui nt on: " wel l y ourbodyi st al ki ngawhol e di f f er entst or y " Me: . . . . . Qui nt on: " I ' m notgoi ngt of or cemy sel fon y ou, I ' m notgoi ngt ot i ey ouuporcl i pt hi ngson y ourpussy , I ' m nothi m bub, he' snev ergoi ngt o comebackagai nandy ouwon' tgot hr ought hat agai n" Me: . . . . . Qui nt on: " y ouf r eet obey our sel fagai n" Me( si ghs) : " I ' m sor r y . . . Ir eal l ywantt omakel ov e wi t hy ou, Ido, i t sal l I ' v ebeent hi nki ngabout , I don' tknowwhyIkeepf eel i ngl i kehe' sst i l l her e j ustwai t i ngf ormet odosomet hi ngwr ongso hecanst r angl et hel i f eoutofme" Qui nt on: " It hi nky ouneedt her apybub" Me: " I ' mf i neQui nt on. .I ' l l bef i ne" Hesi ghsheav i l y Qui nt on: " f i ne. . . . l et ' sgi v ei taf ewmor eweeks, i f t her e' snochange, y ouget t i ngt her apyokay ? " Inod Me: " okay " Hepi cksmeupandwegot akeabat h, wenow i nt hebat ht ubwi t hbubbl es. . . . Wesi t t i ng opposi t eeachot her Heput ssomebubbl esonhi schi nmaki nga bear d Qui nt on: " HoHoHo. . . . mar r yChr i st masboy s andgi r l s! " Igi ggl e Me: " Sant acl ause! !Ohmygosh!I t sSant a Cl ause! !" Ij umponhi m, hesl i dedownandt hewat er bur i esusunder , It r yget t i ngbackupbuti t s sl i pper yandQi shol di ngmedown, Ipul l my headoutoft hewat er Me: " Aah! !LetgoofmeSant a!" Hesl i deshi msel fbackupwebot hi nst i t ches hi sheadi scov er edwi t hbubbl es Thedoorbust sopen, Ij umponQui nt onagai n " Somebodysai dSant a! ! ?Wher e? " Me( shout i ng) : " Ai dan! !Getout ! ! " Ai dan: " but . . . Sant a. .No. . . NoSant a! ? " Me: " Booooy y y y. . . ( cl enchedt eet h) . . . Gety ouass outofher e! " Ai dan: " I ' m sosor r yguy sIr eal l yt hought . . . . Qui nt on: " Now! ! " Hej umps Ai dan: " ofcause. . . . Her unsoutandcl osest hedoor Me( si ghs) : "Geez. . . . Thedooropensagai n Ai dan: " Byt heway , t hi si ssocut e, Ihav et odo t hi s" Hesnapsapi ct ur e. . . Qui nt onat t emptt ogetup buthewast oosl owf orAi danwhohas v ani shed Hesi t sdownandmakeshi msel fcomf or t abl e agai n Me: " cany oubel i ev ehi m? " Qui nt on: " suchanar eshol e" Me: " awanker " Qui nt on: " ani ncompoop" Me: " ast upi di ot ! " Wer emai nser i ousf oraf ewsecondsbef or e bur st i ngi nt ol aught er Me( l aughi ng) : " y ousai dpoop" Qui nt on: " st upi di oti shi snewname" Me: " r eal l y ?I tki ndasui t sy out oo" Hest opsl aughi ngandbecomesv er yser i ous Qui nt on: " ohy eah?It houghty ouwer eonmy si deher e? " Me: " Iam" Qui nt on: " wow, i fy ougoi ngt obet wof acedat l eastmakeoneoft hem pr et t y " Igaspi nt ot al shockt r y i ngt odi gestt hati nsul t Me( speechl ess) : " wel l . . . aar r hhgg! " If ol dmyar msandsul k Qui nt on: " Isai dmakei tpr et t ybub, notwor se" Ispl ashhi m wi t hwat erandputupt womi ddl e f i nger sf orhi m bef or est andi ngupt ogetoutof t het ub, hepul l smebackIsl i pandf al l onhi m, I t hi nkIf el l har donhi sdi ck Qui nt on( gr oani ng) : " aaaahhhhhhhhol yf ucken shi i i i i i t t t t ! " Me( wor r i ed) : " oohhhl ov ebugar ey ouokay ! ? " Qui nt on: " f uuuuuccckkk! . . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 29, 08: 49]W: cont i nuat i on LI SA ( SHORT) " Hhl l l i i i ouch" Me: " sor r ybug. . . i si tnothel pi ng?" Wenowi nbed, Iputani cepackonhi sdi ck, wel l i t sapacketoff r ozenv eggi es, t hat ' sal l Icoul d f i nd Qui nt on: " No! " Me: " t akeof fy ourbr i ef sandputi tr i ghtont he D" Qui nt on: " y oucr azy ?Thi sshi ti scol d" Me: " comeonmanup! " Qui nt on: " l etmet r yputi tony ourpussy , seei f y ouwi l l manup" Me: " butI ' m notaman" Qui nt on: " r eal l y ?Di dn' tr eal i se" Wowt hi sguycandi ss Me: " mx m, y ouknowwhat , i fy ougoi ngt odi ss me, t akecar eofy our sel f , nx" Igeti nt hecov er sandt ur nmybackonhi m Hepat sme Qui nt on: " bub. . I ' m sor r y , i t sj ustmydi cki sso pai nf ul andmyhor monesar eal l ov ert hepl ace r i ghtnow" Ican' thel pbutcr ackupandl augh Me: " t hat ' sj ustgayman" Isi tupandf acehi m, byt hewayi t swaypast mi dni ghtnow Qui nt on( f akecr y i ngv oi ce) : " j ustIdon' tknow whatI ' m gonnadoofmydi ckcoul dnev erwor k agai n" Me: " y ooohhhhowar ewegoi ngt osur v i v e? " Qui nt on: " Idon' tknowl ov e. . Idon' tknow" Me( whi sper s) : " doy out hi nki t sbr oken? " Hegasps Qui nt on: " i tcan' tbe. . . . ohhhbubt hi si sal l y our f aul t " Me: " myf aul t ?Yout heonewhopul l edmeback whenIwant edt ogetout " Qui nt on: " y eahbuty out heonewhosl i ppedand f el l oni t . . . wi t hy ourhugesexyass" Me: " f i r stofal l . . myassai n' thuge. . . ( chuckl es) . . ButsexyIagr eewi t h. . . . secondl y , i t sy ourf aul tI sl i pped" Qui nt on: " what ev er , nowwewi l l st ar v et odeat h ourwhol el i v es" Me( mummer s) : " boymypussyai n' tbr oken" Qui nt on: " whatwast hat ? " Me: " I ' m sur ei t snotbr oken. . .Letmer ubi t " Qui nt on: " y eahr i ght . . t hat ' swhaty ousai d? " Hegi v esmet he" Iknowy oul y i ng"l ook Igetupandt aket her ubbi ngst uf f , Icomeback wi t hi tandsi ti nbet weenhi sspr eadoutl egs Me: " l et ' st aket heseof f " Isl i dehi sbr i ef sdown, myey espopout . . . ohhh mydi di tgetbi gger ?Ori t sbeenawhi l e Qui nt on: " r eal l y ?Youser i ousl ygoi ngt odr ool ov ermybr okendi ck? " Il ookupathi m Me: " huh? " Qui nt on: " wow" Igi ggl eandsqueezet heher bal l ot i ononhi m Qui nt on: " aahhht hat ' scol d" Me: " sor r ybaby " Ipi cki tupandst ar tr ubbi ng Qui nt on: " mmmmhhhgent l ebub" Me: " Yesmyl ov e" Ohmydamn!Ir eal l ydi dn' tt hi nkmypussy woul dr eactt ot hi sbuti t ssopr ov i ngme wr ong, i t sar i v erdownt her eandi t ' sonl ybeena f ewseconds Hekeepsmoani ngt omyt ouch. . . heeeey y y y whati st hi s?Whyi si tget t i nghar der ?Hi sey es ar ecl osedandhe' sf aci ngt hecei l i ng " Oohhhy eeaahaahhshi t " Me: " Qui nt on?" Okayi t ' sr eal l yupnowandt oohar d, t hi shand j obi snothel pi ng Qui nt on: " f uck. . . don' tst opbaby " Hel l o! ?Thi swassupposedt oheal y ounot makey ouhor ny Me: " Qui nt on. .I si tbet t ernow? " Qui nt on: " i t sget t i ngt her e, j ustal i l bi tl onger " Me: " okay " Qui nt on: " shi t . . okaymov ey ourhandsnow" Imov et hem hesi t sup, myey eswi denasIsee cum spi t t edoutbyhi sdi ck Qui nt on: " sor r ybub, buty ourhandsar emagi cal " Me: " i t scool . . . soar ey ouf eel i ngbet t ernow? " Qui nt on: " No, i t sst i l l pai nf ul , ev enwor senow t hatI ' mt ur nedon" Me: " I ' m sor r yl ov ebug, Iwast r y i ngt ohel p" Igett akeat owel andIwi pehi m, wegeti nt he cov er sandcuddl ebuthei skeepi nghi s di st ancewi t hhi sdi ckf r om t ouchi ngme, he r eal l yl ooksl i kehe' si npai n Me: " ohhmybaby , weshoul dgoseet hedoct or t omor r ow" Heshakeshi shead Qui nt on: " I ' m sur ei t ' l l bef i nebyt hen" Isl eepwi t hmybackhemov escl oserand snuggl esi nme, hebur i eshi sf aceonmy br east s, If or gothowmuchofababyhe becomeswhenhe' ssi ckorhur t \ i nj ur ed. . he keepssucki ngmyni ppl et i l l Igotdr owsyand l i ght swentof f * * * * * * * Me( si ngi ng) : Ical l y oumy : Baby , honey , sugar , bunnySweet i e Sni ckerdoodl e, BabyDol l cuddl epoodl e, Sweet cheeks.Angel ey es, PoohBearcut i epi eCuddl e Muf f i n, Twi nkl et oes, HoneybunnyToot si e r ol l . . . . . Theyal l meant hesameTheyj ustmean.I di dn' theary out hedayy out ol dmey ourname. I cal l y oumy : SweetHear t , Sweet i epi e, Honey bunch, But t er f l y , Pumpki n, SweetPot at o, honey pot , hott omat oSunbeam Sugarpeeee But t er cupbumbl ebee, Lov ebi r d, Sunshi ne, Super f i neAngel Mi ne, Theyal l meant hesame Theyj ustmean, Idi dn' theary out hedayy ou t ol dmey ourname. . . . . . . . Ical l y oumy : Dr eam boat , dumpl i ngdearhear tdar l i ngHoneyBear Sweetpea, Sugarpl um HoneybeeBabycakes Sugarpi eappl eofmyey eSnuggl eBunny HoneyDew. . .j ustt onameaf ew. . . .Theyal l meant hesameTheyj ustmean, Idi dn' thear y out hedayy out ol dmey ourname " Qui nt on!Hi snamei sQui nt onAmbr ose O' Br i en! ! . . . . sayi twi t hme. . . QUI NTON-AMBROSE -O' BRI EN! " Ai danmakeshi swayt ot heki t chenwher eI ' m busymaki ngbr eakf astf orev er y one Me( l aughi ng) : " Shutup, Iknowhi snameokay " Heopenst hef r i dge Ai dan: " I ' v enev erhear dsomanypetnamesi n onesent enceal l i noneday , i nonesong" Het akesoutmi l k Me: " Sowhati fIcal l hi m my . . SweetPeachhot st uf fAngel myl ov e Gum dr oppancakeHoneyBuncupcake SugarLi psHuggl eBearHoneySuckl eIdon' t car e PuppyWuppyAwesomepossum Snuggl i ci ous Cuddl ebl ossom. . . . . Ai dan: "whhoooaaaIt houghtIwast heannoy i ng one" Hesay sasheput st hebot t l ei nhi smout hand dr i nkst hemi l k, GoshIhat et hat Me( i r r i t at ed) : " r eal l yAi dan? . . . comeondude, we hav ecupsf orar eason" Heswal l owandmakest hat" aahhh"sound Ai dan: " sor r y " Me: " Noy ounotsor r ycausey ouwi l l r epeati t agai nandagai n, Ihav et opr eacht hesame t hi ngt oy ourbr ot her , henev erl i st ens, I under st andy ouy oungerbuty ' al l shoul dst op act i ngl i kebl oodyf i v ey earol ds, act ual l yev ena f i v ey earol dknowsbet t er . . . l ookl etmeshow y ouhowi t sdone. . i t sr eal l ysi mpl e" Iwal kupt ot hecupboar dandt akeoutagl ass Me: " y ouj ustt aket hegl assher e. . l i ket hi s" Igr abt hemi l kf r om hi m Me: " t heny oupouri ti nt hecup. . . l i ket hi s" Ipour edi t Me: " t heny oudr i nk. . . . l i ket hi s" Ispl ashedi tonhi m Ai dan( scr eami ng) : " aaahhhhhhhhcol dcol d col dcol d! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! " Ibur sti nt ol aught er , hescr eamsl i keagi r l " Whatt hehel l i sgoi ngonher e? " Al i mpi ngy onel awal kst owar dst hel oungeand t hr owsher sel font hecouchAi dani mmedi at el y st opsscr eami ngandst ar t sact i ngal l t ough Ai dan( l eani ngagai nstt hewal kwi t hhi sar ms f ol ded) : " Supgi r l " Il aughathi my oushoul dseehowcool he' s t r y naactr i ghtnow Yonel a( conf used) : " wasup" Me( l aughi ng) : " Amazi ng, absol ut el yamazi ng" Yonel a: " It houghtIhear dy ouscr eam Ai dan. . y ouokay ? " Ai dan: " hahapssshhhscr eam?Me?Haha whaaaaat ? " Yonel a: " y eah. . . . y oudi d" Ai dan: " aabbppshhh. . . di dy ouseemeorhear me? " Yonel a: " Ihear dy ou" Ai dan: " exact l y , y oudi dn' tseeany t hi ngsoi t wasn' tme. . . y ouhav enopr oof . . . nowLeav eme al one!Real Mendon' tscr eam" Me( ( shout s) : " Comecl eant hi smessupAi dan" Hest ar t l esandscr eamsabi tasher uns t owar dsmei nt heki t chen Ai dan: " Yesma' am" Yonel aandIar ei nst i t ches " Damn, aguycan' tgetsomepeaceandqui eti n hi sownhouse" Al soal i mpi ngQui nt oncomesdownt hest ai r s Ai dan: " i t sal l y ourgi r l ' sf aul tman. . . ( f akecr y i ng v oi ce) . . . . she' ssomean" Yonel aandIst i l l hav en' tst oppedl aughi ng, Ai dan' ssi l l yf aces. . he' sonechar act erIt el l y ou Iswi t chof ft hepot sandwal kupt omyl ov ebug andhel phi m si t , Icanbeov er pr ot ect i v ewhen he' sl i ket hi s, j ustl i kehei st ome, i tj usthappens nat ur al l y Me: " y ouwer enotsupposedt ocomeoutt he bed" Qui nt on: " aahhi t sbor i ngupt her e" Hesay sasheadj ust shi msel f Yonel a: " wow, Iwi shIgott hi smuchat t ent i on whenIcamedown" Igi ggl e Me: " comeon, y ouknowIwaswat chi ngy ou r i ght " Sher ol l sherey es Yonel a: " y eahr i ght. . . any waywhathappenedt o hi m? " Wel ookateachot her , heshakeshi shead war ni ngmenott ot el l Me: " i t sal ongst or y " Ai dan: " wegott i me" Si l encef i l l st her oom ast heycur i ousl yawai tan expl anat i on * Di ngdong* Sav edbyt hebel l Qui nt on: " y oushoul dgogett hat " Me: " Yeah, got t agett hedoornot i mef orchi t chat " Iqui ckl ywal kaway , asQui nt oncov er shi sdi ck ar eawi t hacushi on Iopent hedoorandat al l bi gbuf fmani s st andi ngi nf r ontofme, st ar i ngdownatmewi t h hi spi er ci ngsi l v erbl ueey es, myhear tst opped f oraf ewseconds Cl y de: " heyt her e" Idoabi tofbr eat hi ngexer ci se Me: " hheyCl y de" Cl y de: " howar ey ou? " He' sv oi cei ssodeep. . . Idon' tknowwhyI ' m so scar edofhi m, t r ustmei fy ousawhi my ou' dbe scar edt oohe' ssoi nt i mi dat i ng Me: " II ' m good" Cl y de: . . . Me: " y ou? " Cl y de: " I ' m cool " Me: . . . . Cl y de: " mayIcomei n? " Me: " ofcause. . sor r yy esy oumay " Cl y de: . . . . Me: . . . . . Cl y de: " cany oumakewayf ormet ocomei n? " Ij umpoutoft heway , whati swr ongwi t hme. . . I f eel l i keIwast al ki ngt ot hepr esi dentt hat ' show ner v oushemademe . . . . Idi shupf orev er y oneandwej usteatbyt he l ounge, guesst heynotasf ancyasIt hought causet heyt ol dmet her e' snoneedt osett he t abl e. Wewer ej usthav i ngl i ghtconv er sat i ons, When y onel adeci dest obr i ngi tupagai n Yonel a: " oohy eah, guy sy ouwer eaboutt ot el l us what ' shappenedt oQui nt on? " Ai dan: " ohhy eah. . I ' m al socur i ous, hehasn' t mov edf r om t hatspotsi ncehecamedown her e" Yonel a: " hasn' tev enchangedposi t i on" Cl y de: " what ' supl i l br o?Whohur ty ou, soIcan gobr eakt hei rbones" Il ookathi m wi t hmyey esouti ndi sbel i ef , whi l e hehast hemostser i ousf ace. . . am It heonl yone whohear dt hat ?Causenooneel ser eact edt o hi sst at ement Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " y ouguy s. . . i t snot hi ng. . .Ij ust hur tmyf oott hat ' sal l " Me: " y eah, hebumpedi tagai nstt hewal l . . . my poorbaby " Ir ubhi st hi ghashehashi sl egsonmyl ap, whi l e mypl at ei nonhi sl egs Ai dan: " r eal l y . .Wel l l etmej ust " Hepul l edhi sl egsabi tbutQui nt ondi dn' tbudge Ai dan: " y oul y i ng, howcomey oudi dn' tf eel any pai n? " Wel ookateachot herandj ustt henher eact s Qui nt on: " aahhhouchAi dan, whydi dy oudo t hat " Buti twasal i t t l et ool at eandt oof ake Cl y de: " comeon, whatr eal l yhappened? " Me: " Soguy s. . . . t heweat hert oday , i sl ooki ng good, am Ir i ght ? " Thi si smedoi ngahor r i bl ej obonchangi ngt he subj ect Qui nt on: " y eahv er ygoodweat herbabe" Ai dan: " y eahwenotbuy i ngi t " Okayt heynotgoi ngt odr opt hi s, Il ookat Qui nt onhegi v esmet hegoahead Me: " f i ne. . . ( l ooki ngatAi dan) . . Mrnosey par ker . . . . Qki ndahur thi sdi ckr eal l ybadl y . . . I ki ndasl i ppedandf el l oni t . . .whi l ewewer e t aki ngabat h. . . . . . . andnowwet hi nki t sbr oken" * ser i ousf acesandsi l ence* Ai danbur st si nt ol aught erl i keser i ousl aught er . . . Yonel acan' thol di ti nany mor esoshej oi nsi n, I l ooksatCl y dewhoi st r y i ngr eal l yhar dt o mai nt ai naser i ousf acebuti nst eadhe' st ur ni ng r edf r om hol di ngi ti n Qui nt on: " l eti toutCl y de" Hebur st si mmedi at el y Cl y de: " I ' m sor r y . . I ' m notl aughi ngf orr eal " Hesay sbet weenhi sl augh Igetup Me: " l et ' sgetoutofher el ov ebug" It akehi shandandweheadupst ai r s Cl y de: " Sor r yabouty ourdi ckman! ! " Heshout swhi l el aughi ng Me: " don' tmi ndt hem babe, onedayt hey ' l l br eak t hei rdi ckst oo, andwe' l l seewho' l l bel aughi ng" Hel ooksatmewi t ht hat" ar ey oubei ngf or r eal ? "Look Qui nt on: " I ' m nott hr eebub" Il augh Me: " sor r yIwasj ustt r y i ng" Qui nt on: " Nost opt r eat i ngmel i keababy " Me: " okayt hen. . sor r y " Il eav ehi m byt hebed Andheadt ot hebat hr oom " Bub!Pl easer unwat eri nt het ubf orme! Thanks! " Somuchf ornotbei ngt r eat edl i keababyIr ol l myey es " Andpl easeputt hatgel t hatsmel l sl i keappl es, y oual way suse! ! " . . . . i nser tl at ert oni ght [ 07/ 29, 08: 50]W: I nser t38 LI SA Me: " l et ' sgot ot hedoct or , may bet hi si sser i ous " Qui nt on: " Idon' twannahav esomeguyal l upon myO' Br i en" Me: " butbaby , t heher bal r ubbi ngst uf fshoul d' v e hel ped, i t sbeenhour s, pl easel ov ebug" Igi v ehi mt hebabyf ace Qui nt on: " okayf i ne, buthewon' tt ouchi t " Hewar ns Me: " okayI ' l l makesur ehedoesn' t" Idon' tknowhowI ' l l dot hatbutIneedhi mt ogo seet hedoct or Wej ustf i ni shedf r esheni ngupwear enow get t i ngr eadyt ogo Wemakeourwaydownst ai r swi t hQui nt on hol di ngmef ordearl i f ei fi twer eupt ohi m he' d makemecar r yhi m Al l ey est ur nt ol ookatusshi f t i ngt hei rf ocus f r om t hegameofcar dst heyar epl ay i ng Ai dan: " how' sbi gD? " Theyl augh Qui nt on: " f ucky ouman" Ai dan: " t hat ' sgonnabeal i l t oohar df or y ou, don' ty out hi nk?" Heat t empt st omar cht ohi m butIhol dhi m back Me: " we' l l bel at e, y ou' l l gethi m oncey oubet t er " Qui nt on: " pl easebub, I ' mj ustgonnasl aphi ma l i l " Me: " No, l et ' sgo" Hehuf f s, t heyar ei nst i t ches, i t swei r dseei ng Cl y del aughbutwhenhe' sdonehebecomes ser i ousr i ghtawayl i kehenev erev enst ar t ed Me: " nxa, l eav emybabyal one" Andt hatwasmest andi ngupf ormyman, good j obLi sa, y oudi dwel l Wewal koutanddr i v et ot hecl i ni c Me: " Ihat ecues, cl i ni csl ov ebei ngf ul l " Qui nt on: " we' l l got oapr i v at eone, t heymuch bet t er , pl usIgotaf r i endt her e" Me: " ohgoodt hat ' sbet t er " Qui nt on: " Iwantt oshowy ousomet hi ngcool " Me( exci t ed) : " ohy eah?Whati si t ? " Qui nt on: " i t sasur pr i se, Iwant edt ot akey ou t her eony ourei ght eent hbi r t hdaybut . . . " Myhear tsi nksatt hosewor d Qui nt on: " butatl eastIst i l l gett ot akey out her e" Me: " Yeah, Iwi sht hi ngswoul d' v ebeendi f f er ent att hatt i me" Qui nt on: " don' tst r essabouti t , al l t hatmat t er si s t haty ouher enow, wi t hme" Me: " andnot hi ngshal l comebet weenusagai n" Qui nt on: " I ' dbedamnedi fIl eti t " Ismi l ewi del yl i keageekwhohasj ustbeen gr eet edbyhercr ush Wear r i v eatt hecl i ni c Recept i oni st : " doy ouhav eanappoi nt ment ? " Me: " No. . but Recept i oni st : " y ou' l l hav et omakean appoi nt mentf ort omor r owDrGonzal esi sf ul l y bookedf ort oday " Me: " Igett hat . . . buty ouseet hi si san emer gency . . . . .( Whi sper s) . .Myboy f r i end' sdi ck ki ndabr oke" Shegasps Recept i oni st : " i st hathi m ov ert her e" shepoi nt satasadQui nt onsi t t i ngont hechai r Inod Recept i oni st : " I ' l l gol ett hedoct ornow" Me: " t hanky ouv er ymuch" Igosi tnextt ohi m Me: " y ouokay ? " Qui nt on: " I ' mf i ne, j ustr eal l ywor r i edaboutmy di ck, i t ssopai nf ul " OkaynowI ' m st ar t i ngt of eel r eal l ybadt hi s seemst obemor eser i oust hanIt hought Me: " I ' m sosor r y . . . Idi dn' tmeant of al l oni t " Qui nt on: " i t snoty ourf aul tbub" " Qui nt on? " Wel ookupandi t st hedoct orcomi ngt owar ds us Qui nt on: " DrGonzal es" Dr : " heyhowar ey ou" Hest andsupandt heyshar eahug, Ist andup Qui nt on: " I ' m goodandy ou? " Dr : " I ' v ebeenbet t er " Qui nt on: " okay , t hi si smygi r l f r i end, Li sa" Sheshakesmyhand Dr : " ni cet omeety ou" Me: " l i kewi se" Shel ooksdownathi spant s Dr : " hear dy ougotabi gpr obl em, downt her e? " Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " nott hatbi g, j ustami nor t hi ng, y ouknow" Yeahr i ghtMr' I ' m sowor r i ed. . . i t ssopai nf ul ' ar gh. . Ir ol l myey es Dr : " okayl et ' sgochecki tout , f ol l owme" Wef ol l owher Dr : " ohy oucanwai touther e" Ohhel l no, she' snotaboutt ol ookandt ouchmy man' sDwhi l eI ' m nott her e Igi v eQui nt onal ook Qui nt on: " canshepl easecomei n, Ir eal l yneed hert ohol dmyhand" Dr : " okayt hen, i fy oudon' tmi nd" Me( f akesmi l e) : " hedoesn' t" Wewal ki nsi det heER Dr : " t akeof fy ourpant sandl i eont hatbedov er t her e" Het akesof fhi spant sandhe' sonl yl ef ti nhi s undi es Hel i esont hebed Shewr i t esaf ewt hi ngsonherpaper s Dr : " okayI ' m gonnaneedy out ot el l meexact l y whathappened?" Wel ookateachot herhegi v esmet he' y out el l her ' f ace Me: " wel l i twaswhenwewer et aki ngabubbl e bat h. . . soIwant edgetoutoft het ubbuthe pul l edmebackt ohi m andIsl i ppedandf el l on hi speni s. . . . . . r eal l yhar d" Dr : " mhokayIsee. . . wer ey ouhar dwhent hi s happened? " Qui nt on: " har d? " Dr : " y es, l i kewasy ourpeni shar d, di dy ouhav ea boner ? " Hel ooksar oundt henbackather , hewi peshi s noseandsni f f s Qui nt on: " may be. . . j ustal i l " Dr : " y esorNo" Qui nt on: " Yes" Il ookathi m andl aughsi l ent l yher ol l shi sey es Dr : " r i ght !Okay , l et ' schecky ouup" Hesl i desdownhi sundi es, I ' mr eal l ynot comf or t abl ewi t ht hi s, di dherey esj ustwi den? Shebet t ernotbeget t i nganyi deas! Sheput sonhergl ov esandst ar t st ouchi ngand f eel i ngi t Dr : " okay , i t snotbr oken" Webot hsi ghi nr el i ef Dr : " butt her e' sabentv ei n, we' l l hav et ogocheck i tupont hex' r ay " Shedoesal l t hepr ocedur es Wenowwai t i ngf orheri nherof f i ce Shewal ksi n Dr : " okay , y ouwi l l uset hi s, i twi l l hel pheal y our peni sf ast erandnocor pul at i onf oratl eastaf ul l mont h" Me: " whoa. . . y ouser i ous?" Dr ( l aughs) : " deadl y " Qui nt on: " damn, y ouknowwhatt hatmeans bub? " Me: " what ?" Qui nt on: " don' tdot hi ngst hatt ur nmeonl i ke . . . Nomor ebat hi ngt oget her , y ounotal l owedt o getnakedi nf r ontofme, nobl ushi ng, no cuddl i ng, noey est ar i ngt hosemakemewanna ki ssy ou, nospanki ngmyass, nogi ggl i ng, no sadbabyf aces. . . . etcet er a" Me: " basi cal l yy out el l i ngmeIshoul dbear obot wi t hnof eel i ngs? " Qui nt on: " nowweget t i ngsomewher e. . .That ' s whatIcal l t eam wor k. . . upher e" Heput shi shandupf orahi ghf i v ei j ustl ookat hi m Hi ssmi l edi sappear sbutdoesn' tdr ophi shand ashet ur nst ol ookatt hedoct or Qui nt on: " upher edoc? " Sheal soj ustl ooksathi m Hedr opshi shandsl owl yi ndi sappoi nt ment Qui nt on: " t oughcr owd. . " Wel aughathi m Ist andup Me: " t hanky ouDrGonzal es, y oual i f esav er " Qui nt on: " i t sherj ob? " Me: " Qui nt on!" Dr ( l aughs) : " t hat ' swhatIwasaboutt osay any way . . . . wowQui nt on, i t smyf i r stt i meseei ng y out hi shappy ? " Qui nt on: " r eal l y ? " Dr : " Yeah, y ou' v eal way sbeent heser i ous t y pe, nev erl aughs, nev ershowedaf ul l smi l e" Hesmi l esandl ooksstme Qui nt on: " IguessI ' v ebeenar oundgood companyf orawhi l enow" Ibl ush Qui nt on: " Isai dnobl ushi ngbub. . . gr eatt hi si s r eal l ygoi ngt obeonel ongmont h" Dr ( l aughi ng) : " okay , y out wohav emademy day . . . pl easegetoutofmyof f i cenow" Me: " by eDoc" Dr : " pl easedon' tl etgoofhi m. . . Il i ket hi snew Qui nt on" Me: " Iwon' t" Wewal kaway . Wenowdr i v i ngt o. . Me: " wher ewegoi ngnow?" Qui nt on: " we' l l f i r stpasst hemal l , i t sst i l l ear l y andy oursur pr i sei sonl ycool atni ght " Me: " uuhhhIcan' twai t ! ! " Wegett ot hemal l andshopar ound, t her e' sno f oodbacki nt hathouse, whi chshowst hathe' s beenst ay i ngal onesoIboughtgr ocer i es Wewentt oputt hem backi nt hecart hencame backi nt ot hemal l t oj ustl ookar ound, buthe i nsi st edIdosomecl ot hesshoppi ngf ormy sel f . I t sbeenawhi l esi nceIshoppedf orcl ot hes, a v er yl ongwhi l esoIdoneedt hi sIwasi nand outoff i t t i ngr ooms Me: " how' st hi sone? " Qui nt on: " gr eat " Hei sbusypr essi nghi sphone, hewasco oper at i ngawhi l eagobutnowhe' sj ustbor ed Me: " Qui nt on!Younotev enl ooki ngatme" Hegl ancesupt henbackathi sphone Qui nt on: " Awesomebub, Il ov ei t " Igr abhi sphoneawayf r om hi m andswi t chi t of f Qui nt on: " Heey yIwasal mostdonewi t ht hat l ev el " Me: " cany ouf i r stconcent r at eont hi sl ev el " Ipoi ntatmy sel f Qui nt on: " mmhwhatdi dIgetmy sel fi nt o. . . . . y ou l ookbeaut i f ul babe, Il ov et hatdr essony ou" Me: " r eal l y ?It hi nki tmakesmel ookf at ? " Qui nt on: " t henwhydoy ouaskf ormyopi ni oni f y ougoi ngt oshuti tout ? " Me: " causey ounotbei nghonestwi t hme, y ou gi v et hesameopi ni onf orev er y t hi ngIt r yon" Qui nt on: " becauset heyal l sui ty ou" Me: " t hat ' sal i e! " Qui nt on: " i fy ouknowI ' m goi ngt ol i ewhydo y ouaskf ormyopi ni on? " Me: " causewi t hev er ycl ot hi ngIputonIgeta l i t t l ehopet haty ouropi ni onwoul dchangea bi t , i nst eadoft hesamel i neov erandov eragai n" Qui nt on: " okayf i ne!Youwantmet obehonest ? " Me: " Yes! " Wel ooksateachot herf orawhi l e, hesi ghs Qui nt on: " y our i ghtt hatdr essmakesy oul ook f at , i tj ustdoesn' tgowi t hy ourski nt one, Imean l ookaty ou, y oul ookl i kear ai nbowwi t hal l t hosedi f f er entcol our sal l ov ery ou. . . and gi r l . . l ooset heshoes, t heymakei tl ookl i key ou hav eski nnyl egs, nev erev erl ookatdr essesl i ke t hi sone. . . embar r assment " Hebr eat hsoutaf t ert hatasi fal oadhasbeen l i f t edf r om hi sshoul der s If eel myt emper at ur er i si ng, di dhej ustsayal l t hosemeant hi ngst ome? Ir unt ohi m andst ar tpunchi nghi m ont he st omach, whi chki ndadr ewat t ent i ononusbutI di dn' tcar e, If el tl i keIwasf i ght i ngwi t hawal l causehewasn' tev enmov i ngabi t Me: " Aar r r ghIhat ey ou!Howcany oubeso cr uel ! " Hepi cksmeupl i keabagofpot at oesand headst ot hef i t t i ngr oom wher eheput sme down Qui nt on: " whatt hehel l Li sa? " Me: " howcany ousayal l t hosemeant hi ngst o mei nf r ontofpeopl e?" Qui nt on: " y ouwant edmet obehonest ? " Me: " soal l t hoset hi ngswer et r ue? " Qui nt on: " weel l l l " Me( gasps) : " y ousuchaasscl own, t wat , cheesedi ck, sl eezebag, but tmonkey , booger f ace! " If eel hi ssof tcol dl i psonmi nedoi ngt hi ngst hat makemykneesweekandt ummybubbl y Hebr eaksi t Qui nt on: " y ouwer esay i ng" Me: " cut eypi e, handsomef ace, sweetl i ps" Hel aughsandki ssesmeagai nIdeepeni t , my l egwr apsi t sel far oundhi m hepi cksmeupand pi nsmeont hewal l . . . hepul l soutandput sme down Qui nt on: " shi t , i t sst i l l pai nf ul bub" Me: " I ' m sor r yl ov ebug, l etmegetoutoft hi s r i di cul ousdr ess" Hewasr i ghtt hought hi sdr essi sugl y , Idon' t knowwhatIwast hi nki ng Wewal kar oundt hemal l wi t hhi m bei ngal l l ov eydov eyandst uckonme Me: " r emembert hi sshop? " Ipoi ntatt hej ewel r yst or ewewentt owhenwe wer edr unkear l i ert hi sy ear Qui nt on: " ohy eah, l et ' sgoi nsi de" Wewal ki nsi deandl ookar ound, Me: " y ouboughtt hatbeaut i f ul r i ngt hatcaught myey ef orourf akeengagement" Qui nt on: " Iwasst upi dl yi nl ov e" Me: " Was? " Qui nt on: " Ist i l l am" Hepul l smecl oserandpecksmyl i ps " Ambr ose? " Hel et ' sgoofmeandwel ookbehi ndust obe metbyasexyhour gl assf i gur eandaf acet hat l ooksl i keshe' sdonesev er albot oxsur ger i es Shecomest owar dsusandQui nt onmeet sher hal f way Ist andi nonepl acel i keaf ool Her : " l ongt i menosee" Theyshar eahug. . . al ongone Qui nt on: " ahhy eahl ongt i mei ndeed, howy ou' v e beenSy dney ? " Sy dney ?Sy dney ?Soundsf ami l i ar " Qui nt onbaby , y our ememberSy dney ?" " .Sy dneyf ox. . . howcanIf or get " " ohhIr ememberSy dney . . .Yourol df r i endsi nce pr i mar yt i l l hi ghschool " " andt hef i r stgi r l he' sev erboughthome" " Iwant edt ol ety ouknowshe' si nt own, I bumpedi nt oheraf ewday sagoandshesai dI mustsayhi " That ' sr i ght , t hat ' swhyshesoundsf ami l i ar Qui nt on: " Li sa! ! ? " Isnapoutofmyt hought s Me: " huh? " Qui nt on: " I ' v ebeencal l i ngy ou. . . . any waycome cl oser " Iwal kcl osert ot hem Qui nt on: " t hi si sSy dneyFoxmyol df r i endf r om wayback. . . " Me: " ohhni cet omeety ouSy dney" Qui nt on: " Sy dney , t hi si smybeaut i f ul gi r l f r i end Li sa" Phewatl easthemadei tcl eart hatI ' m hi s gi r l f r i end. .Andhet hi nksI ' m beaut i f ul , Ihope t hatsanki nherhead Sy dney : " okay . . . sohow' sMom hol di ngup?I t s beenawhi l eandwhenIbumpedi nt ohert he ot herdayIwasi nar ush, di dn' tgett i met ocat ch up" Qui nt on: " she' sf i ne, she' sbeent hr oughal oti n t hebegi nni ngoft hey earwi t ht hehear tf ai l ur e. . Butshe' sdoi ngmuchbet t ernow" Di dt hi sb* #%$j usti gnor eme? Sy dney : " ohhshame. . . . Ihear d, l ookweshoul ddo dr i nkssomet i meandcat chup? " Qui nt on: " y eahdef i ni t el y . . .Howaboutnext weekend? " Sy dney : " nextweekendsoundsper f ect . . . I ' l l see y out henmunchki n" Qui nt on: " y ouhav et ost opwi t ht hatname" Sy dney ( i r r i t at i ngl augh) : " I ' l l t r y . . butIst i l l l ov ei t f ory ou. . . . by eAmbr ose" Theyhugagai nandshewal ksaway . . . wowshe di dn' tev ensayawor dt ome, nott hatIwant ed hert o, , butt hatwasj ustr ude Qui nt on: " wow, peopl echange" Me: " y eah? " Qui nt on: " sheusedt obeski nnyashel l " Il augh Me: " t hebot oxandbut t ocksur ger i esmustbe doi ngwel l f orher " Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " comeonbub, don' tbe mean" Me: " r eal l y ?I ' mt hemeanone?Shet ot al l y i gnor edmewheny oui nt r oducedus" Qui nt on: " shedi dn' t " Me: " okayl et ' spr et endwedi dn' tnot i cet hat " Qui nt on: " okay . . . . may beshedi dbuti tmustbe becauseshe' si nar ush" Me: " y esl et ' spr ot ectherr udeness" Hel ooksatmeandsmi l es, whati shesmi l i ng at ?Nx Me: " l et ' sgo" Iwal kaway , mymoodwasdownbutobv i ousl y wi t hQui nt onar oundIcan' tbedownf ormor e t hanf i v emi nut es, It hi nki t si mpossi bl ecauseI wasnowl aughi ngmygut sout Qui nt on: " andweher e" Me( exci t ed) : " Ohwow, t hepl anet ar i um?I ' v e al way swant edt ocomeher e" Qui nt on: " Yeah, Iknow, andher ey ouar e" Me: ( t ear y ) : " aaww. . . babe, t hi si st oosweet " Ipeckhi sl i psandweheadi nsi de, wehadl ot sof f unl ooki ngatt hest ar t sandal l t hedi f f er ent pl anet s I twassor omant i c, t hi si sl i t er al l yt hemost r omant i c, mostni cemostgener ousmostl ov i ng t hi ngany onehasev erdonef orme Me: " t hanky ouQ. . . . t hanky ousomuch" Qui nt on: " Il ov ey ou" Weshar eapassi onat esl owki ssf i l l edwi t hl ot s ofemot i ons Me: " Il ov ey out oo" . . . . Wegothomer eal l yl at e Wet ookev er y t hi ngf r om t hecart ot hehouse, Qui nt on: " aar r ghdowehav et ounpack? " Me: " j ustt heonest hatneedt hef r i dge, we' l l pack t her estt omor r ow" Qui nt on: " Ir eal l ywantt ohel pbub, butIneedt o r estt hosepi l l sar er eal l yst ar t i ngt oki cki n, my f eetf eel numb" Me: " t hat ' sokay , goupst ai r sI ' l l f i ni shupj ust now" Hel eav esmeandgoesupst ai r sIcont i nue packi ng " y esy ' al l wi l l hav ey ourupsanddownsi twon' t beaneasyr oadbutasl ongast her e' spl ent yof l ov ey ouwi l l bot hbef or ev erhappy . . . . don' t t hr owt het owel whent hegoi ngget st ough causei twi l l , butshowhi mt haty oul ov ehi m and y oust andbyhi m nomat t erwhat , he' l l dot he same" Dad' swor dsr i ngi nmymi nd If i ni shupandgoupst ai r st oourr oom, If i ndhi m t al ki ngont hephonehe' sal r eadyi nt hebed cov er s Qui nt on: " Iknowr i ght ? . . ( l aughs) . . . Qui nt on: " okayi twasgoodbumpi ngi nt oy ou agai naf t eral ongt i me" . . . . Qui nt on: " l ook. . I ' l l seey ounextweekend" . . . . Qui nt on: " goodni ght . . .Andpl easer emember whatIsai d. . . Nev ercal l meatt hi shour , t hi si s mybaby ' st i me" . . . Qui nt on: " okayby e" Hehangsup Ihav eal r eadychangedandmademy sel f comf or t abl eont hebed Me: " whowast hat ? " Qui nt on: " Sy dney . . .Shewant edt osay goodni ght " Me: " t oy ouorus? " Qui nt on: " us. . nowcomel et ' ssnuggl e" Isnuggl edcl osert ohi m andhedozedof f i mmedi at el y , Iguesst hepi l l sgott ohi m [ 07/ 29, 09: 11]W: I nser t39 LI SA AMONTHLATER Me( f r ust r at ed) : " aar r r ghht hi si si mpossi bl e! " I ' mi nt hest udyr oom wor ki ngonmyl ast assi gnmentf ort hi ssemest er , Andi t ssof r ust r at i ngI ' m notget t i ngi tandmy br ai nj ustdoesn' twantt owor k, Thi si ssounl i ke me!I ' m supposedt obesmar t ! " Needhel p? " Il ookupt obemetbyy onel a Me: " NoI ' mf i net hanks" Shecomesandst andsbehi ndme Yonel a: " j udgi ngbyt hi sbl ankpage, y ounotf i ne" Ibangmyheadont hedesk Me: " ar ghIhav enoi deawhat ' sgoi ngonher e" Yonel a: " okay , Iunder st andt hi spar t , l etmehel p y ou" Il ookupather Me: " Ishoul dbesay i ngt hatt oy ou" Yonel a( chuckl es) : " wel l y ou' v ebeent hr ougha l ot , y ou' v el osty ourf ocus. . i t sunder st andabl e" Me: " butst i l l , Iusedt obenat ur al l yi nt el l i gent , I ' d beabl et omakemy sel funder st andsomet hi ng wi t houtbei ngt aught . . . butnow. . . I ' mj ustso dumb" If eel t ear st hr eat eni ng i t ' snowt owar dsendofSept ember . .3Oct ober i sQui nt on' sbi r t hdaywhi chi si nf i v eday st i me Yonel a: " y ounotdumbLi sa, y oust i l l v er y smar t , i t sj usty ourl i f ehaschanged, y ouhav e mor et hi ngsgoi ngoni ny ourl i f eandal otof di st r act i ons, y oust i l l hav eni ght mar esabout Mncedi si , may beoncey oust ar tt her apyy ou' l l go backt onor mal " Me: " Idon' tknowNel l a, Idon' tt hi nkt her apywi l l domeanygoodwhi l et her e' sst i l l peopl ewho wantmedeadoutt her e. . . andsomewhowant t osnat chmyQaway " Thet ear sf al l asIt hi nkabouthowhe' sbeen chat t i ngt oherf r equent l yandsheal way scal l s t osay" goodni ght "y eahr i ght , f ormor et hanan hourj ustt osaygoodni ght , howdumbdoeshe t hi nkIam? Shesi t sopposi t eme Yonel a: " nowcal m down, noonewi l l snat chQ awayf r om y ou, hav ey ouseenhowwhi pped t hatguyi sbyy ou?Thewayhel ooksaty oui s l i keamov i e, t hewayhej ustr andoml yki sses y ouorst eal pi ct ur esofy ouwheny ouf ocused onsomet hi ngel se. . . . ( chuckl es) . . . y esI ' v ebeen wat chi ng, het r ul yl ov esy ouLi sa, andt hat Sy ndennywon' twi nwhat ev ergameshe' st r y na pl ay " Herwor dssi nkdeepi nmyhear tasal i t t l ehope spar kl eswi t hi n Me( smi l i ng) : " y our i ght . . . hedoesl ov eme, he woul dn' tbet r aymel i ket hat " Yonel a: " Nott heQui nt onIknow" Me( si ghs) : " t hanky ouNel l a" Yonel a: " t hat ' swhatf r i endsar ef or " Shet akesmyhandandki ssesi t Me: " canIask?" Yonel a: " askaway " Me: " doy oust i l l hav ef eel i ngsf orme? " * si l enceasshest ar esi nt omyey es* Yonel a: " y es. . . butIl i kei tbet t eri fwej ust f r i ends" Me: " y ousur e? " Shenods Yonel a: " y es, Ir eal i sedt hatIl ov ey oumor eas mysi st ert hanal ov er , i t sj ustev er yt i mewhen weusedt opl ayhousewhenwewer eki dsand wewoul dbemot herandf at her , weusedt oki ss andhug, wepl ay edt hatgamet i l l hi ghschool , andr emembert het i mewewant edt ot r yhow i t sl i keki ssi ng? " Il aughal i l Me: " y eah, l i kehowt heydi di tonTV" Wel augh Yonel a: " y eah. . . andwet r i edi twhenwewer e doi nggr adet en, i tf el tsoni ceandmagi cal f or me, y ourl i pswer esosof tandwar m and sweet , t hewayy ouhel dmyheadi nposi t i ont he wayourt onguespl ay ed, ev er y t hi ngaboutt hat ki ssexci t edme, Iwant edt odoi tov erandov er agai n, t hat ' swhenIdev el opedf eel i ngsf ory ou" I ' m speechl ess Me: " IIdon' tknowwhatt osay ? " Yonel a: " f r om t henIt houghtIwasl esbi an, but upunt i l now, I ' v enev erbeenat t r act edt oot her gi r l s, j usty ou" Me: " may bey ounotal esbi annel l a, y ouj usthad acr ushonme, I ' m sur ei thappenswheny ouar e st r ai ghtbuty ouhav eacr ushonagi r l , i t happenst osomegi r l s" Sheshr ugs Me: " andI ' v eseenhowy oul ookatAi dan" Yonel a: " l et ' sgetst ar t edwi t ht hatpar ty ou st uckonov ert her e" That ' sherchangi ngt hesubj ect Me: " mmhhf i ne" Shehel psmeoutandwef i ni shi tof f , sheal so expl ai nst het opi ct omeandIendupget t i ngi t . Yonel a: " comel et ' st akeabr eakf r om st udy i ng, andgoheppr epar el unch" Me: " I ' m notpr epar i ngany t hi ngt hatwi l l goi nt o Sy dney ' sbot oxmout h" Shel aughs wel l shecoul dn' tmakei tt heot herweekend whenQui nt oni nv i t edherov eraf t erwebumped i nt oheratt hemal l sonowshe' l l bewor ki ngt hi s si deoft ownandshedeci dedt ocome t oday . . . . ar ghal soQui nt on' smom andCandr a ar ecomi ng, somebodyshootme! Yonel a: " i ssher eal l yt hatf ake? " Me: " Gi i r r l l , wai tunt i l y oumeethert oday " Wel aughandheadt ot hebackwher et heguy s wer egr i l l i ng, wel l Ai danwasgr i l l i ng, Cl y dewas notar oundher eandmybabywasbusyt ext i ng onhi sphone, Iwal kt owar dshi m hedoesn' t ev ennot i cemecomi ngunt i l Ist andbehi ndhi m andhughi mf r om behi ndar oundhi snecksi nce hewassi t t i ngdown, hecl osedhi sphone i mmedi at el y , bef or eIcoul dseewhathewas doi ng Iki sshi scheek Qui nt on: " heyLi sa" Li sa?I t sbeenawhi l esi ncey ou' v ecal l edme buborl i ss, hehasn' tusedt hem f ort woday s now Me: " heyl ov ebug. . . needhel pwi t hf ood? " Heshakeshi shead Qui nt on: " naahhIgoti t " Me: " wow, y ousur ewentoutofy ourwayont hi s di nner Qui nt on: " r eal l y ?Lookspr et t ysi mpl et ome" Me: " y out ookouty ourspeci al wi ne, f orspeci al occasi ons" Qui nt on: " oh? . . . i tj ustsohappenst obeSy dney ' s f av our i t e. . . .Di dy ouknowshe' sper sonal l ymet t hemanwhocr eat edt hatt y peofwi ne? " Me( sar casm) : " wowshe' smetJesus? " Ist andupbef or ehecoul dsayany t hi ng If eel hi m pul l myhand Qui nt on: " wai tLi sa, what ' sbot her i ngy ou? " Me: " Ij ustf eel l i key oudon' t . . . . . . * phoner i ngi ng* Hel ooksati tandsmi l es Qui nt on: "sor r y , hav et ot aket hi s, l at er , Iwanty ou t ot el l mewhat ' sbot her i ngy ouokay ? " Me: " butt hi si sexact l y . . . . . Qui nt on: " hel l o?Ohy oubyt hegat e? " . . . . Qui nt on: " okayI ' l l openupj ustnow" Hehangsupandr unsout , If eel myhear tbr eak i nt omi l l i onpeaces. . . i si twr ongf ormet of eel t hi sway ?Imeant heyj ustol dbestf r i endswho hav en' tseeneachot heri nawhi l e, whohappen t oal sobeexl ov er s, whohappent oj ustwanna cat chupont hegoodol dt i mes?Thatsounds honestr i ght ? . . . Hel l Noi tdoesn' t ! Isi tbyt hechi l l i ngchai r sasIwat chAi danand Yonel abyt hegr i l l l aughi ngandbei ngt ot al l y i gnor antt ot hef actt hatt heyhav esomet hi ng speci al t heyshar ewhi chi smor et han f r i endshi p, t heyr emi ndmeofQui nt onandI . . . Tobehonest , Iki ndami sst hoseday si nt i mes l i ket hi s. Ihearl aught erget t i ngcl osert owher eIam Qui nt on: " Heyguy s, l ookwho' sdeci dedt oj oi n us" Theywal kupt ot hegr i l l andshe' si nt r oducedt o y onel aandhugsAi dan, Iseehi m makeabor ed f acebehi ndherback Heshowsherwher et osi t , hel ooksmyway , t hen her emember sIexi st Hecomesupt ome Qui nt on: " andwhyy ousi t t i ngher ebyy our sel f y oungl ady ? " Me: " ohy oucanseeme? " Qui nt on: " ofcauseIcanseey ou, y ounot i nv i si bl e" Me: " coul d' v ef ool edme" Hei gnor est hatr emar k Qui nt on: " come, mom andCandr aar eal most her e" Hepul l smeup, Idr agmyf eetbehi ndhi m Thedoor bel l r i ngs, Igoopenandi t sCandr a, her mom andCl y de Me: " Ev eni ngma' am " Q' smom: " Ev eni ng" Shemakesherwayi n Q' smom: " wher emyf av our i t egi r l ? " Sheasksasshedi sappear st ot heback Candr a: " hey " Me: " hi " Shepassesmeandheadst ot heback Cl y de: " heyLi sa" Me: " hi Cl y de" Ri ghtnowI ' mt oodr ai nedt obeev enscar edof Cl y de Cl y de: " y ouokay ? " Imakewayf orhi mt ocomei n Me: " I ' mf i ne, y ou? " Cl y de: " y oudon' tl ookf i ne? " Me: " I ' mf i ner eal l y" Cl y de: " hedoesn' tl ov eherany mor e" Il ookupathi m Cl y de: " Sy dney . . . .Hedoesn' tl ov eher , t r ustme" Me: " y oudon' thav et opr ot ecthi m Cl y de, ev ena f i v ey earol dcanseewhat ' sgoi ngont her e" Cl y de: " t hat ' sj ustQui nt onbei ngt oof r i endl yand Sy dneyt aki ngi tt hewr ongway . . . AndQui nt on bei ngt ot al l ybl i ndt ot hef l i r t i ngSy dneyt hi nki ng she Hi m&I : "wasj ustbei ngni ce" Me: " y eah, Iknow, butt hi st i meIt hi nkhecan not i ce, hehi deshi sphoneawayf r om me, doesn' tl etmepl aygamesoni t " Cl y de: " don' twor r yabouti t , j ustt r usthi m. . . I knowmybr ot her , hel ov esy ou, andhe' sst i l l new t ot hi swhol el ov et hi ng, soy ougoi ngt ohav et o t al kt ohi mi fy ouf eel l i ket her e' ssomet hi ng wr ong, causehewon' tknow, he' snev erbeeni n l ov ebef or e, sohedoesn' tknowhowt hi ngs wor k, i fy oudon' tt al k, y ou' l l def i ni t el ygethur t " Isi gh I fonl yhegav emet hechancet ot al k Me: " t hanksCl y de" Hecom' scl oserandt hef earki cksi n Cl y de: " makesur enooneknowsIt ol dy out hi s okay . ? " Me: " y essi r ! " Wegoj oi nt heot her s, Sy dneymadeher sel f comf or t abl enextt oQui nt onwhi chi ssocl ear t hat ' smyspot , t heonl yspacel ef ti snextt o Yonel asoIsi tt her eandopposi t emei sSy dney mxm Q' smom: " y ouknowSy dney , I ' m sohappyy ou back, nowy oucant eachQui nt onhowt ot al kt o hi smot her " Sy dney( l ooksatQ) : " howdoeshet al kt omom now? " Q' smom: " her ai seshi sv oi ceatme now, somet hi nghe' snev erdonebef or e" Shegi v esmeal ookwhi chget smeheat edup wi t hanger Sy dney : " andwhyi st hatmunchki n? " Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " mom i sj ustexagger at i ng, I nev ershout edather , Ij ustusedaf i r mt one" Sy dney : " now, y ouknowbet t ert hant ober udet o mom. . . nev erhappensagai n, okay ? " Qui nt on: " i twon' thappenagai n" Sy dney : " goodboy " Di dshej ustdi sci pl i nemyman, i nf r ontofme? Am It heonl yonewhof eel sl i ket hi swhol et hi ng i sj ustwr ong? Q' smom: " y ou' v eal way sbeengoodi nf l uencei n hi sl i f e, t hat ' swhyIl i key ousomuchasmyv er y own" Myt hr oatandchestar esopai nf ul r i ghtnow Ai dan: " y eah. . . hav ey ouguy snot i cedhowhe' s beengl owi ngev ersi ncehest ar t eddat i ngLi sa? " Cl y de: " y eahnev erseenl i l br ot hi shappy " Yonel a: " y eahhe' snomor et hest i f ft i ght guy . . . . Li sar eal l yboughtoutasi deInev erknew i nhi m" Ai dan: " asi denonofusknewact ual l y" Q' smom: " al soasi dewher ehedi sr espect sme" Qui nt on: " mot her . . . st op" Sy dney : " don' tdi smi ssy ourmot herwhenshe' s t al ki ngQui nt on" Q' smom: " y ouseewhatImean? " Onet hi ngIknowaboutQui nt oni st hathe doesn' tl i kebei ngt ol dwhatt odoal l t het i me Qui nt on: " don' tt el l mewhatt odoSy dney , i f mom i ssay i ngsomet hi ngi nappr opr i at eshe shoul dbewar ned" Sy dney : " Iknowbutmunchki n, l et ' snott al kt o mom l i ket hat " Qui nt on: " I ' l l t al kt omom t hewayIf eel l i ke t al ki ngt omom, pl easest ayoutofi t " Icanseehe' sget t i ngpi ssed Sy dney : " okay , cal m down" Het oucheshi shand Sy dney : " sor r yokay ? " Qui nt on: " i t scool " Ican' tt aket hi sany mor e QUI NTON Iqui ckl ymov emyhandaway Li sa: " pl easeexcuseme" Me: " wher ey ougoi ng? " Li sa: " IIneedf r eshai r " Me: " butweout si de? " Li sa: " mayIpl easebeexcused" Shewal ksawaybef or eIcoul dsayany t hi ng, okayshe' sbeenact i ngst r angel at el y Ishoul dgocheckonher . . . IgetupbutSy dney pul l smedown Sy dney : " wher ey ougoi ng? " Me: " Ineedt ocheckuponLi sa, she' snotl ooki ng wel l " Mom: " shel ookedper f ect l yf i net ome" Candr a: " j ustgi v ehert hef r eshai rsheneeds" Isi tdown Yonel a: " mxxxm" Sheget sup Yonel a: " wakeupQui nt on" Wi t ht hatsai dshel eav est ot hedi r ect i onLi sa went Me( conf used) : " okay . . . . whatdi dIdonow? " Ai dan: " hopey oudon' tr eal i sei twheni t st oo l at e" Heget supandl eav est oo Me: " guy s. . . someonet el l mewhat sgoi ngon her e? " Il ookatCl y deheshr ugs Cl y de: " i t snotmypl ace, y ouj usthav et of i gur e t hi soneoutony ourownman" Mom: " not hi ngi swr ongsweet y , t hatgi r l ofy our s j ustwant st odr awat t ent i ont oher sel f" Candr a: " any way . . . Sy dneyhow' st hatmakeup busi nessgoi ng? " Theyst ar tt al ki ngabouthersuccessf ul busi ness Me: " I ' mr eal l ypr oudofy ouFoxyy oumade somet hi ngbi gofy our sel f " Sy dney( l aughs) : " ohmyGoshwhenl asthav e someonecal l edmyf oxy " Mom: " t hat ' scausehe' st heonl yonewhocal l ed y out hat " Sy dney : " GoshImi ssedy ouguy s" Mom: " wemi ssedy out oo" Shel ooksatme Sy dney : " IknowwhenIl ef tIdi dn' tsayawor d, I ' m sor r y , Imi ssedy ou" Me: . . . . . Sy dney : " comeonsayi t . . . Iknowy ouwannasay i t " Me: " Imi ssedy out oo" Sheki ssesmycheek Sy dneyandIwer eoncei nl ov e, wel l It hi nki t wasl ov e, butI ' m notsosur e, butshewasa cr azyf r eakwheni tcomest ot hebedr oom, t hat ' sonet hi ngt hatgav emear ushaboutour r el at i onshi pwhi chwasbestf r i endswi t h benef i t s, ev er y t hi ngwassmoot hbet weenus unt i l shecaughtf eel i ngs, shet ol dmeandIsai d wecoul dt r ysomet hi ngout , onl yf orhert ol eav e wi t houtsay i ngawor daweekl at er , t hat ' swhenI knewf al l i ngi nl ov ei snotf orme. Unt i l Imet Li sakhany aMt het hwa, Idon' tknowwhatt hat l i t t l egi r l di dt omebutshechangedmywhol e conceptaboutl ov e, mademef eel t hi ngsI ' v e nev erev erf el tbef or e. . . . j ustal i t t l esecr et . . . i si t al l owedf oraguyt ogetbut t er f l i es?Causei fi t s not , Thent hatguyi sdef i ni t el ynotme!Al t hough Iknownot hi ngaboutt hedo' sanddon' t ' sofa ser i ousr el at i onshi pbutsof arIt hi nkI ' m doi ng wel l wi t hLi sa, sheseemshappyandshemakes mehappyt oo, soI ' dsayt hi ngsar egoi ngwel l f orus Me: " hey , wher edi dLi sago?She' sbeengonef or qui t eawhi l enow" Sy dney : " woul dy oul ookatt het i me. . . . sor r y guy s, Ihav et ogo" Me: " ohsosoon? " Mom: " comeon, t her e' spl ent yofr ooms her e, pl easespendaf ewni ght s, y oul i v esof ar andwewon' tgett oseey oumuch, j ustf oraf ew day s" Candr a: " Yespl eeeeeaaase" Sy dney : " oohhIdon' tknow, Iwoul dn' twanna i nt r ude. . . andi t sal i t t l eshor tnot i cewhi chi sa l i t t l ei nconv eni encef orQui nt on" Candr a: " br ot herdoesn' tmi nd, ev enAi danand Cl y despendmostoft hei rt i meher e" Theyal l l ookatme Me: " uhm. . Idon' tknow, t hi si sal soLi sa' shouse soo. . . Mom: " t her ewegoagai n. . .Thatl i t t l egi r l i s cont r ol l i ngy ourl i f e, y oucan' tev enmakesmal l deci si onswi t houtaski ngher , andwhenshe say sj umpy ouaskhowhi gh. . . cany ouj ust maket hi sonel i t t l edeci si onony ourown" Candr a: " Idon' tl i ket hewaymybi gbr owho' s al way sbeenhi sownbosst akesor der sf r om a gi r l , al i t t l egi r l whoi st wi cey oungert hany ou" Sy dney : " Nomom, pl easei fi twi l l bet oomuch t r oubl e, Ir eal l ydon' tmi ndchecki ngi nt he near esthot el " Mom: " nonsense. . .Qui nt on?" Me: " I ' l l t al kt oLi saf i r st " Sy dney : " butdoy oumi nd? " Me: " Idon' tmi