The Iowa Review Volume 33 Issue 1 Spring 2003 The Window Girls Move past Continually: Thoughts on Photography Lyall Bush Follow this and additional works at: http://ir.uiowa.edu/iowareview Part of the Creative Writing Commons Recommended Citation Bush, Lyall. "The Window Girls Move past Continually: Thoughts on Photography." The Iowa Review 33.1 (2003): 75-88. Web. Available at: http://ir.uiowa.edu/iowareview/vol33/iss1/24 This Contents is brought to you for free and open access by Iowa Research Online. It has been accepted for inclusion in The Iowa Review by an authorized administrator of Iowa Research Online. For more information, please contact lib-ir@uiowa.edu. Article 24 lyall bush TheWindow Girls Move Past Continually: Thoughts On Photography In 1934 at a public meeting organized Andre Breton delivered a lecture called he summed up the mission by the Belgian Surrealists, In it, "What is Surrealism?" of Surrealism with this sentence: "Our wish, growing more and more at all costs to avoid considering unceasing has been refuge, outside to pursue these investigations our consequences urgent from day to day, a system of thought as a eyes wide open to their with investigations and to assure ourselves would be capable of facing that the results the breath of of the street." The breath of the street. Such a curious phrase: though it acknowl to any "system of is opposite edges that the goal of Surrealism it doesn't which the Surrealists thought," clearly spurned, exactly line up with what we have come to think of as the central Surrealist to unconscious in attraction impulses, either. Breton's formulation, an excla fact, has little to do with how we now use the word?as as a synonym for the unexpected, a jet plane crash into a the unheimlich. So watching the strange, it doesn't follow system, is "surreal," in our terms, because building that works with and drops us, for a time, into an experience the mation we lob into conversation the "breath of the street," on the other illogic of dreams. Capturing a sort of desire, in which you work to lay a net over hand, is woolier the foul blague of the real out there, to map its accidents, fold crap and transitoriness Surrealism and the uncut is the ultimate corners Modernism: into art. By this definition the realism of an atomized and random world. Photography?the photography these terms Surrealism. Consider of the street, at any rate?is an old snapshot from fifteen by or twenty years ago, the one you still look at sometimes with increasing to the person you were then, to the wonder about your connection and shake-scene the hair, the skin, the you inhabited, body-shape on look in the eye, the bones the back of your hand. I am holding, for of my younger brother that I took in June example, a photograph 1974. Iwas thirteen and he was eleven, and he is at the bottom of a 75 University of Iowa is collaborating with JSTOR to digitize, preserve, and extend access to The Iowa Review ® www.jstor.org on chin-up the back steps, ?? using the pipe that supported our awning. He is straining a little, and smiling, and the soft grain of the picture and the the slight day mirror bright strain in his smile. h ?y In the inter stices that knit clothing next to and in the little clapboard, of body accidents language I feel a small shiver between, of anagnorisis, Aristotle's word for the insight tragic characters encounter in themselves when they realize how their actions have converged with their fate. My history is no more tragic than most middle-class lives after, say, But among other things it reminds me that the frame of the story about me and my brother?my family: the same mists into the that and it. Once holds clarifies photograph grain a we were time Now both there. we're not. The silt of the move upon Clytemnestra's. holds a version ment between is mesmerizing. then something else: My mother's face appears in the little window behind my brother. She has shut her eyes against the bright day, and my brother, hanging from the pipe and believing he is the And has also squeezed his eyes shut. The subject of the photograph, visual rhyme is a strange accident, which I like because it leaves a little spellbound. them both in the same moment, camera to take the pictures was a Christmas present, and when I carried it around with me I knew Iwas close to an adult form of magic-making. In our not-so-personal Presbyterian world, The that was I used even more than my new hockey gloves. By June, personal I and could devote my energy to making art. I hockey snapped photos of my other brother sleeping, our Schnauzer pup a in father chair in afternoon socks, my chewing nodding light, the the into leaf. brother big maple by highway just coming My mowing the lawn, in a corduroy coat. I still have these photos, and some of was over them have a certain eye for detail or mood. But none has the strange feeling of a "moment" that the chin-up picture has. 76 In an essay called "The Photographic in collected Message," seems to Roland Barthes like argue Image?Music?Text, something this. He writes that "the photograph is not simply a product or a but also an object endowed with a structural autonomy." a pho is obscure, but my sense is that he means Barthes' meaning or a of crisscross not, tograph is, accidentally funny simple, dumb