LIVING WISDOM: UNDERSTANDING WISDOM THROUGH LIFE STORY A dissertation submitted by GREGORY J. MICHAUD to FIELDING GRADUATE INSTITUTE in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the degree of DOCTOR OF PHILOSOPHY in HUMAN DEVELOPMENT This dissertation has been accepted for the faculty of Fielding Graduate Institute by: Judith Stevens-Long, Ph.D. Chair Helen Weingarten, Faculty Reade Gary^Sclfulman, Ph.D. Faculty Reader David B. Drake, Ph.D. Student Reader Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. UMI Number: 3158292 Copyright 2004 by Michaud, Gregory J. All rights reserved. INFORMATION TO USERS The quality of this reproduction is dependent upon the quality of the copy submitted. Broken or indistinct print, colored or poor quality illustrations and photographs, print bleed-through, substandard margins, and improper alignment can adversely affect reproduction. In the unlikely event that the author did not send a complete manuscript and there are missing pages, these will be noted. Also, if unauthorized copyright material had to be removed, a note will indicate the deletion. ® UMI UMI Microform 3158292 Copyright 2005 by ProQuest Information and Learning Company. All rights reserved. This microform edition is protected against unauthorized copying under Title 17, United States Code. ProQuest Information and Learning Company 300 North Zeeb Road P.O. Box 1346 Ann Arbor, Ml 48106-1346 Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. LIVING WISDOM: UNDERSTANDING WISDOM THROUGH LIFE STORY by GREGORY J. MICHAUD ABSTRACT This qualitative inquiry into the phenomenon o f wisdom uses Atkinson’s life story methodology to determine the development of wisdom from the inside out-that is, from the perspective of each individual’s life story. The study used current research on the development of wisdom, in particular, the relation of the development of wisdom to occupation and environment as a starting point. Using semi structured open ended interviews; each participant constructed their life story. Interviews were transcribed verbatim and edited for readability using clarity, completeness and conciseness to develop the finished narrative. Narratives were then analyzed to determine general themes. These themes were then viewed through the lens of current wisdom research. Three major themes were identified; The ability to navigate and learn from difficult life experiences as a component o f wisdom; experiencing a sense of place and its role in the participant’s wisdom development; and the importance of being open to experience in the development of wisdom. These themes suggest the usefulness of this research methodology in illuminating a path to the development of wisdom among this group of participants. Suggestions for future research are reviewed. i Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. Copyright by Gregory J. Michaud 2004 11 Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS For Kelly, and her unending support during the entirety of this project. For Fred Rogers who truly lived wisdom. iii Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. TABLE OF CONTENTS CHAPTER ONE: INTRODUCTION............................ Purpose and Significance o f the Study......................................... Statement o f the Problem 8 8 .................................... 10 Locating M yself.................................................................. 10 CHAPTER TWO: LITERATURE REVIEW......................................... 12 The Evolution of Wisdom Theory in Psychology.......................................... 12 Implicit Theory Development........................................................................ 14 Explicit Theory Development........................................................................ 16 Wisdom and Balance............................................... 26 Wisdom and Social-Historical Context................ 30 Wisdom and a Sense of Place................................ 36 Sense o f Place as a Construct.......................................................................36 Openness to Experience and the Role of Chance in the Development of Wisdom ............................ 42 Narrative Inquiry and the Study o f Wisdom................................................... The Life Story Interview. ..... 44 47 48 CHAPTER THREE: METHOD..................................................................... Participants............................................................ The Interview Process 49 ....................................... Consideration o f Ethical Issues Analysis and Interpretation. 51 ................................ 53 ..................................... 54 CHAPTER FOUR: RESULTS.................................................................. Living Wisdom: A Collection of Life Stories....................................................... iv Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 54 54 54 Ben McCord ‘‘I ’m A Coal M iner’s Son ”............................................... 54 William T ate................................ 78 “I think the challenge o f my life was to recognize and let that spiritual presence in. ”................... 78 Ann Carter. ...... 105 “I learned some sense o f what was important and what wasn't; what you could leave behind. ”................................................................................... 105 Andrew Lord.............................................................................................................122 “I tend to be a pragmatist. ”........................................................................122 Findings........................................ 142 Gaining Wisdom Through Hardship and Challenge Wisdom and a Sense of Place ...... ...... 145 150 Openness to Experience Wisdom & Serendipity........................................158 CHAPTER FIVE: DISCUSSION ...... 161 Evidence of Existing Wisdom Theory....................................................................162 Gaining Wisdom Through Hardship and Challenge................................ 162 Cognitive Complexity and the Recognition o f Patterns and Connections ....................................................................................................................... 164 Developing Wisdom and a ‘‘Sense o f Place ” ............................................165 Placing O ne’s Self in Context: Sense o f Place and Sense o f Self............ 168 Openness to Experience and the Role of Chance in the Development of Wisdom ....... 169 CHAPTER SIX: CONCLUSION.. ..... Limitations of this Study............. 170 172 Toward a New Understanding of the Development o f Wisdom...........................173 v Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. Suggestions for Future Research ............... 173 REFERENCES............... 175 APPENDIXES 184 ........................... Appendix A: Informed Consent Form for Dissertation Research....................... 184 Appendix B: Participant Letter (Example)...................... vi Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 187 LIST OF TABLES Page Table 1: Explicit Wisdom Theory in Psychology............. 17 Table 2: Relationships to Place Topology (Cross, 2001, p .3 )........................................39 Table 3: Revised Sense o f Place Topology ...... 40 Table 4: Cross ’ “Relationships to Place” & Current Wisdom Theory..........................41 Table 5: Sense o f Place & Wisdom Theory..................................................................... 166 Table 6: Participants Sense o f Place & Wisdom Theory............. vii Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. ..167 8 CHAPTER ONE: INTRODUCTION Human intelligence has, to some extent, brought the world to the brink. It may take wisdom to find our way around it. (Sternberg, 2000b, p. 253) Science cannot address the problems that are raised within the scope of wisdom. The repression of wisdom by science has led into a dangerous impasse: “While being armed to the teeth with knowledge, we could easily end up with literally empty hands, perplexed and helplessly confronted with the challenges of life.” (Assmann, 1994, p. 221) Purpose and Significance of the Study This study centered on what it is like to live with, develop and experience wisdom within the context of a life. This study will examine life stories in the context of theories about wisdom and will review what, if any, implications exist given current understanding of the development of wisdom throughout the lifespan. This study will not try to determine whether a particular behavior, judgment or an individual is or is not wise. Research into the evaluation of wise behavior or cognition as well as the traits of wise individuals has been extensively reviewed elsewhere (Baltes,1990; Staudinger, 1999; Staudinger, Maciel, Smith, & Baltes, 1998). Making a definitive determination of whether an individual is wise or not is problematic, given that our lives and environments are not static at any point in time. I believe that most adults exhibit an “ordinary wisdom” ( Randall & Kenyon, 2001) at some time in their lives just by the nature of their life experiences, providing they have the cognitive capacity to learn and grow from them. Research also shows that those whose lives put them in daily contact with situations and people who are looking for Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 9 advice in the difficult and important aspects of life build more competence in practicing wisdom (Baltes, Staudinger, Maercker, & Smith, 1995; Staudinger et al., 1998). The questions that this study is designed to answer are different than much of the research on wisdom, where qualitative research becomes fertile ground for empirical theory building and testing. In this study, empirical research, specifically research that deals with environments or occupations that have been shown to facilitate the development of wisdom, serve as the starting point of this study. I hope this qualitative research will inform and augment current empirical models of wisdom. This study uses a life story methodology to peel back the layers of the life experiences of four accomplished psychologist/educators/researchers. Using Atkinson’s (Atkinson, 1998) Life Story Interview methodology, this study gives some topological depth to current empirically-based wisdom theory. This research was not undertaken to supplant or disprove more empirical approaches to the study of wisdom; rather its purpose is to uncover more complex aspects of the phenomenon that are often lacking in more quantitative approaches. There is an important caveat, however, in that it is always difficult to generalize findings from single case studies, but it is my assertion that these lives do suggest important developmental themes in acquiring wisdom that would be missed using more empirical research methods. Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. Statement of the Problem In this study, I was given a view of how participants negotiated success and failure and how they integrated these learnings into their lives, as well as the impact this had in their life’s journey toward wisdom thus far. Most recent theories of wisdom focus on documenting what the products and processes of wisdom are within the context of expertise, a form of intelligence or cognition. For the most part, little research is done regarding how wisdom is developed and experienced in the context of a life. Also, much of the current theorizing about wisdom is empirically based and emerges from folk or implicit theory. Unfortunately, even with its folk roots, much o f the current scientific discourse on wisdom is based on research that misses the individual experience and nuance that is crucial to the full understanding of wisdom. As Chandler and Holiday (1990) pointed out, the tools we rely on to illuminate this concept may not be adequate to the task at hand. Locating Myself As with any journey, it is important to know where you are before you begin the process of navigating to your destination. My personal interest in wisdom stems from several different but related sources: how adults think and learn, cognitive growth, the aging process, and exploring the nature of what it may mean to live a meaningful life. These questions have been asked in different disciplines, each with its own research protocol and understanding o f what makes acceptable scholarship. Having been trained in the empirical research traditions of psychology, I felt that to pursue a research topic like Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 11 wisdom, one that crossed several fields and domains of knowledge, including psychology, religion, and philosophy, would be complex at best leading to the possibility of “blind eclecticism” at worst. Luckily, well-respected researchers like Paul and Margaret Baltes at the Max Plank Institute, Robert Sternberg and others laid the groundwork, demonstrating the importance of working within a topic as complex as wisdom. I also believe that the emergence and acceptance of qualitative research methods such as narrative or life history approaches have facilitated cross-discipline research of the type required to tackle phenomenon like wisdom. With this as context, I was now able to see a way to have my research informed by several disciplines while retaining a psychological perspective. As a researcher, I have always been interested in psychological phenomenon that makes us uniquely human. Concepts like self-transcendence, the development of empathy, altruism, courage and other human possibilities have always interested me. I believe that formal research into these phenomena is crucial to our ability to negotiate the many important choices inherent in this fast-paced technological, global existence. Questions like “What can I know; what ought I know; what may I hope?” are especially relevant today (Chandler, 1990, p. 125). My interest in these types of questions, along with my interest in the developmental processes that underlie cognition such as formal/post formal operations, the development of intelligence, and the way in which cognition, affect and personality come together (or not) as we age, lead me to an interest in the development and manifestation of wisdom and wisdom-related knowledge. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 12 CHAPTER TWO: LITERATURE REVIEW The purpose of this literature review is not to complete an exhaustive review of the development and manifestation o f wisdom. Other reviews do a more than competent job of covering that topic (Baltes, 1990; Birren, 1990; Kramer, 1990; Labouvie-Vief, 1990; Shedlock, 1998; Staudinger, 1996; Sternberg, 1990a). The purpose of this review is (a) to explore the relevant themes and intellectual development o f the most influential wisdom research and theory to date, specifically as it applies to the domain of psychology; and (b) to explore the connection between history, place, and the importance of being open to learning and experience to the development of wisdom. The Evolution of Wisdom Theory in Psychology The study of wisdom is relatively new to psychology, but not to other, older branches o f study like the humanities, philosophy, the arts and religion. Like psychology of the 18th and early 19th century, philosophy and the sciences moved away from thinking about such grand phenomenon as wisdom to subjects more in line with an emphasis on a new objective, empirical positivism. Wisdom as a process of thinking and acting has been a distinct component of many cultures, Eastern and Western, through the ages (Robinson, 1990). In fact some current researchers put forward the idea that wisdom and the process o f trying to achieve it are adaptive processes in human evolution. Early cultures like the Egyptians, Greeks, Christians as well as many early Eastern cultures call out wisdom as important and Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 13 beneficial to society and the individual, although the definition of wisdom varies between cultures and historic periods (Assmann, 1994; Labouvie-Vief, 1990; Robinson, 1990). In most societies, wisdom serves as one way to sanctify right thought and action and so is intertwined with what Assmann (1994) described as “validated action, behavior, or attitude” (p. 190). Many societies and cultures understand wisdom as an extension of knowledge, a cognitive process or way of knowing. Assmann described four possibilities that have qualified certain knowledge as wisdom throughout history; knowing more than the ordinary person, knowing deeper than the ordinary person, knowing what is beyond the reach of the ordinary person and knowing what is good for the wise person or others (Assmann, 1994). Wisdom as knowledge or cognitive process has dominated western thinking since cultures began inquiring into the phenomenon. Although understood as an extension of knowledge or type of knowledge, wisdom has also been understood by many through the centuries as serving a moral or guiding purpose (Assmann, 1994; Robinson, 1990). Wisdom has served to ground a people or culture in the search of a higher purpose or a set of shared universal values. To be wise in most cultures is to have the ability to conceive of how things at a fundamental level are interrelated. In an article entitled Psychology o f Wisdom: Evolutionary Interpretations, Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi & Kevin Rathunde (1990) made this point in discussing similarities between ancient and modem ways o f conceptualizing wisdom: While contemporary discussions of wisdom fall to evoke the traditional categories of universal truth or God to denote the pursuit of wisdom, there Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 14 is an underlying emphasis in both accounts on the value of holistic cognitive processes that move beyond a fragmented and impassive reality toward a more “universal” or metasystemic awareness of interrelated systems. Attributes such as reflexivity or the capacity for selfexamination are seen as providing the needed impetus to escape from relativistic intellectualization. (p. 31) Implicit Theory Development As Robert Sternberg and others have pointed out, current wisdom theory building has its roots in implicit or folk knowledge (Sternberg, 1990b). Such implicit knowledge represents a common, cultural shared understanding. Implicit theorizing consists of uncovering wisdom-related knowledge, as it exists in specific populations and/or religious and secular texts and folklore. Studies that explore implicit theorizing about wisdom have given rise to many of the explicit or empirically-derived theories (Assmann, 1994; Baltes, 1990; Sternberg, 1990c). Implicit theories can also help researchers to understand cultural anchoring of explicit theorizing. Much of the initial research on implicit wisdom theory focused on how people understand the concept of wisdom. This research provides insight into how the concept hangs together in the public consciousness. More recent work has been attempted to parse out the differences or overlap between wisdom and other concepts like intelligence and creativity (Sternberg, 1997,2000a, 2001; Sternberg, 1990c). Among the researchers who have written about implicit theory related to wisdom, Clayton & James Birren (1980), Holiday and Chandler (1986), Baltes and Smith (1990) and Sternberg (1998) have been the most influential in their impact on more empirical explicit theorizing. For example, Holiday and Chandler collected data from several Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 15 separate studies that looked at the language commonly used in describing wise individuals. They wanted to test the notion that: “The words wise and wisdom, as commonly used, reference a constellation of coherently organized and psychologically meaningful attributes and behaviors that include but are not coextensive with what it means to be simultaneously old and intelligent” (Chandler, 1990, p. 137). The researchers found evidence that wisdom does tend to be understood as a constellation of competencies different and distinct from words such as intelligent, shrewd and perceptive. In a similar study involving professors of art, business, philosophy and physics, Sternberg looked at the implicit wisdom theories held by subject matter experts (unlike Chandler’s subjects identified as “laypeople”) across different domains (Sternberg, 1990c). Like Chandler, Sternberg also tested the relationship between wisdom and concepts like intelligence and creativity. In this collection of experiments, Sternberg first asked the university professors to list behaviors that would be characteristic of a wise, intelligent or creative person. In another experiment, Sternberg asked college students to sort three sets of 40 behaviors into piles: “These 40 behaviors in each set were top-rated wisdom, intelligence and creativity behaviors from the previous experiment” (Sternberg, 1990b, p. 145). In these experiments, Sternberg used multidimensional scaling to determine the specific components of people’s implicit theories of wisdom, intelligence and creativity. Six components came to light regarding wisdom; reasoning ability, sagacity, learning from ideas and environment, judgment, expeditious use of information, and perspicacity. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 16 Different components emerged for creativity and intelligence, lending credence to the idea that implicit theories for each concept are distinct. Finally, Sternberg ran a third experiment, in which he attempted to correlate these three prototypes (wisdom, intelligence and creativity), with psychometric data. His idea was to test the prototype’s external validity. He found that: “People have prototypes somehow stored in their heads for intelligence and creativity as well as for wisdom. These prototypes are not only internally consistent and sensible, but also related externally to psychometric measures targeted to measurable constructs” (Sternberg, 1990b, p. 148). Explicit Theory Development The development of explicit wisdom theory in the social sciences (especially psychology) takes several forms and in some sense has mirrored the development of knowledge in psychology. For a simple example, theorists like Jung (1960) or Erikson (1980) grounded their theoretical understanding of wisdom in a more psychodynamic perspective, as opposed to Baltes and Staudinger (1990) and Sternberg (1998), who based their research programs on a cognitive/intelligence framework. Up until recently, these separate research tracks seemed to diverge. In the last few years, however, theorists from many different “schools” within the psychological community, as well as from fields outside of the psychological research community such as gerontology, sociology, philosophy, and religion have come together to address questions involving the development and manifestation of wisdom. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 17 In the psychological literature, explicit wisdom theory clusters around several major research themes and theoretical perspectives. Research themes include environmental/contextual influence, spirituality, balance/integration, personality, occupation, age and thinking/cognition. The theoretical perspectives include intelligence, intellectual/personality development, and psychodynamic perspectives: Table 1 Explicit Wisdom Theory in Psychology Research Theme Environm ental/ S pirituality Balance/ Personality O ccupation Age Thinking/ contextual In teg ratio n Cognition i n f l u e n c e _____________________________________________________________________________________ Theoretical Perspective Baltes Sternberg ExplicitIntelligence Baltes Staudinger Baltes Sternberg ExplicitIntellectual and/or personality Development Assmann LabouvieV ief Orwoll & Perhnutter Kitchener / Brenner Meacham Orwoll & Perhnutter Explicit PsychodynamicDeveJopmentaJ Levitt Jung Erikson Jung Erikson Jung Erikson Baltes Sternberg Hira & Faulkend er Hershey & Baltes Sternberg LabouvieV ief Orwall & Perhnutter Jung Eriksson Jung Erikson Bolded areas indicate current research emphasis Psychodynamics and Explicit Wisdom Theory Psychodynamic theory has played a very important part in the development of wisdom theory. The influence of Erikson’s (1968) psychosocial theory, as well as Jung’s analytic (Campbell, 1971) and Kohut’s (1977) object relations’ theories have been extremely important in the development of the dialogue among researchers thus far (Orwoll & Achenbaum, 1993). Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 18 As one o f Freud’s students, Jung was grounded in the analytic approach to the development of the self or the ego. Jung broke with Freud by going beyond psychosexual development, to a theory of personality development that stressed the changing relationship of the unconscious to the conscious mind throughout the lifespan. Jung saw the lifespan as a journey beginning with childhood, with its anchor in the unconscious. He saw middle age as a growing into consciousness, with all of its resulting problems—as we are abandoned by nature (Jung, 1933). Jung saw old age as a return to the unconscious—not of a child, but the emergence of an ability to access and connect with primordial images and symbols “which are inborn in him from the earliest times, and, eternally living, outlasting all generations still make up the ground work o f the human psyche” (Jung, 1933). Further, Jung asserted that wisdom was demonstrated when an individual was able to balance consciousness with collective unconscious archetypal symbols: “It is only possible to live the fullest life when we are in harmony with these symbols; wisdom is a return to them. It is a question neither of belief nor of knowledge, but o f the agreement of our thinking with the primordial images of the unconsciousness” (Jung, 1933, p. 21). This idea of wisdom as balance carries over into contemporary wisdom theories such as Sternberg’s balance theory of wisdom (Sternberg, 1998) and Labouvie-Vief s conception of wisdom as a balance between cognition and affect (Labouvie-Vief, 1990,1994). Erik Erikson was arguably the most influential theorist in the area of human development in general and adult development in particular. His influence reaches beyond psychodynamic-personality/ego based theorists and has been foundational in the Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 19 study of adult development as it relates to cognition, affect and specifically wisdom. Like Jung, Erikson was also greatly influenced by psychoanalysis. Trained in Vienna as an analyst, Erikson’s early thinking around human development was an extension of Freud’s work on psychosexual development, with a specific emphasis on the development of the ego. Unlike Freud and other influential psychoanalytical theorists of his day (with the exception of Hartman) who relegated social influences to the side lines, Erikson saw the importance of social structure in understanding ego development and succeeded in developing a comprehensive stage-based theory around its influence. Erikson was also influenced by discoveries in other areas of the sciences, specifically the biological sciences. The concept o f epigenesis, with its notion that an embryo develops certain body organs and systems in an invariant stage like progression, and that one system has an impact on the development of another underlies his theory o f psychosocial development: As I now quote what the embryologist has to tell us about the epigenesis of organ systems, I hope the reader will hear the probability that all growth and development follow analogous patterns. In the epigenetic sequence of development each organ has its time of origin a factor as important as the locus of origin. (Erikson & Erikson, 1997, p. 27) In Erikson’s model, hope, will, purpose, competence, fidelity, love, care, and wisdom are seen as “psychosocial strengths”; won through the successful negotiation of specific life crisis. In Erikson’s theory, wisdom is gained through achieving integrity by the successful negotiation and resolution of this life stage (despair and disgust versus integrity) (Erikson, 1980a, 1980b; Erikson & Erikson, 1997). As mature individuals get older and find their bodies weakening, psychosocial strengths gained in prior life stages, Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 20 especially hope and trust are called on more and more. These hard won strengths are crucial to stave off the despair and disdain lurking close as the body ages and friends, relatives and close family begin to die. Erikson describes integrity more as the ability to keep things together, to sustain a sense of coherence rather than the meaning linked more with a kind of right acting or living (Erikson, 1980; Erikson, 1997). In this way, Erikson saw integrity as aligned with the physical senses as well as a sense of coherence and or balance in the Jungian sense: This in its simplest meaning is, of course, a sense of coherence and wholeness that is, no doubt, at supreme risk under such terminal conditions as include a loss of linkages in all three organizing processes: in the Soma, the pervasive weakening of tonic interplay in connecting tissues, blood-distributing vessels, and the muscle system; in the Psyche, the gradual loss of mnemonic coherence in experience, past and present; and in the Ethos, the threat of sudden and nearly total loss of responsible function in generative interplay. What is demanded here could simply be called “integrality,” a tendency to keep things together.”. . . “ . . . by integrity we cannot mean only a rare quality o f personal character but above all a shared proclivity for understanding or for hearing those who do not understand, the integrative ways of human life. (Erikson & Erikson, 1997, p. 65) Similarly, Joan Erikson who completed Erik’s last work “The Life Cycle Completed" underscored this rather physical/biological grounding of integrity and wisdom: In our final definition of “wisdom” we claim that wisdom rests in the capacity to see, look and remember, as well as to listen, hear and remember. Integrity, we maintain, demands tact, contact and touch. This is a serious demand on the senses of elders” .. .“Ninth stage elders just do not usually have the adequately good eyesight or the respective ears wisdom demands, although we nay rejoice in the progress being made with hearing devices and eye surgery. (Erikson & Erikson, 1997, p. 112) Erikson’s understanding o f wisdom can, like psychoanalytic theory in general, seems overly reliant on the physical senses and the biological processes for its Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 21 development and manifestation. It stresses the physical more than the transcendent nature of wisdom. Interestingly, Joan Erikson (Erikson & Erikson, 1997) did take on the notion of “gerotransendance” in the last chapter o f “The Life Cycle Completed,” although she seemed to shy away from such lofty ideas as transcendence to a focus on the positive, wisdom enhancing nature of voluntarily withdrawing oneself from the day-to-day concerns like the early Greek philosophers. However, she continued to stress the role and importance of the physical senses in developing wisdom: Fortunate are those who have the luxury to choose to withdraw. Many elders are faced with enforced withdrawals. Physical deterioration of eyes, ears, teeth, bones, all the body’s systems often inflict an inevitable reduction in contact with others and the outside world. Emotional and physical responses may also inhibit one’s range of contact. (Erikson & Erikson, 1997, p. 125) All in all, Erikson’s theory of psychosocial development is perhaps the most influential with regard to current wisdom theory. It represents one of the first comprehensive theories o f the development of wisdom. It also places the notion of wisdom within a broader theory o f development, although some would argue that Erikson’s model was not sufficiently deep or well developed. Erikson’s work has influenced and continues to influence many theorists both in human development in general and the development of wisdom in particular. Wisdom, Intelligence, and Intellectual Development - The Cognitive Perspective on Explicit Wisdom Theory Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 22 Most, if not all theorists align their theories of wisdom with thinking from the psychoanalytically-based theory o f Jung, to the more cognitive theorists such as Labouvie-Vief and Baltes. In a way, to study wisdom is to study the exercise of a form of thinking and cognition. Theorists coming from a cognitive frame are more interested in the technology o f the thinking process as it relates to wisdom, however. The interplay between intelligence and wisdom related thought are strong components of many cognitive theories of wisdom, as is the development of thinking. Many of the more cognitive, stage-based wisdom theories owe much to researchers such as Piaget; while researchers like Baltes and Sternberg owe a debt to the pioneers in the development of intelligence in adulthood such as Cattell (1971) and Horn (1970). In fact, the cognitive-intelligence research framework is one of the most influential currently in the empirical literature related to adult development in general and in the development of wisdom in particular (Stevens-Long & Michaud, 2003). The benefit of using models of intellectual development and/or performance is that wisdom-related knowledge can be deconstructed into components, and the demonstration of wisdom, like the demonstration of intelligence, can be more readily observed using tests, interviews and other research protocol. However, the gain in precision often comes at the expense of context and depth. Within models of wisdom that are cognitively derived are basic and important differences in the development of thinking and intelligence, as well as the development of wisdom. As an example, Baltes’s work on cognitive aging focuses on Cattell (1971) and Horn’s (1970) notion of crystal and fluid intelligence, where the decline of fluid Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 23 intelligence inherent in the aging process is matched by the possibility of a rise in crystallized intelligence: Most of the research that inspired the Baltes’s model (of wisdom) is found in the domain of intelligence (Baltes, Dittmann-Kohli, & Dixon, 1984) and, specifically, in work based on the psychometric theory of fluid and crystallized intelligence (Cattell, 1963; Horn, 1982). Data from these studies clearly show that the mechanics of intelligence, including basic skills like perceiving relationships, classification and logical reasoning peaks in young adulthood. On the other hand, the pragmatics of intelligence, the application of social wisdom or good judgment may increase with age throughout the normal adult life span. Furthermore, the rise in crystallized intelligence often matches the decline in fluid intelligence. (Stevens-Long & Michaud, 2003, p. 19) According to Baltes, these data suggest that there is hope that at least one cognitive function, wisdom, can develop as the adult ages, although more recent data seem to suggest a curvilinear relationship. In fact, Baltes’ wisdom model is optimistic regarding the possibility that the reduction in fluid intelligence as we age can be balanced by a rise in crystallized intelligence (Baltes & Smith, 1990). Unlike the psychodynamic theorists, Baltes suggested that biology can be outwitted, but can it?1 Erikson (1980a) and the psychodynamic theorists would say no. These theorists are more conceptually tied to biological predetermination. In Erickson’s case it rather simple, it is difficult to be wise with failing hearing and sight because it is hard to be wise when one cannot hear or see. As previously stated, the Berlin group’s conceptualization of wisdom-related knowledge is based in expertise, and is described as “Exceptional insight into human development and life matters, exceptionally good judgment, advice and commentary 1 It is important to note that Baltes’ theory o f wisdom is embedded in a theory o f optimal aging. Specifically, selection, optimization and compensation, where as one loses certain competencies or abilities with age, existing competencies can be selected and optimized while declining competencies can be compensated for by focusing on optimized competencies or abilities. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 24 about life problems” (Baltes & Smith, 1990, p. 95). Further, Baltes and Smith detailed five specific criteria essential for the demonstration of wisdom-related knowledge; rich factual knowledge, rich procedural knowledge, life-span contextualisim, relativism and uncertainty (Baltes & Smith, 1990, p. 95). Baltes’ model was robust in that it has been empirically shown to separate wisdom-related performance from other cognitive constructs like intelligence. In fact, Baltes’ team at the Max Plank Institute have shown that wisdom-related performance, as described in Baltes’ model, has: “discriminate validity in the context of psychometric measures of personality and intelligence” (Baltes & Staudinger, 1993, p. 79). Baltes’s model and his protocol for assessing wisdom-related cognition have a good deal of empirical support. While Baltes’ model has been one of the most influential in current thinking around wisdom, it has several problematic aspects such as his focus on wisdom as expertise, as opposed to other models that stress more complex, less reductionist conceptions (Chandler, 1990; Sternberg, 1998). Another, more troubling criticism of Baltes’ research is the value neutrality o f the five factor model. As Chandler and Holliday point out: Much the same point could be made with reference to the Berlin group’s handling of the notion that wise persons are a source of “good” judgment regarding the conduct of life. Within the interpretive content of their value-neutral dual processing model the only available meaning of the word good is a synonym for appraising terms such as “sound, effective, practical and action-guiding” (Dixon & Baltes, 1986, p.225) This is precisely the sort of good (read prudent and practical) life that finally drove Ivan Ilyich to despair (Keykes, 1983) and not at all an answer to our own and Habermas’s (1970) question about the good thing that we might hope. (p. 134) Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 25 Wisdom is more than a utilitarian notion of “good advice.” Wisdom is advice in service of a greater good, however this is defined. This differentiates Baltes’ model from Sternberg’s, for instance. Like much of the research on wisdom, Baltes’ model does not go very far in suggesting a trajectory or path for the development of wisdom, although the model does suggest specific mediating and antecedent influences. Baltes’ antecedent factors and mediating processes for acquiring wisdom are separated into three areas: (a) general personal factors including cognitive mechanics, mental health, social competence and openness to experience; (b) expertise, including mentorship and generativity; and (c) facilitative experiential contexts such as age, education, profession and historical period (Baltes & Staudinger, 1993). However, in examining the interface between personality and wisdom related performance, Staudinger, Lopez and Baltes (Staudinger, et al., 1997) go a bit further in hinting at a possible developmental path related to Erickson’s model of psychosocial development: Notions of personality growth, such as reflected in Erikson’s theory of personality development (e.g., Erikson et al.,), are considered in our model of antecedents of wisdom when it comes to person characteristics that are specific to the domain of the fundamental pragmatics of life and not primarily reflective of general adaptive functioning. The positive relationship between personal growth and wisdom related performance can be taken as empirical evidence supporting models of personality development such as Erickson’s. In his theory, Erikson clearly relates the notion of wisdom with the maturation of character. (Staudinger, Lopez & Baltes, 1997, p. 1210) Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 26 Wisdom and Balance Some of the important themes that run through much o f the wisdom literature, both implicit and explicit treatments, include a focus on the role of balance in developing and exhibiting wisdom. I have pointed to Jung (1933), Sternberg (1998), Labouvie-Vief (1990), Birren and Fisher (1990), among others, who make the idea of balance important in their work. As a cognitive development theorist, Labouvie-Vief drew influence from Piaget’s (1952) overarching theory o f cognitive development. She also drew in this theory to inform her conception of wisdom. As with most post-Piagetian theorists, however, she was unhappy with Piaget’s treatment of adult cognitive development: A careful examination of that (Piaget’s) theory seemed particularly compelling, as I felt it was paradoxical that this rich and sweeping theory has failed us as a useful theory of adult cognitive development. Based as it is on the core assumption that intelligence arises from organic and subjective processes and providing, as a result an integrative view of cognitive underpinnings of the ontogeny of human adaptive capacities, that theory shows many useful pointers to a theory of wisdom. (LabouvieVief, 1990, p. 53) This uneasiness spurred her and other important theorist in the field of adult cognitive development like Basseches (1984) and Commons (1984) to innovative work in stagebased theories of adult cognitive development. The notion of balance or integration of affect and cognition is critical to Labouvie-Vief s understanding of adult cognitive development in general and the development of wisdom in particular. Specifically, Labouvie-Vief saw the attainment of Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 27 wisdom in the balance of two forms of knowledge or “knowing”; logical and organismic thought: Rather than continuing to identify mental life primarily with objective thought, then, theories of thought need to be based on a duality of two modes of knowing that, although often in competition, ideally function in a dialogic relationship. In that dialog, one mode provides experiential richness and fluidity, the other logical cohesion and stability. It is such smooth and relatively balanced dialogue between the two modes that I define as wisdom. (Labouvie-Vief, 1990, p. 53) Labouvie-Vief has extended the idea of cognitive complexity and the integration of affect in her more recent work. In a recent study on cognitive complexity and integration, she implied a balance between a more psychodynamic notion of affect regulation. This idea is developed from interactions with and internalization of important early caregivers, and in interaction with one’s environment. The idea of balance is not only important in the function of wisdom, but it also an important component of her theoretical work, balance between a psychodynamic and cognitive understanding of development, resulting in an integrated view of cognitive growth that requires both the demonstration of cognitive complexity and a mature use of defensive coping mechanisms such as affect integration: Cognitive models view maturational changes in cognitive capacities as the major source for professional development. In comparison, psychodynamic models place their primary emphasis on processes of affect regulation and how affect regulation is learned by the internalization of primary reference figures (Erikson, 1950). Ideally, the developmental processes that result from the transactions with the environment and the internalization of reference figures are expected to interface and mutually support each other, forming a system that is both conceptually complex and affectively integrated. (Labouvie-Vief, 2000, p. 493) Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 28 These processes affect integration and cognitive complexity are both important for Labouvie-Vief s understanding of wisdom in that one must have achieved a balance of both to develop wisdom. The notion ofbalance has also played a strong part in Robert Sternberg’s theory of wisdom. Sternberg’s balanced theory has its roots in his work on the development of intelligence. Sternberg specifically isolated his theory of wisdom from explicit or implicit notions of intelligence and creativity, although all three are related in the understanding of human intelligence (Sternberg, 1986, 1990b, 1997). Sternberg’s theory of wisdom is one o f the most complete in that it fits within the context of a theory of wisdom that includes intelligence and creativity. In this way, Sternberg, like Gardiner (1985, 1993), saw intelligence as composed of a number o f different components. In Sternberg’s theory on intelligence, he introduced the concept of analytical and practical intelligence practical intelligence being the form of intelligence most closely related to wisdom. Unlike Baltes, theory-describing wisdom as a form of expertise, Sternberg saw wisdom as knowledge (tacit knowledge) in service of a higher good. (1990c) Sternberg’s research relating to his balanced theory of wisdom stemmed from some o f his earlier work in the nature and development of intelligence. Sternberg’s theory rests on his notion of “tacit knowledge” or “the ability to apply various kinds of information processing components of intelligence to experience for the purpose of adaptation to, shaping of and selection of environments” (Sternberg, 1998, p. 348). While based on a cognitive foundation, Sternberg’s theory of wisdom went beyond cognition or expertise to the notion ofbalance, values, and tacit knowledge in service of the greater or Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 29 “public” good (Sternberg, 1998). Balance was understood by Sternberg as the act of balancing multiple intra/inter and extra personal interests. Further, Sternberg explicitly pointed to the importance of values and their role in mediating and shaping the use of tacit knowledge: Wisdom is involved when practical intelligence is applied to maximizing not just one’s own or someone else’s self-interest, but rather a balance of various self interests (intrapersonal) with the interests of others (interpersonal) and of other aspects of the context in which one lives (extrapersonal), such as one’s city or country or environment or even God. (Sternberg, 1998, p. 348) In balancing stakeholder interests, it is possible to adequately respond to “environmental contexts,” in order to shape the environmental by adapting to the environment, shaping the environment, or selecting a new environment. Sternberg, like Baltes, posited a very preliminary developmental roadmap for becoming wise. Specifically, Sternberg stressed the importance of development in two areas: (a) antecedents a mix of cognitive, motivational, personality based and environmental variables and (b) other developmental processes impacting the process of balance (Sternberg, 1998). In all, Sternberg did not suggest a particular developmental trajectory, but merely suggested that developmental differences will occur in these areas. The idea ofbalance is also discussed by Assmann (1994) as a mediating outcome in ascribing wisdom to age. Specifically, Assmann drew on the notion put forth by Csikszentmihalyi and Rathunde (1990) of the development and importance of wisdom in evolution. Assmann went a step further to posit the role of wisdom in a necessary societal balance between the old and the young: Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 30 The cultural linkage between wisdom and age counteracts a natural tendency to corruption built into the physical frame of the human being. The genetic program favoring the strong, fit and healthy is thus balanced by a cultural program favoring the wise, creative and intelligent. It is social wisdom to temper the “genes” with “memes” . . . “Traditional societies are built on the “wise” principal ofbalance, taming the physical power of the young by the insight and experience of the old. (Assmann, 1994, p. 214) Wisdom and Social-Historical Context The wise individual, although anchored in the present, has dialectically integrated into a manifold totality the multiple aspects of his or her self­ experience and has done so not just conceptually but experientially (as empirical self and as existence), historically (as unique historically conditioned evolving totality immersed in an evolving society) and culturally. (Pascual-Leone, 1990, p. 245) The recognition o f the social component of human development and the development of cognition is not new. Jung understood the shared nature o f a type of cognition in his discussion of the collective unconscious (Jung, 1960). Scholars such as Bruner (1990) called out the role of social processes like culture and its impact on the development of a folk psychology. Even the act of defining wisdom in an empirical sense has a strong social component. An example of this is the importance of implicit or folk theories of wisdom as surfaced by Holiday & Chandler (1986), Sternberg (1990a), and Baltes (1990). This social component is also important in the exercise of wisdom. To have wisdom, to exercise wise behavior, is a public action to be judged as wise or not by others. Wisdom is about reflection and action for the purpose of changing the external environment for the betterment of a community, in service of a common good. Cognition, Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 31 merely to think wise thoughts, is not sufficient to qualify as wisdom as it must be practiced, labeled, and discussed in a public forum. In my reading, however, most of the theorists involved in the study of wisdom as a cognitive process have focused on its interpersonal development. Relatively few theorists call out the role of shared cognition as an important concept in the development and manifestation o f wisdom. Most notably, Erik Erickson (1968) in his psychosocial theory of personality development, emphasized the importance of social interaction on the development o f personality, and an aspect of cognition, namely wisdom. Recently theorists like Staudinger (Staudinger, 1996; Staudinger & Baltes, 1996; Staudinger et al., 1998) have recognized the importance of a social component to the development and manifestation of cognition in general and wisdom in particular. I have noticed two overall themes in the research on the social nature o f the development and manifestation of wisdom: (a) the existence of facilitative socialinteractive settings important to the development of wisdom, and (b) the social nature of the creation of wisdom related knowledge. Both of these are important to the development of wisdom. In an article summarizing research on predictors of wisdom-related knowledge, Staudinger et al. (1998) determined that compared to measures of personality and intelligence, experiential contexts (i.e., training and experience in clinical psychology) provided the best prediction of performance on wisdom-related tasks. Other studies, as previously cited, have replicated this finding. Interestingly, in a study focusing on the public perceptions o f wisdom and its relation to certain occupations, Hershey and Farrell Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 32 (1997) found that people who hold certain occupations like judges, psychiatrists and psychologists were rated as more wise than those holding occupations like real estate agent or toll collector. In this sense, the social/occupational factors associated with the performance and perception of wisdom (i.e., endowing certain positions as wise) are important in the phenomenon of wisdom, especially as it is understood by the subjects represented in these studies. Another important social process for the development of wisdom is the relation of its development to the individual experience of history or historical events. In this vein, Erikson is a theorist that understood the role of history in individual development. He described the role of history and its impact in mastering the challenges of each developmental stage in his model of psychosocial development. In a discussion of identity formation in adolescence, Erikson articulated this: Past history survives in the ideal and evil prototypes which guide the parental imagery and which color fairy tale and family lore, superstition and gossip, and the simple lessons of early verbal training. Historians on the whole make little use of this; they account only for the context of autonomous historical ideas and are unconcerned with the fact that these ideas reach down into the lives of generations and re-emerge through the daily awakening and training of historical consciousness in young individuals: via the mythmakers of religion and politics, of the arts and sciences, o f drama, cinema and fiction all contributing more or less consciously, more or less responsibly to the historical logic absorbed by youth.(Erikson, 1968, p. 257) Erikson also understood that the very nature and course of identity formation is informed by the historical context that the individual is a part of: The study o f psychosocial identity, therefore, depends on three complementarites or are they three aspects of one complimentarity? Namely, the personal coherence of the individual and role integration in his group; his guiding images and the ideologies of his time; his life Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 33 history and the historical m om ent.. . Thus, the nature of the identity conflict often depends on the latent panic or, indeed, the intrinsic promise pervading the historical period. (Erikson, 1975, p. 21) Unfortunately, Erikson was somewhat vague in the specific process by which history and development interact, but other theorists have been able take Erikson’s thinking one step further, to determine the degree to which and at which developmental stage, historical events and other social changes impact development: An understanding that our work is embedded in a historical context is extremely important. At the same time, though, we must also incorporate this self-understanding into our thinking about the people we set out to study. Participants in our research are no less influenced by social history. We attend a bit more often to our subjects’ experience of social structure by including assessment of variables such as social class, gender race and ethnicity. . . By ignoring the historical dimension of our subjects’ social experience, not only do we unnecessarily impoverish our understanding of our subjects lives, but we also ignore an important source of information to account for apparent inconsistencies in research findings. (Stewart & Healy, 1989, p. 30) While I will not attempt to review the entire literature around the impact of social change to development (see Stewart & Healy, 1989), it has only been recently that this phenomenon has been empirically investigated in the literature. As Stewart and Healy (1989) pointed out, there are several types of studies that investigate the role of social change on development. One group of studies is aimed at researching a link between more general, broad social trends and their impact on the attitudes of different age cohorts. Jody Veroff, in her work with Libby Douvan (Veroff, Kulka, & Douvan, 1980) pointed to the relation between different age cohorts and broad social trends and attitudes, like the connection of well being with mental health, or changes in patterns of “help seeking” behavior (Stewart & Healy, 1989). R eprod u ced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 34 In the research literature related to wisdom and the role of external events in shaping it, the ability to successfully learn from the slings and arrow of outrageous fortune is seen as critical. Erikson, in his psycho-historical analysis of Gandhi and Luther suggested that the process by which these men learned from life’s difficult lessons was integral to their development: In my work, I have only been able to suggest an approach to the lives, and the critical stages within these lives, of two religious-political leadersnamely, Martin Luther and Mohandas Gandhi who were able to translate their personal conflicts into methods of spiritual and political renewal in the lives of a large contingent of their contemporaries. (Erikson & Erikson, 1997) Further, the ability to grow from life experience, good or bad is integral to Erikson’s theory of psychosocial development, which places wisdom at its pinnacle. In a recent study looking at the long-term effects of the great depression on the development of wisdom, Monika Ardelt (1988) hypothesized that: “Older people with a relatively high degree of wisdom managed to grow psychologically through crisis and hardship at earlier points in their life while elders with a low degree of wisdom failed to benefit from these events” (p. 292). Ardelt analyzed data from the members of the Berkeley Guidance Study, a longitudinal study that was designed to research the development of children who were bom in 1928/9 in Berkeley California. She measured the presence of wisdom using a protocol suggested by Clayton and Birren (1980) where wisdom is measured as the “average of cognitive, reflective and affective indices derived from the 1969 interviews” (Ardelt, 1988, p. 295). There are several important things about this study to note. First it did support the hypothesis that: Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 35 Individuals who were categorized as relatively wise in old age were better able to overcome the negative consequences of the Great Depression (such as persistent economic deprivation, unemployment, demotion and a decline in social status and psychological health) and more likely to grow psychologically through economic hardship than people with low wisdom scores in their earlier years. (Ardelt, 1988, p. 295) Finally, this study not only illuminates a possible developmental pathway for wisdom, it suggests that a historical event like the Great Depression or World War II may induce different trajectories of development for wisdom: The study also illustrates the importance of a life course approach in contrast to cross-sectional, aging research. In old age the (study) respondents degree of wisdom did not differ significantly by their experience of Depression hardship although their developmental pathways varied significantly. (Ardelt, 1988, p. 300) Other theorists like Elder (1974) used data from the Oakland study to research the effect o f the great depression on the development of children. This study confirmed a link between the developmental stage of a child when exposed to a social crisis like the Great Depression and the impact of that experience for later life. It could almost be said that the hardship associated with a social crisis like the Great Depression and W W II offer a facilitative environment for the growth of wisdom. To truly understand the role of history in the development of wisdom, historical context is one important component. Context begins to touch the intersection of the historical event and how it is processed and integrated into an individual’s developmental path. I wondered if it was possible to peel back the idea of historical context to reveal more specific concepts or underlying mechanisms. It occurred to me that how one experiences history or historical events is determined in some part by one’s surroundings, the people one is connected to as well as where, physically, one is at the time. This is Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 36 different from the idea that one remembers where they were when a specific event happened, like where you were when Kennedy was assassinated or when the Challenger exploded. It has more to do with how our surroundings, the place we consider significant in our lives, influence our response to historical events and in turn color our development. As I began researching this, my interests became even more granular. I wondered whether a physical/spiritual connection to a particular place in the context of an individual’s life history could shape development in general and the development of wisdom in particular. Specifically can place be a facilitator of wisdom like the choice of a profession? Wisdom and a Sense of Place Sense o f Place as a Construct Although a fledgling field of knowledge, the concept of place comprises a broad landscape covering a diverse array of fields, theories and research. The importance of a “sense of place” as a subject for research has undergone a similar renaissance as the concept of wisdom. Like wisdom, the notion that our sense or experience of place as an organizing feature of personal or communal identity is not new. In fact, Plato in Timaeus’ account ofKhora and Aristotle, in his discussions of place and space in physics, are examples of philosophy’s preoccupation with the importance of these concepts (Anderson, 2000). More recently, interest and theory building around the concept of place has been facilitated by phenomenology and the work o f Heidegger, as well as the influence of postmodernism and theorists like Certeau, Bachelard, Casey, Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 37 Brueggemann and others: “Heidegger insisted that place is the house of being .. . To be a person, for Heidegger was Dasein, or being there in other words, to be there as a person in a particular place” (Sheldrake, 2001, p. 46). Like wisdom, researching place or sense of place is complex and interdisciplinary. The concept has been studied in social science; in anthropology, environmental psychology, geography, landscape architecture and as well as in literature:2 “The identification with place, for writers of both fiction and nonfiction, has diverse linkages. It can be geographic, or physical, or social. It can be pegged to time, or be timeless” (Lopez, 1996, p. 1). Early literary contribution to the sense of place include naturalists like Thoreau, Wendell Berry, Rachel Carson as well as many important novelists: Herman Melville in Moby Dick, Henry David Thoreau, of course, and novelists such as Willa Cather, John Steinbeck, and William Faulkner come quickly to mind. More recently Peter Matthiessen, Wendell Berry, Wallace Stegner and the poets W.S. Merwin, Amy Clampitt and Gary Snyder. (Lopez, 1996, p. 1) In the relatively new field of environmental psychology, the interaction between humans and the environment is studied and understood in several ways. First theorists like Kenneth Craik (Craik & Jennings, 1992) at the Institute of Personality and Social Research, University o f California, Berkeley, M. Powell Lawton (Lawton & Salthouse, 1998) at the Philadelphia Geriatric Center and others focus on the environment’s impact on the psychological functioning and well being of the individual, while researchers like 2 See Cross, “What is Sense o f Place” for a compact review o f current theory (Cross, 2001). Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 38 T. C. Daniel (1990) focus on using advances in psychology to help preserve and enhance the environment (Strathman, Baker & Kost, 1991). As with any fledgling field, certain concepts and ideas have yet to be nailed down conceptually. In fact, a common definition of sense of place has been relatively illusive in the literature: As noted in the call for this year’s papers, "Sense o f Place”has become a buzzword used to justify everything from a warm fuzzy appreciation of a natural landscape to the selling of home sites in urban sprawl. The truth is we probably have no single “sense of place,” instead, we bring to the places we live a whole set of cultural preconceptions that shape the way we respond to the place, and in some measure reshape the place to fit those preconceptions. This lack of a common definition or understanding of sense of place, results both from the fact that it has become a buzzword used to suit various purposes, and from the interdisciplinary nature of the concept. (Cross, 2001, p. 1) As I looked for a construct to help illuminate the role of place in the development of wisdom, I found Cross’s sociological description to be one of the most reasoned and logical. Her conception o f the phenomenon o f place included a useful topology that helped put these life experiences related to place in context (Cross, 2001): Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 39 Table 2 Relationship to Place Topology (Cross, 2001, p. 3) Type of Bond Relationship I- ™ ' " | Biographical ~ [Historical and familial i [Process jBeing bom in and living in a place, develops over time j Spiritual Emotional, intangible peeling a sense of belonging, simply felt rather than created 11Ideological Moral and ethical [Living according to moral guidelines for human jresponsibility to place, guidelines may be religious or secular 1 S ..................................... 1 Mythical Narrative (9) j L ... — i 1| Commodified | r ~ ' â– I Dependent i . ,...— Cognitive (based on choice and desirability) ~ j i Learning about a place through stories, including: creation myths, family histories, political accounts, and fictional accounts Choosing a place based on a list o f desirable traits and lifestyle preferences; comparison of actual places with ideal Constrained by lack of choice, dependency on Material L ......... .......................... . another person, or economic opportunity As Cross noted, there seem to be several aspects to the sense of place construct; what she calls relationship to place, consisting of the ties that bind one to a certain place, and community attachment consisting of “the depth of types of attachments to one particular place” (Cross, 2001, p. 2). In reviewing her theory, I find her notion of community attachment to have less descriptive usefulness than her notion of relation to place. In fact, the notion of relation to place could be slightly expanded to make room for the concept o f community attachment without creating another category. Further, her inclusion of Hummon’s (1992) five senses of place types shown below gives her theory too much connection to physical location, as opposed to her ideas that locate place as experienced and subsumed in identity to have a rooted/cohesive sense of place: Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. ; 40 Table 3 Revised Sense o f Place Typology f â– [Future Home as Insideness [Local Identity Type of Attachment Desires L _ _ L................... ........... 3 i Biographical spiritual Continued ~ Ife e re (physical, (Strong residence ideological jfspiritual, emotional) IsENSE OF L .. „ ,. ^Satisfaction 1Rootedness 1Cohesive £7~ 7 ~ j) ® J" \Rootedness D ivided P la ce Alienation [Variable j ” |Low (here and there {(physical, spiritual, jsplit jemotional) 1 {there (physical, Weak spiritual, emotional) 1 tVariab'c Am w iere jj ((Variable jj ] j j Dependent Desire to (leave, but junable i ij j Moderate 1 commodified (biographical) (dependent) To live in ideal place, wherever (that may be fs] | | ji Weak None No specific j expectations! _ _ _i...._...... .1 1 lUncommitted iPlacelessness {(Moderate) jjAnywhere/nowhere j Biographical spiritual dependent : I iRelativitv i t ! However, Cross’s initial topology outlining the type of relationship and the connection to the type of bond as well as a brief description of the underlying operative process does not suffer from the same issues and helps suggest the workings of this phenomenon in the development o f identity and wisdom. As previously identified, Cross’ idea of sense of place has some utility in understanding how the sense of place can be understood within the context of wisdom theory. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 41 Table 4 Cross ’ ‘‘Relationships to Place ” & Current Wisdom Theory Relationship to place (Cross) Type ofB ond (Cross) Theorist Ritual Narrative Cross' Facilitation Process/mechanismWisdom theorist's possible explanation Feelins a sense o f belonging, simplv felt rather than created (Cross) Erikson Helps in the navigation between Identity confusion versus Identity as well as Isolation versus Intimacy Orwoll & Perlmutter Facilitates cognitive affective integration by helping to develop self identity/ insight Kramer Facilitates interrelated functions of wisdomspiritual introspection Pascal-Leone Facilitates adult resolution of contradictory self-Schemas by grounding identity in sense of place Mythical Learning about a place through stories. including: creation myths, family histories, political accounts, and fictional accounts (Cross) Erikson, Orwoll & Perlmutter Provides sense of belonging - facilitates identity formation Pascal-Leone Dependent Material Constrained by lack o f choice, dependency on another person, or economic opportunity (Cross) Erikson (Competence/ fidelity) If risen above, facilitates wisdom by providing formative experience and developing ability to use experience as basis for further self mastery-role modeling Pascal-Leone Facilitates adult resolution of contradictory self-Schemas by grounding identity in sense of purpose Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 42 Cross described different types of relationships to place; Biographical, Spiritual, Ideological, Narrative, Commodified and Dependent. There is a certain connection with a place that many of us have experienced in our lives. It is a collection of memories about a place that seems to encapsulate our life story, to give a center to who we are. We can also come to be defined by a negative memory of a place and for good or bad, which can also influence our future identity and direction. Openness to Experience and the Role of Chance in the Development of Wisdom Each one o f us could tell stories of how crucial unplanned events have had a major career impact and how untold thousands of minor unplanned events have had at least a small impact. Influential unplanned events are not uncommon; they are everyday occurrences. Serendipity is not serendipitous. Serendipity is ubiquitous. (Krumboltz, 1998, p. 390) Consensual qualitative research was used to investigate the impact of chance events on the career choices of prominent academic women in counseling psychology and to examine the contextual factors surrounding the chance events. The results suggest that chance events affected career choices most often by changing women's career paths altogether or by altering their self-concepts. The results also suggest that both internal characteristics (e.g., ability to take risks, self-confidence, etc.) and external factors (e.g., a strong support system, few external barriers, etc.) helped women take advantage of chance opportunities. (Williams, Soeprapto, Like, Touradji, et al., 1998, p. 379) Mary C. Bateson characterizes the lives of women she studied as “composed” and “impoverished,” documents the importance of “serendipity” and discontinuities,” and argues that we need to “explore the creative potential o f interrupted and conflicted lives. (Mishler, 1999, p. 12) As previously stated, narrative studies are more sensitive to the importance and nuance of life experience in development. Narrative theorists like Mishler (1999), Valiant (1979), and Vaillant and Milofsky (1980), and others, suggests the importance of the Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 43 discontinuity of life experience rather than developmental theorists who point to gradual incremental trajectories o f development. Because of it role in development, I also found the role of discontinuity, chance, serendipity or more importantly, openness to experience to be important in the development of wisdom. Specifically, the ability to recognize, capitalize on and leam from serendipitous career or life events. The idea of serendipity is as old as wisdom. Jung understood this phenomenon as synchronicity and placed it in the context of the unconscious (Campbell, 1971; Jung, 1960). He also saw it as a complex phenomenon with implications in both the psychic and the physical. In fact, synchronicity has been used as a metaphor in the physical sciences: Synchronicity is the consequence of the existence of an underlying unity in which time and space are absent. In the absence of time, no event precedes any other and there can be no causality; all events of the past, present, or future coexist. (Guindon, 2002, p. 196) Through his work with physicist Wolfgang Pauli, Jung asserted that “synchronicity could be thus added to the forth principle of the triad o f space, time and causality” (Guindon, 2002, p. 197). Bandura (1982) was another more recent theorist to give the idea of serendipity a place in psychological theory, specifically social learning theory. In an article entitled The Psychology o f Chance Encounters and Life Paths, Bandura asserted that chance is an important component of the life course and was the first to suggest psychology’s role in understanding its implications for development (Bandura, 1982). Much of the current psychological research around this phenomenon is centered around its implications for Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 44 psychodynamic psychotherapy (Diaz de Chumaceiro, 1992, 1995; Guindon, 2002), and career choice (Keller, 1994; Mitchell & Krumboltz, 1999). As a researcher, one of the insights that I had in reviewing the literature on wisdom and the development of wisdom was the limitations of more empirical models in capturing the complexity and nuance of this phenomenon. I began to look for examples of other research models that seemed to be more suited to the task. It is to a review of this literature that I now turn. Narrative Inquiry and the Study of Wisdom As workers in a relatively new science, psychologists often search for the success and respect garnered by physical scientists. In fact, the domination of empirical positivism in psychology continued until the dawn o f postmodernism, when philosophers like Wittgenstein led the sciences back to questions that could not be understood using purely empirical tools. This new acceptance of phenomenon such as wisdom as fair game for scientific inquiry has led to the acceptance of more qualitative research methods, methods better adapted to the complexities of phenomenon such as wisdom. Interestingly, while postmodernism, with its focus on more subjective, less universal theory made wisdom safe for science; research programs dominated by positivist methodology continue to dominate theorizing on wisdom. In the essay entitled Wisdom In an Apocalyptic Age, Chandler and Holiday (1990) described positivist attempts at researching wisdom as akin to re- assembling a complex scientific heritage from a lost civilization by linking a few historical fragments of a Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 45 ruined culture. Given some of the reductionist research regarding complex phenomenon in the human sciences, this thought is not without grounding in the history of science. Wisdom, like leadership, courage, love and hope are crucial to our society but often defy “scientific” methods o f analysis and description. In fact until recently, these subjects were not only ignored in social science research but also in philosophy, which had long ago moved away from theorizing in these areas. The past 20 years have seen a resurgence of interest in questions and phenomena that are more complex and multifaceted. It may be said that the importance of postmodernist thinkers and theorists, and the questions they raised regarding the theories and research methods of a more mainstream positivist science, created a space for different methods. These methods better lent themselves to the nuance and detail of more complex phenomenon. In some cases, these methods are an amalgam or synthesis of previous methods and in others, new methodology is created or borrowed from other fields. The rise in popularity of more qualitative tools such as narrative and life story methods gave voice to many different types of research previously out of the mainstream. Some of the studies that come from this vein o f research are not only influential in legitimizing a less reductionist approach to the human sciences, they also bring questions of what makes us human as topics for more mainstream research (Bruner, 1983; Giorgi, 1985a, 1985b; Josselson & Amia, 1999; Lieblich, Tuval-Mashiach, & Zilber, 1998; Polkinghome, 1988,1995; Riessman, 1993). While the creation and tacit acceptance of different research tools and methodologies has generated a good amount of research into the nature of wisdom, it also Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 46 brought more mainstream positivist empirical methodology to bear on previously taboo topics such as wisdom and creativity. This focus on wisdom by the more positive/empirical side of human science has given wisdom legitimacy within the scientific community. Currently, qualitative methods like narrative research are often given the task of fleshing out definitions and questions while empirical methods like regression analysis are used to build and test theory. Although the study of wisdom is now a more respected endeavor in the eyes of a largely empiricist academic psychology, and recent empirical work in this area has been productive, over reliance on a strictly positivist science to adequately describe this phenomenon has continued to be problematic. Chandler and Holiday (1990) put it best when they wrote: Even the best of our current efforts to rehabilitate the concept of wisdom all run the serious risk of mistaking what it means to be wise for some limited and technologic brand of knowing that is more a part of the disease that the concept of wisdom has already suffered than a part o f it cure. (p. 131) Of the qualitative approaches to research, narrative methods are especially well suited to the study of wisdom. As Polkinghome pointed out, the study of wisdom is akin to the study of meaning, and the study of meaning requires the use of linguistic data, not quantifiable objective data (Polkinghome, 1988, 1995). For researchers like Polkinghome, hermeneutic reasoning is the primary tool used to interpret and ascribe meaning to linguistic data. Meaning is important not only in describing wisdom as an outcome, a behavior or judgment deemed wise or not, but also in the individual and collective experience and Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 47 context of how wisdom is lived. Because wisdom is mainly about meaning, the subject