nd, buti fLi sasay sno, t heny ou mi ghtwannaconsi dert hehot el " Mom: " i fy oudon' tmi ndt heni t sset t l ed, y oucan st ayf oraf ewday s" Cl y de: " mom! ? " Mom: " what ? " Heshakeshi sheadandl eav es Cl y de: " I ' m outofher e" Mom: " Cl y de!Getbackher e! " Hecont i nueswal ki ng Me: " di dy oubr i ngcl ot hes? " Sy dney : " No. . . I ' l l gett hent omor r ow. . .Thanky ou Ambr o" Ismi l eandnod Mom: " wel l t hat ' sourcuet ol eav e. . . . by eguy s" Sheki ssesandhugsus, Sy dneyandIwal k t hem out . Me: " okay , l etmeshowy out oy ourr oom" Sy dney : " okay . . af t ery ou" Iwal ki nf r ontofherandgoshowhert oher r oom, shet hr owsher sel font hebed Sy dney : " Il ov ei t ! " Me: " I ' m gl ady oudo" Shewal kscl osert ome Sy dney : " t hanksagai nmunchki n" Imov eaway Me: " y ouwel come. . . . goodni ght " Iwal kbackt omyr oom andLi sai snother e, I l ooki nt hebat hr oom she' snott her e Me: " Li sa! ? " Inot i cet hebal conydoori sopensoIgot her e andf i ndherst ar i ngouti nspacei nonl yher under wearandmyv est Me: " I ' ml ov i ngt hi sv i ew" Ipl aywi t hherbut tcheeksbutshedoesn' t budge, Iwr apmyar msar oundher Me: " heyt her ebub" Iki ssherneck Shet ur nst of aceme Li sa: " hercari sst i l l t her e? " Fr om t hebal conyy oucanseet hecar sgoi ngi n andoutandt hewhol ef r onty ar d Me: " t hat ' swhatIwant edt ot al kt oy ouabout " Shef ol dsherar msandgi v esmet he' I ' m l i st eni ng' l ook Me: " sheaskedt ocr ashher ef oraf ew day s, si nceshe' l l bewor ki ngt hi ssi deoft own anddoesn' thav eapl acet ost ay . . . . Iknowi t soundsst upi dbutcanshepl easest ayher ej ust f oraf ewday s" Li sa: " No" Shewal kst ot her oom If ol l owher Me: " butbub, shehasnowher eel set ogo" Li sa: " t her ear epl ent yhot el sher e, andshe' sabi g shotsomet hi ng, I ' m sur ei twon' tbr ui seher car d, i fi t sj ustf oraf ewday s" Shef i xest hebedget t i ngr eadyt osl eep Me: " t het hi ngi s, mom ki ndaf or cedev er y t hi ng andIki ndaendedupagr eei ng" Li sa: " wi t houtbot her i ngt oaskmef i r st ? " Shewal kst ot hebat hr oom If ol l owher Me: " It r i edl i ssbuti twasj ustaf or cedsi t uat i on, andshe' saf r i endIcan' tl ethersl eepandpay hot el swhenwehav epl ent yr oom" Shespi t soutt hewat erasshe' sbr ushi ngher t eet h Li sa: " Iseey oual r eadymadeadeci si on, sowhy bot herst i l l t el l i ngme? " Me: " don' tbel i ket hatLi sa" Li sa: " Noi t sy ourhouseQui nt on, y out heonl y onewhodeci deswhocanst ayher eandwho can' t , t hesamewayy oudi df ory onel aand Ai dan, y ounev eraskedme. . sowhyst ar tnow? Youcanal sosel l t hi shousei fy ouwantt oand nott el l me, causei t sy our s. . . Idon' tev enknow whyy oumakemebel i ev et hati t smyhome t oo, j ustl i kehowy oumademebel i ev et hatour ol dapar t mentwasour s. . unt i l y out ol dmei t s y our s. . r emembert hatday ? " . . . . . " uhm. . . Iseey ousol dourapar t ment" " y oumeanmyapar t ment " . . . . . . Li sa: " sodon' tmi ndmeQui nt on. .May beI shoul dst ar tpay i ngr entcauset hi si sdef i ni t el y notmyhouse" Shebumpsmyshoul derasshemakesherway backt ot her oom Me: " I ' m sor r ymyl ov e. . . l ookI ' l l t el l hert ol eav e f i r stt hi ngt omor r ow" Li sa: " whyy out el l i ngme?I t sy ourhouse" Sheswi t chesof ft hel i ghtandcov er sher sel f wi t ht heduv et Igobackt ot hebat hr oom t of r eshenup, bef or e goi ngbackt obed Isnuggl ecl osert oher Me: " pl easedon' tbemadatme" Shemov esmyhandsawayf r om hert hen mov esabi tf arf r om me Me: " bub? . . bubby ? " Li sa: " I ' mt r y i ngt osl eep" Iswi t chof ft hel ampandwet ur nourbackson eachot her Myhear tsi nks, Ihat ei twhenwef i ght , Sy dney needst ogo [ 07/ 29, 09: 12]W: I nser t40 LI SA Yonel a: " ay i boshesl epther e? " Me: " y eah" Yonel a: " andy oual l owedt hat ? " Me: " Iwasn' tgi v enachoi ce" Yonel a: " ay i Qui nt onamazesmebyt heday " Me: " i twashi smom whof or cedt hesi t uat i on act ual l y" Yonel a: " butt hi si shi shouseandy our sy ou shoul dal sohav easay " Me: " butImadei tcl eart ohi mt hatIwanther gonebyt oday , soshemustbepacki ngnow" Yonel a: " good, y oushoul dal somakei tcl eart hat heshoul dst opt ext i ngherorev ert al ki ngt oher agai n" " Goodmor ni nggoodpeopl e! " Sheshout scomi ngdownt hest ai r swear i ng onl yherunder wearandoneofQui nt on' sshi r t s? Somebodybet t erhol dmebef or eIj umpona bi t ch. . . Ai dan' sey eswho' sbyt hecouchspot her , hemov eswi t hherasshecomest owar ds t heki t chen, unt i l hel i f t st hem upt omeet y onel a, hei nst ant l yl ooksawayandbackatt he TV Sy dney : " heyl adi es. . . Li zzyr i ght ? " Shedoesn' tev enknowmyname. . .I fIdon' tki l l hernow, wi t ht hi skni f eI ' m usi ngt ochopt hese oni ons, Imi ghtnev ergett hechance Me: " i t sLi sa" Sy dney : " Li zzyl i zzal i ssaasamet hi ng" Me: " y eahsi y asi y andasi donusi dunusy dney y y y samet hi ng" Yonel abur st si nt ol aught er Sy dney : " what ev er , any wayIj ustwant edt osay t hanksf oral l owi ngmet ocr ashher ef oraf ew day s" Me: " y eahaboutt hat , y ouneedt o l eav e. . . . t oday . . . . . . . now" Sy dney : " ohbutAmbr osai dIcanst ay " Me: " andIsayy oucan' t" Sy dney : " buthe' smom sai dI ' m mor et han wel come" Me: " doy ouseehi smom any wher eher e?I ' m hi s gi r l f r i endhi sbestf r i endandr oommat eandI say . . . gi r l y ousgot st ogo" Sy dney : " Idon' tunder st and, whydoy ouhat eme somuch? " Ohwowshe' sgoi ngt opl ayi nnocentv i ct i m whensheknowst hatshe' saf t erQui nt on' sdi ck Me: " di dIsayany t hi ngabouthat i ngy ou?Ij ust needy ououtt hat ' sal l , wehav ewayt oomany peopl ei nt hi shouse, t her ear epl ent yhot el s ar oundIcoul dr ecommendy ouaf ew? " " Mor ni ngFAM! " That ' sashi r t l essQui nt oncomi ngdownt he st ai r s Sy dneyst ar t st oactup Sy dney( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " Idon' tknowwhyy ou hat emesomuch, whathav eIev erdonet o y ou. . . ( cr y i ng) . .i t sf i ne, i fy ouwantmeoutsso badI ' l l go! " Qui nt oncomest owar dsus Qui nt on: " what ' sgoi ngonher e? " Me: " not hi ngIwasj ust . . . . Sy dney : " Shemadei tcl eart hatI ' m notwel come her eandIshoul dcr awl t owhi chev erhol eI camef r om. . . . Shehat esmeandI ' m notgoi ngt o st aywher eI ' m notwant ed" Qui nt onl ooksatmedi sappoi nt edl y Qui nt on: " Li sa? " Me: " Qui nt on. . . Idi dn' tev ensayi tasmeanas she' sput t i ngi t " Qui nt on: " It ol dy ouI ' l l t al kt oherdi dn' tI . . . .You di dn' thav et obesohar shabouti t " Yonel a: " excuuuuseey ou? . . . . . f i r stofal l . . . Qui nt on( f i r mt one) : "Yonel ast ayoutoft hi s pl ease" Me: " whyy ouget t i ngal l wor kedup, she' snot ev enr eal l ycr y i ng, she' sj ustf aki ngi t . . j ustl i ke t her estofherf ake. . . . . . Qui nt on( agi t at ed) : " Li sakhany a! " Ist ar t l eandhol dmychestatt hewayhe shout edatme Sy dney ( cr y i ng) : " i t sf i neQui nt on. . l etmej ustget goi ng" Ha! !Sat an!Can' theseet hosear ecr ocodi l e t ear s Qui nt on: " No, pl easey oucan' tgo, notwheny oua messl i ket hi s" Sy dney : " No, Ambr ose, I ' ml eav i ng" Qui nt on( f i r ml y ) : " Sy dney . . .Goupst ai r s, f i nd somet hi ngt oweari nmywor edr ope, wegoi ng t ogett her estofy ourcl ot hes" Shenodsandmakesherwayupst ai r s Me: " soy ougoi ngt ol etherst ay ? " Qui nt on: " af t ert hewayy out r eat edher , shehas nooneher eLi sa, herf ami l yi sov er seas, what sheneedsnowi sasecondf ami l y . . . can' ty ouat l eastt r ybei ngni cet oher ? " If eel t ear st hr eat eni ng Idon' tknowwhet herhe' sst upi dorhe' ski nd hear ti sbl ocki nghi mf r om seei ngwhat ' sgoi ng on Qui nt on: " y ouknow, Iexpect edt hi ski ndof behav i orf r om her . . . notf r om y ou, y ouhav ea beaut i f ul hear tLi sa, pl easedon' tr ui ni tbecause ofwhat ev erpat het i cr easony ouhav e" Me( hi ghpi t chbr eaki ngt one) : " Pat het i c! ? . . . my Pat het i cr eason? . . . . wow! . . . y ouknowwhat Qui nt ondowhat ev er !I ' m out ! " Iwal kaway Qui nt on( shout i ng) : " I st hatwhaty ougoi ngt odo ev er yt i met hi ngsdon' tgoy ourway ! ?Wal k away ! ? " Ii gnor ehi m asImakemywayi nt oour bedr oom andbangt hedoorassoonasIent er , I br eakdownandt hr owmy sel font hebed, Ihat e Sy dney ! !Andherf akesel f !Ihat eQui nt on' s mom! !Ihat eCandr a! !Ihat eQui nt onandhi s ar r ogantcut esel f ! !Ihat eev er y one! !Hat ehat e hat ehat e! ! ! ! ! Isuf f ocat emy sel font hepi l l owandscr eam as l oudasIcan " Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! " I ' m angr y , Ican' tbeher er i ghtnow, Ineedt oget outofher ebef or eIki l l my sel f ! If r eshenup, Iputonmysweat pant sanda l oosev estwi t hf l ops, Ij ustt i emyhai rwi t hout combi ngi t , Ij ustt ookabat hy etIl ookl i keI hav en' tbat hei nageswhenIl ookatmy sel fi n t hemi r r or Ial r eadycal l edanubersoi t ' l l beher eany mi nut e. . .Idon' tev enknowwher eI ' m goi ng Ipassev er y onebyt hel ounget heyal l t ur nt o l ookatme Yonel a: " wher ey ouof ft o" Me: " out " He' ssi t t i ngont hehi ghchai r sl ooki ngatme Ist opandl ookathi mf orawhi l e Me: " whenIgetback, Idon' twantt oseeher her e" Hel ooksatmewi t hat t i t ude Me: " mx m" Iwal kout , If i ndt heuberal r eadybyt hegat e Dr i v er : " mor ni ngmi ss" Me: " mor ni ng. . pl easet akemet oBr aamf ont ai n" Hedr i v esmet her eanddr opsmenearOurol d apar t ment Me: " t hanky ou" Ipayhi m andhedr i v esof f , It ur nandl ookatt he house, i t sr enov at edandv er ybeaut i f ul , t hey ar d hasf r eshl ycutgr ass, memor i escomef l oodi ng i nasIst ar eatt hey ar d . . . . " br i ngt hather ebef or eIki l l y ou! " " y ouseepeopl e, t her e' st het hr eatIwast al ki ng about " Heget supcomi ngt owar dsmebutI ' mt oof ast f orhi mI ' m al r eadyout si de " Youbet t ergi v emet hatphoneYoungl adyAnd I ' m notpl ay i ngwi t hy ou, Del et et hatv i deonow" " y oubet t erbeni ceYoungman, causey oust i l l oncamer a. . .Sosmi l ef ort hecamer achocol at e f ace! " Igi ggl et henhest ar t schasi ngme " y out hi nky oucanout r unme. . . Idon' tt hi nkso Mi ssy " . . . . . . . Isi ghandwi pemyt eart henheadi nsi de Iknock Thedooropensandahandsomemi ddl eaged manopens Me: " hey " Hi m: " hey , canIhel py ou?" Me: " uhm y es, I ' ml ooki ngf orI sabel l a" Hi m: " oohhokay , andwho' sl ooki ng?" Me: " Li sakhany a" Het ur nsandshout sout Hi m: " Honey !ALi sakhany ai sl ooki ngf ory ou! " " Oh!Letheri nLov e! " Hel ooksbackatmeandmakeswayf ormet o comei n Hi m: " comeoni n" Hel eadsmet ot hesi t t i ngr oom, t hi shouse l ooksbet t ert hant hel astt i meIcameher e whenIf i r stmetBel l a Hi m: " I ' m Ll oy d, Bel l a' shusband" Hest r et cheshi shandf orahandshake Ishakei t Me: " ohhcongr at ul at i ons, l astt i meIcamey ' al l wer est i l l engaged" Hechuckl es Hi m: " t hanky ou, canIgety ouany t hi ngt odr i nk? " Me: " wat erwi l l begoodt hanks" Hedi sappear st ot heki t chen Bel l a: " heygi r l , howar ey ou" Ist andupandweshar eahug Me: " I ' m goodt hanksandy our sel f ?" Bel l a: " I ' m exhaust ed" Shesay saswesi tdownandLl oy dcomesback wi t hwat er Hi m: " t her ey ougo" Bel l a: " Iseey ou' v emetmyhusband? " Me: " Yeah, Ihav e, awesomeman" Theyl aughatme Ll oy d: " whyt hanky ou, i t snotev er y dayI ' mt ol d I ' m awesome" Hel ooksatBel l asl y l y Bel l a: " ohpl ease, goaway " Heexcuseshi msel f , nowi t sj ustBel l aandI Me( smi r ks) : " andwhat ' sexhaust i ngy ouso much?Mmmh? " Ikeept hr owi ngmyey est ot hedi r ect i onof wher eLl oy ddi sappear edt o Shel aughs Bel l a: " haa!Yousonaught y . . . wel l par t l yhi sf aul t butmost l ymel i t t l eRebeccai skeepi ngmeup al l ni ght " Idr opmyey esandi t sonl ynowIr eal i set hather bel l yi sf l atandshehasl ostal otofwei ghtbut shel ooksgood, Iguessshewentbackt oher nor mal wei ght Me: " oohhhmyGod. . .Shutt hef r ontdoor ! . . y ou gav ebi r t h!When? " Bel l a: " t hr eeweeksago" Me: " wow. . andy oumar r i ed, di dy ' al l mar r ybef or e oraf t erbi r t h? " Bel l a: " bef or e. . . wecoul dn' twai tanyl onger " Me: " aawwman, y ' al l socut e. . . Ineedt oseet he l i t t l epr i ncess" Bel l a: " Ij ustgothert osl eep" Me: " okay , I ' l l peakonherbef or eIl eav e" Bel l a: " y eah. . " Bel l a: " soIdon' tmeant ober udebuthowcanI hel py ou? " Isi gh Me: " Ij ustneededt ogetoutoft hathouse r eal l y , bef or eIgoi nsane" Bel l a: " y ourspi r i ti sv er ydown, y ouhear t br oken" Il ookathershesmi l esf ai nt l y , Il ookupt opush backt het ear s Me: " Iwasj ustwonder i ng, doest hatof f erst i l l st and? Bel l a: " y ouwantt ost ar tt her apy ? " Inod Me: " Yes, Ij ustneedt ogetr i dofal l t hese ni ght mar es, Bel l a, Ican' tgethi m outofmy mi nd, ev er yt i meIcl osemyey esIseehi sev i l br owney esl ooki ngatmeandhe' dbecal l i ng meal l sor t sofnamesandf or ci nghi msel fon me, Ican' tt akei tany mor e, It r i edpr ay i ngbef or eI sl eepbuti tdoesn' thel p. . . . . andi t sr eal l y af f ect i ngmysexl i f ewi t hQui nt on, ev er yt i me weaboutt odoi t , If eel l i kehe' l l j ustl oose cont r ol andnotst opwhenIaskhi mt o. . . . . as muchasIt r yt oconv i ncemy sel ft hatIt r ustand l ov ehi m wi t hal l myhear t , butnot hi ngwor ks" Bel l a: " andy out hi nkt hi si saf f ect i ngy our r el at i onshi pwi t hhi m? " Iwi pet heonet eardr opt hatescaped Me: " I ' m af r ai dt hathe' l l l oosehe' spat i enceand wi l l easi l ygett empt edt osl eepwi t hot her women" Bel l a: " andIsenset her e' sal r eadyanav ai l abl e candi dat e? " Me: " Yes, hernamei sSy dney , t heywer ebest f r i endsf r om waybackandt hey ' v eal so dat ed, she' sbacki nt ownaf t ery ear sandshe neededapl acet ost ay , Qui nt on' smom l i kesher al otandshehat esme, soshesuggest edshe st ay swi t hus, andQui nt onbei ngt hegood Samar i t anhecoul dn' tsayNo" Bel l a: " She' sbadnewsLi sa, y ourgutf eel i ng aboutheri sr i ght , she' snother ef orwor kasshe say s, Shewascal l edbyy ourman' smot her , she' s onami ssi ont osepar at ey ouandQui nt on. . . Qui nt on' smom doesnotl i keherbutshej ust doesn' twanty out obewi t hherson" Ican' tbel i ev et hi s!Iknewi t ! Me: " but . . . why ? " Bel l a: " Yougav eQui nt ont hedi amonds? " Inod Bel l a: " shewant st hem, wi t hy ouont hewayshe knowsQui nt onwon' tgi v ehercausehel i st ens t oy ou, buti fy ououtoft hepi ct ur eshecan conv i nceQui nt ont ogi v et hem t oher " Me( st unned) : " Ay i bo!Whydoesshewantt hem sobad? " Bel l a: " i thadn' tbeenr ev eal edt ome" Isi gh Me: " Ishoul dj ustgi v ehert hedi amonds, t hen shel eav esmeandQal one" Bel l a: " Youcan' tl ett hosedi amondsl andi nt he wr onghands" Me: " Iwantnot hi ngt odowi t ht hem" Bel l a" Li sa, i thasn' tbeenr ev eal edt ome why , buty oucan' tl etQui nt on' smom ort he Johnsonshav et hosedi amonds" Me: " Thesedi amondsar eacur seIswear " Bel l a: " f ornowt heymi ghtseem bad. . . butI bel i ev et her e' sagoodr easonwhyt heybel ong t oy ou" Me: " whataboutt hi sSy dney ?howdoIdeal wi t h her ? " Bel l a: " i twon' tbeeasy , y ouneedt obe st r ong, f i ghtf orhi m, pr ayf orhi m" Me: " Ican' tst ayi nt hathousewi t hherBel l a, I ' l l gocr azy , I t sl i keQui nt oncan' tev enhearme whenIt al kany mor e, i t sl i kehe' sl i st eni ngbut hercan' thearme, t heonl yper sonhel i st enst o i st hi sPr eci ousSy dneyandhi smot her" Bel l a: " Qui nt onwasmeantt opr ot ect , i t swhohe i s, i t si nhi sbl ood, whenhef eel sl i kepr ot ect i ng someonehe' l l pr ot ectwi t hhi sl i f e, i t swhathe doesf orpeopl ehe' shear ti scl oset o. . . . . but r i ghtnow, he' spr ot ect i ngt hewr ongper sonand heneedsy ourpr ot ect i on, y oul eav ehi m, y ou t hr owi nghi mt ot hewol v esandy our sel f . . . . y ' al l needeachot her " Me: " Bel l a" Bel l a: " y es? " Me: " I ' mt ooy oungf ort hi s" Bel l a: " y ouwayst r ongert hany out hi nk, t el l Qui nt onabouty ourgi f t " Me: " howdi dy ou? . . . . oohhy eahy ouhav ei tt oo" Bel l a: " y es, butt heynotexact l yt hesame" Me: " Qui nt ondoesn' tbel i ev ei nt heseki ndof st uf f , hewon' tbel i ev eme" Bel l a: " don' tputsuchl i t t l ef ai t hi nhi m. . . hel ov es y ou, he' l l bel i ev ey ou" * babycr y i ng* Shej umpsup Bel l a: " uuhhl etmegogether " Shedi sappear st ot her oom t hencomesback wi t hherbaby Ipl aywi t hherasshebr east f eedsher . . . . . . . * Hour sl at er * Ipayt heuberandmakemywayi nsi de, Inot i ce hercari sst i l l her eIguesshedoesn' tcar e aboutmyopi ni onsany mor e Imakemywayi nsi det hehouseandf i ndt hem al l wat chi ngwhatl ooksl i keahor r ormov i e, no oneev enhear dmecomi ngi n, t heysi t t i ngi none bi gcouch, Qui nt oni ssi t t i ngnextt oSy dneyand Ai dannextt oYonel a Il ookatt hescr eenoft heTV " Comeoutcomeoutwher ev ery ouar e! " * si l ence" * Bang! * " Goty ou! ! " Hechopst hegi r l ' sheadof f Ist ar t l e, Sy dneybur i esher sel fi nQui nt on' sar ms asshescr eamsal i t t l e, t henshest ay si nt hat posi t i onwi t hhi sar msar oundher . . . . . Ihol dmy mout hsot hatnoonehear smysudden out bur stasIcr y , Ir unupt hest ai r " HeyLi say ouback! " Ai danshout s Ibangt hedoorandt hr owmy sel font hebed andcr ymyl ungsout . . Idon' tchangeIj ustgo i nsi det hecov er s . . . . Thedooropensandi t snowpastmi dni ght , he comesi nsi det hecov er s, Isi tupandl ookathi m Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " ohsor r y .Di dn' tmeant o wakey ouup" Me: " wher ewer ey ou, causet hemov i el ong f i ni shed? " Qui nt on: " ohIwashel pi ngSy dneyf al l asl eep. . . ( chuckl es) . . . shecoul dn' tsl eepaf t er t hatmov i e" Me: " Doy oust i l l l ov eher ? " Qui nt on: " okay , west i l l att hebi t t er mode. . . goodni ght " Het ur nshi sbackonme Me( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " Doy oust i l l l ov eme? " Hei gnor esme Thet ear sst ar tal l ov erasIf eel l i kemyhear t hasbeenst abbedbyat housanddagger s Me: " causeIst i l l l ov ey ou. . . . v er ymuch" . . . Me: " Ij ustwanty out obehappy " . . . Me: " i si tsex? . . . i st hatwhaty ouwant ? " . . . Me: " okayf i ne. .Youcanhav ei t , I ' mr i ght her e. . makel ov et omeQ" It akeof fmycl ot hesandunder wear Isi tonmykneesandf acehi m, Ir emov et he bedcov er sf r om hi m Qui nt on: " Li sa. . . st op" Me( cr y i ng) : " No. . . comeon, l et ' shav esex Qui nt on. . .Comeonsl eepwi t hme, I ' m beggi ng y ou" Igetont opofhi m andki sshi m buthedoesn' t r espond Ir emov ehi sbr i ef s Me: " comeputi ti nsi demeQui nt on!" Hepushesmeaway Qui nt on( shout s) : " Woul dy oust opt hi s cr azi ness!" Iqui ckl ygetbackt omysi deoft hebedand bur sti nt oal oudcr y Qui nt on: " don' tdot hi st oy our sel fLi sa. . . of causeIl ov ey ou, i t snotaboutsex, Iwanty out o heal f i r st . . . Iam happywi t hy ou, i t sj usty ou' v e beenact i ngst r angel at el y , i t sl i key oudi st anci ng y our sel ff r om me" Me: " i t st heot herwayar oundQui nt on" Qui nt on: " i t snotLi sa, l ookI ' mv er yt i r ed, canwe t al kaboutt hi ssomeot hert i me?Ir eal l ydon' t wannaf i ghty our i ghtnow, l et ' sj ustcuddl eand sl eepokay ? " Igeti nsi det hecov er sandt ur nmybackon hi m, hecomescl oserandwr apshi msel far ound me. . Icr ymy sel ft osl eep . . . . [ 07/ 29, 09: 14]W: I nser t41 SYDNEY I ' v ebeenher ef orf ourday snowandt hi ngs bet weenQui nt onandIar egoi ngv er ywel l t hanI i magi ned, can' tsayt hesamef orhergi r l f r i end andhi m.Hest i l l l i st enst omeandhest i l l car es al otf orme, we' v eal way shadt hatst r ongbond. Iwasshockedwhenhi smot hercal l edmet o comev i si tt hi ssi decauset hel astt i meI checkedshenev erl i kedme, whenQui nt onandI st ar t edbecomi ngmor et hanf r i ends, shebr i bed meandt ol dmet ost ayf arawayf r om herson, i t wasal otofmoneysoIaccept edi t , butnow sheneedsmyhel p, shegav emeawhol el otof moneyf ormet odot hi sf orherandI ' l l be get t i ngmor ei fIpul l i tofandmaket hem br eak up, soI ' m gonnagobyal l meanst opul l i t of f . . t her e' sj ustonepr obl em now, I ' mf al l i ngi n l ov ewi t hhi m al l ov eragai n, onceIpul l edt hi s of fI ' m nev erl et t i nghi m goagai n. Thatbi t chLi sai ssonai v e, she' sbeent r y i ngt o beni cert ome, butofcauseImakei ti mpossi bl e f orherIkeeppr ov oki nghersoQui nt onal way s wal ksi nonusandshe' sal l wor ked up, y est er dayIpi ckedaf i ghtwi t hher , aphy si cal oneandIl etherbeatmeandQui nt onwal kedi n onherbeat i ngmeup, t hewayhewassomadat her , shout edather , ev ent hr eat enedt oki ckher out, ofcauseshet r i edt opi ni tonme, butt he scenewentagai nsther , Iwast hev i ct i m, hi s br ot her st hought heyhat emeandt heycan' t ev enhi dei tAi danwentbackhomeYest er day hesai dhecan' twat chQui nt onpushi ngaway t heonl ygi r l he' sev erl ov ed. . Ha!He' s mi ne, al way shasbeenandal way swi l l . I t shi sbi r t hdayt odayLi saandherf r i endy onel a wentt ocampus, t henLi sahast her apy , y onel a wi l l wai tf orher , sot hey ' l l bebackl at ei t sj ust hi m andIi nt hehouse, I ' v ebeenwal ki ngar ound hal fnakedandIseet hewayhechecksmeout , I knowt hathehasn' tbeenget t i ngi tf orawhi l e now, andt oni ghtal l t hatwi l l endI ' m goi ngt o seducehi m, t henuset hatdr ugAmbr ose' smom gav emet omakehi ml oosenupandbecome v er yhor ny . . . Iknow. . .Ir ock! Me: " bi r t hdayboycan' tbewor ki ng, nonono! " He' si nt hest udybur i edi nhi swor k Ambr o: " Ihav et of i ni shupt hi sassi gnment . . . ThenIhav et ol ookathow' sbusi nesshol di ng up" Me: " Ir ef usey ouwor kony ourbi r t hday , come on, Ibakedacakef ory ou" Wel l Li sabakedi tear l yi nt hemor ni ng, Iguess shewasgoi ngt osur pr i sehi ml at erbutIsaw wher esheputi t Ambr o: " r eal l y ? " Igoar oundhi m andmassagehi sshoul der s Me: " y eah, Iknowhowmuchy oul ov echocol at e cake" Ambr o: " chocol at e. .Mmmht hat ' smyf av or i t e, Li sal ov esmaki ngt hatonspeci al day s, but she' dmakeabi ggeroneonmybi r t hdayand we' d. . . . Me( i nt er r upt s) : "shhhhh. . . . r el axy ousost i f f " Imassagehi m abi thar derhegr oans Ambr o: " aahhy eah. . . t hat ' st hespot " Iwhi spercl oset ohi sear Me( whi sper s) : " l et ' sgof eedy ousomecake" Het ur nst ol ookathi ssi dewher eourf acesar e onl yani nchapar twel ookateachot herf ora whi l e, t hechemi st r yi sst i l l t her e, andIj ustknow hemi ssest hecr azysexweusedt ohav e Ambr o: " y eahI ' m st ar v i ng" Hest andsupj ustwhenIt houghtwewer egoi ng t oki ss, Iwi shhecoul dl ookatmet hesameway hel ooksatLi sa, we' v ebeencl oset oki ssi ngso manyt i mesbutheal way sf i ndst hest r engt ht o r esi standwal kawaymxm.We' l l seehowhe' l l r esi stl at er . Weheadt ot heki t chen, It akeoutt hecake Ambr o: " wowi t ssohuge" I ' m ev enshockedmy sel f , damnt hi sgi r l l ov e Ambr ot owakeupont hatear l yandbakesucha hugecakewhenshest i l l hast ogot oschool Me: " y ouknowI ' dgoal l outf ory ou" Ambr o: " y eahbutt hi si saf i r st , l astt i meI checkedy ounev erknewhowt oev enf r yan egg? " Il augh Me: " Igr ewupAmbr ose" Ambr o: " Iguessy ouhav e" Iputi tont hecount erandst ar tsi ngi ngf orhi m Me( si ngi ng) : " happybi r t hdayt oy ou, happy bi r t hdayt oy ou. . .Happybi r t hdaydear munchki nshappybi r t hdayt oy ooooouuu. . . . hi p hi p! ! ! Hor r ayhi phi phor r ay " Hei sj ustsmi l i ngandst ar i ngatme Ambr o: " t hanky ousomuch" Me: " hopeI ' mt hef i r stonet owi shy ou" Icr ossmyf i nger s Ambr o: " act ual l yLi sal ef tmeacar d, my br ot her sandsi st ercal l edear l i erandmom. . . but hey , y out hef i r stonet ogi v emet hi san awesomegi f t " Me: " gr eat , atl east . . . pl easecutt hecakeal r eady ! " Hechuckl esasIhandhi mt hekni f eandhecut s It aket hesl i cehecutandf eedhi m Hi sey esaut omat i cal l ycl ose Ambr o: " mmmmhsoooogoooood" Ihav eabi t eandhe' sr i ghti t ssogood Ambr o: " damnt hi si st hebomb, di dy ouaskLi sa f ort her eci pe?CauseIsweari tt ast esj ustl i ke t heoneshemakesoncei nawhi l eaf t erIbeg herf orday s. . andshedoesn' twantt ogi v eme t her eci pe" Me( i r r i t at ed) : " notev er y t hi nghast obeabout Li saAmbr ose. .Ibakedy out hi scakewi t hmy ownr eci pe. . . t hanksf orappr eci at i ng! " Iswaymyassoutt heki t chenhef ol l owsme Ambr o: " I ' m sor r ySy dney , Idi dn' tmeant omake y ouangr y , i t sj usti tr emi ndedmeof . . . . . . okay l ookI ' l l st op, Iknowy out woar en' ti ngoodt er ms soIwon' tt al kt oy ouaboutherany mor e" Ismi l eandl ookathi m Me: " good, nowgof r eshenupsowecan cel ebr at e" Iki sshi scheek, heget supandr unsupst ai r s, I al sogot omyr oom andf r eshenup. . . Iappl y somemakeup, combemyhai randpuf fsome col ogne, It akeoutt hebl acknumberIbought j ustf orhi m andputi ton. Thenwearani ghtdr essov eri t , Iwal kdown st ai r ssl owl yandhe' sont hesof ast ar i ngathi s phone, Ipeekatwhathe' sdoi ngandnot i cehe' s goi ngt hr oughpi ct ur esofLi saandhi msel f , he keepschuckl i ng, ar ghwhat ' swi t ht hi sgi r l any way , whatdoesshehav et hatIdon' t ?Icl ear myt hr oathel ooksatmeupanddown Ihol dupt hebot t l eofwi ne Me: " l et ' scel ebr at e" Ambr o: " y eahsur e" Hel ooksdownandsad Isi tnextt ohi m Me: " what ' st hemat t er ? " Ambr o: " i t sj ustI . . . .Ar ghi t snot hi ng, Ishoul dn' t t al kaboutherwi t hy ou" Isi gh Igot akegl assesi nt heki t chenandIputt he smal l pi l l i nhi s Icomebackandpourussomewi ne Me: " i t sf i ne, y oucant el l me" Hesi ghs Ambr o: " i t sj ustIf eel bad" Me: " why ?" Ambr o: " t hewayLi sahasbeenact i ngl at el y , I f eel l i kei t smyf aul t " Me: " i t snoty ourf aul t , t hatgi r l hasi ssuesmay be t her apywi l l dohergood" Ambr o: " may beIshoul dn' thav el ety oust ay her e, may bet hi ngswoul dn' tbel i ket hi s. , . . . . no of f ence" Me: " nont aken, Iunder st and, Imeani fIwer ei n hershoesI ' dpr obabl ybeal i l j eal ous, butas l ongasy oushowherl ov eandaf f ect i onshe shoul dn' tbebot her ed, Imeany ou' v emadei t cl eart hatt her e' snot hi nggoi ngonbet weenus andnot hi ngev erwi l l . . sheshoul dj ustt r usty ou" Ambr o: " y ouknow. . . y ouhav eapoi nt , I ' v edone not hi ngwr ong, I ' mj usthel pi nganol df r i endi n need, Idon' tknowwhyshe' sact i ngal l cr azy , t hi s i ssounl i keherandi t sabi gt ur nof f . . . ImeanI knowshe' sbeent hr oughal otbutI ' v edoneso muchf orher , t ohel pherbutshest i l l doubt sme? Sheev enmov edt ot heot herguestr oom l ast ni ght . . . Me: "she' sact i ngl i keabr at , t hat ' showgi r l ' s f r om poorbackgr oundsar e, t heyactal l sweet andni ceatt hebegi nni ng, y ouhel pt hem out andshowt hem l ov e, gi v et hem money , t hent hey changet obei ngal l cont r ol l i ngandf or get ev er y t hi ngy ou' v edonef ort hem" Hegul psdownt hewi nel ooki ngv er yf r ust r at ed andcut eatt hesamet i me, ohmanhe' sey esar e t odi ef ort hewayt heychangecol our , so magi cal Ambr o: " y our i ght , she' sf or get t i ngwher ewe comef r om t oget her , ev er y t hi ngwe' v ebeen t hr ough, sheusedt obesoki nd, she' ddo any t hi ngt ohel psomeonei nneed, but now. . . . mxm" Ipourhi m mor e, hegul psi tdownashet al ks mor eandmor eabouthi sLi sawho' schangi ng, f r om mypoi ntofv i ew, Li sai sasweetgi r l , she l ov esAmbr osebutIguessherwomani nst i nct s ar ewar ni ngher . . . awomanal way sknows Me: " come, l et ' sr el easesomeoft hatst r ess" Imassagehi m, her emai nsqui et , Icheckt he t i me, andt hey ' l l bebackanymi nut enow Ir emov ehi sshi r t , he' sdr unknow Ambr o( sof t l y ) : " Sy dney ? . . .Whatar ey oudoi ng? " Me: " r el easi ngsomest r ess" Ipushhi m ont hecouchandgetont opof hi m, hi sdi cki sal r eadyhar d Ohmy , i t sst i l l sobi g, It akeof fmyni ght dr ess, hi sey eswi denast heyl andonmyboobs, It akeof fhi sshor t s, Isi tr i ghtonhi sdi ck, Imov e myf acet ohi s Me( whi sper s) : " doy oul i ket hi sgi f t ? " Her emai nsqui et It akeof fmyl i nger i e Ambr o: " Sy dney . . .Thi si swr ong" Hesay si nal owt onewi t hhi sey eshal fopen Me: " t henst opme" Iki sshi m andher esponse, Igr i ndonhi s di ck, ast heki ssget sheat edup Hi shandsr unni ngal l ov erme Ambr o: " damnLi ss" Li ss?Ii gnor ehi m aswecont i nue LI SA Me: " Ishoul d' v eski ppedt oday ' ssessi on" Yonel a: " i fIknewi twer egoi ngt ot aket hi sl ong Iwoul dn' thav ewai t ed" Me: " Ican' twai tt osur pr i sehi m wi t ht hecakeI bakedf orhi mt hi smor ni ng" Yonel a: " mxm. . Idon' tgetwhyy ouev enbot her ed, y ' al l hadahugef i ghtl astni ght , y oushoul dbe madathi m, y ouev ensl epti nt heguestr oom" Me: " Iknow, buthowcanIbemadathi m when i t shi sbi r t hday ?Ij ustcan' theneedst obe spoi l t " Yonel a: " dude, t hi ngswi l l nev ergobackt o nor mal wi t ht hatwi t chi nt hathouse, I ' mt el l i ng y oul et ' sj ustgobackt omyapar t ment , l ethi m mi ssy oual i t t l eandl ethi mr eal i sewhatki ndof per sonSy dneyi s" Me: " Yonel a, Il ov eQui nt on, Igetwhaty ou say i ng, butl etmegi v ehi mt hi sonel ast chance, i fnot hi ngchanges, t henwewi l l mov e outokay ? " Yonel a: " Ican' tt akei tany mor e, Ican' twat chy ou t or t ur ey our sel fl i ket hi s, I ' m mov i ngoutf i r st t hi ngt omor r ow, f eel f r eet ocomewi t hme" Me: " onemor echance, Imeanheal sogav eme achancewhenImessedup, It hi nkhedeser v es i tt oo" Yonel a: " buty oursi t uat i onwasunder st andabl e, y ouwer ef or cedi nt omar r i age, y ouhadno choi ce" Me: " butt hatdi dn' tmeanIshoul d' v egav eupon hi m" Yonel a: " ohmygoshLi sa, Ihat ehowy ou def endi nghi mr i ghtnow" Me: " weneedt ost i ckt oget hermor et hanev er r i ghtnow, heneedsmebyhi ssi deandIneed hi mt oo" Yonel a: " butr i ghtnow, hedoesn' tev enwant y ou, whenl asthashet ouchedy ou?Ormakea j oke?Wheny oui nt hel oungehe' si nt he bedr oom wheny oui nt her oom he' sbyt he l ounge, Ihat et haty oudon' tseehowcl oserhe i st oSy dneyandnoty ouany mor e" Myhear tt hr obsatt hepai nf ul t r ut hshe' st el l i ng Me: " Inot i ceev er y t hi ngy onel a, . . . butev er y t hi ng wi l l gobackt onor mal soon. . . y ou' l l see" Theuberdr opsusof fatt hegat e, wewal ki n, I ' m r ushi ngi nf r ontofherIj ustwantt osi ngf orhi m al r eady ! Me: " hur r yup! " Yonel a: " y eahwhat ev er " Wer unt owar dst hehouse Ibustt hedooropenandheadt ot heki t chen Me( si ngi ng) : onceay earwecel ebr at ewi t h st upi dhat sandpl ast i cpl at es. . . . . . . t hef actt hat y ouwer eabl et omaket het r i par oundt hesun ( gasps) andt hewhol epl angat her sr oundand gi f t sandl aught erdoabound. . . . . . wel etouta j oy f ul soundandsi ngt hatst upi dsong!Happy Bi r t hday , nowy ouroney earol der .Happy Bi r t hday , y ourl i f est i l l i sn' tov er .HappyBi r t hday , y oudi dnotaccompl i shmuch.Buty oudi dn' tdi e t hi sy eari guesst hat ' sgoodenough.. . . . . . . " Mysi ngi ngf adesasIseet hecakeal r eadycut Me: " ohno, hef oundi t " " Uhm Li sa. . . .It hi nky oumi ghtwannaseet hi s" Shest ar i ngatsomet hi ngbyt hecouchIwal kup t oher Me: " hef oundt hesur pr i secakeI . . . . . . . . . " It r ai l of fasIseewhaty onel ai sst ar i ngat Qui nt on' scl ot hesar eont hef l oorandhi s br ei f s, al sol i nger i eandmyni ghtdr ess, Il ookat t het abl eandnot i cet woempt ygl assest he ot heronehasl i pst i ckst ai ns Yonel a( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " ohno. . . Li sa. . . I ' m so sor r y " Ichuckl et henst ar tl aughi ngf orr eal Me( l aughi ng) : " No. . . t hi si snotQui nt on' s cl ot hes. . .I tcan' tbe" Iwal kupst ai r s Me: " Q! !Baby ! ! " Iopenourr oom andIswearmyhear tsl i pped outofmybodyasmybodyf r eezesandI becomecol d, t heyundert hecov er sandar e mov i ngsof ast , hermoansf i l l upt her oom, not t hi sagai n! . .If eel myheadget t i ngdi zzy , Ihol di t wi t hbot hmyhandsasi tf eel sl i kei t sgoi ngt o f al l of f Me( sof t l y ) : " Qui nt on? " Shei mmedi at el yget sof fhi m, hesi t supand j ustl ooksatme Shecov er sher sel fwi t ht hecov er s Sy dney : " oohhLi zzy . . i t snotwhati tl ooksl i ke" Myey esar egl uedatt hemanIt houghtl ov ed me Me: Qui nt on?" Qui nt on: " ppsshhh. . . oops" Myj awdr opsdi dhej ustsayt hat ?I t sl i kehe' s notev enshockedIcaughthi m, hedoesn' tcar e Qui nt on: " howl ongar ey ougoi ngt oj ustst and t her e? " Iswal l owt hebi ggestl umponmyt hr oati t al mostchokedme Me: " i nourbed?I nourhome? " Qui nt on: " mybed. . . myhome. . . mydi ck" Me: . . . . . Qui nt on: . . . . Sy dney : . . . . . Me: " happybi r t hday , hopey ouenj oy edt hecakeI madef ory ou. . . . . enj oyt her estofy ourl i f e Qui nt on. . . . .I ' m done! " Ir unoutandr undownt hest ai r s, It hr owmy sel f i nYonel a' sal r eadyopenar ms Me: " l et ' sgo. . . l et ' sgor i ghtnow. . . I ' m donewi t h Qui nt on, Idon' tcar eany mor e, t heJohnsonscan ki l l mei ft heywantt o, myl i f ei sov erany way " Yonel a: " Let ' sgobaby " Wedon' tpackany t hi ngwej ustl eav e, t heuber dr opsusof fatherapar t ment .Thef i r stt hi ngI doi sr unt ot her oom andcr ymyl ungs out . . . t hat ' sal l I ' m goodatnowaday s.I t sso pai nf ul , Ican' tgett hei mageoutofmy mi nd. . . whathav eIdonesowr ongt oy ou uni v er se?Whyy oukeephur t i ngmemel i ket hi s? Why ? ♥ NARRATED♥ THENEXTDAY Qui nt onwakesupwi t ht hemostpai nf ul head ev er , hesi t supandhol dsi t , i t sbuzzi ng Het ur nst ol ookbesi deHi m andLi sai s sl eepi ngbesi dehi m andhasherbackon hi m, she' snaked. . hesnuggl escl oserandki sses herback Qui nt on: " Bub?Wakeup" Shet ur nst of acehi m Sy dney : " heyy ou" She' ssobeaut i f ul , het hi nkst ohi msel f Qui nt on: " heybub. . . . don' ty ouhav ecl asses t oday ? " Shef i r stl ooksathi m conf used Sy dney : " Ambr o?Ar ey ouokay ? " Me( chuckl es) : " si ncewhendoy oucal l meby mysecondname? " Sy dneyt hi nkst oher sel ff orawhi l e, what exact l ywast hatpi l l hegav eher ?Qui nt on' s mom gav ei tt oher , butsheonl ysai di twoul d makehi m sl eepwi t hher , shesai dnot hi ngabout changi nghert ol ookl i keLi sa. I nQui nt on' sey es, Sy dneywasLi sa, butwhenshe l ookedather sel fshest i l l l ookedt hesame, she smi l est oher sel fanddeci dest ogowi t ht he f l ow Sy dney : " ohIdon' tknow, Ij ustf el tl i kei t . .NoI don' thav ecl assest oday " Qui nt on: " t hat ' sgr eat . . l ookbub, I ' m sor r yabout t hewayI ' v ebeenact i ngl at el y , Idon' tknow what ' swr ongwi t hme, Ipr omi seI ' l l makesur e Sy dneyl eav est odayokay " Sy dney : " r eal l y ? . . y ou' ddot hatf orme? " Qui nt on: " Il ov ey ousomuchLi sa, Ihat ei twhen wef i ght , Iwon' tal l owany onet ocomebet ween usany mor e" Sy dney : " Il ov ey ousomuchQ" Qui nt on: " Ienj oy edmybi r t hdaygi f ty est er day " Sy dney : " r eal l y ? " Qui nt on: " Yeah. . . Imi ssedus" Sy dney : " wannagof orr oundt wo? " Qui nt on: " hel l y eah" Theyshar eaki ssandmakesweetl ov e, Sy dney hasf i nal l ygotwhatsheal way swant ed, uncondi t i onal l ov ef r om herl ongl ostl ov er , Qui nt onf eel scont entt hathef i nal l yf i xedt hi ngs wi t ht hel ov eofhi sl i f eandt hi ngscanf i nal l ygo backt onor mal ? ? . . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 29, 09: 16]W: I nser t42 LI SA TWOWEEKSLATER " Li sa!Opent hi sdoor ! " Me: " goaway !" " Youhav et oeatLi sa, y oucan' tkeepav oi di ng f oodal l t het i me" Me: " I ' m nothungr yy onel a, nowpl easegoI ' m t r y i ngt or ead" " I fy oudon' topent hi sdoorr i ghtnow, I ' m br eaki ngi tdown! " Me: " Goahead, i t scomi ngouty ourpocket any way" Shecont i nuesbangi ngt hedoormaki ngi t i mpossi bl ef ormet odr owni nmyt hought s, I wassocl oset oget t i ngt hecour ageofsl i ci ng mywr i stwi t ht hi sr azor , Ii gnor eher , she st ops, f i nal l y ! Nowwher ewasI ?Ohr i ght ! !I ' m aboutt ol eav e t hi scr uel wor l di tdoesn' tdeser v eme, Imov e t her azorcl oserIcutmy sel fal i t t l eandbl ood cameout . . . " Aaahhh" DamnIdi dn' texpecti tt of eel t hi sgood?I pushedi tev endeeper , al otofbl oodcameout , andIf el texcr uci at i ngpai n, myheadi spant i ng andmyhear t beati sget t i ngweaker . . . . " Mybed. . . . myhome. . . . mydi ck" . . . . Thosewer et heonl ywor dst hatkeptr i ngi ngi n mymi ndf ort hepastt woweeksandt hei mage oft hem ont opofeachot her . . . . atl eastnowi twi l l ber emov edper manent l y . . . Mybodyget sweakerIgeti nsi det hecov erand cl osemyey es . . . . . . . YONELA I t sl i keI ' v ebeenl i v i ngwi t hazombi ef ort he pastt woweeks, herdai l yr out i nei ssl eepwake upgot ocampuscomebacksl eep, ev er yt i me, I don' tr emembert hel astt i mesheput somet hi ngi nhermout h, she' sl ostsomuch wei ghtandi t sr eal l yt or t ur i ngmet oseemygi r l l i ket hat , shest oppedat t endi ngt her apyaf t er Qui nt on' sbi r t hday .Ihat eQui nt on, Ir eal l y t houghthewassmat ert hant hi s, t hewayhe' s sohappynow, i t sl i ket hebr eakupwi t hLi sa hasn' taf f ect edhi m atal l , Ibumpedi nt ohi m oncewi t hhi sSy dneyhol di nghands, t henhe st oppedandaskedmewhydon' tIv i si tany mor e? Thener v e!Ii gnor edhi m, Idon' tev enwantt o wast emybr eat ht al ki ngt ohi m. . . . butI ' m af r ai d i fhedoesn' tdosomet hi ngLi sawi l l di eof depr essi on. . . .Speaki ngofLi sa, Igot t acheckup onher Iknockatherdoorsher emai nsqui et Iknockev enl ouderbutsher emai nsqui et Okaywhyi sn' tsheshout i ngatmet ogo away , l i kesheal way sdoes Ibangt hedoor Not hi ng Igetoutandgoar oundt hehouse, Iknocj ather wi ndow, l ucki l yandal sounl ucki l yt her e' sno bur gl arguar dsandt hewi ndowi sabi topensoI openi tmor eandcl i mbup, If al l asImakei ti nt o herr oom, Igetupandr emov et hecur t ai nf r om myway , Inot i ceshe' ssl eepi ngImov ecl osert o her , Ir emov et hehai rcov er i ngherf ace, myey es wi denasInot i cef oam comi ngouthermout h. . . Me: " ohnoohno. . . Ir emov et hebl anketandbl oodwasal l ov ert he bed Me: " ohnononono! ! ! " If eel herpul seandi t sv er yweaki twon' tl ast l ong Ther e' snot i met ogobackf ormyphonesoI gr abherphoneandcal l anambul ance Me: " hel l o! ?Pl easehel pmyf r i endcommi t t ed sui ci deshe' sgoi ngt odi eanymi nut enow pl easepl easehur r yup! ! ! " Ineedy out ocal m downmam andt el l us wher eexact l yar e. . . . Ihangup, t heywi l l t aket hei rownf r eaki ngt i me! Thi nkt hi nkt hi nk!Ai dan! AsmuchasIwantnot hi ngt odowi t ht hat f ami l ybutIhav enochoi ce Hepi cksupi mmedi at el y " Li sat hankGody ouf i nal l ygetback. . . . . . . Me: " pl easehur r yandgether e! ! !Pl ease! ! ! ! " " Nel l a! ?What ' s. . . . Me: "She' sdy i ngpl easegether enow! ! !I ' m at myapar t ment . .Pl easeAi danshedoesn' thav e mucht i mel ef t ! ! " " I ' m onmyway " Ihangup It r yshaki ngher . . . Ir unoutt ot akeacl ot hsoI cancov ert hepar twher ebl oodwascomi ngout Me: " pl easedon' tdot hi st omeLi sa, pl easey ou can' tl eav emenow. . . whatabouty ourmot her ? Yout heonl yf ami l yshe' sl ef twi t h, whatabout me. . Il ov ey ousomuch, Ican' tl oosey ou now, y out hebestsi st erInev erhad. . . . pl ease babe" Ipi ckherupandt akehert ot hesi t t i ngr oom wher ei t ' l l becl osert ot hedoor Me( cr y i ng) : " wher et hef ucki st hatboy ! " That ' si tI ' m cal l i nganuber " Wher ei sshe! ! ! ? " Hebust si nsi deashef l y st owar dsme, hepi cks herupandIr unbehi ndhi m ashecar r i eshert o t hecar , hedr ov el i keamani acandIwasn' t compl ai ni ngIwi shedhecoul ddr i v eev en f ast er , Ikeptf eel i ngherpul se Me: " I t sgone! ! !No! ! !No! !Comeback! ! ! " . . . . . . Wenowi nt hewai t i ngr oom paci ngupand downast hedoct or sat t endedt oher , Cl y de comesr unni ngi n Cl y de: " Ai dan! ? . . ( r unst owar dsus) . . . .Howi s she? " Ai dan: " Idon' tknowman" Hi sv oi cesoundedl i kehe' saboutt ocr y Cl y de: " she' l l bef i ne" If eel hi mr ubmyback, Il ookupathi m andi t s t hef i r stt i meI ' m seei nghi ssadr eact i onwi t ha f r own, heal way skeepsast r ai ghtemot i onl ess f ace Me: " how?She' sdead, herpul sewasgone, she' s deadCl y de, she' snotgoi ngt obef i ne, noonei s goi ngt obef i ne, myoneandonl yf r i end. . . . she' s gone" Hepul l smet ohi sembr ace Me: " Ibl ameQui nt on. . .Heki l l edher , hebr oke herhear tsomanyt i mesandnowshe' sdead! She' sl ef twi t hnohear tt ocont i nuel i v i ng. . .I bl ameQui nt on, heki l l edher . . Iwar nedhi m, y ou war nedhi m, Ai danwar nedhi m, Li sawar ned hi m, buthe' ssost upi dhedoesn' tl i st en!Now l ookwher ehi sst upi di t yhasgot t enus! ? " Cl y de: " sshhhhh" Icr i edev enmor e " Li sakhany aMt het hwa? " Weal l j umpedup Doc: " herhear tst opped. . . " Ai dan: " No. . noshecan' tbegone. . . i t st oosoon" Doc: " I ' v enev ercameacr ossany t hi ngl i ket hi s bef or e, butwet r i edev er y t hi ngbutnot hi ng hel ped, Iev endecl ar edherdead, y ou see. . . ( showi ngushi spaper s) . . . . butsomehow shewokeup, j ustwhenIwasaboutt oexi tt he doort ot el l y ' al l she' sgone" Me: " soshe' sal i v e? . . . oohht hanky ouJesus" Doc: " Jesusi ndeed, causewedef i ni t el yhad not hi ngt odowi t hi t , t hi si st hef i r stt i me any t hi ngl i ket hi shasev erhappenedf ort he pastf i v ey ear sofmyl i f et hatI ' v ebeenaDoct or , t hi si sami r acl e" Ai dan: " unbel i ev abl e" Cl y de: " canweseeher ? " Doc: " y esofcause" Hel eadsust oherwar d She' sl y i ngonherbackf aci ngt hecei l i ngwi t h herey escl osed Me: " Li sa? " Shel i f t sherheadupandl ooksatus Li sa: " Yonel a" Iat t ackherwi t hahugwehol deachot herf or deadl i f e Me: " don' tdot hat , ev eragai n!Doy ou under st and! ?" Li sa( chuckl es) : " Iwon' tdoi tagai n" Me: " west i l l hav esomucht oaccompl i shLi sa, af t erwegr aduat e, webecomet opdogl awy er s, buyourf ami l i eshouses, t r av el t hewor l d, get mar r i edt oHotAf r i canAmer i cansatt heageof f or t ywhenwehav ef ul l yenj oy edl i f e. . r emember t hat ? " Shenods Me: " nowhowwer ewesupposedt odoal l t hat wi t hy oudead? " Li sa: " I ' m sor r y " Ihugheragai n Li sa: " Il ov ey ou" Me: " Il ov ey oumor e" Ibr eakt hehugandwi pehert ear s Shel ooksatAi danandCl y de Li sa: " comeher e" ShehugsAi danwhohasshedaf ewt ear s, t hey br eaki t , shel ookatCl y def orawhi l e Cl y de: " heyLi sa" Li sa: " hi Cl y de" Cl y de: " shoul dIhugy ouorhandshake? " Shesmi l es Li sa: " any one" Cl y de: " I ' l l hugy ou" Sheshr ugshershoul der s Li sa: " okay " Theyhug Me: " Wei r d" Ai dan: " t el l meabouti t , t hi si sexact l yhowt hey wer et hef i r stdayt heymet " Li sa: " wher e' sQui nt on? " Weal l l ookar oundav oi di ngt hathear t br eaki ng quest i on Li sa: " hedi dn' tcomet oseeme? " Thehur ti nherv oi cei snothar dt omi ss Ai dan: " Li sa. . . Li sa: " Iwasaboutt odi e. . . andhenev ercamet o seeme? " Me: " hedoesn' tdeser v ey ouLi sa" Ai dan: " hehasn' tbeenhi msel fl at el yLi sa, he doesn' tev encomehomet ov i si tany mor e, i t s l i kehe' sundersomesor tofspel l t hewayhe' s car r y i ngon, hedoesn' tl i st ent oany onebesi des t hatSy dneygi r l " Me: " f or getabouthi m Li sa, y oudon' tneedhi m" Li sa: " whyi shedoi ngt hi st ome? " Shebr eaksdown Me: " y ouhav et omov eonLi sa, t hi si snot heal t hy" QUI NTON ThankGodi t shol i day s, assi gnment swer e dr ai ni ngme, nowIcanr el axandenj oyt hi st i me wi t hmybaby , Ican' tbel i ev eIal mostl etSy dney r ui nt hi ngsbet weenus.Il ov eLi saandIcan' t i magi nel i f ewi t houther , butsomet hi ngi sj ust notr i ghtwi t hhernowaday s, i t sl i keshedoesn' t knowmesomehow, sheaskedmehowmany spoonsofsugardoIl i kei nmyt ea?Sheshoul d knowt hatbet t ert hanany one, sheev enl et ' sme eatasmucht akeout sasIwant , IknowIl ov e f ast sf oodsbutsheusedt ohat ei twhenIhav e t hem al l t het i meshepr ef er r edcooki ngbut nowaday sshedoesn' tcookatal l . . Iknowt hese ar ej ustl i t t l et hi ngsbuti t st hel i t t l et hi ngst hat makemel ov ehersomuch, andt hesel i t t l e t hi ngsar esl owl yv ani shi ng.Il ov ei twhenshe cal l smeQbutnowshel i kescal l i ngmebymy secondname?I t snott hatIdon' tl i kemy secondnamebutIal way st houghti t ssexy whenshesay" Q"or" Qui nt on"Shedoesn' tev en cal l mel ov ebugany mor ej ustbaby , Il i kebaby butIl ov edt hewayshesay s" l ov ebug"i t ssuch at ur non. . .Butmay beI ' mj usti magi ni ngt hi ngs " OMG!Ambr ose!Youwon' tbel i ev et hi s! " Iswi t chof ft heTVandt ur nt ol ookather Me: " whati si tbub? " Li sa: " r ememberhowIwast el l i ngy ouI ' m not f eel i ngwel l ? " Me: " Yeah, ar ey oubet t ernow? " Li sa: " No. . butIj ustf oundoutwhy " Shecomesandsi t snextt ome Me: " why ?" Li sa: . . . . . Me: . . . . . Li sa: " I ' m pr egnant" Me: . . . . . Li sa: " I ' mt woweekspr egnant . . .Look" Sheshowsmet hepr egnancyt est Ihear tbeat si nexci t ementIcan' tbel i ev et hi s Me: " y oupr egnant ?" Shenodsbi t i ngherl owerl i p Me: " I ' m goi ngt obeaf at her ? " Shenodsexci t edl y Me: " f orr eal ? " Li sa: " Yes, f orr eal " Igetup, pi ckherupandspi nher , shegi ggl es, I putherdownandweshar eaki ss Me: " ohl i ssy ouhav emademet hehappi est manonear t h" Iki ssher , Ipul l outt henmakehersi tdown Me: " l ook, Iknowt hi spr egnancymi ghtbet oo muchony oucausey oust i l l y oung, I ' m sor r yf or maki ngy ouat eenagemot her , wer eal l y shoul d' v eusedpr ot ect i on, i t snotsaf ef orust o behav i ngbabi eswhent her e' sst i l l peopl el i ke t heJohnsonswhoar epr obabl ypl ot t i ngt hei r nextmov et ogethol doft hedi amonds, we hav et obev er ydi scr et eaboutt hi spr egnancy . . . Ot hert hant hat , I ' m sov er ymuchexci t ed, Ican' t wai tf ort henextei ghtmont hs" Li sa: " di amonds? " Me: " what ? " Li sa: " af t ert hedi amonds?Whi chones? " Me: " whatdoy oumeanwhi chones, t heoneand onl y " Li sa: " oohhhohy eah( chuckl es)t he di amonds, sor r yIdon' tknowwher emyheadi s at " Qui nt on: " y ouknowmom hassuggest edt hey st aywi t hher , she' l l beabl et okeept hem saf er . . . . It ol dherNo. . . butsi ncet heyy our s. . . do y out hi nkweshoul dgi v et hem t oher ? " Li sa: " Yes" Idi dnotexpectt hat Me: " y ousur e?Youdi dn' tev ent hi nkabouti t " Li sa: " y esI ' m sur e, gi v et hem t oher , t hey ' l l be saf erwi t hher " Me: " Idon' tknowi ft hat ' sagooddeci si on cause. . . . . Li sa: "t henwhydoy ouaskf ormyopi ni onof y ounotgoi ngt oconsi deri t ?Thi si sj ustl i ket he t i mey oual l owedSy dneyt ocomest aywi t hus ev enaf t erIsai d. . . . . Me: " OKOK. . .Geez , cal m down, y oudon' thav et o br i ngt hatupal l t het i me, howmanyt i mesdoI hav et oapol ogi se? " Hesi ghs Li sa: " Gi v et hem t oher " Me: " Asy ouwi shbub" Shesmi l es Me: " mommyofQui nt onj uni or" Shel aughs Li sa: " Il ov ey ouAmbr o" Thi swast heper f ectt i met ocal l meQ, Inev er t houghtsomet hi ngt hi ssmal l woul dbot herme somuch Me: " Il ov ey out ooLi ss" Li sa: " l etmegot akeanap, I ' mt i r ed" Me: " okay " Sheki ssesmycheekandwal ksupst ai r s, It ake outmyphone, If i nemy sel fl ooki ngt hr oughour pi ct ur es, Iknowshe' sr i ghther eev enpr egnant wi t hmybaby , butwhydoImi sshersomuch?I f eel l i keIl ov ehermor eont hepi ct ur et hani n r eal l i f e. . . . . ar ghwhat ' swr ongwi t hme. . Ishoul d beexci t edmaki ngl ov et ot hatwomanwhoj ust t ol dmet hebestnews ev er . Igetupandwal kupt hest ai r swhenacal l comest hr oughbef or eIr eacht heendoft he st ai r case I t sCl y de Me: " hel l o? " " Youneedt ogett ot hehospi t al " Me: " what ?Why ?I smom okay ? " " I t sLi sa, shet r i edt ocommi tsui ci de, y ouneed t ogether equi ckbef or ey oul ooseherf or ev er " Me: " mx m. . . Idon' tknowwhatsi ckgamey ou t r y i ngt opl aywi t hme, bi ti t snotgoi ngt o wor k. . Li sai si nourr oom t aki nganap, so what ev erLi say out al ki ngabouti snotmyLi sa. . SoIdon' tgi v eadamn" " What ?ManI ' mt el l i ngy ouLi sai sher e!You' v e beendat i ngSy dneynotLi sa, Li sai si nhospi t al . . . Wakeupman!What ' swr ongwi t hy ou! ? " Whatt hehel l i sgoi ngon? Me: " Cl y de, br ot herar ey ouokay ?Di dy ouhi t y ourheadonawal l orsomet hi ng?It hi nk whoev ery ousawj ustl ooksl i keLi sa" " QUI NTON!GETYOURFUCKENSKI NNYASSAT THI SFUCKENHOSPI TALTHI SFUCKEN I NSTANT!DON' TFUCKENMAKEMECOMEGET YOU! " Me: " y ouknowwhatCl y dey ouhav et ot al l yl ost i t , I ' m notgoi ngt oent er t ai ny ourl i t t l emel t down r i ghtnow. .Ihav eapr egnantgi r l f r i endwho needsme. . . by e" Ihangup, Ichuckl e, t al ki ngaboutLi sai si n hospi t al whenIcanseeherwi t hmyownt wo ey esr i ghther e, Igetont hebed Ishakeher Me: " bub? " Li sa( sl eepy ) : " mmh? " Me: " y ouokay ? " Li sa: " mhm" Iki sshercheekandl i eont hebedt hi nki ng aboutwhat ' swr ongwi t hCl y de? . . . t obecont i nued [ 07/ 29, 09: 20]W: Cont i nuat i on LI SA ONEWEEKLATER Iwi shIcansayI ' m happyIdi dn' tdi e, butIr eal l y di sl i kemyf at herf ornotal l owi ngmet oj oi nhi m i nt hepeacef ul wor l d, hesay smypur posei nt hi s wor l dhasnoty etbeenf ul f i l l ed. . .Whati smy pur poseany way ?Togetki l l edbysomeoneel se? Ort ol i v ewi t habr okenspi r i t ? ImustsayIr eal l yenj oy edt hephy si cal pai n whenIt r i edt oki l l my sel f Ir eal l yneedmor eofi t , i t swaybet t ert hant he emot i onal pai nwaymor ebet t ersoI ' m nowi n t hi spl acecal l edTat t ooPal ace, Yes, Iam get t i ngmy sel fat at t oo, Iheari t sv er ypai nf ul andpai ni swhatI ' ml ooki ngf or . Guy : " heyl i t t l emi ss, canIhel py ou? " Abi gst r ongbuf fguywi t ht at t oosal l ov erhi s bodyandpi er ci ngsonhi snoseey ebr owsand ear s, st andsr i ghti nf r ontofme Me: " hhey . . . I ' m her et ogetat at t oo? " Guy : " ar ey out el l i ngme? " Me: " y es? " Hechuckl es Guy : " howol dar ey ou? " Me: " ei ght een" Guy : " I D?" Ihuf fandt akei toutf r om mysmal l bag, he l ooksati tf orawhi l e Hesmi l es. . . wei r d Guy : " wher ewoul dy oul i key ourt at t oo?" Me: " Idon' tknow, whi chi st hemostpai nf ul par t st ogetone? " Hechuckl es Guy : " wel l , i nar easwher et heski ni smor e at t achedt ot hebone, wi t hnomeat , l i ket he ankl e, t heknee, t her i bpar t . . . . butev enont he meat ypar t si t sst i l l pai nf ul j ustmor ebet t er , but y oucan' tgoar oundt hepai nnomat t erwher e y ougeti t " Me: " Iwanti tont her i bpar tj ustbel owmy br east sont hesi de" Guy : " Iseey ounotaf r ai dofpai n" Me: " naaah, t hi ngst hatdon' tt al kdon' tscar e me" Isaymi mi cki nghi sv oi ce, hel ooksatmewi t h t hescar i estl ookI ' v eev erseen. . . Iguesst hat wasabadj oke Guy ( chuckl es) : " Il i key ouki d. . . comel et ' sget y out at t ooedup" If ol l owhi mt oasmal l r oom behi ndacur t ai n, I t akeof fmyshi r tandI ' m onl yl ef twi t habr a Guy : " sowhatt at t oodoy ouwant ? " Me: " i nI t al i csIwantQui nt onAmbr oseO' Br i en" Guy : " Qui nt onAmbr oseO' Br i en" Hewr i t esi tdown, hef i r stdr awswi t hanor mal pen, t henhest ar t sgoi ngov eri twi t ht heneedl e, I twast hemostpai nf ul pai nI ' v eev erf el tbutI enj oy edi t , i tmademymi ndconcent r at eoni t mor et hanany t hi ngel se. . . aahhht headr enal i ne, t hepai ni ssuchsuddenr ushf orme, Idon' twant hi mt ost op Hi m: " seemsl i key ouenj oy i ngt hi spai n? " I ' m sl eepi ngonmybackwi t hmyey escl osed Me( noddi ng) : " ooohhhy eah! " Hi m: " doy ouwantcol our ? " Me: " y eah. . . anycol ourt hatwi l l makei tbeaut i f ul " Hechuckl es Me: " Iwanty out owr i t eapoem r i ghtatt heback ofmyneck" Hi m: " whatst y l eofwr i t i ngdoy ouwanti ti n? " Me: " Aphr odi t esl i m pr o" Hi m: " okayI ' m al mostdonewi t ht hi sone. . . y ou wi l l wr i t ei tdowni napi eceofpaperf orme" Me: " okay " Ohy est hi si st hel i f e, Iwantt odot hi smor e of t en . . . Thenextday . Idon' twantt hi spai nt oendi t sr eal l yhel pi ng mer el ax " Can' tbel i ev ey ougotat at t oo? " Ichuckl e Me: " can' tbel i ev eIgothi snameonmybody f or ev er " Yonel a: " ev enapoem f orhi m, ar ey oucr azy ! ? " Me: " It hi nkso. . . . ohno!I ' v el ostmymi nd!" Yonel a: " i fl ov emakesy out hi sst upi d, t hen r emi ndmet onev erf al l i nl ov e" Me: " y eahwhat ev er" Yonel a: " whati fy ' al l nev ergetbackt oget her , or j ustf al l outofl ov ewi t heachot her ? " Me: " t henbei t , Idon' tcar e, Ist i l l l ov emyt at t oo andIdon' tr egr etget t i ngi t " Yonel a: " whati fi nf ut ur ey ouf al l i nl ov ewi t h someoneel se, howdoy out hi nkt hatt at t oowi l l makehi mf eel ? " Me: " I ' l l nev erf al l i nl ov ewi t hsomeoneel se. . . Tr ustme" Yonel a: " howcany oubesosur e, y oudon' tknow whatt hef ut ur ehol ds" Me( chuckl es) : " Iknowal otaboutt hef ut ur eand t r ustme, t her e' snoonei nt hi swor l dwhoI ' l l ev er l ov el i ket hi sguyt at t ooedonmybody " Yonel a: " buty ' al l notev ent r y i ngt ogetback t oget her " Me: " I ' l l nev ergetbackwi t ht hatbet r ay i ng cheat i ngmot herf ucki ngscumbag" Yonel a: " but ? . . . . y ouj ustsai d. . . . ay i Igi v eup" Sheput sherhandsupi nsur r enderandl eav es mei nt hesi t t i ngr oom I ' v ebeeneat i ngl i keamani acev ersi ncey onel a f or cedmet oeat , t hathasbeenmyot hernew hobby , I ' v egai nedsomuchwei ghtbuti t sal l goi ngt ot heassandt hi ghsandabi ti fmyar ms andcheeks, myt ummyr ef usest oexpand, I woul dl i ket oexper i encehowi tf eel sl i kebei ng f atj ustal i l bi t , onet hi nkIhav en' tst oppeddoi ng i scr y i ng, ev er yni ghtbef or eIsl eepal otof t hi ngsr unt hr oughmymi ndandIcan' thel pbut cr y . . . ot hert hant hat , I ' m doi ngj ustf i ne, al t hough If ai l edamodul et hi spastsemest er , t hatr eal l y t ookat ol l onme, i t smyf i r stt i mef ai l i ng, I ' v el ost myf ocust heonl yt hi ngt hatkeptmegoi ng t hr oughhi ghschool , i t sgonenow, I ' v ebecome oneof" t hem"t heonesI ' v eav oi dedbecomi ng, t heonest hatdat eandgethear t br okenI ' v e becomeoneoft hem. Myphoner i ngsdi st ur bi ngmyt hought s Me: " hel l o" " HeyLi sa, i t sbeenawhi l e, y ouhav en' tbeen at t endi ngy oursessi ons? " Me: " y eahl ookBel l aI ' m doi ngf i nenow, Idon' t needt hem" " ButI ' mt heonewhoshoul dmaket hat deci si on" Me: " y eahwel l y oudon' tknowmel i keIdoand I ' mt el l i ngy ou, I ' mt ot al l yf i nenow, I ' m ov erwhat t heJohnsonsdi dt omeorwhatt heyst i l l goi ng t odot omewhi chIdon' tknowwhyt heyst i l l hav en' tdonei tt ome, butr eal l yIcoul dn' tcar e l ess, Qui nt oncankeept hedi amonds, Idon' t car e, y ouseeBel l aIdon' tcar eany mor e, t her apy i sf orpeopl ewhost i l l car e, andIdon' t" " Li st ent ome. . . got oQui nt on' spl acenow, he needst oseey ou" Me( l aughs) : " Ha! !Ohpl ease, Qui nt oni s per f ect l yhappywi t hhi snewl ov er , v er yhappyi n hi shome, onhi sbedandwi t hhi sdi ck, hedon' t needme" " Li sa, heneedsy ounowmor et hanev er , he' s underaspel l " Me: " Ir eal l ydon' tcar ewhathe' sunder i n. . whet heri t saspel l orSy dney , l ethi m st ay under " " Woul dy oust opbei ngst ubbor n, i fy oust i l l l ov e hi m andy oucar ef orhi sl i f e, y ouneedt ogosee hi m. . . t oday ! " Me: " Bel l a, Qui nt onandIwer enotmeantt obe andbehappyt oget her , ev eni fIdof i xus, somet hi ngel sewi l l come" " Andy ouwi l l keepf i ght i ng, comeon, heneeds y ou" Me: " onceheseesmewi l l t hespel l bebr oken? " Bel l a: " y ouwi l l hav et omakehi m bel i ev ei t s y ou, y esbr ot her shav et r i edmaki nghi m seet hat Sy dneyi snoty ou, buthe' st oobl i ndedher eal l y bel i ev esi t sy ou, pl easegot her ebef or ei t st oo l at e" Me: " f i ne. . I ' l l got her ebutt hatdoesn' tmeanI ' l l getbackwi t hhi m" " Justgo" Shehangsup Isi ghmor el i kehuf f Me: " OhQui nt on!whathav ey ougot t eny our sel f i nt o" Il azi l ygetupf r om t hecouch, I ' m suchasnob nowaday s, Idon' tcar eabouthowIl ook, why shoul dI ? Ibr eat honmyhandt osmel l mybr eat he. . oh t hat ' snotgood. . .ButI ' mt ool azyt obr ushmy t eet h. . Il ookatmy sel fi nt hemi r r orI ' m wear i ng myl ongPJs. . . Me: " wel l t heydon' tl ookmuchl i kePJssoIcan gooutwi t ht hem r i ght ? " Iconv i ncemy sel fcauseIsof ontf eel l i ke changi ngorbat hi ng. .Ismel l myar mpi t s, not t haaaatbad Me: " not hi ngal i t t l eper f umewon' tsol v e" Ispr ayi tonal i t t l et hensmel l my sel f Me: " okaynot hi ng' al ot ' ofper f umewon' tsol v e" It i emymessyhai r , Iwal kcl osert ot hemi r r or , oohhgodt heey ebags!Dar key es!It hi nkI ' m get t i ngwr i nkl es! !DamnI ' m ugl y !AndIdon' t gi v eaf uck! Ihat enothav i ngacar , mydr i v i ngski l l sar e usel ess Anuberpi cksmeup Me: " t hanky ou" Igi v ehi mt hemoney , Iseehi ml ookawaywi t ha bi tofadi sgust edf aceonhi m Me: " somet hi ngwr ong? " Hel ooksawayf r om me Hi m: " not hi ngwr ongmam, cany oupl easehur r y , I needt obesomewher e" Me: " mx xxxm" Iopenandgetoutofhi scarhedr i v eof f i mmedi at el y Me: " howr ude! ! " Whywashesodi sgust ed. .Mybr eat hecan' tbe t hatbad?Ismel l i tagai n, okay , may beal i t t l e, butt hatguywasj ustov er r eact i ngandpl ai n r ude!Icoul dusesomegum r i ghtnow Ipr esst hei nt er com i tr i ngsf orawhi l e " Hel l o? " Ar ghSy dneyi sher e?Thi swi l l bewayhar der now Me: " Hi " " Li zzy ? " Isweart oGodI ' l l puncht heey esoutoft hat shi t t yf acedodohead. . causeIknowshe' sdoi ng i tonpur pose, Li sai st hemosteasynamet o r emember Me: " Li sa" Sy dney : " oh, y ounotwel comeher e" Me: " canIt al kt oQui nt on, t heowneroft hi s house? " Sy dney : " he' snother e, sor r y " " Whoi si tBub! ? " Di dhej ustcal l her ? ? ? . . . . . ohf uckenhel l no!He' s def i ni t el ybewi t ched! Sy dney : " i t snoonel ov e" Sy dney : " l ookst ayawayf r om Ambr ose, he' s madl yi nl ov ewi t hme, noty ou, hewant snot hi ng t odowi t hy ou" Me: " I ' dl i ket ohearhi mt el l met hat" Sy dney : " y oul ostbi t ch. . acceptdef eatandwal k away " Me: " opent hi sgat epl ast i cf ace" Shedr opst hecal l , ar ghIsodon' thav et he ener gyf ort hi s It akemyphoneandcal l Qui nt on " Hel l o" Myhear t beataccel er at es, mypal msbecome sweat y , Idon' tt hi nkIcandot hi s, It houghti t ' d beeasysi nceIdon' tcar eany mor e. .Buthear i ng hi sv oi cej ustboughtbackbadf l ashbacks, t he onl yonet hathasbeenst uckonmymi nd, hi m uncont r ol l abl yf ucki ngSy dney " Any onet her e?Hel l o? " It akeahugebr eat hi nandout Me: " Hi " " Who' st hi s? " Me: " i t sme. . . Li sa" " Whyy oucal l i ngmewheny our i ghtdown st ai r s? " Me: " pl easeopent hegat e" " wher ey ougoi ng? " Me: " j ustopent hegat epl easet heny oucome downst ai r st oopent hedoor " " ( Conf used) : ohokay " Idr opt hecal l t hegat eopens, okay !Thi si si t ! Iwal kupt ot hehouse, damnwhatadi st ance! Whenl astdi dIt akeal ongwal k?I ' m sweat i ng andt i r edbyt het i meIr eacht hedoor Ir i ngt hebel l andhol dont omykneesf or bal ance " I ' l l geti t ! ! " Ihearhi m shoutasi fhe' scomi ngdownt he st ai r s Thedooropens, Ibr eat hbef or eIst andup st r ai ghtandourey esmeet Ther e' samomentofsi l ence, he' sl ooki ngatme i ndi sbel i ef . . Idon' tev enknowwhatt osayt o hi mr i ghtnow, t hel astt i meIsawhi m wast he dayIhat edhi m. . .wel l atl eastt hat ' swhatI t hought Me: " hi " Qui nt on: " hi " Tal kaboutAwkwar dmoment s! Hel ooksbacki nsi det hehouset henl ooksback atme Qui nt on: " howdi dy oudot hat ? . . . i st hi ssome ki ndapr ank? " Hel aughsandgoesi nsi deIguessIshoul dj ust l etmy sel fi n Hewal ksupt oSy dneywho' ssi t t i ngbyt he l ounge Qui nt on: " Li sa?Whyam Iseei ngt woofy ou?I s t hi ssomesor tofpr ank?Youhi r edsomeonet o l ookj ustl i key ou? . . . ( l aughi ng) . .Wowy ou good, y oual mostgotmet her e" Hewal ksupt omeandst ar t spul l i ngmycheeks andpl ay i ngwi t hmyf ace Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " shel ooksr eal , l i keshe r eal l yl ooksl i key oubub, howdi dy oupul l t hi s of f ? " Heasksl ooki ngatme. . . okayhehasl osthi s mi ndcompl et el y !WhatdoIsaynow? Sy dney( l aughi ng) : " y eah!Tot al l ygoty ou babe. . i t sapr ank. . ( pushesmet owar dst he door ) . . . t hanky ouv er ymuchf ort hehel p, y oucan gonow" Ipushherawayf r om meandwal kupt o Qui nt on Me: " Qui nt on. .I t sr eal l yme, I ' m Ther eal Li sa" Heput shi si ndexf i ngerunderhi snose Qui nt on: " damn" OkayIr eal l yshoul d' v ebr ushedmyt eet h Iwal kt ot heki t chenIknowwher eIkeptmy gum, Iopent hedr awandy ept heyst i l l t her e seal ed, It akeoneoutandputi ti nmy mout h, t henwal kbackt ohi m Me: " bet t ernow? " Henods Me: " good, nowsi tdown, weneedt ot al k" Hegoesandt akesasi tl ooki ngconf usedas hel l adSy dneysi t snextt ohi m Isi tont hecouch opposi t et hem Me: " Qui nt on, t hatgi r l si t t i ngnextt oy oui snot Li sa, t hat ' sSy dney" Sy dney : " she' sl y i ngAmbr ose, I ' m Li sa, y ounot goi ngt obel i ev esomeonewhoj ustcamei nt o y ourdoorst epnow? " Me: " I ' m Li saQui nt on. . .Thi nkabouti t , si nce whendoIcal l y oubyy oursecondname? Sy dneyi st heonewhousedi tmor e" Hel ooksatSy dney Sy dney : " don' tl i st ent oherbaby , she' sj ustt r y i ng t osepar at eus, y oupr omi sed, y ouwon' tl et any onecomebet weenusany mor e" Qui nt on: " whyi st her et woofy ou? . . what ' sgoi ng onher e? " Hel ooksatme Me: " t el l y ouwhat ' sgoi ngon, t hatwi t cht her e ukut hakat hi l e( bewi t chedy ou) . . t her e' sonl yone ofmeher ey out heonl yonewhosees t wo, Qui nt ony ouhav et obel i ev eme" Sy dney : " babyj ustt hi nkaboutev er y t hi ngwe' v e beent hr ough, y ouj ustgoi ngt ol etsomeone whoj ustcamei nher et womi nut esagor ui n whatwe' v eshar edf orsol ong, t hi nkaboutour baby , y oucan' taf f or dt ot hr owal l t hat away , becausey oubel i ev esomeobsessedbi t ch whot r i edt omakeher sel fl ookl i keme, cause shej ustwantt odest r oywhatwehav e" Baby ?Baby ?Di dshesaybaby ? Me: " whatbaby ? " Sy dney : " I ' m pr egnant " Ther e' st hatshar ppai nagai n, i fIdon' tdi e now, I ' m onehel l ast r ongwoman, causet hi si s bey ondbei ngphy si cal l yabusedoremot i onal l y , t hi si sj ustpl ai nsoul dest r oy i ng, Idon' tt hi nkI wantt ocont i nuef i ght i ngf orhi mr i ghtnow, we' l l nev erbehappy Qui nt on: " Li sa. . . " Webot hl ookathi m Qui nt on: " am Igoi ngcr azy ?Hav eIl ostmymi nd? Someonet el l met hatt hi si sj ustadr eam av er y v er ybaddr eam" Hel ooksdownhol di nghi shead OhNoIcan' tst andseei nghi ml i ket hi s Me: " Qui nt oni t smel ov ebug" Her ai seshi sey esandl ooksatme Me: " okay , l et ' sdot hi s, askusanyquest i on. . Thaty ouknowonl yt her eal Li sawi l l knowt he answer " Sy dney : " Thi si sr i di cul ous!Qui nt ongett hi s bi t choutofher e, Ican' tbest r essedl i ket hi s, i t s notheal t hyf ort hebaby ! " Qui nt on: " SHUTUP!ev er y onej ustshut up! ! . . okay ? " Si l ence Qui nt on( si ghs) : " whenwast hef i r stdaywe met ? " Sy dney &I : " 18Febr uar y2016" Il ookathershegi v esmeasl yl ook. . oohhIsee shedi dherhomewor k, nx Heshakeshi shead Me: " comeonQui nt onasksomet hi ngy ouknow nooneel sebutLi sawi l l know" Qui nt on: " What ' st hewi l destt hi ngwe' v eev er donet oget her " Sy dney : " west ol eabagf r om ashopandr an awayf r om secur i t ywhi l ewewer edr unkashel l " Howt hehel l doessheknowt hat ? Hel ooksatherandsmi l e Qui nt on: " y our emember " Sy dney : " causeIwast her esweet y " Qui nt on: " whati st hemostembar r assi ngt hi ng t hat ' sev erhappenedt ome" Het ol dmet onev erev ert el l any onet hat secr et e, hesai donl yhi smom andIar et heonl y peopl ehe' st ol d, notev eni fsomeonepoi nt sme wi t hagunt hr eat eni ngt oki l l me, Ishoul dnev er t al kabouti t , soIkeepmymout hshut , Iguess I ' v el osthi m Sy dney : " i nf i f t hgr adewheny ouwer egoi ngt o sayy ourspeech, y ouwer esoner v ous, t hatby t het i mey ouf i ni shedsay i ngi ty ourpant swer e wetandt hewhol ecl assl aughedaty ou, y ou wer et het al koft hewhol eschool f ort hewhol e y ear , t heyst ar t edcal l i ngy ouMrHuggi es" Shei sev enl aughi ng, howdoessheev enknow t hi s! ?Unl essQui nt on' smom t ol dher !Qui nt on l ookspi ssedr i ghtnow Sy dney : " y ouseebaby , y ouonl yt ol dmeand y ourmom aboutt hat , t hat ' swhyshecoul dn' t answery ou" Me: " mx m. . y ouknowwhat , Igi v eup" Igetupandat t emptt ol eav ebutIf eel someone gr abmyar m Qui nt on: " wai t ! " It ur nt ol ookathi m, comeont ear sdon' tbet r ay me, I ' v ebeendoi ngagr eatj obhol di ngt hem i n Me: " LookQ, onl yy oucangety our sel foutof t hi smess, It r i edhel pi ngy oubuti t sbey ondmy cont r ol " Qui nt on: " whydi dn' ty ouanswerwhenIasked aboutt heembar r assi ngmomentofmyl i f e? " Isi gh Me: " becauseQ. . . y oumademeswearnott o ev ersayorment i oni tt oany one, whet hert hey gotagunpoi nt edatmyhead, Ishoul dnev er spi l l i tout , i t soneoft hesecr et eswepr omi sed eachot herwe' l l di ewi t h, andIdi dn' tanswer causeIknowhowmuchy oudon' twantt obe r emi ndedoft hatday , andIcoul dn' tsayi twi t h Sy dneyov erher e" Hel ooksatmef orawhi l ehepul l smei nt oa t i ghthug, okay ?Hel et ' sgo Qui nt on: " i tr eal l yi sy ou!Youmyr eal Li sa" Hecupsmyf ace, myhear tbeamswi t hj oy , he' s back!MyQi sback Sy dney : " Qui nt on!I ' mt her eal Li sa! " Hel ooksbackather Qui nt on: " Sy dney . . .Iknowi t sy ou, Icanseey ou" Sy dney : " what ?I mpossi bl e! " Me: " y ouwi t ch!Yourspel l hasbeenbr oken" Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " shecastaspel l aspel l ony ou. . pl ease bel i ev emeQui nt on, Iknowy ougowayback wi t hhershe' sy ourbestf r i endandwhatnotbut I ' mt el l i ngy out he. . . . . . Hesmasheshi ssof tl i psonmi ne Qui nt on: " Ibel i ev ey ou, Il ov ey ou" Me: " Il ov ey out ooQ" Qui nt on: " y ouhav enoi deahowmuchImi ssed y ousay i ngt hat" Me: " whatQ? " Qui nt on: " mmhy eah" Me: " l i ket hi s. . . Quuuuuee" Hehol dshi schest Qui nt on: " ohy esbaby . . j ustl i ket hat " Someonecl ear shert hr oat Weshi f tourf ocusonher Qui nt on: " asf ory ou. . . ncncncI ' mv er y di sappoi nt edi ny ouSy dney , t ost oopt hat l ow. . . wi t chcr af t ? " Sy dney : " Qui nt onl etmeexpl ai n, pl ease" Me: " t her e' snot hi ngt oexpl ai n, y ouasnake!You camei nt oourl i v esonl yt odest r oywhatwe bui l t . . . Iknowy ouar ewor ki ngwi t hQui nt on' s mom i nal l t hi sand. . . . . Qui nt on( shocked) : " what ! ? " Me: " IswearQui nt onI ' m notmaki ngt hi sup" Hel ooksatme Qui nt on: " Li sa. . . cal m down, It r usty ou" Me: " sor r y" Qui nt on: " don' tapol ogi se" Ij ustf eel l i kehe' sgoi ngt ol ethermani pul at e hi m agai nandhewon' tl i st ent ome Qui nt on: " y ougoi ngt osi tdownandt el l me ev er y t hi ng" Hesay sl ooki ngf ur i ousl yatSy dney Qui nt on: " si tdown! " Shest ar t l esandsi t si mmedi at el y Weal sosi topposi t eher Sy dney : " Ambr oseIcameher ebecauseof wor k, Ibumpedi nt oy ourmot herweeks back, sheaskedmet ocont acty oucausey ou neededsomeonebyy oursi de, shesai dsi nce t hi ngsbet weenusdi dn' tendwel l t hi si smy chancet of i xt hi ngssi ncey ouar esi ngl e" Me: " buthewasn' tsi ngl e" Sy dney : " I ' m expl ai ni ngt oAmbr osenotsome. . . . . Qui nt on: "I ' dwat chmymout hi fIwer ey ou. . . I don' twantt odosomet hi ngI ' dr egr et . . . . cont i nue " Sy dney : " sot henwhenIbumpedi nt oy ouatt he mal l , IknewIwant edust ogobackt ot heway t hi ngswer eandt hat ' swher eev er y t hi ngst ar t ed" Me: " y oul y i ng" Il ookatQui nt on Me: " she' sl y i ng" Qui nt on: " doy ouknowt het r ut h? " Me: " Notr eal l y , butIsenseshe' sshe' snott el l i ng t het r ut h" Qui nt on: " Sy dneyt el l ust het r ut hwhi l eI ' m st i l l cal m aboutt hi s" Shekeepsqui et Me: " Today ! " Shest ar t l es, Qui nt onl ooksatmeamused Sy dney : " okay , f i ne, Inev ercameher ebecauseof wor k, y ourmot hercal l edme, shet ol dmey oui n ar el at i onshi pt hati sonl ybr i ngi ngy oudown andy oust ar t i ngt oi gnor et hef ami l ybusi ness becauseofher , she' schangi ngy ou, y ouwer e doi nggr eati nl ooki ngf ory ourf at her ' s di amonds, butwheny ouf i nal l ymett hegi r l who hast hem, y ounegl ect edt hemi ssi onofget t i ng t hedi amondsandf el l madl yi nl ov ewi t ht he enemyoft hef ami l y , andnowshewant edmet o hel phersepar at ey ' al l andt omakey oul ov eme l i kehowy oul ov ehersot hatIcanhav econt r ol ofy ouandt hedi amonds" Me: " y ou' v ebeenaf t ert hedi amondst oo? " Qui nt on: " t hatwasbef or eIknewy out heone whohast hem" Me: " ohNo. . ( l ooksatQui nt on) . . .Ihopey ou di dn' tgi v ehert hedi amondsy et" Qui nt on: " Ihav e" Me: " nono, t hi si snotgood" Qui nt on: " howdi dy oumakey our sel fl ookl i ke Li sa? " Sy dney : " Idon' tknow, y ourmot hergav emea pi l l s, shesai dt heywi l l makey ouhor nysot hatI caneasi l yseducey ou. . whatIdi dn' tknowwas t hatonceI ' v ehadsexwi t hy ou, y ou' l l seemeas Li sasoIf i r stpl ay edal ong, t heny ourmot her t ol dmet opl ayal ongunt i l sheget st he di amonds" Qui nt on: " whataboutt hepr egnancy , wasi tal so mom? " Sy dney : " Yes" Me: " she' sl y i ng" Theybot hl ookatmehel ooksbackather Qui nt on: " wasi tal somom? " Sy dney : . . . . Qui nt on( f i r ml y ) : " whataboutt hepr egnancy , was i tal somom? " Sy dney : " Yes" Me: " l i es" Idon' tknowhow, butIcansensei twhenshe l i es Qui nt on: " ar ey ouev enr eal l ypr egnant ?" Sy dney : " y es" OhmyGoshshe' snotl y i ng Qui nt on: " mybaby ? " Sy dney : " y es" Qui nt on: " Yourpl an? " Shekeepsqui etf orawhi l e Qui nt on: " Ir eal l ydon' tl i ker epeat i ngmy sel f " Sy dney : " Yes" Qui nt on: " getout " Sy dney : " huh? " Qui nt on: " OUT! " Shegetupandheadsf ort hedoornotev en t aki nghert hi ngs Wel ookateachot herasIt hi nkoft hewor st t hi ngt hatcameoutofal l oft hi s, t hatIdon' t knowi fwe' l l ev ermov eonf r om i t , If eel my hear tsi nkj ustbyt het houghtofi t Me( whi sper s) : " she' spr egnant" [ 07/ 29, 09: 24]W: I nser t43 QUI NTON I ' v er eal l ymessedupt hi st i me, Li sadoesn' t wannamov ebacki nwi t hme, Iunder st andt hi s housebr i ngsherbadmemor i est hatl edhert o depr essi on, Ican' tbel i ev eshet r i edki l l i ng her sel fbecauseofme? Ican' tbel i ev eshehadt ogot hr oughal l t hatal l becauseofme, Whydi dn' tInot i cewhat ' sbeen goi ngonasmuchasSy dneyl ookedl i keLi sa sheact edandf el tnot hi ngl i keherbuti t sl i ke ev er yt i meIl ookedi nt oherey essomet hi ng wi t hi nmewoul dmakemebel i ev et hati t s act ual l yherbutt hel ov ewasn' tt her eIwasn' t happy , shedi dn' thav eherhumororherl augh, I r eal l yt houghtIwasj usti magi ni ngt hi ngs. " WHEREI SSHE! ! " Ir oar edasImademyi nsi det hehousel ooki ng ar ound " Qui nt on!Ohmygoshbr oImi ssed. . . . . . . Me( f ur i ousl y ) : "Wher e' sy ourwi t chmot her ! ? " Candr a: " what . . . whatar ey ou. . . . Me: " Dammi tCandr a!Wher ei sshe! ? " Candr a: " she' si nherof f i ce. . . butshe. . . . Ist or medawayt owar dsherof f i ce, Ij ustmade mywayi n Me: " ar ey ouev enmyr eal mot her ? " Shecl osesherl apt op, t akesof fhergl assest hen l ooksupatme Mom: " I ' m goodt hanksandy our sel f ?" Me: " gi v emeoner easonwhyIshoul dn' tki l l y ou r i ghtnow? " Mom: " whyy ousowor kedupson? " Me: " whydi dy ouuseSy dneyt odest r oymy r el at i onshi pwi t hLi sa? " Mom: " Idon' tknowwhaty out al ki ngabout ? " Me: " wi t chcr af tmom?Tobewi t chy ourownson? Howcr uel canonebe? " Mom: " l ook, whoev eri sgi v i ngy out hi s i nf or mat i oni smessi ngwi t hy ourhead" Me: " Yout heonewho' smessi ngwi t hmy head, maki ngmeseeSy dneyasLi sa?Whatki nd ofsi ckmi ndedper sonar ey ou? " Mom( l aughi ng) : " what ! ?I st hatev enpossi bl e? Son. . ar ey ouokay ? " Imov emyhandt ot hebackofmypant swher eI f eel mygun Me: " y out hi nkt hi saj oke?Yout hi nkmessi ng wi t hmymi ndandl i f ei saj oke! ? " Mom: " Qui nt on. . . .Honey . . . I ' my ourmot her , how cany ouev enbel i ev eI ' ddoany t hi ngl i ket hatt o y ou? " Il etgooft hegunl eav i ngi tst i l l t uckedi nmy pant s Me: " Iknowev er y t hi ng, Youf akeasssi deki ck t ol dmeev er y t hi ng, t hepi l l sy ougav ehert o dr ugmeandmakemeseeherasLi sa, j ustso y oucangett hedi amonds. . .Howcoul dy ouput myl i f ei ndangerl i ket hat ?Whydocar eso muchaboutt hesedi amonds, t her e' spl ent y mor edi amondst hatdadownedwhydoy ou wantt hesesobad? " Mom: " y oudon' tunder st andQui nt on, t hese ar en' tj ustnor mal di amonds" Myanger , hat eandr angehasnowbeenf ul l y r epl acedbycur i osi t y , Isi tcomf or t abl yont he chai ropposi t eher Me: " whatdoy oumeant heynotnor mal ?They l ookt hesameast hebunchoft hedi amondsi n t hev aul t ? " Mom: " y ouseey ourf at herhadaf r i endwhowas f r om Bhut an, i nt hesout her nsl opes, east er n Hi mal ay as, i ti sv er yknownf ori t sdar kand whi t espi r i t ual i st i cmagi c, Thi scount r yi sr ul ed byChi neseki ng, Ji gmekhesarNamgy el Whangchuck, whohappenedt oownt hese speci al di amonds, t housandsoft hem t heywer e bel i ev edt ocar r ysomepower f ul sour cet hat coul dgi v eonegr eatpower , soy ourf at her want edt hedi amondsf orhi msel fsohecoul d exper i encet hesocal l edgr eatpower , y ouknow howy ourf at herwasal way swant edt obe best , soheaskedhi sf r i endf r om Bhut anwho wast heKi ng' sr i ghthandmant ost eal t he di amondsf orhi ml i t t l ebyl i t t l eandhi sf r i end agr eed, y ourf at herwoul dsendt hemanhe t r ust edwhi chwasy ourgi r l f r i end' sf at hert o col l ectt hem f r om Bhut an, butl i t t l edi dweknow t hathekeptt hedi amondsf orhi msel fandused t ogi v eusf akedi amonds, y ourf at herf ound out , t hat ' swhenhewentaf t erhi m butMt het hwa st i l l r ef usedt ot el l hi m wher et hedi amonds wer esoheki l l edhi m" Qui nt on: " wai twai t , soy ousay i ngt hedi amonds hav esomesor tofmagi c? " Mom: " Yes" It hr owmyheadbackandbur sti nt ol aught er Qui nt on: " andy ' al l act ual l ybel i ev ei nt hatcr ap? " Mom: " Yes, y oumayl augh, buti fy ouj ustl etme keept hesedi amondsI ' l l showy ouwhatI ' m t al ki ngabout " Igetbackt omyser i ousness Me: " t hi si sbul l shi ty ouwoul dgot oext ent sof bewi t chi ngme, becauseofsomef ai r y t al est or y ? Youar eunbel i ev abl e, y oucr azy , y ouandy our l at ehusband. . .Gi v emet hosedi amonds woman, causei t scl ear , notonl ydi dy ouhav ea weakhear tbutaweakmi ndt oo" Shegaspsi nt ot al shockhol di ngherchest Mom: " howcoul dy oudi sr espectmel i ket hat , wi t hsomet hi ngsoper sonal ? " Me: " mom, orwhoev ery ouar e, y ouused wi t chcr af tt omakei tl ookl i keI ' m cr azy , and r ui nedt heonl ygoodt hi ngt hathasbeenabi g par tofmyl i f e, sodon' tbesur pr i sedi fIdon' t hav et her espectf ory ouany mor e, i nf acti fy ou don' tgi v emet hosedi amonds, I ' m gonnasend y out ogoj oi ny ourhusbandi nhel l , wher ehe' s st i l l bur ni ng" Mom: " y ouwoul dn' tdar e" It akeoutmygunandputi tont het abl er i ghti n f r ontofme Me: " wannabet ? " Mom: " l ookwhatt hatgoodf ornot hi ngwhor e t ur nedy oui nt o. . . y ou' dact ual l yki l l y ourown mot herbecauseofher ? " Me: " y ou' dact ual l ybewi t chy ourownson becauseofdi amonds? " Mom: " Qui nt onIdi dwhathadt obedone!You abandonedt hemi ssi oni nf i ndi ngt hedi amonds becauseofher ! " Ipi ckt hegunupandpoi nti tather Me: " t hedi amonds" Mom: " Qui nt on!St opt hi snonsense" Shehol dsherchestasi fshe' sgapi ngf orai r Me: " j ustt el l mewher et hef uckendi amonds ar e! ? " Mom: " t heybel ongt ous!Nott heMt het hwas! " She' sget t i ngbr eat hl ess, shepi cksupt hegl ass wi t hwat eront het abl eanddr i nksup, cal mi ng her sel fdown Me: " I ' m gonnacountt of our " Mom: . . . . Me: " one" Mom: " Qui nt on, woul dy ou. . . Me: " t wo" Mom: " I ssher eal l ywor t hi t ? " Me: " t hr ee" Mom( scr eams) : " I ' my oumot her ! ! ! " Me: " f our ! !" Ipul l t hesl i deoft hegunbackget t i ngr eadyt o pul l t het r i gger Mom: " okayokayokay . . . . wai t !Wai t ! " Shesay swi t hherhandsupasshesl owl yget s upandwal kst owar dshersaf e, shedoest hepi n andopensi t , shet akesoutt hesmal l bl ack bag, shel ooksatt hem f orawhi l ewi t hout t ur ni ngbackt ol ookatme Mom: " wef i nal l ygotwhatwe' v ebeenl ooki ng f or , f ory ear sandy ouj ustgoi ngt ogi v ei tupf or somel oosepussy " If eel mybl oodboi l asIbecomemor e aggr av at ed Me: " t hedi amonds" Shet ur nsar oundandt hr owt hebagt ome Mom: " I ' l l gett hem back, onewayort heot her " Me: " ev eni fi tmeanski l l me? " Mom: " her ewear e, y ouhav eagunpoi nt edat me, sowhynot ? " Wegapei nt oeachot her sey esi nf l amed Me: " Iguessy ougonnahav et ot r yandki l l me f i r st " Mom: " ar ey ousur ey ouwantt obemyenemy son?Causet hi ngsar en' tgoi ngt oendwel l " It uckmygunbacki nt omypant s Me: " Ir eal l ydon' tgeti t , y ouhav eev er y t hi ngy ou coul dpossi bl ydr eam of , dadl ef ty ouabunchof moneyi nt wohugev aul t sandj ewel r y , how muchmor el uxur ydoy ouwant ? . . ev eni ft hese di amondshadsomeki nda' power s' ( Ir ol l my ey es) . .Whi chi sabsol ut el yabsur di t y . . .Whatar e y ougoi ngt odowi t ht hatpower ? . . . j ustl ett he poorgi r l keept hedi amondssoshecangether f ami l youtofpov er t yandal sohav eal uxur i ous l i f el i key ou. . don' tbegr eedy , mot her " It ur nandwal koutofherof f i ce, bangi ngt he doorbehi ndme, Ihearagl assbr eakagai nstt he door , asi fshet hr ewt hegl assatt hedoor . Me( chuckl es) : " cr azywi t ch" Magi cpower s?Ha!She' sr eal l yl osti tt hi st i me " Qui nt on! " It ur nt obemetbyAi dan Me: " Supman" Ist r et chmyhandt odoourf amoushandshake buthej ustl ooksati t , Imov emybackback Ai dan: " whyar ey ousost upi dman? " Me: " excuseme? " Ai dan: " udom, y ouar est upi d, empt yheaded, a bl ockhead, achump, awanker , aMuppet , numbskul l , schmunck. . . Qui nt on: " okay !Igeti t ! Ai dan: "doy ou? " Heknocksonmyhead Ai dan: " causeIsweari tseemsl i ket her e' s not hi ngi nt her e" Me: " t hat ' senoughAi dan, i t snotmyf aul ty our mot herandSy dneyusedsomemesseduppi l l s andpot i onsonme" Ai dan: " what ! ? " Qui nt on: " I ' l l expl ai nsomeot hert i me, hav et ogo t r yf i xt hi ngs, i fi thappenst heycan' tget f i x ed. , . . . . y ourmot heri sdeadt ome" Iwal koutl eav i nghi m conf usedAF . . . . . . . Iknockt hr eet i mesandwai tf orsomeonet o open, Ihopeshe' sbet t ert hany est er day , Idi dn' t ev engett hechancet ot al kt oher , af t erSy dney l ef t , shewast ooov er whel medbySy dney ' s pr egnancy , shej ustt ol dmeshecan' tmakeany deci si onsy et . " Whatdoy ouwant ? " Il ookupandI ' m metbyadi sgust edy onel a l ooki ngatmel i keshel ooki ngatdogshi t Me: " hey , howar ey ou? " Yonel a: " I ' l l bebet t eroncey oudi sappear " Shepushest hedoorbutIhol di tbef or ei t cl osed Me: " canIpl easecomei n? " Yonel a: " y ounotwel come" Me: " pl ease" Shesi ghsandwal ksaway , Il etmy sel fi n Yonel a: " i fy ouher et ocausemor ehear tache. . . . Me: "Nononev er . . .I ' m her et ot r ymendt hi ngs" Shel ooksatmef orawhi l e Yonel a: " sey i phel i l enahi kor obel a y aSdunu? " ( Sy dneyr anoutofl ov epot i on? ) Me: " i sLi saher e? " Yonel a: " noshe' sgone" Me: " wher e? " Yonel a: " f arawayf r om y ouri di otf ace" Isi gh Me: " pl easedon' t . . . . "ohmygoshnel l ay oushoul dseet henew t at t ooooo. . . . . . Shet r ai l sof fasherey esl andonmeandour ey esl ock, shemakesherwayf ur t heri nsi de Li sa: " Qui nt on? . . . . . hey " Me: " Li sa, hi " " Yonel a, gone" Shesay sasshedi sappear sIdon' tknowwher e causemyey esar egl uedt ot hi sbeaut i f ul gr een ey edcr eat ur e Li sa: " wannasi tdown? " Il ookatherf orawhi l e Me: " y eah, sur e" Shel eadst hewaygi v i ngmeacompl et ev i ew ofherback, wear i ngt hatf l or al shotdr essof her sIl i keal ot , Inot i ceaf ul l yexposedt at t ooon herneckbutIcan' tr eadwhati tsay s, shesi t s downandIdot hesame Wej ustgazeateachot her Li sa: " soowoul dy oul i kesomet hi ngt odr i nk? " Ir eal l ydon' tl i kebei ngt r eat edasav i si t orbyt he gi r l Il ov e, butIr eal l ycan' tbl ameher Me: " eer r m not hanks" Shesi ghs Li sa: " okay " Shel ookssogor geous, she' sgai nedwei ghtand I ' m sol ov i ngi t Shel ooksbet t ert hany est er day , she' scl eanand smel l sgoodnow, herhai ri scombedbuther ey esar est i l l puf f y , Ihat et obet her eason behi ndt hat Me: " Li sa. . .( Si ghs) . . .I ' m sor r y" Shel ooksatmeconcer ned Li sa: " whodi ed?Ohmyghoshhi sAi danokay ? Cl y de? . . . Me: "what ? . .No. . " Shesi ghsi nr el i ef Li sa: " oh!Don' tscar emel i ket hat " Ichuckl e Me: " I ' m sor r yaboutt hepastt hr eeweeks, I r eal l yam Li ss, besi dest hef actt hatIwasn' t my sel f , butI ' m sor r yIdi dn' tl i st ent oy ouaf t er y ousai dnot ot hei deaofl et t i ngSy dneyst ay wi t hus, I ' m sosor r yLi sa, Idon' tknowwhatt o say , Ij ustneedy ourf or gi v eness, desper at el y " Sher emai nsqui etasshel ay sherbackont he couchandf ol dsherar mswi t hav er ysad expr essi ononherf acel ooki ngst r ai ghtf or war d Me: " Iknowi t snoteasyf ory ou, af t erev er y t hi ng y ou' v ebeent hr ough, I ' v eputy out hr ough, but pl easebub, Ineedy oui nmyl i f e, Ipr omi set o l i st ent oy ouandnev erdoubty ourdeci si ons, I needy ourgui dance, y ourl ov e, Ineedy oubymy si deLi sa" Sher emai nsqui eti nt hesameposi t i on Thesi l entt r eat ment , Ihat et hose, Ij ustwi sh shecoul dt hr owat ant r um atl east Me( whi sper s) : " pl ease. . . . . .saysomet hi ng" Li sa: " whyQui nt on?" Me: " huh? " Li sa: " whydon' ty out r ustme? " Me: . . . . . Li sa: " whathav eIdonesobadt hatmadey ou nott r ustme? " Me: " Idot r usty ou" Li sa: " y oudon' t . . . . .y oual way sbel i ev edherwor d ov ermi ne. . andt hatwasbef or esheusedaspel l ony ou. . . y out r ust edhermor et hanme" If eel mychestget t i ngheav yandpai nf ul ast he cathascaughtmyt ongue Li sa: " she' dpi ckf i ght swi t hme, buty oual way s t ookhersi de, ev ent houghIt el l y oushest ar t ed i t , y ounev erwant edt oheari t , It r i edmaki ngy ou seehowuncomf or t abl ei tmakesmewhen she' st her e, buty ounev erpai dat t ent i ont o me, I ' dt r yt ogetcl osert oy oubuty ouj ust t ur nedy ourbackonme. . ( shewi pesher t ear ) shemadeev er y t hi ngseem l i keIwast he badguy , andy oubel i ev edi t . . Qui nt on. . y oul ov ed hermor et hanme, whi l ey ouwer est i l l y our sel f" Me: . . . . . . Li sa: " It r i edt al ki ngt oy oubuti twoul dal way s t ur ni nt oanar gument , y ouwer eal way sagai nst mewhi l epr ot ect i ngt hedev i l . . . y ouspentmor e t i mewi t hher , bef or esheev enmov edi n, y ou t ext edhermor et hany out al kedt ome, she camebet weenusbef or esheev enmov edi n, of di dn' tal l st ar twi t ht hespel l Qui nt on, i tal l st ar t edwi t hy ou. . . . . . buty ouwer et oodamnbl i nd t oseei t " IbowmyheaddownasIl ett hehar dsadt r ut h si nki n Me: " I ' m sosor r yLi sa" She' snowcr y i ngsi l ent l y Li sa: " doy ouknowwhatwasmostpai nf ul t hough? " Me: . . . . Li sa: " seei ngy oumakel ov et oher . . . . ont he samebedt hatweshar ed, t heywayy ou di smi ssedmet her eaf t er . . . . .Ony ourbi r t hday , t hedayIwokeupi nt hemi ddl eoft heni ghtt o bakey ouy ourf av our i t ecake, t hedayIt ol d my sel fI ' l l t r yt oacceptt hesi t uat i onofst ay i ng wi t hSy dney , t hedayIdeci dedt of or gi v ey ouf or t hewayy ou' v ebeent r eat i ngme, causeIt hought i twasbecauseofy ourgoodhear tt hatbl i nded y ou, t hedayIwaswi l l i ngt oputev er y t hi ng behi ndusandst ar tov er , wast hedayy ouki l l ed notonl ymyhear t , butcr ushedmyspi r i t , t hat sameni ght , wast heni ghty oudest r oy edme, al l ofme" Me: " Li sa. . .I ' v edoney ouwr ong, If el l undert he t r ap, Iwasst upi d. . .Pl ease, pl easedon' tdowhatI di dt oy ou, pl easedon' tt ur nt ourbackonme, I l ov ey out oomuch, i t sl i t er al l ypai nf ul " Ihol dherhandwhi chi scov er edi nabeaut i f ul l y desi gnedt at t oof r om herwr i standal l ov eron t hebackofherhand Li sa: " howQui nt on?HowcanIf or gi v ey ouwhen Ihav esomuchangert owar dsy ou?Yout r eat ed mel i kel astni ght st r ash, l i keIdi dn' tmat t er , t he onl yt hi ngt hatmat t er edwasSy dneybei ngsaf e andhappy , y oui gnor edt hef actt hatIwasn' t happy , ev eni fIl i t er al l yt ol dy ou, butIwas communi cat i ngwi t hmy sel f " Okay , wenev erf ul l ymov i ngonf r om t hi s, my t hr oati sdr y , myhear ti st ooheav y , t hi si sway har dert hanIt hought , Ir eal l ydi danumberon her , Ihat emy sel fsomuchr i ghtnow Li sa: " ev eni fIwant edt of or gi v ey ou. . . . she' l l nowal way sbeapar tofy ourl i f e, she' scar r y i ng y ouv er yf i r stbor nbaby , she' scar r y i ng somet hi ngspeci al , somet hi ngt hatIcanonl y dr eam ofcar r y i ngf ory ou, y ourv er yf i r stchi l d" Me: " Li sa. . . . . . Li sa: " andi t saboy " Me: " howdoy ou. . . . . . It r ai l of Shesi ghsandr emai nssi l entf orawhi l e Li sa: "I ' v ebeenmeani ngt ot el l y ousomet hi ng i mpor t antaboutme, buty oual way sshutme out , orwe' dendupar gui ngandInev ergott he chancet ot el l y ou" Me: " pl easet el l me" Li sa: " Ihav easpeci al gi f t . . . . Idon' tknowhowi t wor ksy et , andIcan' tusei tunt i l Ihav ef or gi v en al l t hosewho' v edonemewr ongandmyhear t mustbepur e, wi t hnohat r edoranger , soI guessi twi l l nev erwor kcauset hoset hi ngsI don' tt hi nkIcanachi ev e. . . . . . .But , somet i mesi t wor ksbuti t sst i l l abi tr ocky , Idon' thav econt r ol ov eri ty et " Me: " y ouhav esupperpower s? " Shechuckl esbet weenhert ear sasshewi pes t hem Li sa: " woul dn' tcal l t hem superpower s, l i ke wonderwomanorsuper manorany t hi ngoft hat sor t " Me: " awman!Iwasr eal l yl ooki ngf or war dt o f l y i ngabov et heci t yatni ght , usi ngy oursuper speedt ogogetmeaf ewt hi ngsf r om Par i s, or y oursuperst r engt ht ocar r ymycarwheni t br eaksdown. . . I ' dbel i ke. . ' y obabe, st upi dcar br okedownagai n, domeaf av ourandcar r yi t t ot hemechani cf orme? ' . . " Shegi ggl es, Ij oi ni n, atl eastshe' sl aughi ng Iseeagl i mpseofhappi nessf oraf ewseconds t her e, Igetdownonmyknees Me: " pl easebub, pl ease, wecanwor kt hi ngs out , pl ease" Herexpr essi onchangest osadagai n Li sa: " Ial mostt ookmyl i f eawayQui nt on, becauseIcoul dn' thandl ei tany mor e. . . .Idon' t wantt ogot hr ought hatagai n" Me: " Li sa, Iknownot hi ngwi l l beper f ect , but pl easeLi ss, Ineedy ou, Iwon' tbeabl et ocar r yon wi t houty ou" Li sa: " Iwantt of or gi v ey ouQui nt on, Ir eal l ydo, i t ' l l t aket i meunt i l If ul l ycompl et el ywhol ehear t edl y f or gi v ey ou" Me: " Iunder st and. . . .Cany ouatl eastcomeback home? " Sheshakesherhead Li sa: " Ican' tQui nt on, i t ' l l makei tev enhar derf or me" Me: " Iunder st and. . . howdowemov eonf r om her e? " Shehel psmegetupf r om mykneest osi ton t hecouch Li sa: " Idon' tknow. . . . Idon' tknowi fIcanmov e onf r om t hi s, i t sj ustt oomuch" Mybur ni ngey esf i nal l ygi v ei nast ear smanage t oescape Me: " butLi sa. . .Il ov ey ou, whatam Isupposet o doaboutt hat ? " , Li sa: " It hi nki t sbestwej ustr emai nf r i ends. . . Me: "No, pl easedon' tsayt hat . . . any t hi ngbut t hat " Li sa: " t hat ' sal l Icangi v er i ghtnow. . . Ican' tt ake t hehear t acheany mor eQui nt on, i t sal l j ustt oo muchf ormyal r eadybr okenhear t " Me: " f r i endsunt i l when? " Li sa: " unt i l . . . . Idon' tknow, we' l l j usthav et owai t andsee" * si l ence* I si theal t hyf orahumanbei ng' shear tt obet hi s pai nf ul ? Me: " f r i endsi ti s" Ist r et chmyhand, shel ooksati tf orawhi l e bef or ebr i ngi ngherhandi nf orahandshake Li sa: " f r i ends" Webot hi nt ear s, shechuckl es Li sa: " ohGod, woul dy oul ookatus. . . wesucha mess" Sheget supt hencomesbackwi t ht i ssue Wecl eanourf aceup Shesi ghs Li sa: " phew!Woul dy oul i kei cecr eam? . . . . If eel l i keweneedi t " Me: " y eahIcoul dusesomeoft hat " Sheget supanddi sappear st ot heki t chen It akeoutt hebl acksmal l sackf r om mypocket andpourt hedi amondsont hesmal l cof f ee t abl e " I ' v egotv ani l l aguessi t sourl uckyd. . . . . . . Shet r ai l sof fasherey esl andont hedi amonds Shecomessi tnex tt omeandgi v emet hei ce cr eam t ub Li sa: "y oumanagedt ogett hem back? " Me: " y eah, y ouwer er i ghtaboutherLi sa, she' s ev i l , shesai dshewi l l gett hem backonewayor t heot her " Li sa: " y ouknowwhat ' ssowei r d? " Me: " what ? " Li sa: " assoonasIsawt hem If el tsomeki ndof exci t ement , If eel soat t achedt ot hem somehow" Shet akest hem andl ooksatme Li sa: " wei r dr i ght ? " Me: " doy ouknowwhat ' scr azy ? " Li sa: " what ? " Me: " mom t hi nkst heyhav esomeki ndofmagi c t hatgi v esonepower sorsomet hi ngl i ket hat " Il augh Me: " cr azyr i ght ? " Shel ooksatt hem f orawhi l e Li sa( chuckl es) : " y eah. . . t hat ' scr azy " Sheput st hem away Li sa: " ar ey ougoi ngt oeatt hat ? " Shesay sasshegr abst het ubf r om meand opensi t , wedi gi n Me: " damn, t heynotl y i ngwhent heysayt hi sshi t makesy ouf eel bet t er " Shegi ggl es Li sa: " wai tunt i l y ouwehav esomeoft hat chocol at e, andchi psandmyv er yf amous dagwoodandcol ddr i nkand. . . Me: " whhoooaaasl owdown. . . i st hatwhaty ou' v e beeneat i ngev er y day ? " Shel ooksdown Li sa: " Nooo" Ichuckl eherphoner i ngsbef or eIcoul dsay any t hi ng Shepi cki tup Li sa: " heyBel l a" . . . . Li sa: " y eshe' sr i ghther ewi t hme" . . . Li sa: " he' sokay . . . why ? " . . . Li sa: " Nohe' snothur t , he' sf i ne, wehav i ngi ce cr eam" . . . Li sa( chuckl es) : " okay . . don' twor r ywef i ne" Shedr opst hecal l Me: " whatwast hatabout . . . . . * Bhaa! ! * Ij umponherf orust ogetdown * Bhaaa! ! ! * Anot hershotgoesout , comi ngf r om t hewi ndow f i r i ngt owar dsus West ayl owwi t hLi saundermeasIcov erher headwi t hmyar ms Theshoot i ngst ops Li sa( cl i ngi ngonme, br eat hl essl y ) : " whatwas t hatabout . . . . . Shet r ai l sof fasshest ar esatmyt ummyand hol dshermout hi nshock Me: " what ? " Li sa: " y oubl eedi ng!" If eel mybodyget t i ngweaker . