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For my children Carlitos, Victoria, Robert, Irina, Oscar, and
Aruru. Because through you I have experienced the light and
love necessary to carry me in the darkness.
Soon, my babies… soon.
For the beacons that have stood as my compass in the
storm, and my inspiration in a legacy, Thank you.
To all those people that have touched my life, from
childhood until now, from all of you I have learned, and
taken the lessons in. Better late, than never!
In memoriam of my elders.
For the many hours of wisdom granted.
Whenever you’re lonely and hurting
inside, There will always be someone
right by your side.
Whenever you think your faith is
used up, That someone will come
and raise it back up.
Don’t you ever forget how
to pray, It doesn’t matter
what people say.
‘Cause people only think their
smart, But true feelings come
from the heart.
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