lends itself to approaches that value how meaning is made and experienced. The Life Story Interview There are many types of narrative approaches to the study of complex phenomenon such as wisdom. Narrative approaches to the analysis of data range from more quantitative or “objective” analysis such as grounded theory to more phenomenological, postmodern or deconstructionist approaches (Josselson, 1996a, 1996b; Josselson & Amia, 1999). As Riessman (1993) asserted, there is no one method of narrative research. Rather, the method of narrative research chosen should be one that best captures the data needed. This research utilizes a life story approach because of the importance of the life story in understanding both the individual and the collective experience of wisdom. Life history or personal narratives are well suited to the study of wisdom. Randall & Kenyon pointed out in the book “Ordinary Wisdom,” that: Wisdom, as we view it, is to be understood less in intellectual or ethical terms than in aesthetic, or even poetic ones. It is a function not primarily of moral virtue or cognitive competence, however much these dimensions are nonetheless involved in and have dominated thinking about wisdom since earliest times. Rather, it is a function of biography, of the tale we tell of our journey through time. In short, it is a function of our life story a single word, like history, that underlines for us the unbreakable bond between our story and our life. (Randall & Kenyon, 2001, p. 2) Randall and Kenyon went further in that they considered wisdom to be a particular type of life story, one where the life course is viewed as a spiritual journey that can only be told from the perspective of the traveler (Randall & Kenyon, 2001). Like Randall and Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 48 Kenyon, Atkinson asserted the importance of the voice of the traveler for the purposes of truly understanding a life: I have felt that it is important, in trying to understand others positions in life or description of themselves and their relation to others, to let their voices be heard, to let them speak for themselves first. If we want to know the unique experiences and perspectives of an individual, there is no better way to get this than in the person’s own voice. So I have held to a story told in the tellers own words. (Atkinson, 1988, p. 5) Because wisdom is a phenomenon that is well suited to the use of narrative research methods and as stated earlier, narrative methods are most often used to guide empirical theory building, I became interested in the possibility of turning this around a bit. Specifically, to use narrative methods (i.e., the life story) to give topography and depth to the existing theory base regarding wisdom, a task to which narrative research is better suited. It is to this task that I will now turn. CHAPTER THREE: METHOD Wisdom is a complex phenomenon to study, and as previously stated is well suited to qualitative research methods. This study employs Atkinson’s life story interview process to capture and analyze data recorded from participants’ life stories. As Atkinson (1998) pointed out, the use of life story as a primary research tool has a long and distinguished history from Freud (1935), Erikson (1975), and Bruner (1983), to more recent use as presented in “The Narrative Study o f Lives” (Josselson & Amia, 1999). In studying wisdom, I wanted to employ a methodology that allowed each participant to tell his or her life story in their own words. This way, the researcher could look for patterns Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 49 naturally emerging from each participant’s own story, to see how or if current wisdom theories helped illuminate the development of wisdom. Atkinson’s life interview methodology allowed participants’ stories to be told in a natural, free-flowing way. Atkinson’s Life Story Interview approach is at once simple and robust: The life story interview provides an altogether practical and broad introduction to the sensitive collection of first person narratives. The author’s approach is not however a skeptical or critical one. Robert Atkinson is not out to unearth the “deep structure” or “ideological constraints” surrounding such narratives. His interests are in bringing such narratives forth with respect and regard for the meanings his storytellers put to their tales. (Atkinson, 1998, p. v) The transparency, simplicity and utility o f this approach allow the participants to tell their stories in a way that gives the researcher a rich source of data around meaning and the importance of life events in development. As Atkinson stated: “An individual life, and the role it plays in the larger community, is best understood through story .. . It is through story that we gain context and recognize meaning” (Atkinson, 1998, p. 8). Participants In an effort to avoid the oversimplification inherent in using assessments or protocols to judge the presence or absence of wisdom, study participants were selected for occupation and stage of life. As previously established, these have been associated with the development and manifestation of wisdom (Hershey & Farrell, 1997; No, 1993; Smith, Staudinger, & Baltes, 1994; Staudinger et al., 1998). Specifically, the researcher Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 50 selected participants in the fields of psychology and counseling, occupational endeavors that have been correlated with superior performance on wisdom tasks in several studies (Smith et al., 1994; Staudinger et ah, 1998). For instance, in a study looking at the facilitative effects of experiential settings on the development of wisdom, Staudinger et al. (1998) demonstrated that wisdom-related performance is higher in persons who selected themselves into and participated in experiential contexts involving training and experience in psychology (Staudinger et al., 1998). In a subsequent study of clinical psychologists who were compared to a control group of highly educated professionals, Staudinger et al. (1998) found that the training and practice o f professional psychology were the strongest predictor of wisdom-related performance as defined in their model (Staudinger et al., 1998). All participants selected for this study were current or retired university faculty members who are distinguished in their field, with substantial contributions to their field demonstrated by several influential publications. All participants, with the exception of one, were selected with assistance from the Center for the Study of Lives at the University of Southern Maine. The group of participants selected is intentionally small (four), so that their life stories can be understood in depth. All of the participant’s names have been changed to insure confidentiality. The participants were initially contacted by telephone so that the researcher could review the objectives o f the study and determine the subject’s interest in participating. Once the subjects agreed to participate in the study, I sent a synopsis of my research along with a list of possible questions, interview format and informed consent form. Once Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 51 the format of the interview was agreeable to the subjects, I conducted interviews lasting from 1- 2 days each. All of the interviews took place face-to-face at the participant’s home over one or two sessions. The one exception to this rule was the interview with Ann, which lasted 3 hours and took place over the telephone at her home in Massachusetts. Although her interview was brief compared to the other participants, she seem to be the most familiar with harrative research and was able to piece together a relatively complete and detailed life story in that time. Given this, I decided to include her story in my analysis. The Interview Process Because of the importance of getting at the participant’s life story as it applied to the development and manifestation of wisdom, a variation on the more unstructured interview process suggested by Atkinson (1998) was used. The interview questions were designed to elicit a free flowing life history narrative from the participants. Questions were constructed from a list of questions suggested by Atkinson (1998). The questions centered on gathering life history data from childhood, young adulthood, and middle age. Questions were focused around key experiences and formative life events, and were selected or modified as the situation or conversation dictated. Below is an example of questions given to participants in the study: During these interviews, the study participants were asked several questions relating to their lives. Examples of these questions include: • What do you remember about your childhood? Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 52 • What was growing up in your house or neighborhood like? • What was the most significant event of your teenage years? • Has education been important to you? How? • How did you end up in the type of work you do (did)? • What were the crucial decisions you faced in life that involved you and other people? • Do you have any important values or beliefs that help you make important decisions or choices in your life? • What have been the most important learning experiences in your life? • Has wisdom played a part in your life choices, decisions? How? • How would you describe wisdom? In order to strike a balance between the need to gather data relevant to the development of wisdom, with the importance of a naturalistic, rich, free flowing narrative, the questions were used as a guide for the participant. Specific questions were used from a list I developed, as well as those that emerged in the process of the interview. These questions were used as beginning points and were modified during the interview as needed. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 53 Data Gathering All interviews were taped using a small micro-cassette. Interviews were then transcribed verbatim. Transcripts were edited only for “clarity, completeness and conciseness” (Atkinson, 1998, p. 55). Consideration o f Ethical Issues As Robert Atkinson pointed out, collecting life stories or parts of life stories is different from using other data collection techniques. With a life story interview, the interviewee enters into a relationship with the interviewer: It is an exchange that changes everything between you and the storyteller, because it involves the most personal kinds of experiences, perspectives and feelings. The ethics o f doing a life story interview are all about being fair, honest, clear and straightforward. It is a relationship founded on moral responsibility, primarily because of the gift you are being entrusted with. (Atkinson, 1998, p. 36) Collecting life stories is a collaborative process, and Atkinson has set some rudimentary ethical guidelines for the life story interview that were adhered to in this study: • I made clear from the beginning that participation in the interview was entirely voluntary and that the participant could end the interview at any time. • Subjects were clearly informed o f the purpose, aims and objectives of the study. • The participant was told that if the stories were to be used in any other publication besides this dissertation, I would make every effort to contact them to get their permission. • All names were changed to protect the confidentiality of the participants Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 54 Analysis and Interpretation Narrative interpretation, especially Atkinson’s (1998) approach to narrative analysis, is a subjective process that is different in approach and aim than more quantitative approaches: “Subjectivity is thus at the center of the process of life storytelling, reaching for meaning through interpretation as contrasted with experimental scientific approaches that seek to uncover laws”(p. 58). In this project, I looked for formative events in each life story that suggested significant themes without regard for their initial application to wisdom theory. These life themes where then superimposed on current wisdom theory to see if the theory helped in understanding the significance of these life events to the development of wisdom, and if they could add depth and detail to current theory. What follows are the complete transcripts of the four participants in this study; Ann Carter, William Tate, Andrew Lord and Ben McCord. CHAPTER FOUR: RESULTS Living Wisdom: A Collection of Life Stories Ben McCord “I ’m A Coal M iner’s Son ” I’m basically a coal miner’s son. It’s funny, but I feel vaguely uncomfortable with all the things I’ve achieved over the course of my life. I’ve got a Ph.D. and I’ve got to be president of this and president of that—head of the Academy of Psychotherapists, but I am still a coal miner’s son. You know, Carl Rogers talks about the inner self and the outer Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 55 self. Our outer self begins the moment we are conceived. All those other things that you are supposed to be, what you should look like, what you should say, that’s the outer self. In a way, I grew up in the coal mines, where the outer self and the inner self were pretty close together. If a guy thought you were a son o f a bitch he would probably say so. Often you ended up with no ulcers but a few less teeth. We lived on the border o f Alberta and British Columbia in a place called Mountain Park. It was at the end of the branch railroad line. It was beautiful country, the Canadian Rockies. It’s part of my life. The real woods. Those mountains are really important to me. You know, you get a certain feeling it’s spiritual for me. I would often go out in the bush alone, but always with a rifle. Sleeping under a tree, going to bed soaking wet and drying off by the fire, having your clothes bum on one side and still be wet on the other, but it was a good life. Looking back, growing up as I did developed a sense of independence, which I still have, unfortunately, sometimes. You don’t expect anything from anyone so you just do your own thing. My parents came from Scotland and my Mother spoke Gaelic. She was a Highlander named Nadi Sinclair. My sister, who is 94, said, “Do you ever remember Mom or Dad saying I love you?” We both looked at each other and laughed, and she said “No.” It was one of those things you didn’t have to. That was when the man had his role and the woman had hers. The man was the warrior, the protector, and the provider. The mother was loving, patient and kind. You know the stereotypes it was nice for a kid like me growing up at that time. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. As I’ve said, my Dad was a coal miner. The town that he grew up in was the town that was at the highest elevation, and at the end of the coal line. It was almost at the great divide, pretty much on the border of Alberta. The town I grew up in, Mountain Park, was at the beginning o f the McCloud River. On the other side of the river was Saskatchewan. Growing up, we had a four-room house. Basically, it was a box with a sub-basement. There were stairs that went outside and upstairs. You came into the kitchen and there was a living room, and a bedroom, and another bedroom upstairs. Mom and Dad had bunk beds. My sister Jane slept in the one bedroom and my brother John and I slept in the other. In the winter, there was frost about an inch thick on the inside of the walls because there was no insulation. I think I sort of showed my creativity early in that we were the only house in town that had a doorbell. I rigged up a couple of wires and a button. One time John and I, John is my long-deceased older brother, were fooling around and I knocked him unconscious. I just happened to hit him in the chin and boomhe was out! When I was at home alone and John had gone off somewhere, Mom used to awaken me by getting the boot and hitting it against the ceiling. I told her that I thought this was to old fashion, and besides, the plaster was coming of the roof. So I rigged up another bell down there with a couple of wires and a bell that went clang clang clang. I remember when I was 14 I caught my first moose. This was about 1941. I never had a license or anything; I must have caught thousands of fish without one. I thought they were just for tourists. Coming over the great divide one night I ended up in Jasper National Park. There were no signs that said “National Park,” so I didn’t realize that I Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 57 was in the park at the time. I heard some rustling in the bushes, I saw it was a large moose and I shot. Anyway, it was a cow, and I shot it dead on the trail with a 3006 Smithfield. That gun sounded like a cannon. I remember hearing this thrashing sound after shooting the cow it was the bull and I just shot his mate! I had my dog Sophie with me and she was cowering behind me. I was hoping she was going to protect me. The bull just lumbered away. Looking back on this, I wonder how much I’m fabricating, because I think it couldn’t be, but yet I did it. There was this moose dead in the middle of the trail. It had started to snow and I cut it up into four quarters with my hunting knife. I dragged the quarters off the trail and started home with one of them. The thing was that I would drag the quarter a couple of hundred yards, and go back for the other one. By the time I was on the other side of the divide, I decided that I just couldn’t keep doing this, so I left three quarters of the Moose still out there, right on the trail. It was mid-December and there was nobody around except idiots like me. There wouldn’t be anyone out there until next spring. Anyway, as I got close to home I saw this figure walking towards me, it was my father. It was about 2:00 in the morning. My mother was quite pleased with her quarter moose but I was still worried about what would happen with the rest of it. I was afraid of getting caught and I had to get it off the trail, so I got a buddy of mine, Leonard Casco to come along with me. It had gotten down to around 40 below 0, so the quarters were frozen solid on the trail. We each took the pieces and lugged them back home. About a week later, the Mounties marched by our house, as they did back then mostly for show. I happened to look out of Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 58 the window and I turned pale when I heard my mother say, “Benjamin McCord, they’re coming for you”, but they walked right past, and my mother savored the moment. I also shot a big horn sheep and put it on a packhorse to take it back. When we got back on the trail it was about 20 or 30 miles and here we were with this packhorse walking along the trail. This time the park rangers caught up with us and asked what we had and we told them. Thankfully, we all had a laugh and they let us go on. In my teenage years, I was one of those people who rode on freight trains, on top of freight trains and inside them. I couldn’t afford a passenger ticket, and all of the roads were gravel, so I rode boxcars to get around. The freight train would be moving and I would leap to get inside. One time I rode on top of a freight train through a forest fire. We were heading west, and I could smell it. It was one of those long boxcar trains, about 80 boxcars long, and a couple of engines, very romantic. I could see the fire and I thought to myself “When is he going to stop?” He kept going. It was Fall and I had on a green overcoat. I laid down on the boxcar and covered myself over with it. When we got through the fire I figured I had another minute before I suffocated. The fire was sucking up all of the air. When I finally got home my mother said: “Ben, what have you done with your coat?” Then there was a time when I was almost involved in a murder. The freight train had stopped and these three guys helped me in. It was obvious that they were nasty characters, and if you’ve done much riding on a freight, there are certain towns where there were bad cops and they were real nasty. There was a town down the line where the rumor was that there was this cop who was the meanest around. These guys were talking Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 59 about doing him in and I had to play along with it. I was probably about 17 then. When the train finally slowed down, I jumped off. Later, I read in the paper that a Constable named Barons was killed. I can remember that I was really awkward with girls. That was an age when the role of a guy was to get drunk and get “initiated” by prostitutes. I can remember that when boys came of age in Mountain Park, they would go to town with their father and get drunk. Every second Friday was payday and these women would come up by train every second week to “sell magazines.” I remember being confused because I knew these men could not afford magazines. By Monday morning all of the money would be gone, and the only thing left was a hangover. I finally figured out that they were prostitutes. It was sort of an initiation, although my father and I did not observe this ritual. I don’t know why I didn’t take that route. Because I don’t remember any lessons from my father or my mother and my father was a tough customer. He could curse better than any mule driveralthough he never did it at home, never. So my teenage years were adventurous. I was riding freight trains, going out in the bush by myself, shooting wild animals and catching fish. One of the teachers I remember was Gibo, my 11th grade teacher. He was 10 years older than me and had a thing for my sister Cathy, but Gibo was a devout Roman Catholic and Cathy was about as religious as I am. Gibo joined the war right away, before Pearl Harbor. He quickly became a flight mechanic the equivalent of a Captain, but he wanted to see some action. So they made him a tail gunner and that was almost Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 60 suicide. He was flying the British equivalent o f the flying fortress. His first mission over the English Channel only lasted about 10 or 15 minutes a German Meshersmit got them. I began teaching at the time, and I used to ride the freight trains to get to work. Teaching was better than working in the coal mines where my dad worked and it was very important to my dad that his son didn’t take up coal mining. I would walk 5 miles down to Coltsburg, where there was a freight train and where Mrs. Matthews had a little hotel. The hotel was on the branch line and I told her that if this freight was on time, I should get to work about 9 or 10. Anyway, I walked the 5 miles to Coltsburg and I got on behind the coal car. We started off and I remember it being quite romantic, it was a moonlit night and we were roaring along. Just then the drive shaft on one of the engines split. It split so suddenly that the engine was rocking. There was a mountain on one side and a river on another, and I’m trying to figure out which way it would fall so I could jump the other way. As it turned out, if it had fallen, I would have leapt the wrong way. It didn’t fall over but the engine was stuck for 2 days. It was about 10 miles back to Coltsburg, so I got back to the hotel around 2:00 or 3:00 in the morning. Mrs. Mathews got out ofbed very promptly and said, “What happened to you?” I went to Edmonton for 12th grade. I remember bunking with a kid named Johnny Thrasher. Johnny has five sisters so we had to share a bed. Most people couldn’t afford two beds in those days. One night Johnny started fiddling around with me and I remember saying “Hey, do you think I’m a girl or something?!” I had never heard of homosexuality, I didn’t know there was such a thing but later I realized that Johnny was Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 61 homosexual. It’s a bad time to be homosexual today but in those days it was even worse. It was something you never talked about. I was 18 in 12th grade and that’s when Gibo (who was by that time a school superintendent) got me a full-time job teaching. He had a horse and carriage, like you see in the cowboy movies. It was a dirt road and now and then I’d walk into St. Paul to get two candy bars; that’s all I could afford to spend. Then I ’d walk back. I’d walk 28 miles back. At night I had to share my bed in an abandon grain cabin with a holy roller. He used to take all of the covers so I said to him, “You know, you tell me that your close to God, well why do you need all of this blanket? I’m not so close and I need a blanket!” I did that teaching job for about 3 months at about $35 a month. I only got $25 of that. I remember that there was a dance the Saturday before I was supposed to start teaching. I danced with a girl named Gwen Foster, who taught grades 4, 5, 6 and 7. That night and between dances we agreed to switch classes. She would take grades 1 through 3 and I would take grades 4, 5, 6 and 7. The principal of that school was very stem, you know, black suits, white shirt, that kind of guy. I didn’t go to college right after high school. It took me 10 years to graduate mostly because in those times growing up you didn’t expect anything from anybody. You either did it or you fell by the wayside. When I finished college, I got a Bachelor of Science in Education from the University of Alberta. I think if I had had my choice when I was 17 or 18,1 would have gone to the University right away. If I had done that, I probably would have ended up a park ranger in Jasper National Park. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 62 My next job was in Edmonton teaching grade 9 science at the Gamell School. Gamell was a laboratory school for the University Of Alberta School O f Education. There was a guy there who had come to interview someone else for the position. He made a mistake and thought that I was the candidate for the job. We spent the morning interviewing and he said, “Well I guess you have it. Would you like to teach at the Gamell School?” I said sure, and he said, “Well Mr. McCarthy.” I said, “My name’s Arbuckle, not McCarthy” He said, “Well, no matter, you’ve got the job”. There were 273 applications for that job and I got it. I was the master teacher then. The student teachers all sat in the back. I liked the kids there and there were a whole bunch of girls in the 8th and 9th grade. I would wake up in the morning and open the curtain and there they were. In one way it flattered me, and in another it embarrassed me. I was like the pied piper. They were good years, but the war was intervening and I felt increasingly that I should help. People were dying every day. In the paper it would say, “Platoon Dead” or “Missing in Action.” Every day there were horrors. So I thought that I ’d better get into the Air Force. I remember when I got my new uniform I was wearing it home on the train. In those days, you had to buy your own uniform from the Hudson Bay Company. Anyway, I got this new uniform and was wearing it on the train home and I saw some guys who were also in the Canadian Air Force. In the Canadian Air Force you could tell if a person had been overseas by looking at his hat, it was usually crumpled and dirty, especially the flight crews. The thing was I knew that these guys knew I was green because my hat was pure white (you often would get a funny look). Unfortunately, I didn’t realize that I had brass buttons on my uniform until I got home. I had gone all that Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 63 way with the plastic stuff that you were supposed to peel off on all of my buttons. They must have thought I was a real asshole; I couldn’t even shine my buttons! I was in the Air Force for 3 years as a navigation instructor. I got into navigation probably because of my academic background; I’d taken science courses like chemistry and physics as well as math. I have a couple o f vivid Air Force memories from that time. The first was of one of the pilots who took me up in his plane. When we got up in the air he began to weave all over the place and said, “You better take over because I’ve never flown one of these things.” I said, “I’m only a navigator, I don’t know how to fly a plane!” We finally got down and somehow landed. Another time I was flying in a transport plane with a group of GI’s and we noticed that fuel was leaking from the plane. We also noticed the smoke and sparks from the engine and thought we would explode. I remember we woke up one of the fighter pilots sleeping on the floor of the airplane and he just said “Oh” and went back to sleep. Here we were about to blow up and he goes back to sleep! Another experience I had was when I was in officer’s training school. One of the pilots asked me if I wanted to go up with him. I did, and when we got up there he decided to fly upside down. Then he said, “Let’s pretend we are going to strafe that passenger train down there.” He went down and we were flying between the train and the telegraph poles. I can remember looking out and seeing the passengers faces in the window of the train. This was fairy typical of fighter pilots; they had a high casualty rate. The fighter pilots had no time to think. You had to be able to make an instant decision. Anyway, I managed to maintain myself quite well in his plane so when we finally landed Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 64 he said, “So, how did you like that?” I said, “Fine, I liked that” and I promptly fell flat on my face. My body took over my mind once I got both feet on the ground. Toward the end of my Air Force stint, we had all of these war hero pilots, who came back with lots of ribbons. When they came out, they would go back to being whatever they were before and we had to do something to sort of get them adjusted to civilian life. They were on average about 10 years older than most soldiers and had shot down many planes. They were at the top of their game but were having a rugged time. Somebody in charge must have heard that I was able to get along with these guys. I always got along with people, whether my students were in grade 1 or in the Air Force. The boss man somewhere along the line said, “Hey, w e’re working on this program to get these folks into society again, would you like to be a part o f it?” and I said “Sure.” So that was the way I ended up working in that area. I read Carl Rogers “Nondirective Counseling” and thought that there might be something to this. Of the things that have had a great impact on my life, I would say that the Depression and the war had a marked effect. If I’m writing a manuscript, I still write small to save paper. You save things, you save them for survival. After I got out of the Air force, I applied to the University of Chicago to work with Rogers and I was accepted. At the time I was one course shy of a Master’s and I thought that I would not be able to be accepted. Fortunately, they said that they thought I had more than a master’s anyway, given the extra courses I had taken, so they decided to let me in. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 65 It was while I was applying to Chicago that I met my first wife Peg. At the time, Peg was going out with my best friend Earl. Earl asked if it would be okay if he brought a friend to the theater with him and I said sure. So we all went to the movies at Robinson Hall and as soon as I saw her, that was it. It was difficult because here I am going out with her best friend, and she was a real nice person. But the Army intervened by sending her back in as a nurse in August. Then it was clear, and Peg and I were married that August after a very short courtship. I was able to go to Chicago because of the GI bill. It was just a dream, like flying to the moon. Fortunately, the GI bill was great. By that time Peg and I had Donny, and we got an extra $12 dollars a month for that. When Margi and Mary were bom, we got an extra $24 dollars. We lived on the second floor of a walk up. I remember that the neighbors gave us twin buggies and we would put the three children into them. I remember getting groceries and thinking, “How did I get these kids?” Peg was a nurse. She didn’t know she was going to have twins. As I remember it we went up to the hospital because Peg was not feeling well. I remember falling asleep on one o f those stretcher things. Maybe I’m embellishing things a bit, but I remember a nurse came running out and said, “You have daughter.” There was another nurse who said, “You have another daughter.” I had three kids in less than 15 months and I was working on a Ph.D. but in a way, that was part of it. That’s the way it was that’s life. Most of what I remember during that time was getting my Ph.D. I had come to Chicago to study with Rogers. There were six or seven Canadian veterans and we all sort o f had the same package deal. We all wanted to get out as fast as we could. Back then, Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 66 graduation was the most important thing, not learning. This was the influence of surviving the Depression and the war. I was working with Carl Rogers though and I learned a great deal. I learned that when he made a statement like “You know, right now you are feeling a bit tense about something,” that that came from the gut, it wasn’t something he learned. When I first met Rogers, he asked me “How come you’ve come to Chicago”? I said “Well, I’ve read your “Nondirective Counseling" and you seem to think the same things as I do that’s why I came.” I don’t think that was the answer he usually got. He laughed at that and mumbled “Oh” that’s the therapeutic mumble. Remember, I’d just been through a war and I didn’t have to kowtow to anyone. I just wanted to work with him. He was a good man, a man whose inner self and outer self were pretty much the same. As a student, we had a lot of seminars in Rogers’ apartment. His wife was a charming woman but his daughter was not. I think she’s carved her own niche somewhere, but she was quite different from Carl, which is interesting. The good thing about Rogers was that he helped you figure out where you were. It’s not whether you like where you are or don’t like where you are you don’t start from where you think you are or want to be, but where you are now. Then he’d say, “OK, what are you going to do about that?” Rogers’ apartment was right in downtown Chicago. It’s now a part of what you would call poor or affordable housing. It’s a Black neighborhood. I remember the day I graduated from the program. It was kind o f negative in that I could only get one ticket for a guest, so it was my wife and my brother’s wife. Anyway, Donny started crying and making noises and instead of offering to take him outside, my Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 67 sister-in-law did nothing. So when I graduated, Peg was outside with Donny who was pitching a fit. The thing I remember is that my sister-in-law should have said “Hey, you should be here, I’ll take the baby,” but she never thought of that. After I graduated from the University of Chicago, I went back to teaching. I didn’t think I could get a job because of the time of year I graduated. You would not think that I would have trouble with several graduate degrees, a Ph.D., experience in the Air Force and as a teacher, but there was nothing in Canada. Then a guy came and interviewed me for a place that I’d never heard of, Boston University. It seemed to me that he did all of the talking, so he couldn’t have learned anything about me, but I got a wire the next morning asking me to join as a Professor, and I said “Well, I’ll try, it but what about teaching summer school?” So that summer I was teaching summer school and Peg and the kids went back to her parents’ farm back in Canada. By the time she came back in the fall, I had bought a house. The course I taught that summer was called “The Techniques of Counseling.” What evolved was my developing the Department of Counseling at Boston University. To me, counseling and psychotherapy were identical. My first year at Boston University I published my first book “The Teacher Counselor. ” My theory was that as teachers became more like counselors, and centered on the kids rather than just the subjects, the kids learned on their own. You had to create the atmosphere, make the soil good and let it go. You don’t have to grow it. That’s the way I worked in all o f my teaching. I retired from B.U. at 75 and by then I still had a very good private practice. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 68 My kids have been very important to me; Mary, Margi, Judy, Don, and Janie. Its funny looking at my kids and asking how many of them are like me? How many are from my point of view different? Janie works for the Heritage Foundation and she checks out lighthouses that are owned by the foundation. She’ll sleep out in the rain she’s one of these outward-bound types. On the other hand, Judy is on the other end if her hair was out of place she would be very upset. She’s definitely not the outdoor type. I did a whole slew of workshops all over the U.S. in those days and I’d finance them by camping with the kids on the way down. There were seven of us and sometimes there would be one or two kids added. We’d find campgrounds, pitch our tent and cook our own meals. I went across the country like this several times when the books were coming out. We had a good old Chevy station wagon with the three seats. We would put all the stuff on top. Eventually I got a trailer. They were good trips. We saw a lot of the country that way. Somewhere in Arkansas I remember we were camping and the two little girls were sleeping in the station wagon on mattresses. The rest of us were in a tent. I remember that there was this roaring noise outside the tent. I first felt branches but then I felt water. It was a deluge and about that time the tent collapsed on itself. We had to get back to the car, move it and re pitch the tent. That was the sort of thing that at an early age they got exposed to and they still talk about it. I was married to Peg for 27 years. We were celebrating our silver anniversary and I can remember thinking that the world’s in my hands. I’ve got a wonderful wife, five super kids, I’m doing well in my profession, turning out quite few books and periodicals, people seem to like me, I have a good clientele. Then in about a year it all went boom, Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 69 and fell to pieces. I had come back from gathering some wood for the fire at our cabin and Peg was gone—just a curt little note was left. Trying to look at it objectively at that time was quite impossible. In fact, originally I bought a gun. The question was would I kill myself or would I go on living. After we divorced, Peg married a widower with four young sons. It was almost like she wanted to go back to the way things were when the kids were small, back to being a housewife. His name is Don; he was a bomber pilot, a nice guy. I can remember a while back that his young son and his friend were killed in an accident and he was very stoic about it. I’m sure being a bomber pilot with shrapnel and Mesherscmits all around, you needed to be cool and stoic, but inside he must have been terrified. I often wonder what would have happened if Peg had worked out her issues and things were the way they were. Would my life have been better for it? Even the day we got married I felt that I pursued her and she didn’t pursue me. I always felt a certain reluctance; that hers wasn’t a wholehearted commitment to me. Even then I thought she felt that it was wrong, that she might be missing something. The thing that I look back and feel sort of sad about is the divorce, particularly when I was in the business or profession of trying to help other people. Here I am the therapist and I don’t even know how to do it myself. I guess I did learn something though. I was to a degree married to my profession. I never wanted to push her away. She married her husband 3 months after and in a way he got a good deal. She went back to what she was doing 20 years earlier, bringing up four kids. One of the kids I am particularly fond of. He lives in San Francisco and he’s gay. If you are going to a person Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 70 you have to be open to everything. This means that some cherished things that you thought were reality are not, and you have to accept it. They’re not reality, you’ve made them up. I had a bad time after the divorce. I became an aging hippie, smoking marijuana and all that. You see, I was still supervising doctoral candidates at that time and I was invited to a lot of parties. Most student parties at that time had marijuana. You would get stoned just walking in. By the way, as part of my doctoral program I had students do at least one outward bound type experience. Later, we had a group at the cabin--our cabin in the woods of New Hampshire, near Mount Sunapee. Bob somebody who back then was the chair of the Psychology department said to us after dinner: “Oh by the way, I have some hash cookies” so he got them out and we all shared them. I wrapped some of them up and put them in the fridge where I forgot about them. I can’t remember our reactions, but they were probably mild. I do remember a bit latter on I had gone out alone to the cabin to cut firewood. It was late November, and I made myself some dinner and I had some scotch. Then I went looking for desert and I saw some cookies, so I ate them. I had the worst of dreams; monsters with blood dripping—I had a very bad night. My second marriage was more like a conquest. Her name was Penelope and she was 20 years younger than I, a gorgeous red head and from South Carolina. She had just been divorced from an Army captain. My older kids were practically the same age. At that time I was setting up some counseling centers in the Army bases throughout the world; Hawaii, Japan and Korea and Germany. This was after the war. At that time, if an Army base had more than 500 people, they had to have an education Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 71 policy and an education officer. Usually the education officer was an older guy who wasn’t fit for combat and who probably had done nothing else. Trying to rejuvenate them was not easy. I was stationed in Germany for about a year and a half and I met my Penelope there. Her job was teaching English to German businessmen. She said, “Ben, would you like to come to a party?” She had a little graduation party when the German businessmen completed her language course. When I went I was introduced to a man who spoke broken English with a southern accent. It was OK to hear her talk that way but it sounded kind of weird coming from her students. I think that I was really running away from my divorce. Penelope was an only child and I guess her parents had been pretty dreadful to her. She had no more of an idea of parenting than flying to the moon. So our marriage ended of course. I think we both agreed that it was a mistake. As a therapist, with clients, I think I fell rather naturally into client-centered therapy. I thought that was better than non-directive. A couple of times I talked to Rogers about this and I said, “Come on Carl, what’s all this non-directive crap?” You know, when he says, “You mean you really feel that?” I said to him “You’re not being non-directive, you’re obviously telling the client the way you feel” which is more directive than not. But it was really good to work with him anyhow. I didn’t like the word patient, I wanted to work with someone, not be the doctor. Some people don’t want that though, and you have to fight it. They want you to have all the answers just give me the cure, tell me what to do. Rogers standard response would be and you have to laugh, because as a student in his apartment we would always say this to Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 72 each other “Well, you really sound upset by something don’t you” and we would all say “Stop telling me that, I already know about this!” Looking back, I think my parents were also a strong influence on me. Later in my career, one of my climbing buddies, a woman, asked me what I learned from my parents and could I help her with her son who was having trouble. Well, I said, the most important thing you can do is to somehow develop in him that he is the most important person in the world. That’s really the best you can do. It’s nice to know that you are really special. After awhile you accept it and say, “O f course I’m that way” That’s what my parents, especially my mother, did for me. I think my father growing up in Mountain Park had a huge influence. He had a real need to be outdoors. Like him, for me it’s about being outside. It’s about coming here (the Highlands retirement living center). My daughters and I looked at other retirement communities that had a view of the ocean, but here we saw the trees and hills and thought, this is it, more wildernesses and less landscaping. It’s great because I can make trails. In fact, the trails I’ve made out back are now a part of the Highland’s advertising for other potential residents. In fact, the members of the Highlands got together a ribbon cutting ceremony when I finished the last of my trails. There was a speech and even a reception with my neighbors and other residents. I think the driving thing in getting my education was my father’s focus. Scottish people value education and knowledge. I’ve been in the Scottish Highlands—little places and you would see lots of books; people read there. Those people were not very well educated, but they were very, very learned. Again, the drive came from my father. It Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 73 was understood, nobody ever said anything to me but somehow I got the feeling that education was really important. I had to get myself educated, more educated, no matter how hard it was or whether I had to go to night school. Religion hasn’t had much impact on me. I know that’s probably sacrilegious, but it’s true. I am really spiritual though, but as I say, I’m not religious. In fact, I think religion gets in the way o f being spiritual. In a way, this little spot right here is spiritual (referring to the Highlands among the woods and trails). I picked this spot deliberately before these homes were built. So the woods and the mountains are very much a part of my spirituality. I became the President of the Alpine Club of Canada, the mountaineering club. This is one of the things I’m proudest of. I remember in my climbing days assembling a sling with seven “stitches” and they all came apart. The idea with this type of sling is that rather than fall to a total stop, you had a series of shorter stops. I was rigging that day. It was at a cathedral and a very difficult overhead climb, and I fell. I knew I was going to have a 15 maybe 16 foot drop and as I fell, I stopped six times, once for every broken stitch. The other climbers were so impressed because they had never heard of a guy that had broken through six stitches. You know you’re out there in the mountains sometimes alone, and being alone is sometimes deliberate. When you’re alone in the woods you are more alert to tracks and sounds. I remember once resting under a large boulder on Mount Washington and hearing a couple of people on the trail above talking about the stock market. Today it would probably be cell phones. Yeah, I guess you’d say I’m agnostic. I ’m a humanistic oriented agnostic. I don’t know what’s out there, but the reality is Cardinal Law doesn’t Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 74 either. The difference is that he sort of fakes the difference between fact and fiction, or between truth and belief. I have a great respect in belief, but not necessarily all of it. If you are a Muslim and you belong to the Taliban, and you say that women have to be totally covered, they can’t drive an automobile, they can’t have a job, but have to stay at home and be available for their husbands—if that’s part of your faith, that’s a lot of nonsense. It’s the same with some of Christianity, the Spanish Inquisition or what’s going on between North and South Ireland is a good example. I don’t need any go between. A very devout person would talk about the relationship with God as a mystery, but the scientific part of me says that you want to solve mysteries. It’s interesting that when people think of a super being, they think of it with a sex, usually as a he. It’s funny, recently a couple of Jehovah’s Witnesses came up here to the Highlands and they had a copy of The Watchtower. I remember The Watchtower from some Jehovah’s Witnesses who came up the trail in Mountain Park. So I said to them, “You know The Watchtower hasn’t changed since I’ve been in Mountain Park. All of the pictures were of White people. “Are there any Black or Brown people in here?” I said. They got a little upset. I guess you have to be White to go to heaven. I can remember during my time in the Air Force, I came across some very seriously injured folks, and even in talking with people around dying soldiers they said the last words of these people were not “God help me” but “Mother help me.” For them, their mother was their world, the person they knew best. As for me, my ashes are going to be scattered at a certain spot on top of Mount Washington. For one thing, there’s a lot of Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 75 wind there. It never blows less than 50 miles an hour, so my ashes will scatter. If there really is a spirituality, then there is no longer any need for the body. I like to think of it as moving on. I sometimes wonder how much or if I fantasize about my parents. It’s like in the war; a lot of people died young, and for a parent or a very young wife, this person remains stuck in time, sort of ageless. They are 21 forever. My daughter Judy is seeing a young man who lost his wife and father-in-law in a rip tide off the coast. To him she will always remain beautiful and ageless. That’s the difference between a death and a divorce. In a divorce, the person is still there and it’s harder to fantasize about them. But maybe we need that. In a way that’s part of what religion is. Religion is making reality out o f fantasy. I think that this makes those who are devout very upset. They see it as a challenge. I don’t see it as a challenge, it’s just interesting and I would like to have an interesting life as long as I live. In terms of wisdom and its part in my life, I think if you are really wise you don’t know it. It’s probably a product of life and living. I can’t quite see a 17 year old writing an autobiography. In that way, I think Carl Rogers was wise and very unassuming. He wouldn’t stand out in a crowd. If you’re wise, I suppose you make difficult decisions in a better way than if you’re not wise. But even as I hear myself say that I think that I don’t know. Maybe part of being wise is making a lot of stupid decisions, and if you’re really wise you know they are stupid regardless of you age. It’s sort of gaining knowledge through a lot of different channels. I think my two divorces make me wiser if you will and hopefully better as a human being. These things tend to make you more accepting Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 76 and I don’t mean in a passive way, but in an inward way. I think if you are wise you are at peace with yourself. On the whole, I think you’re not consumed with anger or guilt. Whatever I have of wisdom, I think it played a marked part in my life in that to be accepting o f someone who disagrees with you, you need an element of wisdom in. You have to recognize the possibility that he could be right and I could be wrong. I have a sense that if you achieve wisdom, you get above things like nationalities; things like “to the death for my country,” things that sound very patriotic, but if you are wise you transcend that. There’s something else beyond that so we don’t have to kill each other over it. I think if you had a group of wise people, there would not be any war because it wouldn’t make any sense. Although I think part of wisdom is valuing yourself, so in a situation where someone is threatening you, because you value yourself, you would be able to defend yourself. Wisdom is also about going through trials and tribulations so that you live through them, you just don’t read about them. It’s funny you know that the people here at The Highlands in some ways are not my type. Normally, at 10 o’clock I come up to the lodge for coffee and it’s mostly for the lodge people. The lodge people are two different kinds of people, some with walkers and canes and some with Alzheimer’s. It seems that some folks don’t know the fine art of conversation. Some of the folks here are angry, and some are sad. It may be that we progress to a certain point in our maturity and go back the other way, like when we were children. It’s interesting. I tried to start a conversation group here a while ago. It just didn’t work out. I had only two expectations; that each person should contribute something and that you have to be willing and able to listen to the person who is Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 77 speaking. I think I ended up with five people, but it wasn’t interesting. We would read the paper or the news magazines to get at a controversial issue. But if I were to say, “Let’s talk about stem cell research, or the Middle East,” there would be quiet. I don’t think people here keep up to date on what’s happening. It’s as if they’ve almost accepted that the boat is sinking, so I might as well just sink with it. I like to stay active. It’s like the work I do with my rock gardens and trails. It brings me back to when I was young. People ask me when I was climbing or hiking in these remote locations was I scared. O f course I was scared. I would have to make decisions that had life or death consequences. Making decisions, my own decisions, is important to me; otherwise life is not worth living. I don’t want to just remain conscious and propped up in a chair. In fact, I would rather that the money spent on trying to revive me was spent on disease research or helping kids in difficulty. Looking back, I don’t have a lot of regrets. I was dealt the cards, and I played the cards I was dealt pretty well. Someone might think I’m pretty cocky, and say, “Who are you to decide how well you played the cards you were dealt?” But in the end, I have to decide that. Some people wonder if I have a problem living alone. I don’t because I’m not really alone. I still have things that are important to me like my kids, and that’s an important lesson because your kids are really all that’s left, so treat them nice. Some people say I spoil them. Yes, I treat them as somebody special, so that they know; even when I’m mad as hell at them, that they are still special. My parents didn’t often say they loved us; it was kind of ridiculous because their action and behavior showed they loved us. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. William Tate “I think the challenge o f my life was to recognize and let that spiritual presence in. ” I remember growing up in a very small, southern West Virginia. When I was very young probably, what I remember most is my father’s occupation and how it kind of put us in a miserable position. He was a Baptist pastor. He had been at the same church his entire career so he was really kind of an institution, which meant that everyone in town knew who I was, this is a very small town, under 4,000 people. Other things I remember are the milieu of the town; it was a railroad town, a terminal railway with a big river and surrounded by mountains. So I always felt some sense of place. I could always find the river; I could always see the mountains. I could always hear the trains. So I just always knew where I was, which was both good and not so good. It got to be a quite a bore. In fact, it was a terrible boring place. I was bom in 1935 and it was late depression time when I was starting to realize my surroundings. Being in Appalachia, our town had never had good times, but during the depression it had really bad times. There was a lot of poverty and I can remember people coming to our back door and asking for a sandwich. I can remember peddlers, who, my mother said were gypsies, but they weren’t, they were just peddlers coming into town. They would have a motorized truck but it would be all painted up to attract attention. Of course I can remember the scenes of the war, and then other than that were individual people who were included in my awareness all the time. WWH hit our whole town pretty hard. Among other things I can remember, all the houses that had a flag Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 79 hanging in the window representing one or more kids in the military. I was a junior warden, which meant that I had an armband and a flashlight; supposedly I was on the lookout. We would have drills looking for enemies, or course the only enemies that ever came as far inland as West Virginia were the troop trains, German troops, prisoner of war trains. I can remember the scrap paper drives, and how that was the competition all over school. How much paper would you get? The rationing. My mother would send me to the grocery store early on Saturday morning so she wouldn’t have to stand in line to get sugar for canning. The local daily newspaper building was right next door to our house. So I always knew when the presses would run because it was an afternoon paper and the presses would start running about 12:30 and the paper would be out and ready for sale by 3:00. If I ever heard the presses at a different time than that I knew there was something going on, probably with the war and a special edition was printing. It was a sensory time. Things that I saw; some things I heard, the heat of summer; those are the memories. I was very shaken by the war. Just the consciousness, it invaded everyone’s consciousness. I was acutely aware of the sorrows of people. Very oftentimes when someone would have a son missing, it might be a person in our congregation, my Dad’s congregation. So I would hear the inside stories of it. Our town was very patriotic, so we were always conscious of what was going on. I still can remember reports of the battles we won and lost. I was an only child. I had a half brother, my dad had been married earlier and his first wife had died. And my half brother was also in the war. I didn’t know him very Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 80 well at all. I was really raised as an only child and my mother was a homemaker. We had all our meals together, at that time people did that, it was the norm. My dad would sit at one end of the table, my mother at the other end of the table and I would sit in a chair in between them. There would always be a dialog and it really played itself out with two philosophies, two views of life. My dad was very calm, very assured, and very comfortable with his fate. He was very confident that he was being watched over. My mother was nervous about everything; so this played out every day. Mother would come out with her worries, Dad would be assuring. Mother would worry, Dad would assure, which gave me the choice of both, so I think I grew up being both able to assure and worry. At different points in my life, one dominated over the other, but that was kind of how I was introduced to how to think about life, which meant that you could look at it as either worrying about things when you needed to or being able to assure yourself in other situations. Sometimes it was worrying about things whether you needed to or not. It was a compulsive worry that my mother had. She was always fearful that the world, or the sky was about to fall; and that was never true. I think going through college I had a lot o f my dad’s confidence, actually it was assurance not confidence. I didn’t have a lot of confidence. But then as I finished college and needed to escape, I found myself all of a sudden reacting a lot more like my mother than my dad. After getting established in my first career and starting to feel like I knew who I was and where I was, I acted like Dad. In my first marriage, I was really thrust in to my mother’s way of worrying. When that marriage ended it was interesting because I felt like I really returned Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 81 to my dad almost immediately. Now my Dad has long since passed away. But those are examples. As a child, I was not as far along developmentally as my peers. I had started school a year earlier than the rest of them, and in the town where I lived it was not known for its openness. It was a blue; it was a very dark blue-collar town, so I grew up with a pretty sizable amount o f lack of confidence. That was my mother’s effect. Because my mother had always assured me that to worry was the healthy way to be. If you worry, you can anticipate and make things happen the way that you want them to happen. Of course, that formula never worked. I was the kid who probably was a jerk in the eyes of the other kids. I was probably the annoying kid in the classroom. Putting myself in places where I hadn’t been invited, inserting myself in the social scene with kids who hadn’t figured out that I would be a part of their scene, I was just there. I think it was partly because things like school came easy to me. School, school, only school. Grades in high school and college came easy and I didn’t study much because I had very brief attention span and I got bored quickly and I never really applied myself. I could get by. Of course the down side of that whole thing is that every one of the teachers knew my parents personally and very often worried about my performance level. Today I might have been ADHD, I don’t know. Relationships didn’t come easy. As I got a little older, I was more of a hanger around type. But the bottom line was that I worked very hard, I wanted really badly to be cool, but I had to work at it all the time. It never came easy. And it didn’t often happen. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 82 So it wasn’t a very good time for me. To be “cool”, I would have had to be more like they were, and I wasn’t. I think it was a huge sigh of relief that I left the town and went to college. Very few of my graduating class went on to college. Curiously I think there must have been about 12 out of 50 that went and 8 of the 12 ended up with Ph.D.’s, I can’t explain that, it never happened before. I don’t know if it’s happened since—it’s almost unbelievable. It was just a given that I would go to school, and that I would learn, and that I would do well, and that I would go on to college. I can’t ever remember wondering, “Well, should I go to college?” which in that town was unusual. There were a couple things that made me interested in learning, although I wouldn’t really call it a love of learning. There were some individuals who brought subjects to life, and those moments were just really vivid, are still very vivid. Being introduced to Shakespeare, as a junior in English, it was just like a whole new world was opened. Learning to write, I had an 8th grade English teacher who really took the English language very seriously. She was able to speak to me and it excited me. Years later when I was an English teacher I found myself oftentimes going back to memories of that awful little classroom that we had, where our school was. Besides English, Mathematics was always relief because I could solve problems and quickly. I remember subjects like history were a struggle because I couldn’t solve things quickly, like math. So you know it’s those kinds of things, that’s not exactly what I would call a love for learning. It was a love for inspiration, which I still have. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 83 I was so fortunate to attend school and going on to college that I had enough of what was needed to do well enough to go onto college. I arrived at college, West Virginia University that was the state university, scared out of my wits. It was at the far end of the state so it really kept me as far away from home as I need to be, but still was something that sounded familiar at least. It wasn’t just escape from family, it was an escape from Hell. During college I changed majors several times. I started out as an engineering major, which was back in the days when you knew the engineers because they all had a slide rule attached to their waist. It didn’t take me long to realize, it was within a semester, that that wasn’t really what I was interested in doing. I bounced around in a couple o f areas. I spent a semester in speech pathology. I also spent a semester in journalism, and I realized at that point that journalists basically were short order writers who didn’t get any time off, so I didn’t want to do that. I finally ended up in history, history and English. It’s very interesting, that I didn’t really care for history in high school, but I think in that transition period I began to have a little more appreciation for it. I’ve always felt like I wasn’t in control of my path. I’ve always thought God was in control of my path because the path I’ve taken simply isn’t explainable in ways that it was me who was in control. As an example, my first job fell in my lap. I was going to go into business and I was dating a girl whose father had big connections in Pittsburgh. He took me up to Pittsburgh and I interviewed at a couple of major corporations up there. I was interviewed by Joy Manufacturing Company. They’re even today one of the Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. largest producers o f oil. They’re big in the Texas oil fields and during the interview they told me that I would have to learn the job from the ground up. The first 3 or 4 months I would be actually on a Texas oil field rig as a gopher. That didn’t sound attractive. I’d never been to Texas and all I’d seen was the movies. That didn’t sound to me like my cup of tea. I couldn’t imagine coming home with the smell of oil on me. In retrospect, I think I realized what my true nature was, and that it didn’t fit the scene I was seeing. But at the time it just felt like I was going to be involved in doing things that sounded disagreeable I knew that my spirit was not in the oil fields. Before I even had a chance to hear what they thought I informed them I wasn’t interested in ajob with them. I took a teaching job instead, but even that fell in my lap. Just right at the end of senior year they were doing some interviews for teachers. This was 1956 when in the middle of the cold war and Russia was already making some serious signals of competition and so Arlington Virginia was on campus. Arlington Virginia sounded great. It was next to DC and I knew from my studies it was considered to be one of the two or three best school systems in the country. On a lark, I made an appointment and they reviewed my resume right on the spot. The position was a junior high school teacher. I got the job and I ended up in one of the best kind of arrangements I heard of, something called core curriculum which was two 2-hour teaching blocks a day and each teaching block had 1 hour o f history, and 1 hour of English. So I had a 4-hour a day teaching load, and then two periods off to counsel students. I didn’t have any idea what counseling was but I made do. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 85 Not 3 years later I was approached to go back and get master’s degree in counseling. I got three master’s as a result of that. I went to George Washington University across the river. That was an evening degree program, a part-time program. Before I had even finished training, the school district offered me ajob as a school counselor these are just examples of how everything has fallen in my lap. Even since then, things just keep falling in my lap. It’s either serendipity or somebody else Teaching was natural, it was absolutely a natural. I had had some good teachers who I’d observed and knew what they did. I knew that I could do that, especially with young kids. My first class, my first assignment was with 8th graders. Everyone thinks it’s a tough age, but I didn’t experience it as tough, I experienced it as fun. I just loved it. Still today if I were going back to teaching in the public schools that would be the age I’d choose, because they’re fresh, but they haven’t quite made the step over that threshold of sophistication. My first year teaching, I remember being adopted by another teacher, Lee Ann Chester, who, bless her soul, thought that she ought to, she tried to, mother me. But she did some, and Lee Ann—uh no, there were two women who took me on they must have seen the vulnerability, but they set out to make me a really good teacher. I wonder if the principal had told them to do that. Anyhow they did, they showed me how to do lots of things. They showed me how to prepare; they showed me the shortcuts, the tricks. They almost anticipated my needs on a daily basis, so the mechanics of teaching really were easy. The relationships were what I got into—and this caught me off guard. I don’t think I realized the relationships that I had with the students individually just blew me away, Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 86 because these were real people. I was having relationships and acceptance that I’d never had as a kid. I think that that was touching something that had been dormant for quite a long time. I can picture them, I can’t name the kids necessarily but I can picture them and they were all very responsive. I kind of evolved into a narrative teaching style . I was a storyteller and everything I did in teaching was a story. The kids were really too grown up for bedtime stories, but they loved the stories in history about the massacres. I was doing some of the things that a school counselor today does, meeting with the kids early in the year to help them start to think about the year the transition to the next year. I had to see each kid for a minimum of 15 minutes a semester, and each class had about 25 to 30 kids, so that was 60 kids. Then I was supposed to meet with the parents once a semester. That freaked me. I didn’t feel that much more mature than the kids and it was a very nervous thing. But it was a different age because parents were much more accepting of teachers then. Any number of times I was invited to dinner at parents’ homes and any number of times I went. Yeah there wasn’t that boundary then. I’m sure parents saw me as very young and I suppose I had some redeeming values that let them accept me. We had a county guidance director, Ephram Cook. I don’t know how she got my name but she approached me and said that “Oh w e’ve got this scholarship and I think you’d do well will you consider it?” I was so flattered I couldn’t have said no. So I did it and ended up getting my degree. It was a helter-skelter program and it was late 50s, at that time GW had about 2 or 3 full-time professors and they were all in the psychology Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 87 department. Probably the most dominant of them was a woman by the name of Thelma Hunch who was a super person. I can remember my first instructor who was in the office of Education but he was a transplant from the University of Minnesota. It was a very hit or miss program and there didn’t feel like any gestalt. I finished that program in about 3 years. In the interim, I started a program at the University o f Maryland, too in history. But I never finished that. I got burned out. I was teaching history so it made sense to, you know, study history. I don’t think I ever needed a Master’s in history. When I finished my last course at GW, again serendipity, Fairfax County next door was just exploding in population. They were adding a new high school in a year and I had been a middle school counselor for 4 years and wanted a little bit more of a challenge. I applied for ajob as a high school counselor in Fairfax and was interviewed by the principal of a high school that was opening that fall. I was given the job and I stayed in that job 2 years and then another high school was opening I interviewed for the job as director of guidance in that school and then got that. I was in that job 1 year, and the assistant principal for administration position became vacant. The principal asked me to take that job and I took that for a year. That was the moment when I realized that I hated that job. My responsibilities were much removed from kids except for measuring hair length, and skirt length, which I found very degrading. I found most of the things I had to do in that job degrading. Which is just to say that I had finally gotten back to my oil field. That was the nudge I needed to go back to grad school and I applied for a Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 88 graduate assistantship, a fellowship really, at the University of Massachusetts in educational research. I took GRE’s. I’d been out of college 10 years and I hadn’t taken the GRE’s, so I took it then. I was accepted as part of a 15-member cohort into a 2-year doctoral program in educational research. As soon as I got there I realized I didn’t want to let go of counseling, so I declared a double major and did the extra coursework needed to get the counseling psychology and educational research degree. At the end of my 2nd year, a new faculty member in the counseling program was hired from Colorado State by the name of A1 Ivy. Well, A1 Ivy arrives with all his video equipment and in spite of all his expertise; he is not a technician so he needed someone to manage his equipment, to help him with the lab setup and day-to-day stuff. In my 3rd year he gave me an assistantship to run the micro lab. It was the easiest job I ever had, just keeping the equipment going and helping with his research projects, which I loved. Three years of full-time doctorate study and I never once ever had a moment thinking where my next meal was coming from, it just was there. My marriage was collapsing at that time. My first wife and I taught at the same school. The 1st year of teaching, no I guess it was my 2nd year of teaching was her 1st year. She was a science teacher. The kids all thought that we should be dating. We were both single and we avoided that as long as we could. We did date a little, but then she left and went to California. We sort of kept a correspondence and our correspondence picked up again and I ended up going out to California summer vacation and marrying her out there. We were not a good match at all, but we both were willing to let it happen. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 89 Our marriage lasted 12 years and we had two children. We were in Virginia a few more years, and then my firstborn was bom in Virginia, and when she was 2 we moved to Massachusetts. My wife worked part time as a counselor in school while I was in graduate school. In 1969,1 graduated and we took off for a college job at Purdue as an assistant professor in counseling again it dropped in my lap. A1 Ivy, who was very good to me, had contacts everywhere, all over the United States. One day he said, “Where would you like to go?” I said “Well, I think I’d like to I’d like to be in a major university.” So he said “Well I’ve got some friends, I’ll call.” I ended up with scheduled interviews at Michigan State and Purdue. I had opportunities at both places. I chose Purdue because it just felt a little bit more comfortable, I’m not even sure why. I think I ended up in the right place. They had marvelous doctoral students. Almost all of whom have become leaders in the field. We had a tremendous faculty. We were eight professors who got along with each other, and that’s really uncommon. Most all of us were very ambitious but we weren’t cut throat. I had no idea I was walking into the hotbed of counseling psychology. Lee Isacson was there. Rick Nelson was there; he’s probably the biggest name in the whole of counseling. At the time they weren’t hot yet, but they’ve gotten to be very well known. It was just a hot bed and I was the new kid on the block. It was probably like loading me into a human cannon and then shooting me. I really felt the heat of competition, more than I had never felt in my life. They were all heavy publishers at Purdue, and it was real clear if I was going to amount to anything I was going to have to Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 90 that as well, and I did. Not that they helped me, but I was bound and determined not to fail and I was running for my life. None of my kids have been that way but I was really afraid of failure. Even when I was in graduate school I was a considerable annoyance. Purdue was like a great awakening. I can remember one of my first philosophy professors in graduate school. This was the second or third meeting of a doctoral seminar. In the middle of class, not after class, but in the middle of class saying to me “Hackney, I don’t know why you’re in the doctoral program you already know everything.” That was a shock, and I really had to start doing some introspection and trying to figure out was this the person I wanted to be. But then when I got to Purdue I started all of a sudden getting positive strokes. I think in a real sense I started realizing who I was as a person more than I had any time before. I think I’d been driven by ambition all my life, all my early years. All my years up to Purdue I had been driven by ambition and insecurity. I was driven by insecurity but the insecurity started to diminish when I realized I could be a player. Bruce Shertzer was the chairman of the department and the most accomplished. He was president of ACA the year I took the job. So all of a sudden I was up in the rare air, and would be at a convention where everybody knew Bruce and I would stand beside him. That felt really heady for a young neophyte. But uh Bruce was also a very taskdriven person and all the time that Bruce was in the office I was aware of his presence. He may not have even said hello, but if he was there I was conscious Bruce was there. It was that much of a presence. Bruce was always involved in a project. And it seemed like all his projects were successful. You know that was kind of what I was around. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 91 The others meanwhile were being quite productive, too, and in our group every publishing accomplishment was recognized and praised. Anytime someone had an article accepted, within a matter of minutes everyone knew about it and everyone was at their door complimenting them. In part I think it was because we were a team and saw this as not just an individual accomplishment but also a team accomplishment. I got accepted into that crowd. I came with one publication, which was in itself a gift. So I had broken that, but I hadn’t yet done it on my own. Fortunately, it didn’t take too long for me to get something accepted that was totally mine. And then I knew I could make it. In thinking about my parents at that time, my mother, in a lot of ways I cut her off. She was too intrusive and I just really cut my mother off pretty badly. Even while I was in undergraduate school I did that. In those days you never telephoned, so everything was done by letters. I would get letters and I wouldn’t answer them. I was never a bad kid. I would come home for vacations and that sort of thing. But I really minimized the relationship. So mom was very much in the background, all throughout my first marriage, and I’m sure there was a lot of pain. Well I’ll go back to the theme again—my major professor at U Mass was a guy by the name of Jules Zimmer, and I truly loved the guy. Jules is now the Dean of the College of Education at the University of California at Santa Barbara. He was a kid from the lower East Side in New York City, he was a street kid, and I had never known anyone like him. But he was also brave, and the combination of that streetwise braveness just wowed me. He was a guy with wisdom, he had the wisdom o f the streets, the wisdom of survival, and he just was using it every day in a scene at U Mass which was not a very Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 92 easy scene with faculty. They had just hired a new dean who literally sapped the energy; it was a very nervous time for professors. Jules had introduced me to a guy with Prentice Hall who was an editor and had even talked to him about a project, which never happened. Well in my 2nd year at Purdue, I had a doctoral student who had picked up on the article I had just written. My student said, “Why don’t we write down what you’re doing into a little manual?” So we did a program text she had. The editor I met earlier heard about it and said he’d like to see it. We sent it to him and within months it was a book. I mean it; you can’t believe how these things just happen. That book is in its fifth edition and it’s still alive. So you know those little moments—it seemed like more little moments than big moments. I mean it never felt to me like I was setting major goals. I can remember an epiphany I had after I’d been there a few years. I’d gone to a retreat every fall at Purdue. We went down to the 4H-leadership center, it was always in October and it included all of our faculty, our counseling faculty. It was a groupie experience and all of our doctoral students; all of our Masters’ students were out in the country for a weekend together. I can remember at one point in one of those retreats saying I’m tired of being a doer, I want to become a “be’er”. I didn’t have any idea what that meant. I just knew that my life up to that point had been focused on accomplishing things and I wanted to start experiencing things. I don’t think I’ve quite succeeded in becoming that. But that was a major turning point. That was probably in my 4th year. I think I felt like I had just been too mechanical, too technology driven in my career, and in my life. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 93 My marriage was on the rocks by then. Personal life wasn’t going so well. I was asking some serious questions of myself. Mid-life crisis probably is another way of talking about it. I had laid out a good portion of my career at this point. I was successful and probably a lot of people would say what’s wrong with you. But I wasn’t happy. I was trying to figure out not necessarily why I was not happy, but what it would take to be happy. My first marriage ended at that time, and I kind of drifted for a little while. All of a sudden my second marriage was there waiting for me to notice it, I think. I ended up marrying one of my students, and that’s Janine upstairs, just as she was finishing her Ph.D. In fact she hadn’t finished her Ph.D. when we got married. It was as right a relationship as the other marriage was not. We’ve oftentimes referred to it as finding our soul mates; which I understand just recently, is strong advice to young people today not to look for your soul mate. Very few find them. We’re extremely compatible, which is to say not necessarily that we get along but we have compatible strengths —her strengths complement mine. My weaknesses tend to vice versa. I think we have a lot of the same values. We’re both ambitious. It opened me up to experiences I had that had been closed to that point. I did start exploring my friends have said that that’s when I really unwound, and became a whole other person. I can remember people telling me even at Purdue “You’re just too much work”. I was too much work for them to try to get along with. I think I kind of mellowed out. Though I don’t think I became a “be-er”, but at least I became more mellow. I think that was the period when I was becoming for the first time a good counselor. I think that I was learning about me, and I was translating Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 94 everyth in g I was learning into my counseling. I think I’ve changed in my theoretical approach. I was a very, very much locked in as a behaviorist. It was a big thing, being a behaviorist, especially if you went to school in Massachusetts. The closer you were to Skinner, to Harvard, the closer you were to behaviorism. I was kind of a combination o f Skinnerian and computer jock when I left U Mass., so you know I had a lot of mellowing out to do. One of my first experiences at Purdue was with a guy who is now a very famous teacher, A1 Ivy. A1 and I would have conversations, and I would come away from it without the slightest idea what he had said. I couldn’t follow him. I would ask him to explain what he meant and he’d explain it and I didn’t understand that. Finally I got to the point where I started to understand him, and then that made me nervous, because I could understand him. It was all part of the process of my becoming a humanist. I couldn’t quite let go o f the cognitive side. I’ve always been cognitive in my counseling approach, but the systems movement began and I just found that to be so exciting that I studied it. Then some of my humanist side that I think had been in the shadows ever since I was a kid started to come back. So those were the mid-career influences. I think I have become more of an existentialist over the years. What I have done is to realize that I am not in control. It’s really that simple. I think it freed me up a great deal. One of the problems I had as a young counselor was feeling responsible for clients. Feeling like I had to make the success happen and that if I was working in a case that wasn’t going well, it was because of something I was not doing. Not necessarily Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 95 something that I was doing but something that I was not doing. So I always felt personal pressure to make things happen. Once I got beyond that I think I started to become a better counselor. I think that a great deal of successful counseling really comes through life experience. You can give a person all the skills but you can’t give them life experience. I think that it’s the accumulated knowledge that one has to go through in order to generate success. Someone, I can’t remember who it was now, said there was never a good counselor younger than him. My life experience informs me in a lot of ways, mainly ah, I am ready to accept commonality among people. I believe we have a lot more in common with each other than our differences. When I see something going on in someone, usually I can find something in my life that it reminds me of, and in that instance I realize I’m not that different. We are probably walking down the same path, so that might allow me to be more accepting or understanding and insightful as to what they’re dealing with. The other dimension that is found in counseling experiences, as opposed to life experiences, are prototypes, and I do believe that there are prototypes for all struggles. You can be with a person a few times and their prototype starts to emerge and you can recognize it as something you have visited before. There are very few surprises. Sometimes coincidences are surprising; it’s always a surprise when you see someone going through an experience that is remarkably like one you’ve had. But other than that I don’t think there are an infinite number of ways experiences occur; I think there are patterns of ways of behaving. Now there are all sorts of uniqueness in those patterns. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 96 After my first marriage ended, my ex-wife and my son moved to Connecticut. My daughter who was the older of the two came to live with us. She finished high school in Indiana and went to Purdue. But my son, who’s now 32, 33, moved to Connecticut with his mother. Janine and I had talked about going back to the East Coast. She was from Massachusetts, and I felt really at home in Massachusetts, so that seemed like a really nice thing to have happen. We kept looking at jobs and nothing ever really happened until ajob offer—and again, I had someone who was at Fairfield University, Sam Reilly, call me one day and said we have ajob here I think you’d be good at. It was the Associate Dean o f Graduate Studies. Fairfield’s a small university. I had Sam send me a description of the job. In retrospect it was like getting the assistant principalship all over again, but I had decided because Fairfield University was a 25-minute drive to where my son was. That in itself was a good incentive. I applied for the job and got the job and we moved to Connecticut. Janine was without ajob that first year. She had been on faculty at Purdue after she got her degree. She took ajob at Bridgeport Hospital in the social work department for a year. I took that job and came to Fairfield— stayed in that job for a year and had opportunity to move back to faculty and jumped at it and for 12 more years I was a professor at Fairfield. The Associate Dean is not an inventive role. So I applied for the Deanship. The Dean was leaving said I can’t recommend you. He and I were at odds and I was stunned by that. So I said well then I want to apply for this professorial position. I think he felt good about my going back to that so he helped that happen. He was a high control person and I don’t work well under those—I felt shackled. So it was actually a wonderful gift. I came there in ’84 and was there for 3 years as the Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 97 Associate Dean. I got back to faculty and immediately knew I was back in the right place. I have a lot of fond memories. Fairfield was a delightful school, eccentric as can be. There were faculty there who had been there since the day that the school opened. It’s a Jesuit school and I really developed a very close caring relationship with some of the Jesuits there. I have a lot of respect for them. More than anything else it was a school that was predominantly a college of Arts and Sciences and I was kind of brought into that world. I’ve told a lot of people this story—we had a faculty dining room that was for anyone who was staff. But there would be a group o f us who would meet every day for lunch in the faculty dining room. Generally we’d move tables together—there would typically be 10 or 12 of us around the tables. Every discipline that was at the university would be at that table, and the discussions and the arguments that would go on around those tables— sometimes we would be there an 1 14 hours eating a 20-minute lunch. Probably the discussion I enjoyed the most happened one day between a physicist professor and a Jesuit who was in the theology department. It went an hour and a half. A physicist who was also an international chess champion made the statement, blatant statement that God was a mathematical formula and the Jesuit just went berserk They went at each other and I was sitting there. I didn’t know what would happen so I wouldn’t leave. For an hour and a half they talked. There was a lot of openness, lot o f inclusion. Janine and I were as welcome in the College o f Arts and Sciences as we were in the School ofBusiness. That was a very pleasant community experience. It was a good place to be. It was another time of learning and growth for me, a very different kind of learning and growth. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 98 At Purdue my focus was totally on research. At Fairfield my focus was as totally on training, the process o f training, the experience of learning counseling. We didn’t have a doctoral program. We were really grounded in the community, and Fairfield County is really a hybrid area. Wonderful students came. People, who had already made major accomplishments in other fields, came to us as students. I would see people on TV, in their previous thing, and then that night Fd see them in class. It was that kind of school. I needed to get back to doctoral studies. I was missing it more every year. But you know again the impossible happened. There was a single position advertised here at Syracuse. They had a senior faculty member who was retiring and he was a chair, so the position was advertised. He and another former colleague had talked to me a couple of years ago at a conference and asked had I ever considered moving to Syracuse. At one time I had said that I’d never go to Syracuse because it’s too cold there. I said if there were two positions there and if Janine and I could go, then I would probably be interested. I got a call saying you know you’re both welcome to apply for this position, and if either of you gets the position we’ll see what we can do to hire the spouse. I didn’t believe that, but we both applied for the same position and we were both interviewed separately for the same position. That was curious. We had never done anything like that in our lives. We had always everything we’d ever done we’d done you know in tandem. Strange because she came, Janine came up the 1st week was interviewed, and I came up the 2nd week and was interviewed. Probably we were asked many of the same questions. The only variation in the two interviews that I could figure out was that we were taken to Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 99 different restaurants. But I guess the University had done a lot o f homework and they decided that they wanted us both. They decided they wanted Janine as the chair. So we both had periods as chairs at Fairfield. At Fairfield that was a rotating position, so Jamie was offered the job as chair and I was offered a full professorship. We couldn’t believe it, but we took it. I’ve been very happy about it. She has by far the hardest job. It was a really an opportunity for her. For me it’s an end of career opportunity. Not that I’m anticipating retiring immediately. I’m not. But I don’t see another career move. This will be where I finish out my career. I don’t think about my career finishing very much. I don’t know how I’ll end my career. I don’t know how gracefully I will end. There are two aspects of my career that I enjoy the most. One is writing and the other is student contact. I will have a harder time letting go of student contact, but I doubt I’ll ever let go of the writing part. I don’t need to be on a in a campus office to write. I don’t do my writing in the office. I write at home, I always have. So you know that part will be that’s an unknown, that’s an unknown for me. I don’t worry about it. Things that are important to me I think are tolerant people and generous people. My whole career I’ve been in the presence of tolerant people first, who put up with me. And secondly of generous people, who’ve given me things, opportunities to help me in evolving into a human being. I think I had so much history as a kid, so much baggage, emotional baggage to get rid of. Just to know that it was baggage that I was carrying. I wasn’t so insightful as a kid. But over the process of time, I ’ve lived long enough and I had enough good people in my life who let me get to where I am. I think I’ve learned a Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 100 bit through a lot of painful experiences. Not destructive experiences, just painful. I had a painful childhood, growing up. I was not exactly a lovable kid. I had a painful youth. I had a painful first marriage. I think all of that is development. At the same time, I had a very blessed life; though it was as though I was in the water to learn to swim with a taskmaster who did not let me climb out. That taskmaster took on many different identities. My mother was the first. Bill (the chairman of the department at Purdue) was one also. He hired me there. Bill was a very focused person, very energized person, very ambitious person, very successful person, who didn’t see any reason why anyone else couldn’t be the very same thing. He was a good old Indiana boy. If you want to do it, do it. Life was not a lot o f shits and grins. I don’t believe that being wise is something that one sets out to be, I think in fact that’s probably the antithesis of wisdom. When I become self-absorbed I am as far away from wisdom—I would not even call it wisdom. Wisdom, I’m uncomfortable with that because I don’t think anyone ever claims wisdom. Did Socrates claim to be wise? I don’t think so. I think it’s only something someone else can give you absolutely, so I don’t think it’s a good idea to aspire to it. I think if you’re aspiring to wisdom, you’re not there. I have had very few people let me know I was wise. Oh I’ve known wise people, very wise people. I think, I think there’s a confidence, and an ability to get involved and yet keep a distance. O f course when you’re around someone like that it’s wonderful. When you’re around a person like that, when I’m around a person like that I can’t get enough of that. Earlier in my life, I probably would have been a little tentative. Well, I probably, it would have been my own lack of self-confidence you know it when you’re in Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 101 its presence. I ’m not sure two people would think the same about wisdom. I can imagine two people on saying that person is wise and the other person would say are you kidding? So maybe our antennae for wisdom are different. Well I’m in a pretty exciting time right now. I’m back in the building—Janine and I were brought here with some real charges. One of my charges is to renovate the doctoral program and bring it into a national stature. The faculty has worked really hard this year to get that process going. I think we are through the door and probably even finished with stage 1 right now. It’ll be another 2 or 3 years but our mission is within the next 3 to 4 years to have our doctoral students coming from a national scene and not a regional scene, and to really return to a research focus at the doctoral level. I have another ambition. I want to become a fly fisherman. And probably within a 30-minute drive from here I can be in some of the best trout streams, and they’re not over fished. That’s an ambition that I haven’t actually started to act on yet, although my son did send me a new rod. My daughter, my oldest, lives in Nashua, NH. She and her husband are computer software engineers. My middle son lives in Fairfield, CT. He never left. He manages a big liquor wine store in Fairfield. My youngest just finished college and this past year is in Philadelphia discovering himself. Figuring out who he is. It’s my middle son who is the fly fisherman. He’s very impressive. So that’s something that I’m hoping to do, too. I’ve not been a person to have hobbies. I’ve never developed a—you know I own golf clubs, I own tennis rackets, I own fishing tackle. I’ve never gotten too deep in anything. So it’s time for me to start getting a bit more. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 102 There are some big things going on at the University. Some pretty rewarding things are going on. We are one of the things our Provost who is here in her 2nd year. She came from IU, and she has a grand plan to create a campus-wide—well actually a community-focused wellness center which will occupy a whole city block, and it will include everything from physical equipment to psychological to spiritual. There will be a chapel. I mean this is something that I’m hoping to be part of too. It’s very exciting. You know people from the I can envision folks who are one step from homelessness in the same setting as young college sophomores. I was at war with my spiritual self for the first half of my life. I was very selfconscious about being the son of a minister. I was very skittish about even acknowledging spiritual side. I think that going through my divorce was probably the crisis that let me start looking at that again. I have grown immensely in recent years, both as a student of the Bible and as an explorer. Spirituality became an academic interest for me as well because again it was a serendipitous moment I’d about 3, 3 or 4 years ago a couple of people who have been big in the spirituality area of American Counseling Association decided to have a summit on spirituality in Charlotte, North Carolina. They invited 12 people, and I was one of the 12. It was just mind blowing—to spend a few days with people who really knew what they were talking about in an academic sense. So that’s an area of interest. Right now I’m working with a colleague, a younger colleague here on our faculty on exploring the physical dimension of disability and whether or not people who have different kinds of disabilities experience their disability in spiritual ways. I’m very interested in this and there are a lot of people out there who Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 103 know a lot more about it than I do. But I have also become a much more spiritual person, personally. My dad was a very liberal Baptist. He was not of the Southern Baptist conservative types at all. In fact in our little town there were four Baptist churches, three o f which were Southern Baptist. My Dad’s declared allegiance was to the Northern Baptist, which then became the American Baptist. My dad didn’t have issues with my dancing, I smoked cigarettes all of the time I was in high school and college. He never had an issue with those things. Dad was quite an existentialist. He gave me much permission to be who I needed to be. My mother set the rules, my dad didn’t. In those growing up years I had a very fundamental—not a fundamental, that word means other things—I had a very basic grounding in the teachings of both the Old Testament and New Testament. Then I had a long hiatus from it—20 or more years. I didn’t go to church, I didn’t pray—well that’s not true, I always prayed. But it was always to get me out of a mess. God was my rescuer more than anything else. I never read the Bible. I had read, I had memorized verses from the Bible but I ’d never read the Bible. So I set out about 4 years ago I read straight through in a year, cover to cover. Then I read it again, cover to cover. And then I read half o f it again and I also took some courses in Bible literature. I’ve done a lot of reading of the more avant-garde Christian movements. I’ve done a lot of reading and probably I’ve done more study in that area than any other in recent years. I found out that I really have a deep conviction that there is a God who is a God of us all, and that religions or denominations are human creations, they are not God creations. So I never feel I have never in my life felt like it was me against the world. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 104 That was a constant, that’s what kept me going, even in hard times, even in times of denial I think for me God is always present. I think the challenge of my life was to recognize and let that spiritual presence in. At the most basic level just being able to talk about it, because much of the first half of my life I wouldn’t have a conversation like this, not even with a close friend much less someone I just met. It’s not that it was shame exactly. But it would have been an extraordinary discomfort for me. It certainly has impacted my life. Has it impacted my counseling? No, I’ve got too many human flaws still. They keep intruding. In one respect I’m very much more open to conversations about spiritual selves with people, and I’m even inviting them. I’m at that place in my own professional belief system that I believe that all human problems have a spiritual nature, and that clients more often than not are more aware of it than the counselor is. It may not come out because of the reticence and uncertainty about where the counselor is. I think clients aren’t always sure that talking about spirituality is okay. Is this issue part of my belief or is it part of my problem? I think it is okay for a counselor to introduce the question without introducing personal preference. It’s like fishing. You bait the hook; you throw it out there, and if nothing nibbles than there’s no fish out there. Or else they don’t like your bait. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 105 Ann Carter “I learned some sense o f what was important and what wasn't; what you could leave behind. ” I was the middle o f three daughters in my family, and was bom just before the great crash in 1929. And we lived in a very small town in southern Oregon, east of the Cascades, so it was on the edge of the wilderness. It was very beautiful. I had a relatively happy and unremarkable childhood. I went to public schools there and was free to explore the world around me quite a bit. And I sometimes think about how cautious my children are with their children, about where they can go, and I went everywhere. The town I lived in was on the shore of a very large lake, and it was about 40 miles from high mountain areas where there were lots of lakes. Nature was very important to me as I was growing up. It was the only town for 60 miles in any direction. And so it was a sort of a hub of agricultural and lumbering industries. But it was 13,000 people or so, so it was a very small town and it's never gotten any larger. My mother was orphaned in her adolescence and she got a job teaching school when she graduated from high school. She was a couple of years younger than she should have been at that point, and she probably looked like she was about 12, so it was a very challenging experience for her. And after she had done it for a year or so she decided that she needed to get a teacher's education, so she went through a normal school, which is what they used to call them in those days. She said that she had just enough money to do that and have a secure occupation, or go to Reed College and get an education. So Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 106 education was very important to her, and she was very determined that her daughters were going to be educated. My father went to this town when he was about 9 years old in a covered wagon. It was in 1909 when he did this. His father, who was an extremely interesting man, I didn't know much about him until after my father died, but he felt as if he had finally found the place that he wanted to be and then he died 2 years later, which was unfortunate. So my father was very much devoted to helping take care of his little sister and doing errands for his mother, and doing the work of a man at that age. So he was a very care-taking and understanding person, and also very committed to relationships, which was probably unusual. So I think I grew up in a sort of unusual home for a girl, in that I had mostly female relatives and a father who was probably different for those times. He was drafted into the army just before the Armistice and so he never served in the First World War. He finally went back to this town and I think he went to Business College for a little while and then joined with his stepfather in a moving and storage business. So that's the context of my family's situation. Our town was pretty small, but it was a community that one could participate in. I always had this feeling like someday I wanted to see more of the world though, and in those days many o f the kids that I went to school with were the children of people in oil companies and they got transferred all the time. So one of my desires that I never spoke out loud was that my father would get transferred, but I knew he wouldn't because he was running his own business. I really wanted to go somewhere different, and then miraculously had the experience when I was in high school. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 107 I remember with some distinctness when I was about 6 or so that whenever there was any discussion about the future and any talk about college it was always very much up in the air whether it would be possible to do, because my father had saved money for that and then lost it in the bank crash, but there was always this kind of lure that I was going to do this somehow. The town where I grew up was not a very college-oriented community and mostly girls were the ones who went on to college, which is kind of interesting. My high school suggested that I apply for a scholarship; it was a consortium of women's colleges on the East Coast. The way it worked was you got a scholarship and then got assigned to one of these eastern colleges. I was talking to someone about this recently, that I had a sort of "what the hell" kind of attitude about this. I wasn't sure I really wanted to go so far away from home, but I had to try. I think because everyone thought that Oregon was a pretty exotic place to come from and would fulfill some kind of diversity needs, so I was awarded a scholarship. There was no choice at that point, because the opportunity was great and so I went. I went to Vassar College. If I was to think of one of the most formative things that happened to me in my childhood and adolescence it was probably that, because suddenly I got a chance to see the world and be exposed to a very intellectual environment. It was a great adventure, with many challenges and things that were very scary to me. I felt in a way it was almost like a finishing school for very wealthy people, which was certainly in error. Before I went I was scared, because I had to get on a train and go off into the unknown. I had never been east of Reno. So it was very strange initially, because I would Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 108 say the majority of people who were there had gone to prep schools, residential ones, and they simply had a different background educationally, things that I had never heard of, or didn't know about. They all were mysteriously connected during the first few weeks of college. I'd be in the middle of a group of people who were getting to know each other and their conversations were all about, "Do you know so-and-so in Baltimore?" "Do you know so-and-so in Boston?" and I didn't know anybody. So those things were scary. Vassar was much more demanding than my high school, so I was apprehensive a great deal about whether I would even make it there. And many times I felt that I shouldn't be there. But it was an incredible education, so I feel like my whole life was affected by the excellence o f the learning opportunities there. I just liked to write, so I took writing courses and I had taken a fiction-writing course, which was a disaster. I tried critical writing, and I think really what I learned was how to critique all kinds of things. Subsequently I took a course in temporary press, which was very influential for me, because it was basically looking below the surface of all the mass media that existed. It was about finding the real story underneath it, or some kind of critique of that. I realized belatedly that I had a really excellent education in critical thinking. Besides learning to think critically, the thing that affected me, and I didn't realize how much at the time, was my indecision about what I wanted to do. It was very hard for me to decide on what I wanted to do. I was very interested in music and played the piano and that was important to me, and I loved writing so I thought maybe I could combine these in sort of an interdisciplinary major. I had to meet with a woman who was in the Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 109 music department who said that she thought I might want to question whether I really wanted to study music. She had done that and she wrote an opera, and was I prepared to write an opera? And I said, I don't think that I can even think of things like that. It was at that point I decided that I would major in the thing that I was enjoying the most as far as coursework and that was psychology. It didn't really satisfy the interdisciplinary issues, but it shaped my life as far as my career. Eric Fromm bowled me over. His work was the most important thing I read and he was still alive then, and his ideas were amazing. I realized that he was certainly looking at psychological issues from a social critique position. What really turned me on was my introduction psychology course where they had a lab and we'd do these experiments and I thought, this is the most interesting thing I ever came across. So I liked that a lot. It was just exciting and fun, and self-evident in some kind of way that made it seem to me to be really easy to do. When I was a senior I was appointed I had an advisor appointed, because we had to do some kind of senior project. My advisor was new to the faculty; he actually was a man who later became somewhat famous because he was one o f the few people to use the First Amendment when he was accused of being a communist. He spent a year, and there was a Supreme Court case about him, but he challenged every idea that I ever had. My parents were not radically conservative, but certainly everything that I took as truth about the political world, he was there to challenge. It was a very close relationship, so I was transformed about that in terms of my own thinking about the world. He was in a position Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 110 of saying you can't think A, without that implying B which had never occurred to me. So that was interesting. My advisor and others in the psychology department encouraged me to go to graduate school and I ended up at the University of Michigan, as a graduate student. I had not really thought o f becoming a clinical psychologist, although I realized that I had always had interests my first occupational interest was to be a nurse. My father was in a hospital for some surgery for a few weeks and when he came home he said, "You may not be a nurse. I will not have you being a nurse." And I thought of being a doctor and my mother said, "That's no career for a woman." I liked to talk to people and I liked to figure out how they were put together. I think that I learned in all my traveling back and forth between Oregon and New York on the train that people were likely to want to tell me their stories. So it sort of fit, and so I ended up in the clinical psychology program at Michigan. That was going to be my career, which I didn't really practice for a while, because after I was in the program several years I got married to a fellow psychology student and we began having kids. I met my husband in the library and I thought he was cute. He was reading a book by David McClelland, and I think it must have been assigned in a course that we were both in and I said, "Could I borrow your book could I look at it?" And the rest was history. After the first year or so, I was the only person in my cohort of students who was a woman. And at the time, having been at a woman's college for 4 years, it was an enchanting situation. They made me their mascot, and I thought that was wonderful. It's disgraceful now when you think about it, but I had a very good time and I learned a lot. I Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. Ill often think about conversations I would be privy to over lunch with these guys, and they were talking so earnestly about their experiences. A lot of them were veterans returning from the war, so they were older, and some of them were married and talking about what the idea of their wives being pregnant meant to them. It was as if I wasn't there; they weren't talking to me about this. I think it gave me an appreciation for the earnest concerns of young men about all kinds of issues that I don't think I would have been very much aware of without that. Looking back on my life, I often think that I didn't really make very many choices. It was like things happened and then life took up from that point. I'm sure that at some level, one does come to a crossroads when you have to decide one way or the other, but it never felt that way to me. I guess the things that were most difficult that happened to me particularly in graduate school was the man I eventually married got a very bad case of polio it was the last year that anybody got polio. I was in an internship at a VA hospital which I had to commute to, and that year was very difficult. I wanted to be with him as much as I could in the hospital; he was in the hospital for about 6 months. I had a full load of classes and I was going to this hospital to learn how to be a clinical psychologist. I don't know what you learn from that, I guess I learned some sense of what was important and what wasn't; what you could leave behind when you got too busy. That was certainly a critical event for a long period of time, but it seemed less critical over time. The other important event has to do with my fourth child. We have five kids and our fourth child had a lot of trauma at birth. I think that we had kind of gone along, we Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 112 had bright kids; there was nothing to question on the valuation of achievement and intelligence, and doing well and all that stuff. In the middle of all this there’s this little kid who it appeared was not going to be able to be like the other kids were. I think about that as probably the most momentous sort of crisis, in the sense that we had to back off from our investment in achievement and in our children's achievement to protect him from feeling as if he didn't belong in the family. The way in which he altered my life I cannot tell you. It’s probably in ways that I don't even know; it altered the way that we raised our kids and the way we thought about a lot of things and what we expected of them, and what we didn't, both in relational terms and in their interaction with education. We were both either already Ph.D.’s or about to be, and we lived in a world where everybody valued academic achievement a great deal. The kids were smart and they did well in school, and we were proud o f them but this just changed the whole thing. You can't say that this is the only way to be a good person, and you don't want that to get communicated to anybody in the family at that point. So it had a very dramatic impact on our lives. It's very interesting to me now, he's in his 