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Why is that every man that enter a prison correctional
System goes in as a gangster and comes home a transformed
Man except, that’s what it suppose to be happening.
name
My
Is Laduu. I went into Correctional system in January 5, 1982
And my discharge date was February 6, 1989, for
Manslaughter. In those days a man can get a dollar and it was
So quiet and squeaky clean you would call your crime a secret
Mission. Some folks could not sympathize the crime rate but
Was empathize to some drug dealing situations depending on
The person. If you were not one of those belligerent ass dudes
You can get away with your charming ass that’s what those old
Folks say. I use to get away with whole lot of shit until I killed
That crazy ass Vernon.
whole
This dude was a headache to the
Hood. So many people wanted to get at him but they said let
The other dude does. He wasn’t worth prison. Me my dumb
ass
On the other hand I couldn’t shut my pride down. Let me tell
What this muscle bound ass freak did to me. One day he was
With his girl in the store. She wanted a 2 liter soda, and was
Short by what the shit cost. Even the store owner Roberto said
He was out of his mind. How was he going to go to the chink?
L
restart and buy the food and come in here a muscle a soda?
This fool Vernon see me coming in the store and when ever you
seen Vernon your heart shits. How you gone change old thing
you use to do things. When ever he asks me for anything my
scary ass would give it to him. New Year’s resolution can get
you into some shit. He goes my brave ass all of a sudden,
“Nah…nah Vernon that shit is over with. I am not paying
your way through life no more. My New Years resolution is to
stop taking care of you bums.” Why did I say that, I hear
him?
say something to his girl then I was I the back of me uncle
whip asking everyone what happen with a bloody face. “Don’t
worry cus, just forget about you News year resolution,” My
cousin Elvin was saying when we were going back upstairs. At
this time it was only 11:57p.m., we walked in the door and
pop’s was exiting. He looked at me and said, “Boy what the
fuck on New Years eve? Your luck is bad. I be back your
momma wants me to be the first man to walk through this door
for the New Year.” I just looked at him like fuck you. I
wasn’t
over for far. When 12:00 came in I was the family moment for
the moment. Every time some one was wishing some one
Happy New Years over Bell Atlantic, “That got damn Laduu,
done went our the and got knock out and even earned a black
eye out the shit fucking with Vernon ole stupid ass.” I stood in
the bathroom looking at my eye and then said, “oh hell no?
Then one the 1st day of the year. Owe this suck Vernon is
going to get it?” I snuck into my parent’s room and got my
father’s big gun. I don’t remember what it was but it looks like
the police old pistol. “I got ten emotions of a silver back
gorilla, and by 2:00p.m., Vernon came out the house to go to
the store I hopped right out my hopty and hit that dude and
made sure he was gone. I was off the meters, scared to death
ran home. When I walked in the door just like every other kid
moms would have said, “nigga were the fuck you went? Boy
your daddy gone of kicks your ass.” Shit I knew life was over
before it started, I got retarded then. I back pops down when I
see that flexible AFX track. “OH hell no you not whipping me
on New Years!”
“Oh so you gone roll on me with my own gun? You know
what play your position and get the fuck out of here!” As I
started to walk to my room, “Oh no big mutherfucker first put
my gun down. Turn your ass around. Get your ass out, you
isn’t buy shit in this house take anything,” pops said.
“When you get locked up you get a phone call, this is an
emergency I need a phone call. My moms took my side and
said, “Barry that’s my son, I love him regardless and yes he
needs to learn. I refuse to let him go out here with out making
a phone calls to find somewhere to stay.” That was the ruling
because mom’s always win. My little brother Arron at the time
was crying. We never were a part before. I and my little
brother were so tight I prayed we where twins, I even got at my
moms one time for beating him. I love that little nigga. Pops
wanted me gone so I had to be gone. After a few visits he
understood why I did what I did certain things. Little did I
know I was going to be his mentor? Now I understand
everything ma was saying, because of my bad influence, Arron
going to be a band influence and it was true. By 15 my little
brother was seeing a pitch. His attitude was ruthless and
dangerous like a real live cougar. And then became hungry
when he found the street. I never really understand why I was
being blamed for his bullshit. Nigga I was in jail when this
nigga started wilding out. Mom’s said he didn’t start wild out
till I went up state. I could not talk to him my crazy ass put a
block on the phone soon as I copped out. He knew what it was
he did a stretch that’s why he really didn’t get to mad. He
understood I was a product of his cloning. To be honest I
think Arron had more of daddy ways. And daddy was no angel
in his era. He just doesn’t want to understand we have to
bump our head a few times before we catch on too.
That night I ended up going over Elvin’s crib. His girl
was there and I was right on time. That night I met Cynthia.
She had this pretty little cute mice faces. The way here mouth
and teeth were shaped. She was cute and a little short
something. Feeling the kid Laduu. Elvin called me in the
kitchen. “Cus your right on time I need you to hold me down.
Pop’s let me get the cri for to night for self so I called Keisha
over. She thinks she slick though she bought her cousin so
she
doesn’t have to give me no ass.”
“So what you want me to do?”
“Hold me down stupid, get at her cousin. You can get her
she’s a little hot as. She like orgies maybe you can convince
her into convincing her cousin. We can switch bitches.”
“Nigga, Cynthia is not your girl. You go to let me fuck
your broad?”
“Y equal self Lord I don’t love them hoes,” Elvin said
smiling and extending his hand for confirmation? I reach out
and agreed. “So listen dude this is how we going to do this.
You go in there tell here you cousin likes her. But he shy and
said would you come in the kitchen and rap a taste with him?”
“Copy she will be he in a minute,” and Elvin left the
thirsty hoping his cousin plan works. When he sat on the
couch he tossed Cynthia the pitch. Her sexy little ass bounced
up heading for the kitchen. She was just as thirsty to get some
dick. Who want to be bored sitting up in a couple face. You
should have seen Elvin’s smile it said thank you. Then turn to
his
girl with the same smile. Your cock block bitch is gone. In
the
kitchen Laduu acted no where next to shy. So as she said,
“What good?”
“You, let me holler at you for a second?” Ole girl
followed my command she was on my lap talking shit. “Whets
going on shy boy?”
“A shy nigga with hard on. So what it do pretty mama?”
“I was waiting for your sex chocolate ass to talk my
words. Where we at kitchen, bathroom, bedroom?”
“I see you a little freaky one that likes to get it right?
“Right…..so less words whets good you going to give to a
little hoe?”
“Wow I like your style. Don’t make me fall in love?”
“That’s your choice? Don’t expect me to be faithful?”
That let a homier know she’s all about here paper and if you
put your hands on her deal with the aftermath. A sole
business
women?”
“Okay and with that let’s take this to bedroom. I got
sometime for you big mouth ass.” As they head for the bed
room. “I told you Shavon your little innocent cousin looks
innocent. Her like ass she a freak,” said Elvin.
“You on birth control,” I asked shorty.
“I don’t know come in me and find out in a few months,”
Crystal said in sarcasm. Laduu did not response just
parachuted. Straight into some yellow curly hair pussy.
Mouth first.
Before Laduu rang Elvins bell he was stressed out.
Crystal red lips cuchy murder the stress Laduu was dealing
with. She put that Vernon hit over there. When it was time to
go the stress was right back. Because 4 days later, life known
for Barry Drayton aka Laduu life was about to be over but still
daylight at the end of the tunnel. That Vernon shit caught up
to me.