as "thereness"?a "stencil" of reality, Susan Sontag put it, "faithful as Philip Larkin wrote?and and disappointing" random something and floating around it that Iwill call "design," which iswhat I think channel Barthes means by "structural autonomy." This may be like saying that dust is a "version" of architecture, but that is what Barthes (and for that matter Jean-Luc Godard and Claire Denis) often asks his readers to consider in general about words, representations, life, social reality, and so on. a flash, an advantage since flash cubes cost extra and I had only a small allowance I earned from mowing the lawn in summer and shoveling snow inwinter. I could keep film Out costs of doors I didn't need by using black and white film, which was fifty cents or so less, and because the guy behind the counter told me, can use to sense to me in an unde it learn with." That made "you tv romantic I knew from and magazines that black and fined, way. down further meant "art," and I thought about "burning through a few rolls," as I read of enthusiasts doing. But my parents would consid er pictures with no people in them a waste of money, so my picture waste: I and wanted urgently to snap away, taking balanced frugality white but Iwanted to spend wisely, THE WORLD IS AN ACCIDENT Real photographers, too. the generation of the 1950s and especially of the snapshot from Helen Levitt toWilliam beyond?the geniuses Klein and Robert Frank and up through Gary Winogrand?were and I've since are, discovered, profligate with film, snapping hundreds of pictures in a day to get two or three negatives that have the cool, aura of discovery and accident that I see in the picture spell-binding of my blindly smiling mother and brother. (When he was taking pic tures of New Yorkers in the 1950s, Klein told The New Yorker's Lane in 2001, that he Anthony Iwas thirteen, squeezing When felt like a "fake anthropologist.") five times in an after the shutter 77 a small death. noon was I'd think that I'd bitten off enough of the were gluttons real of light photographers By comparison, in con and faces, of feet and shadows and strangers, of monkeys and bicycles vertibles cars, resting, and barber shops, overcoats, in like sand, women babes in arms, crime scenes, crowds shifting world. on fore that somehow commented and backgrounds a moment in time. grounds, by the chance of me about weather and tells My snapshot family, and if I shut my shoes, hats, own eyes a picture. I can imagine my brother was happy there, happy to be in It's possible that Iwas never closer to him than in that that spring at the end of grade seven before the pre-adult moment, adult glamour, of grade eight, the turmoil, very nearly complicated was I around the budding girls. and my vertigo when she pushed aside the plas And here's the point about my mother: tic curtains of the bathroom ing the shutter. and at the time to look out just as Iwas press is un-posed? there?she she'd spoiled the moment. because window It's an accident that she's Iwas annoyed it's clear that the accident is the pic of the moment re-orient ture's subject: her shut, dreaming eyes the picture and re in training into a literally different focus my image of an athlete wicked frame. I'm sure, given my mother's temper that that's a dif But afterwards too. She is smiling, but in a different way ferent frame of mind, seems my brother. She caught inside a joy that was rare. than said that he took pictures of things "to famously Gary Winogrand see what they looked like as photographs." He meant that, to some women's of these know he took extent, he didn't feet, pictures why say, rather than some other pedestrians. Something in moving hands light and the incidental matter mouths and the fidgets of details?the about angle and and corners of tricycle behind the child, the about exactly. There's something you never know barking dog?that no about an individual moment you can never fully understand, are. matter how conscious inner Your and eye, sharp eye, your you as they may be, can't see what a study of the frozen artifact gives you the And century's nonsense chance onto we can now artists turned see was the twentieth to the random and to flakes of quo I, and began to moonland their writing paper, their layers of their canvases, after World War tidian matter 78 to. is accident, which supreme art vehicle: there in language, and silver oxide. Not myth, not "experiments" not even consciousness have had the enduring life that accident has. nitrate No form William the random invites Marker Klein/Chris Minneapolis American-born, In 1996, a than photography. at the Walker Art Center in better exhibit a melancholy of Klein, the great and of wide photographer angles a out Klein's metaphor. thinking gravelly, featured audio-loop Paris-exiled frame-filling subjects, New French-inflected to emerge from a re m York voice seemed a two or if he's life has, photographer lucky, maybe sleep: meant amount at I of first he the three seconds." Listening, thought "In his has to factor the light, to focus and fire time a street photographer on a subject who will move or change in another second. But then he clarified: shooting at i/30th of a second, i/6oth, i/250th, even the may be able to capture in his lifetime only a greatest photographer of seconds