Relfection Paper of Beast of No NAtion Agu loses track of time, understanding only that he was a child before that war but has become a man in a seemingly never-ending trial by fire, Agu always questioned God but he suddenly becomes an unknown person trying and using drugs and alcohol. He wants to stop killing and war but he fears that doing that will get him killed by the Commandant. During this time of war Agu and the army had very little to eat, so they ate what they could: rats, small game, goats, etc. The food is not enough, and the water is known to contain human feces. The Commandant rapes Agu, Strika, and other children in the battalion in return for small tokens. While Agu hates the rape, he does not resist as he fears he will be killed by the Commandant if he does so. Agu was hurt and can’t accept the fact that he was raped by the commandant who he thinks will treat him as his child. The Commandant eventually takes the battalion to the village of his birth where they visit a brothel. Commandant's second in command, Luftenant (2IC), is shot by a prostitute. But it was the plan of the Commandant because he didn’t want Luftenant to be in his title, so Luftenant was then replaced by a soldier named Rambo, thus named because of his bloodthirst. His wish to escape the army finally comes true when Rambo leads a successful revolt against the Commandant in a period of agonizing lack of necessities. You see even in the middle of the battle there will be a realization that you have the freedom to choose. Starved, exhausted, and bereaved of his only friend, Strika, Agu joins the disbanded soldiers to try to make their way home. They were desperate to leave to have freedom, to live a comfortable life with no violence. After a long and exhausting journey, they were rescued. In time, he comes under the care of a shelter/hospital run by a preacher and a white woman. Agu gets new clothes and all the food and sleep he wants and regains his health and strength. However, after having lived through a bloody war, the Bible no longer holds any meaning for him. Amy invites him to share his thoughts and feelings, and Agu tells her he wants to be a doctor and save lives to redeem his sins. He admits to being a devil but says that his mother is loving him. Until Agu shares everything with Amy about the trauma he has during the war. As days pass by Agu learns to make new friends and rebuild his life. - GMRM