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . [ 07/ 29, 09: 27]W: I nser t44 LI SA I ' m paci ngupanddowni nt hewai t i ngr oom Yonel a: " Li sa, cal m down" Ist opandl ookather Me: " cal m down?Howcany ouexpectmet o cal m downr i ghtnow. . .OhmydearGodIhope he' sal i v e. . . whatt hehel l i st aki ngt hem sol ong! ? I tcan' tbet hatbad! . . ( sof t l y ) . . . i t snott hatbad r i ght ? " Ai dan: " he' l l bef i ne" Me: " r eal l y ! ?Hashebeenshotbef or e? " Heshakeshi shead Me: " t henhowt hehel l doy out hi nkhe' l l be f i ne. . . . i fy ouhav enot hi ngni cet osay , pl ease shutup" Hel ooksatmeasi fI ' m cr azy Iwi pet het ear st hatar er unni nguncont r ol l abl y downmyf ace It hi nkI ' m goi ngt ol oosemymi ndr i ghtnow!I can' tst aycal m, Ist ar tpaci ngagai n Me: " whowoul dwantt oki l l myQui nt on. . .Who! ? " Ai dan: " Cl y dei ssor t i ngt hatoutnow" Me: " t henoncehe' sf oundt hatper son, Iwantt o seehi m ki l l t hatasshol e" I ' mf umi ngwi t hangerandmanyot heremot i ons Inot i cehi smom andCandr ar unni ngt owar ds usbuthi smom i sj ustwal ki ngcal ml y Candr a: " I sheokay , whatdi dt hedoct or ssay " Nooneanswer sher Candr a: " hel l o! ! ? " Yonel a: " y oohcan' ty ouseewei nt hewai t i ng r oom?Whi chmeanswest i l l wai t i ng. . geez! " Candr a: " mxm" Shel ooksatme, Ii gnor eherandcar r yonpaci ng Q' smom: " i fmysondi es, Ibl amey ou" Il ookather Me: " si ncewhendoy oucar ewhathappenst o y ourson, wheny out hesamewi t cht hatcast s spel l sonhi m, notev encar i ngoft heaf t er ef f ect st hatcoul dhappen, sodon' tcomeher e act i ngal l hol l yandmot her l yNx" IknowQui nt onsai dIshoul dr espectmyel der s butIhat ehi smom andI ' l l nev err especther af t erwhatshe' sdone Mom: " y ousodi sr espect f ul , y ouev enpassedi t ont omyson, hecannowr ai sehi sv oi ceatme andmakedemandsbecauseofy ou" Ai dan: " Mah!Thi si ssonott het i mef ort hi s! " " MrO' Br i en? " Hei nt er r upt sbef or eshecoul dsayany t hi ng Wer unupt ot hedoct or Candr a: " howi she? " Doc: " ser i ousdamagear oundhi spel v i c ar ea, al socr ackedt hepel v i cbone, sohewi l l be usi ngawheel chai r" Ai dan: " sohe' sawake?" Doc: " he' sst i l l unconsci ous, buty oucansee hi m" Hel eadst heway Doc: " I ' l l l eav ey ' al l t oi t " Hewal ksout , myhear tbr eaksasIseehi ml y i ng t her eal l pal eandcol d, Ir unmyhandsonhi s f ace, he' ssocol d, hi sl i psar edr y , hi sey el i dsar e t heonl yr edpar tt hatshowshest i l l hasbl oodi n hi ml ef t , Ai dangi v esmeachai rt osi t , It akehi s col dhandi nt omi neandki ssi t Candr a: " Qui nt on, I ' m sosor r y , f oract i ngl i kea spoi l tbr at , Ipr omi seI ' l l gi v ey out her especty ou deser v et haty oual way spr eacht oAi danandI , pl easej ustwakeupandbebet t er" I ' m st ar i ngathi sbodyIcan' tgetov erhowwhi t e andpal ehei s Candr a: " andLi sa?" Il ookupather Candr a: " I ' m sosor r yf ort hewayI ' v et r eat ed y ou, Ishoul dn' thav eact edt hewayIdi d, I shoul d' v ebeent her ef ory ouwhenmybr ot her di sappear ed, nothat ey ou, I ' m sor r yf ort hepai n I ' v ecausedont opoft hepai ny ou' v ebeengoi ng t hr ough. . pl easef or gi v eme" Iwi pemyt ear sandsmi l eather Me: " If or gi v ey ou" Shesmi l eswi del yt hencomesal l t heway ar oundt hebedt omeandat t acksmewi t ha hug Candr a: " y ou' v ebeennot hi ngbutgoodt ous, y ou sohumbl e, ev enwhenwesai dt hi ngsweknew woul dhur ty ou, buty ounev erf oroncef oughtus ordef endedy our sel f , whi chmakesmef eel so hor r i bl e" Me: " i t sokayCandr a, I ' mj usthappywecool now" Candr a: " mybr ot heri ssol uckyt ohav ey oui n hi sl i f e, pl easeIknowmybr ot hercanbe mi schi ev ousatt i mes, butpl easebet hegi r l who' l l st i ckwi t hhi m nomat t erwhat " Me: " Iwi l l " Shet ur nst ol ookathermot her Candr a: " mom, It hi nky oushoul dapol ogi set oo" Shel ooksatCandr aupanddown, t hencl i cks hert ongue, ohmygoshI ' v enev ermetsuchan ev i l mot heri nmyl i f e, t ot hi nkofhowIf el tf or herwhenIf i r stsawherl y i nghel pl essl yont he hospi t al bed, t ot hi nkofal l t hepr ay er sIsai df or hert ogetbet t er , It houghtIwashel pi nga humannotawi t ch Yonel a: " Qui nt on. . . al t houghsomet i mesy oucan besost upi dandbl i ndand. . . . . . . Icl earmyt hr oat Shesi ghs Yonel a: "butwest i l l l ov ey ou, sowakeup al r eady " Ai dan: " y eahman, y ouneedt obet her ewhenwe sor toutt heper sonwhodi dt hi st oy ou" Hi smom wal kscl osert oQui nt on' sbed, she bendsasshel ay saki ssonhi sf or ehead Q' smom: " mommyl ov esy ou" If eel l i kest r angl i ngherr i ghtnow, i si twr ongof me? Ai dan' sphoner i ngs Ai dan: " Ihav et ogetgoi ng" Heexcuseshi msel fasheanswer shi sphone onhi swayout Ai dan: " I ' l l bet her ei nasecond" Candr a: " Ial sohav et obesomewher e, I ' l l see y ' al l " Sheki ssesherbr ot heront hecheek Hermom f ol l owsaf t erhernotsay i ngawor d Ibr eat hout Yonel a: " f i nal l y !Thoughtt hey ' dnev erl eav e" Ichuckl e Yonel a: " I ' m sur ey ouwantsomeal onet i me wi t hhi m. . . shoul dIwai tf ory ouout si deor . . ? " Me: " no, y ougohomeandr est , I ' l l beher ef or somet i me" Yonel a( si ghs) : " okayt hen" Sheki ssesmyf or ehead Yonel a: " he' l l bef i ne. . .I ' l l seey oul at er " Shewal ksoutandcl osest hedoorbehi ndher Il ookathi m Me: " okayt heygone, y oucanwakeupnow" Yeaht hatdi dn' twor k Me: " I ' m ser i ousQ, y ouhav et owakeupnow, I needt oheary ourv oi ceorseey oubl i nk, pl ease" Ipul l t hesheett hat ' scov er i ngonl yhi sl ower bodyupt ocov erhi swhol ebody Me: " y oumustbef r eezi ng, don' tt heyhav e pr operwar m bl anket sher e? " Isi ghasIf eel myey esbur ni ngagai n Me: " ar eweev ergoi ngt obehappyl i kef ora l ongt i me, whyi si tt hatourhappi nessi sal way s soshor tl i v ed, pl easej ustwakeupQ, l ook, I ' v e l ongf or gi v eny ou, whol ehear t edl y , If or gi v ey ou Qui nt oncauseIl ov ey ou. . . . y es, despi t e ev er y t hi ng, Ij ustcan' thel pbutl ov ey ouev en mor e. . ( l aughs) . . somet hi ngmustbet ot al l y wr ongwi t hme, ImeanIshoul d' v el ongl ef ty our ass. . , . . . butIcan' t , y oust ol emyhear tandnow, I can' tev enl i v ewi t houty ou" Imov emychai rcl oserandpl aywi t hhi shand Me: " al othashappened, abi tt oomuch, Ihav e f or gi v en, buty ouwer er i ght , i t snoteasyt o f or get , f r om nowon, ourl i v eswi l l nev erbet he same, t her e' sj ustsomucht hatI ' m notsur ewe canev ermov eonf r om, butI ' l l t r y , j ustgi v eme somet i me, i twon' tbeeasywat chi ngy oupl ay daddywi t hachi l dofanot herwoman, butIhav e t oacceptt hati t sy ourchi l dt ooandy ouhav et o bet her e, j ustpl easedon' tal l owhert ouset hi s t ogetbet weenusagai n, causeIwon' tbeabl e t ot akei t . .Iwi l l ki l l hernextt i me, I ' m notj oki ng, I ' l l st ar tbypoppi ngt hatf akeassof her s. . ( chuckl es) . .ButIwi l l l ov ey ourchi l dasmy v er yowncauseGodknowshowmuchIl ov e ki ds, t heybr i ngsomuchj oy . . . . .Qui nt on, Ir eal l y dost i l l t hi nk, f r i endshi pi st her el at i onshi pt hat ' s bestf orus, buti t ' l l bev er yhar dwi t hal l t hese f eel i ngsandchemi st r y . .I ' m af r ai dQui nt on. . .I ' m af r ai dt hi ngswi l l nev erbet hesameandwe' l l endupdr i f t i ngmor eandmor eapar t " Il ookatt het i me, Ineedt ogosoIcanbr i nghi m cl eancl ot hest omor r ow Me: " Ihav et ogetgoi ngnow. . . Ibet t ercome backandy ouawaket omor r ow" Ist andup Me( whi sper s) : " Il ov ey ou" Ibendov erandki sshi sl i ps, If eel hi m ki ssme back It r yget t i ngupbuthi shandpul l smeback, I st ar eathi m, hi sey esar est i l l cl osed, hepul l smy headcl oserandpecksmyl i ps Heopenshi sey es, asi l entshor tl aughescapes mymout h Qui nt on: " Il ov ey out oo" Me: " y ouawake" Qui nt on: " mhm" Ihughi m " Aahhoouch" Iqui ckl yl etgo Me: " I ' m sosor r y . . .I ' m sohappyy ouawake" Qui nt on: " i t sst i l l t oosoonf ormet ol eav ey ou al onei nt hi swor l d" Me: " y our i ghtwecoul duseahundr edmor e y ear s" Hel aughsbuti tchangesi nt oagr oan Het r i esget t i ngupbuthecan' tmov ehi sl ower body , hel ooksatme Qui nt on: " whycan' tIf eel myl egs? " Ibi t emybot t om l i p, scar edf orhi m Me: " uhm. . . . . Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " whycan' tIf eel t hem Li ss? " Me: " y ouwi l l f eel t hem. . . . j ustnotnow" Hel ay sbackl ooki ngdi st r aught Me: " don' twor r yQ, y ou' l l getbet t eri nno t i me. . . . y ou' l l see" Qui nt on: " Iwon' tbeabl et ousemyl egs? " Me: " i t sonl yt empor ar yQ" Qui nt on: " myl egsLi sa, howam Isupposedt odo any t hi ngwi t houtmyl egs? " Myhear tsi nksatt hesoundofhi ssadt one Me: " i twon' tbef or ev erQui nt on" Qui nt on: " i st hatwhatt hedoct orsai d? " Ishakemyhead Me: " nobut . . . Qui nt on: " soy ouadoct ornow? " Il ookdownandf i ddl ewi t hmyf i nger s Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r y , Idi dn' tmeant hat " Me: " Iknow. . . Ihav et ogo" Qui nt on: " sosoon" Me: " i t sget t i ngl at eandIdon' thav ear i deback, I hav et ocal l anuber " Qui nt on: " pl easedon' tl eav emeher e, al one" Me: " butv i si t i nghour sar eal mostov er " Qui nt on: " pl ease. . . . don' tgo" West ar eateachot herf orawhi l e Me: " okay " Hesmi l esandpat st heont hespacenextt o hi m Ir ol l myey esandmakemy sel fcomf or t abl easI l i enextt oohi m Me: " okayf i ne, IguessIcoul daskt ospendt he ni ght " Qui nt on: " t hat ' smygi r l " Me: " buti ft heychar geme, i t scomi ngouty our pocket" Qui nt on: " geez , l et ' smaket heni ggarwhoal most di edpayf orev er y t hi ng" Il aughasIf i dgett omakemy sel f comf or t abl e, t hebedi sabi twi desoi t sj ust enough, sowebot hf aci ngt hecei l i ng, hemov es t hebl anketsot hati tal socov er sme Qui nt on: " t hat ' sbet t er " It ur nmyf acet ol ookathi m, onl yt of i ndhi m st ar i ngatmel eav i ngonl yani nchbet weenour noses Me: " t hanks" Qui nt on: " y ouwel come, sqemeza" Me: " ar ghnott hatnamepl ease! " Hel aughsal i t t l e Qui nt on: " buti tsui t sy ou" Me: " l etmegetgoi ng" Qui nt on: " okay !I ' mj ustki ddi ngy ounot sqemeza" Me: " good" Qui nt on: " y ougr eeney ezi l l a" Iat t emptt ogetuphepul l smydr ess Qui nt on: " I ' m ki ddi ngI ' m ki ddi ng. .Don' tgo" I ' mf ai l i ngt okeepanangr yf aceasmyl i ps cur v eupbet r ay i ngme Me: " cal l menamesagai n, I ' ml eav i ngy ourass" Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " y ousur ey ouwannal eav e t hi ssexyassofmi ne? " Il aybackont hebed Me( l aughi ng) : " f ul l ofour sel v esmuch? " Wel aughsof t l yandt her oom f i l l swi t hsi l ence Qui nt on: " di dt heyev engi v emei nj ect i on? " Me: " whatf or ? " Qui nt on: " t oeaset hepai n" It ur nmywhol ebodyt of acehi m Me: " t hatbad? " Henods, myhear tcr acksi nsy mpat hy . . . " Youwer ebor nwi t hagr eatgi f ty ouar eaheal er anda f or eseer " . . . Me: " may beIcanhel p" Qui nt on: " how? " Me: " Idon' tknow, butpar tofmygi f ti sheal i ng" Het ur nshi sf acet ol ookatme Qui nt on: " t hat ' sawesome. . . wel l , wor ky our magi cgi r l ! " Il aughasIsi tup. . . Isl i det hebl anketdownt o hav eav i ewofhi sbandagedwound. . . Il ookat t hebl oodybandagef orawhi l e, t heni thi t sme! Me: " j ustonepr obl em " Qui nt on: " what ? " Me( bi t i ngmynai l s) : " Idon' tknowhowt ousei t " Qui nt on: " wow, t hanksal otLi sa" Me: " okay , l etmet r y " Qui nt on: " y eah, pl easedo" Ist andonmyf eetnextt ot hebed. . okay , sohow wi l l Idot hi s? . . uh' ha! Ist r et choutmyhandt owar dshi swound Me: " Ical l heal i ngunt ot hi swound, heal heal heal ! ! ! " Hebur st si nt ol aught er , whi chki ndaannoy sme causeI ' mt r y i ngt ohel phi m her e. . . hi sl augh changest ogr oansashe' si npai n Qui nt on: " Li sa. . ar ey out r y i ngt oki l l me! ? " Hesay swi t habi ggr i nonhi sf ace Me: " Qui nt on. . . .Youf i ndt hi sf unny ?I ' mt r y i ngt o heal y ouher e, andI ' m al sot r y i ngt of i gur e my sel fout . . andy ouf i ndhumori nt hat ? " Het r i est omai nt ai nast r ai ghtf acebuthe' s f ai l i ngdi smal l y Qui nt on: " okay , t hatwasr eal l yst upi dofme, I ' m sor r y . . .Pl easecar r yon" Isi gh Ipl acemyhandsov erhi swound, Icl osemy ey est i ght l y Me: " uummm. . . uummmm whenIopenmyey es. . Ummmmmm t hi swoundwi l l be gone. . . . uummmm. . . . Qui nt onwi l l beabl et o wal k. . . . uummmmmm. . . i nt henameoft hepower ofheal i ng. . ummmmm" Ihearsoundscomi ngf r om Qui nt onashei s st r uggl i ngt ohol di nhi sl augh Isi ghandopenmyey eswi t hhopest hati t wor ked Tomydi sappoi nt menti t sst i l l t hesame Me: " howar ey ouf eel i ngnow? " Hef ol dshi sl i psi nsi dehi smout handnods gi v i ngmeat humbsupandawi nk Me: " can' tbel i ev ey ouhol di ngi nsomuch l aught err i ghtnow" Heshakeshi sheadno, hecan' tev ent al kt he wayhesobadl ywant st ol augh Me: " ar ghj ustl eti tout " Hel et ' si toutandl aughshar d Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " ooouuuchh. .Sopai nf ul " Hi sl aughi smi xedwi t hpai n Me: " st opl aughi ngQui nt on, y ouhur t i ngy our sel f " Qui nt on: " aahhf uck. . . aahh" He' si nr eal pai n Me: " I ' m sor r yQ. . . Iguessmypower sdon' twor k y etorIj ustdon' tknowhowt ouset hem" Qui nt on: " i t sokayLi sa, y ou' l l f i gur ei tout , don' t wor r yaboutme, I ' l l heal wi t ht i me" Isi ghi nf r ust r at i on, Ir eal l ywant edt oheal hi m, I wonderi fI ' l l ev erbeabl et ousemygi f t . . .I ' m st ar t i ngt odoubti fi t sev ent her e Me: " l etmet r yagai n" Heshakeshi sheadcont i nuousl y Qui nt on: " NO!i t sokaybub, I ' v ef el tt oomuch pai nf oroneday " Hesi gnal smet ocomebackt obed, Igoback andsl eepbesi dehi m * si l ence* Me: " heyQui nt on?" Qui nt on: " hmm" Me: " doy ounot i ceany t hi ngdi f f er entaboutt he di amondswhenIhol dt hem? " Het ur nshi sheadt of acemeandf r ownsal i t t l e Qui nt on: " Idon' tknow, Inev erpayat t ent i on, do y ouseesomet hi ng" Me: " i t sj ust . . . . ear l i ert oday , It hi nkIsawt hem gl owabi t " Qui nt on: " r eal l y ? " Me: " Yeah. . . wei r dIknow" Her emai nsqui etf orawhi l e Qui nt on: " y eah, wei r d" Wet al kaboutot herr andom t hi ngsf ort he whol eni ght [ 07/ 29, 09: 28]W: I nser t45 LI SA Ist r et chmyhandsl ooki ngt of eel some comf or tonsomeone' sbodybutnot hi ng, I sl owl yopenmyey esandI ' m al oneont he hospi t al bed. Isl uggi shl ysi tupasIr ubmyey es, Iopent hem t ol ookar oundonl yt of i ndhi sf ami l yexceptt hi s mot herandCl y desi t t i ngont hechai r smi ndi ng t hei rownbusi nessal soy onel a, Iy awnand managet ogett hei rat t ent i on Ai dan: " oh. . goodmor ni ngsl eepyhead" Me: " mor ni ngev er y one. . . . .Andy ouAi dan" Theygr eetmeback Yonel a: " can' tbel i ev ey ousl epther e" Candr a: " i nsuchasmal l bed" Ai dan: " whoneedsspacewheny oucanj ust snuggl ewi t hy ourman? " Weal l l ookathi m Ai dan: " ohno, notf orme, Imeanl i kef ory ou gi r l s, l i kewhydoy ' al l needspacewheny oucan snuggl ewi t hy ourman. " Candr a: " whyar ey ouexpl ai ni ngy our sel fbr o, we nev ersai dany t hi ng?" Yonel a: " Gui l t " Ai dan: " don' tst ar twi t hmeNel l a" Yonel a: " ay i bo. . whatdi dIsay ?Idi dn' tsayy ou gay ? " Wel augh Ai dan: " whosai dy ousai dI ' m gay ? " Yonel a: " oh. . . sor r y , It houghtIwast hi nki ngout l oud, guessIwasn' t " Ai dan: " soy out hi nkI ' m gay ? " Yonel a: " It hi nkIshoul dst opt hi nki ngsomuch" Ai dan: " y ouj ustwai t . . . . we' l l seewho' sgay " Ay i t heset woar eal way soneachot her st hr oat s Me: " wher e' sQui nt on? " Candr a: " t heychangi nghi sbandage" Me: " ohokay , whendi dy ' al l gether e? " Yonel a: " j ustaf ewmi nut esago Me: "weehEi sh. . .If or gott oasky out obr i ng cl eancl ot hesf orQui nt on" Candr a: " don' twor r y , Igott hatcov er ed" Isi gh Me: " phew!Youal i f esav er " Shel aughs Candr a: " geezi t sj ustcl ot hes, hecoul d' v ewor n t hehospi t al ' sl i ghtdr essandgohomewear i ng i t " Me: " haaano, t hoset hi ngsexposey ourwhol e but tout si de" Theyl augh Candr a: " y oudon' twantt hem l ooki ngaty our man' sj unkgi r l " Shewi nksatme, It hr owmyheadbackand l augh Me: " ohGody ' al l al l cr azy " Fi nal l yt hecool l ov i ngandf unCandr aIf i r stmet i sback Thedoct orwal ksi npushi ngQui nt onont he wheel chai r , mymooddr opsasInot i cehow downhei s, myl i pscur v edown, If eel myhear t si nk Doc: " goodmor ni ng" Us: " mor ni ngdoc" Doc: " whocanIt al kt owhowi l l ber esponsi bl e f ort hi sman? " Candr a: " he' sgonnahav et ocomest ayathome hecan' tst ayal onewhi l ehe' sl i ket hi s, soIguess I ' mr esponsi bl e" Qui nt on: " No. . . I ' m notgoi ngbackhome, Idon' t wantt obeany wher eneary ourmot her " Yoh, t het al kaboutawkwar d! Ai dan: " t henwho' l l t akecar eofy ou, y oucan' t st ayal one" Qui nt on: " I ' l l hi r esomeone, anur se" Yonel a: " y ohanur se?Wi l l bat hey ou, f eedy ou, cl ot hey ou. . . .Okay " Doc: " okay , sodoy ouneedmet oor gani sea nur sef ory ou, now? " Qui nt on: " Yes" Me: " No" Al l ey esl andonme Me: " I ' l l ber esponsi bl ef orhi m" Doc: " ar ey ouokaywi t ht hatMrO' Br i en?" Me: " y eshe' sokaywi t ht hat" Hesmi l esatme Qui nt on: " I ' m downwi t ht hat " Doc: " okayt hen, t hi si swhaty ou' l l needt o do. . . . . . . . . Hegoesonandont el l i ngmeabouthi s medi cat i on andchangi ngofhi sbandage Candr at ookust oQui nt on' sapar t ment , nowI ' m notsosur ei fImadet her i ghtchoi ce, t hi shouse j ustbr i ngsbacksomanybadmemor i esonl ya f ewgoodones. . . buti t sonl yf orunt i l Qui nt on get sbet t eraf t ert hat , I ' m out , speci al l ynowt hat webackt of r i endshi p, Ir eal l yt hi nkt hi swayi s best , i nt hatwaywest i l l st i ckt oget herand pr ot ecteachot herwi t houtbei ngr omant i cal l y i nv ol v edwhi chwi l l hur tsomuchi ft hi ngsgo Sout hagai n. . . soy eah!Mymi ndi smadeup. . I ' m notget t i ngbackt oget herwi t hQui nt onagai n butI ' l l al way sbebyhi ssi de Wegett ot hehouseandCandr ahel psmeget Qui nt onoutoft hecari nt ot hewheel chai r , he' s bei ngsodi f f i cul t , hedoesn' twantt obehel ped Wef i nal l ymadei tt ot hehouse, I ' m pushi nghi m t ot hel ounge Qui nt on: " Ican' tt akei tf r om her eLi sa" Me: " butIwantt o. . . . Qui nt on: " Isai dIcanhandl ei t " Il etgoandhepushedhi msel ft ot hel ounge Isi ghandt ur nt ol ookatCandr awho' sbehi nd me Me: " l ooksl i ket hi si sgoi ngt obehar dert hanI t hought " Candr a: " onet hi ngaboutQui nt on, hedoesn' t l i kebei ngusel ess, he' sal way sbeenhandson wi t hev er y t hi ng, andhe' susual l yt heonewho hel pspeopl e, sonowt hatheneedst hehel p. . . . " Me: " hedoesn' tl i kei t " Candr a: " j ustbepat i entwi t hhi m, he' l l come ar ound, t hi smust n' tbeeasyonhi m" Isi gh Me: " Iunder st and" Candr a( si ghs) : " okaygi r l , goodl uck, I ' l l keep comi ngt ocheckupony ou" Me: " cool , t hanksCandr a" Candr a: " don' tment i oni t " Weshar eahug Me: " by e" Candr a: " chow" Shecat swal koutIf ol l owher , cl osi ngt hedoor r i ghtaf t erher It akeadeepbr eat hbef or ewal ki ngbackt ot he l ounge Me: " woul dy oul i kesomet hi ngt oeat ? " He' swat chi ngcr i cket . . hel ooksupatme Qui nt on: " not hanks" Me: " buty ou. . . Qui nt on: " Isai dnot hanks" Isi ghf ort hehundr edt ht i me, het hi nkst hi si s easyf orme? Me: " f i nesui ty our sel f " Iat t emptt owal kawaybuthepul l smyhand Qui nt on: " sor r y , i t sj ustwhenIsayno, canwe pl easel eav ei tt her e? " Me: " buty ouonl ysay i ngnocausey oudon' t wantmyhel p, notbecausey ounothungr y" Qui nt on: " okayf i ne, sor r y , doest heof f erst i l l st and? " Me: " mx m, no" Qui nt on: " I ' m st ar v i ngher e" Me: " di e" Hegasps Qui nt on: " say st hegi r l whowascr y i ngherl ungs outwhenIwasdy i ngi nf r ontofhery est er day " Ishi v er Me: " pl easedon' tr emi ndmeoft hat , i twast he wor stt or t ur eI ' v eev erwentt hr ough" Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r ybub, di dn' tmeanf ory out o exper i encet hat " Il ookathi m conf used Me: " i t snoty ourf aul t , y oudi dn' tknowt hatwe wer egoi ngt obeambushed" Qui nt on: " pl easecomeher e" Hepat st heont hespacenextt ohi m, Iwal k cl oserandsi tt her e Hel ooksatmef oral ongt i me, Icoul dl i t er al l y seet hespar ksandIcanheart hef i r ewor ks expl odi ngandmaki ngabeaut i f ul i mage. . . am I goi ngcr azy ? Me: " Qui nt on. . . . .Howl ongar ewegoi ngt opl ay t hi sst ar i nggame? " Qui nt on: " unt i l y oubl i nk" Me: " i st hatachal l engemi st er ? " Qui nt on: " oohhhy eeaahh" Me: " chal l engeaccept ed" Isqui ntmyey esandmov ecl oser Qui nt on: " y ousowannabl i nkr i ghtnow" Me: " whatev ery out r y i ngt odo, i ssonotgoi ngt o wor k" Qui nt on: " ohmyGod" Me: " what ? " Qui nt on: " t her e' ssomet hi ngoney el ash" Me: " notbuy i ngi t " Qui nt on: " r eal l y ?I t ski ndabi g" Me: " I ' m notdumbQui nt on, Iwoul dseei t " Qui nt on: " I ' m notki ddi ngLi sakhany a" Hecal l edmebymyf ul l name!He' sser i ous!Oh mygosh! !OKdon' tpani cLi sast aycal m! ! ! !Why am Ishout i ng! ! !I nmymi nd! ! ! Qui nt on: " t hat ' sr eal l ygoi ngt ogeti nt oy our ey e. . weshoul dst oppl ay i ng" Ibl i nkuncont r ol l abl y Me: " geti tof fme! ! !Geti tof f ! ! " Ij umpupanddownhi t t i ngmyey es Hebur st si nt ol aught er . . . Ist opandsl owl yt ur n t ol ookathi m Me: " whydoy oul i kedoi ngt hat ?" Ihuf fandt hr owmy sel fnex tt ohi m hecan' t st opl aughi ng Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " Bub! !Pl easest op! . . aahh y ouki l l i ngme! " Tear sar eev enr unni ngdownhi sf ace. . . l i ke ser i ousl y ! Me: " mx m. . y ouknowwhatQui nt on. . .I . . I . . I ' m nev ert al ki ngt oy ouagai n!Ev er ! " Hewi peshi st ear sbutst i l l l aughi ngabi t , he f anshi msel fwi t hhi shands Qui nt on: " ohGod, y ouhur t i ngmeLi ss. . . y oul ov e seei ngmei npai ndon' ty ou? " Ihuf fandt ur nmyonhi m Qui nt on: " Li sa? " Ii gnor ehi m Qui nt on: " oohhLi ssaaa" Mxm y ounotgoi ngt ol aughLi sa! Qui nt on: " y omaLi l l i za" Notgoi ngt ol augh! !Andt hat ' snotf unny !NxI shoul dt ur nwi t hahotsl ap If eel hi mt r ai l hi sf i ngeronmyback Qui nt on: " mal i l l i zana" OhIknowhedi dnotj ustcal l met hat ! ? . . .I ' m so notl ooki ngback, whenIsayI ' m nott al ki ngt o someone. .Imeani t ! Qui nt on: " ml i zi st o! " Haaa!It ur n Me: " ml i zi st o?ml i zi st o!Real l yQui nt on? . . . .DoI l ookl i kesomegangst erordr ugl or dt o y ou! ? . . aar r gh!Nxnxnxnx. . mxxxxxmm! ! ! " Ist andup Me: " andFYIt hi swassonotmet al ki ngt oy ou! ! I ' m shout i ngaty ou. . . soI ' m st i l l st i cki ngt omy wor d. . . Nev ert al ki ngt oy ou agai n! ! . . . Queenzi st o! " Iwal kt ot hedi r ect i onoft heki t chen Me( t al ki ngt omy sel f ) : " ml i zi st o?Cany ou bel i ev et hatguy ? . . . cal l i ngmeml i zi st o? . . . . I magi nepeopl ecal l i ngmet hat ? . . . . y owasup ml i zi st o!Haaa. . . Godf or bi dooooo! " Icanhearhi m st i l l l aughi ng. .Idon' tgetwhat ' s sof unny ?WhenI ' m cl ear l ymadathi m!Bl oody mot her f at her ! Iopent hef r i dgeohhmygoodnessgr aci ousme! Somucht akeout s? I t sl i kehehasn' tbeenl i v i ngwi t hawoman, causet hi si st hesameaswhenIusedt ol eav e hi m al onedur i nghol i day s Me( shout i ng) : " Fast sf oodQui nt on! !Real l y ! ! ? " Qui nt on: " i twasn' tme! " Me: " l ame!Tr yanot herLi e" Hel aughs. . . heshoul dr eal l yst opl aughi ng, he' s hur t i nghi msel f . . wai tami nut e, di dIj ustt al kt o hi m?OhhNoo. . wel l i twasshout i ng. .Ei shokay I ' l l i gnor ehi mf r om nowon. . . . wai twhyam Inot t al ki ngt ohi m agai n?Am Iev enmadathi m?I ' m soconf used, I ' m mov i ngout , heshoul dhi r ea nur se.Whatam Isay i ng?Okayl etmegeton wi t ht hat . . . whatam Igoi ngt omakeagai n? . . It akeoutsomechi cken. .I ' l l j ustgetonwi t h cooki ng Ideci det ocal l Bel l awhi l eIwai tf ort hef oodt o getr eady " Li sa. . . howi shehol di ngup? " Thi swomanamazesme, Idi dn' tev ent el l herhe gotshot , can' twai tt i l l Icandot hat Me: " he' sokay . . . he' sst i l l i nt oomuchpai n" " Ican' ti magi ne, butIknowy ou' l l doagr eatj ob i nget t i nghi m bet t er " Me: " how?It r i edusi ngmyheal i ngpower s, but t heywer eami ser abl ef ai l ur e" Shel aughs. . whyi sev er y onef i ndi ngt hi sf unny ? " You' l l gett her eLi sadon' twor r y " Me: " y ouknowIt r i edt hewhol emedi t at i ng t echni quebutkwaa. . not hi ng" Shel aughsmor e, what ' ssof unny ?Di dIj ust cr ackaj oke?Am ISt ev eHar v ey ? " Li sa, t her e' sst i l l al otofpeopl ey ouhav en' t f or gi v enandy ouf ul l ofhat e, y oushoul dmake peacewi t hy ourhear t , t hat ' st hedoort oy our gi f t " Isi gh Me: " butBel l a, t her e' sj ustsomepeopl eIdon' t t hi nkIcanev erf or gi v e" " Sur ey oucan. . . y ouwer ebor nwi t ht hepur e hear t , f or gi v enessi si ny ourbl ood" Me: " r eal l y ?ThenwhydoIf eel somuch r esent ment" " Youneedt opr ayLi sa, Godwi l l r ev eal t her est " Me: . . . . . . " Di dy ougett hedi amonds? " Me: " y es, Qui nt ondi d" " I t sst i l l hav en' tbeenr ev eal edt omewhyt hey bel ongt oy ou" Me: " t her e' ssomet hi ngst r angeaboutt hose di amondsBel l a" Iwal kupt ot hepot sandst i r " Whati si t ? " Me: " y est er day . . . whenIhel dt hem. . t heyst ar t ed gl owi ng, j ustal i t t l et henst opped" " . . . . . . Me: "Idon' tknowmay beIwasi magi ni ng, buti t wasal i ghtgr eengl ow" " Justl i ket hecol ourofy ourey es" Me: " y eah" " I nt er est i ng" Real l y ?That ' sal l y ougoi ngt ogi v eme? Me: " y eahdoy ouknowwhati tcoul dmean? " Shesi ghs " Nope, t hi si sf ory out of i gur eoutony ourown" Me: " wow, I ' m nev ergoi ngt of i gur et hi sout " " That ' st hepr obl em r i ghtt her e. . y ouknowmy gi f tonl yst ar t edwor ki ngwhenIst ar t ed bel i ev i ngi ni t , t hatt her ewassomet hi nggr eat er i nsi deofme, andIdi dmyal l meanst of i nd my sel f , bef or eIknewi t , Iwashav i ngv i si ons" Me: " It r yt obel i ev ei nmy sel fBel l abut , not hi ng, al l Igeti sQui nt onl aughi ngatme" Shel aughs. . . i ssheser i ousr i ghtnow?I ' m pour i ngmyhear touther e? Me: " j ustl i kehowy oudoi ngnow" " I ' m sor r y . . i t sst i l l ear l yLi sa, y ou' l l f i ndy our sel f ev ent ual l y " Me: " cany oupl easet el l met hi sonet hi ng" " What ? " Me: " pl easet el l met hat , we' v epassedt hest or m now. . . t hi si st oomuch. . Imeant her ewasev ena hur r i cane" " Iwon' tt el l y out hatt hest or mi sov erbecause t hi si sear t h, t hey ' l l al way sbet r ai l s. . . al l Icansay i spr ayhar derandst i ckbyy ourmanssi de, he needsy ou" Me: " y eahaboutt hat . . . . he' snotmyman any mor e, webr okeup, wedeci dedt ost ay f r i endsnow" Shebur st si nt ol aught er . . . . ay i bo! .. Imov emy phonef r om myearandl ookati ti ndi sbel i ef Me: " Bel l a?Ar ey ouokay ?Whatdi dy ousmoke t oday ?" " ( Laughi ng) . .Fr i ends!Yeahr i ght ! " Me: " Yes. . andt her e' snot hi ngf unny , t hi swaywe canst i l l bet oget herwi t houtbei ngt oget her" " Honey , we' l l seehowl ongt hatf r i endshi p l ast s, l etmet el l y ouasecr et " Me: " okay " " Yout wocannev erbej ustf r i ends. . . y ' al l hav e nev erbeenj ustf r i ends, ev ersi ncey ' al l met " Me: " heywewer ef r i ends, f orawhol ey ear " " Tr ustme. y ' al l nev erbeenf r i ends, y ' al l wer e j ustav oi di ngy ourf eel i ngs, y ' al l al way sbeen l ov er s, t hi nkabouti t , whaty ouguy shav ebeen t hr ough, wasi tal l j ustaf r i endshi pj our ney ? " It hi nkt omy sel ff orawhi l e " Exact l y . .LookIhav et ogo. . Beccai saboutt o wakeup" Me: " wow. . y out hatgood, y ouev enknowwhen she' sgoi ngt owakeupbef or eshedoes? " " No, Ij ustknowhert i meschedul e" Me: " oh. . y eah. . ofcause. . .Okayby e" " ( Laughi ng)by eLi sa" Ihangup Idi shupf orust henheadt ot hel ounge Me: " l unchi sser v ed" Ist opandl ookathi m asasmi l ecr eepsi nmy f ace. . he' sf astasl eep, seat edonhi sbut thi sl egs ont het abl eandhi sheadl ay edbackont he couchf aci ngt hecei l i ng, he' smout hi sabi t open, Il ov et hewayhe' sey esdon' tcl osef ul l y whenhesl eeps Iputt hepl at esdown, Ishakehi m Me: " Qui nt on" Hemov eshi sheadabi tt henr el axesagai n Me: " Q. . wakeup, f oodi sr eady " Qui nt on: " mmhmh" Me: " y ouhav et oeat , soy oucant akey our medi cat i on" Hel azi l yopenshi sey esandl ooksatmef ora whi l et hensmi l es Me: " f ood? " Qui nt on: " doIhav eachoi ce" Me: " y eah. . . buty ouhav et oeatnomat t erwhat " Qui nt on: " t henwhydoy ousayIhav eachoi ce? " Me: " t omakey ouf eel bet t er " Qui nt on: " mxm" Il aughasIt akehi spl at eandgi v ei tt ohi m Hehasadi sgust edf aceasi fhe' si npai n Me: " pai nf ul ?" Qui nt on: " i t ssopai nf ul .Damn" Myhear tbr eaksathowmuchpai nhe' sf eel i ng Me: " I ' l l f eedy out hen" Henodsr el uct ant l y Me: " openup" Heopensal i t t l e, If eedhi m, he' sonl yeat enf i v e spoons Qui nt on: " I ' mf ul l " If r own Me: " buty ouhav en' teat enhal fofy ourf ood? " Qui nt on: " I ' mr eal l yf i neLi sa" Isi ghandgoputhi sf oodaway , Idon' tev en knowwhyIdi shedupf ormy sel f It akehi smedi cat i on Me: " okayl et ' sdr i nkup" Ihel phi m dr i nkhi smedi cat i on Me: " don' ty ouwantt ogor estont hebed? " Henods Ihel phi m up, damnhe' sheav yandal l hi swei ght i sonmeasIwal kt ot hewheel chai r Me: " okay , I ' m notcar r y i ngy ouupt hosest ai r s" Qui nt on: " i t sf i neI ' l l sl eepi nt heguestr oom t hat ' sdownher e" That ' st heoneAi dansl epti n, Ipushhi mt ot he r oom, nextt ot hebedIj ustst andi nf r ontofhi m t r y i ngt of i gur eouthowam Igoi ngt ogethi m ont hi sbedbymy sel f , noCandr ahel pi ngme Me: " okay . . howam Igoi ngt odot hi s" Qui nt on: " Ihat et hi s" Il ookathi m Me: " don' tbel i ket hat , Idon' tmi ndhel pi ngy ou" Qui nt on: " Ij ustf eel l i keanui sance" Me: " y oucannev erbeanui sance, ev eni fy ou t r i ed. . . nowwr apy ourar msar oundmyneck" HedoesasIsay , hehol dsont i ght l yasIpul l hi m uphol di nghi m ar oundhi schest , wemov ea l i t t l eunt i l wef al l ont hebedwi t hhi m ont opof me Qui nt on( gr oans) : " shi t " Me: " sor r y " It r yt ospi nussohecanl i eonhi sback Me: " okay , ont hr ee. . . . one. . t wo. . . . t hr ee! !" It ur n, he' snowl y i ngper f ect l yonhi sbackwi t h meont op. .Imov ebuthehol dsme Me: " Qui nt on. .You' l l makemehur ty ou" Qui nt on: " butImi ssy oubei ngont op" I ' m notput t i ngmyf ul l wei ghtonhi m Me: " comeonQ" Qui nt on: " don' ty oumi sst hi s" Hepul l smecl oser Me: " Ido" Wegazei nt oeachot her Me: " y ouneedt ogetsomer est" Ir emov ehi shandsf r om meandgetof fhi m Hesi ghsdi sappoi nt edl y Iki sshi sf or ehead Me: " wef r i endsQui nt on, l et ' sst i ckwi t ht hat " Hel ooksaway , It uckhi mi nandwal koutwi t ha heav yhear t Ihat eseei nghi ml i ket hi s. .Ineedt ocal l Cl y deI wantt omeett heper sonwhodi dt hi st ohi mi n per son. . .Andf or gi v et hem. . Hal i kehel l , howam Isupposedt odot hatwhenIwantt oshoott hei r st upi dbr ai nsout ! [ 07/ 30, 13: 15]Ron: I nser t46 LI SA Oneweekl at er " Li sa! " Ist ar t l easIsi tuponmybut t " Li sakhany a! " Ir unoutoft her oom t ohi sr oom, Ibusti nsi de l ooki ngar oundhol di ngmyshoe Me( pani cki ng) : " What ' swr ong!Wher ear et hey ? I ' l l ki l l t hem t hi st i me! " Qui nt on: " what ?Noman, Ineedt het oi l et " Isi ghi nr el i ef Me: " ohhIt houghtsomeonewant edt ohur ty ou" Iwal kupt ohi m andhel phi m up, hecan' tev en t r yt omov ehi sl egssoI ' ml i t er al l ycar r y i ng hi m, wi t hhi sl egsar oundmywai stf r om t he f r ont , hi sheadonmyshoul der , If eel l i keI ' m car r y i ngasl eepybaby . . . onehel l aheav ybaby !I puthi m downont heopent oi l etseatandpul l downhi sbr i ef s, he' l l hav et opeesi t t i ngdown. . . I l ookawayashedoeshi sbusi ness Qui nt on: " y oudon' thav et ol ookaway . . Imean i t snot hi ngy ouhav en' tseen, ort ast edorf el t . . . Me( chuckl es) : "woul dy ouhur r yup" Hel aughssof t l y Qui nt on: " uhm Li sa? " Me: " Qui nt on? " Qui nt on: " It hi nknumbert woi sont heway " Me: " si ckman!I ' m out t aher e! " Iat t emptt owal kouthel aughs Qui nt on: " I ' m ki ddi ng! " Ist opandl ookathi m hegi v esmeabi gsi l l y gr i nwi ggl i nghe' sey ebr ow Me: " y ousuchani di ott hough" * Br r r r ! * Al oudsoundcomesf r om hi m Me: " aaahhhhsi ckman! !Qui nt on! !AhDude!" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " Iguessi twasj ustaf ar taf t eral l . . . I ' m done" Me: " mhmhmhmh. . . damnuy anuki sa shi t " ( smel l sbad) It aket heai rf r eshenerandspr ayi tal l ov er Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " ohcomeon. . . i t snot t haaaatbad" Me: " oht r ustmei t st haaaatbaaaaad! " Ihel phi m pul l uphi sbr i ef s, Ipi ckhi m up Thi st i mehi sf acei sr i ghti nf r ontofmi ne. . . I ' m wal ki ngsl owl ycausehe' ssoheav y Me: " y ousoheav y " Qui nt on: " y ousost r ong" If eel somet hi ngpoki ngme Me: " r eal l yQui nt on? " Qui nt on: " comeonLi sa, whatdoy ouexpect ? Yournunui ssowar m agai nstme" Me( chuckl es) : " wow, y ousonaught y " Qui nt on: " f ory ou" Wer eacht hebedIputhi m downandadj ust hi mt osl eeppr oper l y , hedoesn' tl etgoofmy neck Me: " l etgoQ" Qui nt on: " howl ongdi dy ousaywe' l l bef r i ends agai n? " Me: " f oral ongt i me" Qui nt on: " t hi si sr eal t or t ur et hough" Me: " Qui nt on. . . .pl ease" Hel et ' sgoofme Qui nt on: " whydoesev er y t hi nghav et obesad Li sa? " Me: . . . . . Qui nt on: " I ' mt i r edofbei ngsad, Ij ustneedy ou andev er y t hi ngwi l l bebet t er " Me: " butI ' m her ear en' tI ?" Qui nt on: " i t snotenough" Me: " wet al kedaboutt hi sQui nt on, i t sonl ybeen af ewday s" Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " f eel sl i keal i f et i me" Me: " t hi si sal sonoteasyf orme, i thur t sso much, Iwantt omov eonQui nt on, butI ' v ebeen t hr oughsomuch, myhear thashur tsomuch, t hewayy out r eat edme, i tf el tl i keour r el at i onshi pwasnotst r ongenough, t hel ov e y ouhav ef ormewasnotst r ongenoughf ory ou t obel i ev ei nmeandt r ustme, y ouwoul dchoose anot herwoman' swor dov ermi neeasi l y becausei ny ourey esI ' mt hebi t t erj eal ousnaï v e t eenagegi r l f r i end" Qui nt on: " t hat ' snothowi t sl i keLi sa" Me: " t hat ' showi tf el tl i keQui nt on, y oudi dn' t ev enf eel anysy mpat hywhenIcr i edmy sel ft o sl eepev er yni ght , y ou' dr ai sey ourv oi ceatmet o skyhi ghpr ot ect i ngher , It houghtmay bei fIgi v e y ousexi twoul dr emi ndy ouhowmuchy oul ov e meandy ou' dl i st ent ome, It hr ewmy sel faty ou f or cef ul l yev ent houghIknewIwasn' tr eadyf or sexy etaf t ert hewhol el i am t hi ng, buty oudi dn' t not i ceany t hi ng, f ort hef i r stt i mey oumademe f eel i nv i si bl e" If eel t hehear t br eakal l ov eragai n, Me: " i t sal l t ooheav yonmeQui nt on" Il ookuphol di ngbackt het ear sandswal l owi ng t hebi gl umponmyt hr oat Qui nt on: " I . . . I ' m. . . Hesni f f sandl ooksupt r y i ngt ohol dbackhi s t ear sbuti twast ool at east heescapedone af t ert heot her Me: "I ' m sor r y . . I . ." Igetupandwal koutbackt omyr oom, Igeti n t hecov er sandt hat ' swhenIl eti tal l out , Ihat e f eel i ngl i ket hi s, It houghtIwasov eri t , It houghtI di dn' tcar eany mor e. . . Il i ed!Igetupandgot o t heki t chen, l ucki l yt her e' sabunchofj unk, Igo si ti nt hel ounge, Ist uf fmy sel fr i ghtt her ei nt he dar k, f oodhasnowbeenmyescape, It akeout myf r ust r at i onsi ni tandi t smaki ngmechubby , I hearQui nt ont hr owi ngt hi ngsatt hedoorhe' s gr oani ngl oudl y , It hi nkhe' st hr owi ngat ant r um Me( shout i ng) : " St opt hat ! ! ! " Hecar r i esonmaki nganoi sescr eami ngand t hr owi ngt hi ngs Ibr eakdown, Ican' tdot hi s. . . Idon' tknowhow t odoi t ! Ist or mt ohi sr oom andbusti n, hewasaboutt o t hr owt hesi del ampbutst oppedashesawme Me: ' Whatt hef ucki swr ongwi t hy ou! !Huh! ? " Qui nt on: " getout ! ! " Me: " whyar ey oubei ngsodi f f i cul t ! !Icameher e t ohel py oubuty ouj ustkeeppushi ngmeaway ! " Qui nt on: " I ' m notpushi ngy ouawayLi sa. . You t heonewhodoesn' twantt obeher e! ! " Me: " t henwhyam Iher eQui nt on! !Whyam I her e! ? " Qui nt on: " Idon' tknow! !Whyar ey ouher eLi sa! ! Causei t scl eary ouwantnot hi ngt odowi t hme! ! Yout hi nki t ' seasyhav i ngy ouher eand pr et endi ngt obej usty ourf r i end! ? " Me: " I ' m Her et ohel py ouQui nt on! !Toheal y ou! ! " Qui nt on: " y ou' v ebeenher ef ort hewhol ef ucken week, keept el l i ngmeaboutst upi ddi amonds t hatgl ow!Doy ouev enhav et heseusel ess power s! ? " If eel l i keat housanddagger sj ustst abbedmy chest Me: " I fI ' m soUSELESSt henmay beIshoul dj ust LEAVE! !" Qui nt on: " Good! !Whatar ey ouwai t i ngf or , Chr i st mas? . . .Go. . Andnev erf uckencome back! ! " IgaspsasIopenmymout ht osaysomet hi ng. . Butwor dsf ai l me Nott hi sagai n. Me: " Nx!Fi ne! ! " Qui nt on: " cl oset hedoorbehi ndy ou" Il ookathi mf orawhi l eandhe' sf umi ngwi t h anger Iwal koutandbangt hedoorandheadt ot he mai ndoor , Iopeni tandt hat ' swhenIr eal i sei t s st i l l dawnandv er ydar k, Iwal koutany way . . . . "won' tt el l y out hatt hest or mi sov erbecause t hi si sear t h, t hey ' l l al way sbet r ai l s. . . al l Icansayi spr ay har derandst i ckby y ourmanssi de, heneedsy ou" . . . Isi ghasI ' m byt hegat e. . Youknowwhat . . Not t hi st i me, Thedev i l i sal i ar ! Ir unbackt ot hehouseandl ockt hedoor , I st or m backt ohi sbedr oom andf i ndhi m cr y i ng f aci ngt hecei l i nghedoesn' tl ookatme Qui nt on: " Isai dl eav eLi sa. . . Idon' tneedy ou. . I don' tneedany one" Iwal kupt ot hebed, he' si nt hecent r eoft he bed, Igetont opofhi m Me: " I ' m si ckandt i r edofy ouf eel i ngsor r yf or y ourusel esssel fal l t hedamnt i me! !Yout hi nk t hi si seasyf orme?Yout hi nkI ' m enj oy i ng keepi ngt hedi st ancebet weenus? " Qui nt on: " j ustgoLi sa, Idon' twanty ouher e, y ou don' tl ov emeany mor e, y ou' l l nev erl ov eme agai n, soj ustdousbot haf av ourandwal k awayandnev ercomeback. . .Leav emeandmy st upi dbl i ndsel f " Me: " y ouknowwhat ?Youf uckent al kt oomuch bul l shi t " Ibendcl oserandki sshi sl i psher esponds i mmedi at el ywi t hasmuchhungerand exci t ement , It akeof fmyPJshi r t , hechuckl es naught i l yashe' sey esl andonmyboobs Me: " mi ssedy ourbabi es? " Henodswi t habi gsmi l eonhi m ashegr abs t hem andexpl or est hem wi t hhi st ongue, moansescapemymout h, asIf eel al l ki ndsof pl easur es, t hebut t er f l i esf l at t er i ngi nmy t ummy , shi v er sdownmyspi neanacheandr i v er r unni ngdownmynani OhLor di t sbeenal ongwhi l e It akeof fmypant sandpant i es Qui nt on: " IwantMi ssM i nmymout hbub" Igi ggl easIwal kupt ohi sf aceonmyknees wi t hhi m bet weenmyl egs, Ir eachhi sf ace, he di gsi nal mosti mmedi at el yasi fhewasa t hi r st yf i shexper i enci ngdr ought , sucki ngand ni bbl i ngl i keal i t t l ebabysucki ngonamot her ' s br eastf ort hef i r stt i me " AahhQ! . . I ' m. . . cu. . . uuhhh" Ir el ease, myl egsal l shaky Qui nt on: " mmmmhhsot ast y " Ican' tev enopenmyey esf ul l yasImov eback t osi tont opofMrB. . . wel l si ncehecal l smi ne mi ssM i t sonl yf ai rIal sonamehi m Iki sshi sl i psasIgr i ndonhi m sl owl y , car ef ul nott ohur thi m Il eav ehi sl i psandt akeof fhi sbr i ef sIsi tonMr Bandmov ei nci r cul armot i onont opofhi m Qui nt on: " l etmei nbub" Ishakemyhead Me: " Aah. . . askni cel y . . . .Themagi cwor d" Qui nt on: " f uuck? " Ishakemyhead Me: " naahwr ongwor d" Qui nt on: " pl eeaasee" Ismi l eandbi t emyl owerl i p Me: " t hat ' st heone" Imov emybut tupal i t t l easIt akeMrBandl ead hi mi nsi de, Isl i dehi m sl owl yi t ' spai nf ul , when t hehel l di dshegett hi st i ght ! ?Isi tonhi m ashe sl i desi nsi de, l oudmoansv ol unt ar i l yescapemy mout hhemoansj ustasl oud " Shhhi i i i ! !Aahht i ghtpussy ! " Imov eupanddownf ast erl oosi ngmy sel fi nour ownwor l dt hatweal way sdi sappeart o Me: " mmhhf uck! ! " Ipi ckupt hepaceasIf eel l i keI ' m cl oset o. . . . . . Qui nt on: " I ' m cl osebubJus. . . . . Her el easesandsodoI , BESTFEELI NGEVER! Icol l apseont opofhi m hegr oan Me: "ohsor r y " Imov eandmakemy sel fcomf or t abl enextt o hi m, Icov eruswi t ht hebl anketasIsnuggl ei nt o hi sbody . . Ican' tr emov et hesmi l eonmyf ace andIcanf eel t hef ai r i esdanci ngi nmyhear t . . . . Hel ooksatme Qui nt on: " Il ov ey ou" Say st heguywhoj ustki ckedmeoutaf ew hour sago Me: " Il ov ey oumor e" Qui nt on: " ar ey out i r ed? " Me: " No. . why ?" Qui nt on: " i t snotr eadyt or est " Il ookathi mf orawhi l ehehasoneofhi smost st upi dgr i nsev er Ohmygosh. . . t her egoest hef i r ewor ksagai n! ! Cany ouheart hem! ? Me: " doy ouheart hat ? " Qui nt on: " i fi t st hesoundoft hebedt hat ' sbei ng bouncedon. . . . No" Il aughay i t hi sguy ! Me: " Imeant hef i r ewor ks. .Can' ty ouhear t hem? " Hel aughsatme Qui nt on: " f uckmeunt i l y oucomebackt oy our sensespl ease" Wel aughasIgetont opagai n Me: " I ' ml ov i ngt hi saut hor i t y" Hechuckl esbet weenhi smoans Qui nt on: " enj oyi twhi l ei tl ast sbub" * * * * * Ihearsomet hi ngcomi ngf r om t hespar e r oom, t heonet hatwedon' tuse, i tsounds whi st l esofsomet hi ngspi nni ngi nt heai r, Iget upf r om t hebed, Idi dn' tsl eepi nt hesamer oom asQui nt on, t her e' sj ustsomanyr oomsi nt hi s house, I ' m al sousi ngt heonedownst ai r s, t he noi sei scomi ngf r om upst ar t s. .Ir emov emy bl anketandsl owl ywal koutt her oom. . Iwal k t owar dsQui nt on' sr oom, i t sst i l l i nt hemi ddl eof t heni ght Me: " Qui nt on?I st haty ou? " Iopent hedoort ohi sr oom, myhear tski psa beatashei snotont hebed Me: " Qui nt on? . . . " Iwal kupt ot hebat hr oom he' snott her e, Iwal k backt ot her oom, i t ssodar k, Inot i cehi s wheel chai ri sst i l l t her e, howdi dhegetup wi t houthe' swheel chai r ? It ur nont hel i ght sbutt heydon' twantt ogo on. . huhel ect r i ci t ymustbegone, Igot akea t or chi nt heki t chenandakni f easIwal kupt he st ai r s Me: " Qui nt on! " It r yt oont heot herl i ght sbutnot hi ng, Ikeep t ur ni ngbackkeepi ngmyt or chandkni f est eady , Iknockatt hemai nbedr oom andt r yt oopenbut i t sl ocked Wei r d?Okaynowt hi si sget t i ngcr eepy Me: " Qui nt on!Wher ear ey ou? " Inot i ceagr eenl i ghtcomi ngf r om t hespar e r oom, t hat st heempt yr oom t hatwenev eruse i t sj ustt her e. . . Iwal kcl osert oi t , Il i f tt hekni f e andhol di tr i ghtov ermyshoul der Me: " okay . . . Thi si ssonotf unnyany mor e. . Ican doal otoft hi ngswi t hakni f e. . askt heoni ons andal l t heot herv eggi esIchopal l t het i me! " I ' mt hewor stwheni tcomest ot hr eat sbutI ' m r eal l yf r eaki ngout Thegl owget sbr i ght er , t hesamegl owInot i ced f r om t hedi amonds, t henoi seget sl ouder , i t s def i ni t el ycomi ngf r om t hatr oom Iopent her oom asIgeti nqui ckl yr eadyt oki l l Butt her e' snot hi ng, t henoi sest ops, Imov et he f l ashar oundl ooki ngf orany t hi ngwei r d, r i ght t her eont hef l oorInot i cet hedi amondsf or med i naci r cl e, t heyar et hei rnor malcol our . . . but howdi dt heygether e?I ' m sur eIl ef tt hem back atYonel a' sapar t ment . .Butmost i mpor t ant l y , whoar r angedt hem i naci r cl e! ? * bha! * Thedoorbangscl osedst ar t l i ngme, bef or eI canl ookbackatt hedoort hedi amondsst ar t gl owi ngi nt oav er ybr i ghtgr eenal mostl i me Imov ebackwar dssl owl y . .Whatki ndofv oodoo i st hi s! JustwhenIt hi nkI ' v eseeni tal l , t heyf l oati nt he ai randst ar tspi nni ngr eal l yf asti nt hesame ci r cul arposi t i ont heywer eat " Aaaaahhhhhhh! ! ! ! ! !Heeeel l l l pp. . . QUI NTON! ! ! ! ! QUI NTON! ! ! ! " Ibangt hedoorandt r yt oopenbuti t sst uckno nono. . I ' mt ooy oungt odi e! " Qui nt on! !Hel pme! ! " Il ookbackatt hem asIpr essmybackagai nst t hedoorandatt hati nst antt hel i ghtshi nes r i ghtt hr oughmyey es, i t sl i keal i ghti sal so comi ngf r om myey es. . . IzoneoutasIst ar e deept hr ought hel i ght . Ev er y t hi ngbecomespeacef ul agai n, Isee my sel fheal i ngQui nt on . . Qui nt on: " wowbub. . y oudi di t !Youf i nal l ydi d i t . . . . Icanwal k" Hej umpsupanddown Qui nt on: " Icanr un" Her unsar oundt hencomesbackt omeand pi cksmeupspi nni ngmear ound Me: " Idi di tQ! !If i nal l yf i gur edi tout ! ! " Heput smedownandweshar eaki ss ThescenechangesIseemy sel fpoi nt i ngagun r i ghtatherhead Q' smom: " pl easedon' tki l l me. . . I ' m sor r y ! ! ! Pl ease! !For gi v eme! ! " Me: " y ouki l l edmybaby ! !I ' l l nev erf or gi v ey ou! ! " Q' smom: " PLEAEEASE! ! ! ! !DON' T! !" Me: " i t sal i t t l et ool at e" * Bhaa* Gunshotgoesof f Me: " Nooo!Whathav eIdone! ! " . . . . . Icl osemyey esandopent hem agai n, t he di amondsgobackt ot hei rnor mal col ourand f al l backont hef l oorbutnoti nt heci r cul ar posi t i onany mor e, myey esal sost opgl owi ng. . . I f eel myhear tbeatf ast Me: " Nonono. . . . Qui nt on! ! !Hel pGetmeoutof her e! !Qui nt on! ! ! * * * * * * * " Li sa! . " Me( sof t l y ) : " Qui nt on. . hel p" " Li sa. . wakeupbub" Il azi l yopenmyey es Qui nt on: " i t sj ustadr eam okay " Il ookar oundandwest i l l i nt hesamer oom Me: " oh" Imov ecl osert ohi m, hehol dsmet i ght Qui nt on: " don' twor r y , I ' m her enow" Me: " Il ov ey ouQ" Qui nt on: " Il ov ey ouev enmor ebub" Il i eonhi schestandl i st ent ohi shear t beat whi chi smyl ul l aby Thatwassomef uckedupdr eam. . WTF! ? [ 07/ 30, 13: 16]Ron: I nser t47 LI SA " Idon' tcar ehowy ouf i ndt hem j ustf i ndt hem! " Iopenmyey esandnot i cehe' st al ki ngont he phone Qui nt on: " wel l may bey oul ooki ngt oof ar , I suspecty ourmom, shet hr eat enedmebef or eI l ef thomet hatday , sai dshewoul dki l l mei f needsbe, t henr i ghtaf t ert hat , t hi shappens" . . . . . . Qui nt on: " t henmay beshesentsomeonet o f ol l owme? " . . . . Qui nt on( si ghs) : " t heni fi t snother , whocoul di t be! ? " . . . . Qui nt on: " i t sbeenawhol edamnweek, comeon Cl y de. . Iwantt hi sper soni nf r ontofmei nmy v er ycar i nghands" . . . . Qui nt on: " good. . noIwantt odoi tmy sel f , wi t h myownbar ehands, t hat ' l l t eachhi m nev ert o messwi t hme" . . . Qui nt on: " cool " . . . . Qui nt on: " y eahwhat ev er " Hehangsup, Ist r et chmybodyar oundt hen wr apmy sel far oundhi m Qui nt on: " r i seandshi nesunshi ne" Il ookupathi m Me: " mor ni nghandsome" Qui nt on: " goodmor ni ngbut t er cup" Me: " mmhupgr ade? " Qui nt on: " af t erl ast sni ghtawesome per f or mance, y oudeser v et hi supgr ade" Me: " wowIshoul dal way sbei ncont r ol i fIear n mor ecut epetnames" Qui nt on: " but t er cup? " Me: " l ov ebug? " Hel i f t smyf aceupf r om hi schestt ol ookupat hi sey es. . hi sgor geousr ai nbowey es Qui nt on: " Isawy ourt at t oobeneat hy ourbr east andt hecut epoem att hebackofy ourneck" Il ookaway Me: " oh. . I ' m sor r y " Qui nt on: " f orwhat ? " Me: " Ishoul d' v easkedf ory ourper mi ssi on bef or eusi ngy ournamel i ket hat " Hel i f t smyf aceagai nandwel ooki nt oeach ot her ' sey es Qui nt on: " y ouki ddi ngmer i ght ? . . . If uckenl ov e i t ! " Me( smi l es) : " y oudo? " Qui nt on: " bub. . t hat ' st hemostbeaut i f ul t hi ng any onehasev erdonef orme" Me: " r eal l y ? " Qui nt on: " Iwoul dn' twantmynamet at t ooed any wher eel sebutonmybeaut i f ul sexybody " Me: " y oumeanmybody ? " Qui nt on: " t hat ' swhatIsai d. .Mybody " Me: " mybody " Qui nt on: " y esbub, mybody " Me: " noty ourbody . . . mybody " Qui nt on: " Idon' tknowhowy ouwantmet osay i t . . . mybody . . . t hi s( pokesmychest ) . . i smybody " Me( si ghs) : " ar gh. . Igi v eup" Qui nt on: " Iwannaki ssi t " Igetont opofhi m andmov emybodyupsohe canki sst het at t oo, heendsupbur y i nghi sf ace bet weenmyboobsmaki ngt hosef ar tsounds Me( gi ggl i ng) : " st op! " Hegr abst hem andst ar t ski ssi ngt hem r epeat edl y , pl ay i ngwi t ht heni ppl esandsucki ng t hem. . t hi sguycanbesuchababy , Iswearhe l ov esboobsmor et hanMi ssM Me: " Qui nt on. .Leav emyboobi esal one" Qui nt on: " aawbutt hesear emybabi es" Iat t emptt ogetof fhi m hehol dsme Qui nt on: " l et ' sst ayl i ket hi s" Me: " t hi swi l l j ustendwi