i think i just missed him. ofc i love him but i misunderstood my love. while i miss our memories in a way that i lost opportunity to be with him like more than frnds but during that moment i just wanted to be his frnd. i misunderstood our memories as well as our love n bond. its possible that in future we both look at each other as lovers maybe but its not r8 to manipulate our past memories. its very wrong. i love him as a person he is. i treated him as my brother in the past, though , i don't want him to be my brother anymore. but its wrong to manipulate what i felt with him back then. back then he was so caring, he still is, but back then he just wouldn't leave me. i think he nvr liked me that way. i think there was a time he misunderstood his feelings too. i think thats y he got far from me. i think i wanted him to be close to me evrytime thats y i think i wanted him when back then i only wanted to be with him since he was my frnd or like a brother. i have decided that i would tell him on frndship day that he is my best frnd not brother. i would write " happy friendship day. even though there were so many times i called u my brother, but since i just don't have any frnds left (bestie types), i wish u could be my best frnd forever. it hurts uk, not having anyone to gossip with(thats not the only reason i want best frnds though lol). we had se many memories i like to cherrish during my hard times to help myself keep moving on with a smile. there are times when i just want to have tripti simran back but then what they did to me was so wrong. stay my frnd for today, tomorrow n alwz. idc if i sound selfish but i would hate your bestfrnds lol. you are the only person i m not afraid of when i m speaking my mind even when it doesn't make any sense, i think thats the reason why after taking all types of sugesstions from every1, i call u n make my final decision after that.