couple using answer a motor of existential drive or on video? human Klein time. And what didn't consider or less plain: a photographer could the place of randomly pointed decision, ismore film, but scious and unconscious image. Accumulating when if he shoots this, but the capture more on the play of con to the still choice, is part of the attraction images doesn't count as much as the kinked lines up: light, look, distance, mystery, and eyes stilling?accident. arrangement, people, Klein's idea is full of an awe that, in philosophical terms, is Greek, I feel the strangeness of accident and in looking at my photograph part-seconds time he describes, that it can improve a plan and add the fifth element. can that be said? Architecture Of what other form of representation to go over the place requires bales of money, blueprints, meetings ment of stairwells. Writing drafts before rarely escapes multiple reveal figures re-drawn, delet publication. X-rays of great paintings If there is a place for accident inserted. ed, re-situated, painted over, a thing in the in other arts it is the happy accident of discovering a act of the better of still life, the anec arrangement long making, dote from the radio show that feeds the short (Frank O'Hara inspired a friend to story. has a great poem on the look of sardines that begin to paint them. Later, the sardines were painted friend still titled his work, "Sardines.") over but the It's not hard to add new "elements" to photographs now, and in so moment. with the With software like doing tamper pho Photoshop, and parachute bodies or tographers can sit down at their Macintoshes 79 backgrounds from their existential into new ones. With homes some I could be petting a weasel rather imaginative cutting and pasting so fulfill a terrifying dream I once had. But anyone than my dog?and the acci looking at the photo could also note the difference between dental and the deliberate juxtaposition. ACCIDENT Throughout photography Susan Sontag a book that almost On Photography, singularly made a legitimate museums for and intellectuals, subject a terror of her own: that since 1839 "just contemplates has been the overall Pursuing everything photographed." accrues to of that the from the world? images "meaning" taking to Diane is from Matthew lies truth, Arbus?Sontag's Brady subject about and the riddling matter between "Humankind kick-off voiceover: them, beginning lingers with unregenerately her ominous in Plato's to the philosopher's is referring trope of narrowed our senses that the vision, carry us as near to the argument to sunlight. Her tone, however, Real world as shadows echoes the in The Crucible. that Arthur Miller Puritans described petulant cave." She human shows a moral perturbation about Sontag, normally tough-minded, It without the average photographer's goes aggression. saying that more a in it does than public requires aggression taking photograph for a writer to make a silent But Sontag's worrying the drive to get faces and prose implies?more implies?that bodies with the net of a good lens is the tool of the devil. observation. than Her arose about the "problems, from thinking, she writes, of photographed and moral, posed by the omnipresence and she concludes that has images," gradually abduct photography as Pluto did Persephone. ed us to the Underworld, Pursuing images, she is saying, we turn from direct sunlight back ("unregenerately") book aesthetic to the cave. So she issues Chandlerized policier epigrams?"photo alarming ideograms about the tes has become almost as widely prac Zeitgeist: "photography .... It is as sex and dancing a social ticed an amusement rite, mainly a defense against anxiety, and a tool of power." graphs ticular furnish evidence"?and Sex and dancing? A "tool of power"? A couple of decades later it is true Merritt can mix voyeurism first on the Internet and then 80 that an artist like Natacha a photo diary about her sex life, in a book published by Taschen. But a with graphie mix photographs event what of body parts and arm's-length angles (Merritt usually not was is what herself) Sontag imagining, and in any two hundred pages for On Photography circumnavigates is the core content of the photograph and why it can be so satisfy so so to look and and delicious. The best photo at, ing absorbing, are our extreme states. A pho of forms of archives dream, graphs tograph that gets skin right, under this or that light, can prompt a a recognition of belonging. When response, a crowd of travelers, boiling immigrants, Salgado brings into his frame it can be extraordinary: Hieronymous Bosch migrants meets Dorothea Lange. kind of ecstatic Sabastiao An like Sally Mann uses the large and brave photographer produced by her view camera to capture the skin of her intuitive negatives children?to say that this is the way my family slightly wild-looking looks now, and this is the way we look, now, two years later; this is state where her in a Platonic black-and-white my beautiful daughter beauty is forever young, but not really, because I know the difference between this picture and my actual daughter. She works to see "fam and desire, and the figures in the ily" as a product of imagination are are kin while her also, momentarily, pictures, they mythic. They are naked but still not known, not