t hy oui nsi deme" Qui nt on: " psshhhgi r r r l l pl ease. . y out oof ul l of y our sel f , I ' m notev ent hi nki ngaboutt hatr i ght now" Il ookathi m wi t hmyonebr owup, Igr i ndmy assonhi m Me: " t henwhyi sMrBhar d? " Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " MrB? " Me: " Yes, y ouhav eapr obl em wi t ht hat ? " Qui nt on: " i ft heBst andsf orBi gdi ck, t henIgot s nopr obl emswi t ht hat s" Me: " bi gdi ck? . . . t hi sl i t t l epi nky ? " Isayt ouchi nghi shar dcr ot chdef i ni t el ynot cl oset owhatIj ustsai d Qui nt on( shocked) : " l i t t l epi nky ? " Igi ggl ewhi l enoddi ng, somehowhemanagedt o ent ermewi t houtwar ni ng. .Igaspwi t hmyey es wi deopenmyashesl i desi ti nsi de Qui nt on: " oops. .Di dn' tt hi nky ou' df eel t hat " Hesmi r ks Me: " ohwhat ev er !" Af t erhour sofr i di nghi sgi antpi nkyIcol l apse Me: " t hatwasawesome! ! " Qui nt on: " l et ' sdot hatagai n! " Me: " uphanbene! " ( y oumustbeoutofy ourmi nd! ) Qui nt on: " y ouj ustsodamngoodatt hi s" Me: " t hanksbutIknow" Hel ooksatmewi t honebr owup Qui nt on: " buty ounotbet t ert hanme" Me: " say st heguywhowant st ogof orr ound hundr edandsi xt yi nf i ni t y" Hel aughs, Ij ustst ar eathi m, hi sl aughget s f ai nt erashel ooksatmer eal i si ngI ' m st ar i ng Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " doy oubel i ev ei nmagi c? " Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " Ibel i ev eal l t het hi ngsy oudot ome ar emagi cal " Me: " ohGod, y ouj usthadt obeal l cheesy " Qui nt on: " mycheesi nessi st her easony ou nakedundert hesecov erwi t hme" Me: " y out hi nkso? " Qui nt on: " i t sei t hert hatormyki l l erdi ck" Ibur sti nt ol aught er Me: " doy ouev err unoutofsomet hi ngt osay ? " Qui nt on: " y oushoul dknowt hatbynowml i zi st o wam" Aar ghher emember edt hi sname, nowhe' l l nev er st opusi ngi t , speci al l ynowt hatheknowshowi t i r r i t at edme Me: " queenzi st o. . . pl easedon' tst ar twi t hme" Hesqui nt shi sbr owst oget her Qui nt on: " Idon' tl i ket hequeenatt hebegi nni ng oft hatname" Il aughoutl oud Qui nt on: " notf unny " Me: " I ' m sosor r y . . . . y ourHi ghness!" Il aughev enhar der , he' st r y i ngbyal l meanst o keepanangr yf acebutt hegr i ni sj ustst uckon hi m maki nghi ml ooksocut e, t hewayhi sl i ps keepmov i ngt r y i ngt obeangr ybutkeeps smi l i ng Het ur nsandl ooksaway Me: " di dy ounot i cehowqui ckt hatj oke t ur ned? . . . ( l aughi ng) . . . .Damn, If i nal goty ou! " Hepul l st hecov er sov erhi sheadt r y i ngt o i gnor eme. . . ohy eahIwasaboutt ohav ea ser i ousconv er sat i onwi t ht hi sf ool bef or ehe deci dedt ot aket hespot l i ghtal l t ohi msel f ! Me: " Qui nt on? " Hei gnor esme, ohcomeon, hewant smet obeg hi m now, whenhest ar t edi t Me: " oohhhQui i i i i nt ooonn" Si l ence Me: " maQui ni za? " Let ' sseehowhel i kesi t Me: " Qui ni ni zana? " Lol I ' ml aughi ngmyassouti nt hei nsi de! ! Me: " comeonnow. . myQui ncyQui ncy" Icanseet hebl anketshaki ngasi fhe' sl aughi ng Me: " myQui ni ni Qui nunuIl uby ou" Her emov est hebl anketandl ooksatme, he l ooksl i kehe' shi ghashei sl aughi ngsi l ent l y , I can' thel pbutl augh Het r i est ot ur nt of ul l yf aceme, Ihel phi m doso, headj ust shi msel fandpul l smecl oser , It hr ow myl egsov erhi ml et t i nghi sonel eggeti n bet weenmi ne. . . assoonasweni ceandt angl ed up, t hel aughi ngst ops Qui nt on: " nev ercal l mebyanyoft hosenames agai n, wecl ear " Thi si shi m al l ser i ousandt hr eat eni ng Me: " under st ood" Qui nt on: " good" Me: " y ourHi ghness!" Il aughher ol l shi sey esbackandsi ghsshaki ng hi sheadasi fhe' sgi v enuponme Me: " okok. . . I ' l l st op" Qui nt on: " mxm" Me: " y ouseehowi t sl i kewheny oumakef unof meal l t het i me? " Qui nt on( smi r ks) : " i t swaymor ef unwhenIdoi t " Me: " f unf ory ou. . notme" Qui nt on: " butmemaki ngf unofy oui st hegl ue oft hi sr el at i onshi p" Me: " doy ouknowwhatel sei st hegl ue? " Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: MrBbei ngi nsi deMi ssM whi chi snev er happeni ngagai n!" Hi sey eswi den Qui nt on: " okayI ' mj oki ng, heynoneedt omake suchbi gt hr eat snow" Wel augh Me: " ay i Qui nt on!Pl easeshutupnow" Hel ooksatmei ndi sbel i ef Qui nt on: " i y ey eni bo! " Icr ackupathi sr eact i on, Ishoul dst opl aughi ng now, Ir eal l ywantt ohav easer i ousconv er sat i on wi t hhi m! Me( l aughi ng) : " I ' m bei ngf orr eal nowdude" Hechuckl es, It hi nkhecannot i ceIr eal l yneedt o t el l hi m somet hi ng Qui nt on: " okayy oucant al k. . . y ouwer easki ng somet hi ngaboutmagi c? " WowI ' m sur pr i sedhest i l l r emember saf t erso muchdi st r act i on Me: " doy oubel i ev ei ni t ? " Hel ooksatmef orawhi l e Qui nt on: " Idon' tknow, whatki ndofmagi car e y out al ki ngabout ? " Me: " uhm. . ohIdon' tknow. . .Ther eal ki nd, l i ket he onewewat chi nmov i es, l i kef orexampl e mi r r or st hatshowy out hef ut ur e, t i me t r av el , t el epor t at i on, wi zar dsort hest or yy our mom t ol dy ouaboutt hedi amondsbei ngmagi c andal l t hatsor tofst uf f " Heshakeshi shead Qui nt on: " Idon' tbel i ev ei nt hosef abl e i ncant at i ons" Me: " Isomet i mesf or gety ouasci ent i st . . . . y ou don' thav ei magi nat i on" Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " IguessIdobel i ev et her e' sagr eat er f or cet hat ' sbey ondusandIal sor ecent l ycame t obel i ev ei ndar kmagi c, si nceIwasav i ct i m of i t , mymom bei ngt hecul pr i t " Thatwi t ch Me: " okaysoy oubel i ev et her e' sdar kmagi c?" Henods Qui nt on: " Li sa, Isawanot herwomanasy ouand bel i ev edi twasy ou, i t ' shar dnott obel i ev et hat wi t chcr af texi st s, t hesadpar ti sy ourown mot herbei ngt heonewhom makesy oubel i ev e i nsuchev i l . . t hel astper sonIwoul dhav enev er t houghtof , aper sonwhoIt houghtl ov edme mor et hanany onei nt hi swor l dwhowoul ddo any t hi ngf ormebut . . . . . . . " Het r ai l sof f . . despi t et hewhol et oughguyact t owar dshi smot her ' sdoi ngs, he' sr eal l yhur t , t he per sonhet r ust edwi t hhi sl i f ei st heper sonwho want st ot akehi sl i f e. Imov emyf acecl oserandl ayaki ssonhi s f or eheadbef or el ooki ngbacki nt ohi sey es, he smi l es, hepl aceshi shandonmycheekand car essest hesi deofmyf aceashebr ushest he hai rback, whydoIl ov et hi sper sonsomuch? WhydoIf eel sosaf ewhenI ' m wi t hhi m?Why doeshemakemef eel t hi sway ? Me: " doy oubel i ev ei ngoodmagi c?" Qui nt on: " guessI ' l l bel i ev ei tonceIseei t " Me: " doy oubel i ev ei nGod? " Qui nt on: " asIsai d, Ibel i ev et hatt her ei sa gr eat erf or cet hat ' sbey ondus, t hatwat ches ov erus, soy eah, Idobel i ev et her e' saGod, a spi r i t ual f at her , somewher eupt her e" Il aughhehol dsmet i ght er Qui nt on: " what ' swi t ht hemi l l i onquest i ons bub. . somet hi ngbot her i ngy ou? " Isi gh Me: " doy oubel i ev ei nspi nni ngdi amondst hat showy out hef ut ur e?" Hesqui nt shi sey es Qui nt on: " t al kt omeLi sa" Me: " i t sj ust , Ihadadr eam l astni ght " Her unshi sf i nger st hr oughmyhai rwi t hhi sone handwhi l et hei rot heri sar oundmywai st Qui nt on: " goon" Me: " i twast hedi amonds, t heywer espi nni ngi n t heai ri nt hei rgr eengl ow, Iwasst ucki nt he spar er oom upst ai r s, t hent hesamegr eengl ow camef r om myey es, i t sl i ket hegl owi nmyey es at t r act edt hegl owf r om t hedi amondsandt hey somehowconnect ed, i t sl i ket heyhy pnot i zed me, t henr i ghtt her easIwasst ar i ngdeepi nt o t hel i ghtcomi ngf r om t hem, t hat ' swhenIt hi nkI sawt hef ut ur e, I ' m notsur e, butIsawmy sel f heal i ngy ouandy oucoul df i nal l ywal kandmov e ar oundl i kebef or e" Qui nt on: " r eal l y ? " Me: " y eah. . . butt hent hescenechangedand showedmesomet hi ngsoscar y " Qui nt on: " whatwasi t ? " Idon' tknowi fIshoul dt el l hi mt hi s, whati fhe hat esmef orhav i ngsuchdr eamsabouthi s mom Qui nt on: " t el l mebub" Me: " uuhmm. . . . . " Qui nt on: " y ouknowy oucant el l meany t hi ng t hat ' sev er y t hi ngr i ght ? " Me: " Ishoty ourmot her " Hesmi l es Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " Ipoi nt edherwi t hagunandIki l l edher " Hechuckl es Qui nt on: " y oudi dt hat ? " Heemphasest heYOU Me: " i twasj ustadr eam r i ght ? " Qui nt on: " y eah, butaf t erev er y t hi ngshe' sputy ou t hr ought oget herwi t hherl at ehusband, I woul dn' tbesur pr i sedi fy ouwant edt oki l l her " Me: " NoQui nt onI ' dnev erdot hat , Iwoul dn' tev en ki l l mywor stenemy , i t snotupt omet ot ake someone' sl i f e" Qui nt on: " y out oogoodf ory ourowngood. . .Do y ouknowwhatdr ov ey out oki l l i ngher ? " Ishr ug Me: " somet hi ngaboutherki l l i ngmybaby " Qui nt on: " baby ? " Me: " y eah" Qui nt on: " asi nmeorababybaby ? " Ishr ug Si l encef i l l supf orashor twhi l e Qui nt on: " hav ey out houghtofgoi ngt ocheck y our sel fupaf t ert hewhol emnceshscandal ? " Me: . . . . Me: " No. . . Ihav en' t . .Youdon' tt hi nkI ' m pr egnant nowdoy ou? " Qui nt on: " possi bl y , Imeany ouhav egai neda f ewkgs" Me: " ar ey ousay i ngI ' mf at ? " Qui nt on: " No. . buty ouabi tchubbyandy oul ov e j unknowaday s" Me: " y ouknowIonl yeatal otj unkwhenI ' m sad. . . andIwenti nt odepr essi on, soofcauseI waseat i ngunheal t hyoneway , t hat ' st heonl y r easonf ormywei ghtgai n" Qui nt on: " wehav et ogogety ouchecked, j usti n case. . . wer ey ouev enusi ngt hepi l l ? " Myhear tski psabeatasf earov er comesme Me: " No. . . hef or cedmet ost op, andhest opped gi v i ngmemoney , soIcoul dn' tev ensecr et l ybuy t hem, hewasal way sar oundmei ncampusand i fIwasn' ti ncampusIwasathomei ndoor s" Hebr eat hsoutheav i l y Qui nt on: " hebet t erpr ayy ounotpr egnant " Me: " orel se? " Qui nt on: " not hi ng" Il ookathi m car ef ul l yhegi v esmehi sl azysmi l e Me: " I ' l l got ot hecl i ni ct ogett est edt henIgo y onel a' spl acet of et cht hedi amonds" Qui nt on: " doy out hi nkt hedr eam coul dcome t r ue? " Me: " Idon' tknow, i tf el tsor eal " Qui nt on: " y oucan' tl eav emeher eal onet hough" Me: " I ' l l askCandr at ocomeov ert i l l Igetback" Hesi ghssoundi ngbor ed Me: " y oudon' twantCandr a?" Heshakeshi shead Qui nt on: " shecanbei r r i t at i ngatt i mes" Il augh Me: " okayt henI ' l l askAi dan? " Qui nt on: " Hel l no" Me: " t hesexynei ghbour ? " Hel ooksatmeandsmi r ks Ir ai semyey ebr owsathi m Qui nt on: " weeel l l l Iguessi ft hat ' st heonl y opt i onwehav eIcoul d. . . . Me: "mxm I ' ml eav i ngy ouher eal one" Igetupandt hr owmyl egov erhi mt ogetof fat hi ssi debuthehol dsmei nst ead Qui nt on: " I ' mj oki ng. . . . can' ty out akeaj oke Li ss? " Me: " t heonl yj okeher ei sy ou" Hegasps Qui nt on: " ouch. . . t hatwast oodeep. . y ouj ust st abbedmyhear t " Me: " Il ov ey ou" Qui nt on: " getof fme" Me: " okay " Igetupbuthehol dsmeandl ooksatmei n di sbel i ef Qui nt on: " ser i ousl y ?Younotev engoi ngt of i ght f orme? " Me: " uf unaukuncengwakant i ? " ( y ouwantmet o begy ou? ) Qui nt on( babyv oi ce) : " y eah. . . i tmakesmef eel speci al " Il aughathi m asIgetof fandwal kt ot he bat hr oom Me: " i fIent er t ai ny ou. . . I ' l l nev erl eav et hi shouse" Ir unwat eri nt het ubt hencomebackf orhi m, he wasal r eadynakedandsowasIsoIj usthel ped hi m upt ot hebat hr oom andwet ookav er yl ong bat h, Iev enhadt okeepaddi nghotwat erasi t keepsget t i ngcol d. . af t eranhourorsowe deci dedt of i ni shupsi ncewewer est ar i ngt o hav ewr i nkl edski n, i twashar dcar r y i nghi m whi l ewewer ebot hwet , butImanaged, t hi si sa l otofwor kout , somet i mesIhearhi m cr yat ni ght , her eal l yi snott aki ngt hi swhol ebei nga cr i ppl et hi ngwel l , nextweekt hedoct orsai dhe canst ar tphy si ot her apy . Il ot i onanddr esshi m up, hecanputont heshi r t byhi msel f , Ij usthel pwi t hhi sundi esandpant s andshoes, wear enowal l dr essedup Me: " wher ear et hecarkey s? " Qui nt on: " i nt het hatdr awov ert her e" Hepoi nt snextt ot hebed, wel l Igotmyl i cence l astweek, al t houghI ' m notusedt odr i v i ngbut Qui nt onsay sIshoul dgetmy sel fusedt oi t Me: " Gott hem, l et ' sgo" Qui nt on: " ohwel l , seey ounexty earmydear house" Appar ent l yIdr i v ev er ysl ow, ev enat or t oi sei s f ast ert hanme. . sohesay s Me( l aughi ng) : " mxm what ev er " Ir ol l myey esasIpushhi m andwemakeour wayout . . Wemakeourwayi nt hecl i ni c.Whi l eIwasst i l l enj oy i ngQui nt on' sf unnyst or i est hedoct orcal l s meup Me: " I ' l l ber i ghtback, y ou' l l wai ther eokay ? " Qui nt on: " whyy out al ki ngt omeasi fI ' ma baby ? " Il augh Me( babyv oi ce) : " t hat ' sbecausey oumybhabha" Hebl usheswi t hahugegr i nbl i nki ngr epeat edl y wi t hhi sheadt i l t edt ot hesi de. . . okayhe' san i di ot , i t sbeenpr ov en Il aughandpeckhi sl i pst henf ol l owt hedoct or Doc: " y oumayt akeaseat " Me: " t hanky ou" Doc: " sohowcanIhel py oubeaut i f ul " Me: " I ' dl i ket odoabl oodt est st ocheckmy st at usandapr egnancyt est " Doc: " t hatcoul dbear r anged" Hewr i t essomet hi ngdown ThendoeswhatIaskedf r om hi m heal sodi dan ul t r asound Doc: " Igoty ourr esul t sback, buty ougonnahav e t ocomebackt omor r owf ory ourst at us" Inod, hel ooksatt hepi eceofpaperwi t ht he r esul t s Doc: " wel l , y ounotpr egnant" Isi ghi nr el i ef Me: " t hankGod" Hesmi l esf ai nt l y Me: " somet hi ngwr ong? " Doc: " y es" Me: " whati si t ? " Doc: " y oumi ghtnotbeabl et ohav echi l dr enat al l i nf ut ur e" Myhear tl i t er al l yst opsf oraf ewseconds Doc: " Mi ssMt het hwa?Ar ey ouokay ? " Il ookupathi m Me: " atal l ? " Doc: " t her e' sav er yl owpossi bi l i t y . .20%chance may be, y ourwombi sscar ce" Me: " whawhawhat ? " Doc: " i tmi ghtbecausebysomet hi ngy ou' v e eat enorr oughsexcanal sodamagey ourcer v i x, andwi t habr ui sedordamagedcer v i xi t ' l l be r eal l yhar dt ocar r yachi l d" Hi swor dshi thome, IknowIwashappyI ' m not pr egnant , t hat ' sbecauseI ' m st i l l t oy oungt o hav echi l dr en. . .Butt hatdoesn' tmeanIdon' t ev erwantt ohav echi l dr enofmyown, whyLor d? Me: " okay . . . " Igetup Me: " t hanks" Hel ooksatmewi t hpi t y Doc: " don' tf or gett ocomebackt omor r ow" Inodandwal koutt owar dsQui nt on Qui nt on: " i t saboutdamnt i me, whatt ooky ouso l ong? " Ishakemyheadandpushhi mt ot hecar , we dr i v ei nsi l encet i l l wegett oYonel a' spl ace, I at t emptt ogetoutbuthehol dsmyhand, Il ook athi m Qui nt on: " bef or ewegoi nsi de, Iwanty out ot el l mewhat ' seat i ngy ou?I si tsomet hi ngt he doct orsai d?Ohgod. . ar ey oupr egnant ? " If eel t ear st hr eat eni ngasIshakemyhead Me: " No" Hel ooksatmeconf used Qui nt on: " i st hatabadt hi ng? " Me( t ear y ) : " No" Qui nt on: " t henwhyar ey ousad? " Me: " I ' mf i neQui nt onl et ' sgogett hedi amonds al r eady" Hel et ' sgoofmyhand Qui nt on: " okay . . . I ' l l wai ther e" Iwal koutasf astasIcanwi t hmyheav yhear t , l eav i nghi mi nt hecar [ 07/ 30, 13: 16]Ron: I nser t48 LI SA ( Shor t ) Bel l a: " t hati sawei r ddr eam, t hat ' showt he di amondswi l l wor kandt hat ' showy ou' l l seet he f ut ur e" Me: " but . . t hat ' sj ustsounr eal " Bel l a: " Iknowbutt hat ' sj usthowi ti s" Me: " whataboutt hev i si onsi tshowedme, do y out hi nkt heyt r ue? " Bel l a: " Yes. . y ourv i si onsnev erl i e, i t sei t hery ou' l l cont i nuedr eami ngabouty ourv i si onsorhowi t happenedi nt hedr eam i showy ouwi l l doi ti n r eal l i f e" Me: " whataboutheal i ngQui nt on, I ' m notqui et sur ehowIdi di t " Bel l a: " Li sai t sj ustasi mpl et ouch, byy our heal i nghandsandapur ehear t " Me: " howIhat et hat . . pur ehear tst or y , howam I supposedt ohav eapur ehear twheni t const ant l yget shur tl i ket hi s? " Bel l a: " y oual mostt her e, t hedr eam wasast ar t " Isi gh Me: " whyar eal l t heset hi ngshappeni ngt o someonewho' ssupposedt ohav epur e hear t . . . how' st hehear tsupposedt obepur e? Howam Isupposedt omov eon?I ' m st ar t i ngt o doubti ft her e' sev enaGod" Shehol dsherchest Bel l a: " don' tev erdoubthi spr esence, ev er ! . Li sa y ouneedt ohav ef ai t hi nhi m especi al l yi nt i mes l i ket hi s, y ounotgoi ngt hr oughsomuchpai nf or not hi ng, t hi si sy ourf ai t hbei ngt est ed, y ouneed t obel i ev e, har dert hanev erbef or e, t hedev i l nev ergi v esup, y ethe' ssoweak, t heonl yt hi ng t hatmakeshi m st r onghi sy ou, bygi v i ngupand doubt i ngGod' spr esence. . . don' tl ethi m wi n Li sa, Godpl acedt hi sgi f ti ny ouf ora r eason, t her e' sar easony ougoi ngt hr oughwhat y ougoi ngt hr ough. . .Godl ov esy ouLi sa, he l ov esy ousomuchandt hat ' swhyhe' schosen y out ocar r yt hi swonder f ul gi f t , t hegi f tof heal i ngt hesameheal i nghegav ehi soneand onl ysonJesusChr i st . . . GohomeandPr ayLi sa, goar oundt hehouseshout i nghi snamel ett he dev i l heary oul ethi m knowwho' si nchar ge, t el l hi m hi snotwel come, f i ndanempt yspacey our ownpr ay i ngr oom wher ey ou' l l pr ayandpour outy ourhear tt oy ourf at her , i nv ol v eQui nt on, pr ayt oget her . . .You' l l see, ev er y t hi ngwi l l st ar t maki ngsense" Herwor dsr eachedt hedeepestpar t sofmy hear t Somet hi ngwi t hi nmemov edgi v i ngme goosebumps Bel l a: " y ouf el tt hat ? " Inod Bel l a: " hel i v eswi t hi ny ouLi sa, t hatl i t t l ef ai t h t hatwasshakeni ny our i ghtnow, i st hef ai t h t hatneedt obewakenup, seekt heLor d, i nhi s wor d, al l wi l l ber ev eal ed" Me( si ghs) : " t hel or dhuh? " Bel l a: " ar ey oubor nagai n? " Me: " y es, whenIwast hi r t een, gr amsl i kedt aki ng met ochur chwi t hher , butatt hatt i meIwasj ust goi ngt ot hef r ontcauset hepast orwasr eal l y per si st entandIf el tsomesor tofpr essur eand gui l tofbei ngi nchur chbutnotaccept i ngt he Jesusasmysav i our , andt hewhol e, ' i fy oushy ofhi m he' l l al sobeshyofy oui nf r ontofhi s f at her ' t hatscar edmeandt hest or i esabout hel l " Bel l a: " y est hatwast hef ai t hi ny out hatpushed y ou, t hatl i t t l ev oi cei ny ourhear tt hatgav ey ou pr essur e, t el l i ngy out ogot ot hef r ontand conf essy oursi ns, t hatwasGod. . . butnowt hat y ouol denough, y ouhav et ol i v eupt oy our sal v at i on, andpr ay , f asti fy ouhav et o, dot hi s andy oumi ghtnotev enneedmyhel pany mor e" Il ookatherwi t hmyey ebr owsr ai sedup Me: " whataboutwhatIsaw?Meki l l i ng Qui nt on' smom?Cant hef ut ur ebechanged? " Bel l a: " apr ophecycannotbef al se, buti tcan change, i nawayt hatwhaty ousawwi l l st i l l happennomat t erwhatbutwon' thappent he exactwayy ousawi t . . . butt hosear er ar ecases" Me: " Iknowy oual sooncesai dy ouf or esee bl oodi nmyhands. ..Idon' twantbl oodi nmy handsBel l a" Bel l a: " Iknow, ev er y t hi ngwi l l becl earwi t h t i me, somet i mesy ourv i si onscanchange" Isi gh Me: " y ouknowt woday sagoIj ustf oundoutI won' tbeabl et ohav echi l dr en" Bel l a( shocked) : " what ? " Me: " y eah. . appar ent l ymycer v i xi sbr ui sedwhi ch wi l l makei thar dal mosti mpossi bl ef ormet o beabl et ocar r yababy " Shel ooksatmewi t hpi t y Bel l a: " I ' m sor r yt oheart hat , Ir eal l yam" Me: " cany ouper hapspeepi nt ot hef ut ur ef or me?Seei ft hi si sal l al i e, t hatIwi l l hav echi l dr en someday " Shesmi l esf ai nt l y Bel l a: " I ' m af r ai dIcan' tdot hat , y ousee, Ican' t cont r ol myv i si ons, t heycomet omenat ur al l y . . . . Unl i key ou, oncey ouabl et ouset hedi amonds y oucanbeabl et ol ooki nt ot hef ut ur eany t i me y ouwant , butnotev er y t hi ngwi l l beshownt o y ou, somet i mesy ouwon' tseeany t hi ngatal l " Me: " soy oudon' tknowwhet herI ' l l ev erhav e chi l dr en?" Bel l a: " No" Si l encef i l l st her oom Bel l a: " f or gi v ebaby , pr ay , y ouwayst r ongert han y out hi nk" Il ookatherf orawhi l e, i t sal l t ooeasyt osay butnotaseasyt odo Me( si ghs) : " l etmegetgoi ng, Il ef tQui nt onwi t h t hephy si ot her api st , Iaskedhert onotl eav e bef or eIcomeback" Shesmi l es Bel l a: " y ourl ov ef orQui nt oni st oost r ong, I r especti tal ot , buty ' al l f i ghtal ot , communi cat i oni sweak, y ' al l needGod, hewi l l st i l l messup, pr ayf orhi m, he' snotast r ong bel i ev ert oo, y ou' l l hav et oconv i ncehi mt opr ay wi t hy ousomehow" Me: " he' l l st i l l messup?Ohno!Iwon' tbeabl et o t akei tBel l a, I ' l l di et r ustme" Bel l a: " y ou' l l sur v i v eLi sa. . he' shumanhe' l l mess upatt i mesandsowi l l y ou, y ' al l j usthav et o f i ghtagai nsti tal l l i kehowy ' al l hav edoneso f ar " Me: " Qui nt ondoesn' tev enbel i ev ei nal l t hese t hi ngs, ev enwhenIt r i edt ogethi mt ogetused t opr ay i ngwhi l ehi smom wasi nhospi t al , he onl ydi di tf ort hr eeday st henaf t ert hatIwas pr ay i ngal one" Bel l a: " Idon' tknowhowy ou' l l doi t , butIbel i ev e y ouwi l l " Ishakemyhead Me: " t hi si sj ustt oomuch, whycoul dn' tuni v er se j ustl etusst ayf r i ends?" Shechuckl es Bel l a: " It ol dy out hef r i endshi py ouwer et r y i ng won' tl ast " Idon' tknowhowbutIl augh Me: " cany oubel i ev ewegotbackt oget herwi t h anar gument ? " Shel aughs Bel l a: " y out woar esocut et hough" Me: " Bel l a?" Bel l a: " y es? " Me: " howdoImakeQui nt onst ophi sshady busi nesses? " Bel l a: " j ustt al kt ohi m, t her esti supt ohi m" Il ookatt het i me Me: " woul dy oul ookatt hat , i t ' sal mostdi nner t i me, l etmegonowbef or esomeoneget sal l gr umpyonme" Shel aughs Bel l a: " Ishoul dal sost ar twi t ht hepot s, hubby wi l l behomeanymi nut enow" Me: " sor r yf ordel ay i ngy ou" Bel l a: " ohpl ease, don' tev en, wehadal i t t l ef i ght , I shoul dn' tev enbecooki ngf orhi m, butt hegood i nmecan' tbr i ngmet opuni shhi m wi t hhunger " Il augh Me: " wow, y out ooki ndf ory ourowngoodBel l a. . . Atl eastt her e' smor et hanonewayofst ar v at i on " Iwi nkathershebur sti nt ol aught er Bel l a: " getoutofmyhousey ounaught y chi l d! . . f i r e! " Me( l aughi ng) : " by eBel l s. . . . consi dermy puni shmentt hough" IshoutasImakemywayt ot hecar Shewav esatmel aughi ng Wel l I ' m dr i v i ngQui nt on' sgol f , i t ssool dIhav e t ost ar ti tt wi cebef or ei tst ar t st henIhav et o wai tatl eastf i v emi nut est owar mi tupbef or eI hi tt her oad " Honeey yI ' m home! ! " IshoutasImakemywayi nsi det hehouse " I nt hel ounge! ! " Iwal kt owar dst hel oungeandf i ndhi ml y i nghi s whol ebodyont hecouchwat chi ngTV Iwal kupt ohi m andpeckhi sl i ps Me: " heyl ov e" Qui nt on: " i st hi st het i met ocomebackhome? " Ei shMrgr umpyi sawake Me: " comeoni t snotev enhal fpastsi x" Qui nt on: " i t sst i l l pastsi x. .Youst i l l goi ngt o cookf oranot herhourwhi chmeanssupperwi l l ber eadybysomet hi ngt oei ght , t henwe' l l eat af t erei ght ? " Me( l aughs) : " Iseey ougoti tal l cal cul at ed? " Hel ooksatmewi t ht he' don' tmesswi t hme' l ook Ii mmedi at el yst opl aughi ng Me: " okay , I ' m sor r y , l et ' sor deri nt oni ght , pl ease" Qui nt on: " y oucomehomel at e. . nowy ouwantt o f eedmej unk? " Me( smi r ks) : " ohcomeon. . . Iknowy ouwanti t ? " Hel ooksaway , wi t ht hathi ddensmi l et hatonl yI cansee Qui nt on: " what ev erLi sakhany aMt het hwa" Yooohhev ensur name! Me: " wher e' st het her api st ?" Qui nt on: " Isentherhome, t hepoorgi r l was wor r i edt hati twasget t i ngl at e, wor r i edabout herr esponsi bi l i t i es. .Unl i kesomepeopl eIknow whodon' thav eoneoft hose" Me: " ohcomeon, don' tbel i ket hat " Qui nt on: " mxm" It hr owmyl egsov erhi m andsi tonhi m Me: " undnxamel engoku? " ( y oumadatmenow? ) Qui nt on: " getof fme" Il aymybodyonhi m, Il i kebei ngal l ov erhi m whenhe' smad Me: " pl easedon' tbemadatmel ov ebug" Qui nt on: " j ustl eav emeal one. . l i kehowy oudi d f orawhol ef ourhour s" Me: " No!I ' m notl eav i ngy ouunt i l y oul augh" Qui nt on: " haha. . . nowgetof fme" Il augh, wast hatsupposedt obeaf akel augh? Soundedl i kehewasbr eat hi ngout Me: " comeonmyQueenzi st o. . y ourml i zi st o needsy oucheer f ul " Iseehi sser i ousf acesl owl yv ani shi ng, Iknow hewant st ol aughsobad Me: " don' tmakemet i ckl ey ouQui nny . . . y ouknow y ougi ggl el i keagi r l " Hel ooksatme Qui nt on: " y ouwoul dn' tdar e" Ipl acemyhandsunderhi sar mpi t s Me: " i st hatadar e? " Qui nt on( war ni ngl y ) : " don' tdoi tLi sa" Imov emyf i nger st i ckl i nghi m, hemov esar ound t r y i ngt ost opmewhi l ehol di ngi nhi sl augh Me: " l augh! " Heshakeshi sheadwi t hhi sl i psf ol ded It i ckl ehi m al l ov erhi schestandt ummyhe bur st si nt ol aught ermor el i kegi ggl es, Iknow, i t s wei r dhegi ggl esbuti tsoundssocut eand f unnywi t hhi sdeepv oi ce Qui nt on( gi ggl i ng) : " St opi tLi sa! ! " Bef or eIknowi tI ' mt heonebei ngt i ckl ed, Imov e ar oundbur y i ngmyf aceonhi schest Me( l aughi ng) : " Q! ! !I ' m gonnapeemy sel f ! ! ! St op! ! ! " Hest ops, webot houtofbr eat hwi t hl aught er Qui nt on: " nev ert i ckl emeagai nLi sa" Me: " nev erbeanol dgr umpygr andpaagai n Qui nt on" Qui nt on: " j ustgety oursexyasst ot heki t chen andcookf ory ourman" If r own Me: " butIt houghtwewer eor der i ng?" Qui nt on: " si nceIcan' tf ucky ousensel essl y . . . Youpuni shmenti st ocook. .AndIwantasev en cour semeal wi t hsev encol our s. . . .ahome mademi l kt ar tandi cecr eam f ordeser t " Heget smeof fhi m Qui nt on: " Iwanti tr eadyandt ast ywi t hi nan hour . . sogetmov i ngwoman!Chopchop! " Il ookathi m asi fhe' sj ustl osthi smi nd, t hat ' s becausehehas! Me: " debonai r swi l l beher ei nt went ymi nut es wi t hy ouror der " Iswaymysexyasst ot her oom sot hatI f r eshenup, I ' ml eav i ngwi t hacr azyboneheaded t wi t, Ican' tdeal ! ! [ 07/ 30, 13: 16]Ron: I nser t49 LI SA THREEMONTHSLATER Me: " NoQ, I ' mt i r ednow. . . getsat i sf i edman! " Qui nt on: " I ' m sat i sf i ed. . . butIcan' tgetenoughof y ou" Me: " YohQ. . I ' m st i l l t r y i ngt ocat chmybr eat he" Het ur nhi sbodyt of aceme, si ncet hepai non hi swombi sgonenowhecanmov ehi sbody ar ound, i t sj usthi sl egst hatar enumb pr ev ent i nghi mf r om wal ki ngorst andi ngonhi s own, al t houghhecan' tmov eal otl i ket or each t hi ngst hatar ef arori nsomeangel shecan' t uset omov e, i tdepends. . . ev ersi nceIt al kedt o Bel l al astweekIhav en' tev ent r i edpr ay i ng, I don' tknowwhy , Ij ustdon' tbel i ev e, I ' v ebeen av oi di ngt hedi amondsandt heur geIgetof checki ngont hem ev er yhour , i t sl i keIget wor r i edaboutt hem al way sf eel i ngt heneedt o checkupont hem, butIav oi di t Qui nt on: " y ourmi ndseemsf ar ? " It akemyey esof ft hecei l i ngandl ookathi m Me: " weshoul dst ar tpr ay i ng" Hel aughs. . okayhe' sr eal l yl aughi ngl i keIj ust cr ackedaj oke?What ' supwi t hpeopl el aughi ng atmeev enwhenI ' m ser i ous?DoIhav eaMr Beanf aceper haps? Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r y "hesay si nbet weenhi sl augh " Idi dn' tmeant ol augh, i t sj ustt hewayy ousai d t hat . . . unexpect ed" Hecat cheshi sbr eat handgai nsbackhi s composur e Me: " wel l asIwassay i ng. . .bef or eIwasr udel y i nt er r upt ed. . .( Iey ehi m) . . . weshoul dst ar t pr ay i ng" If eel hi ml ooki ngatmeasIf i ndmor ei nt er est att hebeaut i f ul cei l i ng Qui nt on: " whyt hough? " If r ownl ooki ngathi m Me: " whatdoy oumeanwhy ? " Qui nt on: " causewewer en' tpr ay i ngbef or e. . . why t hesuddeni nt er est ?" Me: " because, weneedt o, weneedt hebl essi ngs andpr ot ect i on" Qui nt on: " I ' v egoty ou, y oual l t hebl essi ngsI need. . . . Icanpr ot ecty ou" Isi gh Me: " y oucan' tpr ot ectusf r om ev er y t hi ngQ" Hef r ownst henl ooksawayf r om me Qui nt on: " Icanpr ot ecty ouLi sa" Me: " Iknow. . . butweal soneedGod" Hegoesmut eonmef oral i t t l ewhi l e Qui nt on: " i si tbecauseI ' m acr i ppl enow?I st hat whyy oudon' tt r ustIcanpr ot ecty ou? " Il ookathi mi n Me: " ofcausenotQui nt on. . .Iknowy oucan pr ot ectme, butI ' mj ustsay i ng. . . . Qui nt on: "sav ei tLi sa, y oudon' thav et ol i et o pr ot ectmyf eel i ngs, IknowI ' m usel essnow, I can' tsat i sf yy oui nbedl i kebef or e, Iknowi t s t i r i ngf ory out oal way sbeont op, Ican' thel p y ouar oundt hehousewi t hheav yt hi ngs any mor e, Idon' tt akey ououtmuch, y ouhav et o car r ymeal l t het i me, y oudoev er y t hi ngal one andIj ustsi tar oundal l dayandsl av ey ou ar ound. .Ev eni fwewer et ober obbedr i ghtnow t her e' dbenouseofme, i t st hesameasi fy ou al one, I ' m nott hesameper sonIwas. . . Ican' tdo t het hi ngsweusedt odot oget her . .Usel ess bast ur d" Myhear tbr eaksatt heuseofhi swor dsashe t ot al l yt akest hi swhol et hi ngt hewr ongway Me: " Qui nt on, t hat ' snotcl oset owhatI meant , j ustal otoft hi ngshav ebeengoi ng on, badt hi ngs, t ous, Ij ustf eel l i keweneedGod' s pr esence, weneedhi mt opr o. . . Qui nt on: " what ev erLi sa. . . Youcangopr ayt o y oural l sopower f ul God" I ' mi nt ot al shock. .Idi dn' texceptt hat Me: " ar en' ty ougoi ngt obepr ay i ngwi t hme? " Qui nt on: " t owho? " Me: " God" Qui nt on: " whi chone? " Me: " t heonei nheav en. . t heonewhogav euphi s onl ysonJesus, f ory ou" Qui nt on: " why ? " Me: " becausehel ov esy ou" Qui nt on: " i st hatwhyIwasshot ?Becausehe l ov esme? " Me: " don' tsay . . . Qui nt on: " i st hatwhymyownbl oodmot her bewi t chedme?Becausehel ov esme?Whyy ou wer ef or cedt ogetmar r i ed. . . t oar api st ? Becausehel ov esy ousomuch?That ' swhyI wasbor nbyamur der er ?Becausehel ov esme? I st hatwhywhenev erwef i nal l yhappy somet hi ngal way scomesbet weenus?That ' s whywef i ghtsoeasi l ymor et hanwel augh, t hat ' swhyI ' m acr i ppl eandnotabl et owal kon myown, myl i f ei sonst andst i l l . . . . . i st hi show y ourGodshowshi sl ov e?Whydi dheev enl et hi si nnocentsondi e?I fhel ov edhi m so much. . . f orus?Psshbuther ewear et hewor l di s st i l l f ul l ofcr uel t y , mur der er s, cheat er s, backst abber s, gr eed, andwi t ches. . . I don' tseet her easont opr ai set hi si nv i si bl e man" Me: " butQui nt on. . . i fwepr ay , y ou' l l see, hedoes exi st , hewon' tshowhi msel fi fy oudon' tseek hi m. . . . y ouhav et obel i ev eandnev erl oose f ai t h, he' l l f l our i shy ouwi t hhi sev er l ast i ng l ov e. . . . . pl easel ov e. . l et ' st r yandseehowt hi ngs wi l l wor kout ? " Hei gnor esme, Isweart her e' ssomet hi ngabout t hatcei l i ngt hatf asci nat esus, causehe' s l ooki ngupati t Me: " pl easemyl ov e. . . . pr aywi t hme" Heshakeshi shead Me: " r ememberhowweusedt opr ayf ory our mot her . . andj ustl i ket hatwhent her ewasno hope, shel i v ed" Qui nt on: " y eah. . . . whydi dhesav eher ?Togi v e herachancet ousewi t chcr af tonmeandt r yt o ki l l me?I st hatwhyhegav eherasecond chance? " OhGod. . t hi sconv er sat i oni snotgoi ng any wher e, Ican' tf or cehi mt obel i ev e Me: " I ' m sor r yf orev er ybadt hi ngt hat ' sev er happenedi ny ourl i f e, buty oucan' tf eel sor r yf or y our sel ff or ev er , y ouneedt ogetupanddo somet hi ngabouti t , t her e' speopl ewhower e bor nwi t hnol egsbutt heyv er yf ari nl i f et han mostpeopl ewhohav eev er ypar toft hei rbody " Qui nt on: " i t seasyf ory out osay . . y ounott he onewhycan' tusey ourl egs, soy oubet t erkeep y ouradv i cet oy our sel funt i l y ouf eel t hepai n t hatIf eel unt i l y ougot hr ought hesame t hi ng. . . . sopl easedon' tt el l meaboutot her peopl ewho' v ewentf ar . .WasIbor nwi t hno l egs? . . t hi si snotsomet hi ngIgr ewupwi t hand camet oaccepti t , someoneoutt her edi dt hi st o me, someoneI ' l l getmyhandsonandt each t hem al essont hey ' l l nev erf or getandseehow heorshewi l l l i kei tt obeacr i ppl e" Me: " Qui nt on. . y ouneedt of or gi v eandmov e on, r ev engei snott heanswer " Qui nt on: " r ev engei sal way st heanswerl i ss. . . . i t s af ast erpr ocessofkar ma" Me: " Idon' tl i kei twheny out al kl i ket hi s" Qui nt on: " Li saIt ol dy ouwhatIdo, howmy f at her ' sbusi nessesr un, howIdeal wi t h enemi es, y ether ey ouar e, It ol dy ouhowIdeal t wi t hy ourexhusband, y oudi dn' tseem t ohav ea pr obl em wi t hi t , why ?Causei tf el tgoodknowi ng hegotwhathedeser v edr i ght ? " Me: " y eah. . but . . Qui nt on: " Nobut sLi sa. . . t hat ' st hewayI am, don' tt r yt ochangeme, y ourpar ent s gr oomedy out obet hewayy ouar et odayand t hewayy ouwer egr oomedi st heonl ywayy ou knowi saccept abl e. . .Iwasgr oomedt obet hi s wayt oo, t hi si st hewayI ' v eaccept edIam, t hi si s t heonl ywayIcan be. . . God. . . Jesus. . . Chr i st i ani t y . . pr ay er . . t hat ' snot i nav ocabul ar yf oraper sonl i keme. . sol et ' snot t al kaboutpr ay erorGodagai n" Isi tuponmybut t Me: " Qui nt on, I ' m aChr i st i an, y oucan' texpect met onotev ert al kaboutGod" Qui nt on: " i t sf i neLi sa, I ' m notsay i ngst opbei ng aChr i st i anandpr ay i ngandal l t hat . . al l I ' m say i ngi sdon' ti nv ol v eme" ButIneedy ou, Iwanty out ohel pmef i nd my sel f , mygi f tl ay si nt hehandsofGod. . . Ineed y oursuppor tQui nt on, pl easeatl easthol dmy handasIt r yt of i gur ei tout Me: " t hat ' sokay . . . y oudon' thav et ogeti nv ol v ed, I ' m notgoi ngt ochangey ou" Hel ooksatmeandsmi l es Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r yIcan' tbet heper sony ou wantmet obe" Me: " No. . no, y ouar eper f ectj ustt hewayy ouar e, changi ngy oui snotwhatIwast r y i ngt odo. . . I l ov ey ouj ustt hewayy ouar e" Hesear chesdeepi nt omyey esf orawhi l e Qui nt on: " t hanky ou" Asmi l ecr eepsonmyf ace, i t st hewayhe' s l ooki ngatme, hechangedf r om ser i oust ot hat naught yl ook Qui nt on: " nowki ssme" Isawt hatonecomi ng, Imov ecl oserandpeck hi sl i psbuthedeci dest opul l myl i psucki ngme backi nt ohi sl i psandweshar eadeeperki sst i l l Ipul l out Me: " l et ' sgof r eshenup" Qui nt on: " y eahandbr ushy ourt eet ht oo" Igasp. . hequi ckl yl ooksatme Qui nt on: " Imeanour . . . . andbr ushourt eet h t oo. . nott haty ourbr eat hest i nksorany t hi ngl i ke t hatNooo" Me: " shutupQui nt on" Qui nt on: " Yesl ov e" Hesay sobey i ngme, Igor unwat erf orust o bat ht hencar r yhi mt ot het ub, he' sget t i ng heav i erev er y day , Idon' tknowhowmanyt i mes hav eIbeencl oset odr oppi nghi m, wenowi nt he bat ht ub I ' ml y i ngonmyback, hehashi sbackagai nst mewhi l esi t t i ngi nbet weenmyl egs, I ' m pl ay i ng wi t hhi scur l yshor tai r , pl aci ngt hebubbl esi na mount ai nf or m onhi shai r Qui nt on: " bub? " Me: " l ov e? " Qui nt on: " doy ouev erwantt ogetmar r i ed agai n? " Wher edi dt hatcomef r om? Iwr apmyar mshi sneckt henr ubhi sabs Me: " uhm. . Idon' tknow. . . " Ir eal l ydon' t Her emai nsqui etf orawhi l e Qui nt on: " mmmh" Me: " whydoy ouask? " Qui nt on: " j ustaski ng" Me: " mmmh" Qui nt on: " doy out hi nky ou' l l ev erknow? " Me: " I .Idon' tknow" Qui nt on( chuckl es) : " whatdoy ouknow? " Il augh Me: " Idon' tknow" Qui nt on: " Il ov ey ouLi sa" Me: " aawwIknow" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " atl eastt her e' ssomet hi ngy ouknow" Me: " what ev er " Wer emai nqui et Qui nt on: " Iwantt ospendt her estofmyl i f ewi t h y ou" Me( chuckl es) : " y oudon' twannadot hat " Het ur nshi sheadbackbutcan' tf ul l yf aceme Qui nt on: " whynot ? " Me: " t r ustme. . y ouj ustdon' t" Qui nt on: " ofcauseIdo. . . y ouknowy out heonl y per sonwho' st aughtmehowt ol ov e, y ouknowI can' tl ov eany oneel se. . . sowhatwoul dst opme f r om spendi ngt her estofmyl i f ewi t hy ou?" Me: " wel l we' l l hav et ogetmar r i edt odot hat " Qui nt on: " ofcause. . Iknowt hat. . butwest i l l hav et i me, sowedon' thav et or ushi t . . i t ' l l happenwhent het i mei sr i ght , bi ti twi l l happen" I fIwer eanyot hernor mal gi r l wi t hanor mal l i f e andnotcur sedI ' dbet hr i l l edt ohav et hi s conv er sat i on Me: " butt henmar r i edpeopl est ar taf ami l y " Qui nt on( Chuckl es) : " Iwoul dn' twantany one el set ost ar taf ami l ywi t hbuty ou. . Icanj ust i magi ne, myl i t t l emenr unni ngal l ov erour houseandbr eaki ngt hi ngsandst r essi ngy ou out " Hel aughs Me: " y ouwantki ds? " Qui nt on: " duh. . . abunchoft hem, Iwantt wo soccert eams, somay bet went yf our , sobuby ou bet t ergetr eadyf orawhol el otofbedr oom wor kout " Me: " t went yf our ! ?Youmustbecr azy " Qui nt on: " cr azyabouty ou, y eah" If eel myhear tbei ngsquashed, Iwi l l nev erbe abl et of ul f i l l hi swi shes, I ' l l nev erbegood enough, I ' m apat het i cexcuseofawoman Me: " whati fIdon' twantki ds? " Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " whati fIj ustdon' twantt oev erhav eki ds? " Qui nt on: " t henI ' dsayy ououtofy ourmi nd" Ir emai nqui et Qui nt on: " wai t . . . ar ey ouser i ous? " Me: " y eah" Qui nt on: " butwhy ?You' dmakeagr eatmot her t obeaut i f ul chi l dr en. .Justi magi ney ourj eans mi xedwi t hmi ne. . damnwe' dmakewor l dsmost cut ebabi es" Me: " pl easest op" Qui nt on: " f orr eal , Icanj usti magi ney ouwi t ha huget ummyhav i ngt hosecr azycr av i ngs, y our hor mones.. . . . . Me: "STOP! . . . j ustshutup! " Hemov esf r om meandsi t sup, Ist andupand getof ft het ubasImakemywayt ot her oom l eav i nghi mt her e " Li sa! " Ii gnor ehi m, It hr owmy sel font hebedand bur sti nt ot ear s, If eel l i kemychesti s suf f ocat i ngmyhear tmaki ngi tdi f f i cul tf orme t obr eat h " Li sa!I ' m sor r y ! " Ii gnor ehi m, f oral ongwhi l ej ustbur y i ngmy f aceont hepi l l ow " Li sa. . . t hewat eri scol d. . pl easebub! " Iheart hesadnessi nhi sv oi ce, I ' mt i r ed, Idon' t knowwhyI ' m her e, Ican' tgetany t hi ngr i ght wi t hmyl i f e, Ican' tf i gur eoutmygi f t , Ican' t conv i ncemymant ochangehi sway s, Ican' t mar r yhi m becauseIcan' tbar ehi m chi l dr en, t he exci t ementi nhi sv oi cewhenhet al ksaboutour f ut ur ej ustpar al y si sme " Li sa!Pl ease!I ' mf r eezi ng" Icomebackt omysensesasIr eal i sewhatI j ustdone Ir unt ot hebat hr oom andf i ndhi ml y i ngt her ei n t hewat ershaki nghi smout ht r embl i ng Qui nt on: " pl . . pl easegetmeoutof her e. . . pl ease. , . . . i t ssocol d" Me: " ohmygosh! !Whathav eIdone! " Ir unt ot het ubandopent hest opperf ort he wat ert or unout , It akeabi gt owel andwr aphi m wi t hi tt henhel phi m outoft het ubasIcar r y hi mt ot her oom, Il ot i onhi m wi t hVasel i neso t hati tcangethi m war m qui cker , Idr esshi m up andt uckhi mi nbed, wehav en' tsai dawor dt o eachot her Me: " I ' l l gomakey ouacupoft ea, cof f eeorhot coco? " Hei gnor esme, hekeepssni f f i ng, hemust ' v e caughtt hecol d Iwal kupt ot hebednextt ohi m Me: " I ' m sosor r yQ. .Thatwassosel f i shandso v er ycr uel ofme, pl easef or gi v eme" Hel ooksawayf r om me Me: " Qui nt on. . . I ' m sor r y , pl ease. . . . I ' m sosor r y" Qui nt on: " i t sokay " Me: " Noi t snot . . . Ij ustl ef ty out her e, Il ety ou f r eezei nt hatcol dwat er " Qui nt on: " l eti tgoLi sa. . i t ' sf i ne" Isi ghknowi ngv er ywel l t hatt hi si snotf i ne, i t ' l l nev erbef i ne, whatki ndofper sonam I?Ij ust madei twor set ot hef actt hathe' sal r eady t r aumat i zedbybei ngacr i ppl e, nowher eIam t r eat i nghi ml i ket r ash Me: " I ' l l gomakey out ea? " Henods Qui nt on: " y eahwhat ev er " If eel t ear satt hev er geasImakemywayoutt o t heki t chendownst ai r sandmakehi m hi scup oft ea. .Thi nki ngabouthowuni v er sei ssocr uel t ome, t ot al l yf or get t i ngt hatQui nt oni sal sonot athi sbest , heneedsme, Ikeept el l i nghi mt o st opf eel i ngsor r yf orhi msel fy ether eIam busy f eel i ngsor r yf ormy sel f , l eav i nghi mt of r eezet o deat h, whatki ndofper sonam I ! Thedoorbel l r i ngs, asIwasaboutt ot akea st epupt hest ai r s, It ur nt oat t endt hedoor , who coul di tbe?Pr obabl yCl y de, he' sbeencomi ng her eal otl at el yorAi dan? Iopent hedoorandourey esi nst ant l yl ock " HeyLi zzy " Mybl ooddr opsi nst ant l y , whyi ssheher e? " Ar en' ty ougoi ngt ol etmei n? " Myey esdr opt ohert ummy , shepushesmeout t hewayandmakesherwayi nsi de " OhI ' dal sol i keacupt hanks. . whi l ey ouati t pl easel etAmbr oseknowI ' m back" . . Tobecont i nued [ 07/ 30, 13: 17]Ron: Cont i nuat i on LI SA Me: " whatar ey oudoi ngher e?Younot wel come" Sy dney : " IknowI ' m notwel come, butQui nt on' s babysur ei s, socany oubeagoodl i t t l egi r l and cal l hi mf orme" Me: " j ustcausey oucar r y i nghi sbabydoesn' t meany oucanj ustpopupi nher euni nv i t ed wi t houtannounci ngwi t husf i r st " Shel aughs Sy dney : " US! ?L. O. Ldon' tmakemel augh pl ease, y ouar enotpar toft hi spr egnancy , t hi si s bet weenQui nt onandIt hepar ent s, soy oust i l l a l i t t l egi r l Idon' texpecty out ounder st and" Me: " what ev ery oucameher et ot r yandachi ev e, i t snotgoi ngt owor k" Sy dney : " we' l l seeaboutt hat , now, wi l l y ougot el l Ambr oseorshoul dI? " Icl i ckmyt ongueandst or m upst ai r st oour r oom If i ndhi mf astal seephemust ' v egotwar m enoughanddozedof f Me: " Qui nt on" Ishakehi m Qui nt on: " mmh? " Me: " wakeupl ov ebug" Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " Idon' twantt eaany mor e" Heanswer swi t hhi sey esst i l l cl osed Me: " someone' sher et oseey ou" Qui nt on: " I ' m sl eepi ng" Me: " i t sSy dney" Hel i f t shi sheadandt ur nst ol ookbackatme Qui nt on: " whati sshedoi ngher e? " Me: " pr obabl ycamet ocausesomedr amaonce agai n, butshewant st oseey ou" Qui nt on: " t el l hert ogetoutofmyhouse, Idon' t wannaseeher , ev eragai n" Me: " Qui nt on. . . .She' scar r y i ngy ourbaby , y ou hav et ot al kt ohersoonerorl at er " Qui nt on: " whati ft hi si sj ustoneofher sand mot her ' swi t chcr af t , t omakei tl ookl i keshe' s pr egnantwhenshe' snot , shecangot ohel l wi t h t hel i t t l edev i l i nhert ummyf oral l Icar e" Me: " ohnoshe' sr eal l ypr egnant , i t sdef i ni t el y y our s" Qui nt on: " whatmakesy ousosur e? " Me: " causeIcanf eel i tQ" Hesi ghsandl ooksupatme, Inot i ceasl i ght gl owonhi sf ace Qui nt on: " y oudo? " Ismi l eandnod, somet i mesi t sl i kehebel i ev es i nmygi f tandsomet i meshej ustdoesn' t Me: " y eah, . . . nowl et ' sgety oudownst ai r s" Qui nt on: " y eah" Me: " Qui nt on" Qui nt on: " mmh? " Me: " pl easel et ' snotal l owhert ocomebet ween usagai n" Qui nt on: " Nev er " Me: " andpl easef or gi v emeaboutear l i er " Hel ooksatmef orawhi l e Qui nt on: " If or gi v ey ou. . . butwe' l l t al kmor e aboutt hatl at er " Wel l hedef i ni t el yi snotaski ngme, t hatwas mor eofast at ement Me: " okay " Qui nt on: " nowki ssme" Ij ustl ov ei twhenhedoest hataf t eran ar gumentorser i oust al k Il eanf or war dandpeckhi sl i psbuthepul l smy l i pi nst eadandweendupsmoochi ng. .Hel ov es doi ngt hat Qui nt on: " y oushoul dknowt hatbabyki ssesar e f orki dsnotme" Il aughshaki ngmyhead Me: " l et ' sgoMi sssi dunui swai t i ng" Hel aughs Qui nt on: " l et ' sgoseewhatsi dunuwant s" Ihel phi m up, Ipi ggyr i dehi m downt hest ai r s t henpl acehi mi nt hewheel chai randpushhi m t owar dst hel ounge, wef i ndherl y i ngont he couchwi t hherf eetup Sy dney : " Ambr ose. . . hey " Qui nt on: " whatdoy ouwant ? " Shel ooksshocked Sy dney : " ohmygosh. . . whyar ey oui na wheel chai r ?" Me: " t hat ' snonofy ourbusi ness" Shest r uggl esasshet r i est ost andupwi t hher bi gt ummy Qui nt onl ooksabackbyhert ummy Sy dney : " Ambr ose. . . . Icamebackt oapol ogi se, I nev ermeantt odoal l t hoseev i l t hi ngsIdi d, I wasmani pul at edbyy ourmot her , i nev erwant ed t obepar tofi tshet hr eat enedmeandbr i bed mewhet herIt ookt hemoneyornotshest i l l l ay edbi gt hr eat sagai nstme, soIwentahead wi t ht hepi l l sandal l t hat , y esapar tofmewas happyt hatwecoul dbet oget herandhappy , t he wayy out ouchedme, t hewayy oumadel ov et o me, t hewayy ou. . . . Icl earmyt hr oat Sy dney : "any waybei ngwi t hy ouwasev er y t hi ng i tmeantal ott omei tr emi ndedoft hegood t i meswehad, al t houghwhathur tmei showy ou y ouonl yl ov edmebecausey out houghtIwas someoneel seandconst ant l ycal l i ngme Li sa, t her ewer et i mesIr eal l ywant edt ot el l y ou t het r ut handst opf eedi ngy out hosepi l l sbutI wasscar edofy ourmom, f al l i ngpr egnantwas par tofmypl an, It houghtoncewehav eababy t oget herLi sawontev erwantt ocomebackt o y ouandwe' dr ai set hebabyt oget her , t henI ' d st opf eedi ngy out hepi l l s, y ouf i ndoutt het r ut h buty ouwi l l hav et omov eonwi t hme, Iwassur e Li sawon' tt akey ouback. . . . . . butIguessy ' al l l ov e i sst r ongert hananyki ndofwi t chcr af t " Wear ej ustl ooki ngatherandl i st eni ngt ot he r ubbi shcomi ngouthermout h Qui nt on: " doy ousmel l t hat ? " Hel ooksar oundwi t hadi sgust edf aceonhi m, t henl ooksbackatSy dney Qui nt on: " oh. . i t sal l t heshi tcomi ngouty our mout h" Il aughal i t t l ebutIseehowser i oushei ssoIgo backt oser i ousmode Sy dney : "I . .I ' mr eal l ysor r yf orev er y t hi ng, Idi dn' t comebackt or ui nt hi ngsf ory ' al l , y ouguy s deser v eeachot her , IknowAmbr osehasnev er andnev erwi l l l ov emet hewayhel ov esy ou Li sa, soev eni fIwer et ogethi m back, whi chI ' l l nev er , he' l l nev erl ov eme. . . Ij ustcamebackt o makepeaceandaskf orf or gi v enessf r om t he bot hofy ou" Shegoesdownonherknees Sy dney : " pl easef or gi v eme" Iwon' tl i eandsayI ' m notsur pr i sedcauseI ' m soshockedr i ghtnow Ican' tev enr eadwhet hershe' st r ueornot . . why ! ? Il ookatQui nt onwhol ookssopi ssed Qui nt on: " gety ourassup, y out hi nkgoi ngon y ourkneesandt al ki ngawhol eLot t abul l shi t wi l l makemej ustf or gett hateasi l y ?Gety our mi ndr i ghtbi t ch. . nowgety ourmankneesof f mycar pet " Herj awhasdr oppedl ooki ngatQui nt oni n di sbel i ef , t hi smustbet hef i r stt i mehehas spokenl i ket hi st oher , I ' m al soj ustasshocked asher , heal way sf al l sf orheri nnocentact sbut nott hi st i me Sheget sup, herl egst r embl i ng Sy dney : " okay , . . Iunder st and, Imessedupbi g t i me, Idon' texpecty