40s and academic work was difficult for him throughout, but he has a good life, he's self-supporting and lives independently. I think he's one of the nicest people I know and I think, how could I have ever imagined that somehow it would have been better to be as smart as the other kids were? Those things sound kind of trivial when you say them, but when your kids are little you're not necessarily wise with respect to how you think kids should be. I don't know that anybody can be a parent without at some point looking back and wishing to do some things over, but we had the opportunity at an earlier point. It just made us very different in many Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 113 respects. One of my husband's nephews was visiting us and his son is 18 and trying to decide among an array o f colleges and I thought; I cannot understand this conversation, would he go further in life if he went here or there? I have now very little sympathy for that. I think that I would say with hindsight that raising kids was wonderful. I like kids and it was a wonderful experience, and our kids are very nice adults and I like to be with them. I think this was the most important thing that happened in my life. I have to say this, which I think was of interest and this may be why I feel like I fell into things. My husband and I got married in the midst of graduate school, he was about to finish and I was not, I was about to begin thinking about my dissertation. The norms of the times were such that I figured; I probably won't do that, especially because we had a child pretty soon afterwards. After my husband finished his Ph.D. his first job was at Princeton, where there was no opportunity for me to work at the university because they had a nepotism rule and I had this 6-month-old child. I basically thought, forget it, I'm not going to get back to this. And I was quite happy about that, that was fine, I wanted to have lots of kids and that would be just okay. He wouldn't let me alone, he said, "You've got to finish, it won't be a great thing if you don't, and I'll do everything to support that." We went back to the University o f Michigan after being at Princeton for a year, so I was back in an environment where I could do this, but it was still kind of difficult. So every time my enthusiasm flagged he said, "You've got to do this." When I finished my dissertation, graduated and was offered a job and I said “I can't take a job now, I've got kids to raise.” My husband said, "Of course, you'll take this Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 114 job." The job was a half-time position and it worked out quite well. I think my ambitions would have been, at least at that point in time, satisfied if I had just enjoyed my five children and forgotten about all of this training and everything. But I'm very happy that it happened that way, because I didn't know what was good for me, I guess. In some sense, what I did in my head was to view this half-time job that I had as sort of the equivalent of my mother belonging to a bridge club or something. It was a way for me to get out of the house and be away for a while. And I think it took me a while before I really took it seriously as a career. It was a funny time. I was working in a clinic that was run by the university as a therapist and every year, because I think I had kids and because it was half time, the director said, "I don't know if we have enough budget money to hire you next year." I would go through this thing year after year of working with people in a long-term way and having to say to them every spring, "I don't know whether I'm going to be here next year." Now I realize that was a horrible thing that he was doing to me, but I felt at the time, that's what happens; I'm not supposed to be here anyway. I worked in this clinic for I don't know how long, and then I got pregnant somewhat unexpectedly with our fifth child. Actually, that's not the order. One day with four kids I came home and the woman who took care of the kids had (it was in June and it was very hot) permitted them all to go next door in the neighbor's pool and they all had mumps. My kids had mumps, and I was so horrified that I allowed this thing, which I perceived as potentially very dangerous to them, it wasn't, they were fine, but I thought, I can't do this anymore. I quit the job that I had then and decided that I would take a few years’ sabbatical or something, and then I Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 115 got pregnant with our fifth child and somebody pleaded with me to come back and help to teach people how to do some coding. And that very quickly escalated into another halftime job, which was at a counseling center run by the university for students. And it was much more acceptable to my interests by that time. The clinic had been very psychoanalytic and it was getting a little bit filled up with that as far as I saw I don't really like this way of thinking. The clinic was a good transition. It was a great place to work for many years and I felt a kind o f loyalty for being there. At some point in time, the directorship of the place changed and they brought in two people who were quite open about the fact that they were determined to get rid of all of the people who had worked there for many years. It was a horrible experience, because I had just gotten the service award from the University o f Michigan for having been employed there for 22 years. The man who was the previous director was a well-renown psychologist, a name in the field, and they managed somehow to make his life intolerable. They just closed him off from any kind of role in this place. Little by little everybody else, it wasn't a very large group, but there was some reason or another why they were no longer suitable. I tried to hide it because this guy would write performance reviews at the lowest rating and I said “I'm not going to sign this, because I've been in this situation for a long time.” He said, "This is a good review." At some point he decided that I could conceivably bring some kind o f suit. I don't think I ever would have, but he cut this deal with me. His way o f getting rid of me was going to be because my husband had a sabbatical and we were going to go to the East Coast, Cape Cod, actually for the year. I had asked early on about whether I could Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 116 have a leave of absence. And he said, "No problem." But then as things escalated and the tensions grew more and more horrible he said, "I never meant that to mean that you could come back." I just wanted a leave of absence. The director wasn't a clinical psychologist although he may have been in name. I don't know what he was, he was stupid and he was a bureaucrat and he no comprehension of people. He then finally, because I think he thought I was going to bring suit ,or whatever he thought, I don't really know, he said, "How about this, how about if I pay you like severance pay for the year you're on sabbatical?" I never asked for any money "and then you do not come back." At that point I was exhausted and really felt this wasn't going to be a place where I wanted to work anyway, so I did that. That's the moment at which Fielding came into my life. Libby Douvan had been a site visitor for the APA and she kept coming back from Santa Barbara saying, "This is the most wonderful place." I said, "What is the Fielding Institute?" She concocted this idea that they wanted to hire her after the whole accreditation was over, she said, "I think it would be great if we could go as a pair, because HOD is having a lot o f people who are in human services and that's your specialty." I would be on the other side of things and everything, and she somehow sold it to Don Bushnell. Anyway, I got involved in Fielding at that point. I had a private practice at that point after this job fell apart, and every time I had to go to work I was wishing I could stay home. The things that were very interesting to me were happening at Fielding. And I was traveling a lot, so I decided I would retire from my practice, and that took some time. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 117 I was originally hired to both psychology and the HOD program, so shortly after that I decided, I do not really believe in a lot of the stuff that's going on among therapists. I was particularly bothered by the over-concern about power and the therapist's power somehow was going to be threatened if somebody didn't do this or that, or came late, or whatever. These are trivial things, but it was a mindset about who's in charge here. It was offensive to me. A lot o f it was troublesome to me in a variety of ways, and I can't do this much work anyway. I decided that if I had to slice something off it would be psychology. So I really haven't been a psychologist for quite a while. Another thing that was going on at that time was right at the beginning of the whole child abuse hysteria, and I was in partnership with a woman who really bought it hook, line and sinker. We had arguments every day about that, not that I didn't think child abuse wasn't a bad thing, but I thought hysteria was a bad thing and it was not very good for people's lives. The idea of subjecting people who actually had been abused to basically disempowering them over a long period of time as they dredged up the trauma that they had experienced and were made to feel helpless again, I just thought this cannot be the way to do this. So, there were a lot of issues like that that came to the fore. It was a time too where I think family therapy was becoming very hot, and I thought that was an exciting idea then it again seemed to me to be a way to find somebody to blame for something. It just didn't fit with my mindset. Fielding was an eclectic place. I was trained in a place that you couldn't learn anything but psychoanalytic theory. I was in the beginning quite delighted to find myself in a place where people were open about all different modalities and interested in Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 118 pursuing them. But some of the same attitudes prevailed in the way that mirrored the kinds o f things that I was unhappy about in the field. I felt there was a kind of assumption that students, all of whom were quite experienced, had to go through various kinds of ordeals in order to be in the program. It was totally inappropriate as far as I was concerned in an adult education setting. In the meantime, APA accreditation ground out its course, the things they were doing to the program to make it satisfy APA all seemed to me to be making it almost impossible for anyone to ever finish. I retired from that program in 1995, and that's 7 years ago, and was much happier. I think along with that shift I had been affected by some of the things that were happening in HOD, which as a program was much more focused on social issues and community concerns. The kind of therapeutic current that ran through it was much more taking into account the outside world and that was much more compatible for me at that point and continues to be so. Every time we did an OPS or ACW you have to do the lifeline exercise and I would often describe myself as fallen away. It's sort of a funny rejection of one's career actually. I valued my career very much, but I couldn't keep on doing it. I have to say that accompanying this shift away from clinical psychology that I got much more interested in ideas and much more excited about the idea of how you communicate ideas to other people and help them learn, in the nature of being a teacher rather than a therapist. People don't teach at Fielding, but whatever we do it allows people to learn. I'm sitting in my office now and we had a very large bookcase in this office and we had to build another one because I've accumulated multitudes of books when at Fielding, and they were in some ways to help me be knowledgeable when I was writing responses to peoples' work Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 119 and advising them about dissertations. But it's a sort of record of the expanding nature of my interests as well. In thinking about wisdom, I think that you certainly would call some people wise people. There's a thing that I think I've struggled with in living always with people who are very smart, they're all very smart, but some of them have a kind of understanding of the world and relationships that exist there, and a kind of interest and curiosity about that, that makes them much more attractive to be with socially or as colleagues than a lot of the very smart people out there. I don't know what to call that. I've never really thought about calling it wisdom, but it is a much broader kind of perspective on the world. It’s an attempt to bring your ideas and your theories in alignment with that broader perspective. That's the closest I can get to it. I don't know whether I'm wise or not, you may be asking the wrong person. But I think that what really was wonderful and the thing that I enjoyed and miss very much about Fielding is that I have the opportunity all the time to encounter other peoples' thinking and appreciate it and learn from it. I am tasked to help them see how they might make it even better. You are able to talk with somebody who is interested in the same topic as you are, and you can give them ideas or something like that. I think that's a stretching sort of activity, because you get really excited about either what people have said, or what they were almost on the verge of saying that you might help them say. It all has to do in a way with the bouncing back and forth between real life and more abstract ideas. I recall something from my graduate school days when there were a lot of people who were proteges of McClelland at Michigan, and I got to know some o f them and I'd Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 120 get into discussions that they were developing very abstract theories about achievement and power motivation and all o f these things. I told them that when I talk to people in clinical settings it sounds like it's a little bit more complicated than that. I've realized the fact that if all of this doesn't have anything to do with real life it isn't worth anything. It doesn't have to have immediate relevance to real life, but ultimately it has to do something with developing a better understanding of how the world exists. At this point, I've had a few remnants of Fielding works that I have devoted some attention to. I'm going to participate as a journal editor, I was the editor of a previous journal and they asked me if I would be willing to be the editor for this one, so I'm going to do that. This is strictly professional stuff. We live now in the country on a lake, but we have 30 acres of land and we live beside a state park, which are mostly undeveloped woods. Being here and learning about what is here, which is an infinite stimulus, is very important to me. I think that when I was working it was what I tried to do when I didn't have too many papers on my desk. It's quite wonderful to be able to pursue that. I'm a collector of mushrooms and a gardener. I'm also reading for pleasure on a regular basis for the first time in a long time. My husband and I really enjoy talking with each other, so we have many trivial conversations and many very important ones about what we're reading, or thinking and about the world. So I feel as if there's a kind o f intellectual continuity. I have a research project that I started long ago and which I had partially written up, and every day I say today maybe I should work on that. I also have a novel that I've sort of fleshed out in 1970. I've got this handwritten manuscript and I think at least I Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 121 should put it on my computer. But it's very nice just to have life not so driven by external events. I don't know whether I'm going to get around to those things or not. The big thing is to decide once and for all that it doesn't really matter whether I do or not. I do feel, and this is something that I have not yet done that I think I probably will have to, because it does seem as if one should in some way contribute to the world, whether you're retired or not. And I don't mean necessarily in academic ways, but I think I do have some skills that might be useful and I could do some volunteer work or whatever, but I haven't done that yet. There are plenty of opportunities, and I don't think anybody should stick their head in the sand. But maybe spending some time just reflecting on things is okay too. I have to give myself permission for that. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 122 Andrew Lord “I tend to be a pragmatist. ” I ’m 72, so I have all sorts of memories about my family. I realized that I had very good parents. Well, I don't know if you believe it, they were—I never got beaten, or bad childhood treatment. My dad particularly spent a lot of time with me, I realize now, because I see some o f my friends doing the same thing with their kids. I don't have any family myself. But I think I had a very happy home life. I know I did. Yes, I realize that now. He was a very busy man, he had three careers, but I realize he took the time to be with me. I had very good parents. When I was 3 or 4 we lived on a lake and I had four siblings, I was the youngest. There were these little brooks that flowed into the lakes and my dad assigned each of us a brook to look after. Well, one day we were in a different part of the little town and he pointed out a ditch and said, “That’s your brook.” I was about 3 or 4 and I was sort of startled and thought what’s he talking about? There was a little bit of water flowing out from the lake, and this was just a roadside ditch. And I guess I realized then what topology is—that you can be in a different area and sort of reason out how to get over to here and just by reason figure out where your brook is. It was a very startling lesson. I wondered about it all these years, it’s kind of startling. I could actually feel my brain working, trying to figure out what he meant by this. How can this ditch have to do with a lake and water flowing out? Then I thought, oh maybe it could be above it in some way. I know it was a very formative experience. Up until then everything was just lots of Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 123 scenes. In this case two very separate scenes connected themselves, the lake and my brook. This was in New York State, a place called Aurora, near Wells College. One trait I developed back then was daydreaming. I used to sit with my back against a tree and look out at the lake all the time, sort of a solitary activity I think instead of vigorously running around all the time, I think I've always been that way, kind of a day dreamer. Dad was teaching at Wells College at that time. He was an English professor. Later on he became a well known poet. I also used to daydream in my father’s study when he wasn't there. I would sit in one of his leather chairs; I've always liked leather chairs. My Dad was very supportive of me. I started writing poetry and very early on I was interested in science, and he was very supportive. He bought me a large one-volume encyclopedia, and another time he bought me a telescope. He sort of nurtured my interest in science. He was a good father. My Dad came from Brunswick Maine, and we went to Bowdoin College. He won a Rhodes scholarship to Oxford and went on to Princeton. After that he went on to teaching, but he always wanted to come back to his poetry, which he did. In fact, it was right after that that he got the call from Bowdoin. In Brunswick we had a farm, a gentleman’s saltwater farm. I used to walk out at low tide to go out to the mud flats and daydream there too. I remember walking back from the flats and running into a young deer. We stared at each other for a long time; I was only vaguely aware o f wild animals then, and I think the deer was too young to realize how dangerous humans are. So we stared at each other for a long time, it was a very moving experience. Again, I thought about it and I realize that the deer didn't know Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 124 that humans were dangerous, so we just stood there looking at each other. I have another memory about the farm of walking across a field, I was very young, only about 6 or 7, and I thought I saw a bobcat that was going to step right in my path, we were real close to each other, and I said to myself that's an awfully big cat. In fact, I'd never seen a cat that big. We were about 10 feet away and it hissed at me to make me stop, it wanted to go straight ahead and it didn't want to be bothered with this human. It knew the human was harmless enough to scare off, so the hiss was very loud, so I stopped and ran. I have three siblings. The two girls, my sisters were very artistic. My brother is kind of an outgoing type. I admired him because he had lots of girls, and drove cars and all these things. He later turned out to be an academic, a headmaster. He was kind of a hero in World War II. He was a naval aviator and in the second phase of the war he had attacked Taiwan, Japan and so on, so he was kind of a hero. My mother was kind of distant, a pleasant person, but sort of distant, that's just my point of view anyway. My mom was kind of in the background; don't forget this was a long time ago before feminism. My father was very gregarious, and he loved company. He loved food, he loved to cook and stuff, he was different in that way. I grew up in a neighborhood that was very mixed. My town was more than half French-Canadian; this was in Brunswick. Half my gang was French-Canadian and half the time you heard French spoken. You didn't think it was strange at all; it was a part of life. The French kids went to parochial schools and it was all in French. My dad was well off being a college professor, but the kids right next door were real poor. They were so poor they didn't have a car; they had a horse and buggy. They didn’t have a father either. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 125 Their mother was a single woman, so they didn't have much money at all. Anyway, I got in trouble with those kids. I did get over it though. I think growing up with those kids in that town was important. In a way I was a part of two worlds, one well off and one poor. My Dad was from Brunswick; he was the only male in his family who went to college. The rest of them became fisherman and clam diggers I had the experience like going from a local high school to an elite academy, of living in a town that was middleclass in a situation where my relatives were blue-collar class. It used to bother me because as a faculty kid, I should have had some standing, but I didn’t. Other kids just seemed to be all middle class. But anyone who knew me knew that I had poor relatives, which bothered me as a kid, but I think it was a healthy experience. I was a Yankee in a town that was mostly French Canadian, it was two-thirds French-Canadian, so I was a minority. I was kind o f a joker always making fun of things. I would seek out the humor in situations. I think I know where it was from. When I was 14 or 15,1 had a pal and his mother was a very pleasant, upper-class woman. She had adopted two boys and one was my age, and he sort of imitated me. She also adopted an older child, who was always joking, and I think I imitated him. She would invite the minister of the congregational church who was friends with widows, and professors and such, this older boy she had, 3 or 4 years older than I was, he would say to the minister, “Hey, I saw you steal that drumstick from the turkey!” That guy was a big influence on me because I would imitate him to look for the ridiculousness in a situation, and sometimes going too far and being irritating. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 126 Adolescence was kind of unpleasant for me. You know, oncoming sexuality the early years. In fact, I somewhat acted-up with shoplifting, vandalism and the like. I would steal minor things. I haven't the slightest idea what I was acting out. I think I was in some ways a terrible kid. I went to Fryeburg Academy, which was a high school for the area and a private school for out o f towners. It was a mixture of kids. I had a pretty good time there and I sort of started dating. I think I got over that sort of bad period then. I didn't study very hard then, although I can remember one professor in geography class. He was talking about something called parallel lines. I can remember looking at the illustration in the book and I thought gee, that really makes sense these people are trying to teach me something. After a year or so at Fryeburg, I moved to a very fancy boarding school in Connecticut. I went because my dad knew the headmaster and it was a good opportunity for me. I suddenly went from this kind of backwoods Maine high school to a school for very wealthy American kids. It was the first time I met kids from Pennsylvania, New Jersey, Hawaii, all over. There were a lot of foreign students. There were Dupont’s there, and Igor Sikorsky’s son; his son and I were pals. It was then that I started to work academically; I realized that school meant something. I kind o f realized that this was where I was headed in the future. Prior to that, I had no idea of the future at all, just hellraising, dating and stuff. This was an all-boys school and I realized that this is what life was all about, going on to college, it's all business. The teachers were better there and we had a dress code. I think that part of our schooling was supposed to prepare us for middle-class and upper-class life. I was with wealthy kids and I was an anomaly because Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 127 I was from Maine. They'd say how come you're not wearing a checkered shirt and boots? They were joking, but I was kind of like an outsider. I made good friends at the boarding school, but I was an anomaly because I came from Maine. Here I was from Maine, no one ever comes from Maine, you would summer there. I went to an elite school, but I wasn't elite. I think both schools had a tremendous influence in my life because I saw two different sides of society, like I did in back in Brunswick. After the 2 years in prep school, I came back to Brunswick and went to Bowdoin. My dad was teaching there then and I thought Bowdoin was somewhat overrated, but I went anyway. What happened to me was I kind of reverted. I joined this fraternity, not as bad as Animal House, but it was pretty bad, just drinking and carrying on. I lost that advantage that the fancy boarding school gave me. I went to graduate school after that, and I was really at loose ends. The Korean War came along and I kind of realized I was floundering. I wasn't doing well in graduate school. I really didn't know what I was going to do. I went to Harvard, but I got kicked out because my grades weren't good. So I was really at loose ends. It was at the start of the Korean War and I decided to volunteer rather than get drafted. If you volunteered to go, it only cost you 3 years. You could also go to the Draft Board and say, “I want to be drafted,” and they'd move your name at the head of the card file. If you did that, you only had to go for 2 years, so I did that and got drafted. I waited around to get drafted, they told me it was going to be a matter of weeks, this was in May. I didn't get drafted Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 128 until October. So I had this kind of vacation where I lived in a cabin in Harpswell with some cousins. In the Army I got sent to Germany. By that time, it wasn't a cold war, by then it had become pretty warm. I found out that if you were accepted by a college you could get out of the army a little early, the army would let you go. I wasn't serious about anything and I didn’t know what I was going to do. Living down south, in North Carolina sounded good to me so I applied got accepted at the University of North Carolina, so they ushered me out of the army a month or two short of my time. Going into the army I think was a very intelligent thing, because I kind o f realized that fooling around, both at Bowdoin and at graduate school, where I didn't apply myself vigorously, would not get me far. The idea in the back of my head was that the army is a grown up experience. Yes, that certainly was a hard decision; it was a very good one though. After leaving the Army, I just drifted along on the GI Bill, which was very enticing, because as long as you got accepted they would pay for any place you wanted to go. I took advantage o f the GI Bill to go back to graduate school. I also chased two or three women around down there. I hung out with a group of southerners that I just kind of fell in with. I was a Yankee in rebel land; they couldn’t help but make jokes about it. I had a southern girlfriend, an aristocratic southerner at that. They treated me fine, but they would make jokes. I’m not a forward person, I don't rush out and do things; I like to wait and see before I act. When I was in the army coming to the end o f those 2 years, I think I just took the easiest path to continue going to school; because it was available and it was a good thing to do. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 129 At Carolina there was a visiting scholar from England who was an Anglo-Saxon professor. By this time I was going for a Ph.D. I had gotten my MA from Harvard, but I hadn't made any big plans around my dissertation. There was a long Anglo Saxon poem called Beowulf and we had to learn Anglo-Saxon to read it. I suddenly realized I knew something about that poem; I could see it right in the poem, and that later became my Ph.D. Dissertation. I didn't do it there though; I did it in Boston at Boston University. While I was at Carolina, I met this friend of my sister’s who asked me what I was going to use all this education for. She suggested I try teaching so I headed east and that’s how I got this job at Curry College. I haven’t had to make too many big decisions, but it ended up being a big decision because it moved me from North Carolina to Boston. I didn't consciously make the decision; well, I thought, yes, I ought to try out college teaching to see if I liked it. Even if I disliked teaching I could still get my Ph.D. in music or something else, I could do something else. The one thing the GI Bill did was it gave you time to think about things, actually in my case maturing. In that way, I know I consciously decided to continue school until I decided what to do. Because I realized that more and more schooling is always good. I decided to keep my momentum towards a Ph.D. so I began taking classes at Boston University and I decided to do my Ph.D. there. I got my Ph.D. at Boston University and had a job teaching at Tufts for 2 years. When I got to Boston University, they gathered all the new graduate students together. But this time it was at a Ph.D. level, and being in Boston I got to know some of them. But what would happen is they would go off and teach and sometimes they would not come back. At that time, college teachers were in short supply, so there was a lot of Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 130 demand for college teachers. One thing I realized was that people were giving up. They said they were just going to take 2 years off to make money and come back, but they didn't. For all those who started to get their Ph.D., not many finished. So I did make a conscious decision I've got this GI Bill, I'm not going to go off and teach anymore until I have my Ph.D. I had already taught at Curry, and I was teaching part-time at BU. I decided that I was going to stay with this thing until I got it, because I saw other people were making this mistake of going off and never coming back. That was an important decision. I guess I'm sort of pragmatic that is I see what happens to other people, and learn from them. When I was at BU, I spent 2 years in Southeast Asia in Laos. I had a small grant to study Pung dialect. Laos has about 30 different groups all mixed together and from the village I was at I could see the two neighboring villages and they had a whole different ethnic group entirely. That was quite an experience. I got dysentery there and became very thin; I used to be kind of fat and I lost 80 pounds within about 3 weeks. It was quite an experience. I guess I've added some, but nothing like I used to be, I was kind of chubby then, it’s a great diet plan, but you get weird dreams though, and you’re always sitting on the toilet. It’s strange, but I knew the minute I was going to get it. Once we were going down the Mekong River, and that was the best way to move, going down the river, so I got a ride with a police chief in an outboard motor boat. We had about a 3 hour trip and he handed me a rice ball, he had a little package of stuff there in a wrapper. I was always careful about food in those parts, but you had to get to know someone based on mutually courtesy like that; it was very strong in those parts. I knew that I should take it Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 131 because he offered it to me and I thought “I’m okay, because rice is cooked.” I bit into it and I could feel the crunch of raw vegetables. I could have spit it out, but I couldn't. In a social situation, that's a terrible thing to do, and with a police chief, you might end up in jail, so I didn't. And that's how I got dysentery. He did me a favor in a sense, actually. I had a nice experience in Laos; I was working with a fellow. He was an older man, I was about 30, this was in 1960/61, and he was in his 60s at the time. He'd go to some American do-good organizations and he'd wrangle medicines that were out of date, he’d get a whole batch of them. Then he would go set up a clinic. He had been a sheriff in Los Angeles and I didn’t have any medical training. There were no doctors at all, no nurses, nothing. These people had sores, they'd cut themselves and get infected, and there was endemic malaria, baby’s sniffling all the time. We would get long lines at the clinic and they didn't have the slightest idea of what he was up to, but he would get Vicks Vapor Rub, it was like a jelly, women would bring in these babies with awful sniffles and he'd feed it to them. I said is that baby going to die from that? We did end up helping these people though and it was a wonderful experience. Even though we didn't know very much, we knew a lot more about health than these people. We knew that you ought to wash out a gash and stuff and it was a lot better than doing nothing. They were very traditional people. I remember a little stream running through a village, and the villagers were very careful. They'd take the water from the top of the gorge and do their washing downstream. But they never thought about the 10 or 15 villages upstream from them they were doing the same thing. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 132 I remember there was a guy, a Filipino, what he did, he got some outfit to fund him, he was a doctor and he had a hospital boat sort of, or a clinic boat. He had this boat and he had three of the prettiest nurses, but the same thing, he went around treating people. We would indirectly help people, because we all knew about the same amount. I would tell people anytime they had a scrape to just wash it off and try to clean it out with at least boiled water, it was very elementary. The Laotians are very nice people. I was there a little more than a year. Because of my research, I had lots of opportunities to teach. I sort of followed in the footsteps of my father who was an English teacher. I decided to return to Maine and I negotiated a job at Orono, the University o f Maine home campus. I also heard that they were creating another campus called the University of Southern Maine in Portland, so after a year at Orono I decided to go there. They really wanted to staff this university, in Southern Maine here in Portland, so I moved down here and spent the rest of my teaching career there. The University of Maine in Portland is kind of like a subway college, and a lot of students work in the afternoons. Its funny, I can remember getting angry with a pal of mine in the army who used to tell me to me “I know what you're going to be,” I said “What?” And he said, “You're going to be a wooly professor at some half-ass university.” And that's exactly what it was when it first started, half-assed. Before the University o f Maine acquired it, the Portland campus was a junior college and they used people from junior college as teachers. It was an odd collection of people that started it off. Instead of having all Ph.D.'s, they had all sorts of people. One of the teachers was Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 133 some guy who was a manager of a local clothing store, a sort of businessperson/teacher. It was a hodgepodge. It was just what that guy in the army said. It's got a very good reputation now and it’s got good faculty now. I never did publish much at Southern Maine because they weren't too anxious to get people published, they didn't insist on it. So I got tenure without having to publish much at all. I published a few things and within a few years the whole atmosphere had changed, because there were suddenly too many people with Ph.D.'s, and the university was getting better and better. They became more intent on scholarship Soon after I started at the University of Southern Maine they merged our group, which was a unit o f the University of Maine, and teachers' college, at Gorham. Our English department was merged with their English department and it got to be a terrible power struggle. I didn't realize how awful it was, it took all the joy out of teaching, it was terrible because every staff meeting you went to there was always a power straggle. The staff from Gorham had identical feelings; some got other jobs elsewhere, some moved into non-teaching jobs. It was just a bad experience. It was probably good for the students because they had a much larger English department. I tried to ride it out and enjoy the teaching, which I really did enjoy the first few years. After that, it became just a job and it was that way until I retired. I started maybe in the early '70s, and it just went on for years, just kept going. One side would try to take over the chairmanship and fire the other side. Then there was the chairman who had a fistfight. Well, that was the general atmosphere. I used to think it was like the Russian Polit bureau. Every meeting your stomach would chum. There were years and years of that, and there was such paranoia. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 134 For some reason, I used to want to teach out at Gorham more than Portland because the students were somewhat more collegiate than in Portland. It was a very attractive campus, and I got really friendly with someone who was on the opposite side, in the biology department and he would tell how badly he was treated by the Portland biology department. I hadn't thought about retirement, so I ran over a couple of years after 65.1 had a heart attack and retired after that. I figured that if I waited long enough, it would become clear what I should do, and it did. I had a big revelation during the 60s. I use to hate administrators, because as a teacher you see how self-serving the administrators can be. So I really enjoyed all that trouble on campus in the 60s. At that time, the university faculty doubled, but the administration grew by 800%, administrators hiring secretaries, it corrupted the whole system. The 60s didn’t cure it, but it sure shook them up. It was also an awakening. I’m very pragmatic, I don't have many high ideals, and I didn't think much about politics at that time, but I was a product of what's called the silent generation, the 50s; no one protested anything. I suddenly realized, the whole 60s/70s thing, what a revelation that was. There were a lot of traditional ways you could think of things, and they were wrong. I knew Blacks were being lynched in the South, I knew it and I didn’t like it. The Civil Rights thing sort of woke you up. It was the same thing for Women’s Rights. I knew for years that women didn’t have the advantages of men but the women’s movement woke you up. I remember the students then, and they didn't respect the professors, but they treated you like an equal. My colleagues were mostly upset but I thought it was a pretty Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 135 good idea. I saw how terrified the administration was and realized that they were sort of paper tigers. As far as Vietnam, I was always a cold warrior because I had been in the army in Germany. The Russians could have captured Germany in about 4 days, and they were organized. The Warsaw Pact was obviously ready to invade Western Europe. In Laos, the atrocities you heard about that happened over in China, they were the same people that we were with - 1 wasn't anti-war, I couldn't make up my mind, but I wasn't against the war. I had a very interesting experience then with some students. In the 60s there were so many wild things going on and I was sitting in the cafeteria at the University of Southern Maine and it was Friday afternoon. Some kids came in and said; “You want to go see a holy man?” I said “Sure” that's the way things were in those days. The kids knew I had a car, so we all piled in my car and I said, “Where is the holy man?” And they said, “He's in Meredith, New Hampshire at Salem State College,” which was a hell of a ways. We finally got there and there was this holy man and they told me that he was a Harvard Professor. So we drove up and there was a mass of people, young students, and we found a place where he was. It was so crowded we had to stand outside and look in at him. I didn't think he looked like a holy man at all. I was looking at this guy, his name was Ram Dass, and he was sitting on a rock, and he had Hindu clothes on and incense burning around him and he was chanting a mantra. I was a college professor myself, and I was mad at the students and myself for getting me into this. Here I was and there was this guy, Ram Dass, who had flowers in his hair, and me having to stand, hungry and tired. This was about 7:00 or 8:00 o'clock and I hadn't eaten since. So I looked around the hall Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 136 for people to hate I said to myself, look at that guy, who does he think he is? Ram Dass was sitting in a Hindu position and he would chant, then he would give little talks. He had bells on his feet that he rang once in a while. O f course we university professors wore suit coats and here he was in these flowing robes. After awhile you would listen to him and boy, what a powerful affect he had. I ended up enthralled. It was a real message of love. He had a book called “Re Here N ow” and he really turned me on. His message was around friendship, love and affection. But he taught it very well. He had this poster with a huge ice cream cone with rays of light shooting from it and the point was, let's eat an ice cream, won't that be fun? Then, after you eat the ice cream you think, maybe we’ll eat another ice cream cone and it never ends. In my case, I think I was always thinking that if I achieved such-and-such I would be happy, and I wasn’t. I used to think that once I get my Ph.D., all this worry and fussing will be done. So when I did get it, I had a slight depression. It was like a fog and it lasted 6 hours. It was kind of like you passed the exam, and I said, at this point in my life I should be happy. But I was happy for about 6 hours and by mid-afternoon I was right back in the same depressed state. We have a high demand civilization. People are expected to achieve great things. I think that makes a very successful culture but it produces people who are almost always in sort of a funk, a need to always be at work or someplace else. But as you get older, you realize that it doesn’t matter. Ram Daas taught me about that big ice cream cone, that if you keep looking at something in the future that's going to make you happy, you’re never going to be happy. “Be Here Now ” was the name of his book; it talked about the idea that the only happiness was in the present. He had this one story he told, there was a holy man and he Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 137 had a young disciple. The disciple had a chicken. He told the young disciple to go and kill this chicken where no one could see. But the disciple came back and told the holy man that the chicken could see, so he could not kill it. Anyway, the New York intellectuals picked him up; they said he was wonderful. Then he got mixed up years after with some woman. This woman and Ram Daas taught a course on celibacy and they got a whole bunch o f people to be celibate, a commune type of thing. Someone found out that Ram Daas was sneaking to her bedroom at night and he lost all of his followers, but I think I showed wisdom by saying so what? Any wisdom I have, I think he put it together for me. I had another very moving experience. You know the ramp going up to the Tobin Bridge? I was going up there at rush hour one day and I ran out of gas. At that point I just thought how stupid I was, and then I heard a horn honking at me. It was a purple Volkswagen bus and this guy got out dressed like Robin Hood. He had a green cap, a big long bow swung over his shoulder and a gas can. He walked up to my car and began pouring the gas in. I was so terrified I didn't want to get out of the car. At this point, other people were honking and yelling. He put that gas in there, so I took some money out and he said, “Never mind,” and went back. That's when I really realized what the '60s was about, what a thing to do for somebody. That's the way people should be all the time. It was a wonderful experience. There's a better way of human relations I believe. Most people think, I’m glad it wasn’t me, and speed up, but the better way is to slow down and give a guy some gas. It was a very moving experience. I tell my friends I hope to live long enough to see it cycle back, back to the '60s. People were genuinely nice to each Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 138 other, for no reason at all. It didn’t matter whether you were rich or poor. When you'd go into a bunch of students, you were accepted, they accepted each other and they didn’t worry about what a person was like. Also, as a college professor people sometimes cow towed to you. So when they stop cow towing to you, to give a better grade or something, it's a wonderful feeling; it’s good to get rid of that ego thing. It’s nice to be with a group of people who are not feeding off of egos. The most powerful experiences of my life were in the '60s. So to see big institutions like universities that people had respect for sort of collapse, and see something based on kindness and equality, it’s very radical, and more like the Founding Fathers. During the time I was at USM, I was in that marriage that wasn’t so hot. I didn't like being married. I'm not sure if the trouble with Gorham and Portland started at that point or not, but I was a generally unhappy person. I got married, kind of reluctantly, and after 7 years we had a friendly divorce. I didn't like the idea of marriage. We're still friends. She either realized my attitude or had one herself. I got married without really every talking about children, and I’ve always wanted some. It turned out that she didn’t want them at all, and I realized that she would not make a good mother. That was something I regretted, but those regrets kind of evaporated. I have lots of friends with kids. I’ve had the fun of watching them go off to college and unlike their parents, not worrying about them, although I once lent a friend’s daughter my car because she and her roommate had an old heap. I was thinking that they would wreck my car and I would lose my insurance. But when they got back I was extremely happy because I realized I made them happy. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 139 I think that this is the happiest period in my life. For one thing, I realize that old friendships and love are much more important than most anything. In terms of money, I’m very fortunate financially. There's something that I’m very aware of, that I’ve been very lucky in life, I never have worked very hard. It a secret, but college teaching is not very hard at all. As far as the hours or demands, it’s quite easy. But do you get smarter or wiser as you get older? I tend to be a pragmatist, and I never understood what the philosophy was at all. I guess enjoying life. I have been very lucky. I think it’s my easy-going personality. I got this place where I live from a wealthy widow next door, we used to date. She is from Guatemala and years ago I took her out when we were teenagers. Then she showed up with a grown family and wanted my help with placing her daughter and son in college. We had this arrangement where we bought two cottages; they were on the market for a long time and we wanted a summer place to come and see the kids. I was able to help her do this being an American citizen. I really don’t worry about money or where I’ll live, because I’ve had this sort of luck. The GI Bill, for example, paid for my Ph.D. The wisdom I have is that I can always wrangle something like this. Luckily, college teachers have or had a very good retirement, so I make more retired than I did when I was working. Because I've been so lucky all my life, I think I had an advantage about making good, wise choices. A friend of mine had five kids and he was trying to keep two wrecks of cars going, and finally the transmission went in one, so I bought him a new transmission. I guess the only wisdom I have is I'm okay financially; I'm willing to give people money; maybe a couple thousand or something like that. I can see for them that that's an awful lot Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 140 of money if they have a big family. It’s just an opportunity for me to share things. I had a very interesting experience that relates to this once. When I was a kid about 9 or 10 years old, it was the tail end o f the Depression, about '39 and I was in this gang that had these two poor kids next door, and three FrenchCanadian kids, middle-class kids. At that time, having a dime or a quarter was quite something. Well, one day I was walking along and I saw this money on the ground. We always played outside all the time and I really looked up and down the street to make sure none of my gang would see me, so I grabbed all this money and thought; the hell with those guys. I was really sneaky, and I headed for a store, but not the one in our neighborhood. Every neighborhood had a store then, and I went to one where I knew my pals wouldn't see me and I bought all this candy, stuff I'd looked at for years and couldn't buy because it was 15 or 20 cents. I bought all this stuff, then went out and started eating it. I didn't go back to my neighborhood, I headed out somewhere else. I felt awful about it, that I didn't share this stuff. That was a very deep experience. Maybe it’s the reason I don’t worry about money now. I felt awful that I hadn't shared this with anybody. I think it was a very powerful experience. I can still see that money on the ground, looking up and down; making sure that my buddies didn't see me. That was a very powerful experience for me. I couldn't enjoy the candy at all. All these goodies that I could never buy before were like ashes in my mouth. I think it's a type of wisdom, that I can't enjoy things by myself if I can't share them. I've been always uneasy that I've had more money than other folks. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 141 I’ve got another take on wisdom, that you can often see all the faults of your friends, but you know you can’t change them so it's kind of a wisdom when you don't make fun of, or you don't get angry at your friends for what you think are foolish things. That’s in part being aware that you are getting crankier, and to compensate for that you consciously avoid correcting your friends again, it’s very pragmatic and not overly philosophical. I drive slower as I get older because I’m not a good driver; I get crankier as I get older too. I’m in my 70s now, so I try to avoid criticizing or getting mad at people. Yes, wisdom is adjusting to the process of old age, things that happen. This is the best part o f my life, being retired, but also I’ve got lots of friends and I really enjoy being with them. I’m scared of dying, but less and less so now. I was terrified when about three months ago I had a prostrate cancer check. The doctor's office called and said, “You’ve got to come in and talk to the doctor,” and I thought I had prostate cancer; I was terrified, but it turned out to be okay. You have fears, you know you're going to die, but for some reason it gets less and less terrifying as time goes by. I don't know why. I found out a lot about myself, just going over this stuff. As you write this up you'll probably have a better profile of me than I do. It will be interesting to look at it. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 142 Findings In interviewing these individuals, I was struck by their ability and comfort level around reminiscing and constructing a coherent life story, as well as the extent to which world events like the Great Depression or W W II had on the development and perceptions of this cohort of participants. Each participant had read the list of questions sent out in advance as well as the overall purpose of the research and was interested in the process as well as what might come of it. My list of questions and probes around life transitions, and wisdom were useful in guiding each individual, but once they achieved a level of comfort with me as an interviewer/researcher each person’s story took its own course. As previously stated, I believe that most adults exhibit an “ordinary wisdom” at some time in their lives just by the nature of their life experiences, providing they have the cognitive capacity to learn and grow from them. That said, research also shows that those whose lives put them in daily contact with situations and people who are looking for advice in the difficult and important aspects of life, build more competence in practicing wisdom than those whose lives do not (Baltes et al., 1995; Staudinger et al., 1998). More specifically, research has shown that counselors, psychologists and others in the helping professions perform better than controls on measures of wisdom. In this study, I was able to select a group of retired counselors and psychologists who were also professors as well as noted scholars. Using the available wisdom research literature and theory to select participants allowed me to focus on how wisdom may be developed and experienced as opposed to measuring wisdom-related knowledge. My primary task in this Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 143 research was to review the individual life experience of these wise people to achieve a fuller understanding of the development of wisdom. I feel that it is important to uncover more complex themes or aspects of the phenomenon that are often lacking in more quantitative approaches. To achieve this I set out to look for patterns and themes that naturally emerged from each participant’s own story, to see how or if current wisdom theories helped illuminate the development of wisdom within each participant’s life. To understand the development of wisdom, I felt it important to gain insight into how these individuals negotiated success and failure, and how they integrated these learnings’ into their lives, as well as the impact this had in their life’s journey toward wisdom thus far. I wanted to employ a methodology that allowed each participant to tell his or her life story in their own words. This way, I felt that I could not only review the chronology of life events, but the meaning that each participant ascribed to these events. Interview questions were designed to draw out events and experiences from all stages of life: memories from childhood, adolescents as well as draw data from participants relevant to revealing the development of wisdom. Developmental life themes were drawn from each participant’s transcription. Interviews were transcribed for “clarity, completeness, and conciseness” (Atkinson, 1998, p. 54). Using current research on wisdom outlined previously, each participant’s story was segmented into life themes. As Atkinson described, applying theory to explain or describe parts of a life story involve movement between the parts and the whole to discover meaning that helps to describe the whole (Atkinson, 1998). Current Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 144 wisdom theory was then overlaid onto each life story, to look for possible examples of these theories in the experiences o f the participants’ life, or to best explain life themes. While I did construct the research questions so that they would aid in drawing out life experience helpful in researching wisdom, I tried as much as possible to approach participant’s stories as they were, letting the stories suggest a theoretical explanation rather than using the stories to prove the existence or superiority of one theory over another. In analyzing these life stories, several important developmental themes emerged: gaining wisdom through hardship and challenge, the impact of place in development (as defined by history and physical location), and the importance of openness to experience (i.e., chance or serendipity), to the development of wisdom. I found these developmental themes common among these participants (not necessarily the specific experience). These themes suggested the importance of several influential theories underlying the development of wisdom, such as, Erikson’s life stage theory, Labouvie-Vief s theory of the balance between cognition and affect, as well as Baltes’s balance theory of wisdom. However, the life stories told by these individuals suggest a complex interplay of internal perceptions, proclivities and external events that were beyond the development of technical expertise/knowledge suggested by current influential wisdom theory. It is to these developmentally important life events, and their relation to the development of wisdom that I now turn. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 145 Gaining Wisdom Through Hardship and Challenge In developing wisdom, hardship is often seen as a point of growth, rather than a reason to retreat or become bitter about life. Many people suffer hardship and setback in life; the difference seems to be those who become bitter and withdrawn as opposed to those who integrate hardship into a more resilient cognitive/emotional framework. This resilience is an important component in the development of wisdom. However, this does not mean that those who demonstrate resilience never experience setbacks or periods of withdrawal, it suggests that in the long run, these individuals are able to integrate hardship into their lives in a way that enhances growth. As previously stated, wisdom is in part a social phenomenon in several important ways. First, for wisdom to exist, it has to be witnessed and judged publicly. Second, the development of wisdom is shaped by history-important events and changes in the socialcultural milieu. It was remarkable to witness the power that several major historical events had on participants’ lives in this study. As in Elder’s research (1974, 1981), all of the people in this study belonged to a cohort who grew up or were greatly impacted by two events in history—the Great Depression and World War H. For Ben McCord and William Tate, these events were and are a powerful influence in how they think and make sense of their lives. As an example, Ben McCord talks about the effect rationing during the depression had on his life: “Of the things that have had a great impact on my life, I would say that the depression and the war had a marked effect. If I ’m writing a manuscript, I still write small to save paper. You save things, you save them for survival” Similarly, William Tate talks of the effect the war and the depression had on his Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 146 psyche: “Being in Appalachia, our town never had good times, but during the depression it had really bad times . . . I was very shaken by the war. Just the consciousness, it invaded everyone’s consciousness.” For Ben McCord, World War II and the depression arrived as he entered early adulthood, a formative time in a young man’s life. His experience in the Canadian Armed forces during the Second World War came at a time and stage in his life that seemed especially formative for him, where he was open to the difficult lessons that a close proximity to such a war would bring. Specifically, this experience was related to his connection to the fighter pilots of the Canadian Air force. He experienced the courage and skill of these young fighter pilots and his relationship with them had a direct impact in his career: Toward the end of my Air Force stint, we had all of these war hero pilots, who came back with lots of ribbons. When they came out, they would go back to being whatever they were before and we had to do something to sort of get them adjusted to civilian life. They were on average about 10 years older than most soldiers and had shot down many planes. They were at the top of their game but were having a rugged time. Somebody in charge must have heard that I was able to get along with these guys. I always got along with people, whether my students were in Grade 1 or in the Air Force. The boss man somewhere along the line said, “Hey, we’re working on this program to get these folks into society again, would you like to be a part of it?” and I said “Sure.” So that was the way I ended up working in that area. I read Carl Rogers “Nondirective Counseling" and thought that there might be something to this. The war also had a profound impact on other important parts of Ben’s life experience; his relation with his mentor Gibo, his decision to move from teaching to counseling psychology and finally into academia with the GI Bill. Also, it was the war that brought Ben and his first wife together. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 147 Another example of Ben’s ability to reflect upon and integrate hardship and difficulty was outside of the war or the depression. Doug experienced two failed marriages during his life. His first wife left him without warning after 29 years of marriage. Ben was devastated at first and even contemplated suicide. In fact, this part of his life is still difficult for Ben. However, upon reflection, he is able to gain a perspective on this difficult time in his life and move on better for it. In reflecting on his divorce, he states If you are going to be a person you have to be open to everything. This means that some cherished things that you thought were reality are not, and you have to accept it. They’re not reality, you’ve made them up. Later he attributes his ability to learn from this difficulty and a latter divorce as a basis for wisdom: I think my two divorces make me wiser if you will and hopefully better as a human being. These things tend to make you more accepting, and I don’t mean in a passive way, but in an inward way. I think if you are wise you are at peace with yourself. On the whole, I think you’re not consumed with anger or guilt. For William (Bill) Tate, the war and the depression were also formative. Bill was younger than Ben when the war and the depression came to his town in Appalachia. As he describes them, memories of these events take on a more sensory quality, people coming to his parents’ back door to ask for food, flags hung in windows, the troop trains: I was a junior warden, which meant that I had an armband and a flashlight; supposedly I was on the lookout. We would have drills looking for enemies, or course the only enemies that ever came as far inland as West Virginia were the troop trains, German troops, prisoner o f war trains. I can Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 148 remember the scrap paper drives, and how that was the competition all over school. How much paper would you get? The rationing. My mother would send me to the grocery store early on Saturday morning so she wouldn’t have to stand in line to get sugar for canning. The local daily newspaper building was right next door to our house. So I always knew when the presses would run because it was an afternoon paper and the presses would start running about 12:30 and the paper would be out and ready for sale by 3:00. If I ever heard the presses at a different time than that I knew there was something going on, probably with the war and a special edition was printing. It was a sensory time. Things that I saw; some things I heard, the heat of summer; those are the memories. For most of the participants in this study, living through the depression and the war had an impact on the way they experienced, remembered and reflected on key life events. For Andrew Lord, the reoccurring theme of being connected yet separate from the friends and environment he was a part of, his emotional sense of right and wrong and his deep awareness of his actions and their impact others feelings seemed to be foreshadowed by his recounting o f an event from his childhood in the depression years: When I was a kid about 9 or 10 years old, it was the tail end of the depression, about '39 and I was in this gang that had these two poor kids next door, and three French-Canadian kids, middle class kids. At that time, having a dime or a quarter was quite something. Well, one day I was walking along and I saw this money on the ground. We always played outside all the time and I really looked up and down the street to make sure none of my gang would see me, so I grabbed all this money and thought; the hell with those guys. I was really sneaky, and I headed for a store, but not the one in our neighborhood. Every neighborhood had a store then, and I went to one where I knew my pals wouldn't see me and I bought all this candy, stuff I'd looked at for years and couldn't buy because it was 15 or 20 cents. I bought all this stuff, then went out and started eating it. I didn't go back to my neighborhood, I headed out somewhere else. I felt awful about it, that I didn't share this stuff. That was a very deep experience. Maybe it’s the reason I don’t worry about money now. I felt awful that I hadn't shared this with anybody. I think it was a very powerful experience. I can still see that money on the ground, looking up and down; making sure that my buddies didn't see me. That was a very powerful experience for me. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 149 Andrew’s reflection on this childhood event suggests his ability to learn and grow from life events that are difficult or painful. The financial hardship experienced by those who lived through the depression offer many similar life lessons such as the one articulated by Bill (Ardelt, 1988), but not everyone who lived through that period can exhibit this ability. Bill’s ability to reflect and draw such powerful life lessons and integrate them into his life suggests an underlying cognitive ability/complexity described by theorist like Labouvie-Vief (1985a, 1985b, 1992, 1997, 1998, 2000). For Ann Carter, the depression seemed to suggest a hurdle to be overcome to achieve her hopes o f attending college. Interestingly, she did not see the depression as a final, deciding factor in that she maintained a sense of confidence about her future college hopes in spite o f her father having lost his savings in the bank crash leading up to the depression: I remember with some distinctness when I was about 6 or so that whenever there was any discussion about the future and any talk about college it was always very much up in the air whether it would be possible to do, because my father had saved money and then lost it in the bank crash, but there was always this kind of lure that I was going to do this somehow. It is important to note that while each of these individuals experienced the war and the depression differently, each placed a good deal of weight in the importance that these events and this time had in their lives. The interesting thing about this group of participants is not that they survived the depression, many have been able to achieve this, it is the way that each o f the participants was able to integrate their experiences into Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 150 themselves in a constructive way. Each of the participants approached this and other difficult life events in a way that allowed them to learn from the experience and to integrate these learnings into their makeup. This ability to negotiate the difficulties in life in ways that keep the ability to leam from them open, to approach difficulties with an underlying confidence that if they cannot be overcome, they can at least be lived with, is an important predictor of longer-term mental health in general, and wisdom in particular: “The secret of wisdom is less likely to lie in what one experiences during one’s life than in how one deals with these events” (Ardelt, 1988). Wisdom and a Sense of Place If you don’t know where you are, says Wendell Berry, you don’t know who you are. (Stegner, 1992, p. 20) I am bound to the earth by a web of stories, just as I am bound to the creation by the very substance and rhythms of my flesh. By keeping the stories fresh, I keep the places themselves alive in my imagination. Living in me, borne in my mind these places make up the landscape on which I stand with familiarity and pleasure, the landscape over which I walk when my feet are still. (Sanders, 1993, p. 150) I have vivid memories of the paths worn through the woods and fields of a rural area of southeastern Massachusetts. These memories, of the times that I spent alone wandering and exploring, remain integral to my identity as an adult. On occasion, I have gone back to them in my mind, especially at times in life when I needed the solace and centered feeling these memories provide. I must admit that I had not thought about my connection to these places and how they orient me until I began to notice how integral Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 151 this sense of place or rootedness was to all of the participants in my study and more generally to their expression and development o f wisdom. All o f the participants in this study seem to anchor the descriptions of their lives in a deeply felt description of place. These accounts are more than a passing description of background or backdrop to their life stories; they are a description of a deep connection to the geography o f a place that informs what they describe in their interviews. For some like Ben McCord, this sense of place has a centering quality, helping to retain an identity while negotiating the aging process. It serves as both salve and stone, depending on the particular life circumstance encountered. In this way it seems to function as a facilitator of wisdom, allowing the possibility of the balance and judgment required for its emergence. Sense o f Place As previously stated, I found that all of the participants in this study seem to anchor the descriptions of their lives in a deeply felt description of place. Cross’ (2001) typology provided a useful context to analyze the importance of place, as well as the different individual expressions o f this category of life experience. Working with Cross’ theory it is possible to overlay important wisdom theorists and relevant components of their theories on top of Cross’ place topology. This gives a perspective on how place, as experienced by this studie’s participants could facilitate the development of wisdom. As previously described, Cross’ matrix outlined the relationship between different aspects of sense of place. This matrix suggests a relationship between place, a Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 152 type of bond to place and a possible theoretical mechanism that facilitates the development of wisdom. In analyzing these life stories, there were three primary place experiences evident: a spiritual sense/experience of place, a narrative experience/sense of place and a dependent experience of place. These experiences of place were not mutually exclusive, one could experience several types of place attachments at once. All of these experiences appeared to be formative in reviewing the life story data. Examples of the participant’s experience of place in the context of Cross’ topology are considered next. Ben McCord describes this spirituality of place in his account of his early life in the Canadian Rockies: We lived on the border of Alberta and British Columbia in a place called Mountain Park. It was at the end of the branch railroad line. It was beautiful country, the Canadian Rockies. It’s part of my life, the real woods. Those mountains are really important to me. You know, you get a certain feeling; it’s spiritual for me. For Ben, the Canadian Rockies were foundational to his identity as a person; an identity that he repeatedly refers to and draws from in discussing his life. In another example, Ben talks about his shooting a moose and then bringing it out of the bush: There were no signs that said “National Park,” so I didn’t realize that I was in the park at the time. I heard some rustling in the bushes, I saw it was a large moose and I shot. Anyway, it was a cow, and I shot it dead on the trail with a 3006 Smithfield. That gun sounded like a cannon. I remember hearing this thrashing sound after shooting the cow, it was the bull, and I just shot his mate! I had my dog Sophie with me and he was cowering behind me. I was hoping he was going to protect me. The bull just lumbered away. Looking back on this, I wonder how much I’m fabricating, because I think it couldn’t be, but yet I did it. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 153 Ben’s description of this experience gives a glimpse into the development of his sense o f independence and agency in the context of a deep rootedness in place. This is the type o f experience he sees as a part of growing up in Mountain Park, amongst the difficult terrain and the wildlife, which he refers to as “the bush.” Later, in reflecting on his choice of a retirement community, and his trail building prowess, he again refers to the spirituality of the place he has chosen to live as he talks about his life at the Highlands, a retirement community on the central Maine coast: In a way, this little spot right here is spiritual; I picked this spot deliberately before these homes were built. So the woods and the mountains are very much a part of my spirituality. I like to stay active. It’s like the work I do with my rock gardens and trails. It brings me back to when I was young. People ask me when I was climbing or hiking in these remote locations was I scared. Of course I was scared. I would have to make decisions that had life or death consequences. Making decisions, my own decisions, is important to me; otherwise life is not worth living. I don’t want to just remain conscious and propped up in a chair. Ben’s relationship with the mountains and the woods permeates who he is and how he has come to know and understand his own spirituality. It also provides him with a positive outlook on growing older, as well as a sense of purpose. All of these things provide a facilitative environment in which wisdom can be present (Baltes, 1990). Because he is a child with limited means to strike out on his own, Bill’s relationship with his physical environment is largely dependent. In fact, taken by itself, this experience of his hometown, along with its impact on his self-confidence would seem to have negative implications for Bill’s ability to negotiate development into adulthood. From an Eriksonian perspective, mastery of one or more psychosocial stages essential for the development of wisdom (Industry versus Inferiority, Identity versus Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 154 Identity confusion) would prove difficult. On the other hand, Bill does experience a centering component in the physical landscape of his hometown, even though he also feels a sense of alienation: Other things I remember are the milieu of the town; it was a railroad town, a terminal railway with a big river and surrounded by mountains. So I always felt some sense of place. I could always find the river; I could always see the mountains. I could always hear the trains. So I just always knew where I was, which was both good and not so good. Bill’s relationship with his hometown and his early experience is a complex one. He represents it as a spiritual connection as well as a dependent relationship with place as described by Cross (2001). On one hand, he describes his childhood experience of this town as having a blue-collar culture, where he feels like an outsider: As a child, I was not as far along developmentally as my peers. I had started school a year earlier than the rest of them, and in the town where I lived it was not known for its openness. It was a blue; it was a very dark blue-collar town, so I grew up with a pretty sizable amount o f lack of confidence. Bill’s experience is an example of the importance of the life history approach in understanding how place experiences are integrated into identity and the possible development of wisdom. On the surface, Bill’s experience would seem to get in the way of his latter development, but it was his use of the experience and the meaning it had for him, rather than the experience itself that makes the difference in how he constructs his identity in his life story. In reflecting on his experience, rather than being bitter, he was able to experience both the alienation and the centering quality contained in his experience of place. As demonstrated previously, this ability to see a situation for what it is, to extract meaning and integrate these learnings within one’s self- identity in a Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 155 positive, useful way is an important component of development and of wisdom (Ardelt, 1988, 1997). Like Bill, Ann Carter’s relationship with place is complex. Her sense of place contains elements of spiritual, narrative, as well as dependent relationships. She describes memories of a spiritual connection growing up in the small Oregon town of her birth: We lived in a very small town in southern Oregon, east of the Cascades, so it was on the edge o f the wilderness. It was very beautiful. The town I lived in was on the shore of a very large lake, and it was about 40 miles from high mountain areas where there were lots of lakes. So nature was very important to me as I was growing up. It was the only town for 60 miles in any direction. And so it was a sort of a hub of agricultural and lumbering industries. But it was 13,000 people or so, so it was a very small town and it's never gotten any larger. As an example of Ann’s narrative attachment to place, she described the experience her father had in settling in the town back in the days of covered wagons and treacherous crossings: My father went to this town when he was about 9 years old in a covered wagon. It was in 1909 when he did this. His father, who was an extremely interesting man, I didn't know much about him until after my father died, but he felt as if he had finally found the place that he wanted to be and then he died 2 years later, which was unfortunate. Ann also describes her sense that she had outgrown this place, the realization that if she wanted to really make it, she would need to leave: Our town was pretty small, but it was a community that one could participate in. I always had this feeling like someday I wanted to see more of the world though, and in those days many of the kids that I went to school with were the children of people in oil companies and they got transferred all the time. So one of my desires that I never spoke out loud was that my father would get transferred, but I knew he wouldn't because he was running his own business. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 156 Ann’s realization represents a different type of dependent relationship to place. Unlike Bill, she carries fond memories of the town, although initially bound to it because of her dependence on her parents. She speaks of wishing her father would get transferred so she could broaden her horizons. Finally, as an adult, Ann expresses more of a spiritual connection with her current home in Massachusetts: We live now in the country on a lake, but we have 30 acres of land and we live beside a state park, which are mostly undeveloped woods. Being here and learning about what is here, which is an infinite stimulus, is very important to me. I think that when I was working it was what I tried to do when I didn't have too many papers on my desk. It's quite wonderful to be able to pursue that. I'm a collector o f mushrooms and a gardener. Finally, Andrew Lord’s sense of place is in large part spiritual. Initially Andrew’s description of his physical surroundings and their relation to his childhood was more cognitive: When I was 3 or 4 we lived on a lake and I had four siblings, I was the youngest. There were these little brooks that flowed into the lakes and my dad assigned each of us a brook to look after. Well, one day we were in a different part of the little town and he pointed out a ditch and said “that's your brook.” I was about 3 or 4 and I was sort of startled and thought what’s he talking about? There was a little bit of water flowing out from the lake, and this was just a roadside ditch. And I guess I realized then what topology is, that you can be in a different area and sort o f reason out how get over to here and just by reason figure out where your brook is. It was a very startling lesson. I wondered about it all these years, it’s kind of startling. I could actually feel my brain working, trying to figure out what he meant by this. How can this ditch have to do with a lake and water flowing out? Then I thought, “Oh maybe it could be above it in some way.” I know it was a very formative experience. Up until then everything was just lots of scenes. In this case, two very separate scenes connected themselves - the lake and my brook. This was in New York State, a place called Aurora, near Wells College. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 157 This was a very formative experience for Andrew in that it allowed him to consider how things worked, and where things were in context. In this sense, his experience was a cognitive (about thinking) rather than a pure emotional spiritual connection. Andrew’s sense of place in his description of his father’s study and his comfort in it seems to foretell his love of learning, which he carries with him to this day: I also used to daydream in my father’s study when he wasn't there. I would sit in one o f his leather chairs, I've always liked leather chairs. Later, Andrew describes his experience on his family’s farm in Brunswick, Maine. Again, his sense of place while spiritual is experienced as an awakening of his awareness and understanding of the natural world: In Brunswick we had a farm, a gentleman’s saltwater farm. I used to walk out at low tide to go out to the mud flats and daydream there too. I remember walking back from the flats and running into a young deer. We stared at each other for a long time, I was only vaguely aware of wild animals then, and I think the deer was too young to realize how dangerous humans are. So we stared at each other for a long time, it was a very moving experience. Again, I thought about it and I realize that the deer didn't know that humans were dangerous, so we just stood there looking at each other. I have another memory about the farm o f walking across a field, I was very young, only about 6 or 7, and I thought I saw a bobcat that was going to step right in my path, we were real close to each other, and I said to myself “that's an awfully big cat.” In fact, I'd never seen a cat that big. We were about 10 feet away and it hissed at me to make me stop, it wanted to go straight ahead and it didn't want to be bothered with this human. It knew the human was harmless enough to scare off, so the hiss was very loud, so I stopped and ran. In Andrew’s life story, his self-concept as someone who has a foot in two camps, a part of two cultures (one poor and one well off and educated). This is intertwined with Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 158 his experience of place: “I think growing up with those kids in that town was important. In a way I was a part of two worlds, one well off and one poor.” The role of a sense of place in developing identity and wisdom gets away from the idea that wisdom is in large part derived from technical expertise. As Chandler and Holiday (1990) pointed out, focusing on technical expertise has at its roots a need to control the environ m ent and an over emphasis on it leads to minimizing what Habermas called “emancipatory knowledge”: Habermas has argued that the modem tendency to see knowledge in terms o f technical expertise has obscured the possibility that there actually may be several related forms of what he characterizes as technical, practical and emacipatory knowledge-constitutive interests. The underlying interest in technical knowledge, he argues, is the need to control the natural environment, our modem tendency to equate all knowledge with it has blinded us to the need to serve our interests through practical and emancipatory knowledge.. . His [Habermas] account of emancipatory knowledge is more elusive but crystallizes around the themes of promoting rather than restricting human possibilities and of finding answers to the questions of what we might hope. The point to be made in reciting these aspects of Habermas’ theory is that notions of technical, practical, and emancipator knowledge-constitutive interest bears a remarkable similarity to the dimensions that appear to make up our common language of wisdom. (Chandler and Holiday, 1990, p. 140) In this group of participants, a strong sense o f place, although experienced differently by each, provided a sense of self that facilitated the development and manifestation of wisdom in each of their lives. Openness to Experience Wisdom & Serendipity For the participants in this study, being open to the possibilities created by serendipitous life events are important factors in the development of their careers and in Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 159 the development of their identity as counselors. As an example, all of the participants talk about a sense of not being in total control of their life and career paths. This is evident in Andrew Lord’s story of his chance meeting of Ram Dass. His students convinced him to go, but Andrew was ambivalent about the trip. Interestingly, Andrew’s experience with Ram Daas was one of the most influential experiences of his life. The importance o f chance or serendipity is revealed in William Tate’s life story in several areas below: I ’ve always felt like I wasn’t in control of my path. I’ve always thought God was in control o f my path because the path I’ve taken simply isn’t explainable in ways that it was me who was in control. As an example, my first job fell in my lap. On a lark I made an appointment and they reviewed my resume right on the spot. The position was a junior high school teacher. I got the job and I ended up in one of the best kind of arrangements I heard o f . .. Before I had even finished training, the school district offered me a job as a school counselor. These are just examples of how everything has fallen in my lap. Even since then things just keep falling in my lap. It’s either serendipity or somebody else... We had a county guidance director, Ephraim Cook. I don’t know how she got my name but she approached me and said that “Oh we’ve got this scholarship and I think you’d do well. Will you consider it?” This same phenomenon is apparent in Ben McCord’s life story as he describes how he began his teaching career: My next job was in Edmonton teaching Grade 9 science at the Gamell School. Gamell was a laboratory school for the University O f Alberta School Of Education. There was a guy there who had come to interview someone else for the position. He made a mistake and thought that I was the candidate for the job. We spent the morning interviewing and he said, “Well I guess you have it. Would you like to teach at the Gamell School?” I said sure, and he said, “Well Mr. M cCarthy.. . ” I said, “My Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 160 name’s McCord, not McCarthy” He said, “Well, no matter, you’ve got the job. Later, Ben discusses his decision to become a psychotherapist: The boss man somewhere along the line said, “Hey, we’re working on this program to get these folks into society again, would you like to be a part o f it?” and I said “Sure.” So that was the way I ended up working in that area. I read Carl Rogers “Nondirective Counseling” and thought that there might be something to this. Finally, Ann Carter also articulates the role of chance or serendipity as she talks about her life choices: Looking back on my life I often think that I didn't really make very many choices. It was like things happened and then life took up from that point. I'm sure that at some level one does come to a crossroads when you have to decide one way or the other, but it never felt that way to me. These and other examples of serendipity in the life stories of the study participants suggest an important developmental phenomenon. Although this phenomenon has more implications than career choice or career development, career choice is a portal through which serendipity enters each life in this study. For the most part, career development is one way an individual can find out who he/she really is and can experience a sense of meaning, wholeness and individuation important to the development of wisdom: The aim of individuation is to remove from the self the false wrappings of the persona. Through processes such as the clarification o f interests, values, skills and personality traits and the examination o f life roles, clients begin to individuate, to discover their authentic selves, and to identify their own sense of m eaning... It may be at the point of transcendence when clients gain insight, have come to trust their authentic selves, and decide to seek congruent life’s work that meaningful coincidences tend to occur, whether perceived as pure chance, happenstance, fate or divine intervention, formerly “unopened and undiscemed” opportunities are somehow “mysteriously” available. (Guindon, 2002, p. 196) Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 161 The successful (as defined by each individual) career navigation that each of the participants has experienced has given them a foundation on which wisdom can rest. The way in which these participants developed their careers and other important life experiences has to do with how they navigated what life handed them. Serendipity and chance seemed to play an important part in each of the participants’ lives as well as their experience of wisdom. CHAPTER FIVE: DISCUSSION In reviewing these life stories, I came to see that certain life events had important developmental implications for these participants in relation to wisdom. I found that certain life themes; the historical context of the depression and World War II, the developed sense o f place articulated in unique ways by each participant, as well as the importance of each participant’s openness to life experience or serendipity, to be integral to the development of wisdom. To that point, I found evidence of several important wisdom researchers’ work in the lives of these participants; theorists such as Erikson, Labouvie-Vief, and others. These theorists were helpful in gaining insight into the logistics of how these life themes influenced the development of wisdom. I also found the life themes common among these participants went beyond the technical expertise/knowledge suggested by Baltes (1990,1993). Baltes’ work also suggests important antecedent factors and mediating processes for acquiring wisdom. These antecedents occur in three areas: (a) general personal factors including cognitive mechanics, mental health, social competence and openness to experience; (b) expertise, Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 162 including mentorship and generativity, and (c) facilitative experiential contexts such as age, education, profession and historical period. These antecedents were prominent in all four participants’ life stories. It was evident to me after analyzing participant’s life story data that, as PascualLeone related, wisdom is a holistic concept made up of many interlocking pieces: The wise individual, although anchored in the present, has dialectically integrated into a manifold totality the multiple aspects of his or her self­ experience and has done so not just conceptually but experientially (as empirical self and as existence), historically (as unique historically conditioned evolving totality immersed in an evolving society), and culturally (Pascual-Leone, 1990, p. 245). As outlined below, I found evidence of several influential wisdom theories in analyzing the life themes of the participants. Specifically, the operating mechanisms underlying each life theme give evidence to the existence of several influential theories. Evidence of Existing Wisdom Theory Gaining Wisdom Through Hardship and Challenge As previously stated, surviving the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune are not sufficient in developing wisdom. The ability to find meaning in difficult life circumstances and to draw on that meaning in understanding and helping others understand difficult and often contradictory life lessons is essential (Berger, Small, Forsell, Winblad & Backman, 1998; Birren, 1990; Erikson, 1968; Glass & Berkman, 1997; Labouvie-Vief, DeVoe, & Bulka, 1989; Orwoll, 1990; Staudinger et a l, 1997, 1998). This component of wisdom is evident in the way in which all four of this study’s Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 163 participants dealt with and learned from hardship. Ardelt’s (1988) study examining the role o f the great depression in the development of wisdom, concluded that participants designated as “wise elders” were “able to mature psychologically through the experience o f a severe economic crisis, while the psychosocial development of men and women who faced the same challenges but scored low on wisdom in old age tended to regress after 1935” (p. 300). Ardelt’s findings are especially relevant in understanding this study’s participant group as “wise elders” as well. This ability to negotiate the difficulties in life with an underlying confidence that difficulties, if they cannot be overcome, they can at least be lived with, is an important predictor of longer-term mental health in general and wisdom in particular: “The secret o f wisdom is less likely to lie in what one experiences during one’s life than in how one deals with these events” (Ardelt, 1988, p. 291). The ability of the participants to integrate and benefit from difficult life experience lends support to the theoretical work of Erikson, Labouvie-Vief and Baltes. For example, the work of Labouvie-Vief suggested the importance of cognitive complexity in developing wisdom. Erikson implied this in his description of integrity versus despair and Baltes offered the notion of the importance of contextualisim and uncertainty in the development and manifestation of wisdom. As previously suggested, cognitive complexity has been shown to be facilitative for the development and manifestation of wisdom ( Labouvie-Vief, 1990, 1997, 2000; Labouvie-Vief & Diehl, 1999). In fact, researchers have established a relationship between coping style, crystallized intelligence and reflective cognition; important Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 164 components for the development o f wisdom (Labouvie-Vief, 2000). Further, wisdom requires both the demonstration of cognitive complexity and a mature use of defensive coping mechanisms affect integration. An example of this idea of cognitive complexity is apparent in Bill Tate’s description of his relationship with his parents: There would always be a dialog and it really played itself out with two philosophies, two views of life. My dad was very calm, very assured, and very comfortable with his fate. He was very confident that he was being watched over. My mother was nervous about everything so this played out every day. Mother would come out with her worries, Dad would be assuring. Mother would worry, Dad would assure which gave me the choice of both, so I think I grew up being both able to assure and worry which at different points in my life one dominated over the other, but that was kind of how I was introduced to how to think about life which meant that you could look at it as either worrying about things when you needed to or being able to assure yourself in other situations. In this example, Bill is able to integrate both parents seemingly opposite views of the world into a heuristic that incorporates both in a useful way. Cognitive Complexity and the Recognition o f Patterns and Connections Cognitive complexity, the ability to think dialectically and the ability to draw on life experience are all important factors in the manifestation of wisdom. All of us experience chance events in our lives, but there is something about those who society deems successful; like successful entrepreneurs for instance that recognize chance events for more than they appear to be, turning them into real opportunities. Similarly, the participants in this study demonstrated the ability to not only recognize chance events as opportunities, but recognized how these events fit together in a larger picture. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 165 This idea of recognizing patterns and making connections is also important in developing the ability to demonstrate wise behavior or give advice that would be considered wise. An individual with this ability has the tools to help others in making sense out of difficult or uncertain life events in order to reach a wise decision for example. Developing Wisdom and a “Sense o f Place ” There are several important theorists whose work connects sense of place with current research on the development of wisdom. In analyzing the importance of this life theme, I was able to draw on the overlay of Cross’ (2001) theory of place onto the theories and research of Pascual-Leone (1990), Kramer (1990), Orwoll & Perlmutter (1990) and Erikson (1980). My goal was to connect the participant’s relationship to place with current wisdom theory and with the observed life experiences of the participants. Specifically, each of the relationships to place described by Cross is connected to a mechanism that helps explain how the experience of place is facilitated by mechanisms found in the wisdom literature: Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 166 Table 5 Sense of Place and Wisdom Theory ---------------= ------- --------------- - Relationship to place (Cross) Ritual Type of Bond (Cross) Theorist Feeling a sense o f belonging. simplv felt rather than created (Cross) Erikson Orwoll & Perlmutter Narrative Helps in the navigation between Identity confusion versus Identity as well as Isolation versus Intimacy Facilitates cognitive affective integration by helping to develop self identity/insight Kramer Facilitates interrelated functions of wisdomspiritual introspection Pascual-Leone Facilitates adult resolution of contradictory self-Schemas by grounding identity in sense of place Mythical Learning about a place through stories, including: creation myths, family histories, political accounts, and fictional accounts (Cross) Erikson, Orwoll & Perlmutter B?=coal-T eore Dependent Cross's Facilitation Process/MechanismW isdom theorist's possible explanation Material Provides sense ofbelonging facilitates identity formation Constrained bv lack o f choice, dependency on another person, or economic opportunity (Cross) Erikson (Competence/ fidelity) Pascual-Leone If risen above, facilitates wisdom by providing formative experience and developing ability to use experience as basis for further self mastery-role modeling Facilitates adult resolution o f contradictory self-Schemas by grounding identity in sense of purpose Reproduced with permission o f the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 167 To take this a step further, by analyzing each life story it is possible to classify each of the participants by their primary attachment to place, to make a connection between theoretical descriptors of the inner workings of wisdom and each participant’s life experience: Table 6 Participants Sense of Place and Wisdom Theory Participant's place description Relationship to place (Cross) Type of Bond (Cross) | Theorist || Feelins a sense o f belonging. simply felt rather than created (Cross) Ben McCord Erikson Andrew Lord Ritual Orwoll & Perlmutter Kramer Ann Carter Cross's Facilitation Process/ mechanism- Wisdom theorist's possible explanation Narrative Dependent Mythical Aids in the navigation between Identity confusion versus Identity as well as Isolation versus Intimacy Facilitates cognitive affective integration by helping to develop self identity/insight Facilitates interrelated functions of wisdom-spiritual introspection Pascual-Leone Facilitates adult resolution of contradictory self-Schemas by grounding identity in sense o f place Learning about a place through stories, including: creation mvths. family histories, political accounts, and fictional accounts (Cross) Erikson, Orwoll & Perlmutter Pascual-Leone Provides sense of belonging facilitates identity formation | Constrained by lack o f choice, dependency on another person, or economic opportunity (Cross) Material Bill Tate Erikson (Competence/ fidelity) If risen above, facilitates wisdom by providing formative experience and developing ability to use experience as basis for further self mastery-role modeling Ann Carter Pascual-Leone Facilitates adult resolution of contradictory self-Schemas by grounding identity in sense of purpose Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 168 As is evident from the matrix above, some participants fell into multiple categories, as their life stories indicated. However, this matrix does suggest the mechanisms by which each participant’s experience of place has impacted their subsequent development of wisdom. Placing O ne’s S elf in Context: Sense o f Place and Sense o f Self Humility or understanding one’s place within the context of a larger, more powerful set of forces is one important feature of wisdom related to sense of place. Without the ability to be humbled, to listen and learn from the environment and one’s place in it, attaining wisdom may be difficult. My participants all talked about the importance of both a place and a time in their own development; that is, they were able to see themselves as contextualized. All of the participants in this study demonstrated how a sense of place can influence their understanding o f who they are. Interestingly, their experience of place as described in their life story that consists of a series of events or mental pictures and memories. How they responded to or bring the environment into their psyche seems to be the catalyst for facilitating wisdom in this group. As an example, Ben McCord’s experience growing up in the Canadian Rockies left him with a sense of awe and wonder that he describes as spirituality. He continually draws on metaphors rooted in his experience of this place to describe and make meaning of his life. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 169 Openness to Experience and the Role of Chance in the Development of Wisdom As I suggested in my literature review, the role of discontinuity, chance, serendipity or more importantly, openness to experience is important in the development of wisdom specifically, the ability to recognize, capitalize on and leam from serendipitous career or life events. The participants in this study gave this idea credence when relating how each experienced chance events and how these events changed the course of their lives and careers. However, it is the role of chance or serendipity in the lives of the participants and in the development of wisdom that is most interesting. Baltes (1990) touched on this idea when he talked about the role of openness to experience as one of the antecedent factors and developmental processes for acquiring wisdom. Bandura (1998) suggested that life-span developmentalists like Baltes (1983) have included serendipity or “fortuitous events” the same or similar import as biological and normative social events in determining developmental trajectories. In fact, the personality construct “openness to experience” has been identified as the strongest predictor of wisdom in studies by Kramer (2003) and Staudinger et al.(1997). As with life’s hardships and difficulties, it seems to be more about how each participant in this study dealt with these chance events than the chance events themselves. It is interesting to note that the impact of chance events or serendipity has been found by Krantz (1998) to be overrepresented in narratives of fortunate events and underrepresented in life events involving misfortune. Further Krantz argued that social science in general has underplayed the developmental significance o f these events due to science’s pre-occupation with prediction and control. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 170 The significance of the serendipitous or chance events in the life trajectories for this studie’s participants was substantial. I would assert that the personality and cognitive traits like openness to experience or cognitive complexity (Labouvie-Vief, 2000) are at work in the ability to profit developmentally from chance life events. In terms of the development of wisdom, chance events, serendipity or as William Tate described, “the hand of God” helped to place these individuals in life contexts that were facilitative of wisdom, but they needed to come to the table with the right mix of personality and cognitive attributes to benefit from these events. As Pasture stated in describing chance in scientific discovery: “Chance favors only the prepared mind” (Slowiczek, 2003). There is a limitation in this methodology, especially as it relates to generalizability however. Specifically, the description of chance events and their meaning are coming from participants’ retrospective recollection. Other research has shown that describing past events accurately can be problematic (Achenbach, 1978). This is certainly an area where more research would be most beneficial. CHAPTER SIX: CONCLUSION I began this study to better understand the development of wisdom. I wanted to understand how a group of people that many current researchers in the field of psychology would point to as wise described their development, or life history. I set out to overlay current research on wisdom on important life themes drawn from their stories. Although there were many life events that were important to each participant in this research, I was able to focus on three key life themes shared by all of the participants; Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 171 The ability to navigate and leam from difficult life experiences as a component of wisdom; experiencing a sense of place and its role in the participant’s wisdom development; and the importance of being open to experience in the development of wisdom. One of the unexpected outcomes of this study was the way in which the participants’ experience o f their development suggested such similar themes. In a way, this should be expected given the similarity of their chosen professions and the time in which they grew up. However, I still found it to be an unexpected and interesting finding. As discussed previously, I was given a view of how these individuals negotiated success and failure and how they integrated these learnings into their lives, as well as the impact this had in their life’s journey toward wisdom. I do not think that this would have been possible had I chosen another method of researching the development of wisdom however. Atkinson’s (1985) life history methodology allowed me to focus on the nuances of each participant’s personal life story in a way that valued the participant as the primary author. It allowed me to view participant’s life stories as a whole, with a beginning, a middle and an end. I felt that this approach, with its emphasis on the story rather than the protocol, gave me deeper access into why a certain event, or time, or place was important in each life, and how the experience got woven into a larger tapestry. Wisdom is an illusive phenomenon as important as it is difficult to study, especially using standard empirical tools. Narrative methods have opened new avenues Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. Ill for scholarly discourse and discovery. The life history interview gave me the tool for entering into a life to view a phenomenon from the outside in. This method is different than other qualitative approaches in that it does not promise scholarly detachment, but delivers the ability to enter into an individual’s life with them as a guide, to find the meaning they attach to life events. I found that the study of wisdom lends itself well to the simplicity o f this research method, because a complex phenomenon like wisdom and meaning can be overshadowed by an equally complex empirical research methodology. Limitations of this Study Like other narrative research based on single subject or case study design, generalization of these studies to other populations is problematic as this is a study of individual lives. Also, this study does not attempt to determine empirically whether or not any o f these participants are wise in the traditional sense; that is exhibiting wise behavior or judgment, determined using an assessment tool or protocol such as those used by Baltes and his colleagues (1990). This study assumed that given the chosen careers and life experiences of all of the participants, they were more likely to meet with situations requiring the use of wisdom. In this way, an in-depth study of these lives helped to illuminate a developmental path for wisdom. In addition, the participants in this study are members of a similar cohort; a group of people who have been impacted by the Great Depression of the 20s and 30s, as well as the World War II. To generalize these findings to other cohort groups would be problematic. Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 173 Toward a New Understanding of the Development of Wisdom As previously discussed, historical context, a sense of place and its impact on one’s developmental trajectory, and the role of chance or serendipity in development have not been previously connected and linked to the development of wisdom. I believe that these three concepts, when applied to the task of determining developmental correlates o f wisdom, help to deepen our understanding of the phenomenon. Specifically, they expand current theories of wisdom by suggesting the importance of what occurs outside o f the self, outside o f one’s own cognition and affect or personality, and how these ideas (historical context, place and serendipity) impact how wisdom develops. Suggestions for Future Research It would be interesting for future study to go further in determining the operating mechanisms inherent in the themes surfaced in this study. Specifically, do these life themes emerge in similar ways in other lives? Are there generational differences in the way meaning is ascribed to life events such as these? These questions would be fruitful for the researcher interested in further investigating the nuance of wisdom within a larger, more diverse group, perhaps using a more empirical research methodology. Finally, while my goal in this study was to help illuminate the developmental path of wisdom, I received much more. 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Michaud (3) You have been asked to participate in a research study conducted by Gregory J Michaud, a doctoral student in the Human & Organizational Development Program at The Fielding Institute, Santa Barbara, CA. This research involves the study of the development and experience of Wisdom throughout life. This dissertation is part of Gregory's Fielding dissertation. You have been selected for this study because your life experiences as reflected in your writings, autobiographic material, previous interviews and or your occupation suggest some possible links to the development and experience of wisdom. The study involves two conversational interviews, to be arranged at your convenience, each of which is expected to last approximately 2-4 hours. Hence, the total time involved in participation will be no more than 8 hours. During these interviews, you will be asked several questions relating to your life. Examples of these questions include: (1) • What do you remember about your childhood? • What was growing up in your house or neighborhood like? • What was the most significant event of your teenage years? • Has education been important to you? How? o How did you end up in the type of work you do (did)? • What were the crucial decisions you faced in life that involved you and other people? • Do you have any important values or beliefs that help you make important decisions or choices in your life? • What have been the most important learning experiences in your life? • Has wisdom played a part in your life choices, decisions? How? • How would you describe wisdom? You may choose not to discuss any topic or area should you choose to do so (2) The Research Ethics Committee of the Fielding Institute retains access to all materials pertinent to the evaluation o f research ethics. The information you provide will be kept strictly confidential. Only the Researcher and Faculty Supervisor and a confidential Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 185 Research Assistant will listen to the tape recordings. If you give permission, tapes and or transcripts o f this interview will be held for use in further research at the Center for the Study of Lives at the University of Southern Maine. (5) You also have the opportunity to review a transcript of your interview and remove any material you do not wish to have used by the researcher. The transcripts for your interviews will published in Gregory’s dissertation, and could possibly be included in further publication such as journal and or books (6). You may develop greater personal awareness of your life story as a result of your participation in this research. The risks to you are considered minimal. Should you experience such discomfort, please contact the Researcher at the phone number listed above. In addition, you may withdraw from this study at any time, either during or after the interview, without negative consequences. Should you withdraw, your data will be eliminated from the study and will be destroyed. There is no financial remuneration for participating in this study. In addition to discussing the preliminary results with the Researcher by phone, you also may request a copy of the summary of the final results by indicating your interest on the attached form. If you have any questions about any aspect of this study or your involvement, please tell the researcher before signing this form. Two copies of this informed consent form have been provided. Please sign both, indicating you have read, understood, and agreed to participate in this research. Return one to the Researcher and keep the other for your files. NAME OF PARTICIPANT (please print) SIGNATURE OF PARTICIPANT DATE I GRANT PERMISSION FOR TAPES AND OR TRANSCRIPTS OF THIS INTERVIEW TO BE HELD FOR USE IN FURTHER RESEARCH AT THE CENTER FOR THE STUDY OF LIVES AT THE UNIVERSITY OF SOUTHERN MAINE FACULTY ADVISOR'S NAME, ADDRESS & TELEPHONE NUMBER Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 186 * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * Yes, please send a summary of the study results to: NAME OF PARTICIPANT (please print) Street Address City, State, Zip Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission. 187 Appendix B Participant Letter (Example) I ’ve included a couple o f things in this packet of material for you. The first is a little bit about the Fielding Institute where I am completing the HOD program. It’s a little about the school and how the program works. The second piece of information is a bit about the Center for the Study of Lives at USM. The director, Bob Atkinson, is also on my dissertation committee and I am working with him and the archive of life stories. The third piece o f information is my research ethics document, which should give you a little more information about my project. Finally, I have included an informed consent form for your review and signature. We can talk about all of this in more detail when I call. If you would like, you can leave me a voice mail on a time that would be convenient for us to talk. Thank you! Greg Michaud 201-573-3393 Reproduced with permission of the copyright owner. Further reproduction prohibited without permission.