CHAPTER2
If you was to put Vernon name in the dead mans
dictionary it would say miserable. That’s what it was for the
last four days. I found myself sleeping on roof tops. I had no
girl, my life my family wasn’t fucking with me. Only person
that held me down for those four days was my moms who was
sneaking my in and out the house and Science who use to
bring me food when pop’s was in the house. I was saved when
Ms. Betty came up on the roof to see if any dope fiends had
overdosed instead she found my black ass cold and scared.
“Laduu is that you, she said waking me?
“Yes Ms.Betty I am sorry.”
“Boy why your ass sleeping up here?”
“Ms. Betty you don’t know about Vernon?”
“Son don’t tell me you family put you out for that?
Everybody knows you didn’t do that. That’s not you
motivation, killing, murder. Hell no. Son you hungry?”
“Mama I sure am?”
“Boy when the last you eat?”
“I am not completely alone my mom’s and Science is
helping me.
I just don’t have a place to sleep and bath.”
“I figured that because I smell you. What about big
Barry?”
“Ms. Betty he’s the one who put me out.”
“What Barry thinks he don’t do nothing wrong, well he
won’t be knocking on this door for his nymph dick game until
we find some where for you to go.”
“Thank you Ms. Betty.” When my pop’s found out Ms.
Betty was letting me stay there. You know he did some trifling
shit and called the law on me. So when his ass got murder
while was upstate I had the chance to attend his funeral or
wake. I did not even entertain that there corny ass show.
Who
the fuck did not hate my dad in some of his bullshit ways. If I
would have went I would have pissed in his casket because I
knew I
was not going to get to his grave to do.
That night my pop’s was on his way to Ms. Betty house
and yes, she had that talk with him about family and sticking
together. You think he cave a fuck. He was the one who sent
five’0 to Ms. Betty’s crib so he can so call cheat in peace.
When I got to the PSA3 prescient I just knew life for me, Barry
Martin in school and Laduu on the streets were over. All I had
to do was stick to the script and keep my mouth shut.
Especially regard their bullshit deals to snitch on good
nagger’s was not going to happen.
Once I was arranged and a bail was set. Rikers Island
became my shelter until I was warehouse upstate to begin.
Three months in the shelter I got a letter from Elvin. “Whets
good my dude I love you and miss you. So that you know that
that entire sap rap is not going to happen. The reason I am
writing you this letter is because I think you need to know you
got another problem on your hands. Home girl is pregnant,
saying its your and she’s keeping it. You need to call her B! I
drop the letter on the bunk and on my next slot time I called
Crystal. “Hello, can I please speak to Crystal?”
“Hold on I will go get her.” AS I waited I WAS LIKE
WOW, ONE MINUTE THIS BITCH WANTS NOTHING BUT
A ONE NIGHT STAND, NOW SHE IS PREGNANT. What
could be on the Agenda, “Hello?????’
“Crystal, this Laduu. You told my cousin Elvin for me to
call you?”
“Oh Laduu how are you doing. I heard about what
happen. I am sorry, but you got another problem.”
“I know you pregnant.”
“Damn your cousin Elvin has a big mouth he was to just
tell you to call me. I wanted to tell you. Laduu I know I said
what I said and I don’t want to be selfish. I am not ready for a
family right now. That night just force me, and you in to a
union. I believe you can be a good man besides I don’t want
two baby fathers so Laduu would you fall in love with me?”
“What kind of question is that to ask a person? First you
want to be a freak and clarified it. Now you’re pregnant, and I
am the father. You need to look into the case because I might
not be the daddy.”
“Yes La I like to fuck but I do protect myself. I was
felling
you for a while before you got it. Did you protect your self so?
consider your self a canidate. In time we will find out. I
thought you would be different. Anyway I am not having an
abortion. I am naming him Barry but not your last name so
you don’t have to worry besides I like the name Barry. I talk
to
you later,” and hung up the phone made. With the rest of my
slot time I call Elvin.
Before my hearing was to begin I started having thoughts.
Life, Crystal and this new seed. So I asked the courts for
mercy. Judge Bruno who residing over the matters accepted
my apology. Along with the immediate family except Joseph,
known to street as J.D… He was determining to see me fry.
The
judge although sentence me to five to fifteen. Much better
than life on the back. J.D. wanted me to miserable though.
He stepped up and calls Crystal and told her regardless of the
results that are going to be his little man. For that Crystal did
that bid with him regardless if I was the father or not.
My first parole board was almost critically acclaimed
cause they felt I have not rehabilitate enough. How the fuck
you go to rehabilitee murder. Just don’t do it again. The
last two years assured, murder was the last thing on my mind.
These folks finally let me see the end of that tunnel on
February 6, 1989, they released me from Greene Correctional
Facility. The only thing rehabilitee about this shit was jail
taught me how to be an independent man, some of the moral
would make me a good father. Better than the shit that rose
me.
On the way back North home he found a new friend.
Carol was the name, outspoken white women on her way to
New York for a seminar. This seminar was in regards to the
youth. I didn’t realize to the last minute this was the same
lady…that was in the gym talking to the crazy ass adolescents.
“You’re the lady from Greene. Last night you gave a lecture in
Greene Correctional Facility?”
“Yes it was me but aren’t you a little to old to be at that
lecture?”
“I was part of the set up team so I was allowed to see the
lecture. You were good I hope them kids took in that
message?”
“Yeah those kids can get the message all day but it starts
with you. The streets look up to these so call O.K. ‘s as there
mentors. That’s what the rehabilitation the same parole
deuces
you for every time you going front of them. If they feel you
will just become a product of your environment they will not let
you go back there. They will keep your ass right here in there
warehouse.”
“And you’re not lying about that. I saw it for myself.
They
deuced me once.”
“Now DO YOU CARE TO COME BACK AFTER THE
STRESS?”
“HELL NO,” as the bass filled my vocal cores. I was
dead
feeling that answer.
That ride home was a ride some what like I guess when
Jesus was on the road to the crucifix. You know much shit he
had on his mind before he died, well I got so many things on
my mind before I get to home. The thing that was on my mind
real hard was little Barry. They say my absence contributed to
his way at the age of 7. From the reading of the letters my son
was a little bad ass. Especially in school when other kids pops
came to their events and my black ass wasn’t there. He feels
so
alone he craved for the father figure and Crystal had her
structure. She did not allow any other man to enter her life.
His God ma, Elvins girl, excuse wife is his god ma. Now a
rich
Accountant on Wall Street. That boy needs for nothing and
Elvin either. One thing I love that dude to cause he play a
figure to Barry. He made sure Barry never forgot about me
but he refuses to bring Barry on the visits. To be on the up I
don’t think Elvin was feeling this prison setting. His visit was
like 3 or 4 months apart.
It seems like God loves to predict time to be other than
perfect. While I was walking down Lex”s who do I run into.
That sexy dime I have been in love with for the last seven
joints. My boo-boo was looking good. “Hey Miss you got a
man, can I holla?” She turns and looked at me with that look
I have no time for this shit now then caught her and said,
“Ahhh….La,” and hugged and squeezed the breath out of
me!” The pressure busts a pipe. Made me say I love you for
the first time to anyone other than moms. Yes and I meant it.
“Bay, you’re right on time. You son is having a career day
surprise him and come and lie. Make him feel like he finally
has a father.”
“Cyn I don’t want to lie to that boy.”