out oj ustf or gi v eand f or get . . . butIdi dmypar t , Idi dy ouguy swr ong nowI ' m her et oapol ogi se, i t supt oy ouwhet her y ouhol dont ot hi sgr udgef or ev erorf or gi v eme andmov eon" * si l ence* Weal l seat edont hecouchesnoonehassai da wor df ort hepastf i v emi nut es Il ookathershe' sl ooki ngdownf i ddl i ngwi t hher f i nger s Me: " whynow? " Shel ooksupatme Sy dney : " excuseme? " Me: " whynow?Whyy ouapol ogi si ngnow? Wher ehav ey oubeen?I t sbeenawhol ef ul l f our mont hs, whatbr i ngsy ouback? " Shesi ghs Sy dney : " Iwentbackhomet oj ustdi gest ev er y t hi ngt hat ' sbeengoi ngoni nmyl i f e, bei ng ar oundf ami l ygav emeapeaceofmi nd, f eel i ng mybabygr owi ngi nsi dememademewantt o becomeabet t erper son. . . andIt houghtmay be Ambr osewi l l wantt obepar toft hebaby ? " Il ookatQui nt onwho' sv er ydi st antf r om pl anet ear t h Il ookbackatSy dney Me: " doy ouneedapl acet ost ay ? " Sheshakesherhead Sy dney : " no. . . I ' l l best ay i ngatahot el , unl ess Ambr osewant snot hi ngt odowi t ht hebaby t henI ' l l t akeaf l i ghtbackhomef i r stt hi ng t omor r owandnev erbot hery ' al l agai n" Isi ghandl ookatQui nt on Me: " doy ouwantt obepar toft hi spr egnancy andt hi sbaby ' sl i f e? " Hel ooksatme Qui nt on: " Iwantnot hi ngt odowi t hher " Hesay spoi nt i ngatSy dney Me: " whataboutt hebaby ? " Her emai nsqui et Me: " wel l Iguesswe' l l beseei ngmor eof y ou, t hatchi l dwi l l bepar tofQui nt on' sl i f e so, y out wowi l l hav et odi scusshowy ' al l goi ng t ogett hr ought hi spr egnancyt oget herwi t hout choppi ngeachot her sheadsof f " Hel ooksatme Qui nt on: " Li sa. . . canwet al k. . . . i npr i v at e? " Sy dney : " I ' l l l eav ey ' al l t oi t " Me: " don' tgoy et " Sy dney : " No, I ' l l j ustgochi l l byt hepool ar ea" Inod, shewal ksout Me: " wowatj ustf ourmont hs, t hat ' sahuge t ummy " Qui nt on: " what ' swr ongwi t hy ou? " Me: " what ? " Qui nt on: " whydi dy ousayt hat ?Youcan' tbe maki ngdeci si onsf orme, It ol dy ouIwant not hi ngt odowi t hherbuty ougoaheadt el l i ng hert ost ay ? Idon' twantt obepar tofany t hi ng t hati nv ol v esherLi sa" Me: " Qui nt on. .Cal m down, t hat ' sy ourbabyov er t her e, r emembert hatsoccert eam y ouwant ?I t hast ost ar tsomewher e, y oucan' taf f or dt o negl ectsomepl ay er s, whoknowmay bet hef i r st bor nmi ghtbet heCR7ofy oursoccert eam " Hel ooksatmef orawhi l et henhechuckl es Qui nt on: " doy our eal l yt hi nkIshoul dbepar tof t hi schi l d' sl i f e? " Me: " y esQui nt on, ev er ychi l ddeser v esbot ht hei r par ent s" Qui nt on: " y ouknowt hati t ' l l al sobepar tofy our l i f et oo? " Me: " Iknow" Qui nt on: " i t ' l l al way sbear emi nderofwhatshe putust hr ough" Me: " wi t ht i me, not hi ngwi l l ev erbear emi nder . . . . Let ' snotf ocusont hebadt hi ngsl et ' sj ustst ar t onacl eansl at eandwel comet hebl essi ngi n di sgui set hatGodhasbl esseduswi t h, t hatbaby t hat ' sgr owi ngf asti nt hatt ummy " Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " comeher e" Igetupandgot ot hecouchopposi t et hathe' s seat edon, Ist andi nf r ontofhi m Qui nt on: " si ther e" Hepat shi sl ap, Isi tonhi mf aci ngt hesi de Qui nt on: " noIwanty ourl egsonei t hersi deof mi ne" Igi ggl easIadj ustmy sel fandsi ti nt hat posi t i on Iwr apmyar msar oundhi sneckandwest ar e i nt oeachot her sey es Qui nt on: " y ouar et hemostamazi ngwoman, y ouknowt hat ? " Ij ustsmi l e Qui nt on: " y ousost r ong, notonl yphy si cal l ybut spi r i t ual l yaswel l , y ouhav et hest r ongesthear t ev er , nomat t erhowmanyt i mesi t sbeen br oken, y oust i l l abl et ogi v eoutl ov eand mer cy . . . y out heonl yt hi ngt hatkeepsmysani t y , I woul d' v el ongki l l edt hatbi t ch, honest l y , but becauseofy ouandy ourgoodhear tIcoul dn' t br i ngmy sel ft o" Me: " You. . . . Heput shi sf i ngeronmyl i p Qui nt on: " ev er ygooddeci si onImakei s becauseofy ou, y oumakemeabet t erper son. . .I knowt hi swhol ebabyt hi ngwon' tbeeasy speci al l yony ou, butt hanksf orunder st andi ng" Me: " I ' ddoany t hi ngf ory ouQui nt on. . . .I ' ddi ef or y ou, Ipr omi se" Hesmi l es, If eel somet hi nghar dagai nstMi ssM Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r yt hi sposi t i onandy oursexy v oi cei sj ustt oomuchf orMrB" Il augh, hepul l smebymyneckandcut smy l aughshor twi t haki ss Someonecl ear st het hr oatdi st ur bi ngus, It r yt o pul l outbuthepul l smyl i psbacki nt ohi st hen hol dmyheadt i ght eragai nsthi s, hi scr ot chi s ev enhar der , wowhe' sr eal l yt ur ned onr i ghtnow, Ial sof eel my sel fl eaki ngdown t her eandbeat i nguncont r ol l abl y , shi t !I ' m t empt edt ost r i phi m nakedr i ghtnow!Gr eat t i mi ngt ot heHoei nme " I ' m sor r yt odi st ur b, Iwast hi nki ngIshoul dget goi ng" Ihadt opushv er yhar dt opul l outf r om Qui nt on' sl i ps, hegr oaned Me( br eat hl ess) : " j eezcl am downbabey oh" Isayf i xi ngmyhai randget t i ngof fhi m, myey es popoutatt hesi zeofMrBasIsl owl yt ur nmy ey esf r om hi mt ol ookatt hewomanbehi ndme Me( chuckl es) : " sor r yaboutt hat . . wer eal l ywer e hav i ngaser i ousconv er sat i on. .Butonet hi ng l edt oanot her . . y ouknowhowser i ous conv er sat i onsar e? " Igr abt hecushi onandt hr owi tt oQui nt onsohe cancov erhi shar d Sy dney( chuckl es) : " appar ent l yIdon' tt hi nkso" Me: " si tdown" Webot hsi tdown Qui nt on: " Iwantt obepar toft hatchi l d' s l i f e, t hat ' sO' Br i enbl oodi nt her e, andI ' l l make sur eI ' m hundr edper centi nv ol v edi nhi sl i f e" Sy dney : " t hanky ouAm. . . . Qui nt on: "I ' m notdoi ngi tf ory ou, I ' m doi ngi tf or mybabywhomi st akenl ychoset hewr ong wombt ogr owi n" It hi nkIl i t er al l yhear dherhear tbr eakaf t er t hosewor ds Shef i ddl esi nsi deherhandbagandt akesout anenv el ope Sy dney : " t hi si sf ory ou" Shehandsi tt oQui nt onwhoj ustl ooksather emot i onl essl y Shepl acesi tont het abl e Sy dney : " I ' l l getgoi ng" Qui nt on: " y ouonl ycomeov erwhenIt el l y ou t o, y oudon' tcont actmeunl essi t saboutt he babyorany t hi ngt hataf f ect st hebabyi nany way . . under st ood? " Shenods Sy dney : " under st ood" Shesmi l esf ai nt l yandmakesherwayout Isi gh Het hr owst hepi l l owonhi sl apont hef l oor Qui nt on: " now. . .Wher ewer ewe? " Ohgoshaf t eral l t hathe' sst i l l t her e? Me: " wowser i ousl yQ? ! " Qui nt on: " i t ' l l bequi ck, r i ghther er i ghtnow" Mi ssM j ustl ov esbet r ay i ngme, i t sl i keherand MrBhav eami ndoft hei rown, al way swantt o best uckoneachot her , Iobeyheri nst ead, I mov ehi spant sabi tdown, Il i f tmydr essupand mov emypant yt ot hesi de, can' tbel i ev ewe doi ngt hi sr i ghtnow. . . t hi sguywi l l bet hedeat h ofme. . .Il ethi m sl i dei nandst ar tmov i ngup anddownonhi sl ap Qui nt on: " howdoy oukeepi tsot i ght ? " Me: " Ial sodon' tknowhowshedoesi t " Qui nt on: " cany out wer kabi tf ast er " Igi ggl eandpi ckupt hepace Me( br eat hl essl y ) : " l i ket hat ? " Qui nt on( gr oans) : " aahy eah, j ustl i ket hat . . f uck" Me: " mhm! " Isl owdown Qui nt on: " cany oupl easescr eam l i kehowy ou dowheny ougor eal l yf ast . . Ij ustl ov ei t " I ncr easet hepaceagai n Me( moani ngl oudl y ) : " FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK FUCKFUCKFUCK! ! ! " Qui nt on: " damnIl ov ei twheny oudot hat " Igi ggl eandki sshi sl i ps, If eel hi mr el easer i ght af t erme, Isi tonhi mf orawhi l ewi t hhi m st i l l i nsi de, wegazeateachot her Qui nt on: " weshoul dj ustst ayl i ket hi st hewhol e day " Me: " Qui nt on?" Qui nt on: " bub" Me: " Ican' tbar echi l dr en" Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " I ' l l nev erbeabl et ocar r yachi l di nmy womb" Hel ooksatmeconf used Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " whawhatdoy oumean? " Me: " t hat ' swhatt hedoct ort ol dmet hr ee mont hsago, mycer v i xhasbeendamagedbadl y andIwon' tbeabl et ocar r yaf ul l t er m" Qui nt on: " t hatcan' tbet r ue" Igetof fhi m andf i xmy sel ft henheadt ot he near estr oom, Igr abat owel t ocl eanhi m up, Isi t opposi t ehi m af t erwi pi nghi m Me( si ghs) : " i t st r ue, t hat ' swhyIwassodown af t erwecamebackf r om t hedoct orandIdi dn' t t el l y ouwhathesai d" Qui nt on: " so. . . we' l l nev erbeabl et ohav eki dsof ourown? " Ishakemyhead Me: " No. . . . Icanf al l pr egnant , butIcan' tcar r y t hem" Heshakeshi sheadwhi l ehol di ngi t Qui nt on: " howdi dy ourcer v i xgetdamaged? " Me: . . . . Qui nt on: " HOW! ? " Ist ar t l e Me: " aggr essi v esex " Qui nt on: " y oumeant hatbast ur d! ? " Me: " y eah. . butt her e' snot hi ngwecando now, t hedamagei sdone" Qui nt on: . . . . . Hel ooksatmewi t haf r own Qui nt on: " y eahr i ght " Me: " y ou' v eal r eadyt aughthi m al esson. . .No mat t erwhaty oudonow, i twon' tchanget hef act t hatt hedamagei sal r eadydone" Her emai nsqui et Qui nt on: " comeher e" Ir el uct ant l ywal kt owar dshi m Hepul l smet osi tonhi sl ap Qui nt on: " t hi sdoesn' tchangeany t hi ngokay " Me( cr y i ng) : " but , whatabouty oursoccert eam? IIcan' tgi v ey out hatgi f t " Qui nt on: " Idon' tneedasoccert eam. . . asl ong asIhav ey ou, Ihav eev er y t hi ngIneed" Ibur ymyf aceonhi sshoul derher ubsmyback Qui nt on: " don' tcr ybub, wei nt hi st oget her " Me: " Ihat emyl i f eQui nt on, t her e' sal way sbad t hi ngshappeni ngt ous, Ihat ei t !Ihat ei t ! " Qui nt on: " sshhhdon' tcr ymyl ov e, t hi st ooshal l pass, wej usthav et ost i ckt oget her , ev er y t hi ng wi l l f al l i nt opl aceev ent ual l y , y ou' l l see" Me: " I ' v ebeenwai t i ngf orev er y t hi ngt of al l i nt o pl ace, butt heykeepget t i ngwor seandwor se! " Qui nt on: " hangi nt her e. . . don' tl osehope, Imean ki dsar enotev er y t hi ngi nl i f e" Il i f tmyheadt ol ookathi st ear yey es Me: " easyf ory out osay , y ouhav eababyont he way , y ou' l l nev erf eel hal fofwhatI ' mf eel i ng" Igetupbuthet i ght enshi sgr i p Me: " l etgoofme! " Qui nt on: " No" If i ghtwi t hhi shandst r y i ngt ount angl et hem f r om me Me: " l etmegoQui nt on!Leav emeal one! " Qui nt on: " nott hi st i me!I fy ouwantt ocr yy ou candoi tr i ghther e, i nmyar ms. . . I ' m nev erl et t i ng y ougo" It hr owmyar msar oundhi m andbur sti nt oa l oudercr y , her ocksmer ubbi ngmyback . . . . . . . Thenextday . . . . I ' v ebeenupsi ncet hr eeo' cl ock, I ' m wor r i ed aboutt hedi amondsagai n, Ihat et hi sf eel i ng, I gl anceatmysi deandhe' speacef ul l ysl eepi ng Me( whi sper s) : " Qui nt on?" Me: " Qui nt on? " He' sst i l l i ndeepsl eep, Ir emov et hecov er sand headt ot hespar er oom Iopeni tsl owl yscar edt ogoi n, I ' mf i nal l y i nsi de, Imakesur eIl eav et hedooropenasI wal kf ur t heri nsi de Iwal kt owar dst hedi amondswhi char ei na saf e, Iopeni tandt aket hem out , Ipourt hem i n myhandandl ookatt hem i nt ensi v el ywai t i ng f ort hegl ow. . . butnot hi ng, Isi ghandputt hem ont hef l oor , Igoonmykneesi npr ay i ng posi t i on. . . Idon' tknowi fIst i l l ev enknowhowt o t al kt oGodany mor e, Ipl acemyhandt oget her andf acet hecei l i ng Me: " ( si ghs) : " DearGod. . . . nono. . . uhm. . heav enl y f at her . . . noIt hi nkdearGodsoundsmor e pr oper . . . Ar gh" Isi tonmybut t Me: " I ' m sor r y . . . Idon' tev enknowhowt ot al kt o y ouany mor e. . ( chuckl es)i fgr amscanseeme r i ghtnow, she' dgi v emeonehel l aass whoopi ng. . .Ok, f at her . . I ' mr eal l ymadaty ou. . I ' m madatQui nt ont oo, I ' m madathi smot her , I ' m madathi sf at herI ' m madathi swhol ef ami l y . . . I ' m madatev er y one, mymom, mydad, my gr ams, y onel a, Li am speci al l yLi am, hi sf at herand hi smot her , hi ssi bl i ngs, I ' m madatt hepr esi dent ofsout hAf r i caI ' mj ustsomadatt hewhol e wor l d, pl anetear t hj ustmakesmemad!I ' m mad atmy sel f !I ' m sosopat het i c! . . . . Imean. . whyt o y ougi v emepower si fy oudon' twantmet ouse t hem?Huh? " Ir emai nqui etf orawhi l e Me: " okay , I ' m sor r y , I ' m notmadaty ou, now pl easet el l mehowt ousemypower s?Pl ease?I f or gi v ey ouf oral l t hebadt hi ngsy ou' v el et happent ome. . . nowpl easecany ouj ustshow y our sel f ! ! " Not hi nghappensmxm t hi si susel ess Ipl aywi t ht hedi amonds Me: " comeon, dot hatt hi ngy oudi donmydr eam, comeon. . spi nar ound, showmesomet hi ng. . Now! . . pl ease! . . mx m" It hr owt hem ont hef l oorandat t emptt owal k outt her oom buti tshut scl osedr i ghtonmy f ace, myhear tst ops, It ur nt ol ookbehi ndmeI seet hem gl owi ng, Isi ghasIt r yt ohi det hef ear andwal kt owar dst hem Me: " y est hat ' si t , j ustal i t t l ebr i ght er " Thegl owget sbr i ght er , wowt heyl i st ent ome Me: " OK. . . nowf l oatandspi nar oundt henshow mehowIcanheal Qui nt on" Theyr emai nont hef l oorj ustgl owi ngr eal l y br i ght Me: " comeon. . . y oucandoi t ! " Theygobackt ot hei rnor mal col orIl ookbehi nd meandt hedoori sopened, i t sl i kenot hi ng happenedatal l Me: " wow!Y' al l sousel ess!" Ioutt hem backi nt hesaf eandwal koutbackt o ourr oom " Wher ey oucomi ngf r om? " Ist ar t l easIwast i pt oei ngi nourr oom Me: " Qui nt on!Damny ouscar edme" Qui nt on: " wher ey oucomi ngf r om? " Me: " IIwasi nt he. . . .ki t chen!Yes, Ineededa snack" Qui nt on: " r eal l y ? " Hel ooksatmesuspi ci ousl y Iwal kt ot hebed Me: " Yeah. . wher eel sewoul dIgo? " Qui nt on: " i fy ouwentt ogety our sel fasnack. . . Thenwher e' smi ne? " Ichuckl e Me: " wel l y ouwer ef astasl eep. . It r i edwaki ng y ouup" Heyt hat ' st het r ut h Qui nt on: " okay . . . wel l t henIwantmysnackt oo" Me: " y ohQui nt on, t heki t cheni ssof ar " Qui nt on: " don' twor r ybub. . mysnacki sr i ght her e" Het i ckl esmyv j Me( l aughi ng) : " Ahh!Okay !You' l l gety oursnack" Hest ops Qui nt on: " hur r yupwoman!I ' m st ar v i ngher e" Igi ggl eget t i ngont op Me: " y ohQ. . y oul ov epunani ay i ngeke" Qui nt on: " f i ne. . I ' l l st op" Me: " don' ty oudar e! " Hechuckl es, Ipul l t hecov er sov erus. . t her esti s hi st or y * * * [ 07/ 30, 13: 17]Ron: I nser t50 LI SA " Fat her , . . . i fy oul i st eni ng, I ' dl i ket ost ar tby apol ogi si ng. . I ' m sor r yf orabandoni ngy ou f at her , I ' m sor r yf orbei ngsoi gnor antand st ubbor n, I ' m sor r yf orf i ght i ngmybat t l esal one wheny ouwer er i ghther et hi swhol et i me pl eadi ngt of i ghtt hem f orme. . butIt ur nedmy backony ouandIal l owedt hedev i l t omakeme hi spl ay gr ound. . .Butt odayLor d!IsayNoMor e! Nomor ewi l l Ibeasl av eofSat an' sl i esand schemes!Nomor ewi l l Ial l owhi st ot oywi t h myhear t , mybodyandsoul , f ort heybel ongt o y ouf at her . . . . . . Isur r enderLor d!Isur r enderal l t o y ouf at her !Rai semeupLor d!Rai semeupt o t akel i ghti nt ot hi sdar kwor l d, t onot compr omi sewhenunderpr essur e. . . . . . . . . Lor d God, whaty ouaski ngmet odoi sr eal l y unbel i ev abl e, y ouwantmet oheal peopl ewi t h j ustat ouchofmyhand?Youwantmet o cont r ol di amondsandaskt hem t or ev eal t hi ngs t ome? . . . . ( chuckl es) . . t hi si scr azy ! . . . butI ' m t r ust i ng, causewi t hy ouIknow, t hatal l t hi ngsar e possi bl e. . . ImeanJesuswal kedon wat er , changedwat ert owi ne, r oset hedead f r om deat h. . . Gosh, t hi swi l l t akesomecr azy f ai t hi nme. . . Fat her , Iam scar edal l t hi spoweri n mej ustscar esme, butI ' m wi l l i ngt ost epout andt aket hel eadofmycr azyf ai t hi ny ou, Idon' t car ehowmuchi tcost sme, I ' m put t i ngmyt r ust i ny ouLor d, Gui demeLor d, al l owmet osee my sel fasy ouseeme. . i nJESUSnameI pr ay . . . ( si ghs) . . . Amen" It akeadeepbr eat hi nandout , wow!If eel so muchl i ght ert hanmyf i r stpr ay er , t her oom l ooksmor ebr i ght erandcal m, It hi nkIf el tt he hol yspi r i tnotonl yi nmebuti nt hi sr oom t oo. Bel l adeci dedt ot akemet ochur chwi t hherl ast weekSundayasr el uct antasIwasIendedup goi ngandher eIam t oday , t aki ngmyf i r stst ep i nt of ai t h, somet hi ngIbel i ev edl ongdi edi n me, guessIwaswr ong, Godhasnev erf ai l ed me. . . I ' mt heonewho' sf ai l edGod, Bel l ahas t ot al l ychangedt hewayIv i ewt hi ngs, shemade mel ear nt hatIshoul dn' tf or ceQui nt ont opr ay wi t hmeasl ongasIdonemypar tandt al kedt o hi m, Ishoul dj ustpr ayf orhi m, andl eav et her est t oGod, soI ' m doi ngj ustt hat , butbef or eIcan pr ayf orhi m, r i ghtnow, i twasj ustapr ay erf or my sel f , Ineedt obest r ongmy sel fbef or eIcan st ar tpr ay i ngf orot herpeopl e.Igetupandwal k t owar dst hesaf et ocheckupont hedi amonds, t heyst i l l her e, buti t snott i mey et , I ' m not r eady , Bel l asay sI ' l l f eel i twhenI ' mr eadyand r i ghtnow, I ' m notf eel i ngi t .Icl oset hesaf eand headdownst ai r s, t omakebr eakf ast , I ' v ebeeni n t hatr oom f ormor et hant wohour ssi nceIwoke up, y eahIki ndast al l edal i t t l ebef or eact ual l y pr ay i ng. . Imakesomescr ambl edeggs, bacon, por k sausages, sl i cedt omat oesandt oast ed br ead, f oursl i cesf orQandt wof orme, Ipl ace ev er y t hi ngont het r ayi ncl udi ngj ui cef ormeand t eaf ormydaddy .Iheadupst ai r st oourr oom. Me: " andbr eakf asti sser v ed! " Qui nt on: " mhmhmh. . . . i t saboutdamnt i me! " Ipl acei tont hesi det abl e Me: " at hanky ouwoul dbev er ymuch appr eci at ed" Qui nt on: " y eahwhat ev er , j ustf eedmeal r eady" Igaspl ooki ngathi mi ndi sbel i ef Me: " wher edi dy oul oset hem? " Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " may beIcanhel py oul ookf ort hem, when l astdi dy ouuset hem? " Qui nt on: " whatar ey out al ki ngaboutwoman? " Me: " y ourMANNERS! " Hel aughs Qui nt on: " mxm" Ishakemyheadandhel phi m si tupandgi v e hi m hi sf ood Me: " t hat ' sy ourt ea" Igoi nt hecov er snextt ohi m andweenj oyour br eakf ast , wel l heendedupf eedi ngmehi sf ood andIf edhi m mi ne, Ist i l l don' tgetwhywedo t hat Qui nt on: " whydoIgett het ea? " Me: " cause" Ishr ugmyshoul der s Qui nt on: " Iwantj ui ce" Me: " t hej ui cei smi ne. . j usthav et het ea, y oul ov e t ea" Qui nt on: " IknowbutIwantj ui cer i ghtnow" Me: " notunt i l y ouaskmeni cel y" Qui nt on: " Li sakhany agety ourassupandgot o t hatki t chenandpourmej ui ce" Me: " Qui nt on. . . . goj umpof facl i f fanddi sappear " Hechuckl esandt akesmyj ui ce, Igr abi tj ust bef or ehecoul dt akeasi pandi tspi l l edal i t t l e, hegr abbedi tf r om meIgr abbedi tback, bef or e weknewi tt hej ui cespi l l edont hebed Qui nt on: " gr eatnowl ookaty ourmess! " Me: " Mymess?Mymess?Hehehe!Mymess? MymessQui nt on! ?Mymess?" Hebur st si nt ol aught er Qui nt on: " y oudon' tknowwhatt osaydoy ou? Me( l aughi ng) : "Nope! " Heki ssesmycheek Qui nt on: " t hat ' swhyIl ov ey ou" Il ookathi m Me: " oohhhy oul ov emewhenIr anoutoft hi ngs t osay ? " Qui nt on: " whaaaaaat . . . psshhwhatgav ey out hat cr azyi dea" Hesay smov i nghi sey ebal l sev er y wher e Me: " mx my ousuchani di ot . . y out oknowt hat r i ght " Qui nt on: " t hat ' swhyy ouher e, i nt hi sj ui cy bed, wi t ht hi si di otr i ght ? " Me( si ghs) : " t hei di ot sGodgi v esus. . . ay i ! " Igetupandandputourpl at est oget her , when hi sphonedeci dest or i ng Qui nt on: " pl easeanswert hatf ormebub" Me: " wow, someoner emember edwher ehe mi spl acedhi smanner s" Qui nt on: " j ustanswert hedamnphone" Me: " ohwai t . . . what ' st hat ? . . hel ostt hem agai n? " It akehi sphonef r om t het abl ej ustasIanswer i t , t heper sondeci dest ogi v eupanddr opi t Me: " ohwel l y ourper songav eup" Qui nt on: " causey out al kt oomuch. . whowasi t any way ? " Me: " It al kt oomuch?It al kt oomuch?HeheheI t al kt oomuch?It al kt oomuchQui nt on?It al k t oomuch? " Her ol l shi sey esandl aughs Qui nt on: " t her ewegoagai n" Me: " l ooksl i key ouhav eapr obl em boy ? " Qui nt on: " Ihav eapr obl em?Ihav eapr obl em? HeheheIhav eapr obl em Li sa?Ihav ea pr obl em? " If ol dmyar msannoy ed Me: " wei mi t at i ngeachot hernow? " Qui nt on( l aughi ng) : " ar ey oumadnowbub? " Me: " mx m, getof ft hebed, Iwantt ocl eanupt he messy oumade" Qui nt on: " mymess?Mymess? . . . . . . Me( i nt er r upt i ng) : "aar r r ghhshutup! . . makeup y ourown' don' tknowwhatt osay ' l i ne" Hebur st si nt ol aught er , Isi tont hebed sul ki ng, Qui nt onl ov est easi ngmeandheknows somet i mesokaymostoft het i meIcan' tdef end my sel f , t henhel aughsatme. mxm Qui nt on: " okayokay . . . I ' l l st op, l ookatmebub" It ur nmywhol ebackonhi m Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r ymyl ov e, l ookatme" Me: " mx m" Qui nt on: " okay . . pl eeeaassel ookatmebub" Me: . . . . Qui nt on: " comeonbub. . . . bubbl ybubby " If eel hi shandssnakear oundmeandpul l i ng met owar dshi m Qui nt on: " don' tbemadbub" Me: " NoQui nt on, y oul ov emaki ngf unofmeal l t het i me" Qui nt on: " I ' mj ustj oki ngbabe" Me: " y eahwel l i t snotf unny " Qui nt on: " notev enal i t t l e? " Me: " ar ghNx ! " Qui nt on: " okayokayI ' m sor r ybub, Iwon' tmake f unofy ouany mor e" It ur nt ol ookathi m Me: " ev er ? " Qui nt on: " ev er " Ismi l eandmov ecl osert ohi m Me: " y oupr omi se? " Qui nt on: " onest epatat i mepl ease. . ev eri sa l ongt i mebub" Me: " ohsoy oust i l l wannamakef unofme? " Hel aughsandpul l smeIendupsi t t i ngont op ofhi mf aci nghi m Qui nt on: " y ouknowhowador abl yugl yy oul ook wheny ousul k? " Me: " wowcan' tbel i ev ey oust i l l t easi ngme?I ' m ugl ynow? " Qui nt on: " whydoy ouhav et ot akeev er y t hi ngat hear tbub. . di dy ouev enheart hewor dador abl y i nt hatsent ence? " Me: " y ousomean! " Hel aughsandpul l smei nt ohi sar msbur y i ng myf aceonhi sneck Qui nt on: " okayI ' l l st opokay ? " Inod Qui nt on: " y oubei ngababyt hough" Me: " I ' my ourbabyt hough" Qui nt on: " y eahdaddyl ov eshi sbaby " Ohgodt hi sguy sbodyi nt oxi cat esme, i t sl i keI l osemymor al eswhenI ' m agai nsti t , I aut omat i cal l yst ar tki ssi nghi sneck, Idon' twhy causeI ' m" supposedl y "madathi mr i ghtnow Qui nt on: " buty ouhav et oadmi t . . i ti sf unny whenImakef unofy ou" Me: " No! " Qui nt on: " i ti sbub, comeon" Me: " No, i t snot " Qui nt on: " notev enal i t t l e? " Me: " mmmmh. . No! " Qui nt on: " t i nsywi nybi t ? " Me( si ghs) : " okay . . j ustat i nsywi nybi t" Hemov edhi sshoul dermaki ngmemov emy f acef r om hi m Qui nt on: " ki ssme" Myhear tmel t s. . . i tget smeev er yt i mewhenhe doest hat , i t sl i kesomeki ndofspel l or hy pnot i sm whi chmakesmewannadoexact l y t hat Imov ecl osert ogi v ehi m av er yl ust f ul ki ss pl ay i ngwi t hhi st ongue, hepul l soutandl ooksat mei nt ot al shock Qui nt on: " Isai dki ssme. . notr apemymout h" Igasp Me: " nowI ' mr api nghi smout h, t hat ' snotwhat y ouwer esay i ngl astni ghtwhenIwasupal l i n t hatmout h, wi t hy oumoani ngandgr oani ngmy name. . . aahhLi sa!FuckLi sa!YesLi sa!" Hel aughs, hi sphoner i ngsagai nhest ops l aughi ngandl ooksatme, t henl ooksathi s phone Me: " sonowy ouj ustgoi ngt oor dermear ound wi t hy ourey es? " Qui nt on: " Yoh. . y oucant al kguuur r l . . j ustpl ease getmyphone" Ir ol l myey esandpi ckuphi sphone, i t st he samenumberbuti t snotsav ed Me: " Qui nt on' ssuperhotgi r l f r i end, hel l o" Iwi nkathi m hechuckl esandki ssesmy boobs, I ' m st i l l ont opofhi m " OhheyLi sa, i t sme, Sy dney " Isi ghandr ol l myey es, Qui nt oni sbusypl ay i ng wi t hmyboobswi ggl i ngandshaki ngt hem Me: " okay" " CanIt al kt ohi m? " Icov ert hephonewi t hmyhand Me( whi sper i ng) : " i t ' sSi dunu" Her ol l shi sey es Qui nt on( whi sper i ng) : " whatdoesshewant ? " Ishr ug Me( whi sper i ng) : " shewantt ot al kt oy ou" Qui nt on( whi sper i ng) : " t el l herI ' m nother e" Me( whi sper i ng) : " wher ear ey ou? " Qui nt on( whi sper i ng) : " f arf araway " Ishakemyheadandputt hephonebackonmy ear Me: " he' snother e" " Ihear dev er y t hi ngbyt heway " Ihol dmymout hasIf eel l i kel aughi ng Me: " oh. . . uhm canIl eav ehi m amessage, he' s r eal l ybusy( pl ay i ngwi t hmyboobs) . . andhe r eal l ycan' tt al k" " ( Si ghs)okaypl easet el l hi mt hatIhav ean appoi nt mentwi t ht hedoct orf oranul t r asound l at eratexact l y12: 30pm. . soi fhewoul dl i ket o comehe' swel come" Ihear tdr opsi nt ot i nyl i t t l epi eces Me: " oh" That ' sal l Icanut t er " Yeah. . uhm y oual sowel comei fy ouwantt o" Me: . . . " Hel l o? " Me: " okay . . uhm t hanksf orl et t i nghi m know. . I ' l l t el l hi m" " Okay , ar hm . . by e" Me: " by e" Shedr opst hecal l Qui nt on: " y oudon' tl ookwel l ?Whatdi dshesay ? Isweari fshecur sedy ouor . . . Me: "she' si nv i t i ngy out oherappoi nt mentf or ul t r asound" Wel ookateachot herf orawhi l e Qui nt on: " oh. . . uhm when? " Me: " t oday . . t wel v et hi r t y " Qui nt on: " oh. . wel l Idon' thav et ogo. . . r i ght ? " Me: " what . . Qui nt on, y oushoul dgo, Imeant hi si s i mpor t ant , t oseey ourbabyandhearhi shear t beat " Hesi ghs, t henasmi l ecr eepsi n Qui nt on: " Yeahy our i ght , y ousur ey oudon' t mi nd? " Ishakemyheadno, butmyhear ti ssay i ng anot herst or y Me: " No. . sheal soi nv i t edme, butIhav eot her pl ansso, y oucangowi t hher " Yeaht hat ' spur el i es, whatpl an?I t sDecember , I hav enoschool , Iwaspl anni ngont aki nghi m out , we' v ebeenst ucki nt hi shousef ormont hs causehedoesn' twantt obeseenal otand doesn' tl i kei twhenpeopl est ar tf eel i ngsor r yf or hi m andl ookathi m wi t hpi t y Qui nt on: " t hanky ou, y out hebest " Hepul l smecl oseandpecksmyl i ps, hepecks t hem r epeat edl yunt i l weendupsucki ngand shar i ngspi t , Ipul l out Qui nt on: " weshoul dhav eaqui cksessi on bef or ewebat h" Me: " mypussyi sexhaust edQui nt on" Hel ooksatmewi t hadi sgust edf ace Qui nt on: " t hatdoesn' tsoundat t r act i v e. . Exhaust edpussy . ( shakeshi shead) . . sei s" Ibur sti nt ol aught er Me: " y out heonewhoexhaust edi t " Qui nt on: " wow. . MrBj ustl osthi sappet i t e" Me( l aughi ng) : " t hankgoodness! " Qui nt on: " ohht hi swaspar tofy our sandMi ss M' spl an? " Me: " nope. . l et ' sgobat h" Qui nt on: " ncncncnc. . . . Imi ghtaswel l besi ngl e her e" Me: " ay i Qui nt on. . .I ' v ebeengi v i ngy oupussy br eakf astl unchl at el unchdi nnersupperdeser t ev er ysi ngl eday . . sodon' ty oudar esayt hat" Qui nt on: " ohsot odayi snoti snotpar tof ev er y day ? " Me: " ay i dudel etmecl eansowecanbat hso y oucango" It akeanot hert hi r t ymi nut est r y i ngt ogetof f Qui nt on' sgr i p, Icl eanupt hehouset henwet ake abat hbutIbat hhi m al onecausei fwegoi n t oget heri t ' l l t akehour s. He' snowal r eadydr essedupandsoam I Hi sphoner i ngswhi l eI ' m busyi nf r ontoft he mi r r orf i xi ngmyhai r , hepi cksi tupwhi l esi t t i ng ont hebed Qui nt on: " hel l o" . . . . Qui nt on: " okaycool " . . Hedr opst hecal l Qui nt on: " heyLi ssshe' sdownst ai rcoul dy ou pl easegol etheri n" Di dhej ustsaypl ease, wi t houtmaki ngmebeg f ori tormaki ngf unofme! ? Ouch!Idon' tknowbutI ' m hur t Me: " si ncey ouaskedsoni cel y" Igoopent hedoorf orher Si dney : " heyLi zzy " Me: " i t sL Si dney : " Li say esIknow, Ij ustl ov ecal l i ngy ou Li zzy " Me: " butIdon' tl i kei t " Si dney : " ar ghy ousoser i ous. . . f i neLi sa. .Happy ? " Me: " y eahwhat ev er" Imakewayf orhert ocomei n Si dney : " wher e' smybabydaddy ? " Shesay sl aughi ng Igi v ehert hel ook Si dney : " I ' m ki ddi ngki ddo, comeon" I fonl ysheknewhowhersi ghtdi sgust sme, I f eel l i ket hr owi nguponherandr ui nt hat beaut i f ul mat er ni t ydr essshe' swear i ngwi t hher f l awl essgl owi ngski nnxa, Ican' thel pbutget badf l ashbackswhenIl ookather , Ihat e her . . butIneedt ol ear nt ol i keher , shei scar r y i ng Qui nt on' sbaby , whowi l l al sobemybabyas wel l . . Idon' tl i ket hi satal l , Iwonderi fI ' l l ev erbe okaywi t ht hi sandj ustbear oundSi dney wi t houtf eel i ngt heur get ov omi torgetbad f l ashbacks.Il eav ehert her eandgof et ch Qui nt on, Igethi m downst ai r sandwal kt hem t o t hecarSi dney : " ar ey ousur ey oudon' twantt o comewi t hus? " Me: " No, I ' m cool , Ihav esomucht odo" Qui nt on: " I ' l l seey oui naf ewhour sbub" Me: " okay . . Sy dney . .Ar ey ousur ey ou' l l beabl et o handl ehel pi nghi mi nandoutt hecarand st uf f ? " Shel ooksathi mt henbackatme Si dney : " Icanhandl ei t " Me: " y ousur e?Causehe' sr eal l yheav ysoy ou' l l hav et of i ndeasyway st ohol dhi m, t heeasi est i swheny ouputhi sonear m ar oundy ourneck and. . . . . . . . Si dney( i nt er r upt i ng) : " y eahy eahIgoti t . . I ' l l manage" Isi gh Me: " okay , pl easedobecar ef ul . . . Iwoul dn' twant any t hi nghappeni ngt ohi m. . . andt hatbabyi n y ourt ummy " Qui nt on: " we' l l bef i nebub, st opst r essi ng" Hehasn' tbeenany wher eordoneany t hi ng wi t houtmesi ncehewasshot Me: " Ican' t " Qui nt on: " t henmay bey oushoul dj ustcome wi t hus" It hi nkabouti tf orawhi l e, i t ' l l j ustmakemef eel l i ket het hi r dwheel onadat ewi t hacoupl e who' saboutt ohav eababyandgetmar r i ed! Gr eatnowIf eel l i kecr y i ng Me: " Nonoi t scool . . It r usty ou' l l begood" Imov emyf acet ohi sandpeckhi sl i pshepul l s myl i ps, Ir ol l myey esasIdeepent heki ss, she cl ear shert hr oatIpul l out , wecangetcar r i ed awaywhenki ssi ng Me: " l ov ey ou" Qui nt on: " y oul ov edbyme" Ihel phi m geti nt hecarandt heydr i v eaway , Igo backi nsi det hehouse Idon' tev enknowwhatt odo, Ican' thel pbut t hi nkabouthersl yhandsal l ov erhi sbody .I hangar oundi nhi sst udy . . If i ddl ewi t hhi sl apt op l ooki ngf orani cemov i e, al t houghIknowal l t he mov i esi nhi sl apt op, If i ndmy sel fi nhi s Facebook, Idon' tknowwhybutheyI ' m al r eady her e, myhandf or cesmet ogot omessenger , I not i ceEnhl eJohnson, Icl i cki ni t , ohwowt hey j ustr ecent l yt al ked, wel l t her e' snot hi ngmuchi n t hei rconv er sat i onsbutIcont i nuescr ol l i ngup t oseemor eunt i l Icomeacr ossabunchof col our f ul emoj i hear t s, i nl ov e, l aughi ngemoj i s Qui nt on: y oust i l l l ooksohot Enhl e: aawwt hanksbabe, y oul ookev enmor e hot t er , Li samustbet aki ngr eal goodcar eof y ou ♥ Qui nt on: y eahshei s, butImi ssy ousomuch Enhl e: sheai n' tgi v i ngi tt oy ougood? Qui nt on: ohshe' sf i ne, buty ouknowt haty ou wer emyf i r stl ov e Enhl e: weshoul dgett oget hersomet i me? Qui nt on: Ican' tgoany wher ewi t houtheronmy t ai l Enhl e: t heny oushoul dmakeapl an Qui nt on: I ' l l t r y . . . any t hi ngt oseey ouagai n Enhl e: y eahwehav eal ott ocat chupon Qui nt on: y esbae. . . sot el l mehow' sy ourf ami l y ? Enhl e: t heygood, besi dest hef actnooneknows wher emyol derbr odi sappear edt o, i t sbeen r eal l yst r essf ul onus Qui nt on: t hat ' sabommerIwonderwhywoul d hej ustdi sappear Enhl e: dadhasbeensost r essedhecan' tdo any t hi ng. . Il ogout , Ican' tr eadany mor e, howcoul dhedo t hi st ome? !Thatsonofabi t ch! !OhhhI ' m so donewi t hhi sass! ! !Hecangot ohel l ! !Ar gh! ! Me: " Al l t hi st i meI ' v ebeenpeepi nghi s but t , bat hi nghi m!Feedi nghi mi nmor eway s t hanone! !Car r y i nghi sheav yassar ound! !Then hedoest hi st ome! !Wi t hEnhl eofal l peopl e! ! ! Hedoesn' tf uckenr espectme! !Hedoesn' t ! ! !He doesn' t ! !Howmanyt i mesdoIhav et ogethur t byQui nt onf ormet ol eav ehi m!Causei t scl ear he' sj ustpr et endi ngme, whenev er y onehashi s backonhi m her unst ome, whatam It ohi m?I don' tgeti t !Cansomeonebet hi smuchofa goodact or ? . .OhmyGoshI ' m sodone! ! [ 07/ 30, 13: 17]Ron: Cont i nuat i on LI SA Icoul dn' tl eav e, Ij ustcoul dn' tl eav e, Iwasso sur eI ' ml eav i nghi m asIst eppedoutoft hat of f i cebutIcoul dn' t , somet hi ngwi t hi nmej ust coul dn' tal l owmet ogetoutt hatdoor , Idon' t knowwhy ?I ' m notev enmar r i edt ot hi sper son! I t snotl i keIhav eki dst owor r yabout , whycan' t Godj ustal l owmet ol eav eQui nt on, whenev er weseem t obev er yhappysomet hi ngal way s bur stourbubbl e.Ihat et hi s, whyshoul dIst and f ort hi s?I ' m ei ght eeny etIhav epr obl emsofa f or t yy earol dwho' sbeenmar r i edf ort went y y ear swi t hf i v eki ds! .Andcansomeonet el l me what ' st aki nghi m sol ongatst upi dt went y mi nut eappoi nt ment ! ?Hebet t erbeokayand hav i ngt het i meofhi sl i f ecausei fsomet hi ng badhashappenedt ohi m, Ir eal l ydon' tf eel l i ke f eel i ngsor r yf orhi mr i ghtnow, Iwantt ogi v e hi mt engoodhotsl aps, t henaskhi m whati she doi ngdi sappear i ngf orsomanyhour swi t h Sy dney .Whydoest hi sguyl ov ehur t i ngmel i ke t hi s! ?Hecoul d' v eatl eastcal l edandt el l me t hey ' l l bel at eI ' m notev engoi ngt ocal l t hem! Nx !I ' m supperf ur i ousr i ghtnow. . Ipaceupand downt hehouse, Il ookupt ocheckt het i meby t hecl ocki tpastei ght . . wher et hehel l ar et hey ! ! ? . . . . . . . Mysi ngi ngf adesasIseet hecakeal r eadycut Me: " ohno, hef oundi t " " Uhm Li sa. . . .It hi nky oumi ghtwannaseet hi s" Shest ar i ngatsomet hi ngbyt hecouchIwal kup t oher Me: " hef oundt hesur pr i secakeI . . . . . . . . . " It r ai l of fasIseewhaty onel ai sst ar i ngat Qui nt on' scl ot hesar eont hef l oorandhi s br ei f s, al sol i nger i eand myni ghtdr ess, Il ookatt het abl eandnot i ce t woempt ygl asses t heot heronehasl i pst i ckst ai ns Yonel a( br eaki ngv oi ce) : " ohno. . . Li sa. . . I ' m so sor r y " Ichuckl et henst ar tl aughi ngf orr eal Me( l aughi ng) : " No. . . t hi si snotQui nt on' s cl ot hes. . .I tcan' tbe" Iwal kupst ai r s Me: " Q! !Baby ! ! " Iopenourr oom andIswearmyhear tsl i pped outofmybody asmybodyf r eezesandIbecomecol d, t hey undert hecov er s andar emov i ngsof ast , hermoansf i l l upt he r oom, nott hi s agai n! . .If eel myheadget t i ngdi zzy , Ihol di twi t h bot hmyhands asi tf eel sl i kei t sgoi ngt of al l of f Me( sof t l y ) : " Qui nt on? " Shei mmedi at el yget sof fhi m, hesi t supand j ustl ooksatme Shecov er sher sel fwi t ht hecov er s Sy dney : " oohhLi zzy . . i t snotwhati tl ooksl i ke" Myey esar egl uedatt hemanIt houghtl ov ed me Me: Qui nt on?" Qui nt on: " ppsshhh. . . oops" Myj awdr opsdi dhej ustsayt hat ?I t sl i kehe' s notev enshocked Icaughthi m, hedoesn' tcar e Qui nt on: " howl ongar ey ougoi ngt oj ustst and t her e? " Iswal l owt hebi ggestl umponmyt hr oati t al mostchokedme Me: " i nourbed?I nourhome? " Qui nt on: " mybed. . . myhome. . . mydi ck" Me: . . . . . . . . . . . Isi tdown, hol di ngmyhead, If eel ashar ppai ni n head, ohGodpl easemakei tbet t er , Ican' tdi e now, IgetupIcan' tev enwal kpr oper l y , Igett o t heki t chenandpourmy sel fagl assofwat er andgul pi tdown, Ikneel downonmyknees Me: " Al mi ght yGod, pl easegi v emet hest r engt h, gi v emet hest r engt ht ot akecar eoft hi s si t uat i onmat ur el y . . . Gi v emet hehear tt of or gi v e Qui nt onnomat t erhowbadhe' swr onged me. . . . . butl or dsohel pmei fIt aket hekni f ei n t hatdr awandsl i thi st hr oatof fIsweart oGod t hatboyget si nmyl astner v eI ' l l . . . . . . Theshar ppai ncomesback Me: " okayokay , I ' m sor r y , I ' m cal m, Ipr ay wher ev ert heyar e, t heyal l saf ef at her , i f somet hi ngwentwr ongwi t ht hebaby , Ipr ayt o y ouf at hert ocov eri twi t ht hehol yspi r i t , cov er t hem wi t ht hel ov i ngbl oodofy oursonJesus Chr i st , i nJesusnameIpr ay , Amen" Iopenmyey eandIf eel mor eateaseand l i ght er , t heheadachei sgone Myphoner i ngs, Ipi ckupi mmedi at el y Me: " hel l o? " " HeyLi ss, cany oupl easecomef et chi satt he hospi t al ? " Ist andonmyf eeti npani c Me: " ar ey ouokay ?Whathappened?Ar ey ou hur t ? . . pl easet el l mey ouokaypl ease. . di dshe dr opy ou? " " Nocal m downLi sa, i t snotme, i t sSy dney " Apar ti nmecool sdownandIsi ghi nwar dl y . . Am Icr uel ? Me: " oh! .Whathappened! ?" " I ' l l expl ai nev er y t hi ng, pl easej ustgether eand f et chus" Me: " okay , I ' l l ber i ghtt her e" " Okayt hanks" Hedr opst hecal l , hesoundssodown, Ipr ayt he babyi sokay . . . ohandSy dneyofcause, Ir un upst ai r st oourr oom andgr abmyl i ghtj acket andcarkeyt henr andownst ai r soutt hehouse andl ockedt hedoorbehi ndmeal soset t i ngt he al ar m, Ar ght hi scar !I t st akesmeanot hert en mi nut est ogeti tont her oad, f i nal l y !Imakei tt o t hehospi t al , Icomei nr unni ngt hr owi ngmy ey esar ound, IspotQui nt onandIwal kt owar ds hi m Qui nt on: " heybub" Ican' thel pi t , I ' m huggi nghi m. . Iwal kcl oserand bendt ohi sl ev el andhughi m Me: " Iwassowor r i edabouty ou" Qui nt on: " I ' m sor r yLi ss, Ishoul d' v ecal l edear l i er butIdi dn' tt hi nki twoul dbet hi sser i ousand t aket hi sl ong" Isi ghandsi tont hechai rnextt ohi m Me: " whathappened? " Qui nt on: " whenwewer edoi ngt he ul t r asound, weonl yhear dt hehear tbeatf orf ew secondst heni tst oppedf oral ongwhi l e, sot he doct orhadt ocheckherupandf i xt hepr obl em" Me: " ohmyGod, t hat ' shor r i bl e, soi st hebaby okaynow? " Qui nt on: " y eah, t heyj ustt ol dmeaf ewmi nut es bef or eIcal l edy ou" Me: " dot heyknowt her easonwhyt hi smay happen? " Qui nt on: " t heysayusual l ywhenaf et al hear t beatst opsi t sami scar r ybuther swas st oppi ngandcomi ngbackagai nt heni t ' dst op f orl ongt hencomebackagai n, butj ustaf ew mi nut esbef or eIcal l edy ouev er y t hi ngwas okay , t heyal sodon' tknowhowt heysav edt he baby , i twasami r acl e, sot heysay " Coul di tbet hatt hi shadsomet hi ngt odowi t h mypr ay er ? Somet hi ngi nmet el l sme" y es"butIi gnor ei t Me: " wel l l et ' st hankGodf ort hat " Qui nt on: " andt hedoct or s, t heywer emor e handson" Hewi l l nev erbel i ev e, i t sagoodt hi ngI ' m br eaki ngupwi t hhi m. . f orgoodt hi st i me, not hi ng hesay swi l l changemymi nd Me: " Sowher ear et hey ? " Qui nt on: " she' l l beoutj ustnow" Me: " okay" Wewai ti nsi l ence, hel ooksv er ydown, Iguess t hi sr eal l yt ookat ol l onhi m ButIhav emyownpr obl emst owor r yabout t hant ocomf or thi mr i ghtnow, i fi twer eany ot herdayI ' dbehol di nghi m andcomf or t i nghi m r i ghtnow, butIj usthat ehi m mor et hanIl ov e hi m att hi smoment , Iwi shInev erev encame her ei nsuchar ush. Thedoct orcomesbackwi t hSy dney Doc: " r emembert oonl yt aket hesepi l l soncea dayf oronl yf i v eday s, notmor et hant hat " Sy dney : " goti tdoc" Hesmi l esandl eav esherwi t hus Iwasaboutt osaysomet hi ngwhenQui nt on r ushedt owar dsherandhel dhert ummyl y i ng hi sheadagai nsti t , Ir ubmyt hr oat , i t ' ssopai nf ul r i ghtnow, If eel l i kescr eami ngatt heagoni zi ng pai ni nsi demychest Qui nt on: " I ' m sogl ady ouokay " He' st al ki ngt ot hebabywhi l eki ssi ngher t ummy , Idon' tt hi nkhe' sr eal i si ngt hi spi ct ur e t hatI ' m seei ngr i ghtnow, If eel l i kean i nt r uder , l i keI ' m notneededher e, hi sl i f ei s compl et e, Idon' tseet heneedoruseofme? Sy dneyr ubshi sheadandhert ummy Sy dney : " he' sokayAmbr ose, don' twor r y " Hel et ' sgoofherandl ooksatmeasi fhe' sj ust r eal i si nghowt hi smustf eel onme, Il ookaway t henl ookdownatmyf eett henl ookupatt hem agai n, Isi gh Me: " I ' m sohappyy ' al l okay " Shesmi l es Sy dney : " ohheyLi sa. .Sor r y , Idi dn' tseey ou t her e" Thatmakest hebot hofy ou, Ican' tdeal wi t h t hi s, Ij ustcan' t Me: " l et ' sgo" Myv oi ceunex pect edl ybr okeonmeandt ear s wer esocl oseasIwal kedf astl eadi ngt heway outoft hehospi t al andi nt ot hecar , Isi tbyt he carf orawhi l e, whi l stt heywer est i l l comi ng, I hadt ogetoutandhel pt hem bot hgeti nt hecar causeSy dneyi sst i l l i npai n, If el tl i keput t i ng t hem bot hi nt hebackseat , Idr ov ebacki n si l ence Me: " sowher edoIdr opy ouof fagai n?" Qui nt on: " oh. . noshecan' tst ayi nt hehot el al one af t ert hi s" I st hi sr eal l ygoi ngt ohappenagai n! ! ! ?I thasn' t ev enbeenay ear ! ! ! Me: " soshe' sst ay i ngwi t hus? " If eel hi ml ooki ngatmebutI ' m nott aki ngmy ey esof ft her oad Qui nt on: " Li sa, I ' mj ustscar edf ort hebaby t hat ' sal l " Me: " i t sf i ne, y ou' v eal r eadymadeupy ourmi nd" Onceagai n Sy dney : " I ' l l gobackhomef i r stt hi ngt omor r ow mor ni ng" Qui nt on: " y oudon' thav et odot hat " Sy dney : " It hi nki t sbestIdo" Me: " don' tev ent r yf oxy , whenQui nt on' smi ndi s madeup, i t smadeup" Thecarf i l l swi t hsi l enceunt i l wer eachhome Ihel pSy dneyoutf i r statl eastshecanwal kon herown, t henIhel pQui nt onwho' sbei ngso st ubbor n Qui nt on: " don' thol dmet her e, It ol dy oui t s uncomf or t abl el i ket hat ! " Ihol dhi mt hewayhewant smet o, I ' m now t r y i ngt ogethi sl egsout Qui nt on: " damnLi sa!Coul dy out r yt obe gent l e! ? " Me: " I ' m sor r y , Idi dn' tseet hewheel chai rwasso cl oset ot hecar " Qui nt on: " i t sf i ne" Ikeepst eadyasIsl owl ywal kt owar dst he wheel chai rwhi chIki ndaki ckedabi tt oof ar whenpushi ngi tawayf orspace Qui nt on: " pl easehur r yup! ! " It r yt ohur r ycauset hewayI ' m hol di nghi mi s notcomf or t abl e Ipushhi mt owar dst hehouse Qui nt on: " Thecarwi l l cl oseandl ocki t sel f ? " Me: " ohy eah" Il eav ehi m andat t emptt owal kt owar dst hecar Qui nt on: " f i r stgett ot hehouseLi sa!Youwer e al r eadysocl ose! . . what ' supwi t hy out oni ght ! ? " Me: " st opshout i ngatme! ? " Qui nt on: " nawegety ourmi ndr i ght ! " Me: " y oudon' thav et obesor ude! ! " Qui nt on: " what ev er ! " If eel t ear st hr eat eni ng, he' sbei ngr eal l ymean t omeandSy dneyi swat chi ngusbyt hedoor si ncei t sl ocked Sy dney : " pl easehur r yLi zzy , myf eetar eki l l i ng me" IpushQui nt ont ot hehouseandunl ockf or t hem t ogoi n Qui nt on: " f i nal l y ! " Wel l Igett hi si showQui nt oni ssomet i mesev er si ncehegotshot , hehashi sday swhenhe' sj ust sourl i kenow, butt odayaf t erev er y t hi ngt hat ' s happened, Ij ustf eel usedandunappr eci at ed, I bur sti nt ot ear sasIr eacht hecar , Igeti nand j ustcr y , howwi l l Iev ent el l hi m Isawhi s messageswi t hEnhl e?Ican' tt el l hi m Iwas goi ngt hr oughhi spr i v acy , t henhe' l l f i ndawayof t hr owi ngt hi swhol et hi ngatme, may beIshoul d j ustshutupwi t ht heEnhl est or yandj ust obser v e, causet hesemessageswer ef r om dur i ngt hi sweek. Isayashor tpr ay ert henwal kbackt ot hehouse al l cal meddown, If i ndSy dneyl y i ngont he couchandQui nt oni snowher ei nsi ght Iwal kt oheraf t erl ocki ngt hedoorbehi ndme Me: " sohowy ouf eel i ng?" Sy dney : " I ' m notgoodatal l " Me: " woul dy oul i kesomet hi ngt oeat ? " Sy dney : " ohgodI ' m al way shungr y , soIwoul dn' t saynot of ood" Me: " okayt hen, Idi dn' tcookt oni ghtbutt her e' s st i l l l ef tov er sf r om y est er day . . Ihopey oudon' t mi nd? " Sheshowsadi sgust edf ace. . Sy dney : " mmhcanwej ustor derpi zza? " Me: " t her e' spl ent yoff ood, i t sst i l l f r eshIcanj ust war mi tup, i twi l l beasgoodasnew" Sy dney : " i t ' sf i nei fy oucan' taf f or dI ' l l pay " Yoohht hi sB. . . . . Isi gh. . . okay , beni ceLi sa, she' s pr egnant Me: " t hat ' sokay , I ' l l cal l f oranor der " Sy dney : " t hankski ddo" That ' swhatIam t oher . . aki d. . wel l shei sol der t hanQui nt on, she' st went ysi x, soshe' sway ol dert hanme, t hat ' swhyshedon' tr espectme Il eav eherandgocal l debonai r s. . . Igoupst ai r s andchangei nt oPJs Igobackdownst ai r s Me: " hav ey ouseenQui nt on?" Sy dney : " Hewentt owar dst hest udyr oom" Myhear tr aces, IhopeIdi dn' tl eav eanypr oofof t hatIwasi nhi sFacebook, .Di dIev enl ogout ?I don' tt hi nkIdi d, Ij ustwentoutwi t houtl oggi ng of f ! !Shi t !Igot ot hest udyandknock Il etmy sel fi nsi ncehe' si gnor i ngmyknocks Me: " hey " Icl oset hedoorwhi l el ooki ngathi m st i l l busy onhi sl apt op Me: " whaty ouupt o? " Hel ooksupatmet henbackt ohi sl apt op, what i fhe' schat t i ngt oEnhl e? ! Isi tont hechai ropposi t et hedesk Me: " Qui nt on? " Hei gnor esme, cansomeoner emi ndmeof somet hi ngbadt hatIdi dt hatmi ght ' v emade hi mt hi smoody ? Me: " ay i bo, l ov e?I sev er y t hi ngokay ? " Hecl oseshi sl apt opandl ooksatmef ort he l ongestt i me Qui nt on: " wer ey oui nmyof f i ce? " Me: " Why ? " Qui nt on: " Iaskedy ouaquest i onf i r st " Me: " y eah, Idi dcomei n" Qui nt on: " f orwhat ? " Me: " Iwant edt owat chamov i e" Qui nt on: " di dy ouf i ndi tonFacebook? " Myhear taccel er at esmybl oodt emper at ur e r i ses Me: " what ?No! " Qui nt on: " r eal l y ?Causey ouf or gott ol ogof f ? " Me: " Idi dn' tgoony ourFacebookQui nt onwhy woul dIdot hat , y ouknowweagr eedt onev er i nv adeeachot her sspace. . . y oupr obabl yf or got t ol ogof fwheny ouwentonl i ne" Hel ooksatmef orawhi l eIl ookathi m wi t ha st r ai ghtf ace Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " y our i ght , I ' m sor r y " Me: " t hat ' scool , pl easedon' tev eraccusemeof suchagai n" Henods Me: " andbesi desIwoul dn' tsneaki nt oy our soci al medi a. . becauseIt r usty ou, Iknowt hat y ouwoul dn' tdoany t hi ngt hatwoul dbe di sr espect i ngmei nanyway . . r i ght ?" Qui nt on: " r i ght , I ' dnev erdot hat " Li es!Ri ghti nf r ontofmyf ace Me: " y ou' dnev erputmet hr ought hatagai n woul dy ou? " Qui nt on: " I ' dnev erputy out hr ought hatLi sa" Me: " Il ov ey ouQui nt on" Qui nt on: " Il ov ey oumor e" Hepusheshi msel ft owar dsme Qui nt on: " don' tcr yLi ss. .I ' l l nev erputy ou t hr oughsomuchpai nagai n" Me: " Sy dneyi sher eagai n?" Qui nt on: " Ipr omi seshe. . . Me: " No. . . don' tpr omi set hat , Idon' tt r usther Qui nt on, shecameher ef ormor e, she' snotdone Qui nt on, shecan' tbar et oseey ouhappywi t h me, Idon' tknowherpl any et , butIcansenset he dev i l i sonhersi de, pl easel i st ent ome Qui nt on, l et ' snotal l owher " Qui nt on: " Li sa, whataboutt hebaby ?Iwantt o wat chhi m gr owev er y dayi nt het ummyIwant t obet her eont hedayhe' sconcei v ed, howwi l l I doi ti fIdon' tt akecar ei sSy dneyandmake sur eshe' sheal t hy , f ormybabyboyt obeheal t hy t oo. . . ( chuckl es) . . .I t saboybyt heway " Yeey i ! !I ' m sohappyt oheart