least to their mother. it is posed, family The picture is a grabbed fragment, even when in front of house. So Breton's "breath of the street": the element that renders a thing both more startlingly present and plucked (or so it could from the psychic Underworld. The American engi a in the Hare, grant neer-turned-photographer, Chauncey accepted to late 1960s to knock on doors and walk into Midwestern homes seem) how people lived, with an unannounced agenda of also owners. He froze the unsuspecting the faces of these photographing lens and a strobe light, and they end up people with a wide-angle photograph in their own homes?we could say "inhabi looking like exhibits of notion Klein's fake tants," following rocking anthropology?in chairs and lounging on couches. of the people (Somehow, most believed photographed they were out of the camera's range.) There an image in Interior America that doesn't look like it was staged by Bunuel. For those of us on a lower rung of achievement, are ways to gather in what job promotions and house photographs we cannot?the shards of prop up on purchases bright Fuji graffiti on to the refrigerator, set on the the piano, hang the wall, magnetize is hardly 81 tape to the inside cover of a favorite book are totems and, Pictures of gatherings, advertisements. maybe, birthdays, weddings, to vacations exotic Toronto; for some of us who have been picnics, to school, the photograph ismaybe also a way of writing a song: this is my trip to Nice, is my wife, nice. My life, in this gardening; desktop, res. medias At sense their best, pictures are memory rods, in ourselves of our past, of believing routes as real, to assemble inside our the tide life. In family photo albums, pictures combine in group Bildungsromans. On the shelf, they say, Here is the sover I grow. Why I've self been eign telling you about. They say, Viewer, and wind of regular in "The camera is the ideal arm of consciousness else take pictures? its acquisitive mood," the idea that taking Sontag writes, floating a is For the many the world toward barbarism. from images listing feel real and to some extent of us, however, those Pluto moments to explain us, maybe even idealize us. promise On the other hand the pictures we go back to look at again?the ones I do?are the ones that make a different sense than the one we like good poems: there is a making. They work us a A in of mine drives back. friend that them, puzzle, something in his visited twenties and took a who teaches Wordsworth Italy a narrow street that tapers crookedly. He hung it in a hall picture of thought we were it stayed into his forties, a framed haunt of his house, where was he but because he was behind the camera that said there, ing of he was also not there. It is a picture, hanging near his bathroom, way or so my fancy leads me to believe. runs through chemistry and glass and pret that combine the two to create images. Janet Malcolm his own disappearance, The camera's history ty engines in Diana and Nikon writes are basically paintings in that photographs in their sense of mythically ordered human space their composition, and time. That description ital manipulation. Leonardo tends to look even da Vinci invented truer today with dig the camera obscura?a a pinhole on one side that captured and projected light and onto A back. few the later, Johann Kepler gave the box years images its name, and in 1611 he laid down the laws by which single and the lenses would images, and explained why project compound box with not become permanent images would image was reversed. These a chemist with named until a French Joseph Niepce, working an fixed mediocre painter named Jacques Daguerre, accidentally 82 iodized silver in contact with mercury image on plates coated with left open all night). The first fuzzy photo fumes (a jar accidentally was in 1826?a device for aiding artists, as the original made graph camera tions. obscura aided An like Vermeer painters named William with Talbot their composi discovered the Englishman images we call "negatives" also by accident: his cat upset an extract of nutgalls on some half-exposed papers coated with sil ver chloride. reversed So accident after Matthew is also part of the interior history of photography. And Brady, who carried his darkroom with him to the Civil War, and George Eastman, who manufactured pact roll-film and called it "Kodak," possibly because the first com the word was a little it sounded odd and because like the click of a shutter, the take as a national birthright grew. The nerdy hobby we presently machines made now are remarkable but they could just as easily be ("Iwas here") or at Black Angus spray cans at the Roman Coliseum as such they are unnatural manifesta ("I am a year older")?and tions of the liberal glorification of the subject, of me. If everyone is now entitled or other, we are quick to an oral history for something at the absurdist point that is nevertheless hard to deny, ly arriving given national rhetoric, that all lives are glorious and original. to recognize and not very middle That they are not is unpleasant that are the most class to allow. But running against interesting century which have been, with few excep photos of the twentieth of of strangers, of failures and the soon-to tions, photos outsiders, so easily