“Your not lying, when you was in them mountains, you
worked as a law clerk in the library. Use that job description
so he can just feel the difference. The difference to have a
father,” pleading to me to do it.
“You don’t have to plead to me about it. I love both my
babies, I got you.”
“Thank you babe. Come on lets hurry get to his school.
You know your baby is in the second grade now. He is very
smart but a pain in the behind. Oh yeah by the way he is your
twin, I bet you Elvin isn’t telling you that?”
That jumped a
puzzle in me I think I was missing a child to start life off right.
I went in there and did my thing, I impressed a lot of the
so called brilliant cock suckers. My son I guess now was the
prince of the school. It even lands me a nine to five. Good
look Cyn that’s why you’re my boogie for life. Straight off the
rock.
You know just looking at little Barry trot down the street
made me feel like a made man alone. “You know Cyn, I want
to thank you for giving me a reason to live? On my way here
all I could think about was a son to build model trains , to go
out in the courts and toss the ball around instead of that
poison. I took a breathe and feeled brand new. The way I
explained to my Cyn about the partial resents of the streets if
there was no start I would not be in a beautiful situation.
“Cyn, I don’t know, if you really know Barry bought me a
life.”
“Okay Barry bought you life and you seem to as seen the
other side and that so called straighten you up Science has a
life of the streets, an O.G. of the streets at 17 that isn’t life.
Easily provoked and Lil Barry is up in the smoke?”
“Girl what you mean, I just finished 84 months up in the
mountains. Science is my blood, and I will only go back for
his blood. If you can’t understand there is three people that
could put me back in that can, Lil Barry, my momma, and
Science. I am not going to put my life on nothing but that.
By
the way I apologize if I offended you in any way!”
“No offense, that’s your blood I respect that. You need to
know I am not being offensive my love. Science is going to
suck you right in. That’s all I am trying to explain to you?
Capish,” with here oh so sexy smile.
CHAPTER 3
I should not have spoken so soon, 2 o’clock in the
morning I am coming from my momma house. They gave me
a little comes home gathering of close friends and family
welcoming me back home. And who do I run into Christine.
Vernon older brother. At first I didn’t know how to act
because
I didn’t know how he was going to act. When I looked into his
eyes as he looked at me. All I could see was the black eye and
cold heart death. I appeal to my Lord above, the same time he
was reaching for his gun the police was pulling up in the Getty
gas station. Some one answered my pray’s? I was save by life
terms. It was good Crystal had no knowledge of Christian’s
identity. She looked him dead in the face and didn’t know
what the fuck was going on. She didn’t even notice he was
reaching she just notice he was staring at me never know what
that reach around the back was for.
I couldn’t wait for the sun to rise, I was at Science house
nervous as hell. Why my little brother I do not know, he was
the only person I could call to help me with this situation any
way. “Damn Brenda, who the hell is that banging like that?”
As she walked back in the bedroom, “Your brother looking for
you,” falling back in the bed.
“Well what the fuck he wants,” nudging Brenda?
“I don’t know you ask him?”
“Why the fuck you let him in?”
“He’s your brother, now leave me the f alone!” Science
got up and walked into the kitchen as he glances at me angry.
I got him up at 7 in the morning it better be important? I
looked over at him and said, “A matter of life and death, bro
it’s important?”
“Yeah it always be, whets good bro,”as he walked over to
me and gave me a hug? “Guess who I ran into last night
Science, Christian.”
“Where?”
“At the Getty last night on the point.”
“And nothing transpired?”
“What you think. He was about to draw down but some
cops came in a disturbed his act. Now I see as what you was
saying yesterday Science I isn’t built for that?”
“Momma said you were the wimp of the litter. Me, she
don’t know where I got it from but my crazy ass was built to be
a tank so go home I got this. Besides you just came home I
don’t want you to see fire works till the fourth of July.” I was
curious about what Science had up his sleeves? I haven’t seen
this boy in seven years, yet I have seen enough to let me know
he is cold blooded and unmerciful just like that fucking
Christian. See Christian should have unstood his brother was
a rough bully, turn extortionist. Robbing the poor to support
the rich. Me and my dudes put blood sweat and tear in the
streets but wasn’t gangster like he was didn’t deserve to eat
properly. So we had to pay punk dues or get it in. That meant
you duel or die.
I consider that’s some cruel shit, then black
my eyes on the first day of the New Year. Listen I was tired of
paying punk dudes, so you get angry and black my eye. On the
first day of New Year. Fuck you. Fuck You. Your deserved it.
“You know Science I really isn’t with this violence stuff.
Momma was right. So I think I am going to see how you gone
Handle this, nah you know what its time to prove a theoretical
question to be wrong. I am not pussy I don’t know what ever
one is thinking? So how you want to do this?”
“Okay gangster overnight! If you fell like a man, I am
right back. Let me get my phone and car keys.” By this time
Brenda noisy ass was right back in my face this time wide a
woke. This time questioning about Christine. “I should of
figured that’s why your punk ass would be over here this
early.” Which she was right, it’s literately true some people
can’t chew gum and talk at the same time like me. I always
bite the side of my mouth. “So what that’s what blood is for.”
“And you’re a 100% that’s why we got you ?” The way
Brenda spoke was like her and Science knew I would be over
there like they shared words last night on so for seeking
system. Regardless who knew what this was no time to play
big
boy.
Some dudes from the hood made it seem like it was a task
to touch this dudes Christian. Science although never thought
a
second on it because he knew Christian fucked up when he
took Elisa to his crib while his wife was out of town. Elisa was
a little short Spanish dame from the hill up on 146th and
Broadway. Little momma was something else. Her head
game
along with a good satin stutter move got a lot of us fella
twisted. This girl could break families she sure enough broke
the code two months before I came home. 384 Elm St.
Yonkers N.Y., wow, Science got it done, “Big bro what’s my
name. I got it 384 Elm St. Up in Yonkers. Shit we might run
into a couple of them Ruff Ryder boys.”
“Hold on Science for a moment, isn’t that rich part of
Yonkers?”
“Yeah you can say a ways out, take a nap we will wake
you when we get there. Uhm… he taking about rich folk. He
isn’t know damn near all street peddlers some how, some times
get rich,” science said while looking at Brenda.
“So what happen to your dumb ass. I see we still living in
the hood.”
“Nigga I am a prime minister in our neighborhood. Were
the hell could go?” That’s when I looked at my dumb as
brother and said to, “ jail.” That’s when it just dawned on me
I was so wrapped up in Science shit like Crystal said it was
bond to happen. If she would just look at the bigger pictures
would realize what was bound was for the good. Our future,
little Barry’s future. I just hope I make it back out this alive.
When we turned of the Saw mill Pkwy the scenery
alone spelled rich. Man I didn’t know Christian was getting
like this. He was out of town moves, in town moves.
Christian
is trying to get it all.
This nigga loves to cheat on his wife so much, he can’t
wait to send her on vacation. She can’t wait to go to get away
from his miserable Dominican ass. Besides she gets to do her
thing on the low. It was just fucked up this cheating session
had consequence. She was about to lose his cheating ass.
