Last Thursday, one of my class split us into groups and gave us an assignment to present on a
specific topic. We used a phone app to decide who would present in front of the class, and
unfortunately, my name was chosen. I find it extremely daunting and my heart races when I think
about speaking in front of a big crowd because public speaking can be intimidating and nervewracking. So it's been on my mind as I take the bus home. To make matters worse, I got off the
wrong street and couldn't figure out where I was. I was starting to panic because I had an online
class right after.
I'm feeling anxious as I really think about my situation and I start to shake and become tense,
which makes it more difficult for me to figure out where I was and I'm having trouble using Google
Maps for navigation. My sympathetic nervous system is immediately responding in a way that
indicates I am feeling distressed. I was sprinting but apparently I was going the wrong way, and
knew it wasn't going well. My heart was pounding rapidly, so I paused to take a few deep breaths
and attempt to relax my body. Finally, I found someone who was Filipino, so I hastily asked for
directions while I was out of breath and having difficulty speaking due to my dry mouth. When I
arrived back at home and joined my virtual class late, I felt a physical discomfort due to the running
and chilly temperatures I had been exposed to.
Whenever I'm in a difficult or nerve-wracking situation, I always find a way to come up with a
solution, even when I'm not sure I can do it. I'm the type of person who won't rest until I find a
way to work through whatever challenge I'm facing. It might take me some time, but I always
strive to put my best foot forward and find a solution. Recently, I have been having difficulty in
the exhaustion stage. My body isn't getting enough rest. It's been a challenge to drift off to sleep
and my sleep is fragmented too. I even feel guilty when I go out, thinking that I'm spending time
that I could be using to complete my assignments. Nevertheless, I'm putting in a lot of effort,
both physically and mentally, to become the best version of myself again. I'm doing everything I
can to make that happen.