connected to The Kennedy clan, so photogenic, be-deleted. a line of, say, Egyptian sun gods, of Praxitilean destiny, exists most and some official White House shots of a presi ly as home movies dent deep in thought. The more estimable work of photography has to the soulful tradition of Dorothea Lange and Walker belonged Evans, those Depression-era gatherers of faces and clapboard, grit and floorboard and misery who carried into the field an Aristotelian conviction is itself pleasing. that the accurate representation But they worked with large, heavy cameras, slow lenses and slow film. If they somehow The life they captured was still and sculptural. froze the running dogs of capitalism on their glass plates there were no actual dogs in their images, A decade after the Depression ic world was suddenly at least none ajar with that moved. and World War motion?granular, II the photograph speed-happy, 83 time-driven. convulsively Robert Frank's work?an Australian cine told me recently that he found Frank "incomprehensi matographer the on-the-road ble, like a miracle"?was probably unlikely without same time that In of and Walker. around the 1954-55, Lange example on was Tri-X New William Klein Yorkers black-and-white shooting film, and the same year the young Elvis Presley entered Sam Philips' won a Union Avenue the Swiss-born studio, photographer to drive across the US in search of lost America. Jack Guggenheim to this seminal book, titled The Kerouac wrote the introduction Americans, and he placed Frank "in a used car" not unlike the one Kerouac in. Frank took pearly images of forlorn and forgot a perfect focus, and rapidly, and with lack of applied method. described his Janet Malcolm traveled ten people, scandalous often without this way in Diane and Nikon: "He scrupulously shed all the of his pictorial predecessors?composition, design, tonal bal as if a kid had that look ance, print quality?and produced pictures a taken them while eating Popsicle and then had them developed technique values and printed at the drugstore." Frank used his camera as a fugitive tool, Sontag's in its acquisitive mood," consciousness but without In stony-eyed judgment. the most remark arguably in The Americans able picture is also, above accident of light?the there cast pallor fluorescent by all, the deadly an overhead of language light, he could predicted or arranged. not body have Titled New Bar?Gallup, it is an image of the in a tilting frame. haphazard simply Mexico, The holds the eye picture because we can imagine that the little cowboy standing there never knew, will possi bly never know, that he has been captured, remember being 84 not may in the bar or "ideal arm of her sense of what he was thinking when he crossed Robert Frank's path. But more than the subject's disposition is the look of the picture: the at its edges gives the picture a funny look: turn the picture on its side and it could be the light cracking into the opened lid of darkness a coffin. Kerouac said the book gave Frank "rank among the tragic Kerouac is wrong about a lot of things, but he he wrote that. poets of the world." was all money when When Frank photographs an empty table near an overexposed about the on, he is saying something window, of light (like Vermeer) and the awful facticity of simple beneficence too: the human moment God is in Frank's details, (like Vermeer). next to a tv there are numerous signs turned shots of in The Americans of the various American tomb stones, massive boxes, gas pump in Vermeer could point to a Protestant an unstained window is the plain light of rev salvation?juke background light. Details world view in which In Frank, light seeks no human figure but bursts hugely at the window and appears to say "life" against the frozen televised man on the television. Were a face of the the figure on television elation. to say something have managed startling, irrational about America, deep, poignant religion, tele at once, in a rush. (The photograph is vision, and emptiness?all i titled Restaurant?US leaving Columbia, South Carolina.) preacher, Frank would and wholly 85 or Walker to photo Evans made it their work a come to in if had time. Frank brief know, graph people they not of of bits and the pieces landscape, personalities grabbed blight ed by an economy that had turned against them but by personality Dorothea Lange So obsession, itself?by by the turmoil of dreams not achieved. will look into camera's where the lens, already Lange's people and trusting, who the woman stands behind it, Frank knowing, act of to haphazard objects and to the improvisational or or cars a car from them from trains, passing pulled over swiping to the side of the road. gravitates In On little patience for these ontological pursuits. we can like Arbus?and Photography, she argues that photographers and Merritt here?are include Frank, Klein, Mann, Hare, Winogrand, of "the Surrealist bluff," creating cheap imitations of dream exponents Sontag has life for the express purpose of upsetting middle class audiences. But cheap imitation isn't Surrealism, which aimed at a better take on life. In A History of Private Life, Paul Veyne remarks of the portrait of a Pompeiian couple from the second century a.D., "this portrait, so like a snapshot, their identity by depicting establishes