Just
like Elisa said his wife is on vacation. He so lame and bored
he doesn’t know to do. He sniffed so much blow last night his
fucking ass couldn’t even get a hard on. The thought of that
was just number one. She was tight even though she couldn’t
not stand this mutherfucker, this nigga was a good fuck and
she couldn’t get that last fuck. I can feel her miseries a wet
pussy and fat pockets she still a win girl. Good dick comes
right around the corner again. When we pulled up it was nice
and dark. Where the fuck we going to park at every bodies in
there driveway. If we park in dudes driveway some noisy ass
neighbor’s going to call this car out and science wasn’t for
that. They figured it out fast, why don’t I take the car down to
the Amoco’ s by the Pkwy and wait for him to call. That’s
when I thought they were up to so bullshit, “Man ho you
going to calL?”
“From his crib dumb ass.”
“Nah you going to be the dumb ass for making the last
call to your phone.”
“Bro I got a alibi already. He calls me to discuss some
future business together. Were we can both be lucrative and
get out this shit.”
“Okay best to believe I will do no responding. Just
listening…..homeboy?”
Like clockwork science said, “The window in the back of
the house facing the woods will be un locked. When we
touched there bingo it was on time. Just let the rest of this
fiesta is on time. As we creped up the hallway your boy
Christian was buck ass naked sleep….In a fertile position.
Brenda crazy ass goes over there and taps him on his back with
that shit big ass gun she loves.”
“Desert Eagle,” some lame ass dude in Science crib . I
guess one of his entourage. Screamed out. “Yeah joy that
what it is. Good looking that’s why when them boys start
eyeballing me.
Your going to be the first person on my mind
cause you don’t forget shit.” I knew Joy felled offended but
couldn’t do shit. Then politely continued, “Now Brenda calls
me to the room and we find some good grib to hold a nigga for
a long time.”
that
What he didn’t include was he really meant
he came up on two birds and seventy-two thousand in cash,
“something a lot of these so called gangster can’t do!” Then
lost it over night.
Three days later his daughter sees the cars in the drive
way she decides to stop by. She uses her set of keys rather
than
disturb him he might be resting up while her mom was out.
She screamed out his name several time and proceeded up
stairs. Seen the mist of the shower running and creped over to
the bathroom, “dad your in here?’ No response but some one
was in there sitting on the floor. She started cry, then open the
shower down where she observed her father sitting in the
shower with one shot to the head that has bloated because of
the lengthiness of the water running over his face. It made the
death looks painful. Christians daughter walked out to the
hallway and pulled out her cell phone and sat on the floor
wiping. Calling her moms telling her what happen. That
condition to cut a good time short for bad news to be redeemed.
It seemed he was so good at his lies, he had his wife believing
J.D., and Christian was step brother. The first thing she did
was calling him. For real and these two jokers met in a drug
deal.
When J.D heard he want to tell here he been knew. Then told
her the truth, “Mrs. Parker, can I?…My real name is Cedris
Mc Millan I was simply a Federal Officer that has been
investigating your husband.” She dropped to her knees not
knowing what to expect next , “So I should expect next to be
in you custody?”
“Nah Mrs. Palmer I think you’ve been through enough,
besides you don’t know anything. You really believed your
husband in his life had won a inheritance and made a grave
investment future. Mrs. Palmer, do you know why your
husband married you. You where one of the fortunate one to
get pregnant. Carry his life name on. He had to marry you to
get Lesia his last name and look good in the eyes of his
parents. Once it was acknowledge he gave two shits about you
nor Lesia. If spending his doe would keep yall happy and his
parents of his back. He didn’t care what you two did. He
knew
all about you and your little boy friends, he just never approved
of some of them.”
“Are those the one who disappear you believe?”
“I have to go and do paper work. I’ll just say this stop
accepting abuse.” As she hung up the phone and cried, how
could some one know so much and not her. What type of wife
was she, how can she tell her daughter her father never loved
her. When Pamela Evans first met Christine in the disco that
night all she was to him was a sex symbol, the pregnancy she
thought would make him a change man. He never changed,
and she enters the world she promised to never be involved
with. Just to make sure here daughter got something good at
this she accepted his proposal, and entered a life of glamour
for nothing. Now that it was over reality stuck and she
overdosed of sleeping pills with her husband ashes draped in
her arms.
Mamma always told us to always look over everything we
clean up because what you may miss may come back and
haunt you like voo doo. It did just that because the hate and
envy Science had for Christian bit him in the back like a snake
and paralyzed him for years to come.
CHAPTER 6
Once Science was indicted that’s when I started to receive
word that he needs to see me. I really wasn’t suppose be on no
visiting floors knowing I am parole. If this shit get to my P.O.,
well here’s that bridge again I have to cross cause he’s my
brother. When I got to the MCC visiting floor it was different
from the state. Now the note said I am the only one he can
trust, here lies nothing but booth. Conversation is subjected to
monitoring. Science wants to the word to here what he had to
say today. The death penalty can scare the shit out of anyone.
Now the City of New York is fair to say Science order three
homicides. All gang related. Followed with the street saying
Science is the boss. See the real boss is this little pitch name
Johnny. See Johnny is a little short Peurto Rican guy who the
coke has did it damage. The reason Johnny is a live to this
day
some body in his blood line runs the cartel.
So he gets it dirt
cheap on the arm. He loads half on to Christian for a upfront
price and to Science on the arm for a pay late deal. To me the
deal comes out better than the buy any way. He would not
fuck
with Christian on the arm. Rumor was Johnny doesn’t like
him just his business. He’s not a friend of mines Johnny told
many client. He went out as far to call Christian a ruffless
snake.
That’s when Science told me on that visit, “see about two
days before you step back on deck from up top. Johnny calls
me up with a no win situation. Just got do it. I only had a
four day window period. To keep it evens a favor for a favor.
Get rid of big mouth, flamboyant Christian, and he will be my
connect for life along with the LES. Science seeing the
expansion and I jump. With limited time left on the clock I
needed a smart driver. You showed up on his doorstep caught
up in the expected Christian shit. I just didn’t know how
long
it was going to take. You just get there. Me and Brenda knew
how we were going to do it. We just needed that drive to get us
out of there. If I didn’t do it he would send some one after me.
Even though dudes like Christian deserved what he got. I do
have feelings. If I have to go to death row for Christian, its
cool. Them other murders I had nothing to do with. Get me
of
death row bro?” I really couldn’t believe it my own blood used
me. Its forgiven because blood is thicker than water. That
left
me scheme.
CHAPTER 7
Back uptown in Harlem while Crystal and I lied
embraced, a brief conversation aroused, “You know Crystal I
need to tell you, you might be psychic cause what you said
about me being sucked in was true.”
“What are you talking about?”
“The world of Science. Don’t you know he used me as
his
reason to chase that boy Christian down. Come to find out it
was never about me it was about his expansion.
“Oh how fortunate is that, I guess that’s one of those
bridges that’s blood line driven.” I though she was complicate
the matters by argue about shit I already know. I felt bashful
so I just like a little boy I went to the bathroom. On the way to
the bathroom he gets a call from Brenda, “Hello Laduu?”
“Yes? Who is this,” he didn’t even know how to use a cell
phone now own on. Difficulties. “This is Brenda, one of
Science friends just called me with some important words.
How could you trust him?”
“Cause me and this dude and husband banged many time
together? I know Chavos will not betray his flag poppy,” not
knowing she was on speaker when Crystal blurted out, “okay
boo, boo lets not start that Spanish poppy shit. I swear to God
Johnny was like a puppet master when it came to illegal capital
gain. He informed Chavos of the confidential informant
testifying against Science. They want him to recant his
testimony and say Johnny’s brother in law Dawgs did it. His
motive is to use a likely killer to free a killer. How likely was
that shit to work and it was dumb. Dervin and Dawgs was
family for real. How Johnny plans to pull this off I don’t
know?
