It been 4 years since I’ve written something, please be gentle with me. :D
When do we fall in love, and when do we fall out of love?
When do we fall in love?
Was it the day you called me cute? Na buong buhay ko, I was full of insecuries because of how I look.
Of my skin, of my kin, and everything between. Na dahil kulay koy lupa, at kulay moy langit, sisilip lang sa malayo, di
susubok pagka’t tulad moy panagnip.
Was it the day you chose to approach me, of all the guys in the room. Cause you told me you like me. Kahit di naman
ako yung typical first choice. I know my place, I know my market. So I didn’t expect.
But you told me you liked my company better, and we’ll talk all day, and we’ll talk all night, about the universe,
about atoms, about the future, the stock market, ang Putang Inang gobyerno, the bureaucracy, Putin, Trump, the
Nazzi Regime in Germany.
The dismantling of the iron curtain, the international law, the United Nations Convention of the Law of the Sea, or
the 200 nautical miles EEZ. And we’ll notice it’s three am already. Magtitinginan, ngingiti, and we’ll go to bed, cuddle,
and that’s how we choose to end our day.
Was it the days I wake-up with you in my shoulders. Was it your smile? Your eyes? Your hair? Or your big ______?
When do we really fall in love?
Here’s what I discovered. You don’t fall in love on your first kiss. Or your first flowers. Or your first sex. Or your first
month, or your first year. Or you your first decade. Falling in love is a process. It’s a product of small consistent
effort.
Tulad nang pagpapalaki ng muscles. You don’t get those abs by going to the gym and spending 24 hrs there and after
one day, mukhang si Superman ka na. It’s going to the gym everyday or every other day, doing small tasks
consistenty. Small consistent effort.
O kung gusto mong pumuti ang balat mo, hindi ka maglalaklak ng isang libong Gluta. Gurl, baka mas mauna ka pang
maihawa kesa pumutla. Consistency. Mag sunblock ka everyday, mag KojieSan Buy 1 Take 1 for the price of 50.
Araw-araw maligo, mag hilod, mag aircon. Consistency. Again, small consistent effort.
Ang pag txt ng good morning bawat umaga. Ang pagtatanong ng kumain ka na ba? O ang maya’t mayang pag
kumusta. Ang pag hatid-sundo sa bahay. Ang pangungulit at pagkasanay. When do we fall in love? Consistency. Small
consistent Effort.
Now, when do we fall out of love?
Was it the day you caught me cheating? Or was it the day I saw you cheating? I don’t think so. Kaya nga andami na
nating nasabihang tanga dahil kahit harap-harapan na silang ginagawang gaga, ay mahal na mahal pa rin nila.
Because you don’t just loose love! Kaya nga yung iba, kahit madalas pang saktan kaysa i-romansa. Na kahit alam
mong may ibang pupuntahan siya sa tuwing umaalis at uuwi na susunod na umaga. Na kahit alam mo nang sa
relasyon, mas mahal mo siya kesa mahal ka niya.
O minahal ka nga ba talaga. O kailangan ka lang kaya kayo magkasama.
When you have more questions than answers. Yung ang tiyak mo lang ay ang kanyang presensya. At isang araw,
pagkatapos ng isang daan at isang libong duda, bigla na lang siyang susuko, bigla na lang mawawala.
When do we really fall out of love? Also, consistency. Small consistent mistakes.
Unang pagkakamali, mapapatawad mo pa. Pangalawa, pangatlo, pang apat, pang lima. Ngunit kug inaraw-araw na,
magugulat ka na lang, kahit gaano ka pa ka tapang, susuko at susuko ka.
It’s been 4 years since I’ve written something. And I thank you for this lesson. I’ll keep this in mind next time. That
falling in love is not a date, or a day, or a moment. It happens happens every day while you are in a relationship. And
falling out of love doesn’t happen on a day, or on an experience, or on a moment. It’s a product of constant neglect,
distrust, or disloyalty.
It’s been 4 years since I’ve written something. I miss you. And matatamis mong labi. Ang mapupungay mong mata.
Ang 6 packs. The deep conversations. I miss you, and your big Dick. :D