hat !I ' m ov ert he moon!Mxm! Me: " whataboutme? " Qui nt on: "whatabouty ou? " Ican' tbel i ev ehej ustsai dt hat ! Me: " whatabouthowIf eel ? " Qui nt on: " whataboutt hebaby ? " Me: " Qui nt on!Younothear i ngmeagai n!" Qui nt on: " Li saI ' m hear i ngy ou, I ' v ebeenhear i ng y ou, butnotIdon' tknowhowt okeepupwi t h y ouany mor e, onemi nut ey out el l i ngmet hi st he nexty out el l i ngmet hat ? . . . y ounotmaki ng senseany mor e, f i r sty ouf or cemet ot oaccept t hebabyandshowi tf at her l yl ov e, nowy ou t el l i ngmet ost ayawayf r om t hemot herofmy chi l d? . . how! ? . . howam Igoi ngt obepar toft he babyi fI ' m notpar toft hemot her ' sl i f e?. how Li sa? . . . nowy out el l i ngmeabouty ourf eel i ngs? Di dn' tIasky oui fy ousur eaboutt hi s?I fdoy ou r eal l yt hi nkIshoul dbepar toft hi scauseInev er want edany t hi ngt odowi t hi t , y ouknowwhy Li sa?BecauseIwaspr ot ect i ngy ourf eel i ngs. . Yest hosev er ysamef eel i ngsy ouonl yt hi nki ng aboutnow. . nowI ' m al r eadyat t achedt ot hi s baby , andIdon' twantt ol osei t " Hehol dsmyhands Qui nt on: " Iwantt obehi sdad" Me( t ear y ) : " I thur t sQ" Qui nt on: " Iknow. . Iknowi thur t sLi sa, andt he l astt hi ngIwanti st ohur ty ou" Iy ankhi shandsof fmi neandshakemyhead wi t ht ear sst r eami ngdown Me: " Ican' tdot hi sQui nt on. .It houghtIcoul d handl et hi s. . butIcan' t , i t st oomuchf orme" Qui nt on: " pl easebub, don' tgi v eupnow, we' v e beent hr oughwor se, pl ease, Ineedy ou" Ishakemyheadmor e Me: " y ou. . . y oucheat i ngonme? " Hel ooksatmeconf used Me: " ar ey oucheat i ngonme? " Qui nt on( per pl exed) : " No!Nev er ! " Me: " don' tl i et omeQui nt on" Qui nt on: " Ican' tbel i ev ey ouaccusi ngmeof such. . . I ' v ebeenher ewi t hy out went yf oursev en ony ourwat ch, wher ewoul dIgett het i meor ev ent heener gyt ot hi nkaboutcheat i ng? . .Why woul dIev encheatony ou?WhenIl ov ey ouso much? " Me: " somet i mesl ov ei snotenough, t her e' sway s ar oundcheat i ngQui nt on" Qui nt on: " nowy ouj ustpi ssi ngmeof f , whatt he f uckLi sa! ? " Me: " Justl ookatmest r ai ghti nt heey esandt el l mey ounotcheat i ngonme" Hemov esr eal l ycl ose Qui nt on: " I . AM. NOT. CHEATI NG. ON. YOU. LI SAKHANYA. M THETHWA! " Me: " Ican' tbel i ev ey oul ookedmest r ai ghti nt he ey esandLi edt ome!YousuchaJer k! " Qui nt on: " Li sa!I ' m notf uckencheat i ngony ou dammi t !Whycan' ty ougett hatt hr oughy our t hi ckskul l ! ! !Huh! !Whatt hef ucki sy our pr obl em! ! " Me: " Youar emyPr obl em Qui nt on! !I ' m si ckand t i r edofy ou! !Iam si ckandt i r edofy our st ubbor nnessandbossi ngmear oundal l t he t i me, ofy oumaki ngsceneswhenwegoi n publ i candnotwantmet ohel py ou!Youar emy pr obl em, notbecauseIdon' tl i ket aki ngcar eof y ou. . becauseIdo, butbecausey oudon' t appr eci at eany t hi ngI ' v edonef ory ou!Youso ungr at ef ul , Idon' thav et obeher eQui nt on!I ' m noty ourwi f e!Idon' thav et ost andupt oal l y our cr ap! !Idon' t , I ' m st i l l y oungandIst i l l hav ea f ut ur e!ButbecauseIl ov ey ou!BecauseIsoooo st upi dl yl ov ey ou, It akei nal l y oubul l shi t !Al l y ourcr ap! ! " Qui nt on: i fy ousot i r edwhydon' ty ouj ustgo?" Me: " t her ey ougoagai n!Pushi ngmeaway !Why can' twej ustt al knor mal l ywi t houty our ai si ng y ourv oi ceatmehuh! ! " Qui nt on: " what ' sy ourpr obl em Li sa! ?Whatdi dI dot oy ou! ?I fy oual way sgoi ngt or emi ndmeof howy out aki ngcar eofmeal onewi t hno hel p, whi chmeansy ouwantmet or epayy ouf or t hi s! ?Youdoi ngt hi ssot hatIowey ou?Ory ou j ustdoi ngi tsot hatweev enf oral l t het hi ngs I ' v edonef ory ou? " Me: " ohmyGoshIdon' tbel i ev ehowl owy ou t hi nkofme! " Qui nt on: " THENTELLMEYOURFUCKEN PROBLEM DAMMI T! " Me: " IWENTTHROUGHYOURFACEBOOK.I SAW YOURMESSAGESWI THENHLE! ! ! .THAT' S MYPROBLEM QUI NTON!THAT' SMYFUCKEN PROBLEM! !" * si l ence* Qui nt on( cal ml y ) : " Li sa. . . I . . Icanexpl ai n. . " If ol dmyar ms Me: " expl ai n! " Iwai tf oranexpl anat i on * si l ence* Me: " wow, y oudon' thav eanexpl anat i ondo y ou? " Hel ooksatmewi t hpl eadi ngey es Qui nt on: " i t snott her i ghtt i mef ormet o expl ai n" What ! ! ?Thatwasi t , t hatwast he' Tsek! ' ' The f uckof f ' t he' l eav eIdon' tneedy ou' t he' i t doesn' tconser ny ou' st at ement Me( cal ml y ) : " Qui nt on, pl easeexpl ai n, Idon' t wantt owal koutt hi sdoorbef or ey ouexpl ai n, causeI ' l l nev ercomebackagai n" Her emai nsqui et Me: " Qui nt on.Ambr ose.O' Br i en. . . .Goodby e" It ur nandopent hedoor , Iwai tami nut ebut don' tt ur nback, buthest i l l r emai nsqui et , Iwal k outandcl oset hedoor . . andt hatwast henend ofLi sakhany aandQui nt on. .I ' m done!I ' m goi ng t ol i v emyl i f emyway , I ' m goi ngt of i ndawayt o usemygi f tI ' l l car r yonwi t hmyLi f e. . butI ' m donewi t hMrO' Br i en!Done! [ 07/ 30, 13: 17]Ron: I nser t51 LI SA " I ' m onmykneespr ay i ngt oy ouAl mi ght y f at her , becausef i ght i ngmybat t l eswhi l eonmy kneesi sbet t ert hanf i ght i ngt hem onmy f eet , I ' m pr ay i ngf at herI ' m pr ay i ngbecause pr ay eri snotget t i ngGodpr epar edt odomy wi l l , butpr ay eri sget t i ngmepr epar edt odo God' swi l lpr ay eri sal sot heonl ywayt or el ease t hesuppernat ur al powerofGodi nmyl i f et o showmegr eatandmi ght yt hi ngsIknownot , pr ay eri st hekeyt hatunl ockst hegat esof heav enandshut st hegat esofhel lIpr ayf or uni t yamongt hoset hatl ov ey ou, Ipr ayf ory our handofpr ot ect i onandgui dance, Ipr ayt haty ou openmyey essot hatIseey ourt r ut hLor d, dear GodIdon' tasky out omakemyl i f eanyeasi er butIasky out opl easegi v emet hest r engt ht o ov er comeandf aceal l myt r oubl es. . . . Ipr ayt hat y ouf or gi v emef ormysi ns. . ( si ghs) . . . buty ou can' tr eal l ydot hatr i ght ? . . becauseIhav en' t f or gi v ent hosewhot r espassagai nstme? . . . Lor d Ipr ayt haty oucl eansemyhear tWi t ht he power f ul , car i ng, heal i ng, pur eandf or gi v i ng nameofJesusChr i stIf or gi v et hosewhohav e t r espassedagai nstme, If or gi v et hosewhohav e decei v edme, t hosewhohav eabused me, emot i onal l y , v er bal l yandphy si cal l y , t hose whot akengr ant edofmypr esencei nt hei r l i v es, If or gi v et hem al l f at her , asy oursonJesus Chr i stsai d, f at herf or gi v et hem f ort hyknownot whatt hydo, If or gi v el or dandIal soaskf or f or gi v eness, Ipr ayal l t heset hi ngswi t hal l my hear t , Amen" . . . I t sbeent womont hssi nceI ' v ebeenhome, but r ecessi sov ernow, i t sanewy earandIhav en' t spokent oQui nt on, wel l i ti sov erbet weenus butIst i l l r eal l ywantt oheal hi m, he' sbeenmy mot i v at i onf ormet odi scov ermygi f tandI ' m f i nal l yget t i ngt hehangofi t , butt heonl yt hi ngI candoi st omaket hedi amondsgl owandf l oat i nt heai r , butt heydon' tspi nandr ev eal t ome t hi ngs, I ' mj ustgl adI ' v eaccompl i shed somet hi ng, whi chmeansI ' m get t i ngt her e, I don' tknowwhybutIwor r yal otaboutQui nt on notbecause he' si ndangerbutIf eel l i kehe' s down, hi sspi r i ti snotatease, he' snothappy andhecr i esmostoft het i me, Ial way sf i nd my sel fpi cki ngupt hephonet ocal l hi m but f i ghtagai nsti tasIt el l my sel ft hatmay bei t s ourbr eakupt hat ' smaki nghi mf eel t hi swaybut If eel i t smor et hant hat , somet hi ngi sgoi ng on, he' sj ustnotatpeace, Ihat et hatI ' mf eel i ng hi sf eel i ngsi t sl i keI ' m oneper sonwi t h hi m, whenev erIt hi nkhe' scr y i ng, Icr yt ooand heonl ycr i esatni ght , If eel l i keembr aci nghi m andt el l i nghi mt hatev er y t hi ngi sgoi ngt obe okayandI ' m her ef orhi m.. . Ishoul dmov e on, t hatwast hepl anaf t erIl ef thi mf ormet o mov eonwi t hmyl i f e, buthowcanIdot hat whenIf eel soi ncompl et e, l i ket her e' snol i f et o l i v ewi t houtQui nt on, he' sbeent her ef r om t he begi nni nghe' sal way sbeenmypr ot ect orf r om t hev er yf i r stdayIcamet oJo' bur g, butI ' m not aboutt ogobackt her e, hedoesn' tt r ustme enough, hel et ' speopl ei nt ooeasi l y , hecheat ed onme. . ar gh, whyam Iev ent hi nki ngabouthi m! I ' m nowpacki ngmybags " Doy ouhav et ogobackt hi sear l y ? " Il ookupather Me: " mom, school sopennextweek, I ' v ebeen her ef ort womont hs" Mom: " f eel sl i kei twasonl yf ewday s" Me: " aawwI ' l l mi ssy out omama" Mom: " I ' m sohappyaboutt hi sGodf ear i ng womany ou' v ebecome" Me: " comeonmom, y out al ki ngl i keI ' mt hi shol y hol yper son" Mom: " y oudon' thav et obehol yhol y , apr ay i ng womani sapower f ul woman" Me( si ghs) : " i t st aki ngmef or ev ert of i gur emy gi f tout " Mom: " y oudoi ngwel l sof ar , r ememberoneof t hef r ui t si fGod. . . Pat i ence" Me: " Iknow, I ' l l bepat i ent" Mom: " y oushoul dal soputy ourpr i deasi deand gocheckuponhi m" Me: " Nomom, hedi dn' tev ent r yt ost opmeor expl ai nt omeaf t erIcaughthi m cheat i ng, he obv i ousl ydoesn' tcar eaboutme, whyshoul dI car ehowhe' shol di ngup, he' sj ustsoi gnor antof myf eel i ngsatt i mesIswearsomet i mesi tf eel s l i keIdon' tmeanshi tt ohi m. . . f or gi v emy l anguage" Mom: " soy ouhav en' tf or gi v enhi m? " Me: " I ' v ef or gi v enhi m. . . Ial way sf or gi v ehi m, he' s oneper sonIf i ndeasyt of or gi v e. . .ButI ' m st i l l hur t , Idon' twantt ohol dgr udgesbuthedoesn' t car emom, hedoesn' tcar eatal l " Mom: " y ouseem t obef ocusi ngonal l t he wr ongshedoes, i fy oul ookatt hegoodand l ov i ngt hi ngshe' sdonef ory ou, dot hey ov er powert hewr ongshe' sdonet oy ou? " It akemyt i met oanswert hatquest i on Me: " Yeah. . . butmom, whenhehur t sme. . i thur t s sobad, i t sal way sanot herwoman, i t sal way st he sameway , t hemostpai nf ul way , If eel l i keI ' m j ustnotenoughf orhi m, l i keIj ustdon' tsat i sf y hi m, hef eel st heneedt ol ookf ormor e, he' s sel f i sh, he' sungr at ef ul , Igi v ehi m myal l , myl ov e mybodyev enmysoul , buthej ustdoesn' tgeti t " Mom: " anddespi t eofal l t hewr ongshe' sdone, doesGodst i l l l ov eQui nt on?" Me: " obv i ousl y , Godl ov eshi m nomat t erwhat " Mom: " doy oul ov ehi m? " Me: . . . . . Me: " mor et hanany t hi ng. .ButI ' mj ustsoangr y athi m" Mom: " gr ace. . . . heneedst hatf r om y out oo" Me: " mom, Idon' tf eel l i kehedeser v esi t , henev er ev enaskedf orf or gi v enesshenev erbot her ed t oexpl ai nhi msel f , y oudon' tgeti tmom, he mademef eel l i keI ' m not hi ng, l i keI ' m not needed" Mom: " whenJesusdi edont hecr ossand sacr i f i cedhi sl i f el i f ef ory ousot haty oucanbe f or gi v ensot haty ouandGodcoul dbe r econci l ed, t hatwasHi sgr acef ory ou. . .Doy ou t hi nky oudeser v ei t ? " Il ookatherf oral ongwhi l e Me: " No" Mom: " butst i l l heshowsy ouhi si mmor t al gr ace ev ent houghy oudon' tdeser v ei t . . becausehe' s l ov ef ory oui sl i mi t l ess. .Doy out hi nky oucan dot hatf orQui nt on?" Me: . . . . . Mom: " t her ear esomanyt hi ngsIhadt of or gi v e y ourf at herf or . . sosomanyhear t br eaki ng t hi ngs, butIf or gav ehi m. . . andbydoi ngt hat , i t f r eedme, Li sababy , i t st i mey oul ett heGodi n y out akeov ermyl ov e, somet i mesi fy ouwantt o wi nt hewary ouhav et ost epdownandl etGod f i ghtt hebat t l easheof f er st odoi nt hebi bl e" Isi ghandsi tdown Mom: " don' tgi v eSat ant hesat i sf act i on, show hi m who' si nchar gei ny ourl i f e, hedoesn' thav e t heaut hor i t yov ery ou" She' st al ki ngawhol el ot t asense, i t st i meIl et Godf i ghtf orme, I ' mt ooweakt odoi tmy sel f any mor e Mom: " t hi nkabouti t " * * * * Me: " y esI ' m happywi t hev er y t hi ng, i t ' l l bej ust f i ne" Landl or d: " I ' m gl ady oul i kei t , i t snot hi ng much, I ' m st i l l goi ngt ohi r eapl umbert of i xt he geezerv er ysoon" Me: " okay , I ' l l sur v i v e, t hanky ou" Hi m: " cal l i fy ouexper i enceanymor epr obl ems" Me: " Iwi l l " Hesmi l eandwal ksout . Wel l If oundanewapar t ment , i t snot hi ng much, onebedr oom, onebat hr oom wi t hat oi l et andashower , andabi gopenspacet hatcanbe di v i dedt obet heki t chenandl ounge, Ij usthav e t osepar at ei twi t hat abl eorsomet hi ng, i t sa r eal l ysmal l f l atbutsi nceI ' m al onei t sj ustr i ght al t houghi tl ooksl i keal otneedst obe mai nt ai ned, Ihopet hepl umbercomessoon andt hatt hel andl or dandIcoul dgetal ong, I ' d hat et ohav et or emi ndhi m al l t het i me. Icoul dn' tgobackt oy onel a, Idon' twantt o i nt r ude, she' sdi st ancedher sel fal otf r om me, si nceImov edbacki nwi t hQui nt ont ot ake car eofhi m af t erhegotshot , she' sj ustbeen di st ant , Igett hatshedoesn' tl i keQui nt onaf t er t hewayhet r eat edme, butt hatdoesn' tmean sheshoul dst opt al ki ngt ome, Icoul d' v eused hel psomet i mes, y ouknowj ustsomeonet o comecheckuponme, butnot hi ng, I ' m notgoi ng t ogoar oundaski ngherwhat ' sherpr obl em, I ' l l al sokeepmymout hshutandmov eon, t hel ast t hi ngIneedi sandi sl oy al f r i endal t houghImi ss heral otatt i mes, ev enQui nt on' ssi bl i ngs t hey ' v enev ercheckeduponhi m, i t sal way sj ust beenhi m andI , I ' m soant i soci al , Idon' tev en knowhowt omakef r i endsany mor e, Qui nt on andYonel ahav ebeenmyonl yf r i ends, but now, y eahi ti swhati ti sneh. . . l i f egoeson. Iset t l ei nandpackev er y t hi ngofmi neaf t ert he v andel i v er edmyf ewst uf fl i ket hebedand f ur ni t ur eandal l t hat . Af t eraf ewhour sIwasdoneandj ustr el axi ng onmybed Aknocki scomi ngf r om t hedoor , Igetupandgo t owar dst hemai ndoor Me: " whoi si t ! ? " " Nei ghbour " Iunl ockandopenanday oungl adywhol ooks myagei sst andi ngi nf r ontofme Her : " goodev eni ng" Me: " ev eni ng, canIhel py ou? " , Her : " oh, mynamei sThel maIl i v enextdoor , I not i cedy oumov i ngi near l i eron" Me: " ohYeah, y esIj ustmov edi n" Thel ma: " Iknowy oupr obabl yt i r edsi ncey ou j ustmov edi n, y oupr obabl yal sot oot i r edt o cook" Ihav enot hi ngt ocookact ual l y Me: " y eah, butIwasj ustgoi ngt ohav et eaand br ead" Thel ma: " Iwasaboutt ogot ot own, Idon' tr eal l y hav emuchf r i endsar oundher esodoy oumi nd accompany i ngme? " Yoht hi sgi r l t hough, howcansheaskat ot al st r angert oaccompanyher ? Andwhyshoul dIt r usther ? Me: " wel l , t her e' sst i l l somanyboxesIhav et o empt yupand. . . Thel ma: " wewon' tbel ong, pl ease" Wel l Iam hungr y , butIdon' thav emoneyt o wast esi nceI ' l l ber ent i ngal onewi t ht hel i t t l e moneyIgetf r om t hebur sar yandf r om mom Me: " IguessIcoul duseabr eak" Shef l ashesabi gsmi l e Thel ma: " l et ' sgo" Me: " wai ther e" Ir unt ot her oom t owearaj acketandshoes, I al r eadyhadaj eanon Me: " l et ' sgo" Il ockandweheadt owar dsav er yni cecarAudi A4 Me: " t hi sy our s? " Shenods Thel ma: " y ep, goti tl asty earonmyei ght eent h bi r t hday " Me: " wowpeopl edot hati nr eal l i f e? " Shel aughs Thel ma: " i twasn' teasy , Ihadt opassmat r i cwi t h st r ai ghtAs" Me: " andy oudi d? " Thel ma: " Ionl ygott hr eeAsbuti twasgood enought oi mpr essmom anddad" Me: " wow" Thel ma: " i fIhadpassedwi t hal l AsIwoul d' v e gotabi ggerandbet t eronemay bear anger ov er orsomet hi ng" Me: " damny oumeani fIwer ey ouI ' dbedr i v i ng ar anger ov ernow? " Shel aughs Thel ma: " y oupassedwi t hst r ai ghtAs? " Me: " y eah, 95sandabov e" Hermout hhangsopen Thel ma: " wooowi fIgott hat , I ' dhav emyown pent housei nsandt onandacar " Me: " dude!Let ' sexchangel i v es. . . pl ease" Thel ma: " sowher ewi l l y oust udynexty ear ? " Me: " I ' l l bedoi ngmyt hi r dy eari nWi t s" Shet akesherey esoft her oadf orawhi l et o l ookatmet henl ooksbackatt her oad Thel ma: " howol dar ey ou? " Me: " I ' l l bet ur ni ngni net eeni nt womont hs t i me, mar ch" Thel ma: " I ' mt ur ni ngni net eennextmont h. . when di dy ouf i ni shschool ? " Me: " atsi xt een" Thel ma: " whi l eIwasbusywai t i ngt i mei ngr ade t eny oumeanIcoul d' v ej ustski ppedst r ai ghtt o v ar si t y ? " Il augh Me: " y epal l y ouneededt owasj ustknowabi t mor eandst udyabi text r at hany ournor mal gr adeav er age" Thel ma: " y oumeandohar derwor kt hant he har donet heywer eal r eadygi v i ngus?Not hank y ou" Me( l aughi ng) : " guessy ouwoul dn' tunder st and" Wet al kaboutot herr andom st uf funt i l we r eachedst eer s Me: " It hi nkI ' l l set t l ef orKFC" CauseI ' m br oke, butwoul dn' twannaputi tout t her e Thel ma: " ohcomeon, st eer sbur ger sar et he bestandt her i bscomeon" Me: " naahhIf eel l i keKFCr i ghtnow" Thati snothal fofwhatIf eel buti twi l l do Thel ma: " pl ease. . . i t sonme" Me: " Iwoul dn' twannai nco. . . . Thel ma: " Notatal l . nowcomeon! " Shepul l smeandwer ant owar dsst eer swe or der edandat ear oundt het abl e, she' sr eal l y bubbl yandki ndav er yt oomuchl oud, i nagood way Thel ma: " t her e' st hi spar t ygoi ngdowni n Sandt onmycl assmat ef r om l asty eari shost i ng i t , Idi dn' tf eel l i kegoi ngbutnowt hatweal r eady outandabout , doy ouwannago? " It hi nkabouti t , i t sbeenawhi l esi nceI ' v ebeen outt oanypar t yl i keav er yl ongt i me, si ncel ast y eari nt hebegi nni ngoft hey eart wi ce?Orwas i tonce? . . . damn Me: " NahI ' m cool " Thel ma: " wowy ourt hi nki ngf acegav emeso muchhope" Il augh Me: " y ouknowwhat . . . Idoneedabr eak, wear e bor edei ght eeny earol dswi t hacarf r eet ogo any wher e, sol et ' shav esomef un" Thel ma( shout s) : " That ' smyki ndaguur r r l l l l ! ! " Oookay .Al l ey esonus Me: " y eahl et ' sgetoutofher ebef or esomeone ki cksusout " Thel ma( l aughs) : " goodi dea" Wel aughandwal kout , shedr i v esr eckl essl yt o t hepar t ywi t hmusi conskyhi gh Us( si ngi ng) : " I t ' sgoi ngdown, I ' my el l i ngt i mber Youbet t ermov e, y oubet t erdance Let ' smakeani ghty ouwon' tr emember I ' l l bet heoney ouwon' tf or get Wooooah( t i mber ) , wooooah( t i mber ) , wooooah ( i t ' sgoi ng down) Wooooah( t i mber ) , wooooah( t i mber ) , wooooah ( i t ' sgoi ng down) ! ! " Wesangt i l l wer eachedourdest i nat i on, i t sso packed, t hi shousei sbi gandbeaut i f ul . . . .Il ook ati tandIf eel l i ke. . OneDay . . OneDayLi sa, You' l l Hav eI tAl l . . AndBet t er . Weheadi nsi deaf t ershegav eherdet ai l s I t sev enmor ebeaut i f ul i nsi de, i t spackedwi t ha bunchofsl ayqueensandy oungmen Me: " sowher edowegof r om her e? " Shel ooksatmebl ankl y Themusi ci sr eal l yl oud Thel ma( shout i ng) : " whaaat ! ! " Me( shout s) : " wher edowegof r om her e! !" Thel ma: " Thatway ! ! " Shepoi nt sandweheadt owar dswhatl ooked l i keal oungeandsatont hecouch, shel ooked ar oundunt i l shespot t edagr oupofpeopl e Thel ma: " t her et heyar e, l et ' sgo" Me: " NoI ' l l j ustwai t . . . . Shepul l smebef or eIcanf i ni sh Thel ma: : " HeyGuy s! ! " Ther ewast hr eeguy sandt wogi r l s Guy1: " Heyt hel ms. . . howzi t ? " Thel ma: " I ' m cool " Gi r l 1: " heygi r l , t houghty oucoul dn' tmakei t " Shesay sasshehugs Thel ma: " Icoul dn' t . .Unt i l ImetLi sa, she changedmymi nd" Thecut eguywhohasbeenqui etf i nal l yspeaks Guy 2: " Li sa? " Thel ma: " ohy es. . Li sat hi si sSf i sokuhl ebutwe cal l hi mf i soorsf i so" Guy1: " ni cet omeety ouLi sa" Me: " y out oo" Thel ma: " t hat ' sZwel i swa" Gi r l 1: " hey " Me: " hi " Thel ma: "t hat ' smygi r l Chr i ssy " Gi r l 2: " wazup? " Me: " I ' m cool , y ou? " Gi r l 2: " I ' m cool " Thel ma: " andl ast l yt hat ' st heMrSoccer capt ai n. .Tsepi sobutwecal l hi mt sepo" Henods. . Inodback Thel ma: " hedoesn' tt al kmuch, don' tmi ndhi m" Tsepo: " Thel ma, canIt al kt oy oui npr i v at e? " Shel ooksatmeIgi v ehert hegoahead Thel ma: " I ' l l ber i ghtback. . .Fi ndsomedr i nks andenj oyt hemusi ci nt hemeant i me" Chr i ssy : " don' twor r y , Igother " Thel ma: " y oui ngoodhands" Tsepo: " Iwantt ot al kf oraf ewmi nut esnotki l l y ou" Weal l l aughbuther emai nsser i ousast hey wal kaway Zwel i : " f i so, comedancewi t hme" Theydi sappear ed Chr i ssy : " guessi t ' sj ustt het woofus, doy ou wantadr i nk? " Me: " Not hanks" Chr i ssy : " okay , I ' l l geti tf ory ou" Shewal ksaway , guessshedon' tt akenof oran answer Shecomesbackwhi l emyey eswer est i l l wonder i ngar ound Chr i ssy : " t her ey ougo" Me: " t hanky ou" Shet ookmyhandandwewentt odancewi t h t her est It houghtI ' denj oymy sel fbutt hi spar t ywasj ust bor i ngwi t habunchofst r anger sIdon' tknow, may bei fIcamewi t hy onel ai twoul dbemuch bet t erandThel maj ustdi sappear edonme. . Il ef t Chr i ssydanci ngandf oundmy sel fout si deat t hebackoft hehousebyt hepool ar ea, . . Isat t her ef orawhi l ewi t hmyf eeti nt hepool , noone i sswi mmi ngandt her e' sonl yaf ewpeopl eback her e, maki ngout .Ist ar eatt hebeaut i f ul sky f i l l edwi t ht i nyspar kl i ngst ar s. Ist ar t l easInot i cesomeonesi t t i ngnextt ome wi t hhi sf eetal soi nt hepool Me: " dude. . . y ouscar edme" Thi sdudei ssomet hi ngel se, he' sv er ywel l bui l t , har dl ysmi l esort al ksandhi sgoodl ooksar e i nt i mi dat i ng, hi sdar kski ni st heat t r act i v e ki nd, I ' v enev eri nmyl i f emetadar kski nnedv er y handsomeguy , It houghty ouhav ey oubel i ke Qui nt onf oramant obet oohandsomei nmy ey es, ahhbutQst i l l t akest hecup, al way sand f or ev er . Hel ooksatmeandgi v esmeasi de smi l e, wow, atl easthecansmi l eal t houghi t wasn' tf ul l orgenui ne Il ookbackatt hest ar s, I ' mt i r edofl ooki ngathi s cut ef aceImi ghtendupbl abber i ngbi t chy wor dsandIcanbeabl abberonceI ' v ehada f ewdr i nks Tsepo: " y ounotf r om ar oundher e" I shet el l i ngmeoraski ngme? Me: " okay " Tsepo: " ar ey ou? " Shoul d' v eknowni twasaquest i on Me: " NoI ' m not " Tsepo: " wher ey ouf r om? " Me: " Ir esi dei nbr aamf ont ai nbutI ' m or i gi nal l y f r om East er nCape" Tsepo: " whi chcampusdoy ouat t endt o? " Me: " Wi t s" Hekeepsqui et , wehav en' tbeenl ooki ngateach ot hert hewhol et i me Igl anceathi m he' sst ar i ngatmyf eetwhi char e f l oat i ngont hewat er Me: " You? " Hel ooksatmeourey esl ock Hel ooksabi tt oomat ur et obeaf r eshmen Tsepo: " mewhat ? " Me: " ar ey ouf r om ar oundher e?Whi chcampus doy ouat t endt o?" Tsepo: " Yeaht hi si smyhome, Iat t endUJ" Ohmygoshhest ay sher e! ?Whatt hef r eaky Fr i day ! ? Me: " oh. . . whatar ey oust udy i ng?" Tsepo: " spor tmedi ci ne" I nt er est i ng. .I ' v enev erhear dofi t Me: " t hat ' ssoundsi nt er est i ng, what ' si tabout ?" Tsepo: " i t sabr anchofmedi ci net hatdeal swi t h phy si cal f i t nessandt het r eat mentandpr ev ent i onof i nj ur i esr el at ed t ospor t sandexer ci se" He' sbodysay si tal l , he' saspor t sf r eak Me: wow, y oul ov espor t sdon' ty ou? " Tsepo: " y eah, t hat ' swhyI ' m al socapt ai noft he soccert eam, onceI ' m donest udy i ngI ' dl ov et o beapr of essi onal soccerpl ay er , I ' v eal r eadygot somanyoppor t uni t i est opl ayf oral l t hesoccer t eamsi nsout hAf r i ca. , . . butIhadt or ej ectt hem" He' st onechangedatt hel astpar t , hesounds l i kehe' sv er ypassi onat eaboutsoccer , y oucan heart hei nt er estandexci t ementi nhi sv oi ce whenhet al ksabouti t Me: " why ? " Tsepo: " mypar ent swantmet of i ni shmy st udi esf i r st , Ican' tr el yonsoccer , Ineed somet hi ngt of al l backon, t heyf or cedmet odo medi ci ne, soIchosespor tmedi ci ne, t heydi dn' t mi ndasl ongasi t smedi ci ne, nowIhav et owai t f ourmor ey ear s" Me: " whaty earar ey oudoi ng?" Tsepo: " I ' l l best ar t i ngmyf our t hy ear " Me: " y oual mostt her e, j ustt hr eemor ey ear sl ef t " Tsepo: " f our , i ncl udi ngt hi sone" Me: " t hey eargoesbyf ast , t hi sonewi l l beov er bef or ey ouknowi t " If eel hi sey esonmesoIt ur nt ol ookathi m Tsepo: " wow" Hesay sst ar i ngi nt omyey es Me: " what ! ?" Tsepo: " y ouhav er eal l ybeaut i f ul ey es, r ar e col our " Il ookaway , y oudon' tknowhal foft hest or y aboutt heseey es Me: " t hanky ou" Het ur nsmyf acet ol ookathi m Tsepo: " y ouv er ybeaut i f ul " Me: " t hanks" West ar eateachot her sey es Justt henmybodyshakesasIf eel achi l l down myspi ne Tsepo: " y oucol d? " Somet hi ngbadi sgoi ngt ohappen, Icanf eel i t Me: " somet hi ng' snotr i ght . . . ar ey ouf eel i ng okay ? " Tsepo: " I ' mf i ne, asy oucansee, buty ouont he ot herhand, y ourhandsar eshaki ng" Me: " weneedt ogetoutofher e" Hel ooksatmeamused Tsepo: " wher et o? " Me: " somewher e. . any wher ebutweneedt oget outoft hi scr owd" Hesmi l es. . ohGodhe' smi ndi ssomewher eel se. DearGod, pl easepr ot ectusf r om what ev er mi ghthappent oni ght Tsepo: " come, l et sgogety ouawar merj acket upst ai r s" Any t hi ngt ogetoutoft hi sspace, heget supand gi v esmehi shandhel pi ngmeup, wewal k t owar dst hehouse, he' sst i l l hol di ngmyhand, I don' tknowwhy , byt hedoorInot i ceThel ma st andi ngal onel ooki ngatusasi fshe' sbeen wat chi ngust hewhol et i me. . coul dt hi sbeher boy f r i end?Ohdamnshe' l l t hi nksomet hi ngi s goi ngon, t sepobl unt l ypassesherwhi l epul l i ng me, Iwant edt ost opandsaysomet hi ngt oher butTsepowast oof ast Me: " Tsepowai t ! " Hest opsandl ooksatme Me: " Iwantt ohav eawor dwi t hThel ma" Tsepo: " okay " Me: " pl easel etgoofmyhand" Hel ooksati tandchuckl esl et t i ngi tgo Iwal kupt oher Me: " heygi r l " Thel ma: " Ibr i ngy ouher eandy oudeci det ohang outwi t hot herpeopl e? " Me: " No, Iwast i r edofdanci ngsoIwentt or el ax byt hepool , Tsepodeci dedt oj oi nme, andy ou wer ebusyhav i ngf unIdi dn' twantt odi st ur b y ou" Shewasaboutt osaysomet hi ngunt i l av er y l oud* BAAH! ! * Ev er y onegotdownIpul l edherdownt oo Mor egunshot swer ef i r ed, It r i edt opeep, t hey ar ewear i ngmasks, af t ert heyshott heyr an away , ev er y onegotbackupi nt ot al shock, t hat waswei r dt heydi dn' tst eal any t hi ngt heyj ust camet oshoot , Inot i cepeopl esur r oundi ng somet hi ngandsomecr y i ngf orhel p Thel ma: " what ' sgoi ngon! ? " Me: " It hi nksomeonegotshot , l et ' sgosee" Ir ant owar dst hecr owdpushi ngandshov i ng unt i l Ir eachedt hemi ddl e, mybl ooddr oppedas Inot i cedTsepol y i ngi napool ofbl ood, dy i ng " He' sdead, byt het i meanambul anceget sher e he' l l bedead" Someonedecl ear sf r om t hecr owd Ishakehi m Me: " Tsepo!" Hecoughsoutbl ood " Tsepo!OhmyGodTsepo! " Thel macomeskneel i ngi nf r ontofmewi t h Tsepobet weenus Me: " don' tcl osey ourey esTsepo, pl easej ust hangi nt her e" Il ookatt hegi r l nextt oThel mawho' sal so kneel i ngandcr y i nghergut sout Me: " cansomeonepl easedi smi ssev er y onet o gohome! ? " Sheget sup Her : " Ev er y onegetout , par t yi sov er !Outout out ! ! " Peopl est ar tdi sappear i ng, i twasj ust Thel ma, sf i soandChr i ssyl ef ti ncl udi ngt hegi r l whoj ustdi smi ssedev er y one Her : " pl easebr ot her , pl easedon' tl eav eme, Ist i l l needy ou! " Thel ma: " wher e' st hef uckenambul ance, Tsepo baby , pl easehangi nt her e" Tsepo( coughs) : " Li sa" Hesay sl ooki ngatmewi t hsl eepyey es Thel mal ooksatmehur t Il ookbackathi m Me: " Tsepo" Tsepo: " i twasni ceknowi ngy ou. .( Coughs) . . I wi shIhadmor e. . . mor et i me. . ( coughsand gr oans) . . t ogett oknowy oumor e" Thel maget supandl eav esChr i ssyf ol l owsher Chr i ssy : " Thel macal m down" Whywoul dhesayt hi si nf r ontofhi sgi r l f r i end? Me: " don' tcl osey ourey esTsepo" Heshakeshi shead Gi r l : " I ' m gonnagocal l mom anddad" Shest andsupandl eav es Sf i so: " I ' l l checkont heambul ance" Heget supandi t sj usthi m andInow Tsepo: " I . . . Iguess. . . t hi si si t . . . mydr eams.. . t hey cr ashher e" Hecl oseshi sey es Me: " keept hem open, br eat he, y oucandot hi s pl ease" Heopenst hem Tsepo: " Ican' t. . ( gr oans) . . . Hecl osest hem Ibur sti nt ot ear s Me( cr y i ng) : "Nooodon' tgo. . pl easepl ease pl ease! ! " Il i f tuphi sshi r t , i fmypower shav et ost ar t wor ki ngatsomepoi nt , i thast obet oday , hi s shott wi cei nt hest omach Ipl acemyhandsonhi swounds, Il ookar oundi f noonei swat chi ng, l ucki l ynot . . . It akeadeep br eat he Me: " i nt henameoft hef at hert hesonandt he hol yspi r i t " Ikeepmyey escl osedf orawhi l e, apower f ul f or cet akesov erme, If eel l i kemybodyi s f l oat i ngonai r , Iseeal l t hebadt hi ngst hathav e happenedt ome . . . . Me: " okayokay , butpl easecanwenot . . . . Lee: " i fy oul ov emewe' l l doi tmyway " Me: " NO! !St ayAwayf r om me!Hel p! ! " Hel aughsnextt hi ngIknowmycheeki sheat ed up, hej ustgav e meahotsl ap, . . . . . Lee: " ShutUp!Whyar ey oumaki ngt hi ngs di f f i cul tf ory our sel f ? ! Youmywi f e, whenIwantpussyIshoul dget pussy . . . under st ood! ?" Me( cr y i ng) : " pl ease. . . pl ease. . pl ease. . . don' tdo t hi s" Lee: " y out al kt oomuch, t hat ' sy ourpr obl em, I hav easol ut i on" . . . . " Aaahhy eah! " Her el easesonceagai n t hencol l apsesonmewhi l ei nbet weenmyl egs . . . . . . Sy dney : " oohhLi zzy . . i t snotwhati tl ooksl i ke" Myey esar egl uedatt hemanIt houghtl ov ed me Me: Qui nt on?" Qui nt on: " ppsshhh. . . oops" . . . . Qui nt on: " ar ey ouev enr eal l ypr egnant ?" Sy dney : " y es" Qui nt on: " mybaby ? " Sy dney : " y es" . . . . . . Q' smom: " Ij ustdon' tunder st andwhyy ouwi t h her . . Shebr oke y ourhear t , Sheeasi l ygav eupon, shedoesn' t l ov ey ou, she' sf r om apoorf ami l yshe' sj ustgoi ngt osuck. . . . . . . . . . . . Sy dney : " okay , f i ne, Inev ercameher ebecauseof wor k, y our mot hercal l edme, shet ol dmey oui na r el at i onshi pt hati sonl y br i ngi ngy oudownandy oust ar t i ngt oi gnor e t hef ami l ybusi ness becauseofher , she' schangi ngy ou, y ouwer e doi nggr eati n l ooki ngf ory ourf at her ' sdi amonds, butwhen y ouf i nal l ymett he gi r l whohast hem, y ounegl ect edt hemi ssi onof get t i ngt he di amondsandf el l madl yi nl ov ewi t ht heenemy oft he f ami l y , andnowshewant edmet ohel pher separ at ey ' al l andt o makey oul ov emel i kehowy oul ov ehersot hat Icanhav e cont r ol ofy ouandt hedi amonds" Me: " y ou' v ebeenaf t ert hedi amondst oo? " Qui nt on: " t hatwasbef or eIknewy out heone whohast hem" . . . . . Qui nt on: " damnLi sa!Coul dy out r yt obe gent l e! ? " Me: " I ' m sor r y , Idi dn' tseet hewheel chai rwasso cl oset ot he car " Qui nt on: " i t sf i ne" Qui nt on: " pl easehur r yup! ! " Qui nt on: " Thecarwi l l cl oseandl ocki t sel f ? " Me: " ohy eah" Qui nt on: " f i r stgett ot hehouseLi sa!Youwer e al r eadyso cl ose! . . what ' supwi t hy out oni ght ! ? " Me: " st opshout i ngatme! ? " Qui nt on: " nawegety ourmi ndr i ght ! " Me: " y oudon' thav et obesor ude! ! " Qui nt on: " what ev er ! " . . . . . Qui nt on: i fy ousot i r edwhydon' ty ouj ustgo?" . . . Me: " Qui nt on.Ambr ose.O' Br i en. . . .Goodby e" * * If or gi v et hem al l f at her , cl eansemyhear tLor d, I f or gi v eandt odayIf or get Me: " t akeov erGod" Iopenmyey es Tsepo: " howdi dy oudot hat ? " Heget sup Tsepo: " whatt hehel l !I t sgone" Ohmygosh. . . i t sgonegone. .I t scompl et el y gone! ! ! !I mpossi bl e! Tsepo: " t hi si si mpossi bl e. . . " Me: " i twor ks! " Ishoutl ooki ngatmyhands Me: " i twor ksi twor ksi twor ks! ! ! ! " Tsepo: " I ' m al i v e. . . I ' m bet t er ! " Het oucheshi msel fal l ov ert henl ooksatmewe smi l eateachot her , her unsupt omeandhugs mewhi l epi cki ngmeupandspi nni ngme Me( l aughi ng) : " okayokay !Down! " Heput smedownandl ooksatme Tsepo: " howdi dy oudot hat ? " Me: " i twasn' tme" Tsepo( conf used) : " but , y ouy oudi dt he t hi ngy magi ngy " Me: " i twasn' tme. . . i twas. . . . .God" Hel ooksatmeper pl exed Tsepo: " wel l t hanky ouany way " Hepul l smecl oser Okay . . Iseesomeonecaughtf eel i ngs Me: " uhm Tsepo. . . . Thel mai smynei ghbour" Idi dn' twantt osayf r i endcauseI ' m notsur e whatar eheri nt ent i onsi nmyl i f e, Ican' tt r ust any oneany mor e Hepul l smeandl ocksmei nt ohi sar ms Tsepo: " so?She' snotmygi r l f r i end" Me: " oh?But . . . " Tsepo: " not hi ngi sgoi ngonbet weenherandI . . . ButIwoul dn' tmi ndf orsomet hi ngt ogoon bet weent hegi r l whosav edmyl i f eandI " " Ohmygosh! ! !Tsepo! ! !Youokay ! ! " Ipushhi m awaypul l i ngoutofhi sgr i p Theyhugaski nghi m quest i ons, j ustt hent he ambul anceandhi spar ent scome, ev er y onewas busysur r oundi nghi m andt ouchi nghi m. Isl owl ywal kedbackwar dst owar dst hedoor , Tsepo' sey esl andedonme, Iwav edathi m he smi l es. . .Ir anout , t hat ' swhenIr eal i seIhav eno r i dehome, wow, I ' m nev erev ert r y i ngt omake f r i endsagai n! Ical l anuber , i tcomesaf t eraf ewmi nut esand dr opsmeof fatmyapar t mentIpayandheadt o t hehouseandf i r stt hi ngIdoi st hr owmy sel fon t hebed Me: " Qui nt on!" I tcl i ckst omet hatIcanf i nal l ygetQof ft hat chai r! ! Me: " Yes!Icanf i nal l yheal y ouQui nt on! !" If eel ast r ongpangt hatcausesanunbear abl e acheonmyhead Igetupandst umbl et ot heki t chent oget my sel facupofwat er MyhandshakesasIt r yt opourwat eront he shaki nggl assI ' m hol di ng What ' sgoi ngonwi t hme, t heheadacheget s wor seasmykneesal sof ai l measIf al l ont he f l oor , ev er y t hi ngbecomesbl ur r ybef or eIknow i t . . .Li ghtout ! Wel l y ouonl yneedt hel i ghtwheni t ' sbur ni ng l ow Onl ymi sst hesunwheni tst ar t st osnow Onl yknowy oul ov eherwheny oul ethergo Onl yknowy ou' v ebeenhi ghwheny ou' r ef eel i ng l ow Onl yhat et her oadwheny ou' r emi ssi nghome» Onl yknowy oul ov eherwheny oul ethergo Andy oul ethergo. . . QUI NTON I ' m embar r assedt ocal l my sel fman, Inev er knewawomancoul dbesocr uel .Wel l Sy dney hasbeenl i v i ngwi t hmeev ersi nceLi samov ed outandshe' sbeenal i v i ngni ght mar e, shef i r st t r i edt oseducemebutIj ustwasn' tf eel i ng i t , shet r i edf orday s, wal ki ngar oundnakedbutI wasn' tpay i nganyat t ent i ont oher . . . y ouwon' t bel i ev ewhatshedi dt her eaf t er , shesnacki nt o myr oom andf or cedher sel fatme, It r i ed f i ght i ngherbutIwasal r eadyi nsi deher , she' s donei tmor et hanonce, soIj ustendedupgi v i ng herwhatshewant ed. . shegott i r edoft aki ng car eofme, shehi r edanur sebutshesheonl y camedur i ngt hedaybutSy dneyst oppedher f r om comi ngcauseshewasj eal oust hatt he nur se wi l l t r yherl ucksi nceshebat hsmeand changesme.She' sconf i scat edmyphoneand l apt opaweekago. . Ican' tbel i ev eI ' mt aki ng or der sf r om awoman, ev ent houghIcanki ck heroutorev enki l l her , nomat t erhowmuchI cant hr eat enher , shehasabi ggert hr eatagai nst me. . sheoncepoi nt edakni f eathert ummy , now Iknowshe' scr azy , she' scapabl eofany t hi ng, she' sobsessedandshe' sbeent r eat i ngmel i ke shi t , Ihav en' thadabat hi nweeks, t hi sl egs! Thesest upi dl egs! !Theseusel essst upi df ucken l egs " Ambr ose. . . shi t . .Youst i nk" Shecomesi nt her oom, I ' mi l y i ngont hebed, I ' v e beenont hi sbedf orawhol ef ul l mont h Sy dney : " ohmyGosh. . . di dy oupooy ourpant s! ? " Me: . . . . Shecomescl oserhol di nghernose Sy dney : " si ckman. .Youmessedy our sel f , . . a f ul l ygr ownassman, pi ssi ngandshi t t i ng hi msel f ! !Fuck! " Me: " p. . pl . . pl ease. . Sy dney : " p, . p. . p. . pl ease.. . . hahahahaaaa. . . . y ou soundl i keabr okenr ecor d. . hahahahahahaa! . " She' st akenoutal l t hebedcov er s, Ionl yhav e myboxer son, Isl eepwi t hnot hi ngt ocov er my sel fandgof orday swi t houteat i ng, i t sbeen t woweekssi nceI ' v ehadf ood, Ionl ygetwat er onceaweek I ' m col dandst ar v i ng! Sy dney : " howdoesi tf eel nowhuh?Youand y ourl i t t l egi r l f r i endLi zzyt r eat edmel i ke shi t . . . l ookaty ounowwho' st heshi t now? . . . wher e' sy ourpr et t yf acegi r l f r i end?You see, t hat ' swhaty ougetf orf al l i ngf ort eenage gi r l s. . . whent hegoi ngget st ought heygi v e up. . t heycan' thandl et hedownssheonl yl ov es y ourdi ckwheni t sup. . wheny oul owshe' sgone" Shel aughs Sy dney : " y oul ef tme, amat ur ewomanwhocan car r ychi l dr enf ory ouandchoseal i t t l egi r l who st i l l want st of ool ar oundt ast i ngdi f f er ent di cks. . andy out houghtshe' l l st i ckar oundf or l ong?Haa!Shame! " Shewal ksaway Sy dney : " l ear nt ousey ourusel essl egsal r eady andcl eany our sel fup!Si es! " Igr abal ampnextt omeandt hr owi tatherbut shedodgesi t Sy dney : " hav ey oul osty ourmi nd! ? . . y ouwantt o ki l l y ourbaby ? . . f i ne, Icandot hatf ory ou" Shet akest hel ampandat t empt st obangi ton herst omach " St op! !St op! ! .I ' m sor r y !OkayI ' m sor r y ! " Shel aughsandt hr owsi t Sy dney : " t r ysomet hi ngl i ket hatagai n, I ' l l ki l l t hi sbaby . . nowy ougoi ngt ost aywi t hy ourshi t ont hatbedf orr estof . . . . ohIdon' tknow, unt i l y oucanwal k" Shel aughsandwal ksoutcl osi ngt hedoor .As muchasIhat ei tbutIcan' thol dt hem, Ibr eak downandcr y , y eahIcr yal ott hat ' sal l I ' m good ati t shar dnott owheny ouagr ownmanwho messeshi msel fev er y dayanddependson peopl ewhodon' twantt ohel py out ochange y ou.Idon' tknowhowl ongIcankeept hi sup.I opent hedr awl ooki ngf orsomet hi ngt oki l l my sel fwi t h, If i ndapi ct ur eofLi sa, It akei tand j ustst ar eati t , t heonl yper sonwho' st r ul yl ov ed me, notev enmyownf ami l yl ov edmeasmuch asshedi d, Ij ustwi shwecoul dbehappywi t hout any onet r y i ngt or obusofi t , t her e' snotasi ngl e dayIdon' tt hi nkabouther , Icoul dn' tev en cont acthercauseofSy dney . . .Butl ookatme I ' m ast i nki ngski nnyusel essexcuseofaman, I hopeLi sanev ercomesbackt ome, Ihopeshe st ay swher eshei s. . shedeser v esbet t er , Ican' t t akeherbackIcan' tl ethercomebackt omy compl i cat edl i f e, she' st ooy oungf ort hi s, she shoul dl i v eanor mal l i f el i keal l t heot hergi r l s herageoutt her e. . . . IknewIshoul dn' thav e f al l enf orher , t hewor stmi st akeImadewas conf essi ngmyl ov ef orher . . . ev er y t hi ngI ' v e done, Idi di tt opr ot ecther , Sy dneyr ui nedmy pl ans, I ' v ef oundoutsomuchaboutt he Johnsons, Enhl ei ssobl ond, Li sai snotsaf e andt her e' snot hi ngIcandoabouti t LI SA THENEXTDAY I ' m wokenupbybeepi ngsounds, Il azi l yopen myheav yey esl ooki ngar ound " Li sa!Youawake" Me: " Thel ma. . whathappened?" Thel ma: " Idon' tknowbutIcamet oy our apar t mentear l i ert oapol ogi se, y ouwer en' t pi cki ngupmycal l ssoIwentt ochecky ouat y ourapar t menty ouwer enotopeni ngandI pani ckedsi nceIl ef ty ouatt hepar t yal one, I askedmybr ot hert obr eaki nf ormeandt hat ' s whenwef oundy oul y i nghopel essl yont he f l oor " Isi tup Me: " whatdi dt hedoct orsayi swr ongwi t hme? " Thel ma: " y ouj usthadabadheadachei tcoul d becausedbydehy dr at i on" Me: " ohokay . . " Thel ma: " I ' mr eal l ysor r yLi sa, I ' m notusual l yl i ke t hat , Idon' tknowwhatgotov erme" Il ookatherl i ke' y eahr i ght ' Thel ma: " okay , Iwasangr y , t sepowasdy i ng, and Iwast her ecr y i ngandpl eadi ngmyhear twas br eaki ngcauseoft hatscene, buthedi dn' tev en l ookatme, whenheusedal l hi sl astener gyt o cal l y ourname. . . Iwashur t " Me: " ar ey ' al l dat i ng? " Thel ma: " No. . wenotdat i ng, we' v enev erdat ed butwej ustf r i ends, Icar eabouthi m al ot " Me: " oh" Thel ma: " whenIsawhi m cl i ckwi t hy oubyt he pool andhowhef el tcomf or t abl ej ustbei ng ar oundy ou, ev enhol di ngy ourhand, somet hi ng hedoesn' tusual l ydo, butonl ydoesi tt ome, I guessi . . . . .I . . . Me: "f el tj eal ous?" Thel ma: " y eah. . ( si ghs) . . I ' m sor r y " Me: " i t scool , I ' l l st ayawayf r om y ourf r i endsand y ouf r om nowon" Thel ma: " No. . pl ease. .I ' mr eal l ysor r y " Ii gnor eher Myhear tbeat sf asti nf ear Me: " Qui nt on!" Thel ma: " who? " Me: " Ineedt ogetoutofher e, Ineedt ogosee hi m" Thel ma: " uhmm. . Me: "Qui nt on, Ineedt oseehi m now, pl easet ake met ohi m" Thel ma: " okay , t hedoct orsai dy oucanbe di schar gedassoonasy ouwakeupany way . . so l et ' sgo" Igetup, he' scr y i ngagai n, he' sbr oken. . . Wel i t er al l yr anoutt hehospi t al Me: " dr i v ef ast er ! " Shehi t st heaccel er at ort of ul l speedpushi ng met ol eanr i ghtbackagai nstmyseat [ 07/ 30, 13: 18]Ron: I nser t52 LI SA Assoonaswegott her eIent ert hepi n, l ucki l yi t hasn' tchanged, t hegat eopens Thel ma: " wow, y ourboy f r i endi sl oaded" Me: " y eahki ndof " Wesi ti nt hecarf orawhi l e Thel ma: " ar en' ty ougoi ngt ogoi n? " Isi gh Me: " whenIl ef t , wewer en' ti nt hebestoft er ms" Thel ma: " t hatbad? " Inod Me: " Ibr okeupwi t hhi m" Thel ma: " t henwhyar eweher e? " Me: " heneedsmyhel p" Thel ma: " heaskedf ory ourhel p? " Me: " No. . . butIwasl ongsupposedt ohel p hi m, butatt hatt i me, Icoul dn' t , butnow, Ican" Thel ma: " whydoy ousodesper at el yneedt o hel phi m?I ' m sur et her easony ' al l br okeupwas becausehewasaj er kassl i keal l t heot hermen i nSout hAf r i ca" Me: " wel l , Ineedt ohel phi m causei t swhatIwas meantt odo" Thel ma: " wow, y oust i l l l ov ehi m? " Me: " Yes, butI ' mj ustgoi ngt ohel phi m, Idon' t t hi nkI ' l l getbackwi t hhi m agai n" Thel ma: " Iunder st and. . .Shoul dIwai touther e? " Inod Me: " y eah, Iwon' tbel ong, i fI ' m notoutaf t er t went ymi nut esy oucancomei n" Thel ma: " goti t " Iopenandwal kt owar dst hehouse, Ir i ngt he bel l , Iwai tf orsomeonet oopenbutnoone opens, Ir i ngi tagai nandal soknock, Noone opens, wher ecoul dt heybe?May bet heywent out . . Iwal kt owar dst hegar age, i t sopenandhi s cari sher e, may bet heyt ooksomeot hercar ? Si nceQui nt oncan' tdr i v eandSy dneyal socan' t dr i v ei nhercondi t i onspeci al l yt hi scar .Igo backt oThel ma' scar Me: " Noonei shome" Thel ma: " r eal l y ?Dot heyusual l yl eav et he wi ndowsopen? " Il ookar oundt hehouse Me: " Qui nt onal way sr emember st ocl oset hem wel l t hatwasbecauseIusedt oshoutathi m whenhedoesn' t , Iguessnowt hatwenot t oget herany mor ehedoesn' tcar e" Thel ma: " af t ery our ushedmeher esomuch, we can' tj ustl eav e, Icanseet heconcer ni ny our ey esf orhi m, y oushoul dgot r yagai n" Isi gh Me: " y our i ght " Igobackt ot hedoorandr i ngt hebel l . . not hi ng Ohwai t , Ihav emyownkey s Iwal kbackt ot hecar Thel ma: " not hi ng?" Me: " No. . . butIj ustr emember edIhav eext r a key s" Thel ma: " t hat ' sgr eat " Il ookar oundt hecar Me: " di dn' tbr i ngmyhandbag" Shesi ghs Thel ma: " wel l t hi ssucks" Me: " I ' l l j ustgoar oundt hebackoft hehouse" Thel ma: " y eahy oudot hat " Shel ower sherchai randr el axes Ir unar oundt hehouset ot heback, l ucki l yt he sl i di ngdoori sopen Ibudgei nl ooki ngar ound " Qui nt on! ! ! ! " IshoutasIwal kt ot heguestr oom downst ai r s buthe' snott her e, It houghthe' dbesl eepi ng downher esi nceSy dneyi spr egnantandcan' t car r yhi m upst ai r s, howdoesshemanaget o car r yhi m upanddownev er y day ? Me: " Sy dney ! ! !" " What ' supwi t ht henoi se? ! " It ur nandshe' scomi ngf r om t heot herr oom Me: " hey .Sor r yi fIdi st ur bedy ournap" Sy dney : " damnr i ghty oudi d. . . ( y awn) . . . whatar e y oudoi ngher eany way ? " Me: " Icamet oseeQui nt on" Sy dney : " wel l hedoesn' twantt oseey ou" Me: " Idon' tcar e, Iwon' tbel ongIj ustneedt ot el l hi m somet hi ng" Sy dney : " y oul ef thi m atat i meheneededy ou most , hewant snot hi ngt odowi t hy ou.He want st of ocusonmeandhi sbabynow, so what ev ery out r y i ngt odo. . i t snotgoi ngt owor k" Me: " wher ei she? " Sy dney : " y oudon' tgeti tdoy ou?He.Doesn' t . Want .To.See.You! . . . . . gett hatt hr oughy our t hi ckskul l " Me: " I ' dl i ket ohearhi mt el l i ngmet hat " Sy dney : " ohmygosh. . t heguydoesn' thav eany r especty ou, hechosemeaf t erev er y t hi ngy ou' v e donef orhi m. . notonl yoncebutt wi ce!Thenon t opoft hathecheat sony ou. . . don' ty ougeti t ? Younotwomanenoughf orQui nt on, heneedsa womanhecanset t l edownwi t h, awomanl i ke me" Herwor dscutdeepbr i ngi ngbackt hepai nbutI keepi tbur i ed Me: " Idon' tcar eSy dney , Ial r eadyknowal l t hat y out el l i ngme, y oudon' thav et or epeati t . . . I ' m nother et ogethi m back, t her e' sj ustsomet hi ng i mpor t antIneedt ot el l hi m" Sy dney : " sor r yhe' snother e" Okayshe' sact i ngwei r d Me: " l etmecheckf ormy sel f" Sy dney : " okayt hat ' si t .Getout ! " Me: " y oul y i ng. .Icanf eel hi spr esence" Iwal kar oundandgol ookbyt her oom she camef r om, he' snother e, Igetoutandl ookby t heot herl astr oom t hat ' sdownst ai r s, he' snot her e Sy dney : " It ol dy ouhe' snother e" She' sbeenf ol l owi ngmeal l ov er Me: " upst ai r s!" Iat t emptt owal kupst ai r ssheshout sf ormet o st op " Don' tgot her e! !He' snother e! ! " Me: " Iwantt of i ndt hatoutmy sel f " Iwasaboutt ot aket hel astst epwhenshe j umpsandst andsi nf r ontofmewi t hherhands behi ndherback Sy dney : " j ustgoLi zzy ! !Qui nt ondoesn' twantt o seey ou! " Me: " whyar ey ousoj umpy ?Whydon' ty ouwant met oseehi m sobad? " Sy dney : " causehesai dhedoesn' twantt oev er seey ou! " Me( shout s) : " QUI NTON!" It r yt opushheroutofmywaybutshebr i ngs herhandf r om herbackandpoi nt sakni f eat me. . . myey espopoutandmyhear ti sr eadyt o j umpoutofmychest " LI SA! !I STHATYOU! ? " Me: " QUI NTON!YOUHERE! ? " Sy dney : " Shutup! !Yout akeanot herst ep cl oser , Isweart ogodI ' l l ki l l y ou" Me: " y ourkni f edoesn' tscar eme" Ipushherbutshepoi nti tonhert ummy Sy dney : " I ' l l ki l l t hi sbaby , andi t ' l l al l bey our f aul t , Qui nt onwi l l hat ey ou f or ev er !" Me: " ohmyGosh. . . y ouar ecr azy " Sy dney : " damnr i ght , andy oudon' twantt osee howcr azyIcanbecome" Ir unt oherandt r yf i ghtherf ort hekni f e Sy dney : " l etgo! " Me: " No, y oul etgo! " Thekni f ecut smyf i ngerIgr oani nagonyl et t i ng hergo Il ookatherwhi l ehol di ngmyf i nger , sheai ms t hekni f eathert ummybr eat hi ngheav i l y Sy dney : " wel l t hi si si t . . . . . sayy ourl ast goodby es, t hi sbabyi shi st or y ! " Shel i f t supt hekni f eget t i ngr eadyt ost ab her sel f . . she' sbyt hest epsf aci ngt owar dsme I ' m al r eadyatendoft hest ai r sl ooki ngdownat her Me: " Noooo! " Sheat t empt st ost abher sel fwhensomeone