As we enter the driveway of the complex, it was cold and
quite. When they knock on the door some dusty ole ladies
answer the door soliciting us to purchase the blue top rather
the green it has speed or so shit in it to bust your heart. “No
Grand ma,” Chavos said in his interesting accent. The
reason
it was interested because it was ebonic broken rag French
Isn’t that some shit. “We are looking for your boss? We got
cash and need to be private?” With the flash of a stack or two
anything could happen. Devrin’s cousin Robin was there with
his stem cell research looking ass boyfriend came to the door.
This narrow mutherfucker was trying to stand tall with a little
ass .22 caliber. “Excuse me no disrespect, you need fire
works
to motivate that little bitch in your hand?”
“Why don’t you open your mouth and lets see big boy?”
“Whoa easy cowboy keep that gay shit on your menu not
mines, where just here looking for Devrin?” You could see in
Chavos eyes though he was gaining that lack of patience
attitude. When this dude starts talking and you don’t
understand. Everyone that knows what time it, hit if’s the
deck. If you don’t understand what he is saying,why yourself
repeat just let that thing go like you first intentions was to do.
He hit Robin thin ass boyfriend with the butt of that python
pistol. All the bitch came out him and so did Devrin.
“Alright,
alright, alright please no oneelse whats good, I’m Devrin?”
“You Devrin,” Chavos said?
“Yes I am.” Chavos paces fast toward Devrin and rushes
him against the wall, “open your mouth, open it!” When
Devrin went to open his mouh to talk Chavos stuff the barrel of
the python in Devrins mouth, “Look I need a small favor,
recant your testimony in trial. It was Dawgs.”
“Dawgs oh no,” mumbling with that thing in his mouth.
See the reason why they want to put the weight on Dawgs
cause guesses what wodie it was Dawg loose canon of a asshole
that put the m in the eyes of the law.This do will do anything to
impress top rank. Johnny has been in love with Dawg death
unconditionally.
CHAPTER 4
That night Chavos, Brenda and Me, went to pay this
Devrin a visit. He had a spot up in the Bronx on 183 and
Valentine Ave. There Devrin let his Robin call the shots in
That base house. Getting in there was no problem, just
getting
some thirst, fiends out was the issue. Put one out and another
one slides back through a cut some where. That’s when
Chavos came up an idea. He approaches the house girl a
friend of Robin’s, “look Ms. whoever u r. I got a bag full of
cash,” flashing stacks after stacks. “I need a women and a
private room. Can I see you boss?” Stacks and cracks make
the world goes round. This bitch isn’t even tell us to wait she
took us right to Madame Robin and her fake as lame security.
He was so lame as to when he seen that big ass gun he begged
to be tired up and get it over before somebody make a mistake
with that big as gun and blow his hi. By the time Devrin put
his key in the door took the ass whipping and had to listen to a
bad speaking West Indian explains to him what must be done.
His was already agreeing to do whatever. Until I explain to
Him in old English. “Hell no, you crazy mutherfucking none
speaking English, me set my dawgs up, get the fuck out of
here.” The answer changed though once that cold blue steel
was on Devrin forward. He came up with a new idea that
might work if not he will live a couple more hours. “Shity
hold
on, hold on. What you want me to?”
“Recant your testimony and say Dawgs did it? That way
a
lot of people live?”
“What the fuck you saying man a couple of us is gone
die?”
“”What you think Casper? Enough questions, I got to go
and you know the odds?” Then turned and left the prosecutor
Star eye witness Devrin Hartsdale. The one person who can
actually finger Science.
Devrin started to think over all the
bitching form those two lames tied up, “How the fuck they
knew I was to testify?” Shook his head as he walked away and
went toward so scissors to free they crybabies. Can’t they see
he is the one with problem.
The reason Devrin got a pass on this bullshit from Johnny
cause Johnny could not kill the boy nor send some one else to
do it.
He was his Brother in Law, and the wife knew his civil
duties he was doing against Science. She would of figured it
out, “Oh fuck Dawgs let him lie in his shallow grave. He’s a
snitch?”
By the time Devrin caught up to Dawgs, Dawgs was
already caught up in a critical checkpoint. Right next to his
protégé Science. “What up nigga why didn’t you try to leave
the states?”
“I did they caught me at checkpoint. It was to late to
bail?”
Now look at you sitting with me, I hope you remember
the rule and keep you mouth shut til you see your attorney.
And not that designated one. I will get my wife to find you
one.
I told you with that finger shit.”
“I am sor…, “ that’s when Science said to Dawgs, “No
matter what happens remember, never be sorry. Apologetic,
yes that’s another thing, just like empathizing.”
“Well can you empathize with me and tell me why
LaDuu ,Brenda, and some West Indian Dreed shows up at my
boy Dee crib. Saying he need to recant who’s the finger man
to
be me. What’s going on Science, you don’t believe those dudes
isn’t deserve to go?”
“Listen boy first off calm down, these walls have ears,”
as
Dawgs came closer to his side off the cell. This got Johnny
shit
all over it. This is some of his pycho-dementric idea. But
crimes have been committed and that’s our problem kid. I
have no beef with you, my beef is with The City of New York.”
Dawgs slide down the walls of the cell to he sat. It has been
ten
years that his emotional feelings touched him again. Once
feel
the resentment from poor judgment. “Dawg’s there is no need
to cry, whets done are done. We need to figure away out this.
Have faith, take a nap. I guarantee when you wake up most of
the burdens will be off your shoulder.”
Dawgs had a lot of time sleeping in on it. The next time
they seen each other was in the bullpens. On their way to
court
and the separation created a sense of security in the other.
Why would both come to court with strength. That’s when
Science walked over to Dawgs, “Good morning beloved.
Have
you figured out there scheme yet?
“Nah, you?”
“Of course. See Johnny is using his little puppet master
game. He is bored at life now he wants to play again.”
“This stupid mutherfucker don’t realize this shit will cost
you your life.”
“Best to believe, see what s going on is Johnny wants new
blood on the block Its just me and you left. Got me peoples to
knock Christian down, and knew Devrin was going to be their.
He arranged for me to bang out Christian, knowing it was
going to get back that I did it.”
“Science stops trying to fool yourself somebody snitched
on you. You told on yourself at that party that night. What
you
don’t remember? So just tell your boy get up off Devrin,”
with
anger? “Boy I feel upset to because I do tend to talk to
much.”
Interrupted by Dawgs, “Hell nah, you do talk to much!”
“Whatever I do okay nigga, Johnny vision was for us to
bump heads in here, bang out, one more dies and the row will
finish the last.
“Johnny has blessed our souls Uhm..?”
“And best to believe nigga, we going to work that lame
soul?” The lawyer that was retained for Science was a mutual
acquaintance. He gave Brenda a kite for me. Now what was
bad about this was of Crystal chances of having a good father
for her son, she wants me not to involve myself to deep in this
this Science trial. Little Barry needs me. So I made a
promise
to her, that’s my brother. So I tried to keep both at bay I snuck
around like a spy or some shit.
What’s good Barry, listen I don’t like to write that’s why
you never got a scribe from me. Johnny’s motivation is to
clean up his business and re stock. He guts 1 out the way.
He
needs 2 more. Not you but me and Dawg’s. My little
escapade kind of spooked him and he is scared straight.