them . . . are not flesh and blood people caught at some arbitrary to a soci in their lives, but individualized types belonging as both natural and ideal." ety that conceived of itself is with the that one of the possible pur writing assumption Veyne these moment poses of higher art is to reveal the truth about individual lives, indi I return to my snapshot from so long ago I vidual citizens. When can see that my brother is no longer quite my brother, my mother not really the woman in the window. has made The photograph but figures. Time has done else, not individuals something it. that too, separate from the photograph, but in agreement with Yet they are people I recognize: they are not exactly "figures," not are not in an ideal sense, and but individualized yet, certainly they them sense. They are family but probably more so they are to me as a way to think interesting design: over time they are more is not about time. My brother, alive today with wife and children, not in Veyne's even a little The culture like the shut-eyed boy in the plaid car coat. of the century just finished, is the century less of T.S. Eliot Stein and Marcel Duchamp; Gertrude to see, 86 as many people have begun than of and Virginia Woolf of Franz Kafka and Andy Warhol. begins Time Don DeLillo, a late- twentieth century master of transience, his slender novel, The Body Artist, with this paragraph: seems to pass. The world happens, unrolling into moments, and you stop to glance at a spider pressed to its web. There is a quickness of light and a sense of things outlined precisely and streaks of running luster on the bay. You know more surely who you are on a strong bright day leaf is stabbed with after a storm self-awareness. when the smallest The wind makes falling sound in the pines and the world comes into being, and the spider rides the wind-swayed web. a irreversibly, may be the most lyrical observer of the "moment" we have the Zen whirl of the plain world, holds right now. He acknowledges it up to his eye until the surface offers up its own shape to him? DeLillo and its own voice. spider web, his figure for "things outlined the hinge for a world of sunlit blur: the "wind The is also precisely," is the fatal chain web" swayed link over the world that so appalled design is slight, the web's Frost in "Design." But for DeLillo a tidy corner of precision in a day big enough to tear it away. its tide-pull irony, the sentence And: "Time seems to pass." With same to in the relation flux as photography does. A stands Robert bluff? Henri Cartier-Bresson, Surrealist of streets and people finest photographer as a young man by the French impressed poets, and by Freud's work on dreams. as the widely regarded in the western world, was Surrealists, the Symbolist in his most Steiner observed The twentieth century, George recent work, the sign of Dada, Tristan Tzara's occurred under as evidenced by movement of rage against the demise of rationalism seem lest the the trench warfare of World War I. Lest that extreme, notion that Marcel Duchamp years bring fear to your heart, texts of the century?Ulysses, is mental remember king of the last hundred that the central high-water The Waste Land, The Cantos, The B. The Alice Toklas, Interpretation of Dreams, The Trial, To Autobiography of or all built around forgotten, the Lighthouse, Godard's Weekend?are sense in hollow fragments, Percy Bysshe Shelley's nearly forgotten, that the mighty "Ozymandias" and fading. negligible and the grand in the modern age are 87 as I've been describing it is not just the aggressively "real" that shakes her head at, and which she Sontag strip-mined as too to sense. the cynical work of fakers make good It regards lazy owes something to the irrational?to the favor of chance and for Photography tune. As accident he writes upset a rationalist with its weird art. It's what John Ashbery means, improves in Flow Chart about the frame: such itwill intuition that I think, when A hound-shaped fragment of cloud rises abruptly to the impressive center of the heavens only to fold itself behind itself and fade into the distance even as it advances bearing news of the channel coast. That is the archetypal kind of we're development interested in here at the window must continually. Something be happening beyond the point where and become mere fragments. But to find the girls move past they turn out what that is, we should be forced to relinquish this vantage point, so deeply fought for, hardly won. to the photogra about is comparable Ashbery writes as where it the world well be bursting frame, may pher's beyond into "fragments," like the girls. Ashbery worries about relinquish ing the "vantage point, so / deeply fought for, hardly won" but his has always that that's where the fun is. The writing suggested The window in electing its multiple promise photography makes temporary por tals of entry into the world is the promise of the discovery of the the window. fragments outside once more. not cap I have a strong memory, My photograph, out tured on film, of my mother of the house coming shortly after the picture is snapped and yelling hard at me as my brother was about to snap my picture, mid-chin-up?something about my thir teen-year-old's whole house. 88 weight pulling down the awning and fucking up the