gr abst hekni f ef r om herf r om behi nd Me: " Thel ma! " Sy dney : " whatt hef uck! ?Gi v emet hat ! " Thesecur i t yguycomesi n Secur i t y : " i sev er y t hi ngokayher emam? " Sy dney : " No!Thesei nt r uder spoi nt edakni f eat me! " Me: " t hat ' snott r ue!She' st heonewhohadt he kni f epoi nt edatme" Sy dney : " asy oucansee. . l ookwho' shol di ngt he kni f e!Theyj ustcamei nher euni nv i t ed! " Me: " Sandi l e. . . ar ey ougoi ngt obel i ev eherov er me? " Sandi l ehasbeent hesecur i t yev ersi nce Qui nt ongotshot , heonl ycomesi natni ghtand dur i ngmor ni ng, IguesswhenIcamei nhewas onabr eak Sandi l e: " Mi ssFox, pl easecomewi t hme" Sy dney : " What ! ?Noy ou. . y oucan' tj ustt akeher wor d. .Youar esof i r ed!I ' l l l etQui nt onknow aboutt hi s! " Hei gnor esherandt akesherwi t hhi m Sandi l e: " whatshoul dIdowi t hherLi sa? " Me: " j ustkeepherbyy ourbackhousef or now, unt i l I ' mr eadyt odeal wi t hher " Hesmi l es Sandi l e: " asy ouwi sh" Hegr absherandwal ksoutwi t hher , shet r i es f i ght i nghi m buthe' st oost r ong Sy dney : " y oucan' tdot hi sI ' l l suey ou!Youcan' t t r eatapr egnantwomanl i ket hi s! !Isendy out o j ai l .Ahhhhl eav emeal one! . . Shemakesnoi set i l l t heydi sappear Wesi ghatt hesamet i me Thel ma: "t hatwassomecr azypr egnantbi t ch" Me: " t el l meabouti t . . . t hankst oy oushe' sst i l l pr egnant" Thel ma: " y ousai dt went ymi nut esIgav ey ou exact l yt hat " Me: " Thanks. .Youcanmakey our sel f comf or t abl ei nl ounge, Ineedt ogocheckupon Qui nt on" Thel ma: " okay .Shouti fy ouneedanyhel p" Me: " Iwi l l " Shewal kdownst ai r sIcar r yonwal ki ngt ot he r oom, Isi ghbef or eopeni ng, ourey esl ockasI wal ki n. . . OHMYGOD! !i t sl i keahoboi ssl eepi ng ont hatbed! . . Icov ermymout handnosewi t h myhand. . I tst i nksl i keShi ti nher e!Ikeep gaggi ngf eel i ngt heur get ov omi t Fi r stt hi ngIdoi swal kt ot hebal conydoorand openi twi deIopenal l t hewi ndowsaswel l and cur t ai ns, Iwal kt ot hebat hr oom andopent he wi ndowst her et oo, It aket heai rf r eshenerand spr ayi tal l ov eradIwal kbackt ot her oom. . . wel l i t sabi tbet t erbutt hesmel l i sst i l l st r ong Iwal kupt ohi m. . ohgodhest i nksandi s cov er edi nbear d Me( whi sper s) : " Qui nt on. . . .Whathappened?" Her emai nsl ooki ngdownathi shands, hel ooks ashamedandembar r assedhecan' tev enl ook atme, myhear tbl eedsf orhi mt hi ssi ghtofhi m i shear t br eaki ng Me: " shedi dt hi st oy ou?Shedi dn' tt akecar eof y oudi dshe? " Hesni f f s Igetcl oserbutgetbackagai n Me: " shej ustl ety our ot . . . ohmygoshandy ou j ustl etherwal kal l ov ery ou?Doy oul ov eher t hatmuch? " Hebr eaksdownandcr yhe' sbodyi sshaki ng Igetcl oserandgoonmyknees, Ipl acemyhand onhi scheek Me( gasps) : " y ousocol d. . . howl onghav ey ou beennakedl i ket hi s? " Hewi peshi snoseandcont i nuescr y i ngsi l ent l y Iwr apmyar msar oundhi m Me: " don' tcr y . . . I ' m her enow" Het r i est obr eakoutmygr i pbi tIhol dhi m t i ght er Me: " Iwon' tl etherdot hi st oy ouagai n, Iwon' t l etany oneev ermi st r eaty ou" Il etgoofhi m andheadt ot hebat hr oom, Ir an wat eri nt het ubandputal l sor t sofbat hesal t s andgel sIcanf i nd. . Iwal kbackt ot her oom, I t hr owhi sonear m ar oundmyshoul derwhi l e t heot herhol dshi swai st , he' sal otl i ght er now, he' ssoski nny , Ihel phi m andputhi mi nt he t ub, Imakehi ml i edownandl eav ehi sbodyt o j ustsoaki nt hewar m wat er .Il eav ehi mt her e asIgocl eanupt her oom, It akeoutt hedi r t y bedsheet sandpi l l owcases Iwr apev er yt hi ngi nonesheetanddumpi ti n t hebal cony , I ' l l bur nt hem l at er , sor r ybutIcan' t washt hem, notcauset heyf ul l ofhi sshi t , butI ' m sur et hey ' v ehadsexont hem bef or e, bef or eshe coul dn' thandl ehi mI ' m sur eshef i r stpl easur ed her sel fwi t hhi m. Iwal kbackt ot hebat hr oom, he' sj ustst ar i ng outi nspace, hehasn' tsai dawor dt omesi nceI gother e, It aket heshowerpuf fandscr ubhi m wi t hi t , af t ermuchscr ubbi ngIl ett hewat err un out , i t ' st oodi r t y , Ir unmor ef r eshwat erf orhi m andputt hesal t sandgel onhi mt henwashhi m t hor oughl yandgent l yIsl i pmyhandsbet ween hi sl egsandwashhi sbal l sandi nbet weenhi s but thegr oansi nat ur nedonmanner . . y ept her e i ti s, he' shar d, Il ookathi mi nt heey es, t heysmal l buthehasaser i ousf ace, he' ssosadwel ook i nt oeachot her sey esf orawhi l ebuthe r emov est hem andl ooksdown, af t erwashi ng hi mf ort hesecondt i me, Ipourmor ewat er , t hi s onei sf orhi sf ace, Ir ubt hesoaponhi st owel Me: " cl osey ourey es" Hecl osest hem Iwashi tcar ef ul l yandr i nsei t t henwi pehi m. . aahht her ehei s, t hehandsome sexi estmanI ' v eev erseen, Idon' twannashav e hi sbear d, Il ov ei t , hel ookssomanl y , l i kehe' s j ustgonnagooutt her eandf i ghtwi t haLi onor j ustdosomet hi ngr eal l ymanl y , am Igoi ngcr azy ? Af t erwashi nghi shai rIhel phi m outandput hi m ont hebedhest i l l can' tsi tuponhi sownhe hast ol eanonsomet hi ng, Il ot i onhi m, i twasn' t easywi t hMrBst andi nghi ghandt al l sendi ng messagest oMi ssM. . butIdi dmybesti gnor i ng i t , Idr esshi m upi nhi swar mt r ackpant s, v est andaJacket , Iputabeani ehat , Iputsockonhi s f eet.It akeoutacl eanbl anketandt i ckhi mi n, I f eel l i kehe' sbeencol df orav er yl ongt i mehe needst obewar m, It ur nont heheat erf r om t he ai r con Me: " ar ey ouf eel i ngwar mernow? " Henods Me: " y ousur e?I t snott oohot ?" Heshakeshi shead Me: " okayt hen" Ihearhi st ummygr owl Me: " I ' l l gomakey ouf ood" Il eav ehi m andheaddownst ai r s If i ndThel masl eepi ngont hecouchwi t ht heTV pl ay i ngIcar r yonwal ki ngt ot heki t chen, Ideci de oncooki ngaqui ckdi shofpast aandmi nce wi t hmi xedv eg, al l mi xedt oget heraf t erI ' m done Idi shupf orhi m andThel ma, It akeherpl at et o her , Iputi tont het abl eandshakehershel azi l y wakesup Me: " Imadey ouf ood" Thel ma: " oh. . t hanks" Shet akesi tt henl ooksatherphone Thel ma: " Ihav et ogo, i t sal r eadyhal fpastf i v e" Me: " okay , y oucango, af t ery ouf i ni shy ourf ood t hough" Thel ma: " okay , howi she? " Me: " he' sf i ne" Thel ma: " t hat ' sni ce, guessI ' l l meethi m next t i me" Me: " y eah, l etmegof eedhi m" Thel ma: " I ' l l seemy sel foutaf t er " Me: " okay , t hanksf orev er y t hi ng" Thel ma: " ohpl ease. . . any day . . I ' mj ustsor r yf or t hewayIact ed" Me: " f or gi v en" Shesmi l es Thel ma: " I ' l l seey ouwhenIseey out hen" Me: " y eah. . dr i v esaf el y" Iki sshercheekandl eav ehereat i ngasIwal k upt hest ai r s Icl oset hedoorandsi tont hebednextt ohi m Me: " madey ouoneofy ourf av or i t edi shes" Hesmi l esandl i ckshi sl i ps Me: " shoul dIf eedy ouory ou' l l f eedy our sel f ? " Het akest hebowl f r om meanddi gsi n, heeat s l i keapi g, t aki ngi nhugeamountoff oodi nhi s mout hwi t houtev enpausi ng,t ear sescapesmy ey esasIwat chhi m eatl i kehi sl i f edependson i t , myhear tbr eaksi nt oabi l l i onpeaces Hef i ni shes Me: " mor e? " Qui nt on: " y espl ease" That ' st hef i r stt hi nghe' ssai dt ome, Iguesshe di dn' thav et heener gyt ot al k, Ir undownst ai r s anddi shupmor eIl ookar oundandThel mai s gone, soIl ockt hedoor sandheadupst ai r s agai nwi t hhi sf oodasomej ui ce, heeat sabi t mor ecal mert hi st i me, unt i l hef i ni shesand gul psdownhi sj ui ce, hemakest hataahhh sound, he' ssat i sf i edasmi l ecr eepsi nasIsee hi sgl owi ngf aceandhi sey esbeami ng, i t sl i ke hej ustgai nedbacksomel i f e, Isensehi s sat i sf act i oni nhi shear t Hebur bs Qui nt on: " excuseme" Mmhmanner s Qui nt on: " t hanky ou" Me: " y ouwel come" Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " No. . Imeanl i ke. . t hanky ou, f or ev er y t hi ng, t hanky ousosomuch, IknowIdon' t sayi tmuchorshowi t . . butLi sa, I ' mr eal l y t hankf ul , ofy ou, y ourpr esence, y ourl ov e, y our ki ndness, y ourpat i enceandev er y t hi ngy ou' v e ev erdonef orme. . . . whaty ouj ustdi df orme r i ghtnow, i tmeanssomucht ome, Idon' t deser v ey ou, y oul ov emeev enwhenI ' m cov er ed i nshi t . . . Imi ghtbet ool at ebutLi ssIappr eci at e y ouandIl ov ey ousomuch. . .Pl easef i ndi ti n y ourhear tt o. . . . . Me: "If or gi v ey ou" Hel ooksatmeshockedwi t habeami ngf ace Qui nt on: " j ustl i ket hat ? " Me: " i twasn' teasy . . . def i ni t el ynotj ustl i ket hat , i t t ookal otofpr ay erandadv i cet of i nal l yseei t i nmyhear tt hatIneedt of or gi v ey ou. . . i twas ki ndaeasyt hough. . causeIl ov ey ou" Qui nt on: " If i nal l yunder st andhowmuchy ou l ov eme, whaty oudi df ormet oday , noonecoul d hav eev erdonei t , notev enmyownf ami l y . .Mxm t hey ' v eal l f or got t enaboutmeNotev enAi dan norCl y decamet oseeme, I ' v ebeenqui etf ora whi l enowbutnev erdi dt heyoncet hi nkt o checkuponme. . butGodknowsi ft heywer ei n myposi t i onIwoul dcomecheckupont hem ev er ysi ngl eday , wi t houtt hem hav i ngt ocal l me. . . si nceIgotshott hey ' v edi st anced t hemsel v es. . .Whatki ndoff ami l ydoIhav eLi sa? Whatki ndoff ami l ydoest hatt ot hei rownbl ood? HuhLi sa?DoesGodhat emet hatmuch?What hav eIdonet ot hem t hat ' ssocr uel ?Al l I ' v edone waspr ot ectandl ov et hem. . . Isav edCandr a' s l i f eandr i skedmyl i f ei nt hepr ocess, Ihadt odo t hi ngshor r i bl et hi ngst hatt r aumat i zedmeat hear tbutIdi dn' tcar ecauseIl ov edmysi st er andIwaswi l l i ngt odi ef orher . . . Ai dan, I ' v e sav edhi sassf r om somanyt hi ngssi ncewe wer eki dsI ' v ebeencov er i ngupf orhi m, he' ddo somet hi ngwr ong, butI ' dal way st aket hebl ame f orhi m, I ' dgett heasswhoopi ngf orhi m. . . Cl y de, mxm Idon' tev enwannat al kaboutCl y de, he' s t heoneper sonwhoshoul dbebowi ngdownf or meaf t eral l t heshi tI ' v edonebecauseof hi m, . . t hewomanIcal l amot her . . we' dal l be homel essi fi twasn' tf orsomeoft het hi ngsI ' v e donef orher . . butwher ear et heynow?Fami l y ?I hav enof ami l y" I ' m nowcov er edi nt ear sIf eel shat t er ed Qui nt on: " Li sa. .Yout heonl yper soni nt hi s wor l dwhot r ul yl ov esme, t heonl yonewho' s beent her e. . whet herwet oget herornot , I ' l l al way sl ov ey ouf ort hatandbegr at ef ul " Iwi pehi st ear s Me: " Goddoesn' that ey ouQui nt onbutt hedev i l i st heonedecei v i ngy ou, don' tl ethi m wi n. . . . y ou hav et of or gi v et hem andl ov et hem al way s, no mat t erwhat " Hef r owns Qui nt on: " I ' m notasst r ongasy ouLi sa, Ican nev erdot hat " Me: " y ouar ewayst r ongerQui nt onwayway st r onger , . . .Tr ustme" Her emai nsqui et Me: " t her e' soner easonIcamebackt oy ou t oday " Hel ooksatme Me: " I ' v ef i gur edi tout " Hei mmedi at el yknowswhatI ' mt al ki ngabout Qui nt on: " wow. . when? " Me: " y est er day . . atsomepar t yI. . . .. . . . . . It el l hi m ev er y t hi ngt hathappened Qui nt on: " t hat ' samazi ng" Me: " It hi nkGodboughtThel mai nt omyl i f et o l eadmet ot sepowhowi l l bet heonewhomy gi f twi l l ber ev eal edat . . . . i twassoamazi ng, t he v estf eel i ngI ' v eev erf el t " Hesmi l es Qui nt on: " I ' m sopr oudofy ou. . Ir eal l yam" Me: " nowy oucanf i nal l ybeheal ed" Qui nt on: " y eah" Me: " y our emembermydr eam? " Qui nt on: " y eahIdo" Me: " y ouwer ewear i ngt heseexactcl ot heswhen Isawmy sel fheal i ngy ou" Qui nt on: " r eal l y ? " Me: " y eah. . r eal l y . . nowl etmedot hi sf ory ou" Qui nt on: " why ? " Me( conf used) : " whywhat ? " Qui nt on: " whydi dy oust i l l comeback?Af t erour l astf i ght , Iwassur ey ounev ercomi ngback agai n" Me: " because, t her easonIwassoeagert of i gur e mygi f touti nt hef i r stpl acewasbecauseof y ou. . . nowt hatI ' v ef i nal l yf i gur edi tout , y out he f i r stper sonIt houghtof , y out heonl yper sonI wasf i ght i ngf or . . . andI ' v ebeenwi t hy ousi nce t hedayy ougotshot , If el ty ourpai nj ustby l ooki ngaty ou, Iknowy oursuf f er i ng, causeI suf f er edwi t hy ou. . bel i ev ei tornotQui nt on, butI f eel t hesamepai nt haty ouf eel , f ort hepastt wo mont hswe' v ebeenapar t , If el ty ourbr oken hear t , y oucr i esev er yni ghti tf el tl i key ouwer e cr y i ngr i ghtnextt ome, If eel y ouQui nt on. .And ev ersi nceI ' v ebeenconnect i ngwi t hgodand mygi f t , I ' v ebeenmor econnect edwi t hy ouso much, somet i mesIcoul dal mostheary ou, buti t onl yhappenswheny ouf eel i ngdownorcr y i ng andI ' di mmedi at el yf eel t hesameway . . . . Idon' t knowwhyt heset hi ngsar ehappeni ngbutone t hi ngIknowi sIhav et oheal y our i ght now. . t oday " West ar eateachot her sey esbef or ehenodsas onet earescapeshi sey e Ir emov et hebl anketandpl acemyhandsov er hi swound Hechuckl esIl ookathi m Me: " whatsof unny ?" Qui nt on: " Ij usthadaf l ashback, don' tmi ndme" Me: " l etmeguess. . i twasstt hehospi t al , Iwas t r y i ngt oheal y ouf ort hef i r stt i meandi tt ur ned outt obeami ser abl ef ai l ur e?" Wel augh Qui nt on: " don' tt el l mey oucanseemyt hought s t oo? " Me: " howIwi sh. . . Ij ustguessedr i ghtbecauseI wast hi nki ngofi tt oo" Hel aughs, i t samazi nghowwecanst i l l l augh ev ent hought hesi t uat i oni sact ual l ysad Me: " comeonQ. . Ineedt oheal y ou, y oudon' t wantt obeacr i ppl ef or ev er" Qui nt on: " doy ourmagi cbub" Icl osemyey es, Ii nhal e, hol di ti nt henexhal e Me: " i nt henameoft hef at her , t hesonandt he hol yspi r i t " If eel mybodyasi fi t sf l oat i ngonai rasi tget s l i ght er I t st hemostwonder f ul f eel i ngt of eel , t he pr esenceofGod Iseeev er y t hi ngwe' v ebeent hr oughsi ncehe gotshot . . . . Theshoot i ngst ops Me( cl i ngi ngonhi m, br eat hl essl y ) : " whatwast hat about . . . . . It r ai l of fasIst ar esathi st ummyandhol dmy mout hi nshock Qui nt on: " what ? " Me: " y oubl eedi ng!" . . . . Heopenshi sey es, asi l entshor tl aughescapes mymout h Qui nt on: " Il ov ey out oo" Me: " y ouawake" Qui nt on: " mhm" Ihughi m " Aahhoouch" Iqui ckl yl etgo Me: " I ' m sosor r y . . .I ' m sohappyy ouawake" Qui nt on: " i t sst i l l t oosoonf ormet ol eav ey ou al onei nt hi swor l d" Me: " y our i ghtwecoul duseahundr edmor e y ear s" . . . Qui nt on( whi sper s) : " whycan' tIf eel t hem Li ss? " Me: " y ouwi l l f eel t hem. . . . j ustnotnow" Hel ay sbackl ooki ngdi st r aught Me: " don' twor r yQ, y ou' l l getbet t eri nno t i me. . . . y ou' l l see" Qui nt on: " Iwon' tbeabl et ousemyl egs? " Me: " i t sonl yt empor ar yQ" Qui nt on: " myl egsLi sa, howam Isupposedt odo any t hi ngwi t houtmyl egs? " Myhear tsi nksatt hesoundofhi ssadt one Me: " i twon' tbef or ev erQui nt on" Qui nt on: " i st hatwhatt hedoct orsai d? " Ishakemyhead Me: " nobut . . . Qui nt on: " soy ouadoct ornow? " . . . . Doc: " okay , sodoy ouneedmet oor gani sea nur sef ory ou, now? " Qui nt on: " Yes" Me: " No" Al l ey esl andonme Me: " I ' l l ber esponsi bl ef orhi m" Doc: " ar ey ouokaywi t ht hatMrO' Br i en?" Me: " y eshe' sokaywi t ht hat" Hesmi l esatme Qui nt on: " I ' m downwi t ht hat " . . . . . Qui nt on: " i t saboutdamnt i me, whatt ooky ouso l ong? " Ishakemyheadandpushhi mt ot hecar , we dr i v ei nsi l encet i l l wegett oYonel a' spl ace, I at t emptt ogetoutbuthehol dsmyhand, Il ook athi m Qui nt on: " bef or ewegoi nsi de, Iwanty out ot el l mewhat ' seat i ngy ou?I si tsomet hi ngt he doct orsai d?Ohgod. . ar ey oupr egnant ? " If eel t ear st hr eat eni ngasIshakemyhead Me: " No" Hel ooksatmeconf used Qui nt on: " i st hatabadt hi ng? " Me( t ear y ) : " No" Qui nt on: " t henwhyar ey ousad? " Me: " I ' mf i neQui nt onl et ' sgogett hedi amonds al r eady" . . . . Iopent hedoorandourey esi nst ant l yl ock " HeyLi zzy " Mybl ooddr opsi nst ant l y , whyi ssheher e? " Ar en' ty ougoi ngt ol etmei n? " Myey esdr opt ohert ummy , shepushesmeout t hewayandmakesherwayi nsi de " OhI ' dal sol i keacupt hanks. . whi l ey ouati t pl easel etAmbr oseknowI ' m back" . . . I tonl ymademest r onger , I ' v emov edon, Imake peacet oday , l or dGodcl eansemyhear t . . . Iopenmyey esandl ookathi m al l ov er Me: " di di twor k?Ar ey oubet t er ? " Het r i èst osi tusbut tf ai l s, Ican' tbel i ev et hi s. . Myhear tdr ops Me: " i tdi dn' twor k. . . . howcome? " Tear saut omat i cal l yst ar tst r eami ng Qui nt on: " Li sa. . . . Me: " NoQui nt on, I ' v ef ai l edy ouy etagai n! . . . . Igetupandst ar tpaci ng Me: " whycan' twebehappy ?Why ?Af t er ev er y oneI ' v ef or gi v en, whydoesGodf or sake me. . . howdoImov eonnow, Iwasmeantt oheal y ouy eti tonl ywor ksonst r anger s. .Whyam Iso usel ess?Theonl yper sonIr eal l ywant edt o heal . . .But . . . . " LI SA! ! " Ist opatmyt r acks, Ihav emybackt ur nedat hi m Me: " i t sf i neQui nt on. . I ' v egi v eny ouf al sehope y etagai n, i fy oudon' tev erwantany t hi ngt odo wi t hme. . . . Icompl et el yunder st and" " Lookatme" Ishakemyhead Me: " No, I ' mt ooashamed" " Justl ookatmeLi sa" Icanheart hesadnessi nhi sv oi ce Ishakemyhead, Ican' tf acehi mr i ghtnow, I ' v e f ai l edhi m " LOOKATMELI SA! " Ist ar t l easIt ur nt ol ookathi m qui ckl y Mymout hhangsopenasagaspescapes He' sst andi ngonbot hhi sf eetwi t ht ear s r unni ngdownhi sf ace Me: " Qui nt on? . . . . ohmygosh. . y ou. . y oust andi ng. . . Ony ourown" Hel aughsi nbet weenhi st ear s Qui nt on: " y eahy oudi di t . . . Icanwal k" Hewal ksar oundt hebedandback, Ist ar tcr y i ng t henf i ndmy sel fl aughi ng, hej umpsupandand t hat ' swhenIscr eam myl ungsout " Aaaaahhhhhhhhhh! ! ! ! !OMGEEEEEEEEEEEI CAN' TBELI EVETHI I I SSSS! !YOUACTUALLYON YOURFEET, ONYOUROWNYEEEEYI I I I I I ! ! " Iwasmaki ngawhol el ot t anoi sebutIcoul dn' t car el ess Hewal ksupt omeandpi cksmeupspi nni ng mear ound Qui nt on: " YouDI DI T! ! !YOUFI NALLYFI GUREDI T OUT!OMGEEEEEE! ! ! " Me: " HAHAHAAOMGEEEEEE! ! ! " wel aughedi nexci t ement , wel ookedi nt oeach ot her st ear ybeami ngey es, he' scar r y i ngmewi t h myl egswr appedar oundhi swai st , hedr opsme ont hebedwhi l eont opofme, hemov eshi s f acet owar dsmi ne, ourl i pst ouch, Iwat chhi s ey escl oser eadyt oki ssme, Ipushhi m backa bi t Me( smi l i ng) : " mywor kher ei sdone" Hesmi l est henget sof fme Qui nt on: " oh, y eah, ofcause. . . . t hanky ouLi sa, y ou r eal l yar egi f t ed, I ' m sor r yIev erdoubt edy ou" Me: " i t scool , wat erundert hebr i dge. . . I ' mj ustso happyy oucanf i nal l ygobackt oy ournor mal sel f " Qui nt on: " met oo, howcanIev err epayy ou? " Me: " i t swasn' tabusi nessdeal Qui nt on. . .I want edt odot hi sf ory ou" Qui nt on: " t hanky ou, agai n" Ismi l eandsi gh Me: " Ihav et ogo. . . uhm, pl easebur nt hose sheet s, Il ef tt hem byt hebal cony " Henods Qui nt on: " Iwi l l , sor r yy ouhadt ot ouchme, smel l andcl eanupmydi sgust i ngshi t t edsel f " Ibr ushhi scheek Me: " I ' ddoi tov erandov eragai n. . .Fory ou" Hesmi l esl ooki ngatmet hem dr opshi sey es andl ooksdown Iwearmyshoesandmakemywayout , he f ol l owsmeandaccompani esmeout si de Qui nt on: " pl easel etmet akey ou, wher ev ery ou goi ng" Me: " i t scool I ' l l r equestan. . . Qui nt on( i nt er r upt s) : " j ustgeti nt hecar , i t st he l eastIcando" Me: " Iguessy ounotaski ngbutt el l i ng me. . . ( si ghs) . . . f i ne" Igeti nhi scarandwedr i v eof f Qui nt on: " I ' m sur pr i sedIcanst i l l dr i v e" Ichuckl e Me: " sameher e" Idi r ecthi mt i l l wegett omyapar t ment Hepar ksbyt hegat e Qui nt on: " sot hi si swher ey oust aynow" Me: " y eap, wannacomei n? " Whyt hehel l di dIj ustsayt hat ! ?Saynosayno sayno Qui nt on: " don' tmi ndi fIdo" Me( mummer s) : " gr eat " Weheadi nsi de, Ihav et ol i f tt hedoorbef or ei t unl ocks, wemakeourwayi nsi de Me: " wel l Ihav enot hi ngmuch, asy oucansee" I t ssupperempt y , Ionl yhav easmal l f r i dgeand f ewdi shes, Ihav en' tboughtgr ocer i esy et Qui nt on: " i t sokay . . . asl ongasi t scomf or t abl e f ory ou? " Me: " y eahi t scomf or t abl e, al t hought hegeezer st i l l needst obef i xed, soIwi l l hav et owar mt he wat erbyt hest ov e, unt i l t hepl umbercomes" Qui nt on: " butt hatwi l l causey ourr entt o i ncr easecauseoft heuseofel ect r i ci t y " Me: " I ' l l sur v i v eQui nt on" Hesi ghs, hedoesn' tl i ket hi spl ace, i t swr i t t enal l ov erhi sf aceashel eani ngagai nstt hewal l wi t h hi shandsi nhi spocket s, west andi ngi nt he empt yki t chenspacewhi chonl yhasaf r i dge andasmal l si nkt opr ov ei t saki t chenand di shesont hef l oor , t her e' snobui l ti ns, besi des t hecupboar dt hat ' sconnect edwi t ht hesi nk, no wondert her enti ssocheap Qui nt on: " i t sdoesn' tl ookcomf or t abl eatal l , and t her e' sj ustsomanyt hi ngst hatneedt obe f i x ed" Me( si ghs) : " t hi si sal l Icoul daf f or d Qui nt on, somet i meswehav et ost epoutofour comf or tzone, t ogr ow" Hewal kst owar dsmebyt hesi nk Qui nt on: " j ustmov ebacki nwi t hme, soy oucan sav ey ourmoneyt ospoi l y our sel f , l i kebef or e" Me: " i t sf i neQui nt on, y oucan' tal way st akecar e ofme, Ihav et ol ear n, y oucan' tal way sbemy r oommat e" Qui nt on: " t henbecomemygi r l f r i end. . . agai n" * si l ence* Me: " t hanksf ort her i de. . . butIt hi nky oushoul d gonow" Hesi ghs Qui nt on: " IknowIr eal l yhur ty ou, I ' m sor r y Li sa, pl easef or gi v eme" Me: " asI ' v eal r eadyt ol dy ou, Il ongf or gav ey ou" Hegoesonhi sknees Qui nt on: " t henpl easet akemeback. . Il ov ey ou. . I can' tl i v ewi t houty ou, l i t er al l y , Ican' t , pl ease bub, pl easegi v emeanot herchance" Me: " don' tdot hi sQui nt on, pl ease. . . ( whi sper s) . . . don' tdot hi s" Hel ooksupatmef oral ongt i mebef or ehe get sup Heput shi shandsbacki nhi spocket s Me: " gohome, deal wi t hSy dney , she' sbyt he secur i t y ' shouseatt heback, t heny ougosee y ourf ami l yandt el l t hem y ouf or gi v et hem, t hen l eav et hem, Godwi l l handl et her est . . . gohome andl i v ey ourl i f e, I ' l l dot hesame" Hel ooksar ound, sni f f sandwi peshi snoset hen l ooksatme Qui nt on: " goodni ght " Me: " goodni ght " Hewal ksout , If eel l i kest oppi nghi m, butIdi d sayI ' m done. . . Imeanti tt henandIst i l l meani t now. . nomat t erhowhar di ti s, nomat t erhow muchIl ov ehi m. . I ' m st i l l done, i twi l l t akea mi r acl ef ormet ogobackt her e, I ' v ebeen t hr oughsomuchpai nwi t hQui nt on, y esI f or gi v ehi m, butt hatdoesn' tmeanIshoul dgo back. . . sor r y , butI ' m done [ 07/ 30, 13: 18]Ron: I nser t53 QUI NTON Igethomel ockt hedoor s, Iheadupt omy r oom, wel l Li saal r eadycl eanedupev er y t hi ngso Ij ustt aket hosedi r t ysheet sout si det ot heback andbur nt hem.Idoj ustt hat . I tf eel ssounbel i ev abl et obewal ki ngwi t hwi t h t hesesamel egst hatwer esousel essaf ew hour sago, Ican' thel pbutt hi nkt hey ' l l j ustgo numbandf ai l meagai n.Ir eal l ydon' t under st andhowt hi swhol eGodt hi ngwor ks, but i ft hi swasal l Godwor ki ngst hr oughLi sa' spur e hear tt henI ' m gr at ef ul t ohi m.Iwat cht he sheet sbur n.Theonl ywayIwantt odeal wi t h Sy dneyi ssl i thert hr oatof ft oobadshe' s car r y i ngmybabyandLi sawoul ddef i ni t el y nev erf or gi v emef ort hat , she' st ooki ndf orher owngood.I t ' l l t aket i mebutIwi l l wi nherback, I al way sdo. . . . Ihopeso. Iwal kbackt ot hehouse, It akemywheel chai r f r om myr oom t henheadt ot hesecur i t y ' sback house, Iknockt hensi tont hewheel chai rwhi l eI wai tf orhi mt oopen Sandi l e: " heybossman" Me: " Sandi l e. . . i sSy dneyi nher e? " Sandi l e: " y eahbutIki ndasedat edherwi t h i sof l ur ane, If oundf r om t hef i r stai dki t , shewas t hr eat eni ngt ohur ther sel f " Me: " y oudi dwel l man, cany oupl easecar r yher backt ot hehousef orme? " Sandi l e: " sur et hi ngboss" Hewal ksi nt hencomesbackcar r y i ngherbr i dal st y l eIt el l hi mt ol eav eheront hecouch Me: " t hanksman, weneedt okeepacl oseey eon her , f ort hebaby ' ssake" Sandi l e: " she' sadangert oher sel fandt hebaby " WhatSandi l ej ustsai dgav emeani dea Me: " Ineedy out odomeaf av our" Sandi l e: " any t hi ngman" Me: " Ineedy out oor gani sepeopl et ocomeput smal l hi ddenci v i l i ancamer asar oundt he house, whi chwi l l beconnect edt omyl apt op" Sandi l e: " f i r stt hi ngt omor r ow" Me: " Nonopl easet r ygett hem now, Iwantt hem her et hemi nut eshewakesup" Sandi l e: " Ei shkodwasekul at emanj eabasekho aba. . . . . . ( buti t sal r eadysol at et her e' snonoone who. . . , . . . ) Me: "y ouasecur i t yguar d, I ' m sur ey oucan f i gur esomet hi ngout. . y ouhav et hi r t ymi nut es t osor ti tout " Sandi l e: " done" Hemakeshi swayouti mmedi at el y Iwat chhersl eepi ngpeacef ul l y , t hi swoman usedt omeansomucht ome, wehadeach ot her ' sbacks, myf i r stf emal ebestf r i end, when shecaughtf eel i ngs, Idi dn' tdat ehercauseI l ov eherbackbutbecauseIcar edf orher f eel i ngsandInev erl i kedseei ngherhur t , she usedt obesosweet . . . whyi si tt hepeopl ecl ose t oust hathur tust hemost ?I si tbecausewel et t hem t oocl oset oourhear t st hatt heyf eel l i ke t heycant oywi t hi thowev ert heywant ?How canonebet r ayanot her ' st r ustj ustf ort hegood oft hemsel v es? Ihol dhert ummy , Imustsay , mybabyboyi s qui t et hef i ght eraf t erev er y t hi ngt hi scr azy wi t chhasputhi mt hr ough, y ethe' sst i l l br eat hi ngandmov i ng, onl yaf ewmor eweeks andy oucanbef r eef r om t hathel l hol e, why coul dn' ty ouchooseLi sa' swomb, y ou' dbeway happi erandheal t hi eri nt her eandIwoul dn' tbe i nt hi smessysi t uat i on. Af t eranhourSandi l ecamebackwi t ht wowhi t e guy swhol ookedl i kener ds, Ishowedt hem ar oundt owher eIwantt hecamer as, atev er y si ngl ecor nerev eni nt het oi l et s, ki t chen bedr oomspool ar ea, ev er y wher e. Me: " t hanky ougent l emen" Guy1: " j ustdoi ngourj ob" Me: " y eah, wel l , y oudi dwel l " Sandi l e: " I ' l l showt hem out " Me: " dr i v esaf el y " Theyal l wal kout , Igetuponmyf eetandl ockal l door s, Ipushmywheel chai rt omyof f i cebehi de mydeskt hensi toni t , Iopenmyl apt op, and checkev er y t hi ng, l ooksl i keSy dneycoul dn' tdo any t hi ngcausemypi ni squi t ecompl i cat ed, Li sa i st heonl yper sonwhoknowst hepi nof ev er y t hi ngIownev enmyphonecauseIhad not hi ngt ohi de, butIf or gott ochangei twhenI waschat t i ngwi t hEnhl e, Idi dn' tt hi nkshe' dgo i nt omyFacebook.I t sbeenawhi l esi nceI ' v e t al kedEnhl e, Ihopeshehasn' tl osti nt er est , I doubtt hough, t hatgi r l i sobsessedwi t h me, whi chmi ghtbeapr obl em, Ij ustf oundout obsessedgi r l sar esuppercr uel anddanger ous, exampl e, Sy dney , soar eobsessedmen, exampl e, Mncesesi . . . BubandIshoul dt onedownour cut eness, i t sget t i ngusi nv ol v edwi t h psy chopat hs. Igoi nt omyFBt hengogr eether Me: heyt her ebeaut i f ul Sheanswer saf t erf i v emi nut es Enhl e: Qui nt on, mymai n Isi gh, t hankgoodnessshe' sst i l l i nt er est ed Me: mysweet hear t , howI ' v emi ssedy ou how ar ey ou Sheanswer si mmedi at el y Enhl e: I ' mf i ne. . butIhat ey our i ghtnow Me: I ' m sosor r yf orbei ngscar cebabe, t hi ngs hav ebeenr eal l yhect i c. . . butal l I ' v ebeen t hi nki ngabouti sy ou Enhl e: aaawwt hat ' ssosweet , Il ov ey ouagai n. Me: Lol . . If eel t hesame, hav ey oubeengood t hough?How' sl i f e? Enhl e: I ' v ebeengood, j ustr eal l yst r essedout aboutmom anddad. Me: why ?Somet hi ngbadhappened?Idon' tl i ke i twheny oust r essedmybaby . Enhl e: t heyj ustf i ght i ngal otdadi sal way s comi ngbackhomel at e, dadsay she' swor ki ng onsomet hi ngr eal l yi mpor t antt hatcoul dgetus r i chert hanweal r eadyar ebutmom doesn' tbuy i t , shet hi nksdadi scheat i ng. . .Ij ustcan' tt akei t any mor et heyal way sshout i ngandar gui ngev en i nf r ontofus. Okayt hi si sgoodshe' spour i nghehear toutat me Me: whoahbabe, t hat ' shect i c, di dy ourf at hert r y t oexpl ai nt oy ourmom, whati ti sexact l yhei s wor ki ngon? . . . Imeanmay bei fheexpl ai nsshe' l l beabl et ol etherguar ddownal i t t l e? . Enhl e: hedoesexpl ai nbutnotf ul l y , j ustsay s he' swor ki ngonsomet hi ngbuthehast okeepi t l owpr of i l esot hati tsucceeds. Me: ohar ey oual soascur i ousasy ourmom on whaty ourdadmi ghtbewor ki ngon? . Ihopei t snott ooobv i ousI ' mf i shi ngher e Enhl e: Iam cur i ousbutdadi st oosecr et i v e. Me: y eaht hati sapr obl em. . . . may beIcoul dhel p y ou? Enhl e: y ouknowwhat , I ' mt i r edofdadandhi s secr et est heyar et her easonhi m andmom mi ghtgetadi v or ceandt hatwoul dt earus apar t , Ican' tl ett hem putusespeci al l ymy si st er s. . soy eah, pl easehel pmeoutbabe. Cl ev ergi r l , nowIhav eherr i ghtwher eIwanther , t hi swi l l bewayeasi ert hanIt hought . Me: okaybabe, al l y ouhav et odoi skeepacl ose ey eonhi m Enhl e: y oumeanspyonhi m? Me: i t st heonl yway, weshoul dmeett omor r ow, I ' l l gi v ey ousomet hi ngt hat ' l l hel py ou. . . t hat ' si f y ouokaywi t ht hi s, causey ouknowI ' mj ust t r y i ngt of i ndt hebestwayt ohel py oubabe. Enhl e: y ouj ustt el l met het i meandpl aceandI ' l l bet her e. . . besi des, Imi ssy ousomuch, Ican' t wai tt oseey ou. . andhol dy ou . Me: Imi ssy out oobabe, can' twai tt of eel y ou Enhl e: y ouknowwhatImi sst hemost ? Me: dot el l Enhl e: y ourv er yhar dwor ki ngdel i ci ousbi gD ♥ Me: mmhgi r l , y ousonaught y . . . l ookbabeI ' dl ov e t ochatt hewhol eni ght , butIhav et ogo Enhl e: aawwokay Me: don' tbel i ket hat , we' l l t al kmor et omor r ow whenIseey ou Enhl e: t omor r ow! ?Yey i !Can' twai t . OhGodhel pt hi schi l d, she' ssoshal l ow, beaut y wi t hnobr ai ns Me: y eahmet oo. . . goodni ght Enhl e: l ov ey ouQui nt on Me: met oobabe. Il ogof fr i ghtaf t er . . . Isi gh, wel l t hi si sagood t ur n, IhopeMrJohnsoni snotpl anni ngon any t hi ngi nv ol v i ngLi saandt hedi amondscause t hi st i meIswearI ' l l ki l l hi m, Idon' tcar ewhet her Li saf or gi v esmeornotasl ongasI ' l l be pr ot ect i ngher . . . Ir eal l ywant edt oexpl ai nt oher aboutEnhl ebutIt houghti t sbestIkeepi tf r om her , Isawi tbestshedoesn' tknow, Iknowhow f r agi l eLi sa' shear ti sev ent houghshe' d pr obabl yunder st andbutIknowi twoul dhur t hercauseaf t eral l Enhl ei smyexandwe' v ehad asexual r el at i onshi p, IknowLi sawoul dt ake mor eoft hatst uf ft ohear tt hant hef actt hatI ' m j ustusi ngher .I ' m notr eal l ygoodatt hi swhol e expl ai ni ngt hi ngandt hat ' swhyIdi dn' tst opher whenshel ef t , shewasr eal l yangr yandmy expl anat i onwoul dn' tmakesenset oheratt hat st at e. Ipushmywayoutt ot hel oungeshe' sst i l l sl eepi ng, Ibr ushhert ummy , shemov esar ound t henl azi l yopensherey es Ihav et okeepupt heactf ornow Me: " hey " Shel ooksatmef orawhi l e Sy dney : " hi " Shet r i esget t i ngupIgi v ehermyhandf or hel p, shesi t sup Sy dney : " wher ei sshe? " Me: " shel ef t " Shel ooksatmeupanddown Sy dney : " Iseeshecl eanedy ouup? " Me: " y eahshedi d" Sy dney : " si ck, shet ouchedy ourshi t ? " If eel mybl oodboi l i nanger Me( si ghs) : " y eah_ i twast heonl yway " Sy dney : " wow, Iguessbei ngf r om t hef ar ms she' susedt oshi t " Ij ustgav eherav er yhotsl ap. . . i nmymi nd Me: . . . Sy dney : " I ' m gl adshecl eanedy ouup, y oul ook hotagai n" Fucky ou! Shepul l smywheel chai rcl osert oherI ' mr i ght i nf r ontofher Sher ubsmycheeks Sy dney : " Idi dn' tr eal i sehowmuchmor e handsomet hebear dmakesy ou. . …i guessat t hatt i mei tmadey oul ookl i keabegger " Shel aughs Sy dney : " butnow. . . i t sat ur non, andy our out f i t , ohmy . . Idon' tknowi fal l owedt osayt hi s t oaguy . . buty oul ookbeaut i f ul " Shesmi l esl ooki ngi nt omyey esIsmi l eback Sy dney : " I ' m sohungr y . . . whatwoul dy oul i ket o or der ? " Me: " uhm y oucanor der , I ' l l hav esomeoft he f oodLi sacookedbef or eshel ef t " Shel ooksatmeamused Sy dney : " sheev encooked?Wow, t hankGod, I ' m t i r edoff ast sf oods" Me: " whydon' ty ouj ustcook? " Sy dney : " I ' m pr egnantAmbr ose. . .Howdoy ou expectmet ocook? " Me: " sor r yt hatwasi nsensi t i v eofme" Sy dney : " y eahi twas. . . nowl etmegodi shupf or my sel f " Me: " coul dy oudi shupf ormet oo? " Sy dney : " ar ghnomanAmbr o. . . I ' mt i r edofdoi ng ev er y t hi ngf ory ou, whenwi l l y oul ear nt o wal k, y ou' v ebeengoi ngf ort her apybutst i l l . . no i mpr ov ement " Me: " I ' mt r y i ngokay !I ' mt r y i ng, i t snoteasy " Sy dney : " wel l t r yhar der . . may bei fy oust ar v e, i t ' l l pushy out owor khar der " Me: " pl easeSy dney , pl easebabe" If ol l owedhert ot heki t chenpushi ngmy sel f Shel ooksatme Sy dney : " babe?Di dy ouj ustcal l mebabe? " Me: " y eah, . . . Iknowt hi ngshav en' tbeengoi ng wel l bet weenus, andi t smyf aul t , Ial way sexpect y out odot hi ngsf ormeev ent houghy oual so needhel py our sel f . .I twasr eal l ysel f i shof me. . . I ' m sor r y " Ibowmyheaddown If eel herget t i ngcl osert ome Sy dney : " If or gi v ey ouAmbr ose. .I ' m sor r yI ' v e beensomeant oy ou, Il ov ey ouandt hat ' snot whaty oudot osomeoney oul ov e, pl ease f or gi v eme? " Me: " If or gi v ey ou" Thi sbi t chonl yl ov esmewhenI ' m cl eanand goodl ooki ng Sy dney : " l etmedi shupf orus, y oumustbeso hungr y . .Mypoorbaby " Shedi shesupf ort hebot hofusweeati nt he l ounge, shel et ' smeeatwhol eont he wheel chai rcauseshe' st oot i r edt ohel pmesi t ont hecouch Sy dney : " t hatwasav er ydel i ci ousmeal ofpast a andmi nceI ' v eev ert ast ed. . . she' sgood" Me: " y eahshei s" AndIneedherbur i edi nmyar msr i ghtnow Sy dney : " Iknowy ou' l l nev erl ov emel i key ou l ov eher . . butpl easegi v emeachanceand f or getaboutheral i t t l e, y ou' l l see, we' l l bev er y happywi t hourl i t t l ej uni oront heway " She' sr eal l yl osti t . . l okoIt el l y ou Me: " y ouknowwhatSy dney . . .Your i ght , Ishoul d j ustf or getaboutLi sa, Imeanshe' sst i l l t o y oung, shedoesn' tknowwhatshewant s, Ineed agr ownwomani nmyl i f e, who' l l t akegoodcar e ofmeandhandl eourt r i al s. . Ineedawomanl i ke y ou" Shesmi l esandput sherpl at eont het abl et hen pul l smychai rt owar dsher Sy dney : " Yes, y ouf i nal l ygeti t , andbesi des, wego waybacky ouandI . . .Wer eal l yknoweach ot her . . . Il ov ey ouAmbr ose" Me: " If eel t hesamef ory ou" Shebr i ngsherf acet omi ne Sy dney : " y ousmel l soni ce. . l i kest r awber r i es" Me: " ohy eah? " Yest er dayIsmel tl i keshi t Sy dney : " y eah. . Iwanty oui nsi deme" Okay , howam Igoi ngt oav oi dsex. . wai t , t hi si s mychance Me: " Sy dney . . .Baby , I ' mr eal l ynoti nt hemood t oni ght" Shef r owns Sy dney : " oh?ButIt houghtwewer ehav i nga moment ? " Me: " y esbabe, wewer e, butI ' mj ustsot i r ed, I hav en' tsl eptpeacef ul l yi nweeksbecauseof di scomf or t , t hi swi l l bemyf i r stni ghtsl eepi ngi n af ul l st omachandcl eanbedandj usthav ea peacef ul sl eep" Wel l t hati sv er yt r ue, Ineedt her est Sy dney : " Ambr ose. .I ' m heav i l ypr egnant , y ou t heonewhoknockedmeup, andI ' m sur ey ou' v e hear daboutpr egnantwomanhor mones, now pl easebabei t ' l l j ustbeaqui cki e" Sher ubsmydi ck Sy dney : " ohmy , whenl astdi dIgetagoodbi g di ck, Ineedi t " Idon' tknowi fmydi cki snumborwhatbuti t s j ustnotr eact i ngt ohert ouch, i t ssof tasa cushi on Shel ooksatmef r owned Sy dney : " whyi si tsosof t ? " Ishr ug Me: " It ol dy ouIneedt osl eepandsodoesmy di ck" Sy dney( agi t at ed) : " shehadsexwi t hy oudi dn' t she! ? " Me( conf used) : " what ? " Sy dney : " Li zzy ?Shegav ey oupussydi dn' t she, t hat ' swhyy ousot i r ed? " HowIwi shwhatshei ssay i ngi st r ue, gr eat , I ' m i magi ni ngi tnow, hersexyr oundasst wer ki ng andsqui r t i ngonmemaki ngmel oosemymi nd! Ishoul dst opbef or eIgethar dt hent hi sbi t ch t hi nksi t sbecauseofher Me: " Sy dney . .Let ' sj ustdr opi t " Sheget supl ooki ngf ur i ous. , .Ther ei ti s, j ust whatIwant ed, t hecr azySy dney Sy dney ( shout i ng) : " Whycan' ty ouj ustl i st ent o me! !Youcan' tev enpr esentt ocar eaboutme! ! I ' m car r y i ngy ourbabyf ory oubuty oucan' tev en doal i t t l et ohel p, l i kegi v i nghi mt henut r i ent s f r om y oursper ms! !DoIhav et obegy ouf or sex! ! " Me: " y ouknowwhatSy dney . .I ' m si ckandt i r ed ofy ourbul l shi tIt r yt ot al kni cel ywi t hy oubut y oual way shav et of or cet hi ngs! !Whycan' ty ou bepat i ent ! ?I t sj ustsex ! !Whydoy ouhav et oact socheap! ! " Shegaspsl ooki ngatmei ndi sbel i efandt ot al shockandt her oom f i l l swi t hsi l ence. . bef or eI knowi tahotsl apacr ossmyf acebur ni ngmy cheek Mybr eat hget sheav i erwi t hmyt eet hcl enched asIf eel t heur get ost r angl et hel i f eoutofher Me: " di d_ y ou_ j ust _ sl ap_ me? " Shel ooksatmet er r i f i edbutr egai nsher composur eandl ookspr oudofher sel fbut unsur eatt hesamet i me Sy dney : " y oupushedmeandI ' l l doi tagai n! " Iat t emptt ogetupbuthol dmy sel f Shebur st si nt ol aught er Sy dney( l aughi ng) : " whatar ey out r y i ngt odo? Getup?Hhahaha! . . . . y ouacr i ppl eAmbr ose!You can' tdoany t hi ngt ome! !Youusel ess! !Younot manenough! !Youusel esssonofabi t ch. . . y ou st uckwi t hme. . andi fy oudon' tst ar tr espect i ng meandgi v i ngmewhatIwantwhenIwant i t . . . y ou' l l beget t i ngmor eoft hese! " Shesl apsmeagai n, Icl osemyey esandt akei n t hebur n, shesl apsmemul t i pl et i mes Sy dney : " You' l l l ear nt ol ov eandr espectme t oday ! ! " Me: " Nev er ! ! . . y oucr azy . . y out hr eat enedt oki l l my baby ! !I ' l l nev erl ov ey ou! ! . . Nev er ! ! Ineedt omakehermor eangr y Sy dney : " y out heonewhopushedme, y oumake mesoangr y ! ! " Me: " Youar ecapabl eofmur der ! !I ' l l nev er r especty ou! !Youar api st ! ! !Ahoe!Howcoul d y ouf or cesy our sel fonaman! ! . . . " SHUTUP! !JUSTSHUTUP! ! ! " Shesnapsandpushesmywheel chai rcausi ngi t t of al l oni t sback, Imanagedt obal ancewi t hmy handsbutIdi dn' tl ethernot i ceIpr et endedt o behur tasi fIhi tmyheadhar d Sy dney : " y ousoev i l . . . Il ov ey ousomuchbuty ou j ustkeepbr eaki ngmyhear t ! ! ! " Sheki cksmemul t i pl et i mesont her i bs, Igr oan i npai n, shedr agsmybodyt ot heki t chenand l eav esmeont hef l oorasshegoest owar dst he dr awandpul l souta. . . .gun! ! ! ! ? ? . . wher edi dshe gett hat ! ? Me: " Sy dney . . . .Baby . . . cal m down. . . . wher edi d y ou. . . wher edi dy ougett hat ? " Shel aughsanev i l l augh Sy dney : " Iwasgoi ngt oki l l y ouf i r stt henme, but Iwon' tki l l y ou, y oual r eadydeadwi t houty our l egs, y ou' l l bemor edeadwhenIl ety oul i v ewi t h t het r aumaofy ourbabyandhi smot herdy i ngi n f r ontofy ou! " It r yt osl i demy sel ft oher Me: " don' tdot hi s. . . .Pl easeOKokay . . Il ov ey ou.I r especty ou. . . * Bhaahh! " Icl osemyey es. . . assi l encef i l l st her oom af t er t hegunshot , Ipr ayshedi dn' tki l l her sel f, I ' m af r ai dt oopenmyey es, Iopenoneey e, andt he guni sr i ghtonmyf ace Sy dney : " nextt i meIwon' tmi ss" Okay , t hi si senoughev i dencet hatshe' scr azy Igr abt hegunf r om herandst anduponmyf eet Shel ookspet r i f i edashermout hi swi deopen, i n t ot al shock, Ipoi ntt hegunather Me: " y ouknowwhat . , . . i fy ouwantt odi eso bad, may beIshoul dj ustf i nal l ygi v ey ouwhat y ousodesper at el ywant ed! ? " Sheshakesherheadcont i nuousl y Sy dney ( st ar t t er i ng) : " II .. . . whendi dy ou?How di dy ou? . . y ouy oust andi ng. . . y ou. . y our l egs. . t hey . . t hey . . . Me: " shutup! ! ! " Shef ol dshermout hshut Idi r ectherwi t ht hegun Me: " t hatway " Imakeherl eadt hewayt ot hesecur i t yback r oom, Iopen Sandi l e: " hawu. . . boss. . what ' s. . ." Het r ai l sof fasheseesmeonmyl egs Me: " I ' l l expl ai nl at er " Heshakeshi shead Sandi l e: " nah. . . I ' mj usthappyy oubackboss" Sandi l eal sowor ksf ormei nt hef ami l y busi nesses, t hat ' swhyhehasconnect i ons IpushSy dneyi nsi de Me: " keepaney eonheratal l t i mes, makesur e shedoesn' tt r yany t hi ngst upi dl i ket r yt oki l l my baby . . . makesur esheeat s, don' tl ethergo hungr yany t hi ngshewant st oeat , butnott oo muchj unkal l t het i me. . . t akegoodcar eof her , anddon' tl etherl eav et hi sgat e, she' s al l owedt ot akeswal ksar oundt hey ar d, but she' snotal l owedi nsi demyhouse" Henods Sandi l e: " goti tboss. . . she' si ngoodhands" Me: " Iknow" Iwi nkathi m andt ur nt owal kaway . . butIt ur nt o l ookathi m Me: " andonemor et hi ngSandi l e" Hel ooksatmel i st eni ngat t ent i v el y Sandi l e: " y esboss? " Me: " don' ty oudar ef uckher . . . nomat t erhow hor nysheget s" Hel aughs Sandi l e: " I ' l l t r ynott o" Me: " I ' m ser i ousSandi l e. . . .That ' smybabyi n t her e, Idon' twanthi m seei ngot hermen' sdi cks" Hel aughsl ouder Sandi l e: " butboss, hecoul dl ear nat hi ngort wo" Il augh Me: " No!Leav et hatt ome. . . oncehe' soutof t her et houghandol denoughofcause" Wel aughbef or eIwal kaway Me: " goodni ghtSandi l e" IsayasIwal kaway " ( Laughi ng)goodni ghtgr oet man" Il ockt hesl i di ngdoorandsi ghshaki ngmyhead andl aughi ng Me: " t hatwassomecr azyshi t . . . nowIhav e enoughev i dencet oputt hatbi t chbehi ndbar s orapsy chopat hi chomef orl i f e. . andassoonas t hatbabyi sbor nI ' l l hav ef ul l cust odyofhi m" Now, onebi t chdown, onemor et ogo LI SA THENEXTDAY Tr r i i i i i i i i i ! !Tr i i i i i ! ! ! ! ! Il azi l ymov emyhandsar oundl ooki ngf ormy phoneundert hepi l l ow Tr r r i i i i i i ! !Tr r i i i i i ! ! If i nal l yf i ndi tIopenoneey eandswi t chof ft he al ar m wel l Iputi tonsnooze, damn, somuch noi se!Ishoul dchangei tt oacal mert one, ev en t hought hatwi l l makemewantt osl eepev en mor e Icl osemyey es Tr r i i i i i i ! !Tr r i i i ! ! ! ! ! Me( sl eepy ) : " mmhj ustf i v emor emi nut es" Isnoozei tagai nandsl eep Tr r i i ! ! Iqui ckl yj ustswi t chi tof fandgobackt o sl eep. . aahhf i nal l y ! . . . " St ar shi pswer emeantt of l y y y yhandsupand t oucht hesky y y ! !Let ' sdoonel astt i i i mmee! ! ! . " Ar ghcan' tagi r l getabr eakIansweri t aggr essi v el y Me: " WHAT! ! ? ? " " YOH. . . geezsomeonewokeupatt hewr ong si deoft hebed? " Me: " Thel ma, I ' mr eal l ybusyr i ghtnow" " Yeah, y ourv oi cesay si tal l . . . di dy ouseet he t i me! !Opent hedoorpl ease! " Isl uggi shl ysi tup Me: " unesi cef ey az " ( y ousoi r r i t at i ngy ouknow) " You' l l t hankmeoncey ouseet het i me" Il ookatmyphoneandi t spastei ght Me: " i t shal fpastei ght . . so? " " Youknowschool sopent odayr i ght ? " Myhear tbeat sonskyhi gh. . It ot al l yf or got Me: " What ! !Whydi dn' ty out el l me! !Whydi dn' t any onewakemeup! ! " " Uhmmm t hat ' scausey oust ayal one? " Me: " mx m! " Idr opt hecal l andr unt ogoopent hedoorf or hert henr unt ot hebat hr oom, Ij ustwashmy f aceandbr ushmyt eet h. . . t hi sal way shappens t omeonf i r stday s! !Ev enwhenIst ay edwi t h Qui nt on!Ir unt ot her oom andt hr owal l my cl ot hesoutofmysui t casel ooki ngf or somet hi ngIcanwearwi t houti r oni ngi t , Iset t l e f orsweat pant sandv est !It i emymessyhai r i nt oal azypony t ai l , Il ookl i kesomet omboy snob, Iputr edl i pst i ckj ustt oaddal i t t l el i f eon mydul l f ace " Hur r yupLi sa! ! " Me: " I ' m comi ng! " Iputonmyr unni ngt akki es Af t erI ' m doneIgr abmybagandmar cht ot he door Me: " l et ' sgo" Thel ma: " f i nal l y" Wegeti nhercarandshespeedsof f Thel ma: " can' tbel i ev ey oumademel at eonmy f i r stday " Me: " It ot al l yf or gotschool sopent oday !" Thel ma: " butdudel astni ghtov ert hephonei t s al l wewer et al ki ngabout , andhowexci t edIam t hatatl eastIhav ey out ogui demear ound" Me: " y eahy eah. . . mysl eephott hebet t eroutof me. . i t sj ustl astni ghtwast hef i r stt i mei nt wo mont hsIgotapeacef ul sl eep" Thel ma: " someonedi dn' tenj oyherhol i day s" Me: " y oudon' tknowt hehal fofi t " Wear r i v eatcampus, not hi ngwasdonei n cl assesasusual j ustt hei nt r oduct i ons, Ist i l l don' tgetwhyIev enbot hercomi ngf i r stday s I ' m wal ki ngwi t hThel ma, Ij ustcameoutf r om myt hi r dcl assandI ' mj ustshowi ngherar ound Thel ma: " wow, t hi scampusi sbi g" Me: " notr eal l y . . i t sbecausei t sy ourf i r stday . . Don' tbef ool ed" Shel aughs Myey esl ockwi t hher sasshecomest owar ds us Me( mummer y ) : " ohgodshedar escome t owar dsmeI ' l l ki l l her , Iswear ! " Thel ma: " what ! ?Whaty out al ki ngabout ! ? " Shel ooksatt hedi r ect i onI ' ml ooki ngat " HeyLi sa" Shest andsi nf r ontofme, It r yt ocar r yonwi t h myway , i gnor i ngherbutshehol dsmyar m Me: " don' tt ouchme" Yonel a: " comeonLi sa. . . .Cany ouj usthearme out . . Ihav eagoodr eason" Me: " r easonorexcuse? " Yonel a: " mybr ot heri si nacoma" IgaspIf eel myhear tache Me: " Noo! ? . . " Yonel a: " Yeah. . i thasn' tbeeneasy f ort hepast t hr eemont hsI ' v ebeendepr essed. .I ' m sor r yI di dn' tcont acty ou" Ishakemyhead Me: " Iunder st and. .Youdon' thav et o apol ogi se. . . Ij ustwi shIhadknownt obet her e f ory ou" Yonel a: " y ouhady ourownpr obl emswi t h Qui nt onandst uf f , Idi dn' twantt oaddmor e" Ipul l heri nt omyembr ace Me: " Il ov ey ousomuch, y oucannev erbet oo muchf orme, nomat t erhowdepr essedy ou ar e, . . nextt i mepl easeasl ongasI ' m st i l l al i v e, don' tkeept hi ngsl i ket hi sawayf r om me okay ? " Shenodsonmyshoul derwepul l outandwi pe eachot her st ear s Yonel a: " y oust i l l acr ybaby " Me: " bi t chpl ease. . y ouar ecr y i ngt oo" Wel augh, shel ooksnextt ome Me: " oh. . Yonel a, t hi si sThel mamynew nei ghbourandf r i end, Thel ma, t hi si sYonel amy ol df r i end" Shel aughs Yonel a: " ol d? " Me: " y ouknowasi nol derl i keshe' sbeenmy f r i endl ongerl i keol df r i end. . . ar ghy ouknow whatImean" Theyl aughatme Yonel a: " weunder st and. . . y oucr azyal way shav e al way swi l l be" Me: " shutup. . ! " Thel ma: " Il i key oual r eadyYonel a" Yonel a: " wi shIcoul dsayt hesame" * si l ence* Wel ookatheri ndi sbel i ef , Igi v ehert he" ey e" t he" WTFey e" Shet akesout