Dawgs understand it is his energy so he is going to clear me
from the murders he did. Christian well he’s another story.
A quiet storm.
for
What I need you to do is go get that dude
me. Love forever!
How is this possible and I have Crystal in my every
footstep. I am like a baby in a play pen with her. Little Barry
gets more freedom than me. One thing I see it for the most.
Johnny runs a secure business.
That night Brenda and I met up at Mc Donald’s. When I
handed Brenda the kite and she read its content, her response
was, “damn he isn’t me about all this shit?”
“Brenda its nothing personal, just places like that have
ears that haunts you at night. So its best if you keep certain
word out of those places.”
“Well I was never in those rooms. Forgive me my love?”
“Brenda enough of the sentimental myths, what we going
to do?”
“About Science you tell me, your baby momma going to
let you go out?”
“You know your one sarcastic broad, we already discuss it,
beside Science is my blood.”
“I am glad you understand that! So whets your plan?”
I
had no plan, no strategy, nothing. All I was, was a released
prisoner confused and scared. “Brenda I have no plans.”
“Damn 7 yrs made you dumber not smarter, listen up.
Before we even think to go up in that number hole looking for
that dude we need more arms. Any suggestions?”
“I knew it was some more good homiest in the hood that
still had love for me I just need to think? I’ve been home for a
hot second, who still is…………Ash! My nigga Ash from
S.I.,” as he reached for his phone. After about a twenty minute
talk with this dude, I told him my problem and he was on
Staten Island Expressway with some of his goons. We had our
army. When a bunch of out of sane white boys showed up.
Brenda look was like hell no, what the fuck, who the fuck.
These dudes looked like young up to date mobster from the old
Carmine Street. “Sassy but classy,” I said as the boy Ash
stepped out the third Escalade. This dude was must be
prepared for his own funeral. Ash team was decked out like
they were going to a Notorious B.I.G., video shoot. Just minus
the canes. Ash hyped ass walked over and said, “What it do
my
nigga. We ready to eat?” I looked at Ash, “Where do you
think where going?” That when Ash lift up his Versace shirt
and said to me, “I thought we were going to the Okay Carla,
you changed your mind?”
“The way your dressed is for a prior engagement. Not
war,”
“I dig but the way you dress doesn’t solve problems, had
that been true there would be no problems with all this white
collar shit going on today? So who is going to let me know
what’s going on, you or the pretty lady ?”
“She is and I hope your boy’s respect her feelings even
though she is a lady.”
“She gets nothing but my respect. A friend of yours is a
friend of mines. So little lady let me know how we can be of
service.” After a brief outline of the matters we left the
location heading to Queens Giant Laundromat owned by
Johnny.
One of Ash boys started getting inquiring all of a
sudden. “Ash how well do you know this dude?”
“Well enough that he save my life in the bullpens when I
got it on with them Kings. He didn’t have to get involve, he
could of sat his ass in the corner like the rest of them Joes. No
he came to Ash rescue. So who ever wish to back out back out
now and meet me back in the hood and we will take it from
there.” A short pause, “Anyone? I thought so come on little
lady lets go,” as he put the power in his soldiers and weapons?
Why in those Asian movies the stars make it out alive or
unharmed? Now Jonny got Brenda and down seventeen men,
we took out seventeen men and lost Brenda.
Arron Drayton, Arron Drayton, a distinct voice whispered
out as it got closer to Science cell. “You here I go,” as the
voice got closer? It was a tall Pakistan officer, “Imamate
Drayton I have a message from someone,” and passed
Science
the letter and this is what the letter said, “never think your in
front of me because there is still 2,3,4 and5th places. Right
now
your in 9th place. I pushed you back that far for stupidity.
The
stupidity to send your prize possession out and if it fails you
fail. Guess what Science I told you don’t fuck with me, don’t
fuck with me. No you no listen, you try and try and what ’s the
results nothing. No not this time I got your bitch. Now come
be a man and come get her for a small ransom gangster
Science?…Yours Truly, You know…… ?
Science was hurt ripped up inside out. How could he
send
Brenda. “Look Science, Brenda loves you and she would do
anything for you but she crossed that bridge for you one to
many times. Knowing that one day she might not make it back
across that bridge. This might be the one two many times you
sent her?”
“Well La, he wants you to bring the ransom.”
“Me, why me? You know I am getting tired of this shit!”
“Why you, why you, man…..”
“That’s right man what, you’re my brother and it seem
like that man got a beef with you. Everybody that has a beef
with you want to kill me. Why is that?”
“If I knew bro I could tell you the answer. Unfortunately
I don’t I just got ideas.”
“Ideas I never knew anything about that man Johnny til I
came home. This is your idea of an introduction.”
“You knew Christian, and Christian was Johnny.”
Looking Science straight in the eyes, “me and Christian beef
had nothing to with Johnny. It was your greed and you
crossed this greed bridge to many times already to know its not
working. I don’t care if you needed more money to take care
of your family. You don’t use others to get shit for you by all
means want. You wanted the LES and Christian is gone do
you got it? Science all you did was put somebody right up in
old Christian shoes. Look this is what I could do for you
Science. Not fuck with you no more.
what
And I think that’s
its going to be.”
“La, La, what about Brenda? This man saying only you
can come get her.”
“No that man is saying, he’s going to kill both of us for
your bullshit playing with him. This man play for keeps.
That
much I know.” I felt Science needed to learn shit has to end
somewhere. I was going for that girl regardless
She would come get me and I know she will never leave
me behind if that so called Science ever punk’s up on me. I
just know for certain I was not going to let that man kill me I
am going to talk to him. This was the first and last time I was
keep a secret from Crystal. She knew nothing about this extra
credit thing with me shooting at people and people try to kill
me so you know I was out. And soon.
CHAPTER 5
Two weeks, two days, and twenty one hours I have been
back in New York City and been through so much its ashame if
Crystal was to find out. She would flip backwards,by the way I
haven’t seen lil dude since yesterday. I tip toed over to his
room and peeked in. The pictures, him sleeping in bed.
Everyone was telling he truth he was my twin. Give all this up
for Science shitttttt hell no. “I hope Science understand what
I
said it was over,” I mumbled to myself. I refuse to take a
shower I just want to see what the verdict with Johnny was.
Was he going to keep his word or not?
Exiting the pkwy, on to the service road my conciense
started eating at me again, “you just want to see what the
verdict is hum.?” I almost was about to answer that bitch
when I seen Johnny entering the Café with out Brenda. I
hope
they didn’t kill her and think I was going to come in there so
they can kill me. They will not get two stone or birds today.
About ten minutes later they bring Brenda in with no ties.
Gave me a sense of confidence about what was going on. Did
Brenda convinces him to kill me. The only to find out is go in
the and see what happens. Whatever happens I hope that I
will
never have to walk in there in this type of situation.what ran
through my mind as I walk through there with that bag of
money. Once I was inside the resturant I started to have that
change of heart fuck Brenda, it was to late the que me. I was
instructed to have a seat in the booth next to Brenda.
It was crazy, how are you suppose to do anything in a
police café. Was strange to me. When I looked over at
Johnny
just looked back over staring at me. “So you the man Science
has been talking about for a minute now?”
“To you unfortunately yes, I just need for you to tell me
what the fuck is wrong with your brother. LaDuu I am not
going to kill you because yes you just came home and you are a
good person from the streets to my truly seeing your actions
See I to also have a brother, who just likes Science. Wanting
and needing the top of the world for his excessive desirers. It
to caught up to him. After the first 2 month he was so hungry
the locals were on to him. I welcomed into my organization
then he had to join the local gang. Life for your brother was
over. He became one of the most popular person to the
neighborhood, as well as dangerous. He allow one of his
compares, Dawgs control the security. Dawgs is ruthless. See
Dawgs Felt your kin deserved that spot and made sure to put
him there that enhances Dawgs power, now my boy is a
general.
Now your brother became the most public figure. I couldn’t
save him he crossover into Dawgs world and I don’t like he has
to go. He knows to much, as much as he can end my career.
I
for one don’t think you should have to perish for the mistakes
of an asshole of a fella.” Johnny then looked over at Brenda
and told her, “Love you too. Better hope I get a change of heart
from here to the race track. If your brother-in-law can’t prove
to me why you would cross a bridge for a low life scum likes his
brother. I swear to keep my word and spare your life.LaDuu
there is something else I forgot to mention about your brother
that forwards this attitude. His greed Christian, He’s also
mixing in work from the D.R.’s, up on Dykman somewhere.
Bad business ethics and no form of respect. That should be
enough to let you understand why? You both are free to leave
at this time.” After that all that shit, I wanted to ask him why
he spared our lives, “LaDuu you are just the brother of
Science, mere flesh of mothers flesh, but of daddy decent. See
you can change a women and mold her into being your own
fairy princess. A man never, we are to arrogant to change.”
Johnny made a point.
This man had so much power inside and out, as feed me
and Brenda. He was taking the life of Science in a cell in a
Federal MCC. When the facility chaplian called me, he told
me the time he passed. All I could do is shead a tear and pray
to our higher power for Brenda. Four months later Brenda
had a nervous breakdown, now resides with us. Little Barry
has come the world to us three. Brenda appreciates what
Crystal and I have done for her. See says with every growing
man should be that guts of wind. The wind to blow his child in
course of good findings like the wind of the ocean breeze.
Where ever it takes you it will be beautiful.
A
s time flew as usual another chapter in life came
up. Little Barry grew up and the family grew older.
While I
was in the pen one thing I didn’t do was waste time in that
bullshit penitentiary. I educate my body to extend my life
span.
As to my progress I progressed with it, lost all that blubber, and
took courses in the Law Library. That way I could learn the
law and learn the world cause library was next door. So I took
advantage of ole man Randi heeds, “You got 7 years to fill that
thick skull up with resources so you guarantee no return!”
What the fuck pops left at a young age, and I have been a
dysfunctional abortion when wrong, and she some time regrets
me. I wonder why, I was a good kid, good grades everything
Science the opposite and see loved him. She said he was made
for this world not me. Why should I have to suffer for ones
mistake. After overcoming all this shit for love of Science, I
might as well go out and enjoy his money. So I went back to
school to rebuilt my body from all type of poisons and toxins.
No more getting hi, and I educated my mind by maturing first.
That took my mind from the streets. Then I took control of the
most powerful tool to man. Not money,or education cans
formula a mathematic for. It was resourses. Resourses to
keep
my ass out while I was out. I never tought there 12 step
program would help me, I wasn’t addicted to the drugs. I was
addicted to the speed. Illegal activities. So I started attending
Fordham University and obtain my Ph.D in Pychology, and a
Doctrine in Streets Education. So I was one with the streets.
Little did I know the philosophy of hietracy. The transfer of
bad blood through sperm cell. Little Barry turned out to be a
Menace in my tracks.
THE RULES OF EVOLUTION
Lil Barry became to be one of the nices street ball
entertainers at the age of 16, by the time he was in his senior
year life for Barry started to get boring. Influential gestures
start to take contol of Barry’s life. One of Barry team mates
was Dominican Jay’s son, a made man up in the Heights. A
lot of kid’s were influenced to give up there real dreams for
street dreams, including Barry. I was old now with a few
grays from stress, messing with Science who would know 12
years later I would be going through shit with Barry. When
the streets talks I focus on it short comings, should have been
name the paper chasers secret society. That night Barry and
I
had a little talk about the endagerments of the streets, how
chaotic thing could get in the snap of a finger, “Barry after
dinner you think me and you could talk?”
“Dad my doors are always opens to you for conversation.”
“I am glad you are open to conversation, because I am
starting to notice kids of today, and the change of course of life
is taking them.”
“Dad I am not a college groupie yet, slow down with your
vocabulary?” With a simple smile he said, “I am going to keep
this as simple as it can get. Son what been going on in your
life?”
“What is that suppose to mean?”
“What it means is what has been going on with you and
these streets?”
“Dad I have no time for the streets, I value my futuere.”
“Are you sure about that, I know how the streets can keep
secrets.”
“Dad I have no secrects.”
“Are you sure about that son? No secrets, at all Barry?”
“Dad I have no secrets,” even though Barry had a strong
idea his father learned of his burglary agenda with Quintin.
Just like a father I gave my son the green light to bump his
head and come clean. Whathas been going on was that Barry
teamed up with on of his friends in school, name Joseph.
Joseph introduced Barry to the New York crime side. In four
month alone these two jokes took the crime spree to a new all
time high. See Joseph and Dominicain Jay was a father and
son team. He taught Joseph every thing he knew about
burglary and Joseph passed his training down to Barry and
another assailant name Woody. When Woody attempted a job
by himself, for his own greedy ambitions, he got pinch. That
opened a door for Barry to become Joseph main man.
That afternnon in the locker room, “Barry my man, we
need to talk I got good things for this week for you?”
“Good things, what could that be,” Barry said to himself?
“So spill it hoya?”
“Barry you know it is just me and you now, greedy Woody
got locked up last night. Woody decided to go on a job for self.
So now your split is going to be better.”
“What about Wood’s?”
“What about Woody?”
“When he comes home?”
“Fuck Woody, he is through with me as I can see. In the
back of my mind I think he has been doing other shady shit,
beating the team for profits for along time. I don’t need him,
do you Barry?”
“Nah, nah, nah, I hear you? Say no more just the next
jizob?” Barry quickly filled Woody’s shoe and proved his
worthiness.
Barry’s only competition was this fat yellow dude by the
name of Quintin Richardson, who turned out to be 5-o, on the
real low. This dude has been in our neighborhood for four
years and no one figured him out til he died. This dude was
also on Barry’s team. “Joe, what are you going to do about
Quint?”
“Barry leave Quintin to me, I got him. Beside all he is, is
a gunner even though he has not gunned down a sole.”
“I see that for self, do you trust him?”
“Barry I have no choice he’s been with me for three years,
I took him in when he was in a park sleeping one day,” that’s
when Barry cut him off. “And let me finish it, you seen he
had
potentials like me right?”
“Damn skippy, and he has been good to me ever since.”
“So why move me up the ladder, and not him?”
“Like I said he is a cornball. He is just good for other
things, I might bring you in in the future.”
“Whatever I don’t trust or feel him as long as I can see
him.” Joseph started to think about what Barry was saying,
cause all this time he does no where Quintin lives, let the story
be told all he knew about Quintin was he met him homeless
sleeping in a park. Barry was right,in every crew there is
always bound to be a mole. And that dude Quintin was it.
Nobody knew Quintin was well connected to one Police Plaza,
Burglary Investigation team. The straw to Barry’s chain of
events came when they burglarized the Army and Navy store up
on Gunhill Road.
Six o’clock in the morning, so fucking early. Barry and
his mom’s was sleep. I just came in from working and going
to
school. Determine that this life was over.
wind
Then the cold
hits my face and wakes me up, reminds me it is still reality you
can back to the second home with other people problems. Who
ever put his name in the mix knew what they were doing. That
night they took made fire arms and ammo from the Army and
Navy store. That evening Barry could leave these stolen good
up his beloved girlfriend Sharon crib, so he snuck them in real
smooth. How he did it was the truth, “Dad, ma thinks I am
lying to her. I did not bring them thing over her threshold.”
“So how they got in there, I hate them things. I know I
didn’t bring them in that house. How did they get in the
Barry?”
“If you really want to know, I had a bag running from my
window to the backyard. Sharon loads them up in the bag and
I pulled them up through the window.”
“So regardless how you look at it you bought them in that
house, now we are all fucked.”
“No we are not dad, I a man and I will accept my
responsibility as a man. Whatever it takes I am going to get
you and mom out of this?”
“Okay son we will see, remember these A.D.A.’s are thirsty
for a prosecution.” Since Barry had no criminal history they
let him off easy, gave him a year. This little incident right here
killed his chances of making it to the N.B.A.. As one would
say
a lost of raw talent. Barry went from the blue courts to the
state courts.
Eight months later a Welcome Home Barry Banner read
in the new home. See even though Barry’s event was a mishap
for him, it was a blessing in disguise for me and Cynthia. After
they tore that house up and the landlord said that Cynthia was
responsible for the repairs to the apartment, Cynthia told him
to fuck him and put a down payment on a one familt dwelling.
The shit was crazy because Barry’s mother, a forgiving mother
forgave Barry once again cause look what she got out the
shortcomins. After everyone came and show love, left Barry
was left in the back on the patio thinking, “was it true what
Dominican Jay was saying after a bust the streets become your
only means of being a man. These concrete slab become your
women, you pay attention every little thing I does to make you
uptight. They will cheat on you with your best friend, they will
even go out and make babies on you. Just like a women do not
play fair. And he was right because I did a great freive of
analyzing the streets and I was missing the unique lifrstyle of
providing for some of the most beautiful women. Just they will
not love you back. Instead you be come a fool in love cause
when your broke that bitch don’t love you. The big picture of
it
all after all the things spite he had done he still manages to
stay under the radar of harsh time. So far the hardest Barry
was hit for the City of New York City
.
Chapter 6
At a p[arty is where you see old aquintantance and cath up on
old time, even catch up with lates gossip. My son thought he was
bringing good news to Dominicain Jay instead he flips the whole
thing around and turns my son into an assasin. That nighht in a
private area, Barry and Jay got together to discuss future business, the
conversation change and they focus on Quintan. The focus was
Quinton who had a confidential informant pass, “Jay, how
everything going. Why you boy ain’t show.”
“Who Joe, you know he can be a bitch at times. He think the
guns you got caught for, you should of got more than eight months.”
“Jay nothing personal, I have no record. Beside all those guns
was never used , so what other shit could they charge me for other
than Burglary and weapon possession.”
“Joesph told me to watch you, but he won’t be caught dead
within your radius.”
“That’s some fucked up shit coming from a pre-k, friend. Beside
his boy Quint, he better watch him.”
“What about Quintan, that’s one of Joe’s friend I am not
feeling.”
“And your right his dude Q, is a rat bastard, I was him that sent
the law to my mom’s crib. I was him who told them laws about the
sting that night, whoelse but him.”
“Barry before you makes accusitions like that on someone you
better be sure?”
“I am sure I got paper work, and who’s name is this?” On the
bottom right hand corner of this type memo of my pass actions, who
name is this?”
“Ain’t this but a bitch, Quintan Richardson. Does my son know
about this?”
“I doubt it cause he is looking at me like a scumbag, and his boy
is the scumbag.”
“You know we need to sit Quintana’s big mouth down so where.
But where can I sit him down.”
“I don’t know myself, but I know dude fucked my life up.”
“No, Q didn’t twist your life up. You did, by assosicating your
characteristic with my son. But everyone needs that buck, and you
didn’t pass it up. Little do you wish to accept the fact it fast the taste
of that speed, that life, the image, that is what crused your basketball
ambitions.” It was making sense what Jay was talking about, but
Quintan is still the blame. It really didn’t matter because he had inner
visions of dumping a full clip in that asshole cop loving informant.
Revenge is like a fat bitch and cotton candy, you just could not
let go if life was on it. Barry intelligent ass came up with the greatest
plan to only land his ass in the penitently for maybe the rest of his life
and it did. It would have work but presure bust anything.
Everyone in the hood knew Quintan was a freak for head and
Teresa was a head master, so he put two and two together and set
Quintan up for the kill. Three days later on a cold ass Thursday,
Teresa was summon for the crack house to secretly get that dude off.
Here it is Quintan was in the project basement getting his knobbed
slobber on, it was so good he forgot his label in the streets which no
one knew his public duties as a snitch, let his guards down. So much
into the moan he did not even acknowledge Barry creeping up behind
him. Soon as he got the nut and leaned on the wall, Barry came out of
the darkness, “checkmate hoe,” pulled the trigger. Quintan body
oozed down the walls with his pants to his knees, with traces of brain
specimens on the wall.
That night when I came home I was telling Cyn and Barry, “You
know it’s a asshole full of police in the projects. They said some one
just got killed. Barry keep you ass in this house. Flying bullets don’t
have no name on it. Barry had no idea that the street was already
sharing its gossip. That gossip lead to Teresa being picked up as the
last person to be with Quintan. Her scared ass, without hesitation
gave up Barry as the shooter. Once again he was trap in a no idea
world. How the hell are you gonna be a killer without a plan? Now
when the wire got out Barry slumped Quintan he lost all his resources
of escape. What now take place is the recycle of history. Barry
turned
himself in because there was no where to run when your funds is low,
and all your boys turn there backs on you.
The court room scene looked familiar, a younger version of me
fighting for his life, Barry just was not as lucky. The bridge he
crosses, had no passage back to life. My son life was now over like the
cascade dormant. His emotions pushed his arms and lead my son to
life in prison. Just his luck Pataki just came in office with that
bullshit death penalty. Barry last testimonial to the street was, “God
gave his only begotten son to save the world, I an guving my life to
save the streets from a well announce snitch. This is my story….THE
BLOOD LINE TRAITS….Laduu……!
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------Laduu a quiet laid back dude from the Drew Hamilton
Projects, show his abilities as being a man and honors his
manhood after standing up to Vernon, a neighbor hood bully.
Spite what can happen, Laduu ignores his conscience and put
the work in by himself to rid the hood of a beast like Vernon.
So to keep his New Year Resolution of stop being so gullable
murder his rival Vernon to keep his word, “The Buck Stops
Here!”
“After doing five years for manslaughter, Laduu returns
back to the streets to raise his first born Barry Jr., but distracted
by his brother Science problems he crosses that bridge of
stupidity be returns back across safe haven. The same could
not be said for Barry Jr., his unfortunate event was Quintan
Richardson, A neighborhood informant of the law. After
coming from a skid bid, setup by Quintan, the shoes turn and
now because of Barry Jr. mishaps history repeats itself. Just
this time God left no light at the end of tunnel for Barry Jr.